#little snowjanus

[mr-nauseam]

Practice 18

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Sejanus sits on a lonely bench in the park. He is not surprised to be the only one out of his warm bed; no one in their right mind would want to be drawing while freezing blizzards steal their breath. His hand trembles, unable to hold his pencil steady, so the winter landscape he is trying to capture becomes disfigured.

He has to give up and holds his pad against his chest.

"What do you have there?"

The voice startles Sejanus. His gaze meets Tigris'. They greet each other, somewhat awkwardly. The abruptness of their last meeting still does rock in them. She takes a seat on the bench, and curiously asks him about his pad. Sejanus feels his cheeks turn red, too aware all of a sudden of the man of his imagination whom he has portrayed incessantly for days now.

"They're just doodles, Tigris. It's not important." He tries to clarify.

The young woman doesn't seem convinced by his answer but good manners motivate her not to press for revelations.

"It's okay. You don't have to explain it to me." She places her hand over Sejanus' in a gesture of silent understanding.

And no word is spoken again and no muscle moves until the winter storm sets their skins ablaze. Tigris retrieves her hand to seek warmth in the folds of the old coat she is wearing.

"I actually wanted to apologize to you."

Those are words Sejanus never thought he would hear from her lips. She was one of the few people who appreciates his existence.

Confusion overcomes him.

"Why?"

"For acting so strange the other day. And don't say I don't have to apologize, I know I made you uncomfortable."

Sejanus tries to fight the urge to beg her to forget his comfort.

Instead he says:

"Ah. I didn't think much of it... Just that you looked kind of tense.... I just figured it must have been something about your job that put you that way."

"It was not my job what occupied my mind that day, Sejanus."

  "By Panem, I don't know how to tell you this without you thinking I've lost my mind."

How sad Sejanus thinks, that fear of madness also haunts Tigris, who understands him better than anyone.

Perhaps that's why their connection came instantly.

"When you said how cruel and selfish Coriolanus was. I got really angry with you Sejanus. And all because of some meaningless nonsense."

The mention of the protagonist of the tragedy he has been reading about in class throws Sejanus off balance.

Tigris hugs herself and closes her eyes. Asking for comfort from the one who is no longer there: her mother.

To her belonged this coat. She opens her eyes, and faces it:

"I was not rational because to me Coriolanus is not the name of a dictator from an old tale. That name means something to the Snows. It was my cousin's name."

Snowflakes fall on them at the truth revealed. And Sejanus is overwhelmed.

"Professor Thompson gave me that assignment too, you know? and I was very excited at first. I thought it was a way to be close to my cousin but when I read it, I was horrified. Marcius was a horrible human being. I didn't understand why my aunt and uncle chose that name: My Coriolanus wasn't like that. He was good... Hearing your words brought back that unease, because I heard in them an echo of my own thoughts."

Sejanus knew Tigris had gone to the academy but he rarely thought of her in that red uniform walking the halls with her back erect as the last Snow heiress. Putting on an act, with the weight of a suffocating legacy on top of her. The image was jarring to the woman in front of him whose heart was gentle and her voice free, still he wished naively that he would have liked to have matched her during that hell.

"And I know it was unfair to feel that way about something so trival but I couldn't help it, Coriolanus is his name. It was the only thing that belonged to him besides his death."

Tigris was crying.

She tried to cover her face and Sejanus stopped her, whispered consolations and once her posture seemed more relaxed, he wiped away her tears with the sleeve of his sweatshirt, lamenting that he didn't have a handkerchief to give her.

Tigris' breathing calmed and she decided to continue with her somewhat husky voice:

"It happened in the dark days. I didn't find him in time and he froze in the snow... I didn't have him by my side for long but if you could have known him Sejanus. He was a very quiet boy but he was very sweet too and I'm sure if he could have been saved, he would have been a good man." 

Sejanus gives her a smile, small and contained.

He can give her no more. Suddenly frightened by his dreams and what he has seen in them. The coincidences were many and his madness makes him weigh the possibility of telling Tigris everything about it.

[alisaint]

we need to toxic yaoi it up in the snowjanus tag.

i want to see us talk about how snow's possessiveness would extend to sejanus. i want to see us talk about the rabbit sejanus x serpent snow imagery & dynamic. i want to see us talk about snow getting drunk on sejanus's loyalty, his devotion, his endless gratitude of which snow is entirely undeserving.

i want us to talk about how dislike is not the opposite of love. i want to see us talk about snow battling with his feelings for sejanus, whatever they may be, and turning them into something more palatable, something he can actually parse: disdain, jealousy, and competition. does he want to be sejanus or does he want to be with him? a quintessential queer question. he doesn't know; he never knows, not even once he's stolen the sweet boy's entire life.

desire turns to aggression; the intricate rituals, anything that allows him to appropriately and discreetly touch sejanus, allows him to rationalize this desire to begin with. meanwhile, in the quiet of the night, when it's just him in his room, he thinks of sejanus's warm embrace and doesn't dare question why he can only allow himself to relish the memory when no one is looking.

i want us to talk about sejanus accepting snow's friendship because he thinks that's all he'll ever have. he pushes him toward lucy gray, all too content to just be his friend, his brother, his broken token from the past. tells himself this is more than enough, and it is. the boy he loves has saved his life. how many people can say that? he's lucky. he tells himself that over and over until he believes it, until it smothers that lonesome ache in his chest.

bisexual snow x gay sejanus. snow has more experience but sejanus has to guide him through a "relationship" anyway. they keep it hush-hush; too much of a secret for sejanus's tastes. snow x lucy + other woman sejanus. maybe sejanus finally falls for someone else, but snow isn't keen on sharing, so he inserts himself into sejanus's life again, knowing just how important he's always been to his sweet, sensitive little fool.

let's talk about snow always being so touchy with sejanus, always getting so close that sejanus can feel his breath on his lips, and the one time that sejanus finally snaps and closes the distance. he's always been the braver one, anyway. always acts without thinking, leaving snow to pick up the mess. this is no different.

please, i beg. GIVE ME THAT TOXIC YAOI 🗣

[super-nova5045]

for my freaky saltburn girlies

[thief-of-eggs]

There’s something about doomed romances that’s so special and dear to me. The ones that clearly won’t work, or are clearly set up for failure down the road. The one’s where even the depths of their love can’t save them, because the world has set them up to fall. There’s something about those ships in particular that I go absolutely feral for.

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

my head is in my hands. i'm thinking about the themes and motives (coriolanus condemning sejanus and essentially digging his grave the moment he turned on the recorder and regretting it so, so much after) ohhhh man

[tbosasgunsandroses]

sketch15

[sadalmostlesbian]

Here’s the theory: If you like Sejanus enough, you eventually start liking Sejarcus. That’s just how it goes.

[julietasgf]

hear me out: a comedy college au where lucy gray started having this situationship with this guy, coriolanus, during summer, and yk, he was handsome, charming. she had very bad experiences regarding men in the past, so she thought this was the one. until she decides to give him a surprise and visit him unexpectedly, and who opens the door of his dorm is a guy. a man called sejanus who claims to actually be dating coriolanus. coriolanus was seeing both of them without each other knowing and now they team up together to make coriolanus' life a living hell (coriolanus doesn't know about this ofc 🫶)

[snowjanuses]

Is there a Snowjanus discord yet? I want to scream about them with other people. Would people join if I made one?

[ineffable-grimm-pitch]

I need lionsgate to understand that I would pay an offensive amount of money to watch the 4 hour tbosas directors cut

[darby-rowe]

okok. i know i said good night like an hour ago but a thought popped in my head and ofc i have to share it.

onlyfans!reader uploading a video titled “phone sex with a virgin nerd” and it’s her on the phone with coryo/sej, but it’s set up to where there’s no sound leak from the phone so it’s just reader responding to their dirty words and no one knows what they’re saying to her.

and of course she’s all like “your voice is so fucking hot 🩷” and all the comments are like RELEASE THE CALL AUDIO and she’s just like no ! <3

[mr-nauseam]

I liked that about Coriolanus leaving halfway through the Pure as driven Snow song in the movie because drama but sometimes I'm kind of sad that we didn't get the snowjanus song:

I'll Sell You For a Song 🤧

I always found it telling how the song talks about your partner cheating on you and stop loving you like before (or I understood it that way) and causing you so much pain that to some extent it makes your love turn into hate and contempt enough for you to want and be able to sell them for a song.

Because from this perspective of the ship it is so revealing how Sejanus in Snow's eyes is someone who only brings him heartache and trouble and to some extent he could put up with that because of the love he had for him but everything changes when Sejanus starts lying to his face.

Coryo himself tells us that he never doubted Sejanus' sincerity, he trusted blindly in that trait of his personality until he no longer does and radically changes his attitude towards him.

I think it also says a lot that this happens a little before the conversation about trust with Lucy Gray and I think for Snow himself trust is very important, more than love (they agree on this trait) and it is distrust that condemns his two great loves.

And is that I would not be surprised a part of why Snow betrays Sejanus is not only his desire for self-preservation and paranoia, I think that although he refuses for a long time to admit that it was obvious to send the jabbarjey would condemn Sejanus and he did it expressly with that intention, that's what happen.

Coriolanus always had a desire to condemn / punish Sejanus in some way, for the many crimes that in Snow's delusional head the poor boy had committed, (stealing his life, not making good use of his position, etc). I think highlights the big crime of Sejanus in Coryo eyes is that he become a traitor and he must pay for it.

Sejanus betrayed Coriolanus first from his perspective when he didn't choose him over the rebels or the people of the district every chance he got and he stuck the dagger in symbolically when he started to be dishonest with Coriolanus.

And I think that feeling pushes Coryo to do what he did bc is resentful and like Lucy Gray sadly would show us later, if Snow think u are not worthy anymore of his trust and you put him in danger / do something he didn't like, he is going to fucking kill you 😭 (yeah we didnt't know Lucy Gray fate but I think we can agree that Coriolanus did not want to have a civilized conversation with her lmao).

Thanks for coming to my ted talk about how twisted is the little brain of Snow

[pi-mawrth]

Snowjanus is just the opposite versions of enjoltaire but most of y'all aren't ready for that conversation

[katnissandpeetamellark]

Do you think Coriolanus and Sejanus explored each others bodies? If so, was it in the capitol or did they wait till district 12 🙏🏽

IM SCREAMING

I should’ve expected a Snowjanus ask 🤣

I do not have an answer to this BUT … do I think Snow was stupid as hell for not just becoming a sugar baby???? A trophy husband ??? Yes.

[softie-rain]

I just found out the author of my favourite snowjanus fanfic follows me on tumblr hello????? I followed them this morning and found out we're mutuals 😭

[tbosasgunsandroses]

snowjanus week, day 1 : first meetings