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hellativity · 1 year ago

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lol i have been chronically online and wanna rant about some stupid shit i have seen. i will probably say something problematic in here <3 dont worry about it

do you ever see people making up discourse about different ways to be queer and like. maybe they are right idk. but also please log off and hang out with some queer people irl and maybe we actually dont need to play "who has it worse" "who can talk about these issues" identity politics with every different possible combo of pronouns/gender presentation/gender identity.

ok up next i keep getting "modest girl" instagram reels and it's so funny bc most of them are just. normal girls in cute outfits that i would probably wear too. but they are making such a big deal about their Modesty Journey pls chill

the amount of tradwife content i get...... not good. not good at all. and like i love homemakers! that's what my mom did for most of my life! but instagram influencer homemakers??? not it. they have always got some shit to say about their husbands not wanting them to have a job or they don't need a college education or God wanted me to get married at 18. you're allowed to do these things if you want idc but the more this stuff is normalized (ie 60 yrs ago or whatever. also less than 60 years ago.) the more women get trapped in abusive relationships because they don't have a savings account or a path to independence. your individual choices are not setting back feminism but you #tradwife content totally is

last night i got this video about a girl snacking on butter and i was like. wow i hate that. so i looked at her account and she only eats meat?? like? "I don't eat plants" what the fuck., anyway. then instagram showed me lots of other types of disordered eating influencers. yikes!

oh idk i also dont like "girl math" or the word "girlypop" or whatever. it almost feels like we finally made it from "im not like other girls" to "sometimes i am like other girls which rocks bc i love girls" and then took it too far to some kind of weird "i am stupid i am a woman divine feminine" situation? idk i see people posting about this, i'll reblog if i see someone phrase this in a way that makes sense

oh my god and the comments sections???? SO many people have GOT to learn to just scroll past. like if you see a teenager being awkward or "cringe" or wearing a bad outfit. can you just leave them alone? like just keep scrolling. people are so mean? and for what? so other people will like their mean comments. i hate it so much.

man i am just. scrolling and i hate it. and i know the algorithm is showing me things i hate even more bc i look at them. awful.

#long post #may self destruct idk #i have gotta get off reels

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chipper-smol · 5 months ago

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So...... Loop and Odile huh?

v THE OTHER RESPONSE I DOODLED v

yeagh

#isat #in stars and time #loopdile #isat spoilers #spoilers #myart #fanart #siffrin #loop #Look #Loop considers Siffrin to be worthy of redemption #but they may not hold themselves to the same level of forgiveness #where softness and comfort are what Siffrin needs from his party #Loop would struggle #because if they're with the party they're in a different role than they were before the loops #they cant have what they used to have and that would chafe at them with every little comfort and hug #this leads up to Odile not being as emotionally robust as Isa and Mira but she IS logical and doesnt take any shit #Loop and Odile getting together is a NEW dynamic to Loop #they wouldn't feel like an interloper #plus they canonically find Odile someone to emulate so they heavily respect her as a baseline #idk i just think Loop would get more catharsis from someone who would give them what they wanted in terms of self flagellation #but also someone who wouldn't let them escape afterwards and would force them to acknowledge the source of their pain #changing is destruction n I think Loop needs to get broken a few times before healing #like if Siffin and Loop were broken bones #the party caught Siffrin and were able to set him straight before he healed wrong #Loop healed in a super fucked up way and its causing pain for everyone #sFNFnGFGN IDK ITS LIKE #NOT A ROMANTIC SHIP #ITS SOMETHING COMPLICATED #but i also want Loop to whimper yknow

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sketchyandsketches · 10 months ago

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Dragging my teeth across concrete, I'm still so mad about everything, oh bbygirl

#ye he is doing ouchie but that's not why he's crying #ouyang my beloved #im so fucking mad all that and for whatttttttt #only cure for this pain is a modern au where they meet again #may they have all their lives together #also yeah idk how to do smoke #general ouyang #the radiant emperor #the radiant emperor fanart #general ouyang fanart #fanart #art #digital art #illustration #tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #tw self h4rm #he who drowned the world #she who became the sun

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atopvisenyashill · 8 months ago

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sorry i’m still annoyed but like we really think if ned would have seen robert hit lyanna with his own two eyes he wouldn’t have done anything. that’s what we’re saying. that’s really what we’re all saying that’s really-

#idk why people are incapable of talking about nedcat’s faults without going to the most deranged option possible #i think if lyanna was 16 and pregnant with Robert’s baby & wrote him a daella esque ‘pls come im scared’#ned would go see what was UP. he��d Probably assume she misses their mother and would bring like. nan or someone to storm’s end #but come on. he abandons storm’s end to a starving & distraught stannis bc he thought she was still alive.#and people will be like ‘he’s an asshole to cersei’ u r ignoring the part where she fucked her brother & he thinks she murdered jon arryn.#THATS why he’s an asshole it’s very clear that the spousal abuse set off insane alarm bells in this man’s mind.#yeah it’s not enough to say stop a marriage between margaery and robert.#but if u think it’s not enough to go now what the fuck do you think you’re doing here robert if robert left a bruise on lya’s face #unserious. go reread the book. once again i’m accusing too many of you of being only children.#getting on my soap box #this post may self destruct if i feel bad enough about it later

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lnkedmyheart · 2 years ago

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The fact that people insist that Oda had the best understanding of Dazai just because Dazai said he knew him best makes me understand just why the fandom has such a bad read on him.

The reason Dazai agreed with Oda's perception of him was because Oda didnt care that Dazai did the right or wrong thing, he was never gunning for the "you are better than this" or "stop trying to kill yourself" kind of concern. He was just letting Dazai be whatever without even an ounce of judgement and ultimately only reflecting Dazai's own self perception. But he was also looking at Dazai from the same perspective he used to look at himself. Seriously, I have seen people talk about how Oda understood Dazai better than anyone because he lived through similar events and had no light in his eyes or was a child assassin etc but that doesnt mean his perception of Dazai was good at all. He projected his own perceptions onto Dazai and like who even came to the fuckass conclusion that Oda had a healthy perception of himself???

#also we need to stop romanticizing accepting people with all their self destructive and toxic tendencies #thats not romantic and its not a good thing #itw god awful for Dazai's mental health and idk why this whole shit even became popular #cause now people actually insist that oh Dazai may have just been a child but he was a psycho who didnt give a shit about anyone #when it is repeatedly made clear that he had a tendency to infact care way too much and latch on to the first person who interested him #he cared about Chuuya's perception if him during dhc #he cared about Oda's perception of him during dark era #and he has cared about the ADA and Sigma's perception of him hence the aggressive and horrid masking #and he is hilariously bad at masking cause everyone is unsettled by his fake clownery #and despite how bad he is at it people still think he is actually apathetic and evil???

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burritosandpeppermint · 11 months ago

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I don't know for sure, but it feels like a major customer waiting until the Friday before Christmas to do a small legal saber rattle on a case that hasn't had any priority for anyone for two or more months is what I might be able to describe as "infinitely petty," but I'm not a legal scholar so I can't say for sure.

What I can say is that I took yesterday off for my birthday (thank you all for your lovely wishes) and that today was the first day of our company's Winter Break, and I would honestly be surprised if this particular customer didn't know that. So I had to stop my Stardew Valley play - in which I am having a very good Spring of my 3rd year - to deal with *waves hand at a dumpster of bullshit in my inbox* for two and a half hours.

I think that my participation in this eye-rolling exercise is now over, but man, fuck this shit in particular.

Anyway, now to run errands!

#this post may self destruct #idk if i could get in trouble for it in the future #i did my job correctly #the only thing that could come back to me is that I got too busy to follow up #but they still chose right now to address it

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welcometogrouchland · 1 year ago

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*twirling my hair* do you like cassandra cain? if not, do u have a moment to hear about our lord and saviour cassandra cain?

CASSANDRA CAIN MY LOVE!!! She's definitely the batgirl I've read the most in terms of full issues, the first 30-ish issues of her solo by Kelly Puckett Scott Peterson and Damion Scott had me hooked and I binged them but fell off after Horrocks came on (nothing against him, he was just given an editorial mandate to make the book more romance focused and it turned me off because it felt so ooc for Cass to me lol. I do own some of the issues he wrote tho! I like the ones with art by Rick Leonardi). I'm not really caught up with modern comics (ish??) And I'm not reading anything dedicatedly but I hear she's in a new original book teaming up with a magic user? Neat! Good for her. I love her in the shadow of the batgirl graphic novel (IT'S SO GOOD)

#ramblings of a lunatic #asks #^ sorry had to be tistic about things for a minute #i loved damion scotts artwork for her solo series sm (especially the later moee stylized stuff even though i recognise how bonkers-#-the proportions are i can't help myself. i like women and i love stylised art like that)#his stuff was surprisingly influential on my own art. idk how much it shows these days but It's There #this hasn't mentioned anything about what i love about cass as a character but like. it's the same as most people who love her man #i love her self destructive dedication to redemption i love the guilt she's saddled with-#-and how it's juxtaposed with her committment to kindness and justice i love how she's the fucking best and she knows it #i love how the relationship between her and oracle was an intergenerational mentorship between two disabled women #and her gay ass bond with stephanie (who in all fairness may be my fav batgirl???-#-but I've also read wayyy less complete issues of her compared to cass due to the differences in how their respective series' are-#-formatted but like. what i have seen i tend to love. i love u stephanie)#but also dear god i do not wanna get reeled back in because nothing the industry ever does will please me the way the ideas in my head do #and I'm constantly at war with myself reading stuff #also it's just hard to get back in when you've been gone with a while it's all just very difficult #but i am rotating cass and stephanie in my brain like a microwave waiting for someone to explode #plenty of people smarter than me have already said this but cass should team up with jason and they should both seethe #he wants to kill. she keeps breaking his bones if he tries it. they're both brushing each others philosophies off bc of where they exist-#-on the batfamily ''kill/no kill'' binary even though they share similarities of wanting to be batman but Better #(jason via controlling crime and killing criminals and her with her ultimate dedication to the symbol and superior combat skills)#(also keep in mind i just watched utrh but haven't read a rhato comic in yonks. so if this is an outdated jason characterization+#-then whoopsie <3)#Jason's dedicated to pushing buttons and poking holes in batmans philosophy and cass is great at reading ppl-#-and sometimes in her series she then performs a limited psychoanalysis of them and tears them apart #(at least she did for shiva) I'd love to see her do that to jason. break him so i can tape his sad lil ass back together #this is getting away from me. anyway no need to proselytise. I'm a former alter boy round here

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notquiteaghost · 2 years ago

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off the back of this post abt fic rec lists & how we shld make more of them, new ask meme! send me a fandom / ship / character / trope / wordcount / etc & i'll rec five or more relevant fics!

#yelling at clouds #i am obviously making this to be reblogged but like also. do send me asks #also fyi if this gets a stupid number of notes it may self destruct. for the sake of my activity feed #ask meme #ask game #idk if anyone. checks those??? if u do. hi!

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steampoweredskeleton · 10 months ago

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Ignore

#delete later #ibuprofen my one true love #off to try and get some more tomorrow. in a self destructive mood might go without my crutch. nah thatd be a terrible idea.#didnt take painkillers today abd shits swollen so maybe that's enough being shitty to mu body for this week #whats the phrase harm reduction or whatever. also gonna see if i can get sone body butter or whatever that body moisturiser is called #trying to reduce the impulse to scratch at my skin and maybe replacing it with moisturising will help? might at least #reduce the impulse if im Smooth TM #idk man im in s state and the education stress is gonna continue to ramp up so its defo gonna get worse #i need to prepare so i don't fucking lose it completely #booked time off work in may to have a breakdown bc i should be finished by then. i plan to stay beneath my weighted blanket #for the week #god im tired #and ow. but its fine.

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callixton · 1 year ago

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i really sort of am the poster child for an unhealthy workaholic

#feat me today stumbling around campus on > 4 hours of sleep and one protein bar #+ there’s some other thing going on with me where i have to somehow mentally reward pushing myself and that leads to a dangerous feedback #- loop #so i go oh i wonder what would happen to my body if i just didn’t eat at all and collapsed. what would that feel like #(i’m Not doing this for the record. i’m meeting a friend for food in 20 minutes)#it’s not even depression i know exactly how that kind of self destruction feels and this is unfortunately just my baseline #it’s the masochism innit. (and not even the fun kind :/)#i may also be being dramatic on account of the not eating or sleeping. that’s a real possibility #WOA do i wanna write some whumpy fic abt my problems soon tho #um. idk how to tag this. its not quite a vent #ted talks

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studywithvictory · 22 days ago

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Hello moots!!

Please let me know if you need anything tagged on my blog. You can send me an ask (anon or not), message, or reply here.

I try to tag food/drug/alcohol/negativity/suicide mentions, but if there's anything else let me know! :)

Personally, I would like eating disorder/diet culture stuff tagged so I can block it.

I wanna make sure my community is happy and safe so please speak up if you need anything. <3

#housekeeping #this post may self destruct #or maybe ill queue it a few times. or keep posting and deleting. idk lol

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tyrannuspitch · 1 year ago

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thinking thoughts. thor bpd too...?

#space viking tag #idk it's complicated #esp since bpd is a very multifaceted thing #like yeah he has mood swings and angry outbursts and he's impulsive and reckless #and he has like no sense of identity. he does Not know who he is beyond the perfect prince #(and how well he thinks he's achieving that and what it means to him are also all over the place)#but other sides of it... maybe not so much. or not Precisely as typically described #like he is very very needy but i don't think it's specifically consciously about *abandonment*#and i think a lot of his anxiety is deeply repressed #and self destructive feelings are mostly like. redirected? or disguised?#so like. bit of an edge case. may or may not count depending on who u ask #tbh hpd might describe his kind of neediness better #but hpd is a) underesearched and b) frequently written about in blatantly hateful ways #so you really have to squint to work out what they mean and idk if i'm quite Getting It tbh #but idk #people pleasing and a deep deep need to Matter and be Seen... very receptive to others' emotions... very deliberate self-presentation... hm

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pizzapizzadickz · 2 years ago

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Haaaaah. It's frustrating living like this tbh.

Like. Its been years and I'm still struggling as much if not more than I did as a child.

I wonder, does anything ever truly change?

#diary #personal #i know it may not seem like it but ive put a lot of effort into growing as a person. yet i still struggle oh so much.#its funny hearing bout ppl with an insane amount of allergies bc inrelate so much.#and it sucks. bc living every day has felt like a struggle for far too long...#...i wanna go back to not working.#idk. im still unable to function one way or another. but at least then i had time and space to exist.#i guess the upside to now is i at least leave the house ig?#idk. i started this job bc of a self destructive cycle i was in. but i feel worse.#i hate working. god. ik everyone around me would say to suck it up but... idk #if living wasnt this painful i would. but honestly. my existence feels like utter suffering. with moments of okay interspersed between #sometimes I wish I had a normal life. but i wouldnt be me that way. now would i?#i... just wish there was something. anything really. to make this trash life feel okay.#like. what am i existing for? why am i trying so hard? whats the point anymore for any of this?#idk. i dont have the answer. maybe you look down on me too for complaining. but i dont care. im just tired.

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transgaysex · 2 years ago

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my plan for my moving out future is 1.i move out 2. i delete my facebook. to the bestof my abilities 3. make a new one with my wait actually why would i make a new one. well i guess thats mainly what i use to talk to my siblings but also i can text and call them so does it matter. so either make a new one with my name proper (before or after legally changing it I truly dont care it diesnt matter) or straight up Not make one. why would i care i dont even have whatsapp

#wind howls #secret part 4. if anyone calls me by my deadname or misgenders me ill tell them they must be mistaken ive never heard of such person #but this is my name and always has been so idk what theyre on (smiling so serenely and sweetly)#wait actually i cant delete my facebook because i need to make a public huge coming out announcement and see who gets mad #this may seem pointless ajd those who know me may know that such behavior may seem self destructive as im very sensitive #those who know me better however will know that i need and im owed this closure. knowing who calls me crazy and sinful-#within my family will be the last encouragement and satisfaction i need to truly cut them off. i wont be able to otherwise #i wont. feel bad for cutting them off if they hate me. but ill feel bad for cutting them off while they remain ignorant as to why #so i wont immediately delete my facebook. ill make a big deal out of coming out. and ill make sure to notice which-#family members cry out and scream at my need for salvation. then ill be justified

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harmoonix · 1 year ago

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I N S P I R A D O R A

☀️ (Astrology Observations) ☀️

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☀️~ Ray of Light ~ ☀️

☀️ - Sun conjunct Venus/Neptune natives really share a very beautiful personality, they're very positive and full of life

☀️ - Mars aspecting Lilith (h12) or (h13) = Bad bitch vibes, you do you and you don't accept nobody's disrespect

☀️ - Mercury - Moon aspects may really enjoy music like a LOT, and especially if you have one of these in air signs 100%%%%%%%

☀️ - Saturn aspecting Pluto can really have an overwhelming life, things can sometimes get down and you can feel hopeless at times. But you don't have to forget that you are strong and don't let their things put you down

☀️ - Sun at 6°. 18° degrees natives analyze everything they see. They can read people on their face, idk is like these natives have the power to see what's behind someone's emotions

☀️ - Neptune aspecting the ascendant natives sometimes have a hard time thinking about themselves, because they tend to prioritize others more than themselves

☀️ - Moon in Libra often gives the native fox face/ fox eye figure. for example watch out Madison Bee, Ariana Grande and Alexa Demie have Libra moons and their eyes are close to fox eyes

☀️ - Sagittarius Sun natives will be the people to call out all the lies, they can't accept to be lied on. I know numerous Sagittarius Suns who rather prefer to hear the truth than to be lied on

☀️ - If your boyfriend has an Fire Venus, be sure he'll be very passionate in everything he does. Venus in Fire Signs usually has a spark in their eyes when they do something with passion

☀️ - Mars square Moon/Sun has very strong emotions when they're getting angry, they will probably need some time alone because their personality can be destructive at times

☀️ - Erato (62) - aspecting Juno (3) = Very erotic relationship, and you can seek for eroticism in your life. Very erotic spouse aswell and I feel the tension already...

☀️ - Be careful at natives with Sun - Jupiter aspects in harsh aspects because their pride and ego sometimes it can be bigger than everything, I know someone with those aspects and omg she always thinks she's better than others (I need Maddie from Euphoria to slap her to reality)

☀️ - Neptune in the 12th house can often experience deja vu, they are spiritual and connected to their higher self

☀️ - Mercury at 10°, 22° degrees can be really into singing/ Capricorn degrees can influence and grant you success if you try your best

☀️ - Moon/Sun in the 9th house can be into occult/religion/witchcraft and they can share a communal love for Gods (if they believe in a God/source/universe etc)

☀️ - Sun/Venus/Moon in the 11th house make the best friendships, they connect with people so easily and they're so nice with people, is very hard to not be friends with them

☀️ - Mars conjunct/square/opposite Midheaven (MC) can cause others to see you as a competition and mostly jealousy. So most times is just better to mind your business and to not enter in a contact with people who can seem envy from the first sight

☀️ - Natives with Sagittarius Venus/Venus in the 9th have chances to be in a relationship with someone foreign/ far from home/ your spouse can be from another country/culture and honestly is so cute

☀️ - Saturn aspecting Venus can worry so much in relationships, some of these natives can even be over thinkers for their own reasons, I think another great lesson of theirs is to learn how to love without having difficulties

☀️ - If you want to have very chatty people in your life find someone with Gemini/Aquarius Moons because they are the most communicative out here,you can really talk about everything with them

☀️ - Capricorn Mars/Venus Men are really the gentleman of the zodiac, like the damn sir you really are a king (My Venus doesn't match with this one sadly but I met so many men with those placements and they were really amazing people! sorry my Venus doesn't match with it)

☀️ - Virgo Risings can attract really lovely people in their lives because of their 7H in Pisces, I love these placements so much, because your 7H is also ruled Jupiter who gives you so much luck

☀️ - 1st house ruller in the 6th house can be a big indicator that, these natives need to focus on themselves pretty much in their lives. You'll experience a lot of things that's for sure

☀️ - 1st house ruler in the 10th house on the other side, will mostly prioritize their job/career and that can grant them success in their lives

☀️ - 1st house ruler in the 7th house can prioritize relationships pretty much in this life, like they'll be always searching for that type of person who can be theirs forever, and be careful at enemies too most times they can be hidden

☀️ - Mercury at 3°, 15°, 27° degrees can indicate someone who likes to talk a lot, or just someone who needs to talk more

☀️ - Mars at 8°, 20° degrees makes the person attractive to the opposite sex (even if sometimes they don't want that) it's just attraction

☀️ - Natives with Midheaven (MC) at 2°, 7°, 14°, 19°, 26° degrees can make a good a first impression to the people who approach them

☀️ - Cancer Placements/4th house placements can be the best emotional supporters or the best emotional manipulators, it really depends on these placements and how act towards people

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☀️ Sun is such a very beautiful planet, Leo Risings are so lucky for having this gorgeous planet as their ruler 😭☀️💞

☀️ Have a very beautiful day full of light and full of love, let the Sun ☀️ rise on your street to make you feel better and to bless you ☀️

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- Harmoonix ☀️💞

#astrology #astro observations #astrology fyp #feelings #birth chart #astro notes #astrology observations #placements #astro community #horoscope #ascendant #venus #sun #sun aesthetics #sunlight #aesthetic #gold #leo #leo placements

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kiyo-cant-write · 19 days ago

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hi hi! jade req again, kinda toxic this time

can we get jade with a reader who’s really easy to manipulate and they know it? idk if it makes sense but like jade realizing reader isn’t oblivious to his manipulation, just kinda self-destructive and hopelessly into him

jade thought he was being slick because reader wasn’t calling him out on anything, but he overhears their conversation and finds out that they’re fully aware jade is a ton of red flags but is still staying anyway, and his reaction to that

i really hope this makes sense! idk how to word it

jade w/ an easily manipulated reader ✧･ﾟ

Aw! Thank you for another request! I love Jade and Octavinelle so much! I hope that I did your idea justice. Please let me know if you'd like another request in the future! Onwards to the story! ^^

Summary: Jade Leech has been stringing [Name] along for fun and due to the instruction of Octavinelle's Housewarden. He thought he was doing well... but it seems [Name] may have had ulterior motives.

TW/CW: Toxicity but the standard Fish Mafia kind

Notes: established "relationship", they/them pronouns for the reader, the reader is Yuu/Ramshackle Prefect, the reader is described as human and younger than Jade/frosh, ADeuce if you squint, implied to be post-Azul OB

Guest Stars: Deuce Spade, Ace Trappola, Grim, Azul Ashengrotto & Floyd Leech (referenced)

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Jade Leech

As much of a sadist as Jade can be, he's not exceptionally cruel outside of what he deems as the necessity for his purposes.

He is a bit smug when he thinks he has [Name] under control.

Jade is pretending to be "honor student Jade Leech."

He acts as their friend and support albeit for the Lounge.

He pretends to care, to do everything to help them.

He smiles at them, speaks politely, and even "affectionately."

They trust him and they tell him things they shouldn't.

He will use those bits of information when the time comes.

Every time they have an inkling of doubt, he squashes it.

His surprise is evident when Floyd points out that it might not be the case this time, but Floyd is Floyd and doesn't explain.

Wanting to make sense of this discovery, Jade observes [Name].

He watches to see if [Name] really has caught onto him.

Jade is intrigued and what he finds does not disappoint.

He is surprised to find that they caught on long ago.

But they stayed? Why?

Because they "love" him?

Why would they love the guy trying to string them along?

It didn't make sense to him. He felt a tug at his heartstrings.

Did he feel bad about this?

He didn't know what to do.

Jade starts to avoid [Name] after realizing their feelings.

He retracts further into his honor student persona.

[Name] will not win this fight. He will not be bested by a freshman.

The battle has just begun and Jade needs to bury this sinking feeling in his chest. What does it mean anyway?

Floyd serves as a live studio audience to Jade's struggles.

Jade is an observer. That had been his role for so long, that he wasn't sure when it began. Ever since he was young, he would watch and calculate while Floyd was the type to rush into things, be impulsive, and just a tad stupid at times, at least when they were young. Jade never intended to make his observations a skill, but sooner or later, everything becomes an asset.

That's what his father had always said.

His mother worried about the sadistic streak in her son, but she couldn't do anything to prevent its development. Jade was, after all, a member of the Leech family. He and Floyd would join the family business sooner or later unless they wholly refused its offer.

"[Full Name]," Jade mused to himself, "How interesting."

Azul had been the one to ask him to pay extra close attention to Ramshackle's Prefect in case they strayed too far from things, or got into any trouble. The magicless human that had saved others from themselves, they interested the owner of Mostro Lounge. Jade had simply agreed with Azul's request, observation was his skill, after all.

It had never been meant to evolve, and certainly not into this.

Jade watched as this person fell for his polite words hook, line, and sinker. It was almost too easy. They were shockingly trusting, telling him all sorts of things he could use to be downright evil if he wanted to be. It wasn't time for that, not yet, but one should always guard their secrets (perhaps not as much as Azul, but at least a bit).

He didn't need to do anything unless the moment called for it.

At the time, it had not been necessary.

That was weeks ago.

Azul hadn't given further instructions and, to be fair about it, Jade didn't want to earn that octomer's ire. Not today, anyway. He and Floyd were troublesome, yes, but not stupid.

So, as Azul had instructed, he was trailing the Prefect until told otherwise (or until it became boring, whichever arose first). Though their reactions had been predictable, he could argue that things were getting boring now.

Floyd would have given up ages ago, he was sure of it.

[Full Name] was currently spending their time with their classmates, Ace Trappola (easily swayed by competition and bets) and Deuce Spade (note: gullible as a child). Jade had kept an eye on the three of them (and Grim) because of their closeness. It was rather irritating how buddy-buddy they were. He had worked a bit to get [Name] alone those few times they had spoken privately.

Standing away from the trio, Jade listened in on their conversation.

"[Name], I don't think that this is good," Deuce told them, clearly worried for their friend's mental state, "You need to be more careful. Don't you remember what happened to me and Ace?"

"I fucking remember!" Ace chimed in, "It sucked. Don't trust fish."

"Nya! Fish are food, not friends," Grim told them, "Especially eels!"

"Ah... You guys..."

Jade almost wanted to chuckle at Grim's words of "wisdom" but he withheld it, knowing that he mustn't give away his position. Not yet.

"You shouldn't trust Leech-senpai," Deuce continued, "Do you not remember how he and his twin brother acted before?"

"THEY TRIED TO KILL US, [NICKNAME]!!" Ace interrupted Deuce, earning him a glare from the navy-haired boy, "Sorry, Deuce-chan."

"Don't call me that."

What Deuce was doing could only be described as glowering.

"Lighten up and help me convince [Nickname] not to get themselves murdered by a shady eel and a shadier octopus!" Ace told him, slapping Deuce on the shoulder, "Just because they're better doesn't mean they're changed fish! Fish are suspicious!"

"Ace, do you have some fish-related trauma outside of campus that I should know about?" Deuce asked him, "It's starting to seem—"

"FOCUS ON [NICKNAME], DEUCE."

Ace's reddened face was a sign that Deuce was on to something with that fishy nonsense. Jade Leech would remember that fact.

Fish trauma. Noted.

"....Okay," Deuce agreed, turning back to [Name], "Do you want to tell us what you've been doing with Leech-senpai? We're worried..."

Deuce trailed off for a moment before he added a Deuce-typical offer.

"I can fight him if you want me to. They're messing with my friend."

"N-no thanks, Deuce... I don't think I need that," [Name] said, laughing at the antics of her friends and roommate, "Honestly, I know he's not being honest with me... But I don't really... care?"

The words surprised Jade but he refused to give himself away. There was more information to be gathered, for his own needs and Azul's.

They don't mind my dishonesty? Heh...

"I have never been more concerned for you than I am right now," Ace said, tone lacking its usual goofy undertone, "Do you want me to tell Mom and Dad about anything? They would help..."

Ace wasn't sure what to do but this was a worry. So frantic to say his sentence Ace neglected to register his misnomer for Vice Housewarden Trey Clover and everyone's favorite senpai Cater Diamond. He could lay awake and think about that later.

Deuce clearly felt similarly as he reached out to put a hand on [Name]'s. He wasn't good at solving problems of the emotional variety but he could be a support. Or, he would try to be one.

"Even if we can't say anything helpful... We can be here to listen."

"I appreciate it, but I'm fine," [Name] tried to assure them (but it wasn't working), "I just... I like Jade-senpai... and if this is how... he will talk to me... then I am okay with it. I've just been going along with all... that."

Jade felt time stop for a millisecond as he processed the words. They had been "playing along"? They didn't fall for every trick? Perhaps this was more interesting than he had thought. Still. He didn't like being bested, perhaps he needed to up his game...

"[Name], that's not good... I don't think..." Deuce managed.

"I wish Mom and Dad were here..." Ace mumbled.

"[Name], don't leave me for a fish! It's not even tuna!"

Grim clung to his human with small paws, tail swishing.

Jade was baffled not by those that Azul had previously controlled but by [Name] themself. They were something odd amongst the students of Night Raven College. They didn't shy away from his... methods.

But they said they liked him. He wondered if that made him feel something. He wasn't one to like other people, stay around them long... especially these landfolk.

It was a foreign concept.

Oh dear. [Full Name], you've managed to intrigue me now.

To the concern of Deuce, Ace, and Grim, Jade Leech wouldn't be letting his human prey go any time soon. Not for Azul, or his brother... This was something he was pursuing now. For better or worse.

I hope they're prepared to best me once more.

What would they say if I said I "loved" them? ♪

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