#listen i just. i dont want to see tumblr live. and if i update it i will

[goomymegpoid]

I still havent updated tumblr so i still cant even see polls. Whats the deal with vanilla extract

[samuelroukin]

hi! not here in favor of you making Actual Books (i don't even read any of the newly published books anymore for reasons and reasons and reasons), just complimenting your work in general

i dont really care for cod at all but i really enjoy how you write the characters!! and tbh the only reason i watched some playthroughs of the games was so i could understand your work better. sure, fandom is the main reason people click in, but it's definitely not why they're staying. and it's not why people are writing paragraphs of praise to your stubborn ass even though you work so hard to never listen to any of it 💖

also id be enchanted to hear more about your ocs on future works or even here on tumblr!! you're great at creating made up people that actually feel real. they're pretty round (funnily enough that is the actual technical term), even when you don't tell us a lot about them

also 👀👀 say you have original stuff in mind?????? i would love love love love love to know more about that!! you're getting pretty darn good at worldbuilding and ambiance. better with each update now that you're trying out this AU thing. it would be infinitely interesting to see what you come up with when working with your own stuff only

anyway what i mean is. even though I don't quite believe in Published Books on this day and age, please know that your writing is definitely good enough for the editorial market (even more so now that those dark romance things are going mainstream and a lot of them read like the stuff 12yos post on wattpad. what tf is the deal with that? but I digress. out of those circles your work is still definitely good enough) it's legit like Good Work, even if the tiny mean bully whispering in your ear disagrees. it's good realism. good introspection. good porn and also good narrative and great junction of those. it's lovely seeing how far you've come in so little time and we're excited to see you reach new heights in the future (because you will, with absolute certainty, unless you stop. but i don't think you could really stop yourself at this point lmao)

and please know that achieving that level of quality with no help or instruction or training in so little time is a grand fucking accomplishment

point is: Who Care? We Care (even if we're not an enormous audience)(...yet?). and not just because it's cod

it's def a nice compliment to get thank u 🙏💖

and so is you reading my stuff without caring much for cod! though i wouldn't be able to write this much about them without (clearly) being completely insane about Them and the basis the games laid (haha laid) because without them i'd be nowhere at all, these characters are so. well they clearly took over my brain lol, though i worry a Lot about them being ooc when i write them 💀

i actually feel like my guys are so barebones and one dimensional rip, which is fine since i mostly created them as little more than a joke and they're just being used as set dressing, so that means a lot 🙏

my Main story is this sprawling urban fantasy thing, which if i ever did write it would need serious adjustments since it's. old and not aged very well. the gist of it was the main character (30 year old barista) has Visions, cue road trip with his bestie (ex bf from high school that he reconnected with years later) to figure out The Deal after they suddenly get much worse. it's about that on the surface, and below about dealing with missed chances and not living up to ur potential. it sounds stupid but i've been Thinking about it since i was like 14 so cringe is to be expected lol

lsklhkjhffghst yeah no offense to them but despite this fic being what it i i wouldn't really want to fall into that category even if that sound like i think i'm better than them (i'm not it's just not my thing. or i guess it is and i just have a superiority complex. anyway) um thank you once again 🥺i def feel like i haven't improved a lot but you're dead on about not being able to stop myself anyway lmao

idk why you're being this nice to me but 💖💖💖

[crowisinthetrash]

Hello everyone! Haven't been on here in a while again

Sooo a little update on life is that someone I've had a crush on since year 7-8 (I think? It's been a while, but I dont remember the exact year level). I have been chatting with me for a few days, and my feelings are definitely reawakened when I text him. Like I perk up at every notification, I'm aware of how much I smile when I see his messages and everything

So he has me in tiktok, insta and discord and I hope he doesn't have a tumblr and find this post 😅 but ANYWAYS I don't get worried that he's ignoring me because he explained to me that he feels bad since he's moving (to my state suqiaieusu) and has a habit of not touching his phone for a few days. I also know he enjoys his alone time, so I'm trying to tone down how much I send because I don't want to spam him 😭😭

Though they did say he's okay with random messages throughout the day as long as I understand I'm not ignoring him so I don't know whether I'm just overthinking that I'm coming off as annoying or something because I do genuinely not want him to be overwhelmed by messages 😭

Also, we both have chatted, and I know they are into steven universe (obvi), minecraft, elden ring, dead by daylight, my hero academia, jjk, cats and that he cosplays and crossdresses. He also likes a few things we like, so yeah! Also for music he told me about his favourite album and I had given it a listen (he really wasn't kidding when he said it was sad) He also goes by he/they, neurodivergent and mentally ill like meee. Also, potentially, he might get into genshin impact once he's moved and settled in. I've also started today by sending a small question of the day sort of thing to get to know more about him when he's able to reply ^^

He's honestly the cutest and prettiest ever, and honestly, I want to squeeze him, but like in the most positive way possible, yk? Also, he reacts to my messages with little heart emojis, and it honestly makes me really giddy each time and it's just.. wiqiqooicwiiqjdiw

ALSO, my tiktok recently keeps giving me initial type tiktoks, and our initials keep coming uo together, and it's all on romantic relationship things. Usually, I scroll and go about my day, BUT is this a coincidence anymore?? Because this had happened more than once?? what do you guys think??

Anyway, a few other things that I have going on is that I'll be seeing Mother Mother live in November, which is coming up, so that's exciting! I heard Metallica will also be coming down next year with one of my favourite bands (Evanescence), so that makes me also really excited and gives me a lot of time to save money 😅😅 Also I don't know if I told you all yet but I do have a job and that's at Subway so yeah lol

Anyway, that's it from me for what I know, if I do become dead on here again, expect some other random update like this again haha! Also let's hope he doesn't find my tumblr and see this post..

[sillybiscuitshepherdskeleton]

soft asks, answered

What song makes you feel better?

Lany, anything 4 u (instant relief) 

Loml (late hyperfixation, to sleep, mostly)

2. What is your go to comfort show?

My most recent, fellow travelers (starring jonathan bailey and matt bomer), 2023 (dec) 

3. Reading or writing? Why?

Reading. Cuz i tried writing and i suck, so i mostly enjoy others’ writing instead of making my own.

4. Whats your favorite feeling?

Finding a good comfort fic, or song to hyperfixate to.

5. How do you like to take care of yourself?

Making a thread / compass / direction to my go to fics (so when im in danger, like i need instant relief, its there)

6. What’s your favorite candle scent?

soft jasmine

7. Who do you feel most like yourself around?

My mom. I’d like to say friends or smth, but ngl i find myself being myself with my mom. 

8. Whats a fabric/texture that’s nostalgic for you?

Flannel. It reminds me of a chilly air.

9. Best childhood moment?

I got my first electronic device, a cd player so i can listen to my own music. I was about 8/9 years old. 

10. When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried? (or just felt really good afterwards)

I forgot what it was, but it was with mom, laughing about something we both found funny. 

11. Do you have a comfort item? Tell us about it!

My bts knocked off wings tour jacket, my first ever merchandise purchase, so i opted for a good knocked off one, cuz i didnt know where to purchase the original one. Now i do have official merchandises (keychains and plushies), i still found myself going to this first knocked off jacket. 

12. What calms you down?

Music. Its both my haven and runaway place i had for years now. 

13. Bath or shower to relax?

Shower. I dont have a bath, so i grew fond of hot showers.

14. Whats something upcoming that you’re excited for?

Doctor odyssey new episodes (or seasons!) 

15. Comfort food?

Poke gunkan & steamed egg at my fav sushi restaurant

16. What’s something you want to create soon?

An updated directory of my ao3 bookmarks 

17. How do you feel best loved?

Being accompanied at meal times 

18. What age in life do you think you’ll feel most yourself at?

I was 18 when i thought everything was wonderful and i was on top of the world. Then i realized i had some emotional baggage even then that i need to work thru, so ive been spending the last 5? 6? Years working thru it (and accepting that maybe ive been scarred for life, but thats okay cause i can still function) 

19. Have you ever written or received a love letter?

I have written, in form of poetry. Anonymous, never sent. But ive made some. For the same guy, lol. I have received also, from a different guy. It was sweet. 

20. Tell us about a memory you hold close to your heart.

I hug my first love goodbye. I know we arent meant to be, but im glad for what it was. 

21. Tea, Coffee, or hot cocoa?

Black tea, latte, and peppermint mocha. 

22. Name of your favorite playlist?

In love (part 2), playlist made by me, for wedding purposes. (songs i dreamed to be played in my wedding) 

23. Have you ever received flowers?

No, but i did receive chocolate for valentines.

24. Who is your bestfriend?

Someone i met in middle school, we reunited in college, i’d say she’s my best friend. Or a good friend. 

25. If your soul was a color, what would it be? 

Scarlet maroon. 

26. If you could live anywhere with anyone you want, where would it be and who would you bring?

Australia, with my cousin. She live there now, and i had spent a holiday there as well, lovely place. 

27. Do you like to garden? Have you ever grown something?

No, but i love the smell of grass after rain. I grow attached to things, so im unlikely ever try to grow something, it’d break me to see it dies. 

28. What are you proudest of?

That i endure some past scar, and i am alive today enjoying music, tv shows, tumblr, and films. 

29. Are you a kind person?

I try. I have accepted that maybe i was also unkind, no matter how i try. 

30. What do your hobbies look like?

I like to read. And i intend to keep it a hobby. (i hate monetize what i like, and if i can, i’d like to stay away from it) 

[wimpout]

Listen to the melodic waves of the ocean. Soothing, aren't they? Come closer, listen deeper...

Hello again, hell site. My name is Elijah, but just call me by Eli. Unfortunately, I am back with a different account. If you remember me by my old account, congratulations! Here's a cookie.

Once again, they/them. Nothing else. Try to guess my AGAB and I blow you up with my mind.

I believe I have the most normal and non-baised takes so if you even care you should check me out. I might see you around.

I kind of have memory issues for no reason to be disclosed. It just started happening around middle school so it's out of my control. If you send in an ask about my past I might need you to be specific or else I won't know what you mean.

Well. Ciao!

open below

ooc section

─ⵌ penned by @adons-pokehub (he/him, minor)

interaction

pelipper mail/unmail/malice: allowed! musharna mail/malice: allowed! mystery gifts: allowed!

magic anon: allowed! union circle: allowed! in-character anon hate: allowed!

ooc/questions: allowed!

anyone is allowed to interact! if you ever want to start an offscreen rp, it's best to discuss it with me first.

note: if i dont get around to an ask, never take it personally! i will always read any asks i get, but won't always respond.

boundaries/notices

─the mod is a minor, and the character is 16! light suggestive asks are fine, but never close to nsfw.

─to contact me for events/connections, dm me on discord (adonciant) or tumblr itself.

─i cannot predict the content warnings for this blog. story goes as anons say. to list what has already been established however, experimentation only. these are subject to change. triggering topics are tagged with associated tags (tw 'topic')

extra notes

this is NOT the same eli from before 11/24. complete design change! their personality is the same, however. and the story is reset!

heres the good part; how does this work???

in case you werent here for the first rendition; eli is a character who is collectively expanded upon by YOU!! the community of rotomblr!

logistically, if you wonder how it works with the fact these anons would seem to know an abnormal amount of information of eli, blame it on their old account they couldnt log into ^_^

how do you contribute, you ask?

simple! my asks are open. go ahead, ask them how their life is in galar. they'll respond as if their life is in galar. well, someone else already asked if they lived in unova? they live in unova! ask how their whimsicott is doing, because now they do indeed have a whimsicott! ask how their moms funeral was! because, uh oh, now they have no mom :(

not only are asks open, but every type of interaction is allowed, even up to magic anons. if eli reblogs an ask game, he either responds appropriately to how his story has been shaped out or how i see is fit to the rest of his character! want to send musharna malice that means him seeing a nightmare of his past? say it! send pelipper mail of clothing from his dead relatives? say that!

but its important that you dont overlook the existing information other people/anons have already asked about. if they really do live in unova, you cant go out of your way to try and forcefully retcon that information: as a reminder, its a collective to create a story for them.

all that i request is that you and the rest of rotomblr make a coherent story. you build off of previous information and make it into one, stable story. they could totally have been there for opelucid city freezing, but not for lysandre attempting to use the ultimate weapon at the same time.

here's a google doc of any previous information that cannot be rewritten

this intro/full body ref will be updated if need be.

[the-kipsabian]

what are your favourite youtubers? 👀

i hope you will feel better soon💖

mmm lemme go through my sub box to see who i watch frequently ough

ashley norton (im actually pretty sure you posted about that gaylor video and ive just been devouring her content ever since lmao)

austin eruption

barry (im gonna put him here tho i watch him more live on twitch these days but the vods are excellent tho)

chadchad

critcrab

crowes perch

izzzyzzz (she is everything please watch izzzy 💜💜💜)

john wolfe

kip sabian (listen im biased pls watch stream compilations even tho they dont update super often LMAO)

onetopic (he hasnt posted in a while i think but if you want extremely wholesome and supportive and inclusive meme content here you go 💜💜💜)

redlettermedia (im sorry LMAO)

rerez

saberspark

strange aeons (i would be a faulty tumblr girlie if i didnt mention this one huh)

the click

wicked wizard

i think thats mostly it? sorry for all the cringe i regret nothing lmao

[smollilbaby]

274TH DAYS

mylove ღ Happy 9th months together!! Its literally few days after what i did. Before i continue, i want to say that im sorry once again for lying to you. I know i shouldnt have , but i just did. Im sorry for not listening to you. 3 days before our day, i lied to you. The day where my world trembles, not knowing whether there will still be US or not due to my lies. I hurt you, & we fought till we didnt talked for hours. Honestly i wasnt prepared for anything. Its not even like wtv flows let it flows. I was so in fear that you might leave me. Honestly i couldnt imagine if things were to go south, like what am i going to do next...

But, im so glad and happy that you give me chances again. Chances after chances, what did i do to deserve these, abby? ღ

And i know, its gonna takes time to trust me again, i understand that. I'll try my very best to earn that trust back again from you. I will do everything in my power to make u trust me again. The reasons that i started off this tumblr again, its because i believe this is the place where my words are being thoughtful and makes u feel much more appreciated ღღ Im sorry for the months that i didnt update these, i didnt have the peace and time to brain this, but i sure this time round, i'll find time to update. Maybe the day that i fucked up, probably the time i pikir jauh want to keep my baby so i need to prove my words with my action ღ

Lets go back to the main ones instead.

Happy 274 days my princess ღღ Its been 9th months since we're together. Can u actually believe how fast the time flies? Lepastu nnt tahu tahu je dah setahun ayang ღ Tapi sebelum tu, lagi 3 bulan kita nya 1st anniversary. Lagi 3 bulan tu jugak, birthday i!! Dia mcm ibarat dpt 2 hadiah, satu hadiah birthday, lagi satu hadiah anniverysary, which is u, mybaby! ღღ

Baby, i would like to thank you for everything. Thank you for making US work until today and in the future too. It takes two hands to clap, and thank you for clapping hands with me. Even after your parents found out about us, i'd still loves you like even more now, like i wont let you go. Biarlah parents you tak suka, janji u suka dan bahagia, im happy ready. You're all that i need in my life baby. You need to know that i cant and i wont let you go. I want to hold you till forever, even tho forever doesnt exist, i'd still want and need you my love.

You're the reason that im smiling daily!! You're the reason that makes me happy 24/7. Youre the reasons that i feel so much loves. Thank you for the loves and cares you gave me ღ Thank you for showing whats true love and what its like to be happy. You're the reasons for everything we've achieved so far! And i believe theres always more to come for us!

We're going to see each other for years now, so just bare with me okay love? HAHHHAHAH

Anyway, i cant promise u the best, but i'll try my best to be the best one yet in being yours. I'll prove to you that im worth of your time and love given. I really loves you so much and i dont want to lose you, ever again. You've been a part of me, but now you're inside of me. You're my heart and my soul. Without you, i couldnt live. I need u to breathe, you're my strength and my happiness. You're me.

And with that, thank you for the 274th days together, and still counting ღ I wish us nothing but the best together! In the future, if theres obstacles, we're going to go thru it together. Its us against the world baby. I love you so much! ღღღ

To many more months and years together, cinta!

#274th #somuchlove #eternity

[eddiexmunsn]

Is it bad I havent shared anything here on Tumblr because I have <15 followers and half are mutuals who have already shared stuff. Tumblr is supposed to be my "escape" from the real world. On my irl social media I've shared stuff, I have more reach there and I knowni have some followers who are of differing opinions. I feel kind of guilty not sharing things though

reblogs are always nice because they can push it more on people’s “for you” tab if they follow your mutuals or like related things that you do, but also i feel like it’s a bit harder because of the tumblr algorithm. it’s not tiktok, where likes and comments have huge impact on how many people see the content. tumblr is more about having a corner and mostly sticking in it until you find new content to include in that space. it can also kinda be an echo chamber on here, so i’d always double check any stuff i’m reblogging on here that doesn’t already have reliable sources given in the post.

i definitely recommend following Palestinian creators and other journalists on instagram/twitter to share and push out their videos and messages, no matter how many followers you have. ANY eyes on this is good, even if it’s just a couple. and it’ll be uncomfortable to see these things and to put it on display for others, but i personally think Palestine lives are more important than my feelings right now. does that mean im not taking care of myself mentally and physically? i absolutely am doing my best to keep myself mentally sane while my government doesn’t listen to us. but imo its more urgent to help than to put my comfort first.

all that being said, it never hurts to reblog stuff on here if your mutuals are! i know we all want to have our safe spaces, but the Palestinians don’t get that. and i am personally choosing to put their lives first and my discomfort second.

i don’t want this to come off white savior-y or self righteous, im trying to hold myself accountable. we cannot makes this about us, this is about them. about the men and boys being executed, and the women and children who are sniped and buried under rubble.

i’d rather be distressed and trying to help, than to soothe myself and turn away from the truth just to be comfortable. especially because im an american jew, and this genocide is being committed in the name of MY culture & religion and is being funded with MY tax dollars. i dont think its right for me to stand by like im innocent, because im not.

here’s a list of some instagram accounts that are reliable and showing the truth:

motaz.azaiza

wizard_bisan1

by_plestia

hindkhoudary

pslnational

jewishvoiceforpeace

officialjakegyllenhala

eye.on.palestine (very graphic footage/images)

aljazeeraenglish (or just aljazeera)

sbeih.jpg

celebrities4palestine posts updates on celebrity action against the genocide

[loomworld]

loom(s)

ash | she her

codes, music, thoughts

USER CHANGE !!

loomspost -> loomworld

01 ) who am I?

my name is loom(s)!! I use the prns she her, im chinese and indonesian. I'm a bisexual leaning fem!! im TiNe sx5(w4)94 R[C]UE/I/ (TYPOLOGY)

02 ) what is this blog for?????

this blog is my personal blog / online identity !! haha kiddingg, mainly used js to write down my opinions nd sometimes my thoughts, I share a lot of my music taste here and updates on artists nd bands (mostly the 1975!!) I like. I sometimes post my codes!!

I currently don't have specific tags for posts becoz I'm too forgetful for that

I'm very sensitive, meaning there's gna b a lot about my thoughts and everyday life. If you dont like this, feel free to break moots ^^

My blog is not necessarily apart of a fandom hence personal blog, but its leaning into the 1975 and codeblr. So you'll see a lot of codes, the 1975 and other bands alike!!

I also quite literally just post about shit im intrested in currently, ill reblog anything I find intresting and post walls of text sometimes just writing my thoughts down or answering asks. Chain reblogs are my absolute favorite thing on tumblr, so I reblog a lot of reblog chains either with my own thoughts or just the reblog chain itself.

I advocate for lgbtq and I'm a feminist, I share a lot of my ideals and beliefs here!! I dont try to push them but I blog about them quite often.

This blog is everything inside my mind !! everything that's going on inside there is literally my blog, this is like my identity. If u don't like seeing posts about like one topic that I'm currently fixated on then this blog isn't for u, I post movie reviews and I'm literally a cinophile!!

Beware this blog quite literally is my little diary, if I feel like shit I'll be blogging about what happened that day and how I feel. All TWs will be in #s and I will warn before hand so if you dont like any topics mentioned than just scroll past !! this blog is like an online tracker or an online database of my life. (this is dead ass just my identity.)

03 ) about me

I believe in the magic of science and see beauty everywhere, I'm the biggest fan of The 1975, MCR, PTV, TV girl, and many more. My music taste varies and depends on my mood a lot of times! I listen to a little bit of everything, from cpop to jpop and kpop. im really into jpop and kpop too! but I come crawling back to the 1975 everytime. I live in jakarta and my dream is to live in NYC, I can speak 5 languages (russian, chinese, english, indonesian, swedish) im a cinophile and I love music!! I play 3 different instruments (violin, piano, flute) and I code (python). Im into quantum physics and science itself!! I dont really post abt my intrests, just my thoughts and experiences, I do occasionally post abt them tho!!

intrests <- click for intrests

04 ) DNI

basic dni criteria, terfs, lib fems, bigots, the 1975 antis, matty healy antis, Taylor swift antis, rad fems, support harmful labels or ideologies, CC supporters, excessive nsfw blogs, sinophobia in any way, fucking flat earthers, JKR supporters, Vanessa Kirby antis, RCTAs, ECTAs, white feminists (as in white feminism), ai supporters, Elon Musk dickriders

05 ) BYF

selective follow / slow to follow back sometimes. Not following you back doesn't necessarily mean I don't like you!usually it's because of lack of shared intrests, intrests I don't want to see, untagged / excessive nsfw, excessive discourse etc.

excessive reblogging / once I'm on tumblr and I find something like literally anything i like, I'll start reblogging it. I reblog shit a lot so that might clog ur following dash.

I do a lot of 'housekeeping' / for moots, I'm not gna instantly reblog the stuff u blog abt esp if it contains nsfw. I'm very picky on what's on my page !!

Inconsistent posting / what I mean by this, is my theme constantly changed and the stuff I reblog or blog is constantly changing!!

[scardnbroken]

// Hello to all my followers. On this blog and on my other blogs as I will be reposting this to my other blogs to keep followers updated on things.

Firstly this will be long so let me cut it here and add a quick sum behind it before going full on vent mode.

In short: I have been struggling with work and today finally hit hard and my depression has hit an all new low once more so I am making this one of my final posts and I’m debating on making just one simple main blog thats all about art and what not..idk just yet.

Ok now for the vent part.

I have hit an all new low and I did see this coming but I was trying my best to manage things and prevent it from getting to this point but unfortunately other people who had to power to prevent it have done nothing but sit by and watch the train wreck or literally enable it.

So here it goes.

Starting off with things from the start. I realized last night that I no longer have any form of emotions of affection. At least not towards men. I spent time with a friend who was probably my biggest regret and he had everything that I normally would find amazing and great and be the one oogling over them but instead I found I had no attraction, no interest what so ever. I felt a little bad for him because he seemed to want to develop a relationship but I had to be honest with him and told him it was just good to be friends and chat and catch up from time to time.

Thats where I think most of this has kind of started because I realized last night that I probably don’t have a soul mate or anyone and if I did that my experience from past relationships has left such a bad taste in my mouth that I nolonger feel anything anymore.

Then there is the situation at work which I have been nothing but professional about and instead of venting I have tried to follow the proper protocols but I’ll put it this way. One girl has started her own little gang group, and yes they are like a gang, that have done nothing but bully my sister and myself. It got to the point that it started to affect my anxiety and depression and when I went to management I found that they were not interested in listening or helping me but rather happy to enable the ones that so obviously enjoy gaslighting everyone they can. 

Today though hit hard. There was a work meeting and in short everyone was told our hours would be getting cut back. I’ve already been given a drafted idea of what my next rostered shifts will be and I will literally be earning less then $1000, thats not enough to live off when we are talking about a fortnightly payment.

Things have just gotten so ridiculous there that I’ve spent hours today just pumping out resume and cover letters to any and all places just so I can make a god damn living.

Usually tumblr has been my comfort place but today when I logged on I realized thats not the case anymore. Theres no activity, theres no one interacting with me to make me feel like I should even bother coming back to roleplaying on here and not just that but...I just feel like tumblr is dead. I dont find myself looking at cute puppy dog pictures and smiling. I just look and see how dead all my blogs have gotten and I guess thats just triggered my depression a little more.

So I made the choice to write this to everyone. This month and last month I discovered myself more then I ever have in a whole entire year and I’m sure there are still things to discover but currently with how I am feeling and how things are looking for my so called ‘bright future’, I’ve realized there is no point in beating a dead horse.

Hence this post. I wanted to let whoever is still here, following these blogs still, that I am going to just disappear for as long as I possibly can. I’ve gotten more into cosplay and I’m enjoying making tiktoks a lot these days but I kind of wish I could still do something fun on tumblr but I know there is no point in that.

This post is also at its peak and its end now.

Thank you to everyone who has been there for me. I wish I could be there for everyone as well but this is the end of the road for me guys. Sorry if I have let anyone down, if I have hurt people or caused drama where not needed. My time on tumblr has ended up rough but I think its time that my journey on here comes to an end. No not life wise. I’ll still be kicking butt and taking name, I just won’t be on tumblr anymore.

At least I don’t think so. There is a chance I may make just one main blog there revolves around the things I love and I’ll probably just reblog stuff or idk something. But I have yet to come to that choice. Currently anyway.

But just thank you for those that did stick around and for the friends I have made and for the bridges I have rebuilt with some amazing people I had hurt in the past.

[franeridart]

Anon said: i dont know what blue lock is but that art you just posted is making me interested lol

AHHHHH please getting people interested in it is all my life is about lately hahahaha it’s a sports manga about soccer! Kind of!! Definitely has all the good sides of sports manga, but it’s also different enough from the usual sports manga that I know people who aren’t huge sports manga fan who loved every second of it, please do give it a try if you find yourself with the time for it! It’s such a cool manga!!!

Anon said: I don't even like BNHA anymore, haven't for more than a year, but your blog still has me shipping the characters somehow. I live for your KiriBaku content (and your KamiJirou stuff, when you post it!)

Gosh, I’m glad I can make you like them still!! It’s such a compliment, honestly ;A; <3

Anon said: so i was looking through your art and stuff and was wondering "hey i wonder if theyve ever drawn voltron stuff" and tbh, i didnt expect you to have

To be fair, if you checked it means that at least a little you thought it was possible lol I haven’t watched anything past s1 of it though, so the chances of me ever picking it up again are less than zero

Anon said: You... are one of the loves of my life... and also the main reason I check tumblr everyday lol.

Anon!!! You’re gonna make me blush here!!!!! ;;;; thank you so much!

Anon said: i started reading bluelock because of u and now im obsessed soooo,,,,, thanks!❤️😭

SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT!!!!!

Anon said: Hii, do you have a Spotify account? If you do, can you share it? I really like the songs u use on your arts, and I would love to see your Playlists Sorry if it's already on your FAQ, I didn't find it And sorry for my bad English ps. I LOVE YOUR KIRIBAKU ARTS THANK YOU

I don’t! I listen to all my music from youtube, because I’m that kind of person lmao happy to hear we share music tastes, though! And thank you so much!!! <3

Anon said: What's your favorite arc of ToG both story wise and art wise?

SCREAMS I don’t know!!!! I’ve been thinking about this ask since getting it I have genuinely zero clue I love all arcs so much for so many different reasons!!!!! The first that comes to mind when I think about it is the workshop battle arc, because I love Viole with everything I have and the whole arc (plus the build up to it too!!) hurts in the most wonderful way, but then I keep thinking about it and I realize there’s so many character I live for that don’t appear in it - I love the floor of death arc SO MUCH cause for one, there’s nearly all my favorite characters in it, and also because it’s such a good, dynamic arc?? everything that happens is so much fun and interesting?? also Hockney is there, and Urek is there, and Garam is there, and the Hell Train gang is all there, so!! AH and the hell train as a whole is so damn good (the dallar show???? my whole soul rests in there, Khun’s trust in Bam!! the coin flip with rachel!! Bam’s whole everything!!!!!!!! GAH) but my fav part of it has to be the hidden floor?? because!!!!!! it’s perfect from start to end, everyone in it is wonderful, Bam’s growth in it!!! GODS! My favorite scene in the whole webtoon is in the hidden floor arc, it’s how much I love it - THEN THERE’S YAMA and the whole arc there is so so SO good too, and the latest arc!! how good is the latest arc!!!!!

so yeah I can’t pick - art wise I think it goes without saying that SIU’s art has only gotten better, so the closest to the newest update you go the more I like the art.... though, my favorite Bam is still the short haired one from the Hell Train arc haha

Anon said: Oh, wow, how stupid of me. Like 2 months ago, I sent you a message telling you how much I loved your work... and I didn’t see it on your page, or anywhere else. Finally today, I discovered I had an inbox where you answered me... 🤦‍♀️... I still love your work, by the way...

AHHH yeah I always answer off-anon asks privately! And thank you so much for still liking my things!!

Anon said: Have you read the last haikyuu chapter? How did you feel about it?

I’ve reread it at least twenty times and then I went and reread the whole of the last game again and it’s been three weeks and I’m still thinking about it more or less constantly and feeling giddy happy about everything that manga has ended up being, genuinely one of the best manga I’ve ever had the pleasure of following till the very end - that’s how I feel about it <3

Anon said: I really like looking at your art it’s so therapeutic it’s wonderful please keep drawing I want to support you on Kofi and patreon and yet I am broke please just know I love u very much ok bye

Ahhhh it’s okay anon! I try to keep as little completely unavailable for my followers as I can, and I’ll do my best to keep drawing! Can’t promise the fandoms will always be stuff you care about though haha

Anon said: This is my FAVORITE art blog. Is blog even a word that ppl use anymore?? Idk but anyways your kiribaku gives me life and cures my depression so ily and thank u

I’m so so happy to hear that! Thank you so much!!! TTATT <3

Anon said: just now realizing your oc looks like the human version of kamakiri

To be fair the only thing they have in common is the green mohawk, but I get where you’re coming from! I was very happy when Kamakiri’s official colors came out exactly cause he makes me think about my boy, after all xD my love for Kamakiri is definitely biased, in that sense haha

Anon said: Just wanted to let u know im very gay for ur oc giulia that is all thanks

Anon I’m gonna cry I’m so glad you like her!!!!!!!!!! She’s one of my oldest OCs out of that group, it’s always so thrilling to know people like her ;A; <3

Anon said: I really like how you draw kirishima’s hair

Thank you!!!!!!!!!!! I have a lot of fun with it, though it does mean it ends up being kinda off canon more often than not haha

Anon said: hi! just a random question but how’d you come up with your name?

Fran is my name! Erid comes from Eridan from homestuck! Art is what I try to do! And that’s the incredibly interesting story behind my screen name haha

Anon said: Heya, so i sent the ask about the person who i suspect either heavily referenced or traced your art (i sent another ask about this tho im not sure if it went through) anyway, it was posted by ****************** you'll know it when you see it i think

Ahhhhhh sorry for how long this took me to answer, I went to check and it’s!!! fine, I mean, would have preferred if they had credited but I don’t think it was completely traced so I don’t mind too much, I used to copy art of people I liked too back when I was first starting, after all haha

[oonajaeadira]

Adira,

When typing on my phone a common typo happens whenever typing your name, my thumb hits 'o' instead of 'i'.  I do it often enough my phone thinks it's a word... and I don't know how many times I said I should just keep it, it cuz it's true.

I can be pretty shy... I dont know how any times I type out a comment or message and then hit back, back, back until it's gone. For all kinds of people, not just intimidatingly popular and talented people I don't know, people I feel close to as well. I think, well nah, don't want to be annoying or just... I don't know- be static.

So I am kind of wondering what on earth gave me the push to DM you after finishing chapter 4 of Losing My Religion that early morning...Haha then I peppered your DMs with play by plays of my reactions to LMR updates... ooops.. even though you told me you liked them, I still kind of feared I was annoying you.

But I am SO glad I did. (Not annoy you...sigh, anyway) I can't even imagine this whole Tumblr thing without you (as you said more beautifully than I ever could, the trees of our hearts grow such similar leaves)... and if any of our chats or my recaps helped you stick with LMR and/or branch out to other characters, when we were just wee baby tumblrfolk, and everyone seemed wanted one very specific type of Mando fic... well, I'm thinking of sending myself a fruit basket!

I am truly in awe of your talent, you make any idea, prompt and request better, you create such beauty with your words and you are so wonderfully protective of your stories and characters integrity. You make it seem so easy (though I know you work very hard and have your own insecurities). I've never seen you act, but I've heard you and yes, I stand by what I said, Ezra would want to listen to your beautiful voice reading or reciting stories and poetry. (Speaking of that, I do plan to continue with the LMR recordings)

And you coming out Salem-way and getting to hug you irl was truly a highlight of the year for me as well. It was so generous and loving of you! This is the hallmark of your personality. Generous and loving.

Kindred, sister, friend, I love you dearly! Thank you for being my friend (now I have to stop because I'm getting a teary)

I Adora!

I think I read this three times through before I was able to move. And that seems weird, because you're Hazel, my Kindred, my longest pal in the Tumblrtown now IRL friend and yet I am floored like a starstruck teenager because the kindest person on Tumblr likes me.

When you came into my DMs I was shocked that anyone around here would want to talk to me, much less about my fic. And you were so so generous in your praise for LMR and, what's more, told me why you liked it and that you could see yourself in Little Bird. And that's what helped me keep at it. That I wasn't just writing a little adventure for myself to live, that someone else could have that adventure too.

You were so supportive, so funny and warm and kind, up with me at weird hours of the night...

I saw that you were often afraid of bothering and all I could tell you was the first truth which was "of course never, how could hearing such wonderful things from someone about your fic be a bother? How could kind words ever be unwelcome from someone so wonderful?" But if you ever felt you were being a bother, that is on me... I may have been shy and quiet because I could not tell you the other truth which was, "I'm sorry if I don't gush thanks right back at you, but I really can't believe someone came to my corner to talk to me and I just don't want to scare you away!"

But you took my hand and did not let go and I will always love you for it.

Then you came out of your shell and began being so very supportive of so many fandom writers with your big, beautiful heart. THEN! You started finding your own voice and writing. BRINGING GROGU TO LIFE and all the adventures at Juniper Cottage... And your Frankie.... You're the one that got me to watch Triple Frontier because I could tell you felt so strongly about him and I wanted to know more. That started me on a road of wanting to watch more of his stuff and know more of his characters. And, of course, the instigation. There would be no Bookshop without your gentle carrot dangling. And Bookshop became my heart. You pulled me gently out of my corner and into this fandom and made me feel loved and appreciated.

But meeting you in Salem, oh lady. First of all can I just say it's always been a dream of mine to be greeted at an airport by someone holding a sign with my name on it and that kind of just shook me. I know it's a dumb dream, but it's mine and you made it happen lol. And then the warmest, squeeziest hug...that was just the beginning of a lovely couple of days. I don't think there's anything more beautiful than meeting someone "for the first time" and feeling like you've known each other for ages. You made me feel welcome and adored and I had so so so much fun.

My girl. My Kindred. My Tumblr fam. Your bright soul shines here. Don't you dare erase your messages and take your sunshine away. You are one of the warmest lights here. We love to see you. I love to have you here. <3

[scarecoen]

Trigger warning ⚠️ domestic violence.

I've typed this story a million times so I'm just going to summarize as much as I can.

A few days ago I was assaulted by my partner's family members. And as I've mentioned, I've typed this a million times and I'm honestly just exhausted thinking about it, but we could use some help.

My partner has always had a transphobic family. (I don't have anyone but my dad, who's in no position to help anyone.)

Her mom used her disability against her and manipulated her into giving her MOST of her checks. She's abused the system and my girlfriend.

When I met Jackie, she was with a terrible biggot. Jackie had came out, and her mother conspired with an abusive long distance ex, to fly her here, to stage an "intervention" and stop my partner from transitioning.

It worked. For years.

I met Jackie here on tumblr, we became good, SECRET friends because she wasn't allowed to talk to anyone.

I told Jackie openly about my views regarding gender and how I myself, was not cis.

Eventually she told her partner about us playing games together, which she responded to by harassing me.

Jackie ended up spilling the beans to me, about her mom, about the ex, everything. I realized that she had been extremely isolated and controlled her whole life.

So I intervened.

I got the two of them to separate, which wasn't smooth because Jackie was scared. She had been with her abuser for 9 years at this point. She's never known anything else.

The ex moved back to her state, and I started seeing Jackie, although she was stuck at her mom's... who was trying to play innocent at this time.

Eventually, I kinda just came and picked her up, she stayed the night, she didn't want to go back home. And I can't blame her. The house wasn't only disgusting, her family microagressed her all the time and they would tell her to pretty much stay in a dark room all day.

Ofc I didn't bring her back.

During early quarantine, we had a lot of self reflection and she started distancing herself from her mother, coming around to holding her accountable for her horrible actions.

Her mom messaged her things like "Why won't you talk to me? It's like you're trying to punish us!" Ect, just every fucking manipulative thing she could say, without ever apologizing.

Unfortunately the place we were staying fell through when my best friend's ex husband decided he wants a divorce and decided to throw in some transphobic hatespeach towards me.

We were all looking for somewhere to go.

I'm sure you know where this is going but listen, she told us EVERYTHING we wanted to hear. She told us she's not hateful now, told us she would go to trans support groups, pride, said she's realized how much she loves Jackie and it's time to accept her- and look- we had NO WHERE TO GO. We have 2 cats and at the time, a car that has no a/c or functional locks. AND I have a chronic autoimmune condition that I recently started taking chemo meds for. (Methotrexate.)

I'm too sick to be on the street, and survive. I had to think about me, Jackie, Zoe, and Boops.

And Jackie wanted to go..

I told her we'd be cautious and try to get out asap.

Well, looking for places right when the housing market crashed really fucked us up. That- and because I had only just finally got approved for disability, means I was set back in life- and had no credit to my name. No credit= no place to live.

I had almost built enough, but things went down hill very quickly with her family. Which leads us to right now:

After weeks of microagressions, giving us breakthrough covid cases, yelling at us to clean other's messes, and forcing us and our cats to isolate in our room, many broken promises, and straight up transphobic hatespeach (because she promised to get vaccinated but then said nvm as soon as we moved in and she went on vacation and got covid and gave it to us, which nearly killed me--) she said not getting the vaccine "IS A CHOICE, JUST LIKE YOU BEING TRANS AND TAKING *gestures to my testosterone* THOSE DRUGS."

We just were avoiding each other while I desperately try to gather resources for us to get out, NOW.

Of course, that wasn't good enough, so when her step father messaged her in all caps about our cats having to stay in our room and "I WON'T FUCKING TELL YOU AGAIN" my partner had a breakdown..

Her mom had let her step dad talk to her like this her whole life, basically.

Out of desperation, we went to her sister for help, maybe hoping she'd give us a place to stay for two weeks while we sign off on the lease for our new apartment.

She pretended to want to help and even said... something fucking weird? She made the comment that I'm a good person and I'm so much like her own boyfriend, that it's "scary"...

A few hours later she came to the house. She talked nicely to us, to gain access to our bedroom.

Then she attacked me.

I called the police right before, and was on the phone with dispatch when she lunged at me because she was aggressively trying to MAKE Jackie go into a separate room WITHOUT ME and Jackie was saying no, BEGGING her to STOP.

I wasn't going to let her take Jackie into that room. She looked fucking crazy.

All of the family came into our room, her two sisters, her mom, and her cousin- When they heard yelling.

It was actually me telling her mom that she's a terrible mother, that triggered her sister to try and attack me- although I knew she was planning on trying to from the moment she came into our room.

And that was after her mom was screaming in my face that if I have something to say, say it now.

Dispatch heard everything and sent emt as well...

But the police stayed outside, talking to them for a WHILE before even asking for us.

Her cousin is the only one that would have stood up for me, saying her sister never should have tried to hit me. But he was in the room with Jackie, giving her support...

I faced the cops alone.

He already had "that look."

He shined a light into my eye, letting the family stay on the porch, throwing insults and just letting it happen. He asked me where I'm hurt, and before I could even show him the scratches on my arm, he said "how do I know YOU didn't put those there?"

I wanted to fucking die in that moment.

This is a conservative city.

No one has equality stickers here. No one flies gay flags. People here that are lgbt- they LEAVE.

This is EXACTLY WHY.

I said "well is there any reason I should tell you anything when, clearly, you're already bias?"

I looked at the emts. I looked at his partner. I looked at all the lights and people coming out of their houses-

And behind me was her family.

Her sister that assaulted me, was laughing about having work in the morning.

All of them were looking at me, with hate in their eyes.

He tried to feed me bullshit about "well if I'm taking someone to jail, there has to be proof."

He dismissed everything I attempted to say, until I just stared at the ground and he decided he did his job here.

I told him my whole fucking body hurts because I had 4 people fucking toss my 100lbs ass all over the fucking room, which was a mess that he refused to look at.

He said "I don't see bruises."

I SPAT "BRUISES TAKE TIME?"

He retorted IMMEDIATELY- "YOU'RE NOT EVEN RED."

I asked what about the dispatcher- she seemed concerned- to which he said "you see, sometimes when people call us- they scream and be dramatic- for a quicker response."

I asked what we could do while the two weeks go by for our new place, and he fucking said "I DONT KNOW. BARRICADE YOURSELF IN YOUR ROOM OR SOMETHING."

Needless to say, we are now safe, in a hotel and I've gotten in touch with a few lgbt organizations that are attempting to help us get justice.

Unfortunately because it's a holiday weekend, all we can do is wait right now.

Our first order of business is getting a protection order, so that we can retrieve the rest of our things without her sister trying to attack us again. (I say us because she kept jumping towards Jackie, like she was threatening to hit her.)

I've been so gaslit and victim blamed that I was too scared to go to the er, even though this all happened in the midst of a flare, possibly including my liver health.

There's so much more to this story, as I'm sure other trans people can relate.. unfortunately.

The emts reluctantly offered to take me to the er, but I was like "and leave my partner here with them?" And he just fucking shrugged dude.

I hate this city.

I want out so bad but unfortunately I've committed to a year, but at least it'll be *our* apartment.

We could NOT stay there for two more weeks. Her step dad is a violent offender that has attempted to murder a homeless prostitute over some fucking pocket change- and he has a GUN in the house.

This hotel might run us into a hole, despite it being the cheapest, shittiest hotel in town, it's still going to be about 700$ for ONE week.

To ADD INSULT TO INJURY, SOMEONE ATTEMPTED TO STEAL MY VEHICLE WHILE WE'VE BEEN STAYING HERE.

I'm feeling incredibly paranoid and unsafe, but I'm on anxiety meds now at least and its SORTA helping us cope (My partner and I have the same Dr and she gave her permission to have some.)

The organization BRAVO is trying to help us with a hotel voucher, but because of all the natural disasters, it's hard to find room in charity for people like us, which is fair enough. We aren't immediately on the street, and for that I'm incredibly thankful.

However, if you or anyone you know wish to help you can donate to venmo: kittyzibby. Or you could just signal boost this.

If you can't help, I understand. And IF YOU'RE STRUGGLING FINANCIALLY, don't worry about it, for real.

Right now I'm just scared we'll go into debt before getting the apartment settled in.

I will update on things once our case moves along more, and we were already considering turning to OF sexwork before all of this, so if there could be support that way, maybe we'll get that going once we get moved in. That way, I feel good about providing a service in return.

Thank you so much for sticking with us during all of this. And really- we're doing much better today. We've given each other pep talks, but we are still determined to start our lives together.

Her family was merely trying to scare me away from her, but I got my girl's name tatted on me for a reason.

I know I'm not the bad person here.

Every time Jackie is feeling more gender euphoric, and showing me her changes, and seeing her get more confident, the more I know that what I'm doing with and for her, is right.

I love her so much. And I will never abandon her, like they tried to get me to do.

Jackie is taking a break from some socials, but she's given me permission to talk about what's been happening.

She needs justice too.

I will update as much as I can, but seriously, I think we both just have a fire under our asses now.

Mentally, we're stronger than ever.

Thank you for reading. My heart really goes out to the rest of the queer community that have experienced or are going through similar things.

It's really made me realize why we need to stick together and fight this bigotry bullshit! 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈

[potentially-lemongrass]

hey! um i wanted to ask a bi queerstake member whose dated about this, um I want to marry in the temple and I know that means I'll have to marry a AMAB person, is it bad that I want a nb/nb aligned masc person or at least a bisexual or asexual partner? i feel like i wont find someone like that, I just want someone who understands and is also queer but also fits kind of with the church narrative. is that weird? you dont have to answer this I just wanted to ask since no one talks about it i guess

honestly my perspective on dating has changed a lot since meeting B so I might say something completely different to what I was saying in previous months. (and of course, as always, this is just Ryn’s Opinion TM so take what you will). Also, looong post incoming as this is also a bit of a life update/journal entry since it’s been a while. I’m using B to respect his privacy and as always, I know that i’m super personal on here but please don’t try to doxx me or find out more than I’m willing to share <3 I’m slightly paranoid so I feel like I always need to say that. 

ANYWAY, I am still decidedly bisexual ✌ and so I’ll fight against bi erasure all day long since I’m a cis woman dating a cishet man. I will never be a straight woman and B totally understands and respects that. However, it also doesn’t exactly matter?? since I’ve chosen him so I’m not dating any men OR women.

Before meeting him, I was thinking about dating in the abstract especially since I really never had a serious relationship with anyone. I was fantasizing about dating girls and feeling deeply cheated that the Church was robbing me of that opportunity. I was angry, deeply depressed, and just generally not in a good mental place.

Coming to college was when I decided I wasn’t mentally going to “do” Church anymore. I skipped a few Sundays, and still signed up for Institute but I was angry and very determined to distance myself from the Church. I had to know if I even wanted to do this with my life and part of my master plan was getting a girlfriend. (although with the caveat that dating a girl, *just* to date a girl and not a guy, isn’t the best plan and I should have been more focused on romance)

I didn’t expect to meet B and when I did, I was deeply worried about getting a man who was “Peter Priesthood” and I would never be able to share my queer identity with him. B isn’t at all like that. He spent enough time around the queer kids in high school to really get a feel for the struggle and he’s never ever made me feel weird about it. He’s even encouraged and asked me to talk about it so I didn’t feel like I had to hide anything.

I came to two conclusions (well, maybe two and a half). 1) I’m definitely bisexual. Over the summer, I had briefly wondered if I was a lesbian and comp het was just taking its toll. Nope. Men are hot and my bf is absolutely a snack. So if anyone is looking for advice about figuring out sexuality, just try dating someone. I totally believe that you can know your sexuality without experience but it most definitely helps if you know what you’re talking about.

2) I missed church. I hadn’t realized it until I walked away but I truly do have a testimony and I longed for the presence of the Spirit in my life. So I chose to turn back. I read my scriptures and prayed sincerely and listened at church. No, I’m not entirely happy with the Church. There are things that make me cry and cringe and grit my teeth, but I have decided that I want to be here.

Part of that realization was B. My friend asked me if I could see myself getting married in the temple and I realized suddenly that I could. Suddenly it wasn’t a faceless man dragging me into a suburban life of mommy minivans and LDS conformity. It was the thought of B and I, holding hands and promising each other forever in the most eternal sense and it was me, making covenants with Heavenly Father. He and I both know that I’ve always had real joy in my life when I was doing my best to keep His commandments.

What I really needed was to accept my queer identity and feel like I could date girls if I wanted to. Finding B and finding my testimony were linked, as wild it is to say.

Not to say that that road would be easy. I’m not even close to being ready for marriage. B and I are figuring things out, both between us and with the Church. If faith was neat and simple, it wouldn’t be such an enduring theme throughout all of history.

 But maybe sometime in the next 5 years? Maybe in 2-3 years? I might be Mrs. Lemongrass. (pffft yes we’ll assume we’re taking my tumblr url as a last name lmao)

SO now you’re wondering about how that applies to your actual question. There will definitely be people in the Church who match what you’re looking for. My philosophy is that there really is someone out there for everyone. You’re trying to forecast for the future which is great and necessary but love doesn’t happen in the abstract. A Relationship TM isn’t some nebulous concept or a copy and paste letter. It’s what happens when you and a specific other person like each other a whole lot and it goes from there. Your relationship won’t look like mine or your parents or anyone else’s because you and your future partner are unique people.

So you totally may find someone in the Church who is queer and down for a temple marriage. Keep in mind as well that you may also find someone in the Church who is cishet and that works too. Just because someone isn’t queer doesn’t mean they can’t understand--assuming no one will ever understand you has always felt arrogant and dismissive of the power of empathy imho--so a cishet guy could be just as amazing.

So there’s no need to feel bad about wanting a specific type of person but don’t close yourself off! Enjoy the journey and put yourself out there with confidence. No one is good at relationships; they’re inherently awkward. You’ll say dumb stuff or fart in front of them or they’ll overshare and you’ll panic. Just trust the process, laugh at yourself, and realize the only thing you can really do is live in *this* moment. I hope this doesn’t sound condescending at all! This is just all my big sister advice that I can think of. Remember that you are loved, always, always, always by our Heavenly Parents and They’ll help you figure stuff out.

[dearhaos]

bye bye 2020, hello 2021 !!

happy new year everyone!! there’s a lot of people i want to thank for making last year so much more bearable so i tried writing some messages for some of my dearest mutuals this year as well!! (keyword tried because i absolutely cannot put my feelings and thoughts into words. i love you all though and thank you so so so much!!!)

@angelhyunjin : angi!! i know you’re not on here anymore (actually i just found out . i ran to twt to find u as quick as i could!!) but it felt weird not?? putting you on here because you WERE a big part of my year!! i was always excited to chat with you and i rlly rlly loved (still do) seeing your art and your dance covers i can’t believe how talented at both you are!! you are really really lovely and even if it’s been a while i hope you know i still think of you and hope you’re doing well!! this year might have been hard but i hope 2021 will be much nicer to you because you definitely deserve it!! i love you!! 

@cinanamon : stephie!! i think we haven’t talked in a while until we started suddenly bonding over minho but all is well that ends well because now we are the founders of a minho cult and that’s all i could hope for in life i think! we don’t talk that much but seeing your tags in all the minho posts is always a TIME i absolutely love reading them! thank you for being there to lose it over minho, always, but also for being there in general! you are really sweet and i do love to talk to u!! i also know you are a really good writer so i hope 2021 brings you lots of inspiration to write more!! (and i’ll finally catch up on your fics too! hehe) happy new year!! 

@cocogoat : puppy !! i think we haven’t been friends for long actually and that sounds fake because that would mean there was a time i didn’t instinctively check your blog when i woke up in the morning (or the evening let’s be real)?? you are so! adorable and for what!!!!!! i really do love seeing you pop up in my phone notifs and reading your posts even if i dont have any idea what they’re saying half of the time unless it’s dgrp (i cannot believe i have a dgrp friend now. amazing i think i won) u are so funny and so cute and i’m really glad i got to know you because!! you’re such a nice friend that i! love! times can be hard but i hope 2021 is gentle with you because that is! what! you deserve! gentle pats and tight hugs! (maybe that’s why i associate ab6ix’s heaven with you it’s the gentle vibes) <3

@glossiers : miss bri i am in love w u that’s it. no i’m kidding that’s not it i have much more to say . i am in lov w u though #brillie2k21 i think. i think it’s been a surprisingly short time since we’ve actually started talking?? which is kinda crazy if u ask me because?? how the hell did i live my life without screaming BRIIIII whenever i see u on the dash like for real how . that sounds like a life so empty like. that would rlly be missing . something?? anyways u are a dear dear friend that i really really love and i’m sure you know that but i will keep saying it anyway! i’m sure i’m pretty annoying so thanks for putting up with me! and for talking to me! i feel like i’ve said it before but! you are a delight to see on the dash and i lovlovlov talking to u (and sending u pics of my cats, thank u for appreciating them). i still cannot believe u managed to convince yourself i was a hyeongjun stan though. hope i can be convincing enough to clear that up and leave no doubts in your brain this year. anyways i love you and i hope we can continue to be friends and talk even MORE this year!!!!!! happy new year ilu <3

@hwacinth : miss dia my sweet sweet floral nymph real life shirayuki and queen of urls! i am? so so so so so glad that we are friends you literally have my heart it is YOURS i can’t even try to claim it back!! you literally are shirayuki i don’t even know how to elaborate i think it’s just self-explanatory but you are just. such a sweet little sunshine!! it’s like you bring spring everywhere you go!! we could be in a middle of a metaphorical storm but when you appear the skies clear up and flowers bloom wherever you step and i cannot help but smile when i see you online!! thank you so so much for being my little ray of sunshine in these tough times! i hope to see even more of your posts this year!! don’t hesitate to live blog anything you watch in my dms if you feel like you’re posting too much (but i hope you never feel that way because you’re not . love seeing u live post it is absolutely amazing i won’t ever get tired of it)!! happy new year and i love you!! ps only 1 more hour until your birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIA ILUUU <3 I HOPE YOU CAN HAVE A WONDERFUL ONE!! IM SENDING YOU CAKE TELEPATHICALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@hwisgf : sorinaaaa! happy new year!! we don’t talk that much but it is always nice seeing you around! you are vv sweet and i really appreciate that, thank you for taking the time to talk to me sometimes!! you are also probably my only fantasy mutual?? which is terrible on one side because i think everyone should stan sf9 but that’s besides the point . i really do love the fact that i at least have u to talk to abt sf9 if need and i LOVE seeing u in love with hwi it is absolutely amazing. i am forever grateful for all the free hwi pics days too!! <3 i hope 2021 can be a year full of happiness for you!! (also that is also besides the point but @ fnc i want an sf9 cb announcement) ILY!! (and so does hwi)

@inkigayeo : miss vivi galaxy brain happy new year!! we only started talking recently but u do have my heart already!! i hope this year treats you well and that we can get to know each other more and be friends hehe!!!! <3 (my other wish is for u to stop breaking my heart with those fake titles. please . why should san NOT come back explain yourself .)

@jeongcheols : mimi . mimi mimi mimi im literally typing this as u are listening to that ten n dj stage ok now it’s kai ok anyways . ANYWAYS i am loving your sm concert live commentary . criminal is sounding amazing taemin is insane indeed (yes i took a break before coming back to writing this) i truly don’t know what to say?? n i have to keep watching the time so that i can scream HAPPY NEW YEAR into the mic in 14 minutes. but like?? i love you?? like. like for real i don’t know what i would’ve done without you?? also it’s weird writing this for tumblr instead of just in your messages (also i can’t focus with idea playing. idea soty). and i mean. you technically know all of this but like?? i can’t believe we’ve known each other for so long but also such a short time at the same time like. what. thank you for being my bestestest friend and my soulmat i don’t think i would’ve been able to remain sane this year (and last year too honestly) if it wasn’t for you?? thank you for always listening to my incoherent rants and i’m always so sorry for spamming you while you’re asleep i know you must wake up to like 150+ messages with absolutely no connection between them and they’re all just so random i truly don’t know how you manage to not get annoyed and to just stay with me all this time i’m- getting emotional. you had a terrible year, i know it! i really do!! and while it might not be looking too bright right now, i hope the universe hears me and treats you much better in 2021 because!! you deserve so much more!! you deserve the world, really!!! i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i would write more really but like what is there to say literally i’m just (your emoji)) i love you for real;;

@nakyngs : ele <3 happy new year!!!!!! we haven’t talked much this year but i do think of u a lot daily i hope you know that!! and i love u a lot! even if i still need to catch up on all your aus </3 i hope 2021 can be a fun and stress-free year for you!! and we should catch up sometime too!! ps i hope your fish are ok

@ncityzen : dear spring fairy!! i already sent you a new year’s message earlier today like what. 6 hours ago but! once again!! i really do hope you can leave the hard times behind in 2020 and only get the best things possible this new year!! i’m always very happy to see you appear on my dash and curious to see your life updates and your random literature-related mini-rants in the tags they are always very interesting to see!! so! hoping to see even more of that this year <3 i hope you know that i love you and i really care about you!!

@woojjongs : MISS IRI! i am screaming this very loud so hopefully u can hear me all the way in canada! okay i had to leave this one for last because i?? don’t really know how to start i’m just a pink glittery puddle with lil hearts flowing in it that is how i feel towards u right now . how does one think and how does one write down their thoughts coherently give me a second. this is going to be a mess maybe u shouldn’t read it (‘accidentally’ forgets to tag u). just know that i decided to play txt’s wishlist to write this and u might be confused by that but all u need to know is that it means i love you very much. OKAY so miss iri you are . such a wonderful pal i truly don’t know what i would’ve done without you like . it would feel so weird not seeing you around tumblr would be so so so so empty i don’t even think you can begin to imagine how empty i’d feel without you around here ksdjbskbds i absolutely adore you but we already knew that. i’m always super excited to see your gifsets and your nonsense!! be it your love for woojong or u missing lim jimin (play m.. 🔪) or your snoo brainrot or hating literally anyone on smtm or whatever else it might be i love it all!! you are so cute and adorable and talented and sweet and funny i cannot believe you also happen to be the prettiest person on earth too. how does that feel! anyways i love you so so so so so much? i keep telling you to hold back from committing crimes but i absolutely WOULD commit a crime for u i really do adore you!! i mean . how many groups did u make me stan . (ok actually i don’t think there’s that many. but STILL) i know i can be super annoying but thank u for taking the time to chat with me nonetheless!! i’m all over the place but . there’s times i come online literally just to check your blog nothing else! i hope we can continue to be friends this year too n perhaps talk more (or the same amount idk please tell me off when i’m too annoying)!! happy new year, i hope it holds wonderful things in store for u!!!!!! and we really are starting off great since victon comeback is approaching <3 (this got way too long i’m so sorry i’ll cut it off now before i write 10 pages)

@xiaocity : miss siya hello hello hello first of all i’m just so very glad that you’re back i l o v e you!!! i love seeing you around be it your gifs or your text posts which yes. i cannot properly understand half of the time but google is my best friend after all! you’re such a wonderful person and i’m just?? really glad to have you around like?? you feel kind of like a cousin i don’t always get to see but am always excited to talk to when i can? this might not make sense but. you are vvv cool and talented and funny and feel very like. reliable? i feel like i am not making any sense so like ignore me. what i’m saying is i really really like you a whole lot and i really hope we can talk even more in 2021!! happy new year, i hope it’s a wonderful one for you!!

@yunwoo : miss anna we haven’t been moots for that long and we haven’t talked much but u are vvv cute and i hope we can become (better) pals this year!! i’m looking forward to seeing u on the dash more often, hopefully!! happy new year <3

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Wanted to ask about beetlelyds, sorry, I thought it was technically cannon? Like in the old comics after the show ended she grew up and married him. Sorry I’m an old school fan and have no idea why this whole thing is such a big deal. Wasn’t the actor like 20 too? I’m sorry if I sound very dumb. I’m not used to this new tumblr.

youre fine you are one hundred percent allowed to especially when you do it civilly as you have done here

first of all the biggest issue faced in the whole what is and is not canon debate is the fact that there are three (four if you count the limited comics run) publicized iterations of my media

i will go over each very briefly just kidding this is going to a long answer so i will spare the dashboard with a readmore

there is the movie which im sure you dont need me to explain the plot since youre an old school fan but basically the climax is that yes beetlejuice does go for the marriage angle in exchange for stopping the exorcism of adam and barbara and his motive for this is so that he can cause as much chaos as he wants on the mortal coil but his plan is thwarted when barbara rides a sandworm into the house which promptly eats beetlejuice sending him to bureaucratic death limbo

the end of the movie features the deetz and the maitlands happily living together with lydia havign a new appreciation for her situation and beetlejuice gets his head made real small which is very funny haha 

so no in the movie they are not canon editors note the actress who played lydia winona ryder was a teenager while filming the movie she turned 17 the year it released 

the next is the cartoon which i will admit has the most grounds for being considered canon but in the end the show is about a middle schooler and her best friend who is a ghost which in itself is a pretty iffy gray area sort of thing but for a childrens cartoon to work a friendship is better than the obvious enemy status they held in the movie

anyway in the cartoon they are potrayed to be very close friends with lydia being the person beetlejuice cares about the most and honestly if you were to watch it with no prior knowledge of the media and if you ignored their massive and obvious age difference than yeah you probably would read it as a romantic relationship 

however lydia is a middle schooler and that is simply immoral

there have been writers for the cartoon who have been credited to say that a relationship is what they were trying to invoke but for obvious reasons they couldnt exactly move forward with that angle with them establishing that lydia is a child in middle school and a fully grown adult man dating a child who is in middle school is immoral and also illegal in the united states and in canada 

this isnt a good argument for whether or not something is canon and i will tell you why with one simple name and that is luke weber

if you dont know who luke weber is he was a storyboard artist on the cartoon steven universe he is known for making a lot of self ship artwork of him and the character pearl

he worked on the show isnt his material canon no of course it isnt it wasnt put in the actual publication and also if memory serves he was eventually asked to leave the project after he drew art of the shows creator giving him permission to date pearl and calling them her otp and a lot of fans hated this because the most generally accepted interpretation of pearls character is that she is sapphic so a lot of people took issue however that again is just a widely perceived headcanon it is never stated what her actual sexuality is no one in that show is because it isnt a show about that its about wait im getting off topic sorry

what im saying is what can truly be considered canon is what you see on the screen and with the cartoon they are definitely the most friendly with each other and that is why so many people in the beetlebabe shipping community take so much stock in the cartoon because it is the easiest to read the relationship between the mas romantic although that is not what the show actually provides in black and white terms

interpretation does not equal canon and in this case no matter what anyone says the fact remains that in the cartoon itself they are friends good friends yes but friends all the same

it is definitely not a show about a grown man grooming an adult and if it were you definitely shouldn’t be stanning it the extreme because grooming a minor is wrong and it is apparently a problem in the fandom

anyway if the cartoon and the movie are both products of their time and there was more leniency on content bear in mind this was the same era as notorious animation powerhouse and known predator john k who was a showrunner on ren and stimpy and he maintained a relationship with a teenager which was an open secret that nobody really took issue with because in that time being a woman in the animation industry was tricky business and your career could be ended easily if you rejected advances luckily time has moved forward and the animation industry although still full of problems of a similar nature at least people are getting called out and punished for it

you can look more into that yourself its really upsetting though

as for comics i havent been able to find good scans of them and im not willing to purchase them but in my search i never found anything about the two of them ever being married in the cartoon again because she is a child i did find a cover where he appears to be getting married and hes asking lydia to get him out of it but im not sure where the comic actually goes all i know is she is standing off to the side shrugging and looking like she doesnt really care

anyway that brings us to the musical which is set in the modern day 

in the original libretto lydia is described as thirteen but since they got an actress who was older in the updated librettos she is listed as 15 and the story is pretty similar to the movie the young girl befriends ghosts and they try to scare her family out etc etc

the major difference between the film and the musical are that lydia and beetlejuice are more like friends like in the cartoon 

she summons him to help scare after the maitlands attempt doesnt really work so he shows up and they have fun terrorizing people together however she drops him for the opportunity to perhaps get her mom back but when no one will help she goes back to beetlejuice who tricks her into almost exorcising barbara

she agrees to marry him in order to stop the exorcism and he only wants to get married so he can be alive again and cause problems on the mortal coil like in the movie in the musical he states several times its a green card thing whihc obviously doesnt make it okay but still

anyway lydia tricks him and runs off into the underworld before the wedding can happen blah blah blah she goes back blah blah and she agrees to go through with the wedding to save her friends and family with a plan to make him go away for good

theres a very tongue and cheek song called creepy old guy which points out how wrong the whole thing is but everyone is going along with it in a very comedic matter and it includes the line 

i cant believe some cultures think this kind of things alright

basically saying yeah this is very very wrong anyway they do get married and beeltjeuice is alive for like 6 seconds before lydia stabs him to death with bad art and he dies thus nullifying the marriage because death do you part etc

so in the musical no at the end of the show they are not canon because he is dead their marriage is nullified and they go their separate ways

anyway sorry about that i just need to make it very clear that these three properties are all very distinct from each other and basically all three are indeed canon since they are publicized material and arguing the validity of which one is pointless editors note all actresses who played with the exception of dana steingold were minors for the majority of their runs as lydia with sophia ann caruso the originator of the role turning 18 during the run and dana being in her late twenties presley ryan however was a minor the whole time and still is one

tldr no they aren’t canon but to the credit of some people in this fandom their interpretation isnt too far of a stretch thanks to the era and some of the writers wishing to imply a relationship between an adult and a child

i also need to address how this is all a big deal and i suggest you take a peak through my discourse tag and check out @leedia‘s blog to see some of the more harmful things done by beetlebabe shippers

the beetlejuice fandom is home to many minors after the musical came out since musical fandom is vast and the ages of its members varies and normalizing pedophilia is harmful to them not to mention the people who have been effected by sexual harassment at the hands of adults

both sides have victims of csa but one side continues to perpetuate the cycle by showing time and time again that this behavior is normal and easily romanticized in the name of coping and literally anyone who has ever been to a good and credible therapist could tell you that posting cp even if it is simulated cp isnt a really good way to cope and you can get mad at me for saying that its totally fine but and im going to remove my character veil here for just a second as a csa survivor myself i think its harmful to not only myself but many others ok the veil is back down

tldr again there is a lot of bullying and harassment going on with both sides having their own issues but there is one side whos issues run a bit deeper in my humble opinion 

thank you for your question it allowed me to talk a lot you are welcome to discuss further with me in dms if you wish i honestly recommend giving the musical a listen because it is very fun and despite what some people say its very clever and if you get a chance to see a boot of it its visually stunning

one last note that i couldnt really fit in here but a large portion of the beetlebabes shipping community ignore the musical because it openly condemns the idea of beeltejuice and lydia having a relationship and a lot of the antis take issue with much of the writing and characterizations of the cartoon just a note that i think is important since were talking about canon