#manifesting this good energy for the actual race too

[oversteeeer]

we’re so back baby!!!

[iridessence]

I would like to take a moment to acknowledge myself and say that I am elated and proud to have manifested some of my major goals since 2018-2019. Basically before then, 2014-16 I struggled with depression and suicidal ideation quite frequently due to not having steady income, as jobs in retail seemed the only available and “safe” options, but long shifts standing at a registers or posts were damagingly hard on my body. In 2017 I got a desk job that set me on the path of financial stability and reduced physical load, which did absolute wonders for my mental health but it was an absolute blight to my existence over time due to terrible management and the usual corporate garbage. I knew that staying there was fine for a time but not sustainable in the long run, so change must come eventually.

also around then, I continued to explore self portraiture and personal style but I really wanted to perform/create Burlesque acts and book them, and invest in and actually have choreography/technique and beautiful costume pieces that looked like the visions refining themselves in my head through research. I was also perpetually struggling in the dating sphere with the deficit of romantic fulfillment that I deeply wanted. and while they weren’t hostile, things were definitely weird with my family (dysfunctional, literal small town energy, upset that I didn’t want to be around them more in the suburbs but lots of interpersonal toxicity and lack of emotional growth).

I knew that in the coming years I wanted to…

quit my soul sucking job and set out to be a full-time or at least professional level burlesque performer, creating the qualitative and classic show girl acts I dream to see on stage

work on the floor at a boutique or mom-and-pop type shop that sells goods or services that are interesting to me, especially aesthetically, such as an antique shop or a jewelry boutique etc., but a place where I could sit intermittently as needed for my physical disability. Also, ideally it would be a position where I could express myself through style at my choosing and it would be received well, and also my hours would not be very early or very late.

find a loving and supporting partner who I could lavish equal amounts of love and support on to, live with and hopefully marry

Achieve/maintain financial stability enough that I have a reduced risk for homelessness and sometimes treat myself to things that I enjoy.

Figure out why the relationship with my family was such a struggle and do things within my power and desire to fix it.

In a world that isn’t a corporate machine devoid of empathy, none of that seems like a tall order to ask… but I live in America so… It took some time, but I’m starting to see the fruits and returns. Honestly sometimes things feel like a blur and I’m not exactly sure I could say there was a huge system to what I did overtime to make it work, but I know the work was there.

As of today, September 9, 2023:

I am a respected professional burlesque performer with costumes I figuratively gag over and acts that come closer and closer to hitting the aesthetic nail on the head for what I want to embody. (I quit that shitty desk job at the beginning of 2019 and haven’t looked back since. Sent a whole ass company wide message with a long and detailed “fuck you” too.😂🙈)

i’ve managed through burlesque, social media work, donations and savings, and —since the global pandemic—,odd jobs and grants/minimal loans, to continuously pay rent and ward off homelessness 

I live with the love of my life, to whom I am engaged and actively planning our wedding (we looked at a venue yesterday!)

I’ve helped my mom on the growth of her emotional intelligence and commitment to learning more about values under the race, gender, and sexuality umbrella, as well pushed her to examine the enabling and entitlement dynamics with her adult children that take advantage of her. While my relationship with my brother and sister is not great, my relationship with my mom has been steadily getting better since the pandemic. we had a breakthrough at the beginning of this year where she acknowledged and apologized for guilt tripping me for not being around the family more, when I was (she quoted) “actually protecting myself like she should have been.”

and litcherally within the past week I was offered the job at a local boutique I interviewed with a year ago and didn’t get, and I signed an offer letter to begin work within the month. 

To say I’m happy with the way things look right now is an understatement. The world still terrifies me, but I have no choice but to carve out a sliver of its beautiful experiences for myself, and I am doing just that. It may not be perfection, but it’s pretty damn good and I’m going to do everything in my power to keep it that way and make it even better. I am living my ancestors' wildest dreams!!

for anyone reading who might be struggling right now to make things work, I hope you hold on to hope that it can get better. A beautiful life is possible even on this hell scape, even for the marginalized.

[thisismeracing]

CHARLES LECLERC MASTERLIST

✦ CHARLES LECLERC ▶ CL16

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KEYS: s: smut f: fluff a: angst ✷: Patreon exclusive

― ✦ SOCIAL MEDIA AU

this is the last time I ever call you babe (a): It’s been a little over a year since Y/n and Charles Leclerc ended their relationship, and Y/n went radio silent from everywhere…until the Grand Prix day. They say revenge is a dish better served cold, right?

everything has changed (f): Y/n, a famous singer, drops a song that is more like a letter confessing her feelings, and some fans are convinced it’s about F1 golden boy Charles Leclerc.

his pretty girl (f) : Fans start to notice Charles around an influencer’s profile and it's easy to put two and two together to discover just how in love he is.

match winners (f): After mentioning in an interview that she roots for Charles Leclerc, Yn is surprised with a new follower who happens to show up at one of her tennis matches.

sunshine (f): In which Charles starts dating an earthy/spiritual girl who just loves nature and good energy.

my boyfriend Marc (f): In which Yn always refers to her secret boyfriend as Marc and fans take forever to put the pieces together and realize that many of the names she used were actually Charles Leclerc’s middle names.

his protector (f): Yn is a comedian, who happens to date the f1 driver Charles Leclerc and who loves to joke around about how horrendous Ferrari is, but beware: she is the only one who can laugh at her boyfriend’s disastrous races. No one pokes fun at Charles in front of her, especially not on live TV.

all because I liked a boy (a): Yn fell in love with Charles and secretly dated him for almost a year. She didn’t consider, however, how fans would react seeing they used to love and still stan Charles’ past relationship. What happens when their hidden love gets out in the open? ● part 2 here

just like in the movies (f): You’re shooting a new movie about racing cars, but you did not expect to get a racing heart from a certain driver. Or the one where they met at a racing track and fell in love.

king of manifesting (f): You’ve been secretly dating Charles for a while, but fans can’t believe it when the rumors start to go around. What do you mean a vroom-vroom Ferrari guy is dating their idol?

a real goal getter (f): When fans see Charles at one of your soccer matches, they start speculating what he is doing at a stadium he’s never been to, talking to a guy he never talked with (who happens to be your best friend). When they discover you’re together, they agree you’re the best player, but Charles is the goal scorer for landing someone as amazing as you. 

― ✦ BLURBS

you betrayed me (a)

Overprotective bf (f)

Timeless (f)

― ✦ REGULAR IMAGINES

honeymoon stunts (s): Charles and Yn just got married, and although they know too much about one another, there’s always something new to discover together, such as Charles’ new breeding kink.

the (un)lucky one (f): Charles and Yn have a history back from when he was at alfa romeo, Yn used to be his PR assistant, and they were close to best friends. Now, years later, they are still friends, but Yn is Carlos’ assistant now, and she can help but root for her new friend and boss. Meanwhile, Charles is having trouble with no longer having her undying support all the time. He’s been through an unlucky season on the speedway, will he be unlucky in love too? 

anything you want (s)✷: After getting hit by a wave of bad luck, Yn takes matters into her own hands to make her boyfriend feel a bit better about his situation. Sometimes all you need to feel brand new is a two-day vacation full of sex by the fire and words of affirmation.

love bites (a)✷: It is believed that during the Halloween season, cursed souls and entities come out to play. As it happens, some of them can come uninvited, but things get a lot easier for the dark side when people like Yn are challenged by her friends to go beyond the safety of the town and into the woods looking for a cursed church. One wouldn’t want to be near to witness humans discover history they’re not supposed to.

charlieverse (f): When Yn decided to go to a Halloween party with her best friend, Charles Leclerc, she did not consider that some of the fantasies would be so close to reality that they would terrify her. But one thing Yn had no idea about too, was Charles’ feelings for her. All Hallow’s Eve is not the most romantic scenario to confess your feelings, but it might be just the perfect one for them.

not quite love (a)✷: When you get romantically involved with your best friend you were not expecting a marriage proposal, but simply a commitment. You were sure that what you had wasn’t quite love, though it could be and maybe that’s what hurt the most. The fact that you had everything to be each other’s end game, but turned out to be strangers.

― ✦ HEADCANONS

♡ charles dating a korean girl ♡ charles dating a greek girl ♡ charles dating a brazilian girl

©thisismeracing do not copy, steal, or translate my work. do not repost on a different media platform.

[dennydraws]

Busy, busy...!!

All FanFyria books claimed!! Thank you so much!! And... 10 out of 20 comic books shipped! :D;; I'm so sorry I'm taking some time with the bonus watercolor pieces. I can only work on them on weekends when I get proper daylight... I will miss summer! T^T;; I think I got better with those.. and I can't wait for folks to start receiving the packages! It always sparks so much joy! But bear with me for they take some time! Shipping to the US tends to take around 3 weeks too ;u; so it may take a while!

Work has been...the usual landslide of events once October starts xD;; It always gets so busy I'm like a ghost once I get home who just wants to dissociate while staring at the ceiling. I've been been listening to spooky games while at work. Silent Hill 2 remake was SO good and I'm lowkey dying I can't find the energy and time to draw something. Is this new Denny Lore? :D;; I very much love the Silent Hill games (1 to 4, the rest don't exist to me) and I'm so happy Konami did so well with this remake! They really made James have such a conflicted confused sad puppy look... which is very, so very fitting! And Maria? -chef kiss- the VA of everyone is way too good! I've inhaled every scene!!

The Suikoden remasters are looking great too and I can't wait to get it next year!! Are we entering the Konami redemption arc timeline!? If they announce Suikoden 3-5 remasters and Suiko 6 I may just have to pinch myself cause what a time to be alive...!!

Romancing SaGa 2 Remake is almost here!! Aaaaa! It ought to heal my aching soul from RS announcing EoS earlier this month :") .... I wanted to try Metaphor too but it's too close to RS2R so it has to wait a bit. Which reminds me, when RS2R is in my hands I may vanish off earth for a bit! It's not that I expect to find spoilers on a remake of a game which I've played, watched The Stage play of and absorbed all lore available of it in RS...but still xD; (I do hope I'm done with the FanFyria book ships by then aaaa) I may not be able to update my comic "The Snake, The Firebrand and The King of All" this month, cause as much as I'd love to, I promised my friends not to strain myself with work (else they will manifest into my walls and scold me!) and the workload and FanFyria book ship has taken a tow on me so far and my hands had started to give in ;n; ... I wish I was stronger ! But comic work is a journey, not a race! At least next chapter is sketched so the actual hard part is done. The line art/shading just takes time and many podcasts! (and free weekends xD)

Okay enough with life update~ Thank you for stopping by!! I hope your day goes wonderfully, dear Web Traveller!

[ef-1]

I hope Daniel fails lol and I hope you mean cunts are made miserable by the realisation that everyone else in the fandom hates Daniel and his fans for good reason

I mean this with the most love but you need to get a life. You sound young and in too deep, you sound like a sick person.

People hating someone who I'm a fan of is not a reflection on me, I don't care. This is an f1 blog I follow people who like daniel and people who don't. Nasty/mean/overzealous people who revel in being horrific I avoid because that off-putting energy comes from a deep rooted place that manifests just as repulsively irl as it does online and I'm not trying to invite that energy into my life.

I can only assume you're a Nyck fan and if you took the effort to scroll a little further you'd know that I was actually iffy at best of Daniel to AT and I already made a post about how Nyck was treated very callously and disposed of in a exceedingly cruel way

I will NOT let people inform the way I experience anything. Your hatred doesn't influence anything. You're in an online space dedicated to racing cars on tumblr and you don't sound like you have real friends to put into perspective how insane your behaviour is rn

[wisterias-in-bloom]

Lynn Wisteria Felix.

The art in the center is my drawing, so credits to me for doing one good thing in life<3.

Name: Lynn Wisteria Felix.

Age: 25.

Gender identity and Sexuality: Genderfluid, bi.

Pronouns: he/them.

Race: Changeling.

Class and subclass: Sorcerer, wild magic (chaos origin in the Bellowing Wilds universe).

Canonic romance in BG3: Astarion<3 (trauma babies help each other healing)

Appearance:

Long white hair are braided carefully while leaving his overgrown bangs to roam free on his head. his eyes are like a void that eats your soul as you stare into them. His skin is pearlescent, almost looking like a sheet of parchment.

He's around 6'5, and has a slutty little waist.

The particularity with him is in his right hand. Since he was a newborn his curse has manifested physically as a curious type of vitiligo. It started small, just a finger, and slowly expanded until it reached his shoulder and part of his neck.

He likes rings. In fact, he keeps a golden band on his middle finger. Talking about his hands, they are slender, the hue of the blood flowing underneath is a shadow on them. He keeps his nails well curated, grown in stiletto and painted with black lacquer. He wears tightly fitting button ups that usually have frills around the cuffs, yet always makes sure to expose part of his chest by leaving a few buttons open. He wears a necklace that he- let's say found before meeting his friends. He's very attached to it because of the resemblance with him. He wears leather pants that hug his body finely, matched with a pair of leather boots that keep the cuffs of the pants secured underneath.

Likes and dislikes:

He likes writing, he has kept a diary since he has met Jenneleth, his companion in countless of quests. he likes music, and humming while trying to stay sneaky is his biggest flaw, though his companions enjou his voice before bed as he sings them all to sleep. He despises lies, dishonesty, hurting weaker beings, and abuse. He also hates pickles.

Personality:

He's a sassy, straightforward person, never shying away from putting someone in line or giving his - most of the times- unwanted opinion. On the flip side, he has trust issues. He won't open up until he can be sure he's safe and you are not going to judge him. Beyond that he's a loving man when you get to know him, if he grows to call you his friend, he will make sure he's going to protect you at the cost of his life.

He's very insecure, and he will make jokes about it without hesitation, but to truly get to know him, you gotta dig deep and earn it.

Get to know him:

What is sadder than a lonely person? A lonely person that has lost hope.

Lynn was born in a small changeling village, where everyone took care of each other. He has grown in a very loving family that reminded him daily that his curse was okay.

Was it actually ok? No, Lynn grew up being bullied by his peers, especially when it came down to magic, which was supposed to be natural to him. Yet his inability to control the energy that flows through his body made sure he could never prove himself worthy. No one ever dared to defend him, until the lovely Tryx waltzed in and took his side. Little did he know she was going to be the reason he lost it all.

Years layer, when he turned 20, he was ready to settle down, maybe have kids, or maybe just travel with his beloved, yet when he was about to reach his happiness, tragedy had to push him off the ledger.

One night, he jolts up at the smell of smoke. Everything around him was too hot. He didn't hesitate to tumble down the stairs and search for his parent, only to be greeted by their corpses at the end of the last step.

He did all he could, pulling them out of the house and trying to save their life, but it was too late.

It was too late cause he looked around him, and his home was not the only building on fire. The whole village was burning down, families were exhaling for the last time when it dawned on him.

He never run so fast, skipping steps as he made his way towards Tryx's bedroom, but he was once more too late.

He gathered her, cradled to his chest, and brought her out. He sobbed for hours on her corpse until he realized he was lonely.

And that's where it began. He doesn't tell the tale of his travels, or how he gifted Jenneleth a necklace, or how he almost witnessed his world's apocalypse, nor how he ended up in faerun, but he's finally taking the chance and look for himself.

Navigation tags:

#bloodshift - for all lynn x astarion content

#lynnstarion - old lynn x astarion content

#lynn's dashboard - for lynn on the internet

#faces: [name] for recurring friends.

I hope you have a nice stay, Lynn.

[arandompeep]

Okay so I am having thoughts about Worldless × Genshin Crossover thingy so have some more thoughts:

Both Edda and Aven does not know how they even got to Teyvat, all they know is that they blanked out and is now suddenly in a ridiculously colourful world where they can't absorb anything. Meanwhile in Teyvat, some may have noticed two extremely bright meteors, one blue and one orange, one night.

The wildlife also confuses them a LOT. Why aren't they shapes? How can they hold their form all the time? Why they seemingly can't use absorption on any of them?

And then they probably encounter their first human. It didn't go as well as Edda, Aven nor the human has expected.

It would be funny if they don't have visions, but instead use their default skills. People wonder how they can use two elements at the same time... but it's actually not Teyvat's elemental energy, it's just their skills.

Also: They are both extremely confused by humans: Why do they need those weird shiny things to give them abilities? What's up with all those structures? WHY DO THEY NEED TO WEAR CLOTHES?!

If would be funny if they can only communicate via chirps/ honks/ sonar. Because imagine someone giving an extremely long-winded and epic sounding speech and then Edda just... gives the most disappointed chirp.

They can glow, very useful in caves and stuff.

Edda, Aven and Idyia may be friends.

Childe might have tried to fight both Edda and Aven... and it did not go well (They used the big green sword attack).

Wanderer challenges Edda to a race, only for her to casually run past him... while he was flying over water. Cue the entire team (Except Wanderer and Aven) begging her to ferry then across bodies of water. She just ice bridges when she's with a bunch of people.

(Not too sure on what Archon Quest you're on, so if you haven't finished Fontaine's Archon quest, don't read this please) Edda and Furina being water-running buddies. I could imagine them chasing each other while running on water.

Aven being scared of Yae Miko for some reason.

Edda would probably be really good at Genius Invokation TCG, her deck would be Oceanid Taser (Rhodeia/ Oceanid, Fischl and Mirror Maiden... or Thunder manifestation if we're talking about 4.3 deck).

Everyone being a bit confused about Edda and Aven's "disappearing body" thing.

Everyone also being confused about where on Teyvat they came from.

I could imagine both of them being somewhat concerned for Rhodeia of Loch. Like... does she need help or anything? She seems a bit... paranoid to both of them. Edda did eventually managed to get her trust though.

dude this is amazing I love your thoughts about this crossover sm, ty for sharing!!!! 💕💖💕💖💕💕💖💕💖

edda would not have a fun time in fontaine methinks,,,, she does not like water

[sekhisadventures]

( Artist's rendition of Samantha and Annulus by xHyperwolfx )

Samantha Montebank, Ren'dorei Voidblade

Important Stories:

On a Pale Horse, He Rode: Dragged along to a party by their father, Sam is present in Tranquillen when the Scourge comes to Quel'thalas to claim the Sunwell for their own dark purposes.

Welcome to the Dark Side: When attempting to rob Magister Umbric, Sam comes into contact with a strange crystal and becomes bonded to a being known only as Annulus.

The Void Sees Many Things: With Annulus' help, Sam gets something she has wanted in secret for a very long time.

Race: Void Elf

Class: Rogue, Subtlety

Eye color: Glowing white

Birthplace: Silvermoon City

Residence: Stormwind City, Old Town District, Avalon House

Personal Rune: "Blade in the Shadows"

Abilities:

Larceny: Samantha was a skilled thief even before becoming one of the ren'dorei. She had a talent for minor theft honed as a young elf in Silvermoon City which only grew once she fled during the Scourge's invasion of Quel'thalas. She ran with Hulfdan Blackbeard's gang in Ironforge for years before the sin'dorei formally joined the Horde and she was forced to flee to Kalimdor lest she get arrested as a potential spy. Since then she has only honed her abilities. For some examples of her acquisitions, click here.

Bonded to Annulus: In the early days of the Blood War Samantha became bound to a being of the Void, a bodiless entity known only as Annulus, which transformed her into one of the ren'dorei. Samantha was born with a rare affliction that made her totally unable to use magic of any sort, seen by some sin'dorei as a curse even. Whenever she utilizes her void elf abilities, its actually Annulus using her powers. Annulus is able to allow Samantha to do a sort of short-ranged teleport, guard herself with a layer of Void over her body, and degrade or dispel some enchantments.

Me and My Shadow: After being bonded to Annulus for several years, the void creature has enough of an anchor to Azeroth to manifest a temporary body to assist Samantha. She appears as a shadowy copy of Sam herself and can only remain active for a few moments, long enough to land an attack, but she can generate several bodies if needed in quick succession. These attacks are pure shadow, striking entirely with the power of the void. While they can be blocked with mundane armor, an actual injury to flesh will pour Annulus' voidborn energies into the victim... with all sorts of effects.

Minor Precognition: One of Annulus' most potent abilities is a minor form of precognition. She can see a short distance into the future (a few minutes at most) at any given time and is able to focus her powers to study the threads of fate... though the further into the future she looks the less certain it becomes (and it takes longer to see further.)

Leatherworking: Samantha learned early on in her career in thievery that self-sufficiency is a virtue and too many stops to the leather goods shop for armor repairs tended to raise eyebrows among more law-abiding citizens. She prefers to craft her own equipment these days, and even assists her other leather-wearing allies like Jaie and Shalandrae since her time in the Shadowlands.

History

Sam's story is a rough one to say the least.

Born Sam'ael Wintersky, the child of a powerful and influential Magister in Silvermoon City, they were expected to succeed their father… until their condition came to light.

Among the quel'dorei there is a rare affliction, the condition effecting the elf in question from the moment they're born, where they are unable to use magic at ALL. They are still connected to the Sunwell, they enjoy the benefits of extended life that all of the High Elves have… but they cannot perform any magic whatsoever. Even the most basic household cantrips such as animating a broom are beyond them… and Sam had this condition.

Their father, Danaforth Wintersky, found this unacceptable. A Wintersky without any magical ability whatsoever was a horrible embarrassment for his house, and so came the attempts to… fix… his child.

Quel'dorei mages, apothicaries, churgeons, and the like came to the Wintersky estate in secret (to save their father embarrassment,) then eventually the same from Dalaran as well. Their attempts at treatement ranged from ineffective to invasive, to humiliating, to downright excruicating… and all of them with a zero percent success rate. Sam remained as magical as a brick.

This infuriated the magister, who saw their child as a disgrace. They would either ignore them or abuse them (depending on their mood) which caused Sam to distrust them and hide things from them. They never spoke to their father about anything important to them at all, seeing them as a cruel and hateful man even while the rest of Silvermoon saw them as a hero.

Because of this, Sam also began to act out. It started out small enough, swiping candy and other trinkets… but soon escalated to pickpocketing, shoplifting, and more. They were the child of a powerful magister, they could simply BUY what they wanted, but they needed an outlet for their anger and they found that while they were bereft of magical talents they had fast hands and a cunning mind.

They even managed to steal a real prize, a sapphire pendant and heirloom of House Wintersky, from their equally abusive sister… before it happened. While attending a dinner party in Tranqillien, the Scourge invaded Quel'thalas.

Sam survived by hiding, then fled past the army to the south. Their parents were slain however. Danaforth was stabbed to death by Arthas himself while trying to hold back the Scourge with his magic, their mother torn apart by ghouls when the army reached the city walls (though Sam never learned her fate.)

After fleeing to the south to Dun Morogh they wound up falling in with Hulfdan Blackbeard and his gang of thieves in Ironforge Mountain until shortly after the Dark Portal reopened and the word went out that the elves, now known as the sin'dorei or Blood Elves, had defected to the Horde.

Sam was forced to flee again, this time to Kalimdor… where they remained until the early days of the Blood War almost a decade later. While attempting to rob Stormwind Castle in a bout of overconfidence, they came into contact with the core of a being of the Void known only as Annulus, which changed their life forever…

[f1-birb]

i think i'm just going to start my summer break early now that i've blocked a few more people and really curated my dash.

i obviously hope lando has an amazing home race of course (hope jenson's manifestations work out for him) and i'll be following along on my dash for updates but idk i don't have any more energy to waste on the bullshit that is f1 media and fandom this week

but idk lando can't win regardless of what he does on or off track and it's so tiring.

he's literally coming off a dnf that max was at-fault for and penalized for (and half the people trying to use other pundits and drivers to jump to max's defense are taking other's quotes out of context. nowhere did jenson say max didn't deserve a penalty, he said he didn't deserve a penalty harsher than the one he got. daniel and several other drivers straight up admitted in their statements that they hadn't even seen the incident ���). he said some things in the heat of the moment and apologized for them. somehow he still got canceled by max fans "for thinking max was just going to hand him wins." max comes out with his own statement word-for-word supporting everything lando just said — and somehow it's disrespectful when lando says it but "mind games to get under lando's skin" when max says it. and now somehow we've reached this conclusion that lando just isn't wdc material since he can't put aside his friendship and actually stand up to max and i just??? just a few days ago you guys were calling him abusive and weak-willed for asking for an apology lest "he end his friendship with max" (which was also a misquote where the media tried to translate an english quote into italian and then back into english, lando never said anything about ending their friendship altogether last weekend), so which is it, is he this big bad bully or this shaking chihuahua to max because i can't keep up with the narrative changing literally every hour at this point

anyway those fans (and it's not even max fans exclusively it's usually the lando-hating lestappies who apparently missed like every lestappen on-track battle prior to 2022 insisting lando can't race wheel-to-wheel and we need charles' superior racecraft back but if i comment on that claim with the lestappen battles prior to 2022 when max couldn't pull the "yield or we crash" strategy because he was trying to recover from 2 dnfs, i'll get myself in trouble) have already kind of ruined this weekend for me because it doesn't even matter what he does on track. he could win, he could flop, he could get a podium, he could dnf — they're going to find something to pick him apart over anyway. so like best of luck to lando but i simply cannot lol

"so which is it, is he this big bad bully or this shaking chihuahua to max because i can't keep up with the narrative changing literally every hour at this point"

and it's the narrative about Max as well that's apparently getting painted, on one hand it seems to be "oh poor baby waby Max, he's too good and too nice, he can't choose his own friends because he chooses horrible peoples" and now this new one of "hehehe look at Max and how clever he is, playing mind games and manipulating dumb little Lando" like sorry he cannot be both, and the second one doesn't make him a good friend btw

but yeah, take the break if you need it, I fully stayed off socials bar DM's for 2 days after lap 65 lol so I totally get wanting and needing a break

[husbandhoshi]

As my best friend likes to say, 'Cs get degrees.' We're all just here to pass 💀 Whenever I finally scrounge up some ingredients, I'll hit you up for some recipes. I think I've been particularly wanting to try my hand at some muffins and brownies so, any recipes relating to those are extra extra appreciated. I've also been wanting to treat myself to drinks one of these weekends so, maybe I'll bake and create some cocktails too lol.

I- what would possess anyone to record audio of themselves talking about picking shit up with their feet?!?!? 😭 Maybe he wants to appeal to the foot fetishists????? Yeah no, dating is so much energy. I feel like I need to work my way up to finding the desire to redownload the apps again lol.

I need unlearn my anxiety and hatred for driving one day lmao but, until then it's me and cabs against the world! They're not too expensive but, the costs definitely pile up. It's also been disgustingly hot here, which doesn't make running around the city any more enjoyable.

My plans for this weekend were to write and fill in some forms for admin stuff I need to do but, between the mini heatwave that hit and fighting off a migraine, it wasn't gonna happen lol. So, I've been mostly catching up on Drag Race! Which has actually been fun. How about you? Get up to anything fun this weekend??

omg rj i am SOOO canceled sorry for getting to this so late! i had an exam last week and unfortunately i am back to the grind </3 i hope you had a good week/weekend tho!! hopefully less busy than you've been lately :)

please YES do hit me up if you need any recipes!!! i make a lot of brownies :) muffins i don't make As much but i bake a lot of blueberry loaves so maybe they're similar?? cocktails and baking sounds like the perfect weekend imo & i hope you can do it soon!!

stop i have the most ridiculous dating app stories... foot guy is only the tip of the iceberg. manifesting us to have a meet cute so we don't have to put up with any more shenanigans </3

this may be surprising but i actually have never watched drag race!!! i really need to but i never get around to it. it sounds like a lot of fun tho!! last weekend i was in the kitchen a lot because i had a potluck with some friends and i watched a few movies! i hope you had a good one too :)

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NEW BEGINNINGS, MAY 1-31, 2023

A discerning ear... According to some bio-medical sources, the sense of hearing is the first of the five senses developed in a human being, starting even while as a fetus in the womb, and the last to go at the point of physical death... And for one primarily visual learner like me and many of us, it is one where the input is quite difficult to remember for a long time too... But I noticed that in the Word, this sense is far more talked about regarding our God than the sense of seeing... For we are taught more often that 'God hears', especially sincere and humble prayers of a contrite and repentant heart (not mouth, meaning our deepest desires, cares and sorrows, even unspoken)... And this seems to be key in how we obey His command to love our fellowman too, as in, when we 'play-by-ear' what other people are feeling, saying between the lines, their situations and conditions, before we even utter a word... Much like the sounds of joy and weeping could not be distinguished in our story today, so too often it is difficult for people to sense from our words whether what we say are spoken out of pride and arrogance in our perceived seniority and superiority when we give advice or admonition, or genuine care and concern... But humble hearts are wise and pour forth wisdom... May we then strive for humility and meekness, that as we gain discernment of people, hearing what they are not saying, or trying to say but they cannot, we can always communicate in ways that build up and encourage, that blesses and inspires, that gives the right answer, that brings life and hope and peace...

#HappyMay312023

Unless the Lord builds the house... of your life, all your professions and proclamations of faith are in vain... Because the one whose life is built upon His firm and sure foundation has no need to doubt and fear about what happens tomorrow, for He is already there; and what we must do today is to do good and give our best in everything--in our labors, in faith and worship, in our relations with others... That manifests that indeed we believe that we have a God who blesses and restores, who both guides and leads in wisdom, and who gives due reward of mercy and peace to those who wait on Him, in whatever way, whenever...

#HappyMay302023

Seeing beyond... Means to have hope that in spite of life's present troubles, a better future still awaits... With the pandemic-turned-endemic, wars and disruptions, life for many has turned uncertain and dim, hopeless even, if statistics and surveys on how many young people around the world see their future be considered... Yet, we can still believe that as long as there is life, our Creator and Savior gives us a chance to do better and achieve greater things; as long as we can still wake up, and tomorrow becomes today, we are still given something to put our efforts to, to dedicate our energies and talents on, on becoming better people, and on making this world a better place...

#HappyMay292023

Because our God is not a God of miscommunication... Two millennia ago, on that fateful Pentecost holiday, the Word recorded one of its rarest miracles; that actually can be expained biologically if we take the time to marry science into faith, because young infants can actually communicate with each other regardless of race and language if put side by side... By speaking in tongues here do not mean the gibberish that some fake uttering in order to impress that they have felt the presence; but actually real, conversational and structured languages and dialects of different tribes and nations around the Jewish one... And much like today, if we claim to abide by the faith named after our Savior, we cannot use language nobody in their logical mind understands; we cannot preach fables and anecdotes, fantasies and conjectures, nor gloom-and-doom hearsay and prophesy but real issues... Because everyday life is terrible and horrific enough for us to create monsters in the minds of others; but loving our fellowman is and should be as real, tangible and true as our love of God... Gibberish mumbling does not manifest a baptism of the Spirit, but rather exhibiting the fruits thereof to one and all--faith brethren or not, favorite kin or annoying neighbor not withstanding... And we wait for the Spirit, we wait on it, not scream and conjure it into existence, until we feel tingling sensations (when accompanied with hoarseness of voice might actually very well lead to colds or flu rather than the 'Holy Spirit's Presence')... And when we appropriate the Jewish holiday of Pentecost, likewise, when the tongues of fire were sent to manifest that salvation is made available to all mankind--regardless of race and gender; then we fulfill its purpose when we open our lives to be poured out along with our Savior's streams of living water; that love, mercy, grace, forgiveness, reconciliation and eternal life be showered to all...

#HappyMay282023

Life is incremental and insidious... Because we do not find meaning in great breakthroughs and grand revivals, nor in sudden spurts of inspiration and bursts of courage and conviction; but the patience and persistence of living through and conquering our inadequacies and life's uncertainties everyday and each moment... Like what Zechariah reminded ancient Israel, may we not despise small, quiet efforts that build faith and resilience; because the lives we make are built on each little unrecognized task for the glory of our Maker, in the still, small voices of heartfelt and silent prayers, in the quiet help and support extended to those who need and are less capable, not in screams and shouts of vain and selfishly proud, yet empty adoration and fake praise...

#HappyMay272023

The wild card and the tactician... Was how one beloved drama nicknamed two of its fiercely competitive characters... In life too, we may often do our best to plan what we want, to strive to get what we believe is best, to carefully and judiciously curate what we present to society because we want them to believe we have perfect lives; but there is always a wild card... In Daniel's book and in the lives of His friends, it is the presence of God, His deliverance and care against the machinations of the enemy... If we worship and believe in the same God, we too can trust in this wild card; so that we can have the courage to break free from the chains of our pre-programmed and puppeteered existence into the wider, more unfamiliar, scarier and more challenging world outside... For in our weakness, He is our strength; and in our doubts, anxiety and uncertainty, He is our guarantee, our sure hope and confidence, our security and peace...

#HappyMay262023

The good neighbour... Seems to be the one commandment of our Savior most of us love to disobey... But truly, even when most of us consider wealth to be a measure of success, it is loving and being good to your neighbour, and living in peace with them--from your nearest housemate or kin, to those living around your abode--which is self-actualization for those of us who proclaim ourselves to belong to the faith named after our Savior... Instead of being rich and of high status in society, may we instead strive everyday to be good neighbors, and so do the will of the One who called us to eternal life, who told us to, "love our neighbour as we love ourselves"...

#HappyMay252023

March of the monitor... Another one of the things I truly miss living in the province is the regular sounding of the monitor lizard; which a former retired office mate said that every "tuk - ko!", means the pay has already been credited to the bank (lol)... Seriously though, because of urbanization and climate change, these creatures' habitat has steadily been degraded... On the spiritual side though, there is much to learn about the faithfulness of the monitor lizards in keeping time and seasons; unfortunately however, such is not the case when we monitor each other's personal or spiritual, mental and psychological performance and achievements... In the Word today we learn that each of us is accountable directly to God for our actions, whether that be to our lifestyle and preferences, how we treat others and make them feel... For a life full of anxiety and effort to prove our worth is vain; and unless you are a monitor lizard, don't monitor other people's life but your own... You can always pray for your concerns and fears, your doubts and inadequacies; and if you are concerned about others, it wouldn't impoverish you to lend a helping hand; and much

more, it enriches your soul to pray for others too...

#HappyMay242023

Different skreeks... One of the joys of living in the farm, which I miss so much living in the city, is the sound of critters at night... I've gotten so used to it that short of fully understanding what these guys are saying, and without looking at a watch, one would know what time of night it is approximately by the pattern of skreeks: few hours before midnight, they make, "skreek-skreek-skreek!" sounds repeatedly... After midnight, the pattern goes: "skrook-skreek, skrook-skreek, skrook-skreek!"... Those are just my interpretations though, as not being an entomologist, I still do not understand "bug language"... What's amazing though, is that our God and Creator has given us the bugs to coexist with, to remind us that if we keep pace with the earth through our daily endeavours, they too mark time and seasons, milestones and breakthroughs on their own terms and manner of communication... May we always learn to appreciate life and all creation, and do our part to preserve it and be the good stewards we were meant to be...

#HappyMay232023

Expecting rudeness... There are certain places and certain people from whom, because of involuntary observation, prior experience and knowledge, one can only expect rudeness, ignorance, tactlessness and entitlement... Which isn't surprising since the ancients, and even the Word, prophesy many people in these days to be so... But as a lifetime observer of people and seeing many time-honored and worthy values degenerate over time, one understands that there are still a few good people who exhibit acts of nobility, grace and kindness, but since they are treasures, are hard to come by and require much discernment... Thankfully, we have a God who triumphs over history and makes sure that our run in it will be filled with His presence and love, that we may manifest these to others too...

#HappyMay222023

Prayer is never intermittent... Probably because I am never a fan of diet and exercise, the word "intermittent", is not exactly one of my favorites (since I have already and will for a long time, associate it with a diet fad)... Just like being healthy starts with the ingrained habit of accepting your body shape and size, age, the effects of gravity, the accumulation of blessings and good things, diet should be preceded by the word "healthy"; and an everyday, every moment, unconscious habit... So I believe it is with prayer and communication with our God and the people He sends our way too... Because life goes on, and for as long as we breathe, as long as we still have the right and capacity to life, we also still have the obligation and ability to pray--not loudly for show or to influence and impress others, but silently, in still small voices that manifest the presence, the stillness, the peace and confidence of faith in a God who is everywhere, who is always willing to listen and respond in His own amazing ways...

#HappyMay202023

God's not deaf... That's worth repeating countless times to ourselves, until it becomes a default part of our system... As we diligently go through the rest of our lives living simply yet generously, in humility and respect, in freedom and fairness... That we have a God who hears our most silent prayers and wishes, and to whom we do not need to shout or scream for acknowledgment like spoiled brats, nor badger and nag repetitively for impact... When we give Him time to talk by being quiet and at peace, by slowing down and listening, He hears and answers, and gives us discernment to learn and understand about the good things He sends our way... May we keep that to heart, and be encouraged and strengthened for the rest of our journey...

#HappyMay192023

Grandparents' pet... Anyone who grew up close to or raised by grandparents can attest to how loving, soothing, and more understanding they are... Like a neighbour's kid this morning, who was crying and screaming because he doesn't want to go to school, but with a few soothing words from grandma, calmed down and reluctantly went ahead with his mom to prepare himself... Maybe that should be our great lesson in life too, as we are besieged by anxiety and worry, insecurity, OCD, PTSD, ADHD, and various other mental health conditions we deny and falsely attribute to us trying to make life perfect and whole... Because we can never have the perfect life with our own efforts; even how much we struggle to project our best; that can only come from the confidence and peace in knowing we have a God who appreciates us, who can relate to our struggles and tolerate our idiosyncrasies, but who always understands and is willing to give us a hand...

#HappyMay182023

Seen and valued... For many of us, it is a sad fact that we only value and recognize people from whom we believe we can reap benefits; but distance ourselves when those same people are in need themselves, not even bothering to give time to ask about their issues and concerns, their priorities and goals... And hurtful as it may seem, but that is normal human nature: to take advantage of people and situations, sometimes even inconveniencing them in inopportune moments, but discarding them when they have been bled dry... But thankfully we have a God of justice and provision; Who always looks out for the good of His people; who gives strength to the weary, deliverance to the abused, recompense to the disadvantaged, and hope and strength to the depleted... May we learn to value others as He values us; that in all situations we may be a blessing, not a burden; that we may be good influences, not burdensome hitchhikers...

#HappyMay172023

We know no one, not even ourselves... No, not our friends who only tell us what is good about their lives, who may share their struggles and hardships but only from their points of view, nor the influencers and online follows who only show their curated lives on socmed... But thankfully, we have a God and Creator who knows us inside out, who is fully aware of our potentials because He planned it, and who can equip us in every way even when we doubt our capacities... May we learn to tap into that eternal source of hope and strength, as we live the rest of our days manifesting His love and wisdom, His grace, generosity and mercy to all...

#HappyMay162023

You can't make a leaf, but you can be vertically aligned... It seems that the trouble for many of us is we think we can do anything we want if we put our mind to it... Quite the contrary though, for there are far too many things that other people do that we can't, nor can we even have control over our own bodily functions... Sometimes too we think we know everything, but are ignorant of even simple history, of people's personalities, and the workings of the cosmos... And so there is nothing left better for us to do than to humbly accept our shortcomings; and for the rest, to look up and trust that the One who designed and ordered the universe will also consistently put our lives in order... So that we do not subscribe nor compare our milestones and achievements with others; for to each of us is given grace each day, and a chance to do good and great with the lot given to us... That is, when we can't even create a living matter from non-existent ones, when we can't even understand how things and people came to be, what we can do is be vertically aligned to the One who gave us life, and to be horizontally in tuned with others, especially those whom He sent our way...

#HappyMay152023

The maternal instinct... Is what defines true motherhood... To care and nurture, to feed with food and wisdom, to teach and lead well, and to guide in humility and love... And not necessarily having your own physical kids... For there are those who have given birth, yet compete with their children for attention and affirmation, in acting childish, immature and clueless themselves... While there are those who haven't birthed with their bodies but with their hearts, in their wide and deep capacity to understand, to relate, to embrace diversities and quirks, in the love and acceptance they shower upon the difficult, the unlovable, the grumpy, the sarcastic, the bitter and depressed, the know-it-all... For we are all kids by heart, exploring ang journeying through life none the wiser... But for the rest of us who have learned to accept the good and bad while remaining joyful and hopeful, they are the mothers in us; and even with much or bereft of commercialism and trade, deserve to receive a worthy and heartfelt thanks and greeting: Happy Mother's Day...

#HappyMay142023

Non-dissimulated... Lately, as I got older, I have one other favorite Cebuano rendering of a rather deep word, one that I parroted from my late maternal grandparents, "dissimular"--to pretend to do something, but actually having different intentions or ulterior motives... And it seems our story and text today tell us that in order to live the proper life, we have to avoid that; although sadly, a lot of brethren seem to engage in that deplorable habit in a kind of hypocrisy, just to be called religious or holy, but underneath are full of envy and insecurity, fear and anxiety... It is good to heed the words of the apostle; for love indeed, cannot be manifested with fakery; and the false and pretense will always leak out and be discovered... May we be authentic people, in how we love and care for each other, in how we share our God's grace and goodness to one and all...

#HappyMay132023

Anger reveals who we are... This message really hits close to home, especially for the many of us who struggle with our tempers and patience... Because no matter how good we think we may be, how smart and accomplished, how wealthy, how strong in faith and convictions, how high in status, the moments that try our patience and tests our temper bring out the real us... And it is quite easy to feel superior and rant on others when we think they come up short, when we feel they block our way to getting what we want, when we think they commit a social or moral faus pax, than to see that the issue is us--or rather, our lack of understanding, patience, our carefully-masked up insecurity and fear, our photoshopped hypocrisy, that is tethering on the brink of a catastrophic reveal because someone 'got our goat'... May we understand that life is too short to waste energy on getting angry and forcefully demanding to be treated the way we think we deserve, but rather to be patient and appreciative at each little moment we are allowed to breathe, and to enjoy and do good with our short, vapor-like existence in the whole course of history and human interactions...

#HappyMay122023

How the birds and ants see... Is as different as night and day... Like seeing from the 91st story of a tall skyscraper, birds can see a lot, even the whole picture, but may miss the details... Much like people who often generalize things but fail to understand and be empathetic to the needs and issues of others... While those who see like ants can nitpick at the tiniest details, but can't even see what's beyond the corner, unless they have as keen a sense of smell as these our little creature friends... Thankfully we have a God who can see in both manners and beyond; so that even if the world neglects us, fail to see what we are really going through, uncognizant of our situations and the issues we face, He is always attentive to our needs, and desires that every day, in every way, we are at peace, and we enjoy all the love in His presence... May we have the humility to perceive, and the stillness and patience to wait on Him and His leading...

#HappyMay112023

We are only as good as our word... And we show whom and what we worship by how we deal with others through our words... Such is the case of our story today, of stolen amulets and figurines believed to bring good luck; of the sincerity, respect and consideration of our talk; and the manner in which we pray... For we do not serve a God that we can hold physically in hand, nor is He deaf and blind, nor His knowledge of languages limited, nor does He need us to touch amulets and figurines to invoke Him, nor for us to shout to the top of our lungs to call on Him or show the world that we worship Him... For He who created us is everywhere, and He did not manifest Himself to Moses from winds and the storms but through a gentle whisper... Likewise, we can only pray in secret, from the bottoms of our hearts; and we can only perceive Him as we obey His Word to do good to our fellowman regardless of who they may be, or whether they do good to us in return... Our God is Creator, He is in creation; He can never be held nor stolen nor adored and fellowshipped with exclusively, but in wisdom, in love, in peace and order amongst the chaos, in humility and grace amidst life's harassments and tragedies...

#HappyMay102023

Who knows us... A famous leadership expert says that in terms of promotion, it's not whom you know that's key, but who knows you... Funny, considering that in the workplace and in society, a lot more people would suck up to the powers-that-be, even putting others down just so they could rise up... Good thing to know that in the eyes of our Maker and Savior, it is His knowledge of us that ensures our endurance and deliverance... I never fail to get amazed at certain people whose prayers seem to always get good answers, and realize that indeed He is attentive to their cries, no matter when and where, and of whatever kind... Are our lives known by our God? Can He distinguish us inside out? Are our actions to Him and others distinguishable and marked with His presence, love and grace, and not for the likes and impressions we crave from people and faith brethren?... Even if we are incognito and irrelevant, unknown to the rest of the world, may we find confidence and peace, in the daily effort and connection, in the daily grace and privilege that we are known by Him...

#HappyMay092023

Vincit omnia Veritas... Is a famous quote made a motto of one of our local fraternities, as also plastered by them around the city's walls... And indeed, much as many unscrupulous and notorious people throughout history have tried to bury and cover it up, to falsify and smokescreen it, to change the narrative, it always comes out, delivering a hard comeuppance, determining and changing the course of history, discourse, civil, political and spiritual society... And when our Lord and Savior declared Himself to be the Truth, may we realize that a fake faith too does not pay; fake goodness and principles built on lies only lead to a sorry end, and a filtered, curated life is vain, joyless and devoid of peace and contentment... May we uphold the truth, be sincere and authentic, be discerning and profound, as we remain humble and understanding, generous, courteous and kind; for these are the ultimate manifestations of our love for our God, our love of our fellowman, and our love for life and creation...

#HappyMay082023

More than fellowship and human companionship, but His presence... That is what we need for right worship and relationship with our Creator, and that brings us salvation and inner healing... Like true friends who may be apart for decades but remain close at heart, so is our unseen God to those who truly love Him--unperceived by the physical senses, yet firmly convinced that His power and glory, His mercy and love surround and fill us each day... So that no matter the hardships in life, we do not need to manifest our own strength and power, we do not need to feel superior and rule over others, we need not accumulate much wealth and status; because if our faith is true, and our obedience in Him faithful and pure, He fills us with His presence, His strength, His wisdom, His humility and greatness in every situation... Indeed, a life truly reformed and transformed, a life destined for greatness even beyond the grave, starts here now in faith, in patience, in understanding, unassuming and humble, yet kind, courteous, tactful, magnanimous and real...

#HappyMay072023

Thankfulness is a lifestyle... And as such, it manifests God's Spirit in our lives... We can give thanks through words; but we can give thanks through deeds, especially when we pay forward, when we free ourselves from greed and pride, when we strip ourselves of vanity and envy, when we are generous and understanding, when we remain humble, helpful, resourceful and hopeful; knowing that because our God has dealt with us so graciously in the past, He is going to do more so now and in the future; and the thankful heart expresses and lives that attitude even now... Let's always give thanks to our God, and to the people He sends our way...

#HappyMay062023

Fruits borne by grace... We believe we have been saved from the death of our souls through the grace of our Maker and Savior... Pre-Jesus' time, Moses also experienced such when he repented of his murder, and self-exiled from civilization to live the nomadic life... And when such grace comes true in our lives, regardless of what we are and what we believe in, we become less selfish and judgmental, we become more giving and understanding, we stop imposing our own beliefs and convictions on others, we stop thinking we are better just because we attend church regularly, we have more degrees, we are more entitled because we have more connections, we have accumulated more friends and family, status and wealth... Grace bearing fruit in us is like that of Moses: transformed, reformed, stripped bare of the sandals of vanity; for in the Holy place of God's presence in our lives, there should be room only for listening to His will and plan for us, obedience to His leading, and doing greater things not by our intellect and strength, but by His power, and for His glory...

#HappyMay052023

The inner weapon... Is best, and manifests well in humble confidence... That in spite of our daily realities, a better life awaits, greater things lie ahead... And whatever may be our status in life, irrespective of wealth or language, a heartfelt prayer to our God and Maker is the most human and humane thing to do; acknowledging our mortality and dependence, and giving us courage to do good, to face life's challenges, to be a source of hope and inspiration, and to be a force for good to others... May we always be prayerful in any situation...

#HappyMay042023

Keep on walking... My late maternal grandpa reached 94 in relative good health due to a virtually stress-free disposition, exercising in his latter years through daily neighborhood hikes... And I just learned from a drama show that when drunk, taking a hike helps sober people up... One realizes that life indeed is challenging and burdensome; but a hike, a stroll, a regularly-cadenced stride helps to calm our nerves and alleviates anxiety, with the movement of which even modern-day doctors say is one of the most effective ways to prevent and cure inflammation, which they say is the leading cause of diseases... Yes, at whatever age, especially in our advancing years, as long as we keep to the safe paths, and watch out for falls and slips, steady, regular walking helps us achieve a good and healthy life... So it seems in the spiritual too: even with tiredness and disillusionment, diminished capacity and resources, discouragements and setbacks, as long as we keep on the right path on the journey and be careful not to give up, give in, slip up or fall down hard, we can hold on in hope and faith... Tiredness and sore bones are only temporary predicaments, not final judgments; we are tired and sore because we have done something, we have exerted our effort; but what should keep us on and help us endure is because we are doing, we are exerting, we keep on walking...

#HappyMay032023

Tuck Everlasting, and family... Was a fun read and an eye opener too... For many of us want to live and stay young longer; so much so that we do everything we can, and pay as much in procedures and for food and fad diets and exercise to do so... But taking it from a family who was always on the move because they wouldn't want to call too much attention on themselves when they never grew old and their neighbors did, would mean that such desires for immortality is alienating and insular... For our God has ordained that life and time take their course and toll on us, to develop and make us grow in wisdom and acceptance; and true beauty is manifested in us when we gracefully embrace our age, our status, our diminished capacities; because that would mean we are ever closer to Him in dependence, in spiritual and physical presence... Yes, the gray hairs and wrinkles, the wobbly knees and aching backs are bothersome, and friends and loved ones may leave, neglect or abandon us to move on to their next exciting life-phases; but if we can find confidence and hope that our Savior had prayed for us and loves us so much, and He intends in every way to provide and care for us, then the advancing and twilight years are more than welcome... The farther we go and the longer we spend in life means the closer we get to our ultimate victory in His kingdom...

#HappyMay022023

That one candle stand... In the church of the sectarian school I teach, there is a religious icon assemblage of a half-naked Christ, fronted by rows of 12 candlesticks, with 5 directly in front of the icon, 6 in the next row, and 1 alone in the third... I realize that it depicts the disciples after the Lord's death and resurrection; particularly after the treacherous one, Judas, committed suicide, and was replaced by Barnabas the Encourager... And so we learn that in our faith and life journey, we get into our breakthroughs, we persevere and endure not only of what we are, what we have and what we believe in; but because our God sends "Encouragers" - - friends and family whom we do not realize become our real life coaches, and who and with whom we share our faith and reason for hope... May we not let the spirit of fear, pride, discouragement and disillusionment make us lose sight of our life's purpose and goal; may we be sensitive to the needs of others and not just say in words but act to encourage and inspire; while we open ourselves up to the encouragement of those who truly care for us, to guard ourselves well, yet to not forget the lesson from those who seek to belittle, insult, oppress, abuse and take advantage of us... For no matter what we encounter in our journey, we are confident that our Savior who finished His work for our salvation, will also complete His work in us as we live that gift and grace throughout our lives...

#HappyMay012023

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I had a dream about the end of the world

Trying to be more assertive when getting your point across? Need help with defining your direction? Stingray, as a Spirit, Totem, and Power Animal, can help! Stingray teaches you to be direct and how to find your focus. Delve deeply in Stingray symbolism and meaning to find out how this Animal Spirit Guide can guide, motivate, and direct you.

Stingray dream

Stingrays are often mixed up with the Manta Ray. They do, indeed, look much like twins. The key difference is that Mantas do not have a barbed tail. Stingrays prefer being near the ocean’s bottom while the Manta Ray explores open waters. Nonetheless, these two beautiful creatures have very similar meanings and symbolism.

The ocean is an environment that ceaselessly changes. It means Stingray has to adapt quickly. It is no wonder that Stingray Spirit has associations with acclimation and movement. Additionally, Stingray moves into deep waters where people rarely go; this represents our subconscious and inner workings. In order to move easily within our world, we have to honor our journey and abide by the Witches’ rule: “Know Thyself.

If you observe Stingrays when they are looking for food, it’s very telling that they do not use their energy unwisely. Rather they direct plankton by circling groups who then end up near Stingray’s mouth. So here, Stingray not only teaches us about the effective use of our efforts but also attracting things to us by word and deed (think the Law of Attraction). In their environment, you will rarely catch a Ray that appears ruffled. They remain calm and focused on their goal.

Spiritually speaking it is very telling that folklore tells us that Manta Rays mate during the full moon; this makes for very powerful symbolism in that both the Full Moon and the Ocean have ties (and tides) with the Water Element. There is no question that those working with the Ray will have to face and work with their emotional nature.

It takes a year or more for Stingray babies to appear. Talk about patience! When we want our proverbial babies to manifest, we must remember that some things simply take time. Slow and steady still often win the race.

All Rays have an Achilles’ Heel. Parasites often latch on to their exterior. To allay this problem, they go to the areas where fish clean their skin; this is a symbol of cooperation. We often need the help of others, but sometimes feel too proud to ask. Assistance is not a sign of weakness but rather a strong, cooperative Tribe or community.

Some of the keywords and attributes associated with Stingray Spirit include acceptance, alertness, attunement, calibration, circumspection, dignity, discretion, emotions, forethought, movement, opportunity, protection, purification, refinement, self-trust, and water element.

Among Hawaiians, Rays are actually Spirit Guardians who offer wisdom and strength. The native word for Manta means two breaths, inspired by watching these creatures fly out of the water and return with ease into mysteries that we have yet to uncover.

Stingray Superstitions: Among Filipinos, the tail of a stingray acts as a magical deterrent for ghosts, vampires, witches, or any other spiritual entity trying to harm the bearer. In Thailand, it was believed that handling a Stingray brought strength and power. The backbone brought good luck to the bearer. Caribbean beliefs tell us that kissing a Stingray ensures you of many years of luck. Chinese medicine advocates Stingray gills for boosting the immune system. The ancient Chinese trusted in Stingray leather for attracting wealth and protecting personal property.

Stingray Spirit Animal

Those who have been graced with the Stingray Spirit Animal’s presence should get excited. Whatever you have been working toward is reaching culmination. Stick with it. Use your skills and trust yourself to see this through. If possible, avoid drama along the way.

Another reason Stingray may have visited you is due to a highly complicated emotional issue. The Stingray Spirit comes, showing you how to navigate this difficult situation without emotional harm on either side. You can win here, but it requires some diplomacy and tact.

Have you felt confined, trapped, or off track lately? Stingray appears so you can redirect yourself to a healthier situation. Everyone has moments where they simply lose their way. Let this Spirit Animal be your guide. Just be prepared. The Ray teaches flexibility in your movements along the way. You cannot be rigid when working with this animal teacher.

Finally, at moments when you are over-exposed, Stingray Animal Spirit settles you under the sand. Stay there for a while. Be at peace. Right now, it is not the time for overt involvement.

[scilif]

Updating Ancient Wisdom Conversations With IF "Metaphysics"

I.F. was not extremely content with the extension of mystical and mysterious book shops that jumped up in the Urban communities. He accepted that the Obscure Antiquated Shrewdness lessons were intended for just around 5% of the populace at any one time.

Einstein gave us his hypotheses and man utilized them to make Nuclear warheads. I.F. felt that the race mind, monstrous oblivious humankind would utilize this Holy Secret Information to annihilate and hurt too, and check metaphysical shop near me for goods which are use in it.

He let me know that there was a consistent development of man upon the planet. However, it took two streams to achieve it. The 5% of humankind, the trailblazers, the seed bunch deliberately searched out the Regulations and Vast standards behind man's motivation on The planet. They pulled in the educators, both carnate and manifest, who instructed them. This 5% seed bunch resembled the yeast in a portion of bread. They made the bread, enormous humankind, ascend with regards to their degree of awareness. The main role of man's presence in this school, called the Planet Earth, is to raise their degree of cognizance. Without the raising force of the 5% seed bunch, this pattern of life would fall flat.

The 95% will advance likewise, however except if they deliberately decide to turn out to be important for the 5%, the powers of development will drag them along by their hair shouting and snapping their teeth.

The decision is consistently theirs. However, the way to the 5% of cognizant humankind is long and troublesome and many won't pick it.

I.F. felt that every single one of the Hallowed Studies of the Old Insight lessons might measure up to a 55 gallon drum of clear, immaculate water. It was intended for the Incomparable Educators, savants and Savvy men to go to this 55 gallon drum of 'Truth', take a scoop full ou and give it to others. Their hands, brains and feelings were perfect and unadulterated, consequently they didn't contaminate the water.

Presently, with the a huge number of books expounded on the mysteries of the Old Insight Lessons, a great many individuals are plunging their hands into the Sacrosanct Barrels. Are their contemplations, sentiments and hands clean? Are their thought processes generally good? Would they like to share?

Simply take a gander at the close to home, mental and actual condition of this present reality, and answer these inquiries your self.

I.F. demanded that I "Become a Desert spring of Mental soundness in this insane mixed bag of Power surrounding me."

Presently we have entered the Period of Aquarius and the Laws of Quantum Physical science have given us numerous new things.

I see now that my Dharma and my motivation is to refresh a portion of the Old Insight lessons utilizing the language of Quantum Material science.

Allow the people who to have eyes see and the individuals who have ears hear.

Like I.F. continuously said, "We as a whole need more tolerance, harmony, balance and perseverance." What's our rush? He had some awareness of the functioning Laws of Quantum Material science despite the fact that he didn't utilize the language.

"Fixed consideration begins sub-atomic construction into movement," he said. This is precisely exact thing the Laws of Quantum Material science tell us. Where you place your consideration is what you draw in from the boundless expanse of reasoning, keen energy called the Quantum Sea or Psyche of God.

Joy includes three particular areas of prosperity: body, brain and soul. I review the days when medication originally recognized the connection among brain and body. TV narratives and books explained the force of the brain to make wellbeing or disease.

That idea appeared to be an astounding leap forward into understanding how prosperity occurs. However it missed a similarly significant piece of the riddle - otherworldliness. Nobody arrives at satisfaction or genuine bliss without perceiving their otherworldly viewpoint.

Otherworldliness isn't about religion. It is, as the word says, about the soul. Your soul goes by many names-soul, Higher Self, true self. Basically it portrays that piece of you that, when associated with your cognizant self, drives your reality.

Otherworldliness, the more extensive subject, makes sense of how you feel and what you understand regarding your soul and Source, the Maker of All-That-Is. What do you understand to be true regarding the way in which the world became and how it functions? What do you are familiar why your reality, specifically, looks as it does? That multitude of considerations and sentiments make up your Middle.

At the point when individuals move into their midlife years, frequently they start an otherworldly mission as proven in the developing ubiquity of sweat lodges, "Illuminated" hero programs, excursions to hallowed places scriptural spots as well as known energy vortices. Notice the steadily developing number of otherworldly stores and networks of individuals who meet to instruct and share what they experience on their own profound ways.

The entire you comprises of your actual body and wellbeing, your psychological body and wellbeing, your neurological body and wellbeing and your otherworldly energy. I say energy since you can see an individual's emanation outside energy field. Obviously, as a general rule, everything is energy. One can figure out how to see all degrees of presence as the energy that really makes it-a shrewd choice that allows you to turn out to be all you came here to be.

[psychelis-new]

pick a pile: "Meeting The One"

take a breath and choose the photo/number that calls you the most to read about the possible signs, synchronicities or events that may occur to you when you meet or right before meeting your destined person (future spouse/partner, the last person you will fall in love with in this lifetime). I will try to channel some infos about the meeting itself (I haven't done it yet, so... just check your pile to see).

don’t take the reading too seriously. only take what resonates with you and leave the rest. remember that is a general reading and some things may not resonate with you. Also, you're in charge of your life.

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pile 1

There could be a party or celebration (could even be Christmas, NYE or anything), maybe a fair, or somewhere where there are food and fun things to do. Maybe even a concert or music/race event. Cotton candies, ice creams, or something like that can be relevant. You'll probably be enjoying with friends or family members, having lot of fun and feeling like a child again. There's the energy of going back to good days, feeling free and relieved, very calm. It's like you are in a place (mentally) where you know things can actually be good for you, and you're kinda in control of your fears and emotions. It could be at evening/night, with a very low light. But somehow you'll end up being noticed by your person: you may be doing/Saying something that kinda moves the attention of the closer crowd on you or simply, being destined, they can see you no matter how many people and low light you're surrounded by. You shine on your own to them. I think they may approach you and probably ask you to go with them (for some: maybe someone hits you unvoluntarily and your ice cream falls so your person will offer you to buy a new one, even if it wasn't their fault -maybe their friend's though-). You'll probably think if to follow them and separate from your friends/family (you may not trust their intentions immediately, but there are many people around), but you'll follow your heart. You're gonna know if you can trust them. I think your Guides will send you some kind of permission too (maybe you'll feel it, or see a bird or an angel number -very likely this last one- around, that you know it's your sign to trust this person). You may even end up dancing alone with them to some kind of music. This person seems fun.

songs: god's menu | stray kids; fade away | lucky daye

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pile 2

I feel it can happen on a cozy afternoon/evening. Maybe on the way back home from work/school. It could be sunny for some, rainy for others. The type of weather will only move the location of the meeting, you're gonna meet them anyway (e.g. if it's sunny you may meet while riding your bycicle in a park or enjoying the warm sun rays -maybe they're running in the same place or sitting on a bench nearby; if it's raining, you may meet up while finding shelter in a bar or public place, you're gonna smile at each other being soaked). You literally won't expect to meet them, maybe the day didn't start too well for some; for someone else instead, it's gonna be a moment in which things are starting to get better: even at work, you may have had some problems with colleagues, but that day things will suddenly turn for the good (you may have even gained a promotion out of nowhere). It's like this person, being in your energy, brings you good luck. And around your meeting you're gonna experience a shift for the best in your life: from mood, to work, to love as well with them appearing (but in relationships in general, even colleagues family and friends). You'll both literally manifest each other. Before meeting them, you may had doubts about your abilities, and felt lonely for a while as if your life was just a mess in all fields (career and love in particular, maybe friends/family too); you've probably tried to manifest your person for a while but life came in between and you almost lost your hopes. But your prayers will been noticed by your Guides and when you least expect (when the time will be right), you're gonna be given what you wish for (and they too -feels like mirror energy).

songs: show me the meaning of being lonely | backstreet boys; you're the one that i want (grease) | john travolta, olivia newton-john

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pile 3

I think this is the pile that may gets messages and signs through music, messages/words and images. Sometimes angel numbers too. Some of these signs may not be always clear, you need to be open to see them: sometimes you may not see them, especially when you feel upset and search for signs in the wrong places. You may see things like a waterdrop shaped as a heart, or something like that (like in your pic, near the donut... can you see the little heart?). You probably know that there's someone in contact with you on a higher level (maybe you have a telepathic connection too, or you just feel them around), that you are destined to meet this person and be with them, but sometimes you may get lost in your past thoughts. You may even kinda lose hope, fearing that they will never arrive or not find you. But they're your destined person, they'll find you anyway (the "how" is not your problem, you only need to trust). This fear/overthinking is delaying your meeting cause you're not open enough to being guided to (and by) your person. It seems you're gonna meet them the moment you'll learn how to keep a quiet mind, be yourself, be brave, and not be scared to see that things can actually change. You may even get a job offer around the same period (maybe even from your person). You will be aware of your power, despite still having doubts (those are normal, we're humans and we'll always have doubts here and there: the important thing is to not let them stop us and our dreams), you're gonna feel more confident in your skin. You're gonna be of help to others somehow (maybe being more socially involved, or with an idea/project or something), you'll bring happiness and share positivity around you, you'll act with love and this will bring your person in too. A new love for you. As easy as.

songs: yours to keep | jordan mackampa; come undone | duran duran

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pile 4

Could be near water (sea or ocean in particular but it doesn't have to be so), or could be around kids. Maybe one of you is baby sitting, or a teacher or just trying to be kind with a kid met in a park or on a metro... situations can be very different. You may feel moved by their kindness and cuteness and find yourself smiling at them. They may wink back at you, making you blush? You two... Okay this was very specific though. You or them, may make a bold move (maybe one of you can help/save a kid too), and... you probably had lost hopes about love, but this person will change it all, they will restore your faith in love and humanity. You are not supposed to know much more about signs and all, it seems like a gift and a big surprise for you. But know that you're gonna be guided to meet this person soon. Trust, even if you cannot see it, there's someone so loving for you, willing to do anything for you. They're gonna take care of your fears and anxiety as well (may be a doctor tbh, not just for kids, but maybe even a vet; or a conselour). They will help you be more in your power. They're gonna gift you so much self control and confidence. You are gonna be able to talk with them about anything really. I'm hearing "smooth" (from convo to skin.. your choice). They won't ever judge you, they just wanna help you and comfort you. They're gonna make you shine again. If you feel lost (or you gonna feel so before meeting them) and like there's no tomorrow, they'll help you rebuilt your hopes and fire inside. They literally gonna heal in you in any possible way (if ykwim -I'll keep this clean). Okay, it could also mean for some (seen the last song I got) that they're gonna be your... sugar daddy. And will want to spoil you. Again take as resonates. I feel a lot of you will choose this pile and things can really differ for each one of you.

songs: the flames beyond the cold mountain | mono; sugar daddy | qveen herby

[blackgirl-galactica]

PAC: What Are You Meant to Experience? 🦋✨🌎🗺

Note: Do Not Steal My Work. Get ya own cards and put in the effort honey.

-Hey y’all!! 🥹✨💕

-I’m back with another reading about what you’re meant to experience in this lifetime before you transition. Mind you, of course we humans are going to experience so much in the course of our lives, yet paradoxically we have certain events or experiences that the Universe, Spirit, and the Ancestors (do tailor it to your specific beliefs) wants us to experience to learn and grow on our own specific path. These lessons may also be harsh and some may be euphoric, but it’s all part of our human journey. So with that being said let’s just go over the basics.

1. It’s okay if it doesn’t resonate. Maybe these messages aren’t aligned for you, or at least for you right now. And that’s fine.

2. Please select the one you resonate with most (pics are from Pinterest)

3. Tips are appreciated at $DellyRelly.

4. These readings are for entertainment purposes only.

Pick an aesthetic:

Pile 1:

Pile 2:

Pile 3:

Pile 1:

Cards: 9 of Swords--The Lovers--8 of Wands--Queen of Pentacles--The Situation Will Improve--Don't Stop--In The Near Future

Connection. Love. Partnerships. This pile is meant to experience what it is like to have healthy connections in their lives, and that isn't limited to romantic love. With the 9 of Swords and The Situation Will Improve, this pile may have struggled with finding love (romantic, familial, or/and platonic) that is truly reciprocal of the love they give. This pile really seems to be a lover and not a fighter. And that's beautiful, but I can see it may have cost you alot mentally trying to find those healthy connections. Maybe you felt alot of anguish because you have gotten the "you can't love anyone else until you love yourself" lecture before, yet I personally don't believe in that since loving oneself is a deeply complex, ongoing process. Or if not, you may have gave up on finding true connection due to the past. I will say though that your guides may be teaching you to not waste your love and benignity on people who don't deserve it, and learn to respect yourself enough to either be with people who are genuine towards you or just be with yourself until they come along. Because it will only send you back into this 9 of Swords energy. This pile may have some significant 7H placements and part of your soul path in this lifetime is to share pivotal moments with a partner or within a community. And not just any kind of partner/community, one that is stable, understanding, peaceful, and nurturing with the Queen of Pentacles here. Fortunately I do see some manifestation of this energy with the 8 of Wands, Don't Stop, and In the Near Future. It seems that there is going to be an event where you may end up with a significant other or find a community of people that really understand your need of having genuine, healthy connections, because they want it too. The Lovers also talks about alignment and mirroring. So since you've been very adamant about having good connections and being true to yourself despite the pain it cost you (plus learning the lesson of that pain), the Universe has granted you the opportunity to actually make those kinds of connections. Yet, your guides also want you to know that in order for these connections to grow you can't go in them with the 9 of Swords baggage. They want you to understand that everything has risk, but what you want is always worth a shot. So I wish you the best for your partnerships and community Pile 1! Interdependence is how the human race survives. It's our basic instinct. So there's nothing wrong with wanting healthy interdependence. See you later!

Pile 2:

Cards: Ace of Swords--4 of Cups--King of Cups--9 of Cups--Trust--Yes!--Compromise

More emotions and willingness to surrender to your intuition. Less leaning on logic and trying to do what you think is right. Embodying moon energy. This pile is made of only swords and cups, and personally when I see this kind of suit combination I like to think of it as logic vs. emotion. And deeming you have so many more cup cards with one sword card, you're meant to experience your emotional side. And yes, it is in you...it is. I'm not going to lie I 1000% understand why this may be difficult for some. Why lean on emotions when they can be messy and not lead anywhere you need to be? Leaning on logic can be good as it helps you strategize, yet leaning too much on that can cut you off of feeling human and stop this King of Cups energy of emotional maturation. The answer here is compromise. For some of you, this compromise also means being more emotionally honest to others in your life, and actually getting your emotional needs met with the 9 of Cups here. And being honest with yourself & stop pretending shit don't hurt your feelings with the 4 of cups & trying to intellectualize your feelings. Because where is that getting you in terms of processing your emotions? This is not to clock you as I have this issue as well, but it's just to get you started on thinking about this. When we rationalize our feelings too much we miss our intuition that was trying to tell us someone was really try to play in our face, but instead we made a reason for it instead of trusting it. Speaking of, I keep looking at this trust card and it's screaming that this pile needs to start trusting their intuition more. Again, with compromise make sure to balance a healthy amount between logic and emotion as you start this process of emotional maturation. The King of Cups is a romantic king, but Kings still have to make logical decision as well as emotional ones. There has to be a balance. I feel like with this Ace of Swords here there may be an event (doesn't have to be dramatic) that will trigger you to begin thinking about your emotional side. Like what someone may say to you for example. This hand in the 4 of cups will only hold up for so long until it just drops the cup on you and say "hey baby, you need to pay attention." That why the proceeding card is the 5 of cups, being sad that this is the reality of our emotional state. But the thing is, it's a beautiful new beginning for your Pile 2. Yes its hard in a society where the whole spectrum of human emotions are look down upon. Yet, you need to do this introspective work for you. You can't keep going around not listening to your own inner guidance. You have an intuition for a reason. And let's start processing those emotional blockages so you can become more confident in your emotions just like your logic. I'm rooting for you Pile 2! It's okay if this is a messy journey, it's what you're meant to experience. Your guides will definitely make sure you see it through. Later!

Pile 3:

Cards: Justice--6 of cups--Death--10 of Cups--Wait--Yes--Ask Your Angels

Patience. Living in the present. Balance. This pile is meant to experience what it is like to go with the flow. Especially with this Wait card here. I'm really feeling that some of yall in this pile are very much future oriented, and are always looking for the next big thing to happen with the Death card here. Yet, since Justice does represent Libra, there's a need to slow down and wait for a time of balance. It's like getting of the treadmill at the gym. Do you just go lift 30 pounds after sweating out 10 miles on the treadmill, or do you take a minute a wait it out for your body to balance itself again? This pile seems very Venusian. It's meant to experience slowness and happiness and peace with the 6 of cups and 10 of cups after a Death period. With the 6 of cups you may reminisce on life before this Death period came. To clarify, I mean Death period as in any significant change in your life that basically was so pivotal it changed your life perspective ever since. It's okay to reminisce but don't forget you're meant to experience living in the present. And trust me that's hard, that's why I'm glad this ask your angels card is here. Because they want you to lean on them after Death phase. Because the Death card is powerful transformation on a spiritual level as well. I'm getting that for some yall are meant to experience what peace is like after the storm. Maybe you've always had a strong family/community (6 of cups) that shielded you from such events (sheltered is coming to me as well). But now its time for you to learn how to experience stressful events and understand that this too shall pass. And be patient with yourself in the process. I'm getting the sense this pile is young, hence why this "learning to experience stressful events and understanding it will pass" is coming up. And understand you can't rush to this 10 of cups. You have to embody the Justice and Wait card and let time balance things out and go with the flow. And understand after awhile the past is behind you. I don't want to come off as toxic positivity, but this group may not have had too much experience with how to deal with life's stressful moments. And I'm getting yall are very introverted especially with two Scorpio cards here (6 of cups and Death). Even if you aren't young, you can't always shield yourself away from life's bad moments. And with this yes card, yes you will make it through and you’ll be okay, no matter how long the healing process takes. One thing I learned is that life will play so you gotta play back and lean back. This is chess not checkers. And when you do, you'll see this 10 of cups energy much sooner. Later!

I hope you all enjoyed this and learned something from it! Happy Lunar Eclispe! See yall later!

-Claude 🔥💖🦋🌎✨

[shepherds-of-haven]

Random question but are any of the ROS prone to feeling melancholy?

Hmm, good question, I haven't really thought about this specifically? 🤔

Blade: he's less prone to feeling in low spirits than he is to being in foul spirits... when he's feeling unhappy or angsty about something, he just dials it up to maximum lethal grumpiness and is more liable to bite people's heads off than seem melancholy or sad!

Trouble: he has like two umbrella emotions (anger and jollity) and a dozen sub-emotions within those umbrellas, but melancholy is hardly ever one of those 😅 he's a sunshine boy through and through!

Tallys: hmmm she can get into occasional moods where she's more pensive and withdrawn, or sometimes wistful and contemplative: I wouldn't really liken it to outright melancholy or sadness more so it is wanting solitude and being introverted, or needing time to be with her thoughts and sort of looking at the world from a distance, outsider's point of view, if that makes any sense. But of all the characters, she might be the closest to being prone to occasional bouts of 'melancholy' if that's what you're looking for!

Shery: Shery in general is fairly happy-go-lucky--she can become anxious or operate in a stressful, self-doubting state-of-mind, but this is a high-energy state where her mind won't stop racing versus a melancholy, low-energy state!

Riel: sometimes he has very rare moods of, like, ennui and impatience with the world, like a dispirited contempt that he feels when he sees like a politician being really sleazy and he's just like *pushing a pen around half-heartedly* "what's the point of it all, people are fundamentally stupid and corrupt" but these last like an hour or two before he's animated by some idea or work he needs to tackle and then he snaps out of it! So I guess it's sort of like melancholy, though I would liken it to deep-seated frustration or disgust than sadness!

Chase: I mean, he might, if he ever allowed himself to slow down and actually think thoughts instead of cramming as much activity in his day as possible so he doesn't have to self-reflect on his own inner darkness... 😅 As he is, he's an unstoppable train of energy and motion, no time to feel melancholy!! he's having too much fun!!

Red: stuff seems to roll right off his back most of the time, so he's rarely ever in a bad mood, and if it is, it's brooding and obsessive and impatient (like having an important experiment go wrong and then burying himself in work after trying to figure out what it was) rather than melancholy or wallowing!

Ayla: I think she's similar to Blade; she can have moods where she's in a foul temper or feeling irritable and tetchy more than she becomes melancholy, sad, or dejected!

Briony: she has very occasional moods (maybe every few months) where she feels really sensitive and prone to experiencing emotions very strongly (she calls it "feeling teary"), where she's liable to cry at a minor inconvenience or the beauty of a flower growing because she's thinking about how there will never be another flower like it ever again, and her thoughts feel low and trend towards melancholic, but these don't tend to last more than one or two days! She usually just needs sleep, though this isn't always the case--it's like her "happy" meter abruptly runs out of steam, though that doesn't make it any less sincere when she is mostly always bubbly and excited!

Lavinet: sometimes she feels a bit melancholy, but it more normally manifests as self-doubt and anxiety or insecurity before she rallies and shores up her confidence and goes right back to normal! She's more prone to "feeling bad" (guilt-ridden over having made a mistake, self-questioning), sort of like Shery, than she is to feeling sad!