#livyswriting

[written-by-just-a-girl]

Often, I catch myself doubting my love for my parents but they’re my parents, If I can’t love them who can I love? I think I love my parents. But at the end of the day I don’t really know. I swear if I could love you, I would but I don’t think I can. I don’t know love and I don’t know what it feels like. It hides from me. I have never felt love. I’ve only ever felt hate. I’ve hated and hated. The moments I know I’ve hated you far outweigh the moments I loved you. I can’t remember the last time I truly knew that I loved you but I can remember the moments I hated. I’m sorry that the only emotion I’ve truly known is hate.

[brazilianchild]

go ahead and regret me (but I'm beating you to it)

“Because I know something about the pain you carry. That anger that you pretend doesn’t exist while you go to cheer practice and run for homecoming queen or whatever the fuck. It’s that voice in the back of your head that’s begging you to let it out and scream.”

Her eyes were infinitely blue as she held his gaze. “You want me to scream?”

He shook his head, “I want you to sing.”

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or a Freaks and Geeks/Band AU - Haladriel

Find the third chapter here.

[written-by-just-a-girl]

Often, I catch myself doubting your love for me but you’re my parents if you can’t love me who can? I love you, you’re my parents, of course I do, I truly do, I don’t know why I treat you the way I treat you. But the anger seizes my body and the angry controls me. During the fight or rather during the discussions after the fight you show me your wounds. The wounds I inflicted. You show them to me like it’s a trophy. You tell me “See what you’ve done to your parents. Are you proud of the damage?” But I don’t show you my wounds the ones you inflicted on me and the ones I inflicted on myself. Those I keep to myself. They get infected and the infection spreads through me attacking me from inside. You shouldn’t see that. You shouldn’t see the parts of myself that I hide from you. They aren’t very pretty.

[written-by-just-a-girl]

I don’t think my parents like me a lot and that’s understandable. I haven’t made myself very likeable. I’ve been told that she wished I'd never been born. She told me that she regretted the way I turned out. That’s all right mum, I regret the way I turned out too. I wish I hadn’t turned out this way. I wish I’d been the girl my parents wanted me to be, maybe life would’ve been easier then. If I could, I would wish to be rebirthed in this same life, and that time around I would make you so proud. I wonder if it would’ve been easier for them if they didn’t have a daughter like me. Maybe I should grant them their wish.

[brazilianchild]

go ahead and regret me (but I'm beating you to it)

“Because I know something about the pain you carry. That anger that you pretend doesn’t exist while you go to cheer practice and run for homecoming queen or whatever the fuck. It’s that voice in the back of your head that’s begging you to let it out and scream.”

Her eyes were infinitely blue as she held his gaze. “You want me to scream?”

He shook his head, “I want you to sing.”

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or a Freaks and Geeks/Band AU - Haladriel

Find the first chapter here.

[brazilianchild]

go ahead and regret me (but I’m beating you to it)

“Because I know something about the pain you carry. That anger that you pretend doesn’t exist while you go to cheer practice and run for homecoming queen or whatever the fuck. It’s that voice in the back of your head that’s begging you to let it out and scream.”

Her eyes were infinitely blue as she held his gaze. “You want me to scream?”

He shook his head, “I want you to sing.”

__

or a Freaks and Geeks/Band AU - Haladriel

Find the second chapter here.

[brazilianchild]

i want to write a haladriel (saurondriel? idk their ship name atp) fic but i can’t get an idea that sticks like i write 3-7 pages and then realize i’m not getting the vibe and lose motivation UGH

if anyone has any prompts/ideas feel free to share on my ask inbox. especially modern au ones hehe

[written-by-just-a-girl]

Hi Everyone, Welcome to my writing Blog!!!! I'm not giving my name out for obvious reasons but feel free to call me livy. My pronouns are she/her and I'm below 20. I'll be posting my writing here and feel free to message me!

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I hope you have fun here!

[brazilianchild]

did I make the most of loving you?

“To love or have loved, that is enough.” -Victor Hugo, Les Misérables

Throughout all the conflicts and mishaps in the early 20th century, love seems to be the most prevalent of them all in the country estate of Downton Abbey. Whether an aristocrat or a servant, no one is immune to matters of the heart.

Or a The Society Downton Abbey AU

The Final Chapter can be found here.

[brazilianchild]

bro renegade is literally hallie in my downton abbey fic and it helped me continue writing chapter 5 so once again thank you taylor swift

[brazilianchild]

for people who leave comments on fics: you are my favorite people and i hope you have an amazing day 💞💘💖💕💓💞💖💝

[brazilianchild]

i finished the first draft of the final chapter of dimtmoly!!!!!! im so happy ahhhhh. total word count rn for this fic is 91k holy shit. now all that’s left to do is some editing but oh boy, this was a big one and i’m very proud of it. anyways i can’t wait for you guys to see it. i hope it hasn’t been too long that you guys have forgotten all about it haha

[brazilianchild]

did I make the most of loving you?

“To love or have loved, that is enough.” - Victor Hugo, Les Misérables

Throughout all the conflicts and mishaps in the early 20th century, love seems to be the most prevalent of them all in the country estate of Downton Abbey. Whether an aristocrat or a servant, no one is immune to matters of the heart.

Or a The Society Downton Abbey AU

Chapter 3 is now up! You can find it here.

[brazilianchild]

Hallie- “Did I make the most of loving you?

Inspired by my fanfic with you can find here.

I don’t think a lot of you guys know this but I’m also a video editor on Instagram (my user is brazilianchld and I’ve edited sm hallie lmao). Anyways my best friend Maria ( @focusonmyvoice ) made a hallie as laurie/amy photo edit and I used the screencaps to edit my fic because I was hella inspired by her amazing edit.

The quotes are only from the first three chapters (except for the intro) so if you’ve read the fic there are no major spoilers.

I thought I’d share it with you guys!! Hope you like it <3

[brazilianchild]

how has writing chapter 4 of “did i make the most of loving you?” been going you ask?? well...

[brazilianchild]

he was a boy, she was a girl (can I make it anymore obvious?)

by brazilianchild

Sansa is a ballerina and Theon is in a rockband.

Because here he was: Theon Greyjoy, the boy covered in bruises who liked punk rock and was a skater boy and smoked way too much weed and wanted to be in a band and helped her with her Pre-Calculus homework and spilled mud on her dress as a child and teased her in a way that could even be called flirting and he had brought her a rose and lemon cakes and was looking at her like he wanted to kiss her and made her realize that maybe she didn’t want a fictional prince after all but a real boy with real issues and maybe she just wanted him, Theon Greyjoy.

But he was also Theon Greyjoy, her brother’s best friend and she was a ballerina who had to focus on pirouettes and dance routines and not pretty boys who rode skateboards.

You can read the rest here.

The amazing cover art is made by the user @focusonmyvoice who also happens to be my talented best friend.