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transmascutena · 8 months ago

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thinking about how akio sees his younger self in utena and wondering if there's any fondness there. doesn't change the horror of what he does to her obviously but i do wonder

#akio and utena #m #long ramble in the tags sorry:#the thing about akio is that he's so evil bit he's also so human #he has feelings. i just don't know what they are (if anything) toward his victims #he loves anthy at the very least i'm sure of that. even if he hates her too. just like she loves and hates him. the lines are blurry.#and i just. i have to wonder whether any of that extends to utena at all. we know anthy at times feels similarly about utena and dios #(and akio by extension.) the simultanious love and resentment. so it's not too unlikely i think.#like. even though he never had anything but bad intentions in getting close to her #i'm not sure it's possible to do everything he did and feel nothing #not that he has any meaningful amount of guilt or remorse for it. i don't think that.#and i obviously don't think he “loved” her in any of the ways she might have thought he did #but did he not care at all? did he not feel any kind of fondness or sympathy or just. idk. pity? for her?#whatever the case it wasn't enough to reconsider having her killed so you know. how much does that actually matter anyway #idk. i think about it a lot. how abusers are rarely entirely indifferent toward their victims #the role he's playing in her life is so fucked up but it IS a role he's playing and i wonder how much he you know... internalizes it?#how much does he believe the illusion of family that he invites her into? because akio DOES often buy into his own illusions.#(similarly i think it's possible that akio is fond of touga too. their mentor-protégé relationship is horrible and abusive #but that doesn't make it less real. you know? maybe real is the wrong word.)#when he talks in episode 25 about wanting utena and anthy closer that's obviously so he can continue to groom her #but is there something genuine there too? i don't know.#again. it obviously does not make anything he does better or even different. but it is interesting to think about to me.#on the other side of that coin does seeing his own past youth and naivete and desire to do good that he (maybe) once had #reflected back at him through her mean anything?#is there resentment there? that she is what he couldn't be? or more likely he just thinks that idealism is stupid.#either way it's something he wants to take from her. anyway ramble over.#i talk a lot about utena's feelings toward akio (familial vs romantic love and the way the two are intertwined in fucked up ways)#but not much the other way around. probably because utena is actually a sympathetic character whose feelings the show very clearly #wants you to analyze and think about.#which is... less true for akio i think. though he's still a complex character with complex motives. he's just harder to get a grasp on.

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icewindandboringhorror · 11 months ago

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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autogeneity · 7 months ago

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so the data science company that previously accidentally considered me for a software engineering role sent me a new challenge to complete for the data science role...

except the challenge they sent me last time also involved data science work

...and this one seems about a million times easier?

I am so nervous that I'm somehow doing it completely wrong because all I really did was fit a curve (quadratic) (simple regression) and then chucked the data in a graph and applied dijkstra. whereas last time I spent days looking at complicated statistical models?

I feel like this can't be right and yet. I can't see where I might be wrong. both my steps and my results make sense.

#I'm still extremely confused why they had me predicting covid cases for a software engineering role. so ???#if anything surely path optimization is closer to software engineering?#maybe they are confused again. fucking hell #also the instructions are like #'you can use any optimisation method provided it runs in a reasonable amount of time (less than 10 mins on standard hardware)'#...mine runs in like. 3. max. probably less I didn't measure but.#most of which is calculating all the cost values the actual optimizing is like seconds #soooo uhhh I have questions #m

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mars-ipan · 2 years ago

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baby’s first babygirl

#martzipan #mettaton #<- yeah sure i'll main tag it why the hell not #not gonna tag the other characters tho. 'm lazy #uhhhh anyways i love him. and i'm incapable of not overdoing it with the effect brushes #it's ok it's what he would have wanted #fun fact: everything (minus the effects) was drawn with a super cool square brush that i love #i've got to get a highlights brush. the neon is real fun but i want an actual glossy thing #oh well maybe next time #metta was one of my first favorite characters. still have a soft spot for him #eternal manwhore. he rules #slight edit bc i forgot i was gonna put my url on it lmao #problem solved :)

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planet-poptropica · 2 years ago

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⋆ You guys need to stop giving me IDEAS djhsbdjhs-/j I instantly had to start doodling a concept for....uh, her/them. (I can’t come up with a name for her.) I’m sure this won’t be her final look, but I tried my best with what I had. I’ll explain her design in the tags, but I think it’s pretty self-explanatory. ⋆ ⋆ Anyone have any name ideas? ⋆

#poptropica #ai merlin #my doodles #i was thinking maybe piper?#i was also trying to look into bird related names like raven #i saw avis and melody #and then it would be melody and merlin!#m and m #ANYWAY #design #so her hair resembles her creator because of course #it's just longer and dyed green to match the clothes #i obviously had to give her the cute raven nose #because i'm sure that in the future when he is redeemed #he would come in terms with loving himself and his appearance #her color scheme was originally going to be red and black #to match raven #but i went with green instead to match the actual machine #much like the blue on merlin's mechanism #and tried to give her a hardcore aesthetic?#if that's the right word #the rib cage design on her shirt matches the rib cage on the actual machine #and yeah #she would also have raven wings and claws #and....yeah #she is very tol #i think she might be a bit taller than my bard #and he's taaaaalll #but yee!!#it's 2am i need to go to bed

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meezer · 2 months ago

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realizing my degree is fucking useless right in my last year

#I mean. I always knew. but now it's becoming painfully real as I'm looking into actually moving out and working #sure you can get a job in western europe! would you like to be a cashier at kfc or at h&m? maybe work in a warehouse?

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seafoam-taide · 3 months ago

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Weird having an actual favorite band and knowing it. I don't really have many favorites it is hard to understand my feelings and even harder to pinpoint a 'better and more' feeling about one specific thing. But I know all of their songs, I listen to them all in a big playlist and never get bored, I am always happy to hear any song by them, I have every song's lyrics memorized, like ... they are my unequivocal favorite. There is nothing like it. Yes, I can get really into other songs, there are probably singular songs I can say I like more than any one song by this band. But I guess having a favorite is like what people say about getting married. I'm not explaining myself on that one actually I do have a point there that's an actual metaphor but I've decided explaining it is a bad use of my time. It's one of those artists that are popular enough and artsy enough that they can crop up as fic titles occasionally and no matter the lyric or song it comes from I can always tell immediately. I don't remember what the point of this post was I'm deep in my panic phase and it's 4 am and I was just sitting there singing I Have Made Mistakes to myself bc I can just do that, the whole song, and because it is very funny to go I have made mistakes I have made mistakes and I will continue to make them while in the middle of freaking the fuck out about existing or something. Bc you know yeah im one spoon away from setting the ends of my hair in fire because if I'm kindling for a little while at least I'll feel of use ????????? Yeah this post for sure had a point and it's devolved.

#tide of consciousness #Sorry that's a lot of text wow #Can we talk about the existential panic. I've been dying to talk about the existential panic #<- doesn't talk about it #Does anyone else get this. The feeling that is like the world is ending and its drowning and burning and it burns and nothing will ever beo #My best guess is I just have anxiety but it is very hard to believe that bc it feels so all consuming and terrifying and so so so much so m #The worst part is I'm not actually even feeling it I'm just sitting here using words that I know describe it bc it's like it just #Is happening. Behind a wall. And I'm here feeling the heat on the doorknob #Translating between the space where the feeling exists and the space where I reside #At some point I just go oh. I've been experiencing the world-ending terror for hours now #Like reading a letter!!!!!!!!! I just get a letter from my brain that goes 'emotions report. It all burned down years ago'#It's like and I know if I was in it I'd be crying and shaking and despairing so deeply and throwing myself around the room #And I feel like this EVERY OTHER DAY. Which is obviously why I apparently partitioned myself away from the feeling #Because you literally just you can't function with that #But surprise it's still there actually and I'm still having 2 breakdowns minimum a week #But now it looks like I'm normal and functioning to everyone else #So I seem like a horrible lazy fucking asshole who doesn't do anything but sit around accomplishing maybe 3? 4? Total minor tasks per day #Because I can't HANDLE ANYTHING ELSE !!!#HOW THE FUCK DO YOU FIX THIS #This is for sure something I shouldn't post but you know that's a rational thought for rational people

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blizzardfluffykpop · 4 months ago

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why the fuck do i miss pigeons

#don't ask me i am going thru it today #ebhehbbehbhebhabh #i miss pigeons dude #oooh the poor little domesticed cuties #kate rambles from here #this is a small detail of the feeling i am feeling #like post leaving nyc is wrecking havoc on my psyche #i don't want to be in the fucking great plains #a few irls don't understand my want for city life- and i didn't know it was this bad until staying there for 4 days-#but my mom's whole family is from the city- i just feel so at home there- and everything i've inherited that way is in my blood #and i just wanna bawl my eyes out #i have been quite a bit but like ik i have a goal now- to move into the city- i've always had that goal to at least move to the city near m #but like nyc was like being somewhere i felt i wanted- it's not that i'm looking to make it big- i miss the noise the water and pigeons #around here you'll hear the occasional car go by- and crickets- i miss the city lights- i keep crying about it for so many reasons but #i just don't know how to actually express it?#because it's such an odd feeling for me to feel? because if yknow me well- i love being at home- i hate sleeping somewhere else-#taking a trip down south this last christmas- i couldn't stand the quiet- it's quieter the more south you go and i can't do this #i've always wanted to leave my small town but ?? like actually being somewhere that has felt home has been unattainable bc every #where in oh hasn't been home... and for once i felt like i could do this- and having to return here- just made me break down and cry #maybe it's the person i live with- that makes me wish to leave- but that's not the full truth- idk maybe a good nap will help #kate rambles #i have a life goal now but i wish i could do it now- i hope sooner rather than later i'll at least live in the city #i've been happily living but now i have a direction i wish to run towards- and i'm gonna chase after it #sure i miss seeing tbz i loved seeing them- but it's not even post concert depression- if that makes sense?#which it doesn't make sense- because for mx it was only pcd- but for nyc it's missing the city... and it feels awful #pls ignore this i just needed to be frustrated somewhere #ig knowing what i'm missing- i can finally work on filling that spot huh? i guess that's what i'll be doing #(also vv small point but the fact that one of the people i live with- refuses to ever visit nyc again- is so comforting to me)#pls don't send me an ask about this i just needed to ramble and i haven't caught up on my daily journal yet to do so- so this is here

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im2tired4usernames · 6 months ago

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I might just be dumb but I don't really understand making fun of you partners? I don't understand introducing them to your family like "gets my stupid asshole "I don't understand the play fighting I get teasing on some stuff is fun n cute if your both into that???? but?????my wife's smart I'm not gonna call em dumb to be funny and I'd cry if my wife told their friends I was super dumb n annoying? Yeah people are gonna do stupid things and no one's perfect I know I'm gonna do something that's gonna be annoying and stupid same with my wife n friends n family and well really anyone I just don't get when people talk down their partners to they're friends? Like do you want your friends to think low of your partner Do you want your friend to really think they're stupid and smelly and hate them????Do you actually like the person you dating???? Then why are you telling your friends and family what a stupid irresponsible jerk they are and how you can't stand them????????????? Am I missing a joke goin on is this a humor thing or social thing in just out of the loop on???????

#like it's not even venting it's just a joke?#i hate my wife joke?#couldn't be me? my wifes the best they're smart and talented and hot as the sun and they treat me very kind n patient they're my bestfriend #i get maybe venting maybe i get Getting frustrated and annoyed over some things but it's kinda scary how many people i know....#who just..... don't actually like they're partners... like they're not even friends??????????????#i don't get it?????????? i really don't understand why would you date someone you wouldn't be friends with???????#like i get maybe venting but this isn't venting and honestly you should talk to your partner about things if they're upsetting you so much #i think I'm just dumb because it happens a lot my siblings my coworkers one of my friends they just....talk shit about their partners like #they don't like them and I'm my coworkers case they really should leave their husbands are shit if everything they're saying is true #idk i just can't imagine introducing my wife m being like 'hers my bitch ass nag wife they're an asshole and they're stupid' to my friend #that's????? what???? are you both ok?????#i get like if you needed to like talk to your friend about something for another view just to make sure you aren't in the wrong #an unbiased option if there's a fight or to validate you if your goin through something like my coworkers xonfide in me about her husband's #cheating and financially irresponsible bullshit and frankly i told her he's probably not goin to stop cheating after three times and #like that makes sense #but just talking your boyfriend down to your friends why?#don't get it

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arcadequeerz · 1 year ago

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#This will be deleted in a lil bit probably #but m. am i allowed to use mobility aids at like grocery stores-#because i feel like. i need them. but then i tell myself that i'm just lazy and dont need them and shouldn't #take it from someone who actually needs it-#like if i am Completely honest i never leave my house or go anywhere because I know I cannot handle #the walking at all. and its probably because of my weight but also because of my back always fucking hurting #but mm. dont like people staring at me and looking at me and the few times i Have #dared to use one of the scooters i've had people give me Pissed off Looks or even laugh at me.#and I hate having people stare at me and look at me and it freaks me out so i just kinda don't do anything or go anywhere anymore.#not sure if I am allowed to call myself disabled because i Dont Want to Piss people off who look at me #and tell me I'm Not because maybe i am Just Wrong.#chocking this up to more things I need to talk to a therapist about #but thats if i can ever get one which is seeming less and less likely.#not to mention how i havent seen a doctor in probbly like. 2 years? maybe 3. idk im not good w time.#i still think 2019 was a year ago sometimes.

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scarlet-bee · 1 year ago

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What it feels like to love the Welcome Home characters, despite the fact that I haven't visited the website yet:

Me (on the verge of tears): "I just want all of the neighbors to be friends, and have fun together, and be happy all of the time!"

My best friend (shouting from the back): "They don't even go here!"

WH fans: "Are you even in this fandom?"

Me: "No, I just have a lot of feelings."

#i just wanted to post this silly joke before i actually visit the site for the first time #i've been lurking in the fandom for a while and i've been meaning to go on the site for a long time now #but i just never got around to it or never had a good time to #but i'm about to right now!!#doing it in the dark for the full experience #i can't wait to see wally. i love him so much he's so silly #i'm pretty sure he's going to be my favorite #but who knows? maybe i'll be surprised #aaagh i'm so excited!!! here i go!!!#welcome home #m #m: welcome home

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 years ago

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I think the hardest thing in writing for me sometimes is the like “show don’t tell/let people communicate through subtext/Normal People don’t just walk around openly explaining their motivations for everything That’s Unnatural” thing because like.. I literally DO walk around openly explaining my motivations for everything, that is how I talk, I am an analytical detail oriented over-communicator who explains everything as thoroughly as possible and and will give a fully detailed 2 minute long answer to something simple like “how are you doing today?” .. like it’s hard to make things sound Natural and Normal when you yourself are inherently unnatural and abnormal in your methods of communication to an extent lol

#''hey. whats up? you look kind of sad.. is something wrong?'' normal answer (apparently how people are supposed to talk): *looks away #remosefully and stares into the distance* ''n-no.. I'm fine. don't worry about it.'' abnormal answer (how I would respond): ''Yeah I #'m mostly fine. I was just thinking about what the future is going to be like 30 years from now and if I'll ever actually accomplish anythin #g that I want to. which makes me feel X way for XYZ reason. you see because I had a dream last night that made me think of *continues to exp #lain my exact emotional state and inner thought process completely matter of factly in exact detail for 5 more minutes*#tfw you would be a badly written character if you existed in a story lol #This is also why I struggle making conflict because most conflicts can be resolved through conversation and I personally love to have long #detailed conversations about everything. Like literally I don't have hardly any conflicts interpersonally because if something happens it's #immediately followed up with like ''hey sorry if my tone of voice sounded a bit pointed or harsh. when you were talking to me I was trying #to balance all the stuff I was taking up the stairs and also my leg hurts so I think all my mental energy was being used there and I just #didn't feel like talking. I should have just said 'wait a minute and we can discuss it inside' instead of trying to end the conversation qui #ckly in a short rude way.' ''oh yeah thats fine. I thought it was something like that. sorry for hounding you about the topic as well. i #havent eaten in a while so I think I'm just a bit prickly at the moment. we should both rest for a while and destress from the store #trip and then talk about it later. maybe after lunch?' 'sure. sounds good.' like LITERALLY. lol #it is so hard for me to write characters who are bad communicators or don't understand their own internal states or arent constantly #analyzing their own actions to understand what they do/don't feel and why and what the cause of it is and etc. etc. etc.#I just naturally want everyone to perfectly undertsand everything and communicate amazingly and have complete self awareness and #logical presence of mind gjhbj.. which like.. of course comes across as unnatyural and also those type of people rarely ever get involved in #conflict and conflict is APPARENTLY what drives stories (even though I don't like most conflicts and just want to resolve them lol) so ...aa #I mean you can get around this to some degree by the fact that (at least in my opinion) no rule for dialogue is 100%. dialogue is good if it #sounds naturally like it comes from the character who said it. It can be meandering and pointless and rambly IF that matches the character.#it can be dry and overly self aware IF your character is that way and it suits them. So like throwing in a few detached scholar types or lik #e '5000 year old cave dwelling hermit' type people is good for me and works BUT the thing is an ENTIRE cast of characters can't be that way.#at some point - even in a setting where everyone is reserved and academic (like a research camp in the wilderness full of scholars and stuff #) still SOMEBODY has to be the one who's conflict prone and doesn't pristinely understand all of their emotions and etc. etc. Because statis #tically that is still literally the majority. Kind of like my tendency to make everyone 100% aromantic and asexul when it's like.. YES.. may #be 2 or 3 or even 4 out of 10 of them could be that way. but like.. an entire group? a diverse group of 10 people from all walks of life and #EVERY single one is like that??? hgjh . you have to add realistic variety #As much as I'm pro 'have more stories where sex or romance are literally NOT involved at all in any capacity since it's already oversaturate #d in media' I'm also dedicated to realism. alas. (at least as realistic as you can get in a fantasy setting lol)

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autogeneity · 6 months ago

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I am in love with black + orange and cyan + white

#but also black + cyan and orange + white.#think I would be happy to have that be my whole wardrobe and home decor and everything #actually did outright look for this one time but apparently you simply don't get such clothes in the department store #like I'd prefer mostly solid colours or like detailing. maybe some distinct print but not *the whole thing*#but you only get colours if you want a very ugly floral beach shirt apparently #idk why they're so bad I mean I'm not keen on the thing in general personally but surely it's possible to have nicer designs #the ones I see in stores are like they didn't even try. there's pretty interesting ones in india I mean #m

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tapakah0 · 7 months ago

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HELPPP

Part 5 :]

Oscar got into space the only way reasonably available to him - put all his money in a stack, and then climbed on it until he reached earth orbit

#MHM #SURVIVED LONG ENOUGH TO SEE #OH WAIT #Okay let me guess #Holly wasn't the only one here and other of his species have been captured. All of them. That's why he is surprised that only Ward is locke #Or maybe he saw another species all being captured... ANYWAY. The thoughts are leading again to the fact that Oscar has Queen's favoritism #And wouldn't have been captured in any way #... well Ward's face definitely doesn't look like a hopeful one man... um actually it looks like the first time he ever made such an expres #ion....#ABOUT MONTH AGO HE JUST CAME. LIKE THIS.#WARD MY BOY YOU ARE SO COOL *COUGH* I MEAN LOOK AT HIM *COUGH*#BOSS SAID. AHA. SO HE MUST BE SOMEHOW RELATIVELY RELATED #HELP HIS FATHER JUST “SENT HIM OFF HE PISSES ME OFF”#AH #WAIT NO #HIS FAMILY ARE INVESTORS WOW OH #... DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT PRETTY SURE PARENTS WANTED TO SEND HIM OFF WHEEEEEEEEEEEEZE #I'M LAUGHING AT THE FACT THAT THE SPACE PROGRAM. SPACE!!! IS BREATHING THEIR AIR LIKE... HOOOW RICH ARE THEY. WHAT THEY DO FOR A LIVING.#OSCAR IS ON FASHION EHEHEHEHEHEH SPACE BRO #HELPPPP HIS FACE P[FEIPO[PSOEF #Ward... Ward... oh I can't even say calm down he MUST have been panicking actually long ago...#Ecliptica didn't say no yet just for the record!!!!!!#Holly saw his species die. Completely. Can't imagine how much he really wants to help Ward since... well there's only two human on this shi #They are kind of a dying species....#M... I need new songs I think... or.. oh... I need more brainworms I know one song I want to use so much #inspiration #Love the course these two are taking. First brick has been buil. A strong brick.

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showmethestarlight · 7 months ago

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So I think my thoughts on The Tortured Poets Department are that I'm a little conflicted. I think it is a good album, the sound is a bit Midnights and folklore and evermore, which is a bit messy but it kind of works. I think it's more of a matter of which kind of albums you prefer for where it falls in your rankings but the albums that are mostly slow songs that stay at the same level/tempo aren't my favourites so this isn't my highest (I love Speak Now for example for songs like Haunted) but I still had a good time listening and I still had a few I liked a lot on the album. I liked the sound and storytelling of But Daddy I love Him, I think Florence and Taylor's voices are really good together on Florida!!! I liked My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys, and I loved the dark and deep atmospheric feeling of Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? And I thought Clara Bow got its message across really well. There are some songs I'm confused by and I think I'll need some time with to understand like Fortnight and Fresh out the Slammer and some odd little lyrics here and there that I think maybe could have been cut because they just felt out of place or unnecessary. And I just don't think I'll ever be much of a fan of Guilty as Sin? I think I like Cassandra but at the moment it feels too much like mad woman. I think those are all my thoughts so far, I probably need a few more listens to process everything.

#concerned about people saying some of these songs are probably about M Healey #i can see how a couple of them could be and that makes me uncomfortable #i done normally care who each song is about #but he was just a bad person who did some awful things #so i don't really want there to be any songs about him #it dort of implies that she doesn't realise why it was bad that she was with him #yeah maybe there was some kessy relationship stuff going on but he was a sexist and a racist?#so if you have to write about him at least don't put him on the album #not gonna put all that in the main post though because we can't know for sure what all the songs are about #it's just a little disappointing and frustrating #just noticed all those typos I'm so sorry #showmeposts #also as mentioned in this post i quite liked but daddy i love him but if that's about MH then i don't know if i can like like it 😭#some of the vibe also seems like excusing being with him as she was in such a bad place she did didn't see that he wasn't a good idea #but that's still just an excuse it doesn't mean it was okay #this is such a messy rambly assortment of thoughts I'm sorry #maybe it's because I've only listened a couple of times and he lyrics are still a bit confusing to me #but there doesn't seem to be as much of an exploration of the breakdown of a longterm relationship as we thought there'd be #i don't know it seems a shame #like I've said i don't usually care who the song is actually about but that would make an interesting theme for an album and it would be #interesting to see her process that #but maybe it's just because I'm still trying to understand what half of these songs are about

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hkthatgffan · 1 month ago

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The image used in the background of the Gravity Falls logo HAS BEEN FOUND!!

It's located in France!!

I made a thread on Twitter explaining the full story and how I even asked Ian Worrel and Alex Hirsch about it, but lemme run down quickly how it was found and where it is!

After 3 years of searching with some friends on and off, we had no real luck. I've been working on a video about it for a while but decided to try one more time. My friend @trickengf suggested looking at international logos as they may have more of the image available and sure enough...we found logos like the Japanese and Russian GF logo had more visible detail of the image.

From that, Tricken made a remake of the image and used it to find it. He ended up finding the source at about 3AM for me, lol!

My friend Fried Oreos then confirmed the image was old enough to fit the criteria of pre GF pilot, by determining the image was on the Textures website it was sourced from since 2008!

Then, my friend Alex M managed to buy the HD image and we were able to analyze its metadata for more info!

Turns out, the image, called "LandscapeMountains0009," was taken by a Nikon D70 camera on April 18, 2007!

THE GRAVITY FALLS LOGO IMAGE IS ALMOST 18 YEARS OLD!!

From there, we began looking for the location. The meta data had no location, but other images taken around the same time showed signs of maybe the location being in Europe.

After over a day of searching, Tricken, Alex M and Oreos FOUND IT!!

The location of the image is a mountain range near the town of Sers, France...near the border with Spain.

Exact coordinates of the closest viewable angle of the image is 42°54'23.2"N 0°06'05.6"E

This is a major discovery and one I cannot believe we did. While this search was started by me in 2021 with some friends, it was TrickenGF, Alex M and Fried Oreos who deserve all the credit for this discovery! They were the geniuses who tracked all of this down and were able to connect the dots to get to this point.

You guys are amazing and I am beyond grateful for all of this.

Finding this image means that fans can now recreate the Gravity Falls logo as they want with anything they want. For example, Tricken made this for me using the image :D

Or, you can do this, lol

We now have it!

For 12 years as we looked at the Gravity Falls logo...we were in reality looking at a mountain in France...NOT Oregon!

So, I guess this is a major W for France but sorry, Pacific Northwest, Gravity Falls is actually French, lol!

I still can't believe we found this. I'm so happy :P

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