#maybe T is making me gayer

[corvids-corner]

I’m confused about my sexuality again goddamnit, what is this, 8th grade?

[red-revival]

Ok HRT is so fun actually. I have an appetite now! One o my friends almost didn’t recognize me! I’m significantly more homosexual than I was before!

No downsides could ever make this not worth it for me. 1 month tonight and im so much happier, I’m eating enough, I’m transitioning well, I’m more of a homosexual? This is all awesome

[lollylandgirl]

For some reason today I got Very Emotional about RiderQuill and thoughts were thought and randomly I have now the headcanon that Gamora was the one that proposed that Rich and Pete needed to be together in the memorial statues that appeared at the end of The Thanos Imperative.

[love-takes-work]

I've seen a fair number of people interpret Rebecca Sugar's (and the Crew's) decision to put Ruby in a dress as subversive, and I want to discuss why that feels like a clear miss to me.

Every time--every single time--I've heard Rebecca Sugar talk about the queer relationships on this show, it comes with this expression of wholesomeness, and often glazed with a sheen of wistfulness, flavored something like "I needed this as a child and young person, and I didn't have it." Much of Rebecca Sugar's work to bring this wedding (and other unapologetic queer relationships) to the screen was framed as an emergency--as in, we HAVE to get this out there for those kids we used to be, because we know they're drowning.

Yes, it's funny sometimes when people make jokes about Sugar deliberately "adding more gay" or "making it gayer" as a big eff-you to the people who spoke against it, but that doesn't sit right from where I'm standing. It took so much strength (and resulted in so much battle damage) to fight that fight, yes. But from everything I can see from the interviews and conversations I've seen and read, this wasn't served up in a "ha-HA, take THAT!" kind of way. These characters having these kinds of relationships should have been a non-issue, and the fact that their very wholesome kids'-show wedding and very sweet kiss and very adorable love for each other was seen as Political when it should have been just two characters in love is so sad to me.

I've seen dozens of people suggest that Ruby is in a dress and Sapphire is in a suit "to fuck with the bigoted censors in other countries" or "to give the finger to gender roles," but again, I think it is simpler and sweeter than that. Rebecca's said that Ruby in a dress is how she feels in a dress. Celebration and exploration of feminine-coded stuff felt wrong to Rebecca for a long time, like it wasn't hers, because she wasn't really a woman and didn't want it forced on her. As a result she was robbed of all the beauty that should have been a non-issue, from what TV shows and toys she was supposed to enjoy as a kid to what kind of person she was supposed to marry and what she should wear as an adult.

Ruby never got a choice about how she looked really. Once she got to choose her presentation for a significant event, this is what she chose. It means so much more to see that than to construct it primarily as a reactionary measure, as if it would somehow foil the sinister censors in more homophobic countries (who, incidentally, are not therefore forced to show Ruby in a dress even though they tried to hide that Ruby was a "she" or that she was in a romantic relationship with another "she"; y'all, they just don't show the episode).

We see plenty of other examples of gender-role-related expectations being casually stepped on and squashed, like when they took the trouble to give traditionally masculine and traditionally feminine "clothes" to some watermelons to make the audience think there was a husband and wife watermelon only to have the wife be the warrior and the husband stay home with the child. With stuff like that, yeah, sure, maybe it's designed to make you think "oh isn't that very feminist of them!" Or maybe it's more "well why do I see this as a 'reversal' when it's just a thing that happened?" This show is full of ladyish beings who fight and have power. And as for Steven. . . .

Nobody has negative reactions onscreen (or even particularly confused reactions) when Steven wears traditionally feminine clothes, and it is (of course) also not presented as a "boy in a dress gag"--it's not supposed to be funny. When they go all in slathering Steven in literal princess tropes throughout the final act of Season 5, we understand that it's because the powerful Diamonds expect him to be Pink Diamond, not because the show is trying to girlify him or embarrass him or even make the audience think positive thoughts about boys in girls' clothes. It's more neutral than that in my interpretation: "these are literally just pieces of cloth, and while some of them have meaning, they don't inherently have a gender." I don't see this as transgressive. It's just in a world where putting on what you want to wear doesn't HAVE to be a political statement. (Though obviously it CAN be, and plenty of people wear a variety of clothes as a fuck-you to whoever they want to give the finger to. I just don't see that as happening here.)

Don't get me wrong; Rebecca Sugar certainly knew about the politics (intimately) and has lived at many of their intersections. She was not ignorant of how queer people are seen in this world. She was silenced as a bisexual person because her identity supposedly didn't matter if she was with a man and planned to be with that same man forever. She was shunted into "omg a woman did this!" categories over and over again, which she wore uneasily as a nonbinary person while accepting that part of who we are is how the world sees us. But what is it like if everything someone like her embraces is seen as a statement synonymous with "fuck you" to someone else?

She is married to a person who happens to be a man and happens to be Black. Her relationship isn't a "statement" about either of those aspects of his existence; her love is simply something that is. She is Jewish working in a society that's largely Christian. Her cultural perspective to NOT center her cartoon around Christian holidays and Christian morals; her choices to make an alternate world in this specific way is simply something that is. Her queer perspective as a nonbinary bisexual person has helped inform the Gems' radical philosophy of "what if we learned to explore and define ourselves instead of doing the 'jobs' we're assigned and being told it's our nature?" Her decision to include queer people in a broadly queer cartoon isn't designed PRIMARILY as a battle against baddies, or to drown out all the relentless straightness, or to deliciously get our queer little paws all over their kids' TV. It's an act of love.

So this is just to say that though I DO understand that sometimes subversion and intentional transgression are very necessary, I do not think that's the HEART of what's going on at this Gem wedding. We got a wholesome marriage scene between two of the most lovely little flawed-but-still-somehow-perfect characters, and I very much want to see their choices as being about them. About how Ruby feels in a dress. About how Sapphire feels about not having to always wear a dress. About them incorporating a symbol of their union into their separate lives so they can have some independence in their togetherness. About them celebrating their love by letting Steven wipe his schmaltz all over them.

There are many choices in the show that ARE carefully constructed to counter existing narratives, you know, giving the Crystal Gems' only boy all the healing, pink, flower imagery; having a single-sex species that's ladyish with all the members going by "she"; featuring many nurturing male characters who cry and cook and raise kids without mothers; pairing multiple fighty ladies with gentler guys; and importantly, intentionally loading up the show with stories, characters, and imagery any gender will find appealing despite being tasked with expectations to pander to the preteen boy demographic.

But it's very important to me that the inclusion of queer characters and the featuring of their choices be seen primarily as a loving act, and way way less of a "lol screw the bigots." I want our stories to be about us. Yes, I know it's a necessary evil that sometimes our stories are also about fighting Them. But every time I see someone say they put Ruby in the dress to "piss off the homophobes" or "stump the censors" I feel a little gross. Like the time I picked out an outfit I loved and my mom said I only dressed in such an obnoxious way to upset her, and I was baffled because my aesthetic choices, my opinions, my choices had nothing to do with her. Yet they were framed like I chose these clothes primarily to cause some kind of petty harm to her, when not only was it not true but I was not even that kind of person who would gloat over intentionally irritating someone.

The queerness of this show isn't a sneaky, underhanded act trying above all to upset a bigot or celebrate someone's homophobic fury. It lives for itself. Its existence is about itself. It's so we can see ourselves in a show, and it's so people who aren't queer or don't have those experiences can see that we exist, we participate, we want very similar things, and definitely are focusing way more about celebrating our love at our own weddings rather than relishing the thought of bigots tearing their hair out and hating us.

It's dangerous to turn every act of our love into a deliberate movement in a battle strategy when their weddings just get to be weddings.

I think there’s this idea that that [queer characters] is something that applies or should be only discussed with adults that is completely wrong. And I think when you realize that talking to kids about heteronormativity is just like air that you breathe all the time, it’s kind of amazing that that is not true in any other capacity. I think if you wait to tell kids, to tell queer youth that it matters how they feel or that they are even a person, then it’s going to be too late! You have to talk about it—you have to let it be what it gets to be for everyone. I mean, like, I think about, a lot of times I think about sort of fairy tales and Disney movies and the way that love is something that is ALWAYS discussed with children. And I think also there’s this idea that’s like, oh, we should represent, you know, queer characters that are adults, because there are adults that are queer, and you should know that’s something that is happening in the adult world, but that’s not how those films or those stories are told to children. You’re told that YOU should dream about love, about this fulfilling love that YOU’RE going to have. […] The Prince and Snow White are not like someone’s PARENTS. They’re something you want to be, that you are sort of dreaming of a future where you will find happiness. Why shouldn’t everyone have that? It’s really absurd to think that everyone shouldn’t get to have that! --Rebecca Sugar

[jaynovz]

4.09 Silverflint Sword Training Fic Rec List

In all ways but physical, I am up on the Maroon Island cliffs watching two clever idiots refuse to confess their love to each other. Except when they do tho, because this is fanfiction!

Here are my recs for stories centered around the 4.09 sword training scenes. Enjoy!

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Cloth of Gold by dornfelder--

Summary: "Tell me one thing," Flint says.

Silver lifts his head, eyes full of apprehension. "If I can."

"If you were to tell me about your past – about all the things you cannot bear for me to know – what do you think I might do?"

Notes: One-shot, 3.3k, rated M.

A Ship is a Republic by robotboy--

Summary: Flint and Silver train every day on the cliffs, and Silver starts to realise he likes being told what to do.

Notes: Multi-chapter, 19.7k, rated E.

Riposte by Apetslife--

Summary: noun: riposte; plural noun: ripostes (Fencing) a quick return thrust following a parry.

Notes: One-shot, 3.3k, rated G.

flame you came from me, fire meet gasoline by jaynovz--

Summary: The incident on the warship lights a desire in Flint. It’s a powder keg with a fuse that burns slow but hot, flaring up at the worst moments and threatening to obliterate him.

It torments Flint off and on, but he manages to go long stretches of time without thinking about Silver's cock at all. About the delicious mouthful Silver is hiding in his trousers and how it might make Flint’s jaw ache pleasantly. Inevitably, Flint's mind drifts at the most inappropriate moments.

He cannot help but watch Silver and desperately want.

Notes: One-shot, 4.8k, rated E.

two dead boys stood up to fight by vowelinthug--

Summary: 4x09 flashback fic, made gayer

because flint looks like THAT while sparring, and silver is not actually Long John Silver. which is to say, he's only human.

Notes: One-shot, 5.8k, rated T.

Our Shadows That Are Bold by x_etoile_x--

Summary: “No.” Silver’s voice isn’t loud, but it is commanding in a way Flint hasn’t heard directed at him in a long time. A way that does nothing to quell the heat that is growing in him as he stands entirely at Silver’s mercy, heat that is much more than the remnants of exertion from their fight. “I think it's time you’re honest about what is happening here.”

Notes: One-shot, 4.9k, rated E.

you reveal the darkest versions of yourself at the precipice by coffeeandchemicals, red_plaid_on_red_plaid--

Summary: You are standing on the top of the cliffs, chest heaving, throat parched, wishing that you were back in the Doldrums. Because, even though you were starving, dying of dehydration, lips cracked, skin burnt and flaking, maybe from the sun, maybe from too many days with mere mouthfuls of water, even though you were sure that death was coming for you, at least Flint was not looking at you then like he is now.

Notes: One-shot, 1.9k, rated M.

That old sword-play by jauneclair--

Summary: 4.09 coda, in which sparring leads to sex.

Notes: One-shot, 2k, rated E.

we lean like gardens (toward light) by mapped--

Summary: Silver takes his shirt off. Flint probably shouldn't have criticised Silver for watching his eyes, because, as it turns out, that's just the pot calling the kettle black.

Notes: One-shot, 3.6k, rated E.

save every day 'til eternity passes away by lacecat--

Summary: Perhaps that’s where they exist, somewhere between the sea and sand, between something human and something otherworldly. Something known, tangible, and then something easily forgotten, as if it too was eroded by the waves.

[4x09 extended scene]

Notes: One-shot, 3.5k, rated M.

what we have left undone by pdameron--

Summary: “You have my genuine friendship,” he says on the cliff, voice quavering, “and loyalty. Can that be enough?”

Flint hesitates, stares down at his sword for a charged, long moment, and Silver can feel his heart splinter as he realizes that it isn’t.

(yet another Flint and Silver on the Cliff Fic)

Notes: One-shot, 2k, rated M.

something just like this by samedifference61--

Summary: Making James Flint purposefully wait for him? Now that’s something that sparks Silver’s curiosity.

A little 4x09 flashback cliff!porn piece that doesn't actually have any porn, just some sword fighting, stripping, banter, and kissing really.

Notes: One-shot, 2.1k, rated M.

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As always, if there is an inclusion that you think I have missed, you can DM me and I will check it out. 💜

[ironvandyne]

PRIDE MONTH 23 | amerikate, under the starry sky

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH GUYS! I know my usual tradition was in the past two years since I’ve started to share my drawings was have a 6-character group holding flags and wearing t-shirts and that’s it. But this year I want to make it different, since doing the same thing over and over again can be tiring and repetitive. Also boring in fact. This is going hopefully a series of arts through out the whole month (and maybe time to get out of comfort zone) where I’ve chosen to draw some gay pairings from Marvel, canon or not. And have them together and all that such.

This one is featuring America and Kate, and the sky being colorpicked from the sapphic flag (and yes I do headcanon that Kate is bi while America is a canon lesbian which makes their relationship sapphic, sapphic is an umbrella term that refers to those whom are lesbian, bi, pan or queer. And if I am wrong on the defintion of sapphic, please correct me!)

America decided to take Kate for a romantic ride upon a star it is just so cute now that I think about it.

Stay tuned for more gayer arts like these because this won’t be it’s last.

[eden-3000]

My autumn tbr/ watch list

Basically a collection of recomendations from various youtube videos. I haven´t watched / read most of this, so don´t hold me accountable if they suck.

Finished (I always reblog this with a review)

books:

Picture of Dorian Gray - Oscar Wilde

I´ve wanted to read this for so long. I watched the movie with Ben Barnes and maybe this is finally the year in which I will actually read the book as well

Dead Poets Society - Nancy H. Kleinbaum

I think this one goes without saying. Another one I wanted to read for a while now, but never got around to it

Masters of Death - Olivie Blake

Not sure what to say about this one, it got recomended in a youtube video and I think it has a personification of death in it, which I always love!

Haunting of Hill House - Shirley Jackson

I already know I´m gonna like this one, just because it has a haunted house

Legends and Lattes - Travis Balrdee

I started reading this this summer, but I did´t feel the vibe, so I hope that now is the right time.

The Graveyard Book - Neil Gaiman

I do not support this guy!!!! Having said that... I already have it at home and it feels like a waste to just let it stand on my shelf. He is still a very talented author and the story sounds really cool and comforting. I don´t know if I can read it without a weird gut-feeling though, so maybe I´ll just read it a few years from now.

movies

Dead Poets Society (Disney+)

I actually have watched this before, but I didn´t nearly pay enough attention as to understand what was going on, so I guess I have to watch it again

Scream ()

For some reason I have watched Scream 8, but not the Original, so I´ll need to make good on that

Fantastic Mr. Fox (Disney +)

I feel like I missed something, given that I only learned about this now. But it looks aboluteley adorable.

Needful Things ()

Honestly, the trailer looks wild, but I feel like it´s just my kind of movie

The Odd Life of Timothy Green (Disney+)

It sounds really comfy. I´m not yet sure why it was on an autumn rec list, but I´m very willing to find out.

Sleepy Hollow ()

Another classic.

Practical magic ()

Another one i didn´t know existed, but it looks really damn cool.

Taran and the Magic Cauldron (Disney+)

This is a rewatch for me, bc I loved it as a kid, but I feel like it´s a great fit for this list

tv shows

Over the Garden Wall ()

It looks so adorable and I really love the style.

loke & key (Netflix)

To be honest, the trailer doesn´t look very autumnal, but I´m willing to give it a shot anyways

Haunting of Hill House (Netflix)

Same as the book (athough I´m usually very careful with Netflix-adaptations)

Buffy (Disney+)

I´m not the biggest vampire fan, but I kinda like the concept and I think this show is gonna be gayer than most other things on this list, which is something that I require.

That was it for now. Feel free to leave your own recomendations here.

Also, wtf is wrong with Netflix rn? They´re taking down It, Conguring, Sherlock Holmes right at the start of fall? How dumb are you?!

[momamistilllyoung]

klance as me and my bfs on a festival of colors! (but make it even gayer)

1. (12pm, mall, furniture shop)

Lance: Lemme show you a pic of a wallpaper I saw recently, it's dark blue with white flowers, a bit Japanese style-

Keith: I'm into one-coloured walls... and it's either just white or just black.

Lance: Oh, you know, I like the style where it's one wall in a different color or one's with a wallpaper-

Keith, at Lance's phone: no... just no for me...

Lance, wanting to get off the topic: okay well maybe a similar couch but longer-

a few hours later

(sw before 7pm) The two talking about how's life for them, Lance almost falling asleep on Keith...

Keith: you know what's the only wallpaper I'd agree to?

Lance, eyes sparking up, his back str8 up: yeaA??

Keith, showing Lance his phone with the image googled: minecraft wallpaper.

Lance: yeahahah! oh! a screenshot of the sakura trees in the newest update!

Keith: yea, okay, we can even take sakura trees:)<3

2. (near 7pm) Some middle-aged lady asked Shiro to take a picture of her and her family all in the colorful powders. Lance runs up to Shiro with his hands full of purple powder, and grabs Shiro's tits trough his not-anymore white t-shirt, making the family burst out laughing. Shiro loves all his kids and forgave him.

A moment after that, Lance and Keith sat on the side and discussed their future dream house together, though they're just a pair of dumb teens now. They sit facing each other and just spitting out ideas. Lance is covered head to toe in the purple festival powder, while Keith is clean cuz he has to run some errands just after the party.

Lance: Hey, you really think we will be able to afford all this?

Keith, putting his clean hand on Lance's purple cheek: No, but we can dream

Keith sees his palm is all purple now, so he shakes it off with the help of his other hand.

Lance, putting his purple hand on Keith's clean cheek, receiving a death stare: yeahahaHAHAH

3. (after 8pm, alr dark) Once Keith's back, they all meet him with festival powders ready. Allura pulls him into a hug and sprinkles a blue and a green one over his back and hair. Keith protests and slips out before she can load out the whole packs on him.

Keith, letting Lance pull him into a hug: Hi, sunshine

Lance, slowly sprinkling the neon yellow one on Keith, like Allura did: Hiiiii-

Allura makes the most of the moment between boys and attacks them with the rest of her packs. Lance is blinded cuz his shades are now wholly blue, gives them to Shiro to clean (on his not anymore white shirt) and they're off chasing Allura with their packs.

BONUS, didn't happen but it reminded me of Klance:

(10:30pm?) Lance and Keith splitting ways after the festive, they've been hugging for about 5 mins now.

Lance, kissing Keith's green cheek, getting the powder on his lips: mm it's actually tasty-

Keith, kissing Lance to try it too: Uh, it's not and wHAT HAVE I TOLD YOU ABOUT EATING CHEMICALS AND GLITTER-

Pidge, pouring out a neon powder straight into their mouth: no, it is actually-

(anything's good to Pidge after Keith's cooking)

[watermelonsloth]

Boruto Shipping Opinions

I’m gonna put a brief aside here to say two quick things to keep in mind before reading:

I am not going to go into great detail or analysis here because I’m holding off on that until the manga wraps up.

I am caught up with the manga, I am not caught up with the anime. I have watched up until the arc the new team 7 infiltrate a prison, the second chunin exams, and whatever clips/moments I’ve stumbled upon being discussed. I am not an avid fan, I do not know all the ins and outs of character dynamics, and I don’t even keep up with that part of the fandom. I have no horse in this race.

BoruSara

I don’t like this ship, and I don’t know if that’s an unpopular opinion. I’ll try to avoid saying “they have sibling vibes” or “they’re just friends” because, coming from someone who has used that excuse in the past, it is very difficult to explain/defend argument. So much so that now it just comes across as cheap to me.

I will, however, say that I don’t like it for the same reason I don’t like NejiTen. It comes across as “he was a boy, she was a girl. Can I make it anymore obvious?” It feels like it stems from the idea that boys and girls can’t just be friends. If the dynamic was introduced with an edge of romance (like how Naruto and Sakura’s dynamic was introduced with Naruto having a crush on her), maybe it would be a different story. But as of right now, it feels like the fandom reading into something that doesn‘t need to be read into.

KawaSara

I hate to say this, but I’m guessing this ship stemmed from SasuSaku fans reading them as “next gen SasuSaku”. Look, everyone can ship whatever they want or choose to refrain from shipping, but I’m sick of the fandom projecting old ships on new dynamics. I have seen BoruSara compared to SNS, NaruSaku, and SasuSaku (for some reason). I have seen BoruSumi compared to NaruHina. I have seen MitsuSara compared to SasuSaku and SuiKarin. I have seen KawaSara compared to SasuSaku. Every single time I thought to myself, “The manga starts with Boruto asserting that he’s not his dad and this isn’t his dad’s story.” I get that comparisons will naturally arise since it’s a sequel series, but these kids are not carbon copies of their parents and they don’t have the same dynamics their parents did.

Now that my rant is out of the way, I think a hypothetical child between them having black hair with pink highlights would be cute and that’s about it.

MitsuSara

I wish these two had more of a dynamic. Both characters have interactions with Boruto and clear dynamics with him, but they don’t really have much going on with each other. They both have recognizable personalities, but they mellow each other out whenever they interact and it makes them boring (I’m guessing Ikemoto isn’t interested in them together). They also only tend to talk to each other about Boruto (at least in the manga). Say what you want about them, but at least Sasuke and Sakura had a dynamic.

Anyways, funny ha ha, Orochimaru gets an Uchiha in the way they least expected.

MitsuBoru

Gayer than any of the Naruto dynamics and that is saying something. However, I struggle to like the ship because I’m just so confused.

First, why does Boruto have so many lancer/foil/rival characters. Kawaki, Sarada, and Mitsuki all act as lancers. I get that writing doesn’t have to be formulaic, but they aren’t even all lancers to each other, having dynamics that bounce off of each other, they’re just lancers to Boruto. At least for me, it’s already gotten really boring and ends in the three’s dynamics with each other falling flat.

Second, the sun and moon symbolism makes no sense to me as a writing decision. The obvious problem is that it’s redundant; it’s already been used for multiple Naruto dynamics. The less obvious problem is that it contradicts Mitsuki’s manga introduction. Mitsuki was introduced as the middle between Boruto and Sarada’s two extremes, taking up a role similar to Sakura’s in the og team 7. If he’s supposed to be the moon to Boruto’s sun, why is he introduced to us as the earth? The admittedly more minor problem that distracts me is that Orochimaru was the one that Mitsuki down this road. Why? Orochimaru wasn’t redeemed by Naruto and has never shown interest in him or this philosophy before now. My best guess is that they’re fascinated by Naruto’s affect on Sasuke, but that still leaves me with questions.

It makes me think that the writer didn’t have any ideas when they introduced these two.

BoruSumi

I don’t like how the fandom is making another love square, but I doubt there’s anything I can do to stop them.

This ship is boring because Sumire is boring. That one anime arc made her interesting, but it’s referenced and relevant so rarely that she goes back to being boring. I’d like this more if the story let Sumire be morally gray or treated her like a redeemed villain more. As of right now, I think the only leg the ship has to stand on is writing tropes and I do not care.

KawaSumi

This ship feels like the product of the same people who ship SasuHina/SasuIno/SasuKarin/KibaHina out of spite. My last post/reblog went into why this happens but the short of it is that it’s easier to ship something in peace if the biggest “threats” to it are paired together. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I have a feeling most KawaSumi shippers also ship BoruSara.

KawaHima

Please… just stop. If not for yourself, then for me. I’m already barely coping with how popular NejiHina is. Why have I seen this as much as I have??? This feels like a personal attack on my sanity. They’re siblings.

Other

This is the section for all the ships I have little/no opinions on. I think MitsuCho is too boring for how popular it is, I think ChoSara should be more popular, I’m disturbed by all of the Eida x next gen ships because she looks and acts like an adult (at least how adults are portrayed in Boruto), and I’m surprised Code x Eida isn’t more popular, but I also think that Code has gotten the Kabuto treatment and isn’t very popular in the fandom.

The ships I haven’t mentioned I either have so little fucks to give or so little information on that I have ZERO thoughts about.

[tincansamurai]

ugh i'm gonna have to explicitly reject someone soon i can feel it. was hoping to put it off until the end of time. idk how much gayer i can look to make women not crush on me. it doesn't feel possible to turn that dial any further but maybe i'm missing something. a t-shirt that just says faggot maybe? and i wear it every day? hmm.

[casspurrjoybell-33]

Taming Arrogance - Chapter 18

*Warning Adult Content*

Steam wraps around my arms and legs as I step out of the shower.

I breathe in the heat and sigh, feeling more relaxed than I have in days.

I grab a towel and wrap it around my waist, rubbing my palm against the mirror's foggy surface until my face comes into view.

Pieces of light brown hair mat against my forehead and my gaze trails down my reflection until settling on my swollen lip.

I lean forward, inspecting the damage.

There doesn't seem to be an actual cut or tear anywhere but damn does it hurt.

I slide my tongue along my bottom lip and flinch when it crosses over a tender spot.

The feeling brings me right back to my kiss with Blake.

I hold back a groan remembering how it felt to have his hands on me, fingers digging into my hip and forcing me closer.

He was just as hard as I was when he rubbed up against me.

It was kind of weird having a dick so close to mine.

Granted, there were two pairs of jeans separating our 'mini-men' from touching but still.

It's the closest I've ever been to man parts.

Would he have let me go further if I initiated it?

He didn't seem to mind when I slipped my hand up his shirt and felt around.

Maybe I should have tried my luck and traveled south a bit too.

I run my tongue along my lip again, pressing harder at the tender part.

A searing pain shoots through my lower jaw, yet the pleasure that accompanies it has my groin aching for release.

Is it pathetic that I want more?

"Knock, knock, Callum..."

I whip my head to the side just in time to see Cade's bright face pop inside the bathroom.

He raises a brow and takes his time studying me from head to toe.

"Well, well, well. If I knew this was an option, I would have passed on dinner completely."

Cade pushes the door open and leans against its frame, crossing his arms over his chest.

The cold air nips at my flesh, hardening my nipples in seconds flat.

"Get the fuck outta here," I snap at him.

"You're letting in all the cold air."

Cade steps into the bathroom and closes the door behind him.

Then his grin widens.

"Better?"

I tighten my hold on the towel and glare at him.

When Cade agreed to come over, over an hour ago, mind you, he told me I could just 'leave the door open for him.'

Of course he chooses now to finally make his grand entrance.

"You have some impeccable timing," I mutter under my breath, searching around for my sweatpants.

"Mmm, I'd have to disagree," Cade counters and gives me a pointed look.

"If I had impeccable timing, I would have gotten here about ten minutes earlier."

Without looking at myself in the mirror, I can feel the heat rising to my cheeks and staining them red.

Cade doesn't seem the least bit stressed about this situation.

I glance at his attire, noting that he's changed out of his work clothes and into a comfortable pair of skinny jeans and a t-shirt.

The combination makes him look younger and gayer.

"You look like a fag," I say with a huff.

"And where the fuck  are my sweatpants?"

"I'll take that as a compliment because I am fag and proud of it, too."

If I had said that to Blake, he'd be lecturing me up and down on the importance of respecting all sexualities and blah, blah, blah, a bunch of shit I don't want to hear.

Cade just laughs it off.

I'm not sure which one irritates me more.

Clearly distressed, I shoulder past Cade and stomp out of the bathroom.

He follows behind me and chuckles.

"You know, Callum, you have a keen ability of pulling off that whole 'pissed off and brooding' attitude while managing to make it look sexy."

"Shut up."

"I'm serious. Not many men can do that."

My eyes light up when I see my sweatpants hanging off the bed.

I scoop them up and glance at Cade, a silent plead in my eyes for him to look away.

He must sense how uncomfortable I am because he turns his back to me, fumbling with the remote I left on the nightstand.

"So how'd it go with Mr. Boss Man?"

I throw on my sweatpants and slip on a t-shirt, not bothering to check if they match.

"The man has zero remorse when it comes to personal boundaries and he's moody as fuck," I answer.

Okay, okay, I may have helped just a smidge in the development of his mood swings but I'll just consider that falling under the '5% of other duties as assigned' in my job description.

I'm just trying to keep the man on his A game.

Cade sits on the bed and leans back, holding up his weight with his elbows.

The position he's in shows off his slender build.

His shirt rides up just a few inches on his stomach and a trail of light hair catches my attention.

It starts just at the bottom of his navel and becomes hidden beneath the hem of his boxers.

'It's kind of hot. Does Blake have that too?'

"That explains the fat lip, then," Cade muses.

"Oh yeah, that."

My tongue swipes across the tender flesh for a third time.

An ache blooms deep in my stomach wishing it was someone else's tongue instead of my own.

The silence stretches between Cade and myself and I have the weirdest desire to know what he's thinking.

This is the first time I've ever been physical with a dude, well two dudes.

Do men get jealous like chicks do?

I clear my throat and climb into bed, leaving ample space between the two of us.

Cade turns on the TV and switches to the basketball game.

I'm not sure if he actually likes sports or not but I appreciate the distraction all the same.

A few minutes pass and Cade continues to watch the screen and finally the silence becomes too much for me.

"Why'd you come over?" I ask.

"Because you texted and asked me to."

I scowl.

"Yeah , I know that, smart ass. I mean, why'd you give me your number in the first place?"

Cade turns his head to the side.

His expression is soft, content even.

He smiles and I relax.

I've only been around this guy for a total of a few hours and already his smile is becoming pretty damn contagious.

"I was hoping to get a glimpse of you in the shower."

I roll my eyes and reach forward to punch him in the arm.

"You're an idiot."

Cade laughs and scoots up the bed until we're next to each other.

Unlike me, he doesn't attempt to leave room between us.

His arm brushes against mine and he leaves it there.

"You're just a really nice guy, Callum," Cade tries again.

Even though he's still smiling, his expression becomes serious.

The light of the TV illuminates his face and my brain automatically starts comparing his features to Blake's.

Cade is a good-looking dude. a real panty-dropper, er boxer-dropper.

His face is masculine but his features carry with them a hint of femininity.

It's a hot combination and I wonder if this is why I find him so attractive.

Nothing about Blake is feminine.

Well, except maybe his mood swings, no offense, ladies.

So why the hell do I find him so irresistible?

The image of Blake's face finds its way front and center to my brain.

He stares back at me, his dark eyes bold and intense.

His chiseled cheekbones frame a narrow but masculine jaw and he blinks a few times in my imagination.

When I don't respond, Cade gets my attention again by rubbing his index finger along the backs of my knuckles.

"And even though you are ten shades of ass-hole to the wind, you're kind of charming, too," he adds with a wink.

His comment makes me laugh and just like that, the tension between us evaporates.

We find our way into easy conversation, talking about everything from work, to food, to sports.

Turns out Cade actually does likes basketball.

Close to 1:00 AM, the two of us order a pizza.

Cade bitches and moans about my topping selection, so I shut him up by agreeing to just cheese.

Despite the odd sensation of longing tumbling through my senses, the night ends up being pretty fun.

It isn't until the infomercials start dancing across the TV screen that I realize how late it's getting.

Cade mindlessly chews on a piece of crust, tapping a few buttons on his phone to show me a picture of some sea creature he was just talking about.

"It's getting pretty late," I comment.

Cade squints at the time showing on his phone and tosses his crust back into the pizza box.

"Want me to head out?"

"Probably should."

"Alright, cool. Just let me find this picture for you."

Only I never get to see the picture.

Cade slips his hand into mine, angling his body close enough to be cuddling.

His warmth and his touch feel so good that my eyes begin to close of their own accord.

We don't have sex.

We don't even kiss.

As relieved as I thought I would be about all this, however, we end up doing something far worse.

We fall asleep.

[kookie-doughs]

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Oikawa Tooru X Reader

-In a world where only a few people has a soulmate, and they are burdened with a disability until they meet their other half.

Chapter 15: Cookies

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You frowned. You were home alone and there was a practice that you weren't informed about. It was upsetting...

Until you realized you could finally proceed to your valentines surprise to the team.

You werent exceptional baker. It wasnt amazing or unique but it was good. You rummaged through your kitchen gathering the ingredients.

You took note of your missing ingredients. And went out to get them.

Atthe grocery, you got the ingredients and some other extra stuff as well.

To your surprise you find Yahaba at the chocolate section. He looked at you in shock.

You waved at him, he smiled awkwardly. You see his cart and you dont know what got to you when you approached him.

"Is that for Kyo?"

Yahaba was shocked you were talking to him but he nodded.

You smiled, "Youre gonna bake him something?"

"I wanted to... But I'm not really that good..."

"Wanna come over? I'm baking one for the team too." He looked at you confused. "Im not really that good either but im decent! I can tell salt and sugar apart." You laughed

He blushed, "I dont think we should..."

"Im over Kyo dont worry too much about my feelings" you rolled your eyes. " Plus..." Oikawa's face flashed in your mind and you blushed. "I like someone else now..."

Yahaba's firm look softened. "Do you wanna talk about stuff?"

You nodded and grinned. You both decided to pay for the ingredients and head to your place.

You both made a mess. Him having no experience and a mixer, it wasnt a good idea. He almost put too much of everything but the experience was fun.

You started cutting out the the cookie. And you saw him drawing on his dough.

You tapped his table and he looked at you.

"He likes volleyball you know..."

He smiled, "I do too. He told me about it... he wasnt accepted. "

You blinked, "But he's good at it?"

He looked at you sadly, "They didn't let him try out because of you."

You frowned. That's Oikawa's fault. You knew immediately.

You ran to Iwaizumi's room and grabbed 2 papers and a pen. You went back to him and wrote.

"Dear coach,

I am writing to recommend Kyotani Kenjiro. I am the manager at Aoba Johsai and Kyotani was someone that displayed much potential as someone who's worked with other varsities. Kyotani had displayed prowess and strength as a spike. I am only asking for a chance for him to display his abilities without any biased opinion.

Thanks,

Y/N L/N."

You gave it to Yahaba, and scratched the back of you head.

"Im not really good at those stuff. Do you think thats good?"

He nodded eagerly. And handed it back to you. "Thank you so much!"

You gave him thumbs up and spent the rest of the time talking until the baking was done.

After he decorated his. He thanked you and left. You looked at my batch. You decided to make your fondant.

You thought of how the boys would react to your cookies. You smiled. Then...

An image of Oikawa bluahing at the cookies he'll get from you made your heart jump. You definitely be embarrassed or be too shy or something. Then you thought of Iwaizumi getting angry again. You shivered at it.

You were gonna leave it on his table.

Then you realized. You've been thinking about Oikawa so much, the cookie you made him looked much different from the others. Your head steamed.

His cookies were in shapes of hearts and had romatic words written on. Your heart was beating out of your chest upon the thought of giving this to him.

He cant know you'd do this. I mean why would you even do it when you know he doesn't like sweets. He wouldn't think its from you.

You didn't leave your name on his pack.

You then took your cookies and hid them in your room. Then you cleaned up your mess at the kitchen.

Your stomach grumbled, so you decided you were going to eat out for lunch. And maybe pay the boys a visit.

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amber do you have any tips on how to start dressing more gnc? not exaclty where to find clothes but like composition/how to feel confident in my looks bc im always afraid of looking like a 12yo boy 😭 i was going through your blog and saw that ask about boa/yuri/seulgi and i feel like a combination of their wardrobes would be my dream lol also random but yuri added a new layer to bi casual that's p.e. teacher, she now has this sling bag she takes everywhere and imo makes her overall look gayer

hello! i'm guessing ur a baby gay, congrats on trying to gender present differently it's a rly cool experience and it'll bring u a lot of joy! any amount of gnc presentation automatically makes u sexier too so congrats!

i think what you're going for is a mix of street wear and artsy casual and both of those can be as androgynous as u want it to be! for composition it rly depends on ur body type and idols r all skinny so if u r similar to them u can copy the way they layer and arrange clothes but i personally can't. could never wear pants as wide legged as seulgi and boa wear lol.

the key is loose fit clothing for a boxy/rectangular silhouette but don't get clothes that are too oversized. i have a chest and hips so i tend to do fitted pants that taper (not wide leg) but have some room at the waist to not emphasize my hips. i have p broad shoulders so i wear loose shirts that emphasize that and aren't too tight at the chest. outerwear is so important!!! a leather or denim jacket is such an important wardrobe staple for every gay person.

in general seulgi has cute artsy boyish looks that u can emulate with a wider legged jean with a quirky design, unusual and colorful sneakers, and fun hoodies and graphic tees. boa does like dancer look or dad look. lot of beanies, oversized t-shirts and sweatpants or flannels and glasses and t-shirts tucked into belted jeans. yuri's bi casual looks tend to be short button up shirts, sometimes over t-shirts (with the sleeves rolled up). also baseball caps and crew neck sweatshirts.

it's ultimately rly about how u wear it tho!! try wearing the classic white tshirt + jeans + jacket look and see if it feels more feminine or more masculine on u, and see what adjustments u can make to ur posture and hair and the way u carry urself to get the presentation u want. try putting ur hands in ur pockets in a masculine way, my gf calls it the transmasc stance lol and i keep noticing every time i do it now. try wearing outfits but sitting or standing in diff ways, slouching a little more (but take care of ur spine health) or sitting with ur legs wider and leaning back or leaning forward with ur elbows on ur knees. jewelry is also v gendered!! buy some thicker rings or more masculine chains/necklaces u can layer. a nice watch does a lot too. maybe 4 years ago i was rly self conscious about gender presentation and being read as masc but now my gf says it's easy to see that i'm butch because of the way i carry myself and i don't even think about it. i slowly developed the mannerisms and posture that make my clothes look and feel more butch. even when i first started wearing men's clothes for the purpose of being gay i realized that my own masc energy makes women's jewelry look more masculine when i'm wearing it and it was a rly affirming moment for me.

bonus: i consulted my gf and the simple way to not look like a 12 year old boy is to not dress like a 12 year old boy. don't be afraid to mix things that are a little bit more formal into your new wardrobe, it'll make you feel more confident in gender presentation. i just got a nice pair of dressy men's shoes (i got derby style docs) for the first time and i wear them with calf length dress socks and semi-formal pants to concerts and artsy events and it feels rly good! i need a good blazer now, i only have very casual outerwear.

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diary102

12/23-24/2023

saturday - sunday

listening to black eyes and

thinking about how much more i mostly like black dice. a much crazier white belt band at least. when they were in that phase at least. i don't dislike black eyes, i like the one who screams a lot more in that band, i like the song a pack of wolves a lot. but idk. this band has been a sticking point w/ the 00s wave of pxhc noise rock freaky faggy stuff i've always liked, especially since that time, they just never did it for me entirely, a little too measured feeling, which is crazy to say, when people know them as being such a crazy band. but idk, i remember even at the time when thinking of the especially no-wavey stuff, i'd just want to listen to coughs (the band (not black eyes' second record)). but the vocalist who does the high pitched girly voice is awesome, i can't lie, he adds a ton to the songs. but the blood brothers have that and are like 10x better. i appreciate how arty these guys are, it's interesting how this feels like a band where every single member is firing on every cylinder and playing exactly what they want, and what they want is like, what if public image ltd. were a little gayer, but somehow, that's isn't connecting to me perfectly. the two drummers thing is cool too but idk. it doesn't do a ton for me but it is very listenable, being less hardcore/fast and with more room to breathe, much more dance oriented stuff on it too, while still being very atonal, it's an interesting mid-point. their album after this one is like, total no-wave, not just inspired by but totally decoherent, atonal, and strange. i'm less interested in that one. it's interesting but like, not compelling totally.

the closer on their s/t is at least really good. 2 very good songs, on the record at least.

definitely their best song though. i've heard people say the high pitched screechy one sounds like devi from girls rituals and stuff, i can hear it.

here is another really good song by a different band, really sick dance-punk stuff.

i have not read today, i might still but idk. i did do a song today, and i think i'm really getting closer and closer to learning what i need to do in like, basically all the songs. all the ones that still feel fucked i need to go through and do some very simple stuff to, that simple stuff being low pass on the snares, low pass the kicks, reduce the decay of the kicks a bunch, and see if the synth guitar things are too saturated or not, and maybe low pass them, and also, replace one of the modules in psp infinistrip when i go to old ones, because one i have in cuts some highs in a weird way, a whole low pass on that i never noticed, it's very subtle but it's not what my tracks need, they need that really annoying high end at times i think.

i found something really fun on flickr today from this acc:

these were taken in laforet, a mall in harajuku/by harajuku (i've been there it's really cool t b h) in 08 i think:

i love the huge gaudy pixel art, and the colors a ton. i've been thinking about that kind of really excessive/dirty looking pixel art recently, it's a really sick looking thing, i kind of want to go there w/ what i do next for cover art, so i guess i'll try and figure out a way to get there that looks good. i'd probably have to keep stuff around sensible resolutions to upscale. i wonder what i'll do w/ the traced bugs i do for it.

also thinking about the pink/yellow together, i should try that out, maybe make the text a really extreme yellow. that would be fun.

also look at the little accessories they had for sale w/ that:

i want them very badly.

another thing that had me thinking about the gaudy pixel art stuff was that one promo game / music vid hybrid thing cactus made, one of the guys who made hotline miami, for the other guy who helped him make hotline miami eventually:

cactus games in general, i was really really into that whole thing in hs. i like how much now i can tell that he was biting from the fort thunder thing.

i have to put something bedazzled on the cover. i think. blocky rhinestones or something in a pattern. maybe i do that with certain hi res pix i got off of internet archive of jewels, downsize them after indexing them. or make tiny, index, make big, and then down again? who knowsss. maybe find multiple jewels for it too i have 2, that's fun i think, use the jewels to trace a shape, like a butterfly wing, for 2 of the wings around the circular bit in the center. i like that.

a higher res pic of the ad.

i'd like to find more weird shit like that, prints w/ gaudy pixel art, appropriated for fashion/something unrelated to games broadly.

anyway check these socks:

all of this brings to mind chiho aoshima now:

i really love the fire one, the interaction w/ a photograph and digital work overlaid is still really exciting to me, on a base level i guess, the threshold where two things intrude on the other. the sculpture is just very cute to me i think, i love though that it's a manifestation of the work nearby, the way the sort of fantasy / escapist otaku work leaves material consequences. that might be a reach, honestly, it at least gestures at that emotionally though i suppose.

anyways, i am tired-ish, more that i think i should be tired now but am not.

so

byebye!!!!!!!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

U GET IT U GET ITTTTTTT (WARNING: this got long bc i got too invested in Disco Elusium: Alternative (SatoSugu DLC) PHDJDH we need to make this game ok mickey …)

NO BECAUSE . my first thought when it comes to harry!geto & kim!gojo is a weird melancholic (but hopeful!!) post-canon / canon-divergent thing where geto is freed from kenny and loses his memories in the process yk ….. like he just wakes up and he doesn’t Remember anything but there are bits and pieces still intact and gojo pretends not to know him to save him from the pain of it all. maybe it’s kind of like a test where the higher ups want to see if geto is capable of entering human society again… and his life is on the line….. but obv gojo doesn’t tell geto this DO U SEE THE VISION ….

and just . THE SKILLS MICKEY…. THE POTENTIAL…… im literally going fucking insaneee like imagine harry!geto talking to some random business guy and one of his skills just goes ”fucking monkey” LIKEEEEE IT COULD BE SO FUNNY BUT ALSO SO SCARY??????? a lil hint of something Horrifying that his other skills are trying to repress…. but sometimes it bubbles up to the surface and geto is maybe just a little horrified. oughhhh imagine failing a check and calling someone a monkey in front of gojo (the same way harry can call kim a slur if he fails that One check in the church :/) and gojo just fucking Freezes? like goddd the angst here…..

help me im so invested in this im starting to think abt what that skill would be called 😔😔 Justice maybe. Devotion? there’s just so much potential OK BUT ALSO ;;;;;;;;;;;; this could work for both harry!geto & harry!gojo but i feel like one of their skills would be Blue Spring of Youth & it pops in once in a while when something reminds them of each other… their youth…. like the sun falls across gojo’s face a certain way and geto feels a pang of longing. geto cracks open a can of cola and gojo can’t help but stare . YOU KNOWWWW???? kinda like esprit de corps but like . gayer. a bit like shivers too… maybe the skill just casually drops a stsg line and geto has to stand there and look at gojo and feel the longing strangle him a little (but he STILL can’t remember who this beautiful mysterious man is and it’s driving him insane….)

ok so mickey i may have lost it a little i just needed to write this out BEAR W ME U REWIRED MY BRAIN CHEMISTRY ITS NOT MY FAULT :(((

PERCEPTION (SIGHT) — The sorcerer stands rigid in front of you, immovable, like a pillar of salt. Morning dew collecting on his lashline. SUGGESTION — He’s close. Close enough to touch, if you wanted to. Do you? LONGING [Medium: Success] — More than anything. SATORU GOJO — ”It’ll be fine,” he says, suddenly, exhaling a breath of vapour. Bleak sunlight against white teeth. EMPATHY [Easy: Success] — It’s meant to be reassuring. Things aren’t looking good, but he doesn’t want you to worry. BLUE SPRING OF YOUTH [Challenging: Success] — There are words he wishes he could say to you. Summer-scented, stuffed into the back of his throat. A memory from long ago. ”We’re the strongest.” YOU — 1. - If you say so. 2. - Nothing about this is ’fine.’ How can you be so carefree? -> 3. - Because we’re *the strongest*? SATORU GOJO — A moment passes. His eyes flicker over to you, sharply, like a pair of shooting stars. They’re wide. LOGIC [Easy: Success] — He’s surprised. EMPATHY [Medium: Success] — More like *horrified*. SATORU GOJO — ”I…” His adam’s apple bobs. Once, then twice, like he’s hunting for air. At last, a dry chuckle escapes him. ”You… *really* aren’t making this easy, you know that?”

^^^^ DO U SEE THE VISION ….. im so serious i would pay so much money for this game wtf. someone contact the devs.

it just makes me so sad but so happy too like :(( the idea of harry!geto finally finding out who he is … what he’s done ,…. but still choosing to believe in the world one more time . it makes me wanna cry sooooo bad like harry makes me sob on his own but throw geto into the mix and my heart just cracks right down the middle THEY MEAN THE WORLD TO MEEEEEE I NEED TO SAVE THEM MYSELF

BUT ALSO HARRY!GOJO WOULD BE SO SILLYYY AND CUTE HE’D BE SO EXCITED UR SO RIGHT 🥺🥺 AND THE PHASMID GODDD HE WOULD GO CRAZY FOR IT ok but . that one quote where harry wants to hear more cryptid trivia but he promised kim not to so kim is like wtf but harry begs and pleads with his puppydog eyes and kim is like ”fuck it. let’s have more cryptids.” THATS SOOOO STSG sugu would love him so much hehe even if he’s pathetic and soggy :33

AND COMRADE!GOJO SOOO FUCKING TRUE HE WOULD GO THE COMMUNIST ROUTE FOR SURE… also inexplicable feminist agenda <3333 superstar cop <33333 that’s the one ur doing too mickey ITS MEANT TO BE!!!

MICKEYY im so happy ur a de fan too hehe I LOVE THEM SM we gotta talk abt them more often… i also wanna play de again sometime soon hhh ill make sure to send every cool quote i find ur way <33

SHOKO IS 1000000000000000% GIVING KLAASJE VIBES WHAT THE FUCK ARI UR BRAIN IS LITERALLY THE BIGGEST THING IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD i can totally see her on that rooftop...... btw this just made me think about gojo!harry and geto!kim too lmao it kinda works doesn't it???

- @softgirlgonehaywire

RIGHT RIGHT RIGHTTTTT THEY’RE SOOO….. no because . just …… this lonesome smoking woman on a rooftop who never tells you more than vague half-truths and hides her humanity behind an air of feigned indifference ……… who tricks you and tricks you and tricks you until she’s all out of them…. who runs from city to city and loves revachol and wants it to love her back :(((( mickey i love klaasje so much she’s my favorite ever . AND THE SHOKO VIBES ARE SOOOO THERE they’re the same to me!!! like maybe klaasje is a tiny bit more morally dubious but shoko is also so gritty in a way . no sorcerers are saints i think there’s something a little Off w her <33

AND MICKEY MICKEY MICKEYY DONT SAY THAT MY BRAIN IS SPINNING SO FAST..,….. ok but . HEAR ME OUT . what if we switch the roles…… harry!geto & kim!gojo…….. geto who wakes up alone with no memories and a scar on his forehead and when he walks downstairs he meets a beautiful man who he doesn’t remember but said man shakes his hand and introduces himself and looks at him fondly. IT DOESNT WORK SUPER WELL bc geto isn’t silly enough to fully be Harry but just . harry’s whole theme of like…. being a pretty Bad person who gets the chance to reinvent himself is sooo geto to me.

OTHER THAN THAT THOUGH UR SOOO RIGHT it works so well like imagine them . on the balcony . geto is smoking and gojo is listening w stars in his eyes….. asking questions…. he’s so enamored w the city he’s so curious. the first thought that popped into my mind was gojo giving his hat to the cold bookstore girl :(((( GHHHHHH I NEED IT SO BAD STSG DLC WHENNNNN.

ALSO THIS MICKEY MICKEYYYYY THIS IS SOOO STSG ISNT IT LIKE IT EVEN WORKS ON BOTH ENDS….. i feel insane they’re the CUTEST .

[iwonderifthatisart]

Vee!! I saw Top Gun 2 yesterday and would love to hear your thoughts 😍😍

OKAY OMG. you probably weren’t expecting this much stuff, but you gave me a chance to talk about it so here goes.

first off, spoilers for top gun maverick, be warned.

So. lol. I'll preface this by saying that my thoughts on this absolutely arent objective in any way... i waited 3 (t h r e e) whole years for this movie to come out and honestly up until i was sitting in the movie theater i still thought they would push it out again, didnt feel real lmao

now a few of my thoughts, in no particular order:

i arrive at the cinema. i sit down. the lights go out. i lean over to my friend. i whisper: i hope they play Danger Zone. they HAVE to. my friend agrees. the movie starts, and lo and behold, the first notes of Danger Zone reach my ears. My crops are watered, my skin is clear. i look to my friend, we nod at each other. we turn back to the screen. we understand. we know this’ll be good.

Thought 1 flows neatly into Thought 2, which is that they knew exactly what kind of movie they were making. like, the main target audience for this movie were Dads™ and they hit the right balance between making it attractive in terms of nostalgia vs. new stuff. i think i saw a letterboxd review that phrased it like "having references to the original without being distracting" and that’s exactly what i felt like (see re: the Danger Zone example). And also: iconic homoerotic beach volleyball scene set to the tune of "playing with the boys"? turned into fun football scene on the beach set to New Music From Today (which was good, but the whole scene could've been gayer imo.)

sure. it's basically military propaganda, i know, we all know, it is known. It still looks cool as hell, i love people flying planes and say smart stuff and click a lot of buttons that look very complex and professional

AND that opening was so perfectly maverick i love it. he just HAD to push a little further

it was SO FUNNY at times! there were sincere (and at times cheesy) parts, but there were a few really funny moments that worked really well

rly liked all the new young pilots, though i expected them to focus a little more on them? but tbh it worked as it is, i didnt really felt like too much was missing (again, maybe a lil homoeroticism but you cant have everything)

Listen. Jennifer Connelly. Penny. Her character was... well. I liked her! But also. Well, she was a lil two dimensional, but idk? Or maybe its bc she was the love interest of Tom Cruise, who i really cant imagine in any kind of romantic relationship, no matter what movie he's in. I didnt really expect too much and i felt like it was done alright. it was solid.

(also... i kinda dont like tom cruise as a person, mainly bc of the whole scientology thing, but lets not get into that here. no negativity in this ask)

ofc ICEMAN!! RIP my man. Obviously wished he was in the movie more but *waves at the real life complications with Val Kilmer* still though, mav and ice texted throughout the movie and it was. so gay. like, i've read fanfiction that might have had these exact messages in them lmao

also. the whole thing about ice and mav? like we all expected there to be more of a rivalry, but they're just out here texting and chilling with each other. good for them.

"it was a nice moment, dont ruin it" lmao.

phoenix...loved her :) my girl :) also loved that they didn’t make a big deal out of ~oh shes a woman among men~ and she has to be the Strong Female Character, because that just falls flat 90% of the time

when they explained the mission to maverick and mentioned that there are still a few f14 tomcats there i was like *cocks checkovs gun* that'll come in handy later! and it did and i loved it!!

the scene where they had to fly the route in 2 mins 30 seconds and everybody’s like “thats impossible” and maverick is like “hold my beer” and does it in 2:15 and yeah i’m LIVING for that shit! call me a basic bitch i dont care!!

maverick and goose vs. maverick and rooster. we love cinematic paralles in this house

“talk to me dad” CRYING IN THE CLUB RIGHT NOW

so yeah. theres probably a lot more but i didnt want this to get so long slfksjlks.

i know its not a perfect movie, it has it’s flaws, but i enjoyed it so much! there were a lot of scenes and tropes that could’ve easily been super cliche but i thought they worked really well. or maybe i'm just biased.

please!! enlighten me with your own hot takes if you feel like it. id love to hear them <3