#made bangladesh with blood

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1. The journey to independence was paved with sacrifice and courage. We honor those who fought valiantly for our freedom. Their blood nourished the roots of our nation. 🇺🇸✊

[brownbitchshit]

I currently have 700+ followers. And I will urge all of you to read about what is happening in Bangladesh. What has happened in Bangladesh. I am adding irrelevant tags of the fandoms I follow to garner more attention. I apologize in advance.

The government of Bangladesh killed pressumably 950+ people, innocent people, students, all because they demanded a system that will give them government jobs based on merit rather than quota. To suppress the students Sheikh Hasina and its government imposed 5 days of total internet blackout. While imposing this blackout they killed off anyone of the streets. They killed people from helicopters by shooting and throwing grenades. Many kids died in their own homes as the bullet shot them through their window.

Sheikh Hasina and its police took away all the dead bodies and the death registries from the hospital. The official death toll is 200. But various journalistic and medical staff sources confirm the death toll is over 950 in Dhaka alone.

That monster of a PM didn't acknowledge the death of the students. Instead she is crying over the infrastructure vandalism. I request you,rise up and speak out about this. Educate yourself and let other people know. The internet blackout have suppressed the truth at large. The Bangladeshi people are in deep surveillance and the government have made 2000+ arrests on false charges just because they have shared the Information. There is mass fear mongering. I know most of you people are not Bangladeshis and that's why you need to help us and speak up about it. Join your local protests, share the news in your social media, twitter Instagram. I beg you, don't let my people's murderers get away with it. Don't let my people's death be forgotten.

I am attaching some links for you to understand the horror of it all.

This Facebook page Bringing justice to you has documented all the horrors and the massacres that happened on Bangladeshi people. TW : all kinds of blood, gore, death bodies, every single horrible things imaginable but shows what went down.

This ig page is also another page that brings you the horror stories.

https://www.instagram.com/thebangladeshivoice?igsh=YXBpdzQyem54cmZj

Al-Jazeera has been a very credible news source while the Bangladesh was under blackout. They have made several segments. I am attaching the latest one.

UN Human Rights have called out Bangladesh for explanation regarding the crackdown

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Amnesty International's report of Bangladesh government using lethal weapon against its people and mass murder

There are many more contents, proof and videos to show you the horrors that was unfolded in the crackdown. Sheikh Hasina killed her people like insects and violated every single human rights imaginable. Please share these. Support us. Help us. I beg you all.

[steveyockey]

Measuring purely by confirmed kills, the worst mass murderer ever executed by the United States was the white supremacist terrorist Timothy McVeigh. On April 19, 1995, McVeigh detonated a massive bomb at the Murrah federal building in Oklahoma City, killing 168 people, including 19 children. The government killed McVeigh by lethal injection in June 2001. Whatever hesitation a state execution provokes, even over a man such as McVeigh — necessary questions about the legitimacy of killing even an unrepentant soldier of white supremacy — his death provided a measure of closure to the mother of one of his victims. “It’s a period at the end of a sentence,” said Kathleen Treanor, whose 4-year old McVeigh killed.

McVeigh, who in his own psychotic way thought he was saving America, never remotely killed on the scale of Kissinger, the most revered American grand strategist of the second half of the 20th century.

The Yale University historian Greg Grandin, author of the biography Kissinger’s Shadow, estimates that Kissinger’s actions from 1969 through 1976, a period of eight brief years when Kissinger made Richard Nixon’s and then Gerald Ford’s foreign policy as national security adviser and secretary of state, meant the end of between three and four million people. That includes “crimes of commission,” he explained, as in Cambodia and Chile, and omission, like greenlighting Indonesia’s bloodshed in East Timor; Pakistan’s bloodshed in Bangladesh; and the inauguration of an American tradition of using and then abandoning the Kurds.

No infamy will find Kissinger on a day like today. Instead, in a demonstration of why he was able to kill so many people and get away with it, the day of his passage will be a solemn one in Congress and — shamefully, since Kissinger had reporters like CBS’ Marvin Kalb and The New York Times’ Hendrick Smith wiretapped — newsrooms. Kissinger, a refugee from the Nazis who became a pedigreed member of the “Eastern Establishment” Nixon hated, was a practitioner of American greatness, and so the press lionized him as the cold-blooded genius who restored America’s prestige from the agony of Vietnam.

Not once in the half-century that followed Kissinger’s departure from power did the millions the United States killed matter for his reputation, except to confirm a ruthlessness that pundits occasionally find thrilling. America, like every empire, champions its state murderers. The only time I was ever in the same room as Henry Kissinger was at a 2015 national-security conference at West Point. He was surrounded by fawning Army officers and ex-officials basking in the presence of a statesman.

[reasonsforhope]

"Lead is a neurotoxin; it causes premature deaths and lifelong negative effects. It’s said “there is no safe level of lead exposure” — as far as we know, any lead causes damage, and it just gets worse the more exposure there is.

After a 20-year, worldwide campaign, in 2021 Algeria became the final country to end leaded gasoline in cars — something the US phased out in 1996. That should make a huge difference to environmental lead levels. But lots of sources remain, from car batteries to ceramics...

Bangladesh phased out leaded gasoline in the 1990s. But high blood lead levels have remained. Why? When researchers Stephen Luby and Jenny Forsyth, doing work in rural Bangladesh, tried to isolate the source, it turned out to be a surprising one: lead-adulterated turmeric.

Turmeric, a spice in common use for cooking in South Asia and beyond, is yellow, and adding a pigment made of lead chromate makes for bright, vibrant colors — and better sales. Buyers of the adulterated turmeric were slowly being poisoned...

But there’s also good news: A recent paper studying lead in turmeric in Bangladesh found that researchers and the Bangladeshi government appear to have driven lead out of the turmeric business in Bangladesh.

How Bangladesh got serious about lead poisoning

The researchers who’d isolated turmeric as the primary cause of high blood lead levels —working for the nonprofit International Center for Diarrheal Disease Research, Bangladesh — went to meet with government officials. They collected samples nationwide and published a 2019 follow-up paper on the extent of the problem. Bangladesh’s Food Safety Authority got involved.

They settled on a two-part approach, starting with an education campaign to warn people about the dangers of lead. Once people had been warned that lead adulteration was illegal, they followed up with raids to analyze turmeric and fine sellers who were selling adulterated products.

They posted tens of thousands of fliers informing people about the risks of lead. They got coverage in the news. And then they swept through the markets with X-ray fluorescence analyzers, which detect lead. They seized contaminated products and fined sellers.

According to the study released earlier this month, this worked spectacularly well. “The proportion of market turmeric samples containing detectable lead decreased from 47 percent pre-intervention in 2019 to 0 percent in 2021,” the study found. And the vanishing of lead from turmeric had an immediate and dramatic effect on blood lead levels in the affected populations, too: “Blood lead levels dropped a median of 30 percent.”

The researchers who helped make that result happen are gearing up for similar campaigns in other areas where spices are adulterated.

The power of problem-solving

...When the Food Safety Authority showed up at the market and started issuing fines for lead adulteration, it stopped being a savvy business move to add lead. Purchasers who were accustomed to unnatural lead-colored turmeric learned how to recognize non-adulterated turmeric. And so lead went from ubiquitous to nearly nonexistent in the space of just a few years.

That’s a better world for everyone, from turmeric wholesalers to vulnerable kids — all purchased at a shockingly low price. The paper published this month concludes, “with credible information, appropriate technology, and good enough governance, the adulteration of spices can be stopped.”

There’s still a lot more to be done. India, like Bangladesh, has widespread adulteration of turmeric. And safety testing will have to remain vigilant to prevent lead in Bangladesh from creeping back into the spice supply.

But for all those caveats, it’s rare to see such fast, decisive action on a major health problem — and impressive to see it immediately rewarded with such a dramatic improvement in blood lead levels and health outcomes. It’s a reminder that things can change, and can change very quickly, as long as people care, and as long as they act."

-via Vox, September 20, 2023

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Do you guys know what was the biggest surrender of our history after world war two?

It was the surrender of Pakistani military against Bangladeshi

On 16 December 1971.

But today I didn't grab your attention only to give you some random history facts.

We Bangladeshi students need your help! So please read this article till the end

After the partition of the Indian region in 1947, two independent nations were born.One India and one Pakistan.

The country of Pakistan was divided into two parts, East Pakistan, currently Bangladesh and West Pakistan, currently Pakistan.

But the distance between the two regions was thousands of kilometers. So uniting them into one singular nation was definitely foolish.

To think that the partition actually happened because of religion is laughable on itself but this is a topic of debate for another blog.

Even though we got our freedom from the British empire the people of East Pakistan kept on getting exploited by the west pakistan government.

Note, from now on I will refer to East Pakistan only as Bangladesh because the way we were exploited by our own so called government which only resided on the west pakistan and left us on poverty clearly indicates they never saw us as their own people.

Pakistan didn't only exploit us politically and financially, but they also tried to take away our unique Bengali identity from us.

They banned our traditional Bengali festivals like Noboborso (which is Bengali new year) They tried to ban Rabindra sangeet in fact, they even tried to replace our Bengali alphabet with the Urdu alphabet.

People were already protesting against it and were participating in every traditional festival

But the elastic snapped when they tried to take away our mother tongue, Bangla

When a pakistani politician made the announcement that "Urdu and only Urdu will be the only national language of Pakistan" in Dhaka university's convocation, it was the students who roared in disapproval.

In 1952, breaking the curfew, students and common people went on a protest for our mother language Bangla.

The police started to shoot them and the soil of Bangladesh became stained with blood and Bangla became the only language for people had given up their lives.

That's why we celebrate "Sahid dibos" and "international mother language day" on 21st February.

Throughout the fight for our existence, freedom and culture, students of our nation had always played a crucial role.

They also made a student's political party "Chatro league"

After the election of 1970, when the Pakistani government didn't agree to give power to the Bangladeshi political party "Awami league" our students again started to organize protests and other activities

Finally "Awami league" ordered for a mass protest. 2nd march Dhaka and 3rd march the whole Bangladesh was shut down.

On 2nd march 11 am "Chatro league" students hoisted the flag of Bangladesh in Dhaka university.

All this information dump was for you all to understand how the students of Bangladesh had always played a crucial part in our liberation.

Our students have always been fierce and had stood up for injustice even if they had to sacrifice their life for it.

And right now history is repeating itself!!!

Again students are getting attacked because of their protests but this time, it was our so-called "chatro league" and the government who are doing this inhumane act.

They are beating the students with rods, throwing bricks at them and even police are shooting them.

Only because we wanted the quota policy to demolish. Only because we wanted equal opportunity for civil jobs.

On 25th march 1971, the Pakistani military committed genocide in Dhaka. They attacked sleeping students in Dhaka university and protesters on roads who were still protesting at night.

And now the same thing is happening, history is repeating itself.

Students of public universities are getting attacked in their own dorm rooms, they are getting beaten to death by the so-called "chatro league" members. There are screenshots of the chatro league leaders group chats flothing around the internet where they command the other members to stab the protester students.

There was a time when Chatro league claimed they always stood up when our mother and sisters needed protection

And now those same people are beating up those same sisters they vowed to protect

The police are shooting the protesters like they did in 1952 language movement

The only difference is in the past we were oppressed by another nation's government

But this time it's our own people who are causing our student's blood to stain our roads.

Please do not ignore us. Reblog this post or use the hastag #savebangladeshistudents to create awareness

[myauditionfordrphil]

Ok I'mma vent this out at once and will try to not utter a word about this cursed night again. India deserved this cup, they really did. Because if there's been a team who performed the best and embodied the spirit and passion of cricket it's been India. They did their best from the very first game against Australia... Jaddu's wickets (especially Smith's), the top order collapse and King and Rahul's partnership winning us the game (also Rahul's 97). Then came Afghanistan and Bangladesh - Rohit's century, Virat in delhi (vs Naveen, their hug), Hardik's injury resulting in our dear Cheeku's bowling, KL refusing runs to complete Virat's century, Ro - Vi - Rah hug 🤌and ofc umpire not giving the wide. The Pakistan rivalry came into the tournament but our streak was saved when we defeated them 8 - 0. Then came the most dreaded match against New Zealand - Vi's missed century was definitely a sore spot but the revenge was completed. Shami being shami showing why you should not bench him with his fifer and Jaddu hitting the final runs to avenge Mahi Bhai. England and Sri Lanka were no match - they were destroyed by our balling - the only good thing was Gill's knock, Shreyas' century and ofc RohiRat hugs ✨. We made a Sri Lanka out of South Africa with the King getting a century on his b'day and destroyed Netherlands but the main part was Virat and Rohit taking wickets. Then came the semis against NZ and honestly the whole desiblr was scared as fuck bcz of our history but Revenge was taken... Kohli shattering all records and hitting his 50th century making us prouder than ever (anushka's kisses and bowing to the God Sachin will forever be remembered) and Shami's 7 wickets, like is there a way to stop Lalaji bcz I can't think of one (amd what's this 7 factor? 397 runs, all out at 327, won by 70 runs, shami taking 7 wickets ? tribute to Thala ig). But it all came down to this, we lost the finals... After all this we lost, 1.5 billion hearts are broken, the 12 year wait continues. But this tournament will never be forgotten, we laughed and we cried with our team and supported them at every step. We saw moments we'll never forget, we made memories seeing records being broken and our boys having the time of their lives, hugging and dancing on the field and being more excited for the mighty fielding medal than the actual match itself. So this tournament will forever be remembered. You'd expect me to say congratulations to Australia but no, they played well ofc but no team played cricket better than India... Just bcz this team didn't performed in one single match didn't mean that they didn't deserve to win this. Kohli gave all of his soul, Rohit made this team what it is and Shami gutted all his haters but sadly luck was not on our side. After winning all 10 matches our unbeaten streak got broken in the finals only. Yes I'm heartbroken to core but at the same time I'm bloody proud of our boys who gave everything they had, your heads should be held high. In my own delusional world India won this cup and not just team India but the whole country. In my mind we are the winners and the team got the prize for their blood, sweat and tears. You'll all be remembered forever as champions.

Bleed blue 🩵

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Ryoko and Sumire doodle

Rambling under the cut

I keep going back and forth on what I want the characters' names to be. Specifically, in terms of the Aishi family, the only source I've found suggesting Aishi to be a real last name says it only exists in Bangladesh, but it is a first name both in India and more importantly Japan, and its meaning is symbolically relevant enough that I kind of want to keep it. The name I'd been using as a replacement just means "white rock" which isn't really interesting. I also have gone back and forth about the whole "they keep the women's last name" thing. Right now, I'm thinking that instead of the Aishi family's condition being localized entirely within one bloodline, it's more like real-life mental illnesses (specifically modeling it after ones I have experience with like BPD which caused me to initially relate so heavily to Ayano) and is based on growing up in unhealthy environments and suffering other traumatic occurrences like abuse and abandonment. I do like that the family, according to the wiki, canonically runs a textiles company which is the in-universe explanation for the Aishi family taking Ayano's mom's maiden name, and I do plan on keeping that because I like Ayano as a seamstress, but I think I want to have the Aishi surname come from her father.

Re: Ryoko, Ryoba is just a word, it just means a double-edged blade, and it was chosen as a "feminine" version of Ryobo, which is also just a word. Ryoko on the other hand is actually a name, and one whose notable meanings include "cool (also used for "unsympathetic") child", "enduring (also used for "invading") child", or "wise child". For her specifically, I imagine it being spelled 凌子, which would make it "enduring child". Mitarai refers to washing or "purifying" yourself before entering a shrine, and is sometimes translated roughly to "please wash your hands", which was one that made me laugh for quite a while. Regardless, I chose this because I like the idea of washing as purification for someone like Ryoko who is literally washing blood off her hands.

Ryoko has a perm because those were popular in the 80s, including in Japan. I didn't draw it great but eh.

Sumire's school uniform was swapped out for a from-memory doodle of a ripped-up kimono. It turned out frankly abysmal, but that's where the "ghost girl in a white dress" trope originally began. Also tying to old depictions of onryo, Sumire's body fades out the closer to her hands and feet it gets, except for the one ring finger.

The "string of fate" between them mostly represents that Ryoko was the one to kill Sumire. It turning black as it approaches her is of course representative of Sumire's death. The way it's tangled around her is kinda like. She was wrapped up and caught by it, and unable to free herself kinda deal.

I imagine Sumire is kinda like. barely there, just enough that her presence can kinda be felt. She's hardly conscious or aware, but she's confused and angry, and that bitterness can be felt through the whole school. It's the feeling that someone is always persecuting you, always looking down on you, always waiting with bated breath to see you suffer. If she were more aware, present or powerful, she may attempt to seek revenge on Ryoko by killing Ayano in a very gruesome way, so that Ryoko feels the most pain and trauma she is capable of feeling from her daughter's death.

[arachneofthoughts]

এক ফালি ইতিহাস

A Slice of History

So my father went to the Kolkata International Bookfair or any Bangali's favourite Boimela. He saw a stall of Sulekha inks...The Sulekha inks and of course he had to explore.

Let me share with you a brief history of Sulekha....

Around 1932 Satish Das Gupta, an ex-chemist of Bengal Chemicals prepares Swadeshi ink, names it Krishnadhara and sells it through Khadi outlets. He then hands the recipe over to Maitra brothers Shankaracharya and Nani Gopal and asked them to make the ink commercially and call it Sulekha ( there is also a story which claims Kobiguru Rabindranath Thakur gave them the name সুলেখা or Sulekha ). After years of an illustrious journey they closed around 1990 and then reopened in 2006.

So my father purchased three things. Two inks and a notebook.

The first ink is a blood red ink called সেলাম ( Selaam or Salaam ). It was made as a gift to Bangladesh commemorating The Language Movement ( ভাষা আন্দোলন ). At first 21 bottles were gifted as a tribute to 21st February. And the creator of the ink mixed in a drop of his blood in the first 21 bottles. Then the ink became popular and was manufactured more. It is a beautiful red colour...and every drop of this ink holds in it the memories of every drop of blood shed for my beloved Bangla Bhasha.

The second ink is a vibrant green. Coloured just like the green of India's Tiranga. This ink was formulated on the day after India's Independence. It is called Swadhin or স্বাধীন.

The third is a notebook made in collaboration with jamini Ray's family. And I absolutely love that notebook.

[ca-suffit]

Thank you for being the only blog to bring up the subject of Armand as a muslim. As a muslim viewer, it does bother me. Islamically I'm not supposed to feel honored by it, because it's haram. Haram meaning forbidden. Thanks for giving us a platform to speak even anonymously to you about our concerns. Armand is NOT a good representation of Islam. He's a vampire, the most haram thing there is. He's indulging in sin. Now the question arises as to why I still watch. (apart from Jacob Anderson's portrayal of Louis the most amazing Louis thus far) I watch the show because I enjoy the other aspects of it but I do confess that when I found out the show made Armand a muslim I was gobsmacked. We see Armand praying; why is he praying as a vampire? I'm so confused, representation wise. I hope they explain this clearly in the show. How will they explain his past as a muslim if it comes up? The actor is from Bangladesh according to Google, same as me! I was elated. But it bothers me how they are using "representation" for Muslims in this way. I don't find anything wrong with following my religion as it is without the need to modernize it through media. Islam is fine for me as it is, which means I do find it uncomfortable to see Armand as a Muslim vampire indulging in sin and drinking blood, etc. Those who are non Muslims and think they have a say what we should be seeing on our screens, and popularizing the modern muslim, are Islamophobic. I'm sorry but non muslims do not speak for us. As someone who is practicing, I find it offensive when non muslims speak against what practicing Muslims believe in. There are so many racists/xenophobes/islamophobes etc in the fandom that I kept my mouth shut till now.

I'm not going to stop watching, but I think blogs should be more open to discussing this.

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[nattosushi]

Thoughts on Armand from IWTV 2022

First of all, I tend to get biased with characters that I like, and this usually means that I would end up choosing the most favourable interpretation as well as giving them the benefit of the doubt. While I know that everyone has different views and doesn’t mind hearing them, I am also very stubborn in regard to my views. So a lot of the time, it would be an agree to disagree situation. And Assad Zaman has become my current celebrity crush, which makes me even more biased. So, if you are still reading this, don’t say that I didn’t warn you.

Also- am I bad person for loving Armand in episode 5?

In regard to my background regarding the Vampire Chronicles. These are the books I have read

Interview with the vampire

The vampire Lestat

The Queen of the Damned

Pandora

The vampire Armand

Merrick

Blood and Gold

I always feel that Armand’s book is the last of the traditional biography of the said vampire. Even though ‘Blood and Gold’ is Marius’ story, I feel that in addition to a large part of his story being told by Armand and Pandora, he did not really add anything new in his book. Ironically, I feel that he made himself look worse by trying to tell his story. But upon reading Armand’s book, Armand immediately became my favourite character. And Assad Zaman did such a good job that I think even if I didn’t already like Armand, I might have liked him anyway.

This does result in the question of how far should we stay true to the book? At one hand, Armand’s appearance is definitely something most readers have a very strong image of, but at the other hand, the actor did a perfect job portraying Armand despite his physical appearance being a complete contrast of the book. By staying completely true to the book, Assad Zaman would never have been chosen, which means we miss out on this amazing actor and his performance. His Armand is just perfect with that sense of hidden power and tranquil fury.

Season 1

I actually started watching the whole series already knowing that Rashid is Armand, but I would definitely have been surprised at the reveal if I did not. Because Armand is probably one of the characters that the reader has a very strong image of in regard to his personal appearance- a seventeen years old youth with red hair. Who is also Eastern European/Russian with a strong Eastern Orthodox association.

This is pretty much the opposite of Rashid, who is in his twenties and is of Asiatic appearance. His ‘race’ as Rashid is never made clear, since Daniel guessed that he was from Uzbekistan, and could be of Kazakh or Crimean Tartar heritage. Just because the actor is of South Asian heritage- his parents are both from Bangladesh, it does not mean that the TV character would be from there too. All that it implies is that he is not Caucasian, ie.not where book Armand is from.

There is also the issue of Rashid being a Muslim, and I think this is a deliberate red herring, because Armand in Season 2 never once prayed or even make any mentioning of his heritage. It is a rather elaborate ruse, but I would like to point out that this is the person who brought a whole island, as well as spending months studying a certain appliance. So if anyone would do this, it would be him. But we obviously never get any clear image of Armand’s character, saved for the last five minutes, where he toss the book to Daniel (and I totally love that scene).

Season 2

I did not start binge watching the series until I read the script for the last episode. But even without doing that, I feel that Armand and Louis were not going to stay together. So I wasn’t really surprised at them parting, but what surprised me was that I started watching with the hope that they would somehow stay together, to feeling that the two of them should part. I don’t think that they are good for one another. Just as Armand is bad for Louis, Louis is bad for Armand too. Even though Armand was manipulating Louis’ memory and clinging onto the other, Louis is also taking advantage of Armand too, I feel that he is pushing Armand into doing things that the other does not want to, as well as relying on the others to protect and help him without actually reciprocating.

The whole maître thing really bugs me because it overrides into their daily life, which is problematic when Armand is actually victim of various rape and trauma due to being sold to a brothel, as well as being victim of grooming by Marius that does involve sexual trauma. Not to mention the additional factor of him being given to others, which, at the most generous view, is still that of manipulation (and that is presuming Armand did not mind too much, which is most likely not the case, which is why I say this is the most generous view, and even that is still not good).

One could argue that Armand made the conscious choice, but did he really understand? This might simply be because this is all that he knew. But unlike Armand, Louis should have known better, especially given what he went through with Lestat. This is almost a case of victim turned abuser. Although that is my biased pro-Armand view, because Armand could have refused, since he is still much more powerful. But I feel that given his mental state and his fear of losing someone he loves, he would simply submit to whatever the other person want.

I think that a reason that Louis called Armand boring is because Armand is completely pacifying and catering to Louis. Even though at a glance, this seems great, most people would end up being annoyed, especially if they know that this is not what the other is like, but merely them doing this to please you. But the sad thing is that Armand feel that he has to play this role (and the whole maître thing definitely does not help).

It seems that the whole dominate/submissive role extends to other aspect of their life, because at the end of Episode 8, when Louis tell Armand to not harm Daniel, he actually expects Armand to obey, despite the fact that there is no way that he would be able to kill Armand. And to make it worse, he seems to have left Daniel in Dubai with Armand. I really hope that Season 3 would call out Louis on this. Louis left Daniel with someone that is very dangerous, and in a mentally unstable place due to what happened. Rightly or wrongly, Armand would obviously see Daniel as being the cause of Louis’ departure. Louis cannot kill him and the thing Armand fear the most from Louis is rejection and abandonment, which has already happened, so why on earth would he worry about harming Daniel? I feel that him turning to Daniel cannot be from spite, because if Armand wanted to be spiteful, he would probably do something like torturing Daniel. But regardless of the reason, Louis leaving Daniel is definitely super irresponsible.

I was really shocked at Episode 2, because the vampires in the coven seems quite happy with one another, and Armand is clearly accepted as the leader. I really do think that the welcome Louis and Claudia got from the theatre at the first night was not an act. I actually feel that Louis’ arrival began to drive a wedge between Armand and the rest, since Armand is clearly allowing Louis to get away with a lot of the rules. Of course, at the end of the day, this is still Armand’s decision to make, but I do feel that Louis’ arrival was the catalyst. Someone did point out that Louis probably feel that he has to act more assertive due to what happened with Lestat, which is understandable, only that this does end up undermining Armand’s authority.

I can understand why Armand choose the coven due to suspecting that Louis’ affection might not last. After all, there is the fact that Louis does not know the real him, as Armand is presenting himself as what Louis think he should be. He also knew that part of the reason Louis picked him is due to Louis being mad at Lestat. I think in a way, Louis represented a chance that he was not sure whether he should make a risk for, and perhaps he is constantly darting between the two choices until the theatre was burnt.

However, as someone pointed out, at the end, Armand will accept defeat and let the other go. Even though he would do whatever he could to prevent that situation from happening- such as the manipulation of the memories- when it does come, he would be able to give it up. At the end of Episode 8, he could have retained Louis by force, because he is much stronger, yet he just watched the other leave.

I do have to point out that there is one thing that I really dislike about Louis in season 2, which is also the moment that made me decide that it will be good for both of them to part, is when he tried to convince Armand to make Madeleine into a vampire. That was the classic case of emotional manipulation, the sense of ‘if you love me, you will do this thing that you do not like, because I want it’. The idea of not making a fledgling is probably the strongest in Armand, so I do not believe that Louis would not know this. This is an ironic echo of Armand getting Florence and Grace’s name mixed up. Yes, he does not truly know Louis, but Louis does not truly know Armand either. Also, the way Louis mentions Madeleine’s dead sister. If he really is concerned about Claudia being a replacement, then this should be mentioned in private, or at the very least, not in a public setting.

At the end of the day, Armand and Louis’s relationship is just doomed to fail since neither of them are really ready for a new relationship. I actually really support the idea of Armand and Daniel now (I admit, this is partly because I have been reading a lot of fan fictions with these two).

The reason that I feel that Daniel is really good for Armand is because Daniel can see past the acts and lies Armand would try to use. Unlike the book Daniel, the TV Daniel is much older and have more experience with life. I feel that Daniel would be able to accept Armand for who he is, and even though there would be times when he disagrees, they would be able to solve the issue properly. While Daniel might criticise or disapprove of certain actions, at the end of the day, he would remain by Armand. I feel that because Daniel has experienced life, he and Armand would actually be able to have a fairly equal relationship. They would be the classic case of doing a lot of crazy stuff behind closed doors, but does not let this affect their daily life.

My theory of the turning is that the devil minion arc did happen, only that it is different from the book due to Armand causing Daniel to lose his memory and feel that it is better for him to live a mortal life (which is similar to what he said in the book). However, perhaps due to reaching a new understanding, or due to Daniel’s condition worsening, he would decide to turn Daniel into a vampire. He probably then left due to the fear of fledgling hating their maker, which is reasonable since he is probably still in a really vulnerable status due to Louis leaving him. I feel this is very symbolic because Armand usually just stays in a bad situation due to being afraid of the alternative.

I was flipping through ‘Queen of the Damned’ and Khayman’s description of Armand is extremely interesting.

Khayman sought for the name, but the creature’s mind was a perfect blank; not so much as a glimmer of personality escaped from it. A boy he had been when he died, with straight dark auburn hair, and eyes a little too big for his face…Armand immediately attracted Khayman. Surely, he was the same Armand of whom Louis and Lestat had both written- the immortal with the form of a youth. And it meant he was no more than five hundred years old, yet he veiled himself completely. Shrewd, cold he seemed, yet without flair- a stance that required no room in which to display itself. And now, sensing infallibly that he was watched, he turned his large soft brown eyes upward and fixed instantly upon the remote figure of Khayman.

And a few paragraphs later

Khayman understood this being, Armand. He felt he understood him and liked him completely. As their yes met again, all that had been written of this creature in the two little histories was informed and balanced by the creature’s innate simplicity. The loneliness which Khayman had felt in Athens was now very strong. “Not unlike my simple soul,” Khayman whispered. “You’re lost in all this because you know the terrain too well. And that no matter how far you walk, you come again to the same mountains, the same valley.” No response. Of course. Khayman shrugged and smiled. To this one he’d give anything that he could; and guilelessly, he let Armand know it.

I just thought that this was a really interesting description and it is also nice to know that Armand does have someone (especially someone super powerful) in his corner.

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Explore The Best Breakfast Choices For Weight Loss 

The first meal of the day is breakfast. Breakfast is good for your mental and physical well-being. Healthy food gives the body what it needs to start the day by replenishing blood sugar or glucose.

Breakfast is crucial for individuals of all ages, particularly kids and teenagers. Breakfast eaters are more likely to be more focused, capable of solving problems, and have better hand-eye coordination. 

They might also be more creative and aware. A hearty and nutritious breakfast generally helps prevent many lifestyle disorders, including diabetes, PCOD, and hypertension.

In English, "breakfast" means ending the fast from the previous night. There are a variety of "typical" or "traditional" breakfast alternatives, with cuisine selections varying globally based on geography and custom.

5 Simple Vegan Breakfast Ideas

There are plenty of vegan breakfast options available. Your morning meal with a delicious vegan spread gives your body the nutrition it needs. Nonetheless, milk, bread and butter, an omelette, and scrambled eggs make up the majority of Indians' breakfasts. Here are some vegan options for Indian breakfast that you can try from ToneOp:

1. Roti/Paratha With Vegan Curd Or Sabzi

A great and easy vegan breakfast option is paratha/roti with sabzi, a North Indian breakfast classic. To make a complete meal, add some vegan curd to the mixture. Steer clear of butter and ghee when cooking. To make your paratha even more delicious and nutrient-dense, stuff it with veggies like potatoes, cauliflower, radish, and coriander.

2. Dosa/Idli With Chutney And Sambar

Sambar and idli/dosa make a pretty simple breakfast. Sambar is a hot curry with vegetables, including onion, carrots, and tomatoes. Since split black gram and rice are used to make idli/dosa, they are high in fibre. Together, they make a delicious vegan breakfast.

3. Upma

Upma, also known as rava upma, is a traditional breakfast dish that is a savoury porridge prepared with a mixture of vegetables and semolina. This makes a tasty and nutritious dinner, especially with filter coffee or vegan chai.

4. Besan Chilla 

In North India, besan chillas are a well-known dish that is both vegan and gluten-free. They are made by creating crepes using a spicy chickpea flour batter, which is easy to prepare.

5. Dalia

Dalia, also called broken wheat porridge, is a well-liked and nourishing vegan breakfast option. It is tasty and an excellent source of fibre, protein, and essential nutrients such as iron and magnesium. 

7 Recipes For Egg Breakfasts

Here are a few recipes for egg breakfasts:

1. Mughlai Paratha

The quintessential Indian staple, parthas go well with almost anything. One such variation with a sizable fan base is Mughlai Paratha. From West Bengal, India, to Bangladesh, people love the traditional Bengali street food known as mughlai paratha, fried to perfection and loaded with eggs.

2. Baked Eggs

Onions, cherry tomatoes, and other seasonings are added to whisked eggs before they are cooked to perfection. It produces one of the greatest breakfasts, full of protein.

3. Parsi Eggs

Scrambled eggs with subtle spices, a traditional Parsi dish, are eaten with bread, buns, or pav.

4. Indian Style Omelet

Stir-fried spicy eggs with tomatoes, onions, and fragrant spices. A quick, easy, and savoury typical Indian morning food is the masala omelette. It's a fantastic high-protein breakfast option from India. 

5. Bhurji Egg

Nothing matches a spicy, delicious egg bhurji paired with parathas for a hearty breakfast. All vegetarians love this scrambled egg recipe since it is so easy and quick to make.

6. Cheese And Egg Wrap

The most portable and all-inclusive source of nutrients is an egg. Protein, vitamins, and minerals like calcium, phosphorus, iron, and lecithin are all included. While there are many methods to cook eggs, the three most common ones in this recipe for breakfast are scrambled, poached, and boiled.

7. Sandwich Egg With Mayo 

The mayo sandwich is a quick, simple, and distinctive recipe. Its origins are in British cooking. 

7 Breakfast Choices For Professionals In The Workforce

Replace the standard breakfast menu with these delicious and nourishing alternatives:

1. Vegetable and cottage cheese sandwich

2. Substituted Chicken

3. Chaat Fruit

4. Fresh Fruit and Oatmeal

5. The Sandwich Tiranga

5. Poha

7. Sprout Cutlets with Moong

The Advantages Of Eating Breakfast

Individuals who consume a nutritious breakfast are more likely to experience the following advantages:

Increases your level of focus and productivity all day long. This may be the result of glucose, the brain's main energy supply, being restored. 

Eating breakfast can help people lose weight by lowering their appetite later in the day, which helps them avoid junk food at later meals. 

People who eat breakfast tend to be more energetic and exercise more than many people who skip breakfast. It keeps them in shape and busy.

Research indicates that people who eat a nutritious breakfast consume less cholesterol than those who don't.

The Final Say

Having a nutritious breakfast is essential for individuals of all ages since it enhances focus, productivity, and energy levels. It also helps prevent lifestyle disorders such as diabetes, PCOD, and hypertension. There are numerous vegan and egg-based breakfast options that are both delicious and nutritious. Furthermore, substituting unhealthy breakfast choices with wholesome alternatives can provide nourishment and aid in weight loss

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oh i know, i know its the system and the capitalism and all the other things that tell me im caught here, but i can feel everything around me being made of blood. every made in china sticker, every factory made garment from bangladesh, all of it is just a global network of misery. and then if you're in india, all the land you live on is the product of caste exploitation. i sit on a highway that used to be farmland, my apartment was made by workers brought from Bihar. people hire domestic workers and pay them not enough to cook and then say shit like "you have to supervise them so it's better they come during holidays." the apartment is made with thin walls and no concept of having architectural solutions for the Indian summer heat, and that means i use the AC for two hours and feel guilty.

oh i know. i know the market hates me more than i hate myself. but sometimes i can really fucking give it competition because i AM the market. i can feel the loss of nights and years and time and labour for me to live a bare minimum of a decent life with zero stability because there are no non contractual jobs in my field and i hate that too because even that is eeked out by the misery of others. how much do those who have more live on top of bones? how much blood are we living on? every shampoo bottle reminds me only of the cost, the cost and more of the cost. when are we ever going to manage to balance the ledgers?

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The Regal Bengal tiger (Jaguar Tigris Tigris) is one of the most famous and loved creatures in the world.

The Regal Bengal tiger (Jaguar Tigris Tigris) is one of the most famous and loved creatures in the world. Known for its control, tastefulness, and striking appearance, this subspecies of tiger is local to the Indian subcontinent, essentially found in India, Bangladesh, Nepal, Bhutan, and Myanmar. As the national creature of India, the Regal Bengal tiger holds noteworthy social and biological significance, and its proceeded survival is a confirmation to the control of preservation efforts.

Physical Characteristics

The Illustrious Bengal tiger is the biggest tiger subspecies, with guys regularly weighing between 400 and 570 pounds (180 to 260 kilograms), and females being marginally littler. Grown-up guys can reach up to 10 feet in length, counting their tail. Their wonderful coat, a wealthy orange with dim dark stripes, gives camouflage in their thick woodland and prairie environments. Each tiger's design of stripes is special, much like human fingerprints. They moreover have a solid construct, with solid appendages and capable jaws competent of taking down expansive prey.

Their eyes are sharp, permitting them to chase in the dusk hours, as tigers are fundamentally crepuscular seekers. Their sharp claws and long teeth empower them to capture and repress their prey with exactness. The Regal Bengal tiger's senses—especially locate, scent, and hearing—are exceedingly adjusted for stalking and ambushing prey in their common environment.

Habitat and Distribution

The Illustrious Bengal tiger is basically found in the timberlands, meadows, and wetlands of the Indian subcontinent. They flourish in a assortment of situations, from tropical rainforests to the mangrove swamps of the Sundarbans, one of the biggest mangrove timberlands in the world, found in India and Bangladesh. India's national parks, such as Jim Corbett National Stop, Sundarbans National Stop, and Kaziranga National Stop, are basic territories for Bengal tigers, where they discover protect, prey, and breeding grounds.

These tigers are singular animals, with guys frequently setting up huge regions that can span over 50 square kilometers, whereas females ordinarily possess littler ranges. The estimate of a tiger’s domain depends on nourishment accessibility and the thickness of other tigers in the area.

Diet and Chasing Behavior

Royal Bengal tigers are summit predators, sitting at the best of the nourishment chain. They are carnivores and chase alone, utilizing stealth and technique to snare their prey. Their eat less comprises primarily of ungulates, such as sambar deer, chital (spotted deer), and nilgai, but they have too been known to chase littler warm blooded animals, feathered creatures, and reptiles. In certain districts like the Sundarbans, they may indeed capture angle or chase little crocodiles.

Tigers are understanding seekers, competent of stalking their prey for long separations some time recently propelling a shock assault. With their sharp claws, capable chomp, and extraordinary speed, they can slaughter prey much bigger than themselves. They regularly drag their slaughter to a secure, disconnected range where they can bolster without disturbance.

Conservation Status

The Regal Bengal tiger is classified as Imperiled by the Worldwide Union for Preservation of Nature (IUCN), with less than 3,000 people remaining in the wild. Living space misfortune, poaching, and human-wildlife strife have essentially affected their populace. Tigers confront the risk of poaching for their skin, bones, and other body parts, which are exceedingly esteemed in conventional medication and the illicit natural life trade.

However, preservation endeavors, especially India’s Venture Tiger (propelled in 1973), have had a noteworthy affect on tiger numbers. The foundation of ensured ranges, anti-poaching watches, and community inclusion have made a difference stabilize the populace in certain locales. The Indian government has moreover executed strict natural life assurance laws and conducted mindfulness campaigns to diminish human-wildlife conflict.

Cultural Significance

The Regal Bengal tiger has profound social and otherworldly noteworthiness, particularly in India. It is frequently seen as a image of quality, boldness, and control, and has been celebrated in Hindu mythology, where the goddess Durga is regularly delineated riding a tiger or lion, symbolizing the triumph of great over fiendish. Tigers too highlight noticeably in Indian craftsmanship, writing, and folklore.

Conclusion

The Illustrious Bengal tiger is not as it were a magnificent creature but moreover an basic portion of the biological system, playing a pivotal part in keeping up the adjust of their environments. As one of the world’s most imperiled expansive carnivores, it is crucial that preservation endeavors proceed to ensure these mind blowing animals. By protecting the Regal Bengal tiger, we are not as it were shielding a national treasure but moreover guaranteeing the wellbeing of the timberlands and environments in which they dwell. The future of the Regal Bengal tiger depends on the collective endeavors of governments, protectionists, and neighborhood communities to secure a secure and feasible environment for these wonderful creatures.

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MCT Oil

Product Description: MCT Oil (Medium Chain Triglycerides) by AgriLife is made from 100% MCTs derived from coconut oil.It provides quick energy, supports heart health, aids cognitive function, and promotes a healthy gut. Start incorporating it into your daily routine today!

Nutritional Value (Per Tablespoon/14 grams):NutrientValueCalories

120 kcalTotal Fat

14 grams  Saturated Fat

14 grams  Monounsaturated Fat

0 grams  Polyunsaturated Fat

0 gramsCholesterol

0 gramsSodium

0 mgTotal Carbohydrates

0 grams  Sugars

0 grams  Dietary Fiber

0 gramsProtein

0 grams

Calories: It has 120 calories per tablespoon (14 grams). It offers a quick strength source, making it ideal for physical activities and ketogenic dietary guidelines. Caprylic Triglyceride Oil advocates ketosis and fuels the body without the need for large food intake.

Fat Composition and Benefits: Each tablespoon includes 14 grams of saturated fat. MCTs are quickly metabolized, bypassing regular digestion and converting into vitality, perfect for athletes and those following keto diets. They help maintain energy levels throughout the day.

MCT Oil: A Natural Boost for Brain, Heart, and Gut Health

Weight Management: MCTs promote satiety and may enhance metabolism. Including MCT oil in your diet can sustain fat burning and increased energy expenditure, aiding in weight management.

Cognitive Function: Studies suggest MCTs may support cognitive function and mental performance, especially for individuals with neurological conditions like Alzheimer’s disease. They provide an alternative vigor source for the brain when glucose is unavailable.

Anti-Inflammatory: Research suggests MCTs may reduce inflammation and lower the risk of diseases linked to chronic inflammation.

Cholesterol Profile: Capric Triglyceride Oil contains 0 cholesterol per tablespoon, making it heart-healthy. Research suggests that MCTs may improve cholesterol levels by raising HDL (good) and lowering LDL (bad), potentially reducing heart disease risks.

Sodium-Free: With 0 mg of sodium per serving, this capric acid oil is ideal for individuals looking to reduce their sodium intake, supporting a heart-healthy, low-sodium diet.

Carbohydrate-Free: Caprylic Acid Oil holds no carbohydrates, sugars, or fiber, making it suitable for low-carb and ketogenic food plans. It helps maintain stable blood sugar levels.

Digestive Health: MCT oil’s antimicrobial properties may encourage a healthy gut microbiome, promoting digestive.

Suggested Dosage: Start with 1 teaspoon per day, gradually increasing to 1-2 tablespoons daily as tolerated.

Features

Fast absorption: Provides quick strength.

Weight management: Endorses weight

Cognitive function: Enhances brain health.

Digestive support: Improves gut function.

Energy boost: Ideal for athletes and bodybuilders.

Organic: Sourced from organic coconut oil.

Ketosis: Supports ketogenic diets.

Versatile: Great for cooking, beverages, and smoothies.

AgriLife MCT Oil | The Keto-Friendly Fat for Weight Loss and Energy

Specifications

Product Type: MCT Oil

Brand: AgriLife

100% Pure Coconut C8 MCT Oil

Contains Zero Palm Oil

8% C8 Purity

Weight: 250ml/500ml

Origin: Product Of Thailand

Ingredients

Compose of C8 and C10(Caprylic Acid and Capric Acid) C8 – 60%, C10 – 40%

Experience the benefits of AgriLife MCT Oil today! Boost your energy, support brain function, and maintain a heart-friendly lifestyle with this pure, cholesterol-free oil. Perfect for keto, low-carb diets, and anyone looking for a clean, natural energy source. Add to your daily routine and fuel your body with nourishing fats. Order now at an affordable price, available in Bangladesh (BD)!

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Discovering India’s Leading Heart Valve Replacement Hospitals

Overview

Heart valves play a crucial role in the effective operation of the cardiovascular system. Their primary function is to manage and regulate blood flow, facilitating its smooth passage through the chambers of the heart. However, various factors such as aging, genetic predispositions, or certain medical conditions can cause damage or disease to these valves, leading to impaired blood flow and potentially severe complications. When heart valve disease reaches an advanced stage, conventional treatments may not suffice in restoring ideal cardiac function. In such cases, heart valve replacement surgery becomes a feasible alternative.

Procedure of valve replacement surgery India

In situations where repairing the heart valve or conducting a catheter-based procedure is not an option, valve replacement may be necessary. In these instances, the most skilled heart valve replacement surgeons in India will excise the damaged valve and substitute it with either a mechanical valve or one made from biological materials such as cow, pig, or human heart tissue. It is important to note that biological valves may require replacement over time due to deterioration. Patients with mechanical valves may need to adhere to lifelong blood-thinning medication to mitigate the risk of blood clots. Additionally, a minimally invasive catheter technique may be utilized for the replacement of certain heart valves.

Best hospital for heart valve replacement in India the best option for Bangladesh patients?

Best hospitals for heart valve replacement in India are situated in prominent cities such as Delhi, Bangalore, Chennai, Hyderabad, Mumbai, Kolkata, and Pune. These institutions are staffed by some of the most skilled minimally invasive cardiac surgeons in the country, who are recognized internationally for their proficiency and capabilities. Recent research conducted by best hospitals for heart valve replacement in India, coupled with advancements in clinical technology, has allowed cardiac surgeons to perform repairs on the heart without the need to incise the breastbone.

Best hospital for heart valve replacement in India are equipped with cutting-edge facilities for the latest surgical procedures, featuring modern operating theatres, updated amenities, and well-maintained contemporary equipment, all aimed at providing exceptional healthcare and innovative surgical treatment strategies. The substantial number of patients coming to best hospital for heart valve replacement in India for heart valve replacement in India is a testament to the high-quality healthcare services provided in the country.

List of top 10 heart valve surgeon in India the most preferred by Bangladesh patients

Annually, the list of top 10 heart valve surgeon in India provides treatment to thousands of patients, both domestic and international, seeking heart valve replacement surgery. Consequently, India has gained international recognition for its exceptional list of top 10 heart valve surgeon in India. The nation has achieved the top rank among countries known for superior cardiac care, a distinction that can be attributed to the continuous availability of expert medical guidance from its premier heart valve replacement surgeons.

List of top 10 heart valve surgeon in India strive to ensure favorable results for Bangladesh patients undergoing heart valve replacement in India. They are equipped with cutting-edge technology and supported by a highly qualified international staff dedicated to meeting the needs of global patients. Furthermore, the list of top 10 heart valve surgeon in India leverages global infrastructure and reputation to achieve outstanding patient outcomes.

Plan your heart valve replacement surgery with Indian healthguru consultant – Here’s why

Indian health guru consultant serves as a medical facilitator, assisting patients in obtaining high-quality and cost-effective treatment options. Their extensive network encompasses top-tier hospitals and renowned medical professionals, ensuring that Bangladesh patients receive exceptional care. The proficient multilingual team at Indian health guru consultant provides comprehensive support to Bangladesh patients throughout their treatment process. The organization is committed to identifying the optimal balance between cost and quality, customizing plans to meet the unique needs and financial considerations of each individual. The specialists at Indian health guru consultant coordinate all aspects of medical treatment, including pre-departure consultations and on-site services.

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hell list starting october 2023

- i make funny homestuck blog

- sister attempts to kill herself 3 days before her 12th birthday

- server is made for funny homestuck blogs

- there is naturally the hell that comes with putting homestucks in the same general area and i have to handle most of it

- parents decide they want to divorce and also decide they will not talk to each other and use me and my sister as messengers like to the point of calling me in class to go "hey your dad _" or "tell your mom _"

- since mom cooks and dad buys groceries and mom makes the lists this ends up translating to us having no food in the house since they refuse to talk to each other

- i am Ill™ and am constantly missing class for blood tests and to go to the hospital whatnot

- i start failing my math class

- the school somehow finds out about the situation despite me never telling anyone and they give me food but the walk from the office back to my locker shamed me so fucking bad i still feel ill thinking about it

- theres peanutbutter jelly and bread in there and i form an addiction kanaya calls it a comfort food but idk

- parents ultimately decide not to divorce but this does mean the arguing and everything is back

- they are now focused on being disappointed in me for doing bad in my math class

- shit happens on new years which is personal enoguh somehow more than all of this but it makes me feel sick and i spend the first days of the year trying not to throw up

- they find a knife in my sisters school backpack

- second semester starts and i am unable to get back on the grind bc im mentally fucked and unable to process it

- still having hospital visits and shit

- im pretty sure more stuff happens but i genuinely cant remember anything from february-june

- there is some. personal drama though that keeps happening no matter how many times we discuss it and i say i dont like it so i fairly consistently feel ill

- my only surviving grandma (dads mom) and grandpa (moms dad) are both in the hospital

- dad goes to home country to visit them and then the Political Situation starts while he is there (#bangladesh)

- we lose contact with him for almost 2 weeks

- he comes back

- i go to america to visit my partner

- parents find out that was not just a friend but my partner and that therefore i am queer

- plane rides delay for like a whole day so im jsut stuck in the airport with very pissed off parents for many more hours

- my theatre job starts its basically a 9-5

- my parents drop the bombshell that next year after me and my sister graduate we are moving back to our home country

- weve never lived there before i dont know anything or anyone or how to read or write our native language and they want me to find a university somehow and suddenly drop everything at 18 and become independent there and im just fucking freaking out except i Cant freak out because i still have to keep my grades up for senior year and my parents keep Hinting at a Talk about me being queer and lying to them but i just. idk