#maybe I’ll also get back to posting on the blog I made here dedicated to my OCs

[nunyverse-scribe]

Perhaps if I started writing again I wouldn’t want to kill myself as much as I do right now

[wind-it-up-p21]

PSA this is going to be very long and I would post it on my own blog but I am not ready to talk about this without being anonymous yet since a few of you know who I am in “real life.”

As someone who grew up in a sport very similar to dance and had what seems to be a very similar experience to Dyllan here’s what I have to say (disclaimer my experience obviously was not exactly the same but I will explain how they overlap).

I was a part of a team that was and is still known to be one of the top teams in the country. If you wanted to make a name for yourself in this world my team was one of the places you would go to do that. Girls travel from all over the country to compete with them.

On my said team I was one of the “favorites” though I never thought of myself as one until I got older and I realized it again when I walked away and looked back on my experience and it became more obvious to me.

To start, my coach made it very clear to the rest of our team that me and 3 other girls were “the hardest workers” and that we had special relationships with her. Just to name a few things she did to validate this with me: She told me consistently that she loved me and that I was special, I was one of four students invited to her wedding, and she would put me and the other 3 favorites in groupchats or have meetings with us to basically tell us we needed to lead the team to victory and it fell on us to be the examples for the team. I could go on and on but you probably get the point.

I was apart of this team for the same amount of time that Dyllan spent with Molly. My last year on the team I was in high school and wanted to enjoy my social life as well as competition life. I was dedicated to the team, but I also wanted to maybe you know go to a school football game or two. The minute that my team wasn’t tunnel vision in my eyes my coach started to put such intense amounts of pressure on me, take away “privileges” I had, and threatened what I now realize was my status on the team in order to get me to forget my social life and eat/sleep/breathe our sport and team. She had done this before, but it was now on another level. My mental health was at an all time low and nobody but my parents knew. People would say that because I was one of the team stars there was no way I could possibly feel like a victim in this situation. I felt trapped and didn’t know what to do because this team was my everything and everyone knew how big of a role it played in my life, but I needed to get out.

It has now been many, many years since all of this went down. I have taken time to process what I went through and I still am impacted by the trauma of it all. When I finally decided to walk away after that last year, a ton of my teammates ended up following me. It was an exodus like the one p21 had. Meanwhile, one of the other favorites now works for the organization, but clearly suffers from anger issues and anxiety now. At least one of the other favorites has openly regretted not leaving at the right time.

All in all, everyone is gonna have different experiences on a team like mine or project 21s. However, if it’s a toxic environment for so many people it’s toxic for everyone. Some people may just not realize it. They have drank the kool aid and they’re knee deep in it. We can’t control who stays and who goes, so what we can do is support the girls who are there while continuing to validate the emotions of those who left. If Dyllan and so many other girls were so clearly negatively impacted by Molly and P21 there’s obviously some truth to it. With that being said it doesn’t mean we can’t root for the success of girls like Gracyn and Regan. They’re children, and they’re individuals. They are not the reason so many people have struggled at P21. I have a lot more on my mind regarding our support to them and P21 but I’ll spare you all of it considering this is already a 400 page novel.

This was so interesting to read and I really agree with everything you said! It really puts into perspective how someone might seem really successful at their dance studio or any sport but actually be really struggling mentally

[lonelybiscuits]

I wrote you a little sequel to your fic about Duman messing with Ogron by speaking French! I sent it into your inbox so it’s together with the original fic on your blog, but if it’s too long in this format, just let me know and I’ll post it over on my blog instead. Enjoy!

Ogron knew when he was being messed with. Okay, he didn’t; he’d been left oblivious after about ninety-percent of Duman’s pranks, the shapeshifter in hysterics at having pulled one over his put-together leader. But still! This time…this time he knew he was being messed with. He had to be, right? Or else he’d gone well and truly mad… He’d worked himself to exhaustion before, but he’d never heard voices… But if he was imagining the voices, then he must also be imagining the hidden snickers from his team. Well, Gantlos didn’t snicker so much as look vaguely less stoic than usual, but each to their own. ‘Oh, to hell with this,’ Ogron muttered, shoving off the blanket and swinging his legs over the side of the bed. He didn’t need to rest! (Well, he actually did, but that is a concern for another time.) He needed to get even. This positively reeked of a Duman prank, but he had no proof. He was convinced Duman didn’t speak French, but he just knew he wasn’t hearing voices. Or being haunted by some French ghost. ‘I need a plan here…’ he murmured, pacing back and forth. Of course, he could just tell Duman he knew this was him, and that it was over, but he knew Duman. He’d just shrug with that irritating look of confusion and say he didn’t even speak French, and that maybe Ogron needed some rest. No, this called for some tact and cunning. Fortunately, those were two things Ogron excelled at. Ogron had never met a problem he couldn’t solve with a few hours of hard thinking (except for the Winx; they were a bit trickier, but he wasn’t thinking about them right now), and after sitting at his desk for most of the morning, scribbling pointlessly on scraps of paper, he was finally hit with an idea. A trick. A rather brilliant trick, if he did say so himself. Now all he needed was a French dictionary. And a good few hours to dedicate to his plan.

‘Hey, aren’t you supposed to be resting?’ Gantlos asked, glancing up as Ogron walked down the stairs and into the living room. ‘Yeah,’ Anagan agreed. ‘What with all the…French?’ Ogron caught the twitch of a smile on his friend’s face, the expression only solidifying his certainty that this was all a prank. ‘I’m going for a walk,’ he replied coolly. He didn’t want to give anything away. Granted, Gantlos would almost certainly admit that it was a prank if pushed, but by this point, he wanted to catch Duman out. Nobody messed with him. Nobody. He heard another of the whispers, frowning and whipping his gaze around. His resolve faltered as he saw neither hide nor hair of Duman, making him question his theory, until he caught a glimpse of a small grey shape scurrying under the couch. So that’s how he’s been doing it… Refusing to dignify Duman’s latest whatever the bloody hell he was saying with a response, Ogron turned on his heel and walked out of the house, striding towards his destination with all the purpose of a prideful wizard who truly did not appreciate being screwed with.

About three hours later, surrounded with every book on French that the Gardenia library had possessed and rapidly deteriorating towards just falling asleep at the table, Ogron finally completed his work, copying across the last word into his notebook. He had to admit, his life would probably have been made easier had he possessed a phone, and simply used a translation programme, but a: he did not own a phone, and b: he had got along just fine with books for centuries, and he didn’t need any technological nonsense messing with his devious planning. ‘Nobody makes me think I’m losing my mind,’ Ogron muttered, closing the book he’d been reading/resting his head on for the past half an hour. ‘Nobody.’

‘I’m back!’ he called, practically shivering with excitement as he walked inside. ‘Well that was quite the lengthy walk,’ Gantlos remarked, looking up from the book he was reading. ‘Feeling better?’ Duman asked, looking up from where he was trying to get Gantlos to forget his book and make out with him. ‘Oh, much.’ Ogron sat on the couch, beckoning Anagan to sit too. ‘Now, I have some things I would like to discuss, if we’re all amenable?’ ‘Sure.’ Duman sat up straight, a smirk tugging at his lips. ‘But you sure you shouldn’t get some more rest? I mean, you’ve been hearing French ghosts. You don’t think maybe you should go back to bed?’ Ogron smiled internally at the perfect lead-in Duman had given him. ‘I had been meaning to talk to you about that, actually. You’re quite certain you didn’t hear it?’ Duman shook his head. ‘Nah.’ ‘I wish I knew what was being said.’ ‘I’d help you out, but I don’t speak French.’ Duman shrugged apologetically, laughter dancing in his golden eyes. ‘Sorry.’ Ogron’s lips quirked. ‘Oh, that’s perfectly fine. Now, let’s discuss team strategy.’ Duman groaned, flopping dramatically against Gantlos. ‘Seriously? You’re hearing voices, and your answer is boring team strategy sessions?’ Oh, that’s not my strategy at all, Duman… ‘Yes. Now, I wanted to talk about why we’ve been failing lately.’ ‘Maybe because you’ve been asking the Winx if they hear the French?’ Duman teased. Ogron ignored him, pushing on. ‘Well, we’ve been failing in a number of areas recently, but I think our biggest drawback is fairly obvious.’ He paused, waiting for someone to jump on the statement. After a moment, and a few exchanged glances, Anagan did. ‘…What is it?’ This was his moment. Keeping his tone as calm and level as possible, Ogron spoke the words he’d repeated roughly seven hundred times until they were carved into his brain. ‘Eh bien, je dirais que nous devons nos récents échecs au changement de forme décevant de Duman. Peut-être que s’il avait été plus créatif, nous aurions gagné.’ ‘What?!’ Duman exclaimed, his expression wide-eyed with indignation. ‘No way this is my fault! And I’ll have you know that I’m plenty creative!’ Ogron smirked, raising an eyebrow. ‘Thought you didn’t speak French.’ Duman froze, realising what he’d just done. ‘I…’ Ogron’s grin widened. ‘I think the ‘French ghost’ has just tripped himself up.’ Duman flushed bright red. ‘How the hell did you do that?! You don’t speak French!’ ‘You’d be surprised what one can get done with a dictionary.’ At the look on Duman’s face, Ogron burst out laughing. Duman sagged with disappointment, and Gantlos patted him on the shoulder. ‘In all fairness, Duman, what were you expecting? Ogron doesn’t take being messed with well.’ Ogron pulled himself together, storing away the image of the blushing shapeshifter to enjoy at a later date. ‘Now, I think perhaps we need to have a discussion about pranking me in the middle of battle. And that goes for you two too.’ He gestured to Gantlos and Anagan, who both looked away awkwardly. ‘I shall have to think of some way you can all learn a little lesson here…’ The other three wizards exchanged nervous glances, and Duman grimaced awkwardly. ‘…Désolé?’

I loved this @calissarowan

[tellthemeerkatsitsfine]

So, this is fucking amazing. Absolutely fucking amazing. It is going to be some time before I stop occasionally just opening this up to look at how fucking amazing it is:

(Not sure why I’ve bothered blacking out the name for privacy reasons, since I’ve definitely written what my first name is on this blog before, but it felt like the sort of thing I should black out, the important thing to know is that behind that black square is my name.)

This book came out barely a month ago, and I already know it’s great, because I’ve heard the audiobook. I wrote a whole post here just after I heard it, trying to explain how very good it is, and not doing it justice. Honestly, I can’t recommend this book highly enough, and not just because I like Josie Long’s comedy. It’s a rare book I’ve read (well, heard) by a comedian that I think stacks up perfectly well on its own merits.

So the audiobook version is great, but I’ve recently received my physical copy, and I know it’s mine because it has my name in it, and that name was written by Josie Long, and that is so fucking cool. Someone picked this up at a book launch in London, told Josie Long who I am, got her to sign it accordingly, and then got it to me in Canada, because I am lucky enough to know some amazingly kind and helpful people. Basically, eight months ago I messaged a stranger on a comedy forum while thinking ��worst-case scenario is they don’t reply and I have to be anxious that they found my message rude and presumptuous even though they probably just never saw it, hoped-for scenario is they have a couple of the comedy things I’m looking for, best-case scenario is they can give me a link to a folder with lots of the things I’m looking for” – and then the reality far exceeded the expected best-case scenario in every single way, because my best hopes did not lead me to think “maybe this will lead to me having someone in London who’s willing to get signed copies of books by my favourite comedians for me.”

I’m pleased to have this for a few reasons besides the signature and dedication. There are pros and cons to audiobooks and to books made of paper from trees, and this book is so good that I’m glad to get the advantages of both versions.

Obviously audiobooks have convenience advantages, you can listen to them while doing stuff that you maybe can’t do while reading off paper made from trees, but there are also artistic merits to them. It’s nice to hear the voice, both literal and figurative, of the author as you experience the story. Nice to hear the author’s physical voice, and nice to hear what they add to the story through their tone and inflection and emphasis. I have a theory that stand-up comedians are better than most authors at reading their own audiobooks, just because they’re used to working in a medium where the way they deliver the words out loud matters so much.

But physical books are nice too, because their physical writing style, and formatting and layout choices can also add to the story. Also, with a physical book, it’s much easier to go back to stuff, reread certain parts, flip through and quickly find the bit you want. I want to do that with a bunch of parts of this book already, and I’m sure I’ll do it more over time. This is the kind of book I’ll want to go back to.

The takeaways here are that this book is excellent, sometimes if you get over social anxiety enough to try communicating with a stranger it’ll work out well, and Josie Long is the ninth wonder of the world and people should buy her book.

[arachnidiots-a]

Do you have developed dynamics with the OC of another mun that has influenced your OC or Canon muse? ROXY I WANNA HEAR ABOUT ROXY

QUESTIONS FOR THE MUN.

good morning dee! your wish is my command…

ROXY FIELDS is the creation of one absolutely spectacular maggie! i owe maggie quite literally everything as it comes to liam. they truly wouldn’t exist without maggie and her lovely beautiful brain who one day agreed to make spider-man ocs with me. we’d been talking so much about the lack of older spider-men in stories and also just badass women and friendship and devotion that blurs lines in platonic love and from it came liam and roxy.

i keep wanting to dedicate a post or seven to roxy and truly appreciate all that she is and gives to the story, because she is quite literally. 50% of it. but i always fear i’ll get some factoid wrong or misremember. roxy isn’t mine and therefore i just kind of stand here and point at the beautiful art of creation that maggie’s made. i will certainly try to get some stuff out about roxy, because i do want to so maybe that’ll be a fun thing for maggie and i to do together and reconnect with.

i truly don’t do a good enough job on this blog to emphasize how vital roxy is to the liam kaz story. their lives are intertwined in a blue and yellow ribbon and in every single universe they will be brought together to make each other better. roxy is the reason liam does anything and lets themself be loved and feels seen. roxy is the reason liam suffers as long as they do and fights to get back to earth-1530. roxy and liam, liam and roxy are a package deal. anyone close to them will know them as such

[addierose444]

Biking to Seattle for a Beach Day

Today I biked from Redmond to Maddison Park Beach (located in Seattle). It was an adventure for sure, but overall I had a lot of fun. It wasn’t the best ride ever as it was quite hot out, much of the ride was near busy roads, and I managed to injure myself. For this ride, I further tested out my built-in bike sensor and the associated Cannondale App. While the sensor automatically tracks rides (time, speed, distance, etc.), by telling the app I was starting a ride the phone was able to track my location as well. While definitely a cool feature, I will note that I already had the ability to do this with my Fitbit and its app. 

While I didn’t love biking near the highway, there was a dedicated bike trail and barriers protecting me from cars. There was however one small section that had a bike lane instead. This proved to be an issue for me because it all of a sudden disappeared and my attempt to move up onto the sidewalk resulted in a small crash and a scrapped knee. Fortunately, I was able to clean up my wound with water from my hydration pack, continue biking, and enjoy the best part of the ride which was biking over Lake Washington! 

I did eventually make it to the beach where I met up with some fellow Smith engineers! At the beach, we chatted and ate some snacks. We also ventured into the water, but because of my knee, I decided against going for a swim. This was okay though because I’m not that into swimming anyways. Despite not going knee-deep into the water I did get some of the lake water and sand into my wound, so did need to clean it again. 

After a very fun visit, it was getting a bit late, and was time to head back to Redmond. I first made a quick stop at Red Apple to pick up some basic first-aid supplies. For the return trip, I took two public buses. Taking the bus back was the plan all along so this was unrelated to my injury.  One great thing about the public buses here is that they all have bike racks in the front that can hold up to three bikes. I’ll be honest loading my bike was a bit tricky, but I’m sure I’ll get used to it with practice. While the return trip did for all intents and purposes go smoothly, it was a bit stressful because I got confused about which bus to take and what stop to get off at. Essentially what happened is that I may have missed my second bus and was supposed to wait half an hour for the next one. However, I then saw a bus headed for Redmond and hopped on. I still don’t really know if it was the right bus because I had been waiting for the 545 Express and boarded a 545 (maybe or maybe not an express). Really though the challenge was that Google Maps was unable to understand that I’d boarded a different bus than it told me to. I ultimately pulled up the driving instructions and figured out approximately when to get off. While stressful, I did get to enjoy a beautiful sunset over the water. 

It was quite late by the time I made it back to my apartment and despite being very tired and hungry, I first took a shower to properly clean up my wound. While I was back way later than I’d expected, I knew it was a possibility and had fortunately preemptively purchased a freezer meal for dinner and had already prepared lunch for Monday. After dinner, all that was left to do was write this blog post. 

[forleejehoon]

Hi to all~!

This blog will be solely dedicated to our cinephile and melophile actor, honey-like face owner, the Cancer-est of all Sun Cancers Lee Jehoon. Will be posting newly released still cuts, updates on upcoming projects, variety appearances, magazine shoots, other promotional content, as well as will be translating articles and interviews. Additionally, I’d like to treat this blog as an archive of some sort, make masterlists, maybe upload older content – to have as much as possible in one place.

It’d also be nice to make this blog into a little (or big!) community for people who are fans of Jehoon and his works, to discuss the meanings behind (personally, media analysis is my favorite thing in the world), share our impressions, feelings of excitement or even disappointment...

Moreover, not promising to completely keep myself from posting any personal posts or reblogging fan-made content on here... That’d be cruel.. T-T What I can promise though – is to never spam and keep a nice ratio between updates, reblogs and personal posts ^^

Basically, I don’t want this blog to be only a dry updates account so I’ll be throwing in some of me here and there.

Follow along if like me you’ve fallen down the rabbit hole of Lee Jehoon and aren’t able to get back... And if there’s any content of Jehoon that you’d like translated – feel free to send in a request via ask. Whether it’d be videos, articles, interviews, old or new content... doesn’t matter. I’ll do my best to translate it :3

[loveclub24]

Another Day

Okay so I haven’t written for almost two weeks now (*sigh*) so I’m a little sad that my writing streak paused for a little bit... but here I am, back and better than ever, babyeeee! I’m kidding I’ll stop sounding like the lame millennial I am, I promise. This is a week late but I wanted to write an entry about my 1975 show in LA last week. 

First of all, these shows have launched me into an extremely emotional stratosphere that is sort of hard to describe, I haven’t been in such an intensely sensitive / emotional place for a hot second, so I realize that I think I’m feeling particularly exhausted by it as well. Last Monday, I went to the Forum the forum with my boyfriend, Taylor, and one of my best friends (literally since preschool), Cambria. I dressed up in the classic Matty skinny-tie-white-button-down-black-tights-combat-boots-tumblr chic (or at least it looked chic to me LOL I’ll try to post some pics too - hey.... turning this blog into a scrapbook of some sort would be fun as well). I have never been so ready for a concert... I really feel like my Phoenix in show was a great warm up for LA and made it so I could be fully emotionally present and in the moment at this show. I had been crying for the past four days while processing that first show, so I was psyched to sob my way through At Their Very Best at the Forum. We arrived, and I made a beeline for a merch stand (getting merch was a priority for me this night since I couldn’t in Arizona). I am terrified to report that test I spend $345 on merch (but hey... some of it was for my sister too). I couldn’t find the dad hat that I really wanted, but I’m hoping I’ll be able to get that at some point (maybe they’ll sell it on the website???? ugh here’s to hoping). 

This show was fantastic because I had a seat, so different than Pheonix but it was perfect as I wasn’t ready to fight the crowd since Matty Kiss-gate had started just a few days earlier in Las Vegas (may I mention... the first show about Phoenix so I was a little butt hurt to say the least... Matty... WTF). But I was ready to just ~vibe~ (as the kids say) in the moment and enjoy the lil edible I had taken with my best friends. I was excited because I got Roadkill, Paris and ... (*drum roll ladies and gentleman*) MILK COVERED BY PHOEBE FUCKING BRIDGERS at this show! I had gotten So Far (It’s Alright) and Change in Heart in Phoenix. I will dedicate a whole paragraph to Milk because that shit was honestly life-changing. 

One thing I want to start with about this show is that I LOVE starting with The 1975 from BFIAFL. That is my favorite song from their recent album.... I just love how they decided to make it more of a full-length song for the first time. I love the idea of The 1975 being the band taking the pulse of where they are in their current state, and I just think this song is fucking genius. I mean... it’s cynical, this vitriol and Adderall and young people drinking Aperol... that just gets me every time, and into I’m sorry if you’re living and you’re seventeen.... I mean... do you want me to SOB? Do you want me to pass AWAY? As I wrote in my About You entry a few weeks ago, this album, for me, is a love letter to my 17 year old self (which coincidentally, is when I get into self-titled), so this song really feels like it sees me, and it understands that in some way a part of me will always be my 17-year-old 1975 obsessed self. The instrumental that goes into The 1975 also just makes my heart swell, that moment of knowing that they are about to open the curtain and come on stage - there was just something indescribably euphoric about this to me. Especially at this show, since I knew more so how it was going to go. 

The energy in the Forum was electric, everyone was so excited and it felt so amazing to be part of a community (god I’m so sappy) of people who were just so fucking psyched to see the 1975. To me, this is what life is - finding communities of people that are excited about the same thing, whether its friends, family, or in this case, a concert full of people in different walks of life who are some version of 75 fans. I loved the idea of the first half being a show / play, and the second transitioning into more of a classic concert / gig type feel. Oh, I can’t forget... I got to see Matty eat raw meat at this show which was truly something I’ll never forget?? I still don’t know how I feel about the Consumption part of the show but what I know I do love is seeing Matty be his insanely dramatic, narcissistic self. It’s what he does best! This time around, I really enjoyed the craftsmanship of the first half. All I Need to Hear has become a favorite of the BFIAFL part for me, his voice has been sounding so good and it’s just a classically beautiful song. It wasn’t my favorite on the album upon first listen but it’s definitely growing on me. Also, I have to say that Falling for You is one of my favorite songs from the first half as well (one of the only non BFIAFL songs in this part), this song just makes me feel like I’m a senior in high school, crying in my car listening to self-titled after my boyfriend had shattered my heart into a thousand jagged pieces. Obviously, I Like America and America Likes Me is one of my favorites as well, and I do love this new arrangement they’re doing on tour, but for some reason nothing will ever be good as their OG version. I do love seeing him wobble his way across the roof of their house set and be fucking insane per usual, though. 

Next... I want to talk about the moment of this show where my soul truly ascended out of my body. I have never let out more of an immediate guttural sob scream from the depths of my being than when Phoebe Bridgers walked out on the stage, and I realized that she was playing an acoustic version of Milk. I mean... Milk???? Are you kidding?? That is one of my favorite deep cuts of theirs, I used to listen to it on repeat all through the beginning of pandemic especially, when I was going through another 75 heavy obsession phase while feeling like I was losing the will to live during the first 6 months of quarantine. God, I love that song so much and I love Phoebe so much that I truly can’t tell you how wonderful, how truly perfect of a moment this was. It’s really hard to think of anything more I could’ve wanted from this show than Phoebe Bridgers playing an acoustic cover of Milk. This is one of the memories that I can’t stop thinking about from that show... I will never get over that. 

After this transcendent 3 minutes, we went into the second half of the show and I don’t think I stopped dancing?? Even though I didn’t have as much room as when I was on the floor in pit, I loved being able to dance and really have a full view of the venue and feel more of the experience of collectivism of this concert. Seeing everyone dance in this huge place around me really was unbelievable and felt impactful in a whole different way. 

The only slight regret I had from my shows was that I never got I Always Wanna Die Sometimes... one of my favorite songs in the whole world that they were switching out... but hey, can’t catch ‘em all I guess. It still was a fucking fantastic run and I will never forget this experience. It has meant so much to me, I really can’t explain it well enough words. 

My friend Cambria is on the left and I’m on the right! 

One more outfit pic LOL I’m so lame 

Post-concert with my outfit in slight shambles... 

[wonlouvre]

more for forever | k. mg.

pairing: editor-in-chief mingyu x female reader genre: fluff, a little bit of angst, cliché (in the sense that mingyu is rich and likes to spoil his girlfriend) warnings: mentions of insecurity, food word count: 2.8k

💌: this is just pure indulgence and i really hope you all like this! please wait for wonwoo because i have something in store for him too ;) again, this is cliché please forgive me. please tell me what you think about it hehe i love reading your comments, feedbacks and tags! also a big thank you to @minkwans​ for sharing their ideas and giving this oneshot life! <3

The name Kim Mingyu didn’t ring a bell before. Not until his executive assistant reached out to you because apparently, the photographer slash writer read one of your blog posts and wanted you to take part for their sixth year anniversary issue. You know the famous magazine and publishing company, which is why you thought it was a scam or a ploy to steal your money. It’s a stupid assumption but you can’t blame your mind imagining the worse because you are not a fashion blogger at all. Why would a fashion magazine want you to write an article for them?

Sure, you regularly write and post blog entries on your website. But you write about your dog, your recently bought tea coaster and sometimes your skincare routine. Okay, maybe your occasional outfit of the day as well but nothing in detail. Again, why do they want you to write for them?

Kim Mingyu answered your questions and uncertainties when he personally emailed his contact details to you. You didn’t have to bite, but it didn’t hurt to confirm at the same time. You dialed the number and he indeed proved you wrong. He invited you for a meeting at his office and you accepted. 

Your visits to high-rise buildings, much more to the luxurious office of an executive, is rare to never. You were jaw slacked when your eyes took in the crisp architecture. The design, the furniture, the color, the everything was beyond what you could have imagined a publishing company’s headquarters could be. 

The meeting was nothing but short of an interview. He asked about your blog (which does not even have its own domain by the way), he asked what else you write about, he asked about your desk job (which doesn’t pay much but enough for you to get by), he asked if you have any background about fashion and one last question about your dog, Max, before talking about his proposal. 

To be honest, Mingyu’s offer was tempting. For one article, the commission would be enough for you to move out of your current apartment and move to a brand new and fully-furnished one. But you remained true to yourself and without thinking twice, you declined. 

You can tell that the editor-in-chief and his assistant, who stood beside him all throughout, was surprised by the looks on their faces. But Mingyu respected your decision and didn’t pursue any further. You took your stand from the chair and sincerely thanked him for the time and opportunity. You thought that would be it but when he followed suit with your actions and reached his hand out, it was your turn to be surprised. 

You didn’t hesitate to mirror him and shake his hand, firmly. After that, you’d figure that it’s the end and that you’ll probably get to see a glimpse of him only through your television or phone. But Mingyu proved you wrong once again when he sent an unexpected email three days later asking why.

What might be the reason why you didn’t accept his offer? 

You believed he deserved an explanation of your personal reasons so you disclosed them. And just like that the conversation on that email thread naturally progressed and eventually deepened. The professional emails became casual text messages, the text messages became phone calls, and the phone calls became actual face to face dates at late hours of the evening because he usually clocks out at 9 o’clock. 

The rest, as they say, was in the hands of history. 

Your first date with Mingyu was particularly odd. It was at a traditional Korean restaurant owned by one of his friends who introduced himself as Angel even though his real name is Jeonghan. You didn’t question him or anyone else why because that’s none of your business. But back to the date. It was odd because you have never been to a restaurant that’s completely empty and dead silent before (aside of course, from the typical music played in the background). You asked Mingyu if such an occurrence is normal and he just plainly answered that he rented the whole place all to yourselves. You have always known he’s rich. However, you didn’t believe that booking the whole restaurant was necessary.  

Nonetheless, that first date, in some way, was special for you because there were no distractions. You enjoyed his company and you can tell he enjoyed yours too because he’s quick to mention a second date and it didn’t take a heartbeat for you to say yes. 

But, by far, Mingyu inviting you to the behind the scenes of the making of the sixth anniversary issue that you turned down writing for is one of the most memorable dates the two of you had. It was out of the blue and you two were having difficulty in syncing your schedules. He was beginning to get busier and busier as the anniversary neared and the only way he could think of still making time for you is inviting you to his office. He called you and asked if you’re free to have lunch together. And you, being attracted to the handsome and tall man, didn’t hesitate to say yes. 

He was in the middle of ending his morning meeting when you arrived and you were almost caught off-guard when all eyes were suddenly on you, making you feel small. But Mingyu didn't care as his smile beamed, immediately standing up from his chair to walk towards you. The rest of his staff were still in the midst of walking out of his office when he grasped your hand to pull you inside and you have never felt so shy your whole life.

Since then, he made you tag along to the creative process and you witnessed how hands on he was with every article, every photo, every brand, every trend and every detail that goes to the magazine that he has built and loved with his blood, sweat and tears. He’s beyond dedicated in finding and doing what’s best for the magazine and most importantly, its loyal readers. 

You can tell that he really is deserving of everything that he has and is still receiving.

Mingyu being perfect also applies to your relationship. He’s always present despite being booked with fittings, meetings, photoshoots and business travels twenty-nine days of the month. He never fails to call, never fails to answer your calls. He never fails to offer the warmest hugs and the softest kisses. Well, he fails to be on time during your dates sometimes but he never once stood you up and his cuddles when he sleeps over are enough to apologize for the lost time.

The only flaw he has is that he doesn’t know how to take no for an answer. Most especially at times where he wants to shower his love in ways that cost more than your paycheck in a year.

Here are some examples:

You know that Mingyu pays attention to every word you say. Even if you just mentioned a passing topic, he will do his best to keep those in mind. With that being said, you mentioned once that you want to renovate the extra bedroom of your apartment and turn it into a study where you could work someday. Your boyfriend, being the rich man he is, offered to hire and pay a team that could help you bring the design you envisioned into life. 

That was during the first few months of your relationship and you were flabbergasted by how easy it was for him to do or much less say. Needless to say, you immediately turned him down and he respected that (but of course, he pouted about it like a child all throughout the day). 

But wait, there’s more. 

Do you remember how you mentioned that Mingyu travels frequently? Yes? Well, Mingyu always books an extra ticket for you just in case you want to join him. Sometimes it’s not even about the flight ticket anymore. It’s about him stopping by your apartment to pick you up unexpectedly as if France is only a drive away. 

It’s unbelievable, really. That’s why you always close the door on his face. But of course, you don’t forget to give him a long kiss and “stay safe” or “I’ll miss you” farewell. Mingyu, ever the good boy he is, lets you win and just return your kisses a little longer for the days he won’t be able to do so. 

Mingyu’s intentions are pure and you’re well aware that the man that you love is only doing this because it’s simple, he loves you. He wants what’s best for you, he wants to give you what you deserve. You can never blame him for being out of touch from reality at times, but you can learn and grow with him. Although of course, he still needs a scolding and a wake up call every now and then. 

Anything else? Yes.

You didn’t take into consideration that he’d remember, but one night while the two of you were about to fall asleep, you sleepily mumbled about your dreams of attending graduate school. It was a mere whisper in the late night against his chest and you even thought that he wouldn’t hear you at all because his eyes were already closed. You honestly didn’t expect that he’d send you brochures of different universities who offer various programs the following day. You had to calm him down as he excitedly talked you through it. You even had to shut him up with your lips and explain that you don’t have the time to study at the moment with your current job. He tried to encourage you with praises and admiration of your dedication, skills and knowledge. But no, you didn’t buy it and that’s the end of discussion. 

The gifts, however, are something that Mingyu is not giving up on. The first few instances he gave you gifts whether it be a high-end handbag, shoes, clothing, and even jewelry, you allowed him. Because there were only a few. But along the way, the gifts got bigger and more frequent. You had to sit him down to set limitations. It was a long conversation of him trying to get the upper hand. But you didn’t let him outsmart you with his hugs and kisses. It was either he was going to tone it down with the gifts or no gifts at all. 

Sometimes, as much as you hate to admit it to yourself, you can’t avoid getting insecure and afraid that the euphoric time you share with Mingyu is not meant to last. At some point, the fact that he's one of the youngest successful editor-in-chiefs of a multi-million earning magazine got overwhelming. You can’t help but feel that you’re no match for him. And again, you hate that your mind gets clouded with ideas that you’re just a charity case he enjoys spending his money on. Of course, you believe that he doesn’t look at you in that way.

It’s you who thinks so. 

“Hey.”

You release the bite on your bottom lip at the sound of your boyfriend’s voice. Your lost eyes shoot to the stove where he’s cooking and you notice that he’s about done so you should set the table. 

You didn’t even answer Mingyu’s call which concerns him. He wipes the sauce off his hands on the apron he’s wearing and holds your waist before you could even round the corner to the cabinets. 

His warmth snaps you out of your thoughts. Your eyes blink up to him and he just raises his eyebrows at you. 

“Is there something wrong?” He asks and lowers the heat of the conduction. 

“Nothing, nothing,” you lie, shaking your head, “Let me get the plates. I’m quite hungry.”

You try escaping his strong arms and gaze, but he doesn’t let you go. Instead, he wraps his arms around your waist tighter. Your palms automatically land on his chest and the lean muscles make you gulp. 

“I’m going to ask again and this time, I want you to tell me the truth,” he says in a serious yet gentle tone. “What’s wrong?”

You sigh and lean your forehead against his chest. Mingyu also sighs and kisses the top of your head. It’s better to tell him now because you’re not going to get anywhere if you’re just going to keep it to yourself. It will be unfair for him too and that’s not what you want. 

“I just don’t feel so good about myself over the past few days,” you finally voice out. You sound weak, but Mingyu can hear you loud and clear. “I feel like I don’t deserve you.”

Mingyu had to pull away and hold your shoulders to search your eyes, his frown showing disbelief and sadness both at the same time. “Did I do or say something to make you feel this way?”

“No, no,” you quickly say and hold his cheeks. “You did absolutely nothing. It’s just all in my head.”

Mingyu becomes silent and you wish you could just drop it because the regret and embarrassment is slowly dawning upon you. You wish you didn’t bring it up anymore because why would you burden him with your problems? 

But Mingyu proves you wrong once again by holding your hand and carefully tugging you to sit on the dining table, saying softly, “Come on. Let’s talk about it.”

And talk you did. You let out your concerns, worries, fears and insecurities. You bore it all without hiding or masking anything. A tear or two slipped once or twice and some words were interrupted by your hiccups, but Mingyu was patient. He listened and held your hand, promising you that it’s okay. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be scared. It’s okay to be worried. It’s okay to be vulnerable in front of him. It’s okay to trust him because he loves you. 

Mingyu loves you and his words and actions assure you that it’s okay to love him too. 

When there were no more words left to say, the two of you shared a comfortable silence. The weight on your shoulders and the sick feeling in your stomach immediately vanished and you have never felt so relieved. You have never felt so free and loved. You can’t believe that Kim Mingyu is real. 

“I know that this is unwarranted,” Mingyu breaks the silence after a while, “but I want you to know that I don’t think of you in any of those ways. To me, you’re the person I love and I am happy with regardless of our different upbringings, different jobs. Those don’t matter to the time and love we share together.”

“I know,” you affirm and kiss his cheek. 

Mingyu nods and smiles against the palm of your hand when a memory suddenly pops in his mind. “I’m not sure if I have told you this already. But the blog entry of yours that caught my attention is about your first ever blog post.”

Your eyes widen at his confession. You have never heard of this before. “You mean the one where I talked about why I love writing so much?”

Your boyfriend smiles and nods. “That one.”

“Gosh. That’s so embarrassing,” you groan and palm your face. 

“What do you mean embarrassing?” He argues, taking your hand to hold again. “That post was one of the most genuine posts that I have ever read. You explained, word by word, your passion, love and dedication to writing in the most honest way possible. Who wouldn’t be moved?”

You pout and unbeknownst to you, that makes his heart squeeze in adoration. 

“It’s not that special,” you mumble, eyes on your intertwined hands. 

“It is to me though.”

Mingyu’s eyes are dreamy and glossy as you meet them again and you could never be more in love. He holds your arms, coaxing you to stand up to straddle his lap. You giggle when he protectively wraps his arms around your waist. His nose scrunches when it grazes yours, but upon meeting his lips you feel it exhale a breath of relief.

You kissed and kissed and kissed. But when Max barks at the two of you, reminding you of the dinner you’re supposed to eat and share with him, the two of you burst into laughter before reluctantly detaching from each other. 

“You doting over me with material things is a perk,” you humor him and he gives you his signature giggle. “But, I wouldn’t trade sharing the same bed, cooking meals or taking care of Max together over any of those.” 

Mingyu nods gives you one last yet long kiss, a promise that there’s more for later. 

More for forever. 

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a/n 2: this was supposed to be the header/poster of this story but it was too big lol

[kayrllylikesblitzwing]

Jfc icy looks so swole in that one drawing with the three of them

AaAANYWAY HI I PANICKED AND DIDNT ONOW WHAT TO POST TODy SO Have some SHITPOSTS

welcome BACK to my BLOG anyway Blitzwing post FEATURING random shitposts that may or may not have to do with all of the roleplays I’m in

Blitzwing is a FIEND in all rps I’m in hes like a little drama magnet and no matter what he does someone usually ends up very very very hurt (and that someone is usually him) anyways here is some things he has done in rp

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- has broken himself out of Autobot jail by setting himself on fire and then just. Went crazy

- crashed onto earth…. (TWICE)

- has pretty much adopted two girls (one is named Anne Blair, the other is Courtney— Courtney is the little red head one who hates him and so is the finger eater on the second slide I just redesigned her recently)

- several mental breakdownz

- he also almost bled out in anne blair’s garage once

- also took her camping and tried to get her to start a full on forest fire

- also also threatened to kill her dad in order to replace him

- he has a favorite kid he don’t do any of this shit with Courtney 😭

- got his ASS handed to him in a fight by a Cybertronian named SPARKLE 😭😭😭😭

- has a stupid rivalry with a scraplet with a top hat

- collects teeth from Cybertronian he fights to try to fill his tooth gap

- icy punched some Autobot elite guy’s lung out and then got instant karma bcuz the elite guy hit back HARD and cracked his face in half

- jail broke himself AGAIN but THIS TIME did it with his two kids and another character named whiz who is a silly little arcade cabinet he’s my oc maybe I’ll do a whiz dedicated post one day

- also lowkey made best friends with some Autobot he was tryna escape with WHICH WAS AN ACCIDENT OF MINE I didn’t realize the guy he was escaping with said he was an Autobot if I knew I probably would’ve had Blitzwing try to kill him on the spottt

- and tried to grill some autotrooper he killed bcuz random wondered what people tasted like

all in all he’s a very good father

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Tysm for coming to my Blog and reading 😊

[noperopesaredope]

Fics That I Really Like A Lot

So, I just wanted to make a post uplifting some really great fics I’ve read/am subscribed to or still keeping up with. I like to let people know about other creators, and I just wanted to mention some works I think people should check out.

(Note, this post was made on Sep 2, 2021, so when I say something is recent, I mean compared to when I made this post)

Tangled the Series Fics (Mostly Varian Fics):

Walls of Stone (Finished)

Varian and Whumptober 2020 (Series) (Finished) (Sidenote; I really like this author in general, but there is just so much great whump and extreme angst in this series! Says they are but a humble freshman, but I say they are a very skilled freshman!)

How Pneumonia Stopped a Stubborn Alchemist from Descending into Villainy (Finished)

Screw Treasure, I got Trauma (Finished)

Tangled One-shots (Series) (Finished? I Think?)

Voluntary Manslaughter (Finished)

I’ll Always Lend an Ear (Finished)

Drown Your Past, Burn your Future (Series) (Unfinished, but still going strong)

Scars of a Child (Series) (Unfinished)

Unrelenting Silence (Finished)

Where was the happily ever after? (Finished? Unsure)

All our Dreams (Down the Drain) (Unfinished)

Not All Falling Stars Grant Wishes (Finished)

Alchemy Lullaby (Series) (Finished)

Insignificant (Finished)

Second Chances (Almost finished)

The Pawn Decides Its Fate (Finished)

Unsaid Emily (Finished)

Today, Today (Finished)

The Pride in Your Eyes (Unfinished, but still somewhat new)

Monster (Finished)

You Are Enough (Finished)

An Alchemist’s World (Unfinished, but the first four chapters could definitely work as a standalone fic, so, in my eyes it’s finished)

Too Smart for Your Own Good (Unfinished, going strong)

To find the Sundrop (Unfinished)

There’s More in You (Unfinished)

The Science of Love (Unfinished, going very strong)

Season 2 But Gayer (Unfinished, going strong-ish)

On My Honor (Series) (Unfinished, going extremely strong with consistant updates)

A Prince and His Bodyguard (Series) (Unfinished, going strong)

Rocks, Wolves, and the Moon (Series) (Unfinished, going strong)

Return to Me (Unfinished, going strong)

Perilous Night (Unfinished, possibly discontinued, but worth a bit of the read)

Nomad (Unfinished, author is working on multiple projects, so IDK)

No Reward for Second Place (Unfinished, but fairly new and somewhat well updated)

Oath of the Lawbreaker (Unfinished, possibly discontinued)

New Quest for Varian (Unfinished, fairly new)

My Dear Son (Unfinished)

Insignificant (Finished)

Indentured (Unfinished, same author as Nomad)

Enter the mind, remove the sins (Unfinished, going pretty strong)

Darkness exists to make the light truely count (Unfinished, going strong. Updated about every month or two, with consistency)

Creeping Crystals (Unfinished, but going somewhat strong)

Blood of My Brother (Unfinished, going as one of the strongest in its fast updates)

Cyclorama (Finished) (Companion to Blood of My Brother)

Chemistry in Motion (Unfinished)

Away from Home (Unfinished)

Alone? (Unfinished-ish)

It’s just a mild inconvenience (Unfinished, possibly discontinued)

Gauze in the Wound (Unfinished, pretty consistent last I checked)

Blood Makes the Knife Holy (Series) (Unfinished, but each part could work as their own fics, and it’s still going)

A Progression of Events (Unfinished)

He Needs Me (Unfinished, going strong)

Or So They Though (Unfinished, going pretty strong)

The Long Road Back to Home (Unfinished, hasn’t been updated in a bit, but is pretty long and each chapter could take about a couple months to finish, and even longer if the creator is stuck/has other fics. Still worth the read)

The Road Home (Different) (Unfinished)

Reunion at Sea (Unfinished, going strong)

Elements of Angst (Unfinished, probably updated soon)

Arson (Unfinished, every time it think that maybe it’s been discontinued, it comes back)

Unconventional Family (Unfinished, possibly discontinued)

To find the Sundrop (Unfinished)

Wayward AU (Comic) (Unfinished, pretty consistent)

RWBY (Mainly Oscar Fics):

It’s Venomous (Finished)

Will you stand and be brave or be broken? (Finished)

Oscar Gets Himself a Coat (Finished)

Who You Belong To (Finished)

Imperfect Light (Finished)

Shell (Finished)

Blood on Both Hands (Finished)

Tell Me that I am a Fool (Finished)

If i believed in destiny i'd have to hunt it down and punch it in the face (Series) (Unfinished, can have the occasionally long hiatus, but the creator comes back)

Is Oscar okay? no but the answer is b (Finished)

Running From Memories (Finished)

Rescue Me (Unfinished)

Souls of Love and Bravery (Unfinished, relatively consistent updates)

Revert To Last Save File (but it's the wrong file) (Unfinished, but still going)

Broken Body and Souls (Finished)

Camp Camp:

David’s Family (Unfinished, possibly discontinued)

Horror Camp (A little too much child whump for me, but it’s very whumpy) (Unfinished)

Inconvenience (Unfinished)

Still Here (One of my favs) (Finished)

Hetalia (Mainly America and Canada Centric):

Recovering the Broken Pieces (Unfinished, possibly discontinued)

Hetalia 2020 - WWIII and more (Unfinished)

(More fics in the crossover section)

She-ra (Quite a few Kyle ones):

The Chronicles of Kyle (Unfinished)

Sunflowers (Finished)

She-Ra: In the Wake (Unfinished)

Princesses and co. work through their issues (Unfinished)

What is Heard (Cannot be Unheard) (Finished)

Long Way Home (Unfinished)

The Hollowed of Etheria (Discontinued. For now at least. Author might revamp it)

Hordak and the Orphans of the Horde (Unfinished)

Big Sis (Finished)

Ex-Horde (Finished? Pretty good on its own though)

Prisoner of Conscience (Unfinished, still going strong)

Tales of Arcadia (Mostly Douxie Fics):

The Immortal Bonds (Unfinished, going strong)

I Can Make RotT So Much Worse (Unfinished, going strong)

Not After 900 Years (Finished)

A Different Path (Finished)

Half-Remembered (Finished)

Shattered Timelines (Unfinished, going strong)

In the Fullness of Time (Unfinished, updated recently)

One Last Time (Unfinished, updated recently)

Tales of Arcadia Watch Trollhunters: Rise of the Titans (Unfinished)

Crossover Fics:

Sold (TTS/HtTYD) (Finished) (Author is really good at angsty oneshots that should be made into full fics)

Varian’s Mysterious Transport (TTS/Infinity Train) (Unfinished, unexpected updates)

Of Rocks and Robots (TTS/Big Hero Six) (Series) (Unfinished, very consistent)

(Like the moon) I'll sway the tide and lead you astray (TTS/HtTYD) (Unfinished, haven’t read in a while)

Heathers and other fandoms react to stuff (Multifandom Crossover Fanfiction) (Unfinished, confusing update schedule, not every fandom gets much spotlight, still incredibly fun)

Chemistry in Motion (TTS/Big Hero Six) (Unfinished)

The Weight of Both Worlds (Hetalia/RWBY) (Series) (Finished) (My favorite fic ever)

Infinity (Hetalia/BNHA) (Unfinished, possibly discontinued)

G8 china in UA, 1-S class! (Hetalia/BNHA) (Unifinished, possibly dicontinued)

That Which Makes Up This Land (Hetalia/ATLA) (Unfinished, author is editing and reposting all their series, which could take about a year, but it will be back)

A Waterbending Quirk (ATLA/BNHA) (Unfinished, going strong)

Other Fics:

Earth is Odd Enough (Sanders Sides) (Unfinished)

UA Faculty Tiktok OCs (BNHA) (Webtoon) (Check out https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=63lWYueDsek&t=208s, she’s amazing) (Unfinished. The Tiktoks, on the otherhand, are very much still going)

Harry Potter and the Lack of Lambsauce (Harry Potter) (Finished)

Grinch x Tony the Tiger (You know) (Unfinished)

Flowey is Not a Good Life Coach (Undertale) (Finished)

It Wears a Mask (MCU Spiderman) (Finished)

A Different Fate (Harry Potter) (Finished)

A crack in the glass (eye) (ATLA) (Finished)

Identity Saga (MCU Spiderman) (Series) (Unfinished, author is very dedicated to fic and is incredibly determined to finish it, so highly unlikely to be discontinued)

Bakery Enemies AU (Miraculous Ladybug) (Comic) (Unfinished, going strong)

Authors I Like:

AquaQuadrant aka @aquaquadrant (probably know them if you’re in the Varian fandom. Ridiculously talented)

bethhigdon (in the TTS fandom and the Big Hero Six fandom, but also other stuff)

Cate_9xBlue aka @cate-9xblue (known best for their TTS fics)

Royalsciencenerd (Writes amazing TTS Varian fics)

HoneyxMonkey aka @honeyxmonkey (Writes TTS fics and talks a lot about Tales of Arcadia on their blog. Has some great ideas)

Sand_wolf579 (Has a large and varied catalogue)

ExploretheEcccentricities aka @exploretheeccentricities (Lots of TTS fics)

ShadowSnowdapple aka @shadowsnowdapple (RWBY Oscar fics that are amazing)

Widowfics (Great TTS writer)

AMax76 (Wrote the amazing Blood of My Brother)

violetsaren_tblue (has some great TTS fics I like)

Time Traverser (Excellent Hetalia America and Canada Fics)

Aloneintherain aka @captainkirkk (Just started reading their stuff, SO many excellent Spider-Man fics)

So yeah, just giving some appreciation for all the fic creators out there and their creations!

[corvidsong]

good morning :] i’m really excited about having an art tumblr again and i’m looking forward to taking off with it!! i’m gonna ramble for a bit about my plans here under the readmore ♥ 

i’ve been doing some thinking about how i want to navigate this account and my posts; firstly, i’ll try to post an art piece daily as i usually do on twitter, and i have a HUGE backlog of art to post here, so look forward to that! i’ll also keep a dedicated tag system for art, OCs, text posts, answered asks, reblogs, etc. so it’s easy to find everything!

also, as i’m an OC artist and i do a lot of worldbuilding and development on many of my characters (they’re my whole world!), i’m thinking of just dropping a link to each character’s toyhouse page when i post art of them! that way people can see more of the character if they want (also a subtle plug to my toyhouse as i’m very active there, follow me there too if you haven’t already!) admittedly i don’t do as much worldbuilding on most of my furry characters who are just fun for me to draw, but they still mean a lot to me regardless, and i like having an excuse to think about them more :] i already went back and edited my last art post for a link to bonaire’s page.

i used to be mostly active on tumblr before the nsfw ban and missed having a place to post about my characters (thank you no word limit) and i used to get asks about them which made me so happy!!! i welcome messages in general, about my art or characters or anything else, it makes my day. i love rambling and could go on for ages about my characters so if you’re ever curious about them, shoot me an ask! i still remember a lot of the questions i received about my OCs on my old art blog (not gonna drop the @ but if you know you know lol)

i mostly do development on my human OCs which i may or may not post here at times, idk i’m very shy about my human art. but i enjoyed talking about my bloodborne OCs here in ages past so we’ll see how it goes >.>

i don’t wanna ramble for too long so i’ll end here but perhaps over time we’ll get used to my OCs here and maybe i’ll open up to talk about them more. i’ll try to be a little more open about them here than i am on twitter since i can add more text to posts ^.^ here’s my toyhouse in the meantime! and thanks for reading if you got this far haha

[ramuda-kinnie]

Although I absolutely kin Ramuda and take JakuRamu to my heart for almost a year by now, I have somehow avoided talking about it publicly. (I have written them in Home and in my JakuRamu one shots, but writing fanfiction is different from directly expressing my opinions.)

The thing is, I’m very bubbly and talkative, but when it’s about JakuRamu specifically, I find myself holding back— perhaps because they hit way too personal and way too deeply for me to consent an open discussion. But at the same time, I feel like— why? Why isn’t anyone talking about JakuRamu’s absolutely fascinating dynamics at all? The fandom content for them is so limited, despite them being one of the greatest ship (or friends— regardless of how you interpret them, their bond remains unchanged. Romance makes it more beautiful for me but I might as well accept them as great friends and that would work too.), so I am back to Emma Watson’s famous quote— “If not me, who? If not now, when?”

So maybe, I’ll talk more about it as time goes. I mean, my close circle knows that I already talk a lot about it but maybe it will make some people happy if I post my thoughts online under #jakuramu tag too, because the tag is very silent. (Not that I’m offended, I just— I’m just in a great shock because JakuRamu is so beautiful, how come is it so underrated?)

Anyways, let me once again link the fics I have written so far so I can start by posting the content I already made. I think I posted them on my main blog instead of here, so it’s better to repost. Ah, it’s gonna take some emotional labour to talk about JakuRamu but I feel like it will be good in the long term! I may not have all time in the world to produce new content but I’ll definitely dedicate some of my heart into it! 💖⭐️

Don’t Get Lost — The one where Jakurai is being a lil’ dumb and Ramuda being a lil’ affectionate.

We Are Not Perfect — The emotional talk one

Definitely Not Waiting For Jakurai — I don’t even remember this one but it was so cute and Ramuda was flustered

Sunrise At Shinjuku — Absolutely the favorite one shot I have written myself.

Out Of Duty — Unresolved romantic tension & angst, the only one with a bittersweet ending. All others are fluff!

There is also Home, where me and the co-author write almost all hypmic ships, which JakuRamu is a part of!

⭐️ Of course, my fics are not the only ones I love, in fact there are so many great fics about JakuRamu that literally left a permanent impact on me. (I always make sure to appreciate the authors on comments sections!) I would love to share them on my blog too, but to do that I will ask for consents of the authors, so it may take some time (if they let me at all). Until then, have Grace’s fics! 💖

[fawnandshadows]

Hey I think I have to get rid of something (or confess XD) about you all wishing people would comment more on your blogs.

I don’t know why but I always feel a bit weird doing it.👀 If i am honest i only have strugle commenting on tumblr i don't know why. Maybe I think it’s because i think I don’t belong in that bubble like on Tumblr you always have blocks with the same interests commenting on your work or posts. This also depends a bit on the way tumblr just works people just in general don't comment much. Why should yourself then? Sometimes you have whole blogs self-talk here you know people read but do not answer.

I don't know maybe i think me as a normal user i don't count much in case of commenting 😅😂.

But lately i often read that you blogger actually wish people would comment more so here am i. Lately I have commented brav even if they were short but sometimes do i still strugle it is wierd idk. 🥲✨️

But in general I am a huge fan of your writings i am always happy when i see you post someting.❤️

Hello Anon!! 🤍

I hope you know that you can talk to me whenever!! And I definitely see where you are coming from. I didn’t interact with any other blogs for about 4 months, in fact it wasn’t until I started posting my fanfics that I started talking with other blogs, and for those four months all I did was lurk. I liked posts and I reblogged and that was about it. So, I completely understand being nervous and thinking that you don’t fit in!

Honestly, I cannot stress enough how important feedback is to content creators. And I promise you that every comment counts!!!

I promise you, hearing from new readers is amazing! It’s great to know my work is reaching a new audience! Some of the first people I talked to when joining the fandom were @nikethestatue and @thefangirlofhp and now they are some of my dearest friends! Elriels are incredibly welcoming and friendly, and I am stunned by how many friends I’ve made from this community. I’ve been in the fandom for a year now, and I don’t know if I would have lasted a year without my friends. Every relationship has to start somewhere, and I hope you get more comfortable interacting in the future. 🤍

I have talked to a few other creators about this, and we are more or less on the same page, but I certainly don’t want to speak for others without their permission. But I know others feel frustrated as well with the lack of feedback.

For myself, I spend can spend hours, days, and even weeks on a fic. I got very busy over this summer, so I could only work on YPMG a little at a time, but the latest chapter took months for me to write….and when you are dedicating so much of your time and effort on a piece of work, it can be very disheartening and discouraging if nobody reads it and/or comments on it.

Especially on tumblr, comments and feedback are the only way I really know that people have actually read my work. I will like a post so I can go back and find it at another time, or I will reblog something to signal boost and make sure that others can see it. If I reblog a fanfiction without having read it, then I’ll tag “tbr” just so the creator knows I haven’t read it yet.

Comments are incredibly encouraging!!! I am very appreciative of everyone who takes time out of their day to read my work, but comments are very special. How do I know what my readers like and don’t like if they don’t tell me? And I always start to spiral if I receive a lack of feedback on my work, and I realize that I get too much in my own head, but if a fic flops, then I just assume that it wasn’t very good and people didn’t like it.

I promise you that comments are always greatly appreciated!! 🤍🤍

Thank you so much for reaching out!! I know that it isn’t always easy to reach out, and I am really grateful that you took the time to write to me 🤍. It makes me incredibly happy to know that you read my work and enjoy it!! I loved hearing from you and I hope you reach out again in the future 🤍🤍🤍🤍

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7 Anti LO Asks

1. Do you know what really gets my blood boiling about this comic? Persephone and Demeter's relationship.

In the myths, Demeter and Persephone loved each other more than anything. Their reunion is so important - it marked the coming of spring and growth. A whole cult was dedicated to this for crying out loud. Yes, the myths were far from perfect, but the Persephone and Demeter myth showed the strength of a loving mother-daughter relationship with Demeter searching endlessly to find her child that was ripped away and had her innocence forcibly taken.

Now, RS is not the only author to make Demeter this over-bearing mother type in order to put more positivity onto the Hades-Persephone relationship. However, RS takes this trend to a whole new level - to the point where I would even consider it misogyny.

How is it, she takes this beautiful mother-daughter relationship and makes it out to be an abusive and controlling one, and then takes the Hades-Persephone relationship from a forceful one to a loving, perfect relationship with no problems? How is it ok to ruin one relationship to elevate another?

I understand that many versions of the myth try to downplay Hades' actions, and even make it so Persephone actually falls in love with him and there is no rape. But it doesn't change that this relationship was problematic, and meant to represent the loss of innocence.

Then fans have the gall to claim this comic is feminist and then claim on top of that that Demeter and Persephone's relationship was the same in the myth? These fans clearly don't know the myths, and neither does RS.

Making Hades a good person is fine. Changing it up a bit to make Persephone's loss of innocence something else is also fine. But ruining Demeter and Persephone's relationship? Especially when Persephone has to spend half the year with her? So horrible. 

2. im sorry, but rachel cant introduce KRONOS coming back and then dropping it for several episodes to focus on a stake-less trail and persephone not knowing what lingerie to seduce hades in. like thats too much of an earth shaking development and huge stake plot point to just ignore for months to focus instead on something as minor as hxp's relationship, which only points out a huge flaw: why is hxp's relationship so minor in this? isnt the whole point supposed to be about them?

3. I think LO completely dropped the ball over Hades’ characterization. 

From the first ep I thought ok, this is good, we have some bones to see he’s not that lucky in love and is just tired and lonely, and while ignoring the creepy actions towards Persephone, I thought ok, Artemis hates him, Hestia hates, even Ares hates him, maybe once Persephone finally sees the underworld and probably gets to know him it’ll be a clever twist and they’ll be proven wrong. The underworld will turn out to be fair and just, the citizens will love Hades, he’ll be revealed to be a good leader and king and not like his brothers, it’ll be like everyone saying Hades of myth isn’t actually that bad, and it’ll help reinforce why this sweet and bubbly Persephone wants him, she sees the real him, not the mean rumors and assumptions, this is perfect.

And then it just didn’t happen. The exact opposite happened, actually.

We’re shown the LO underworld is cruel and unjust, where the poor dead are forced into slavery and Hades created a harsh class divide with him and him only on top, the citizens hate him, the underworld gods don’t trust him and openly seem ok if he’s taken out of power, he’s not a good leader and king and doesn’t even want the job yet keeps it for his own ego and grip of power m, and on top of it all he is just like his brothers, if not worse. He loves to get violent over any little slight against him, he hoards wealth and resources to enrich himself while his citizens starve and struggle to survive, he’s corrupt, he controls all the media and laws to bend to his will, sleeps with his brothers wife for centuries behind his back while claiming to be holier than thou, he has sex with his secretaries who are made dependent on him for any way to survive, and now he lusts after his barely legal intern who is also now dependent on him for her way to survive, and that’s only what I remember off the top of my head.

LO perfectly set up to prove Hades isn’t the devil or the false pop culture assumption that he’s evil and to show some actual facts from myth, and yet Rachel only ended up reinforcing exactly that and even making him even worse with her made up ideas, all while thinking having Persephone ignore or excuse it somehow makes it not bad or even a good thing. It’s honestly kind of impressive just how bad of writing that actually is. 

4. Chapter 172 is not that interesting. It’s setup had me excited to see Hephaestus and Hera and learning more about echo, but it’s cut so short. Because again the story can’t leave HXP out for 2 seconds.

I can also see why Zeus is gonna go insane. 

5. i agree w/ other anon. LO should have pulled a PJO or a BoZ and just made up OCs and have them interact with the gods than whatever Rachel thinks shes doing, which is lying she's being accurate and faithful while completely changing all of it, removing what is needed, and adding what isnt so that it lines up with no actual myth besides like, various 50 shades fanfic she read in 2015 and some popular tumblr text posts.

6 . the animation studio behind blood of zeus literally can only draw one face for the men and one face for the women and they were still able to make the gods all look distinct and hot while LO can't even bother to use more than 6 colors and can only have the women look as tiny as possible with the biggest boobs while the men are all just lego men.

7. ////FP SPOILERS////

Okay so like I stopped reading LO way back before season 1 ended, and a majority of my knowledge of the series comes from what I read here on your blog which is enough for me lol and I decided to read the latest 5 chapters just to see what's up (on zahard. I refuse to give the actual series any views)

And I just. Could not take the whole scene with Daphne running from Apollo seriously? The anatomy and art inconsistency was so distracting that i genuinely could not find it serious. Even when Thanatos discovers her hibernated body I couldn't take it seriously because of how she looked?

And when Hades had that call (??? Was it a call? Or his inner dialogue? I couldn't really tell ngl) with Zeus and said he's causing Persephone unnecessary distress, and that she didn't pose any threat. B!tch??? She killed a ton of mortals??? She has no control over her powers???? She's literally a fugitive for the aforementioned things??? She apparently woke Kronos up? (Idk if anyone knows about that, again my knowledge only spans to whatever I read here) Hello????

And I have a lot to say about the chapters starting the trial but I'll only mention one thing; Hades saying "I don't think blindly supporting my little brother would be doing him any favours (as a ruler)" had me cackling. This is coming from a guy blindly supporting a girl he's literally only known for a few weeks, who's like what, only recently turned 20? Sit tf down Hades you're not cool, you creepy ass overgrown smurf.

Overall I still hate this series lmao. Regarding art though I feel like I wouldn't be so miffed about the anatomy much if the character designs were consistent and the story was compelling. They literally change hairstyles and body types frame by frame, and it's distracting.

The timeline from what I read here is laughable. 4 years in publication with almost 200 chapters and you're telling me only like a month has passed canonically. That's wild and such poor writing.

And as someone who literally will sympathise with any lead character pretty quickly, the story makes me hate them. It makes me want to root against them. I also hate the fact this trash is somehow top ranked on webtoons when so many other stories are far better then it.

Anyway, many thanks to this blog for existing and allowing me to dump so much text here to vent out my hate for this series lmao. You the mvp fam, hope you're having a good day 🥂🥂🥂

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Happy birthday undertale!

Man, the 5 anniversary for undertale is already here! I feels like it’s been forever since last year. I mean, can you believe I started this blog a year ago? I can’t at all.

So, last year I personally thanked all of my favorite undertale artists, blogs, and writers for being here and making my day every time they post. So, I’d like to do this again, but maybe less people, because I follow a lot more people now, I want to give a longer thank you to them, and if I’d list them all this will be too long.

Let’s get to it!

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First I’d like to start with Toby fox, (@fwugradiation) the genius, creative guy, how did you even come up with this idea you amazing guy. You changed so many people’s life, personality, and social life, and to shorten, people. Thank you, we will all be forever grateful for everything you, temmie and the rest of the team did for us.

@absolutedream-undertaleart over the void was one of the very first things that  caught my eye in the undertale community, and I was so excited about your idea, I had to see if there is more like this. Thank you!

@alainaprana , you make the best comics, I always enjoy them! You and @little-noko always make me smile, because your friendship is so real and you’re supporting each other’s content all the time.

Also if speaking of @little-noko, I ADORE your comics and I get my most of my inspiration, dedication, and growth out of paper crayon. Thank you! My comic exist because of you!

@kuttiesstuff dude, you’re so fricking funny, I love everything about your comic! You make me laugh so hard all the time, whether you post you comic, or answer questions.

@unu-nunu-art I first saw your art in @ask-glitch-and-squid blog, and IMMEDIATELY fell in love! You. Are. So. GOOD. You comics, art, and characters are so inspiring, funny and beautiful! keep creating!

@zu-is-here man, I discovered your blog only recently, but mannnnn do you make me happy. your art is so cool, and your so polite and sweet, no wonder everyone on your blog sends you love so much. You’re incredible!

@lynxgriffin bruh, dude, I LOVE YOUR COMIC. I don’t know what else to tell ya. I mean the fact that I get so excited to see you updated your comic I want to jump in place is kind of obvious right? Wait no? Then let me tell ya. THANKS FOR EXISTING.

@metakazkz you make your comics so simple, easy to read, and I love the fact you upload not once a year. Your dedication is so inspiring, and I don’t really care what version of abysstale is it, I love it, and I love you and your content.

@bettinalevyisdetermined your voice is so lively, and every undertale comic you dub, I enjoy it to the core. You make frisk sound so cute! Thanks!

@onebizarrekai for every single thing you made for the community! Dreamswap, Isaac Beamer, grayscale and so much more. Do you even take breaks bro? You made so much, it’s  incredible.

@dryemiddi your comic is so unique! your art style, story, and especially the fact you did a comic with sans OUT of the story. not every person on the community can think of such, well, unthinkable idea! You can make a horrified or angry face, and it would accidentally scare me! X’D your expressions are so detailed, you can see you worked years to get to that level. Thank you! I really look up to you!

@hiimtryingtounderfell I first saw your comic from a comic dub. maybe I didn’t follow you until a few months ago, but from the very start I fell in love with your comic and art. I’ve been a fan for about 3 years. 3 years! and You’re still one of my favorites. <3

@xxtc-96xx you probable already got something like this today already, and I know you’re taking a break from undertale, but thank you. even if you decide to move on from undertale, I’ll still follow you. You make such good content, and I don’t care that you’re taking a break, because that’s ok. So, thank you for making such good art and sharing it with the world.

@xx-avj-xx you’re so funny, you make me laugh every other comic! not that many people come up with so many jokes for comics so frequently too. You draw incredible, and your style fits your humour so perfectly! You have so many characters and storys, i doesn’t matter whether someone’s new or been your fan for years, there is still to discover about you! Thank you for making a lust error that nobody asked you to make, Because nobody even thought about it.

@mramazingva without your sans voice what would the community be without you? A sad and voiceless place that’s what! You make every comic more alive then it was before you voiced it, and you work every week to make people happy. What can be more inspiring then that?

@tatatale bruh, your art is so beautiful! (If you don’t consider olivetale lol) insans interactions with every character is so fricking hilarious, and no matter how many comics people will make about him, (and i’m sure there will be) you’ll be the only one that can make him like how he really is. I can babble about all your other characters and your story all day, but I’m afraid that will be too long. Love your stuff!

@askfallenroyalty your writing always hits you in the face, and before you can even get up, you get knocked down again. You make every characters feeling as much as important as the other, and you don’t forget anything important in your story. You combined deltarune and undertale so perfectly, how can you not read this? You don’t try to make every update perfect, but that’s what so good about it.

@shattereddreamsau I was sad when you said the comic was going down, because I would wait for every update, make an alarm and read it patiently, and now that it’s over I don’t know what to do. But I respect your reasons, and I will not remember it by the fact that it’s over, but by the fact that it’s here, and I enjoyed every second of reading it.

And @slylock-syl, I saved you for last. Why? Because I love you the most! The first I saw of you was on a comic dub, three years ago, and started following you only 2 years later. wait, that’s a year ago! Yes, you were the first blog I followed on tumblr, and not only that, you made me download the app looking for more content! That’s because your comic is addictive, with beautiful art, full of action, with so much imagination, full of love, dedication, eye catcher, and has the best love story ever. Your reply to what I said last year made me want to jump in place, because I caught your attention even for just a moment. You probably don’t remember, but i do. So thank you, for everything you gave me without you knowing. For everything you made me feel even if you didn’t know. For making a comic that someone out there loves, until this day.

also a big thank you for my friend @amemi0 that is supporting me from afar, and my friend @cheese-and-peppers that let me use his birthday present, to the anniversary out of burnout. You are the best guys. Also, thank you 48 followers! actually I look at every blogs content that follows me. Some I even followed back!

To sum up this very very very long post, good night everyone and happy birthday undertale! Let us grow bigger and weirder!