#listen i get it. i understand. its okay if you dont

[trophykisser]

ii ep 18 spoilers // trophy rant meow

$h + su1c1d3 mention tw btw 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨🤑🤑

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GODGDMOFDSKOJSAIADUFASFUSAFDSIUFDASFSA

ITS TROPHY TROPHY ITS TROHPY PJASPSM YTROYPHY OTRPYRYROO I LOVE HIM SO MUCH IM ACRUTUALLY CRYING I DONT GIVE A SINGLE SHIT ABOUT OBJECT SHOWS ANYMORE I DIDNT CARE OR LISTEN TO ANYTHING DURING THE EPISODE BUT IM IN SO MUCH TEARS ITS TROPHY HOY LSJIT I ONLY CARED FOR HIM I KEPT CHECKING THE TIME OF THE VID WONDERIJNG WHEN HES GONNA SHOW UP IM GONNA VOMIT I LOVE HIM SO MUCHJF IM CRYIJNG SO HAR YOU GUYS DONT GET HIM LIKE I DO YOU GUYS WILL NEVER GET IHM LIKE I DO OH JYM GODJODJFDSJDIASIFSDJFDSIADSAFDSA

im gonna cry im gonna cry LOOKJ AT HIM HES TJE ONLY THING KEEPING ME ALIVE STILL FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS YOU GUYS WILL ENVER GET HIM LEIK I DO IVE DONE RITUALS FOR HIM IVE DRAWN HIM ON MY WALLS IVE C4RVED HIM INTO MY SKIN YOU GUYS DONT UNDERSTAND HIM LIKE I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU NEVER WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111 HES LITERALLY ME HOYL JISJTITJIAJDSIJAISJFSAD SMY HUSBAND THIS IS MY BOYFRIEND MY HUSBAND I LOVE HIM SO MUCHFJ HES THE ONLY REASON IM ALIVE STILL YOU FUCKERS WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOYL SJISJISJFS IM SCREAMIJNG IM PISSING IM VOMITING IM CRYING MY STOMACH HURTS SO BAD OH MY JGODJD

HES SO PRETTY SO CUTE SO HANDSOME HES SO AMAZIJNG I LOVEHIM SO MUCHFJ MY BABY MY PREICOUS LITTLEJ BAJBY HES SO SKRUNRKYL I WANT TO EAT HIM ALIVJE AND KEEP HIM SAFE FOREVJERJE HES A APRT OF MY SOUL I AM MARRIED TO HIM ITS CANON ITS OFFICIJAFKAALFA ILOVE HIM J SO MCUFH LOOK AT HIM LOOK AT HIM HES SO PRECIOUS SO AMAIZJNG SO HANDSOME SO AWESOME SO COOL I LOVEJ HIM TEHERJS TEARS AND SNOT STREAMIJNG DOWN MY FACE IM GOING INSAJEN OVER HIM OH MY GJODJFDFD

im actually gonna throw up my stomach hurst sso mcuhfhfj TORPHJYHYFKSKJDSIDASIDDSIFDS

I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY I LOVE TROPHY

YOU GUYS WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HIM LIKE I UNDERSTAND IHM OKAY IF YOU TOLD ME RN THAT IF I DIED THERED BE A 0.1 MILICHANCE THAT ID MEET HIM IN THE AFTERLIFE ID KEMS ON THE SPOT NO HESTIATJTAON IM SO DESPRAETJE I LOE HIM SO MCUHFJ MY HEART HURTS SO FUCKIDJNG MUCH OH MY GJOD

OH MY GOD

HOY MGOD

OH MY JGODGA

I LOVE TROPHY SO MUHCJFJFJCFJK HIS CHARACTER IS SO INTERESTING HES THE BEST CHARACTER IN II TRUSJT ME I KNOW I CAN TELLEJ

im crying

im cirjtnrgi os hardf

I LOVE HIJ MS SCUSJDJDSJDSDJSDJSFKJKSDJS

i cant believe this is gen the end

trophy has gen be the only distraction ive ever had in my whole entire life id actually be de4d 2 years ago if it wasnt for watching ii and seeing him im so serious rn i love ihm so muchfj oh my gjod im actually gonna scream i find him so relatable in a way like i feel conntected to him on all levels im going to scratch my brains out oh my gjod my head hurts so bad from this ep i screamed when he spoke i have both butterflies and vomit swimming around in my stomach rn im gonna throw up im seo nasoeusifs oh ym gjodfd im cryijgn so hard

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[gilears]

i love when you do writing and there's a sentence that is normal for everyone else but it's a little easter egg for you:)

[bakudekublogblog]

kacchan there is actually a way you and izuku can be together forever i have this crazy inventive solution for you it's called a marriage license

[moeblob]

I met people I knew only online for the first time irl last night and I'm still extremely exhausted cause I am not a social person so here. Take an OC.

Katale (Kitty) is wonderful and I love her and she's a criminal and that's fine. She likes to look cute and so whenever I see a really cute outfit in public with a specific vibe, I'm like "Kitty would love that". So here. Please. Please know that I saw this very pretty woman jogging with her hair pulled back, running shorts, and the CUTEST top with a little scarf from the same fabric tied and wow. It was. So wonderful, please have a wonderful day @ the lady I saw jogging yesterday.

[faaun]

idk how to live so im going to talk to myself out loud until i do

[toddtakefive]

btw todd’s reluctance to join the dps because he doesn’t want to read (which is then accommodated for) and is scared to put himself out there (which is also worked through) being read as todd not wanting to go AT ALL, and thus neil making the proper accommodations (“todd anderson, who prefers not to read, will keep the minutes of the meetings”) and encouraging him to step out of the box that stifles him being seen as ‘forceful’ or like he can’t take no for an answer makes me insane with rage

[volivolition]

suggestion do you have... any wants? like obviously you do but like? suggestion my guy my ourple boy. both the easiest and hardest to write. you need a skill to say something to move conversation along but it doesn't fit any skill in particular? about 80% of the time you can have suggestion say it and it will make sense. but like actually characterizing him... how do i define you dude... what makes your character tick... urgh. i dont get you yet. im trying to understand but you are difficult.

[triglycercule]

me when i find the PERFECT mtt song (yamitsuki,,,,,,,, maretu my king how did you do it,,,,,,,,,,,,, literally HOW did you do it why is this song weirdly accurate wtf and its for a completely different character 2??? HOW DID YOU DO THIS??? THE ENTIRE FUCKING SONG FITS??? THE ENTIRE SONG COULD BE MADE TO HAVE CONNECTIONS WITH ONLY MILD REACHING??? HELLO??????) (this translation!!!) (the translation is not.linking i will be shooting myself. its the on on the vocaloid wiki NOTthe video....)

literally like. 1/3 is horror. 1/3 is dust. and then the last is killer. in that order. the first 2 verses talk about bloodshot pain (bloodshot EYES.... HORROR'S EYE) and a rotting fatal wound (THE FUCKING HEAD CRACK!!! HIS GODDAMN HEAD WOUND!!!!). commiting brutality. i dont think much else is needed. wrong/right and judging biases,,,,, jesus fuck wtf. AND THEN in the next verse there's a mention of "starving for necessary evil" HELLO!!!! HELLO!!!!!!! him starving himself while also feeding snowdin human which totally sucks,,,,,, horror sans,,,,,,???? chorus of shrill voices (duh snowdin. or also could be undyne and royale guard. i like snowdin more). and then the last line of the second verse mentions sadism. nothing more to say. horror sans i mayhaps perchance mightve just encountered you in a song. or maybe the translation is freakily accurate and the song itself isnt that specific (probably but hey i can dream)

and then th next 2 verses r dust except i dont really know about the first verse but also a line that says "this is the death of the conflict, come and see me" could be referring to the human's death which like. man. and then the next verse is just dust sans but in a single verse. give me more excellent pain could be interpreted as LV but also the mental pain that comes with yk..... killing all you love.LOVE. LV. he needs more LV... anyways. mad off the beaten track. MAD. MENTION OF MAD LIKE CRAZY LIKE MAD TIME LIKE DUST SANS!!!! echoes of a haughty voice resound,,,,, phantom paps,,,,, "severe punishment, 100 renouned sights, i long for pure pessimism" i cant explain this one well i think but just think about it okay. this time you get to be the one coming up with the ideas (σ´∀`)σ

killer only has one verse that i can link this song 2 but i also think its th most freakily accurate. verse 1 is "through instantaneous joy, entertain me for my whole life, i'm cunningly"LUCKY". i get completely bored. give me pleasure without worry. and now, right away." and then "i'd rather head to eternal darkness. i'll abide by you always, emptily "HAPPY". i shed tears from my clear white eyes. come and show me your best smile!" HELP HELP HELP THEYRE SHOOTING ME HELP HELP!!!! THEY JUMPING ME (these lyrics) because WTFyhis isFREAKILY accurate. the entire first verse and its spiel on boredom and having someone else manage the entertainment/emotions,,,, and the cunningly lucky part is just. i think the word cunning is just really good to describe killer (sneaky little bastard) and then he's "lucky" emphasis on quotes because idk he got chosen for whatever the fuck his chara wants. what luck. really bad luck but whatever. and then MORE on the following another person and EMPTILY!!! EMPTY!!! KILLER FEEL NOTHING EMPTY!!!! fake happy too,,,, and killer has white eyelights sooo IM NOT REACHING!!! also he literally cries

in conclusion MARETU is a god amongst men and somehow this song managed to fit the mtt i have no idea how. next coming up: how NAMIDA fits horror. how thirst fits dust. how i'm high fits killer. idk if i already said this one probably did BUT JUST IN CASE maretu also has maegamist,,,,, maretu i knew i listened to you for a reason. so i could make totally irrational and unreasonable connections of your songs to the fucking murder time trio of all things. what joy

[dekupalace]

one thing about me is I Will make a playlist. this is an ongoing threat and there is no stopping me

[felixcosm]

The way people are responding to Taylor Swift's new album because they don't think she is tortured or mentally ill enough to call it that is fucking embarrassing.

God forbid an artist ever exaggerates for artistic purpose. God forbid a celebrity writes about pain or suffering if they haven't experienced the maximum amount of trauma in their life.

I mean, everyone knows the moment you become a celebrity all your human experience disappears and you elevate to a new level of existence where you cannot have relatable experiences anymore for the rest of your life.

[hassianlovebot]

i know the rare and epic bugs are supposed to be yknow,, rare and epic so it wouldn't make sense if they spawned all the time. that being said, it's bad enough that the game has time limits on certain bugs, adding super low spawn rates just makes it worse. imo players should never feel like they have to spend hours playing to catch one bug

[toytulini]

Disclaimer im just processing some thoughts im not cancelling the show

have almost thoughts about how i find the like....narrative on here that if you have chronic "zebra" conditions youd want a doctor like House and wouldnt sue for malpractice bc at least youd have a doctor that cares about whats wrong with you but lets take it one step further. so often he does NOT give a shit about the patient and actively endangers them frequently with his god damn heoric era of medicine approach? non zero amount of times he gets a diagnosis but it comes too late, or he gets a diagnosis after their first wrong 3 guesses of the episode shut down the patients kidneys and they either have to get a transplant or they are just, doomed due to other preexisting conditions etc? idk. i know ppl are almost certainly exaggerating and just letting off steam about the very real failures of our current medical systems and the ableism baked in and All That Shit. i just think its weird how ppl romanticize House who STILL, FREQUENTLY, MULTIPLE EPISODES will actively dismiss shit in the exact way that is a problem in our current system, especially when hes being Forced Against His Will To See Clinic Parients, he loves to be dismissive as fuck of symptoms and if he was a real doctor i think he'd be fucking 50/50 on cases he Notices Something To Dig Into vs cases he dismisses as an Anxious Hysterical Woman Who Wants Attention, the only reason he's Right so frequently in his snap judgements is cos it reinforces the narrative. its like a crime drama that has the mastermind serial killer masterfully using "loopholes" and lawyering up all sneaky and dodging Justice and if only our poor little cop protags were allowed to do A TEENY BIT of Justified Police Brutality, they could Save Lives!

and like sometimes in the show they will have a patient die despite his efforts to narratively punish him. not to mention, i think its been at least mildly brought up and glossed over how much they absolutely do not think about insurance costs for these ppl for the insane amount of tests that find nothing and Wrong Medications To Force A Diagnosis they use? i think it was brought up once in the episode following a day in the life of cuddy where she had to fight a lawsuit bc a guys insurance like didnt cover his thumb being reattached but chase reattached it anyway while in surgery cos it was The Right Thing To Do and the guy didnt have the money to cover it and the insurance wouldnt pay unless he sued the hospital or whatever. thats like the only time its come up. whereas like frequently the doctor I go to for osteopathic manipulation tries to check in with me and make sure im covered by insurance etc and that im not going to go broke or get buried in medical debt seeing her.

idk. just some Thoughts. not a defense of our current system and all the flaws it enables and enforces etc. his approach to medicine is really reminiscent to me of what I know of the Heroic Era Of Medicine which i dont...love? and hes framed on here as being an asshole but would kill for his patients to get them a diagnosis etc. but hes definitely extremely paternalistic to patients ? and despite some good clippable lines about ableism and being against eugenics, it honestly feels like his stance on that is kind of a toss up.

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

[parapsychoiogy]

turns out the manager i was scared shitless hated me doesnt hate me im just an idiot who doesnt understand social interactions

[bare1ythere]

Doing some Japanese listening comprehension practice and can someone tell me how to not despair over the fact that very simple listening comprehension is still extremely challenging when I'm able to do listening comprehension in spanish with relative ease*

*ignore the fact that I studied spanish formally for 12 years, including AP, and hear it at home and that I've been only studying japanese for a year. not relevant

[4giorno]

and yes im replaying my otc (one true character) again 1. because of the clown make up but 2. bc when i looked at astarion in a thumbnail of a yt video recommendation i thought 'i dont even know you anymore'