#many thing have changed as I try to make this story something I like but I do think it's funny henri's looped back around to being a teen
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đŻ [100] How many words does your WIP currently have? How many words do you hope itâll have when itâs done? 2.3K+ now, and whatever happens, that happens.
âïž [Hourglass] How long have you been working on this WIP? 3 days.
đ [Books] Is this WIP part of a series or standalone? AU location (starts as) and aged-up characters.
đ [Bow] How many named characters are in this WIP? How many do get a POV? OTP only. Even as 3rd person's point of view there's little of point of view at all (as thoughts or just about a person alone.)
đ [Heart] What is your favorite moment in this WIP? OTP talk & do things together.
đ¶ [Notes] Do you have any other WIP related things, like moodboards, character portraits, playlists or similar? It can happen in 0.001% of cases (if, then fanfictions only.)
đ [Open Book] What form do you want this WIP to take when itâs done? Posted, printed, published, etc? Posted only.
đ [Rat] Name three reasons why this WIP is great at being insert genre here. (You can send a genre, or let the recipient pick one.) Romance, as it's about a lot of love (as in every fanfiction about them.)
đ[Mouse] Name three reasons why this WIP is horrible at being insert genre here. (You can send a genre, or let the recipient pick one.) Humour. Unfortunately, no funny moments.
đ [Magnifier] Is there a phrase/word you know you use too often? Will you change it in editing? So (for years.) If exaggerate, the answer is, so what? So to be it. | Whenever possible, I try to find other way to glue parts of looong sentences and not to break them into shorter ones. The writer of the original version had looong sentences as well and paragraphs can seem almost endless in many cases.
đ [Meat] How many fictional people were harmed in the making of this WIP? EVERY SINGLE of my fanfictions & original stories has happy end (unless past when I wanted to write about harm done to or defeat of a bad or unpleasant character.) In the case of latest WIP fanfiction: deep sadness of both, character 2: wish to cry before relief, no harm.
đ [Rainbow] If at the beginning of your WIP the characters knew about the end, would they kill you to stop you from writing it? They would look forward to a plot twist (mostly character 2, as character 1 had an idea.)
âđš [Palette] If your WIP was a color, which color would it be? Rainbow, as they deserve.
đ© [Donut] Whatâs the weirdest thing someone eats in your WIP? Whatâs the best thing? No food or drinks are mentioned (yet?)
đ [Lock] Would you let your family, friends, or other people you know in real life read your WIP? No, and I almost don't know people in real life. Yes, I'm so called "live under a rock."
đïž [Pen] Describe your WIP in a single, terrible sentence. At first, the two are icebergs, but very, very soon, nothing is under water . . . (They talk about character 1 as having an iceberg, so . . .) . . . positive plot twist, philosophical discussion, something else unexpected (positive again.) (Note: something else is before plot twist, though. | I've had to search for answers to at least understand how such description can be possible.)
â [Cross] What would your WIP get cancelled on Twitter for? What does it mean even? If as not accepted, one of important parts is gender non-conformity. Those who are against girls & women who don't look feminine can be highly displeased. BUT what can I say, the version the fanfiction is based on has scenes with character 2 in man's shirt. So yes, haters can hate as long as they want.
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đŻ [100] How many words does your WIP currently have? How many words do you hope it'll have when it's done?
âïž [Hourglass] How long have you been working on this WIP?
đ [Books] Is this WIP part of a series or standalone?
đ [Bow] How many named characters are in this WIP? How many do get a POV?
đ [Heart] What is your favorite moment in this WIP?
đ¶ [Notes] Do you have any other WIP related things, like moodboards, character portraits, playlists or similar?
đ [Open Book] What form do you want this WIP to take when it's done? Posted, printed, published, etc?
đ [Rat] Name three reasons why this WIP is great at being insert genre here. (You can send a genre, or let the recipient pick one.)
đ[Mouse] Name three reasons why this WIP is horrible at being insert genre here. (You can send a genre, or let the recipient pick one.)
đ [Magnifier] Is there a phrase/word you know you use too often? Will you change it in editing?
đ [Meat] How many fictional people were harmed in the making of this WIP?
đ [Rainbow] If at the beginning of your WIP the characters knew about the end, would they kill you to stop you from writing it?
âđš [Palette] If your WIP was a color, which color would it be?
đ© [Donut] What's the weirdest thing someone eats in your WIP? What's the best thing?
đ [Lock] Would you let your family, friends, or other people you know in real life read your WIP?
đïž [Pen] Describe your WIP in a single, terrible sentence.
â [Cross] What would your WIP get cancelled on Twitter for?
#I'll try to do this for every fanfiction or chapter started (in the future) & related to this blog#fanfictions#WIP#Sylvia und Sybille#SySy#any chance for anything related to THEM in typed form (for me to think and to type) is very welcome#Fiction is harder than non fiction (unless it's detailed literary criticism.)#To express my opinion & to read between lines (most of the time) is yes but How is it written? (quality) then no.#Give me parameters to look for. Yes a humanities person who thinks about literature from scientific point of view.
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I'm not sure how Nightflyer and Soundblsster met Sparkplug, but I guess they met her at Earth.
So I'll do my interpretation of how Nightflyer and Soundblaster got on Earth.
Nightflyer was at the palace as usual, going to his berth after he finishes all work for the day he overhears from his sire's chambers about space bridge and how it can take someone to a different planet.
Interested, he begs and pleades Soundblaster to help him try the space bridge, which Soundblaster soon agrees with, using this as an opportunity to get rid of Nightflyer.
So they sneak out and go to the room where the space bridge is kept, and they eventually find it after a few miss ups at which room is it and knocking a few guards or less.
They tried using the space bridge, but it went wrong, and they both ended on the same planet called Earth. They ended up in different places, Nightflyer ended up in the same forest where Optimus first arrived and met Spike, and he's amazed by Earth's beauty while Soundblaster ended up in near fancy human city as he wondered where the living FRAG he ended up.
And that's pretty much it. You can tell me how they actually ended up
Also, I think Nightflyer and Soundblaster would love Earth and its culture.
Nightflyer like Optimus from idw comic and maaaaaaaybe Repunzel from Tangled would fall in love with Earth's beauty and its creatures and plants since he never saw that back Cybertron where everything's metal. To his, this would be a dream come true since, like you said, he's into mutants and plants.
Soundblaster wouldn't like it at first, but then he sees humanity's arts, creativity, literature, museums, and many more humanity has to offer. Like Nightflyer, this would be a dream come true to him, too, since he's into art and literature.
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Bonus: Back on Cybertron, Starscream and Shockwave panicking where the living Primus where their sons went and screaming at anyone while Slipscream tries to eat her energon cereal.
Anyway i really love your ocs and I wish to know more about them. I really love how you have progressed the story so far. I love it.
Actually the real answer is a good bit different, however I love the story you made, It was vary fun to read!
This is how it really went down.
Shockwave chose Nightflyer in particular to be the one to go to earth undercover, he did this because he knew that Night was so loyal to his family, that he wouldn't change sides if need be (this would be proven right later). Nightflyer was absolutely mortified when he was told that he needed to go to earth, not because he didn't like earth, but because he would have to go alone to make the plan look believable. Also he would have to purposefully crash his ship on the planet... but the alone thing was more of priority for him.
He dose make it to earth and makes the ship crash, making it look like he desperately trying to escape from Cybertron. He would be found and taken to the Autobot base (after checking him for tracking devices) where he would be questioned and checked to see if his arrival would bring more enemies to the planet. He was kinda blacked out for a while (because of the crash) when he was sent to Ratchet's med bay to undergo an emergency check up. And who just happened to be the reluctant medical assistant on hand? Sparkplug. She really had to fight her dad in order to stay and help with the exam (she really wanted to be part of something exciting, and a random hot guy falling from space was definitely exciting).
They properly met during tryouts for being put on a mission team. Nightflyer passed well (however he needed to hide his full potential as to not tip off that he was part of the Cybertonian guard). Sparkplug on the other hand passed with shockingly flying colors for a bot her size, however was immediately turned away by Megatron (this is because Sparkplug has been training most of her life to be qualified for off base missions, however is shot down by her dad each time at the qualifying tests. Like her late father, she's not one to take rejection lying down, so she has trained for years and gone to every try out. Much to Megatron's dismay, this has only forced her to get stronger then she would have been if he had passed her earlier).
At first Sparkplug is kinda spiteful against Night simply because he was able to go on missions despite being so new to the autobots, however something makes her look at him differently... she notices he's lying. She has no idea what about but she can feel it, something about his story is too perfect, he's moving up the ranks too quickly and cold outer shell doesn't fit with someone who wanted to break away from his original faction. So when she finds him in the library one night, she corners him, and he breaks... but not fully. He reveals his true personality to her, but not his mission. He is vary genuin about how he feels trapped by having to mask all the time, that no one would take his seriously if he was himself, and how he genuinely felt oppressed by the "the strong rule the weak" mentality of the Decepticons. In return, Sparkplug opens up about her strange existence and confusing expectations people have for her. That she needs to be a replacement but not a copy, to have prime's kindness but none of Megatron's anger, love herself for being special but listen to everyone talk about how freaky her existence is. And after that night... Sparks start to fly between the two.
Soundblaster met Sparkplug in the middle of space.
Eventually the time comes and the seekers (slipstream and company) show up on earth and it's revealed that Nightflyer was a spy the whole time. And a dangerous one at that, actually able to go up against a good amount of the autoboots. This breaks Sparkplug's heart because she talked to Nightflyer a LOT, she had no idea if any of that was real or not. It didn't help his case when he immediately sided with his sister, going back to being a deception due to his loyalty to his family.
However during this shit show, who arrives but the DJD, taking advantage to the situation to try and take Sparkplug in order to make her a new Megatron. Seeking a chance to be praised by Shockwave, Soundblaster is able to grab Sparkplug admits the chaos (capturing the last remints of Optimus prime would be extremely useful in manipulating the public or just making a super weapon) . However due to a mix of Skywarp's powers fucking up along with Slipstream's (she has the same power's as Skywarp), Soundblaster and Sparkplug are warped halfway across the universe. This now forces our characters to try and find Spark before anyone else can.
When coming to, Sparkplug is absolutely livid at Soundblaster and immediately attacks him. But due to the situation, they reluctantly come to an agrement, get somewhere where they can get back to Cybertron or earth, then fight about it then. This forces the two to work with one another to try and make it to intergalactic space station without dying. During this time, Sound only communicates through mores code, never speaking once. However him and Sparkplug have a good amount of conversations, slowly opening up to one another. They really hit it off when Sparkplug is able to relate to Soundblaster, but admit that he defiantly had it worse then her (nightflyer on the other hand saw himself and Soundblaster as equally out cased despite the huge power discrepancy). She's able to see him for who he is, what he was supposed to be, and who he wants to be... and this makes Soundblaster throw away his loyalty to the decepticons and decide to be loyal to Sparkplug herself.
OH MY GOD this was a long post, I could go on but I need to stop myself before this becomes an essay.
#artists on tumblr#oc#transformers#tf#ask#ask blog#ask box#lore dump#one spark au#transformers au#transformers oc#tf sparkplug#sparkplug#nightflyer#tf nightflyer#soundblaster#tf soundblaster#long post#this was a really big lore dump I'm so sorry
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A Letter From Inquisitor Lavellan to Dorian Pavus
//OOC//: Hello again! These letters wonât leave my brain so Iâm churning them out while the muse is there. Enjoy!
My friend,
I can practically see you brooding, you know. Which is your right and your past-time, by my count.
I wonât sit here and try to make excuses for my choices, there are no good ones anyway. I want you to know that no matter what, I never meant to hurt you. But that doesnât make you less angry with me.
Perhaps Iâve caught you in a more benevolent mood, willing to hear me out. If Bull is near you when you read this letter, remind him that he owes me one. Or more likely youâll crumple up this letter, probably set it on fire, and only spare a thought for me when youâre telling embellished stories around a gorgeous dining table. Either way, you are owed an explanation.
I remember when you told me of your intentions to try and change Tevinter. I was so proud of you, because I knew if anyone could make change in their home, it was you. The idea of watching my friend leave, knowing that it would be unlikely weâd see each other more than a handful of times among the years, was difficult to swallow. Especially after all you did to bring me back to life when Solas left.
You can say his name, you know. He isnât going to appear around a corner and lunge at you. Iâve made him promise not to.
What you did for me in the months following his departure is a debt Iâll never be able to repay. Iâve known the love of a mother, a father, a lover, and a friend, but perhaps yours exceeds all of them. For yours is a loyalty, a steadfastness, a patience, that only comes with knowing someone completely and choosing to be with them in their dark moments.
Bathing me when I was covered in paint. Filling the endless silence of my despair with your constant prattle, being with me every single day I didnât know what to do or how to move forward, it is a love I had never experienced or will ever experience again. It is unique to you.
When I finally came back to myself all those months later, realized youâd put your plans on hold for me, I was appalled. I assured you I would be fine and you finally went on your way. To start the life I knew you deserved. And look at all youâve done! Minrathos and the Shadow Dragons would be nothing without your leadership.
Iâve spent the last eight years wondering what I would ever do if the chance came to see Solas again. In those first years, I was angry. And then I was lost, for a long time, though I think you were the only one who truly saw it.
Being the Inquisitor gave me purpose. I knew Thedas needed me. I wanted to help in whatever way I could, especially considering weâd inadvertently unleashed Solas on the world. And then there was the waiting, wondering when heâd strike. If he really intended to take us all down with him.
Over the years, Iâve spoken to so many about whether or not I believe Solas capable of tearing down the Veil. You, Bull, half the Inquisition, really. Most everyone agreed that Solas needed to be stopped by any means necessary. That he was a monster.
What was your poetic phrase? âA madman with the moral superiority of a guilty noble.â
Varric was the only one who believed Solas could be swayed. Told me that really, all Solas wanted was a reason not to go through with his plan. After what happened when Solas took my arm, I didnât want to believe him. It was too painful to hope.
But then the reports came in, bit by bit from Varric. Noted from Solas, personal journals. Like he was leaving clues for us to find. As if his pride refused to relent but Solas, my vhenan, wanted us to stop him.
It wasnât until I spoke with Rook, actually, that I knew for certain that if I saw him again, when I saw him again, things werenât through between us.
Call it soulmates. Call it a connection through space and time. Or, call me a fool, as you already have. All are probably correct. But Iâve know since the moment I met Solas that something tied me to him. When I saw him again, I didnât see the Dread Wolf. I saw my vhenan, beaten and broken and tired. Drowning in his regrets, a slave to what he thought was his journey to redemption. And in that moment, I swore Varric was standing there right beside me, telling me that the one thing that would sway Solas was love. And he was right.
Especially after his final encounter with Mythal (That is another letter entirely. One I know youâre dying to read, so if nothing else, allow me to indulge you in my next response)
To be perfectly clearâ I do not love him more than you. I could love no one more than you. No matter where I go, Iâll be with you. Just as you told me when you returned to Tevinter. But it is different. Just as you have Iron Bull, and we both know logic has no place in your relationship with him.
*the last sentence is a crossed out line, still legible, as though Lavellan is teasing Dorian*
Now, this isnât goodbye. This isnât even see you later. Solas has assured me I can enter and leave the Fade whenever I choose. Thanks to Rook, there are plenty of Eluvians available for me to come and visit. If youâll have me. I understand you plan to pout, to hate me for a few weeks, as is your right. Donât brood too long, however. I know youâre chomping at the bit to know all thatâs transpired.
Just know, Iâll never be far from you.
With love, always,
Elliana
#lavellan#solavellan#dragon age inquisition#dragon age veilguard#dragon age dorian#dorian pavus#letters from inquisitor Lavellan to Dorian Pavus#inquisitor lavellan#dragon age#their friendship is everything to me#dorian x iron bull#solas x female lavellan#solas dragon age#solas x inquisitor
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This!
This is exactly right.
Also, from his own perspective, Wei Wuxian couldn't have chosen to ignore what was going on in the labor camps once he had learned about it, because that would go against everything he was as a person.
He didn't fight for the Wens because he thought that would accomplish something. He always knew he was just buying them time, and that there was no guarantee he would be able to save them for good. He certainly hoped so at one point, but as things progressed it became clear to everyone that they were living on borrowed time.
But to Wei Wuxian that wasn't the point.
The point is that a horrible injustice was done to those people, and he found out about it, so he couldn't ignore them and go on with his life, because that would go against his very nature.
Wei Wuxian knew very well that taking the Wens out of the labor camps would paint a huge target in his back. He knew that the sects were corrupt to their core. He had noticed that the Jin sect had been trying to occupy the power vacancy left by the Wen sect. Wei Wuxian wasn't a fool, and he wasn't overestimating his abilities either.
Actually, I think a lot of people read this part of the story and assume Wei Wuxian was politically illiterate. That's not true at all. If anything, it's Jiang Cheng who is a political fool who falls for every one of the Jin sect's traps.
Wei Wuxian was very aware of the political undercurrents, and made his choices accordingly. However, and this is the point the novel tried to make, one man can't change society by himself, no matter how right or how powerful he may be. Wei Wuxian's social class was working against him, and that made it impossible for him to speak to the other decision makers of the cultivation world - the sect leaders - on equal terms. This also meant that the culprits were the ones controlling the narrative, which is why Wei Wuxian's reputation was destroyed so thoroughly.
Wei Wuxian's only option was to deter them with brute strength. I'm making this point because so many people in this fandom keep asking why Wei Wuxian didn't just talk things out. Like, he tried. But in my opinion it was very clear in the novel that nobody wanted to listen to what a son of a servant had to say. Especially a son of a servant who dared to be powerful and refused to bow his head to the upper class.
When he chose to fight for the Wen remnants, Wei Wuxian did so hoping that if nothing else happened, his power and the Yin Tiger Tally, combined with his choice to settle in the burial mounds would be enough to deter the sects from pursuing them further. But he always knew that this wasn't an indefinite solution to the problem.
The point is that Wei Wuxian didn't "throw his life away" for nothing, because when he decided to protect the Wens he wasn't expecting to save them forever. He knew very well that he was borrowing time for them and that the chances of things working out permanently were quite low. He had hope, but everyone there knew it was far-fetched. He still chose to do it because he didn't see it as throwing his life away. For Wei Wuxian, protecting the Wens was his only choice in that situation, because doing otherwise would be the same as throwing away his soul. Wei Wuxian could never turn a blind eye.
one mild sentiment i see echoed around alot is that despite everything, wei wuxian failed to âsaveâ the wen remnants, that him going to such great lengths was an effort in vain. but... no?? he did accomplish alot by taking them to the burial mounds. he gave them time. he gave them a period of peace and community life. he gave their elders a sense of togetherness. he gave them a chance to heal some of their wounds together. he prevented their slow, agonising, brutal, INDIGNIFIED deaths at the labor camps, prevented their daily suffering under the oppressive guards.
as wen qing said: they all should have died a long time ago but wei wuxianâs efforts did bear sweet fruits, however bitter the end might have been.
and hereâs the thing. the wens survived through wen yuan. their legacy still remains because all the remnants and wei wuxian (and ofc lan wangji) fought to see that happen. imagine if they hadnât, if wei wuxian wouldnât have done anything. the wens would have seen their demise in the labor camps with nary a mention of their deaths. they would have been wiped out without ever getting the chance to say their piece or take their stance. as things went, atleast wen qing and wen ning faced their deaths bravely, as leaders of their community. atleast, wen yuan could live a fulfilling life. atleast the wen remnants had a year and more together, to enjoy some of the peace the post-war cultivation world was enjoying.
and that is what wei wuxian gave up everything for. a cause greater than himself.
#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen remnants#jin sect#cannon jiang cheng#wen qing#wen yuan#lan yuan#lan sizhui#lan wangji#mo dao zu shi
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Coffee and Crime ââŽïžËïœĄâ PART TWO
Pairing ⊠mafia!bucky x reader
Word Count ⊠2.2K
Warnings ⊠overall story has a 18+ content warning, MDNI, unwanted groping, attempted SA, mentions of being roofied, physical violence, alcohol, clubbing, someone flashing a crowd, cussing
A/N ⊠I wrote part two a lot quicker than I thought I would, I'm actually really enjoying this story so far! Stay tuned for part three :)
PART ONE »»» Series Masterlist
I will update the series every 1-4 days depending on my schedule
âWould you get your head out of la-la-land and focus.â, Nat said, snapping her fingers in front of your face.
It had been three days since your interaction with Bucky, and you kept finding yourself daydreaming about him, wishing the handsome man would come back into the coffee shop soon.
âSorry Nat.â, you said sheepishly rubbing the back of your neck.
Your friend stood in front of you in her bedroom, a tight purple dress clung to her figure.
âWhat do you think of this one?â
âYou could wear a trash bag and still look amazing. But I think that I like the green one more.â, you said pointing to the silky cocktail dress she had tossed onto the bed next to where you sat.Â
âWell then I guess green it is.â
The two of you were at your and Nat's shared apartment, readying yourselves to go out for your mutual friend Thorâs birthday party. Nat considered herself a clubbing queen, she loved to be the life of the party. You on the other hand would prefer to be at home.Â
âNow little-miss-wallflower.â, Nat said pointing to you, âWe need to put together something for you to wear.â
She had you try on outfit after outfit, repeatedly saying none of them had that oomph she was going for.Â
âNat can I just wear this?â, you pleaded with her, gesturing to the long black bodycon dress she had put you in.
âNo, that's not fitting the image I have in my head.â, she said, ruffling through the closet.Â
âAnd what exactly is that image?â
âI want a sexy, bold, outgoing vibe.â
âYou know that being bold and outgoing arenât exactly my thing, right?â
âExactly, you need to get out of your comfort zone Y/N, live a little.â
After several more outfit changes Nat finally found the perfect ensemble. A red-wine colored dress adorned your body. Its neckline dipped dangerously low, reaching below your sternum and the bottom of the garment barely hit mid-thigh.Â
âIsnât this a bit much?â, you asked, looking yourself up and down in the mirror.Â
âNot in my opinion.â she shrugged, âBut anyways you look amazing so I say this is it.â
Staring at yourself again, you did have to admit the dress did make you feel hot.Â
âOkay fine, you win, Iâll wear this.â
Nat smiled from ear to ear, âAmazing! Now letâs finish getting ready.â
You added a pair of black heels to your outfit, straightened your hair, and Nat had helped you do a smokey eye for your makeup. After an hour of getting ready, the two of you were walking out the front door and heading downstairs to wait for your Uber.Â
After the quick car ride, you and Nat found yourselves outside a club, a bright blue neon sign reading Supernova sat above the front door. Both of you joined the line to get in. Once you reached the front, the bouncer checked your IDâs and stamped your hands with a shooting star that lit up under the flashing lights.Â
You scanned the club, glancing over the horde of people, before your eyes finally found who you were looking for. Grabbing Natâs hand you pulled her behind you in the direction of your friends.
âY/N! Nat!â, Thor cheered seeing the two of you approaching.Â
âHi Thor! Happy Birthday!â, you yelled over the booming music, giving him a hug.
You then greeted your other friends; Wanda, and Clint. The group sat at a table near one of the many small stages scattered about the club. Each of the platforms had girls dancing on them. Your eyes quickly looked away as one of them took off her top, cheers erupting from the group of men standing below her. You felt beyond out of your element.Â
âYou look like youâre about to jump out of your skin Y/N.â, Clint chuckled at you.
You shrugged at him, âI think I just need to get a drink in me. Iâll be right back.â
Walking away from your friends you snaked your way through the throng of people dancing, reaching the bar.Â
The bartender, a girl with bright pink hair and several facial piercings, turned from the man she was talking to, yelling from the other end of the bar top, âBe with you in just a second!â
You nodded at her, looking up at the chalkboard menu sitting above many shelves of alcohol. Your eyes scanned over the neon pink chalk settling on the special for the night.Â
Tonight's Special: Midnight Whisper
⊠vodka, blue curacao, grenadine, sprite, edible glitter
⊠$11
You leaned up against the bar, studying your surroundings while you waited. Couples were dancing a little too close for comfort, there was a group of girls circling around one of their friends as she threw up in a trashcan by the dancefloor, a group of frat boys sang along to the music blasting through the club.Â
As your eyes glanced at the V.I.P. area, they widened in shock. Bucky sat in the corner, surrounded by Steve and a few more men. You locked eyes with him and he raised his glass towards you, shooting you a smile.Â
âWhat can I get for you?â
You jumped in surprise, turning to see the bartender.Â
âCan I get a Midnight Whisper?â
âOf course, thatâll be $11.â
Reaching inside your purse your fingers wrapped around your wallet, pulling it out to pay.Â
âIâve got it.â, a voice said from behind you.
You looked over your shoulder seeing a man you didnât know behind you.Â
âItâs okay really.â, you said.
âNo, Iâve got it sexy, a lady with a body like yours shouldnât have to pay.â, he smirked down at you.
He handed the bartender some cash.
âUm thank you.â, you said flatly.
âNo problem, smoke show, Iâm Caleb, by the way.â
âNice to meet you.â, you grumbled, not meaning it at all, but trying to be polite because he just bought you a drink.Â
âHere you go girly.â, the pink haired girl slid you your cocktail.
Caleb slid his arm around your shoulders, hand lingering over your drink. You were looking at his face as he did this, trying to figure out how to get out of this situation.
Reaching for your drink, you turned away from him, âThanks for the drink, Iâve got to get back to my friends now, theyâre probably wondering where I went.â
Calebâs hand shot out, gripping your bicep, âWhat do you mean youâve got to go back to your friends? I just bought that for you, canât you stay and at least talk to me for a bit?â
âFirst of all,let go of me.â, you hissed yanking your arm out of his grip, âAnd secondly I tried to pay for my own drink, but you insisted, I said thank you for it, but that doesnât mean I owe you shit.â
You turned and weaved back through the crowd towards your friends.Â
As you approached Nat raised an eyebrow at you.
âWhatâs got you in such a sour mood.â, she said, studying your visibly pissed expression.Â
âSome dude bought my drink for me and acted like I owed him a conversation because of it.â, you rolled your eyes.
âI would be irritated too.â, Wanda said from beside you.
You laughed, âAnyway enough about that weirdo, guess who I just saw Nat?â
âWho?â
Grinning, you said, âThat Bucky guy from work the other day!â
âOh my God!â
âWhoâs Bucky?â, Wanda asked.
You filled your friend in on the handsome man.Â
âWhy donât you go ask for his number?â, Clint said, eavesdropping on your conversation.
âBecause heâs in the V.I.P area, and I donât have the balls to do it.â, you laughed out, taking a sip of your drink.Â
Just then Thor appeared, having come from the dancefloor.
âCome on guys let's go dance!â, he yelled.
He grabbed your hand pulling you with him, the rest of your group following behind.
As you guys danced and drank, you began to feel weird. Your head was pounding and you were hit with a wave of nausea.Â
âI donât feel good.â, you whispered to Nat, and you rushed to the bathrooms.Â
âHey wait-â, she called after you.
You disappeared into the crowd leaving Nat behind, as you stumbled through bodies, your vision began to get blurry leaving you a disoriented mess. There was no way that one drink had done this to you.
Finally you reached the hallway in the back of the club that led to the bathrooms. You shakily leaned up against the wall, dragging yourself along the cool cinder blocks towards the ladies room. Suddenly you found yourself pushed up against the wall, your back smacking it so hard you almost felt the wind rush out of your lungs.
âHi beautiful.â, Caleb jeered at you.Â
âWhat-â, you slurred out, tongue feeling heavy.
He cut you off, covering your mouth with his hand, moving your lolling head back. His other hand settled on the back of your thigh, slowly creeping its way up, his fingers digging into your ass cheek. Your body was like Jell-O, you couldnât move, leaving you defenseless. You felt tears begin to well in your eyes as you looked up at him.Â
Next thing you knew Caleb was lying flat on his back a few feet away and you crumpled sliding down the wall to the ground, your legs unable to support yourself.
âWhat the hell man!â, Caleb screamed, a cut to the side of his head had blood cascading down his face.
âJust what the fuck do you think youâre doing.â, someone said.
You looked up at your savior, realizing it was the same man who had generously tipped you the other day.Â
âOh what so a guy canât feel up his girlfriend anymore?â, Caleb lied.
âSweetheart,â Bucky said looking down at you, âIs this guy your boyfriend?â
âNo.â, you gurgled out.
âShe doesnât know what sheâs talking about! The bitch is just drunk!â, Caleb yelled as he stood up.Â
Bucky however knew that wasnât the case. You were obviously out of it, but not from alcohol, you gave away the tell tale signs of being roofied.Â
After he saw you at the bar, he had been watching you. He saw your interaction with Caleb, almost getting up after the man had grabbed you, but relaxed when he saw you could handle it on your own. However when he saw you stumbling off towards the bathrooms and Caleb stalking after you, he stood up and followed the two of you, ignoring Steve asking him where he was going.Â
He had entered the hallway just as the slime ball had groped you, and without thinking, Bucky decked him in the head. In all honesty Bucky hadnât felt this angry in a while. It pissed him off to no end, seeing Caleb taking advantage of you, the shy and sweet barista he had just met the other day.Â
âY/N, oh my God what the hell happened?â, Nat appeared at the end of the hallway.Â
âThis jackass drugged her.â, Bucky growled, nodding in Caleb's direction.
Nat moved towards the aforementioned jackass, but was stopped by Bucky putting his arm out.
âLet me deal with him. Get her up to the V.I.P area, let Steve know what happened.â
Nodding Nat moved down to the ground, throwing your arm around her shoulder and dragging you upwards. You stumbled as the two of you walked back down the hallway, out into the club. Looking back over your shoulder you saw Bucky nearing Caleb, rolling the sleeves of his dress shirt up.Â
Hazily you remember Nat heaving you to the V.I.P section. Steve immediately recognized the pair of you from the other day, and he jumped up helping Nat carry you to one of the couches. While they did so Nat explained the situation to him.Â
âTony go get her some water.â, Steve told one of the other men that had been sitting with him.Â
The dark haired man turned and headed towards the bar with urgency.Â
âY/N, Nat are you guys okay?â, you heard Clint shouting from the velvet rope sectioning off the V.I.P area from the rest of the club.
âAre those your friends?â, Steve asked looking at the group that had gathered.Â
âYeah they are.â, Nat said.Â
âHey guys let them up here.â
One of the security guards by the rope lifted it up and allowed your friends through.Â
âYou know that guy from earlier she said was weird? Somehow he drugged her.â, Nat said to your friends.
âWhereâs he at? What's he look like? I'm going to go kick his ass.â, Thor stated, turning to head back down to the dancefloor and hunt down Caleb.Â
âSomeone else already beat you to it.â, Nat said pointing to Bucky who had returned from the hallway.
âSam, Scott, can the two of you go get the mess in the hallway cleaned up?â, Bucky asked as he neared everyone.Â
âGotcha.â, Sam nodded.
âWhatâd you do kill him?â, Nat asked gob smacked.
âNo, just taught him a lesson about keeping his hands to himself.â, he said as he picked up a cocktail napkin from one of the tables, wiping blood off his knuckles.Â
Your vision started blurring again and the ringing in your ears drowned out any other sounds. The last thing you remember was Bucky looking at you worriedly before you finally passed out.Â
PART THREE
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đđđđđđ đđđđđđđđ đđđđđđ. all these sentences come from a search on goodread's keywords for high fantasy and epic fantasy. please change names, locations and pronouns as you see fit.
âWouldnât the joys of life lose all colour, if life was eternal?â
âTrue siblings are bound together by far more essential things than blood, while more times than many blood isn't thicker than water.â
âI believe with all my heart, that Magnus is a worthy and superior successor to your current king. â
âFate was a fairy story and a bullshit one at that; fate could get fucked and go bother someone else.â
âYou shouldnât ask the girl blessed by Death whom sheâll die for. You should ask her whom sheâll kill for.â
âYou are what I imagine the sun to be like. Fiery. Beautiful. Damningâ
âWeâre all selfish monstersâ the only difference is some of us are more honest about it than others.â
âTell me a secret, then. One you can part with.â
âControl is an illusion, something to make us feel grounded and in charge of our destinies.â
âDon't overthink everything. You might be surprised by how much you'd like being out of control. Being alive is chaos, and living in it is half the fun.â
âHer hand in mine is as good as gold.â
âOne taste, and a thousand deaths you shall receive.â
âYou and what army?â
âMaybe today was the day the fire roared and defeated all the rest.â
âTo love was a privilege not afforded to those of us born in these trying times when survival was never guaranteed.
âNo one doubts your honourable nature, most noble of kings and best of brothers.â
âDon't dwell on your past - it's not where you're goingâ
âIt's your life. Do what you want with it.â
âAmbition comes with a price attached. Of course, that price comes too high if you die for nothing. The reward for ambition too great... is self-destruction!â
âDon't you wish you were here?â
âMost animals are willing to talk. It's the human who don't listen.â
âSome call it brash. Others call it independent. Pick your interpretation.â
âHow can I even begin to understand the nature of power when no one shares a common definition of it?â
âNo one used my family against me to accomplish their own goals. Not even God or an Immortal.â
âYou remember him as a hero, so none of it makes sense for you. But you can remember him like that without caring what others think. No parent is perfect, and growing up is realizing that.â
âThe dark doesn't mean you're alone.â
âThe tongue is shallow, like water lapping at the shore. To fully understand is to swim in the deep ocean with all the senses.â
âThe same thing that you value. Justice for the sake of it, and the safeguard of those who need it. Our methods may differ, but our hearts are the same.â
"My goodness, look at your face! Why ask if you thought I'd say no?"
âCome with me, I think I have a new escape for you.â
âWhy should injustice, the darkness of justice, exist and not be an imperfect entry in a book unread for centuries? Until it is so forgotten, that no one remembers it was ever there.â
âThat's what friends, that's what brethren are for. To be there, where words cannot.â
âWhat a thraldom, to be able to dream and only then to be free!â
âThe wise man does not play games with dragons.â
âI donât want to be remembered . . . I just want to live without fear.â
âA name does not make the man, just like a lie does not tell the full story.â
âHe told me that everything I was afraid of in the dark was also there in the light. The only difference was the way it looked.â
âHate is what will obliterate the brightest of the stars that shine inside your heart.â
âA smile is deceptive, I have found. Some are real⊠and some are false. Sometimes it is hard to tell the difference.â
âNothing is truly real until one is willing to believe in it.â
âThose who long for perfection will never achieve it, while those who expect failure are always surprised.â
âI donât have friendsâ only accomplices and enemies. Youâd be amazed at how often they change sides.â
âFathers are like that, Always disappointing their children when they need them the most.â
âOf course I would fall for Captain Emotionally Constipated. I could train a rock to hold more affection for me.â
âBecause that means youâre thinking, and a thinking woman is usually something to fear.â
âEverything makes so much more sense, when you forget what life forces you to remember.â
âInfluence is like the tide. Sometimes it goes, sometimes, however, it comes.â
âWhat kind of person do you wish to be? A part of those who take action, who try the hardest, or of those who go with the flow?â
âThe same good folk who would burn me for a psychal now paid me to use my cursed gramarye to guard their sheep.â
âThe God-War is coming.â
âWhy must we overlook what we are most likely able to do?â
âI speak of the laws man has made, to make everyone lawful.â
âBefore, I never knew how far I would go. Now I believe I have the answer. I will go as far as there is to go. I will go way too far.â
âShow your power by appearing powerless.â
âBooks are keys that open many doors.â
âI am going to go into this world, and I don't care if you and your narrow mind cannot be a part of it.â
âYou are blessed with a knack for sucking the wonder out of the extraordinary.â
âRight and wrong matters little when survival matters most.â
âThe hard truths are the ones to hold tight. - Old Bearâ
âOne can't exactly savor vengeance when one is dead.â
âThis was not going to be a peaceful day. No. It was going to be a mess.â
âWhen a mortal man breaks a people, it is always blamed on the gods.â
âThat is the way of the gods. When they intervene, everyone loses something.â
âLife was cruel. It pitted the weak against the strong and never even blinked when the weak were crushed.â
âYou were bringing me all those flowers when I was sick, like you were wooing me. How could my poor, weak heart resist?â
âI would choose freedom over comfort every time.â
âWomen were always the cruelest where other women were concerned.â
âIs this a knight who comes before us, or the answer to a childâs riddle?â
#roleplay memes#sentence meme#( cali meme. )#rp memes#rp prompt#rp musings#roleplay prompt#â â memes âș roleplay sources.
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WAAAAA HELLO HELLO HELLO
I have so many f/o's but I'll always happily take the chance to gush about my main. His name is Ted, and he's just- sigh. He's so perfect to me. I love him so much. He's the light of my life and I always feel better just thinking about him hehehe
My irl bf was the one who introduced me to him actually ;0 and it took *years* irl for me to really think about him the way I do now!!! Because originally I watched a playthrough of the game he comes from, and,,, ngl the light he's shown in that is kinda awful? Not the worst, but certainly not the best. But then, years later, I finally got around to reading the original story he comes from (It was a short story first called "I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream," and then it got turned into a game). And just. God. Idk. Something about him, just- clicked!
And like, you wouldn't think it would, because ngl he's kinda, worse in the story? But it was more just- why he is the way he is that clicked. The reasons behind how he behaves that you don't learn in the game. And so much of himself, his core character, was changed in the game. (Same with everyone, besides like, the villain). And for the first time, I saw someone who was very similar to me. I felt seen and understood by his true character, and it made me grow really sympathetic for him.
After the initial shock wore down, it all just kinda came crashing into "Omg I love him so much I just wanna make him so happy" ykyk?? The way his story ends is so tragic but I wanna believe that it isn't the end. That he'll end up happy, eventually, no matter how long it takes. And I wanna be the one waiting for him with open arms to bring him that happiness and support and love that he deserves and never got.
It's silly. It's dumb. A lot of the fandom is split on his character; some really love him like me, and others kinda hate the hell out of him. And it always kinda gets me down but yk, he's still my love. My prince. My one and only. I just try to think about comforting him and block people who hate him cause like. I get it. I get why you would. But that doesn't mean I have to, feel the same? At least I think so.
He has a lot of paranoia about people hating him. I do too, but I'm always there to remind him it's not true. I'll never hate him. He has my heart, and even if he chose someone else, I'd still love him. His happiness means more to me than some silly conditional thing.
Maybe that's a little unhealthy to say. But yk, I feel this way for all my relationships, friendships, etc. I'd rather you be happy without me than miserable around me. No point in sticking around; it does neither of us any good.
Idk. I could go on and on about my s/i and his relationship (If you've ever heard of Orpheus and Eurydice, they're very much like that, including the doomed aspect). How they're two sides of the same coin and such. But like- man. If I sit here and talk all day about him I'm not gonna get anything I need to do today done.
Sorry if this is long fnjdfjk really if you don't wanna respond you don't have to!! But ty for giving me a place to gush about him ;0
AND PLEASE FEEL FREE TO GUSH ABOUT YOU AND VERGIL TO ME TOO I'D LOVE TO HEAR IT!!! I LOVE LISTENING TO PEOPLE TALK ABOUT THEIR LOVES!!!
GUSH ABOUT YOUR F/O IN THE REBLOGS TO ME AND I WILL ACTUALLY LISTEN AND RESPOND TO THEM ACCORDINGLY BECAUSE YOU đ«” DEAR READER DESERVE TO HAVE YOUR INTERESTS TREATED WITH RESPECT AND NOT JUST GET A "wow that's neat"
doubles and proshippers dni! Doubles you also deserve respect I'm just not very good at sharing I'm so sorry!
#sleep talking#cold days in hell#reblog game#selfship#selfshipping#selfship community#f/o community#f/o x s/i#ted ihnmaims#ihnmaims#tagging the main tags for better idea of who the hell im talking about lol#ted... my love... hehe...
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I'm sorry but the irony of Nico calling Max unprofessional is sending me so bad like sir there's an entire garage full of people, who were literally in the trenches trying to survive the Brocedes fallout while just doing their jobs, who might have a few things to say about your (& Lewis') level of professionalism at that time đâïž
#f1#formula 1#formula one#max verstappen#nico rosberg#lewis hamilton#brocedes#like niki lauda had to try multiple times to literally parent trap them to try and get them on speaking terms it never worked#because one would arrive they'd see the other and the other would leave#& if i remember correctly the garage crew would swap around from race to race as a like see we aren't favouring anybody gesture đ#and thats no shade to nico because it was both of them contributing to that environment#his comment re max is just making me laugh#like if i was a part of the pr/media team - which is a part of the degree I'm working on irl - at merc that year i would've lost the plot#like its insane reflecting on it nearly a decade later but the poor souls just trying to do their job in the eye of that storm#truly gods strongest soldiers#ngl the professional comment irks me a bit because its not like max is engaging in inappropriate work place behaviour#he's engaging in another aspect of racing that his involvement raises awareness of & that makes racing more accessible#& we all know how inaccessible not only getting into racing is but also to continue to pursue the further along you go#theres so many stories of 1 sibling giving up racing so the other can keep going because the family can't afford for them both to race#its a huge financial strain & we only see a handful of drivers talk about that & try to do something to change it#and nicos fellow sky sports commentators are routinely unprofessional on so many levels#additionally max had a lot of valid reasons to be annoyed at his team today#but alas he's not english so he's ungrateful#i hate that drivers can't criticise their teams or car without immediately being branded as bratty & ungrateful#ESPECIALLY WHEN THEIR JOB IS TO GIVE FEEDBACK#you can see the double standards from sky when say Lando or George have complaints with their team/car v the likes of Max and Yuki#especially Yuki my god the things i would do to get the British media to leave him alone#this was a jokey post at one point and then became a rant whoops lmao#I'll leave it that before i write an actual essay here đâïž
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Dumping out devilman thoughts today.
I know I'm far from the first person to think about this, but I don't feel like it's given enough attention. What I'm talking about is the really noticeable lack of discussion about god as a character/driving force throughout the story (and I mean the lack of discussion on the fandom's end as well as within the stories.)
Like, you really have the all-powerful being who is the only thing in existence with the true ability to completely stop the war - to completely halt the cycle of violence. But they never intervene. Not until humans and devils have all destroyed one another. Not until Lucifer has finally killed Akira, and he's all that's left, alone on a rock on a decimated earth, watching the stars and expounding on the concept of love to a cooling corpse.
THEN god intervenes. To scorch it all and start it over again, only for the same story to play out time and time again. The only consistent exception to this, really, is whenever divine force is shot down in the beginning phases of the war. Though usually, this just ends up causing destruction in a different way. It never saves anyone, it just overpowers a show of force from the devil's side.
You could make the argument that god isn't the same all-powerful being here that he's seen as being in a larger cultural sense outside of this story. But I'd both disagree and say that's a bad take. He clearly carries more power than anyone else, as again, when he does intervene it overpowers everything else. And yeah there's the idea that he didn't make devils, but that doesn't make sense to me either. So much of this story is based both on christian mythology (or dantes inferno, but still).
To rewrite the concept of god in this way. And to practically ignore this character's existence. ESPECIALLY in a story that is so much about the cycle of violence and the failings of humanity. It does the whole thing such an injustice.
In devilman, the war between devils and humans is ultimately constructed by god himself. Because it all comes back to the fact that he had to have created the devils in some manner - how else would they have come about? - and then tossed them aside to make room for humans. Running parallel to the way he tossed aside one of his own angels for going against god's authority. An angel who then went to the devils, joined with them and led them toward liberation.
What else were the devils supposed to do? What else was Lucifer supposed to do?
God is absent from the story until there's nothing left. Then he does it all over again. For what? To punish lucifer and the devils? Again and again for their refusal to lay down and die quietly? And it's not to protect humans - how many human lives are destroyed in the process?
God is absent from this story and we continue to let him be. We focus so much on Akira and Ryo, and on trying to save them and rewrite their connection into something that can be saved. We try to rewrite it so Miki lives, and the war is averted. But that doesn't make sense to me.
This story has already been written to be a tragedy. The omniscient, all-powerful god of the story has decided that's what it's meant to be.
As long as lucifer lives to the end of the story, it will be scrapped and retold again and again. And if lucifer were to die? That would still be a tragedy, let's be honest.
The cycle of violence has already been set in motion, and it will not be stopped so easily. That's important to me. Because ultimately, erasing the tragedy of it suggests there would be an easy solution to the world's problems - that escaping oppression is as simple as being kind and quiet in the face of your own eradication, that stopping a war is as simple as crying in front of the right person, and that making the right choices are as easy as listening to what you're told is "good."
Devilman is a tragedy, but I don't think that's inherently nihilistic. I think it can make you think and ask questions and consider layers to the problem. It will not give answers, because it's not that easy - because if we had those answers then the world wouldn't be the way it is. What we see at the end isn't meant to be a prediction, or even a threat. It's simply null - this is complex and painful, and our characters were not able to figure it out, because of that. Possibly, very likely, because they were not able to see outside of their own perspectives and drives (who could? At a certain point, that would mean abandoning feeling. There's a reason Michael is the most unsettling character in any of the stories to me.)
I mean, sure. God always had an easy answer. He probably wants the story to go this way.
#idk if theres an actual single point here#and i dont think this is anything novel#i think most people who like devilman like it specifically because of the humanity it gives devils and lucifer#the way it questions christianitys view of good and bad#god is considered a villain and i know thats nothing new#but i feel like we never really talk about it#and the story never touched on it enough#i feel like that does the whole thing a disservice#anyway i have a headache and im tired but im also right#maybe ill add to this later once my thoughts start making more sense#part of how i would present this story would involve putting more attention on god as a villain#and on the way so many of these characters struggles are orchestrated by bigger hands than the ones trying to fix them#on how solving the problem will never be as simple as killing the enemy right in front of you#even if it isnt completely ineffectual#that ceo was gunned down in the street#lets be real its not going to change much#it didnt do nothing and id be lying if i didnt say the dude was based for doing it#but its not going to fix the problem#it could potentially be a step#time will tell i think#im rambling at this point#my point is this story is a tragedy for a reason#and its because god is the villain that it can never be anything but a tragedy#thats not nihilistic because in real life i dont believe in god#i dont believe the source of the problem is something untouchable and all powerful#but its bigger than two people#my point is devilman is a tragedy and its better that way#i need a nap#devilman
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hhhh talking about my writing was fun but 30 tags is not enough.. yes i have 3 major influences but i have minor ones too.. it is a lovechild of my favorite things.. writing is so fun and i have no self control or a concept of pacing myself i will sit there for 16 hours and get hit with every status effect but by god does it all just flow out of me. I've always been a music person yes but i also used to write a lot into early adulthood until The Incidentâą
but i am ready 2 jump back into it. i think comics are a great middle ground between the two mediums so i don't get As into writing bc i kind of started going crazy last time đ«Ą i can take a more structured approach to it that forces me to pace myself and think about it differently. i love art.... i love making things i love knowing how to do things i love knowing how to play things i love having so many creative outlets, even if i don't do a lot of them regularly lol. it is enriching đł and nice to know that it's always there to come back to when u want.
#if u want the tea my imagination at the time was like i could space out and straight up just be another person POV doing every little#thing as if i were them for hours and the experience would come together without having to even think about it.#different times/places/contexts/conversations etc. forced 2 to to my mom's lil cult meetings for 2 hours twice a week#i would opt to do these imagination exercises instead to rly put myself in a character's perspective. every stepâ stumbleâ#riding in a carriage together for the entirety from point A to B etc. WELL i was working on a horror anthology somewhere 18/19#(that had a small local following đ«¶đŸ) and it its concept was like the Twilight zone but a lot darker. it was called interdimensional#and the main recurring character never actually shows up in the story. they r an omnipresent god of death who exists everywhere but#exists outside of our realmâ and it picks random people to reveal itself to as a symbol. it can be apparent or just in passing that#the entry's MC sees it inâ it will appear on something somewhere and once it's brought up it's a cue to the reader that this person#has just been sent to an alternate reality that leads towards their inevitable death. for the character nothing ever changes immediately#but the different starts to creep its way inâ as does death's approach at its crescendo but the path's i took to get there were đš#and after enough entries i started to see the symbol irl and hallucinate some other stuff from my stories and it really scared me#and made me stop đ«Ą but i think in retrospect i just went too hard on the imagination exercises and wished i tried cultivating it instead#give myself time to settle and get in control.. but alasâ she has not written seriously since. to this day it still flows out of me if#i just sit down to do itâ but i don't think I'm at risk of something like that happening again anymore :3 so yeah âĄâ i am learning how to#draw and trying not 2 force it bc i want it to b fun as a little journey for me and i look forward to the day i can come back to actively#writing again too đ«¶đŸ i miss it but i also want to b able to draw à«źâ Ë â€ Ë âá#learn the hard thing first then do the stuff that comes naturally.... i also want to get back into music sometime but clearly i got a lot of#other stuff to work on đ i burnt myself out on it learning too many things and not having enough fun with it anymoreâ#but i have a better healthier with art these days and i know it'll be great to come back to when I'm ready đđ#i have been considering getting an acoustic or bass guitar tho đ§ the beauty of physical instruments.. they're just there ready 2 go..#I've been doing mostly digital the past few yearsâ when i was making music. it was also rly hard to when i was w my ex à«ź â ï»âá#that's a whole other rant lol. but ugh digital is like u gotta set it up u gotta make space and then u gotta be in one spot the whole time#i just wanna lay in bed and vibe or something yfm.. walk around maybe idk. do something less structured.#maybe.. hm. hmmm đ§#I'm going to guitar center lol c ya âđŸ getting a bass and amp and maybe a guitar too depending on the price
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I felt this way too at first, but I think that itâs actually most of the point of season 7, that life doesnât have neat chapters and endings. Our lives arenât actually stories with predictable structures and satisfying conclusions.
From season 1 episode 1 this is a story about recognizing the cycle of violence and consciously deciding to end it. Season 7 was a detailed and nuanced look at many of the different ways cycle breakers have to move through grief and anger to find a new way to live and lead.
And, as a cycle breaker myself, I understand what the soft ending of Season 7 was saying. You expect an epic fantasy story to end with the big battle, then a montage, a ceremony for the martyrs, a big speech from the heroes, maybe a cozy after credits scene.
But The Dragon Prince subverts that by giving us the battle as the first act of the finale, with a lingering threat. All the beats that would have been in the expected montage as full scenes, but without any heavy hitting emotional finales. A new mystery is discovered, a new city is founded but not yet complete, Claudia is still out there desperately trying to remain herself, Soren still misses her, Terry still loves her, Callum hasnât proposed yet, Ezran is still learning how to forgive Runaan, Zym can talk now, will he become an Arch Dragon?. Aaravos will return, but in the meantime life must go on.
Just like in real life. You can go through something that is a personal apocalypse. You make a huge difficult decision that changes you fundamentally, shifts you most important relationships, changes the future of your entire family by breaking a cycle of pain and shame and fear. And then you dust yourself off, wash your face, and go to work because itâs Tuesday, and you go to work on Tuesdays.
Thatâs how these sorts of things are in real life.And I think the writers did a stunning job portraying that. The medium is the message sometimes.
I also really hope we get another arc and a satisfying ending that fits that arc. Ambiguous endings are not my favorite, I just think it does make some sense in this instance for this story. And I have enough faith in these writers to believe they did that on purpose.
I think my biggest criticism of s7, even if we get the third arc, is that it has no grand scope or sense of finality, no epic end of an era.
I know itâs difficult when youâre writing not sure how many seasons youâre going to get, but either way this is the end of an arc/ era. Season 3 was grand and epic and had that senseâ s7 deserved it too.
(And while I have my criticisms I am NOT someone who hated season 7).
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I love my girlies (they are 100% legally related and have nothing to hide whatsoever)
#goose draws#goose's ocs#oc art#original character#many thing have changed as I try to make this story something I like but I do think it's funny henri's looped back around to being a teen#she was 21 for like. a year. and I barely even drew her#she was 16 when I first made her and she's like. 17 or 18 now. undecided
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youâve probably already read it before, but the poem Party by Kim Addonizio really got me tonight. first thought was âoh man. yeahâ and then my second thought was âhow can i make this about my hockey guys somehowâŠâŠâŠ..âanyway! have a good one!Â
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#donât think iâve read this kim addonizio poem and it just blindsided me like a truck thank you so much#i. oh god. like yeah.#pour me shitfaced into your car i feel like you own a comforter extremely dysfunctional only in surface details like which person was the#black hole and the distant spark in space that mightâve been a star thereâs something too with unrelenting mist / many-headed mist / missed#who knew mis(t)/sed had undone so many. while you keep an eye on the burner hereâs hoping this flame doesnât go out#the flame as in the spark as in donât let me have pinned my hopes on you to watch it burn out again but also me. like please let me not go#and i think thereâs something there too with the repetitive âi have just met youâ and i already love you that reminds me both of a story#colman domingo told abt meeting his partner i cry everytime i hear it right when he says âi think i love u &youâre about to change my lifeâ#and i KNOW thereâs another poem. and i feel like it maybe has a dog and it talks about how they donât even know you but they love you#OH ITâS ALSO. OH MY GOD THATâS IT. i mean not exactly so maybe i have read this before & itâs what has been haunting me for so long but#the opening line to tim seibles naĂŻve is âi love you but i donât know youâ - mennonite woman#the odds of that dog poem being a carl phillips poem is non-zero btw. his poems about dogs make me see shrimp colors (bertuzzi thesis)#ANYWAY. agreed. this is incredibly hockey and incredibly hurtful because they DO bond like this in 0.0001 seconds because if you canât#youâre fucked. you have to just find somebody and fall in love with them and itâs the salmon and the triple cream brie like they got taken#out to some fancy meet the donors team night in their suits and one of them is dealing with a heartbreak and a trade and are the things#they think true or are they just missing what the used to have. jamie who used to empty and refill the ice tray YES sorry i have been a#little bit thinking that about the trevor dealing so poorly with the breakup and i wish i had another narrative (which i do) but it fits#trade deadline tragedy#and also the formation of a codependent rookies like. two guys that get drafted and brought up together and suddenly theyâre doing#everything together and itâs your first time in the big show and none of your old college friends understand because theyâre not there#and you canât get it. like you think you know but they canât understand and the loneliness and it IS guys taking care of each other#(alexa play harriet by hey rosetta! but specifically the bridge) and itâs just. i just!!! trying to fill up the missing pieces of your life#like i cannot convey WHOMST i am trying to pin this narrative to this is going to rotate for a long while i think#because itâs not a wild i fell in love with you at first sight itâs a you were kind to me when i was broken. and i love you for that.#like who is FALLING APART &happens to fall into someone elseâs arms. purely for the partygirl aspect the devil (old hrpf) says â13 bennguin#who among us hasnât fallen mildly briefly brilliantly in love with a stranger and imagined a future where you get everything you want#sometimes we love people for who they are and sometimes we love them for what weâre not and sometimes for who we think theyâll be#this was a very long way to say thank you for sharing <3 i will also be making this about my hockey guys <3#OH MY GOD ITâS DPAIRS. WHOâS BEEN THROUGH SEVERAL DPAIRS#nonny <3
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While I was reading the later chapters of Phantom of the Opera a friend of mind reminded me it was a serialization, and suddenly I had a moment of clarity in which I thought "Oh so that's why it's written like that"
#i just be ramblin#phantom of the opera#listen listen overall I enjoyed that boon however#*book#reading post Christine disappearing in the middle of Faust was a personal hell because. There was so much unnecessary rambling. So many#extra scenes we could have time skipped through or never had happen in the novel itself#At some point I was praying ''Please. I love you Persian. Please learn when to shut up. Leroux please. Save some of this explanation of#literally everything for some post story extras or something please get to the actual story''#Like don't get me wrong. I did find the explanation of how the torture room worked and was built very interesting#But did. Did we really have to cut in the middle of our very time sensitive scary moment for the protagonists to go on and on and on about#every working bit of the thing being explained to someone like they've never heard of a mirror maze before with the added dragging out of#the Persian going slowly insane trying to escape the torture room while it changes and changes and changes and the words drag on and on#And then I remember it's serialized and I'm like ''Yeah okay that makes sense.''#''Oh yeah that's why we spent like 5 long chapters reading nothing happening but the Persian and Raoul sneaking down all 5 cellars only for#the Persian to inform us that they really just needed to be in cellar 3 and had gone to an area Erik never frequents and wandered so we#could...learn about the rat man and the shade? who never show up again?''#Please understand I do genuinely like this book but knowing the period it came out in and that it was serialized really puts things#into perspective#poto
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(Written yesterday) Well, itâs Epiphany, and the end of Christmas proper. I know many continue to celebrate Christmastide all the way until Candlemas, but our tree came down today and I donât really do much to observe the extended season. So it seems to me that if Iâm going to finally revisit Elystanâs point of view in the Christmas chapters, now that I know a little more of his history, Iâd best do it before Epiphany is out. Here we go!
[Turns on âDenn es is tuns ein Kind geborenâ from âDer Messias.â Since this is Elystanâs pov I really ought to listen in English (tangent: arenât we Anglophones blessed Handel was in Ireland when he wrote it?) but I thought Iâd listen in German as a nod to the Liennese in the room.]
I love the fact that although Elystanâs good with classics when it comes to languages, German is not his forte. This isnât something you see so often in fiction â that an aptitude for a language, or even languages, doesnât necessarily apply across the board. (And of course it has the story layer that he and Josiah donât understand each other, even though they technically speak each othersâ languages. Boys, there is so much youâre hiding from others â and so much you donât see in yourselves.)
Ha. Even here in Corege, Tamettâs Noriberreanness (sp?) is still a point against him in the eyes of the masters.
â[H]e needs to invest in a copy of Bellwellâs Guide for the Traveller in Corege. All good bookstores have it. Changed my life.â Heaven help me, Elystan thinks his jokes are so funny â and Iâm smirking despite myself.
âAnd that distracted Josiahâs attention from the depths of the literary gem he was composingâŠâ Oh that you knew the systematic and painful stuffing down of grief youâre witnessing from outside, Elystan. [I should really be listening to Satieâs Gnossiennes or something equally sombre for Josiahâs composition, but we are not in his head.]
âIâll leave a box of chocolates in the empty chair in the Kingâs box, in your memory.â OOF â Â the jokeâs aimed at disgusting Josiah, but yeah, letâs make a joke about an empty chair in the Kingâs Box right now, Elystan. Thatâs certainly a good joke for you to make. (I doubt heâs actually thinking along the lines I am, but still.)
Oh, Elystan, your mother would love to take you to the movies if you would let her⊠And she writes to him faithfully even though she never gets any back. I understand why thereâs such an enormous rift between them, and sheâs certainly not blameless â but this must be a hard time for her, having realized at least some of the damage sheâs caused, how broad the gulf is, spent the summer trying to mend their relationship among many other things, then had to send him away for his own sake. And she never hears from him. That would be hard. These stories have such huge themes of attachment and how hurt to that attachment ripples into so many seemingly unrelated areas of life. My heart goes out to both Elystan and Bethira.
Oh gosh, he almost asked Josiah was he was going to do with his Mother for Christmas. The anniversary of his motherâs December death is almost here, and right this moment heâs writing a paper about how above grief a real man needs to be. Josiah heard that pause loud and clear.
The way schoolboy culture wonât let them just say âfamily.â (Itâs the heart of all this, itâs all about family, and they canât say it, they canât say it. Theyâre not even consciously thinking about it â theyâre all just copying each other â but they havenât got families anymore. Theyâve got [airy wave of the hand] people.â
Josiah wrinkled his nose. âHow about the rest of the year?â If he had not been such an overgrown lump, Elystan would have knocked him out of his seat. â Oh boy. Knowing what Elystanâs rest of the year has been like this past year, that one smarts even more.
I am eternally amused by Elystanâs ongoing crocodilianess.
He misspelled âgrievous.â No undertones there.
Love these boys so much. Since this is a revisit in light of what I know of their previous lives, these comments are likely to all tend to the âoh noâ direction, but also I am smiling so lovingly at all of them.
A Christmas Chapter: Elystanâs POV
Last year I wrote two versions of this story, from Tamettâs and Josiahâs POVs. I had intended to leave it there, but a friend wanted Elystanâs POV, so after a long struggle of trying to find a story Iâd never really planned between the lines of the existing pieces, here is the third and final version.
This one runs very long, nearly 17000 words. Itâs not perfect, probably has wording issues right and left, and it feels a bit more like a series of random events than a cohesive whole, but Iâm sick of fussing with it for now, and youâre very welcome to tell me (politely) what could be improved.
In case youâre unfamiliar with these characters, Elystan is the thirteen-year-old son of a disgraced former king of Corege (one of several nations in this Edwardianesque world). After circumstances that have resulted in his having a massive grudge against his mother and his half-brother Delclis (the current King), he has been sent to Hollingham, an elite boarding school, where he rooms with Josiah, Crown Prince of Lienne, and has befriended Josiahâs paid companion Tamett. Theyâre about to reach the end of their first term, and Elystan is faced with the daunting prospect of having to spend the Christmas holidays with his dearly beloathed family.
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#Alas - I got caught up in obligations before I could get too far in the chapter and Epiphany's over. But maybe I'll be a bit unseasonable#or turn into a real Candlemas celebrator for the sake of finishing this another time.#the blackberry bushes#advent and christmastide
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told myself to take a break from getaway car so i don't burn myself out like i did last year, and of course my brain wanted to go think about my scarlet/violet fic, sooo have some rambling below the read more
like. one of my ideas has always been that i want juliana specifically to have quaxly not just bc he's my favorite starter in that region, but because it turns into quaquaval, a pokemon that is supposed to be known for its dancing abilities. i like to think they're a pokemon that only needs to see a dance once or twice before they've got it memorized.
i love the idea that a huge part of juliana's overall character arc is admitting to herself how much she wants to learn how to dance in some way because of course she happened to pick the pokemon that loves to dance. so she's basically learning alongside her pokemon throughout his evolution stages, mutually gaining more confidence until he's a fully grown quaquaval.
and!! not just him, but probably the three friends as well! it may not be something any of them are really interested in to begin with, but juliana and quaquaval make it a ton of fun. she probably even takes the time to learn an individual dance of some kind with each of them, and is the first to drag anyone to any festivals happening in the cities and towns.
(bc i am who i am) nemona's the first friend juliana ends up dancing with. while juliana quickly realizes how much quaxly likes music, nemona is the one who tells her about how he's going to turn into a pokemon that loves to dance. she mostly just enjoys having fun with them and learning whatever juliana is into. something that really helps juliana come out of her shell, which leads her to opening up to arven and penny around the same time
not 100% sure of styles apart yet but i mean...penny's has to be some nerd dance lol. i also kinda love the idea of arven learning a very formal spanish style dance with them.
idk i just want the core pillars of this story to be something along the lines of, music, song, food, and dance are all forms of love and connection and can be healing and--- AH i just want them to have time to really develop as a friend group throughout the treasure hunt.
#look my therapist has been saying this about me since the very beginning but i think i'm only just now really accepting it#writing is my therapy#i've seen so many posts saying you don't have to write as therapy / you don't have to write from experience / most people don't do that etc#i dunno. i internalized it all in a weird dumb way#the old bs take of 'if you share your trauma stories you're clearly trying to trigger other people and so ur just as bad'-#-was also stuck in my head#all of that to say i'm excited to work on this story one day since it's written entirely for my younger self#i can't change any of the bad things that happened to us in the past but we can live a little vicariously through fictional characters#let juliana have the friends and the love and support we never felt like we truly had#let my younger self who was traumatized by my mom's dance studio know that dance isn't a bad thing#it's weirdly healing and having fun is so much more important than being good at it#not everything you do has to be with the endgoal of turning it into a career or something that makes you money#at the end of the day i'm writing for me#the fact that other people have read my work and liked it is the biggest bonus i could ever ask for#writing tag
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