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bluebanisterscoded · 3 hours ago
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It takes two for a tattoo
summary:You decided to surprise chris with a tattoo,not knowing he would do the same
warnings:kinda smut?,mentionings of y/n (i think) lmk if i forgot any
english isnt my first language
dont copy please!
4PM
You were scrolling on pinterest and saw a picture of a girl who got her man’s initial’s tattoed on her ass and smirked
You immediatly called the tattoo shop you always go to and not even 10 minutes later in you pyjamas looking super tired you went to the tattoo shop
4:30PM
you walked into the tattoo shop and went to your friends tattoo station and sat down,you showed her the tattoo you wanted and you spoke up “and girl the initials have to be c.o.s alright?” your friend answered “yeah girl will do,also im ordering some food you want some too,maybe show me the other tattoos you want too?” you quickly answered “ofcourse girl,you know what i like,i’ll pay in the tip”
you showed her the other tattoos you wanted too and she started working on them
7PM
You had just texted chris the pic of some tattoo’s you got,and right now your getting the last one,wich are his initials
You texted him these pictures:
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After getting your last special initial tattoo,wich took 10 minutes,you went to chris’s house at 7:30.
8PM
You ringed the doorbell and nick opened the door and spoke up “hey y/n chris is in tve kitchen,we just got done eating some canes” you smiled at nick and went inside
You walked up to chris and surprised him by oressing a kiss to his neck and nuzzling your face in the crook of his neck,chris spoke up “hey ma,where you been?” you answered “i got some tattoo’s baby,but can we go to your room?,im tired”
you and chris went to his room,and when you showed him all the tattoo’s you got he stopped you
chris spoke up “i actually got a tattoo too” he pulled his pants down a little and his shirt up,and you could see a red kiss tattoo on his hip,still half covered with his vivienne westwood boxers you bought him
you looked at the tattoo and back up at chris “you got my lips tattood on you?” chris answered “yeah mamas i did,but i think im gonna have to look at your tattoos a little closer”
you are so getting railed tonight.
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lucy---lou · 2 days ago
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Part 17 Lucys-hdg-story
I wake up in a cocoon of vines. I feel safe and relaxed and decide to fall asleep again.
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"Time to wake up little one."
"Njjjooo more cuddles", I mumble.
"Alrigth you can cuddle a bit more"
I didn't expect is her to just stand up wiith me inside her. That'll do I guess. We move put I can't see anything from inside her.
"Good morning my little Ellie, sleept well?"
"Good moring Mistress. It was alright, but Lucy wasn't there to cuddle"
I feel a pang of guilt and pull on a vine to tell Misstre Miss Duralis to let me go. The cocoon opens and I am lifted out.
"I'm sorry I - don't know what to say. I... I ehm sorry for leaving you.", I embrace Ellie in a tight hug.
"That's relly cute of you thanks, but you definitely needed the core cuddles. But you do seem surprisingly lucid."
"After a while I moved some leaves between her and my core, otherwise I don't think she would be thinking right now"
"Your core? sorry I didn't mean to go up your privates. I thought is was a big stem or something like that."
"Oh my little kitten, you and Ellie both have a very special place inside me. That includes my core"
"I .. ehm", don't know how to process that," Soooooooo breakfast? Cereal please", I distract. An eeep escapes my mouth as we are picked up on deposited at the table. Cereal is placed in front of me and I just stare at it.
"Can't eat yourself anymore? Do I need to feed you?"
"No- no need to, I was just lost in thought."
I take a spoon full and then begin to stare at it again. Not really at it more like into the nothingness behind it.
*tap* yeah cereal is good
*tap* I chew, wait - oh. I blush again and look at them dumbfumbled.
"I can-" *tap* *tap* "-feed myself"
"Well you were struggling so I'm helping you"
*tap* *tap*
"I was just-" *tap* *tap* "-lost in thought!"
"Sure cutie♡"
"Could you-" *tap* *tap* "-stop?"
"Well petal"
*tap* *tap*
"We're finished anyways", Misstr Miss Duralis smirks,"Your are a natural at receiving commands. Makes me think you want this"
"No! Why should want this. This is humiliating. I can feed myself. I can-" *prick*
"-meow mreow. miauw meow mauw. meowe mrrp mreeoowwwww", I cross my arms and - get petted. I turn away from them and still get petted.
"Is my kitty angyy, awwww", Ellie kisses me.
"skeeecchhhh", I hiss at her. Water is sprayed in my face.
"Bad kitten, we dont attack florets"
"meowwwww", I shake the water of my face and hop of the table. Well I hop of and then get gently lowered to the floor.
"What did I tell you kitten"
"Meow miau", I pout.
Ellie can barley contain her laughing. I walk over to the compiler and hope it can understand catspeak.
"mrrp meow mreau, meoww?"
"Coming up kitten", the hab chirps. Atleast the hab can still understand me.
I grab the cardboard box and lift it over me before I settle down underneath it and sulk. Great they're aawwwing me again. Even worse Ellie is full on laughing at me.
After I while my box is lifted with me inside it, flipped over and closed, tumbling me around. I get carried away.
I poke out to see where I am and spot a plushy. I lift the box grab it and hide again.
"awwww"
"so absolutely adorable, hab please tag this recording"
"Recording tagged, Miss Duralis"
"Thank you"
"grrrrrrrowoworrrr"
"Even cuter"
My pad is slid into my box and I happily accept the distraction it provides. Until Ellie texts me.
Elnolongerlonely: Hey I hope you come out soon. I'm really sorry. I miss you.
Cuddlekitten: Heyi, maybe dunno. Maybe never.
Elnolongerlonely: I won't survive that.
Cuddlekitten: Im sure miss Duralis won't let you die. Also why are our usernames different.
Elnolongerlonely: I think mistress changed them. Can I atleast join you in the box.
Cuddlekitten: fine if you have to
Elnolongerlonely: Yayyyyy, I'll be there in a sec.
The box shuffles a bit an Ellie joins me.
"Hi cutie", she giggles
"miau meow"
"Oh, oops forgot about that. You dont need it to cuddle anyway"
"moewe"
"You'll be fine", and she cuddles me. It actually helps me calm dawn and I feel my self doze of.
-Yes Lucy sleeps alot, that's her way of processing things. Also it's an easy way to start and end a chapter. Call me lazy.
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soulidarity · 3 days ago
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focused on your senses
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after the bond between the two gets stronger, rafayel senses the blurred line between them
hurt? maybe???? | mentions of rafayels condition | check my notes at the end!
rafayel felt an agonizing amount of pain on his left knee, waking him up from his slumber. it wasn't unusual for him to feel discomfort there when walking, but he never had experienced this, it felt foreign.
as if the pain wasn't his
his brain was spiraling with a million thoughts as he tried to make sense of this, fearing that the cause of this was her.
as quickly as he could, and in a very clumsy matter, he reached for his phone on the nightstand. 12:08, she should be at work. he didn't know if that relieved him or made him worry more.
a ring...
then another...
the pain became stronger, as if needles were constantly stabbing it. moving it didnt seem to make any difference to the amount of pain, not what he usually experienced when he had bad knee days.
another ring...
a grunt could be heard on the other line
"kinda busy yel!" the familiar sound of her gun shooting was heard in the background
"did you hurt your left knee?!" he said frantically
"thats totally not an oddly specific and not a creepy thing to say out of nowhere" another gunshot "yeah i did- how do you... nevermind, can i call you back?"
"yeah, yeah for sure. just, please, stay safe"
the call disconnected, a deafening silence. rafayel took of his shirt and went to the bathroom mirror, the pain once again didnt seem to react to his movement, just a constant. the image of his reflection confirmed his theory, his bond mark glowing.
"ugh... fuck."
hours later, the sound of his number pad lock being unlocked drew him away from his thoughts, as a very agitated mc entered his home, throwing her bag onto the kitchen counter halfhazardly. he would coo at the domesticity of the action if it wasn't for the situation they were in.
"okay, what kinda lemurian bullshit did you pull?"
taken aback, rafayels eyes widened as he guided mc to the couch, raising her left leg onto the foot rest nearby, "i didnt do anything!"
"then how did you know? the wanderer had literally just attacked me when you called. which by the way, new rule. no more calling during work hours unless you're dying. just text me"
"it sure felt like i was dying" rafayel muttered, pouting.
"...huh"
"okay so remember how I told you that when lemurians bond our senses are focused on our partners?"
"yeah... your point?"
"i now feel the pain youre in, it woke me up"
"you were sleeping?"
"i dont think thats the point cutie!"
"right, you're right. sorry just... deflecting, I guess? this is a lot. like, im in pain most of the time so this isn't good"
"that isnt good by itself" rafayel argued "we can focus on that later, first this. why did it show up now? havent we've been... 'bonded' for a while now?"
he thought for a while, trying to come up with a recent significant event of their relationship "could this be the first big injury you have since our trip to the dessert?"
"actually, yes. but ive been in pain before these days" rafayel looked at her sternly "we'll revesit that later, but i think i could've confused it with pain from my own stuff, like, my bad posture and other stuff"
"so what do we do? i can't just not get injured, it's part of the job, but i don't want to hurt you"
"clearly it only bothers me if its a very significant injury, which I really hope you don't get. I wont stop you from doing your job, we'll figure it out as we go, okay?" he geabbed her hands, a reassuring smile on his face. she looked back at him warmly "alright, get me some ice"
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hiiii i have some word vomit to do about this so bear with me or stop reading
1- if you dont know what condition raf has, its been said to a lot of time in canon that he has a hard time running, walking, standing, his resting posture even shows that he puts more weight on his right leg. he is also going blind 🤓☝️. i want to explore him losing his senses and abilities due to this undiagnosed issue and starting to feel more from mc from the bond. it is said that his senses are now focused on her, this is probably not what infold meant.
2- lately ive been dealing with my own health issue, to get better i have to do stuff that cause me the same pain that my illness does so i dont take care of my self much which i know is bad in the long run. so yes i am projecting onto yel leave me alone 😔
3- i think this might be a series! i want to explore other senses, not necessarily angsty though!!!!! i love fluff. life is way too dreadful to not have a bit of wimsy writing about two fictional characters
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snugglybunny11 · 6 hours ago
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collegeroommate!vi comforting you pt.2
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pairing! collegeroommate!vi x reader
about! morning after you got stood up for a date, vi came to wake you up and check on you
cw! mentions of crying, red eyes, besides that just fluff
word count! 673
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you woke up in your bed, blanketed by used tissues all over. you rolled over on your stomach, groaning into the pillow as you tried to come to terms with actually having to do stuff today. images of that stupid, backstabber Maddie Nolan flashed through your mind. her short ginger hair, her warm smile, but to you it all just seemed fake. how come every girl you meet doesn’t like you back? even the nice ones? you had to be cursed or something, like that stupid demon lord from the Nana manga. that’s when you heard a soft knock on your door, followed by the creaking of the door being opened.
“hey… you awake?” vi’s voice cut through the silence of the room, her hushed tone already starting to soothe you.
not moving your face from being pressed in the pillow, you lazily raised your thumb at her. vi chucked at your gesture before taking a small step into the room, taking in all the tissues on your bed. it wasn’t fair that stupid Maddie could affect you like this, make you cry all night. she took another step towards your bed, brushing aside some of the discarded tissues before taking a seat, the mattress creaking a little under your combined weight. vi’s large hand came to rest in your shoulder, gently shaking you.
“come on, i know you aren’t asleep. talk to me, alright?”
you groaned as vi shook your shoulder. you knew vi wasn’t going to leave until you talked to her, despite all your mumbling and grumbling.
“im fine”, you spoke, your voice muffled by the pillow.
vi leaned down to whisper in your ear, “you’re just saying what you think i want to hear. you know im not leaving any time soon, so you might as well make it easier for the both of us.”
that’s one thing about vi that annoyed you sometimes, she was persistent no matter the situation. reluctantly, you rolled over on your back to face vi, a pout spreading across your lips. your eyes were puffy and still a little red from crying all night.
“there? are you happy now? i told you im fine, go do something else.” your voice was rough with sleep as you squinted your eyes to shield them from the late morning light.
“right… because a person who’s totally fine would definitely be surrounded by tissue in their bed. got it.”
there goes vi’s signature sarcasm again. but, you suppose it wasn’t completely unwelcome. it made you feel a bit better, but then again, when doesn’t vi help make you feel better? you knew she was right, it was a super flimsy excuse considering the puffy and red eyes, tissues in the bed… it’s frustrating that she’s always right. you sat up against the headboard, your sleep shirt slipping a bit further off your shoulder. before you could come up with some kind of response, you felt two strong arms wrapping around your neck. your cranky attitude melts away like ice as vi gathered you up in your arms and held you close. you returned the hug by snaking your arms around her waist. the two of you stayed like that for what felt like eternity, and you wouldn’t mind if you actually did. but eventually, vi withdrew herself, leaving you with a lingering warmth wherever her body was pressed against yours.
“how about now? are you still going to say your “fine” or are you actually okay now?”
you just nodded yes, your throat going dry when you thought of something to say. which was… weird… because you never had problems talking to vi but now you’re body is having some kind of nervous reaction? no, you’re probably looking too much into it. you haven’t drank any water since last night, perfectly good reason why your throat is dry. simple as that.
“good”, she says, her voice a bit gentler than before. “now get up and brush your teeth, yea? i think there’s some waffles waiting for you…”
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not-your-damsel · 1 day ago
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Serious question, and by no means does me saying that he’s my least favorite character mean that I hate him. Just want to preface that because the Rafayel lovlies out there, I fear, would eat me alive. Leave no bones behind if you will.
Um…
Why doesn’t this man sound like he does in Tomorrow’s Catch-22 ALL the time?!
The way he sounds in the event makes me wanna sit, listen, obey🧎🏽‍♀️. As I said, I don’t hate the guy by any means, he just drives me nuts lmao. I care about him, don’t wanna see anything happen to him, but his everyday character’s speaking cadence and intonation tap dances on my last nerve. I have zero romantic attachment to him and he’s also somehow the only character I have 2 (hopefully 3 with this event) 5 star cards for. He’s more like the guy friend to me that I keep friend zoning time and again - poor barnacle boy. I’ve only been able to complete one half of his Myth in Philos, he sounds alright there, too. But in this event and when I used his trial character as the sea god in Abyssal Chaos, his voice is pleasantly different. No nonsense-like. Maybe that says a lot more about me and my voice kink (🤧 Sylus) than him, idfk anymore lol. Like, shit, didn’t know he had it in ‘im! Apart from his usual voice, his fingernails drive me up a wall, too. War flashbacks, you feel me? I been traumatized inside out, like… lemme stop before I lose all my dignity. 🥲 I was a younger woman, alright? I didn’t ask for a hand inspection before anything!!! That may be some folks’ cup of tea, but out of all the characters, there better be a goddamn Lemurian reason for his nails being more fire than my own, okay? He’s also the only character who, when I first saw him, I thought looked like he stepped right out of a 3D Kpop group. He is genuinely a handsome looking grandpa man, but I’ll forever be weak for Sylus types. The fuckin’ discrete cinnamon roll that he is. I’m gonna torture my Mom with Zayne’s pics from this event 🤫😈. She stay wanting to climb that man like a tree. Good for her 😌🙂‍↕️.
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thenexusofsouls · 9 hours ago
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"What? Oh, uh..." He really had to be more careful what he said. And he couldn't very well say that he could eat it but that it wouldn't do anything for him, because that would come across as even stranger. In fact, that was the issue with all human food. He could eat it, but it wouldn't really do anything to actually nourish him. And honestly, if he ate too much of it in one sitting, his stomach tended to go nuts. "Yeah, it's... not a good idea for me," he settled on, hoping that would be enough of an explanation while not arousing more suspicion about him.
And then he screwed up again. Well, it wasn't screwing up so much as it was Wade's inability to lie. He was naturally such a truthful guy that when asked about something, he just... answered, whether he should or not. He could tell she wanted to know more, but he couldn't very well say that he'd stopped aging. How the hell would that sound to her? She'd start to think he was batshit crazy. "Oh, it's uh... it's not important, trust me." That... wasn't really a lie. Vampirism was his own problem to deal with, not hers. Wade wasn't sure his answer was going to be overly satisfying to her, though.
When the kitten curled up on her lap, Wade shook his head. "He knows how cute he is and he's totally usin' it against us, you realize that, right? He knows how to work the room, heh." He laughed at her Buzzy Bumblebee suggestion. "Yeah, with how much this guy vibrates, that's a pretty accurate name. We could call 'im Bee for short," he offered.
When they were ready to leave, Wade waited for the woman as she made some purchased up at the counter. He would've been happy to pay for her, but she seemed to want to pay for things herself, and he wasn't about to overstep his bounds. Being nice was one thing, and being pushy was quite another.
Going back outside wasn't pleasant, but at least it wasn't too far of a walk to his truck. The woman seemed to be along for the ride, and the kitten was settled, so after it was agreed that they'd head over to the pet shop, Wade put the truck in gear and left the diner parking lot. It wasn't hard at all to find the pet shop with the gps, and soon they were parking in front of it. "Alright, jailbreaker... if this is your home, you're busted," he said to the kitten. "Don't worry, though. We'll get you some nice stuff.
The kitten watched Wade speak very intently, as if it was actually paying attention. It was still purring on the woman's lap, just happy to not be alone and in the company of warm humans. Then it mewed with a sudden burst of energy, looking around as if it was excited to go to the store. "Alright, let's go, he said to the woman, getting out of the van. He assumed that she could carry the kitten into the pet store. Where else would an animal be allowed inside like this if not at the very type of store at which it was sold?
The soldier bunched herself up under the desk, palms pressed to her ears with enough pressure that she could hear the squeak of her joints. She was trying to block out the noise. The angry shouts as she disobeyed direct orders. When had she entered the office? One minute she'd been searching the aisles...
well,
Shallow breaths
A tap on her shoulder, sending her jolting alongside her racing heart, wide eyes searching for the source- an elderly woman with a light laugh, and an apology for startling her. She was only reaching for the milk
Bright, fluorescent lights
Constant chatter and clanging and beeping that was not, in fact, a heart rate monitor, and was instead the tills as the cashiers scanned various items
Too many options
kind of.
At some point she'd passed the bakery, and a small child in a cart had wheeled by, holding a...
And then she'd found herself in the office. The door was locked from the inside. The desk had the indent of fingers on the edge of it's surface, as though imprinted in wet cement. One of it's legs wiggled like a snake. Both still gleaned with the sweat of her hands.
The manager kept slamming on the door, shouting and raving about calling the police, and company files and trespassing. And yet she was frozen in place. - For Wade, sadiebrin
@sadiebrin
"Donuts or muffins?" Wade muttered to himself as he looked around the bakery section. His head tilted to one side, then the other. "Eh, they each have their good points..."
It was supposed to rain today. Not just rain, thunderstorm. So far, though, the sky had gone dark for a couple hours and it had gotten rather windy, but so far... no rain or thunder. Perfect weather for Wade to do a little shopping during normal human hours without fear of getting too impaired by the sun. He'd felt a mild tingling on his skin when he stepped outside, but... not too bad. And really, he just had to go from his apartment building to his SUV, and then from there into the store. He could do that standing on his head, so... time to shop.
Being a vampire sucked, pun intended. Needing blood all the time was not only unappealing to Wade, but it was massively inconvenient with his schedule and lifestyle. And he refused to give up the foods he loved, even if they did nothing for him nowadays. At least he could eat whatever he wanted without fear of getting fat or developing heart disease, since whatever made him a vampire seemed to regulate his body to keep it in tip-top shape without him having to do much of anything.
His deliberations on exactly what kind of indulgent human food to buy were interrupted by a very distressed woman staggering from near where he was toward the back of the store. Confections could wait. Wade followed her, sensing that something was very wrong. When she went inside an office and slammed the door, Wade stopped and watched as the manager began pounding on the door like a child throwing a tantrum. "Really?" Wade mumbled to himself.
Making his way to the door, Wade laid his hand on the manager's shoulder. "Take a breath, okay? I think she's havin' some kinda problem." The manager was taking too many breaths, as it were, and spouting more boisterous nonsense about how she wasn't allowed in there, and if she didn't come out right this instant he was going to called the cops!
With an irritated smirk, Wade reached into his pocket and pulled out his wallet. "Dude, relax, I am the cops," he said, flashing his badge just fast enough for the manager to see something that looked official but not long enough for him to actually read that it only said government licensed bounty hunter on it. It worked, and the manager took a step back from the door. Only one. Wade looked at him like, you gotta be kiddin' me with this bullshit. "Yeah, you wanna gimme some time here, man? I'll handle it, don't worry." With that, the manager huffed and left to deal with an irate woman who couldn't find the type of cheese she wanted and was making it everyone else's problem.
"Hey... miss?" he called through the door. "You okay in there? Need some help?" He was trying to get through to the woman but also sound as non-threatening as he could manage.
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kdramamilfs · 26 days ago
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Within Temptation, Antwerp 2018 (©Hugues Timmermans)
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fisherrprince · 4 months ago
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Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,
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#sorry it’s how my brain works (sometimes can only see things in terms of tv scene-)#tumblr exclusive video fancy…#dcmk#my art#(quietly coughing and spluttering) OK alright I can feel the creative brain explosion slowing down. geez#coughs.#nyways. weird that there hasn’t really been a main case where poison is involved in a certain way#If I watch my own scribbled boards for too long im gonna get too embarrassed to post. Send post#Subarus hair is still infuriating by the way like take that off your normal hair is easier. The beanie is easier#you like Have to have the side corners on this haircut or it doesn’t look right#anyways. shiho ptsd moments I think she kind of gets irritated that shinichi doesn’t react the same so when he does she gets like#weirded out and vindicated and a little protective. Like woah wait. Love that you understand me rn don’t like that you feel bad I am going…#to…………. ssssssssssit here about it…………………………….. uhhhh. do you want. a rubix cube to get your mind off it#I don’t want to talk about my feelings I just want you to get it. you don’t wanna talk about your feelings either which is……………. Hmmmmmm#I like her. love of my life miyano shiho#masumi sera#conan edogawa#ai haibara#akai shuichi#let conan swear. HE SWEARS A LOT BUT LET HIM SWEAR IN ENGLISH I KNOW HE KNOWS THEM#man needs his emotional support akai family they like him#rigorous trials to being approved by the akai matriarch but everyone else likes him already and have already picked him up multiple times#and shuichi would let him swear
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ruporas · 2 years ago
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post ep 11
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plusydney · 2 months ago
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whitney the bully more like . whitney the bullied
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girlivealwaysbean · 4 months ago
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mann im going to get my blood reports tomorrow and im lwk scared
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faaun · 1 year ago
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Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship
#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it#it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper#provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the#interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after#50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked#his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it#he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from#when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has#his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever#but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how#we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe#cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna#back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed#practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence#we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one#who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted#to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say#goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art.#you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea?#if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa#the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding#his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.
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hauntingblue · 3 months ago
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Last arcane episode ever..... here we fucking go....
#50 MINUTES YEAAAAHHH!! IM SO GLAD THEY HAVE BEEN GETTING LONGER THERE WAS NO WAY!!!#the last drop no..... YEEEEEEEEEEES EKKO!!!!!! OH MY GOOOOOD YEEEEEEEES always a dance with you OOOOOOOOHHHHH she even has the same hair 😭#is she gonna build the new zaun for isha.... like vander wanted for vi and powder.... 😭😭😭 with ekko 😭😭😭#watching jinx kill herself over and over is something else that was so funny.... im sorry but ajdkansk#WHATS WITH THOSE CUTS WHATS GOING ON.... WDYM WE ARE MEANT TO LOSE THIS FIGHT??? IN THE FUTURE HE SAW RIGHT???#OH ITS THAT GIRL VI IS CARRYING OMG BUT SHE IS LOOKING FOR JINX!!! NOOO SHE FUCKING DIEEED AMBESSA IS A BEAST!!! DID THEY GET CAIT???#VANDER NOOOO OOOH ITS VIKTOR TOO!!ITS OOOOOOVER maddie being there still..... a consensual workplace relationship... cait....#LORIS!!!! VIIIIIIIIIIIII caitlyn looks so good..... and vi too.... but did they run out of armors.... the guy who left his family DIED TOO!!#caitlyn that was so hot.... they got her.... MADDIE!!!! WHAT THE FUUUUUUCK I THOUGHT THAT WOULD NOT EEEEEVER HAPPEN!!! AK WITH HER OWN GUN!#OH MY GOD MEL!!! MADDIE EXECUTED FOR HER CRIMES!!!! i know people are cheering!!! JINX ON HER BLIMP!!! the egg was a distraction.....#jayce be ready for your divorce.... THE HALO!!! THE VOICE!!! his voiced softened when he said to see you omg... SEVIKA NOOOOOOOOO#cait and mel joining forces to maximize their joint (literal) slay against ambessa.... and vi and jinx vs vander.... cruel#beef squashed..... no way she died????? omg... we havent seen caits left side.... and she was bleeding.... one fear. VIKTOR IS SO TALL!!!#how does it feel to look up jayce.... also jinx saying they are always together 🥺🥺 they are flying again.... omg jinx looks so scared...#OH NOOOOOO SEE CAIT HURT HER EYEE viktor saying they want better lives but emotion clashes with reason after a season of just that.... omg#series thesis.... this is actually so meta if i may say so.... vander and silco.... jinx and vi and the rocket... cait and ambessa....#and finally jayce saving viktor.... and jayce searching for the arcane after he was saved as a kid.... all of it..... ALL OF IT....#THE BOY SAVIOR!!!! VIKTOR IS BACK!!!! HE WANTS HIS PARTNER BACK OMG#YES THE MAGE IS VIKTOR!!!! OH MY GOOOD!!! ONLY YOU CAN SHOW ME THIS! CAITVI FUCKED ON SCREEN AND SOMEHOW THIS IS GAYER!!!#JAYCE!!! YOU ARE ALRIGHT!!! EKKO MADE THAT WITH AN INVERSION OF JAYCES RUNE!! OF COURSE!!! THE WTO MEN AND THE ANOMALY!!!#they are literally adam and steve... VI OMG!!!! SHE CANT TAKE IT NOOOOOO JINX AND VANDER!!!! NOOOO EKKO ALONEEEE NOOOO#SEVIKA COUNCIL MEMBER!!! CAIT GAVE HER HER SEAT!!! AND SINGED AND HIS DAUGHTER!!! MEL WHAT THE HELL!!! BACK TO NOXUS???#caitlyn seeing that jinx escaped through the air ducts... yeah..... she is on that blimp#can you believe we ended arcane with two happy lesbians..... like everything went to hell jayce and viktor saved it and disappeared....#through it all one thing remained.. two lesbians in love <3 can we get an applause for two lesbians in love.... they made a band about this#(love of lesbian)#talking tag#watching arcane#watching arcane season 2#you know towards the end the characters looked a lot more like normal 3d animated... idk how to explain it
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opens-up-4-nobody · 11 months ago
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#its seems we really may be at the end of vanity#i missed a call from my dad and thought we might be in a connors birthday situation but no. not yet#he did say that it feels like this is it bc my mom's situation is complicated bc she has so much wrong at this point#its like a h0use md episode. the doctors dont seem to kno what to do and shes not very coherent#so my dad was saying that i should look at flights and by tonight hell let me kno if i should pull the trigger and buy a one way ticket home#it sucks. he sounds rough. i feel so bad for him. his wife of 29 years is dying#its not fair. shes only 53#i wanna be there but im stuck here across the country. i wanna go home. thats a bit frighting tho bc itll take me at least 10 hrs to travel#and i dont want her to die while im in the air but i also dont want her to suffer#i hope she gets better but if she doenst i hope its fast. there dont seem to do any good options. shes so tried and its so complicated#and if she does get better than this then what would that even mean? my sister says it doesnt feel like there will b a better anymore after#this. and bless her to the ends of the earth she reached out this morning and was giving me updates#comforting to kno im not just being dramatic. its actually just really bleak#its kinda funny tho. my sister was like meh it doesnt seem so bad and then like 10min later she was like yeah no i was wrong its sorta#horrible apprently shes been deterorating#god. if i go back home do i take clothes for a funeral? do i keep up to date with my genomics class? will i become offset from my graduate#cohort? will i get my wish to play with legos at home? all questions worth considering#well. ill deal with whatever comes. so it goes. itll b fine. i mean ill b fine#just sad ya kno?#three weeks ago she was alright and saying she could fly out to take care of me after oral surgery#now shes dying#unrelated
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subaru-meteorlight · 3 days ago
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the very incredible experience of scrolling phaidei thirst trap fanart and thinking “if anybody saw this on my phone im gonna get outed as gay” before realising that im perceived as a girl so. ??
#😭😭😭???? I’ll take this as a win! ok!#unironic win in mindset considering my ‘accidentally misgendering & deadnaming myself’ game is crazy#trans#anyway *goes completely off topic* I WANT a to play more hsr but there’s straight up nothing to do anymore. I cleared it all.#if you wanna get real I suppose I still have the dreamscape pass thing but that’s only 20 jades#also I can grind out simuni and divuni for occurances and curios that are still missing for 20 each which is actually a lot#but that falls under doing the same thing over and over again hoping I get a new entry at some point which is sort of insane behaviour#tbh I did that for aven back then so 💀 sure dude… let’s do it for phainon too…. get me outta here…#ohh… new divuni is coming out isn’t it? alright that’s something#I kinda wanna pull Robin but it’s because she’s so meta it’s disgusting#she’s /alright/ but I don’t go anywhere near crazy for her#aven buff…. perfect aven team….#I only pull characters im off the walls about I must stick to my principles. no fun playing a character you don’t love#I say as if I didn’t pull topaz#I need my ip3 aventiopaz red blue yellow trio propaganda. they look so fucking good next to each other#starting to learn I may be very colour combo oriented when judging ships#i do like mydei a lot but gameplay leaks 💀 also img 💀💀I have a dps problem and another img dps is not gonna fix it#anaxa… anaxa…………….. apparently he might be the bitchy type… lmfao my fav… honestly I’d prob end up loving him#which is like great but also please I have a goal and I need to lock in#uuoruuhgg I’ll see how much I end up liking him. or how good his kit is. or how busted phai e6 is. or how feasible e6 phai would be atp#wind dps would save my life tho.#for phys I could still be using Clara (point and laugh) but wind is coverage that im completely missing
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widevibratobitch · 1 year ago
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my god. skinny people really just have like. No Idea huh just absolutely not a single clue lmao it's almost funny to watch fr but then id lie if i said i wouldn't fucking kill to be able to be that ignorant
#girl i am SO sorry people react with surprise when you say you're studying to be an opera singer because you're#*checks notes* skinny and attractive. so so sorry that must be literal hell for you huh how will you ever recover :((((#no no please keep talking about how equally bad that is to the brutal fucking fatshaming and ED glorifying#in the industry that me and the only other fat girl in the room were talking about before you interrupted us <3#anyway. we were talking about this one review of a quite famous professional music critic whose only comment about a fat mezzo in the cast#was 'miss xyz.... lose some weight'. not a single word about her singing/acting/whatever. but yeah no you're too sexy for an opera singer#and THAT is the real problem here girl i totally understand yeah <3 thoughts and prayers dearest.#earlier that same day this same girl was standing next to me in her bodycon dress and went#*pointing at her stomach that's so flat its almost concave* 'ughhhh what do i have to do to not look pregnant in this dress 😩😫'#and i said 'girl' and just looked at her and like the sudden horrified realisation on her face was lowkey hysterical#like omg you really did forget you're not talking to your other skinny friends with whom you can pat each other on the backs#and reassure each other that 'dw girl ur not fat at all ur so so sexy!' huh sjshsjshsjs#but yeah i dont like making people uncomfortable irl so i did reassure her she looks hot and pretty and skinny as all shit#let at least one of us have a nice evening and not feel Absolutely Fucking Disgusting ig <3#and the day before that after i saw our (last ever btw never photographing myself with them ever again <3) picture and had a mini break down#the other even skinnier and smaller and petite-er crouched down next to me with the most guilty fucking expression and quietly asked me#if im alright and do i want her to delete those pictures (that she posted on two separate social media pages) and like#the look of immense fucking pity on her was even worse than seeing those pictures#like i know she meant well and was trying to be nice but my god. this really is how you all see me huh#like looking like me would be fate worse than death for yall#not even gonna mention the thing i just learned this friday that the retired ballerina who leads our ballet classes said about me#trying to cheer up the other fat girl who happened to have a bit of an emotional breakdown in the middle of the class :)))))))#like i am sooooooo so glad and honoured to be an inspiration to you. really. always happy to help. the exemplary Fat Girl Who Fucking Sucks#But Doesnt Let It Bother Her <333333#like on one hand. yeah it really does make me wanna jump off a cliff. but on the other. its just hilarious sjdgsjsgsj#you sure are right miss ma'am. i sure don't let this bother me at all. i am famous for my uncanny ability to Not Be Bothered by all this <33#but shes new. its ok. how could she know about the last two years when i was getting panic attacks and sobbing myself to sleep every tuesday#but yeah no. [lauren cooper voice] am i bovvered? am i bovvered tho? i aint even bovvered!
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