#listen. im tired. i think i will try to sleep
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domestic life with van palmer ! van palmer x reader
brrrr my head is so fuzzy and I'm so warm just thinking about spending your days with Van- your partner, in your apartment with your orange kitty!!
Your apartment is mostly decorated with things you both like, her vhs and movie posters, and the things you love all over the house. having matching mugs, keychains, silverware, pajamas, robes - literally everything.
I don't think Van is a morning person- she prefers staying in bed with you in the morning watching the sun hit your face and shine the whole room- just enjoying these small moments.
Fridays are for takeout and movie nights. When it's her night, they want to show you movies that you haven't watched that she loves and only she knows about.
Cuddling together on the couch with your cat in the middle of you sleeping peacefully. She definitely was hesitant about getting a cat- but then all she thought about was taking care of him with you- and he's like your son, she loves it.
Dancing around the kitchen late at night after having some drinks - her holding your waist and twirling you around just so that she could kiss you right after.
She loves the small moments- they are very important to her - she loves when you're cooking together, washing the dishes, cleaning the house, decorating.
Van coming home with a snack from a coffee shop and magazines about movies and about your favorite interest because if there's one thing van does is listen to her girl.
Listens to you talk about everything that you like and she always know - knows your favorite food, your favorite bands/singers, and even your most niche interest you thought she didn't know about.
You reading that said magazine while she takes a shower and dresses more comfortable clothes, only to meet you in the couch and be attacked with kisses.
She opens every door for you, wants to pay for everything and will pay even if you grab her arm and tell her no. Brushes your hair and even learns how to do your favorite hairstyle, walks by the side of the road so you won't, grabs your bags while shopping, drives the car...
If she gets home late, and she sees you sleeping in the couch with the TV on she'll get ready real fast and then turns off the TV and picks you up- bridal style, puts you in bed and kisses your forehead. She hates to see you uncomfortable and you waiting for her even tho you're clearly tired.
" honey I've told you to go to bed when I'm late- you always complain about your back in the morning " she says while you got more comfortable in bed, but you just cuddle into her and put your face on her chest. " I wann' wait for you " you mumble and she sighs kissing your head. " I know... I know you do pretty "
If you want to decorate the house or buy some more furniture- she guarantees she can build it or restore it but she gets frustrated after an hour and gives up, only to try it again the next day.
When she does it shes all cocky. " See, i told you i could do it- im handy " you chuckle and shake your head. " Sure honey"
Honestly its just a dream living with Van and sharing a home with her. Van makes your days brighter and you couldnât be more happy about it.
#lesbian#van palmer x reader#vanessa palmer#yellowjackets x reader#vanessa palmer x reader#butch lesbian#yellowjackets#van palmer headcanons#shauna shipman x reader#lottie mathews x reader#natalie scatorccio x reader
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I saw your post about mean mommy sugu and I loved it so much!! You are literally one of my favorite writers and make me feel less weird about the stuff I like since i know its more niche (mommy sugu!!)
I wanted to ask how he would react with a darling who has a deadline and refuses to go to bed even though he's asking nicely. I know you said he only gets mean when you purposefully hurt yourself so would putting off your sleep so adamantly warrent mean mommy?!
He's all like "my little darling I told you it's time for bed we need to brush your teeth" and you're just like "No! Leave me alone i told you I have to get this done tonight"
Again I love your work!! Can I be đŠ anon? đ«¶đ«¶
OMG ANON HELLO HAIII!!!!! Im sooooo you found me YOU SHOULDN'T BE ASHAMED OF WHAT YOU'RE INTO!!!!! Not to sound self-centered but I think everyone should love and embrace him, if you haven't accepted him as your husband by now you're just in denial /j
AND OF YOUR FAVORITE WRITERS??? IM ABOUT TO EXPLODE LIKE?????? STOP IT RN ANON I LOVE U I LOVE U SO SO SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA TYSM FOR BEING HERE YOU ARE RIGHT WHERE YOU SHOULD BE đ
Now...mommy sugu and overworked stubborn reader, i don't think he would be AS mean as he was on that post bcuz he understands!!! And he's so proud of you for all the work you're putting into succeeding, he really really only what's best for you, but when things get out of control is when he starts to pester you more.
It starts with gentle little reminds to "please come to bed, I can't sleep without my baby" Then he gets a little more stern each time you duck to avoid being scooped up, he realy does want to give you your space but eventually he snaps TOT he's already crashing out bcuz this is a burden he can't carry for you, and you're just making it worse by not listening. So one night when you're getting ready to take put ur notes he just grabs your books, puts them on top of the fridge, scoops you up into his arms and takes you to bed đđ ANON HE WILL GET HIS WAY YOU ARE NOT WINNING!!!!!! suguru completely leaving you alone at times like these isn't ever going to happen, hus hands literally itch to hold you and touch you and cradle you to sleep, and mind you he's STILL being nice!! Still being gentle all smiles and coos petting your head and cooing that he understands but you still need to look after yourself!!!
Anon,,,, the switch up, the SWITCH UP WHEN HE CATCHES YOU TRYING TO SNEAK AWAY FROM HIM god that's when he gets mean. A cold menacing narrow-eyed death stare radiating PURE RAW UNFILTERED DISAPPOINTMENT he is not happy and you can't handle it no matter how tough you think you are </////3 he's towering over you and with his voice devoid of the usual warmth and softness asks "what do you think you're doing?" "Didn't i tell you that it was time for a break?" " Are you purposefully trying to hurt yourself?" "You said you'd be good" "do you realize how much it hurts me to see you like this?" HE DOESN'T EVEN MEAN TO SCARE YOU OR ANYTHING he is just being honest when you're clearly tired and it pains him to see you like this he wants to lock you up in a padded room. He does eventually realize that he shook you up with the way he confronted you and ends up apologizing and promising to be gentler next time, but you'll have to learn to listen to him too, keep him happy by keeping yourself safe and he won't have to be mean to you!!!!
AND ANON OFC!!!! đŠemoji is all yours WELCOME ABOARD!!!!!
#can we call you...dinon?#it sounds a little threatening when u say it outloud đđđđđđ#anyway im sorry if this is all over the place it's literally 7 pm i need to get some shut eye#there's cats havung sex outside#not like u asked or anything lmaooo#ANYWAY PLZ PLZ PLZ TAKE CARE PF YOURSELF AND DON'T GO TOO OVERBOARD!!!!!!! overwise sugu might do more than just scold you ;3c#yk what i mean tehe#â. đ Ìvale.answers.á.á#ËËË â. đ ÌđŠ.anon.á.áËË-
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wish I was good with words because if I was then I could make everybody happy and stuff. if you're reading this post then please know I love and care about you. I think you're rad. extremely cool and rad and awesome.
I think I'm gonna start working on a lain animatic tomorrow!! I constantly have animatic ideas spinning around in my head but I always end up giving up when I try to actually make them ;; this time I will not be giving up. I already drew some ideas for it a while back but I'm finally gonna properly start working on it. if you don't see a lain animatic from me by the end of summer, you have full permission to yell at me to get back to work. thanks for reading. ily all.
#mole talks#cw vent#(?)#i don't know if this is a vent or not. but its probably not really#its 1am and i'm listening to some strange angel#hehe#sorry for posting a lot. like thats something i should even be sorry for. smh#i love posting. i recently realised this. i love posting so much .....#i just realised i said 'tomorrow' in this post but what i really meant was 'in the morning'#listen. im tired. i think i will try to sleep#its sleepy timee u3u
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one big misconception of majima in the fandom is that he constantly molds himself into what the people wants him to be, but itâs quite the opposite. no one pretends or even asks him to do it, he does all of it alone. majima alone decides to mold himself in what he thinks the other need, without ever confronting the other side, not the other way around
majima isnât passively accepting what other people want to do with him, heâs actively doing this to himself. heâs not some sort of victim in this, itâs all his doing
#very sleepy rn to say more. im trying to sleep but scrolling iâve read something like three posts like this#and i get it where this feeling born but itâs sooooo wrong and deeply mischaracterizing#itâs also why all of this âworksâ for so many decades. itâs not imposed to him he doesnât accept it. itâs his own will#this wasnât strictly about majimako but i think this misconception is why that ship still goes hard (and im pretty tired of it tbh)#bc you think of majima as the victim and donât realize how *majima* can be toxic imposing himself on the other like that#and choosing what the other person needs without listening them. like he did w makoto#not that he always goes that far while doing it like he did with her#sometimes it ends being the best way to help the other like he did w kiryu in y3#but itâs important to realize thatâs all himself and how unhinged he is#welp it was meant to be even shorter lmao. itâs interesting to speak about everytime he does this but im really too sleepy goodbye#rgg#majima
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Just found something after 3 years,,,, life is with living still,,,,đ„č




Bottom line? NEVER give up, my fellow yuri soldiers đ§Ąđ€đ©·
#I'm actually so happy i can't believe it#it was just this specific acoustic song and matching thumbnail but i for never find it no matter what i looked up#as I'm listening to lofi i get tired so i go to a section of the playlist w my usual repeats#i let another lofi mix okay after n lo n behold - as I'm searching 4 the video again in another tab i hear the opening chords#I've been yearning forđ„č n then as i found that. i just became hyper specific w my inquiry n found the wallpaper used for the thumbnail too!#i think the specific vid I've been searching for was taken down bc i think it was a cover of this song. this is more lofi#but the one I'm looking for is more acoustic. just guitar n piano. I'm wondering if myb THEY were first n lofi beat them in popularity? idk.#but I've got the song n the wallpaper. I'm still looking for the acoustic ver but if it comes to I'll learn to do it myself :D#wait I've been listening on speaker this whole time but i just plugged in my earphones- this is definitely a remix. the search is still on#but i really needed this bc I've been messed up since this time yesterday. why did nobody tell me gachiakuta has an SA plotline. hello#it wasn't handled that badly but it fucked me up so bad. i ended up staying up till 8 and sleeping till late afternoon#i couldn't get my bearings back till like. 6am. bruh.#ig i have to look up warnings for all ongoing stories too huh. man.#on that note. it ended on an ominous note n granted I'm not caught up but if the author kills the victim there's was no point to any of it#I'm tired of stories of abuse being used for shock n ending with the victim dead or in the same spot#granted i do think the author was trying to explain the effects of that kind abuse and ways to move forward but i hope they commit.#otherwise they could've left it out and i wouldn't have spiraled so bad yesterday.#on that note - the recent influx of degenerates advocating 4 gross shit in fandom spaces???#i kno I'm already ia from here but i might leave twit too 4 a while bc as a victim it's so hard to deal w the fact people don't care at all#genuinely gross n disheartening. huh#but anyways. found my random yuri wallpaper n lil song. im getting caught up w green yuri n hikaru's summer- u kno#kagurabachi kaiju no 8 undead unluck#i would've finished undunl last December but it genuinely brings me so much joy that i didn't want to end it so soon so i put it down#i just love fuuko n dem do much. my motherfucking family đ„șđ„ș#man I've missed rambling in tags. hahaha#ki log#music
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im o tired that ijust put my headphones on over my earbuds but my gay ass still cant sleep. what the he'll.... fuckedup world
#. sighs so loudluy#i keep thinking about red vox i might have to listen to them to get to sleep#but. agh its just that i always listen to red vox to get to sleep. and when im awake. and when im trying to sleep. and#and its jsut like... i love them so much but i feel bad about them being the only shit i listen to atp#cause im all like ''i love a bunch of different types of music'' & then my lastfm is just like. 99% this one goddamn band#the autistic fixation just really hits sometimes okay. sometimes it hits insanestyle. for like a full ass year.with no sign of stopping#& perhaps i feel bad about it for no reason. but i dunno. you know how it is.#im also a bit worried ill get tired of them. like i probably wont ive listened to almost all their songs 100+ times each in just like a yea#and im still not tired of any of them. but idk. it might happen somehow. and then i would be sad :(#awoo
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#i think one thing i really didn't prepare for w overnights is just how fucking lonely it is. like yeah 80% of the reason i took it was to#get away from customers but like. it worked. and the night shift team is v v small. there's only 4 of us and we've never been scheduled all#at once yet. and usually we're running around on completely opposite ends of the building going long periods of time without#radioing each other. and then i come home all amped up and the rest of my house is still asleep. and then when they wake up#it's just to get ready and go and we don't really have time to talk. and by the time they get back i'm sleeping#and it's my first night off and i can't fuck up my whole schedule i worked so hard to switch over to w them flipping me all over the place#so now i'm just like. sitting in the half light trying not to wake anybody up not doing anything. the only places near us open are#gas stations and i can't exactly loiter there and what would i do even if i could. and it's too cold to go for a walk or to the park#or something. and i feel like i haven't talked to another human being about something that wasn't related to work in years#and it's only been a week.#and we can listen to music or podcasts or something but our carts and machines are so loud you miss half of it. and we can't hold#super long conversations when we ARE in the same room for the same reasons. plus we all want to die so none of us feel like talking.#and just. im tired and lonely and want to sleep and im already regretting this but i'd feel bad for backing out now when they have so#few options and i volunteered for it in the first place#and then there's also like. even just doing my usual solitary thing at home feels so much more isolated bc there's not the noises#of other people existing nearby. the nearest signs of life are some coughing and then a car on the other side of the block#just. what am i even doing here.#tag ramble
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Feeling a little troubled ...... last night (a few hrs ago ig) my nana (whom i moved in wit bc the tenant she was renting the upstairs 2 died n i needed 2 get out of a shitty roommate situation so the stars aligned etc) mentioned in passing that she was in my apt while i was gone, she mentioned she was looking 4 something bt then changed it 2 checking 2 see if i caught the bus.....i told her basicly i loved her n ment no offense bt my privacy is rly important 2 me n so could she pls not go into my pad when im not there bc it gives me anxiety (which she has also so i was tryna rel8 a lil bit) n she just kinda shut down n started feeling bad abt herself n getting upset tht i thought she wld go thru my stuff . Idk i jus had 2 put this down sumwhere n i havent gotten a new journle yet sigh
#i mean she is. Very ancient bless her in evry way shes 81 so im sure shes just . kinda losin it 4 a lack of a better way 2 put it n . Aughgg#Life is very intimid8ng n i wanna take care of her bt shes so afraid of Everything ever n its stressing her out so much she cant sleep#So then shes coming up 2 my apt (btw i dont have a key 4 my inside door so i keep it unlocked) Late as Haell like 3 4 AM#Asking me 2 sit downstairs w her till she falls asleep . N i keep giving her advice on sleeping better like .#If u sit on the couch watching tv most of the day..when u go 2 bed n do the same thing u wont get tired frm it#Or rrlaxing yr body n focusing on yr breathing Dont put the tv on if yr brain is paying attn 2 wats goin on there#Then u cant focus on sleeping .#And i ask if she understands n if shes listening bt then Every Night doesnt change how her routine is n i just Dont .. I Want 2 Help So Bad#But what can i do when ur not even listening 2 the vry basic lifestyle cuanges u Need 2 make or yr gna worry yrself sick :((((#I dnt think impatronizing i try 2 be gentle n understanding but also like . Semi profesh like Boundaries need 2 b had if im here longterm#Bt she doesnt rlly get that bc shes Very insecure sbt herself i think she just ... Internalizes it into like#Thinking shes burdoning me or makes me feel rlly gulty 4 needing alone time i just . Idk how 2 have this talk w her cuz i feel like#I alrdy have a million times . God i do love her so so much n im scared 4 this future i just want her 2 b happy bbut#im still tryna figure out how 2 even Talk 2 Anybody let alone a very sensitive farm raised senior#Damn this is a vent post and a half#999
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alt vers w thicc lines (that i later ignored) below the cut
#self insert#not self ship#fursona#sfw furry#anthro#furry cat#axcycat meows#this is my fursona their name is reyhoon#also i keep falling in love with the library of ruina painterly style#and then i try putting it in my own art#ooguhghhgugh#ive been working on this piece fur like. maybe 4 hrs straight#i can feel my body falling apawrt /lh#this is based off a. like 4am doodle on the nyaight i had two stay up fur my sleep deprived eeg#where i had 'in hell we live lament' stuck in my head but i wasnt sure if i could listen two it or not beclaws i was only allowed tv#âhey netzach i spent 4 hours painting my fuckin fursona do yew still love meâ /lhj (but fr i wonder what he'd think of my art sometimes)#also if yew look below the left (<-) eye they have a teardrop mark slightly obscured by their hair#yew can just barely see it also i got too tired two do the tail anyways im gonna go collapse nyaow bye /lh
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although speaking of vocal synth music sometimes i wonder if maybe vsynth fans have a skewed perspective of what a calm song is? or maybe most people in general dont mind high speeds when it comes to rating a songs "calmness" because recently ive been looking around for slower, more chill tunes and all the "calm vocaloid song" playlists are so high energy. where are the ballads. where are the ballads
#i guess they dont get as much recognition. at least in the english speaking fanbase definitely not#i can think of a few good tunes but i always like looking around for ones ive forgotten and ones i had never seen before#especially when im looking for cover inspiration LOL its a lot easier to find usts and stuff of vsynth songs than nonvsynth ones kjdfskjgfd#but like so many people are putting just like. upbeat medium-high tempo stuff in there. dancey stuff#maybe i need to be the change i wish to see in the world. maybe i need to try finding calm songs and make a playlist#i usually make playlists for ocs or occasionally things im a big fan of but SOMETIMES i make a playlist or two for mood#not often but i have been especially making really gentle sounding playlists for when im really REALLY tired but cant sleep#sometimes when im in that state of exhaustion too high of a bpm will piss me off HKJFSDHV coming from the guy who listens to#drum and bass for studying....... you know how it is. exhaustion is a different beast#also i am just a sucker for ballads. i especially like a big huge like over 7 minute thing....#and theres a lot of vocal synths i think would sound really interesting singing ballads... i must find them... i must find them...
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actually i think Guz would secretly love when I have high fatigue days because he would use it as an excuse to laze around for a day, if anyone tried to ask him to do something he'd act all shocked and offended that someone would even dare suggest he leave his poor suffering partner alone on a day where they're unable to do anything at all, he must be their sole entertainment, don't you see he's doing this for them!! responsibilities must wait on the backburner for the day so he may tend to his sickly victorian-by-the-seaside waif of a partner !!! (all said jokingly with a great deal of dramatics and mock horror)
#there would be a great deal of joking and teasing fjdkdl trying to make me laugh and feel less bad abt being unable to do anything#obviously he'd also feel bad for me that i struggle w this but fjdlsl he'd also enjoy just getting to laze about w me all day#i got out of bed for an hour to eat breakfast and scroll a bit and that tired me out sm that I had to go lie right back down đđ#it's gonna be a rough day today fhdmkl i think yesterday had too much happen even though a lot of them were good things#i rly do feel like a sickly victorian child sometimes fjdksl need to go be sent to the seaside to improve my frail constitution smh#i just wish Guz was real so he could lounge around and it'd make me feel less trapped in place fhdkld#if i had someone Choosing to lounge nearby instead of me being alone to be trapped resting then I'd feel better i think djdkdl#it might trick my brain into thinking im choosing to lounge too so I'd feel less frustrated w the situation SIGH alas and alack!!#u know its bad when ur too tired to even read or watch a show or anything đ#Guz would keep me company though :3 and I'd probably be able to sleep a bit actually if he were here fjfldl just listening to his heartbeat#aaaugghh yearning forever SBHFKDL#dandy.cmd#đso good at being in trouble#vent //#(sorta kinda but enough that I'll tag it as that djdmdkl esp for my rambling in the tags LOL)
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#i'm so tired lmao#i'm so fucking tired#i go to so much effort to get everyone good gifts for christmas#and i get cash from my parents#bc even when i give her a list of gift cards rhat are easily bought from the fucking grocery store apparently its too hard for my mother#and i ask for oneeeee fuckinggggg dish for christmas and its the one she forgets#and my parents bitch about wach other to me and then my sibling bitches about my parents to me#and who wants to listen to me? nobody!!#im grateful my sibling at least makes an effort to get me a gift#im just over it#im the punching bag and the scapegoat and got abused for years for trying to drag everyone to family therapy and got called crazy by sibling#for literally years and treated like shit by all of them for being mentally ill#yknow what i think i am finally done#nothings going to change in any meaningful way anytime soon#and i cant afford to move out like i need#bc my health is just getting worse and worse and worse living here#see how i feel after sleep but yeah i think im done
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sleepyhead á¶» đ đ°.á mark
pairing: non-idol!collegestudent!mark x afab!collegestudent!reader
summary: your friend and classmate mark helps you out in class after accidentally sleeping in, but the hint of a scribble in the notes he lends you threatens to rewrite your relationship.
w.c: 7.2k
warnings: mdni 18+, strangers to friends, friends to lovers, it's all fluff with a dash of light angst, reader is oblivious to marks advances, but he's kinda dumb too, idiots in love, mutual pining, kissing, confessions, soft smut, love making literally, oral (f receiving), porn with plot, unprotected sex (dont do this), praising, pet names, soft!dom!top!mark (god i need him), crack/humor, lots of time skips im so sorry, if i forgot anything oh well lmk, i used this idea for a different fandom YEARS AGO, i am too embarrassed to admit what fandom but if you find it and think i'm stealing i am not. promise. reblogs and feedback appreciated ⥠fiction â reality
you yawned big and loud, trying not to give yourself away too much, you kept your limbs from reaching outward. mark, your seatmate, and kind of friend?, gave you an inquisitive look. as if to ask if you were okay. truth be told, it was all rock bottom. papers upon papers, presentations, reading, and a lab took up all of your time this semester. you met Mark at the beginning of the year in your âmajor writings of the european tradition Iâ. you sat near the front because of your bad vision and the brown haired boy came next to you saying the famous âis this seat taken?â line to which you said no. this left him to plop down in the said seat he pointed at. you studied him hard, clad in a semi-tight shirt and worn jeans, his white tube socks poking out once he sat down. it was hard not to notice the dirty and distressed black converse, probably wearing them every day since he could fit in them. he had a boyish grin when he turned to you and asked about how your day was going, you blushed noticing how handsome he actually is. his bright eyes shown under the fluorescent light as he now asked you about the book you were reading. âthe picture of dorian grayâ sat atop all of your other books from various classes. it was apparently his favorite book too. his lips curled into the brightest smile, excitingly talking about his other favorite books and authors. it was endearingly cute.
you both shared socials in order to stay in touch in case either of you had questions about the class. you two would talk occasionally, keeping a calm distance. sharing literary memes on instagram, sending book recommendations on tiktok, or texting each other late at night when one couldnât sleep. you would periodically meet up with him to study, or whenever you were too tired to read whatever was assigned in class, mark would read it for you out loud in the comfort of his apartment. it was easy to consider him a friend. at the end of the semester you told him you signed up for major writings of the european tradition II. he pumped his fist in the air earning small giggles from you due to his overreaction. telling you how happy he was that youâd be in the same class again. thatâs where you are now, with mark still sitting next to you, listening to the same boring more advanced lecture. you loved literature and being an english major, but sometimes you don't know how many more reading and analysisâ you can take of the odyssey.
glancing at the clock you sighed, an hour left of class. pain was all you knew at this moment, you underslept last night, working on an essay for a speech writing class, trying to get it all down perfectly in order to impress your professor. you didnât realize it was well past three in the morning when you finally had finished, all you wanted to do right now was go back to your apartment and nap until your next class in four hours. you drowned out the professor and whatever was being said about odysseus and what he got himself into this time. placing your chin on your closed fist, your vision drifting in and out of blurriness, and before you knew it you fell asleep. you gasped when mark nudged you awaken eyes going wide in surprise making him laugh a little bit.
âdude, you fell asleep, class is over y/nâ mark said once you looked over at him, still in his seat next to you, almost everyone had already left.
you sighed running your fingers through your already messy hair, âugh, iâm sorry, i didnât get a lot of sleep last night.â
mark laughed, âoh, i can tellâ
you scowled at him, earning another laugh from the taller man as you both stood up. at least it was friday, and youâd have the whole weekend to catch up on homework, and sleep. âwant to go get coffee since youâre such a sleepyhead? need to keep you awake somehowâ mark asked, scratching the back of his neck, nervously rocking back and forth. you smiled at how red his ears were, waiting for your response. when you first met, he would occasionally get nervous around you, to which you never knew why, never thinking of yourself as anything special. but you noticed he got anxious around almost everyone after first meeting people. much like yourself, after a while mark started to get more comfortable with you, becoming more confident, and increasingly charming, however he could never hide the facade he tried to put on when asking to hang out outside of class. he would suddenly become a meek and shy, not the confident, outspoken boy you saw almost every day.Â
âyes, that would be perfectâ you answered, âcaffeine is much needed right nowâ mark smiled and led you to the open door of the classroom, motioning you to go through first. it was pretty pathetic when butterflies erupted in your stomach, standards werenât high for you, obviously, the smallest gesture from mark made you turn to putty. you didnât have a lot of relationship experience, most of the time boys would lead you on, only to tell you they were never ready for anything. only a few longer relationships would end up in flames, men too toxic for you to continue on any longer. every time, earning a vow from you that you would never talk to another boy ever again. you could tell mark was different from anyone you had ever met, he was genuinely sweet and always helped whenever he could, profusely apologizing when he was too busy to come and help you study. youâve always liked mark more than you should, it was really hard not to, anytime you ever talked about mark to anyone else, only nice things were discussed. you would never admit to harbored feelings for him, he was lovely to everyone, how could you be any different?
after a while, he started walking in front of you to the coffee shop on campus, stealing glancing at you just to make sure you were still following him, making your heart ache so hard the caffeine you were about to consume would probably kill you. entering the coffee shop turned your tired state into total bliss, a welcome and much needed break. âoh! thereâs johnny, letâs go sit with himâ mark exclaimed, grabbing your hand and pulling you near the table in the back. before you knew it, a tall man with raven black hair was standing up and greeting you and mark. he was older than you and mark, a senior that your friend had met during his freshman year of college. you had met johnny before, a handful of times, and for brief moments. mark would always talk about his other friends with you. heâd tell you that âyou just have to meet themâ, but whenever the time would come it would be short meetings, a hi and bye.
mark brought out your chair and gestured for you to sit down, saying that he would go order you both coffees, leaving you with johnny. he turned to you and smiled, to which you returned, trying to register what mark had just done for you. god you really need to get higher standards, hard albeit mark being your standard. johnny asked you about school and how you are doing with all of it, you asked him similar questions, watching mark disappear in the line for coffee. you didnât notice johnny calling your name over and over, only when he had gotten up close and personal in order to get your attention. you jumped slightly after the fifth ây/n!â
you quickly looked over at him, calming him down, âjesus y/n, where did you go? staring at mark? i know heâs pretty but-â
you cut him off, âwould you keep your voice down!? i wasnât staring at mark, i was just thinkingâŠâ it was hard to keep the blush from creeping up and having it wash over you like a tsunami.
johnny gave you a knowing look, â... thinking about markâÂ
you glared at him, âcan we stop talking about mark, pleaseâ desperate to leave this conversation behind, but speak of the devil and he shall appear.
âwhy are we talking about mark?â you and johnny whipped your heads up in surprise, mark standing there with a grin on his handsome, stupid face. holding two coffee cups in each hand, asking in the third person as to why you were both discussing him while he was away.
ân-nothing, we were just talking about our english classâ you explained quickly trying to save yourself from embarrassment.
johnny just nodded while mark, handed you your coffee and sat down, joining you both at the table in extreme awkward silence. mark broke the ice, ây/n fell asleep in class todayâ he smirked and looked your way, catching your reaction of groaning and hiding behind your small coffee cup as you took little sips.
johnny laughed along with mark, wishing that the ground would open you up and swallow you whole, âit was so funny, the professor didnât even notice!â the older boy laughed along with his friend at your plight to fall asleep so easily in class. âyou even snored a little bit, oh my god, it was so cute!â he squealed. CUTE!? your eyes went wide, ignoring the embarrassing part about snoring in class. mark called you cute. johnny turned to give you that knowing look again, this caffeine was definitely going to give you a heart attack. this was going to be a long weekend.
monday morning rolled around, the weekend was spent writing papers, reading epic poetry, and sleeping. and also the occasional mental breakdown when you recall that mark called you cute. sunshine hit your face, and thatâs when you figured you couldnât stay in bed any longer. you rubbed your eyes hard and stretched your body out in bed, dreading the fact that youâll have to get yourself up and ready to learn about some new epic now that the lesson over the odyssey was over. you grabbed your phone from the nightstand, your bones practically jumping out of your body when you realized you had only an hour left of class. you had overslept and missed the first hour of class, fuck. you hurried to get ready, not giving any mind to your appearance, jeans, and a hoodie would do. you texted mark âi overslept ( ïœĄ âąÌ ᎠâąÌ ïœĄ), just woke up, iâll be there soon. my chair still open?â closing the door to your apartment, you marched out into the warm weather, mentally preparing yourself for the embarrassment you were about to face once you walked into class late. eyes peeled to your phone, the delivered immediately turned into read, mark texted back âalways, sleepyheadâ you rolled your eyes, too much in a rush to get flustered by the nickname this time, shoving the phone in your pocket you continued walking to the humanities building.
you slipped in through the door in the back, making sure it wouldnât slam shut, praying to any god who would listen to not get called out. thankfully, your prayers were answered, no one said a thing for the rest of class, only mark who gave you a smile once you sat down. you were lost the entire rest of class, the professor going into depth about the cantos and then switching very rapidly to beowulf then to danteâs inferno. maybe you shouldâve stayed home. once class ended, mark started putting everything in his backpack, grabbing his wrist to stop him, he turned towards you with his eyebrows up in question and surprise.
âcan i borrow your notes mark? please? i literally had no idea what was going on since i was lateâ you were practically begging at this point, but before you could grow any more desperate, mark chuckled and handed you his notebook for this class that continued to lay on the table.
âi guess you beat me to it, why do you think i left my notebook out?â mark smiled and handed you the red, worn out notebook. you let out a thankful sigh, some weight lifting off your shoulders, your standards were fucked by now.
âthank you so much mark, i really owe you one, iâll have it back to you by tomorrow.â you reassured, giving him a genuine, thankful smile.
later that evening, back at your apartment, you took markâs notebook out from your backpack. you had finished all the work for the classes you did attend today and now it was time to move on to the bane of your existence. opening up his notebook to find the most recent entry, your eyes finally landed on notes about danteâs inferno and whatever gibberish the professor was spewing when you showed up. reading about the layers of hell and how it has to do with the other epicâs was further explained by mark in his notes. flipping the page, your eyes caught something in the corner. taking a closer look, you sat up from the couch and moved towards the light. you gasped upon seeing what was written, erased, and written and erased again over the left side of the page. poorly drawn hearts with the words âsleepyheadâ written inside littered the far left corner of markâs notes. this surely wasnât about you⊠could it? you singled out the piece of paper, moving it into the light in order to see through it, double-checking your suspicions. and sure enough, there they were clear as day. it looked as though mark drew them on the paper and had tried his hardest to erase them, yet still somewhat visible, you didnât have four eyes for nothing after all. âfuckâ you cursed out, staring at the faded drawing and words. this was your own personal inferno.
the next day was like no other, barely any sleep and when you woke on time you contemplated not going at all. however, you promised youâd bring mark his cursed notebook back. the very notebook that had been plaguing your mind since you discovered its hidden contents last night. that's what kept you up so late, you couldnât simply forget about it and let it go. you debated asking him about it, but if it had nothing to do with you, then youâd probably have to change your name, face, and leave the country all together. but after all how many people did he call âsleepyheadâ⊠probably 5, max. you had to investigate, test the waters and see what this was truly all about. you had to come up with a plan.
you got up and started walking around your room, getting ready, you put a lot more effort into your outfit, jean shorts and a cute baby t-shirt you think would catch any personâs attention. walking to class, it was brisk, the wind nipping at your arms and legs. you shuddered, bringing your hands up and down in order to try to redistribute your warmth. you finally got to class and the nervousness had taken over your system, totally forgetting about the cold and now terrified to face your friend. your body shook, shuffling to your seat, seeing mark on his phone waiting for class to start. you let out a tense breath, trying to settle your uneasy heart and stomach. you pulled out the chair, startling the boy next to you, his soft hair jumping slightly and moving away from his face, his eyes shining up at you. his mouth curls into a smile, going from ear to ear, it was infectious, you gave him a small smile back despite your stomach churning in the worst way possible.
âyou finally decided to come to class on timeâ he joked, poking your shoulder lightly.
you playfully rolled your eyes at him, getting everything out for class âi barely even slept last night, i closed my eyes, and then boom my alarm was going offâŠâ
markâs smile faltered and eventually dropped upon hearing your confession of getting little sleep. âby the way,â you grabbed the wretched notebook from your bag, handing it to mark, âhereâs your notebook back, the notes really helped, thank youâ
mark took it from your hand, âitâs no problem, if you need any more you can always askâ
you smiled, and turned towards the front of the class as soon as the professor walked in. putting any thoughts of mark in the back of your mind and bringing forth your plan. every once in a while you could arrive late, it's not like youâd be penalized for missing class, your professor never took notice. it would just be on you if you never showed up and somehow failed the semester. but with marks help, there was no way you could fall that far behind.
over the next couple of days, you and mark would hang out sporadically, studying together or watching movies. after a couple of days, you finally decided it would be time to try and be late to class again. to be fair, you had an essay to start that was due in two days, so staying up and working on it and accidentally sleeping in would be the perfect excuse. silently hoping this wasnât going to come back and bite you in the ass.
flash forward to the next day: it did. you woke up with only 30 minutes left of class, less than what you originally wanted. thankfully, you did finish the cursed essay at four in the morning, you woke up to your alarm blaring, not even realizing how many times you snoozed it. grabbing your phone from the night stand you stretched and got up, getting changed for class and heading out.
opening up your messages you internally groaned, seeing about five messages from mark reading:
âdude, where are you??â
âno way you overslept again( ê© áŻ
ê©;)ââ
âdonât worry sleepyhead, iâm taking notes for youâ
âalso, the professor mentioned a project and let us pick partnersâ
âi told her you were my partner .. if thatâs okay âąâ©âąâ
you squealed into your hoodie sleeve, trying to keep a hold on yourself, but this was too much, the cute aggression getting to you so bad you punched the air. after getting some weird looks you hurried to class, slipping through the big double doors you immediately spotted the brown haired boy, silently cheering that no one was sitting with him you moved towards him and your seat. once you made yourself known to his presence, he gave you a small smile that made your heart crescendo, brought on by the growing feeling of love coming to a climax.
âheyâ he whispered beside you, keeping his eyes on the professor who continued to lecture.
âheyâ you answered back.
âlate again?â he tsked, shaking his head slightly, âwhat am i gonna do with you?â
your hand covered your mouth, trying to hold back a giggle, âi stayed up later than i shouldâve last night, i had an essay to finishâ
âoh, of course,â he slide his notebook to you, âi got some notes for you about todayâs lecture and about the project. we should plan on when to meet up to work on it⊠the professor has been ranting about plato for the last hour, so you havenât missed muchâ
you nodded and grabbed his notebook and slid it into your backpack, trying not to show much nervousness over such a simple gesture. once class ended mark turned to you.
âi have to meet with johnny, so iâll catch you laterâ you nodded and he smiled, his lopsided lips curling up complimented his boyish charm, making your insides twist and turn. âiâll text you later about the projectâ
he moved to grab his backpack from the floor, without thinking you grabbed his shoulder softly, he whipped his head around, eyes now wide from the sudden touch, backpack forgotten. âuh-h, ha-ave a good day markâ you said, giving him an innocent smile. his features immediately softened, that tender smile coming back on his lips.
you let go, watching him stand up from his seat, now staring up at his gorgeous face, âyou too, pillow poetâ
the new nickname felt like whiplash, like a 20 car pile up in your heart, every emotion crashing into each other, hard to make it out alive. glued to your seat, you stared at nothing now, the ghost of where mark once stood. you didnât move until your professor knocked on your desk, promptly telling you to get the hell out.
later that night you had to build up the courage to actually open up markâs notebook this time, his texts blowing up your phone going left unanswered. your roommate, yeri, had came back from class and asked why the hell you were staring at a closed notebook on the coffee table in the shared living room.
you sighed, âits complicatedâ
she dropped her bag and deadpanned, lips formed into a straight line as she rolled her eyes, âits a notebookâ
you dropped your head into your hands, admitting defeat, âitâs not about the notebook,â you sighed dramatically, pouting, âitâs about whatâs insideâŠâ
yeri gave you another eye roll and moved towards you, grabbing the notebook from the coffee table, she opened it and started flipping through the different pages, you looked up after hearing the rustling of pages, âitâs just notes!â she cried.
you groaned and stood up, now facing her. you grabbed the notebook out of her hands, you found the most recent section of notes and scanned the pages, chest beating profusely. you stopped once you finally found what your heart was searching for, half erased hearts with various words inside, you took the page closer to the light on the ceiling.
âsleepyheadâ âcutieâ âbedbugâ okay, not that cute, but the sentiment was still present.
yeri, now questioning if you really had lost it or not, grew concerned. âwhat is it?â she moved closer to you, trying to decipher what it was you were so intently looking at. you grabbed her by the arm and brought her closer to you, nodding up to where you were holding the paper in the light, âlookâ.
ây/n, what the hell am i looking at? stop being weird, itâs freaking me outâ she pouted and took a closer look.
âmarkâŠâ you trailed off, âi found them last week, i asked to borrow his notes because i was late to class, and he drew all these things and looked like he tried to erase them⊠i donât know, oh my god, i sound crazyâ you handed the notebook to her and went to sit on the couch again and grovel.
yeri stood near the light, doing the same thing you were and tried to find what you were talking about, âohâ she said, lowering the notebook and moving over to you, âdo you think these are about you?â
âi donât know, if they were donât you think he would be trying to hide it better? but how many people does he know that are late to class and oversleep!?â you cried.
yeriâs eyebrows crease in deep thought, then it hits her, âmaybe⊠he wanted you to find themâ
âwhy couldnât he just tell me all of this himself?â you questioned, second-guessing everything.
âiâve only met mark a handful of times and let me tell you,â she placed her hand on your shoulder, âhe is the most awkward person, ever, this could just be his way of flirtingâ
you didnât say anything and continued to stare at your roommate, still standing with markâs notebook. âyou should talk to him about itâ she said, you stood up abruptly, eyes going wide.
âno way dude, i canâtâ you tried justifying yourself but yeri cut you off.
âughâ she groaned, âi forgot you are almost as awkward as he is, you like him though, donât you?â you gave her a little nod, embarrassed by the sudden interrogation. ânext time you see him, just ask him about it, the worst thing he can do is say no and you both move on with your life, just a little misunderstandingâ
you sighed and nodded again, agreeing to ask him about it so yeri would get off your back. you grabbed your phone, knowing mark had texted you earlier you finally decided to bite the bullet and answer him. four messages from mark went unread:
ây/n, will you be free tomorrow to work on the project?â
ây/nnn where did you go, i know you are awakeâ
âor are you? smh, damn sleepyheadâ your mind screamed âAGAIN WITH THE NICKNAMESâ
âu better not be late tomorrow, i can only take so much european writing without you ( âąÌ - âąÌ )â
you wrote and deleted your message to him about ten times before settling on a basic:
âsorry mark! i (surprisingly) did not fall asleep, just talking with my roommate, i should be free tomorrow to start the project (ââą Ö âąâ)â
three text bubbles popped up and he immediately texted back
âgr8, c u tomorrow, get some restâ
the next day was an off day from classes, you and mark had discussed meeting somewhere in the library. but that would hinder you from asking him about his little drawings so you told him to come to your apartment, perfect knowing yeri would not be there. yet, it was as imperfect as perfect could get, the setting would be right, but your thoughts were all over the place. not planning out how this could go, most, if not all of your âplansâ were half-assed. youâd just have to wing it this one time.
mark showed up when he said he would, which was exactly a mark thing to do, you were just unprepared. stressing out as the minutes counted down, you opened the door and let him inside, he smiled and walked towards the couch, placing his things on the coffee table. âshall we get started?â mark said, motioning for you to sit down next to him.
âso, the project is over any story of our choosing, did you have one in mind?â he asked, turning towards you on the couch. fuck, he was so close, you could feel his hot breath on your cheek, it smelled like mint and coffee.
âoh yeah, i thought we could do icarusâ you answered, hoping he would agree, the story just hitting a little too close to home right now. in a sense, mark was your sun, and you were icarus, flying a bit too close every time you were near him. getting burned with reaching to conclusions that he actually liked you, getting your hopes up that he felt the same way, hoping to not fall to your death and lose him as a friend if this all was just a misunderstanding.
âthat's a great idea! i think we should be able to get through this project quickly with all the information we can get on the storyâ he beamed, and you smiled back, slightly faltering from the nervousness running through your body.
âare you okay? you seem out of itâŠâ he asked, more so concerned with you than the project.
you sighed, terrible at keeping your emotions from coming out, mark took notice to your anxious behavior. it was now or never. âmarkâ you said his name like you both were already in a relationship and about to give him the âwe need to break up talkâ, you could tell he felt the exact same when he started fidgeting beside you. âcan i ask you about something?â
âof course, anythingâ he answered, voice wavering in concern. you knew he was staring but you couldnât even bring yourself to look anywhere in his direction, fearing that if you did, you would chicken out. you mentally screamed at yourself to stop and not do anything to jeopardize your friendship with mark. you had to remind yourself âthe worst he could do is say noâ.
âoh, by the way, i forgot to ask, do you have my notebook?â you could tell mark was trying to ease the tension, but because of the mention of that damn notebook, it only made it worse.
âyeah about thatâŠâ you started, having no idea how to ask about this, âi uh, wanted to ask you about something i saw in your notebookâŠâ
mark, tilted his head to the side in confusion, âlike some of the notes i left? i tried to be as thorough as i couldâŠâ
you picked at the skin on your fingers, ripping away the flesh in order to try and calm yourself down, âerm, no, something else i saw⊠some, um, drawingsâŠâ you wished for nothing but this couch to swallow you whole and never spit you back out. you couldnât tell what markâs reaction was since you refused to look at him, but the silence gave you more answers than what you initially asked.
you peeked to the side, mark now had his head in his hands, rubbing his temple, cheeks dusted pink, you knew you caught him in something. âdude⊠this is so embarrassingâ he laughed. you didnât say anything in response, just wanting him to continue explaining himself. âi thought i erased those, oh my god. how much did you see?â he asked.
âi think almost all of themâŠâ you rubbed the back of your neck, picking at the hair back there.
âohâ he said, his mouth turning into a perfect o. âthat was not the way i wanted to tell youâ mark stated, still acting shy next to you. if you werenât on the verge of a panic attack, it wouldâve been endearing.
âtell me what?â you whispered, turning away from him so he wouldnât notice the pink dusting over your cheeks.
mark stared at you, now sitting up and his shoulders straight, âthat um, that i like youâ he said, âi donât know i got bored in class and doodled in my notes, after i realized how stupid and cheesy it felt i erased them and tried to forget⊠guess i didnât erase them hard enoughâ he smiled at the memories of it all. âi wanted to tell you, but i didnât know how to go about it, iâm not good at things like this, i donât know, confessing i guess⊠i wasnât sure if you felt the same, so thatâs why every time i tried to tell you i liked you, my plans always fell throughâ
mark grabbed your shoulders and lightly forced you to face him, taken back by surprise your ears grew hot, now staring into his eyes he smiled, âbut youâre here now and asking about my lovesick doodles, and i want to tell you⊠that i like you⊠i like you so much y/n, studying with you and being with you in class and outside of class, you are cute, funny, caring, and you work so hard for your classes i wish i had the will to stay up at ungodly hours to finish any of my essays, we like the same books and we talk about the nerdiest stuff no one else would⊠i think youâre perfectâ. he stopped, his eyes looking into yours trying to search for any reaction, he looked desperate. âsorry, i, uh, got a little carried away thereâ he cheeks bloomed into a deep red.
âmarkâ you felt wetness pool at the base of your eyes and roll down your cheeks, not even realizing you were crying mark reached out and whipped the tears away with his thumb. âi really like you too⊠thatâs the nicest thing anyone has ever said about me i-â he cut you off, throwing himself onto you in a huge bear hug, making your back crash into the couch due to the weight now on you.
he got up, now hovering over you, he stared deeply into your eyes, ây/n⊠i want us to be a couple or something? whatever you are comfortable with, i want to be able to read you any stupid 100 year old story any time youâll let meâ
your eyes softened, gazing into his it was like a thousand stars shining in the night sky, you could see and feel every emotion he was talking about. pure love. there was no doubt, no sun to scorch your waxed wings, withstanding fear and questioning. with him you could now fly as far as he would take you.
âoh markâ you said breathlessly, throwing your arms around his neck, yanking him down so his lips could meet yours. it took a second for him to realize what was happening, but soon enough he was moving his lips in synch with yours. his hand still placed next to your head, holding himself up, as his other one moved to your face to lightly caress your cheek. after a minute or two, you could barely breathe, so you broke the kiss in order to regulate your breathing. you look up at mark, who continued to stare at your lips, âmark, youâre the one who is perfectâ
this time he initiated the kiss, putting his body weight more on you, his hand now moving to explore your body further, you could tell mark was excited as you could feel his bulge on your thigh. his tongue licked over your lips, silently asking for access, which you granted immediately, letting your tongue slip into his mouth, tasting the mint and coffee that he had previously consumed.
âmarkâ you whispered, lust overclouding your senses, âi want youâ
mark audibly groaned, your words obviously having a certain effect on him as he pushed his hips into yours making you moan in response. he kissed your lips again, moving onto your neck, sucking brusies into the sensitive skin there. mark got off of you and sat up, removing his shirt to which you followed, throwing the clothing somewhere on the floor. going back into position, mark kissed your chest, grazing your breast that was still covered by your bra. he didnât mind, wanting you to be as comfortable as possible, that was until you decided to take it off anyways, throwing it somewhere over your shoulder. mark went back to work, sucking on one nipple, while twirling and pinching the other between his fingers, earning moans from you.
mark suddenly stopped, lifting his head to look at you, âdo you want to go further?â he asked sincerely.
âyes, mark, pleaseâ you breathed, curling your fingers around his broad shoulders, lightly bringing him back towards your chest. he chuckled at your eagerness, peppering kisses down your stomach, finally reaching your buttoned up jeans. âcan i take these off?â you nodded, he unbuttoned your jeans and yanked them down and off, leaving them on the floor with the rest of the clothes. he could see the wet patch that formed in your underwear, earning a moan from the boy on top of you. mark ghosted over the spot with his finger, making you twitch in response due to the light, yet scandalous action.
he slid your underwear off, leaving them somewhere on the couch. you watched him silently as he stared at your core, looking like a man who had been without water for at least a century. he dove in, licking a strip up your pussy, making you moan out in response. mark continued to lightly suck, adding a finger into the mix. he slowly pushed it inside your opening, wetness gathering at the base of his finger, âyou taste⊠itâs perfect⊠youâre perfectâ he whispered, gazing up into your glossy eyes, overtaken by craving him. he added a second finger, stretching you out. âmarkâŠâ you groaned, feeling him hit the sweet spot inside of you made your head spin and insides twist. âiâm gonna comeâŠâ
ânot yetâ he whispered, he exited your core, earning a whimper from you due to the sudden loss, âdonât worry, iâll take care of youâ he kissed your cheek, standing up from the couch in order to take his own pants off. you could see his member throbbing inside his briefs, you swore you almost started drooling. mark came back down to lay on top of you, kissing you again, more sensibly, softly, slowly. savoring the moment with you, the delicate and gentle touches almost making you cry again from just how sweet he was, how much he showed that he cared about you.
he broke the kiss, you stared into his eyes, caressing his cheek gently, mark melted into your touch, closing his eyes and burying his face closer to your grasp. âyou are so beautifulâ you stated to him. his skin kissed by the sun, the features adorning his face; making up gorgeous art on a blank canvas that someone like da vinci would be furious not to know of such beauty.
âdo you want to keep going? we donât have to if you donât want to, i want to take my time with you, with usâŠâ he explained.
you cut him off with a peck to his lips, making his smile grow wider, âyes, i want to if you do⊠i feel the same wayâ he kissed you, much like you did with him, confirming his feelings yet again.
he slid off his briefs, leaving you both fully naked in each other's presence, since the sun had started to set when mark came over the only light provided was the soft glow of the lamp behind you on the side table, making the sweat that graced his chest shine. âif you get uncomfortable please let me know and iâll stopâ he whispered, you nodded in response, heartbeat picking up due to his kindness. he sighed and carefully lined his member up with your entrance, the shakiness of his hands having him try a couple of times to get it in, you could tell he was nervous.
he slowly pushed inside, giving you ample time to adjust, âthatâs itâ he breathed in your ear once fully inside, âfuck youâre so tight⊠so perfectâ you moaned at his words, digging so far deep into you and leaving many traces in your mind, words youâd never forget. he readjusts your legs, giving him deep access into your womb, now in a missionary position. mark started moving, slowly thrusting into you at first, you wrapped your legs around his back, trying to keep him as close as possible, which he didnât seem to mind. his lips moved to yours, the simple kisses shared spoke volumes-no hesitation, the pastel feeling of everything you both never said to each other, lost on fleeting glances in class, heart doodles on paper, and the way he would read to you without argument, buying you coffee, smiling whenever youâd enter the room. the soft kisses subdued any fear you held over this relationship. you loved him.
mark occasionally groaned into your mouth, and in return you moaned, sharing sounds and soft touches over each other's body. âyouâre taking me so well like you were made for me. fuuckâ he keened at the way you held him inside. he started moving faster, but still acting as careful as ever with you. his hips snapped down on yours, earning strained grunts from you, head spinning as he continued to hit your sweet spot in all the right ways. ây/nâ mark moaned, âi-i love youâ. you cried, the barrier breaking open the flood waters, you silently shed tears into his shoulder, the hot tears running down his arm and chest. âi always have, e-ever since i met youâ his trusts started growing erratic, faster, snapping his hips into yours with a force that had you seeing stars. you could barely comprehend any type of language at this point. you were about to reach your breaking point, feeling the heat collect at the bottom of your abdomen, the rope you were holding onto ready to snap.
mark seemed to take notice due to your internal struggle of letting go, mumbling in your ear about a bunch of different phrases. âitâs okay baby, you can let goâ and âcome for meâ, it was at the point where he whispered âi got you love, i got youâ you felt yourself starting to slip from the rope, letting go and the rope snapped, letting it all out and moaning out marks name, locking your eyes on his. your toes curled, body threatening to collapse in on itself like a black hole with mark at the event horizon, wanting to suck him in.
as you tightened around him, his thrust grew more sporadic, out of rhythm, trying to catch his own release now. with one last thrust, he stilled and emptied into your womb, you could feel how deep he was and the hotness of his come filling you up so perfectly. mark panted, overcoming the mountain of exhaustion after reaching his peak. his forehead fell onto yours as you also tried catching your breath. mark smiled down at you, love filling his eyes, adoration shining in yours. âyouâ he started, regulating his words to come out more clearly, âyou are part of my existence, part of myself. you have been in every line i have ever readâ
you playfully rolled your eyes, the audacity of this english major, âyou did not just quote charles dickens while balls deep inside of meâ
he laughed, as if that was a queue to pull out, mark left his place inside of you and went to the bathroom, returning with a damp wash cloth in order to clean you up. gently whipping you down, after he threw the towel into the laundry room. mark picked you up and walked you to your room, slowly slipping you into some fresh new clothes, while he put on clothes that yeri kept at the apartment for her boyfriend. surely she wouldnât mind.
you both climbed into bed, eyelids growing heavy he held you in his arms, head resting against his chest in the quiet darkness, âmarkâ you said, voice small, he hummed, âi love you tooâ
âsleep in tomorrow, iâll still be hereâ he answered.
eyes crusted over and limbs numb, that was probably the best sleep of your life. you reached over to marks side of the bed, but it was empty, and you frowned. he said he would be here. you stretched and got up, slowly making your way towards the door, you opened it to an empty living room. you heard a sudden, but low crash of pots and pans coming from the kitchen. you walked slowly, not really knowing what to expect. but alas, speak of the muse, and he shall appear in the lines, your (now) boyfriend, mark, stood in front of the oven with a spatula in hand, flipping a pancake.
in the stillness of the afternoon, you didnât make your presence yet known, and watched as he worked. the glow of the sun and the kitchen light reflected off of his hair ever so slightly, making it shine, it was as if only you two existed. he turned and smiled like he always did, âgood morning sleepyheadâ
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Little Talks | DC X DP
part second part to the ghostling au !! this is just something to give you guys food while i write the fic
also usual errors will be made im only one person blah blah. hope you enjoy, as usual this is scheduled to post at 7am
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Danny lazily blinked at the person in front of him, his brain slowly rebooting itself as he released a small yawn. The person was green. A green person. Huh. Alien? He was exhausted, he spent so long aiding new systems and cradling stars that died and spread their dust around so they would be reborn again. He wanted to sleep but this person was in front of him and itâd be rude to ignore him. Pandora taught him better than that.
âMrrp?â Danny felt his ears twitch, he wanted to feel mortified at the fact he made a sound like a cat in his own head but he really canât be blamed because the moon he was around was really comfortable and he had no shame. He lazily tilted his head as the personâs shoulders seemed to loosen? A shake in his body. Weird.
Oh. Heâs trying not to laugh at Dannyâs response. Can Clockwork rewind so that didnât happen. Of course CW ignored him like usual when it came to embarrassments like these.
âI do not mean any harm friend.â
The voice in his head echoed and it made Danny shiver in response, it was odd sharing a head space with someone else. He didnât retaliate or cause any harm. His core could feel that this person was friendly, curious and respectful. He gives a head tilt in response.
Friend. Safe. Okay.
Danny gave another yawn, feeling his jaw open a tad wider than it should in normal human circumstances but who could care less when he has a Martianâ an actual martian in front of him even if heâs too sleepy to actively be excited! Heâs tired okay, itâs not everyday he gets to indulge on his obsession heavily on an everyday basis. Heâd been so deprived that heâd gotten sick and itâs what made the others decide to give him the boot so he could enjoy his time before he got the crown.
âWhat is your name, little one?â Martian Manhunter softly asked in Dannyâs head after the younger one winced from the volume earlier after he began to wake up.
âDanny.â
âWhy are you out here?â
âOld man said I needed my enrichment.â
âOne of my allies called you a baby ghost of the Infinite Realms, is this true?â
Danny released another cat like sound, this one more curious than the other when he had just barely woke up. Someone knew what he was? How curious, it wasnât often Danny stumbled in dimensions that knew he was from the Infinite Realms⊠much less the fact that heâs even a ghostling.
âMhm, ghostling is the proper term. We usually calculate age by how long weâve been dead. In ghost terms Iâm like three.â
Martian Manhunter seemed to pause, as if listening to something. Danny gave another yawn before he finally decided to change into a more normal size instead of the large form he had used to travel through the void easier. His form shifted in a bright light before he floated over to Martian Manhunter.
He quickly realized he was a lot smaller than heâd been and he supposes this is what CW meant when changing forms, heâd most likely reflect the age heâs in ghost terms. He doesnât think heâd handle if Martian Manhunter treated him like a kid.
âWhen you said enrichmentâŠ?â
âOh! Clocky said to play nice with my cousin? I think her name is Wonder Woman? Um heâs ah known as Chronos?â
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he does it so well

summary ⯠hot things they do.
includes ⯠dan heng, gepard, blade, sampo, & jing yuan.
tana's words ⯠struggling with writing requests rn so i wrote something short to clear writer's block. im sorry guys i'll get to them soon i promise đ

dan heng
⯠waits for you before turning the page on a book. he notices that you are reading along with him and waits for you to signal that you're ready before carrying on.
⯠private > public. he will brush your hand in public but he will be all over you in private. instead of only brushing your hand, dan heng will be brushing up on you. more touchy in private than in public.
⯠pushes the hair out of your face when it's getting in your way. but he does it in a more sensual way. his fingers graze your lips as he agonizingly drags his hand through your hair.
⯠long day? melts into your body at night. runs his hands up and down your arms as a way to relieve stress?? leans his head into your neck and sighs so dreamily??? like hello?? lips grazing your neck???
⯠hot morning voice. raspy and rough. also kind of scratchy. when he tells you, "five more minutes," how could you say no to THAT voice? he knows of this effect and makes sure to use it to his full advantage
⯠very observant. knows everything you like; knows your routines; knows you. he's the first to compliment you if you got a haircut or new outfit/nails/whatever. it always make you blush bc how is he always the first one to figure these things out?!?@#$%
⯠gets jealous a little too easily. doesn't do anything verbal about it. opts for being a little more touchy than usual. he thinks it's embarrassing and he wants to hide his face into his pillow when you tease him about it.
⯠lip biter. not when y'all are kissing, but when he tries to hide his smile or his laugh he bites his lip. you find it so cute and you just want to grab him and just connect your lips with his.
⯠nerd. hot sexy nerd. he'll tell you about animals and mitosis and python and he's just so intelligent. helps you with problem solving things (probably puzzles idk) and he stands/leans over you with his breath dancing on the back of your neck.
⯠jawline kisser. if he wants something from you he gives chaste kisses to your jawline. he does that when he's bored too ig. very big on jaw kisses and secretly loves when you flush because of them.

gepard
⯠blushes when you compliment him. he looks so adorable you just wanna pinch his cheeks and smother him. he gets even more embarrassed
⯠big domestic guy. ntm on casual stuff or situationships. if he wants you, he'll let you know (even if he's blushing his way through it).
⯠he is not shy. in the beginning he might be a little shy, but later on the relationship he'll get bolder. chaste kisses on the lips becomes long make-out sessions on his bed after a rather tiring day on the front lines. and if he hasn't seen you in a while... i will let you guys interpret.
⯠leans down to listen to you. he's literally gigantic and when he LEANS DOWN just to hear what you say... and it's so innocent too but the way you look up at him doesn't make it so innocent anymore...
⯠pins you to the wall on accident. may or may not be inspired by teenage dream. anyway, he does a lot of hot things on accident and doesn't even realize it. so you are trying not to explode while gepard is enjoying his merry day while caging you underneath him.
⯠acts like a knight since u always make jokes that he's your "knight in shining armor." so dedicated that he kisses your knuckles out of nowhere and it makes you want to FAINT. like you could be reading and (out of nowhere) he takes your hand away from your book and kisses ur knuckles. AND HE HOLDS EYE CONTACT WHILE DOING IT.
⯠flirty without knowing it. says something cute and flirty but doesn't realize it until you say something. and he says it so calmly too; like drops it into a convo
⯠runs a hand through your hair before you two sleep. he just wants to keep you close and he just wants to feel you because he never gets to come home often.
⯠ROLLS UP. HIS SLEEVES. TO HIS FOREARMS. he does this when he's particularly stressed. like come here i can show you a way to destress (i'm so sorry).

blade
⯠he's only shirtless when YOU are around. he trusts you enough to show all of himself around you. you are reliable and trustworthy enough to be able to know the entirety of him: his body, his mind, his past, etc.
⯠intensely loyal to you. like if he had to choose between the world and you he would obviously choose you. would do anything for you, would buy anything for you, would steal anything for you: you guys get the gist.
⯠he's so loving only towards you. silver wolf and kafka like to tease him for it (especially silver wolf... bc how can he play a game with you and not her). he does little things for you, like picking lint off of your outfit or pulling your hair back when you're eating something. or pulling your hair back when you're doing something...
⯠LOVES when you wear his clothing. his shirt his jacket ANYTHING. whatever it is, he will be going crazy for it. has a thing for when you wear his shirts; you just look so good and you're wearing something that's HIS. not anyone else's; HIS SHIRT.
⯠has a little possessive streak. it's not a weird and overprotective possessive thing tho. more so, "no silver wolf you are not going to force them to play games with you." maybe it's more overprotective than possessive, but secretly he wants you all to himself and he does NOT want to share.
⯠speaking of being overprotective, he is also just regular protective. he walks on the side near the road so you don't have to. he grabs your arm to pull you away from something dangerous. he shields you so he'll get hit before you. yk, cute stuff like that. your safety is his priority, no matter what.
⯠he is the type to be like, "who did this to you??" and he WILL be hunting that person down. but not without urgently caring for you first.
⯠his touch is so filled with emotion, genuineness, earnestness, and sincere. i hc that blade doesn't have much relationship experience and he isn't very wordy, so when he hugs you or touches you, all of his emotions are poured into his hands/fingers/etc. all of what he feels for you (which is very much) is shown in his physical touch.

sampo
⯠MANSPREADS. i said it. HE IS A MANSPREADER. elbows resting on top of his knees as he says something super coy or flirty towards you, and sometimes you even have to PHYSICALLY avert your eyes away.
⯠a tease. if you lean in for a kiss, he'll lean backwards. if he's missing you, his fingertips will dance along the bare skin of your sides, and then he'll pull away to make you want him as much as he wants you. he is so INFURIATING.
⯠if he flusters you and you blush n try to cover your face with something (literally anything), he'll grab whatever you're holding so he could see your face. to him, you look the prettiest when you're smiley and flustered, such as in those situations.
⯠if you're going on a long tangent about something, he'll kiss you on your lips randomly. he doesn't mind your rambling, he thinks it's adorable, which is why he does it. it always leaves you with your jaw dropped before you could continue what you were saying.
⯠the type to lock himself in a closet with you but on accident. you guys don't know how you two even got into that situation, but sampo is with you, so he couldn't be happier. big quality time guy.
⯠brings you little trinkets or gifts based on his "business" adventures. whenever he sees something, he gets it for you. his mind is usually racing about you anyway, so he can't help himself when he develops a spending problem because of you
⯠sings with you to songs. you could be singing in the shower and then you hear this agitating, grating voice. he's a terrible singer, but he'll do anything as long as you're there with him, so he sings with you anyway.

jing yuan
⯠wakes up and the first thing he does is admire you. he studies every single one of your facial features, acting as if he's never seen them before when he wakes up to your face every day. he finds beauty all around you: in your sleeping face, on the bridge of your nose, the pout of your lips when you're asleep. he just loves all of you.
⯠a flirt and PROUD. he's bold with his quips. not afraid of initiating affection in public but he prefers private which i think is much sexier.
⯠neck kisser. heavy on neck kisses (especially in the morning). practically an entire body kisser tbh. he can't get enough of you, and in a world where loneliness strives (immortality), he's grateful that he has you for the time being.
⯠grabs your chin and tilts your head up if he wants you. he doesn't do it forcefully, more like a gentle smush. he locks eyes with you and omfg it makes your heart beat sm. like why are you looking at me LIKE THAT. so sensually or whateva....
⯠urges you to come closer to him so he can whisper something in your ear. when do you come closer to him, he pulls you by the waist and gets super close to your ear. like lips brushing your ear. and he blows a raspberry in it. so stupid but too lovable.
⯠lies down in your lap if you two are lounging together. since he's so busy, he doesn't get to lounge around often, so he likes to be as close to you as possible.
⯠if he wants to kiss you, you will know. not because he'll tell you. but because of the specific LOOK he gives you. his eyes are narrowed under the spell of seduction, focusing only on your lips. his mouth is slightly parted like he is ready to kiss you, and the way he tilts his head down...
⯠patient for you. will wait for you even when he is dying to feel you once again. he has to deal with yanqing so he holds a lot of patience. but he won't rush you with anything, lets you move at your own pace, and gives you help if needed. overall sweet guy.

i hope this motivates me into finishing my requests
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âïžâŠ ( drabble ) never let you leave ! àšà§ äž ìŽíŹìč Ő
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request. y/n & heeseung are on a break from their relationship even though hee opposed SOOO to get her to come back he kindof stalks her & makes her feel unsafe so she asks him to come back & protect her .. . ??
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he was too controlling, he never let you be; always calling when you were out with friends, or out at work â or just in general he was always calling. he did this under the premise of âthere are bad people out thereâ or âim just trying to protect you.â you could take it anymore. so you broke up with him, told him you just needed space.
he didnât take it well at first; and you expected that. he cried, begged you to stay; he said he couldnât live without you â that probably wouldâve worked in the beginning, but you were tired. âi donât even feel safe with you anymore heeseung, being with you scares me more than anything now.â and with that you left him.
he left you alone after that; you didnât even see him anymore, in fact you didnât see him for almost a month after that. his friends said all he did was stay home and play games, which made you sad, but this was for your happiness, so you couldnât just back down. âas long as he gets the help he needs i wish him nothing but the best.â
heeseung in fact wasnât getting the help he desperately needed. in fact he was getting worse, he was dying without you; he felt like he couldnât breathe because he wasnât near you â well not as close as he wanted to be.
you began to feel it a month later; you let your guard down, and thatâs when you began to feel like you were being watched. you tried to ignore it, but it was hard when it was all the time, even in your apartment. you began to close the blinds. but that didnât work, you felt like you were exposed in your own house.
âitâs heeseung isnât it?â you friend said, you shook your head, quick to defend the boy. âno jake said heâs getting help.â what you didnât know is that heeseung was always one step ahead of you, watching you. waiting for you. he saw your every move; even in your home with the cameras he installed.
you couldnât take it anymore; you felt like you were going insane and nobody believed you, they thought you were just exhausted from work or something. âyou just need sleep.â how could you sleep if you felt like someone was watching you!
you began to think maybe heeseung was right, maybe he was the only one that could protect you. maybe the world was too dangerous for you. which is why you found yourself knocking on his door. âpoor baby.â he saw your tired state. âyou look so tired.â he smiled to himself as you let yourself in. âi canât sleep, i canât go out alone, im scared someone will hurt me.â you rushed to say. âdidnât i tell you that?â he said. âyou didnât listen, now look.â
you wrapped your arms around him, and he wanted to hug you back; but he had to teach you a lesson â donât ever think about leaving him again. âhee im so tired.â you looked up at him with those eyes. âyeah?â he said. âletâs get you to bed then.â
he guided you back to his room, laying you down on his bed. âplease donât go.â he smiled, laying next to you. âim not.â his hand was resting on your stomach. âi won't go anywhere.â his hands now moving. âyou can just stay here with me.â you moaned softly. âheeseung.â he kissed the side of your head. âyou donât even have to go out, iâll make all the money and spend it on you.â he said cupping your heat. âfuck youâre so wet.â
you couldnât believe you fell for again, allowing his fingers to explore your insides like before. âyou missed me?â you nodded. âuse your fucking words.â he growled. âmissed the the way i held and protected you.â he said. âthe way i fucked you?â his fingers curled, hitting the spot that made you moan. âfuck hee please keep going , i need you.â you cried out. âneed you so bad.â
he sped up, your hips following his movements. âyouâre mine, everything you do is because i give you permission to.â youâd complain if he wasnât fucking your open with his fingers. âyou understand, youâre mines, your body is mine, your mind is mine?â you were desperate, ready to cum. âfuck yes hee im yours.â you screamed. âiâll never leave again i promise.â
that was all he needed, before he whispered into your ear. âcum.â and it was like your body was finally at peace, your mind too. âhee.â your breathing was heavy from your orgasm, eyes heavy from your long exhaustion. âshh, go to sleep.â he said. âwhen you wake up we can handle me okay.â he held you softly in his arms. âim fine holding you just like this.â you slowly drifted off to sleep in what you thought was the safest place at the moment â but you couldnât be far from wrong.
because you in fact were sleeping right in the arms of the reason you were feeling so unsettled and by time you woke up you wouldnât be able to do anything about it⊠you gave yourself to him.
you were his now, all his and was never gonna share you againâŠ
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