#maybe I'll try to work something out I would love to be able to colour jojo

[we-love-morioh-cho]

Just saw the official Shueisha Jojolands colours.......

[honeydazai]

ok ok but hubby Fyodor gave me an idea, he’s figured out i get worried when his anemia gets bad so i fuss over him

imagine like,,, him using that against u. like if he’s losing an argument, or he just wants attention, he fakes sickness to get u to drop everything ur doing and come to his aid, u immediately feel bad so he uses that to manipulate u

feat.: Fyodor / reader

content: husband Fyodor, some manipulation but it's cute, Fyodor pretending to be a pathetic meow meow, fluff, sick fic

Fyodor is fragile, that much you're aware of.

Despite his quick mind, so sharp you reckon it could cut diamond, and his powerful ability, his physical body is still frail. His skin is pale, most likely since he spends too much time inside, hunched over in front of his many PC screens, providing him with no light other than the gloom of LED monitors, thin fingers tip-tapping away on the keyboard. His undereye circles are dark enough for you to seriously worry about his health, and the many blue veins visible on thin eyelids only make him appear more sickly.

The anemia doesn't help, either; thin lips occasionally turn whiteish the longer he insists he's going to take his iron supplements once he's done with work — when is he, ever? — and his nails, kept short not only for the sake of being able to play the cello, but also since he continued biting at them, are coloured blue so often you have almost forgotten what they usually look like.

Fyodor, despite being an internationally wanted terrorist, is fragile, and that's exactly why you're unable to stop the way your chest suddenly aches with concern when he goes quiet mid-argument, gaze unfocused, glassy, as he sits down on the bed.

This really isn't the time to worry about him, especially since, just a few moments ago, you were snarling at him, obviously angered for a reason that seems entirely unimportant right now — and yet you can't help it either, your concern an emotion that blooms in your chest so very naturally, given just how much he means to you.

“Are you alright?” The words leave your mouth before you know it; your brows furrowing as you kneel down next to him, one hand on his thin upper arm. Even through the fabric of his shirt, his skin is cold. “Do you need anything?”

“I'm quite alright, dear. I would hate to bother you, especially when you still seem to harbour disdain for me.”

Even his voice sounds frail. Guilt gnaws at your every bone.

“That's not—”, you protest, a feeble attempt, though you're quick to swallow the urge to start another argument down the moment he rests his head against the wall, eyes fluttering shut, ebony lashes against snow pale skin. “I don't 'harbour disdain' . I didn't even want to fight with you, it just — happened, but that's not important now. Let me help. Did you take your meds today?”

“Not yet, I'm afraid”, Fyodor says softly, and you're up on your feet almost immediately, making your way towards the kitchen to snag the offending pills, as well as a glass of water.

“You know you're supposed to take them daily with lunch.”

“That is merely to avoid forgetting them, to build a habit. The presence or absence of sustenance has no actual effect on them.”

Your eyes narrow. Fyodor allows a tired chuckle to leave his lips.

“Alright. I will try to take them regularly — for you, dear.”

Where, just a few minutes ago, you felt the urge to slap him with wrath — not that you ever would, not that you'd dare to, but the desire certainly is there whenever he acts all high and mighty, all-knowing, even around you —, your chest now tingles with warmth, with fondness. With love.

“Thank you. Are you feeling better already?” That's to be doubted, especially since he only took the pills a moment ago. Still— “Do you need anything? Maybe something to eat — yes, I bet you haven't eaten anything in a while now, too focused on work. You're impossible. Just lie down and give me a moment, I'll be right back.”

With those words, you vanish into the kitchen, already grabbing some vegetables. A quick soup is going to have to do.

Little do you know that, while you're busy worrying and fussing over him, there's a smile playing over Fyodor's lips ever so often, vanishing the moment you enter the room once more.

You really are too easy — though that's exactly what makes you quite this lovable.

OH. Oh, he would.. he so would... this is the most in character take ever...

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[abbysimsfun]

Sims In Bloom: Generation 2 Pt. 125 (Flowers, But Everyone's On Edge!)

Conrad landed at the San Myshuno Airport just before dark, where he signed for the bodies of George and June Brindleton. After sending them off in a truck to the morgue in Brindleton Bay, he drove around the city looking for a flower shop.

Really, he was hoping one flower shop in particular was open, and he smiled as he approached The Blooming Room with its lights on.

When the bell dinged to signal his entry, a woman turned around with a smile. "How can I help you?" Her face fell. "Lieutenant Gordon. Are you looking for some flowers?"

He nodded. "Something yellow. Buttercups, if you have them."

"We don't usually put buttercups in our floral arrangements. They're a skin irritant."

He frowned. "Forget the buttercups. Just...yellow."

Melissa Ramsay looked around nervously. "Is that it?"

"You changed your hair."

"Ximena's not the only one who likes to express herself with a bottle of hair dye, I guess. I went back to my natural colour because I'm done hiding."

"I found Rafa," he said. "He's in Sulani."

"Why are you telling me this, Lieutenant? I don't care."

"I don't believe that."

"Do you still care what happens to Ximena?"

"Of course I do. But I hope Ximena ends up behind bars for as long as possible, and I think you still care about Rafa."

She laughed. "I think you don't know me."

"So if I told you how to get in touch with him, you wouldn't even want to check in?"

"Lieutenant Gordon, please!" she begged. "If I check in with him, I'll never want to let him go."

"I don't know if there's anyone else in the world who could bring Ximena down faster than her brother, but he needs to be convinced. I told him I'd try to get him a lawyer and a judge who might offer him a good deal in exchange for turning her in, but he needs a real good reason to do it. I think he still cares about you, too."

She perked up somewhat. "How good a deal?"

"A few years, maybe. If he can help us pin Ximena for the murder of Jimmy Stefano, her price will go up and his sentence could come down. But the judge would need to see he'd be a productive member of society outside the system, and strong relationships with good people can go a long way."

"I don't want you, or anyone else, to get my hopes up, Lieutenant. Or Rafa's."

"I don't want that, either," he insisted. "But the only way we can do this is if we work together to change his mind."

For the first time, Melissa seemed hopeful, and as she sold him a bouquet of carnations and daffodils, Conrad thought he'd changed her mind. But as she wrapped cellophane around the stems, she frowned. "Fifteen simoleons, Lieutenant. Happy Love Day."

He sighed, pulling the notepad and a pen from his pocket to scribble down some information while he paid. "He's not using a phone, but if you call Leila Illes and Oliana Ngata at that number, they'll rent you a villa. Their son, Tane, will be able to show you where Rafa's hiding out. Bring good shoes."

By the time he made it back to Brindleton Bay, Love Day was already over. Heather was distracted, worried over Ash's conversation with Ben, but she accepted the flowers with a smile. "I'm glad you're okay. These are beautiful."

"I'll make it up to you for missing Love Day soon, but Sulani was...an adventure. The chief called an emergency meeting to discuss the Brindletons' murder investigation. We've got to try to plan for what might crack in this town now that he's gone. I need to change and turn around again...but I found Rafa."

Heather's eyes grew wide as she threw on a sweater and he changed clothes. "You found him? Did you bring him in, too? Is that the trouble you ran into?"

"He knocked me out before he realized it was me, but he stayed with me until I came to and apologized. I tried to convince him to come back and help us get a confession out of his sister, but he turned me down."

"So you just left him there? He's a wanted criminal. Does your boss know?"

"Rafa's almost like a little brother to me. He was so young, and Ximena worked all the time."

Heather frowned. "Conrad, you're lying for him."

"I need him to trust me, Heather. I think he's the only person who can bring Ximena down. I'm trying to help him for all our sakes."

"If anyone at the station finds out you're helping him, you could lose your job."

He nodded. "I know that. But I'd risk my job a thousand times for you and the kids, too. And your family."

Heather was annoyed, and she chose this moment to announce she'd booked her long talked-about vacation with Spencer. "Spence and I are going to Selvadorada the first week of spring. She's got a dig booked right after you and Ash finish the treehouse project in Henford, and we thought since Ash will be in the city with the Landgraabs until Easter's over, the timing was sort of perfect for once."

Conrad wavered. "Do you really think going to Selvadorada's the best idea right now? If they're upset we've got one of their own behind bars, I don't want you going to their jungle."

"You don't want me going?" She eyed him incredulously. "Since when are you in charge of me?"

"I don't mean it like that, Heather. It's just the cartel..."

"You said yourself you thought they'd dropped her."

"No, I hope they've dropped her. We haven't brought them in because we don't want them to think we're sniffing around at all."

"Conrad, I'm going. You have your camping trip with Ash and I need a vacation, too. Spencer's practically an expert in Selvadoradian culture and traditions and spends more time down there than you ever have," she argued. "We spent years promising each other Ximena wouldn't control our lives from wherever she was hiding, and she's not about to start now that we know exactly where she is!"

He backed off. Heather rarely got upset and he knew he'd touched a nerve. "You're right, I'm sorry. I'm just being paranoid, and I know you and Spencer can take care of yourselves down there. I've got to get to the station, but I love you."

She accepted a kiss on the cheek. "I love you, too. And wait:" She took a deep breath. "I know you just got back, there's a lot on your plate at work, and the treehouse project's just around the corner, but I'm on edge because Ash said he saw Ben and his dog after school yesterday. I don't think he believes they're ghosts, either."

Conrad flinched. "What do you mean, he saw them?" ->

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Gen 1 Start | Gen 1 Summary

NOTE: There's no snow in the flower shop exterior shot because Conrad was in Ciudad Enamorada. He had just randomized in Media Naranja Park to pick up a suspect (unrelated technically, they were innocent of the in-game case so it didn't help his career points and wasn't a story canon pick-up). I haven't explored Ciudad Enamorada enough but I saw the flower shop and thought it was adorable. Suddenly, he needed to get flowers for Heather. And since he needs Melissa's help and she doesn't live in Ciudad Enamorada, voila the flower shop is in San Myshuno (which gets less snow than Brindleton Bay, anyway, and it's almost spring!)

NOTE 2: If Melissa is unrecognizable, that's because I lost the original (the game deleted her before I could save her after she appeared among the potential suspects for a crime Conrad was solving for gameplay that I turned into storyline). I tried to recreate her but it was hard so I played up how she's changed her appearance a bit since last seen. If this was a TV soap, there'd be a random voiceover when she appeared on camera: "The role of Melissa Ramsay will now be played by so-and-so."

WCIF Flower Shop: Since the flower shop in Media Naranja is a rabbit hole, I found this room on the Sims 4 Gallery by plumlala3 called Betty's Flower Shop. I thought the interior was really cute, stuffed with flowers, and felt small enough to somewhat represent the inside of the small shop in the park!

[allgearlit]

Hello ! I wonder if you're new on tumblr. If yes then i'd like to welcome you and i just read your work with starscream and it was super adorable and also heart warming😭❤️

If it's okay i'd like to request a small drabble with g1 Starscream and female human reader first contact au where a fem reader was taking a walk and suddenly finds abandonet jet and decides to take a look and then i'll leave the rest to you <3

OR something a bit more dark with also g1 Starscream and fem human reader where reader is being an unwilling captive and he decides to explore her organic nature ( could be a little non-con/nsfw-ish if that's okay if not then i comepletely understand <3)

You can pick between those two any you like more <3 thanks a lot for reading ans i hope you'll get a warm welcome🥰❤️

Hello! Thank you so much for the ask - I'm not new to tumblr per-say, I started as an art blog and decided to pivot to writing since that's more of my passion anyhow. Though I appreciate the welcome! <3

I love both ideas - I hope you won't mind if I maybe make the latter at a later date (with credit to you for the idea). The first one though; that screams (heh) mini series. I love the BumbleBee movie so much and fantasize about Charlie's scenario with other bots, so I'll make this into it's own little drabble series. I hope that's acceptable! ☆

G1!Starscream x Fem!Human!Reader: The Starscream Movie AU Pt1

I couldn’t tell you the time if I tried. I needed peace, freedom from my thoughts. A walk late in the night was my best solution. Anyone could tell you I haven’t been feeling my best recently, though to pin-point the problem would be an anxiety riddled mess in of itself. I walked down by the nearby lake that always looked so much bigger at night. Perhaps it was the contrast between it’s glistening blue water to the velvety black sky, or the way the stars hit the rippling water, creating a galaxy effect. Regardless, it was one of my few favourite spots in the area.

There was a bench that was almost always vacant, near the centre of the lake, just where the bend dipped over the shore in a gentle fashion. As I approached, something else caught my attention. A ship, or jet? I couldn’t quite tell in the light. It looked like something straight out of the military. I took in a sharp breath as the curiosity bubbled in my throat. I wanted to inspect the craft, anxiety and logic going out the window as I approached. It was a slender build, likely only able to house one person at best. The thought of there potentially being a body in the cockpit made me shudder, but I knew I had to check.

Reaching over with my shaking hand, I rubbed over the golden paneling, to my good fortune, it was empty. However, this lead to a new line of questioning, where had it come from?

I continue inspecting the craft, my hand gliding over the metal nonchalantly as I analyze it like an artifact. Something else catches my eye, a purple symbol - almost like a horned creature. Instinctively, my fingers glide over the etching, mesmerized by its rich colouring and definition. Whatever it meant was unfamiliar to me.

After my thorough inspection of the exterior, a little click and hissing noise arises from the cockpit, opening the sealed space. It was as if I was being invited into whatever this machine was, and I couldn’t help my temptations to peek. Climbing up onto the jet, I shuffled into its cockpit, as quickly as it had opened for me, it slammed shut.

An involuntary yelp escapes my lips as I hear the lock click into place, it was as if the jet was alive. Pressing my palms onto the panel, I whimper as I try to get it to open. A sudden noise fills the air, it sounded like robotic laughter. The noise startled me, and promptly caused me to land flat on my bum in the seat.

“Who’s there?”

Despite attempting to sound confident, my voice comes out as a weak whimper, panicked and unsure. The robotic laughter stops, and a voice comes out instead.

“Stuck on this wretched planet for less than half a cycle, and already an inhabitant has decided to be stupid enough to touch me.”

The voice was snivelly, snarky, and cybernetic. The kind that makes one a pinch uneasy. It filled the air almost too evenly, as if the words were coming from the jet itself. In my moment of logic, I begin trying once more to push the panel up, when the voice mocked me once more.

“Don’t bother, I’m keeping you in here so we can have a little chat.”

Defeated, I let my frame sink into the rather uncomfortable seat. Frustration bubbles within me as I look around the tiny space.

“Alright, let’s talk.” I speak up, my voice hoarse with that anxiety. “What are you?”

A light on the console shines as he prepares to speak, though nothing is obvious or makes any sense to me. Perhaps I was too oblivious to notice it at first.

“The name is Starscream, second in command of the Decepticons. Though, I don’t think your puny little flesh-bag brain can handle all of this info, I’m a Cybertronian.”

Every word that Starscream speaks makes me doubt him, as if the word  Decepticon wasn’t already suspicious enough.

“So, you’re a race of alien jets?”

This prompts a grunt, and I swear if he had eyes they’d be rolling.

“No fleshie. We’re robots who can change our forms. This jet you’re in is my alt-form.”

Before I can even ask, I’m suddenly shuffled inside the cockpit as it literally changes shape with me inside. I roll around like a towel in the washer, when suddenly it finishes with me in the palm of a massive robot's hand. Starscream looks down at me with piercing red orbs. He has a smirk on his face as he looks at me, before proceeding to tousle me in his hand.

“You’re cuter than I thought, I might just keep you.” His voice is the same snarky tone as  before, though now it’s clear that he is far more comfortable with me. I feel my face grow pink at the prospect of becoming his - human pet? I’m not sure what he’d make me, but regardless, I try to refute.

“Now wait a second -”

However, He places his thumb over my lips to promptly silence me, walking to where who knows where until he stands still and look down at me.

“...Where is your home fleshie?”

[l0vem41l]

can you write like some cute head cannons for johnathan ohnn w like a short chubby female s/o like i can imagine him w someone like that !! it would be even cuter if they were like a artist or something <3

perfect.

「 tws + notes: no tws, unedited, reader is an artist– specifically a visual artist becuz WOOO u be drawin babey!!! if u meant otherwise i am So Sorry, pre colider johnathan ohnn, terribly, horribly, and awfully sweet and cliche i Cannot Escape Myself 」

「 fem!reader, romantic relationship <3 」

↳ ft. johnathan ohnn

author's note: FIRST REQ OF THIS ACCOUNT YIPPEE!!! thank u 4 the req anon (´▽`ʃƪ) <3 hoping this is what u want! ALSO!!!! my first time writing specifically for a chubby reader insert so i hope i did ok! (๑•́ ₃ •̀๑) feedback appreciated if there is any u'd like 2 share :D

▸ short chubby girlf,,, ouuughhwhhe oh my goodness,,, johnathan thinks ur absolutely adorable there is No Doubt About It!!!!!

▸ you are just the loveliest thing he's ever seen– and he'll remind you everyday.

well. okay maybe not completely verbally. there's something about being in love that makes johnathan feel like a lovestruck teenager all over again– all of a sudden, he's stumbling over the half sentences falling out of his lips and getting all red in the face while he tries to verbalize how pretty you are

he'll shut his mouth. eventually.... give him a kiss to shut him up!! it'll work! until he ends up blabbering again cuz he wants another one and gets a bit nervous about that too

▸ okay, but he's not,,, all nerves. he's able to pull himself together to show how much he appreciates you. again, physically affectionate. i feel it in my soul that he is a sucker for physical affection. with you?? it's just amplified.

thinks your height is perfect,, burying your face in his chest while he holds you in his arms? chef's kiss. secretly hoping you don't hear how embarrassingly fast his heart is pounding.

ur chubby too?? that meanz there's more to love!!!! more to embrace!!! there are no downsides to you :]]

this is how he reminds you how perfect you are in his eyes– all through touch. always gentle, always sweet. his favourite thing is when your cheek is pressed up against his chest when you're cuddling and you look up at him. he feels his brain stop every single time, his gaze meeting your pretty eyes.

you murmur a quiet, "i love you" and it takes a moment for him to say it back– not because he doesn't want to, but because it's these moments where he realizes how much he lucked out to have someone like you

▸ ARTIST GIRLF??? even better. johnathan ohnn is a scientist, through and through... but it doesn't mean he can't appreciate art when he sees it!!

"it... it's fine if i look, right?" he asks, his hand hovering over your sketchbook, waiting for your permission.

this was the first time you had ever left your sketchbook face open around him. while you were off doing something else, he had been fighting the temptation to look through it. he did understand art was personal, and he's tryin' not to accidentally overstep anything

"i mean... sure?" you say with a little shrug. "i haven't really gotten to filling it up yet so it's a little bare an–"

you barely get the words out. he's picked it up, flipping through the pages like the secrets of the universe were hidden somewhere in between.

"hey that's pretty cool!" his eyes light up as he admires the things you've created. he'll gush over your work, tryin to talk with artistic terms.

he's out here like, "i like the use of complementary colours!"

"...i only used charcoal for that." HES TRYING. not hard enough tho cuz dawg cmon. /j maybe,,, you could teach him about art?? wink wink nudge nudge >:]

he's about to flip another page– but you place your hand atop his to stop him.

"there's nothing left to see so,, uhh– i'll just take that back now." you say awkwardly. he won't fight you about it. maybe frown a bit about it– maybe some art was more personal thank he thought.

def thinks abt what was on those other pages... there was almost 100% a drawing– he was halfway to flipping the page over, he definitely saw something.

▸ politeness of not crossing boundaries aside, unfortunately he's an idiot (SLASH JAY) and doesn't know the first rule of interacting with an artist.

dreaded from anyone else, usually, but... bearable when it was him requesting it. gives you plenty of time and room to say no.

"you should draw me!" ☝️🤓

this is how you find yourself over at his apartment. he's seated on a chair across from your own, trying to figure out how you want him to pose for this drawing.

"tilt your head towards me– no, wait, not like... hold on–" you stand up, making your way over to him.

"i'm literally doing everything you're telling me to do, i don't know what you want me to d..." he trails off as you gently grasp his chin.

you suppress a giggle, watching eyes widen slightly as a strangled noise coming from his parted lips but no words but certainly no complaints.

with a firm yet soft grip, you position his head slightly and let go with a smile. "perfect. you stay right there."

GOES STILL ASF THE ENTIRE TIME SO HE DOESNT F UP UR DRAWING PROCESS HWDJFHEWUIFH bros hardly breathing

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"you know," you comment, eyes focused on your sketchbook as your pencil works to draw him, "you've got a really interesting face."

the corners of his lips quirk up into a half-smile, his brow furrowing ever so slightly at your words. "thank you? y'know when you word it like that, it makes it sound like a skillfully veiled insult." johnathan quips. you're making him wonder if being considered "handsome by scientist standards" counts for anything in the eyes of an artist.

it earns a little laugh from you. "not what i meant."

your words immediately flood him with relief. you swear you hear him go "phew." what a dork.

"there's something about all your features," you continue, looking back up at him, "they just fit so perfectly on you. like everything was just meant to be there."

he falls silent for a moment, your words echoing in his mind. he wished he could work with words in the way you did.

"hey. look back up at me." you smile, holding up the paper and turning it for him to see.

"wow..." he reaches out, gently taking it from you. it takes a few moments for him to speak up again. "it's..."

"okay, hopefully?" you chime in, your hands clasped in your lap as you try your best not to anxiously fidget.

"perfect." he replies instead. "you're perfect– i mean, your work is obviously, yeah sure but you,,, you just–"

johnathan holds the paper in one hand, gesturing vaguely to you with the other. you giggle.

"well thank you."

he grins. "it was worth sitting here for like what? a few hours? man, it was hard trying to keep that position."

"johnny?"

"hm?..."

you laugh and he looks,,, confused. he awkwardly chuckles along with you.

"what? what's so funny?" he asks.

"i coulda worked without you posing like that. i've seen your face enough to work without a reference."

he watches as you flip back to the pages of the sketchbook he didn't see.

and it's him. whole pages,,, of drawing of him.

there's a glint of mischief in your eyes. "it was funny seeing you try to hold still for so long though."

▸ he finds something new to love about you every day. sometimes, he'll see all the things you do for him and try to measure up.

no matter what he does– and damn, will he do anything and everything for you– he can't help but feel like he's falling short. just a little.

after all, how do you love someone so perfect?

he certainly hasn't figured out. he could give you all the love in the universe, and he'd still think you still deserve more he's right

the night is quiet. you're on his couch, the shitty romcom you put on just to joke about with him no longer interesting either of you. your eyes are shut as he holds you in his arms, your head resting on his chest. his eyes are filled with adoration, looking at you, being all comfy and adorable in his arms.

johnathan leans down, pressing a quick, soft kiss to your forehead.

"...what was that for?" you mumble sleepily.

"nothing." there's a pause for a moment, as he tries to find the right thing to tell you– the way to phrase what's been on his mind since forever– and just ends up sighing instead. no flowery language could convey it. maybe being straightforward could help.

"you're just... perfect. y'know that?"

— reblogs always appreciated!

[magerywrites]

magery hello,,!! i hope this isnt too forward but i discovered you via _maiqo on twitter a long while ago and have been absolutely enamored by your works ever since — your writing is an enormous inspiration to me and i sincerely hope that my works can one day match the same level of excellence.

you absolutely dont have to indulge me at all, but is there any advice you can give in terms of writing character studies? :’D if not its totally ok !! and anything works !! i just figured it’s worth a shot haha

Thank you very much! It's always lovely to learn that what I've written has meant something to someone. I appreciate it.

In an attempt to answer your question, I'll talk about how I think about and approach character studies. It may be that much of what I say fails to be useful to you, but I hope to be of some small aid regardless!

To begin, I think the most fundamental element of writing a character study—as a piece of fanfiction, though much of this can be applied without significant difficulty to orginal works—is to have a firm vision of who the character is to you.

This is separate from having a firm vision of who the character "really" is. Nobody can have that—every way we engage with media is coloured by our own values and perspectives, and that bleeds into the way we think about and write characters. This is sometimes a difficult dichotomy to balance against the principle of "they would not fucking say that", but to borrow some old and too-simplified physics, I think it can be useful to consider that a character is in many ways like an electron in an electron cloud. Their precise and perfect characterisation is not something that we can ever truly locate, but we can identify the area of narrative space it is most likely to be in.

The task of the character study, I feel, is to hammer down on the part of that narrative space that you find most compelling. To take the meat of their character and cook it the way you would want it served to you. A character study is not to please anyone else. A character study—or, at least, the kind of character study I write—exists for you to get your feelings out about the character you have been rotating in your brain onto the page. It also exists, of course, so that you can try to show those feelings to other people and hope they feel them too, but you will never succeed in actually capturing those feelings in the first place if you don't allow yourself to write your authentic vision of the character.

They don't have to be your blorbo, or your problematic fave, or your three corners of the OC design triangle, or whatever, but when you write them, for that space and time they do have to be yours. Otherwise, what's the point?

Once you have that vision, you can put them in practically any situation you like and as long as there's something in it for them to bounce off, you're going to be able to tell a story that reveals something about the character. If you look at the "plots" of a selection of my character studies, we have "one guy folds sheets, another guy asks him questions" as a plot, we have "a pair of exes talk across a tabletop after a party", we have "oh LAWD they FAWKING" like four and a half times, we have "retelling the plot of something else" twice, and we even have "two people on a helicopter flight for an hour". It's not really complicated stuff. It doesn't need to be. The character, or characters, just need to be in a situation where they're going to have some reason to think about, and maybe even talk about, whatever conflict or idea or relationship you find most compelling about them.

With that said, it should be noted that it's... well, for me, with the way I do things, it's very very difficult to conceive of writing a character study in any situation without a clear and central conflict the character or characters are grappling with. All of my character studies revolve around a problem a character has and how they react to it. And yes, "having a conflict" is, like, the quiddity of a story, the most basic plot diagram there is. But what I'm trying to say here is that even in the story I mentioned where two people sit in a helicopter and talk to each other, the story is intensely focused on the internal struggle one of those characters is having with the choices that led to her sitting in that helicopter and how much they do, or don't, make her like the person she's sitting opposite (both more and less than she knows). And that's the sort of thing that I think is key. The conflict, in my eyes, needs to be philosophically central to the way you view the character and what you want to say about them. It needs to be tightly intertwined into what you find most compelling about them—the thing that you just want to sink your hands into and squeeze, for good or ill. That's how you get to really show the world who they are and why you care about that.

After that, I really think that in a lot of ways it just comes down to the prose. How deeply can you write into your character's head? Are you colouring even your description of the world around them with the way they would see it—or are you taking the opposite path and presenting the character entirely through someone else's eyes, so that you can characterise them through the distance between what the other person thinks about them and how they present themselves? You don't need frame-perfect metaphors or the Inanna-Ishtar LGBTQIA+ sharingan-coloured prose to do that, but you do need to focus on writing in a way that expresses the character.

This does take focus. How much focus depends on how specialised you are into that style of prose, but it is focus nonetheless: you need to think of your sentences, each and every one, as tools to communicate something about your understanding of the character that you want the audience to know. Some of them will inevitably instead become vehicles to reach a point where you can communicate that understanding, but something as simple as what a character notices first when they walk into a room tells you something about them. Lean on that. Lean into that. After all, if you're writing a character study, the writing should study your character.

(Colour this advice with the fact that I am, as you've probably realised from reading my writing, very much a prose-focused writer. I have spent near on fifteen years, since before I even graduated high school, honing my prose for poetry of language and interiority so that I can write in the way I most enjoy reading. That affects what I value in writing, and it affects my opinion on the way people should write. I believe what I am saying is true and good and useful, because I have faith in the way I engage with my art, but my advice does not chart the sole and singular course to the ever-distant utopia.)

To tl;dr myself, my advice for writing character studies fundamentally boils down to to the idea that I think a character study is most potent when it presents a vision of a character that the writer has clearly obsessed over. That they have layered with their thoughts, their perspective, and their heart to the degree that it drips even from their prose. A character study with the confidence to say this is what I think is compelling about this character, and I want you to see it too.

I may not agree with it, I may think "They Would Not Have Fucking Said That", I may even think the writer has just invented an unsustainable interpretation of the character that demonstrates startling reading incomprehension and I can't believe I have to share the same fandom as these people.

But at the same time, I know people have thought and said that about my own works—and I'm still happy that I wrote them.

I have far more respect for someone who's written an entirely committed and deranged interpretation of a character that I think is Flatly Fucking Wrong than I do someone who presents me with the most milquetoast interpretation I can't disagree with. If I choose to read a character study, it's because I want to see you study the character. That's, as the meme goes, why I'm here.

So, really: focus on determining who you think the character is, write them the way you want to see them written, keep your prose tight to who you think the character is (not just "would they say that?" or "would they think that?" but "how would they describe that?" and "what would they see in that?"), and commit to the bit.

(If you've managed to read to the bottom—thank you for entertaining my rambling, and I hope it helped!)

[cyandreamzaceattorney]

✧ Lunch hangout ✧

Yesterday I finished a marker drawing I have been working on on and off for a week because I felt like drawing a scene rather than characters posing in some ambiguous space XD.

I ended up drawing Kay, Ema, Franziska and Maya all hanging out because I really love the idea of these four being friends and just going to a takeaway restaurant together even though they're all very different from each other. I had a lot of fun drawing this, not only because I designed a fun takeaway space (cuz most takeaway chain restaurants look like sad generic hipster cafes if they've been updated/built in the last 15 years and I was not going to draw that!) but also because I do like how much story telling I was able to convey in this drawing and, I definitely want to try and draw more story telling art this year!

Only things I dislike about this drawing is Ema's outfit, though I think it's mostly the colours throwing me off because, I was avoiding giving her a green outfit, and also avoiding giving her a pink shirt (cuz Maya's shirt is pink) leading to it's current colour palette... maybe the pants bring brown would've saved it? Idk. Still like the design though (it's inspired by mid 2000s fashion because that definitely influenced her aa4 design imo).

But I really like everything else, with Maya putting chips on her burger being my favourite part. Because it's something I did when I used to enjoy fast food and, I definitely feel like Franziska is snobby enough to judge Maya for doing this XD. I also had a lot of fun designing all the outfits, especially Kay and Maya's because their outfits reference game lore relating to them both :3.

Oh and I drew Kay flat cuz I was talking to an aa fan online, and they hc Kay and non-binary and think Kay would totally enjoy being more aerodynamic post top surgery, and while I'm not sure what gender I personally hc Kay as, I do like the idea of Kay getting top surgery regardless of gender and enjoying being more aerodynamic as it makes being a great thief a lot easier! :D

Anyways I hope you all enjoy this drawing, I most likely won't post more stuff in near future, let alone aa fanart, as I have a big thing happening in my personal life next week (if all goes well!) that will unfortunately mean I'll probably not be able to draw much, if at all, over the following weeks.

Furthermore my aa hyperfixation is kinda going away, I think? Still love the franchise, just not as intensely as I have over the past few months so that may affect how often I feel like doing aa fan works. Hope you all understand :-)

[rustycopper4use]

It’s Always Been You (Re-write)

Pt 7

….

“Welcome!”

….

Two Ouran students made their way outside the school doors, Haruhi and Y/n. 

“—And that’s why I firmly believe that unless you extremely colour-blind it’s unlikely that you’ll know you’re colour-blind.” Y/n adjusted his shoulder bag straps.

“That’s certainly something…” Haruhi looks off to the side.

“Why did you want to walk with me again?” 

“Can’t a man walk his friend home with no alternative motives?” Y/n grinned. 

A sleek black limousine pulled up right in front of the two, the twins pop out immediately grabbing Haruhi.

“Okay, maybe there is an alternative motive.”

“Target acquired.” Hikaru and Karou push Haruhi closer to the limo, Y/n trailing behind.

The limos window moves down revealing Tamaki who is wearing shades.

“Good work, now take her with you.” The window rolls up and drives away.

“What the-?!” Haruhi immediately whips her head back to Y/n. 

“Don’t take it personally, it’s just business.” Y/n gave an eerie closed eye smile, reminding Haruhi of a certain black haired host.

…

The palm trees glisten, the sun shines a warm glow. And in the middle of this tropical paradise, resides the host club, lounging on pool chairs.

Haruhi is looking out onto the scenery, and behind her is Tamaki. “Behold Haruhi.” He puts a hand on her shoulder. “Bask in the beauty of tropical birds! Aren’t they breathtaking? I wonder what they’re called..”

“Um… where was the exit again?” Haruhi tiredly asked.

“Try to make the most of this down time and just relax. We’re so worried about keeping our good looks day and night, we deserve a little vacation.” Tamaki spoke, holding a drink.

“Personally I think this is pointless and a waste of time, so can I go home now? I should be studying and I’ve got a ton of laundry to do today. Senpai, where are we anyway?” Haruhi complained.

“This place is a brand new theme park that my family, the Ootori group runs. It’s called the ‘Tropical Aqua Garden’.” Kyoya explained. 

Haruhi turned to look at him.

“I don’t understand. I thought the Ootori group ran hospitals and that they’re focused on the medical business Kyoya senpai?”

“Yes, but my family likes to diversify and try different things. Besides, this place could be classified as a healing facility.” 

Haruhi still looked confused.

“It’s therapeutic. Think of all the people that are overworked that would love a vacation in the south tropics. However, they may not be able to take the time off or they may not have the money to do so. Those people can now seek refuge here at this theme park and reduce their stress levels. The Ootori group’s primary concern has always been for the good health and well being of the general public.” Kyoya pushes up his glasses, with a smile.

“The park doesn’t officially open until next month, but the host club was given an advance invitation.”

Tamaki runs a hand through his hair. “This is so relaxing… we don’t have to worry about keeping our guests entertained, this is truly like a holiday for handsome young soldiers. I guess you would call it…” Tamaki calmly spoke.

“For once Haruhi just take a break, the world isn’t going to end if you do.” Y/n spoke, sitting cross leg on one of the chairs next to Haruhi.

“I know it’s not.” Haruhi sighed.

“Well you don’t act like it.” Y/n smiled.

"Haru-Chan! Wanna share some coconut juice with me? Or do you wanna try a piece of the mango cake?" Honey bounces towards Haruhi.

"Yea sure, I'll have some coconut juice with you."

“Haruhi! You wanna go check out the water slide?” Kaoru walked up to her.

“Hang on, what’s the deal with that pull over you’re wearing?” Hikaru spoke, pointing at Haruhi’s outfit.

“Oh this thing?” She pulled on the yellow hoodie.

“My theory is Tamaki couldn’t stand Haruhi wearing anything ‘scandalous’ in front of a group of guys.” Y/n dryly spoke.

“So you’re not gonna swim with us?” Hikaru questioned.

“Hold on, you do know how to swim don’t you?” “I can swim just as good as the next guy, this just isn’t my idea of fun. I’m not all that big on water parks. We’re just gonna spend all day goofing off. Honestly, I’d rather be at home. I mean all you really need to play in water is a plastic pool.” Haruhi complained. “A plastic pool, what’s that?” The twins questioned looking at each other. “Let’s see, I guess they’re about this big.” She moved her hands to show a circle.

“—Round, and to use it you have to pump it full of air.”

“You dunce.” Hikaru states.

“That’s an inflatable boat dummy.”

“There’s no way something that small can be used as a pool.”

“Yeah.”

“Guys it’s a small pool! Haven’t you ever seen little kids playing in one!” Haruhi started getting more irritated, Y/n snickered at the trio. Tamaki quickly pulls the twins to the side for a ‘private’ discussion.

"You idiots, if Haruhi thinks it's a pool then it's a pool, got it!? Don't go embarrassing her, she can't help it she's an ignorant commoner!" He whispered yelled.

"So are we supposed to lie to her? Is that what you want?" The twins side-eyed Haruhi.

"I can't help but feel like I should be offended by that comment." Haruhi looks over to Y/n with an exasperated look. “You have to know what I��m talking about.” He paused for a moment before speaking with a lazy smile, taking a sip from his drink.  “No idea what youre talking about.”

“Damn rich people..” she muttered.

“I’ve got a question for you, Haruhi.” Y/n leans closer to Haruhi,

“Are you aware you have those three wrapped around your finger?” Y/n motions towards the twins and Tamaki.

“I don’t understand.” Haruhi raised a brow.

“You can’t be this oblivious.” He tilts his head to the side.

"Nevermind that, we've got a question for ya." 

"Why did you make Haruhi put on that yellow monstrosity?" Tamaki looks nervously at the twins.

"I would've thought for sure you'd be all-"

"I wanna see Haruhi in a swimsuit!" Hikaru tries to mimic the blonde.

 "Not making her cover up like that." 

"It was surprising."

"I know what he's up to. He made Haruhi cover up because he didn't want anyone else to see her in a bathing suit!" Hikaru gives an evil grin,

"Do you really think that's it?" Karou covers his mouth in ‘shock’.

 "He must be one of those jealous pervert types. That's pretty twisted." 

"That's not it at all! I was just trying to protect her innocence as any father or guardian would! After all, even if she is wearing a swimsuit, it is not decent for a lady to walk around half naked in front of boys! And-" Tamaki noticed the twins pointed, following the direction he saw Haruhi right behind him. She’s pissed.

"Haru-Chan!" Honey runs up to Haruhi, wrapping his arms around her.

"Lets play~! You wanna go swimming in the current pool with me?"

"Nah, I'm not gonna swim today. Hold on," Haruhi looks down staring at his pink floating around his waist.

"you know how to swim, so you still need that float?"

"Mm-mm, just looks cuter this way y'know?" Honey gives a twirl,

“You’re right, those bunnies are pretty cute.” Haruhi gives a small smile.

“It looks nice on you Honey.” Y/n smiled.

“He’s so innocent.” The twins happily spoke.

“No way! You got it all wrong!” A voice thundered across the resort. Gears turn and grind and Renge appears on a platform. “Wait, is that Renge?” Haruhi looks around.

“Who else would make an entrance like that?” Y/n states. Renge laughs, she’s wearing a purple two piece, with a matching umbrella. And a weird tattoo on her stomach.

“How does she do that? It’s like the rig followed us..” Haruhi starts nervously sweating.

“That outfit’s pretty impressive.” Hikaru spoke. “What’s with the tattoo on your stomach?” Kaoru narrowed his eyes.

“Oh that? You don’t recognize it? I'm cosplaying!” Renge explained.

“Yeah, as who?” Hikaru continued.

“La-la!” She proudly answered.

“Like the manga magazine?” Y/n looks are her..

“Her petite and slender frame! Her blue eyes that light up young men’s faces! Her singing voice! I am Quon Kisaragi.” She happily rambles.

“I wouldn’t have guessed.” Haruhi plainly spoke.

“I had no idea who you were supposed to be.” Tamaki truthfully spoke.

Renge goes over to Haruhi and Y/n, excitedly posing showing off her cosplay, while the twins crouch down with the prince.

“Hey boss, are you sure it’s okay for Renge to be dressed like that?” The twins whispered.

“Well yeah, that’s okay.” Tamaki whispered back.

“And why is that?” Hikaru furrowed his brow.

“Because it’s cosplay.. I guess.” Tamaki spoke unsure of his answer.

“Maybebecauseit’snotHaruhidressinglikethat” Y/n quickly spoke between fake coughs.

“What was that?” Tamaki asked.

“Don’t worry about it.” Y/n takes a sip from his drink, a smirk placed on his face.

“Listen up boys!” Renge yells.

“Obviously you need to understand Haninozuka’s hidden motives!” She points at the boy in question.

Honey jumps into the pool, blissfully unaware of the rest of the eyes now on him.

“What are you talking about?” Tamaki spoke in disbelief.

“Think about what he said earlier.” She states.

‘Just looks cuter this way, y’know?’ Shock floods through the Twins, Tamaki and Haruhi, at honey's unlining motivations. “That’s Haninozuka for you! In the last chapter he felt threatened by another loli boy type so he’s taken steps to keep his rank. I should give him more credit. He’s a lot smarter than I thought.” Renge disappears from her platform taking her back down to the ground.

“…Do you think she waits on the platform for the perfect moment to appear. Like she has to, right?” Y/n looks over to the hosts.

“Hey look at this everybody! Check it out! Look, even though we’re swimming really fast we never go any further than we are now!” Honey happily explained, as he was on Mori’s back swimming in the pool. The host club whips their heads, with a sense of dread. 

Tamaki, however, gets pulled back into reality, by a harsh shot of water to his face from none other than the twins.

“I got you.” Hikaru teased, with a devilish grin.

“Cmon boss, let’s go and have a water fight.” Kaoru spoked.

“Forget it, why would I subject myself to such childish games.” Tamaki rudely declined., drying off his face. The twins look at each other, and suddenly Hikaru pulls Haruhi over to them.

“Haruhi I think it’s about time we get married.” Hikaru cooed.

“Then we’ll honeymoon in Atami.” Kaoru smirked, adding more fuel to the fire.

Tamaki swipes the water gun, and starts harshly pumping the gun. “Do you really think I'd let Haruhi marry you two!” He looks at the twins, who are anxious at his reaction. “Daddy says no!” He chases the twins, now out for blood.

“Kyoya, Wanna bet on who gets hurt first?” Y/n tilts his head with a smirk. “What would be the benefit for that?” He looks up from his book.

“How about this, whoever bets wrong owes the other a favour. No strings attached.” Y/n offered. “Do we have a deal?” He smiles. “You’ve piqued my interest.” Kyoya agrees. “Alright then,” Y/n smiled.

“My moneys on Tamaki.” Y/n vaguely gestures towards the blonde hunting down the twins, Kyoya thinks for a moment before responding.

“Hikaru.” He looks back down at his book. Y/n nodded his head, now more invested in the water fight.

“That’s cheating!” Tamaki slipped and bashed his head on a totem pole face first. The totem made a clicking noise like a button, soon after loud beeping noise blurts from it. The current wave begins making harsher and more aggressive waves.

“That was quick.” Y/n got up from his chair. Honey is still having the time of his life in the wave pool, giggling unaware of the looming danger. Glass shattered as Mori dropped his drink, noticing the situation.

“Huh?” Honey, confused, gets suddenly trampled by the wave, launching his floaty in the air, he screams for help.

“Honey-senpai!” Haruhi yelled.

“Mitsukuni!”Honey gets dragged away by the sharp waves, getting farther and farther from the group. Mori hastily tried to chase after Honey, however the ground had other ideas and made the man stumble and tripped. “Holy shit.” Y/n covered his mouth. What bad set design.

“Gentlemen! We’re going after Honey-senpai! That pool looks like it goes that way, charge!” Tamaki and the club run past Kyoya, and Y/n. “Wait, I wouldn’t go-“ Kyoya gets interrupted by a chorus of screams now running the opposite direction.

“Just let them learn the natural consequences.” Y/n crossed his arms.

“There are alligators in there!” Tamaki shirked. They run towards another pool only to be ment with the same fate as the last. “What’s.. with.. all the.. alligators” Haruhi spoke through panted breath. “Beats me too..” Tamaki also spoke out of breath.

“Those alligators belong to the parks tropical animals exhibit. Kind of dangerous to let them run wild. Though, the cause of our present situation seems to be of the switch for the current pool. I’ll have a little chat with our designers.” He wrote in his black notebook, and then snaps it closed.

“Thanks a lot you guys! I got some great data today.” He spoke with a cheerful tone. 

“You. What?” The group looks towards the two.

“This is a map of the Tropical Aqua Garden. This is our location, we need to get here, I have a feeling that’s where Honey-senpai ended up. To get there we have to make it through the southern jungle block. Distance wise we’re talking eight hundred meters.”He points towards the map.

“Looks like there’s a lot of underdeveloped areas, any idea what may be lurking there?” Haruhi questioned.

“Since they’re still being developed, I’m afraid I don’t know.” He calmly explained.

“Whatever is in those areas could be even more deadly than an alligator.” The twins shivered.

…

The group began to tread the unknown land, pushing past bushes and other such foliage.

"Alright! Now this is a mission of survival! I know we can make it through the treacherous jungle in once piece! It is our sworn duty to save Huni-Senpai!"

“Wow this is really like a real jungle!” Tamak praised.

“Yeah I keep hearing these animal calls.” Haruhi spoke.

“You don’t think those sounds could belong to the real thing?” The twins fearfully spoked, as bird calls came right after.

“To be honest I’m not sure, but I do know my family always strives for authenticity at any cost.” Kyoya mentioned not easing the twins' nerves.

“So we’re sacrificing Tamaki if we run into potential animals. Right?” Y/n teased. Tamaki let out an offended squeal. Mori catches everyone off guard, and makes an almost pathetic fall.    

“Great, now Tamaki infected Mori with his clumsy personality.” Y/n muttered with a tired sigh.

“Shut up!” Tamaki protests.

Mori gets himself back up, and Mori sniffs the change in the air. “Oh it’s about time for the squall.” Kyoya explained, as rain pours heavily right after.

The hosts find a canopy to seek shelter.

“Hey Mori-senpai, you seem really close with Honey-senpai. Are the two of you like childhood friends?” Haruhi looks towards Mori.

“You mean you don’t know that they’re cousins?” The twins asked.

“You're kidding! They’re related?” Haruhi exclaimed, shock at the information. “The Morinozukas have been serving the Haninozuka family for generations.” Kyoya adds. “I believe two or so generations ago the familes became relatives by marriage, and soon that dynamic burned out.” Y/n explains. “But even so, Mori-senpai has always made a point to accompany Honey-senpai.” Kaoru continued. The twins cry out. “Such a beautiful story.”

“I don’t know if you would really call that a beautiful story.” Haruhi muttered.

She walked up to Mori.

“Hey Mori-senpai, it’s gonna be alright. I’m sure that Honey-senpai is safe, he’s a lot tougher than you might think he is, and if he gets hungry the trees are full of bananas.” She gives a kind smile. Everyone stared, waiting for Mori’s reaction.

“You’re right.” He gave a faint smile, and slightly ruffled Haruhi’s hair.

“Don’t tell me Mori-senpai’s out for my spot as Haruhi’s daddy!” Tamaki cried. “Tamkai, stop making it weird.” Y/n scolded.

“Nobody wants that spot but you boss.” Hikaru spoke, sliding next to Y/n.

“That’s kinda creepy, when you really think about it.” Kaoru mentions. “What! Who’re you calling creepy!” Tamaki screeched.

Kyoya's phone rings through The chaos and he answers.

“Hello? It’s me. Well, we’ve had an incident that’s caused some trouble.” Some mumbled static answers back,

“Yes, at once please.” Kyoya firmly spoke.

He hangs up.

“Finally calling your family’s police force.” Y/n teased, looking back. 

The twins went over to bother Tamaki.

Tamaki and the rest of the circus starts heading towards their previous planned path, but Mori heads the opposite direction, Haruhi, the only one to notice, follows Mori.

“My family’s private police force is going to send in a search and rescue team to help us. They’re better equipped for finding Honey-senpai than we are, so let’s just go by the gate and wait there.” Kyoya states. But to no avail, the three idiots were too busy bickering to pay attention.

“Wait, where’s Mori, and Haruhi.” Y/n looks back at the group, noticeably lacking two more members.

‘This can’t be good.’ Y/n thought.

The group decided to cut their losses and make their way back to the resort’s gate.

“Y’know, I don’t believe I mentioned to them that there are other visitors here.. Huh, oh well.” Kyoya rather calmly mentions.

“How do you forget to mention they’re other people there?” Y/n sighed. Crashing and screams echoed throughout the forest.

“Looks like we found them.”

The groups go to the noise.

Mori is in the middle littered with hundreds of unconscious policemen, while Haruhi was in Mori’s arms, along with none other than Honey by them. “Haruhi! Are you alright?” Tamaki rushes towards Haruhi. “Hey! It’s Tama-chan!” Honey points out. “Haruhi! I was so worried.”Tamaki is too busy aggressively bear hugging Haruhi.

 Y/n lightly kicked one of the officers, which was followed by a pained groan. “Huh, they’re still conscious.” Y/n muttered. “Surprise that this is Honey-senpai’s work, he must’ve been holding back.” Kaoru spoke, poking the officer's face.

“What do you mean he was holding back?” Haruhi pinched Tamaki to let go of her.

“So then you don’t know about Honey-senpai’s past?” The twins ominously spoke.

"The Haninozuka's are famous for their martial arts. Not only have they helped train the police and SDF forces, but they've also worked with several overseas militaries."

"Huni-Senpai in particular has been called the dreadnaught of the Haninozuka family. By the time he was in middle school he'd become the national champion in both karate and judo." Kyoya looks at Haruhi.

"Mori-Senpai's no slouch either. He won the national championship in kendo when he was just in middle school." Tamaki added.

"So how were you able to find us Huni-Senpai?" Hikaru looks over to the giggly Honey senpai.

"It wasn't hard! It didn't take me long to reach the end of the current pool, so I decided to look for you guys!" He chirped back.

 "We humbly apologize." An officer bowed down.

"I'm a second generation student of the Ishizuka Dojo."

"I'm a second generation student of the Ishizuka Dojo."

"I'm a second generation student of the Ishizuka Dojo."

The rest of the officers bowed down as well.

"Why is something wrong?" Honey tilted his head.

"Yes sir, we're so sorry sir. We were unaware that we were searching for Mitsukuni Haninozuka! We've committed a terrible offence here. I apologize for this confrontation, but my Dojo will be so excited to hear that I've come face to face with the great Haninozuka. I cherish this moment." An officer replied.

“Moments make me wish I had came from a more important background.” Y/n mumbled to no one in particular.

"Takashi! You did an amazing job of protecting Haru-Chan! I bet you were pretty lonely without me around, huh?" Honey pulls mori down and pats his head.

"I don't know if I'd say that."

The group finally reached the exit.

"Y'know maybe we should go to the beach next." Hikaru looks towards his bother.

"Yes the beach would be nice!"

“I loved going to the beach when I was younger! It’s been awhile since I went to one.” Y/n gave a big smile.

"You idiots! Haruhi's not interested in anything like that." Tamaki yelled.

“You could be nicer..” Y/n gives him an irritated look.

"Actually, I might like to go to the beach." The club turns to look at her.

"I may not be into this silly water park, but I like the ocean. It would be nice to go to the beach.. and it's so pretty." Haruhi softly spoke.

"Yea, alright. Then that's where we'll go next time!” Tamaki declared.

"We're all gonna go to the beach Tama-Chan? Hm, that'll be fun don't you think?" Honey looks down at mori.

“Yeah..” Mori quietly spoke.

…

Kyoya was left alone in the host club, the last minute trip planning falling onto Kyoya’s shoulders. He typed away at his laptop, the clubs door swing open.

“…I want… to cash in that favor you.. owe me.” Y/n panted out.

“…sorry, give me a second… lots of stairs.”

Kyoya raises a brow, and puts his laptop to the side.

“Oh, What is it?” 

Y/n takes one final deep breath, more for his nerves than anything.

“I never got a dance from the spring formal party, given the whole fixing of a fiancé's relationship and all, I mean I’m not complaining, it was so sweet, but I never actually got to enjoy the party-..” Y/n clears his throat.

“What I’m saying is, I want you to dance with me,” Y/n straighten his posture.

“I just want to make sure I’m not getting Rusty-.. If you don’t mind that is.” Y/n looks nervously at him.

Kyoya looks at Y/n longer than he would like, and an uncomfortable silence falls between them.

“If you insist.” Kyoya gets up from his chair. “Wait really?” Y/n spoke. “After all you did win the bet.” Kyoya calmly stated.

Y/n fumbled with his phone hands shaking more than his cared to admit, after a second music plays from his phone.

“I- uh shall we dance?” Y/n nervously smiled holding a hand out towards him, with a slight bow.

Kyoya grabs his hand, pulling him a bit closer. Y/n rests his other hand on Kyoya’s shoulder on instinct.

‘Breathe Y/n, don’t make a fool of yourself.’ Y/n repeats in his head.

Kyoya starts to waltz with Y/n, whose heart is leaping out his chest.

In all honesty Y/n himself wasn’t quite sure why he was this nervous, he has had he shares of dances, however this felt odd, not in bad way either but more in the sense of—… It doesn’t matter, just focus on dancing.

‘Breathe Y/n, don’t make a fool of—‘

Kyoya dips Y/n, stopping his trail of thought. Kyoya's black hair fell out of its usual pristine style, and a cocky smile adorned his face. Y/n felt the wind knocked out of him, his heart beating even faster.

He let out a shaky breath, eyes basically glued to him.

‘Jesus Christ, he’s beautiful.’ Y/n shakily swallowed the lump in his throat.

As Y/n was pulled back up he took a step away from Kyoya. A different type of silence feel between the two.

“Uh- that was fun but, I'm going to go now! I probably should let you plan the beach trip.” Y/n rambled, before bolting out the door. Kyoya furrowed his brows, confused at his sudden flee. Ignoring the weird feeling in his chest.

 ‘Hm’

…

Y/n got home faster than usual, he quickly opens the door and slams it behind him, haphazardly throws his shoes, he’ll deal with it later. He just quietly laid on the tiled floor, trying to cool his overheated body.

He takes shallow breaths, trying to get his mind clear, but all he could do was think about the dance, like for instance what would happen if he didn’t run away like a coward. God, that must’ve looked so pathetic. He pulled his hair in frustration, his hair feeling suffocating at the moment.

He desperately racked his brain for any sort of explanation, he’s never felt this way before. Y/n didn’t understand why he was acting so childish about a simple dance that meant nothing he was the one that suggested it for fucks sake, and even more why he wanted to ki-…

Y/n froze as he thought, he could hear his dread pumping in his ears.  ‘Oh…’

‘Oh.’ He began to bite and pick at his nails for comfort, ignoring the pressing issue at hand. He was too dazed he didn’t realize blood was oozing out of his fingers. He got up and washed his hands with cold water. He really needed to stop this habit. As he wraps his fingers up he lets out a sad exhale.

“Of course this would happen… what am I going to do.” Y/n muttered cradling his hand.

[illarian-rambling]

Thanks for the tag @mk-writes-stuff!

OC Interaction Tag

Mk's OC: Cassiopeia is the noble head of Sixth Station, the station focused on materials manufacturing. She is a tall, slim woman with long, curly blonde hair and heterochromatic eyes - one blue, one purple. She dresses elegantly, typically in blue and gold (the Sixth Station colours). Cassiopeia is believed to be a well-intentioned, well-mannered woman who is good at station management but fairly harmless. However, contrary to popular belief, she is actually a cruel, clever, and manipulative woman who is extremely power-hungry. Her secret aspiration is to bring all the Seven Stations under her command as queen. Cassiopeia is a highly skilled manipulator capable of wrapping almost anyone around her finger. She isn’t a fighter - she has no issue with physical violence, but tends to do it to those who can’t fight back, in order to reduce the risk to herself - but rarely is pushed into a situation where fighting is necessary. Her dirty secret is that she farms her clones, and those of her brother, for magic, brutally killing them in the process.

My OC: Mashal Darezsho is a towering robot man with bronze plating, a human looking face, and baggy clothes. He is incredibly strong and fights with a sword. As a person, he's kind and honorable, even knightly, and enjoys nothing more than helping people in need. He loves listening to folk talk and takes pleasure in the simple beauty of the world, translating this to sketch art. He is quite orderly. His main issue is that he has a strong sense of right and wrong, but he also extends his morality to others, making choices for them whether they asked for it or not. In addition, he tends to be rather naive due to his inclination towards seeing the best in people. Sometimes, this works out and he helps people to become a better version of themselves. Other times, not so much. However, beneath all this is a hidden violent streak. Mashal doesn't remember his past. He doesn't remember how he came to be broken on the side of the road. All he knows is that there is someone out there he must kill, and that anything magic-adjacent causes something deep within him to freeze with horror and rage. He tries not to give in to this dark current, to remain honorable and helpful, but every so often, he slips up.

How they'd interact: Mashal isn't the most discerning man. He tends to trust anyone who shows him kindness and is generally inclined to be helpful. If Cassiopeia picks up on this, as a clever woman might, she would probably be able to wrap him around her finger. She would be able to convince him that the squabbles of the other stations put the people in danger and that she would be able to bring order and safety to the stations by her rule. Mashal is one hell of an asset if you can keep him on your side, so I feel like Cassiopeia would use him as a bodyguard and intimidation factor. He's very scary looking, even if it's all sunshine and flowers in his brain. However, the catch to all of this is if he ever figures out the truth of Cassiopeia's dealings. If Mashal learns she's been killing clones for their magic, he's going to try to kill her, full stop. If she ever let's slip how she treats Stellaris, he's going to try to help that man as best he can. Cassiopeia might be able to keep him manipulated enough to serve her willingly, but if she ever falters, she's going to have an enemy that's gonna put a new meaning to hellbent and maybe a mass clone escape on her hands.

I hope you like this one, I enjoyed writing it! I'll tag @halfbakedspuds @kaylinalexanderbooks @tildeathiwillwrite @roach-pizza @modulewriters and anyone else who wants to play :)

[hanbindans]

ways they're comforting (hyung line)

a/n: listening more closely to the in bloom lyrics ruined me so I'm posting this from my drafts. I'll get to the maknae line soon enough but since I already wrote the hyungs I'll post them first. enjoy me screaming into the void 🤍

jiwoong

you're like the older brother I never had. there's something comforting in the way you are exactly how I want to be when I grow up; considerate and caring and willing to love someone regardless of their flaws- kind to others but more importantly to yourself. you remind me that it's possible to go through all the stages of adolescence and young adulthood, and both see and feel so much hopelessness and negativity and doubt, and still be able to see happiness in all the small things. like finding peace in petting a small, fluffy animal. you've become the type of adult we all look up to. I'm so proud of you.

hao

I don't know, I just see so much of myself in you. in the way you were the smart kid who did well in school, the kid who worked hard at everything he did, the kid who got compliments from teachers and other people's parents. you could have had anything you wanted- you would have done what it takes to achieve it- and you chose with your heart. people probably had a lot of (high) expectations on you and you made a decision that was for you- something that you really wanted- and you worked as hard as you always did because you knew that you could do it if you really wanted to. I envy your courage to chose with your heart and follow your dreams. maybe one day I can learn it from you.

hanbin

sometimes I think that I can see when your perfect mask starts to slip and your facade cracks a little, and you race to patch up the holes before anyone takes notice. it's okay. I do it too. in some ironic way it makes you even more relatable. there's so much good in you and there's even more desire to be good, do good, make it overflow and spread to everyone around you and paint the whole world in yellows, smiley-faces and sunflowers. "don't regret what you do". I'm not sure if it's meant for me or for yourself. I hope it's for yourself. I hope you let yourself be bright, loving, and most importantly happy, even if it makes you imperfect, more raw, and easier to hurt. people will be ready to love you just as you are. they will love you because they want to return the good you have given. you make me want to do more good.

matthew

there's something very genuine in the way you carry yourself. it's unfair to just call it "unfiltered"- I think I would call it unapologetic, authentic, honest. you're not the type of person to lie about what type of music you listen to or order a plain salad when you're with people you don't know too well. I still have a feeling that you want to be impressive, but you don't try hard to impress. you want to do and be and try so many different things but you won't do it anything at your own expense. you will always say what's on your mind, always do things your way, even if not everyone agrees with you, because it's your life and you won't live it for others. it's admirable. please don't ever start apologising for the way you are.

taerae

I love how you're the colour yellow personified. from the duck emojis to the way you laugh at every joke like they're the funniest thing you've ever heard. you're so warm and fun and I just want to be around you all the time so I can re-learn how to be silly and not wince at the way my face scrunches up when I laugh. it's like you've already figured it out. how to be kind and caring and happy without being scared of being soft and vulnerable. there's so much comfort but also stability and security radiating from you and it's so infectious. I hope you never waver from that. I hope your laugh will always fill up the room and you will keep drawing your ducks and you will keep making your silly little poses. you seem like you're having so much fun.

[azimuthalcoquelicot]

hey i just noticed you're doing flappy dragons every day??? awesome??? and i don't play it a lot so idk if it's in the games order but if it isn't, how do you pick the order? (love the art btw :3)

thankyou! As for how I pick the order,

I don't.

I find it hard to draw something when it's too planned out. There are a few ways I go about it.

Certain events or special days i usually have a dragon planned e.g. Noelyx for Christmas, Huooo for new years eve

I have a few ideas, like i wanted to do a mandela drawing and i thought a plant dragon would be good for that since mandalas often have plant patterns, and one day i went 'todays the day i make a mandela colour in thingy' and picked Sylvetrose for it right before i started drawing.

For Wokura I drew the background first not really thinking about the flappy challenge and just wanting to do practise on perspective, and then somewhere during the drawing went 'i could add a flappy dragon to this' and then picked Wokura because I was having a lot of fun playing as it at the time.

For Memphara and X-M3T30R I saw the 'i didn't know they were stackable!?' leopard meme and then chose cat-like dragons to draw over the top

Most of the time I open up a blank page in clip studio and then I open a canvas which has about 18 references from the wiki on it (after I've drawn a few of them and the amount of dragons i haven't drawn gets smaller I'll replenish it and grab more mostly at random) and just pick a dragon that i feel like drawing in the moment.

Or I'll have a focus of something i want to practise, backgrounds, anatomy, lines, lighting, colours; Or a style i want to try to replicate aspects of and then pick a dragon for that.

The canvas of references makes it easy because i don't have to connect my laptop to the wifi and google the reference, or reference from my phone with the game open if I want to draw at 11pm on a Wednesday, I can just copy the layer with the reference over to the blank canvas and start.

I'm thinking about recording a speed paint soon that'll include my whole process

This whole challenge started because i was recording speed paints as background footage for a video essay i was going to do on the game, and the variety and flexibility of the term 'dragon' in general (which I'll still probably make) and then ran out of space on my computer from the recordings and had to delete them :,) I was just left with the images, and my impulsiveity, so i started the challenge.

Xian Xi (day 8) was the first dragon I actually drew FOR the challenge. I was supposed to be doing YouTube and not Tumblr, but my living situation has changed quite recently and I wouldn't've been able to do YouTube anyways, so it worked out ig. (I'm ok now btw)

I am worried when I get closer to the end of this that I'll struggle to get the inspiration to draw when I only have a few dragons left to draw butttt I'll cross that bridge when i come to it.

Thanks for asking!

i only kinda proof read this, so there are probably lots of bad grammar, spelling mistakes etc. so thanks for reading my maybe somewhat hard to read babbling

[cloudninetonine]

*hands you a mug of coffee, blinks at the wink and nudge and squints while downing my own mug* ... Well I now have One (1) Sleep Deprived Fear and way too many theories. Though I wouldn't want to bother you with them and sleep deprivation won't let me articulate them xD

On another note, hope you're doing good today. And on a scale of one to ten, how concernedly would Player react if I just, took one of my two guitars, and smashed it hard against both Chrono's and Paradox's heads and knees to vibe check them? Out of curiosity (I have a hot pink one as a gag gift and spare, may as well put it to good use), or a heated frying pan? Also an absolute mood on regards to Leon.S.Kennedy.

Something something, Craein and Player piece in the works (I feel bad for Wild's and Twilight's villain doubles, but at the same time not really, go get some fucking therapy before trying to get near the Guide you crazy hyenas doomed by the narrative, also Craein and Player literally just being the spiderman meme for a couple of seconds) along with the Lora two shot because I have no self control (confirming Oh Hellos and Celtic Woman songs will be used). Snippets incoming once I'm less sleep deprived.

Something something, Fairy Instinct moment for the boys can be when Player is wearing green because funnily enough it's actually a color the Fae are very protective off and they can get offended if people they don't approve of wear it, so Hyrule, his shadow and Time just gravitate towards Player even more than normal when they wear green because not only is it a color associated with the heroes but also with the Fae, and some cultures have the medieval custom of braiding flowers in the intended's hair during courtships or of placing flower crowns, so Player just nonchantly braiding flowers into a Link's hair while they frantically and internally PANIC because they can't tell if Player is saying they want something serious or not, honestly the one's most affected would likely be Hyrule and Wild due to the nature of their eras (Downfall and Post Calamity specially, y'all telling me rings wouldn't be rare/expensive make unless someone brought the materials beforehand? Specially promise rings and the sorts if you don't go to the right place? Actually maybe Twilight and Time too, I don't know why I can see that as an Ordonian or Kokiri custom, throw in Dawn on that ring too, Flora not so much because she literally missed years of culture evolution holding the calamity back, she probably still slips into pre Calamity customs), Add in the fact it's basically an unspoken promise and the boys just internally die. Also Player taking a cue from Princess Bride and just saying "As you wish." Whenever they chicken out of actually saying I love you to the Links or Zelda's and the sheer and utter bafflement or confusion, though I feel like some of them might be able to put two and two together.

Anyway, I'll be napping now, see y'all after TOTK probably.

-Just an Awkward and Tired Summertime Musician.

Sum, if Player saw you beat both Paradox and Chrono with your guitar they'd probably just join you via their boots and kick some teeth in- these men will experience no mercy with them IOUFDHFI

Leon Kennedy, once again, could tear my heart out and I would only ask he be gentle with it as it now belonged to him. (God I am so down bad for this man)

Also I'm excited for the fics! That your time tho (By now tho you've probably written a novel 💀💀💀 I'm sorry ya'll)

Also from your idea with the green comes another idea- (Not this isn't canon before anyone asks) Green being a very prestigious and expensive colour to wear due to it's association with the fae (and is often a gift from fairies to Hylians and is why most of the boys wear green) so when other fairies find out about the "Guide's return!" there's just baskets of bejeweled, blessed and such clothes left for Player all in the colour of green.

[just-kit-ink]

I promise I'll answer your asks as soon as I can, but I offer a fashion ask for the Dragon AU.

Fleur, as one can imagine, wore royal clothes when she was abducted. And as the days went by, her dress (the only one she had might I add. It's not like Smartaz took some clothes for her 😅) became more dirty and torn. I can imagine her wearing this kind of dress, with the long flowing sleeves and skirt- that would be very inconvenient to wear in a jagged, nearly destroyed castle 😅 I think maybe the dress could be ivory like the first image. But I Associate Ben with blue, so maybe she would wear blue to point to her binding to him?

But, after she becomes an official member of the Dragon family, or just when Smartaz starts to care about her more and even brings her back things from raides- regardless if she asked or not- thats when Fleur gains a new wardrobe. She exchanges the royal garb for something more simple, now. Like what Aurora wore in Sleeping Beauty. I can see it being mainly white or ivory, now. To signify Fleur's independence from her husband now and gaining her own color.

However, I've also been thinking about the room that Smartaz gives her possibly being an old bedroom. With a wardrobe with dusty clothes that she could wear. And since this is a ccastle, they could be clothes of the former queen or princess too. So maybe Fleur would still wear high-class clothes. Before Smartaz brought her clothes and she had nothing else to wear other than her old dress, or maybe even when her current wardrobe needs washing. What do you think?

Now, Katherine! We need to talk about her in this AU more. She's your character so I can't say for certain what she'd wear, but I can see her in these dresses (except maybe the shoulders aren't exposed in the second picture)! More simple/lower class than Poppy's old dress, but it allows Katherine more movement. And besides, it's just perfect for an adventurous fantasy heroine ^^

//Ooooh you have her colour scheme and style down so well!

I love your use of colour symbolism for Fleur's dresses she goes from a rich blue (having rank) to a white/ivory (having no ties to anyone) it's really clever!

It's funny I've actually been drawing Kitty in medieval clothing recently!

Personally I see Kitty in mostly peasant dresses of the time that she's able to work/do leisure in. When the dragons capture her they probably get singed or torn at the corners. I can only imagine Poppy being picked up like a ragdoll by dragon teeth 😆

Katherine grew up in the court and didn't have to want for much but I can see her wearing clothes that keep a low profile when she's out so she isn't followed or bothered. She also keeps a dagger for protection but doesn't want to have to use it. She would wear these clothes at the start of the story, then offhand make a comment that she doesn't wear much finery and then after they grow closer the dragons steal a dress for her on one of their raids.

It's either wine red, deep purple or ocean blue. Something that brings out Katherine's hair and eyes and matches her personality. Needless to say as an aspiring scholar who's trying to prove herself just as good as any high class lady, she's less than pleased with the thievary...but the gowns are gorgeous and it was thoughtful of them. Besides, she's no stranger to foraging for food when out of the grounds of the house, this is their strange way of doing the same.

I can also see her wearing styles similar to Princess Eilonwy from The Black Cauldron or Princess Merida from Brave. Sonething nice, but free for movement which allows her to run if needed.

Also, towards the end of her arc when she needs to fight the dark sorcerer I can see her wearing armour like this.

[blueberry-obsessed]

Thanks for the tag @foggieststars 💙

Do you make your bed? On most days, yeah. On days when I'm just not feeling it, it's more of a mess, but I try to make it a little presentable for my sanity.

Favourite number? 14

What's your job? When I'm not crying over uni work, I work at a cafe

If you could go back to school, would you? University: I'm still here so. Secondary school: absolutely not

Can you parallel park? I used to be able to, but I haven't driven in a while, so no

Do you think aliens are real? The universe is huge and we've only seen a small part of it. There's definitely some other living creature out there. Maybe not exactly green weird looking aliens, but probably something.

Can you drive a manual car? Yes I can!

Guilty pleasure? Old horror and romance movies

Tattoos? Nope

Favourite colour? Any shade of blue ever

Favourite type of music? I'll listen to any song with good lyrics and a nice beat. Spotify says that it's mainly been pop and garage rock

Do you like puzzles? Yeah, but I need someone to make them with me otherwise I'll lose motivation halfway through

Favourite childhood sport? I was not a sporty kid. The only sport I played was tennis with my dad and I'm decent at it!

Do you talk to yourself? I will give myself and the ghosts in my room full commentary while reading

Tea or coffee? I love both! It's usually chai in the morning, coffee while at work, and RedBull at nights if I need to stay awake

First thing you wanted to be when growing up? A haematologist, like my dad

What movies do you adore? Any horror movie because it can go one of two ways. Either the characters are so terribly stupid that I can laugh at them and treat the movie like a comedy, or it's actually well-made and I can scare the shit out of my roommate while watching. Besides that I was a big Dune fan when I was younger, so I love the movies. Anything by Luca Guadagnino and any Spiderman movie ever.

No pressure tags: @marieshyperf1xations @saviour-of-lord @wht-am-i-doin and anyone else that wants to join!

[42donotpanic]

Once again asking, because all of these are really interesting, and i loved your fics! I'm really interested in 'Blind Hawkeye and Deaf Daredevil' 👀

Okay, I can't say too much about that one, because it's part of something else.

But it's pretty much what it says on the tin.

This is a universe something between Comic and MCU canon, Matt and Clint are Vigilantes and work with each other and the other Heroes.

They know each others identities, Matt knows Clint is Deaf and Clint knows Matt's blind. Everything pretty standard until there.

But that's where I'll just let two snippets speak for themselves:

Matt's POV:

When Matt woke up and opened his eyes, the morning sun was shining right into his face and blinding him. He squeezed his eyes shut again and threw an arm over his face with a groan. He lay motionless, cursing the morning light, before noticing something was wrong. It took him a moment to realise that he was not supposed to be able to even see the light, much less his bedroom or the city outside. Slowly, he pulled his arm away and gave himself a moment to adjust to the unfamiliar sensation of light shimmering through his closed eyelids. After a few seconds, he turned away from the window before he dared to open his eyes again. When he did, his brain couldn’t quite translate the new signals yet, and everything just looked like blotches of light and dark and different colours. Matt blinked a few times, trying to get his eyes used to the brightness and focus on his surroundings. Very slowly, things started to make more sense. Blotches turned into shapes, and shadows turned into depth. After a while, Matt was able to recognise his surroundings, even though everything was still a little blurry. Still distracted Matt decided to get up and make some coffee to try to fully wake up before he called anyone. Maybe everything would make a little more sense then. He sat up in bed, pushed the covers off him, and swung his legs out of the bed with a soft thump when his feet hit the ground. Except there was no thump.

Clint's POV:

On the other side of the East River, in Bed-Stuy, a car horn pulled Clint from deep sleep. He jumped internally and opened his eyes at once. When he was greeted with pure darkness instead of the familiar sight of his bedroom ceiling, he started to panic. The car outside honked again, and a few seconds later, people started to shout. Overwhelmed by the noise, Clint grabbed at his ears and tried to rip his hearing aids out. The panic threatened to suffocate him again when he found nothing. The blonde turned and tried to drown out the sounds with his pillow, but it only muffled them and added the rustling of fabric and filling to the mix. Clint began to hyperventilate as memories of the circus, of fights that were loud enough for him to hear even without aids, and of people yelling at him for not understanding them combined with the strange mix of auditory overload and a complete lack of visual signals.  Quickly, he spiralled.

From there, a lot of questions have to be answered and problems to be solved and Clint and Matt both have to face a whole new challenge.

But like I said, I don't want to give away too much just yet.

Thank you so much for asking again (and feel free to ask for as many more as you like)

[laces-and-pearls]

What am I searching for in a relationship, you'd ask?

Well, first of all, respect.

I want to respect my partner, and I want to be respected in return.

I want us to be equals not in our roles but in how we both are living, breathing human being with feelings, emotions, dreams and desires.

I want to support and to be supported.

I know I am capable of opening the door and pulling the chair out myself, and maybe I could even scratch some money from my earnings to pay for myself in a cafe, but I still would love it if my partner did that for me.

I know he is able to cook himself something for lunch, but I wouldn't mind fixing him something nice with a lovely cup of tea on top or wash and steam his shirt before going out.

Like...I love traditional gender roles, and if I ever become a mother I certainly wouldn't want to work no matter how much the society and the crisis pushes me. But I don't want to be a doormat, you know? So many posts here on Tumblr paint traditionalism in these ugly colours where wife is just a maid, a servant and a s*x worker just because she doesn't earn money.

Unfortunately, it's not only on Tumblr. In my real life, I work with families where women don't work, and I can't say how many times I've seen those women humiliated and broken simply because they can't work to support themselves while taking care of their children and husbands.

And it's so scary. So extremely scary, I can't tell you.

So...I'm not sure what the aim of this post is. I'm sad and scared about the huge chasm that lies between women and men, and how much we came to disrespect and demean each other. I wish it was different! And that's why I'll try to be understanding of every man if they are understanding in return.

Have I mentioned I was salty this morning? I don't even know why, probably because I've had little sleep because...work.

Okay. Time to start my day properly. I hope everyone who reads this post is loved and appreciated! And I hope men and women come to understand and respect each other.