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did the blorbo chart with wxs
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#dont take the song i associate with nene as Very Her or anything#i genuinely dont know why i just imagine her a lot in the mv#maybe bcs of the ocean stuff#and some other lyrics but#anyways why is drawing rui so fun hes not even my fav like thattttttt#i love everyone in wxs to death though so dont take the hate stuff for tsukasa and rui too seriously#prsk#pjsk#project sekai#my art#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#prsk art#prsk fa#proseka#tsukasa tenma#emu otori#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#btw. i dont draw digitally like ever#and only color stuff like for school art projects#i had used one shaky finger and a dream#i need to study color theory
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ponder for a moment, zosanuso with Zoro realizing he likes pet names
Sanji and Usopp get together first. They are very lovey dovey and sappy because Sanji is lovey dovey and sappy and Usopp loves it, gets very swept away with it, and does his best to reciprocate. This shit is practically the bane of Zoro's existence. And that's not even getting into the pet names.
Some time later, he's got the realization that oh, huh, he likes Usopp. And oh, ugh, he likes the Cook too. And he might lament his own feelings about it, but eventually he tells them and then Zoro has two boyfriends.
And then one morning, Usopp comes to breakfast looking incredibly sleepy, and casually gives a "Morning, babe" to Zoro before taking his seat.
And Zoro finds he likes that. He really really likes it. And he's definitely showing it on his face somehow because soon after Sanji is ranting and raving about Zoro being an absolute hypocrite, because how dare he complain all this time about Sanji and Usopp calling each other honey and cher and darling, when he was just as bad as them-
Usopp is more awake now and trying not to laugh, for Zoro's sake. Zoro is very red and keeps trying to interrupt Sanji, but Sanji just talks louder over him. Zoro would start a fight, but Sanji hadn't finished serving breakfast yet and his arms are full of plates so he's forced to suffer.
#one piece#zosanuso#zosansopp#sanuso#roronoa zoro#usopp#sanji#nemotime#what other pet names would zoro like beside 'babe'? no fuckin clue#oh. maybe hed like symbolic stuff. and specifically 'mossy' from sanji#symbolic stuff would be like 'my light' 'my moon' 'my unwavering horse'#that last one is a my hero joke dw about it. its funny to think of zoro being called that and then just exploding from how much he likes it#'my tether' 'my ocean' 'my courage' stuff like that. usopp and sanji tag team zoro all the time to make him blush#theyre so like. ugh. i love this ot3 usually for usopp getting tag teamed but zoro is so good for it too#give that man some love and care STAT#also tease the hell out of him. bc it is cute and also funny
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That does inspire me to actually get serious about buying patches for my jacket, his looked so cool so I want to have at least the back looking like that. Hilariously enough the guy was like “whoa your pins are so cool, ohhh there’s a lot of band pins in there, I need to start putting pins on mine I haven’t started that yet” while having the whole thing already covered in patches which is what I haven’t gotten to yet. Makes me reconsider my plans though for the placements, sometime today I’ll make a post showing what I have atm and what I might do with it.
#awkwardly drawn on bc it’s just me editing w my finger but eh good enough#seeing ppls jackets and ppls completed and in-progress projects (hi drift your stuff is legendary)#is so inspiring and motivating like!!!#happy that i’m about to go to this festival. maybe i’ll see some there#but is also a great excuse to go online and pick up the rlly big pelagic records/the ocean one
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gotta love how i tend to struggle to get going on a lot of my wips but wrote almost 2000 words worth of just notes for the new bellum x linebeck thing
#the power of fresh brainworms ig. anyways back to ganonbeck mostly#it also could be bc its a fairly simple idea? no really complicated world or character stuff its mostly just linebeck and bellum#like a lot of is just takes place out in the middle of the ocean with the two of them interacting as it stands#even the most complicated part i have planned out with other characters isnt too complicated rn#oh well. uh. yeah. thats the second bellum x linebeck thing i have 'planned' the other kind of being the bellumbeck fic#salty talks#maybe delete later??? idfk
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starting an origins server with some of my siblings friends and i just found out everyone's making characters up for it i feel like the combo i picked has so many possible outcomes
#i'm thinking of going a grimwalker route where they like a memoryless clone of someone they never knew#my spawn is in the nether and i def wanna make it my home base. i don't think anyone else is spawning in the nether so that'll be fun#interesting for me bc i'm usually the one leeching off others recourses to build stuff but ALSO story wise very isolating#you wake up in hell and it's gross and weird but something about it is familiar.#not in memories per se but muscle memory. not things you did but knowing what not to eat#what's friendly. what hurts. maybe they know their a reincarnation of someone else deep down.#but that person was a blip in time. discipated into the endless seas of molten lava a long time ago.#their soul and magic just now mustering up the strength to become whole again. to become SOMETHING.#it was many eons ago that that person existed. their belongings and home have long since decayed and become one with the hellish landscape#there is no time to think of who you once were. there is only survival.#but the moment you have a home and supplies and are truly safe. you feel a deep fear.#a fear of who you once were long ago. who they could've been. what you should be. momories you no longer possess.#a longing to understand and go back to being a self you never were.#a person who's existence has been lost to time.#you shake off these feelings as best you can#but every time you find yourself in the overworld looking out at the vast ocean#you can't help but wonder wether they hated the deep blue sea as much as you do.#sassy speaks#mc#WHY DID I WRITE SO MUCH HELP I DIDNT MEAN TO DO THAT-
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realizing that in a Ride the Cyclone AU, Scara/Wanderer would be perfect as Jane (being changed to John Doe, most likely)
bro is literally a puppet / often drawn or headcanoned with doll/BJD-like limbs, so we know what head he'd be replaced with, if he didn't look exactly the same
#carmen's writing#rtc#ride the cylone#rtc jane doe#genshin impact#scaramouche#wanderer#kunikuzushi#trying to think abt the others too#Sucrose would be Constance#easily#im trying to figure out who Ricky would be- my main thought is Baizhu but i also dunno how to tie in the Zonar stuff (i dont wanna put an#able-bodied vision user in place of Ricky & my own ideas are Collei when she still had eleazar or Baizhu or perhaps Xiao bc chronic pain vi#karmic debt)#but Xiao also fits Mischa well I think#Venti as karnak bc of the thing w/ fake stanley in his first story quest..#that leaves... virgil maybe#alongside Ocean & Noel & Ricky I think???#genshin au#rtc au#og posts
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Ummmmm Pyrric and catsup and the space pirate guy* with the octopus tattoo were experiment buddies btw :3
#none of them signed up to be there but yk how it is#um. pirate guy isn’t nearly that close with the others. they were new#that carrier of shifter stuff really fucked up some plans lol#what do u do when ur funky regenerating lab rat turns into bighuge beast and slaughters u and ur team#ummmm pyr is very much on purpose not in touch with anyone else from the lab#but mayb catsup and octopus skull dude r in touch#idk how easy/hard that’d be seeing as they’re. space and ocean pirates. but still#catsup red blooded with bits of gold mixed in… for ketchup mustard… as result of experiments……. got their body running on some of pyrric’s#shit but not enough to do much more than pick them up quicker and keep them from scarring and give them sort of this unending ill feeling.#but they don’t ACTUALLY get sick so it’s fine. or if they do it doesn’t ever stick enough to get noticed#character rambles#puts these thoughts down bc ummm. they’ve been rattling in my brain and I need someone to know and syrins already in bed so I’d feel bad for#re-rambling stuff i worked out in chat with xem lll
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i don’t like that they built all that hype and then just left all the players and also us to simmer for like hours. what was the point. very weird choice imo
#not gonna main tag it bc it’s negative and i don’t wanna clog up tags#maybe my issue is looking at this from a designers perspective?#idk#also don’t tell me the missing eggs is the payoff cause there’s no fucking way that’s true#the missing eggs and everything else is the buildup and they’re delaying the payoff#like if there’s meta stuff going on then fine but what’s taking so long#posts from the ocean#qsmpneg#qsmpcrit
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i'm using these as building blocks where they can easily be switched up tbh. none of these are set in stone. i say this cause i always forget how many hoenn pokemon i like and i was torn on some of these. milotic may get replaced with walrein cause i love those two pokemon about equally... depends on which ones translate well into anthro designs i like
#for this one im thinking about a sins of the father approach. bc i love sins of the father stories (starfall is kinda one if you squint)#so im thinkingggg that sceptile's dad was the professor (so trading places with the rival) and that professor did some screwed up shit#im not sure what they did. maybe they caused damage to the ocean in some way and that caused the team aqua stuff?#but idk how much i wanna extend that beyond aqua vs magma#(btw either aqua will the the main antagonists or itll be an emerald situation where they both are)#i know i wanna include elements of both games in each gen so probably the latter#hmmmm maybe ill actually move that to kalos... getting some Ideas for Kalos actually..........#ok. so the theme of hoenn regardless is environmentalism obviously. how do you treat mother nature.#now that pokemon are anthros and occupy different ecosystems as is. how do they treat the environment? how do they adapt?#which is why i wanted sceptile here. besides that i like sceptile the most of the hoenn starters#not associated with aqua or magma (ik magma is ground but lets pretend the fires there. i consider them a ground/fire team)#echoed voice#anthro au
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!! Music Game !! (again!!)
I was tagged again, I am unstoppable thank you so much for the tag kai !! <3 ( @kerra-and-company ) These are coming from my big 2,762 song playlist again! Meaning: every song I’ve ever liked on spotify in the last five years aksjdh
RULES: You can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, and then tag 10 people. No skipping!
Doubt Comes In by Anaïs Mitchell, Justin Vernon
Infinity by Jaymes Young
More by 5 Seconds of Summer
Yer Killin’ Me by Remo Drive
Weep by Mother Mother
Never Again by Breaking Benjamin
What I’d Give Up by The Classic Crime
To The Blade by Everything Everything
Night of The Hunter by Thirty Seconds to Mars
Oceans Brawl by Cœur de Pirate
(All spotify links again!) Since I’ve already done this and tagged ppl once, I’m not gonna tag people again, but if you wanna do it then im tagging you !! im tagging you in my heart and soul !! and tag me again if you wanna i have so so much music pl--
#the truth is that im tagging everyone in spirit bc i wanna seeeeee#im just too dumb to keep track of who's done this and who hasn't at this point ajshdkajs#song stuff#tag game#ohh some of these songs make me so Sick (positive)#GOD. I THOUGHT MAYBE NOT EVERY SONG.. BUT YEAH. EVERY SONG#i am so ill. i am experiencing so many emotions today. (blorbo related)#sorry. this took so long to post because i had to listen to all of these IMMEDIATELY.#these are all so integral to my soul and my writing in one way or another tbh#ESPECIALLY the fact that The Classic Crime and 30SecondsToMars are both in here !!!!#adding Breaking Benjamin and Mother Mother... oouughfjghksjdsfakjs my g o d#oouugghh Oceans Brawl has waves in it by the way it just made me long for the coast so hard. holy shit
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I figured it out
You haven't done shit
I figured it out
#Ignore the chimney. Please.#Originally was just going to put Lewis's room above the garage but I figured it either has skylights or a seperate attic room so that's#definitely Lawrence and Laura's room [the parents' room]#In my layout for the cartoon I had the kitchen on the other side so the garage door was in the kitchen. I make a lot of reference to this#I am going to go back and fix them I swear... Lol#Also I put Lenny's room on the first floor in the back there bc the garden is basically his#I figure he works with plants he likes that sort of thing#I think Lenny is the black sheep of the family in that he hates going out into the ocean and would rather stay on land#Which you know >w> might come into play later#Luke's room is basically a second guest room since he is a history professor at the college in the next town over#But they still keep it furnished and stuff in case he happens to stop by. Which he never does but still#I know the girls houses don't match the og show's designs (except mostly Rikki's) but like... We have 0 idea what his house looks like#This is the best we got! I'm using it!!#We saw Charlotte's house which is so weird to me. Not because I dislike her. I love Charlotte. But because Lewis has been here since s1#We've seen Zane's and Miriam's houses. But specifically we never see Lewis's. It is weird to me#It's just like Bella. How tf do we see Will's boat shed but not Bella's house????#It just feels off to me. Bella is already an underdeveloped character. Seeing her room even once wouldve really helped establish who she is#Maybe that was the point. They didn't even know who she was meant to be outside the plot :/#Like she could've left some stuff in moving boxes and we could've been like 'she doesn't expect to stay here long no point in unpacking'#She could have photos of all the different places she's been but none of any friends or herself smiling. Just landscapes.#Cutting back to Cleo's room where she has all her photos of her friends framed and stuff#But no! We just see Will's stupid boat shed instead#Smh#Okay I'm sorry I'm not gonna rant abt how they did Bella a huge disservice this time I'm sorry I will NOT#Cruddy rambles
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Vaush almost seems manipulative in the way he talks about religion, like i feel very strongly that he doesn't actually think religion is *quite* as bad as something like toxic masculinity but he wants his audience to feel that way, so he keeps drawing comparisons between religion and all these other fucked up things like antisemities or whatever, to give the impression to his audience that he genuinely thinks its that serious, and knowing how a lot of ppl can be in his audience, whatever vaush thinks they decide to take as like the best most intellectually and well thought out take ever, no self analyzing, no questions asked, and i feel like hes manipulating that fact to his advantage, he literally said in his debate w oceankeltoi (which i wasnt gonna watch but did eventually bc i heard vaush kinda sucked in it (and he did)) that hes okay with using peer pressure to try to discourage people from being religious. It seems like hes going to try whatever he can socially to like. Shun anyone whos religious or any of their beliefs and is probably even totally okay with ppl bullying religious ppl so long as the social pressure gets people to stop. Which. Uh. I feel like i shouldnt have to say is a pretty fucked up philosophy
#you are already putting too much work to control ppl just existing#social. political. systemic. wherever you're putting this energy to control it will only end badly.#anyways this whole stuff kinda made me look at him in an entirely different light.#i think hes become too convinced hes always right and has got really into his ass. idk if hes changed since that debate tho bc#i stopped watching him for a while even before it#the problem w that debate is that vaush is doing the thing where hes actually debating the beliefs of certain audience members#whereas ocean is actually just trying to debate him specifically w/o changing the audiences mind quite as much#oceans here trying to understand vaush and vaush is just here to try to make ocean look stupid. not actually understand or come to a#mutual understanding or literally anything. idk. but its pretty frustrating how he devolved to JUST doing that in debates.#hes decided religious ppl are evil or whatever and thus refuses to meet ocean on an equal and respectful level. theres so much lack#of respect here.#i also sorta feel like vaushs 'what about those ppl who think their gods are always in the right' thing was bc perhaps one of his audience#members decided to screenshot one of my posts where i said 'ppl need to accept that their gods arent inherently good' but accidently#typed are instead of arent and idk. maybe its a reach to decide thats why he brought that up but yknow. i do sometimes feel like yall#(hi vaushs community whos probably stalking me online bc i used to be in the community and you think im cringe bc i love#my main boy shiv)#well. ig obviously i feel like some of yall stalk me to poke fun at me and prolly posted that in his discord or smthn#idk but. its gotta stop if its happening bc im literally just some guy#I WANT TO MAKE CLEAR THAT I DONT THINK VAUSH IS ABUSIVE BC IDK HIM LIKE THAT AND CANT MAKE THAT CLAIM#just bc someones being manipulative does not make them ABUSIVE which is a whole different and bigger step towards Bad
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prev post literally since i was a child ive wanted to go to a super isolated spot where absolutely nobody else on the planet would hear me and just scream AS loud as i possibly could. partially for stress relief and partially bc i just want to know how loud i could scream if i wasnt worried abt freaking ppl
#bc like. I could drive* somewhere super isolated but What if there is a hiker. and then thats WAY scarier than hearing someone scream in a#spot w other ppl like if yr all alone and then hear an earpiercing scream While in the woods id find that scarier than being in town and#hearing a scream bc like yes Uhoh somebody screamed but at least yr aware there r other ppl around so its not as offguard#+like kids scream allllll the time for no reason at all. just bc its fun for them you know. i was so jealous when i was a kid bc all the#other kids could scream and scream and scream as loud as they could but i couldnt bc i was scared of getting in trouble. and now ive#squandered yhe time of my life where its socially acceptable to scream as loud as i could. Ughh#one of my recurring nightmares as a kid was that i was in a life or death situation like A killer or something and id try to scream and jus#nothing would come out like i could feel the air passing through my voicebox but no sound came out#not just screaming like. So many dreams where i just couldnt talk and everybody was mad at me bc i couldnt talk#scary stuff.#but ya. i think my only recourse is to learn how to man a boat solo and go out to the middle of the ocean and check radar to make sure#Nobody is close enough and then i can scream. but what if i piss off a whale or something#maybe a little room deep deep deep underground with like super super super thick walls and the door is sealed shut and its in the middle of#a remote forest on an impassable mountain. and then i can scream#just realized i forgot to finish that asterisk earlier you guys mustve felt rly abandoned im sorry. were you scared. its okay. connors here#* i cant drive
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i think the key ‘problem’ with me looking into darker aspects of bellum x linebeck and struggling with it is that ive put too much work into humanizing and developing bellum
#like. yknow. i cant really delve into possible lovecraftian ideas bc like. hes explained to me. hes just some oceanic demonic god#im too much of a sucker for him like. learning and growing as a person and of linebeck becoming comfortable with him#that it makes it hard to seriously lean into possible ideas of like madness and zealotry(?) and parasitism#theyre chilling too much. bellum has too much character development that i really really like here#i need to look more into the possession stuff bc thats my lifeline with this stuff yknow#but ive also set some limitations on that that are a bit. cutting that off. so maybe some magic stuff? touching on that again?#salty talks#bellum x linebeck#was gonna make this post earlier but got distracted by reading dungeon meshi#theres stuff i can do with post ph with the specific scenario of bellum possessing him with malicious intent#and linebecks survival and even fucking thriving afterwards is a massive anomaly but it connects them in a strange way that i need to defin#ive made it so the squid can relate to linebeck. yknow. theres still aruff to do ofc with the idea of linebeck having this sort of#alliance with this very dangerous demonic creature and being its exception and whatnot#its literally. meruem and komugi are ultimately what i most compare this to and the dynamic that made this click in the first place
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hmmm this uh. vent in tags doesn't pertain to anyone here though okay, it's really just a Me problem bcs i rlly appreciate you all so much but i can't help but be like this :<< (working on it though)
#🌙.vents#just thinking a bit n thought i shld write it down bcs i've always really have wondered what's rlly real n not#i'm a bit of an idealist at heart but i'm v much also a realist. i may be swimming in the deepest depths of oceans but i always know where#the shore. perhaps i am a moon and perhaps there rlly are those who love me like that but#i can't help but oft feel that ppl only like sides of me. or perhaps their images of me. idealized to their preferences n needs#to some ppl i've felt from them that i have to be like This so they'd love me. or they only care abt what they can get from me n i'm left w#receiving nothing at all. when i do receive stuff it then feels foreign. n even for those who rlly do care#it hurts bcs ^^ all that is solely my fault. for thinking this way.#i cld break out of it but maybe i don't bcs i think i don't deserve it. to inflict this pain and choose and grasp on it unto myself to#idk smth w all my burdens n regrets n mistakes. no matter what good i do; the past will never be erased. i'll live to atone but i'll never#properly let myself live; is that it? i can't accept a future or reality for myself bcs of the scars of my past n the reality that shldve#been if i wasnt so incompetent? if i was better if i was good enough if i wasnt so afraid to reach out n if i hid when i should have. if i#did all that perfectly. but i'm human n we all are n we make mistakes. i can pardon others i can understand n help them but not for me#it hurts i wish i cld do more for those that r just as deserving but don't receive it. if i'm the moon n you don't know my dark side#then they're the sun that blinds you to see. i hate this world so much#i'm stuck. when it comes to my own self n when it comes to ppl that.. idk rlly have done stuff for me i#i can't help but wonder if it's just for who they think i am n not for who i really am. maybe that cynism is due to old friendships where i#was neglected. like one friend that i feel used from. or another that broke their promises. n i've made my own mistakes too but i have thes#scars that tell me i'm not worth staying for. i'm not worth pushing or digging deeper for others to love the whole me. reciprocation is onl#one-sides; from me to others. but that's dumb too i barely do as much as i shld as i wish i cld as i want to do for others#maybe all we need to do is accept that we're all human n communicate authentically n honestly n openly. trust#but then i think of myself undeserving of it. n i shld fix that. i've been better before i rlly did have that sometime earlier this year bu#i've been falling apart once more. i shld fix this n i know i can but my helplessness regarding other aspects of my life n others burden me#not that others shld be my responsibility before my own in this stage of my life. but i need to give. more than doing things for others for#the sake of myself but More because i really just care for those in my life n i think they deserve so much more.#i wish i was better so they cld have more. fuck if i sacrifice myself i rlly wish i cld do more for others#for my parents. my twin. my friends. for the ones who have stayed despite my shortcomings. who have reached out in any way#i love them all do much n i have to be better bcs i want to love them back properly.#dilemma though bcs sometimes i do get unsure if it's even real at all. but at my heart i know most of it is. but then. hfksjfsjfs#it's not simple at all. it's v complex in fact bcs we're human n this is the real world. there's sm more i can't write. i have stuff to do😭
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Has reader ever just had a "i have to get out" moment in the changeover universe?
Like art is trying to talk to her after sex and shes just staring at the wall re thinking her decisions.
They are very toxic and i know the reader has feelings for them so i think art would have been very smothering ir clingy if reader made any atempts at going out with another circle of friends and distancing herself
(im sorry i over analyse many situations 😭)
Anon… i love u <3 I love this messy main character bc i too would throw away my scruples for this man.
Rating: M
Word Count: 1.2k
Warnings: Toxic situationship, manipulation kinda, mild angst
Summary: You say something you shouldn’t. It messes up the fucked up equilibrium that you and Art had found in whatever you could call the relationship you had together.
FEBRUARY 2007
For Valentine’s Day, you got Art a teddy bear and a box of chocolates. He got you nothing. He wasn’t your boyfriend, so you didn’t know why you were upset about it, but you were. It stung like a fresh wound, one you could never just let be.
The two of you fucked, because that’s what you always did. The feeling of his mouth on yours, warm and tasting of mint, almost made you forgive him for not getting you anything. He called you beautiful, let his hands trace your body reverently, made you cum once, twice before he pulled you into his lap and let you sink onto him.
His forehead was against yours, breath coming in pants as you rode him, bodies pressed so close it almost felt like making love. Maybe that’s why you said it— the words tumbling out like a prayer.
I love you, Art.
He was tense, for a moment, brows furrowed slightly, before he kissed you and laid you onto your back. He pulled another orgasm from an impossible place within you, one you didn’t know existed. He came, messy on your thighs, and rolled over onto his back.
It was quiet, and you felt so far away from him. Your fingers brushed against his hand, testing, but he pulled them away and stood to redress. It was so quiet that you could hear blood pumping in your ears, like an ocean.
”You shouldn’t say stuff like that,” was what he finally said.
Your lip wobbled, just slightly. And then tears pooled on your lashline. “Sorry,” you said weakly.
“It’s fine.” But you had a sinking suspicion that you’d really fucked up. He handed you a towel, and you cleaned yourself up as best as you could while fighting frustrated tears.
”Are you leaving?” You asked. He was standing in between yours and your roommate’s bed, like he hadn’t quite decided yet. You pulled on a tee shirt and underwear and gave him a pathetic, pleading expression. ”Don’t leave, please. I didn’t mean it. We can watch a movie.”
He acquiesced, and let you cling to his side pathetically after you pulled out a portable DVD player. You split a pair of headphones and watched The Royal Tenenbaums.
Halfway through the movie, clarity hit like a lightning strike. Or maybe it was more like a sinking feeling of dread— of being neck deep in quicksand before you realize you should be crawling out.
You couldn’t keep doing this. Because Art was a dream, really. Handsome, and talented, and smarter than you’d expected him to be. And he was so sweet, when he didn’t realize that he should’ve been discouraging your affection. Or maybe he liked it, but only when it was quiet and he didn’t have to acknowledge that what he was doing was wrong.
Maybe it wasn’t wrong and it was all your own fault for wanting someone who made it clear they weren’t emotionally available. Maybe you were pressuring him into something he didn’t want and it was all unfair to him too.
It didn’t matter. It was fucking killing you.
When the movie ended, he stretched and said he’d see you in class. You nodded, smiling the sad smile of a dog unknowingly being left at the pound.
Once the sadness faded, it was replaced with a molten resentment, an anger at him and yourself over your time being wasted. He still sat next to you in class, sneaking peeks of your notes, but you ignored him as best as you could. Days passed, then a week. You started to feel human again.
A couple weekends later, you ignored the text he sent asking for you to join him at a mixer the tennis team was planning on crashing. You ignored the follow up too.
You wound up at a party on the opposite end of campus with a few girls from the service org you were in. You flirted with a new guy, felt like maybe you were worth more than a casual fuck buddy.
So the sight of him sitting at your door when you finally stumbled home was the last thing you wanted to see. All sad, slumped against your door.
He scrambled to stand, expression filled with longing. “Don’t be mad at me,” he pleaded. “I missed you so fucking bad these past few weeks. Felt like I was going crazy.”
Your heart skipped, and hammered against your ribs. You wanted to reach out and kiss that sad, longing expression off his face. You wanted to tell him to leave. It was all very confusing.
“Don’t say that, Art, please,” you said weakly, lips turning down into a frown. You tried to sidestep him, to get the keys into the door, but he pulled you against his chest.
He smelled so nice— like cologne and cinnamon gum. You gave a pathetic sigh at the warmth of him, wrapped all around you. “I missed you,” he repeated. “It’s like a part of me has been missing. I wanted to talk to you so badly, to kiss you, to watch boring movies with you.”
Annoyance and longing bubbled hot in the pit of your stomach, you had to force yourself to push him away. “You just missed having a cheerleader you could fuck whenever you felt like it.”
He frowned. “That’s not true.”
”What’s my major? What’s my favorite place on campus?” He swallowed hard, exhaling sharply through his nose. “What’s my favorite movie?”
“How would I know that?” He asked, resignation flat on his features.
You rolled your eyes. “Because I tell you about it all the time. Because I’ve taken you there. Because I made you watch it. Twice.” You finally got into your room. When you didn’t slam the door, you realized that you were aching for him to follow. You wanted him to be near you, even if you were seething.
When you turned to face him, you hated that even though you were incredibly mad, you still wanted him to just prove you wrong. To convince you that you were being crazy and he was innocent and the only problem was you being a weirdo about your feelings.
God, he was so pretty. And he looked so sad.
“I’ll try to be better,” he said. “I’ll take you on dates, and buy you flowers, and give you what you deserve.”
But you’ll never be his girlfriend. You knew it, deep down. Even as you caved and gave a sweet, sad little nod. He was across the room, holding you against his chest as you felt annoying tears slipping down your cheeks. Tears of relief, of frustration, of resignation.
“I’m not Tashi,” you said when he pressed his lips to the crown of your skull. It was annoying that he had the power to quell all of your uncomfortable emotions with a single romantic gesture. He pulled back and met your gaze, and you softened. “I know she’s always been your first pick, and I don’t blame you, but I’m not ever going to be her, if that’s what you’re waiting on.”
Something passed over his expression, briefly. “I know you’re not.” It was more of a lament than it was an attempt at comfort. “I’m not waiting on anything.”
His lips trailed down, along your jaw, at the corner of your mouth. He pulled back, looking at you expectantly. Are you going to let me?
Your lips parted softly as you kissed him with lips that tasted wet and salty. It was chaste, and sweet. He pulled back and ran his thumb along your cheekbone. “Let me hold you until you fall asleep? Please?”
It was hard to stay mad at Art Donaldson, even when you knew you really should.
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