#long term ocs are so cool tho because like you dont really have this stuff go down until you start fleshing
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kxllerblond Ā· 11 months ago
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the 'clark has father issues' development over the years has been catastrophic
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ashthatdrmmrgrl Ā· 5 years ago
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ANSWER ALL THEM YOU BITCHšŸ‘©ā€šŸ’»šŸ¤Ŗ
Ooh she's getting fiesty šŸ˜ˆšŸ˜‚ here you are, love ā¤
1. What is your preferred place to write?
Laptop/computer, but since I dont have either anymore, my phone is my go to
2. When did you start writing?
I think it was 8th grade offically; my english teacher got me into reading and writing so that was the 2013/2014 school year I think
3. Favourite thing to write?
Idk, I like writing gay smut if that counts for something šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø
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4. Fluff or angst?
I'm good at writing fluff but I love reading angsty stuff
6. Where do you usually find inspiration?
Ideas come to me in dreams, otherwise if I'm watching a movie/TV, listening to music, or just seeing something during the day will spark something.
7. Do you listen to music to help you write?
Yes! I would get soooo distracted if I didn't; that way I dont hear anything outside my head and I can focus on my writing (I'm listening to music now as I'm answering these too actually šŸ˜‚)
8. What's the biggest "challenge" for you as a writer?
Finding time to write at all; I've got so many ideas bopping around in my head but life gets in the way šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
9. Where do you usually go to write?
My room usually; it gives me privacy and a lot less distractions than my living room or outside the house.
10. Can you give us a sneak peek at your current WIP?
Yes!! I love this scene so much so you get to read it again;
My phone buzzed in my hands and I look down to see Sofia's face smiling at me. I pause my music and pull my earbuds out.Ā 
"The Kid's calling," I say aloud before answering. "Hey, Fi!"Ā 
"Hey yourself, is Steve available? I've got history questions that I need help with and he's not answering his phone."
I roll my eyes but put the phone on speaker. "Steve, Fi needs help with her homework."
"What's up, kiddo?" Steve asks, keeping his eyes on the road.Ā 
"Stupid history homework; about the Commandos and I thought, 'what better way to finish this then get it straight from the source, old man," Sofia says. Sam lets out a small laugh and Bucky shifts awkwardly beside me.Ā 
"Alright, shoot," Steve says with a shake of his head.Ā 
"Original 7 members? I only know 3 of them off hand," Sofia starts.
"Easy, Me, Buck, Dum Dum, Morita, Jones, Monty, and Frenchy," Steve says casually. There's a pause before Sofia's sigh echoes through the car.Ā 
"I don't think my teacher would appreciate it if I put their names in as if we were best friends," Sofia says offhandedly.
Steve cleats his throat awkwardly. "Right. Uh, Steve Rogers, James Barnes, Timothy Dugan, Jim Morita, Gabriel Jones, James Montgomery Falsworth, and Jacques Dernier," Steve reiterates after Sofia's let's out little "uh huhs."
"Why were the Howling Commandos formed?" Sofia asks next.Ā 
"To eliminate and wipe HYDRA bases off the map; although it seems we weren't very successful," Steve says with a frown and I see his eyes flash towards the rear view mirror, to look at Bucky, I'm assuming.
"Who did the Commandos capture during a raid in the Alps?"Ā 
"Arnim Zola."Ā 
There was a pause and I couldn't help but look over at Bucky who almost looked startled that he had spoken.
"Who was that?" Sofia asks a moment later.Ā 
"Oh, uh, Sofia, that was Bucky," I say, my voice cracking at his name. Sofia stays quiet. I check my phone and see the phone was still connected.Ā 
"Bucky?" Sofia asks, sounding doubtful.Ā  "As in Stevie's Bucky?"Ā 
I feel Bucky almost stiffen in surprise next to me. "Yeah, that would be him," I confirm.Ā 
Sofia stays quiet for a few beats again before clearing her throat. "Right, well when do you think you guys are gonna be home? I hate all of this cooking I've gotta do now that you guys are gone, not that either of you were chef's," Sofia complains.Ā 
"I'm not sure, kiddo," Steve chirps from in front of me. I lean my elbows onto the front seat and rest my head near his shoulder. "We've got something really important to take care of."Ā 
"Okay, well stay safe, and don't do anything stupid; Sam, keep them in line," Sofia says with a laugh.
"Will do, Half Pint," Sam promises.
"Well, I'll talk to you guys later. And it was nice to meet you Bucky," she says.Ā 
Bucky doesn't respond, but the rest of us say goodbye before I hang up.Ā 
"Thanks, Steve," I say, clapping my hands over Steve's shoulders.Ā 
"Anytime; I don't mind helping the kid out," Steve says.Ā 
I ruffle Steve's hair before leaning back and laughing. Bucky was looking between Steve and I with confusion written all over his face.
"So the kid?" Bucky asks, his eyes resting on Steve for a moment before looking at me.
"Yeah, she's great," Steve says excitedly and flashes Bucky a smile.Ā 
"She's my sister," I say and look down to see Sofia had texted me.Ā 
I forgot to ask while on the phone but could you ask Steve if I can look through some of his stuff that the museum let him have back?
"Hey Steve, can she look through the stuff the Smithsonian gave back to you? She didn't say what for though," I ask.Ā 
"Yeah, no problem, tell her I've got stuff in the chest at the end of the bed."
"Cool cool, thanks," I say and pass the information onto Sofia.Ā 
"Not a problem," Steve says as he takes the off ramp and turns left. "Sharon's just up here," he points out a black car that was pulled over under the bridge.Ā 
Steve pulls over and ducks out of the car and greets Sharon with a smile.Ā 
Bucky sits up and looks out the front window, eyes flickering across the background, scanning the surrounding area. Bucky's knees hit the back of Sam's seat and he glares at the back of Sam's head.Ā 
"Can you move your seat up?" He asks for probably the 100th time this trip, sounding bored.
"No," Sam replies once again.Ā 
I roll my eyes and squish myself against the window. "Scoot over here more," I offer, pointing towards the leg room that I've got behind Steve's seat.Ā 
"Thanks," Bucky mumbles and scoots over so his arm is pressed against mine. It was quiet while we watched Steve and Sharon talk as she popped her trunk. "So," Bucky starts quietly, trying to exclude Sam from the conversation. "How long have you and Steve been together?"Ā 
Sam, of course, hears and snorts out a laugh, having to hold onto the door for support.Ā 
I felt my face flush and I reach over the seat to smack Sam across the side of his head. "Shut up, bird brain. Steve and I aren't together though," I say, turning to look at Bucky who looked embarrassed.Ā 
"Sorry, I just assumedā€¦" Bucky apologizes.Ā 
"Nah, it's okay, everyone apparently thinks the same thing," I say with a shrug. "Steve's like a brother to me. Plus right now he's not swinging this way."
Bucky's eyebrows shoot up as he looks at me with wide eyes. "So like, he's..?"
"Gay? Yeah, basically. He still likes women, but he's actually with my brother, Graham," I say, pulling up a picture of Graham, Steve, Sofia, and I on my phone. Tony insisted on us having more family pictures even though we were the least conventional family on the planet.
"So beingā€¦ a homosexual," Bucky says, almost sounding like the term was weird coming off his tongue. "That's openly okay now? I don't mind, but the 30s really pressed people down, so I didn't think Steveā€¦ at least I think, from what I remember," Bucky trails off and looks out to see Steve giving Sharon a hug before grabbing the gear from the trunk.Ā 
"He was hard on himself at first," I say, remembering how weird Steve would act whenever Graham would say something to try and test the waters. "I think knowing and befriending Graham really helped him a lot, seeing that it's not a mental illness, that you wouldn't be imprisoned or institutionalized for it."
Bucky still looks at Steve, but there was a small smile crooked at the corner of his mouth and his eyes seemed fond.Ā 
"I'm happy for him," is all Bucky says in reply.Ā Ā 
"So am I," I say, patting Bucky's forearm with my hand. "So am I."Ā 
11. How many stories have you written so far?
Well I've only ever completed 1, (excluding oneshots) but I've got... at leave 7 going, a few that I've discontinued, and a shit ton of ideas that haven't been written yet šŸ˜‚
12. What's your favourite thing that you ever wrote?
Well I'm honestly so proud of my Beauty and the Beast Lashton fanfic that I wrote and the only one I've ever finished. But I'm also sooo proud of 2 WIPs that I'm writing with the lovely asker
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13. How many chapters does your longest series have?
I dont have any series yet, but my longest fic has like 200,000 words and no distinctive chapters yet (writing specific scenes then gluing them together)
14. What's your favourite character/person to write for?
I only really write Lashton or Stucky but I'm my cowritten books I have an OC be with Ashton Irwin and Bucky Barnes because DAMN they are kweens
15. "OCs" or "Reader" inserts?
I personally like writing OCs but I've been getting into readers lately
16. Can you tell us anything about your current WIP?
I suppose, but asker already knows since she's helping me write it šŸ˜‚ it's a Marvel fic about these two girls and their brother who lose their parents in the Battle of New York in 2012. Brother is working for Stark Industries already when Steve asks my OC to join the Avengers but my OC and her brother keep that a secret from their younger sister (my friends OC). That's enough for now tho šŸ˜˜
17. How long was the longest fic you ever wrote?
Question 13 kinda answered this question but its 200,000ish and growing
18. What fandoms do you write for?
Marvel and 5sos mainly, but I used to do Supernatural back in like 2015/2016. I also dabble in Shadowhunter stuff too
19. What is/are your favourite fandom author/authors?
Well the asker is such an amazing writer I love her work, um, @Larry_Lashton on Wattpad is good, @moonstruckbucky and @sunmoonandbucky are phenomenal
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20. Have you ever written an AU?
That's basically all I write; I've only got one original piece and not many are real to whatever reality.
21. What is your favourite AU trope?
I have a weakness for Professor Seb/Bucky and I love stucky (and StuckyxReaders) so if you know of any hmu šŸ˜‰
22. A fanfiction trope you can't help but love?
ENEMIES TO LOVERS FUCK
23. For how long have you been a fandom writer?
Shortly after I started writing, so like 2015?
24. Have you ever had an idea for a story and forgot about it?
Absolutely! I usually loosely plot out the whole thing and try and hit the main points but by like... 1/4 or 1/2 way through depending on how long it is I'm like fuck I totally forgot I was going to add that (and by then it wouldn't make sense to add it in)
25. What do you do to motivate yourself to write?
Listen to music, but I also read what I've got to help myself get back into the flow of the story.
26. How did you find out you like to write?
Like I said it was 8th grade and my english teacher showed me this new side of reading that I didnt know about and then I was like fuck I can do this too!
27. Are there any writers (fanfiction writers or not) that have inspired you to start writing?
Well I used to only read the Twilight series, but then I read Cassandra Clare's books, and the it sorta branched out from there, so Stephanie Meyer and Cassandra Clare are who you should thank for that šŸ˜‚
28. What's your favourite fandom to write for?
Does Stucky count as it's own fandom? Because that ship sails itself man #ExceptEndgame #FuckingSucked
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29. Describe your style in three words.
Um... smutty... gay.... fluffy?
30. What would you say is the most "famous" fic you've ever written?
Well I've got one on Wattpad with almost 20k but it's a continuation of a story that has like 300k, otherwise most of my other ones on there have 4k actually.
31. Blurbs or drabbles?
Both are great, dudes šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø
32. Have you ever written smut?
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33. How long does it usually take you to write?
Used to be I could get like 20 chapters (decently long ones too) in about 8 months but now I'm not really posting anything and I'm slowly working on a current WIP
34. What's your favourite font to use when writing?
Ariel, size 11, 1.15 line spacing. Veranda is a nice font too though
35. What do you prefer to write: longer or shorter fics?
I like long ones man; but I either write forever long ones or oneshots šŸ˜‚
36. How do you keep yourself inspired? Seeing new things, listening to new music. Sleeping?
37. Have you ever written something you didn't like but posted it anyway?
I don't think so. I mean I've posted stuff that I wasn't excited about, but I don't think I've ever hated anything I've written
38. What's your "strong suit" as a writer?
My OCD with punctuation and formatting?
39. What's your favourite trope?
Friends who are oblivious to the other persons feelings so they dont ever make a move until they're drunk šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø *40s Stucky bonus*
40. How many likes does your fics usually get?
300 for 4k reads on Wattpad
41. Have you ever used a prompt?
Absolutely! Sometimes you just need a little help and there ain't nothing wrong with that!
42. What is your weakness as a writer?
I am obsessed with the small details that nobody cares about (especially height comparisons) but I think that comes from my artistical side.
43. Have you ever cried or felt any emotion while reading something you wrote?
Oh absolutely, all the fucking time!
44. Have you ever done a collab with another writer?
Yes! Only 1 other writer who is also the asker šŸ˜˜šŸ˜˜
45. One thing you love about fanfiction?
I think it's an amazing thing to write because people already have deep connections with the characters so you dont have to waste the first part telling their story (unless it's an AU, but even then it's totally okay to just jump right into it!)
46. What's your favourite emotion to cause your readers?
I definitely enjoy leaving them on the edge of their seats, but I also love writing fluffy scenes that make peoples hearts flutter
47. What's your favourite thing about writing?
The creativity and ability to create a reality! There's endless possibilities and that's so fascinating and amazing to me
48. Do you post your writing on other platforms? I only post on Wattpad, but I have thought about posting things on tumblr too! Thoughts?
49. What app/apps do you use to write?
Either google docs or just in Wattpad itself
50. One thing you don't like about fanfiction?
Some people get the characters totally wrong personality wise and that sorta bugs me when reading because I get confused
51. Least favourite trope?
Coffee shop AUs are a little boring unless somebody brings something new to the table (like one of them is a vampire or witch or single parent instead of just like OH this barista/customer is cute). But if I come across a coffee shop AU I'm not going to NOT read it, you know?
52. Favourite words to use when writing?
No? I mean I know everyone's writing is different and unique to the person but I don't think I have any favourites.
53. Least favourite words?
When writing straight smut I get uncomfortable with certain words people use to describe the female anatomy other then that no šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø
54. Do you usually like what you write?
Yeah! And if I don't, I'll change it until I like it before posting it šŸ˜‚
thank you @scaryaryanna for the lovely ask and thank you to anybody who stuck around to read everything ā¤ā¤ā¤ā¤ā¤
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So, I have a character who is a system, and I wanted to know before I develop them further, how does DID work, from a personal account? I really really really don't want to accidentally create yet another TOXIC misinterpretation of a real condition (because I know how horrible that can feel), and I hope I'm not saying anything wrong even now. (P.S. I love your blog, but I'm too shy to come off anon.)
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hey anon!! it means a LOT to me that you sent this message :D theres a lot of really messy-bad potrayals of DID in the media so seeing people actually going to the effort of asking systems abt their experiences is really heartwarming for us. (plus the fact that ppl keep asking us in specific abt system stuff omg,,)
im gonna preface this by saying that, in the end, i can only really talk about my own experiences with full confidence. systems can work pretty differently from each other, but this is how we function and also some details ive noticed from system friends + general discussion over the years
so, to start off: Dissociative Identity Disorder is, at its core, your brain trying to respond to trauma in a pretty severe way. that being said there ARE systems that didnt experience severe trauma and still developed, and im not really sure about the mechanics behind that but i find it really cool and it totally exists. im gonna focus on trauma-based systems bc thatā€™s our ~tragic backstory~ and also tends to be what most people opt for when creating system characters anyway, but the only real difference from what i can tell is, uh, a lack of trauma.
I HOPE YOUā€™RE READY FOR ME TO SAY THE WORD ā€œTRAUMAā€ A WHOLE LOT JFC
(system friends are welcome to reblog with corrections or added info!!)
anyway. the way your brain responds to things is really weird. if something happens where youā€™re just, like, completely unable to handle it, like you dissociate yourself so hard because thereā€™s no way you can manage this, your brain has a chance of going ā€œuhā€¦ well, fuck, uhā€ and generating somebody who can manage it. or it might decide to be a dick and take all of the fucky internalized garbage and turn it into a person whose sole existence is to be an asshole. (they have the potential to get better, i thinkā€¦ ours didnt.) honestly theres a bunch of reasons and a bunch of ā€œrolesā€ that could lead to an alter/headmate* forming.
* we use the terms interchangeably depending on mood and whos fronting. i think its supposed to be ā€œalterā€ is DID, ā€œheadmateā€ is implication that theyre non-traumatic? we like using ā€œheadmateā€ because it brings this fun mental image of us being a bunch of roommates constantly starting shit with each other and goofing off which is pretty accurate about 75% of the time
i keep getting distracted bc my cat is here. this is gonna be fun to go back and edit.
whatever the original situation is, youā€™re suddenly not alone in your own brain. and itā€™s REALLY WEIRD. communication was VERY hard. Icarus, our system original, used to do a very ā€œclicheā€ thing of sharing a journal with their early headmates, where theyd write a sentence and then theyd write a reply (although back then they didnt realize that was a system-related thing and just thought they were having a fun conversation with their ocs. whichā€¦ they were, just. Actually Talking.) they didnt have any inward perception of themself or their headmates either, so that kinda built up over time (with some help) along with the appearance of our headspace so that there wasā€¦ actually a location for people to interact in. once they had a better awareness of things, mental communication got a bit easierā€“ its sort of like background chatter really, when everybodyā€™s awake. sometimes i get weird out of context things from Mae yelling at somebody, or sometimes ill be talking to a friend and someoneā€™ll butt in.
when talking out loud, this usually leads to us suddenly stopping and then laughing or going ā€œno!!!ā€. when on discord and around people who know who we areā€¦ well.
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speaking of Mae, sheā€™s pretty much my sister. not likeā€¦ biologically? because i donā€™t think thats possible for me, but shes kinda literally my ā€œother halfā€ which ill get into later. headmates can have strong attachments to other alters! friends, best friends, family, dating, whatever. they can also do that with people outside the system, and itll be different for each headmate. thereā€™s like 4 people dating Jorb but i just see him as one of my best friends. weā€™re people and we have complex social interactions that can get to be kind of a nightmare when youā€™re around a bunch of people who donā€™t know that youā€™re Not Leo and that youre suddenly not super up to existing around people in general.
plus even if likeā€¦ so Jorbā€™s dating 4 of us like i said, but his relationship w/ each of them is different? Ica is very clingy and likes rambling to him, Summerā€™s pretty much just always happy to hang out, Mae makes fun of him a lot but in a loving way, and Leo isā€¦ kinda ā€œall of the aboveā€ because thatā€™s his gimmick. plus even tho a few other alters have a sibling-ish relationship with Mae like i do, usually its just me and Mae that do the ā€œchaos siblingsā€ bit.
the basic system.. thingā€¦ is that thereā€™s ā€œfrontā€, which is being in control of the bodyā€“ so, like, iā€™m currently fronting/in front, because im the one currently active and using our computer and staring at our cat.ā€“ and then theres the headspace, where everybody hangs out when theyre not in front. the headspace itself can differ in style & functionality for each system, and i think theres some systems that dont really have a location at all? but for us its like a full on location where we have individual rooms, places to visit if we get bored while away from front, etc.
theres also like, being at/near/away from front? so currently im in front, but Leo is pretty much always lurking nearby if heā€™s awake (we have individual sleep schedules that dont always sync up to the ā€œirlā€ one, Trust is almost always sleeping), Icaā€™s somewhat in the back talking to Rookie so i cant really make out what theyre saying (its probably about either a youtube thing they both like or about a comic they want to do), and everyone else is either asleep (in which case they could be nearby but i cant currently ā€œpingā€ them, so id have to actually take a sec to ground myself in headspace more) or in a different room. communication is easier if im in front and somebody is nearby, or it can be like with Ica rn where im like ā€œwell, theyre talking, but i have no idea what theyre saying and am making a guess based off their usual interactionsā€, or i could pass off front to go talk to Ica and come back (in which case my memory would be kind of vague and weird because information doesnt always properly translate), oooor i could actually go bug them while still in front. which.. im not gonna do rn bc then id get super distracted.
switching front differs between systems a lot! and even varies from day to day. like there are days where we wake up and we have absolutely no idea who we are bc we went to bed as one person and woke up as another. or we could be talking to somebody and then realize ā€œwait, i stopped being Leo a bit ago, who am iā€. or we could pass off front to somebody, like if Summer really wanted to front sieā€™d run up to me and let me know and weā€™d swap. or if something critical happens (usually a breakdown), Leo or one of the other headmates thatā€™re more built to handle stressful situations will literally drag somebody out of front to make sure they dont hurt themself. or sometimes we throw front at people unexpectedly, like either mid-breakdown where we go ā€œokay i dont wanna be here anymore, tag youre itā€ or sometimes because we think its funny because its the metaphysical equivalent of getting clonked in the head with a dodgeball, except the dodgeball is ā€œbeing in control of our shared physical formā€. usually maeā€™s the one that does that lmao
thereā€™s a couple major categories of how alters come about. thereā€™s ā€œwalk-insā€, where they kinda justā€¦ appear externally? like they just show up. sometimes we get a feeling of ā€œhuh. i think somebody might be here? or somebody might be showing up soon.ā€ and have to rummage around for a while until they approach us or we find them. our walk-ins arenā€™t like, inherently aware of system stuff at first, so they usually get a crash course before they first front (if they choose to front at all) and it can be kinda entertaining. Rookieā€™s a walk-in! also Hiro, from a couple years ago. most of our walk-ins are fictives (fictional characters, usually appearing in response to us getting extremely attached to something or somebody) but a couple of our trauma splits are also fictives so thatā€™s not like, a Rule or anything. i think these are mostly associated with non-traumatic systems but we get em fairly often so man idk
theres alsoā€¦ uh, i dunno what theyre actually called? we used to call them ā€œconstructsā€ but that sounds kind of mean. these alters exist to fill a specific role! and we usually dont talk about them on here with the exception of one major one, they just kinda hang out. Dhe exists to keep the system stable and manages the ā€œbackendā€ so to speak. Imp is kind of a mix of our intrusive & impulsive thoughts that came about from us trying to separate ourself from them so that we had an imaginary entity to go ā€œnope!ā€ at, whichā€¦ stopped being imaginary, and is now a gremlin that lives in my brain. they can show up in response to trauma but arent split off of somebody, they kinda just pop into existence to help manage things.
the moreā€¦ well-known, i guess? alter origin is ā€œtrauma splitsā€. rather than ā€œjust showing up one day with no real connection to the system originsā€, trauma splits are formed when somebody in-system, uh, splits. it could be in response to a single situation or something built up over a long time, but somebody just kinda breaks and somebody new that has a bit of the original alterā€™s identity (if kinda influenced by the situation) shows up.
this can vary. All is a trauma split off of Leo himself, who got saddled with all of our brain hell about our ex and their insystem appearance is influenced more by eir than by leo which isā€¦ something they struggle with. Mae has a trauma split from a similar situation that is ā€œMae but from 2 years agoā€, so basically her old identity before she reworked herself after getting put through total hell. and then uhā€¦ then thereā€™s me and Mae! Icarus quite literally exploded into several people, with Pat (me) and Mae being the most distinct ones. weā€™re STILL finding out alters used to originally be a part of them that later evolved into their own people, like Summer and Toby. my identity is shaped pretty heavily not just by who Ica was at time of splitting, but also what they wanted to be jumbled together with trying to rationalize what was happening to them (theyā€™re a pretty big fan of megaman star force, which has a media-typical system in it, so they leaned into hard ā€œits like pat and rey from mmsf! i like pat, i wouldnt mind being like pat, its scary but im like one of my current favourite charactersā€ and so i ended up being like, half-weird shapeshifter, half-green-haired prettyboy. and yeah thats where my name comes from!)
(Ica got put back together w/o anybody needing to integrate, which we were all very scared about, and itā€™s still kind of surreal to me becauseā€¦ me and Mae used to be able to stick ourself back together and thats how we found out about what happened to Ica in the first place? and we havent tried that since bc we have no idea what would happen. Ica 2: Ica Harder?)
despite their origins, trauma splits can be way more thanā€¦ being a split. :V;; Tobyā€™s not just a tiny splinter of Ica, heā€™s a quiet guy that gets stressed out and isnā€™t totally sure how to interact with people. iā€™ve existed for like 7 years at minimum and im a totally different person than i was when i thought i was still Ica, ā€˜cause ive had time to grow and change (and a problem Ica keeps running into now that theyre back isā€¦ they kinda Didnā€™t change because they were MIA for 6 years.) like everything else though this is variableā€“ there can be ā€œtemporaryā€ splits that dont develop properly and might get integrated back in, which has only happened to us when we were at the lowest point in our life where we were stuck constantly splitting to try and cope with whatever the hell was going on.
so Ica was gone for 6 years, which meant our system was without an original or mainā€“ there wasnā€™t anybody to be head of the system, basically. for a while i was operating under the assumption that i was Ica, so i filled in that role for a few years before i made the realization. eventually i kindaā€¦ stopped being able to, though, bc of stability issues, and then we were back to not really having a proper main anymore. to make up for it, we started going by Leo collectively and kindaā€¦ trying to pretend to be a single person? and so that ended up creating a construct to fill the role of ā€œsystem main and the person we pretend to be when passing as singlet/not a systemā€: Leo himself! heā€™s kinda the most prominent traits we all have in common rolled into a single guy, which means that not only is he a pretty good system representative but we can also pretend to be him pretty easily (unless itā€™s someone like Toby who acts totally different). i dont know how common this situation is, i think normally itā€™s just ā€œif system original is gone, another alter steps upā€ like originally happened to us before i had a severe case of problems disorder.
uhhh this is very rambley bc thereā€™s a Lot to cover and now im trying to figure out how much of it i HAVE covered. systems are complicated and weird! OH WAIT okay i have one last bit.
so like, for us, first realizing we were a system was total hell. we fought a lot. as more alters showed up through various means, there were times where Ica felt like they were completely out of control of their own life bc of having to manage everything. there were a lot of panic attacks of people fronting and not being sure they were even REAL, despiteā€¦ being in front. but we still felt like we were deluding ourself. this was in, like, late 2011, so systems werenā€™t a THING. they were a very fringe community that everyone hated. we got constantly harassed, which only fed into Icaā€™s panic hell and our identity issues. interpersonal relationships became a nightmare, especially because we have BPD as well which varies in severity for each of us butā€¦ for me itā€™s pretty bad! there were times early on where every day was another fun new breakdown from us arguing with each other or our friends or not being understood orā€¦ etc.
soā€¦ how are we holding up ~7 and a half years later? pretty well, actually! we talk to each other. we do things for each other, like buy food or games we know specific headmates like. Ica is back and way happier than they were in 2011, and is thrilled to get to hang out with everybody thatā€™s showed up since. we help each other through problems, because at the end of the day our system ended up being a support network. Ica couldnt function on their own, so weā€™re likeā€¦ 10+ people working together to try and be a single functional person. and we feel pretty okay with that! we still fight, and we still start shit, but weā€™re not in constant crisis anymore. weā€™re still working through all of our trauma, especially the more ā€œrecentā€ stuff that kinda broke our system for a while until we were able to start rebuilding, but weā€™re doing it together. :D
soā€¦ yeah, it can start out as a stereotypical ā€œnightmare systemā€, with constant infighting and toxicity and self-sabotage and etc. but we worked through it! it took a while, but weā€™re overall more stable than we were before. we got out of the bad environment that was fucking us up, we got mental help for our other brain hell (we havent been able to bring up the system to our therapists bc its literally a non-issue now and we focus more on other things like our depression, anxiety, PTSD, etc), we found people that support us for being us, and we were able to likeā€¦ figure things out. and it was a mess! i still have issues about my own identity because of literally thinking i was someone else for two years. Icaā€™s still trying to figure out how to adjust to things, especially bc they missed our entire ā€œcringe cultureā€ phase so they came back to find that iā€™d dismantled a lot of their middle-school settings. and, uh, some of their friendships as well.
systems are fuckin weird
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seases Ā· 6 years ago
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hey i wanted to talk about robots so heres some lore for my dumb story hope you like it!!!
this has so many notes now pls this is just oc stuff......dont take my ideas....
EMPATHIC NETWORKS
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Big, big AIs out as satellites made a long, long time ago. Believed to be mostly magic based but possibly with some archaic code integration. They posses a great degree of intelligence. They help manage infrastructure somewhat, in a neighborly sort of way. Have become regarded more as colleagues than machines, but some still ascribe to the Dumb idea that since we made them, we get to control them. Only 4 were made, with only 3 left in existence. Those would be Isinglass, Hyacinth, Tethys, and Nemaline.Ā  (ā€Empathic networkā€ is basically a synonym for artificial intelligence).
Sympaths
Not nearly as enigmatic as their predecessors. Synthetic empathic networks are entirely magic based. Inspired by anomalous experiments on what was effectively the primordial soup of magic, theyve been around for a long time (not nearly as long as the ENs but long enough for society to move forward). TheyreĀ ā€œraisedā€ in communal societies focusing on study and research, but once they reach adulthood theyre free to do whatever they want.
Physically, Sympaths are like the traditional view of a robot just with self-propagating magic wherever a circuit board or chip or battery would be. They can replace parts, but total body transfer is considered too risky. Body-modding and using custom kits is pretty common with the Cool Cyberpunk and the Smelly Delinquent crowds. Like Humans, Sympaths have the ability to die.
CONSTRUCTS
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The newestĀ ā€œspeciesā€ of robots. Constructed AI are built entirely from computer and code; they were made to replace the need for a standing military. Constructs are divided into classes, but this is basically because theyre made and trained for a specific purpose, theres really no different between their 1s and 0s. A majority are considered sentient but there are exceptions (one being old Constructs who backslide). As such tho they get a relative degree of freedom, like personal rec time and stuff. No one controls them as much as they just follow orders (failure to compile enough times can result in basically Admin Overriding however). Once their mandated service term is over theyre free to leave and pursue personal goals, tho most dont make it that far.
Constructs appearance is heavily dependent on their weapon class. Being coded machines, constructs can effectively back up themselves up or be transferred between chassis. Components can be replaced with ease. (This near-invulnerability leads many constructs to be fool-hardy and overly reckless).
Predators
Predators are big, tough and animalistic. The physically largest class of Constructs, their large, armor plated arms and legs pack a big hit and double as heavy shielding. In personality, they range from generally jovial in anĀ ā€œi love to break things!ā€ sort of way, to outright cruel.
Skills:
tanks
heavy weapons
intimidation
eating things
providing shielding
Range: mid-close (usually attacking the area rather than fighting people, unless up against someone their own size)
Stats:Ā 
highest: defense, attack
lowest: speed
Hunters
Hunters are the brains to mirror Predators brawn, these spindly cloaked Constructs are more focused on precision. Theyre cold and solitary, often narcissistic and prone to one-upmanship. They dont get along well with others, and prefer to work alone.
Skills:Ā 
stealth operations
strategy
mechanic (medic)
signals/machine hacking
spy work/data gathering
Range: far (typically snipers or using the environment to their advantage, like hijacking an existing security system)
Stats:Ā 
highest: attack
lowest: defense
Reapers
Reapers are the newest class of Constructs, an improvement on the formula meant to phase out the need for older, collateral-damage prone models. Reapers are unique in that they are hive-minded, having only one true, centralized intelligence (which can control a variable number of units) andĀ ā€œunoccupiedā€ units running on a sub-sentient autopilot.
Skills:
infiltration
hand-to-hand combat
able to use human tools/machines (approx human size and shape)
improved cloaking/speed (covert movement in busy/public places)
black ops
Range: close (could be modified using different weapons)
Stats:
highest: speed
lowest: -
Unclassed constructs
Rarely, very basic construct models are made (without any of the inherent weaponry), intended for specific tasks that other Humans and Sympaths arent suited for. This can range from basically working in communications and maintenance, to jobs that pose too much danger to perma-death-enabled staff (like talking down a rampaging Predator).
Blocks
a Block is a construct unit; the standard is two constructs, who are then assigned the same accent color. Being assigned to a block has some benefits above informal partnerships, namely that members gain access to a kind of linked brain space for faster planning/cooperating.
Predators arent usually paired, as they already communicate well. Hunters are often paired for missions that require Working Together, because otherwise theyd Probably Wouldnt. Predator-Hunter pairings are often common due to their complimentary skills.
Blocks for long missions usually have names, and the odd block the bad robos are in is designated block:CERBERUS
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okay anyway!! hope you like it?? ask me questions if you have them ppplease!!!!
thanks for reading!!
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the-tevinter-biscuit Ā· 6 years ago
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high priestess the empress,devil and chariot? :3
the high priestess: what is your dream date?
we sit and watch weird documentaries together in a blanket with maybe pizza or popcorn or cheese twists. no touching required but if you wanna lean your head on my shoulder, thatā€™s okay. just hanging out. sounds like a good night to me.
this is also absolutely what ill do with friends so take that how you will
the empress: do you think you will ever get married?
haha god, no. no i dont think so. i think it would be amazing if i ended up staying in a long term relationship with someone, but even so, i dont think ill get married. i dont like big weddings or having the attention put on me in a situation like that, weddings are expensive. and i also dont like the idea that i would have to spend huge amounts of money to divorce that person, if things didnā€™t work out.
i would like the freedom to walk away from a relationship at any given time if i feel like itā€™s not right for me
the devil: do you enjoy thunderstorms?
yes actually! the sound of heavy rain helps me sleep and i think thunder rumbling and lightning and stuff is all very cool
the chariot: thoughts on astrology?
Fakeā„¢ im a skeptic by nature and i dont put any real belief in astrology. i like reading horoscopes and applying astrology to my OCs. i unironically enjoyĀ ā€˜the signsā€™ posts. but do i think the moment your parents decided to fuck has any reflection on the sort of person youā€™ll turn out to be? not really.Ā 
i think weā€™re mostly dictated by the society we grew up and our surroundings and experiences. i dont think its a coincidence that me and 2 of my brothers all grew up to be relatively similar as independent, introverted, hard-working kids, who liked video games and art and nerdy shit. and that my third brother grew up to be a different sort of person because he didnā€™t attach to my mum in his early years because she was unwell and his deviant behaviour led him to the wrong crowds of people making him a more confident, extroverted, tougher person who like to socialise at parties and go out drinking.
i have a firm belief that weā€™re products of our society, of our upbringing, more so than anything else. i could go on forever about where i think all of my traits and problems stem from but ive talked long enough
if you believe in astrology and stuff tho thatā€™s cool! no shade, i think itā€™s a rad concept.
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curlyshepards Ā· 8 years ago
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LITERALLY i want all of them for curly shepard
IM SORRY TO THE MOBILE USERS WHO THIS WILL NOT APPEAR UNDER A READ MORE FOR
What does their bedroom look like?
idk why iā€™m such a firm believer of this BUT: tim and curly share a room, so typically half of it is clean and the other half (curlyā€™s half) is a fucking mess all the time
Do they have any daily rituals?
every day for lunch at school him & his friends just go under the bleachers and drink. unfortunately curly has no limits so when lunch is over he usually just ends up ditching the rest of the day to go continue drinking somewhere else
Do they exercise, and if so, what do they do? How often?
he doesnā€™t make a conscience effort to exercise, but he walks basically everywhere when tim has the car. so heā€™s in pretty good shape bc of that & bc of fighting
What would they do if they needed to make dinner but the kitchen was busy?
curly has never made dinner a day in his life and will never make an attempt to nor does anyone want him to. if theres nothing already made at the house heā€™ll either just go without or go to the diner
Cleanliness habits (personal, workspace, etc.)
heā€™s a generally messy person, but he takes pride in his looks so he takes care of himself. heā€™s always clean shaven and smells really good. his room, however, is a disaster scene
Eating habits and sample daily menu
usually not awake for breakfast, and for lunch heā€™ll scrap up whatever he can find in his house (probably ends up being a sandwich or cereal) and for dinner heā€™ll follow tim somewhere and make him buy him dinner. he loves eating at the diner and never underestimate his ability to eat breakfast meals at 11 o clock at night
Favorite way to waste time and feelings surrounding wasting time
his sole reason for going to school is to waste time (thats what he tells everyone at least but its rlly because tim will not let him drop out) but if hes not in school then heā€™s probably just walking around his neighborhood w/ his friends or hanging out at the strip trynna start fights
Favorite indulgence and feelings surrounding indulging
dont.....really know what this means. all im thinkin about is that chocolate stuff. but he likes chocolate so lets go with that. he could eat 50 kit kats in a row, probably
Makeup?
makeup sex? absolutely. heā€™ll start a fight with his boo just for the sex
Neuroses? Do they recognize them as such?
i honestly dont see him having a mental illness
Intellectual pursuits?
intellectual isnā€™t really his thing. BUT Ā i can see him really liking labs and stuff
Favorite book genre?
he hATES reading, but mostly because heā€™ā€˜s dyslexic and he was brought up thinking that he was dumb bc he had trouble reading. ponyboy is the one that ends up helping him, though, and sometimes heā€™ll read to curly (action books bc theyā€™re the only ones thatā€™ll keep curlyā€™s attention. there are numerous times he regrets the decision bc curly cant keep quiet for more than a few minutes.)
Sexual Orientation? And, regardless of own orientation, thoughts on sexual orientation in general?
(i can already see the purly supporters @ā€™ing me yikes) but PERSONALLY i think heā€™s straight. idk what this means by thoughts on s.o. in general but im bisexual ??? idc about sexual orientation ??
Physical abnormalities? (Both visible and not, including injuries/disabilities, long-term illnesses, food-intolerances, etc.)
heā€™s got a lot of scars, mostly on his knuckles but a few up and down his arms. heā€™s deathly allergic to seafood but doesnā€™t care bc it looks gross to him anyway.
Biggest and smallest short term goal?
biggest: honestly just making it through another day is an achievement to him
smallest: he swears that one day he will beat sodapop curtis in a drag race
Biggest and smallest long term goal?
biggest: being as respected as tim is when heā€™s older
smallest: he will own a puppy at some point
Preferred mode of dress and rituals surrounding dress
white t-shirt, jeans, tennis shoes, and if its not too hot then a leather jacket. he hates jean jackets tho and WILL make fun of anyone who wears them
Favorite beverage?
beer. but also pepsi. hes weird.
What do they think about before falling asleep at night?
weā€™re about to get deep. on good nights he just thinks about his day. thereā€™s never a boring time with him, so heā€™s always got a lot to think about. he could be thinking about a girl heā€™s met or just hooked up with, or about what his friends got into. on bad nights though, he thinks about his dad and how he never got to know him. he thinks about how maybe heā€™ll never be like tim, and heā€™ll never be the brother that angie falls back on (that doesnā€™t bother him as much as it should, but it still pops into his mind) the number one thing that keeps him awake is never amounting to the shepard name
Childhood illnesses? Any interesting stories behind them?
just stupidity. he broke a lot of bones, needed a lot of stitches, and was bed bound too many times to count. there was one incident that tim loves to tell: the first time curly got into a fight. the guy was two times bigger than curly, but he didnā€™t care. the fight was done in 5 minutes, and curly had his first broken nose
Turn-ons? Turn-offs?
turn ons: i can see him really liking outgoing girls/ girls that are upfront. also neck kisses, collarbone kisses, hair pulling, back scratching
turn offs: daddy kink (seriously, its gross, stop forcing this on my son. he already has enough daddy issues) but nothing else really he will do basically anything
Given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen?
either a very crude & poorly done drawing or a sign that says ā€œcurly is the hottest shepardā€
How organized are they? How does this organization/disorganization manifest in their everyday life?
he is NOT. it doesnt really bother him that hes disorganized, but it drives tim up the wall. heā€™s always getting onto curly for being a slob
Is there one subject of study that they excel at? Or do they even care about intellectual pursuits at all?
he doesnā€™t really care, but since heā€™s forced to go to school he might as well enjoy something, which ends up being the labs in science. he likes the dissections, mostly, but he thinks looking into the microscopes are cool too (mostly bc him and his friends make shapes out of the slides)
How do they see themselves 5 years from today?
alive, hopefully
Do they have any plans for the future? Any contingency plans if things donā€™t workout?
he kinda just takes it day by day and doesnt care about the future. hes a strong believer that things will fall into place if theyre supposed to happen
What is their biggest regret?
probably being too emotional and not toughening up enough when he was younger
Who do they see as their best friend? Their worst enemy?
SO this is an OC but his best friend is a guy in the gang named brian. his worst enemy is also in the gang and his name is jimmy and he fucking hates that kid.
Reaction to sudden extrapersonal disaster (eg The house is on fire! What do they do?)
heā€™s probably the one that caused the disaster, so he immediately tries to fix it on his own. which usually works, but it leaves a mess behind that heā€™ll attempt (and fail) to cover up. a few hours later heā€™ll get chewed out by tim.
Reaction to sudden intrapersonal disaster (eg close family member suddenly dies)
so lets say tim dies. tim is the only person that curly is really close to, because if thereā€™s one thing that he learned from his brother itā€™s to never let anyone too close. but he always thought that tim would be there for him so he worshipped him. but ANYWAY tim dies and curly shuts down. i can honestly see him losing it bc tim was all curly ever knew, he was always there to fix the mess curly got himself in and now heā€™s just kinda alone in the world. heā€™d still have the gang, but theyā€™d remind him too much of his brother, so heā€™d eventually cut ties with them. itā€™d take a major, new person to bring him out of his stump, and thats if he ever really brings himself back to normal
Most prized possession?
the hand-me-down leather jacket tim gave him
Thoughts on material possessions in general?
doesnt really care about them bc he doesnt have a lot. he likes the things with meaning, but couldnt care less about expensive & nice things
Concept of home and family?
hes VERY family oriented and a huge mamaā€™s boy, but he hates his step dad. heā€™d do anything to protect angela and anything that tim asked him. family always comes first with him
Thoughts on privacy? (Are they a private person, or are they prone to ā€˜TMIā€™?)
it kinda depends. on his sexual life hes really TMI, but about emotions and family and secrets heā€™s really private. you could count on one hand the amount of people that heā€™s told private stuff to, and even then they donā€™t know the full story. i think the only people who would ever truly know him are tim and his significant other
What activities do they enjoy, but consider to be a waste of time?
football!! and hes actually good at it. tim never plays tho so the only time he gets to is with the curtis gang
What makes them feel guilty?
fucking up on a gang job and letting tim down
Are they more analytical or more emotional in their decision-making?
more emotional!! thatā€™s the biggest difference between curly and tim. tim will think of the long-term effects before making a decision, where curly is more of an ā€œact now, think laterā€ type person. his decisions are usually the wrong ones, but they make for a better story
Would they consider themselves a Type A or Type B personality?
iā€™d wanna say type B, because he is super laid back and easy going and isnā€™t really competitive (unless its for a joke)
What recharges them when theyā€™re feeling drained?
getting away for a while. he loves driving and ive always seen him as having a little secluded spot that he goes to by himself during his teenage years. eventually though he finds the right person that he can take, and just being with them makes him feel better
Would you say that they have a superiority-complex? Inferiority-complex? Neither?
neither tbh. he may think that heā€™s better than some greasers (because honestly he is) but he doesnt think of himself as above other classes. he finds it unfair that socs and middle class people have a superiority complex, so itā€™d be dumb for him to have one. he just thinks everyone should be equal (but he knows theyre not, and for that reason heā€™ll fight any soc he can get his hands on)
How misanthropic are they?
hes very easy to get along with if you come from the same type of neighborhood. heā€™s open to everyone thatā€™s cool with his gang, but heā€™ll be the worst kind of person to rival gangs and rich people. so he doesnt dislike people, because he can be a really cool guy, you just have to come from his streets
Hobbies?
football, fighting, drinking, poker. yā€™know, d00d stuff
How far did they get in formal education? What are their views on formal education vs self-education?
he graduates high school and thats it. and he definitely values self education more, the stuff heā€™s learned by himself ahve been more useful to him than the Pythagorean theorem ever will be Ā 
Religion?
he believes in a god but never really thinks about it. hes not religious by any means but i think it kinda comforts him knowing something comes after life
Superstitions or views on the occult?
he doesnt believe in superstitions imo!!
Do they express their thoughts through words or deeds?
both. heā€™ll talk a big game and then follow through with his promises
If they were to fall in love, who (or what) is their ideal?
THE QUESTION IVE BEEN WAITING FOR OK if curly ever fell in love, itā€™d be with someone making him feel okay with being him. theyā€™d make him want to be a better man & not just a mini tim. theyā€™d have to accept that curly would always idolize his brother, but theyā€™d also help him detach a little. theyā€™d love him for him and accept the fact that they canā€™t change him. theyā€™d probably be just as wild as he is, bc theyā€™d have to keep up with his lifestyle. they couldnā€™t take life too seriously and would never know what the future had in store for them. i can see curly eventually being able to be romantic, but itā€™d never be in public
How do they express love?
kisses, holding hands, little acts of kindness (giving them something that reminded him of them, asking how their day was, remembering little things)
If this person were to get into a fist fight, what is their fighting style like?
daddy came to win
Is this person afraid of dying? Why or why not?
nah i dont think he is. i think heā€™s kinda accepted that there is a very real possibility that he wonā€™t make it past 30 w the way heā€™s living, so thatā€™s why he takes it day by day
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tumblunni Ā· 8 years ago
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The big post about how i love my sneasel who is great
Welcome to that post. It might get long.
Reaper the level 100 Naughty nature Sneasel with Keen Eye who experienced pokerus once and has contest ribbons from too many regions oh my gosh Leeeeeeets get going on how much I adore my little guy!
Okay, the story behind him. He is kinda unofficially my starter pokemon?
Cos of course there was no way to keep your mons from RBY and GSC back then, but Iā€™d kinda only had one pokemon anyway. I was a dumb kid who just soloā€™d both games with my raichu Chuppy. And sadly I ended up losing them even before the whole transfer issue, someone stole my Gold cartridge during school and when I found it half smashed in the playground all the data had been corrupted. It did actually play though, just with some colour issues I think? I never really restarted cos it felt cruel to Chuppy to do it. So Iā€™m happy that the virtual console rerelease let me reincarnate Chuppy and even make them a cool new alola form! (though they had a different gender this time, but meh i get to headcanon my chu is trans like me, haha) So yeah thats the story of my official first pokemon, but Chuppy didnt really have any personality or headcanons back then cos I was so new to the franchise. And Reaper ended up lasting way longer and sharing every single other region with me, so he kinda took the spot of ā€˜starterā€™ even if he wasnt ā€˜firstā€™. (I still was really happy to welcome reincarnation Chuppy home tho!)
Reaper actually came from Pokemon Colosseum, of all places! His OT name is the completely-wrong ā€˜Tomā€™ cos he was from when I restarted my game after getting stuck and just buttonmashed one of the default names out of frustration. I actually caught him in a master ball just cos I was that excited to hug the lil guy! Sneasel was my fave gen 2 mon but i never managed to catch one actually in GSC, i didnt know it was limited to a rare encounter in the very last area. And even before I caught him I knew sneasel was in this game via guides, so i was waiting with baited breath and establishing headcanons even before i found him. Then I just COULD NOT WAIT, hence the master ball! XD I kinda preemptivel based him on the iron mask marauderā€™s sneasel from the celebi movie, cos shadow pokemon are similar to his brainwashing stuff. And I always liked his sneasel, scizor and tyranitar, for such minor roles they are. It was a nice nuance for the bad guyā€™s pokemon to be shown as VERY MUCH not evil, just enslaved by magic brainwashing and mistreated. It warmed my heart seeing them freeing each other and escaping in the end once the control was broken! But also it established sneasel as a really cool badass fighter that I wanted to have someday, yknow?
So yeah I got this guy from colosseum before I even played RSE, and he ended up being my ā€˜starterā€™ in that game so much that i cant even remember which one i picked. I boxed it right away and never thought about it again, I was a callous kid! It was actually really interesting playing ORAS and finally getting to see what the hoenn starters are actually like, lol And Reaper remained my best friend across like ELEVEN OR MORE REPLAYS of every single gen 3 game except emerald. Cos at that time in my childhood i literally did not have any other games. i spent around three or four years with just sapphire, leafgreen and final fantasy tactics advance. (Oh boy that gameā€™s script is stuck in my brain for all time) And getting attatched to the characters and making new ones all the time was how i kept from getting bored this way ^_^ Buuuuut... it kinda meant that I just discarded most of them super fast to make more. the only other pokemon that migrated to sinnoh with Reaper was Nether the sableye, who was kinda his rival/best friend. (Tho I mispelled it as Neava so heā€™s stuck that way, lol. And both of them are in all caps forever...) Nether is kinda the basis for my recent oc Malachi, so heā€™s like an entirely different story for another time. But he was my Sapphire buddy and Reaper was one region older via the power of spinoffs.
And oh man yeah i totally loved the shadow pokemon plot lol! I just headcanoned his plot with regards to that was the same as the marauderā€™s mons. Perfectly nice tiny sneasel boy is kidnapped and experimented upon by evils, but my love saved him and now he is soft once more. He didnt really have much angst from it, but it helped such a wild spirit grow to trust my hero and trust humans in general after such a rocky introduction to them. I imagined it was like training a dangerous dog to be a police canine, with that arm guard thing that they bite! Shadow pokemon training must be WAY more tough than it seems on the surface! So like ashā€™s charizard plot, where it ends up with really fire forged family love after all the hardship. I think that before he met my trainer he was just like a loner robin hood type character who valued his freedom and thought that tamed pokemon were all wusses. But alas, he was forced to experience human hugs, and now heā€™s addicted! but heā€™d still be quite rebellious and wild and have a lot of goofy cute interactions as he tries to learn all this complicated stuff about being a pet. Why cant I pee on the carpet?? Why do I have to eat pellet food? Why are you mad when i bring you dead mice and pidgey eggs?? bad bad influence on the other mons, but also a softhearted big bro who WANTS to be a good influence. He pretends to be all aloof and stoic cliche angsty antihero, but always messes up and looks cute instead! And he gets crushingly sad if any of his lil siblings actually does get afraid of him. Noooo the grumpyness is for the humans! Not for you!! No-one is allowed to pet the sneas except the other pokemon. It my duty to protect my new pack of strangely shaped sneasels! Oh and he likes booze. In human terms heā€™d be around 25-30, but still its not good for animals to drink human liquor. Never stopped him though! Heā€™d always find ways to sniff it out and swipe half-finished cans from the trash and stuff. Bad angstman! I know thats part of your archetype but stop it!
So... basically he was like.. cloud? original version from ff7 where he was sassy and goofy sometimes, except reaper is like that all the time with less angst and pretty much zero ego. Heā€™s just like a kind yet not completely competant fun uncle who tries his best to put up a cool guy front to impress the kids (and push away scary humans) but his innate sweetness means he always messes up. And heā€™s super tsundere about the fact he considers his trainer part of his infinate pack of children, even if every other human is DANGER MODE. Must protect this human from the other ones! Must teach them the ways of the sneas! Oh, and I imagined his appearance as a gijinka would be kinda like Squall from ff8. cos he actually started off as a parody of that unlikeable angstman archetype, and i didnt even know Cloud existed until yeaaaars later. (Played the ffs completely out of order...) So i figured heā€™d be like squall but with dark skin and a kinda sirus black hairstyle. (Cos that guy contributed the kind uncle part of his inspiration!) Oh and of course a sneasely colourscheme for the fur coat. And I ended up making him hold Blackglasses so often that it was an in-joke that he actually wore shades 24/7 even in normal pokemon form XD
When I first got him in Collosseum he was really useful for his Brick Break move, and im actually really happy that the brick break image on bulbapedia is the collosseum sneasel using it! It was very very good as one of the few mons available with that move in the very limited choices you had for that game. But his signature move kinda ended up being Surf, even though his stats would have been awful for it even if Iā€™d ev trained him properly XD I just found it so bizarre that sneasel of all things could learn that HM! I imagined he formed a surfboard out of ice to carry the trainer, cos thereā€™s no way you could stand on the back of a 30cm tall weasel...
And man lets just have some random sneasel headcanons now!
* Their feathers exist to sense wind fluctuations, which are useful in their natural environment to anticipate snowstorms and track prey in low visibility.
* The ear feather is just for this, its the more sensitive one. The tail feathers are more for manipulating objects and other day to day life. Theyā€™re more matted and dont really have the same hearing ability, but the joints are way more flexible so they can be moved independantly like three actual tails. Sneasels can pick up small delicate objects by brushing them up between the tails, then rolling them down their back to reach their mouth. they also use the tails to brush away dirt, hide their tracks in the snow, form surprisingly intricate igloo-like nests and groom their fur with the utmost precision.
* Sneasels will outright resent any attempts to groom them by anyone but their closest human friend, since inevitably humans cant do as good of a job. But humans can scratch behind your ears and give cuddles, so it all works out!
* In the wild, sneasels eat primarily eggs, some nuts and berries, scavenged semi-rotten meat and not so much live prey. Even though theyā€™re very skilled, theyā€™re also very fragile and cautious because of it. Theyā€™ll only hunt in extreme situations, instead preferring to confuse and mislead their way to dinner. Sneasels are very social and loyal to each other even if theyā€™re not to anyone else. Their most common strategy is the whole pack wards off a dangerous foe while one lone unit sneaks past and robs that pokemonā€™s food stores, to share with the family. Even if theyā€™re forced to hunt their own prey, they still follow these strategies and try to just outrun the enemy until it dies of exhaustion or freezes in the blizzard. Theyā€™re experts of making cuts that disable but donā€™t kill- going in close enough to deliver that final blow means risking a valuable pack memberā€™s life!
Not really a headcanon now but back to reaper himself, I always kinda imagine him looking more like a real weasel. I like sneaselā€™s design but the bipedal humanoid proportions arent exactly the best thing, yknow? i feel like it should have had shorter more pawlike back legs and just been top-heavy with the super claws. Like.. I imagine kinda a furret? just the appeal of actual weasels and stoats plz. I love sneasel but when i looked up weasels as a kid i was like MY HEART!!! theyā€™re sock puppet babies with lint fuzz faces Also I think sneaselā€™s claws are kinda comically short and boring considering theyre like its Big Feature. I liked when they were drawn a bit longer in older artworks, and i always imagined reaper had longer ones like scyther-y level. Thats why I named him that! Crescent moon claws of awesomeness, striking in the night~! ...he would be really cool if he wasnt such a cuddly dork. I love him so much, heā€™s my baby. And my dad. And my uncle?? heā€™s just a very good friend and im happy videogames can touch my heart like nothing else let me love my nonexistant magic weasel from cyberspace forevermore~!
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