#lurking in there somewhere

[suddenly-frankenstein]

his guardian angel

[radiance1]

Inspired by this post made by @puppetmaster13u

Shazam meets Danny in a dream.

This wasn't even anything purposeful on either side, it just... happened. Shazam, or more accurately, Billy was staring up at the giant that is simply Danny in merman form. Smaller than Space Whale form but still very gigantic.

Danny simply looked back, head resting on his hand as he watched Billy in curiosity. Both of them are aware that this? Most definitely a dream, but they don't know why they're meeting in said dream.

Vlad is there too, somewhere. Mostly in the background just being a void creature. Mayhaps laying around, mayhaps just watching on from the shadows or something.

Point is, Billy, Champion of Magic, is in a dream sequence with eldritch space whale in a humanoid form with a void being lurking somewhere in the background.

This could've been written off if it happened once, but no.

It happens multiple times.

[ssunfish]

kim dokja...the guyest guy to ever have guyed...

[amelia-yap]

schnug

[presiding]

if you like dishonored here's what to read

if the inspiration for dishonored's morality interests you, quote from here:

Smith explains that even as far back as 2010, he already saw The Outsider as a sympathetic victim, and both himself and writer Ricardo Bare wanted to draw upon the short story The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas by Ursula K. Le Guin.

read or listen: the ones who walk away from omelas:

PDF: The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas by Ursula K Le Guin

YOUTUBE AUDIOBOOK: The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas. By Ursula Le Guin. Read by Lanternside (1.25x works well)

bonus rec: nk jemisin's response to this tale:

WEB LINK: The Ones Who Stay And Fight

[icemankazansky86]

Chag Sukkot Sameach from Ice!

[bonesbuckleup]

I don't want Batman to appear in My Adventures With Superman.

I do, however, think it would be really funny if they let Bruce Wayne wander through a couple of scenes in exactly one (1) episode.

[40cleverways]

Some MarioLore Sketches. Designs belong to @lovebunnycosplay

[themarychain]

do you think emerald fennell is checking tumblr and ao3 on the regular to see if we’re making content and doing our job

[tealvenetianmask]

"I can always do better." A trauma, neurodivergence, and RSD analysis about Blitz because this is how I spend my free time now.

A lot has been made of this line, and I think it says a ton about what makes this show great and especially how it deals with trauma.

This is a show where to main character is a literal demon assassin from hell who accidentally destroyed his whole life in a fire, and that all would be enough to create a damaged, lonely character, but no-- that's all important, but the original root of his self-image issues is that he's spent his whole life feeling never good enough and trying to fight that. It's woven into the story seamlessly, and it's so human scale and relatable.

I've written some posts before about Blitz being neurodivergent (I've focused on ADHD because it's what I know the most about, but folks analyzing him for ASD, yes I see and appreciate you. And dyslexia is there too.). Yes, neurotypical people can also be raised with unfair expectations, treated as commodities, scapegoated by their parents, etc., but also, rejection sensitive dysphoria is so tied to ADHD that it's considered part of the diagnostic criteria. Poor emotional regulation + often getting in trouble for messing up/not being good enough = this feeling that we have to always look over our shoulders because we're not worthy and going to be rejected over and over again.

In this show, we don't just see upsetting flashbacks and connect them to issues in the present. We see a continuous pattern of deep insecurity breaking through a facade of confidence. Then when we see Blitz at his most vulnerable in The Full Moon, he's just a kid again begging for a chance to prove himself.

For Blitz, social class plays into this too (the idea that it's rare for an imp to run a business? To even get looked at by someone like Stolas?). I like that it's not simple. I like that there are pieces of his psychology that lots of different people can relate to in different ways. I love Blitz, and I love this show.

[galedekarios]

so, let me get this straight...

laiostoudenn aka wizardblood/lathanderr/spellbooking/the james somerton of the bg3 fandom instead of actually apologising and taking accountability for his repeated actions, now:

block evades, keeping his old blog up as an "archive" and making a new one, while, of course, not deleting any of the other sets he blatantly stole from others, including myself

lies and tries to change the narrative of what actually happened once again, while also conveniently not going into any details at all of what little he does admit, lest those who still believe him for some unfathomable reason look deeper

calls his stealing and constant plagiarism that has been going on for months "fandom drama" that is being "rehashed" constantly due to no fault of his own

still lies about not knowing these gifsets (or "a" gifset as he puts it) that he stole existed, while also saying at the same time yet again how it's just "gifing the same scenes" and that there would be "nothing" left to do if that isn't allowed, despite this still not being the issue and us showing ample evidence of what he is actually doing, i.e. him taking word for word captions, frame by frame sets, entire concepts down to a t, and him literally contacting us to "remake" these sets and not taking no for an answer, no matter in which way it was said to him, privately or publicly

feels he is being "villainised".......................... for plagiarising

claims we never gave him a chance to "right his wrongs"... as if he isn't 100% free still to do just that by say, deleting everything that was stolen and actually apologising, acknowledging what he did was wrong instead of lying about it, instead of whatever the fuck this manipulative collection of lies sprinkled with a pity party is...

and let me be clear: he claims he took accountability, but he doesn't like what taking accountability actually would look like in his case because he's been in this for internet clout and notefarming since day 1 & that's the only reason why he doesn't "right his wrongs"

claims he is being isolated and made to feel unwelcome in the fandom space, which i can't help but wonder.... might that perhaps be because he is plagiarising ppl, has taken back his initial damage control apology from march, while continuing to vague about the creators for months (ranging from accusation of transphobia, bullying, clique behaviour, etc) and now feels backed into a corner after it has come to light that he is still doing this and has now been blocked by various people who have been affected over a long time? might that be it?

is now further trying to victimise himself by saying he received homophobic messages, which... even IF true (and it's a big if solely based on just how much he lies and that he accused the initial person who spoke out against him of being transphobic), it still doesn't make it right that he stole despite being told to stop it multiple times. two things can be very, very wrong at the same time.

claims he did actually take accountability... which again, i can't help but wonder: was that by gleefully delighting in the fact he sees himself as the "top hated bg3 blog baybee"? that he is now in his "reputation era"? is that what taking accountability looks like for him?

still pretends he is a small blog bullied by bigger creators when his stolen sets made as many, or at times, even more notes than the ones he stole did, and as if his blog didn't grow big on the backs of actual original creators

and, finally: "And fair warning: If you do not stick to the status quo in this fandom, you will be eaten alive." like,,,, be so for fucking real right now, this is legitimately embarrassing

i thought this was finally finally over and done with, but no.

[the-rollerchloster]

Parasocial relationships are strange. Parasocial relationships in a fandom like this one can be even stranger.

I want to preface this by saying that everyone is entitled to their feelings, and feelings are sometimes completely irrational. I am also aware that sometimes our feelings are driven by incomplete thoughts, and have a tendency to overwhelm us and those around us before we can process them. In saying that, I have seen a lot of conflicting emotions and reactions to the reveal that Misha Collins has a "serious" girlfriend (and a large cock apparently, but that is a whole other thing), and I know I shouldn't be surprised by it, but part of me is.

There was a conversation in my discord server over the complicated feelings people have about this news. As a cockles-friendly space this was to be expected, as any new development in the lives of either half of JenMish often spurs these kinds of conversations, but as it started to get emotional I was thanked for bringing some perspective. I hope that I can help anyone who also needs a different way of viewing this situation by making this post, while also helping myself to organise my own chaotic and complicated thoughts.

As I understand it, during the It Seemed Like A Good Idea At The Time event at this weekend's Burbank convention, Misha told a fun anecdote about gift-giving with his new girlfriend and her daughter, wherein Misha got some things delivered to said girlfriend directly from Amazon, and girlfriend wrapped them for the daughter including what she thought was a microphone but was actually another similarly shaped item not intended for children at all. He continued to say that this "microphone" was for his girlfriend so she wouldn't need to go searching elsewhere for intimacy, as they are currently living in separate states. Now, I was not at the event, and the lack of recordings (recording was strictly prohibited, so if you've got one shame on you, I don't want to know about it!) means that everything I will ever know about this story and the way it was told to the small audience who were lucky enough to be able to attend this event comes as a form of the Telephone game, and therefore lacks a whole lot of body language, tone and context. We, as a fandom, have been severely burnt by this kind of missing nuance before - think DenverCon'21 - and it's these kinds of kneejerk reactions that have the potential to spiral out of control and limit the things we get told at future events - think bishagate.

Think for a second about your personal perception of Misha Collins. He's chaotic, he can be a little self-deprecating or self-effacing, he likes to turn serious anecdotes into jokes. He is also a passionate and caring man, who has a lot of respect and appreciation for his fans. Think about the way he tells anecdotes at standard con panels - it's often a bit tongue-in-cheek, a bit sarcastic, a bit exaggerated - so why would his behaviour at this event, which was specifically set up for Misha to tell stories he wouldn't normally have the space to do in a convention setting, be any different?

I am going to go through my thoughts on some of the things I have seen mentioned about what this all means…

First off, the elephant in the room, what does this mean for Cockles? To me, absolutely nothing. Whatever Jensen and Misha have going on completely transcends a standard sexual and/or romantic relationship. Misha was in his relationship with Vicki for the majority of his life, including when he met Jensen, and we all know she literally wrote a book on polyamory; his perception of relationships is literally shaped and moulded by this, and it's not something he's going to just switch off. Danneel has been a permanent fixture in the cockles dynamic this entire time as well. The JenMish panel at Burbank this weekend will hopefully alleviate any of the doubt anyone is having here, and give us some knowledge that regardless of how Misha defines his relationship status, things will continue in the same chaotic, loving and ridiculous nature we've become accustomed to.

Which segues nicely into the implication that the vibrator was purchased so she wouldn't stray, and therefore their relationship is monogamous. See above thoughts about tongue-in-cheek, exaggerated and self-effacing - when I imagine him telling this story, I see that cheeky, gummy grin going the whole time. Without the nuance of watching this unfold, I think we are all safest to assume that this was a joke, not a firm declaration that he has left his polyamorous attitudes behind.

On thoughts of him "moving on too soon" from his marriage and subsequent divorce, this is where my own feelings get complicated as well, but also where we need to remember that the key feature of a parasocial relationship is that we only see and know what he wants us to. We don't actually know what the trigger for that dissolution was, so in terms of the actual calendar timing it might seem soon, but emotional development and change doesn't run on a standard calendar. We don't know how long the process was before the decision was made to separate. I am currently working through a messy separation, and while I can pinpoint the decision to somewhere in the past 6-12 months, my marriage has realistically been dead for 3+ years, and we're a (supposedly) monogamous couple. As a poly couple, I can imagine that Misha and Vicki worked through every alternative option possible before landing on the decision to formally separate, and had probably well and truly been through the mourning period before it was even all over. Adult relationships are complex at the best of times, and no one ever truly knows what is happening in them except the people involved. I also think that as a man who is nearing 50 and just come out of very long term relationship, that he doesn't actually know how to be "alone", nor does he want to…

Lastly, for some of us, this is someone important in our lives who has found happiness in another person when perhaps we don't have that for ourselves. When those feelings hit, they can be extremely disheartening, and I want to send all my loving thoughts to anyone who falls into this category. It's difficult when the envy turns your stomach in knots and then your thoughts spiral into all the things wrong that mean that no matter how much you want to you can't just be happy for someone. Love and life are complicated, human beings are complicated, society is complicated. There is this hugely widespread and toxic mentality that we are all raised on that says we are halves of something that is destined to find our other half in order to feel whole, and it's utter bullshit. We shouldn't need one singular significant other to feel complete, and sometimes we get so determined to find that someone that we end up sacrificing ourselves to make them fit. (see also; Daniel Sloss' thoughts on this subject in his stand-up special Jigsaw)

There are many different kinds of love, many different kinds of relationships, and many different kinds of people. If anyone proves that to us, it's Misha Collins. He is walking evidence that human life is chaotic and unpredictable and indeterminate and we can make our own fucking rules. I hope that we can collectively be respectful of him, no matter what (or who) he chooses, and feel grateful for everything he trusts us enough to share.

[omgtheywereawooomates]

teen wolf au: future/post college fic + stargent

stiles has liked chris for a long time. longer than he wants to admit aloud because his dad would have shot the man on principle kind of "long time."

so, freshly graduated from berkeley, he decides it's finally time to do something about it. only.....chris is proving to be either extremely oblivious or extremely stubborn.

stiles being stiles, he decides he's gotta be the one to step the fuck up and make his intentions clear, and...of course, he's about as subtle as a hammer to the head about it.

chris is not prepared.

[pampanope]

random question (and apologies if it's been asked before/can be found): how many languages does 7-11 know, and to what degree?

If you ask him how many he speaks fluently, he’ll honestly say just one: English.

But if it’s how many he knows, like, enough to get by (ask for directions or the toilet lol) or only understand but can’t speak? Just a few.

Know only basic phrases to get by:

Arabic (part of Marines Spec Ops training) and Japanese (he took it in high school)

Can only understand but not speak:

Tagalog/ilocano (bis Filipina mom spoke to him in both english and a mix of both tagalog/ilocano but it never stuck 💀💀 and after her death, there was no one else in his life who spoke any filipino dialects)

^^^(THATS ME lol I CANT SPEAK BUT ONLY UNDERSTAND 💀)

Ma boi is skilled at several things, but language (and cooking) ain’t one of em 🤣🤣🤣 (i call this half assed language proficiency Language purgatory; 7-11 is stuck in it XDD)

[ruthplaysthesims]

Took her braids out and she's feeling good as hell.

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[ifitwasediblewouldyoueatit]