#listen i love that guy he is so so very transgender but i dont have confidence he can win against bugs fucking bunny

[woolydemon]

if apollo justice looses to bugs bunny on the trans swag poll someone has to draw him getting obliterated looney tunes style by that rabbit

[clovenhoofedjester]

jellicle lineups; part 2/4

MOREEEE !!! MOREEEE !!!

rumpleteazer | 💰 🍹 🃏

PIGTAILS RUMP! PASTEL RUMP. blond rump. that is all. i really love that design. so i use it. the face markings are also meant to look like a stereotypical robber mask. i realized she looks a little fox-like while drawing her, which i didnt mind ! its fun !

her clothing design was already laid out for her so i left it virtually unchanged, asides from the pattern itself. imagine wearing clothes w a print of your best friends hair . that is rumpleteazer

even though 1 of her 3 words are impressionable, i think she is smarter than she lets on. i also think skimbleshanks is her dad. she'd be about 21 in human years

mungojerrie | 💸 🎰 🍾

PIGTAILS JERRIE AS WELL, BITCH ! i saw a jerrie w pigtails after i drew this and i felt so vindicated. i also based his design directly on 2019 mungojerrie because ommgggg transgender calico? trans little calico? i thought he deserved some pearls too. as well as a bell collar! it makes cats sneakier.

his clothing design is left unchanged too, asides from some fluff. he is also wearing a print of his best friends hair . smile 😃

hes just a funny fella. he totally doesnt have a history or anything. hed be 21 in human years

coricopat | 🍷 🔮 ♟

coricopat is pretty close to their replica design—the biggest difference being that the red in their design is warmer/purpler. that and the silver collar! i also had no idea what i was doing with her fit, so expect it to change in the upcoming art i do of him. i just wanted something gothy and flowy

hes also based on thalia, the muse of comedy. to keep the greek mythology theme going, and because i thought it was funny, and because (2x) i like... The Gimmick

i swear to god this cat knows things we dont. hed be like 22 in human years

tantomile | 🎭 🍩 🗝

tantomile is also close to his replica design. she has a gold collar. like i said w/ coricopat, the outfit is subject to change

as she was based on melpomene, the muse of tragedy, i decided to sacrifice identical makeup for the white mark on their muzzle being downturned like the frown of the tragedy mask :] giggle. smile

listen to all advice tantomile gives you. shed be also like 22 in human years

george | 🥏 🧋 🛹

i just had to give this (technical) swing some love. bless this happy background cat and his little :D smile. i decided to give him a simple little fit and made his fur/markings less plain white w some stripes. i think i also based his makeup off a victor costume ??

i think hes pouncival's older brother. hed also be 23 in human years

mr. mistoffelees | 🪄 ☕ 🌬

my silly, my funny. my little guy. i based their general Vibe on his john napier concept art, obc mistoffelees, 1990 paris mistoffelees, 2019 mistoffelees, and like. a fairys kiss of brentoffelees. i wish id have given him a bit of that il sistina style but i already had so many things going on LOL

it was definitely a very fun challenge to balance all of these. i also draw attention to the single white shoe—the cutest detail of timmy scotts misto

i definitely prefer a more visually unnerving, grown misto. and absolutely torn between portraying him as mute or verbal because on one hand... mute misto is so good. on the other hand.... oh my god. timothy scotts voice.jesus christ . i think hed be 23 in human years

the rum tum tugger | 🎤 🍽 🪞

WELCOME TO MY TWISTED WORLD. i really tried to keep tugger as cis guys i really did. but the thrall of a visually transgender tugger was too much to ignore. i already explained a lot of his design choices in my first posted drawing of it but like... blauhh... thigh garter, heart, golden whiskers/lashes. they are there. i also made his makeup a wee more theatrical w/ white on the chin to visually separate him from partridges tugger

i also decided to base his fur more on his obc design. like. terrence mann tugger. platinum blond spotted mane and head fur and such. i think it looks really good

im trying to hit the sweet spot between the goofy/serious/whiny/promiscuous portrayals of the him..... the man contains multitudes, you see. hed also be like 24 in human years and it goes without saying that hes one of deuts sons

AND THATS IT. stay tuned for more !

[69misato69]

🍭I have arrived. Listen to me very carefully Venus. We got one shot at this. I need you to focus on me. Ajax and Zhongli are dating and they fuck live on stream every Friday. Write this shit down. You are not writing it down. I can see.

Good boy. Now then, fucking on stream was it? Yes. Cam boy show and a wholesome audience. I need them both transgender.

Zhongli isn't there, business meeting or something. I'm not sure, make it up. I trust you.

Ajax announces that he will be alone for the stream and chat is doing their best to keep him entertained. He misses Zhongli after all.

Halfway through the stream, Zhongli joins chat with a cheeky "Without me?"

He is supposed to be busy, so it doesn't cross Ajax's mind that he would be watching. Nevertheless, he is. After he joins it's a whole another form of - putting on a show -

Do not ask me any follow-up questions. Delete this is you refuse. I have a feeling that you won't.

Yours forever and always, my friend. Godspeed.

hi anon you are... insane i love you so very much. ur the only person i have ever seen that is more off the rails than i am. i hope you enjoy this <3

masterlist ✦ archive of our own ✦ twitter

camboys childe and zhongli, zl is unable to participate in their weekly show bc he is out of town so he comes up with another solution. (2k)

c: implied top zl x bottom childe, transmasc childe with top surgery and no bottom surgery, sex toys, overstimulation, voyeurism and exhibitionism

minors DNI please. enjoy !

Childe looks around the room to make sure everything is neat and tidy. It’s silent except for the computer’s fan humming softly. Awfully quiet without Zhongli. 

He hooks the cable to a larger screen and adjusts the camera. The lobby is already almost full, as it always is at least ten minutes before their weekly show. 

Childe clears his throat and takes a deep breath before starting the stream.

“Hi, everyone!” 

ajaxfucker69: hi jaxxx

mrincognitomode: HELLOOO

Chat floods with greetings. The forced smile on Childe’s face soon transforms into a genuine one upon reading the kind wishes, “Ah, good to see you all.”

rickastleyofficial: where lili :( 

The comment causes his eyes to lose their sparkle again. 

“So, right... About that, I have to tell you guys something.” he averts his gaze. 

hydroslime: NO OH MY GOD NO

thisismeta: DONT SAY IT OMG

ajaxfucker69: there is no fuckng way 

Dozens of comments speculate about their break up, already jumping to conclusions and expressing how devastated they are that Childe realizes how he should have probably led on differently.  

“No, no of course not.” he shakes his hands in the air, “It’s just that he had to leave for a trip right after last week’s stream. He was supposed to be coming back today but… Well, some family stuff. It’s a bit complicated. In short, I’m alone today.”

rickastleyofficial: GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK DAMN

zhonglikisser: thank god but everything is ok right? 

“Yes, everything is fine. But it was so last minute that we had no way of announcing it. We can wrap this up and do a longer one next week, maybe. What do you think?” Childe ruffles the back of his hair. He is visibly anxious about gathering all their audience and having to explain the sudden change of plans, but no one seems to mind.  

mrincognitomode: no no hehe go ahead

simphour: fuck yourself (affectionately. i will watch <3)

Childe laughs at the remark, “Alright. No objections? I can’t really do anything that we planned on my own, though. We’ll save those for next week.”

rickastleyofficial: pls just strip and finger urself im so hungry

“How can I say no to such a kind offer?” Childe tosses his shirt aside and slides the underwear off his legs. He pads his back with a pillow and leans on it, facing the camera sideways so that his full body is on display. The light bounces off his strong arms and legs, circles around his soft belly as a soothing breeze hits him between his thighs. 

Childe turns to read the bottom part of the screen, complying with every request. He parts one leg to the side as the other stays bent, hands teasing his own nipples until they’re hardened and sensitive to the touch. 

Soft moans that drive everyone insane and leave them begging for more. He chuckles and slips one hand between his thighs. A rare occurrence where everyone stops typing, only to resume as soon as Childe begins to slide two fingers up and down between his folds. 

He sighs blissfully, secretly sore from viciously fucking himself the whole week. He tries his best to go slow, to work out his aching cunt as it gets wetter with each passing second. 

zhonglikisser: do u miss him ajax ;(

“Oh boy, do I?” Childe hisses as he brushes against his clit, “A week’s just too long.” 

He circles around the sensitive bundle, pressuring every nerve ending to the point that he can’t catch his breath. 

“Fuck—” Childe sighs. He grows weak, legs twitching, voice shaking and hole quivering for more. 

ajaxfucker69: ur so handsome ill cry 

tartalitruther: BIG BOYY 

thisisalsometa: we r here dont worry ajax </3

Childe has a hard time figuring out why, but it’s much better when people are watching. It overwhelms him with pleasure knowing how so many people are drooling behind their screens, eyeing him up and down and swooning over him. 

Silent worship. 

Even better when Zhongli watches him when he’s not allowed to touch. He takes his time slowly working himself out and laughing as Zhongli crumbles. 

He grips his thighs and grunts with every flick of Childe’s wrist until he’s allowed to press his husband against the mattress and slam into him. 

Until they’re both covered in sweat and Childe’s hips are bruised from his grasp and Zhongli’s back is marked with his nails.

Childe occasionally glances at the screen but it gets harder and harder the more he melts into the sheets. The room closes twenty minutes in, so the sound of a new guest is usually never heard after that. Naturally, his eyes widen upon hearing it. 

A small crown symbol that signifies a creator’s account.

Zhongli: Good evening, everyone.

“Huh?” his hand stops moving. 

ajaxfucker69: HUSBAND CAMEO

ilyzhongli: yall get in formation

rickastleyofficial: hi zhongliii (twirls hair) 

“Zhongli? You—came?” Childe can’t believe his eyes. 

Zhongli: Not yet. You first.

godsgayestsoldier: LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOO

bitchless: I CANT FUCJING BREATHE 

rickastleyofficial: goofy ahh

Childe can’t help but laugh. Zhongli is supposed to be busy all week in a house full of his relatives, having excruciatingly long dinners every night that exhaust him into oblivion. It’s only when he’s with family that Childe gets to witness typos in his good night messages. 

Zhongli: Why don’t you spread your legs and show us? I feel like I’m not getting my money’s worth. 

ajaxfucker69: ur so right 

rickastleyofficial: pussy reveal RIGHT NOWWW 

Childe’s heart races, he shakily gets up and sits in front of the camera, spreading his legs. He’s embarrassingly wet now that Zhongli is here. He shifts forward as the chat goes berserk and slides his hand down again. 

Zhongli: Beautiful. 

God, he’s doing it on purpose. 

Childe can’t see his face or hear his voice but it’s so easy to trick himself into thinking that it’s Zhongli touching him. He digs deep with two of his fingers, curling them up against his sweet spot and whimpering at his own touch. 

Tears pool around his eyes as he bites down on his bottom lip. So sensitive and needy, he fights the urge to beg Zhongli to come back and lay him down. To kiss him all over and bury his head between Childe’s legs. 

It drives him insane to think about how Zhongli would be watching him. Is he alone, stroking his cock as he watches Childe — or is he at the family function with headphones on? 

It would be so wrong, with all those people around and his husband moaning in his ear.

Childe hopes it’s that one. He hopes Zhongli is hard under the table, fighting for his life and about to lose his mind. 

Before he realizes he’s already clenching around his own fingers, releasing with a low moan. 

ilyzhongli: TOY TOY TOY

zhonglikisser: the pink oneeee <3333 pls ajax

Childe collapses forward with a grin, “Tsk. So merciless today.” 

He reaches for the drawer with shaky legs, taking out a small vibrator with a remote controller. He settles back down as the chat bubbles over with excitement. 

Childe looks down, holding the device against his clit and turning it on. A squeak escapes his lips at the sensation. 

“Why don’t I take some questions from the audience, and if you like my answers I’ll change the frequency?” he proposes and slides it inside. His walls tighten with the low vibrations caressing his insides. 

rickastleyofficial: be honest did u fap to zhongli pics this week

“No.” a slightly twisted smile takes over Childe’s lips, “I did it to some voice messages, though.” 

Zhongli: Oh?

“While wearing his clothes, maybe. Who knows?” 

rexlapis: id be dying right about now

evenmoremetanow: this is true love everyone shut up

rickastleyofficial: put one on. right fking now 

Childe scrapes himself off the bed, “Well, of course.”

He makes his way to their wardrobe with trembling legs, picking out a soft, light-brown, collared shirt. 

He lays on his side and rests his cheek on his palm, “Might get it a bit dirty though, is that alright Zhongli?”

Zhongli: Paint it white. 

ajaxfucker69: u heard the man 

Childe giggles at the thought, “Ah, I’ve entertained enough requests, don’t I deserve a bit more?”

Zhongli: Agreed. Turn it all the way up.

He’s delighted to see Zhongli grow more invested by each passing minute. Sure, it’s impossible to hear it but his gentle yet demanding orders ring in Childe’s ears. He obliges happily, lower body twitching with the impact. 

“Tell me, chat. If you had a boyfriend this pretty—hah—would you leave him all alone like this?”

ilyzhongli: nooo

mrincognitomode: nuh uh

Childe squirms and aimlessly grips at the sheets. 

“That’s what I—ah—I thought.” 

With every incoming wave he grinds down on the mattress, so full yet hollow at the same time. It has to be Zhongli bending him over, ramming into his wall and filling him up until Childe is sobbing on his cock. 

“Zhongli…” he whimpers desperately without even noticing. 

Begs and pleas spill from his lips for him to return, to have him whatever way he wants to as he unravels and humps the mattress with the vibrator stuffed deep inside.  

Childe on their bed, using their toys in Zhongli’s clothes, moaning for him. 

There is no way he isn’t going insane. 

Childe can’t hold a position anymore, writhing in front of the camera with glossy eyes that make it impossible to read the screen. 

He cums again while gasping for air, drooling all over the collar and staining the skirt of his shirt. The fabric is pressed in between his thighs, soaking up the wetness of his dripping cunt. 

Childe rubs his eyes occasionally to skim the chat, but no one seems to have any intention to stop him. He lets out an unhinged laugh and rests on his back. 

The shirt folds to the other side, exposing his body.

It would be so cruel to rob everyone of the sight, to deprive Zhongli of the waist he loves holding and kissing up at. 

Childe’s back arches, hips pulsating with every orgasm as he tugs at his own hair and teases his nipples. 

He presses his thighs together, turning the vibrations even more violent. His senses are going numb. The computer’s fan, he can’t hear anymore through his clogged ears. Whenever he tries to direct his gaze to the screen, his pupils roll back with pleasure so intense it feels like Childe is going to rip in half. 

Face covered in his own spit and chest glistening with sweat, he palms over his cunt to find it drenched. He leaks all over Zhongli’s shirt, pathetic and so beautiful that no one can even spare half a second to blink. 

Tears stream down Childe’s face as he has no choice but to reach for the remote while shaking through another orgasm. 

Warmth overtakes him. He relaxes onto the bed with a long exhale and closes his eyes—

“My god.”

nomoremeta: u did so well <3

ajaxfucker69: ajax mwahhh  

Childe gains composure and finally opens his eyes to a clearer scene, replying to all comments breathily and bidding everyone farewell. The count on the upper right hand of the screen gradually goes down, until there’s one person left. 

One person that just won’t leave. 

Zhongli: The prettiest. 

“Show’s over, sir. I’m gonna have to ask you to leave the premises.” Childe says playfully. 

Zhongli: Just a few more minutes. 

Childe rolls up into a ball towards the camera and hugs his legs. 

“Zhongli…”

“My love.” he types, already weakened with Childe’s soft, tired voice. 

“I miss you…” he whines. 

There is nothing Zhongli wants more than to hold him in a loving embrace, to revel in his scent with fingers carding through his soft, ginger locks until the morning. 

“I miss you too. So much. Two days, and I’m there. Okay?” he types out with one hand, the other soiled with his own cum, dribbling onto the bed. His hand still hovers, leaving light strokes along his spent cock. Zhongli gazes at the screen affectionately. 

“Did you like it?”

Zhongli: I did. Exquisite as always.

Zhongli: Why don’t I return the favor with a private show?

[losergendered]

!! NOT A REQUEST !!

I saw you're a total drama fan,, do you have any headcanons? I like seeing other folks headcanons ^__^ /nf

oh you KNOW I DO BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im probably gonna make a followup post like. actually making the icons but. yes here they are (its just the gen 1 cast cause. theyre the best. and also i havent seen roti or pahkitew or the reboot)

Ezekiel is a genderqueer transmasc bisexual and uses he/they!

Sadie is a biaesthetic lesbian, Katie is a transfem omni lesbian, and they're dating!

Eva is an acespec demiplatonic unlabeled sapphic! She's also Sephardic!(one of my fave random hcs is that all of team escope is jewish but from different disporas :D)

Noah is a Mizrahi gnc gay guy! (ik that sometimes people consider mizrahi to be a subterm of sephardic but im making the distinction lol)

Izzy is an Ashkenazi genderfucked abrosexual aroace demihuman xenogirl who uses any pronouns!

Justin is a flamboric cupiospec arospec gay guy!

Beth is a nonbinary weirdgirlpunk bi lesbian who uses they/she!

Owen is. well i'll be so real with you i dont really care about him (IM SORRY OWEN FANS. I JUST DIDNT LIKE HIS JOKES VERY MUCH. his friendship w noah was cute tho) but like. literally i interpret him as canonically bisexual. like he was literally so in love with justin like that wasnt even subtext that just. was a fact

Geoff i also lowkey dont care about (SORRY) but i also find him bisexual. hes so in love with bridgette and hes so in love with brody. two hands <3

Bridgette doesn't label her sexuality, but has had feelings for multiple genders before!

DJ is questioning his sexuality, but thinks that he's somewhere on the aroace spectrum! He also considers himself a cisgender demiboy!

Leshawna is a bipan girl, and her girlboyfriend, Harold, is a bigender transfem genderqueer genderfluid bisexual boygirl!

Lindsay is a bi straight lesbian, and her partner, Tyler, is a cusper straight lesbian transfem boy who switches between identifying as a cishet man and a trans butch lesbian and uses he/she pronouns! (also this is because i like both headcanons for her lmao)

Trent is an ace bisexual with an aesthetic lean towards girls and a romantic lean towards boys! He leans more towards the cis man side of the gender spectrum, but likes to get a little funky with it u know. like he listens to arctic monkeys. u know.

Gwen is a bi lesbian/shadowlesbian trans girl who defaults to she/her, but doesn't mind neopronouns! Also gwourtney is real to me

Cody is a bisexual trans guy!

Sierra is an intersex trisfem paradoxibinary arospec bordersexual first-quarter/third-quarter neaptide mspec lesbian who prefers she/her, but also likes they/them and neos!

Duncan is a bisexual guy with a preference for girls! also i am still a duncney believer. who else still part of duncney nation in 2023.

Blaineley is an aphrodite bi lesbian and shes dating ME SHES DATING ME SHES MY WIFE ILY MS STACEY ANDREWS OHALLORAN. i actually made a whole oc to ship her with lmao. i guess i can include that um shes dating jules who's a lesbian and is my oc <3

Heather is a bisexual girl with a preference for girls and she's dating Alejandro, who is also bisexual! their romance was cute argue with the wall

Courtney is a bisexual girl and she's also a cit <3

Chris and Chef are both gay men and are married! gay wrongs

uhh random other hcs i have for non gen 1 chcs are bi trans girl kitty, bi straight emma, uh that little swagless kid from rr who competed with his dad uh hes a trans boy, jo is a butch bisexual girlboy & is dating brick, a gnc bisexual man, scott is bisexual and dating courtney, sam is a nonbinary bigender transfem straight lesbian who uses all pronouns & is dating dakota who is a bi trans girl, um that one dude who had the name reveal is ofc trans, svetlana is a transgender bi lesbian, vito is hypersexual and bi, uh my hcs for mal are. long so keep an eye out for a mogai-headcanons post in a few months, shawn (?? is that his name) is a transhet guy and is dating jasmine (??? i do not know these chcs at ALL) who is bisexual.

[gordonfreemansphysicsdegree]

heeheehoo ... headcanon masterpost[?]

i wish i knew how to do that 'keep on reading' thing . if i did then it would be here

also ask me about my other headcanons i can elaborate better when im asked things

[misc headcanons] the science team clicked so well because of them all having been experimented on by black mesa, because of this they became extremely close extremely fast none of them are neurotypical im sorry Heights (ascending order): coomer, benery, darnold, tommy, frozen, bubby, gordon Coomer and bubby are married dude fucking trust me

[gordon headcanons]

6’5’’, chubby-muscular he/they pronouns, transgender man bisexual Chews nails. Very bad habit but he cant help it Hes autistic dude trust me im right struggles with expressing his emotions VERY mixed feelings on benery, thinks hes.. Fine?? Theyre also roomates after black mesa (he has a crush but hes not over everything shh shhhhhhhh) Loves the rest of the science team + other 2 though :D  Tommys his favourite dont tell anyone shhhhh Sees coomer as a parental figure Love language is physical touch, though they freaks out if its unexpected [i saw this headcanon from @artflameball and i thought it was wonderful] hes like a horse. easily startled

[benery headcanons]

6’ 7’’, muscular (on the basis that hes a guard) [[7 ft on occasions.]] he/it . what the fuck Unlabelled Weird alien guy from xen, got experimented on  SEVERE LACK OF SOCIAL SKILLS. Screams at cats . people think cats can understand him Can sing the entirety of the gummy bear album Snorts milk It cant count past 7 , not because hes not smart enough, it just doesnt want to Madly in love with gordon . wants to kiss him on the mouth a little bit . also his roomate Best friends with bubby and tommy Gaming buddies with darnold Once punched frozen really hard in the face simply because he thought it was funny. Adoptive siblings

[tommy headcanons]

6’ 0’’ he/she, doesn’t mind any pronouns, unlabelled gender Pansexual :) Once ate a can because benery dared him to Grew up at black mesa, so it gave him a lot of time to read everything Made friends with benery while he was in capture  Full of autism, her special interest is soda and everything to do with it He can play the violin!! Coomer taught him Basically coomers and bubbys adopted nephew/neice But also still gmans kid.  Benerys best friend  Often infodumps to darnold about soda, darnold loves it Has regular beyblade battles with forzen

[coomer headcanons]

5’ 8’’ he/him , transmasc bisexual, slight male lean Literally a fucking cyborg. His arms and legs are made out of metal Wires get snagged on things a lot of the time Probably listens to like queen Has set ‘voice lines’ for himself  Can play the violin!!! Taught tommy to do so Lifts weights , has absolutely suplexed benrey before Married to bubby shut the fuck up . bubby helps him cope with his exstestencial dread Often took bubby out to see the stars while he was still being experimented on Basically tommys mom , makes him dinosaur sandwiches :) Hes just like me 

[bubby headcanons]

6’ 4’’ he/it/star . agender Fuck if he knows what his sexuality is hes busy The ultimate lifeform. Only got released from its tube recently Has to fix coomers arms and legs on a regular basis because stars the only one who knows robotics Loves fire. Pyrokenesis. he has a lighter with him at all times, it doesnt work Really really likes spinning tops. Thinks theyre really entertaining Coomer taking him out to see the stars shaped how he views the sky and how much it loves space Beats up people if theyre mean to tommy ever Eats inedible objects simply because he wants to

darnold and forzen will come. eventually. i dont have many headcanons for them as of rn

[quarktrinity]

quark watches star trek season 2 episode 7

where are scotty and sulu :(

WHERE ARE SCOTTY AND SULU

oh shit

ok that fall was pretty impressive he literally just toppled over like a bowling pin

ghost voice speaks through dead/unconscious dude with a Grim Warning

ok yeah hes dead

was this a halloween episode. its spooky

sure lets send our most valuable personnel to the spooky fog planet

no way in hell scott and sulu are dead

no service on spooky fog planet

Space Ghosts

wow thats terrifying

are these the witches from macbeth

"the Curse"

terrifying and silly. the best combo

/ghosts give poetic warning/ "spock. comment." "very bad poetry, captain." "...a more useful comment, mr spock." i love this show

looks like someone rented a fog machine or two. or fifty

space ghost castle

just realized kirk is back in his normal shirt! yaaaayyyyyyy tummy time

yeah why not lets go in the spooky ghost castle

Spooky Trumpets

is that the cat from buffy the vampire slayer

spock doesnt know about halloween

chekovs bangs are kinda dumb lol

HAHAHAHAH GET PIT-TRAPPED IDIOTS

/checks off the "bondage" and "kirk is sexualized by the plot" boxes in my bingo card/

yeah this was probably a halloween episode

obviously possessed scotty and sulu

comically large key

did they just teleport somewhere

welcome to the campy ghost throne room featuring campy ghost king

campy ghost king says can you guys suspend your fucking disbelief

cat from buffy the vampire slayer my beloved

"mumbo jumbo"

this cat is so cute

campy ghost king insists on providing sustenance

what is with people in this show and refusing to explain anything

cat is obviously a shapeshifter

crystal on her necklace is obviously magic

casually sets ur ship on fire

kirk leaves you on read

"tele-KEH-ne-sis"

freezes ur ship in a block of ice

ok nevermind its like a force field or something

these two are absurdly powerful

bondage again

kirk is tellingly comfortable in these restraints

nooooo mccoys possessed toooooo :(

mccoy pushes kirk around

campy ghost king and cat shapeshifter bicker

"the Old Ones"

weirdly horny death threats

cat shapeshifter is vaguely transgender

kirk is incapable of not having sexual tension with everyone he speaks to even antagonists

"why do i find it so difficult to dispose of you?" because hes hot, next question

battle between two characters with maxed out charisma

cat shapeshifter is horny as shit

yea they can make out ill allow it

unsure if kirk is genuinely into this or if hes taking advantage of her being hot for him to try and get info out of her. its probably both. either way its working

oh ok hes not actually into it. damn kirk, stone cold.

why did he even try to manipulate the telepath though. and why did it work for so long

campy ghost king hates cat shapeshifter so much that hes helping kirk now

campy ghost king says cat shapeshifters horniness is a Problem

"the cat is the most ruthless, the most terrifying of animals" idk about that spock

oh my gosh. thats amazing. theyre using shadow puppetry and miniaturized sets to make the cat look humongous. i love the 60s

kirk lets spock stand on his shoulders

obvious green screen moment

rip campy ghost king ur campiness delighted me

its the same cat as before. like a domestic black cat. how scary do you think that is babe

kirk plunges mccoys unconscious head into his tits much like he does with crying women

sulu gets knocked against the wall and flinches for a moment, then george takei remembers his blocking and passes out

i got bingo

so i guess if theyre unconscious its fine

"a most unpleasant situation, captain" understatement of the episode spock

kirk uses improvised blunt weapon

oh no wait its the magic wand thing. ok

kirk gets zorped

cat shapeshifters still hot for him

kirk is pretty confident in his ability to use this magic artifact

listen kirk i know you dont like her but if she says shes a woman shes a woman dont deny her that

kirk blows up the magic rock

welcome to rock land

campy ghost king and cat shapeshifters true forms look like they were made in spore

everythings fine now

bye

[butchpeabody]

gamesoft and rockoon also

FOOOR this. okay. gonna put this under a readmore since its gonna get long.

GAMESOFT:

favorite thing about them: i do love so much about her but being the first canonically transgender character i was ever exposed to will always make her hold a special place in my heart...so important to me

least favorite thing about them: not necessarily about Them but they didnt get nearly as much screentime as they deserved. let them be mysterious and knowing goddamit

favorite line: nylocke, dragon of eternal altruism....please log off now, and stay safe 🥺

brotp: ZETTO....ZETTO KIRB WHOEVER YOU WANNA SAY. they have so fucking much to talk about being the only two bitches in the friendgroup who Know and feel the pain...they need to interact more soo bad

otp:

notp: as much as i love kizuna and support womens wrongs i feel like they would NOT work together romantically. maybe as friends at some point but thats after a LOT of growth on kizunas end

random headcanon: i think gs Can sleep but doesnt really need to? but when she does she always likes to chill at base with a friend while shes doing it to feel safe especially posteries. i cant imagine she sleeps in realworld time tho its like 30 minutes at most

unpopular opinion: i dont really...know if i have one? honestly i feel like shes not a very divisive character. i think the most i can say is that even though as of avz shes definitely OKAY the fact that her getting to live at the end of the main series was at ALL up for debate in universe is insane to me. weve established time and time again she is very much a living and sentient being yknow...

song i associate with them: i listen to this specific cover of kokoro and think abt her a lot tbh

favorite image of them:

NNNOW for rockoon.

favorite thing about them: EASILY one of the most welcome 180 character turns in the show. i adore the fact that he was given so much depth and a whole arc n shit....AND hard reset. amazing little dude

least favorite thing about them: ...honestly same thing as gamesoft. not enough screentime. i get it more with him because hes a secondary character but he is my emotional support pookie....

favorite line: im gonna be real i feel like this is fucking impossible every word that comes out of his mouth in any context is gold

brotp: YOU KNOOOOOWWW its gotta be him and archy. his little dude who was born in a wet cardboard box all alone. the little mipy....the little woowoomeowmeow.....

otp: i wasnt very shipping minded when i was younger into tome when tai said that he shipped him with splat i was like thats awesome ill adopt it into my belief system.

notp: doubling....do i thibk they should have a beautiful sad internet dude reconciliation arc? yes of course. but i cant see em romantically...

random headcanon: i know he did animal jam scams when he was younger....i know he would teach archy how to do animal jam scams.....but archy would feel bad about doing it and hes like okay no more scams for me i have seen the error of my ways

unpopular opinion: again idk if hes really that divisive but hes honestly one of the best characters in the show...up there with the main guys to me. like i said insane development and a surprisingly strong emotional core for what anyone starting the show for the first time would have assumed to be a one-off joke character

song i associate with them: when i was younger i had a whole fight scene to dummy! from the ut ost planned out for him but i have never completed it. </3

favorite picture of them:

[serotonincemetery]

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[reddd-robin]

🐦  Robin’s top albums of 2021  🐦

These aren’t in order of my favourites, but I like these alot and i listen to music from them ALOT. you guys should see my brain its mostly these guys and some stragglers. im just gonna name them in order lol

1. Do- Cosmo sheldrake

This is Cosmo’s newest album and it bangs really hard though i espesially like ‘Did don’t do’ it’s my favourite outta there. I usually play this when I’m writing beacuse it’s not as heavy as other stuff i listen to so i can pay attention to the words i write lol

2. Hissing Fauna, Are You The Destroyer?- Of Montreal

this almbum is so good it managed to make Of Montreal one of my top artists within the month i first listened to it. insantiy incarnate. this one is a really good walking album for me, like i put it on and i am enpowered with the energy to speedwalk. 

3. Through the looking class- Siouxsie and the Banshees

very good album but also i mostly listen to it absently and not specifically as an album. im mostly there for spellbound, you’re lost little girl, gun and this wheel is on fire. those are the ones i like i skip the rest lol oopsie

4. Chumpfrey- Feed me Jack

god i love this album its so so juicy and i really like the sounds they do it makes me happy in the brain. rosies is a great example but also pirate muse. those songs are amazing and the whole album is really good as a whole but those guys are the best like i specifically cant wait for them to come on when i know they’re in a playlist. love

5. Just a Lad- Oingo Boingo

goes insane goes evil rolls around on the ground scratching and clawing. this album is the best ever it should be sent to space so aliens can listen to it. This entire thing is pure gold its my favourite thing ever. the specific sound of oingo boingo in general i love but this whole ablum encapsulates every single thing i LOVE into one place. this is the only album i repeatedly put on as an album and not because alot of the songs are in my playlists. its insane. listen to this thing if you want but only the enlightened can survive

6. People who can eat people are the luckiest people in the world- AJJ

Dont make me talk about this thing i’ll explode into a bajillion peices and make a firework noise as my meat bits are launched into the sky like a bloody lightshow. This album is so so so so good its my favourite AJJ album it holds a special place in my heart. this album is just important to me and i love it. love

7. A history of public relations dilemmae- Petrojvic Blasting Company

this is a little unfair since this is their only album asides from their offical work in Over The Garden Wall, but i really really love this album. I love the jazz mixing with folk and it just. lights up my brain. Like princess andy and SINKING SHIPS oghhh i love sinking ships. love love. SIMON WAS IS ALSO RLLY GOOD i love this. theres some songs in here that are only okay but even still it doesn’t effect my love for the album. heart

8. Bury me at makeout creek- Mitski

Guys im sorry you see me Mitskiposting im very very feeling the winter and she’s my best friend. i listen to mistki talking about falling from balconies and kissing people drunk and not caring it sucks and i go a heem heem yes mitski me too mitski. close to being here was the only heartbreaker or Retired from sad new career in buisness. mitski forever

9, Testosterone!- Talkshow Boy

ok im transgender, alright? what do you want from me. i can be a little emo. a lot emo, actually! leave me alone. i like this album alot and it reminds me of 2015 in a good way and i like the funky sound. The contents are very fucked up like seriously this guy is having a bad time but we’re besties its ok. He’s fighting a tiger on the floor and i’m watching. thats my cousin. parasocial relationship with this guy he’s my weird friend’s brother.

this was fun actually i havent talked about my music like this before lol. Thanks to Anne for tagging me <3

urhmmmmmmmm i have to think of who to tag eruru

@heyits-hardy @elesketchii @beeapocalypse​

thats all i can think of lol if you want to be tagged or untagged you can just ask

[wooorm]

tell us abt the benzen :)c go wild go crazy

Ah, 

well it all started when one day, when Benry was a wittle baby child (age 16) walking home and he spots some cute boy about his age, beyblade in hand and lighter in the other. With Benry watching in amazement as the young arsonist lights that bitch on fire and launches that bitch into a trash can lid. truly a sight to behold, and in that moment benry knew he had to meet this guy, like seriously dudes chaotic energy? off the fucking charts,,  so they get to talking and eventually become best friends :) 

They do normal friend stuff, hanging out, doing dumb shit, holding hands and smooching.. oh.. And they hang out alot, like alot theyre inseparable. Mostly bc Forzen’s home life is absolute dog shit but he has benny to help him through all that,,  all while Benry is indirectly helping Forzen figure himself out- he soon figures out why he feels the discomfort he feels about himself and then it hits forzen- hes transgender (he already figured he was bisexual at this point) Benry even offers to cut Forzen’s hair in a way that he sees fit, and then its a double combo for forzen as he figures out that he most definitely has feelings for his very best friend- 

Now, forzen fucking around and finding out he trans? good- bad part about that is Forzen’s fam isnt really into the trans idea,, so Forzen starts to hang around benry’s house even more than usual even tho benry’s house is p cramp with family-- 

pretty soon, the boy’s are 18 and forzen’s dysphoria only grows and his home life gets worse, and the pressure is on- he doesnt have any good career skills that could make a liveable wage (i mean he did barely pass highschool) and the only viable option he thinks he could make it on is going into the military, ofc benry opposes this... alot,, to where they argue about it furiously,, eventually causing a falling out with the two, to where they dont speak to each for a day. This kills the both of them inside but they both have different ways of dealing with the situation,,

  benry musters up the courage to actually talk to forzen and work things out before forzen heads off, he quickly makes a break for it to forzens house. knocking on the door only to be greeted by one of forzen’s siblings. Benrys heart drops as the words escape that relatives lips, “he already left bud- sorry” benry can hardly hold back the tears as he leaves his former friends house, sweet voice escaping his mouth. Yellow to black. 

Benry never really was the same after that, he seemed less enthusiastic about things he previously enjoyed, even taking that stupid security guard job at that dollar store area 51 knock off,,, 

cut to the res cas

Forzen is assigned to go to black mesa,, realizing that this is the same facillity that his old friend had mentioned before from overhearing his fellow comrades. As soon as he can he guns into black mesa with only one thing on the brain- 

switching over to benry,, the little snoop, no clipping through walls, joining and leaving the science team ever now and again. He eventually finds out that the military is here and what if ya know? what if his friend from the past is here? So he makes it his own personal mission to find Forzen. Just so scared of every dead bootboy body, not knowing if its the one hes looking for.. sometimes mistakenly sweet voicing bodies that very much could be Forzen. With both looking for each other the search is on... 

and then, like a spot light on either one of them they find what theyre looking for, across one of the many sprawling rooms in back mesa of all places, theyre eyes meet-  in an instant their body’s cling to one another as if neither one had felt touch before. There’s only a few ‘i missed you’s before theyre kissing. Forzen holding up benry in his arms tightly, not wanting to let go... After that theyre practically inseparable again, walking around black mesa as if nothings goinging on, catching up and talking. They agree to meet up again later,, but forzen’s got other plans to make that happen sooner,,, he’s even got the plan and dog to do do so-- 

// so i basically hc that forzen only held sunkist hostage so he could trade her for benry and he could look like a hero and possibly start to make up for leaving like he did, but all that is foiled when everyone but benry shows up, and now he has to improvise, thus the “dispel the rumor” bullshit--

after the res cas, benry and forzen make their mutual loving official and move in together like they always wanted to do,, and everything great! 

... 

...

“wait a minute- no you hurt me-” 

and a big argument starts and its bad. Benry is a crying, sweet voicing mess and forzen just wants to run away again. Both gordon and tommy have to intervene and talk both of them down from ‘this isnt going to work out’ 

ofc forzen feels bad for leaving the way he did, at the time it seemed like the best way to leave so he wouldnt feel bad about leaving benry and hoping benry wouldnt be hurt as bad in the long run. Forzen was trapped and needed an escape. He does realize that things could have been handled better and he often beats himself up for hurting benry the way he did and he would do anything for benry to make it up to him. After forzen apologized n shit benry doesnt even think much of it now, hes just glad hes finally with the one he loved all those years ago, and they can actually stay together this time <3

thank you for sitting here and listening to me ramble insanely about to funny men from halflife parody :0)

[gibberishquestion]

Schmitty ,,

schmitty............

favorite thing about them

his quiplash 3 vibes are literally so tasty. his voice pairs really well with the claymation look and carnival aesthetic. also just in general i love how schmitty vibes. i ADORE his voice /p and i think he’d be a good friend, or, like, dad or something. and he’s funny guy! what’s not to like

least favorite thing about them

this isn’t about him exactly but i wish the voice actor made toby from patently stupid sound different from him. it’s not just the unique sound of his voice, like, i can still hear phil ridarelli’s unique sound in the bracketeering host or in the ydkj 15 wrong answers of the day, but those don’t sound like schmitty. toby sounds exactly like schmitty and whenever i play patently stupid it takes so much mental energy to try to separate toby from schmitty whenever i hear him talk

favorite line

it’d be too easy to say his rant from when you call quiplash boring but MAN that bit is up there. maybe “i love you. even if you’ve done this to me i still love you. and sometimes love means having to say goodbye. goodbye.” from when nobody writes any quips and he ends the game. like the comedy of everyone twiddling their thumbs for two minutes and suddenly I love you. is great

brOTP

already said this for redacted but. him and redacted. like the comedy of redacted being like (redacted pours a bucket of blood on himself) and schmitty being like haha my silly friend redacted what have you gotten yourself into and redacted being like The Bible. that’s their dynamic in my heart

OTP

schmookie obviously does anyone not ship schmookie......

nOTP

i don’t think i’ve ever seen any schmitty ships that i disliked? i dunno i dont actively seek out a lot of jackbox fan content so i wouldn’t know

random headcanon

i see a character who goes by their last name or a nickname derived from their last name and i fire up the transgender beam. basically the same as my philip fry headcanon like he started going by schmitty when he realized his birthname didn’t fit and schmitty just kinda stuck even after he got his first name changed

unpopular opinion

i don’t think i have any Controversial Schmitty Takes. my mom’s unpopular opinion is that she hates him cause she always needs a character from my interests to hate out of spite and the quip 3 aesthetic hits most of her fears so

song i associate with them

just last night i was lying in bed, very sick and not entirely awake, and after a long train of thought starting with thinkin abt the city of hell michigan i eventually came to the conclusion that it must be believed to be seen from charlie and the chocolate factory is schmittycore. i haven’t listened to that song in months so forgive me if it doesn’t fit him. if my logic last night was sound it just has the same kinda creepy but genuinely good vibes as, like, quiplash 3

[gayregis]

which characters are trans this is a scientific inquiry

all of them except vilgefortz and leo bonhart

ok ok jokes, ill go more in depth... some of this is taken from things ive written before but not posted. also for anyone reading this im non bee nary so know that im not trying to describe the experiences of different identities in first-person, i’m basing this off of both my own and my friends’ experiences... none of this is “OMG YES CHARACTER ANGST >:))” but rather depicting personal struggles in fictional characters, so just know that  the more difficult subjects that may be covered are not there just to see the character in pain, but rather to think about their eventual resilience against it and development afterwards

for geralt and yennefer i have more specific reasons why i think being transgender actually fits with their canonical characters & related story arcs, and then for the rest i have headcanons and maybe some reasoning but not a lot.

geralt: geralt already represents how a struggle with toxic masculinity and expectations of masculinity can influence one who wants to be seen as masculine to deny and bury their emotions. him being trans develops upon the aspect of his struggle with emotions, ive seen my friends who are transmasculine / myself when i used to ID as transmasculine struggle with showing emotions bc of feeling like you’re going to be misgendered if you shed a single tear. in canon, we already learn that kaer morhen has a bit of a macho culture (just fyi eskel and lambert and coen are trans too now, don’t go getting any idea that those guys are cis) and i believe that the “witchers have no emotions” thing is like 5% actual biology and 95% being raised to fight and not to feel. vesemir is a good father but he just wasn’t very emotionally nurturing, it’s the caste’s way of raising kids that geralt breaks out of.

i think geralt’s self-image also speaks a lot to the feelings of harsh internal transphobia. he constantly others himself from others and feels like people view him as different, which is metaphorical for any marginalized group under the sun, but also is very common for lgbt ppl. again this is smth ive really struggled with within the past few years so im just projecting/know what it feels like and feel that how geralt sees himself in canon is similar to a view suffering from internalized transphobia.

geralt's character already redefines manhood because he has to learn what it means to be a good father. and i think him being trans would be representative of his constant learning and growth as a person, yet also somewhat involved with his self loathing and feeling like just Him Existing is an affront ... but of course he unlearns this with time and love from others and all of his character development

yennefer: yennefer’s whole backstory revolves around defining who she is and defying the people who mistreated her and told her she was nothing. canonically yennefer of vengerberg is the story of the successful self-made woman... her life as janka she would rather forget, no one calls her by that name, and no one ever would because its not who she is nor who i think she ever was. 

shes incredibly strong-willed and knows what she wanted from life but some things are terrifying to reach out for, like love and acceptance. yennefer has a conflict with love and being loved because that was never a safe topic for her ... (also sapkowski handled this specifically poorly imo, but:) yennefer canonically struggles with being loved for who she is. i think she deals so much with her previous abuse and again, expectations from parents, and coming to terms with the fact that she survived it all. also this isnt even touching upon her arc regarding motherhood. wanting to give a child your everything and everything that you never had... the love and kindness that no one gave you...

ciri: ciri hesitated to ever identify with “girl” or “boy,” she’s also i think the representation of childhood in general, she’s naturally curious about gender presentation as she ages and just never really cares to commit to gender. i think she’d say she was a girl but only reluctantly bc she just doesn’t care much.

dandelion: [from his TV Tropes page:]

he’s an artist and a musician, he’s not gonna be cishet...

ok in a more serious context i think he’s a nonbinary guy, i think him being trans might explain why he has way more friendships than relationships with family members. dandelion, like yennefer, is also someone that had to define who he was for himself, i mean for one his stage persona of dandelion is entirely an artist’s creation/hyperbole of himself, i think he also had to think abt his inner identity too

his gender is also just “your friend that comes to your house and eats all ur chips and drinks all ur beer and passes out on top of you on the couch”

milva: ok unfortunately i currently think milva is the token non-trans friend (she’s nonbinary just doesnt think of herself as trans) but it’s only because her major arc in baptism of fire revolves around her pregnancy and miscarriage and just bc she is not trans doesn’t mean she doesn’t go through her own difficult struggling process surrounding her womanhood. she struggles enormously throughout the series and in her backstory with defining herself between two rigid identities: the feminine maria and the cutthroat milva. in her talk with geralt, she reveals how she feels trapped between these two identities and feels like they cannot coexist. i feel like she’s a nonbinary/gender non-conforming butch* lesbian whose struggles with sexuality intersect her struggles with gender and what it means to her to be a gnc woman. also you have to consider that milva was raised in a small village in lower sodden so she understood gender in the very strict roles ascribed to men and women, so she felt like she couldn’t be a woman unless she was this very traditional idea of what a woman is “supposed to be like,” which she’s both been trying to shape herself to be and also running away from simultaneously. she learns to accept herself within the hansa bc they love and support her for who she is, and she doesn’t need to be strictly feminine or masculine to be understood by them

* i know the terms nonbinary and gnc and butch didn’t exist in the 1260s tyvm, i’m just saying this as how i interpret her in a modern context

regis: gender is a human sociological construct so basically don’t ask him unless you’re prepared to listen for 20 minutes. vampires can exist noncorporeally so they can exist without gender, also i hc the telepathic vampiric language is nongendered as it’s a transmission of pure thought, will, and force, so it doesn’t even use any grammar. i also hc that vampires just appear the way they feel in terms of appearance and age (e.g., regis at around 300 when he died still looked 25 bc he was as stupid as a 25 year old, now he’s calmer and understands more, so he looks middle-aged). when chilling out with humans regis will be referred to as a man bc that’s just how he appears but it’s an identity he had to learn about and adopt, not something he was assigned. most vampires look androgynous anyways bc they just feel androgynous, how are you gonna feel a gender when you don’t know what a gender is... if you HAD to understand him with human labels / put it in a modern context (like if i was making an modern real life AU) i’d say he’s a nonbinary trans man. 

cahir: much like geralt i think cahir’s story is one of living up to expectations, but cahir’s actually takes it a step further because his major motivation in his backstory is trying to prove to his mother that he can be a good son that will make her proud and gain honor for the family... he seeks validation from external sources but faces ruin when he learns that war is not the way to prove one’s prowess and skill

angouleme: shes trans and i simply say so bc shes very cool and funny and i dont think a cis person could be this cool and funny. also i think the story of a runaway teen who was abandoned by her biological family and found solace in a new family is both very good and featured in a lot of trans ppl’s narratives. she kind of exudes this “im finally at a point in my life where i’m safe and cared for, i can start HRT now, let’s gooOOoooOOooo” energy. 

[shanascarlett]

Thoughts on Hasbro Universe after Revolution

Im big fan of G.I. Joe/Transformers. But when I heard that there are more than 2 franhises in one universe, it blew my mind. So I decided to check out them. One of them I heard when I was kid.

Revolution was big. For some it was epic, other think it was mess. I understand why ppl love and hate it. Personally I love it. There’s conflict and how heroes unite against evil. It was the beggining of massive universe. So, how it turned out?

To be fair.... not so good.

Its my own opinion. You can disagree with me. If you love aftermath of Revolution, thats fine. I just want to tell about the conclusion of Hasbro Comic Book Universe.

Optimus Prime.

I think the writer put a lot of his view on life: disappointment on every religion. I really didnt like how he made that Optimus Prime is always wrong. Even when he listens and he does what he was asked to do, ppl still angry at him. “You should listened to me!” and “You shouldn’t listen to me!”. I love that they put Joes, but here’s the big issue: OOC of Mainframe and Flint with his daughter look similar the same age.

Remember when Trasnformers had the mystery of their religion and mythology? Mix of Sci-Fi and Cosmic Fantasy. Yeah, forget about that. It was all Shockwave’s evil plan. Another big disappointment for me.

I like how they described the ghost of Bumblebee, but Shockwave being one of 13 Primes looks very... confusion to me. 

Lost Light

Lost Light deserves to be called a weak sequel. Remember when in MTMTE was magic mystery, adventure, gore and development of characters and relationships? Here I found nothing. New characters for me are not interesting. And yes about them being “trans”. Im not transphobic and sorry if my opion might hurt you or offend. I just dont see transgenders in Transformers.  I dont see transformers suffering of gender dysphoria. Hell, I doubt they suffer of homophobia, bc they are totally fine with mlm and wlw. If you dont know, hetero relationships are for the population of Earth. And Transformers managed told that they can love each other, but their love is not like Earth’s bc they dont have to have sex to create life. They have strong emotion connection to each other.

Speaking about love. I love Chromedome/Rewind love story bc it was developed. We saw the birth of connection, loss, pain, reunion, fear and happiness. Same with Cyclonus and Tailgate. To be fair I dont ship the last two as romantic couple, but as platonic couple. For me they dont have that emotional connection like Chrome/Rewind but they care each other. In Lost Light nothing. You just accept that a lot characters are couple to each other. Why and how? Just accept it. This is why I dont feel emotional connection to Lug and Anode. To be fair I thought they are friend and Lug looks a lot like a boy. If they’d develop her more better, I think I’d like her. The whole Lost Light is just comics of couples. I was thinking when they’re gonna do the Orgy like in Ancient Rome.

Also here’s another disappointment in religion. Everything was lie. As I told earlier - I didnt like it. I’d rather to rewatch TFP, Bayverse or G1. BC I felt emptiness. MTMTE is masterpiece.

G.I. Joe

Where do I begin? Was written by socialist who doesnt know anything about military, ruined Quick Kick who was nice and gentle, made Scarlett an idiot, turned charasmatic Shipwreck into fat vegan, new characters have no backstory or reasons why they joined to Joes. Also: huge hypocricy. Scarlett says that G.I. Joe is now international team, but they refuse to work with USA. I get it they tried to turn G.I. Joe into Overwatch, but OW was working with every country. Including USA, where they had one of their headquarters. American G.I. Joe was more progressive bc they were helping every country who had deal with Cobra or any threat. They even teamed up with Russian soldiers.

The huge disappointment was no explanation about Snake Eyes rebirth (and no love story of Snake/Scarlett) and Quick Kick being an ass. Just check G.I. Joe ARAH show. There Quick Kick was nice. I miss that one....

The only good stuff was about Rock n’ Roll nightmares and guilt for shooting Grand Slam, grumpy Grand Slam and Doc being half-alien. Thats alll.

Revolutionaries

It was a bit better bc its literally crossover with conflict and backstories. Here they at least tried to make story interesting. And brought a lot interesting references. Especially to 90s: KLAW, Slaugther and even to original Action Force.

M.A.S.K.: Mobile Armored Strike Kommand

At 1st they tried but then it all felt down. I wouldnt call it horrible. You can check out 1st issues. I can say that only villains were interesting. While main heroes...  here’s the problem.

Original Matt Trekker was an engineer, millionaire, helped ppl and white. Why the last important? BC in reboot he became boring black guy who seeks vengeance for his father death and the main bad guy is white man. Im not racist bc I like how it was done in Spawn, but it wasnt so obvious who is the bad guy who just wants to take over the world. I get it you hate Trump. He is a clown.

Also original Trekker raises his son alone. So he is widowed. It could play in reboot: lost all, but tries to keep his son safe. So much potential for drama of lonely father. But we got what we got. I just go to rewatch Spawn animated series.

If they wanted “diverse” why they didnt put more poc characters from MASK? You know there are actual canon black man and indian man? Even native american man?

ROM

It was boring. 1st issues were interesting and brutal bc of alien invansion. You wouldnt know who is the enemy and who is the friend. But drama...

Whole Rom’s drama was about losing his humanity. At 1st we see him as cold-hearted alien. Then they all forget about it. Original Rom from Marvel was losing his humanity until he met brave girl Brandy who made him to remember his loss of homeplanet and love of his life. He was afraid to be alone and to be complete machine. And yes, in reboot his old girlfriend is alive. But I felt nothing with this. I prefer to read original comics bc I felt sorry for Rom.

Micronauts: Wrath of Karza

It was boring. The only thing I can remember is Larissa being Baron Karza’s daughter. I dont compare reboot with original series bc I havent read yet. I liked the new one bc of Baron Karza and his wife (and their fetish).

First Strike

Hoo- boy. It was bad. Preety bad. Not bc villains tried to destroy Cybertron. Not bc TF thought its gonna be war of humans and TF. No, it all was good. The main villain is Joe Colton who wants to destroy Cybertron to save Earth. And that he was bad from the beginning. His motivation sounds like Miles Mayhem from M.A.S.K.. That shock effect of surprise villain doesnt work here. It looks like disrespect to Joe fans. They managed to ruin Scarlett’s character who was turned into G.I. Joe not bc she was the best. She was in Joes bc she didnt do 50 push-ups. If you dont know, G.I. Joe is elite guard where they take the best men and women bc they do a lot dangerous work. So the whole story arc is full disrespect to Joe fan. I dont know about you, but I was offended by that.

Was there smth good? Team up of villains and the easter egg of Visionaries.

Rom vs. Transformers: Shining Armor

I almost forget about the plot bc it was boring. Rom was rude like every commander (yeah, for someone “losing humanity”). New character was boring. So everythng was boring. Even Autobots didint save the situation.

Rom & the Micronauts

Well, they at least tried with characters development. I really liked how characters interact with each other. But the whole story was “meh”

Scarlett's Strike Force

It was very short and cancelled. BC that writer Sitterson wrote offensive tweet about Nine Eleven. I get it what he was trying to do: to make comics based on cartoon G.I. Joe. This is why Quick Kick and Spirit fight against Storm Shadow. Personally I thought it was racist bc “only asian fight agains asian”. And Storm Shadow has the worst redesign I’ve ever seen. Theres nothing to talk about the comics bc its unfinished and cancelled. So theres nothing.

Transformers vs. Visionaries

This comic had potential. But the ending ruined it. The story is about colonization to save living race. But it will kill another nation. Its interesting theme. And how they managed? Nothing. For some reason everyone in peace and safe. The ending is just weird. I think writer didint know how to end that conflict so she wrote “everyone safe and in peace. Colonization is bad”. Not the ending is the problem. Main characters: Leoric and Virulina redesigned very strong. Leoric looks like total different character (why not to create new character? He looks good). And Virulina looks like student from art-school, not the villain. The redesigned I like are Cryotek and Arzon. And the art was very good.

The last 2 ones I havent finished yet. I can tell this: TAAO isnt look so bad, but I’m ready for disapointing ending, like TF Unicron.

In conclusion:

I dont tell that it was done horrible. Its just explains why IDW decided to reboot TF and G.I. Joe. Low sales. BC I’ve noticed a lot easter eggs in those comics for future story plots. I think they’d made it good if IDW would give them chance.

If you love them, thats fine. I’ll enjoy my own version of Hasbro Universe.

[candyclan]

Coming out letter to my mom. (FTM) At the start of my transition, I wanted to go by a name that started with an “A”because my birthname did. All the rest of it is basically the same.

THE TRUTH:

I didn’t scream “I am a boy” at my parents. Honestly, my mother (specifically) controlled a lot of what I did, who I hung out with, and what I wore as a child. I believe she has/had an idea about what she wanted out of a daughter since I was born, and really just lived through me. I think she eventually had to give me room to make my own decisions, later in life. I didn’t come out until I was 16, although I had spent 6 months prior to even coming out thinking about my gender identity. I was extremely sheltered. I want you guys to know that I didn’t know what being transgender was until I was a freshman in high school and met my best friend (who is STILL MY BEST FRIEND TODAY) who identified as Non-binary gender fluid. I had never really met someone AFAB that lived to be anything other than female. With that came the knowledge that sometimes, men don’t necessarily have to have penises and I can wear whatever I’m comfortable with. I used to be religious in middle school (raised Christian) but I never found god. It never made sense to me how so many people can put their faith in other people’s ideas of what god is (the Bible) but not listen when their real CHILD comes to them and tells them that they feel uncomfortable in their gender identity. I also came out as bisexual in middle school, after meeting a girl I had a fancy for. To which my mother sobbed and cried and asked how she had failed as a parent. I remember loving pink, it was my favorite color. Pink, purple, blue. My top 3. Now it’s blue, pink, purple but basically the same. I had a pink room, loved hello kitty, let my mom curl my hair with little curlers at night so I could wake up and be somebody different the next day. My brother played with carebears and my Barbie dolls more than I did as a child. I remember a toy gun and handcuffs. I was fairly experimental as a child, I did: Girl Scouts, swimming, piano, soccer, ballet, cheerleading, and more honestly. I always got “boy” toys at McDonald’s (I mean cmon they’re cooler) I just was kinda everywhere. I feel like that’s easier for someone AFAB to be. My brother was harassed by my family for liking girly things but I was never shown that I couldn’t like stereotypical “boy things” by extended family. My mother however in the line at McDonalds I could never forget, turned and looked at me (baseball cap backwards tank top and shorts)and said “So, what?” “Are you batting for the other team” implying that because of the clothes I liked to wear I would be a lesbian. My mother (like I said, kinda controlling and extremely narcissistic) when I was allowed to cut my hair super short for the first time I was 16. Afterwards she has said things like: “but you’re so pretty how could you have cut your hair” “you looked so nice with long hair” I never felt akin to femininity. I was actually VERY uncomfortable with it. I hated being the “weaker” gender. I never wanted my nails painted. It was torture. I acted like makeup and and nail polish was torture, the hairbrush was my enemy. I used to just put my hair up in a low ponytail every day as I got older. I knew she’d never let me cut it all off. Basically, other than wanting to grow up strong and tough and not liking to be treated like a female, I was female. There were parts of being female I didn’t really have a problem with, and honestly that’s why I didn’t come out for so long. I wasn’t in a house or raised by people I knew would accept anything other than me being their “little girl” I was a daddies girl. So between my lack of understanding of where my feelings towards my gender roles were coming from, being encouraged by my family to be girly, not being exposed to gender diversity (or anything queer), and my controlling mother, I remained in the dark about who I was.

TRIGGER WARNING:::(abuse)::::: I was never close with my mother, and actually hated her growing up. To this day she is the most judge mental, self-centered woman I know. My father was funny, charismatic, and lost his shit sometimes. I like to say, 90% of the time he was amazing. We made jokes and could literally finish each other’s sentences. But honestly my father, 10% of the time was abusive. Most of my abuse in my life was covert (narcissistic abuse from my mother) and verbal/emotional/barely physical abuse from my father. He’s 6”3’ 350 lbs and very loud and scary, especially to a young child. He punched a hole in my wall, he threw a remote at a wall and shattered it to pieces, he threatened to kill my dog with a baseball bat in front of me. Which I swear to god he would have done if I wasn’t holding my dog, protecting him. These moments were few and far between, but they were riddled with insults and almost always left me with less than I started with. My father did spank my brother and I, and one time he clapped my brother so well that he left a purple hand mark on his butt. My mother told my father she’d take us away if that happened again. My father never left marks. He never had to, he was so big and would just get up in my face and scream at me. He made me feel helpless. Because he was invading my space I felt physically threatened, and he never actually had to touch me and leave bruises because that threat was already implied by invading my space. I was so young, but I always knew my family wasn’t right. Finally at 16, I stood up to my father for the first time. I didn’t care if he was bigger than me, I didn’t care if I would lose, I was willing to fight for me. Anyway, long story short the police were called because we were screaming at each other in front of his apartment building. I’m not going to say I didn’t fuck up as a teenager, but I never deserved the pressure and the abuse he was dishing out and had dished out my whole life. I knew that. I cut him out of my life just after turning 16, by then I had been questioning my identity. It became easier after leaving my father to fall into who I was. My father is FAIRLY religious and my mother claims to be but she never talks about god, she never prays, and now that my father and her are divorced I don’t think she’s been inside a church since. Losing my father was a lot, despite his abuse he and I were really close and had really similar personalities. The reality of abuse isn’t “well, now I see them as an abuser so now none of that good stuff is left it’s all tainted” I had to struggle with losing someone very important in my life at a young age, for myself.

Arguments against me being trans:

My family has been a bit divided in responding to me coming out. By now, it’s been about 4 years.

My mother and her side of the family are in denial. They don’t understand how I can’t be a “lesbian that just likes boy things”. They don’t use my name or pronouns.

My father, what little communication I have with him now, is bewildered. He and I had a discussion this past Christmas where I brought up what his abuse did to me mentally and he apologized but then tried to say “well what about your part in all of this” and said that I was hanging out with crazy depressed people, cutting myself, doing drugs, (I was smoking weed and I’ve tried acid like once piss off) and was sneaking out. Yeah. I did do all of that BUT GUESS WHAT. IM 20. I go where I wanna go. I fuck who I wanna fuck. I smoke what I want and guess what? It’s not any different from when I was 16 except now I don’t have parents up my ass telling me what to do. His argument basically was that I need to own up to what I did too and that fucking angered me. You don’t apologize and then go “well what about you” that’s not an apology. That’s deflection and honestly I don’t think I need to apologize because my parents were super controlling. I was just trying to do what I wanted and they didn’t like it. He and I have talked about me being trans and he pretty much thinks I’m certifiable. Doesn’t use my name or pronouns.

My brother: Ethan, my brother and I have always been close. He’s 17 now, and he had a different reaction to me being trans. Of all of my family he was the most receptive to my pleas of gender dysphoria and he suffers with anxiety so he gets stuff. But alas, after asking him if he’d call me by my name and pronouns (after 4 years of being out) he thinks that I am the one that has an issue with society. I told him I was starting T soon and he said: “Hrt won’t lessen all the things that come with being transgender. If you feel like doing hormones is the best for you then do it, but from a logical standpoint I think there just needs to be more thickening of skin” he claimes that if I try hard enough I could be fine living as female. Doesn’t use my name or pronouns.

None of my family supports me. None of my family understands. And none of them ever will. I have been out for four fucking years. I can’t tell you how frustrating family rejection can be. I have cried so much at the idea of not having a supportive family. I feel like I was ripped away from a beautiful life somewhere and thrust into this mess.

Honestly though, it doesn’t matter, the world keeps spinning and I keep finding people who love and accept me for who I truly am. I have made peace with my family’s lack of acceptance. It’s made me stronger and more compassionate towards others. Made me want to be better than them. I am actually going to start hormones soon, and on top of other fears I have, will be cutting my family out of my life. I can’t be 25 with a full beard and getting misgendered by my family. I can’t do it. They may feel like I’m going too far, that I don’t have to do this, but I do. I’m not doing this because I didn’t get too much attention as a kid or my mom favored my brother over me, I’m not doing this because it’s cool, I’m not doing this because I’m bored, I’m not doing this because I hate myself or anyone else. This is AFFIRMATION. Sometimes, cutting people who can’t see you for who your really are out of your life is affirming too.

Guys, girls, people, keep your head up. Things get better, I know. I thought life was never going to get better so I know that’s what it can feel like. But it does. Never ever let someone control your life or who you are. You’re beautiful/handsome/amazing! You deserve to be comfortable in your own skin and to love who you are. I am getting there, we all are.

Love,

Tanner M.

[iwanttobegay]

My life

Hey guys.

I need help.

I am a half closeted gay guy living in the Netherlands. My family is very religious (Christian) and dont approve gays. All my friends know I am gay. My mom too. I came out to my mom when we were discussing things. She said i looked like i had something on my shoulders. (She said that every day for about a year now) And i started crying. I told her i was gay. She cried. After that she said she didnt believe me. She kept denying i was gay. And then she said "you dont know if you are gay if you never tried anything". Which is kind of true. But if you are gay you just know it.

I look at mans butts. Not womans butts. If a straight couple enters my work for sample. I look at the guy, not the girl. I like abs not boobs. I just know I am gay.

But she keeps denying it.

We started talking about things i could and things i couldnt say. And she said "your grandma (from my dads side) could not sleep for almost 2 days because of your sisters transgender boyfriend. I dont think its smart to talk about it until your grandma has passed away" That is a big roadblock. I pretended it didnt care and i moved on with the conversation. Then i asked her something. "What would you do if i end up with a boy instead of a girl". Then she replied with "I can never be happy for you"

💔

My father doesnt know im gay for a couple of reasons:

He makes very homophobic jokes

He said numerous times "if one of my sons is gay, i will kick him out" and i dont have the money to move out

Any time there is something to do with gays on television he will say "yuck" and change the channel

He is christian

He is old fashioned

My sister has a relation with a transgender boy and he litterally said "that thing cant enter my house" "its disgusting" "I hope you break up soon"

I am a student. I dont have much money so i cant live somewhere else. So i have to keep my sexuality a secret.

It is hard living with my secret. Like twice a week or so my father will ask why i dont have girlfriend. Because my younger brother has one. Or when i sing to a song using my normal voice he will say "dont be so gay!" Or when i slightly move my hips while listening to a song he will say "stop acting so gay all the time" (I like dancing, but i cant because its "gay" in his head.

I am alone

I want someone as bad as my mom wants me to be straight. So thats a lot. I want to have a boyfriend. I am so lonely. And also in need of sharing my secret. I want to love. So i started going on dating apps. But its hard to date someone. I cant get a boy to close or my dad might know him. I cant get a boy to far away because i mostly use public transport and they dont go everywhere. I have to get someone in a place my dad knows because my mom wants to know where her children are at all times, so she made all of us install a tracker app. And my dad can view my location. So he must know the place otherwise he is going to ask questions about my location. I also cant say i am at "a friends house" because he knows all my friends.

The problem is. I love him. I love my family. I love all the fun interactions and silly things we do. And to go on vacation with eachother and no one gets left behind.

I dont want to ruin that all by saying the 3 stupid words "I am gay"

So i am down. I dont like my life at the moment.

I want someone to love. And it has been rough.

I want to keep loving my family

I want to be myself. All the time. Not just at a friends house.

I want to be gay.

I am struggling with myself. I dont know what to do. Thats why i am writing this post. I am so stuck at the moment. I dont know what to do. I hope some day people will read this and have a answer for me. I hope a lot of people will share this to help others like me. There are people with the same problems. I know it. People who are just as stuck as i am at the moment. They need help. I need help.

Sorry for my bad English btw.

[notdingalingalingalingrita]

hii hi hi hii idk why i have taken to sending u my thoughts abt the office via asks but i am now so yea. i just finished ummmm s5 e12. in my mind jim hes so comphet realness i think. i think pam would listen to flatsound also or like pheobe bridgers mitski typof thing. shed hear working for the knife and liquid smooth and shed go crazy. and shed tell jim about it and jim would be like "umm ok ? can we talk about me now." i believe this i know it in my heart. and creed i dont have very many thoughts about him but i think he is transgender i decided. hitting him with my transgenderification beam. and dwight and michael do you think they have ever explored each others bodies. also angela i think she deserves so much better than dwight or andy fr. AND speaking of andy um erm. episode 8 oscar and andy are sooo. well. are they. you know. 🌈🤨🏳️‍🌈 oh wow i just found out my phone lets me combine emojis together wow. ok that is all my thoughts i think.

- henry yayy woo ^-^

CREED TRANS BI CRAZY INSANE. I LOVE HIM. pam is a mitskier real. she is like funny and pretty and a few years ago i cried to a gnf edit and i think if someone edited her to any song by egg i probably would do that. cry that is. michael and dwight are so. silly. AUGHH I LOJVE THE DYNAMICS OF THE OFFICEPEOEPLE THEYRE SO UNIQUE!!!!!!! heart heart… also you’re so right about angela she is special like she is special… horrible … wretched… decrepit… creature… babygirl… btw i cannot stop repeating oscar my silly rabbit whenever he says anything. he’s like… eeeyeehegegejfjfbdbsm…. andy is hoh. mow. OH ALSO while we r on the subject… darryl… normal guy!!!! i have three episodes left which i will watch tmr and then i think i’ll rewatch seasons one and two bc i wasn’t timestamping ryan moments the first two seasons and i gotta do that ☺️ ok i gotta sleep maybe goodnight henry 💕💘💕💕💕💗💞💕💖💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💖💞💗💞💕💕💖💖💞