#main tagging for reach or something idk man im tired

[dniendos]

i truly wholeheartedly wish that the medical spaces and endogenic/natural/non trauma related spaces were like... easier to comprehend because lord it looks like we have to do even more fucking research after we did like months of research trying to figure out why we were living like this add to the fact that sources are becoming more found out than when we first researched and information is being found out and booming and just guh like with terms and stuff or language its just so confusing guys coming online and seeing it than just researching and living your life as in scrolling through the masses of blogs on research upon research about terms and history and just really wish this kinda thing didnt get soo out of hand that it spiraled this far

[saibh29]

Euphoria

Pairing: Murphy / Reader

Warning: Fluffy... maybe some swearing nothing to harsh. 

Request:  hey there c: I really like your Murphy imagines! could you maybe write something where the girl is the complete opposite of Murphy but he always takes care of her. so they both arrive at the bunker and out of pure euphoria they go in to Hug each other but almost accidentally kiss each other (like raven&wick). idk if you write smut but if you don't that's also cool! and idk Tag me ? if you even want to write it.

AN: @poisonxxvy happy birthday sweetheart hope you like this and sorry it’s taken me so long to edit it and everything. It’s a little different than you requested but let’s hope its ok anyhow!!

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“Have any of you seen Y/N?” there were a few people shaking their heads at Murphy as he continued to push his way through the group of people who had just arrived at the bunker. He was starting to get more and more panicked as he couldn’t find your familiar face in the crowd. He did however locate a somewhat sane looking Raven.

“Raven, have you seen Y/N?”

Raven shook her head “No, she was with me back there for a bit but we got separated. She was with Bellamy. I’m sure she’s fine Murphy”

Murphy wasn’t so sure of that fact. He knew Y/N better than anyone. She was, scared might be the wrong word, but intimidated by Bellamy and wouldn’t have voluntarily chosen to walk with him. No matter how much Murphy had tried to reassure her Y/N was still as shy as a mouse and almost as jumpy.

Almost pushing past Raven, he continued to scan faces around the bunkers main room. The bedraggled group of Skaikru were covered in dirt and camouflage making it even harder to try and find you. Never mind the fact that you were so small it wasn’t easy to see you in crowds usually.

“Y/N?” shouting his voice barely reached over the cacophony of noise the crowd was making. Murphy did spot Bellamy though at the back of the group. Putting his head down he barrelled through the group of people with his shoulder. “Bellamy”

The taller man turned around to look at Murphy. “Yeah”

“Have you seen Y/N? I can’t find her anywhere”

“She went to find you” Bellamy frowned using his height to his advantage he peered over the tops of the people’s heads that were closest to them. “I don’t know” he admitted “I can’t see her. She was fine though, tired and a bit dehydrated but nothing more than that”

Murphy bit at his lip turning back to the crowd of people. He didn’t like this one bit, he liked having you close. You were the clumsiest person he’d ever met and most likely the unluckiest as well. At least when you were close by him he could protect you. Could look out for you.

Scanning the people around him once more his heart sank when he still couldn’t find your familiar body in the crowds.

“Murphy?!”

Spinning so fast he nearly fell over Murphy locked eyes with your own. Stood a few feet away from him a smile nearly splitting your face apart.

“Y/N” his voice was relieved as his feet moved without his conscious control. He had you wrapped in his arms with your feet dangling from the ground before he knew what was happening. You were laughing in his ear hugging him back just as tightly. The panic was finally receding from his body. At least now you were here, right in front of him where he could stop you getting into any more trouble.

Putting you back down on your feet he just stared into you face. Bellamy had been right you looked unhurt. There was a scratch on your right cheek but other than that there were no visible marks on your face. He was half tempted to start checking the rest of your body right then and there for any other injuries you may have acquired.

“John?” You were looking at him curiously obviously wondering why he was staring at you so hard.

“Just checking you for damage sweetheart”

“I’m fine” you assured him.

Murphy had heard that before from you and every time you had been anything other than fine. At the moment though he was to relieved to have you safe and in front of him once more that he just decided to let it go.

He leant down to hug you once more exactly at the same moment you’d raised yourself up on your tip toes to hug him and somehow, he managed to get his lips lined up exactly with your own. Your eyes widened in shock and jerking to the side you kind of awkwardly smashed into each other your face in his shoulder. Ignoring the awkwardness of that Murphy simply hugged you. Holding you safe.

****

“I can’t believe I’m here” you said happily as with your fingers laced with Murphy’s the two of you walked through the narrow corridors of the bunker. You’d been assigned a room towards the end of the corridor which you’d be sharing with Raven.

“Why were you with Bellamy?”

“Oh” you shrugged still not able to rid the smile from your face “his walkie wasn’t working and Raven was having a… episode so I went over to fix it”

“His Walkie?”

“Yeah, the radio thing. You know that you talk through” Murphy just shook his head at you a small smirk on his face. “What? What’s wrong with the word Walkie?”

“Nothing” it was clear from the tone in his voice though that he obviously thought that you were hilarious. “You’re over here” he pointed at the door with the right room number on for you.

Pushing open the door you found nothing but a small bunk bed which you could guarantee you’d end up with the top one. There was very little head room on the top and Raven would just complain saying you were smaller so logically you should take the top bunk.

Other than the bunk beds there was very little furniture in the room, not that any other furniture would fit anyhow. Murphy shut the door of the room behind him leaning against it with his arms folded over his chest. You on the other hand walked the full length of the room, it wasn’t really a room maybe more like a cabin. The whole room took you 6 strides to cover and you had short legs.

“Where’s your room?”

That smirk was back “why going to come jump me in the middle of the night?”

“Don’t be an idiot John” you blushed, you had this annoying habit of doing that. He wasn’t even really embarrassing you. You still couldn’t help the flush on your cheeks though.

“I’m back that way” he pointed his thumb in the vague direction of his room. “I wouldn’t mind you know”

“Mind what?”

“If you wanted to come jump me?” Yeah that blush was full on tomato red at this point not helped by the fact that Murphy suddenly laughed uncrossing his arms and walking the few steps over to you.  “You’re just adorable”

Glaring at him you crossed your own arms across your chest. “You better not be messing with me right now John Murphy, because I warn you just because I’m shy, awkward and slightly clumsy that does not mean that I cannot beat your ass to a pulp”

Without any further warning Murphy leant down and pressed his lips against your own. You stood there shocked into stillness for a minute.

Murphy’s hand came up to cup your cheek as he let your lips go. “Still think I’m messing?”

“No” you whispered as your arms came uncrossed and you allowed him to pull your body into his own. Every inch of you was pressed up against Murphy. His own hand slid to the base of your back holding you still. “No, I don’t think you’re messing”

“Good”

His mouth descended to your own once more and you gave in to all the dirty idea’s you’d had about Murphy for the past few years. You’d never expected them to come true and the fact that he was stood there kissing you wasn’t quite sinking in.

“Well fuck, finally you two” Raven’s voice interrupted and you jumped shuffling away from Murphy. Not that there was much room to get that far away from him.

“Raven!” you squeaked that blush was back on your face again for definite.

Raven however didn’t seem to care about finding you locked in Murphy’s arms instead dumping her bag on the bottom bunk as predicated. “You ok with top?” it wasn’t really a question so you didn’t answer it.

Murphy’s hand slid down your back and squeezed your ass making you glare at him. He just laughed leaning down to kiss you quickly once more.

“I’ll see you later” he promised.

He was to the door when your confidence finally reasserted itself a bit. “John? What room number are you in?”

He looked over his shoulder smirking “324”

[wickymicky]

i got tagged by @chuukitten like a month ago lmao oops

rules: answer 21 questions and tag 21 people (im too lazy lol im sorry i just like to talk about myself so thats what im gonna do HAHA)

im gonna put this under a read more cause it got long

1. nickname: my bf calls me cube

2. zodiac: i dont do zodiac shit lol sorry

3. height: i dont actually know, im bad with remembering things like that

4. hogwarts house: the “fuck jk rowling” house (okay fine im hufflepuff)

5. last thing i googled: farmersonly… dont worry about it

6. favorite musicians: i mean yall know my kpop ones haha… loona, dreamcatcher, fromis 9, pentagon, exid, red velvet, twice, eyedi, weki meki, etc……. outside of kpop oh man where do i begin… its tough cause ive basically only listened to kpop in 2019 but okay so i’d say the band idles, death grips, grimes, streetlight manifesto, huh idk i have a lot that i like but i dont know who else i would consider my “favorites” at the moment

7. song stuck in my head: right now its pirate king by ateez

8. following: 1800 lol

9. followers: on this blog 264, but 724 on my main

10. do you get asks: occasionally

11. amount of sleep: i should sleep way, way more than i do

12. what are you wearing: pajamas

13. dream job: hmmm. i mean i dont dream of working, i dont have a dream “job”, but if the question is about my dream “thing i wanna do a lot of in my life” then i guess my answer is… idk… something where i can just engage in whatever is interesting to me at the moment. like in the vein of my tumblr blogs where i can just post and talk about stuff im interested in. idk if that means being a youtuber or journalist or just someone who does something else and engages in my interests as a hobby, but yeah. or something to do with linguistics of course. though like i dont wanna be a teacher and thats basically the only path lmao (that i would even consider, anyway)

14. dream trip: you know i dont actually have a lot of interest in travel. idk, it stresses me out. i cant think about going places without worrying about how i’ll get around, what i’ll be doing, what i’ll be able to eat since i have a lot of food anxieties… idk. if someone i love wanted to go on a trip with me i’d probably be down, but i dont really know on my own.

15. instruments: i wish i could do music lol

16. languages: are amazing and i love them. okay fine lol i only speak english, but i took german in middle and high school, i took latin in high school as well, then took latin and ancient greek in college, and then after college i did a lot of looking into hungarian, vietnamese, a little bit of indonesian, turkish, and polish, and then recently i’ve been pretty focused on korean for obvious reasons. i speak none of those languages tho, lol. if i heard someone speaking some of those i could get the gist of what types of things theyre talking about most likely, but honestly my whole thing with languages is that im more interested in learning about the intricacies of how languages work and especially how they change over time than i am in actually learning the language. i’d love if my dumb adhd brain allowed me to focus hard enough and really commit to becoming fluent in a second language because so far i’ve only steadily approached being barely conversational, i’ve never actually reached even that point yet lol. and being only fluent in english makes me feel like a stupid american lol. i pick up bits of language really easily, but the rigor of learning ALL the vocab and ALL the little details you need to become actually fluent is where i fall off. 

like whenever i go through an anime phase, i pick up lots and lots of japanese. like if they keep using a word i’ll see it in the subtitles and figure that it must mean that, and then i’ll pay attention to the endings they use and how they inflect it and i’ll make little inferences about what those signify, so then when i hear a word that i dont recognize but it has a grammatical ending that i know, i can infer the meaning of the word from context, and im going through this same learning process with korean now and it’s super super fun and i’m loving how much progress ive made (though i could have been making progress like three times as fast if i was actually taking a korean class)… but the actual work of learning common phrases, learning the sheer volume of vocab, all that stuff… yeah that’s where i fall off. so idk how fluent i’ll get in korean, but i’m down to find out, lol. maybe this is the one i’ll really try to focus on and achieve it with!

17. 10 favorite songs as of now: of all time????? um okay i cant possibly do that without spending a looong time thinking about it, so i’ll just do the first ten songs that come to my mind when i think of songs that i adore more than most others

keep the streets empty for me by fever ray

colossus by idles

watch it crash by streetlight manifesto

lucky girl by fazerdaze

realiti (demo) by grimes

egoist by loona (olivia hye)

picky picky by weki meki

mother by idles

peekaboo by red velvet

hi high by loona

18. if you were an animal: red panda maybe haha

19. favorite food: pizza cause im a garbage trash person

20. random fact: idk... if yall couldnt tell and didnt already know this, i’m a linguist haha. i went to school for linguistics, i majored in linguistics and classics (latin, ancient greek, etc) though honestly i was only into the languages, roman and greek history is cool and all but not really what i’m most into. majoring in classics was a mistake lol but oh well. i didnt end up graduating though because of unrelated reasons.... adhd, depression, just a general sense that the way the whole system works just wasnt made for me and it didnt click with me and ive never been good at forcing myself to be good at school... and like i was tired of hearing from professors that i have “a very organized mind when it comes to linguistics stuff” (something a greek professor said that meant a lot to me) or that i “understand how language works better than most other students my age” and that im a natural and that its impressive how nuanced my understanding of these concepts is.... while also failing or almost failing all of the classes whose professors said that about me. like basically all those statements were followed by a “, but” or a “, so if you just-”.... sigh. so i guess i’m not “actually” a linguist. whatever “actually” means there. 

so other random fact i guess, which is still related but anyway... i have a conlang! that’s a constructed language. ive been working on a language for like 6 or 7 years. its at a state right now where it’s not really something i can just like... speak? it was at one point, maybe. but basically what i like to do is try out various ideas i have about language and phonology and morphology, so my language is kind of like a sandbox lol. if youre a scientist you conduct experiments, if youre a linguist i think you should try making a conlang. its not a common hobby but its something i spend an unconscionable amount of time thinking about lol. like basically 24/7. i’m almost always thinking about my word for x thing im seeing or thinking about, or like some sound change i heard that some language had, and how that would sound if applied to the words in my language... 

like the reason my language isnt at a point right now where i can speak it is because getting into korean has made me think about massively reconfiguring how the grammar works. its always been kinda like latin and german, cause those are what i was taking when i started, and then it got kinda like ancient greek, so the grammar has/had a lot of complicated conjugations that are just honestly so superfluous... its such a mess lol... i have a much better understanding of how those systems come about in language now, so even if i remake my language to have verb conjugations like latin or greek, it’d be a much more coherent and natural system than the one thats existed in my language for years... but after learning about hungarian and korean in particular, i really wanna try making it a lot more logical like those languages are. but my big thing is phonology (speech sounds), so i just get hung up on sound changes and cool new consonants and vowels to add, so i keep putting off actually fixing my language lol. also ive become attached to my awful, amateurish words haha. im so bad at this... a real conlanger like tolkien or the dude who made the languages for game of thrones would look at mine and scoff haha. most of my words are just straight up stolen from words in latin, german, many others, but predominantly... english. i just mangle english words and call it my own lol, and ive been trying to replace those words with original ones that i made up arbitrarily... like my word for nose is just “nass” and my word for dog is “handir” which is just based on english “hound” and german “Hund” and stuff lol. i wanna change those

21. my aesthetic: if you actually read this long ass post, you know that my aesthetic is just “too much information” but not in a sexy way or even an interesting way