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before i say anything - this is my perspective and it can be contradictory to what you or others might think which again is valid, we can all have subjective opinions so just giving that disclaimer

honestly I’ve been following you on tumblr since like last year November i think and i was like the shy anon asking the most stupid and random questions but overtime i met so many people through your page that i started getting comfortable talking with my own account and in my personal experience i never got like mean girl/hater vibes from you i kind of look up to you as an older sister cause im completely clueless about everything so it helps having someone whos more experienced and wiser than me the only thing that did concern me is when that whole anon bot thing who was being an asshole started getting intense with all his comments and you were crashing out so i WAS a bit concerned for a second that what is happening here but then again a lil bit of empathy and looking things from your shoes made me realise that your reaction is very justified and normal

but i think that from a new persons perspective who dosent know this context- when they see you calling out those anon idiots (who send hate/disrespectful messages) they might think its mean but again they dont realise the context behind it so ig thats why this perception that youre “mean”but i think its a very natural and basic defense mechanism if i knew i had an insane anon out there who was after my life id get pissed off and defensive at the first sign of hate especially when it gets personal like about family or relationships

yeah that’s completely understandable

also the added layer of just simply having my own things going on in my life, so when you mix that with constant hate messages that aren’t just petty little comments but are also discussing my family/relationships/appearance, i get defense pretty quickly

this anon did send another message though and it was just a small misunderstanding of sorts i think from both of us so all is good

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I'm not saying you're a bad person, you definitely sound like a good person but I just get the feeling that you kick some of us to the side because we are not to your liking, and that's ok but it was kind of a bummer for me.

okay i’ve discussed this a few times

i don’t dislike any of you

lots of comments, lots of direct messages, lots of inbox messages, in genuinely what universe am i going to be able to give everyone the exact same amount of attention?

i have over 300 messages in my inbox right now

i also have mean anons telling me they act nice to my face but secretly shit on everything i do, so i’ve not responded to any private messages since then because of a comfort issue and trust issue

if i don’t respond to your inbox message, it’s because i either don’t know how to respond or i have more than plenty messages to sort through and just simply missed it

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no but fr

no but like seriously can you tell me how? i’m asking because that was never my intention and i don’t want to come across that way, so tell me what i’ve done and i can figure out how to fix it

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You're not as nice as I thought you were. You give me a feeling like you're looking down at us.

wait what

how

genuine question

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me finding out about the lorde in nyc from tiktok

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the realistic day in the life bot keeps asking me to close my eyes because he wants to tell me something and then he never tells me? 😭

never trust them when they say that

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I share a name with a harry song😏

okay sushi restaurant

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cou cou…

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wait fav harry song QUICK

CHERRY

or from the dining table or meet me in the hallway

triple tie

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not my ex husband wanting to take the damn cat 😭

THE FUCKING CAT?

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Madeline, I don’t know what you put in these recent bots but they are eating😭😭😭😭the detail

crack

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“i hope you’re doing okay” i’m gonna toss myself off the brooklyn bridge

don’t know how real this is but still so adorable

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in your bots, why do you end dialogue with a comma instead of a period?

when i was in high school, i had exactly one teacher who incorrectly taught us that you use commas instead of period in quotation marks and i’ve never really been able to unlearn it

i’m at the point where i know a period is correct but it looks wrong to me for some reason

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i actually screamed

HOW DID I GET IT SO GOOD

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harry styles - 2015

okay now i’m seriously done for the day, i need to shower and go to bed and it’s 1:30am

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harry styles - 2016

you want yearning? i’ll give you yearning.

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ok😳💜

WHERE ARE YOU FINDING THESE VILLIANS

AM I MAKING THEM