#loveyoutoobits

[samwell-sweethearts]

Thank you Gabrielle (@loveyoutoobits) & Ross (@jckzimmermanns) for organising this year’s Big Bang event! I look forward to doing this every year and you’ve both been very helpful during the process of organising such a massive event that the whole fandom benefits from!

@17piesinseptember​

[bittysvalentines]

@loveyoutoobits I discovered a fic of yours for the first time about an hour before I got the email saying you were my Valentine. How’s that for serendipity!

[lasenbyphoenix]

This is my art for @loveyoutoobits wonderful story It Was Always You for the @omgcpbackupbang. The organisers have done amazingly pulling the bang together, and I had the privilege to draw for this absolutely charming story! It Was Always You (45154 words) by loveyoutoobits Chapters: 10/10 Fandom: Check Please! (Webcomic) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eric “Bitty” Bittle/Jack Zimmermann Characters: Shitty Knight, Larissa “Lardo” Duan, Adam “Holster” Birkholtz, Justin “Ransom” Oluransi, Chris “Chowder” Chow, William “Dex” Poindexter, Derek “Nursey” Nurse, Original Female Character(s), Whiskey (Check Please!), Tango (Check Please!), Foxtrot Ford, Coach Hall, Coach Murray, John Johnson Additional Tags: shitty/lardo if you squint, Panic Attacks, almost dying happens, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Alternate Universe - High School, but like they’re teachers Summary:

Looking back now I know it was always you   Eric Bittle is a brand new teacher at Samwell High School, teaching Home Economics and coteaching PE with one Jack Zimmermann. They get off to a rocky start, but all their friends can see what the two of them can’t: that they were made for each other. They ensue to set the two of them up, but knowing the SMH crew, things don’t always go to plan. In some ways though, the way to a man’s heart is through his students.

[mszeldafire]

loveyoutoobits encouraged me to draw SMH’s sweetest child.  I love him so much.

Been practicing expressions all day with this drawing meme, and decided to do Chowder in A5.

[17piesinseptember]

flarelights replied to your post “Your little "doona" in that fic felt so out of place... that's...”

lol geogia you just casually throw aussie slang at me, then go and accidentally throw it into your fics? you're so cute

Thanks, Gabrielle!

[zimms]

NHL!Chowder Fic Masterpost

this is possibly my favourite trope in the entire fandom, so i’ve trawled through most of the omgcp ao3 to find every single one so that you don’t have to. the ones on here are mainly the ones that are chowder-centric, rather than where he’s just briefly mentioned. i think this is all of them, but if you have any others (or know an author’s tumblr where they aren’t tagged), let me know, or add it in a reblog!

nhl!centric fics

FTG (Fucking Terrifying Goalie) - petals42_tumblr (@petals42)

this is possibly my favourite nhl!chowder fic. it’s an extremely fluffy fic and explores chowder signing for the sharks. it’s definitely the fic i’d recommend reading first in this list.

We Are the Crowd - birds89birds (@omgcphivemind)

a social media fic based around chowder running a hockeyblr. it’s a great outsider pov onto chowder and it’s one of my comfort fics that i read whenever i’m sad. (it’s also loosely based on ftg, so i’d recommend reading them together)

Brothers on Ice - unacaritafeliz (@unacaritafeliz​)

jack and chowder bonding throughout the years! it’s extremely fluffy and i would die for both of them.

It’s Chow Time!! - unacaritafeliz (@unacaritafeliz​)

an interview with chowder whilst he’s playing for the sharks. a great fic if you like media fics or nhl fics. 

the name on the back (jerseys in real time) - jamesiee (@pongpalace)

a short ficlet about chowder’s birthday, whilst he’s playing in the nhl. this fic makes me extremely happy, so naturally i reread this about once every two weeks.

The News - Denois (@sexydexynurse) 

a short fluffy (but slightly angsty) polyfrogs ficlet (though it’s not centralised on the romance) about the frogs waiting for chowder to receive some very important news. i adore this so much.

Puck Aversion: The Birth of a Goalie Superstition - Betweenthepies

a 5+1 fic exploring chowder’s goalie superstitions through time! although not entirely nhl!chowder, there’s a solid chunk of it that is and i’d definitely recommend it if you like the trope

romantic fics 

Colours of the Evening Stars - orphan_account

a fluffy nurseychowder (nurseshark??) get-together fic with a sprinkling of kid!fic. i really liked this and i’ve reread it a few times! although not exactly nhl!chowder centric, it does play a pretty big role in this fic.

Come Back to Me - loveyoutoobits

a hurt/comfort charmer fic where chowder gets injured whilst the sharks are on a roadie and farmer can’t get to him straight away. i would die for park ranger!farmer.

the heart wants such unimaginable things - Anonymous

a parse/chowder fic (with some background farmer/nursey/chowder) where chowder plays for the falcs and is the first trans player in the nhl. i would die for trans chowder.

Many Ways Home - Liminal_Space_LLC (@liminal-space-llc​)

another nurseshark fic where nursey gets traded to the sharks and him and chowder slowly fall in love. i love nhl!nursey just as much as i love nhl!chowder, so this fic was the perfect combo of the two. and it doesn’t shy away from what the nhl is actually like. 

Swap Day - believesinponds

a parse/chowder soulmate au where they switch bodies (i assume this is based on that one art set by ngozi?). it’s very cute and fluffy and has a variety of soulmate tropes. (background charmer, pimms and parswoops)

Valentine’s Game - loveyoutoobits

a charmer meet cute set in new york the week of valentine’s day; i would die for this writer’s characterisations of these two.

You Made Your Choice - unacaritafeliz (@unacaritafeliz)

a nurseshark fic where nursey and chowder work out what they’re going to do after samwell. extremely fluffy and it fills my heart with joy

notable mentions that aren’t strictly nhl!chowder per say, but definitely fit the vibes

Chris Chow: ‘Swawesome Emergency Goalie! - lbswasp 

an ebug fic set in the ice crew universe. i love this so much bc ebug chowder makes soo much sense, especially in the context of the ice crew. 

fins to the left, fins to the right - numberfifteenjersey

although chowder doesn’t play in this fic, i love it a lot. it’s a charmer meet-cute where farmer goes on a bad day to a sharks game and chowder is the heroic mascot that saves her.

Listed EBUG: #55 - Chris Chow - Carpe_History ( @carpe-history )

another ebug fic bc we all love ebugs in this fandom. anyway, a classic chowder gets to play backup goalie for the falcs. i love this fic with all my heart.Puck Aversion: The Birth of a Goalie Superstition

Snug as an EBUG in Pads - rythyme

yet another ebug!chowder fic! this one explores farmer’s role in supporting him a bit more, but still captures the vibes of nhl!chowder. 

Living the Dream - Omgpieplease (@omgpieplease)

not a fic, but a piece of art depicting trans chowder playing for the san jose sharks. i am in love with this art and its style. (this art is also here)

[randomnoteforfuturereference]

My piece for @omgcpreversebang 2020 and done in conjunction with the wonderful writer @loveyoutoobits .

And here's the accompanying fic: If Only They Could Sea Me Now

[omgcpheartbreakfest]

white flower oil

Author: @stanthefrogs

Written for: @loveyoutoobits

Rating: T

Word Count: 8,165

Pairing(s): Charmer

Summary: Caitlin falls sick and Chris worries.

[omgcpreversebang]

Title: If Only They Could Sea Me Now

Author: @loveyoutoobits

Artist: @randomnoteforfuturereference

Rating: Teens and Up

Pairing: Chris "Chowder" Chow/Caitlin Farmer

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Summary: Chris Chow hates the sport of golf, unlike most other hockey players. With the somewhat suspicious help from Dex, he winds up signing up for surf lessons that a girl he knocked off a surfboard recommended to him. Who knew that she'd be his instructor? Well, she knew, and she hoped he'd take her class.

An AU where Caitlin Farmer doesn't go to Samwell and instead part times as a surf instructor in San Francisco, where Chris Chow lives during the offseason. Dex holds a hand in all shenanigans.

Fic | Art

[shadowfaerieammy]

Submission for the @omgcpaubang !

Fic: Miracle At Christmas written by @loveyoutoobits

Rating: T

Summary:  Jack's gearing up to spend his first Christmas alone following the disappearance of his parents, the sole heir to their mansion outside of town. A month before the dreaded holiday, Jack is heading home from work when his carriage skids on the icy road, and he hits something... or someone. He ends up hitting Eric, a man who appears to be living on the streets. Eric ends up with a broken leg and a place to stay during the holidays, but things don't end going to plan for anyone. (A Victorian Era AU)

[loveyoutoobits]

Chapters: 1/10 Fandom: Check Please! (Webcomic) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Eric "Bitty" Bittle/Jack Zimmermann Characters: Justin "Ransom" Oluransi, William "Dex" Poindexter, Original Characters Additional Tags: hurt/comfort but make it mutual pining, Bitty almost dies (sorry about that), Alternate Universe - Victorian, doctor!ransom, Tailor!Dex, lord!Jack, homeless!bitty

Summary:

Jack's gearing up to spend his first Christmas alone following the disappearance of his parents, the sole heir to their mansion outside of town. A month before the dreaded holiday, Jack is heading home from work when his carriage skids on the icy road, and he hits something... or someone. He ends up hitting Eric, a man who appears to be living on the streets. Eric ends up with a broken leg and a place to stay during the holidays, but things don't end going to plan for anyone.

Art post: https://shadowfaerieammy.tumblr.com/post/190047054243/submission-for-the-omgcpaubang-fic-miracle-at

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Its my fic for the @omgcpaubang! I never thought I’d actually finish this fic, since I’d been working on it for a whole year by the time this event rolled around. Luckily it’s finally done and I don’t have to worry about it anymore! Hope you enjoy

[omgficrecsplease]

Happy Valentine’s Day!

To celebrate today, here are some fluffy Valentine’s Day centric Check, Please! fics! Hope you all enjoy your day! :D

Don't Forget the Icing by define_lying (Bitty/Jack)

for quite some time by iridescentOracle (iridescentOwl) (Bitty/Jack)

galentines by mlle (Chowder/Farmer)

in search of our lost time by alwaysbuddy (Jack/Parson)

Little Sour Hearts by omgericzimmermann (HMSLusitania) (Holster/Esther Shapiro)

Red by torkz (Nursey/Dex)

Romance Shit With Ransom & Holster by MWI (Ransom/Holster)

Smitten by Pinkerton (Bitty/Parson)

That Thorns Have Roses by badcaseofcasey (Bitty/Jack)

Valentine's Day Plans by loveyoutoobits (lostflares) (Bitty/Jack)

Won't You Be Mine? by badcaseofcasey (Nursey/Dex)

And be sure to check out all the fics being posted for the Bitty’s Valentines fest this year!

[bittysvalentines]

@loveyoutoobits I finished your fic and I hope you like it!

[effyeahzimbits]

Swawesome Santa 2018 Submission

Title: Five Times Bitty and Jack Allowed Fate to Get the Better of Them…and the One Time They Took Matters into Their Own Hands Rating: T+ Pairings: Jack/Bitty, mentions of Shitty/Lardo, mentions of Holster/Ransom. Very, very brief Jack/OC and Bitty/OC. Warnings: Alcohol use, brief mentions of Jack’s overdose. Summary: Bitty always felt like he was missing a train he was meant to have taken. Jack always let the universe decide which direction he should go in. It took them three New Year's Eves before they got it right.A 5+1 things AU fic created for the Swawesome Santa, gifted to @loveyoutoobits! I hope you like it.

 Five Times Bitty and Jack Allowed Fate to Get the Better of Them…and the One Time They Took Matters into Their Own Hands   

31st December 2017    Bitty’s first New Year’s Eve in Boston was spent in a bar. He wasn’t a stranger to bars, especially the loud, gaudy one he was in right now. But he had previously rung in the new years with his parents at family parties back in Madison, Georgia, and had been desperate for a change of scenery. When his best friends had suggested a night out on the town, he had jumped at the chance. He never turned down an opportunity to dance and spend the night with his friends.     That was also the night he first met Jack Zimmermann.    

     Now, Bitty didn’t know a great deal about hockey culture. He knew the game and enjoyed it just as much as his friends did, but he never took that much interest in teams’ rosters and star players. But Jack Zimmermann, the Providence Falconers’ current captain, he knew. If only because he scored a hat trick in their last game against the Bruins and Holster was furious for a week. Bitty had been impressed enough to Google him, and had been impressed further by the man’s understated smile and bright blue eyes. Still, he was just another hockey player.     Just another hockey player who turned out to be the best friend of Lardo’s new boyfriend.     Bitty could see right away he wasn’t the partying type. While Bitty and his friends downed shots and sang at the top of their lungs and danced without a care in the world, Jack simply sat at a booth nursing a single beer and watching them have a good time. When questioned he just said he was perfectly happy as he was, and Shitty (Lardo’s boyfriend) would confirm it. Bitty mostly forgot all about him and continued partying. That was, until he felt Jack’s eyes on him.     No one knew how he did it. Hell, even Bitty himself didn’t know how he did it. But one moment he was playfully beckoning Zimmermann from the dance floor, and the next Jack was joining him. He looked just as surprised to find himself there as anyone else, but Bitty wasn’t about to pass up the opportunity. With Shitty, Ransom and Holster all hollering excitedly behind them, Bitty tugged Jack towards him.     It turned out that Jack Zimmermann wasn’t a bad dancer. He was a little shy and awkward at first, swaying stiffly beside him. Bitty would later blame it on the alcohol, but at the time he just simply didn’t think and grabbed Jack’s hand and pulled. Jack’s professional athlete build wasn’t fazed by the gesture, but something in him was, and it was enough to encourage him to move. A couple of songs in, and Jack was matching Bitty’s peppy rhythm.     Bitty couldn’t put his finger on it, especially with his brain fogged with a haze of Jägermeister and Red Bull, but there was something between them that neither of them expected. It was almost an electricity, thrumming with an energy that made the hair on Bitty’s forearms stand on end. It started at their joined hands and vibrated through them until it resonated in their chests. He’d barely said more than two sentences to Jack Zimmermann all night, but suddenly Bitty wanted to kiss him.     He could tell the exact moment Jack became aware of the connection. The easy smile on his face quickly dropped and was replaced with an uneasy confusion. There was a muttered excuse – Bitty couldn’t hear it over the pounding music – and then Jack turned and hurried out of the bar, fighting his way through the crowd. Bitty watched him go, then shrugged carelessly and turned around to dance with his friends again.    It wasn’t until he woke up the next morning, slightly hungover but content, did he wonder if the universe had tried to give him something and he let it pass him by.   5th May 2018     Bitty had explicitly said no parties. Every birthday for the last four years his friends had threw a raging kegster to celebrate. For his first birthday out of college, all Bitty wanted was to call his parents, bake some nice food and share it with his friends over a glass of good wine and the Great British Bake-Off reruns (the better ones, before Mary, Mel and Sue had quit the show obviously). Ransom, Holster and Shitty had taken a little more persuading, but had soon agreed after Bitty had promised his signature peach cobbler and black forest brownies.     His phone call to his parents lasted nearly an hour. His relationship with them had been a little strained since coming out, but it was slowly getting better, and he hung up with a big smile on his face. Lardo had still been in bed at ten that morning, so he went to the store to fetch baking ingredients on his own. It was cliché, but it was a perfect spring day, like it was the movie of his life.     Working as a junior social media and marketing assistant had its perks, like weekends off. Today was a Saturday, so he wandered down to the fresh foods market for his ingredients. The peaches weren’t quite as sweet as the ones back home, but the ones here were a close second. He left an hour later with his tote bag full to the brim with ripened fruit and fresh spices and fingers sticky with pear juice. He stopped by his favourite deli next, the one with the premium butter and organic flour. His budget never usually stretched past Walmart, but he had birthday money burning a hole in his pocket.     It was late afternoon by the time he got home. The kitchen smelled strongly of ground coffee, and he found Lardo perching on a chair and trying to hang purple streamers from the lampshade. She had put on her favourite sweatshirt for the occasion, the one with a rubber duck wearing sunglasses, and that alone made Bitty’s chest swell with happiness. They finished putting up the streamers between them and had lunch, squabbling over whose turn it was to use the one decent plate they had. It was Lardo’s, who overruled Bitty’s birthday argument with a smirk and a flick to his forehead.     An hour later he was elbow deep in pastry when the buzzer rang. It was Ransom and Holster, bearing wine and beer and takeout menus, though they all knew they’d be too full of pie to eat the Chinese food they’d still order. The wine was shared out and they were put to work, greasing tins and chopping fruit. Shitty appeared not long after, and gave Bitty a slurpy, whiskery kiss on his cheek before handing over more wine. He wore a suspicious grin for a whole hour and sang loudly and out of tune to the radio as he peeled peaches.     When the buzzer went a third time, everyone looked around at each other in confusion, except Shitty, who just grinned even wider. Bitty rolled his eyes and wiped his hands on a towel, wondering who on earth Shitty had invited. Maybe a stripper. He didn’t know whether to be disappointed or relieved when he found a shy looking Jack Zimmermann in the hallway. He was pleasantly surprised though, especially when Jack sheepishly held out a small bunch of flowers and wished him happy birthday.     He’d met Jack a handful of times since New Year’s Eve. He’d learned that Jack wasn’t quite as stoic and robotic in real life as his television interviews would have you believe. He was quiet and reserved, but also thoughtful and could hold his own in an intelligent discussion. His accent was just as endearing though, and Bitty found his awkward shyness adorable. Bitty never denied the attraction to himself, but it was never one he would act on either.     Parties and clubs might not have been his thing, but it turned out that quiet gatherings with people he knew were more to Jack’s taste. He threw himself into the baking, listening to Bitty’s instructions with keen ears and following them with enthusiasm. After a glass of wine Bitty would even call him charming, quick to tease or crack a joke. If Bitty didn’t know any better, he’d say Jack was flirting with him when he flicked flour in his face or purposely nudged his pie out of the way when he tried to take a bite. But Bitty did know better. Guys like Jack were never Not Straight. And even if they were, Bitty was never their type.     It was probably the best birthday he’d ever had, anyway. By the end of the night, his and Lardo’s apartment was a complete mess. The streamers had fallen, there were plates and takeout cartons all over the living room and the kitchen was filled with dirty pans and covered in a fine layer of flour dust. They’d eaten and drank until they were fit to burst, argued over which Bake-Off contestant would win in a mud fight, and Jack had offended them all by declaring he didn’t find Mary Berry all that great. Come midnight, Ransom and Holster had wandered back to their own apartment and Lardo had dragged a wasted Shitty back to her room. Bitty told Jack he didn’t need to stay and help tidy, but Jack insisted anyway.     It was only when they were both alone did Bitty feel it again. That strange electricity that drew Bitty towards Jack like a moth to the flame. He couldn’t blame the alcohol this time, not after only two glasses of wine. Jack either wasn’t aware of it, or was ignoring it, focusing hard on wiping flour from the counter tops. Bitty tried to do the same, humming along to the quiet tune playing on the radio as he filled a trashbag full of rubbish. They worked without a word, moving around almost in tandem, like they had done it a million times before.     Bitty didn’t believe in fate, or soul mates, or past lives. At least, he didn’t until their rhythm was suddenly broken and they bumped into one another. Jack had flour on his nose and a dirty cloth in his hand. Bitty had a smudge of cherry sauce on his mouth and was holding a stack of empty plates. They both laughed and then went still. It felt like they were both waiting for something as they looked at each other, taking in lashes and eyes and noses and freckles and dimples and mouths. Waiting for what though, they didn’t know.     Jack’s phone pinged. It was loud enough to break the reverie and they both pulled free from the spell. Jack could never leave a text unanswered, and for the briefest of seconds Bitty wished that he would. Ignoring a text would make him not-Jack though, so he couldn’t be too disappointed when Jack took a step back and pulled his phone from his back pocket. Bitty cleared his throat and continued his task like nothing had happened.     Jack was still staring at his phone screen a couple of minutes later. His brows were slightly furrowed, but Bitty couldn’t read the expression on his face. He questioned him gently, and Jack almost jumped, like he’d forgotten where he was. He managed an apologetic smile, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. He didn’t explain himself or the text message, and simply announced that he had to leave. With a last ‘happy birthday’ he showed himself to the door and left.     Bitty felt like he had just missed a train that he was supposed to take.   31st December 2018     They didn’t go to a bar that year. Ransom and Holster threw a party in their apartment, though it was thankfully not as outrageous as the kegsters they used to host in college. Their work friends were accountants and administrators and fellow consultants so Bitty wasn’t expecting it to get too wild. He’d had a pleasant, sleepy Christmas with plenty of good food and catching up with family, so didn’t mind that this new year was different to the last. Lardo brought Shitty along, who naturally dragged Jack with him. Bitty was over the moon to hear this, hoping that maybe fate would give them both a helping hand this year.     However, it appeared that fate had other plans in store. Jack appeared at the party as promised, but Bitty hadn’t expected to see a young, smiley blonde man attached to his hip. Jack introduced him as his boyfriend, and Bitty felt like the floor had abruptly disappeared from beneath him. It was a lot to process all at once. He’d started to have suspicions that Jack was Not Straight as Bitty had originally thought, and to have that confirmed was a little overwhelming. Then to learn that he was also suddenly spoken for left Bitty with a bitter taste in his mouth.     He and Jack had grown close over the last few months, and he thought that they shared everything over a glass of wine and a slice of pie. It turned out that was wrong though, and Bitty wasn’t sure what he felt more betrayed about. Still, he plastered on a smile and congratulated them as if it wasn’t a knife through his heart.     Jack’s partner was funny and charming and handsome and everyone liked him. Bitty wanted to hate him, but he couldn’t bring himself to. The man had asked for his macaron recipe and talked about his cat for a full twenty minutes for god’s sake. When Bitty had first walked in, he’d eyed the mistletoe hanging over each door with hopeful eyes, but now he just glared at it acrimoniously. It was an ugly way to feel, but Bitty couldn’t help but think the universe was laughing in his face.     The worst thing was, Jack looked happy. Bitty was pleased for him, but it was tainted, and he hated that it was marred that way. He spied Jack’s hand casually sitting on the man’s waist or spotted a chaste peck on the cheek between them and wanted to down another shot. He didn’t want to spend the night torturing himself, but he didn’t want to succumb to the jealousy either. He left at eleven, feigning a headache and smiling through the well wishes.     He would spend tonight pitying himself, and then starting tomorrow he would get over Jack Zimmermann.   August 3rd 2019     Getting over Jack Zimmermann was damned hard. But Greg helped. Bitty had met him at one of Shitty’s law school mixers. He was an ex-college rugby player, dragged along to the event by his friend. Tall, broad, half Greek with a mop of dark, curly hair and an accent that made Bitty’s knees weak. He hadn’t dated seriously since college, and it was hard work. Between working their full-time jobs, Greg’s beer league rugby and Bitty’s figure skating, they barely had enough time to squeeze in dates and time together, but Bitty enjoyed it all the same.     Greg wasn’t Jack. They didn’t share the same sense of humour, and Greg’s taste in music and television wasn’t to Bitty’s tastes, and Greg was bossier and more assertive than Jack ever was. But he was also kind and caring and Bitty had a nice time with him. Even if he wasn’t Jack. But that was okay, because nobody could be Jack but Jack. And Bitty had to be fine about it. He could do that. They hadn’t had time to hang out much lately, but tonight was Jack’s birthday, and Shitty was throwing a get together in his honour. Bitty hadn’t originally wanted to bring Greg along, though he wasn’t sure why. Shitty had invited him too though, and Greg seemed to be looking forward to it. Bitty couldn’t exactly tell him no.      He had no idea what to get Jack for his birthday. What do you get the man who has everything? And if he didn’t have it, he had more than enough money to buy it anyway. This year, Jack had bought Bitty an entire collection of cookbooks from his favourite baker. Bitty knew it cost more than a whole month’s worth of his wages, though to Jack it was probably nothing. How could Bitty match something like that? He knew Jack wasn’t expecting him to, but it still made him feel inadequate.     Whatever it was, it had to be something special. It was almost an apology. I’m sorry we haven’t hung out much and you’ve taken a backseat to my actual Greek god boyfriend. Bitty didn’t think he should feel too guilty though. As far as Bitty knew, Jack was still with his own boyfriend. It was never talked about in the media for obvious reasons, but still, Bitty would know if they’d broken up. No, this get together would be good for the both of them. They could exist in the same room without that stupid electric connection between them. And even if it did appear, their boyfriends would keep it at bay.     Right?     Wrong.     It wasn’t an entire collection of cookbooks, but Bitty turned up on Jack’s swanky Providence doorstep with Jack’s favourite pie and a Barnes and Noble gift card. A feeble attempt, but he’d genuinely been stumped. He knew Jack liked history books, but Bitty was frightened of getting the wrong one. He explained this to Jack in a nervous ramble as he handed them over, but Jack laughed and thanked him sincerely anyway. It was only after Bitty stepped over the threshold did Jack notice who had been standing beside him.     Bitty introduced Greg hurriedly, hoping his edgy fluster wasn’t completely obvious to either of them. Jack was polite and smiley and shook Greg’s hand, but something about it seemed fake. Bitty tried to ignore it, heading straight to the wine. His friends were already around, and he greeted them with false enthusiasm. Once he had his glass in hand and looked around the apartment he noticed Jack’s boyfriend was nowhere to be seen. The pictures of them both were gone, as were the cat hairs and various caps and hoodies they used to share.     Jack and his boyfriend had broken up.     Bitty could’ve kicked himself. He had been so wrapped up in getting over Jack he’d forgotten to be a friend in the meantime. How long had it been since they had last hung out? Or had a lengthy phone call? The only thing Bitty had managed lately was a few quick texts and picture messages every now and again, all of which Jack had promptly replied to. He felt like an idiot. He had to apologise, but he wasn’t sure that this was the right moment. Jack looked like he was enjoying himself.     A few glasses of wine later, Bitty managed to push his guilt aside for the time being. He’d always loved Jack’s kitchen, and couldn’t resist baking in his top of the range oven, no matter the occasion. He was pulling out a tray of freshly baked mini tarts when he realised he was being watched. People had popped in and out the whole time he was baking, to fill up drinks or fetch snacks, but this time the body lingered. Bitty turned to tell them they’d have to wait a bit longer for the tarts to cool, but the words disappeared off his tongue when he noticed it was Jack.     Jack stood in the doorway, a half-drunk bottle of low alcohol beer in his hand. He had a determined look in his eyes that made Bitty go still, though his heart started to hammer in his chest. He didn’t say anything, waiting for Jack to make the first move. The energy was between them again, throbbing loud and unspoken. The metal tray shook in Bitty’s hands.    Jack opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out. He closed his mouth again, frowned, thought about it. Jack had never been one to say a lot, but each word was usually carefully thought out and selected. Bitty waited, expecting something insightful and meaningful. Jack opened his mouth, closed it, frowned again and thought some more.     Greg made them both jump. He was never quiet or graceful and strode in to the kitchen with a booming voice. He was half drunk, grinning at them and calling back to the others as he filled his glass, stole a mini tart and gave Bitty a swift peck on the cheek. He left almost as quickly as he appeared, but the moment was ruined. Jack gave him a stiff nod and retreated to the living room having clearly lost his nerve.     Bitty slammed the hot tray down onto the marble counter, feeling like he’d missed the train again.   31st December 2019     Tonight, Bitty was going to get drunk. He knew it was silly and immature, but these last few months had been stressful and depressing. He felt like he deserved to let loose and get messy and see off the year in style. A lot of things had happened this winter, including a promotion, Shitty and Lardo’s engagement, and his and Greg’s breakup. He hadn’t been angry or surprised, just disappointed. Greg wasn’t Jack, after all.     Jack wouldn’t be attending the party. He’d had a string of games and a long roadie over the last couple of days and wouldn’t be making it back to Providence until past eleven pm. Bitty knew that Jack would head straight to bed rather than get changed and drag himself to a loud and crowded bar after all of his travelling, and Bitty couldn’t blame him. The season had started off rough, and Jack hadn’t much time for anything in between practicing, playing, resting and all of his extra-curricular events.     Bitty knew this, but couldn’t help feeling frustrated. He’d tried to reach out, especially after his breakup, but Jack felt distant now and Bitty didn’t know how to bridge the gap. He didn’t have the energy anymore. He decided that if Jack was interested in preserving their friendship, it was his turn to make the effort. Bitty wasn’t holding his breath.     It was a fun party. It was the same LGBT+ friendly bar they went to two years ago, and Bitty felt an affinity for it. It almost felt like déjà vu, and if Bitty tried hard enough, he could almost imagine Jack sitting in his corner and nursing his beer. He wouldn’t though, he was done with torturing himself over Jack Zimmermann. He threw himself into the moment instead, filing to memory the song that was playing, the way he felt shimmying to the music, the sight of Lardo’s glittery red lipstick, the smell of Holster’s cheap cologne, the taste of Jägermeister on his tongue.     His phone buzzed at some point, but he ignored it. It buzzed a couple more times and he ignored it again, wanting to switch off from everything that wasn’t this party and this drink in his hand. Midnight was drawing closer, and he was sober enough to be aware of the heavy feeling in his chest. He watched Shitty and Lardo and Ransom and Holster dancing together and all of the other people surrounding him, and he never felt more alone. He suddenly started to wish he was anywhere but there. He wanted to be wherever Jack was.     But Jack wasn’t here. Instead there were dozens of good looking, charming boys dancing around him. A few had tried to catch his eye, and he knew he would have no problem finding someone to dance with. And if they so happened to share a kiss when the clock struck twelve, then where was the crime in that? Just a kiss, on New Year’s Eve, between two consenting adults. No big deal.     The man whose arms he fell into just happened to be tall, and dark, and blue eyed. Maybe he had a type. He didn’t look much like Jack, but if he thought hard he could just feel Jack’s hands on his hips. He looked hard at the boy’s face, trying to imagine Jack in the high cheekbones and full lips. He shook his head, wafting away the daze. That was stupid, he couldn’t keep doing this to himself.     He looked away, but he was starting to see Jack everywhere. A man by the bar had the same jacket. Another guy on the dance floor had the same awkward dance steps. A boy waiting by the toilets had a similar smile. His eyes drifted toward the door and even saw Jack standing there, a single flower in his hands and watching him. But it wasn’t real. None of these men were Jack.     Bitty turned back to the one in his arms and waited for midnight.   31st December 2019     Jack was done waiting. He was tired of letting everything else dictate his life for him. Ever since he was born he felt like the universe had already decided what was going to happen to him. The Q, the overdose, rebuilding his career from the ground up. He couldn’t choose his team. There was only one in the AHL who wanted to set him on after the scandal. He was forever grateful, but it wasn’t something he could choose. He’d worked damn hard to get where he was today. An NHL team, a captaincy and two Stanley Cups under his belt.     The last time he made a decision for himself he ended up nearly killing himself. Even now, he was worried that choosing something for himself could ruin everything. So, he waited. He let people walk in and out of his life as they saw fit. He allowed situations to happen to him, never fighting them or questioning them. It was just the universe deciding for him and he was in no position to try and take control.     Until now.     Jack stood in the doorway of the bar, watching Bitty dancing with another man. He turned the flower around in his hands. It was the same kind he’d bought for Bitty on his birthday a year and a half ago. It was a little cheesy maybe, but he had known Bitty would like it. He’d texted, letting him know he was on his way, but Bitty had never seen the messages. Bitty clearly had different things on his mind. And the old Jack would have turned away, deciding it was just what fate had decided for them, just like always.     But not this Jack.     This Jack was tired and in love. He strode forward, pushing his way past the various bodies towards the dance floor. Bitty’s eyes had drifted over him like he hadn’t realised Jack was really there. Jack couldn’t really blame him. He hadn’t been there, not recently. He’d been caught up in the start of the season, dealing with his own break up, torn between wanting to give Bitty space or comfort him after his. It had been a hard few months for both of them. Jack figured it was time to make it better.     He grabbed Bitty’s arm and pulled him around, ignoring the guy he was dancing with as he protested. Bitty opened his mouth to tell him off, but they were both momentarily stunned as they stared at each other. Bitty was shocked to see him, but Jack was stunned yet again by just how beautiful this boy was. And he was going to have him. He was going to take matters into his own hands.     He’d rehearsed a speech in the car, but the words left his brain. He suddenly couldn’t think of anything to say. He didn’t know how to explain what he was thinking or feeling and awkwardly fumbled. Bitty watched and waited with a familiar patience. Bitty never rushed him. Bitty always knew that each word needed time and thought. But still, the words wouldn’t come. Instead, Jack dumbly held out the flower and hoped that would be enough.     It was.     As the people around them started to chant a countdown, Bitty and Jack stepped forward. No more running away. No more making excuses. No more letting opportunities pass them by. Bitty jumped on the train. Jack took control. They couldn’t help but laugh, gazing at each other like they were the only two people in the world. The clock struck twelve.     “Happy New Year, Bits.”     “Happy New Year, Jack.”     They kissed. The End Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed it :) thank you for the notes and the kudos and comments this year - I appreciate every single one of them. For those of you interested - Jack’s mysterious partner was intended to be Kent, but I deliberately left it ambiguous so choose your own!

This was posted for the Swawesome Santa 2018 event and gifted to Loveyoutoobits.

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Fan works round up #2!

Here we go again! Check out all these ‘swawesome exchange gifts and leave some love for the creators. (And in case you missed it: here’s round up #1.)

We’re nearly at the end of the exchange, but there are a handful of creators who are still working hard to finish. If you haven’t seen your exchange gift yet - please hang tight! I promise I’m following up on everyone and everything until everybody has a gift. Happy New Year, all!

Eric Bittle and the Matchmakers' Mayhem by lardosundercut for LexiWritesThings. Fiction, Bitty/Jack, G, 10,723 words.

Taking Our Time by bittycanbake for giraffeter. Fiction, Parse/Jack, Bitty/Parse/Jack, M, 7,370 words.

A Home for the Holidays by kirani for foryouandbits. Fiction, Nursey/Dex, T, 1,922 words.

A Soft Winter by mocrow for kirani. Art, Nursey/Dex, G.

Tipping the Scales by akaparalian for KittPurson. Fiction, Bitty/Jack, T, 7,457 words.

it's tradition by StilesSmiles for dievampiredie. Fiction, Nursey/Dex, G, 1,004 words.

And Now it's Christmas Every Day by RabbitRunnah for luckie_dee. Fiction, Bitty/Jack, T, 5,475 words.

The Preservation of Fire by Sophia_Prester for RabbitRunnah. Fiction, Bitty/Jack, T, 6,682 words.

Five Times Bitty and Jack Allowed Fate to Get the Better of Them…and the One Time They Took Matters into Their Own Hands by Effyeahzimbits for loveyoutoobits. Fiction, Bitty/Jack, Lardo/Shitty, T, 4,760 words.

delicate by ithinkiloveyoubetternow for bittycanbake. Fiction, Nursey/Dex, E, 1,369 words.

same by palateens for bluflamingo. Fiction, Nursey/Parse, G, 1,247 words.

Disneybound by belislythindor for figureskaterbitty. Art, Chowder/Farmer, Not Rated.

Sealed With a Kiss by loveyoutoobits (lostflares) for akaparalian. Fiction, Bitty/Jack, T, 5,519 words.

A Brick is just a Domesticated Rock by Vitamin_Me for StilesSmiles. Fiction, Tater/Parse, Bitty/Jack, T, 5,653 words.