#makes me esp wanna talk abt it HAHA

[wackywatchdotcom]

something about ragatha since that post has been a hit is the fact that i do really think like 70%+ of her day is just.... filled with compulsions

like. people pleasing doesnt necessarily have to come from ocd but w the way i read her its related. that she is very obsessed with people liking her and will do as many Nice things as she can reasonably do or else theyre gonna HATE her. that shes concerned abt their safety so shes gonna keep an eye on anyone she can because what if smth bad happens and its too much for them to handle???

and i think these two obsessions are also interconnected (i need people to like me, i need people to be safe, if im around people i can make sure theyre ok, if they like me i can keep them safe, if theyre alive then i can make sure they dont hate me, if they dont hate me then i can keep them from abstracting, etc) (add some moral ocd in there too she feels like she has that. and more!)

and w reassurance seeking? ragatha is absolutely like. notttttt good at avoiding it. and bc cast members seem to be a little put off by the way she ALREADY checks in on them i geeet the feeling that the way she seeks reassurance is like. she knows how to covertly seek reassurance

[bruiisedfawn]

☁️

[ame-to-ame]

Life is weird as arospec asexual bc there's no good way to use words to describe what I feel and my experience that properly conveys it to allosexual alloromantic people

Even if I use vocabulary meant for this there's no way to grasp what it truly feels like, what the lived experience is like for me, because the allosexual doesn't experience it doesn't understand it

And so it's like trying to convey colors to someone with a different perception of color. They experience a reality different to mine. And maybe perception and sensation is the wrong allegory to use, even. Maybe the stimuli we experience is different in the first place. Maybe the sensation is different. But perception is definitely different. And it's hard to tell at which point do things start to differ.

But either way it's hard and I find it increasingly hard to explain myself or want to explain myself. It's so much easier to adopt that language and that culture aside from the gaping feeling that it's not exactly what you're experiencing. I can co-opt the term crush but what I feel. I know. Is not romantic attraction. Maybe some elements are the same but it's definitely diverged somewhere. But is there really a point in explaining the differences or clarifying that it's different? As long as the final goal is achieved does it really matter? Why am I doing this again.

[choccy-milky]

Status update on the dark relic nsfw comic please ma'am 🙏 my family is dying

ITS DONE!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉...well, the DRAWING part is as of yesterday BAHAHA. now im just adding all the dialogue/speech bubbles/sfx, SO ITS DEFINITELY GONNA BE SOON!! DEFS BY THIS WEEKEND!! ive just been very nitpicky on the font which i cant decide on LMAO and im also nitpicky abt other final touches LOL. i didnt wanna show anymore cuz ive already shown so much but HERES THE FINAL SNEAK PEEK

and speaking of fonts, i normally use handwriting by jeremy paz!

oh man its so random, but i either use the name lumi or clora for everything whenever i play rpgs (baldurs gate 3, dragon age, you name it) and clora originated from rune factory 4 LOL. theres a character named 'clorica' and i really liked that name, it sounds so elegant and fantasy ish, so i eventually just shortened it to clora bahaha. now its my go-to. i like how simple it is but it also sounds unique and works in modern AND fantasy settings, imo

my first and ONLY playthrough was as clora! i originally did try to make myself at the start, but i have short brown hair and straight across bangs, and they didnt have a style that felt 'me', so i went with just making a ravenclaw that i liked, and then gave her my go-to name of clora HAHA. and yea, i built up her and sebs relationship in my head as i was playing, especially with all the running around the castle i did. i just liked to imagine her constantly out of breath and flushed and seb just watching like ....🧍girl chill...

AND SPEAKING OF MY DARK RELIC COMIC/SMUT, my biggest advice for writing smut id say is to have a reasoning behind it, i guess? i focus a lot on their headspace/WHY they're fucking at that moment when i write it LOL instead of just the movements/sex for the sake of sex. in your case, the sexual tension leading up to the first time gives you SO much to work with, since you can just be in his head with how much hes looking forward to it, how much hes savouring it, how he's also nervous but enjoying it and trusting the other person, etc. the thoughts are hotter than the actual deed a lot of the times (which is why when clora and seb did it for the first time it ended up being like, 15k words of just foreplay and build up from sebs perspective LMAOO) so yeah id just try to focus on their emotions and desires if you can! and a lot of the times with consent stuff it CAN feel forced, and you dont even really need your characters to talk about that stuff verbally, at least not too much. you can do it in body language, or just something as simple as 'ill stop if you want'. it doesnt have to be a long therapist-like conversation about consent, which CAN tend to sound a little awkward and unrealistic (esp in the heat of the moment), if thats the problem you're having. HOPE I COULD HELP

also i love this for you and for me. YES GO ON AND MAKE A BUNCH OF CLORA CLONES, I COMMAND IT👉👉👉

and last but not least the most important question. honestly i like plain sweets a lot with no icing/filling. im a slut for shortbread cookies and also just plain glazed donuts. and also custard/portugese/egg tarts, which i also forced clora to like in my fic HAHA. IF YOU HAVENT HAD THEM YOU HAVE TO, THEYRE SO GOOD😩😩💖💖

[crispplant]

TWST BUT ITS MY STONER HCS FOR THEM I GUESS

guys I don’t know how to make the text a diff color how do I do that. NVM I FIFURED IT OUT

Anyways um my hcs for twst gang on whether or not they smoke b. C I’m high rn & I want to

HEARTSLABYUL

Riddle: u look me in the eye & tell me he hasn’t tried taking a hit at least once. He broke the rules like once when he was younger he’s definitely done it again. Trey & Chenya offered him a hit once btw I was there. I think it was just a one time thing for him tho, he did it once & decided he didn’t like it so he hasn’t done it since

Ace: not a stoner and has not smoked before, but deffo wants to. If u asked him to join a sesh he’d be like hell yeah & then be internally shitting himself bc it’s his first time smoking. Gets the munchies when he’s high (bro would luv Taco Bell btw)

Deuce: somehow I think he hasn’t yet. wants to try it but also a lil nervous abt it idk. would only smoke with ppl hes totally comfy with (ace, yuu, u get it)

Cater: trying to fight off the demons telling me he’d be a stoner but like. I just feel like he Could be ynk. Actually. I think he’s the type to only have hit pens before. I think he has a pen. Bro probably suddenly panics and pats down all his pockets going “where’s my pen”. I mean this in the most endearing way I luv him okay

Trey: also fighting off the demons telling me he’d be a stoner. I thinkkkk……I think he would not be a stoner but he’d be so chill w someone being like do u wanna join a sesh. I think he’s used to chenya smoking so he’d be so good at babysitting anyone who needs to be watched if they get a lil too high ynk. the big brother instinct kicks in & he’s like “okay you need to Sit down” (and sat I will be🫡)

SAVANACLAW

Leona: oh man. Oh man. Leona’s a stoner & I know bc I smoke w him btw. it just feels right ynk idk I just think he needs Smthn to keep him sane at that school and I just think part of it is weed. He shares w ruggie sometimes bc they’re actually bestest friends in the whole wide world obvi.

Ruggie: I think he picks up for whenever leona buys another ounce. He’s like walking thru the halls of nrc w an ounce on him & if anyone asks him abt it he’s just like haha idk what u mean. really only smokes w leona but will always say yes to a sesh if he’s invited. Deffo gets munchies & cooks up some banger meals for him & whoever he’s with. Coughs like a mf tho. He’ll be like choking so bad & leona has to be like “r u good”.

Jack: no. He’d just side eye someone if he smells weed on them. The way dogs do ynk. That’s all

OCTAVINELLE

Azul: no 1 azul hater tries to make hc for azul that doesn’t include being mean to him challenge. Level impossible. um . He um . I think no, he definitely watches the tweels get high & goes what the hell.freaks. but I don’t think he’s ever rlly felt compelled to smoke anyways

Jade: o ya. Ya. Hes so a stoner. I do think he prefers shrooms & grows his own but he enjoys getting high from anything natural 🫶

Floyd: u look me in the eye & tell me this freak isn’t a stoner. He’s probably stoned more days than not esp during class idfk. He gets rlly quiet if he gets high enough tho. He just has many thoughts.

SCARABIA

Kalim: another one I’m split on idk. I rlly think it could go either way. Ummmmm ok he smokes occasionally & gets a lil paranoid whenever he’s high enough but knows how to just 🤫 sit quietly with his thoughts and talk himself thru it

Jamil: stoner. Same reasons as leona I think, he just needs smthn to decompress sometimes. will NOT smoke w kalim bc he feels the need to babysit him always. Probably smokes every night after kalims asleep just so he doesn’t have to worry abt anything 🙏

POMEFIORE

Vil: not a stoner but will occasionally smoke. weed has health benefits but the actual smoke will fuck up his vocal chords if he does it enough so he only does it sometimes 🤫

Rook: no. As much as I want to say yes I feel like he’s enough of a freak to enjoy being sober all the time ynk. He’s probably like *french accent* “augh non✨smouqing marajuanna will dull my senses✨I preghfer to stay aleghrt and awaghre at aull times” idk

Epel: oh this kid has been smoking since middle school for sure. He’s made an apple into a pipe once. Doesn’t smoke as much as like leona or jamil but he’s definitely up there. Vil isn’t super fond of the smell of weed so he has to sneak around outside to do anything (unless vil joins).

IGNIHYDE

Idia: this man has never touched weed in his life. He starts getting paranoid before his first hit. I don’t have much to say abt him I don’t know. Oh I do feel like he’s done acid tho?? Idk. He gets nervous abt weed but he just kinda popped a tab once & went on a journey & was fine abt it.

Ortho: um nuh uh. Can he um….would he even be able to….like..inhale…………..sry um anyways. He is not allowed to do drugs anyways

DIASOMNIA

Malleus: He’s gotten high before but he got so paranoid & then hungry & then he passed out for 12 hours so he’s not fond of it. I think if yuu asked him to join a sesh he’d agree tho. He’d be like “haha. Childof man. Of course I will smoke with you. And nothing bad will happen.”

Lilia: HELLLL YEAH HES A STONER. Oh he’s sooo a stoner he knows his shit too he has like five different strains & he’s like do u want this one or this one or this one. Is so so good at taking care of ppl too. Has been thru it all so🫶would be very good to smoke w if it’s ur first time. Also very big advocate for no peer pressuring. Always makes sure everyone’s comfy & not freaking out.

Silver: not a stoner definitely but he’s probably smoked like once or twice. Probably takes the best naps after. But took a bong rip once & did not have a good time. Too much too fast. The room was spinning & he had to lay down.

Sebek: so not a stoner but has smoked one(1) time when mal did. he got so quiet & in his head & ppl kept being like “😟are u okay” bc he wasn’t yelling. Lilia was good abt checking in on him. He was fine he just had so so many thoughts in his brain.

Ok that’s all ty 4 reading🤞🤞

Anyways remember if ur gonna be under the influence of anything 2 stay safe, stay smart, & if soemone tried to peer pressure u into anything then bite them rlly hard🫶

[camphorror]

ok so hello people of tumblr. who wants to know what happened since i last regularly posted here????

i became friends with this girl at work i was loooowkey crushing on, we became too close way too quickly. she confided in me a month and a half into out friendship how she had a crush on a***d which caused her a sexuality crisis bc she was convinced she was gay until then. i felt weird but loved her too much to let something silly like this ruin the friendship. he started hanging out with us, i felt real fucking baaaaaad. life situations led me into telling a***d i liked him for ages. he said we're too good friends to ruin it, we're beyond that point! if i had said something earlier then maybe! then i found out he liked her!!! but he decided because of me he would stop talking to her!! i was living thru insanity bc of it. then me and him spent a month and a half being friends but also more than friends? but also "it's just good friends it's nothing romantic bc i said i don't feel the same i don't wanna ruin it you're one of the utmost important people in my life up there with my childhood friends blahblah" and we cuddled and hugged every time we met, texted every day after work until late at night, went thru a kissing/making out one evening after drinking a lot of alcohol drama. he initiated all of this!!! always!! i was in this weird grey area and thought everything is Fine because i know it's not a good idea

then almost a month ago he decided to ask her out! he didn't tell me in advance (despite the fact i told him if you ever choose to act about your feelings just say so). she did not tell me about it despite me being transparent with her all along, and despite telling me she thinks friendship is more important than all of this. so this went on for a week and a half, without me being told, whilst i was feeling weird asf and convincing myself i'm going crazy because of my anxiety bc everything was Normal. and then i found out thursday march 28th (haha a month ago exactly.. what a coincidence) because we were together and he said he can't wait for a "right time" like she wanted to. all of life collapsed from the feeling of betrayal from and anger at both of them. first i hated her, now i realised i hate him because he was at fault for all this messed up shit and took zero responsibility the one time we talked. i gave 2 of them chances to talk as some closure and we haven't spoken since. i truly hate him and think he's a shit person.

took a whole week off work after that first happened. was depressed at home. one day i decided to dress nicely and go meet my friend who just came back from abroad at the city of christ..... told her everything. then she took me to see a cool hostel i'd like bc it's in an ancient building. guy who works there studied with us but i didn't remember him lol. we talked & had wine then i got tipsy i overshared everything. he was the most charming and cute person i met.... (& a proper proper leftist too). we spent 3 hours there with him despite my friend wanting to kill me bc that WASN'T the plan. he was overly friendly, had a very interesting vibe.. esp abt the situation... then he told me how he's going abroad the next day and perhaps is gonna break up with his ldr gf... we sat together whilst my friend was in another room/on the side on her phone (I APOLOGISED PROFOUNDLY) and he even showed me pics of him from the gym... my biggest regret is when we left, had food with my friend and just got on the bus, he texted me on ig that i should come back to say bye again.. i didnt... then he came back from abroad last week and sort of said if i got the time i should come visit.. so of ci did lol but the Vibe was gone (as like... he didnt break up with the gf and therefore there was no vibe & i was fine with it lol). he asked me if i want him to teach me how to fight and i said yeah so besides updating him again on my woes we also literally fought with each other which was fucking fun. like he was properly teaching me what to do in a fight. i'm still feeling sore (that was 2 days ago) he is so cool and i wanna be his friend now that i am not cr*shing on him...

besides that life is still grim and i am going back to work in a day and gonna have to see those 2 people who ruined my life again aaaaand i know my mental health will take a dive. what do you even do when this shit happens

[the-sslimmest-shady]

Okay time to make a proper intro post since I'm trying to actually be more active on here LMAO.

‼️Disclaimer‼️: Even tho some of my posts aren't directly about it, this is mostly an ED/SH vent blog. Please just block me instead of reporting cuz I really like my url tbh. I am pro recovery, I just like talking into the tumblr void on here. ‼️AND‼️: I interact from user "mikehasfleas" cuz this is technically a side blog that I use as a main. I wish you could swap em but wtv lol. I also post a fair amount of reblogs so be prepared for other people's content I guess haha

Okay, time for the good stuff:

Name: Michael 😎

Age: 15 (ikik, but I swear I'm chill. I don't *always* read intro posts so if you're minors dni just block me haha)

Dms: Absolutely! I might take a day to respond, but I totally wanna talk to yall B)

Fun facts ig?: I listen to SO much music. Like, when I say "I listen to all genres" I'm telling the truth lmao (besides k-pop, i respect yall but its just like, the one thing out of my taste haha). I also have a pet ball python named Bella!! I'll prolly post pictures of her at some point for yall

Basically just a mental issues rant, I changed the title after writing it lmfao: As mentioned in the disclaimer, I struggle with an ED, and various other mental issues (those being anxiety, depression, severe paranoia, adhd, occasional hallucinations, substance abuse, and probably some kind of schizoid disorder or bpd but I'm a teenager so who knows lol) and I'll likely be talking abt them lmfao. I've been like this for nearly 3 years atp so I ain't changing now (esp since I'm in highschool hell) and I'll likely be going back and editing this post in a few days haha

Anyways, I'm prolly gonna edit this post as time goes on so, interact if you want! I check almost all my notifications on here at some point :)

[subskz]

it's a night but it's a skz night cause i've seen people talking about the teaser for hours (i don't watch them cause i wanna be as surprised as possible)

minho? minho. cause i haven't read the chan fic yet, my apologies, your honour.

minho the scary college literature professor. the hard marker, the glares, the sighs about lates and absences, the assignments that push students to their limits.

minho the bratty little kitten. the whiny baby, the sweet mewls, wanting more but refusing to say it, bothering you until you give him attention.

there's a full hour between his class and the one after, so when you visit you've got plenty of time to lock the doors and bend him over the front desk. or run to his office and ride him to oblivion in his office chair. going in with his pristine, proper outfit. coming out completely ruffled, buttons wide open, tie undone, basically looking like he went through a natural disaster. and for a while his voice is a little scratchy because he just couldn't keep all the noises in and you make his voice peak since you know exactly what to do to him

-🦊

a skz kinda night…you’ve come to the right place! that’s a smart strategy haha all i will say is the looks in it disturbed my peace very bad it may actually be better for ur mental health if you don’t watch it 😭

no apology needed hehe as if i could ever say no to lino thoughts! esp smth as delicious as this, the contrast in those descriptions alone has my brain going haywire ♡_♡ dapper, well-dressed minho without so much as a hair out of place, as neat in his composure as he is in his attire…who would ever think how easy it is for you to make an unseemly mess out of him

bratty lil kitten…huffing and eye-rolling whenever you come to campus during his break, acting like he’s too busy for you as if he wasn’t the one who invited you to come in the first place…he’s not fooling anyone~ wrecking him in his office while his clothes are still half-buttoned and hanging off of him is such a good concept, you could make ample use of his tie to tug him around 😽 and even after he’s straightened himself out to try and look presentable for his next lecture, he spends the rest of the day getting red-faced every time he remembers what you did w him in those clothes <3

also the detail abt his sweet voice getting raspy from all the pretty noises you draw out of him is making me so insane 😵‍💫

[wooahaes]

hi hello here to talk abt the masterpiece that is uts ☀️

are there any deleted scenes that you could tell us about? or scrapped plots/scenarios?

hi hiii skdfhsdf savv calling it a masterpiece... i owe u my life...

anyway uts spoilers technically

yep!! i have scraps leftover from mingyu's part where i wasn't sure what i wanted to do regarding his injury. i had one idea where mingyu would have pushed reader out of the way of a falling, cracked glass jar and ended up with it shattering as it hit his hand. it'd be incredibly messy and painful and i dont really remember why i chose the burn over this? i think i just picked the one i wanted to write more. there was a slight vague part of said 'how gyu get hurt?' process where i considered something like him fucking up his leg while pushing reader out of the way.

actually now that i think about it, i think i chose the burn because it wouldn't have been so 'mingyu saving reader.' i didnt like the idea of reader having to deal with the guilt of being the reason mingyu got hurt and i felt it'd be cuter to just have reader decide to take care of him because they truly cared for him--not out of this sense of obligation.

uhhh the original original ending of cheol uts would have p much outright stated that he and reader had sex (i think i implied it in a few endings but left it entirely up to readers choice on whether they did or not--it was left very very vague). i scrapped the idea entirely because i felt like the emotions in the scene were too high and that they didn't need to take that step, and then later i scrapped the scene entirely (and shared it here) because i wanted reader to be the one who confessed to cheol. like idk i just Really liked the idea of reader taking initiative to confess to cheol and do something special (+ i really like the sentiment i wrote into it where cheol found everyone, but reader found cheol). plus idk my blog is almost entirely sfw (save for that one hosh fic i wrote where its outright stated he and reader bang + i think some sexual implications in my own bday fics that i wrote For Me lol) so it felt weird to end cheol's part of a series by outright saying "yes they sex" esp since im p sure i have some readers who are ace and i didnt wanna alienate 'em if they don't want sex at all

plus also something something reader was still recovering from being sick so i felt like cheol would be Very vigilant about not pushing reader too hard & making sure they were taking care of themself. banished to cuddle in his arms for one million years until he knows ur better >:(

in said og og ending there was a mention of there being a mix of bliss and regret because it felt like reader and cheol had rushed into this kind of relationship when like... he felt like reader deserved something softer. sweeter. to take them on dates and sneak kisses when the others weren't looking. but that he'd ultimately feel relieved in being there next to reader. maybe ill release it at some point haha

i DID however take the part where cheol breaks down crying in the ending of his part from it (the whole 'it's not beautiful to watch a person crumble' thing) as well as the following bits. the line w the 'love itself was an uncertain beast' and cheol admitting that he thought he needed to hide his feelings because hes supposed to be strong and reader makes him weak.

technically i scrapped the idea of doing moodboards to introduce everyone. i was going to do a lil moodboard + have a litle blurb with their alternate name & a little about each. i think that was before i wrote the 'before.' chapter that pretty much said everything + i only finished seokmin's before i changed gears.

i thiiiink i considered 'fawn' as the nickname for reader in the very beginning? but joshua was supposed to be the deer of the group so.

aside from thaaaaat.... im not sure? i think i followed most of my fic plans for UtS pretty closely.

OH OH i can talk about maybe scrapped poly au endings since i know how im ending it now haha

so the original poly au was gonna go fully delulu tbh? one by one they would have all disappeared until it was just reader and cheol, ultimately 'facing the sun' and accepting the memories that have returned to them (and the fact it meant they would disappear from this world). it would have branched off into two endings i think? one where reader refuses to let go, and both reader and cheol agree to just... stay there forever. together.

and then reader would have woken up the next day in a field with a blindfold over their eyes. they take it off to see a pretty man with brown eyes. who is he? and... for that matter, who are you?

and if they chose to let go, accepting that they might never see cheol (or any of the others again) bc as much as they need them, the world needs them more, reader would have woken up in their apartment, annoyed at how long they felt they'd slept. they find a little mouse plushie they don't remember buying, and they can't really remember the dream they had--only that they went to bed sobbing and wishing life would be simpler.

weeks pass. reader ends up getting coffee at a place and overhearing one of the guys behind them whispering about how their drink order sounds good and they forget to give their name for the order. the order gets called out, reader goes over to get it, only to run straight into said guy--who recognizs reader instantly with a quiet 'mouse.' and reader turns to realize they've come face-to-face with vernon (and seungkwan, who was with him), bc i liked the idea of it coming full circle to be reader seeing vernon again and immediately recognizing him as everything started to come back.

the three of them ended up going back to someones apartment while calling all of the others over bc "dude its fucking important" and they all reunite, unsure of what will come next, but glad to be together again, even if only for a little while.

aaaaaand the other ending was going to just be a time loop. reader fully confesses their love to the group and then wakes up in the field the next day, remembering nothing.

BOTH OF THOSE ENDINGS FUCKING SUCK THO-- bc they don't fit the idea of what UtS is to me. a huge part of UtS is the acceptance of grief in a sense and moving forward and i kinda hope to dig into that far more with the poly fic once i finish planning it and get around to writing it. although i do like the split idea? honestly if i bring it back... pretend u all never read this.

[lmanburg-letter-service]

[[cw for talk of abuse n ctommys exile, mention of cwilburs death on nov 16 , also cdream neg ..!!!]]

dear dream ,

hai its me . tommy. i dont know why im writing this i guess to get it out my system? haha get it ?system .. (im part of one of those get it) . but uh. i really really hate you. like, so much. i wish i never joined thag stupid server so i never wouldve seen your stupid face (mask..) and hear ur stupid voice. i hate you so much it hurts i think. but i also miss you so much it hurts. it feels like my hearts being clawed at. ive even gotten to the point where ive considered doing a canoncall for you , but i know for me thag wouldnt be healthy. (also my social anxiety would make be turn in2 a RAISIN)

i miss the times when you seemed to actually care about me. i dunno if you did, honestly i dont like thinking abt it. i miss your hugs (it was warm even if your armor was stabby and cold) and your head pats and hair ruffles. i miss leaning on your shoulder and falling asleep there. i miss laughing and joking with you(even if you were just laughing at me.) i hate missing these things so much, you abused me and found it FUN AND LAUGHED, i dont wanna miss you. i know theres like psychological reasons for thag like TraumaBonds and conditioning (NOT THE KIND FOR HAIR APARENTLY!!!!) but it still sucks to experience i guess. it also sucks because it feels like , me feeling like that means all the bad stuff you did to me Worked in ur favour and thats stupid.

i saw you like .. a big brother i guess? sometimes like a vauge father figure. MD called u my dad once haha. i guess tbat mightve been cuz i just lost my real big brother that sometimes was fathercoded a couple weeks before the exile stuff happened n i needed a sorta replacement?. or maybe not, i rlly cant tell. sometimes i still think about you as my big brother, even though i have a big brother now (and then, hes a wilbur :3) whos way more epic than you EVERR will be!!!!!

you always took my pain as a joke. as sometjing to laugh at. thought i was "too fun" to just, leave alone. i dont even know what that means. the more im writing this the more im thinking abt how u view me and thats NOT a rabbit hole i wanna go down rn.. esp cuz im abt to sleep... hope u sleep on a uncomfortable bed snd wake up all stiff like cardboard btw dream . id churkle at that tbh!

i think thags all i wanna say right now. so, bye. if you ever wanna write back go ahead but i probably will ignore it, i dont want to talk 2 u ever again preferabley.

sincereally the coolest fella in town,

tommy toms tomathy (im a fictive by the by..!!!!!)

[Letter Sent!]

[sungtaro]

teubun here, I love that nickname 🐇 I loved reading ur reply sm! I love LOVE hearing people talk abt smithing they love so much and are so passionate about 🩷🥺 I will check everything u said soon !! esp wanna watch that variety u said. the last thing u said abt their friendships was so endearing it made my heart flutter 💓💓 so I wanted to ask what dynamics and friendships do u see in treasure?

omg yaaay pls keep me posted on everything you check out! 💖 and i'm so glad you're also a dynamic / friendship enthusiast sjgknfj there are so many good ones in trsr ... i ended up writing so much again JKSGB and i still am like this is barely even scratching the surface 😂

they all went through a lot together with their survival show (yg treasure box aka ygtb aka my behated) but even before that, a few of them were trainees together for a really long time (hyunsuk, junkyu, yedam, jihoon, and doyoung in korea; yoshi, haruto, mashiho and asahi in japan). hyunsuk basically helped raise doyoung, that's how young he was when they started training together, they're still one of my favorite duos because of that. some of my favorite friendships that i think are like, very real / would exist outside of the context of the group: jihoon and junkyu (total soulmate same age friends, they are HILARIOUS together), jaehyuk and asahi (another same age pair, i think they really bring out the best in each other), haruto and asahi (literally could have had their own rooms but opted to share one instead so that they could make a hangout room and work on music together), and then jeongwoo and jaehyuk (these two are honestly more like actual brothers) -- and that unit of the 4 of them (0104 line!) are basically a functioning family lol they are ALWAYS together in some combination or another. i also love the friendship and dynamic between jihoon and hyunsuk as coleaders, i think it was so smart to have both of them leading the group, they complement each other really well and again there is so much mutual respect and a shared vision for the type of culture they wanted to create for the entire group. you can tell how much the other members look up to them 🥹 yoshi and hyunsuk are also a duo that are often together, junghwan is often with 0104 as well, i really miss yedam with doyoung and junkyu specifically, and mashiho with doyoung 🥲 jeongwoo and any of his hyungs is absolutely hilarious. asahi finding junkyu to be the funniest member is a fun fact that i really love also lol like it's kind of unexpected but it makes sense - there's a lot of little fun bits like that within a group so big.

i also recommend checking out their t-talks where they pair 2 members up to chat (they just rebooted this series with new videos recently, but there are older ones that are really fun to watch bc some of the pairs are still super awkward at the time lol), it's cool to see some duos that you don't normally see opting to hang out together. really any combination will give you something interesting -- if it's not besties or brotherhood, it's maybe an older member seeing themselves in a younger member (jihoon has said this of jaehyuk for example), or differing points of view have helped each other learn or see something in a new light and been helpful to them. and they're a pretty affectionate group too which is what my irl bestie really took to them for haha she said it was really refreshing to see a group of boys that was so openly loving like that -- i know this isn't necessarily unique to trsr because kpop is known for skinship, but she wasn't a kpop fan before i showed them to her, and the affection also encompasses their consideration for each other so it's not just about them being snuggly haha (although that is cute too)! many of them i really don't think would have ever been friends outside of the group honestly but one thing they have ALL done is worked hard to work together and understand each other to be one team 🥹

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[lowpawly]

Can you give more details about your lapis comic? Like what time is it set in or is it an au or a rewrite? I'm sory I'm just curios 😔 it's really fun seeing your occasional posts about it

omg yes ofc thank u so much for asking 🥺🥺🥺 YEAH so its basically intended to just fill in what I would consider as a missing arc for lapis, everything in it is written so that it could believably have happened in the show offscreen similar to how other series spinoff comics have done things. Its not an au and not intended to be a rewrite, I'm doing my best to just expand on her character in a way I think was implied in the show but was never fully fleshed out (imo). I have a prologue that takes place right before Super Watermelon Island, then parts 1 thru 4 take place between seasons 3 and 5 and I have an epilogue that takes place a month after Change Your Mind. Hopefully the end result fits decently within the narrative of the show without too much suspending of disbelief necessary. Also gonna fill in missing development with her and Peridot obviously.

I'm writing it with the intention of it being a psychological horror while not being jarring different toneally from the show aha. I've actually been going out of my way to watch and read more surreal and psych horror based media to try and get more creative with it, its been a good way to get myself to finally pick things up that I've been putting off looking into! The horror elements are definitely secondary to keeping things feeling natural within the universe and I'm not introducing anything that would feel absurdly out of place (at least I hope not!) I would say the peaks are maybe equivalent in tone to Keeping It Together with maybe sometimes veering a little darker but nothing crazy.

ANYWAYS I'm hoping that I'm not overwhelming myself haha, I'm being really careful about how much I'm public about before I at the very least have everything completely scripted because I know from personal experience that jumping the gun on starting huge comic projects before you're prepared can quickly lead to a ton of stress and burnout. The comic has a title and each part has a thematic name but I'm gonna wait until everything is more solid before I actually say what it's called lol, its just another way to keep some pressure off myself until I feel like I'm ready. I am working on making a set of pages for a scene that I really wanted to see visualized so I can feel out the style and look that I'm going for and once I'm done I'm gonna post em here! I'm probably gonna release it one part at a time but I'm gonna wait until I at the very least have everything sketched before I go that far, once I'm ready I'm gonna make a little neocities website to host all the pages on ^__^

Ok sorry this is kinda going on for a long time, I wanted to be a little more specific but there's like a lot I wanted to cover LOL I really the commentary and interactions people have with my art esp anything having to do with this project 🥺 staying motivated with big projects can be really tough especially with things like comics and I don't wanna expect too much out of myself but people interacting with my art on here has really put me in good spirits about creation and I'm really excited to share everything one day <3 if anyone ever has any other questions abt it u r very encouraged to ask i love to talk about my projects

[sandyferal]

ok but im always interested in stanley parable crossover stuff (esp w/ your narrator) i wanna hear abt this actually

Okay okay. Let’s start off by just. Straight up explaining how this happened.

I’m doing this under the cut for multiple reasons. This is probably going to be long.

STRAIGHT UP. The deal is that The Narrator was the main character I played in a multi-fandom rp. And the moment I heard that characters would recover from any injuries or death I decided he needed to die.

For character reasons. And irony. Also because I didn’t want to have to make him less of an asshole to dodge consequences and… GOD he’s not in a good state of mind. He misses being a disembodied voice. So I put it out there that I wanted someone to kill him. And to give extra incentive I gave him a physical source of his powers in the form of an energy core! Something that could be crazy powerful in the right hands.

My beloved @delblogs19 offered forth Tord. From Eddsworld. Del gave Tord a very nice redesign and everything and after talking it over a bit we figured out how this was gonna go down.

It started with Tord being friendly to The Narrator. Of course it was kinda bullshit but he chatted him up a little before offing him. Caught The Narrator off guard with a killing move and dragged him to a little base he’d set up. The Narrator wakes up and is immediately pissed obviously. And then there’s the sword fight.

Yeah when it comes down to it they end up sword fighting. Tord not exactly taking things seriously and The Narrator legitimately aiming to kill.

Around this time we started making jokes. That started with “joking about homoerotic sword fight to piss The Narrator off” sort of thing.

At the same time we were talking about them potentially getting on better terms. Tord having specific information to help the Narrator and feeling bad about betraying him in their first encounter. So he helps him with some things and The Narrator is genuinely grateful. Eventually we were full into talking about them being frenemies rather than enemies. The Narrator finding Tord to be so very weird but still hanging out with him. For some reason. Which then in itself ended up going into horny territory of “haha Tord introduces Narrator to hentai” and then.

Yeah. We started talking about them fucking!! And god they were just as weird to each other after that as they were before. The Narrator tells himself he regrets it but he still comes back for more because he’s a desperate bastard. I love it. It amuses me to no end.

I am saying it right here, I have seen Eddsworld but I’m not in the fandom enough to have had cemented any opinions on characterization or anything. I personally fucking love how Del wrote him but!! I don’t know the fandom. Or whether this is weird as shit to a member of it. And I do not want to know. Unknown fandoms scare me and I just think this dynamic is funny as hell let me have this please-

[minwooks-moved]

hewwo biebie...... top 5 sweet treats & top 5 moments that made u happy this year!!!!!!

hewwo millie-dearestest <3 i giv u kiss !!

⟩⟩ sweet treats :: i am handing u a tray that holds fudge brownies nd rice krispy treats nd cinnamon coffeecake nd apple pie nd caramel apples <3 cinnamon rolls are also soooooo good i love them so bad

⟩⟩ moments of happiness this year :: this isn’t in any order ( except of like .. in order of remembering them best JFFBJ — my memory is .. garbage recently ) however !!

my birthday ?? weirdly enough was like .. i felt very loved & remembered and not to be dramatic but i don’t . i don’t find my bday really important enough to have a whole thing/fuss for so like ?????? i don’t talk abt it, but people irl & on here making sure to say something was really cool. ( not to say my family doesn’t try to like .. do little things for it like letting me pick dinner & getting me a few things .. just doesn’t feel like a special day yk )

and !! the second !! is the golcha con …. despite my sister being kind of ✨stinky✨ abt me being there / around her friends beforehand, i really am glad i got to go 🥺 you could really see they were so happy to be touring / performing / meeting/seeing people sing their songs & really just . Love them it was so :,) i love them so dearly … even tho i don’t really talk abt them rn they are still so important to me …. i hope i get to see them again djbbdb

legally am obligated to say when i got my license NFBFNFN — god the relief of it + actually feeling like my dad was proud of me for something 💀💀 ( again he loves me i’m being v haha when i say this but like . sometimes we be feeling like the least fave kid *of four* and that is Rough KDNDJDDN ) .. anyways yeah the relief + having a bit more freedom than before is sooooo nice

this one’s like . little ones into one big one but really just !! finding my own little circle on here w/my current moots/friends :,) y’all are so sweet & cool i just djdbdj — i !! lov !! u !! 💓💞💖💗💕

going to chicago with my family back in june !! i really love the city sm, and it really cemented the fact i wanna live there within the next 5 - 10 year, tbh. i love the museums we went to + it’s such a pretty city ( i’m Aware of it’s crime rate + issues but like .. u know .. ), i just .. i feel Better there.

[ can i also add the o x con 🧍‍♀️ like . they were so fun & obviously enjoyed performing that it’s actually a little heartbreaking in today’s current view but NDNDN — i’m so glad i got to see them :((( esp in the time in my life i’m currently in .. i really needed it. i just . idk i hope they at least get a little bit of good memories from the tour despite spire / the staff being absolute shit people, yk ? idk. i don’t think i’ll ever be over ke.vin & hw.ichan waving at me ………………. death still has me actually ]

ask me my top five [____] ✨🐝

[kimnjss]

aw 🥹 their first convo, wasn’t that cute? totally not gonna acknowledge the fact that he used his private acc to talk to her nd not his main?? 🫠 haha totally not gonna come back nd bite him in the ass later on nd cause unnecessary angst, nope, no way. everything is going to be fiiine. 💜 anyways, joon 🤭 4? 4 sugar babies?? you tryna get a 5th or…? is there an application i can fill out? i totally wanna get paid to go on dates nd talk on the phone nd maybe let your frustrations out on me when the mrs gets you upset?? 😇 do i need to have an interview w your wife abt it? shiiiit i can cater to her when you get on her nerves too! win win for everyone 😂actually, mr yoongi can i be your sugar baby? 😭 i know i can’t compete w vmin but still!! lmao i literally love everyone in this au they’re all so funny. hobi… im a lil sus of you but you’re being cute abt it so im willing to turn a blind eye to it. only bc you’re cute! not bc it’s wrong nd gonna for sure blow up in your face later on, only bc you’re cute.

lmaooo yeah you're right it won't come back to bite him in the ass ., esp with how we know he loves to go to her shows nd seeing her in person - all while setting up this sugar daddy thing w her in disguise 🤡 everything is going to go exactly as plannedddd !

namjoon is on some different shit fr like?? how he manages to keep his wife happy ., keep up with four different girls aND run a whole company is beyond me . must skip out on sleeping or some shit . nd you know for a fact you've got to pass the vibe check with his wife - bc if you're gonna be spending time with her man ., she needs to make sure you're not on some shit .

dude the way yoongi is the only one out of his friends now that refuses to get a sugar baby . he said this money is for me nd for me only !! good luck to him when he starts fucking around with vmin bc you can tell they're expensive just by looking at them 😭