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ejunkiet · 1 year ago

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am I writing a Halsin fic? perhaps......... very self indulgent....

#bg3 #halsin #look I just have a Lot of Thoughts #this is set after restoring Thaniel #not fully - still have to go to moonrise towers #but celebrating the little victories as you go #you've recruited halsin and there's room for celebration #this was meant to be smut. i have plans for smut later.#for now.... a little bit of light in the darkness #ej writes bg3 #NEW TAG hehehe

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bazpitchs-violin · 1 year ago

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okay. i have some thoughts. so i'm about to say something controversial

about keating, specifically.

!!DISCLAIMER!! all of this is said objectively, is not targeting anyone in particular and is just based off of observation and is NOT meant to be upsetting or problematic

that being said, don't like, don't read.

okay.

as a fandom, as much as i love having people who love this movie that i love, i feel like so much of what we take away from it has started to boil down to "look at all these silly gay kids with teen angst!!!" and don't get me wrong, that is undoubtedly a part of it, and we do think about neil and todd deeply at times, and even cameron apologists will go to great lengths to defend him.

generally speaking, however, it seems like a lot of people interact with the movie and the characters on a surface level ("silly gay kids with teen angst!!!") which, is absolutely not a bad thing, please, enjoy media in any way you please.

this isn't meant to be like a boo you're all doing it wrong thing by any stretch of the imagination, i just wanted to talk about something, and i don't want to make anyone feel as if i'm diminishing the way they view the film, because i absolutely don't want to do that at all.

however, i feel like the reason a lot of people don't talk about keating and his importance and his character and all the good things he is is because they see him more as some sort of a plot-furthering device than a person who was genuinely important to his students.

because the movie does use keating being their teacher to incite their individual journeys of self-discovery that he doesn't necessarily walk them through himself, i can see where it comes from, but continuing to interact with it on that level means that no matter how much you try to psychoanalyse these kids, you're going to be missing a part of it.

the reason keating was able to do everything he did for the poets was because he gave them all things they needed. and those things were different for all of the poets. and that's why cameron hated him, because he didn't offer cameron anything he thought he needed or anything he wanted to need.

todd needed someone to show him he was worth hearing

charlie needed someone to tell him it was okay to rebel

meeks needed a place to be someone other than The Smart Kid with all the answers

pitts needed a little bit of all of that

knox needed someone to show him that expressing himself was good

neil needed someone to see him. to encourage him. to tell him he was doing a good job.

and think about it, we know keating showed todd he was worth hearing, look at the scene where he makes him improvise a poem. he could have accepted that todd didn't do the assignment, but he didn't. he knew there was something in todd that needed to be heard, and wanted to be the one to make it come out.

and charlie! i mean, day one keating tells them to rip pages out of their books. day. one. not to mention the scene where keating is talking to him about the phone call, and at the end jokes that "if it had been collect, that would have been daring." keating's whole thing was about challenging the system, and he showed charlie that he could too.

meeks is an interesting one, because you're going to be like how did his teacher offer him anything like not being the smart kid?? meeks likes being smart, of course he does, but as with anything, sometimes that feels like all he's good for. like people only put up with him to put him in their study groups, to get his homework answers, and that wasn't how keating's class was set up. because keating taught unconventionally, because he made the boys challenge themselves and their voices, because he was never looking for One Right Answer, there was no way that meeks would be the one providing the answers anymore. because they had to come up with their own, and that was the only way they'd be right. he didn't have to play this role of the secondary teacher for the class, he got to enjoy reading and writing and fucking around with his friends without feeling like their tutor.

and pitts, i mean, pitts is an awkward guy. quiet. he doesn't say very much, but he's caring. he is a deeply caring person. we see this a lot in the scene where he brings a roll and splits it. it's only a second, but it says a lot. he's probably an older brother, he likes to share, he likes to feel like he's doing something important. and keating makes everything important. messes with pitts in this way that's new to him, treating him like a kid instead of another adult (he was likely parentified at home) and he clearly sees something in him and works to foster that.

knox is a character that just has this bottomless pit of feelings in him. but it's the 50s, what do guys have to do with feelings? keating not only helps him see that he's allowed to have feelings, but helps him learn to express them too. (granted, that could use a little help, but i blame knox being an idiot) he's having his emotions validated for the first time in his life.

neil. the scene in keating's office, the scene when keating asks if he talked to his dad, the beginning of what keating is saying after the play, the look of wonder and understanding from neil when keating was talking, the fact that neil was the one who went and hunted him down so they could ask about the dead poets society in the first place. neil's lived his whole life in a box. he needed someone to see who he was. not just who he was supposed to be eventually. and keating saw him. he listened to him. he encouraged him to follow what made him happy, because he deserved it. keating was the first person to show neil that he deserved anything.

keating gives them all freedom in different ways, so they gravitate towards him. they establish early in the film that the boys all come from families where they're expected to succeed, and for the first time in their lives, they're being told that something else is more important. for the first time in their lives, someone just wants them to grow. to learn.

because so much of the movie focuses on the relationships between the poets, it's easy to forget how instrumental keating was in all of that, how important he, as a person, is to all of them. and without taking that into consideration, you're always going to be missing something about the movie.

keating walked into that job knowing that helping those kids was his mission.

it's well established that he went to welton so he knows what it's like. he knows hell-ton not just welton.

he probably came from a family like the poets'. he was probably told to be a ceo or a doctor or a banker. it probably killed him all through his formative years of young adulthood. so he went back. because he knows that these kids have never once in their lives been told that what they think and do and say and want is important.

so he goes back to his high school, which, based on what we know about him and the school, is probably not something he wanted to relive. but he walks in there, determined to help the boys he teaches find their voices completely separate from what they've been told to want and say for their whole lives. he does that intentionally. he does it carefully and with a purpose. he isn't just a device the kids go through, he's just as important to everything else in the movie as neil or todd or the flying desk set.

the whole idea of the movie isn't just that the kids are rebelling, but the person who teaches them how. the person who tells them it's okay. the person who tells them their thoughts are worth thinking.

keating isn't just there. he's important to the collective, but also to the boys personally.

anyway!

sorry if you read all of this, it kind of got away from me.

#dead poets society #neil perry #todd anderson #charlie dalton #knox overstreet #steven meeks #john keating #stephen meeks #gerard pitts #richard cameron #look i just have a lot of thoughts #and as someone who has a teacher like this #it just hurts me to see people gloss over him #because i know firsthand how important he would've been to them

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inkskinned · 1 year ago

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the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post.#writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers.#at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going.#when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like.#it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases -#at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory.#it was what i had seen.#and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol'#so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID.#he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

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gerrykeay · 5 months ago

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im not putting this post into words. beams into your mind The Parallels

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#not a new thought at all of course but i havent seen a post thorough enough for Me. the guy who thinks about it a lot #and this isnt all my thoughts either but it at least Touches on each element that i think about...#honestly where i could talk for ages is where the similar things were Different for them. but harder to organize #if you actually went and looked at all these panels with me. thank you for coming to this Presentation and Journey #i hope my Beam is having an Effect.#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #delicious in dungeon #thistle dungeon meshi #marcille donato #long post #can i be forrealsies i made this post ages ago and was just referencing it while drafting one About the contrasts and accidentally hit post #so ig might as well keep it up instead of hoarding it in my drafts. and maybe ill post That essay here someday #tistle tag

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artkaninchenbau · 5 months ago

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People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again

#My art #One Piece #Long post #Sir Crocodile #Nico Robin #Alternatively panel 5 would've been a close up of Crocodile's face from Robin's POV where he looks like he's giving her a death glare #Not intentionally he's just a big scary bastard with a Resting Murder Face and Robin is a small traumatized child #But I wanted to focus on the silliness of the moment so you get the goofy version instead #IDK man there's just something very funny to me about the idea of Robin just randomly info-dumping about a subject she's read about #And Crocodile being like ''?????????????????????? The fuck you talking about??''#Robin leaves the ship's kitchen and Crocodile just stares at the tomato like ''...It's a fruit? Forreal?''#(Meanwhile Robin is sweating bullets like ''I called his favorite vegetable a FRUIT right in his FACE he's going to KILL ME'')#Robin grew extra feet from the bottom of her feet to reach the counter and that actually isn't me trying to explain bad art away #In the original Papadile comic there was a panel of Robin doing the dishes with extra feet to reach the sink but I cut it out #(It was a stress relief comic I did not feel like drawing a complicated background in detail) (BUT YES I THOUGHT OF IT)#Nico Robin Age 11 is *more* than capable of cooking Crocodile just does not trust her with his food. At least not yet #She did start doing the dishes unprompted and continues to do so (mostly out of fear). Croc told her she didn't have to but allows it #IDK a lot of people seem to headcanon Crocodile as incapable of cooking and like. Surely Mr ''I don't trust people'' knows how to cook #Like he doesn't have to be a master chef or anything but and maybe he enjoys not HAVING to cook (pain in the ass with one hand + knife/hook #But surely he can cook decent enough. SURELY #Botanists don't @ me I know the ''tomato is a fruit'' thing isn't fully accurate this is just a silly little haha comic

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verflares · 8 months ago

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(click for higher quality!) draconified link concept ive been chipping away at this past week ..... here's my funny little compendium concept for him:

"A heroic spirit has taken the form of this bestial dragon. Unlike it's kin, this creature exhibits an extremely aggressive disposition. It appears highly territorial, and will relentlessly chase down those who disturb its skywide patrols - of which it seems to be endlessly searching for either a long-time vassal or foe. Unfortunately, it seems the spirit within has long since forgotten exactly who it was looking for…"

#now. how on earth do i begin to tag this. um.#link #loz #totk #totk spoilers #light dragon #dragon link #loz au #totk roleswap au #there . i'll add more if they come to me LOL #um i can talk about some of my insps i guess?? might make another post too #so mostly i just dont really like turning him into 'light dragon but male' and giving him slightly darker colours or something like that #this also obviously isnt exactly like the botw dragons either though and its a bit more of a mix of other creature concepts i enjoy #since everyone agrees he'd have a farosh horn i wanted to make him a kirin/unicorn :) which is why his tail looks like that #aside from the obvious eastern dragon insps and what ive picked and chosen from the botw dragons #and obviously this looks a lot like wolf link. thats on purpose #i wanted to give him some fierce deity design refs too but because this is so dark/earthy they didnt look very fitting #but honestly you could do a whole fierce deity dragon design on its own i think #okay lots of tags but IVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS FOR A WHILE. okay. let me have this.#my art #dragon link au

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artsymeeshee · 2 days ago

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Random idea I got this morning thinking about how small little things (mostly about missing important moments of the past) make the boys emotional and sorrowful.

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datcravat · 8 months ago

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pe ru so na

#MY ART #I SPENT FOREVER ON THIS #persona 3 #persona 3 reload #makoto yuki #okay so while it is super iconic I didn't want to draw someone with a gun to their head (love it in P3 love the symbolism #just dont want to explain it all to my mum or have non persona fans see it at my booth at comic con)#so I was forced to get creative #I hope this comes across #but I wanted to imply he just shot that bullet hole into the background that makes thanatos' eye #the bullet hole also sort of looks like a big glint of than's eye #those white parts on the white are than's hand curling around the MC #and I tried to make the colour scheme CYMK to symbolise how the MC is the wildcard #he is the blueprint and can make anything.#a lot of thought and effort went into this one. persona 3 baby!! hope you like it

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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You made her cry, time to die.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jiang yanli #jin zixuan #wei wuxian #This scene actually takes place many months before the previous scene.#Hence the outfits looking different!#Consider this a flashback within a flashback!#Speaking of outfits - no one noticed/commented on it so I'll give my little continuity nod away:#JZX's bandages on his wrist are from the *last* time he insulted Jiang Yanli.#I considered having WWX maul him like a chew toy again but I think this punchline hits funnier. A kickline. if you will.#And speaking of other outfit nods: This is a meta nod towards JYL's first appearance in this series.#Where I accidently made the flower on her dress look like a penis. Hoping no one would notice.#Then months later...just when I thought I was safe...someone pointed it out and I *wailed*. I AM SO SORRY SHIJIE...#I really to love this scene a lot. We have JYL just trying her best + JZX being a dickhead + WWX being full of rage. Mwah. Delicious.#I especially love how the audio drama comments that Jiang Cheng is on his way over. You *know* he's about to start swinging too.

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puppyeared · 3 months ago

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horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago

#I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOWWWWW #when i say damn thats crazy its bc i DO think its crazy i think a lot of things are crazy. like how birds have cloacas #or the way ppl draw a five pointed star in different ways and everyone assumes their way of doing it is how everyone does it #my brother is not letting me live this down btw he literally shouted at me like HOW DID YOU LIVE THIS LONG AND NOT PICK UP ON THAT #IDK!!! IDK I THOUGHT SOMETIMES IT COULD BE USED TO EXPRESS GENUINE SHOCK??????#he says its my delivery that makes it sound insincere bc i say it in a monotonous voice which when i think abt it YEAH....#THAT DOES MAKE IT LOOK KINDA BAD IN HINDSIGHT.....#and then i told him i keep a list of phrases that tickle my brain so i can remember to use them in conversation and apparently #most ppl dont do that bc he was like ???? stop doing that??? just let the conversation flow naturally it sounds fake>????#idk man i feel like if i did that and blurted out 'i forgot people find stuff like underwear arousing for some reason' instead of #smth like 'i wonder what kind of ppl find this kind of stuff the bees knees' like i normally do. it would. not go so well.#ALSO THE FLOW CHARTS ARENT NORMAL? i make flow charts before i call the bank or smth so i know what to say #its not just to blend in its also so i dont waste ppls time going uhhhhh as i think of how i put smth into words #its called stalling for time and i dont care if i have to say smth like thats just how the cookie crumbles if it gives me #5 more seconds to process whatever the fuck someone said without letting them think im not paying attention #doodles #diary #sona #puppysona #comics

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theoldkyokodied · 2 years ago

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One wedding and three funerals

Background paintings under the cut

#tomgreg #succession #tom wambsgans #greg hirsch #shiv roy #roman roy #kendall roy #yeah no im not tagging everyone thats too much #this is me going 'how much implications themes and symbolism can i fit in one painting'#yes i gave rose shivs haircolor. if we ever find out how she looks like and its not like this im just gonna pass away i guess #but yeah i hope yall connect the dots #i put waaay too much thought and work into this. i was googling pictures of all the actors as kids just for reference (sigh)#honestly kinda wanted to make tom and greg link pinkies as like. a pinkie promise. but that was too hard to draw in this angle #at least not without obstructing the view of the ring which is important to see so ya #my fave is actually the tomshiv wedding pic i went off with that. i love them... they should have run away to become sheep farmers fr fr #anyway im so glad im done with this UGH!! finally i can draw smth else without being like oh noooo i need to finish this #i see a lot of you wondering why there is no portrait of logan but one of ewan #it's bc the placement of the painting represent their standing. logans portray would not hang next to the stairs #his present portrait hangs at the end of it. all the way up at the top. alone and withering away #basically the picture you see underneath ewan to the right? its where toms parents would be. the right side of the wall is tom and gregs #and the left one is the roy siblings theirs. since they grew up rich rich. and tom and greg didn't #but ya thats why ewan hangs here and logan does not :)

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lucabyte · 7 months ago

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i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.

#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking.#nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference #anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose.#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat bonnie #isat nille #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #doodlebyte #----------------------------------------------------------------------#anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!)#which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around)#and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but #They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt)#and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good #(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit #distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally #stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine)#the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly.#but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief)#as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur #BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule #which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation #ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.

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omaano · 2 months ago

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Shaak Ti and her tiny charges join the Hades AU, complete, with colourful little highlights and a dialogue box this time (and an alternate version under the cut where I tried my hand at taking the shade/Force-ghost aspect a little further than I did with Fives)

"There is no doubt that Grogu is an exceptional youngling, but I cannot take him on as a Padawan no matter how much I may wish that I could. My duty is to look after the clones as they grow and learn - we cannot just abandon them once their war is over. As a Mandalorian you must understand this. However, I would gladlyassist in your quest in any other way I can."

Linear timeline who? Rex can have a mighty white beard and then look spry and blond simultaneously, there is teenager Omega and Boba sitting on his throne on Tatooine, so just don't worry about it XD Have three of my clone OCs as baby cadets and enjoy how cute they are instead.