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My view on The Old Lady thing is that like… Yeah, we know she likely couldn’t have actually saved Shigaraki because we know everything was orchestrated by AFO, but we see/hear Shigaraki’s internal dialogue literally wishing somebody could have saved him when they could. I think that a big part of AFO’s plan for him hinged on that type of rejection… We know he had so many backup kids because he considered the idea that Tomura wouldn’t work out. Part of AFO’s plan seems to have really had depended on nobody saving Tenko, because if they had, Tenko wouldn’t be so easy to just scoop up and groom into the perfect vessel. So yeah, I think The Old Lady being there is effective!! If just one person had tried to help, it wouldn’t be easy to convince Tenko that these are the same people who deserve to die.
Sorry if this is rambley but idk I just think it’s interesting, and I think that AFO’s plan wasnt as perfect as we’re meant to believe! There are so many points where if just one thing had been different, Tenko wouldn’t have been so easy for AFO to get a hold of, and I think he knew that too yknow??
Thank you for the ask, anon! I want to say I like this idea, a lot! And I think that's what The Walk is too - AFO watching the whole time, and betting on no one helping. Like, maybe if Tenko was helped, then maybe that memory would've stayed with him; would've mattered even as AFO tried to cultivate his rage, a lone spot of hope. Maybe it would've affected him when he regains his memories during Deika.
However, it's as you said:
"I think that a big part of AFO’s plan for him hinged on that type of rejection… ...Part of AFO’s plan seems to have really had depended on nobody saving Tenko..."
At this point, it's still speculation. It's a good theory with evidence behind it, but without the manga coming out and saying it, the whole idea is still muddled. Especially because the idea leads to Shigaraki actually correct on some level in wanting to have destroy this bystander passivity. So was his resentment and hatred still all AFO's fault, or is he claiming some of his destruction as his own?
idk. maybe I'm just dense and need hand-holding. Even just one line from AFO gloating about how 'if only someone tried to reach out... but they didn't. I knew that would happen'. As it is, it's implied, but without explicitly condemning Hero Society and making it a priority to be addressed, and so we're left with 'is it that much of a problem?' Which is why we have people commenting on the chapter going 'the lady should not have helped. it's not her responsibility. That kid looked demonic. that half-hearted saving wouldn't have saved Tenko.'
But maybe that's what the last three chapters is for?
Thanks for the ask!
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A belief in Nominative Determinsim
#mira & isa sitting at the other side of the room: oh that cannot be a healthy rationalisation. someone should deconstruct that QUICKLY...#change's strongest soldiers VERSUS one guy echo chambering themselves about a susperstition-based retributive model of the world. GO!!!#isat spoilers#isat#isat fanart#isat siffrin#isat loop#sifloop#sloops#in stars and time#in stars and time fanart#lucabyteart#hey look now. this is softer than usual isnt it? ignore the. ignore the subtle damnation of blame unto the self. its fine. theyre fine#this is in fact a slight adaptation of that headcanon of mine i linked! yep! turns out the way to comic-ise it was to. make it like#90% speech bubble and get kinda weird with the formatting. it's clunky and experimental but hey. im experimenting.#the next ones gonna have even more fucking speech bubbles if it goes how im planning. christ#then its gonna get followed up with something wordless so. all things in perfect balance.#DISCLAIMER: i like to write loop and siffrin displaying the maybe not so great logic-holes their seeming fear of 'retribution for not#sticking to (the script) what the universe intends for them' entails. i do not agree with their weird philosophising.#i in fact think this is . bad for them. and am exploring how fucking unhealthy their mindset seems to be even when 'mundane'#OCD siffrin real as hell whats with the doing arbitrary actions in specific ways lest Something Nebulously Bad Happen little dude?#anyway if you caught the extremely blunt symbolism of kissing a hand with a knife in it you win a prize! it's called self-satisfaction 🎉🎉#hmm. do people realise i kept calling this type of back and forth between siffrin and loop a socratic dialogue bc socrates was also just#arguing with himself? like he was just making up the other guys. complete thought experiment. i also call them that because theyre WORDY!!!
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not indirecting anyone but i keep seeing the take that sam has power over dean because dean is so attached to and dependent on him. like it’s everywhere. and its just soooo fundamentally flawed. that is not how anything works. not to sound like a broken record but that type of dynamic (where one partner, the aggressor, views themselves as in fact controlled/dictated by the whims of the other) is actually very standard in an abusive relationship…
whether or not sam has ‘power’ over dean in this way is functionally irrelevant because his ‘power’ extends to his ability to somehow, what, psychically manipulate dean into doing what he wants?? whereas dean’s ‘power’ over sam is making sure sam adheres to exactly what he’s decided sam should do and punishing him if he doesnt do that, and deciding he has ultimate control over sam’s own decisions about his life (see main plot events of s4, 5, 6, 8, 9, 10, so on and so forth…).
#thirteen year old me type logic (i say this a lot i know but it’s true)#it just literally IS. 13 year old me would be like ‘i’m the powerless one cause i’m at the whim of my emotions’ (dean logic) girl get up#i literally have a line in my recent fic like ‘maybe sam’s the one with the real power by sitting there and taking it’ which obviously is#from like 14 year old sams perspective trying to rationalise things but there r genuinely so many people who like. Seem to actually believe#that.#idk it’s this weird bias people have about spn where if you acknowledge the unbalanced fuckedupness of sam & dean’s relationship you’re#‘simplifying things’ or whatever. but abuse isnt in any way simple#spn#oliver talks#sam & dean#poison in the water#i feel like i’m relentlessly negative on here. sorry guys
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killer being like "yeah i know every single little thing about horror and dust" (because he watches them as a part time hobby (freak) (find something better to do)) and then he acts surprised when they do something that he wouldnt expect them to do in his little predetermined absolutely perfect concept of them
like what do you MEAN horror licks spoons clean when he's using them so he doesn't have to get a completely different one for the main course and the dessert. what do you MEAN dust has a lisp even though he speaks fluently and uses even more complex words than killer himself. horror knows how to sew and he often patches up their things without either of them noticing?? dust always wears oversized and clothes that cover him up just because he finds it comfy?? what??? out ra geous???? these guys have small little quirks to them that killer doesn't already know about???? killer immediately wants to know more. so he can expand his internal profile of them of course. not for any other more endearing and sweet reason. not at all,,,,,,,, (:3)
#AASHSHAHHHHH this one is so cute....... this thought. thank you brain for making this thought#it's like killer's experiencing sonder (except he's not aware of his own complexity of life because of his own derealization/personalizatio#actually i dont think this deserves to be a side blog post. this is too damn CUTE#at first the 2 were probably weirded out by killer watching them and now they probably dgaf...... killer comments less than youd expect#but now theyre used to his shit so they do all these tiny things that killer gets to pick up on and learn more about them#its so interesting...... killer can do as much reasoning as he can to try and find a logical reason for why they do these little things#but in the end if the real reason is just because they wanted to or they felt like it then how can killer comprehend that?#how can they just do that so easily and choose to do things based off a whim instead of having a calculated precise reason for personal gai#he wouldnt realize it on his own but noticing those little things coming fron horror and dust who used to be like him could help with the#everything is just a game and i am simply an avatar and the ultimate goal is the win aka be the most powerful#for dust and horror theyve already turned their consoles off. theyre out of their games theyve finished. their goal was just to beat it#(like if horrortale finally got the good ending it deserves because of aliza horror would have finished#if dust beat the player and due to extreme boredom (ITS GOTTA BE EXTREME EXTREME) decides to leave to explore the multiverse)#in killer's eyes theyve achieved their goals. but killer's still playing his game. maybe he IS the game. but eitherway he's not done#like they r. so taking into consideration how other versions of himself act when theyre finished with the game could he act like that 2??#did HE also finish his game and he never realized it? should he be basing these ideas off dust and horror when theyre kinda not the same gu#killer would find so many hoops to jump through to justify getting rid of the everything is a competitive game idea but there would be smth#IDK im just rambling. i gawt this idea from me imagining them fight. ya you wouldnt believe this sweet thing came from trio abuse :3#killer psychoanalyzing dust and horror is one of my favorite things eva. horror would HATE IT (if he were aware#and dust would totally be freaked out and keep to himself incase killer's planning anything against him#but uaaaghhh pretend this isnt canon this is triglycercule's ideal little world where they explore the mv and have fun#killer watching dust and horror sleep because he doesnt feel tired while theyre all in bed#and he's just picking up on how theyre positioned. how they breathe. the little things.......... djdjshahahaaahsushdjwbdsn ssosooooo cuuut#tricule hc#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#dare i say mtt poly. ok i dare say it. but like lowkey he'd do this whether theyre together or not...... killers just weird like that......
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Sometimes I remember lee know saying he wants to do a song with Seungmin and I.N bc he'd like to be a part of vocalracha and then I remember that was well over a year ago and there's still nothing.... </3
#cmonnnnn#those dudes all have been getting vocal lessons for 5 million years and have yet to get a proper song together its kinda funny#and by funny i actually cannot conceptualise the thought process of the larger skz team at jyp sometimes#like it doesnt have to be a 3racha production...... the covers and solos are p frequently done outside that so like....#?#lee knows love me or leave me cover popped off when it got released sometimes i dont really know what their managers are doing lmao#like people talk about how busy they are and they are super busy but also im p sure they cpuld have made a vocal unit song at some point in#the past year#but also they could have released the solo songs from dome tour at any point so once again its just that thing of not really understanding#jyp management and why they dont hop on some opportunities that seem fairly logical#like they better release the new songs this time around people have clearly shown a thirst its just weird#like the joke is skz is behind on trends but like. this isnt an skz member thing its a larger management thing and its a bit confusing#id presume theyd release the new solo songs maybe at the end of the tour but they didnt release the dome ones yet so its like.....#Hmmmmm#we will see i suppose
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Saga and Casey joining the FBC, love it, need it, it’s everything. But also. There’s NO way they’d be on board (lol) with The Board. There’d be so much drama
#saga anderson#alex casey#alan wake 2#control 2019#control remedy#also. would the board know saga is a seer and has the ability to traverse worlds like her dad#unlike Jesse who is bound to the service weapon-could see the board being apprehensive over her involvement#saga: [having incomprehensible conversations with the Former in her profiling place]#The Board: NOOOOOO/:(#logically I don’t think the Control sequel could bring Casey and Saga in for major plot stuff but it’s been a thought in my head#while yes Saga and Casey are a part of the FBI#the Board having control over the bureau is so blatantly insidious#then again maybe they’d just be field agents who don’t even think about it#in the sense of ‘well everything is already So weird’
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the problem is I’m such a staunch believer in the slow buildup, the earnest enjoyment of meandering through terrible story decisions and weird nothing subplots to build up into a conclusion that explodes out from all that as fantastic storytelling and intrigue based on all that buildup, such that it makes it necessary to get through all that or you’re missing something essential, that I’m also a terrible person to talk to about what makes a story good. I can tell you plenty of what actually makes something tight and well-written and all that technical speak but how could anyone take my advice when I so so so love excruciatingly long unnecessarily complex fumbling and weird nonsense that spirals into, inexplicably, weird nonsense that makes you cry your lungs sore
#kipspeak#my point being everyone is too mean about post arr. sure f’lhammin did not have to be our problem but everything after that was like#meandering. Thinking. building. unnerving. they were cooking and i RESPECT their dubious food#i love homestuck and long audio dramas and dnd podcasts and indecipherable fancomics and lego ninjas and khux and im starting to love ffxiv#all incredibly long and made with passion and kinda weird and hard to get into#said with THE MOST affection in my heart#I could structure a kids show and I know how to write for tv but in my heart of hearts#I just want to write an impossibly long absurdity epic that is weird and a little bad and also makes you feel shrimp emotions#ALSO I feel 0% bad for not respecting ur theory or opinion if you haven’t played khux/dr/recoded I don’t feel bad about it at all I’m right#understand what’s going on in them and I’ll respect your theories. it’s like comics enjoyers but less chaotic#don’t let me get into comics. superheroes never really catch my interest but if you let me get into comics I’d explode#‘it gets really good’ is a genuine way to interest me#also don’t let me get into anime that do this. I already watched a thousand episodes of detective Conan—#maybe it’s a careful balance of weird and Good Storytelling Seeds. it has to have internal logic for one; and it has to have a structure#It has to be leading somewhere. and I want to see where it leads#we are GOING through the disney worlds. all of them. they are COOKING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i feel rly sad and conflicted abt one of my best friends on earth but idk who to ask for advice bc i usually would have consulted her in this situation lmao
#shes cool and i dont want to lose her and i know Logically i love her but atm i feel so strange towards her#and idk what to do abt it bc i know in the past ive like...over-communicated a lot and over the last few yrs ive been trying to not do that#bc thats an anxious impulse i think .so like . self control#AND IMPORTANTLY . i may actually be the problem here ?? ok again i love her i dont want to lose her etc but basically ive noticed a pattern#which is that whenever she gets a bf/a man (even fwb) in her life she basically stops talking to me and the limited interactions we do have#become abt him. and while i support her it is acc too much. like we barely talked while she was w her ex bf until he became abusive and#then we talked a lottt like all our convos understandably were abt him . and then when they broke up we kept hanging out so i didnt rly see#the pattern there but still she seemed to centre men a lot in her life like sbe was excited to not date and find herself and then#immediately afterwards started seeing this other guy with whom shes basically in a relationship now#hes nice and all but like . HES ALL SHE TALKS ABT . actually we barely talk atp but when we do its abt him#she sends me reels sometimes but its all abt being jealous abt him etc . and shes bi but she said she doesnt like the idea of dating women#bc theyre scary . and i thought she was kidding in the ohhh women r so beautiful that theyre intimidating way but no she was being entirely#fr . she explained jts bc she was bullied by a girl in the past but like...bro ur ex bf literally abused you like surely you see men are#capable of just as much harm? but obvs who she dates is her own choice . but anyway she has consistently made plans w me then cancelled the#like an hr before . or asked to call me and then proceeded to not do so . when i ask her to meet/call its the same she just doesnt respond#or she cancels ? and while i understand anxiety sucks it feels SO WEIRD STILL . maybe im the problem slightly too bc ik i have no right to#feel this way but it rubs me the wrong way that ik she has so much time to spend w him/calls him all the time despite meeting him just a fe#months ago whereas i just have to like ...be ok w not actually having talked to her for a long time#its gotten to the point where when she says do you wanna meet/call i automatically respond yes and then just assume it doesnt happen . like#there have been several times over the past few months i double booked plans over when we were supposed to call/meet bc i was sure she#wouldnt show up and ive been right each time#like she sends me texts that she misses me or im her best friend etc etc occasionally and then acts rly . contrary to that ?#ive talked to her abt the issue w cancelling on me twice btw. when i was still dating the situationship person she would get sooo mad at#them for not respecting my time and shed tell me i deserve better etc etc and then like . she doesnt seem to respect my time at all#anyway she said she understand and she admits to like...being flaky etc but does nothing abt it#and its not like i can tell her to stop caring so much abt men bc we sorta had convos like that b4 she got This involved w this guy#and apparently it did nothing and the last thing i want is to police her relationships or get in her way#its just AUSHD AUGH#anyway i rly miss her it just doesnt feel the same at all anymore
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I'm sick so I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, but I've been thinking about the nature of myths recently as I've been exploring hellenic polytheism.
For context: I'm ex-Mormon. I was raised in the church and, because of that, was taught biblical literalism but in, like, a more subtle way than most? I was raised believing that Adam & Eve and Noah's Ark, etc., were literally true, but that the story of Job specifically was not; I also always knew evolution and the Big Bang to be correct, despite there being a verse in the Doctrine & Covenants (a Mormon-specific religious book) where God apparently told Joseph Smith that the world is 6,000 years old- a passage I didn't know existed until my senior year of high school. I didn't realize I had believed in biblical literalism until I'd left the church, actually.
Now that I'm aware of it, it's a mindset I'm actively trying to combat while I explore Hellenic polytheism. It's definitely been a task to separate the nature of the Gods from their myths, as brutal as they often are. And it's something I've noticed within the community, too, which I think is interesting. It makes sense: Christianity, at least, has had a chokehold on much of the world for a long time, and so many of us have experienced literalism as our first interaction with any sort of holy text (though, of course, Greek myths as a whole aren't that) alongside our first experience with divinity as a wrathful God whose flaws are waved away, or ignored, or twisted into positive attributes. This also means that I'm trying to re-approach several deities with an open mind (Zeus, Hera, and Ares in particular, but many of them to some extent) while also trying to un-condition myself. I was already in the process of doing this, of course, but trying to figure out how to interact with a completely different pantheon has made that especially clear.
It extends to things like prayer and offerings, too. Prayers were very formulaic growing up, even though most of the time there wasn't a strict script to follow. There was always something you ask as part of the prayer, even if it's just 'please help me do better tomorrow' (alongside giving thanks, of course), so trying to craft a prayer without adding *everything* I'm used to including in makes it feel incomplete and, therefore, disrespectful. And daily prayer is something I'm resistant to because of prior experiences with it. I don't want to offend any of the gods by asking for something or asking for too much, especially so early on, and there's always a promised offering the few times I *have* asked. Add worries about exact obedience on top of that and it's proving to be a difficult thing to untangle. And I know that the gods are difficult to offend, figuring out how to do this takes trial & error and that's okay, it'll get better the more I do it, etc., etc.; this is more an issue with my own overthinking than anything else (hooray for ✨ mental health issues ✨). I'm not really asking for advice here, necessarily, just thinking out loud because I'm not comfortable talking to people in meat space about it yet.
#also: the whole thing about cleanliness? as someone w/ mental health issues? Rough. very rough. what counts? how individualized is it?#if i cant get my room (where my shrines are/will be) clean does that mean i cant give any offerings?#is just washing my hands and/or veiling actually okay most of the time? even when ive been struggling to shower?#when does something require a change of clothes? or do i have to do that every time i offer something at any point in the day?#including meal/drink (ex steam from tea) offerings? i dont have that many clothes besties#if im pouring out an offering to hermes on my way home from work do i have to somehow wash my hands first b/c i just got off public transit#can i pour it directly from my water bottle or do i have to keep a little separate bottle of water just for libations?#and like. i know logically the answer is 'do whatever you can and you'll figure it out' but it hasnt sunk in yet#it's always...interesting when a new layer of religious trauma tm gets discovered#also. maybe it's just the 'tism but 'just jump in!' and 'go slow at the beginning' seem contradictory to me#like. you cant do both??? i dont think??? 'just jump in' is the answer ive been getting when i do tarot so im trying to do that#also. doubts? not offending a deity??? wild concept. just. the hardest thing to wrap my head around. mormon god's ego is FRAGILE fr#hellenic pagan#helpol#hellenic polytheism#not adding exmo tags b/c i dont have a good enough handle on the community here & im too sick to deal with people being weird about this#my post#coriander says#seeing people get into the theological weeds is cool from the outside (see: that 'can spiderman do superhero stuff on the sabbath' post)#but very stressful when there's not centuries on centuries of detailed information to draw from & everyone's just trying to figure shit out#in a world that's *very* different from the one the information we *do* have was written down in#christianity cw#mormonism cw
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Thinking about that one post I saw in passing way before I made this account that like was a confession blog and the confession was like
"I think Illuminata isn't romanceable because she falls in love with Amber"
or something like that and like the only comment was somebody saying like "ew, how dare you make me look at this"
Anyway I think Illuminata/Amber would be pretty cute
#rune factory 4#RF4#Rf4 Amber#Rf4 Illuminata#Amber/Illuminata#Gotta make sure my shipping tendencies are known from the start so no gets surprised by them later#and so i don't fall into the trap of don't be myself don't be myself like i did when I tried to use twt years ago kdhflkd#I know from what I've seen some people are very weird about Amber like in general though and to a smaller extent Kiel too#My logic has and always will be if you can marry them they are adults idc how they look idc how they act marriable means they are an adult#and infantilizing adult characters will never not bug me(ha)#(because Ambers a bug)#like does she act childish? yeah very much so but so does my 26year old ass so i just cant hold it against her#like have you considered that maybe she's just a little??/j (though it would be a very easy explanation. our girls just always in headspace#or maybe you she's just neurodivergent? ADHD girlypop bug girl??? ever considered that???#i don't even have any real thoughts on Illuminata/Amber this is mostly out of pettyness#like they live together#the butterfly and the flower girl#they could make for a really cute Fairy!Au#like a modern au where Illuminata finds a tired fairy!Amber in her garden and helps her? that sounds cute#anyway I want Amber to just drop that she's actually like 30 one day i just think it would be really funny#“Why do you act like that then?” “It's Fuunn!!”
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queenmaker should be coming in the next few days, depending on whether i have bad hayfever or a cold today - this is supposed to be my holiday week, so i would expect that i am actually sick, but then also i've passed out for every hour i haven't been at work today so i'm both caught up and screwed up on sleep ready for my half days 😭😂
#i may also have just pushed it too far yesterday#but like idk i was just vibing and then the hayfever gutpunched me at midnight#i think i let my guard down about having a holiday and my body was like 'don't need to stop cold germs coming in!' happens every gd time#it's a reminder not to let it happen at christmas#anyway to those still reading today has been really weird#i'm totally fine at work the hayfever even went away#but at home? literally can't keep my eyes open#i wanted to play a game tonight and between 5 and 9 i've watched two hours of tiktoks and lain facedown on the couch like a coma patient#and eaten tin spaghetti and toast that i slightly burnt for dinner#because i left my pasta out last night and i thought i had food poisoning this morning so i convinced myself the pasta is evil#which doesn't logically make sense but that's anxiety for you lol#anyway i actually have woken back up again a bit while i'm sitting here so maybe there's something left in me
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screaming into the void <3
#my best friends boyfriend (who i’ve also been friends with for years) is just. not himself rn#we think it’s a manic episode but we don’t really know but it’s. terrifying lowkey#he thinks he’s genuinely jesus and that he’s conquered time and that he and my bsf are adam and eve#he’s been sending my bsf liek hundreds of texts per day since tuesday but it got really really bad and incoherent yesterday#and i woke up this morning to see multiple texts from gcs he created w me in them#and he keeps being like ‘because it’s 6:20 this is true’ and like ‘i know that at 9 pm everyone is gonna understand’#and he’ll text like 5 times then send a sc of what he just texted like that proves something but it’s all nonsense#i’m just really really concerned cause he really needs help but i don’t know how to ensure that happens cause he’s 19. not a minor#he’s just. not him rn. he’s called my bsf multiple times yesterday when he HATES calling normally#he had his band and his mom over in his apartment yesterday cause my bsf called his mom and h went to his bands show but was visibly not ok#and he saw nothing weird about it even tho he hates having ppl over normally and never without warning#and you can’t get him to see logic because everything you say he just twists around to work for him#to be clear it was not this bad when it started. when it started it seemed like normally maybe slightly out there conclusions he was drawing#but it just got worse and worse like exponential decay and really bad yesterday#he also didn’t sleep at all yesterday night and idk if he slept tonight#i know his mom took his phone at one point but he texted me and gcs w me in it starting at like 6:20 this morning#and my bsf and i and friends are on a trip out of state rn but we’re leaving today and i don’t wanna wake her up until i have to because#this is literally hell for her. but it’s just. scary. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think there’s any good options really for me rn#i want to warn ppl and try to explain he’s Not Him rn so they don’t get concerned but who knows if they’ll understand what i’m trying to say#i know it’s not the end of the world but it really feels like the end of my world as i know it if that makes sense#and my bsf lives with him in an apartment near their college and they just signed the lease for the next year#but she can’t stay there with him alone. not until he gets help. we’re all too scared it’s going in the directon where he thinks it’s better#for ppl to go to the afterlife. which like he never would normally. but he’s Not Him and so like. who knows#he keeps talking about all these different dimensions and how you need to travel to the 7th dimension to understand#my bsf was crying yesterday and she called her mom to explain and she keeps saying that she just wants her jake back it’s really scary#cause he will probably never be the same again. he’ll be similar but different but she wants his comfort but he’s Not Him. and can’t give it#i just. really want this to get better but it’s so hard to see that happening rn
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trying to decide if im about to implode or not
#i dont. hm.#idk if i feel restless but exhausted and there's what's making me want to blow up or ???#why am i. feeling this way.#brain says call mother so i can at least Get The Energy Out Safely but also#anxiety says that i don't really have a REASON to call mother and she'll question it and think it's weird if iexplain#which logically i know isnt true. or well even if she thinks it's weird she won't shame me for if or anything.#so i should.... do that.#ough.#idek what this is or why im feeling it#thigh at least i could ask her thoughts on me running a fan event maybe......#like i would have to explain it to get somewhat but that's fine#she knows about some fan events and i think i even told her about the actg mixtape some last year????#anyway.#yeah.#i should just text her to ask to call.#and maybe the weird imploding feeling will fuckin stop#shh ac
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That feeling when you love romance and wish you could write it but then remember "oh yeah what even is romance???" and cry in the corner because love sucks and all you wanted to do was write romantic fluff
#writer problems#guys i think im aro#lmao#writing#to people who are/have been in love. how?#this is supposed to be a writing rant GAH#i swear i just wanna write fluff without feeling weird about it because i feel like i do it wrong#is there a “wrong” in writing?#i mean logically yes#but also i dunno maybe in some ways there is no wrong#who knows anyways#*googles how to write romance*#writeblr
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mannn what the hell the new lps are on the target website now so i was thinking about just ordering them there since target seems to be the main place people in the us are finding them and the only one anywhere near me still doesnt have them and even if they did i cant go right now for various reasons. but they literally refuse to sell them to you online unless you spend 35 dollars or more? hello ive never seen an online store do anything like this before thats so weird
#looking into it i think they just do this with cheaper/smaller items in general but its still weird.#like i cant think of any logical reason for this other than just trying to make people spend more money ?#i guess 35 dollars isnt that much money but i wasnt really wanting or expecting to spend that much#especially when you have to pay for shipping and stuff on top of that which makes it even more expensive#because i was just planning on just getting a small set or a couple blind boxes or something for now and get more if i find them in person#maybe ill just wait... but im worried theyll never show up where i live or that resellers will beat me to them if they do...#because target is usually an only once every two weeks or so thing for me#its not super far but its nowhere near close enouhg for me to be able to check every couple days like some people can#sorry for basically liveblogging my crisis in trying to find these little animals
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*shaking and covered in blood* man I can't wait for the legs remarriage tomorrow
#I actually doubt it's tomorrow I don't think it'll be act one#but man I am SCARED#Just because I know logically how things should go doesn't stop the fact I have anxiety#also very worried for Suitloon despite it would make no sense for them to not be okay#Suitcase having weird mixed feelings about Nickloon at first sure maybe#but suitloon WILL be fine why wouldn't they be fine!? (Is so fucking scared)#terrible polycule tedtalks#object posting
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