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#I think. people probably maybe might unfollow me after this LMAAOO#thats okay. I am cringe but free. sunglasses emoji sunglasses emoji flushed emoji#tumblr user Mooniverse being absolutely DOWN BAD on main#verc3x art#*seductively pushes hair behind ear* h. hey Galacta. hey um. hello 😎 *goes to lean on a wall that is not there and falls over*#almost scared to put this in the main tags but.#Galacta Knight#Kirby#verc3x sona#my ocs#if you squint you can pretend my sona isnt thtere and its just galacta looking ̶h̶o̶t̶ COOL af
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Ok maybe kinda of a weird question you don't have to answer if you don't want to but I've seen some people saying that Chilchuck is canonically misogynistic so, as the Chilchuck especialist, do you have an opinion about that?
Anon you are brave and I love you. Listen if you, person reading this, get peeved or upset when people say Chilchuck might have had not insignificant flaws as a father and husband then probably stop reading here, we will be looking at Chilchuck like a petri dish and defile his pristine allure. Tldr: yes but actually no but really both at the same time aka people & social dynamics are complex and please let your blorbos be flawed. With that said I will be pretty casual and playful if that wasn’t clear already, sorry.
"Aren’t you happy to be in a harem party" "No it’s soul-crushing save me". Toshiro has been drinking his fear women juice since he was young, surrounded by an assassin nanny and her fellow assassin girlies, meanwhile Chilchuck having flashbacks of getting wrung out by his 4 women household…
Waiting on people is something we see he hates doing a couple times throughout canon and extras, here and how he says "it’s not a date" -bless his summer child heart- he frames being slow to get ready as a gendered trait to have? But I can forgive him for this one because honestly the framing of the whole page leans into that, it’s kinda questionable if we’re being highly critical of anything misogynistic or regressive. But it itself is the classic subversive "Women are desirable wallflowers— Wrong! They are a monstrous ruthless force that wears on the mind, body and soul" trope. I don’t fault Kui though, I got giggles from it, it makes sense for everyone’s characters, and Kui has never shied from gendered dynamics in her worldbuilding & characters so it’s not like she’ll write as if sex changes nothing and no one has opinions about it.
Alright alright let’s step back from analyzing this page specifically and get back to the question, is Chilchuck canonically misogynistic? It’s a complex question not because we don’t have hints but because it’s a very black and white answer to give and because misogynistic can be very wide or pretty narrow depending on how the term is applied.
What I would say? Yes, he is, in a realistic way that doesn’t automatically make him a piece of shit, though that doesn’t mean it isn’t uncomfortable or harmful. On the spectrum of misogyny he classifies to me as "It’s in the normalized lighthearted way of being a horny uncle who’s a little too loose about it around the dinner table", he’s a solid "He wants to treat women as pieces of meat and jokes about it but in actuality he’s a gentleman and a family careerman who has a job so he don’t really care about that rn".
Going back to Toshiro’s party, Chilchuck being weird about it being full of women doesn’t even happen only once but TWICE. I made a compilation of every time he’s crass, happens less than you might expect but the overall picture it gives throughout reading the manga is pretty straightforward. Repeatedly he’s shown to be dirty-minded and shown to objectify & sexualize women both lightheartedly and unprompted. They’re a punchline and they’re eye candy and it’s "of COURSE my succubus would be young women, of COURSE women would desire a muscled statue’s [redacted], of COURSE women are sexual beings and of course I am attracted to them".
Dungeon Meshi doesn’t bring up sexuality much and gendered dynamics tend to be more subtle than you’d expect from media in general, so there’s that, but I honestly struggle to think of any character that acts less normal about women existing than him. Like yeah he’s joking but Hien, Benichidori, Inutade and Maizuru were just breathing and doing their jobs. Who else’s misogynistic uhh, that guy working for the shadow governor that licks Cithis’ ear when she’s bound in ropes? The sheer jump from ‘makes demeaning jokes about women’ to ‘assaulter’ between these two, god.
Honestly it does feel odd to me that he’d be kinda demeaning like that about women even in a workplace setting —Chilchuck the union man out of everyone?— but Kui has spoken man idk, think what you will don’t shoot the messenger. It’s not like he’s weird about Namari? I guess he respects her too much- Wait that sounded wrong. Maybe it’s literally just because she and the other women party members are his direct coworkers, in line with his rule and all? But yeah, even if he canonically had a thing for blondes and pretty young women he has managed to only tease Marcille ceaselessly for fun & entertainment and make her hair extra shiny as his shapeshifter, you get a good behavior star there Chilchuck. He complains on waiting for Marcille to get ready in the barometz chapter and the first anime ED but he also does with Laios when he’s late to meet up the party in extras. He constantly pulls on Marcille to get her to safety as if she can’t protect herself but she’s referred to as clumsy a lot so he has that justified reasoning. He constantly berates everyone so no point to make there. He undermines Marcille’s opinions often but it’s because he dislikes mages and elves and idealism. Clearly Chilchuck knows women can be capable and clearly he can have women coworkers (and friends! Again, Namari) without belittling or sexualizing them, clearly he can be normal about women and knows that some of his attitude can be inappropriate. It’s just harmless fun to him, that he keeps for occasional playful banter and taverns and the ‘right’ moods.
And as I mentioned earlier! Chilchuck is also pretty gentlemanly and protective. As always desires vs wants and instinct vs rationality show up as themes. Yes his succubus aka his ideal, the deepest allure he can imagine, is beautiful naked women, but a chapter just before that was the bicorn, all about how faithful and virtuous he is, how his heart’s in the right place. His brain is virtuous but his heart is monkey. My point is that when it counts, aka 90% of the time and when things are serious, we don’t see signs of sexist bias and he treats women well. Often takes on a protector role or at the least takes them seriously, even Benichidori. He doesn’t want to hurt women or thinks they’re insignificant or anything. He’ll give a handkerchief to a woman in need with a slimy face.
Okay okay this is really entering speculation territory but in my own tally, the way he dismissed his wife’s ‘bad mood’ as some meaningless tantrum that he shouldn’t think any more deeply about, him starting out not reaching out to her as a resentful silent treatment, and her getting dissatisfied in the first place enough to leave makes me think he took her for granted and was kinda dismissive of her in general. Marcille’s theorical scenario is hypothetical and factually untrue at least in parts, but if we do follow it, him forgetting he’s out with his wife for once (in the precious counted time he’s home spending time with her) and not paying attention to her all outing, resulting in her being left out of conversations and just an ornament beside him the way she might have felt for a long time as his housewife waiting home for him to come back………
Editing this paragraph in: Okay I don’t know how I missed mentioning this but, when he’s asked why his wife left him, Chilchuck literally point blank thinks that being thought to have cheated on his wife is LESS SHAMEFUL than not knowing the reason why (due to poor communication skills or whatnot). It’s so ridiculous that it can be hard to see beyond it as a gag or twist, but make of this what you will but this is not a great look for his priorities and his view of women especially in regards to toxic masculinity, good lord. When I talk about him having a sense of being entitled to his wife and dismissive of her emotions that’s sort of what I mean. He thinks it’s better for people to think he mistreated his wife and did something terrible than just failed at keeping her affection for reasons he doesn’t grasp. His pride, both in giving her the silent treatment and doing damage control when talking about it to others like Marcille and coworkers, takes priority over their relationship and love.
Half-foots seem to be patriarchal. The last section of this essay’s chapter (not by me!) + combing through its half-foot chapter should give you insight on that if you want. It’s in their patronymic, it’s in the way marriage seems very important especially for women, and it’s in the implied gender roles, being a housewife whose life revolves around raising her husband’s kids and taling care of the family home waiting for her husband who’s out working to come back. I think Chilchuck is a bit a result of his environment and upbringing in that way, that most of the misogyny is internalized and subconscious and passive, it’s taking his wife for granted because not only does she trust her, his most precious person he’s known since he was a kid, but because she’s his wife, his woman, conceptually something that’s unwaveringly devoted, something that is very valued and enforced in half-foot communities. Here’s a short post on half-foot family bonds culturally + here’s a post on marriage and half-foots for more. The community aspect of half-foots is very strong, which makes sense especially for how empoverished and discriminated against they are, which does come at the expense of not unlike dwarves (dwarves which half-foots idolize) having more pressure to fit in and have a good reputation to not be cast out and have no support lines. By being scared and needing stability people will often be more conservative, etc etc, though the reverse is also often true, like Chilchuck with his union. But yes Chilchuck seems to have many biases he clings onto, harsh on especially Marcille and Laios, Marcille for her idealism, race and magic meanwhile Laios for his lack of social skills and ‘reckless’ behavior.
He also does the classic "Don’t you dare date my daughter!!", though it’s a bit up in the air because he only gets agitated about coworkers being suitors, not nearly as hostile to the idea when it’s some nameless dwarf. But y’know when a guy assumes every men is as horny and sleazy as they are so they’re like "never trust men"… Chilchuck does embody a lot the tropes of just, the everyday flawed middle aged man. The absentee father and careerman husband who does care despite it all. Disillusioned grumpy old man. Old divorced drunkard joe with a thing for cute young blonde women, as a friend put it.
We know Kui subverses tropes a lot, I definitely think Kui leans into these if nothing else for the bit. He’s tropes of the strict family Father, man doing inappropriate jokes around a beer with his drinking buddies, working man exhausted and frustrated by his job, midlife crisis. Also because of how he acts with Marcille, I always say he’s the boy on the playground pulling on the pigtails of his girl friend bc he thinks it’s funny. Because he thinks she’s pretty.
So point blank, Chilchuck respects women as individuals but he can get a little lost in the sauce when thinking about women in general and jumps to sexualizing them in ways that can be objectifying and dismissive. Casual lowkey misogyny for the bit that may or may not slip into non-jokes as well sometimes when it comes to seeing women as something inherently to defend or take for granted, though he’s well-meaning. He engages in gender roles of "men should be strong and burly" and "daughters should listen to their fathers’ opinion before dating a guy". A guy engaging in patriarchy without thinking much of it y’know, more or less passive and unaware. He’s good in economic and human rights issues but would not win the political correctness medal (though he does care about optics and is very conscious of appearing as upstanding and innocent with the elves or Toshiro’s and Kabru’s parties to avoid getting thrown in jail. Overcompensating for half-foot criminal reputations etc etc. Post on that here).
Do I believe Chilchuck would march for women’s rights? Yes. Do I believe he would make ‘ye old ball and chain’ and ‘my wife’ and ‘ah women’ jokes? Yes. Do I believe he would punch anyone making one such jokes about his wife or daughters? Yes.
I was pretty flippant bc honestly Chilchuck the Sleazy Horny Old Man is hilarious to me but yes hopefully the post was decent. "How could I be sexist? I love bitches"
#Chilchuck tims#ask#meta#discourse#tagging bc i am scared and the topic is understandably unpleasant. Look ma i tagged one character main tag#I need him to get hit by hammers but most importantly i need him#I wanna hit up the sociopolitics and the controversial lately i have milsiril being abusive and mickbell being an incel posts on the mind#Posts my pr team begged me not to make#I don’t want ppl to reblog this one actually help me god#Anon you have made me type about chilchuck misogyny for like two hours. I may be cursed but I’m taking you down with me in spirit#I just had a debate on the position of chilchuck’s hometown bc of map ambiguity possibly contradicting a panel. And how Chilchuck’s had#3 houses that we know of so there’s so much possible fuckery and the timeline is flexible help i feel like i have cranial bleeding#I should make a half-foot culture compilation one day it’d save my ass. I’m tired I don’t want to argue what constitutes a patriarchy
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trying to figure him out . (Lies down on the floor)
#I AM TERRIFIED TO POST MY DRAWINGS TO THE PUBLIC AGAIN……#i stopped like 3 years ago cause I realized my art was bad and nobody told me so I got in my feelings abt it lolllll#actually. looking back at my insta it’s been. 5 or so years#I like to think I’ve improved#but idk. tell me if this is bad. You Have To Tell Me#I’m NOT putting this in the main tag I’m SCARED!!!!!!#posting this and then going to sleep. the infallible technique#vlinny#j.draw#very inspired by my current fav vs artist but over my dead body will I tag him about it
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trying to psych myself up to finally do oc refs by doing fandom-related refs instead: volume 1
wanted to update my yuma from whatever tf this au is so he was a bit more unique... takes inspo from a lot of different things while also trying to be its own sorta thing? which is fitting given the au ;)
bonus chibi now that i'm also figuring out how tf to do chibis lol:
#my art lol#synth v yuma#yuma synthv#synth v#synthv fanart#synthesizer v#vocaloid#vocaloid fanart#YES I KNOW ITS DIFFERENT but at this rate its the umbrella tag. all vsynth shit goes under there just like on main 😔#sorry for the annoyign watermarks i just dont want this to get stolennn/traced it'll b my joker arc. is2g#like thats never happened to me before as far as i know but now that my art is getting 'better' i begin to get scared that it will happen#if my fanart got stolen i'd def sting a little yeah but not hurt AS bad as if someone stole my original shit. THAT would hurt#one of many reasons why i post less personal oc stuffs. although as mentioned above i AM in an oc mood so i wanna draw em maybe...#and stuff like this is a step to develop a PROPER FUCKING REF STYLE bc i SUCKKKK AT MAKING REFS LOL 😭 BUT I SHOULD GIT GUD#i have a few other refs planned for vocaloid au (i guess???) related shit but they're not done yet. this one was also a wip that i just??#impulsively decided to redo & finish bc i wanted to draw but nothing else i was trying to draw came out right. advantages of many wips#i have SOOO many things i could say abt some of the things that went into this redesign but i dont wanna come off as pretentious 😔💔#obviously it was primarily inspired by the vimalion yuma design but. there's moreeee that i can't explain here bc tag limits and im shy#i do think i want to try and be more intentional with my character designs now so i'm seeing how that goes as i redesign some old ocs#man though this kind of stuff makes me remember i used to LOVEE doing this stuff. and now its even crazierr given art improvement#uaurhghh my head is buzzing w/. so many thoughts. THIS ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPENS I GET SO MANY IDEAS WHEN IM BUSY GFD#this is actually from today though unlike some other things i might eventually post. that'll make more sense soon#and fuckkk i forgot the chain necklace thing on the chibi yeah but i couldnt get it to look good. whatever
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transgender American mutuals i am holding ur hand. not *just* to reassure YOU, but because *I* am so fucking scared and i need to hold someone’s hand 😭
#I lowkey highkey am vulnerable rn and need a hug#i need to start a tag for USamerican political doomerism so anyone who doesn’t want to see me whinging about orange man bad can block it#cause most of my mutuals r from nonamerican eng speaking countries lol#usa doomerism tag#<- ok here this is my tag. im gonna be using it often the next few years#im scared about losing access to legal hormones and the ability to get surgery#obviously minors r the main target but they’re going to go after adult access to gender affirming care too#and im nervous bc last time trump was president hate crimes went up. and I am visibly an afab person taking hormones#like I am directly affected by abortion laws and I Look very uh. hatecrimeable#to the cishet eye im a woman with a mustache and weak ass arms. I Can Not defend myself if someone decides to physically hurt me#im in a red state (Georgia) and while im Close To Atlanta (progressive part of the state bc it’s a city) im not#In Atlanta. im in a very uhhh. NIMBY filled surbuban area about an hour or two away#nowhere near the worst place in the state to be but it’s not exactly Good either#shut up miiiwu/#vent#negativity#us elections
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Art i made!!
I found some markers my friend gave me for my birthday last year and omgg I lovee them esp. bc they made this!!
What they are, from the top left: Dahlia Remanse (my oc), Jane Doe, Princess Lolly (yeah the one from candyland I lovee her), a child looking at stars (I used a stamp for the child), a raccoon with EW above it because that’s how I was feeling, covered kn you because Ivy ts is an amazing song, otgw art, and what I see in my mind at the end of the song The Opera from the great comet.
#hee hoodles#maia can draw#these were literally so so fun to make#I am obsessed and will def be making more#my art#great comet#otgw#princess lolly oc#dahlia remanse#look at me main tagging (I am scared)#(w+p and great comet fans feel so gatekeepy sometimes ;-;)
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i love being a dramatic little fuck and torturing my online following. like. i'm so silly guys. yes i'm disappearing for twelve days fuck you.
#☆ ☆ ☆#be nice to me#day 1 of not talking to my friends#(bringing back this tag i guess. yippee!!#i am doing this mostly because the ed thoughts are consuming my brain right now and i can hardly talk about anything else.#i'll still schedule a couple of posts on main. like for my boyfriend's birthday and all.#oh shit his birthday.... i sent him an ask on anon to apologize about leaving. upon thinking about it it sort of looked like a suicide note#i'm not going to kill myself. obviously. i'm very much alive and i'm much too scared to change that.#but i don't know.#also i'm going to tell a couple of them about my ed. just because i feel like i need to. i feel worse.#not feelings-wise like at the start of the year and august those were TORTURE. i'm talking about my body you know.#oh well i'm an idiot with my words.)
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mad w power rn
#i am following crashsune academys 3d character modelling tutorial playlist#i tried to just do a cadaver turnaround in this style but then i got annoyed so im just winging it while kinda following the base they#provided. i fear the boots r way too high poly i hope they wont stand out ... i just got excited bc i was like. actually able to do that on#my own likee i modeled them yk. very exciting stuff#but the original shoes r like. far simpler. they were like 9 sides or something#i got annoyed abt cadaver bc of the skirt idk how to make a long skirt work with like. the bones and stuff... wuthout it being weirdness...#my true hearts wish is to do scientist but ill experiment w cj first bc ill feel less bad if she looks a bit wonky JKDBKAJBFW#Now im allowed to add my tags and tumblr wont try to scare me. ok#'is this gonna be another cj in his underwear' IM SORRY!!! I JUST IMAGINE IT WOULD LOUNGE AROUND IN UNDERWEAR ALL THE TIME ITS NOT MY FAULT#if i can figure out how to give it a long skirt and still be able to walk without being weirdness i will be doing that. or i can just put#her in pants i never put it in pants anymore. its always just black turtleneck + dress overtop. and the reason is bc shirt w dress overtop#is My main outfit ever. sry. sue me. lock me up. take me out back and shoot me
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cloverworks i swear to gooooooooooooood you better make wolfram in green witch arc anime look as good as norland does in rozé of the recapture (thank you sunrise)
#THE WAY I SCREAMED DURING EPISODE 11. CUZ THEY ARE SO 1:1 SIMILAR.#THAT FUCKING NOSE BRIDGE!!!!!!!!!!! THE FLOOFY SIDEBURNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE CREASES AT THE EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!#being completely honest and upfront i admittedly am worried about cloverworks animating wolfram cuz i did not like how they animated alexis#they turned him into a beanpole!!!!!!! im so scared. wolfram needs his width.#I WILL SAY THE TEASER FOR THE ARC DID GIVE ME A BIT OF HOPE CUZ THERE WAS MORE VARIETY IN THE NOSES#we shall see. im trying to temper my expectations.#if all else fails i'll just be delusional and pretend wolfram looks like norland LMAO#save me green witch arc anime#wolfram gelzer#if you see me being crazy in the main tag: no you don't#wait i just realized both of their shirts have the stupid little creased collar corners. taking myself out back as i type this.
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me trying to stroll thru the ted nivison tag on tumblr for some sick art X READER, IMAGINE, OTHER THINGS I CAN'T REMEMBER THE NAME OF EVEN THO IT'S QUITE LITERATLY RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME XDD
#No shade btw I get it#look. I was on mcyt wattpad as a small small SMALL child and I mean FUCKING TINY#and I get it!#Where are the fanartist tho I want art grrrrr#do I have to do everything myself#anyways guys can u tell that maybe i've found myself in a new yt fixation.... erm#like 4 chuckle sandwich podcasts and a barbie movie review and i'm in the trenches#seriously though i do think that most of it is stemming from my video creation fixation#i blame school coming up#SCHLATTS MONKEY VIDEOW???? Beautiful editing i want to edit like that#don't know the editor off the top of my head sorry#i'm going crazy over video creation honestly and they're my vessels (This is very hyperbole)#snazum talks#I have an idea cooking btw.... maybe I'll share it here when i'm done but otherwise i'm gonna be tight lipped about it :)#if ur a mootie/friend tho feel free to ask me in dms :D I can't help but want to ramble bout it#I may be a little shy though since it's not embarrasing per say but i also don't like talking bout it that much#It's nothing serious it's actually the most not serious thing ever but i feel like a bragging bitch when i talk about it so i don't#but also i want to talk about it. cause the subject matter isn't even what i'm proud about it's the idea of how to present it that is#this is so vague i'm so sorry i started fucking rambling in these tags jesus christ#why am i like this ANYWAYS YEAH BYE#EDIT: okay but tbf back to the original point i didn't think this shit would be main tagged?#I find it usually isn't when it comes to rpf stuff but what do i know#all i know is 2012/2014....#the trenches dude.#u don't want to see my old art it contains so many terrible terrible youtubers#I sure know how to pick em#i think the amount i ramble in tags really really represents my adhdness#i got fucking diagnosed and i'm scared to say that i'm just gonna say my quirkyness
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catboy rui feat. dogboy tsukasa as a treat for @karamell-sweetz for fun!
#crow's scribbles#project sekai#rui kamishiro#tsukasa tenma#implied ruikasa? tsukarui? one of them but not enough for me to want to tag#first project sekai art post on my main isnt even mizuena.... whatever! i dont mind.#rui is like a snake to me (he looks cool or silly but i cannot look into him in the eyes bc im scared of this specific shade of yellow#thats his eyes)#im more of a. discord? uh. the. 1:00 AM discord unit guy bc of mizuena but the wonderland guys are funny#i like big bird and kusanagi too#(but i mostly like them bc of catgirl miku and silly kaito also eepy luka)#anyway gonna stop talking and let ya enjoy the art#bye bye#edit: MY FIRST POST WAS MIZUENA I JUST FORGOT LIKE A DUMMY
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happy new years to the person who stalked and bullied me with their 1,000 plus twitter followers while I had like 30 lol
Stillll was the best thing that ever happened to meeee NOT JOKING
THANKS FOR HELPING ME BECOME MY TRUE SELF ALMOST THREE YEARS BABY OF BEING TRUE ME
AND HAPPY NEW YEARS FOR EVERYONE ELSE LOOK AT THE PRECIOUS BABEY PRINCESS 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I AHHHHHHHH
#personal#AND THIS WAS MY OG ACCOUNTS#Where I had more followers in the span of a few months vs now where it’s been years#it really proves the numbers aren’t everything#I’m so much happier here as I am now#And it’s so funny it’s thanks to some hater lol who’s account that I know of doesn’t exist anymore#though for all I know they’re dedicated to their cause and was one of the guest anon haters on ao3 till I turned them off#At this point I've spent more time as Qutie than Q by a long shot#I'll always be grateful for her getting me started but I love who I am now#I wouldn't be confident happy me without that asshole it's so funny how they tried to get rid of me but oopsie poopsie#They just made me stronger#It genuinely brings me so much joy to do what I love so much#CUTE KI IN DRESSES GONKI#AHHHHHH#And not have that anxiety loooming over me of wanting to fit in but not fitting in cuz I don't like kg I don't like main fandom#and praying my tag blocker saves me and I will keep silent on some things I like and believe in and#yeah I should apologize in my authors tag for writing too much of my niche of G carrying Ki and yeah#I'm so scared of antis and oh no ect ect I look back at her like whooo#Like whooo are uuu all that anxiety? Now my only anxiety is hate comments and that’s cuz of RSD BUT I WILL NEVER STOP WHAT I LOVE#I'll always be grateful for her but it's funny how in three years I went from no confidence me to someone who I AM MY NUMBER ONE FAN#DAMM I LOVE MYSELF not that that happened overnight but! Was a slow crawl but at the least! FULLY Since 2022 esp end of year! I LOVE ME DAM#And this no confidence thing it goes much further back then my blog too so anon changed my life#It's funny how just one person made me course correct and now I'm the person I am today and I love me I don't know how much time I have lef#But I'll spend it doing the things I love I still get depressed and sad from time to time and think everyone hates me but it's like RSD and#Depression it can't always be perfect but I'm so happy and confident most the time I just love what I do#Anon hate is never right I hate shit with my whole being and I've never once thought hmm let me send hate it doesn't make sense to me#And I still get harrasssed by these antis and some bad apple kg people and they don't offer me shit but a headache so I don’t want moreeee#But it's kinda funny how grateful I am towards this hater literally changed my life thank u if your out there man my lady non binary pal#So yeah I unironically sit back and thank them sometimes#IM SO HAPPY I GET TO DO WHAT I LOVE AND LOVE MY KI AND MY GONKI AND AHHHHHHHH
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where might one find your evil sideblog?
one must simply Wait Until I Accidentally Reblog Something From There Onto This Blog Again
#fg's answers#asks#im afraid to post an actual Link or Name because i am so scares but it exists and tumblr's being real silly about one of the posts on there#like idk how it looks to everybody else but i put a label on there and it appears to have been removed. by tumblr.#like okay but don't get mad at ME if you change your mind Tumblr Staff#but yeah i do use the do not archive tag so if my stuff isn't being hidden then. it's in there!!#but posting a link or anything from main Scares Me#also to be clear don't bother looking for it if you're under 18. i don't want minors following me there
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This has been a rant building up for a while now and I just need to put it in here but it's that. I remember the joy and excitement I felt when I watched y/o/i ep 1 - 10 because I literally. Knew nothing about the show except for the fact it was gay?? dvsjgshd but it just was so GOOD but then I. Came across a couple of interpretations of ep 11-12 (which I hadn't watched by then so I had no idea what went down) which was just people being disappointed, people thinking the ending was changed for a season 2, people thinking it was out of nowhere (especially V/ictor's comeback?? I guess??) And that really. messed up my perception of the show?? Like upto then I was forming my own interpretations of the characters and after this I. Was lowkey scared to watch the last two episodes because I was afraid of it being bad™ (if that even makes sense) and then one day even when I did watch them I didn't watch them properly?? Like I even missed a lot of scene and dialogue because I was too nervous about what I had read about it before.
And like. I don't even think those interpretations are entirely wrong for record. I understand that especially when there was a whole week between episodes and when the fandom was so huge and active people might have a very different viewing experience which directly plays into how they interpreted the character arcs! And those interpretation are extremely valid even though I disagree with them. The show definitely leaves a lot upto intrepretation of the viewers so there isn't any interpretation that is necessarily wrong™ (Idk how to phrase this sorry)
But it's just that I wasn't able to form MY own interpretation properly because I was influenced by others' ?? (In lack of a better way to word it) and I just. I've been mulling over this for a whole MONTH and going back and forth and back about the ending. And it just feels very draining when I go out to look for meta and people who had opinions similar to mine and find...like what ten people?? it kind of makes me feel like I am looking at things wrong, and that probably the finale WAS just bad or whatever (which seems to be a more common idea in what I've seen)
I do think there were pacing issues, and I do think the character arcs CAN be interpreted differently than what they are in the finale but I also am a bit sad that not many people tried to recontextualise the show in light of the finale (again, it isn't a MUST But I really wish people tried to if I am making sense?)
And it's sad because I know this can be fun if I just created my own bubble without all the meta and opinions I disagree with but it's hard when that is somehow always what I come across? And I KNOW I should stop reading a post when I see that it may suggest something towards the opinions that I disagree with (because that'll just waste my energy), but then what if I AM wrong? What if those posts are right and I am willingly closing my eye towards what the characters originally are or something?? Is what perplexes me out and really makes me sort of nervous and uneasy(?)
And now it is getting worse and I feel like I am slowly losing all the love I had for this show and it absolutely SUCKS because I just want to enjoy this silly little show and now this is all....just a mess
#N rambles#I feel like I am just repeating things at this point#I've been trying to hold back a lot from venting about this on the main because it just plainly seems like a very trivial thing to be this#upset about#But after weeks of ranting in tags I just feel I really HAVE to say this because it is actually really making me sad#Like. I thought maybe after exams I wouldn't be upset? And I was so excited to do a lot more things for the show#I was so excited and looking forward to this#Especially since I have TOO much of free time now so I also am prone to overthinking in such a situation#And I did and this just sucks and I am fed up with just overthinking and keeping all of this to myself and getting too upset#so. yeah. I still feel very bad but I also think it's probably due to a lot. Of other factors#and this one is not helping#And for one thing: I am actually really nervous about posting this because this seems to be such a dividing topic#And by no means am I saying people shouldn't have been upset - but...yeah#I just. Don't know. I really do wish I could find more people who are active and who liked the finale?? I really want to talk about#The character arcs and themes and ramble about them but there's no one to. talk about it to positively???#I also want to rewatch the show. It would actually just solve this problem but#I am low-key scared??? I don't think this would be a right time to do it because I am just really confused about this whole issue and it#Will definitely reflect in forming my own opinions and I don't want that#like at this point I just want to discuss about the finale with people who also didn't feel it was too off or ooc or something#And just tried to intrepret it in good faith#Again I don't really care about people disliking it obviously#It's just that*I* wish I could find more people who liked it#(sorry for the weird phrasing in this whole post I am trying to express what I feel but idk how to do it exactly)#Also I used the slashes because I don't want this to turn up on search sorry
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this is the worst fucking thing i’ve drawn all year so far, topping even coffin in coffin form with wooden breasts
it is funny how it is also a coffin-related drawing though
in fact it is so funny so I am going to put in just the parts of this that will not make anyone yell at me about my skills of drawing puddles of blood (which are HORRIBLE by the way)
ignore the baby furcorn and the baby kayna i drew those beasts from memory. well actually the kayna looks ok compared to my usual standards
nothing quite like making a funny group reaction image with yourself, yourself, and yourself
HOWEVER THE FULL VERSIONS are exactly the same but with all of the words and actually I WILL show it but. ehem
i’m gonna put this under the cut not because it contains three different versions of the same guy but because the second part of it contains a very loose interpretation of genocide and i am aware that that is a Pretty Fucking Uncomfortable Subject
so. be warned. there’s no bodies and it’s the most shitty puddle of blood you’ve ever seen in your life but still
thE formS of D.C Coffin and W.C Coffin are very in-beta so they are subject to change from this to the next. anyways what the hell was going on in tboci
i can’t escape it so this post doubles as a I’m Going Back To It But I Am Very Angry About It announcement
#why is dc coffin kinda... yk...#COUGH COUGH TAGS AND THEN I AM GONE FOR 3 YEARS#dhmis coffin#dhmis#dont hug me im scared#dhmis au#sighs. msm tags. we meet again.#msm dof#dawn of fire msm#i am not tagging the main game i cant do it i cant do it i CANNOT. I CANNOT D#but i can tag tboci. thats fine it's somehow less emotionally draining. i wonder why#the ballad of cold island#i swear i will eventually get out of whatever edgy phase this is#i know exactly why im so jumpy and angry at this specific moment in time too which sucks bc in a diff timeline i'd be the EXACT OPPOSITE#oh well!! anyways uhm i might flesh out the other coffin designs soon so look forward to those. hopefully#last but not least..#genocide mention#good NIGHT folks#dhmis 3 of everyone au#shhssh just going back and using the au tag SHHSHSH
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so anyways
#i looked for this pictures for hours on this blog when i could have easily found it on my main i hate myself#this is honestly my favorite picture of him#his hair is so nice and fluffy#also shoutout to bradley for helping me realize i am a lesbian#wow that’s a weird tag#get scared#get scared band#bradley lloyd iverson#lloyd iverson#shitpost#mod flower
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