#lmao idk why im so nervous to share anything

[deceptive-daydreams]

because i feel like it's been so long since updating, here is a peek at chapter 11

He’s lost in thought again, eyes glazed over with some kind of appreciation as he taps his ringed knuckles against the bar.  He almost resembles a kid in a candy store yet you nearly take it as pity, that vengeful little monster within you ready to pounce on its prey and feast on you for the remainder of the night.  

“Yeah.”  He exhales.  “Yeah, they’re perfect.”  It’s said in a whisper, as if he only wanted you to hear him although no one else was close enough to hear.

“Are you sure?”  You ask, hands placed atop the bar as you lean closer to him, worry etched into your features. “Cause I can–”

“They’re perfect.”  He affirms, louder this time.  His gaze finds yours, huge chocolate buttons so filled with such adoration you become overwhelmed, palms turning clammy.  The monster inside of you has been smothered for the time being.

[burstbubbbles]

things im noticing as i rewatch bnha, an ongoing thread:

SEASON 1

- deku really was such a nerd lmao he's just like me fr (like i KNEW but i didn't remember how much i could relate to it. oops.)

- it's also interesting that he always fights back against bakugo and calls him an idiot a lot. idk why (probably because of fandom characterization) i remembered early-seasons deku as a lot more innocent and scared of bakugo. like, here's the thing, deku is scared of pretty much everything at the start because he's shy/anxious. he gets nervous talking to most of his classmates (especially, but not only, girls) when he first meets them and starts trembling when he gets elected as class president before handing the role to iida. so basically, his anxiety isn't reserved to bakugo like i remembered – if anything, he seems to get over his fear of getting bullied by him pretty quickly once he realizes he can fight back.

- kaminari tried to ask uraraka out in their first or second day of school and she was like "uhhh i like to eat... uhh... WAIT DEKU CAME BACK FROM THE NURSE'S OFFICE" lol i really didn't remember that

- bakugo's insecurity was always there. as you're reading this you might be thinking i first watched mha with my eyes closed or sth, and you're not very far from the truth. here's the thing, i first watched it when i was like 14-15, so all i knew back then was that bakugo was insufferable and i didn't think further than that. of course, he ended up becoming one of my favorite bnha characters after reading all of the manga, but it's cool to realize his character arc was foreshadowed from the beginning and didn't just magically start around season 3.

- but yeah, anyway, bakugo's insecurity and his envy over deku's natural noble nature was always there, since season 1. also, deku's real admiration over bakugo was also there. like, going back to my other point, deku wasn't just Not Overly Scared of bakugo, he actually looked up to him despite knowing he was deeply flawed. tbh they were always a bit crazy about each other.

- uraraka is so funny i love her.

- all of class 1A was so chaotic good coded

- like they collectively made fun of bakugo on the bus to USJ for being rude lol. they really bonded over their shared dislike for the guy.

- bakugo gets fucking HUMBLED all of s1. i would also be irrationally angry ngl.

- the dialogues in the first season sometimes are so unnatural for the sake of exposition, like all might telling recovery girl: "do you mind not talking so loudly ab OFA? only you, a close friend, the principal, and midoriya know about OFA. but most professors and some pro heroes also know about my condition and not being able to fight for more than 3 hours a day" like WHO TALKS LIKE THAT ??!1?1?

- deku had to go to recovery girl's office a total of 4 times (if i counted correctly) for broken limbs of fingers in HIS FIRST WEEK of school. which is funnier considering no one else from class 1A had to go even once.

- damn shigaraki was a skinny legend before he got OP

- aizawa did not react at all when he first saw kurogiri (about the shirakumo thing). that was surprising.

- also. AIZAWA IS SO BADASS?? like yes i knew he was badass from the later seasons, but i genuinely didn't remember his first fighting sequence at USJ where he single-handedly fights like at least 20 villains.

- i had also forgotten that shigaraki calls eraserhead "really cool" so early on in the anime, i thought it was a later-seasons thing.

- this is really obvious but i had forgotten the all might theme's resemblance to superman's theme. it's such a cool little detail tho!

- uraraka and deku definitely were crushing on each other when they first met, but i think it's nice that they ended up developing a really strong friendship instead of getting together after hori didn't consistently develop them romantically. it also makes a lot more sense narratively, like why would we care who deku ends up with at the end of his first year of UA when the story actually ends 8 years after that, and it's very unlikely that you marry the same person you started dating when you were 15. idk, i liked that. i like that you can have two characters who maybe have a crush on each other but can't focus on that due to Circumstances and eventually move on and become good friends. it's a win for the platonic department!

- the animation was kinda bad in the first season 😭 but it's understandable and i had fun watching it regardless.

okay im done with s1 tune in for s2 !!

[mayordea]

MORGAN HEADCANON POST!!!

so i have posted my elaborate “the robins are separate entities and siblings” headcanons and i think i’ve said too many damn times that i wanna extend a similar headcanon post for morgan and now it is TIME!!

(im also a lot less nervous sharing this time teehee)

more info about the guys under the cut :]

morgan

the girl one

robin’s adopted daughter. parents died after grima goes bananas and robin decided to take her under his wing. i like to think robin held out a little longer than the rest of the shepherds once the apocalypse started so he was able to teach morgan what he knew. plus she self taught herself magic and tactics using his notes even when he’s dead

can be blunt, hates being the butt of the joke, but has a pretty dry and witty sense of humor. sometimes clashes with lucina’s inability to pick up on jokes

since she was a kid when grima goes bad, she is the oldest among the second gen. older than lucina by a few years perhaps

has a close sisterly relationship with lucina. she and lucina sort of reflect robin and chrom’s relationship in the group, with the exalted leader having a wise magic man by their side. given the situation in their family tree (though morgan is adopted, she is still lucina’s cousin) i’d refrain from defining it as anything romantic (besides i hc lucina to be aroace anyway. queerplatonic relationship, perchance)

since morgan was only able to cross paths with lucina and the rest of the second-gen shepherds through her adoption from robin, it is unlikely that she will meet lucina in the good future or at least have the same very close relationship with lucina since she’ll be raised by her bio parents. (one may argue that none of the second-gen shepherds will meet or form a close band without the backdrop of acopalyptic bonding in the good timeline, but the point is that morgan will live a significantly different upbringing if the grima threat is taken care of). lucina sometimes worries about this possibility, but morgan’s conviction to change the future for the better is stronger than this uncertainty. this conviction was also probably inspired by lucina’s drive to change fate

ngl this is all i have unfortunately 😭 but i do wanna work with her more, especially her relationship with lucina

marc

the boy one

chrom and reflect (girl robin)’s son from… a different future. he does not hail from the same doomed timeline as lucina and the rest of the kiddos. instead, he’s from a timeline where grima was vanquished with the falchion (keeping reflect/the vessel alive). he was born shortly after the war ended (though in actuality he’s born after chrom and friends leave smash bros but that’s a whole other can of worms)

the youngest of the future kids

due to his unawareness of the apocalyptic future and grima in general, he has a much more jovial attitude compared to the rest of the kids

brash and a bit of a jock

has a little bit of aptitude in magic from his mom, but he has no interest in actually touching a book

lucina (and the rest of the kids) were confused about this guy’s existence and why he was sent to the past but they embrace him as one of their own anyway (he still doesn’t really know what’s going on)

tbh i have even less going on with him, but i think exploring the silly sibling dynamic he’ll have with lucina should be fun in future projects

his design is kinda messy atm, i do not know if ill fully settle on the one here idk

OH and lastly: his mark of the exalt has not surfaced yet at his age, but i think it’ll appear on either the back of his right hand (like the defile brand) or on his upper back (jojo reference). or maybe even in his right eye like inigo (but that sorta feels like his thing so i don’t wanna rip it off lmao)

anyway that’s it!! i’m kinda pressed for time rn but i wanted to get this out before i forgot lmao!! will edit if needed ough

[tpwkmadeline]

I heard your being our big sister so i just wanted to ask for some advice

This is kind of vulnerable and long so i apologize lol

So like ever since I was like 14 (im 18 now so like for four years now) i have had this thing where I have a feeling like something bad is going on. My body's always alert like something bad is going to happen to me any second. I think i might've killed my nervous system by now because GIRL im always so scared for no reason and i don't know why??

Especially at night I cant fall asleep because im so scared that ive done something so incredibly bad that someones out to get me. I always stay up late so tomorrow comes later ( i know that doesn't make sense but bare with me) with cold sweat, my heart feeling its being squeezed, the feeling of needing to throw up. And I only fall asleep after literately overthinking EVERYTHING that has ever happened to me.

Some nights if im exhausted I just sleep straight away, but like I take a while to sleep so like almost everyday is like this. It stresses me out SO BAD i can barely breathe and sometimes I'll cry from the overestimation because I just want to sleep but my thoughts are so loud omg.

Its been like this for 4 years but its gotten bad a couple months ago. I HAVENT GOT A WELL NIGHTS REST SINCE SEPTEMBER. I actually dont know who to ask for help on how to stop this.

And ALSO, I get nightmares so frequently like as frequent as normal dreams. Idk if that means anything but I thought i'd share.

So basically what im asking is if you have any tips on how to stop feeling like youre going to be killed every second of the day.

THANK YOU BOO

this sounds like a mix of adhd and anxiety. i have adhd and at night sometimes i get racing thoughts, when i’m having too many thoughts at one time so i can’t process any of them and i freak out because of it then cant sleep. i also get really vivid nightmares for weeks on end every couple of months.

i’ll be brutally honest, i take an edible (legally) to calm myself down LMAO but i know that’s not accessible to everyone. melatonin has also helped me (but sometimes i get weird dreams cause of it) but i wouldn’t do that every night because you’ll build a tolerance.

are you possibly in therapy and have mentioned this before? i have a friend who used to experience similar things and she got on anxiety medication, and hasn’t experienced that in awhile now.

[knizuu]

Talk to me abt uhhh anything- Fang, Petey, OC, idc. ANYTHING U WANT💖💖

PLEASE IM GENUINELY INTERESTED IM NOT DOING THIS JUST CUS U LET ME- /gen

I get so nervous writing asks wtf

DUDE IM SO DUCKING HAPPY +omg same </33

COUGH well imma go in order lets go with the

FANG🫧….

SIGHH I LOVE HIM SM. tbh I see how people react to the recent idw miniseries which left the Hooligan fans really sour </33 to me, though, it wasn’t too bad?? I see how it works and honestly the only sad part to me is WHY DID HOOLIGANS BREAK UP AUH but im so used to “sonic canon ew” so like-I should’ve expected that sigh. So I can reason with how excited people headcannon/draw/make whatever of the guy it’s really cool since we all kinda agree? Like even with such a variety we all take the guy lovingly <33 which is sweet :> like its pretty chill-WHCIH IS FUNNY because Im actually really scared in small communities <- i made a post bout it once i-I EAT UP ANY FAN MADE FANG CONTENT FR i love all fangs really [so far] ^ ^ tbh even my school knows that-I did pottery of him, drawn him, spoke of him, my teacher saw a drawing of Fang I did and HE QUOTE: I was looking for that [SIR I GET IT IM PREDICATABLE/silly]

PETEY💠

Ok as much as heartfelt I feel about Fang-Petey is just some other freak of nature my family knows. I’m NOT EVEN JOKING-MY MOM SANG ABOUT HIM WHILE MAKING LUNCH/GEN GEN GEN-cough. Idk why but ever since my brother [the first dog man fan obviously] inserted dog man into my family [by 1. SHOWING MY FANART/BOOKS TO MUM 2. LETTING ME SING THE MUSICAL ALL DAY LON-/positive fs] its been insane/sILLY because-who expected everyone to say “Papa Petey” [i do NOT know how some typo made mo-ok my mom has a Petey problem/sILY AGAIN] in the car-at home…NOT ME THATS WHO. WHY IS PETEY SUCH A NORMAL THING IN MY HOUSEHOLD/positive sigh

OC🌸

OKK well they are ALMOST a wasteland but I have an original story to bring some ocs to life ^ ^ [including-sigh vague mention-the space dog lady and red haired lady ocs i have :3] ESSENTALLY: I’m calling it Brink of Bryony!! [Bryony is about a flower but in plot idk a city??] it’s just a human loser [red haired lady MAYBE] meeting alien folk [Cordella is there…i showed her ONCE] like my self insert hehe [Norolist] because OH NO beeg mister evil guy wants to take over Earth and this NICE alien people gonna protect it! That’s the entire thing, very unserious lmao. Pyrexavul is my precious <33 I don’t think I shared him?? I’ll share em all sometime hehe im too lazy LMAO. So yes yes I’ve been into making that story recently :> !!

ANYTHING🦐

OK SO my Luxury AU has been MANIFESTING MOI cuz i decided: why yes I WILL make a fic bout it!! Yknow just remaking the lore[cough this means me rewriting the first book of DogMan] and putting some stuff into one work ^ ^’ SO FAR I’m really getting into the vibes but what’s crazy is how I turned what I THOUGHT was oughta be a comedy-to a tragedy. No like I KNOW IM GONNA WRITE CUTE STUFF I WILL I JUST-….also might’ve included grief, addiction, ETC I dont even know how I got there 🙂‍↔️but it’s been fun! Especially since it makes me go down a nice study check with me lmao [I’ve been learning the medical field, laws, how media handles stuff, types of _, etc] hehe rubbing my hands together imma be so happy to write it all hehe and with that I’m learning about my characters a lot better! I thought of it more one noted because its a good start but now im actually learning more bout em :0 !! Love reworking stuff, redesigning, it’s been a huge part of me since idk when ^ ^’

COUGHHHH i think that all works out!! TYSM FOR ASKING I CANNOT EXPRESS THE WHIMSY I FEEL RN <33

[souliebird]

hi !!

i know you're not asking anyone's opinion but i think the skull tattoo w the mushroom crown would be so cool! idk i like the idea of that the best. Hopefully you get a tattoo soon tho! I just got my second tattoo and im in love

i came here to say that i loved Addicted. the silent drop was crazy (it's giving beyonce dropping lemonade and walking away) i was like oh ???? interesting indeed. after i read it ? i was like oh... how interesting 🥹

i honestly loved how you wrote that fic. the way you so clearly wrote depression was almost scary 😭 it almost had me wondering if YOU are okay lmao

but seriously, the writing was amazing. the way you obviously portrayed depression without stating what it is, even once, was really impressive. i feel like that's an emotion that's really hard to describe in any capacity, so reading it in Addicted really had me feeling for the reader. A+ writing for that alone.

i also really liked how Addicted included the hardest part (in my opinion) of that kind of relationship, which is those small glimmers of hope you get that keep you going. It's like those small crumbs of matt that reader was able to get was enough to keep reader from the brink of starvation. enough to keep reader from wanting more/wanting anything different. idk if that makes sense but i hope it does.

anyway, i could go on for longer but i don't wanna bore you. i really liked the fic and i hope you keep going!!! thank you sm for sharing it!!!

🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

Thank you for such a wonderful ask!!!

First for my tattoo, I probably won't be able to get anything until later this year, but the idea is a crow skull someone would find on a forest floor that's got new signs of life on it. A mushroom crown frown and some spider webs and such.

I get nervous talking about my work bc I believe ppl aren't interested in hearing it. I also get nervous if I mention I'll do something, I'll disappoint ppl if I don't deliver. If no one expects anyone, only I can be disappointed by it :')

You are the second person to ask if I'm okay based on this fic and the answer is I'm not!!!! But it helps me have the words and description to portray it, so crippling depression is good for something.

I'm glad you enjoyed the fic!! I am actually rather proud of how it came out. I love the cycle that Reader and Matt are in and I like imagining the different explanations of why this is happening and what will happen after. Will Matt take her out of the apartment and get her help or will it continue until something breaks.

I love angst and @bellaxgiornata inspired me to do some heavy Matt angst. I don't think this will be as popular as other fics, but sometimes you just need a good hurty one.

[bonesandthebees]

on the topic of names, this is a random thing but idk just thinking about the meaning of names n stuff brought this up but i actually changed my last name legally !! (just this year, after my 19th bday pog)

i obvi won't say what but i will say i changed it to like . a word. not a name. i have an obsession w words with obscure meanings (like petrichor <3) and i've never felt connected to my last name... like i actually disliked it LMAO idk i just never liked how it sounded and whenever i looked at my full name i thought it just kinda . idk i never liked it

but ever since changing it to a name i chose, i just... i love it. i look at my name fully written out and it makes me so happy waefjwael I was a little nervous that it would just look weird and my entireee family was like "omg what if u change ur mind tho and hate it?!?!" even though i was pretty certain i wouldnt care, but yeah ever since i actually got the document back, there's been no regrets. it's one of the best decisions i've ever made. it's really helped me feel more comfortable in my identity n stuff.

i've had so many ppl question why i did it though lmaooo, theyre all just like "u can do that..." like yep! u can just change ur name for no reason lol. i mean . it gets annoying with having to tell all the gov places n stuff, but otherwise it's pretty simple lmaooo. def better to do it when ur young though bc then u have less places to tell

but yeah sometimes when im explaining to ppl why i did it, i get flashbacks to u talking about why you love writing stuff about names lmaooo /pos but yeah:)) just to say that i also really resonate with names having meaning n stuff hehehe

(yes I combined these two asks since they seemed pretty similar, the screenshot is technically the first one)

oh that sounds like such an interesting class!! it's always fascinating to learn different cultures history behind names. I love the idea of earning a name that's the same as a family member representing that you're sharing an identity, and also the fact that you can lose a name depending on your actions

also that's so cool that you changed your name!! I think changing your last name to a word is a REALLY cool idea. also, while I've heard plenty about people wanting to change their first names, you don't really hear about people wanting to change their last names that often? but like, I get it. I actually don't go by my legal last name that often unless I have to, or at least not my full one. I have two last names but I only ever use one of them in my daily life, and whenever I hear the other one used it really bothers me. there's a whole lot of reasoning for this I won't get into because it's personal but the gist is that my mom added my second last name legally for me when I was 11, and so up until that point I only had ever gone by one last name. and the timing of when that legal paperwork happened coincided with a lot of major things happening in my life, so I associate the person I was with that original last name as being a lot different than who I am now. now I only go by the second last name my mom added on for me and I hate when people use my original last name.

long winded way to say I get it, and I'm so glad you're happy with your name now!! you gotta love that you can literally just change your name if you want. one of my closest friends from college did that. I don't think she's gone through the legal hassle, but she uses a different first name than her birth one now which she started doing during covid. there's no reason for it. she's cis and she doesn't have any trauma attached to her old name or anything. she just didn't like it. who cares y'know? make yourself happy.

[lumiereandcogsworth]

5 9 13 15 22 and 27 ! 🫶🏻

5. What’s a fic idea you’ve had that you will never write? well there’s like some pretty unnecessarily angsty plots i’ve thought about, i call it the Dark Timeline lmao. no one dies or anything but just like, intense illnesses or injuries that bring characters near-death. you know, for the worry!!! for the angst!!! but ultimately that’s not really what i wanna write, they’re more just for me to play out in my head when i need to Feel Something™️. but besides that idk. i have a lot of throwaway AUs that just dance around my head, but never say never!

9. Do you write every day? If you wrote today, share a sentence of what you’ve written! no i don’t! i think it’s safe to say i write a couple times a week though. not a ton by any means, usually just bits of dialogue that happen because adam and belle just live rent free in my head so sometimes i get the chance to jot down what they’re bickering or flirting about. but unfortunately i haven’t written today :( i thought about a convo this morning before work but didn’t get the chance to write it down. and now it’s lost in the abyss.

13. How much planning do you do before writing? i mean generally none at all because like i said above im pretty much just writing down exactly what i’m seeing and hearing happen in my mind. for my longer things i’ve had some future plot points that i wanted to make note of, but still not much “planning”

15. How do you come up with titles for your fics/chapters? ah, my fic titles. i’ve actually (this is so autistic of me ajdksjdk) i’ve actually been keeping a tally of how i title my fics. because there are so many and i was curious, statistically, how it plays out. SO i can actually answer this with way more detail than you bargained for!

titles i’ve just made up based on vibes: 51

titles that are based on a line in fic/canon: 42

titles that are a line from a song/poem: 16

tittles that are one word/simplistic: 23

SO as you can see, majority of the time i either make it up myself (like “Amidst a Busy Day” or “Finding Peace in the Storm”) - which usually happens just by me workshopping various words or themes in the fic and then vibing it out, eventually something sticks that works well enough! (and sometimes i get my friends’ inputs if i’m really stuck!) OR i base it off of a line in the fic or from canon! like i have one called “Making Troubles Less Troubling” which is based on when Mrs. Potts says “Most troubles seem less troubling after a bracing cup of tea!” anyway, you get the idea. this is what happens when fic writing is attached to your special interest i guess HAHA

22. Do you know how your fic will end before you start writing? mmm depends. for my longer ones, yeah. like with my big beefy pre-canon fic about adam when he was 15, i knew i wanted it to end at a place that made you see very clearly that he was starting to become the awful prince you see in the prologue of the movie. but for most of my fics that are really (or relatively) short, either i’m just letting the characters talk and seeing where it goes, or it’s already all played out in my head and i know how it ends before i start jotting it down. basically a matter of length and how much i’ve seen in my head already.

27. Is there a fic you were nervous to post/share? Why? no i don’t think so. i generally don’t go to post a fic unless im really excited to do it, because im in love with it in that moment and i want others to be in love with it too. that euphoria always dies off after a little bit but i definitely need to be riding that high before i post anything. so if im feeling nervous or uneasy at all then i’ll either work on it to see why the vibes aren’t right, or i’ll just let it marinate until i get that feeling. one of my recently posted fics was actually written like over a year ago, but i hadn’t really “completed it” so i just let it sit. then i found it and fixed it up a bit and voila! now it’s out there for all to see.

[wanderrlust0]

cont.

i ran out of character space so heres part 2. its off topic but i wish i had more asian friendsLOL im so serious. i kinda wish i could have other asian friends who could relate to me and share the same interests in me. some would even share the same interests as my bf just bc were both slightly weebs lolol but in a chill, not excessive way. i think thats why me and snow got along so well from the start without even meeting bc theyre my only friend who is also a nerd like that. were both foodies in our own way and were always down for asian food lol. theyre also my only “goth/emo” friend so we have the most similarities when it comes to our sense of style and like id honestly love to have like a cute goth/emo friend group. whenever i see my mutuals on ig who have those friends and they post pics im like..you guys look so cool together and im jealous lol and im jealous of the friend groups that take cute pics together fr. but yeah idk, id like to meet more asian people but how could that happen, its so specific lmao the only thing i could think of is that app but i cant just start using it without discussing it with my bf and thats what id be nervous about bc like wth i feel like its such a strange requestttt LOL and im scared of judgement so yeah. theres like a slight, slim chance hed let me. i feel like the only way hed really be down for that is if we could share the acc on our own phones. (i think im actually gonna see if thats possible). he at least wont be turned off about the opportunity of making potential friends! he barely has friends to hang out with and i feel bad that he doesnt have a true friend group to do stuff with. his best friend lives in florida (like mine), him and his close friend went separate ways in life, and his school friend is no more in the picture. so like everyone he genuinely hung out with is just unavailable & all thats left are like the little friends that arent life long, yknow. i would like for him to find people he can share the same interest with but even when he tried finding them online they didnt stick. so yeah thats been on my mind. another kinda off topic thing is how hes been bad with replying lately!!! like he’ll just fall asleep early without saying anything to meee. like I KNOW hes on his phone from the time hes eating and in bed ready to sleep. the least he could do is send me a msg!! itll be like 9pm and he disappears:( its the worst on days where im so busy at work so i barely talk to him but then once im finally out hes not always responding fast enough, so again, barely talking that day. he’ll go out to eat lately and not share what he eats with me or send msgs in general! ik it sounds extra i guess but like he can at least send me a pic of something! im always sending him pics when im out with other people and sharing with him what im experiencing and he lowkey sucks at doing that. ill literally ask him to show me pics of places hes at bc he doesnt lol idk maybe its bc i like taking pics in general. but anyways, hes been replying so slowly lately so its been bothering me and also the weed!! how he starts to go nonverbal and then knocks out early when we take edibles bc he takes an insane amount of mgs and so were just on two diff levels of high as the day goes byyy. when we were eating out that day i suddenly told him that i think he overdosed on the edibles lmaoo i couldnt keep it in any longer. he now takes 500mg of a punch bar!!!! he gets the 1000mg bar when he used to get the 250mg one. he would take 2-3 squares. then it was 3-4. hes done the whole 250 maybe multiple? times (ik at least once) now its always 500!!!! &if im being truly honesttt, i dont like it. i dont like how hes like out of commission early. i used to throw up so much from bad trips and turns out i was just taking too much lmao i would get bad motion sickness or id eat too soon/too much. so id be so out of it and i hated that feeling so much and he would be awake and fine. id eventually come back to reality & wouldnt feel sick anymore but now its like the opposite, except he doesnt wake back up!!!!!

[foolish-edworm]

Hi, im asking this fully out of confusion and curiosity. I have been American my whole life, all 3 odd decades of it, and have never heard of "usamericans" till this year.

I'm asking this as I see you use the term so maybe you can point me to the answer: Where the hell did that come from? Are there other people who call themselves Americans who need to be differentiated from us who have used it, as far as I'm aware, exclusively for well over 2 centuries?

This is fully confusion cause like. I've never been usamerican just. American. And as far as I was aware no one else used American exclusively, as the south and central Americans I know use the names of their country's to identify themselves.

Basic internet search doesn't really give me answers and either I live further under a rock than I thought or this is an extremely new term?

Why are people specifying something that was already specific. I'm inclined to dislike it as it always tends to feel derogatory and not in the usual making fun of Americans way about our spelling and hard Rs ya know? It sounds like the pretentious bastard that is "well actually"ing a conversation into the floor.

Or is this just a tic toc trend?

Idk I hope this isn't weird, im just so confused. Im pretty sure ive been on Tumblr longer than you've been able to read. And mean that in the same tone as an old person complaining about the rain and their knees, I'm glad there's younger people on here, its just the Internet I grew up with is very very different then the one you have and it turns me around backwards cause I thought I knew my way around here but all these weird useless things show up that apparently mean things to people.

Idk, I guess im just asking are people actually being derogatory or are they just following a new trend or what?

Thanks for your time. And hopefully a consideration for an answer. And dont feel nervous voting. It's your right and I'm proud of you for exercising it. It feels weird every time but very good and I've voted every year I could.

:)

🥔- for the long ask

Woah. Okay! So I honestly don't remember when I first saw people using "usamerican" but it's just a combination US and American. It's absolutely a semantics thing as far as I know, like, "America is actually the continent so technically American includes the US, Canada, and also most US Americans don't specify they're talking about North America so it also includes Central & South."

I once shared a post about it (but knowing me I likely won't be able to find it.) If it's a tiktok trend that's definitely not where I got it from lmao, I only have tumblr at this point. I think it's just an easy way to be clear about which North/South American country you're talking about! I've never seen it as a derogatory thing or anything negative like that lol.

It's consistent. If you're talking about a Central American country, you say it's from Central America, same for South America. So it only makes sense to do the same for North America, right? But NA is the US and Canada, so when talking about the US specifically, US America is a good way to do that. And on Tumblr it just makes sense to shorten it to "usamerican" for tagging purposes. I've honestly never checked if anyone else tags it that way, but it's mostly for me anyway lol.

I hope that was a satisfactory enough answer, and I hope it made even a shred of sense lol! I'm not used to answering questions like this :D

And thank you! For the voting reassurance (I'm really gonna need it :D) and for putting the time to want to learn about something new! I wish I could've been more smart about it, but it's not something I ever really thought deeply about. Have a good day!

[xxxnecrotica]

im not done with ch3 but it has been CRAAAZZYYY so far dont even get me started with the hospital scene but lets talk about the fair scenes rn and what happened after the fair

this post will be very long and rambling w/ no context cus i dont have anyone who also plays this game </3 this is my virtual diary after all anyways

recently i cant stop looking obsessively at lighting in scenes, how characters are lit (or not lit, i guess) so now i cant stop thinking about how mark is sitting in the light (mentioned by cathy that he looks like hes glowing, makes sense because hes really happy today) and meanwhile cathy is in the shadows (she's sad, bittersweet)

also one of the shadows on cathy's face looks like she has a black eye/bruise?? idk if thats just me?? is that a reference to a bad home life perhaps, i think it would make sense bc she has the freedom to stay out late as if her parents dont care (and believe me filo parents are not THAT lenient lmao), and also when she said she likes mark's house because its quiet that night, and mark says its SUPPOSED TO BE quiet at night and cathy looked nervous for a bit... idk maybe im looking too much into it. after all, maybe her parents do trust mark because they've been friends for a while. IDK. BUT WHAT IF SHE DOES HAVE A BAD HOME LIFE? SHE'S THE HAPPY CHEERFUL SILLY CHARACTER TROPE SO WHAT IF—

ahem anyway other things that have me crazy: nicole opening up about being a victim of the ruling. talking about how for a year she was only getting by, like the world nearly ended and all that... augh. i was talking about this game to my mom and she said that the ruling can be compared to covid (esp with how the gov reacted to the pandemic... lmao) and like god i understand her. looking at the ruling in the context of covid makes it really interesting tbh and makes a lot of sense anyway

also wait did nicole lose her sibling or whatever in the ruling?? cus like ... the kid in the photo frame who is obviously Not Present rn, the shattered photo frame... hmmmm someone definitely died lol

i feel cathys heartache sm </3 like when she'd talk about change and stuff, how she loves that the park never changes... meanwhile her 2 friends are almost outpacing her or outgrowing her, ridel is busy with his photography gigs and mark is slowly coming out of his shell, she obv feels like she's falling behind or at least she's distressed that it feels like everyone around her is changing and she wants to cling to the things that don't change. BECAUSE CHANGE IS SCARY I GET YOU CATHY BRO I WANT TO THROW HANDS AT MARK FOR BEING SUCH A DICKHEAD...

LIKE HOW DARE MARK ABANDON CATHY LIKE NOTHING? GO ON A FERRIS WHEEL RIDE WITH NICOLE, HANG OUT WITH HER, COMPLETELY FORGET ABOUT CATHY?? AND THEN JUST KEEP TEXTING NICOLE WHILE CATHY IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM AT HIS HOUSE COMPLETELY IGNORING HER??????? ugh i was also so annoyed at mark when he was at nicoles house and barely showed any remorse for snooping through her stuff, barely said anything barely apologized and looked so smug when her mom invited him to dinner... mf you are invading her private space and invading her life w/o her consent? why are you so happy about that? idc if they become friends later that literally turned me off. i love mark as a protag but those moments were so EUEUGHH

anyway speaking of the ferris wheel!! i like to think the ferris wheel symbolizes how he feels about life, he plays it safe every day, only does what he knows he can do, probably perceives danger where there actually isnt so he has an excuse not to do something... and i guess nicole is the driving force that will help bring him out of that, just like with the ferris wheel

uh i dont think i have any more thoughts to share about that. mark always remember bros before hoes smfh

[thatgirlwbraids]

Hi bae <3 I’m here to share my success story and it’s all because of your void challenge 🫢 (im sorry for any mistakes, it’s not my native language)

Backstory: when I first time knew about the void I was literally afraid cuz thought it’s kinda magic place or close to astral and entities will attack me (it’s so hilarious ik please don’t judge old me ✋🏻😭). But I was looking for more info bout that so now I know what that state is. Anyway I had troubles to enter and idk why I just couldn’t do it.

Yesterday I found your challenge and decided to try it cuz it looks so easy??? like you don’t need to do anything but pretend you already that person who can enter the void with ease. I did it during the whole day and at night just simply went to sleep. I used to try to enter every night before and it was tiring tbh.

I just fell asleep and woke up … nowhere?? Like… idek how to explain it on my language lmao. I felt nothing but calmness and pleasure. I wasn’t sure I’m in the void but I decided to affirm for my desires. And thanks to me for doing this cuz it literally was the void. I understood it when woke up in reality today and I have everything I wanted!!! Please I’m not emotional person but my feelings just tear me up from the inside 😭

Let me tell you what I manifested:

Desired face! I didn’t want to change myself too much so I just made my eyes more like feline (similar to Jennie BP) and I looks more prettier then ever + being photogenic.

Desired body! I lost 20kg and now my weight is 40kg with 165cm of height (was 160). I have a thin hourglass body, long legs and perfect skin everywhere.

Perfect voice! In my childhood I could sing but in my teenage smth happened and I started to sound like old rusty door but worse 💀 I dreamed about beautiful voice a long time and now I have it! I swear I sing the whole day and do it with my friends in out chats.

I’ve done my study at university! It was the most shitty thing in my life and it took all my nervous for nothing. I hated this sm but now I finally free omg. And I have my diploma.

$10k on my bank account!

A lot of good friends!

The hottest bf in the universe! Girl I swear he match with all my standards and even better. He treated me like a Goddess but he’s still like dominant?? (lol sry if it sound strange idk)

Some stuffs with my parents like as situations, job and behaviors!

So that’s all for the first time. Next time I’m gonna manifest knowledge of english and korean, more money and financial freedom, get anything just by snapping my fingers, desire wardrobe, desire car and some things with my exes. Maybe I can come up with something else but now I’m just so satisfying with my new life and new me! I’m so thankful to you swettie! Tysm for everything you do. Love you to the moon and back 💕💕💕

AWWW CUTIEE …. i’m so happy for you ….. have fun ur life looks so customized now !! i love you to the 🌙 and back as well because you did it !

[twopoppies]

hi again! i’m your magazine anon haha

okay i have a few things to say 😉

1st: i saw the receipt allie (skepticalarrie) got and we are NOT related in fact i think the anon is lying because i asked my uncle who’s really in the industry and knows a lot about ndas, contracts etc and there’s noo way the anon is exposing that kind of info that easy. Plus anon got kinda nervous trying to fix the dates part were they fucked up the timeline. and even if anon is quitting… it doesn’t mean the info gets less confidential so maybe im wrong but i wouldn’t trust it 🤷🏼‍♀️

Back to the q&a i had with my uncle the other night lmao (at one moment he told me “why are you so intrigued in what this guy is doing i told you he’s not into girls) i laughed SO hard LMAO😭 like i know???? anyway these are the questions i made:

1) any news on dwd?

his answer: “there’s a headline in the making about a trailer maybe getting leaked.”

okay my jaw dropped… ANOTHER LEAK???

he told me that it could be just clickbait or for promo making an example with what happened with endgame (how is him comparing an amazing movie with incredible director to an olivia wilde project…)

2) anything about a documentary?

his answer: nothing that i’ve heard of but for what i’ve seen he’s pretty creative so i wouldn’t be surprised if that’s the “music related” also he’s touring again so i would totally see something like “harry styles back on stage” thing

3) is there any gossip in the industry about holivia?

his answer: well, we all think is absurd and very badly done and this is coming by an old man who’s seen a lot of stunts and has written a lot of articles about it. But there’s a pattern in harry’s stunts, i don’t know why but if you realize, each of these girls has had a purpose to "go out with him" at the end they all got something more besides headlines and be considered exes of him.

and omg that is so true… just think about it! we probably have discussed it already. but look at taylor, kendall and now olivia, they all needed something. idk it made a lot of sense to me. well my uncle is a sweetheart hahah and he promised me that as soon as he knows about dwd/album or something important he will let me know.

that’s all i have for now ❤️❤️ and remember to be careful with those anons claiming to have inside info :/ Stay safe everyone <3

Hi sweetheart. Thank you so much for coming back. So much interesting info. Thank you for sharing! And yeah @skepticalarrie and I were talking about that other anon and we both noticed some red flags. I actually put my reblog on private until we know more. Thank you for your input on that.

Ok… the other stuff. SO interesting. A leaked trailer would definitely answer the question of why wasn’t it shown at cinemacon yesterday. But oh my god that’s just so… ridiculous and so like her to fake something like that. Me right now: 🙄

And yeah, he’s 100% right about all of the women getting something out of it. I mean, they’re not doing it out of the goodness of their hearts. Even the really minor ones like Nadine Leopold or Sara Sampaio got name recognition (look how I fucking remember then years later). So nice to get corroboration from someone in the industry.

Thank you for all of this. Come back any time you want. 😆 I’m giggling over him thinking you want to know because you think he’s straight. Your uncle is the best. We send him lots of hugs!! 💖💖💖

[i-simp-for-gintoki]

Sanji and Ace meeting fem!s/o’s parents for the first time

I accidentally deleted the request like the idiot i am, so basically it was “Ace and Sanji meeting their fem!s/o’s parents for the first time, but the s/o gets upset at an embarrasing/mean thing the parents said towards her boyfriend(s)”

Sorry for the long wait! Time flew by way faster than i thought it would and i really struggled with this lmao. Hope this is to your liking! If not just let me know and i’ll do my best to fix it!

I didn’t rlly know how to end these im sorry, um i made sanji’s more angsty than needed because i just did but oh well

Warnings: like one swear word, your dad is kinda a dick and disapproving of your relationship in sanji’s

Portgas D. Ace

He would not dress up, instead simply putting on an unbuttoned shirt instead of remaining shirtless

He might- might take off the hat but thats only if you REALLY want him too

I think he would be pretty relaxed about meeting your parents

You on the other hand was not

I mean dont get me wrong Ace is a sweetheart and all, but he also can be pretty gross without meaning too

You two were planning on heading to your parent’s house so Ace could finally meet them, so in the meantime you told him to keep a few promises

“No using anyones clothing as napkins, finish chewing before talking, and if they say something that annoys you please don’t fight them.”

He’d give you a thumbs up and a smile as he said he’d keep the promise

So here you guys are, in front of where your parents lived

Knocking on the door, it only took a few seconds for them to show up

As Ace introduced himself he bowed and had a bright smile

Your parents smiled back and let you two in

So far so good

All of you were just relaxing in the living room, your parents sat across from where you and Ace sat

Your parents listened as Ace told a bunch of stories about his life, it mainly consisted of the trouble he’d get in with his brothers or how he met and fell in love with you but he was having fun sharing them

Your parents seemed to be enjoying his company and that made you happy

After talking for a while your mother decided to make a quick meal for everyone in which Ace asked if he could help a bit

Your dad decided to put him in charge of setting the table

He had almost dropped a plate in the process but he got it done and wore a proud smile

It wasn’t long until you guys began to ate and you could tell Ace was definitely holding back from how he usually acted

“Whats the point of forks when i can grab it so much faster using my hands?” he mumbled to no one in particular

What really surprised you was that he made sure to properly chew his food before speaking

You were really happy that he was keeping his word but sadly all good things come to an end

“Wow! Mrs.L/n your food is really--”

THUNK

He passed out.

He passed out face first into his plate and your parents could only stare

You could only sigh as you tilted his face so he doesn’t manage to suffocate

“Oh my, is he okay?” your mom asked in a worried tone and you nodded your head

“Ah yeah he’s fine. Hes a narcoleptic thats all. He’ll wake up any moment”

And not even a few seconds later, Ace straightened up and continued eating like nothing even happened

Your mother laughed

“Oh wow! He reminds me of a baby!”

“Mom!”

He rose a brow at the two of you, unaware of what you were talking about, food still smeared onto his face

You clicked your tongue and grabbed a napkin before wiping his face

“See he is like a little kid” she repeated and you rolled your eyes in response

Ace’s eyes widened a bit as he finally understood what happened

“Did I pass out again?”

“You passed out again.”

He rubbed the back of his head and gave an apology to your mom who in return laughed loudly

“Oh no worries dear, when y/n was younger she would pull countless all nighters and end up doing the same thing”

“Mooom stop it”

“Oh shush this is all light hearted fun”

As your dad started a separate conversation, Ace grabbed your hand under the table and smiled

He was having fun, even if you guys were being teased

Vinsmoke Sanji

Idk how i feel about this one rip

He was a bit nervous yet excited

He couldn't wait to meet the people who raised you, but he was worried if they wouldn’t like him

He chose to wear one of his best suits and cologne despite your protests

“Sanji its just my parents, you don’t need to be any more fancy than usual” “Nonsense, i should take it seriously so your parents can see im serious about you.”

He’d insist on making dinner for them

Once your parents arrive he puts on a charming smile and introduces himself

Skip to dinner, Sanji made sure to sit everyone down and serve them

Some nice small talk was made when suddenly one of your parents asks him if Sanji truly loves you

An instant “of course!” was heard from Sanji before he started listing hundreds of things he loves about you

Honestly he said a bit much since he strayed off from personality and perks to more your physical appearance and more

You had to kick his leg under the table to get him to stop

Your dad put his fork down and looked at you

“I don’t want you dating him”

“Can i ask why?” you ask

“Sounds to me your boyfriend is simply a pervert. He’s probably just after your body”

Now this Sanji got upset at but you acted first

“Seriously?? Did you listen to anything he said just now? Yeah he appreciates my looks but he clearly loves me for who i am, do you only hear things that make you upset or something?”

You were hoping it would stop right there but no, of course your dad had to say some more huh

“Isn’t he just some chef anyways? Its not like they make a bunch of money, he’s probably mooching off of you”

You stood up so fast your chair was knocked down

“How dare you say that about Sanji? Hes not just some chef, he’s one of the best out there. That doesn’t even matter actually, good chef, bad chef, he would NEVER mooch off of someone. Using people, especially women is completely against his character! Sanji has been nothing but nice to you tonight, and here you are completely shitting on him!”

You huff and wave your hand, mumbling how you wanted some fresh air before heading outside

It was only a few seconds before Sanji joined you

“How are you doing love?” He’d ask and you’d whirl around and face him in surprise

“How am I doing? Sanji they were saying bad things about you! Im SO sorry about that, my dads usually not that much of an asshole and-anyways, How are you doing??”

He’d chuckle and assure you he’s fine

“I’m not gonna lie, i was pretty upset when he said i was using you for my own gain. But seeing you stand up for me, getting upset for me really warmed my heart.”

He’d give you a hug while slowly rubbing your back

“But what do i do about him not approving? What if he says to break up??” you ask and sanji tilts your chin up towards him

“Who cares? We are all adults here, its not like his disapproval will suddenly stop the love we have for each other.”

You slowly nod at his words and he smiles before giving you a quick kiss

“Now lets head back in and finish dinner” “Oh but its going to be so awkward now”  you complain but you still walk with him back inside

When you guys return to the table, your mother shoves your dads shoulder which made him stand and walk up to Sanji

Before the blond can open his mouth, your dad is already apologizing

“Look, Im sorry about what I said. It was harsh and based on my daughters reaction, clearly untrue. I just dont like to see my kid grow up, much less dating someone. Just promise me one thing, Sanji. Promise me you wont break her heart” he says putting a hand out

Sanji gave him a nod and a firm handshake.

“I promise. I would never be able to live with myself if I did”

[katsukissleepybean]

Karasuno's First Years and how well they cook or bake HC's

Tobio Kageyama

• He would be.. Something else..

• Idk- He just doesn’t seem like a cook to me, nor a baker.

• He would be scolding Hinata for using the wrong ingredients even though he’s no better himself

• I mean, I guess he can simply follow a recipe and it would be fine???

• Sometimes it has an odd taste, sometimes it tastes perfectly normal..

• He definitely tried recipes that include milk and yoghurt or something.

• His breakfast is 10/10 some yoghurt with some fruits here n there. No doubt.

• I honestly don’t know anything further????

• I just see him as a kind of lost dog??

• He would need help in order to properly succeed

• Oh god this is so short for him im so sorry T-T

• I genuinely don’t know anything for him aaaa

• UHm-

• OMG AA-

• Suga and Kageyama made a lime yogurt pie for Tobio’s family

• They loved it a lot

• Kageyama was really thankful for Suga but didn’t really know how to say it so he bought some chocolate for him-

• (because he knows that if he tried to make something it would either taste bad or it wont even make it into the oven)

Shōyō Hinata

• Stop. Please omg stop

• He would be a mess omg-

• He would use curry powder instead of cinnamon powder in a desert because “they looked the same” or some shit.

• Don’t let him near the kitchen please AHAHA

• He would be a fine cook, if only he read the lids of what substance he was using.

• “God Hinata- what did you use in this cake?”

• “Huh? Oh I used this pot!”

• Holds up a now half emptied pot of S A L T-

• I cannot-

• Que the “Boke Hinata!! Boke!!” from Tobio

• Though- Hinata really likes tea

• He knows all kinds of little facts and stuff idk

• So uhm- He would like to organize tea parties and stuff

• Together with Asahi and Suga they would talk about cute cafe’s and little picnic ideas

• Probably would organize a whole tea party as a surprise birthday you know?

• Tikgfdfhsd that is so cute what

• Like everyone got their favorite desserts, food and/or drinks

• All made by the third years, (and a little help from Takeda if it takes place at school), Hinata takes care of the drinks together with Yamaguchi

• Ftkdsfglj I want a tea party with them

• They would lightly decorate the gym to-

• AAA STOP I WANT TO BE THERE

Kei Tsukishima

• I honestly don’t know

• I don’t see him as a baker or a cook

• I honestly see him only just tasting stuff or something

• He also doesn’t eat that much- enough to fill his stomach but still- compared to the rest of the team, he eats the least

• He doesn’t really try out new and different foods that often though

• He’s a very picky eater

• Though- Like Sugawara- He is obsessed with Strawberry Shortcake

• And sometimes Tsukki brings two Shortcakes for them to enjoy

• Though he heavily denies that he buys them for Suga too,

• Cuz like..

• Why would he?.. Right? Ahaha

• He so bought them for Suga stfu

• He is just very happy that someone shares his favorite food

• ANYWAY

• He brings little snacks for Yamaguchi too

• He seems like a caring person to me..

• He just pretends he isn’t and denies everything lmao

• Yamaguchi and Suga are thankful though

• Hinata wants a snack to!

• Tsukki only makes fun of him though

• (Yamaguchi secretly gave a little bit to Shouyo though)

• Anyways- He doesn’t scream cook or baker to me-

• He might make like simple things like sandwiches and grilled cheese

• Maybe mac and cheese (even though to me he doesn’t seem like a person that enjoys mac and cheese- But you know- He could make a simple dish like that)

Tadashi Yamaguchi

• Amazing baker when it comes to bread. Can’t change my mind.

• I think, for some reason, that he really enjoys baking bread

• Like- All kinds of bread

• His favorite is Cinnamon Bread

• With hot chocolate to drink with. Yes.

• Though Tadashi isn’t very confident in his cooking.

• He tends to get nervous and overthink

• It is not really needed though because the food tastes just fine!

• Yams was thinking of being a barista from time to time

• He loves the smell of freshly brewed coffee and the pies that they sell at his favorite café

• But volleyball practice and stuff kind of get in the way and he doesn’t want to stress himself with more work.

• Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmm

• I kind of don’t know anything else for this beautiful bby-

• I’m thinking of the fact that he likes floppy french fries- it’s so cute

• Oo oo- Yams is interested in anything as long as it involves potatoes

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Ahw yisss a part 3✨ i hope u enjoyed and uhhh yeaa✨ Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee🧍✨

[normal-thoughts-official]

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMdCTRrvN/

Please watch until the end or skifoward a little

hdbdudnd ok but this person is so right and when i first watched it i was also like "damn alec u fucking suck at this repression thing huh". like he just immediately not only went "yeah that sounds fun", no hesitation (sidenote i think this might be the first time alec said the word fun lmao) but ALSO immediately went "when" like homeboy was SO EAGER. and when magnus said "right now" alec was turning and you could TELL he was about to do it. he was gonna be like "sorry clary gtg goodbye forever, i have to uhhh do stuff" (magnus: im stuff). but of course Clary Fray, Queen Of Cockblocking, had already ruined it before he could even say anything

which is why i find the "playing hard to get, i love a challenge" line particularly hilarious because not only was alec not playing hard to get, he was actually EXTREMELY eager????? he was ready to Just Go without a thought and then like when they had drinks alec actually fucking ditched his mom for him with barely any protest. if anything i was like "damn that was easy" and meanwhile magnus is like "hmmmmm, maybe hes playing a game or smth" which i get cuz he went from "yeah Lets Go" to "gtg bye" in two seconds flat without explaining why, but still. hilarious

another thing i love about this scene is the way magnus introduces himself??? like "we met before, with the demon". magnus. magnus. you are magnus bane, high warlock of brooklyn. he KNOWS who you are and would have even if you hadn't met. but after you've met and it 1- was literally less than 24h ago; 2- left uhhh.... quite a mark all things considered, ALEC FUCKING KNOWS WHO YOU ARE LIKE DIDNDKDNDOD. if i didnt know any better id say that magnus was nervous and idk i just find that kinda awkward introduction really cute, especially with that little pause

like "i'm magnus... we've met before. with the demon". idk it's just sweet. you can tell it was a spur of the moment decision and magnus was like playing with his book throwing it in the air meanwhile and you could tell he kinda didn't know what to say, especially with the "you seem.... sympathetic" dudbdind. magnus was SO interested in him but he had no goddamn clue what to say especially cuz as far as he knows alec might be in denial but like. damn if they didn't have chemistry and that moment where they held hands and the magic sharing was so intimate and easy and Off The Shits didn't draw magnus' attention. and he just really wanted to see the pretty guy again udndidnd iconic

in short theyre both idiots ❤️