#long distance REALLY sucks
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#fanfic#fanfiction#nonsense#making shit up#steddie#saturdaycryingclub#archive of our own#long distance REALLY sucks#stranger things#eddywow#slow burn#fun to read but miserable to live#men need a software update#also long distance sucks#you know what's cool though? tattoos#let me colour them in please#i also cried this week because my nemesis read to me over voice message#basically a bedtime story#I'm obsessed#don't tell her
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this is long sorry but i wanted to make a statement for the press (treat tumblr like a public diary) and the children of divorce (mutuals)
i know that obviously i am heartbroken that joeff and i had to split and part of me is really angry that it had to happen that way but its not like its anyone’s fault. this is a no fault divorce. we love each other we just couldn’t continue the relationship. but i go home and i see him and we hang out and its normal but then i remember that the future we wanted is dead and THAT is a horrible feeling but the worst feeling would be not having him in my life at all and i am glad that we love each other enough to be friends and we were friends for so long before we started dating bc then we know that we can do it. im glad we’re going to be apart for a few weeks bc it is still really raw but ultimately it is for the best and we agree that we are soulmates just maybe not romantically. which sucks but the right person for us will be glad that we didnt force ourselves to stay together just for the comfort of familiarity. i just have to tell myself that it wasnt a waste of time and everything will make sense eventually even if it doesnt right now and i want to be mad but theres nothing to be mad about except sometimes life is unfair but you live it anyway.
#i know i talk my shit on here sometimes when i let myself get angry but i dont mean it. he didnt do anything wrong#i mean in retrospect some things could have been done differently but its not like someone cheated or was abusive or anything#it was just circumstances stopped lining up. which happens! especially if youre young. people dont grow up at the same rate and thats ok#like we still live together and are friendly we have no beef we’re both just sad that it didnt work out in the end#but we cant be hanging out together like we used to for a long time because a period of distance will make it easier in the long run#which sucks because i want to go do all this stuff with him and see our friends and be normal but we cant until we’re solidly Apart#we just need to be our own people for a while because neither of us have ever really been alone bc we glommed onto each other as soon as we#met um……. at age 19 and 20#so we need to figure out what we want for ourselves as individuals without letting the other one drag us down yknow. so its okay!#but we are figuring things out and everything is a circle so we’ll be right back!
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its frustrating, Eloise was my favourite character in the show and then part 2 came out and the complete character assisination.. you telling me she wouldnt be loud & opinionated when finding out her friend was forced getting married off too a much much older guy??
also with Cressida. part 1 perfectly set up a redemption arc for her, made us sympatise and get to know more about her character. only for part 2 to have others completely shit on her character throughout, have her only friend not even care to listen to her or even had a single conversation again.
How is it that Cressida was the only one that dealt with all the consquences but Penelope ended the season completely fine???
#wouldve be better if instead of Colin - Eloise went to speak with Cressida instead about the blackmail#have Eloise sneak in to her room when finding out Cressida has been trapped in by her father#give them an actual goodbye conversation!!!!#where they still keep in contact via letters despite the distance#i am really happy for bi benedict & fran#but it sucks knowing the writers wont give a shit about a lesbain arc for Eloise / Cressida#cause doubt they care enough to give us two wlw storylines#even if they set up the storyline so well at the start?? even having them paralell the literal main romantic couple of the season#sorry for the long rant#but its so urghhhh#the writers really fucked over Cressida and it sucks#the potential flushed down the drain#i really hope this isnt the end of her story#bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers
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I got my new ankle braces today :D
They removed my ankle privileges :(
#The new ankle braces do not have a joint at the ankle#and it means I cant really drive if I have to go to the store or appointments nd stuff where I have to walk a lot#Which SUCKS DICK. but. whatever.#Ill take it not to be in pain any time I walk long distances#I'll still have to use wheelchairs at shit like zoos and waterparks nd attractions as such#But that doesnt bother me because Im a whizz in the wheelchair#But now I really don't care#these ones arent as visible as my last ones#but thats bc I matched them with my shoes p well#the bugz speak
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I hate it when i run out of things to say to someone i used to talk to everyday
#like i hate it when time passes#and theyre a stranger to everything now#the last me they knew was the 15yo me and ive wanted to kill rhat part of me for so long#and distance gives you perspective and ive realised they never really cared for me like i have and it sucks#but theyre my oldest friends and probably the first
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2021 just some guys celebrating pride
#world of warcraft#anduin wrynn#baine bloodhoof#2021 pride fanart#I think baineduin is cute but with how Baine has been written the last few years I just can't see it working outside fanfic#I just. really wish they'd shown more strain in their relationship in BFA#And I wanted Baine to be more active in SLs#Have Baine confront Mawduin at some point#I drew that ill post it next#Anduin and Baine could've been a really interesting friendship in canon exploring what makes ally/horde relationships so hard to maintain#and yet these two of all of them would be able to power through their differences and fights and dissagreements#But I think its just too late to really properly capture that in canon which sucks#In my fanon of them they're never able to be a close couple more long distance but they hoard cute love letters from eachother#and when lucky they may meet in secret#but in the end no one ever knows that theyre more then friends#prehaps other then jaina#jaina knows everything i think#if your curious my main ship is wranduin but honestly i think anduin is just a little dork who crushes easily#I could see him with a few different people given the fanfic is written right#but also as an ace i do like the idea of Anduin as ace#honestly I just think of Anduin as a piece of playdoh i make him into whatever i want at the moment
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i drove 6 hours to come home for thanksgiving for my family and all my mom has done is pick fights with and my brother every single day. we are straight up in the emergency room and she's picking fights with me rn
#^ my brother cut his finger on a saw so we're here for that#<- he's okay#just needs stitches#i need a break#but like also i shouldn't have expected anything but this#like idk what i was thinking#it's always easier with my mom when we're long distance so this makes sense#it just really sucks#zip quips
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there’s nothing i love more than getting letters and cards in the mail
#yelling into the void#it’s literally my favorite thing#really does things for my words of affirmations love language#long distance besties suck but little things like this make it fun#thank you bestie 💖 (you know who you are)
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the tragedy of sexting with someone long distance is that you will not touch me. and i know you will not touch me and you know i will not touch you. and maybe the mental connection is powerful but oh barely enough for a ravenous heart. and we know
#honestly the reason why i don't really sext anymore#it's a tease without consequences#and i like there to be consequences when i tease.#what's the point in telling you i'd kiss you if i never will#what's the point in telling you i'd burn for you if you'll never feel the heat on my skin#ya know#it sucks#long distance#long distance love#online relationships#my post#me#mine#text post#literally#yeah#sucks#ugh#writing#writer#about love
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I LOVE COLLEGE. I want to go home though 😭
#I want to be with my friends!!! at home!!!!#I want my car I want to drive around my streets at night#I want my own room and my bathroom I feel comfy in (thank god for a suite bathroom I wouldn’t be able to deal with a hall bath)#I want to be like max 20 minutes away from my friends. this boils down to I miss my friends#we should all just go live in an apartment complex together#I was really onto something with making my friends and I in Tomodachi Life like that’s the ideal right there#maybe not economically feasible but it would be so good#I do love college a lot though and I’m really liking LI so far#I wish I were better at getting close with my new friends#but the ones I get along with the most don’t do much going out (either studying or sleeping)#and there’s one who I Don’t like very much they’re so annoying but they’re always around everyone else#I think I’m just gonna have to suck it up about that tbh#because I want to be hanging out with everyone else more#tbh my orientation group was the best I miss that just not as much as I miss my other friends from home#it’s also been weird because like. bunch of hurricanes flooding etc happening at home. and it feels weird to not be there and help out#I feel like I’m letting people down in not being there#another thing I miss is being so close to the water tbh#I didn’t think I would I am terrified of flooding#and I’m on an island like. this is Long Island. but I can’t see the water from where I am#and I can’t drive around to get to it#I’ve never lived somewhere where I wasn’t walking distance from a bay and it’s uncomfy#thankfully when I go visit my boyfriend! the train takes me over wate#r sorry time limit went off anyways when I took a train there it took me over some water in NJ I think it was nice to see#comforting and shit#anyways#cheese speaks#college moment#ugh being homesick is so weirddddd
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A post-canon, pre-reunion No. 6 playlist for Shion. This playlist follows Shion from the end of Volume 9, through Beyond, until just before he reunites with Rat. It concludes right before the events of my story, Summer Rain.
In the Country - La Luz There isn't one thing that I wouldn't do for you Why leave?
Good Grief - Dessa But I’m willing to work for this Just show me where to dig And I’m ready to hurt for this
I Don't Trust U Anymore - Left at London As a kid, I was idolizing millionaires and all the presidents But I don't trust them anymore No way, no way, no, not again And I may never trust at all No way, no way, I'm over them
Working for the Knife - Mitski I always thought the choice was mine And I was right, but I just chose wrong I start the day lying and end with the truth That I'm dying for the knife
Glass House - Screaming Females Whose house is this? A gift was promised Future structures till we all vanish
The Center Won't Hold - Sleater-Kinney I need a real affliction Gives me a reason to stay I need a new reflection Don't wanna see my face
Fear the Future - St. Vincent When the Earth split in two I was I, you were you I run for you Run for me, too
Kokomo, IN - Japanese Breakfast God, I wish we could go back there Left alone in my room I know they deserve you too And maybe I'm not that worthy
#no. 6#no.6 novel#no. 6 shion#no.6 shion#nezushi#More description:#In Beyond we see that Shion is super depressed and we see him make a power grab#so this is about his journey from grief over Safu's death and Rat's departure to trying to do the work on the Restructuring Committee#but eventually realizing that they're STUCK in old patterns all the other cities suck too so there is no just future in reform#1 is the end of Vol 9 where - why can't we just make this into somewhere we can both live#2 is about Shion trying to work through his grief re Safu (and Rat leaving) to do the work of “restructuring”#3 is his motivation for breaking shit down and “restructuring”#4-6 about realizing that “restructuring” is insufficient because all the city-states are fundamentally exploitative#7-8 are about essentially giving up and desperately wanting to see Rat again#And some extraneous info...#1 La Luz is a Seattle based all-women group and their instrumentals are HYPNOTIC imo#2 Good Grief seems really good for Shion dealing with losing Safu and not having time to process until way after#3 re the l@l song I feel like shion is like ok nezumi told me not to change but i also can't trust anything i ever learned before this#i know shion did not idolize the president but he was TAUGHT to do that and the point is he doesn't know where to look for guidance bc#Rat is gone. but like also i wonder if he's like wow i've basically just been dumped fuck the world#Left at London is a trans woman who sings about cool shit like taking down the government so she had to be here#4 i feel like after he kicks Yomin off the RC he's probably like that was for sure the wrong decision and also i should have gone with my b#also i love mitski and was deciding btw this one & Nobody#5 this is like extreme disillusionment. we were supposed to be doing something good but it's all still rotten!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#screaming females is also all women and so are the next ones so this is unintentionally an all women playlist haha#6 i love sleater-kinney and i feel like this fits shion well bc he was sort of everyone's light and now he's like never smiling#(per Karan in his Beyond chapter)#7 is so relatable. like please just tell me what's coming next!!!!#8 is the long distance theme song fr + i love japanese breakfast
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#i've been doing job training for the past month now and so far it's going pretty well#but i feel like it's affecting my lifestyle negatively in a big way#for one it's enabling my E////D (which i've been sorta on top of but now i'm taking any excuse to skip meals and walk long distances for#no reason other than to get workouts in whenever i can)#and it's definitely noticeable in my day to day life#(mostly dizziness and exhaustion weakness and headaches/stomach aches that end up making me sleep through the rest of my day)#and i have NO idea how to keep myself from doing it#today i was worried about how many calor///ies i'm intaking with painkillers#which i wouldn't have to take in the first place if i could just give myself a break and eat normally again#and it just sucks? that i'm getting a grip finally in terms of a job but at the same time my health is going down the drain again#i really REALLY thought i'm on top of myself but i guess i am nowhere near it#and it's so frustrating#rant tw#i wish i could blacklist tag this properly but it always attracts pro weirdos so if u need this tagged give me a tag to use#and i will glady do that for u
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idk ik people don’t like valentines bc corporate holiday rahahhah but i just like it as a day to love my friends and love my family and love my fictional characters and wear cute pink and red outfits and skip around giving red velvet cookies and be happy idk
#:D#☕️!- clove speaks#like Martha speaks#Idk I was in a relationship for one Valentine’s Day and it sucked bc I wished him a happy Valentine’s Day and he ranted ab how it was a#scheme for corporate business to make more money and YEAH#Ik it is but we were long distance and he didn’t have to get anything and all I wanted was to be told I was loved#and tbh after getting out of the relationship idek if I loved him in a normal way I don’t think anything about my attraction to people has#been necessarily normal and now I don’t really think relationships are something I even want anymore#But idk#Valentine’s Day as a day to appreciate things I love#I LOVE my friends I love my family#I love I love I love and none of it is wasted#romantic relationships will never be more important to me than platonic I think#especially after being in a toxic/abusive “romantic” relationship and the only thing that helped me leave it was help from my friends#I’ll never have a friend I regretted loving they were all important to me at some point and helped me grow#it’s hard bc I’ve always felt idk… aceflux? aroflux? And it was very hard to explain to a partner HEY sometimes my love for you isn’t#romantic sometimes it’s platonic sometimes I don’t know how to explain it but I still love you I still want you in my life#Idk none of this matters#If u read this SMASH THE LIKE BUTTON AND HIT SUBSCRIBE
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#man im really tired of having feelings for him. i should really just keep my distance and go back to dating apps#i long for the connection we have and hate having to build up something brand new#but im really tired of feeling butt hurt everytime he sleeps with our roommate#like yeah we broke up over a year ago. and still casually do shuff. its just hard for me to turn off that side of my brain#i just want to feel loved and be held by someone without having to build the foundation all over again#ive been depressed the past few days because of it. i act irrationally and cant control my feelings#overall its better if i just let them fuck around and i try to find someone new. only problem is im anxious and not a good conversationalist#plus i hate messaging people over phone. too much anxiety abt what im saying and if the other person enjoys me or not#anyways it sucks seeing the subtle evidence that they went at it while i was away. i have no right to be upset but i cant help but think of#him as more than a friend. i cant and shouldnt but we had dated 6 years previously. its a bit difficult to turn that switch off now#dammit i guess tonight im gonna sleep alone again and try not to cry. whatever gotta get over myself and move on. have to stop only thinking#of my self and being so damn possessive all the time#ash rambles#fuck i feel worse now after typing all that out yippee..
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i have been gnawing at the bit over the idea of B kidnapping L im a second away from writing The most self indulgent fic inspired by your tags on that 'is kidnapping illegal if u rly rly love them' post , anyway can i pick your brain for ideas surrounding a kidnapping scenario LMAO
KICKING MY FEET AND GIGGLING READING THIS
YES OMG PLEASE!! Idk how helpful I'll be but I'm absolutely down to talk B kidnapping L >:3c he just wants to dress L up and play with him like a lil doll but also taxidermy him like a prized hunt and admire him forever 🥰👍💕💕💕
#qeyond sucks#ask#gore#kidnapping#putting my hands on my face and looking off in the distance#hed love it so much but would also be really sad if he broke his favorite toy (ie taxidermy that guy)#keeping L in a zoo enclosure made just for him so he lives for a long long time :3#anyway im wishing you so so much power and luck writing !!!!!
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Big Sad
#kicks dirt#idk how many times i can openly ask for what i need & just. not get it. before i've just gotta Stop bc it starts feeling pathetic#and potentially even bordering on emotionally manipulative.#debating the Morality of even tag-venting on my own blog bc i don't want anyone to assume this is targeted#i just feel Deeply Lonely and like i have absolutely nothing going on in my life except work#and just lowkey like.... Unseen.#sometimes i try So Fucking Hard to have a conversation with people only to have 100% of what i say completely ignored me#* in favor of a random meme.#it starts to fuck with you after a while! makes you feel Uninteresting and Foolish and Annoying#idk.#i mean i also ran out of my (Extremely Rough Withdrawal) SNRI last week so like. that isn't helping.#but it's more than that. i've been feeling like this for a while.#it just. really sucks when you move & have no irl friends. no energy to make any new ones.#and all of your long distance friends have A Lot of shit on their plates so you feel shitty and inconsiderate for even thinking of asking#for. well Anything really. let alone some of their extremely limited time & energy & attention.#like who tf am i to ask anyone#let alone people who are all Very busy and struggling w/ their own shit#for their undivided attention for a chunk of time they could be using to take care of themselves#i don't want to feel invisible anymore#but i also don't want to be a drain on the people i care about#i hate Needing things#i wish the depth of my love and devotion to the people i've chosen to care for was fulfilling enough on its own#so i'd never need to ask for things#having emotional needs is like. sooo gross & selfish of me tbh. :/' go the fuck to therapy holy shit u would Never say this abt Anyone else#anyway. watch me delete this in 5 seconds bc the need to be seen & the mortification of being Perceived can & do coexist#χ.txt
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