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Old blushing faces meme I did with some of my lovelies ! :]
#art#artists on tumblr#oc stuff#my ocs#maverse#maggie 🥀#maisie 🕸️#madeline 🌊#marie 🐻#mags 🌱#madge 🌻#maddie 🌷#maeve 🚬#marci ✨
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#since you bitches love the polls#i know which one is gonna win#gilmore girls#jess mariano#gilmore girls poll#gilmore girls asks#teddypickerry
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🌷💖 1ST SEMESTER GOALS AND PLANS 💖🌷
a new semester is about to start and with it another fight for survival! xD
from the 1st day of classes to the last possible day of exams, it totals at 145 days. i'll be taking 4 classes specific to my course, 1 required humanities class in another faculty and i'll be redoing 1 class i failed last year.
since the 100 days of productivity challenge worked so well for me last year, i'm going to extend it to fit the whole semester and hope for the best. i think it'll be much harder than it was because the 1st semester is always 1000x more difficult than the 2nd for some reason 😮💨 but i don't really have an option at this point soo... yeah
there's a bunch of stuff i'd like to implement and a bunch of stuff i'd like to do so i'm going to begin the juggling act and see what can survive the harshness of my existence at uni :)
🌺💕 GOALS 💕🌺
-> pass all my classes: 6/6 ✅
-> keep my duolingo streak alive ✅
-> learn how to do friendship bracelets and wall-hangings with cute patterns ❌
-> complete my goodreads challenge ✅ + jan books: 27/30 (last book read: The Song of Achilles, by Madeline Miller) ❌
🌊🪩 PLANS 🪩🌊
-> college volleyball tryouts ✅
-> visit orchid market
-> repot my succulent
-> study at a new library ✅
-> see the private art collection at the museum ✅
-> visit dad ✅✅✅
🐚🤍 COUNTERS 🤍🐚
-> all-nighters: 8 (goal: 0)
-> created something: 5 (goal: 👀)
-> hang out with friends: 19 (goal: 14+)
-> A1c: 9.3% (goal: 8.5%)
#stargazerbibi#study#studyblr#study challenge#student#studyspo#studyspiration#studystudystudy#productivity#study blog#study motivation#motivation#inspo#inspiration#university#uni
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My The Deep opinion 🦈
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[Zodiac Signs]
° Fire 🔥 °
• Mad Madeline: Aries ♈ (23rd March)
• Pyrosome: Aries ♈ (1st April)
• Danny Boy: Aries ♈ (30th March)
• William Nekton: Leo ♌ (14th August)
• Ted/Todd: Leo ♌ (1st August)
• Jennifer Chan: Leo ♌ (29th July)
• Lester (S1): Sagittarius ♐ (3rd December)
• Jessica 'Jess' Gorman: Sagittarius ♐ (10th December)
° Earth 🌍 °
• Hammerhead: Taurus ♉ (28th May)
• Robert 'Bob' Gorman: Taurus ♉ ( 20th May)
• Jacques Nekton: Taurus ♉ (20th May)
• Professor Fiction: Taurus ♉ (20th April)
• Nereus: Taurus ♉ (16th May)
• Kenji Nokimura: Virgo ♍ (10th September)
• Allen: Virgo ♍ (1st September)
• Tethy: Virgo ♍ (29th August)
• Dolos: Capricorn ♑ (3rd January)
• Proteus: Capricorn ♑ (7th January)
Glaucus: Capricorn ♑ (30th December)
° Air 💨 °
• Antaeus 'Ant' Nekton: Aquarius ♒ (25th January)
• Griffin: Aquarius ♒ (6th February)
• Fontaine Nekton: Gemini ♊ (15th June)
• Charlie: Gemini ♊ (15th June)
• Matilda Marshall: Libra ♎ (28th September)
• Alpheus Benthos: Libra ♎ (3rd October)
° Water 🌊 °
• Smiling Finn: Pisces ♓ (28th February)
• Dhia (S4): Pisces ♓ (15th March)
• Kaiko Nekton: Cancer ♋ (20th July)
• Kathryn Nekton: Cancer ♋ (15th July)
• Devil Daniels: Scorpio ♏ (4th November)
• Sebastian Conger: Scorpio ♏ (28th October)
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This is my opinion with Zodiac Signs. I'm the only person who believes that I know about Zodiac Signs. Because I'm not sure if it's true or not. So, I'm Aquarius with Ant and I'm the only person who I like The Deep and I writing the Zodiac Signs in The Deep Characters.
So, this is from me, I hope to 'understand' me, so yeah, I'm the only person who I writing this opinion, I know, I'm back from the dead but I don't open in this because I has my social medias and yeah, so, I hope to you like it or... Whatever you want! I don't actually... Ugh! Whatever. Understand me 😅 (I will be back soon, hehe <( ̄︶ ̄)> )
#the deep cartoon#alpheus benthos#kaiko nekton#William Nekton#antaeus nekton#fontaine nekton#nekton family#ocean#the deep 2015#smiling finn#season 1-4#zodaic signs
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about me! <3
🌞🌿 🌺🍊🌊
hi! i go by mads on here but u could prob guess my actual name lol. i am from california! i am 18 and in college!
some of my favorite things include:
the triplets (obviously), going to the beach, going out with friends, going out to eat, reading, tanning, spending time with my family, concerts, traveling, nature, anything about the ocean, summer, and animals. my fav animals are dogs, tigers, and whale sharks! my favorite colors are teal, pink, and orange/yellow/green. my favorite books are East of Eden, Malibu Rising, and The Catcher in the Rye.
some things i don’t like are:
stupid people, being clumsy, being woken up, tomatoes, when people are mean to me, bananas, cold weather.
music!
my fav artists are:
Taylor Swift (i’ve even met her!), Dominic Fike, TV Girl, Jack Johnson, Chappell Roan, Bob Marley, Gracie Abrams, Lana Del Rey, Sublime, and Frank Ocean! My taste is kind of everywhere lol.
my fav songs are:
peace (i have a tattoo!), king of my heart, and new romantics by t swizzle; wurli and frisky by dom; doses and mimosas by cherub (PLZZZ LISTEN IF U HAVENT); birds don’t sing and summers over by tv girl/jordana
people!
obv friends and fam, but i love the triplets, dominic fike, tay tay, drew starkey, tara yummy, madeline cline, quen blackwell, umm prob more im not thinking of
i love reading and writing anything so hopefully i get around to posting some of my writing here eventually! i am a perfectionist freak though it may be sparse lol.
my inbox should be open (i think?) so please feel free to tell me anything! and if u have any feedback for me that would be much appreciated because i kind of don’t know what i’m doing lol.
if you made it this far you are such a slay and i love you!
💓mads 💓
🌞🌿 🌺🍊🌊
#chris sturniolo#matthew sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#matt sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#nick sturniolo#sturniolo fanfic#sturniolo triplets#dominic fike#drew starkey#taylor swift#chrisspopsicle
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Introducing Aquarium of the Podcific! Join staff members Madeline Walden and Erin Lundy on a deep dive through the Aquarium of the Pacific’s animals, conservation efforts, careers, and more on this new podcast. Season one will feature ten episodes released weekly beginning 5/30. Subscribe now in your favorite podcast app, or visit pacific.to/podcific to learn more. 🎧🌊🎙
#podcast#aquarium of the pacific#aquarium of the podcific#new podcast#spotify#apple podcasts#science#marine biology
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I’m on the fence with being hyperfixated on IOTGC and Roses
What should I draw today
Whatever sounds coolest
please don’t pick the see results option 🙏 /srs
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#em reads#seasparrow#graceling#kristin cashore#the song of achilles#madelline miller#to kill a kingdom#alexandra christo#the gentleman's guide to vice and virtue#mackenzi lee#the ocean at the end of the lane#neil gaiman#the map to everywhere#carrie ryan#john parke davis#lit#yalit
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ROMANCE KINGDOM! ~SUGAR SWEET DESTINY~
☁️ You found this game in the trash…?
🍓 Yeah… why not give it a try?
☁️ Sure…!
Synopsis
Sugar Sweet Destiny is Cookie Run: Kingdom’s newest April Fool’s Day event for 2023 based on countless PC games about finding love in high school. This post is not exhaustive yet, and it will be updated with time as I- the Editor- play the mode more and more. There will be spoilers for the endings here below the break, as well as a few pointers on how to win their hearts.
In order to start a new game, you need 15 Blooming Hearts. These Hearts will restock over time, and you can always buy more with Crystals, ads, or in packages
The Gifts and Album menus will open after your first playthrough
Clicking the “Minimize” button or desktop bar will minimize the game and show the desktop, and you can return to the game by clicking the icon on the bottom bar or the desktop
The red X button will close the game and take you back to your kingdom
Protagonist: You play the role of the protagonist, in which you name yourself. Choose carefully, that name will appear throughout the current run through the story. You are a reasonably popular student of Kingdom High, Class 1-C, going about your day, when you suddenly find a box of chocolates in your locker! Your choices will determine whether you make your feelings known to your classmates and win their hearts, or fall apart in a blubbering mess trying. How do you make these choices? When multiple blue buttons appear in the middle of the screen, choose one to determine your character’s next action.
If you make a choice that results in a Bad Ending before choosing to express your feelings to someone at the end of Day 5, you can choose to spend 15 more Blooming Hearts to go back to the scene and try again with another option
Your Classmates
🌟 Marcus Madeline: The Student Council President. Comes from a very wealthy family and has an official fan club that spans half the school. VERY popular and makes his fellow classmates freak out when they see him.
🌿 Herbert Hoo: Your longtime childhood friend, and an avid gardener. He’s soft spoken and likes plants, and they seem to like him too. The Gardening Club just had to have him as a member, and he enjoys doing it. Although he enjoys his time being together with you too.
🗡️ Rachel Raspberry: The Star of the Kingdom High Fencing Club, and the Class Rep. A child prodigy in swordsmanship, she defeated a high school student in a fencing competition while she was in middle school. She also fended off multiple bullies from a neighboring high school who didn’t know who she was, and took them all on with just a stick… and WON.
🌊 Serena Faire: A class senior, famous for her otherworldly beauty and quiet nature. The last member of the Astronomy Club, she has her sights set on the moon with genuine feelings and love for it quite frequently during her moon-watching sessions at night. Known for her frequent shutdowns on other students’ attempts to date her. Also known as the Ice Princess for seeming so cold with her perceived ignorance, but actually quite compassionate and kind.
⚔️ Derek DaChoco: The thuggish super-bully, rumored to be the son of a shady corporate bigwig. Doesn’t pick fights, but when he does, he swings a 2x4 (a two-by-four wooden board, most likely) with a raging flurry. Known as the Dark Tornado of Kingdom High. “Public Enemy Number One” of Kingdom High. Rumored to have flunked junior year for a full decade, can make almost everyone quake with fear.
Album
The Album contains memories of every ending and certain moments that take place in the game. Each memory and ending has a picture and a reward associated with it. Get all the Happy Endings to unlock a Special Memory Painting.
Happy Endings
“Looking at You” - Visiting Serena Faire on the roof during her moon-watching sessions, and even showing her how to turn a bowl of dough that looked like the full moon into moon pancakes, you could understand her and her fascination with the moon… and you were the only one who would accept her for it as you would also look up to her. (300 Crystals)
“No. 1 Fan” - Seeing you being hounded by the fans for trying to cut the line to express your feelings without a gift, Marcus Madeline had to tell them to stop and shoved his way through the crowd. It was there when you mustered all your courage to ask him out on a walk by the lake. In front of EVERYONE. In a gasp and shock from the crowd, Marcus was seemingly just as confused as he wanted to give everyone his love. With unanimous approval from his fans, he reached out to you for the way YOU saw him: as himself. In a burst of emotion, the two of you express your true feelings for each other as the fans erupted in thunderous applause and entrusted you with his love. The two of you run off to the lake, smiles all around, hand in hand. Your high school love life is just beginning…! (300 Crystals)
Memories
“Leave me Alone” - Upon uncovering the curtain in the nurse’s office, you find Derek DaChoco in bandages and bad shape and tend to him with fresh bandages after he awakens in front of you. The nurses tried to object, but Derek was alright with it. He even suggested that you should be a doctor! You share a moment as he talks about what his father said about trying not to get other people involved with his own path. (100 Radiant Shards)
“Rooftop Serenade” - Following your friends cautiously through the unlocked door to the rooftop while simultaneously knowing that Serena Faire could be up there, you remain there after they disperse upon seeing nobody- and no ghost- there. You know where she is, and you call for her… and she responds back warmly. She remains there quite often to stare at the moon and feel her worldly concerns and whatever weighs her down melt away. The two of you share a moment in silent tranquility, nobody to witness it except the stars of the night sky. Words cannot express the feelings the two of you shared that night as you comforted each other and held each other’s hands, feeling the stars travel across the sky. (100 Radiant Shards)
“The Great Cream Explosion” - Visiting a classroom with a lot of noise, you find Marcus Madeline and his world-famous madelines being swarmed by his fans and their recommendations for pastry pairings. It’s hard to cook in this, but sprinkles in some whipped cream was enough for the cream to practically explode and cause you to turn into a creamy mess in 3… 2… 1… not. Because Marcus was there to protect you from the brunt of the blast! As the two of you share a moment and embrace before a teacher helps guide everyone with the cleanup process. (100 Radiant Shards)
Bad Endings
“No. 0401 Fan” - Getting rejected by Marcus Madeline in front of his fans in the name of student camaraderie as you tried to express your feelings by week’s end, you soullessly accept the offer to join his fan club from other classmates while collapsing into a crumpled heap in front of everyone. You weren’t the first one either… and you even considered transferring away from Kingdom High. (3 Epic Soul Essences)
“Locked-up Heart” - Leading your classmates to the rooftop door to uncover the truth behind a ghost story of a blue-haired girl on the roof, the door was unfortunately locked. Forget it. Don’t get their hopes up so quickly. It usually leads to disappointing not only them, but also yourself. (100 Rainbow Pearls)
“Disappointment” - After giving the senior bullies from the day before some money to stave them off, your attempt to approach Derek DaChoco was brushed off as he looked away and pretended to not know you. Faith in humanity shattered. Probably shouldn’t have tried to ask Derek about his age, especially the second time around. (5 Arena Tickets)
“Delicious Nonetheless” - Looking for Derek DaChoco during the annual baking day since you talked with him twice, you instead see his handiwork instead: chocolates! It’s unknown whether it was meant to be a dented snowman or a heart, but it was too good to be thrown away. Thinking- no… hoping that someone would show up and ask what you were doing, you kept eating the chocolates Derek made. Nobody came, so you left the room with a satisfied appetite… and a disappointed heart. Perhaps you were too quiet with those chocolates, hm? (30 Topping Pieces)
Gifts
Accessible after experiencing someone’s Happy Ending, you can give your classmates gifts (from your Kingdom inventory) to increase your affection with them. Each person has their favorites and preferences, so looking for context clues is important. Increase their affection high enough, and you’ll get a special Title and even their Profile Picture! Unlock all 5 Happy Endings to interact with Someone Else…❔
#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#new update#april fools#madeline cookie#marcus madeline#herb cookie#herbert hoo#raspberry cookie#rachel raspberry#sea fairy cookie#serena faire#dark choco cookie#derek dachoco#crk spoilers#white lily cookie
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ʚɞ OC MASTERLIST ʚɞ
This is a compiled list of OCs and tags for them for navigation !
MAVERSE
A small multiversal story that started with two.
Maggie : #maggie 🥀 Maisie : #maisie 🕸️ Madeline : #madeline 🌊 Marie : #marie 🐻 Marci : #marci ✨ Mags : #mags 🌱 Madge : #madge 🌻 Marlee : #marlee 👑 Maddie : #maddie 🌷 Maeve : #maeve 🚬 "Apollo" : #apollo ☀️ Marcia : #marcia 🛸 Magnolia : #magnolia 💐 Marilena : #marilena 📚 Maye : #maye 👻 Marcellus-Malek : #marcellus ☄️ Maylie : #maylie 🍄
DANGANRONPA
Ocs in relation to Danganronpa, the series.
Yua Satsujin : #yua 🔮 Namie Shinjitsu : #namie 🌸 Bela Jomana : #bela 🎃 Athena Wittmer : #athena 🎲 Esme Mochizuki : #esme 💖 Taji Uso : #taji 🌧️ Marine Valor : #marine 🐟
SPIDER-VERSE
Ocs in relation to Spider-Man! A lot of them belong to my friend's spider-verses !
Cyber-Web : #cyber-web ⚡ Mylah Jacklin : #mylah 🐾 Gracy Sawyer : #gracy 🧶 Gwyneira Stephens : #gwyneria ❄️
OTHER
Ocs who aren't in any specific category.
(MHA) Seiren Kusama : #seiren 🎨 (FE3H) Seraphine Talia Lavigne : #seraphine 🦁
#ocs#my ocs#masterlist#oc masterlist#masterpost#oc masterpost#maggie 🥀#maisie 🕸️#madeline 🌊#marie 🐻#marci ✨#mags 🌱#madge 🌻#marlee 👑#maddie 🌷#maeve 🚬#apollo ☀️#marcia 🛸#magnolia 💐#marilena 📚#maye 👻#marcellus ☄️#maylie 🍄#yua 🔮#namie 🌸#bela 🎃#athena 🎲#esme 💖#taji 🌧️#marine 🐟
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Little Mermaid retellings
Beautiful To Me — E. L. Tenenbaum (End of Ever After series)
The Jinni Key — Bethany Atazadeh (Stolen Kingdom series #2)
Mermaid — Carolyn Turgeon
Part of Your World — Liz Braswell (Twisted Tales series)
Sea Witch — Sarah Henning (Sea Witch series #1)
Sea Witch Rising — Sarah Henning (Sea Witch series #2)
Speechless — Madeline Freeman (Unfortunate Souls series #1)
Stars Above — Marissa Meyer (Lunar Chronicles short story collection)
To Kill a Kingdom — Alexandra Christo
🧜♀️🐚🌊
More fairy tales
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Como vcs devem ter reparado, li A Corrida de Escorpião 🐎🌊❤️ e esse livro mudou a química do meu cérebro! Eu amei com todas as minhas forças, amo o mar e o vento que vem dele, assim como cheiro. Só consigo imaginar o quanto deve ser incrível correr na orla sobre um cavalo, sentindo sua velocidade e o vento vindo forte em meu rosto, espero ter essa experiência um dia. Amei Sean e Puck, assim como Corr e Dove. Amei como a autora desenvolve a relação que o povo da ilha tem com o mar, os cavalos e seus deuses. Enfim, estou muito feliz com essa leitura (e sim, comprei o livro físico kk mesmo eu prometendo pra mim mesma que não faria mais isso... quando chegar eu mostro pra vcs!! 🙃😙 ;)
Hoje terminei um trabalho que estava me esgotando há dias e por isso estou bemmmm feliz!!! Com isso poderei aproveitar essa última semana de férias e terminar meu curso de Canva em paz 🙏
Por fim, queria dizer pra vcs q comecei Circe, da Madeline Miller, e estou gostando bastante da narrativa até agr. Mas não contei pra ninguém além de vcs e da minha irmã kkk tenho a sensação de que terá cenas pesadas e eu geralmente não consigo prosseguir um livro com tal coisa.
Manterei vcs atualizados! Ou pelo menos tentar kk
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I think the TV show, if they want, has a perfect opportunity to mirror Armand influencing Louis to make Madeline with the fact that Armand has never made a fledgling himself… but he will make a fledgling this series (I presume) in Daniel. That amps up all the emotion of these elements of the books and would make it all even more emotionally powerful than the books - to bring these events together in time.
I don’t know that they’ll actually do this… but if I was writing the show right this second & I had these emotional beats that powerfully tie in & that Anne actually wrote… I would do it! (I can’t write - but in theory, you know!! 😂)
It adds to numerous things that make me think that Lestat is currently still in his post-trial (though he was awake for some years before going into this) sleep & that none of the events of QOTD have happened yet in this timeline. (I mean who knows! I could be totally wrong! And even if right: they can use later-events in the current timeline here. Give us the right overall feeling & I care not how else you play with everything! 🥰🥰🥰)
If Lestat is still in that sleep, I wonder if Louis knows it, or if Louis thinks him dead (either following the trial & burning of the theatre des vampires… or due to the very mortal old-age/existential depression, lingering, slow but inevitable death Louis describes Lestat experiencing, presuming he will die at the end of IWTV…)
Whatever the case… poor Louis in S2! I actually just brought myself to tears pre 8am, contemplating all of this! 😂😭😂🌊. I guess Lestat would be proud. All I need to do now is put my hands to my head like the vampires do when they can’t cope with the drama in (or outside!) their own brains! 😅😇😂😭🌊💀⚰️
hello🫶🏼 so, in the iwtv book, a boundary is set between armand and louis after he used his mind gift to influence louis to turn madeleine. so they have a clear understanding and a trust that it’s not a power he’ll use on louis again. but, in the show and the present day dubai scenes. do you think they’ll reveal that armand has influenced louis memories for his own good? it’s felt that way to me whenever they’ve shown us glimpses of present day dubai in s2. i mean, he could easily just look a bit nervous or be trying to slow the interview so that louis doesn’t spiral. i’m just curious to hear what you think:)
So, even in the books Armand does not quite honor that promise, because he uses his powers on Louis (before and) after the trial and during their travels (I've talked about this and put the book quotes here).
I don't think Armand would see it as for his own good, I think he would see it as solely something for Louis' good. And yes, he also could try to influence the interview to keep control and pain away from Louis.
Imho it's all mixed up. We had Assad talk about "tinkering", and it makes sense when you keep in mind that Armand often does stuff in a way he sees fit - even if others might disagree.
He is a coven master - he just does the things he sees fit, driven by a codex that was forced into and onto him for centuries.
Old habits are hard to break, and all that :)
I do think him doing that is part of why Louis invited Daniel to "help". Daniel, being who he is, is in an extraordinary position to help, because Armand treats him very differently than he would treat any other mortal - or even most other vampires.
And so I think there will be a lot of revelations incoming - though how deeply manipulated those will turn out to be? We'll see. "Tinkering" could mean just a nudge to not read a book, for example, or look at photos. It could also mean alteration.
The spells he uses in the books are illusions, and commands to sleep, and a "veil".
We'll see how they spin it :)
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🍀, 🌼 and 🌊!
🍀 - sweet or salty?
sweet! especially fruits tbh give me fruits and i will be happy (except coconut that shit is Nasty)
🌼 - favorite book series?
not really a book series but everything madeline miller writes, i eat up. so circé and song of achilles zndkzk
🌊 - do you play any instrument?
sadly i don't, tho i really want to learn. might be too late, and also i am Poor and Lazy but it's a fun dream
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“And I think you should come live with me and we can be pirates.”
I have one eye functioning again. At this point, I’m embracing my inner pirate. Yarr. I’ll be back ASAP, but that one eye is closing again
(note that the lid is low because it’s in an SPS spasm. I can’t open it more. Sorry. That makes me only 3/4 pirate I’m times when I can only halfway open one eye. So... just... yar...? Lmao)
Gotta laugh when the tides are rough. Can’t do a stereotypical pirate laugh, though. So, I need you to just mentally think of a stereotypical pirate belly-laugh. Or do your best impression of one out loud, with no explanation, and confuse those around you 😂
Love ya guys. Will be active when my body lets me. Until then, I’ll be a 3/4 pirate, completely unable to open either ayyyye, and battling SPS like there’s a treasure chest filled with gold things waiting for me (it is in my bio. It’s also been in my blog’s theme for several years. I don’t hide my love of gold things. I am also “fun-sized,” though, so I may be more of a pirate-leprechaun hybrid. I mean, pirates hide their treasure and mine is viSIBLE ON MY BLOG, WALLS, SHEETS, PILLOWCASE, AND PROBABLY MORE, so I don’t conceal my treasure lol. I’M MAKING FUN WITH WHAT I HAVE TO WORK WITH, OK?! 😉)
ANYWAYS (lol), EYE love you and think of you guys, even when it’s not always smooth sailing.
I hope to see the shoreline soon, so I can stare out at the midnight sea (“midnight” is also in my blog title. Just saying. I’m much more open than my eyes are lol) 🌊
Fighting to get the gold 🏆,
Madeline (embracing folklore to avoid crying over tough times. Thanks for folklore, Taylor 💛)
To Swiftie friends I can’t msg or text rn,
I’m so sorry. I’m not ignoring you. I think of you often. I’m enduring health challenges that are nothing new, just nothing better and things up and down as usual. I can open an eye rn, so I’m typing this while my body allows.
I will msg fully when I can. Rn, I can’t. Fighting for my health with folklore and my service dog, Taylor, by my side. Stiff Person Syndrome is brutal. I am trying to chase shadows, myself, but not in the grocery line. I haven’t seen those in a while... I’m chasing SPS’s shadow in a body I’m trapped in, the home hospital bed I’ve been confined to so since March of 2019, and in the childhood bedroom I always dreamed of leaving to be free. SPS symptom-onset took that from me a month and a half from tomorrow (my “after” day, as I call it). I hope that day is ok, but it does hold a place of heartbreak that I cannot yet overcome.
Today is the year and a half anniversary of the day before things went wrong with SPS, back when I was still changing for the better. Today is one year and a half from what I call my “before day.” I’ve been dreading this day for months: the day where I thought I’d be ok and my goals, future, and dreams were intact. To be fighting a severe ear infection (causing my SPS to flare up) is heartbreaking. To be fighting it on the year and a half anniversary of the last day before my body was stolen from me... that is so much harder than I imagined. I could use well-wishes in DMs or in my inbox, if you choose. When my eye spasm pauses and opens again, reading kind words in there would be lovely. If you cannot or don’t want to, I understand. Just please don’t think I don’t care about you, this fandom, this album, and TS because I care so much.
I wish you all the best. I hope you are doing well. I’m trying. I will message when I physically can. I’m scared and sad, but I’ve battled SPS for almost a year and a half... at least I’m no stranger to pain. I hope to speak to any of you soon and be more active ASAP. Just have to get my body on board, first.
With all the love in the world, with you all on my mind, and with my favorite album ever, folklore, in my heart,
💓Madeline
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