#like. i wouldn't be upset about not having a period anymore and not worrying about pregnancy

[bigmeandragonlady]

so i went off my birth control about a month ago b/c i was spotting so i figured id just let my body cycle but i still haven't gotten a period. was telling my mother about this and she's like "yeah your grandmother went through menopause at about your age"

i see

[coffeeailee]

an extremely bad day .

chars . sigma , fyodor dostoyevsky , nikolai gogol , osamu dazai x fem ! reader ( SEPARATELY )

fandom . bungo stray dogs

synopsis . of course females have to deal with periods , which is an extreme nightmare for females due to how painful it can be , luckily your boyfriend is here to save the day and help you with your period !

genre . fluff

warning . CRINGE , NICKNAMES ( DOVE , BELLADONNA , ETC )

note I : probably ooc , error spelling / grammar ( THIS IS MY FIRST TIME SO PLZ BEAR WITH ME 💔 )

When he realized your instant mood change, he could've sworn yesterday you were so happy ! And now you ... looked really mad. He thought he had committed something wrong or thought you misunderstood something, which made him extremely scared. Poor sigma, he doesn't even know what was going on until you explained how period works and the side effects.

Eventually, after he was finally done dealing with the casino customers, he immediately went there to comfort you and tried to help you by cuddling with you as you groaned and complaining in pain due to how painful the cramps were.

Of course your boyfriend is there to listen while cuddling with you as you keep complaining, just keep talking for twenty six hours, he wouldn't mind at all, he doesn't actually mind hearing you talking all day. Sadly he has to deal with the customers at the casino too, so maybe not always.

Not only that, he'll most likely try to find a way to spend more time with you and try to find a way to make you feel happy so you could forget your cramps, he actually genuinely feels upset you have to go through such a pain ! He's definitely going to try his best to make you feel comfortable, cozy and definitely happy so you wouldn't feel irritated because of your period !

Overall, he's an extremely caring boyfriend who definitely will try his best to help you !, you're his significant other after all, of course he's going to help you as much as possible! he already promised himself that he will make you happy as long as you're with him, together.

" Is... is this warm enough for you?, if it's not warm enough I can get you some blankets and make you a tea. I don't like seeing you in pain at all, so if you need something please tell me. " he smiled slightly while caressing your head as your head was on his chest , cuddling with him before smiling back at your sweet boyfriend , you were extremely glad you have a boyfriend like sigma. He planted a kiss on your forehead awkwardly before continue cuddling with each other and eventually fell asleep together.

you don't even need to tell him, actually, before you even know you are having your period , he already knew what was going on . It was really obvious to him since he always observes you , after all , this is fyodor we're talking about.

"Fyo , can you help me buy some-" before you get to finish your sentence , expect the stuff you need in front of you immediately. This man literally marked when you're going to get your period in his calendar , plus he's already prepared for this ever since he started dating you. So don't worry , if you need something he is most likely to have it in the house.

he's probably not weirded out and doesn't mind your tantrum, he's completely fine with it. Oh? You want chocolate? , you got it. You want plushies? , how many? nevermind , he'll just buy hundreds of them , he's confident that's enough. This is his любовь we're talking about.

If you're emotional and always cries every time when you're having your period, he's there, don't worry about it. Just like what has been said, he doesn't mind your tantrum at all. He's literally calm while here you're sobbing and bawling your eyes out. But it's okay, you wouldn't be sad anymore, he's here for you, so why bother being sad? He's here to comfort you and wipe your tears away

Overall, he's the type of boyfriend that's prepared for his other significant needs, albeit he doesn't show much emotion about it, he actually does care. He's definitely experienced and knows what you need for your period , he also might play the cello for you if you request him to play it for you while you're about to go to sleep as you're having your period.

" Моя мышь, are you unable to sleep? " Fyodor whispered quietly as you were unable to sleep since your cramps were saying no to sleep. He only huffed gently before planting a quick , but yet passionate kiss on your cheek as he grabbed a blanket and pillows for you, and put it around you so you could feel comfortable. He eventually started playing his cello for you, before smiling slightly, he was relieved that you were finally able to sleep.

Oh? What was that? Did he just hear you're having that time of the month!?! Be not afraid! Your silly boyfriend, nikolai is here to smooches and kisses you everywhere! Cuddles are a must if his poor little dove is having cramps.

He would definitely pull pranks on you, who knows, maybe it might be effective!

Nevermind it wasn't effective, you were mad and he's fucked up. But that's okay! He'll comfort you with his tricks , a trick that only his dove knows and no one else!

Since he has a teleportation ability, it'll be easier for him to get stuff you need. Though, when you asked which store he got it from, he never dared to answer the question. What? Of course not!, he would never steal people's items! , well, at least that's what he said. Even a toddler would know that was a lie, it was too obvious because he kept smiling.

If you're clingy when you're having your period, he's definitely gonna giggle happily like a high school girl giggling every time she sees her crush in the hallway, it makes him super special, especially YOU hugging him! Gosh you're gonna make him explode and he might go insane at any moment!

Overall, he's definitely the annoying boyfriend when you're having your period. He makes you angry sometimes, but you still love him anyways, he's your silly lil clown. You appreciate his attempt at making you happy even though it didn't end well at all. But you're glad he's actually trying, because it proves that your silly boyfriend actually does in fact care for you.

" my dearest dove ! , I cannot help but feel nothing other than pain every time I see your face looking upset, allow me to perform a trick that has only been shown to you ! " Nikolai grinned stupidly as he hid his hand inside his coat before a portal appeared behind you with Nikolai's hand holding a flower for you, you were about to grab the flower until he suddenly attacked you with kisses. He also still kept that stupid and yet adorable grin.

Your mood swings, your food cravings. That's more than enough for him to confirm that you're in fact having your period right now, at first he doesn't understand why you don't want to tell him anything about it, after thinking a while about it he finally thought it's because you're embarrassed, it makes sense but why hide from your boyfriend?

He will immediately take advantage of this by taking a day off so he could spend his time with you, he's too lazy to do work and get scolded by Kunikida! He's not interested in hearing Kunikida scolding him for three hours. However, you're an exception, he doesn't mind hearing you talking for hours, talk about anything you'd like and he'll keep it in his memory for eternity until he has finally left this world. But if you force him to go to work, Kunikida would start to shed tears and start saying "thank you" for million times for making Dazai go to work and doing his work.

He might be lazy, but that doesn't mean he wouldn't do any errands for you. You're his significant other, he doesn't want his belladonna to suffer while having a period! That's just too evil and cruel! Let him do it instead. just get a snack, rest, stay comfortable and cozy, and listen to him, okay? He'll promise he'll get home as fast as possible if he's doing your errands.

If you asked him to buy you some pads for your period, he wouldn't hesitate to do so. But please show him what pads look like first and then tell him which specific pads you want... Because if you don't, well, just expect Dazai to come back home with diapers instead of pads.

Overall, he's quite a decent boyfriend. He definitely knows your food cravings and doesn't mind doing your errands at all even though sometimes he doesn't like it. Plus he knows what to do, except the pads part... Because Dazai accidentally bought a lot of diapers instead of pads... You two might need to eat instant cup noodles for a while.

" Belladonna, let's keep staying like this. " Dazai smiled brightly and warmly while eating instant cup noodles along with you as you both were on the futon and watching the television. Even though it wasn't much, it makes you extremely comfortable as Dazai leaned his head on your shoulders and still kept his smile.

extra note : AEUGH I'M SORRY THAT I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED DRAFT VERSION OF THIS 💔 EVEN THOUGH ONLY COUPLE PEOPLE ( I think ... ) SAW IT I STILL FELT EMBARRASSED 😭... but srsly , I could've sworn that I posted it as draft... Did I hallucinate again or some shit ..

[thetransartguy]

PLEASE MAKE A PART TWO OF YOUR HEART LIES WITH ME MY DEAR

Your heart Lies with me my dear pt 2

So, im sorry this took so long to write i got busy with school (end of a grading period), then i got (still have) a UTI, im in a lot of pain rn mainly my lower back so as i am writing this im laying on a heating pad.

CW: just sad, trust issues, bad writing lmao also not my gif

Seeing Hotchner for the first time in 5 years was shocking, but seeing him like this was even more shocking. He had a look in his eyes he'd never seen before. It's not worry, it's not fear. ….. is it hurt? You think to yourself as you sit on your sofa talking to JJ.

How can he be hurt if he leaves? You didn't leave him, and he had no right to be upset at you. Clearly, he didn't want you, so what was the point in telling him that you had a child? Jack had never mentioned wanting anymore kids, so that would be one less thing for him to worry about.

The other agents were gone, leaving you alone with your ex. Could you even call him that? You two never made it official. And yet you still viewed him as your boyfriend,Was that stupid of you? probably. Did you care? not really.

It was quiet, not the comfortable quiet, but the uncomfortable kind—the kind that makes the hair on the back of your neck stand up—kind of quiet. He looked at you; his eyes were ice cold. This hurt your heart more than it should have. It had been 5 years, and yet you still went over him.

Eliza was put down for a nap, so you didn't have to worry about her seeing this side of him. She didn't know that Hotchner was her dad because she never asked, but if he had, you would have told her.

“Why didn't you call me..." The old man asks quietly. You don't look at him; you don't dare fucking look at him, not because he would do anything bad, but because you knew you would fall for him all over again.

“You left. I didn't think you wanted anything to do with me." You respond plainly but quietly so as not to make the situation worse. Hotchner sighs and rests his face in his hands.

It was quiet for a long moment, and neither of you said, “Listen." I did what I thought was best," Aaron said in a stern tone, making you laugh. "I did what you thought was best." You pause for a moment. "Aaron, you left without any reason and didn't even give me time to fucking process everything, and as for my baby, which I know you're going to ask about,” you snapped. “I didn't think you would want to see her considering how fast you fucking left.”

Aaron was taken aback by your behavior; he's never seen you mad before. A look of shock on his face made him more shocked than before. “(Y/N)...." Before he could finish, you cut him off. “No. I found out I was pregnant three months after you left. You left, not me," the younger woman couldn't help but have her eyes filled with tears.

She was mad rightfully, so the man she loved left out of nowhere. How was she supposed to react, and the fact that he felt so entitled in this moment didn't make it any better?

“(Y/N)... listen to me, I want to be in her life. I want to be in your life." He sounded broken.. so broken.. so sad.. you let out a shaky breath. “You're just going to leave again." This broke Hotchner's heart. He knew you would have to gain your trust back, which was going to take a while, and he knew that until he gave your trust, he wouldn't be able to see his daughter. This was going to be a long day the rest of the year, Hotchner thought to himself as he got ready to speak again.

[thedaredevilsgirl]

I saw you said you write for Sherlock, are requests still open? I have a short blurb of an idea. Reader has a long day at college and Sherlock notices and tries to help, maybe with just pulling reader away from an assignment or something. Fluff, lots of fluff. (I’m tired, thank you for reading this ask though, you don’t have to write it)

A Mystery of Calm

bbc/Sherlock Holmes x Reader

718 words

I decided to combine your idea with one I already had, I'm also in college, so I know how complicated and difficult this period of our lives can be, but we'll get through it.

As it's the first time I've written after so long, I decided to write something not so long, but I hope it doesn't upset you.

Enjoy reading, I hope you like it.

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It was almost 7 a.m. and Sherlock Holmes was at home at 221B Baker Street, immersed in yet another of his cases, something about a politician killed during his own election campaign. But his attention was focused on something much closer: you, his partner.

He knew that your exams were approaching and that this made you feel overwhelmed. The stress was consuming you, it even seemed to have become a feature of your personality. Worrying about getting the best grades and staying among the best students was like a big weight on your shoulders, it was all you could think about, with no time for distractions or fun, not even the most fascinating books could hold your attention anymore.

Sherlock looked around again and found himself getting worried, it was still so early and you hadn't even taken a break from your studies to eat or sleep the night before, it was clear that you were tired, he could tell just by your breathing and droopy eyes. Noticing your anxiety, Sherlock decided it was time to put work aside and use his skills not only to solve mysteries, but also to help the love of his life.

"Darling," he said softly, approaching where you were sitting, "you need a rest."

You looked at him, a tired expression mixed with doubt. "But I have so much to study, Sherlock! I have a very important exam tomorrow, I don't want to do badly."

Holmes smiled, knowing that you needed more than words of comfort "Sometimes the best way to move forward is to take a step back. Your grades are excellent and you've studied hard, I think a rest and some fresh air wouldn't hurt. How about a walk in the park? We can have a picnic, have something to eat, I can even show you my favorite crime scenes," he says with a sweet smile on his face.

Reluctantly, you agreed. Soon, the two of you were in Hyde Park, where the trees swayed gently and the sun illuminated the path. Sherlock knew you needed him at that moment, so even if it was just something simple, he made the effort and asked Mrs. Hudson to help him prepare a delicious picnic, with sandwiches, fruit and some tea.

You sat under the shade of your favorite tree, the same one where he met you for the first time and asked you various questions, considering you a suspect in one of his cases, where you had your first date and where he assumed that for the first time he might be having romantic feelings for someone. As you ate, he watched you with affection. "You know, even the greatest detectives need a moment's break. The mind needs to be aired in order to find solutions."

You laughed, just being away from your books and study materials made you feel a little lighter. "But I'm not a detective, Sherlock."

"But you are a problem solver," he replied, looking into her eyes. "Life, like a mystery, takes time and patience."

After the picnic, he led her to a quieter area of the park. "Close your eyes and listen," he said. "The sounds of nature can be as comforting as a book."

You closed your eyes and took a deep breath, feeling your worries dissipate. The birdsong, the gentle whisper of the wind, and Sherlock's reassuring presence beside you brought a peace you couldn't remember feeling for weeks.

Sherlock approaches you, placing his hand gently on your cheek and leaving a kiss under your lips. You smile as he pulls away, knowing that despite everything, you had chosen the right person for you.

"Thank you, my love," you whisper, still close to him.

"And remember, love," he says with a smile. "When everything seems like an unsolvable mystery, it's good to have someone by your side to help clear your head."

In a new mood, you returned home, knowing that you had studied enough and now needed a little rest for your mind. After a long, relaxing bath, you lay down on the bed you shared every night with Sherlock and felt him tuck the soft sheet under your body.

"Sleep well, my love," he says, leaving a light kiss on your forehead and leaving your room to finally let you rest.

[nicothesquishysquishy]

Caregiver Rollo

Notes: these are headcanons w/ a fanfic, reader has transferred to NBC, not canonical to timelines. Reader has anxiety and CPTSD from the accumulation of overblots, forced workaholic behavior, and no promise of going home. Can be read as a continuation of Nap Time

Secrete!CG!Rollo x Regressor!Reader (Platonic)

So, after Malleus's overblot and the injuries that came from that…(Reader) was exhausted, they couldn't do it anymore.

They remembered everything that a certain school president said, an offer that they had refused initially due to the friendships they had made.

But no Friendship is worth losing your life in a primarily painful way.

So, though (reader) was sure it wouldn't do anything, they sent a letter to Nobel Bell asking for asylum.

(Reader) didn't just receive a letter the next day, Rollo himself came to help them transfer.

"Is that all you have?"

"Yes."

"One small backpack?"

"...Yes."

It took all of three weeks for the transfer to go through, goodbyes to be said, and then finally (Reader) settling in.

Once settled, they were given a grace period of two weeks to adjust.

They spent the first three days completely asleep without fear of their room crashing in on them and to recover from the last overblot.

After the third day, they would take the time to explore the campus and learn their new schedule.

On this day Rollo decided to accompany them, a bit worried over the magicless human…they seemed off.

Eventually Rollo decided to do a detour out of the school for some pastries to give (Reader) a chance of reprieve.

As they sat at the cafe, Rollo noticed that (Reader) had a few crumbs on their chin and he leaned forward with a napkin and cleaned it off.

"Messy messy."

He mumbled before realizing that (Reader) had relaxed when he had done that.

"(Reader)? Are you okay?'

"Hm? Oh! Sorry, I'm not used to someone else making sure I'm okay."

Well that made Rollo upset, but he didn't show it as he simply nodded and went back to his food, before finishing up and waited for (Reader) to get up.

Once up they made their way back to the school, and Rollo was deep in his thoughts, concern for (Reader) and a deep sense of wonder about how it took nearly dying again (apparently up to seven or eight times) for them to finally transfer.

Once back at the campus Rollo would finally speak once they were outside their dorm.

"Since you are now a Nobel Bell student, you don't need to take care of anyone anymore…just yourself. And I'll be here for whatever you need."

"Oh….Thank you."

From then on Rollo would somewhat hover around (Reader) worried about any side effects from being at NRC for so long.

Well there was one he noticed quite quickly, they acted a lot younger then they were and tended to rock themselves and make odd hand movements when stressed.

"Are you alright?"

"Why?"

"You're shaking your hands again."

"Oh…the homework is just really boring and I'm feeling very low."

Rollo was a smart student, so after some research he realized that the other was comforting themselves, more than likely too nervous to ask.

Well that wouldn't do. 

It had now been two months since (Reader) had transferred to NBC, and they were doing homework out in the garden when Rollo came over to them noticing that they were chewing on their shirt sleeve.

He sat next to them and handed them a chewy necklace.

"No ruining the uniform."

He said as they put the necklace on, and looked up at him.

"There. Now, I've noticed you've been rather childish…not that it's a bad thing you're not disruptive, but it's concerning because you held yourself very differently when we first met."

(Reader) would chew on the necklace, before nodding.

"Is there a reason?'

"...I usually had to be the adult in every situation at Night Raven, so it's…a bit hard to adjust to not doing that."

(Reader) explained, which made Rollo nod once more.

"I see. Well you are in safe hands here…I promise you."

"Thanks President."

They said resting their head on his shoulder as they chewed on the chewy necklace.

[thawthebeez]

hey guys. tumblr user thawthebeez back at it again with yet another haikyuu essay B) the topic of today is one that i see NOBODY talking about which is crazy because this motif is (in my opinion) one of the main foundations of the kagehina community.

now may someone please explain to me why the HELL nobody ever talks about how whenever Tobio expresses an insecurity of ANY KIND, Hinata is ALWAYS the first one to swoop in and tell him not to worry about it?

yes, we've all established that Hinata Shouyou is the #1 Kageyama Tobio understander. we get that. BUT THIS IS ONE OF THE MAIN DISPLAYS OF THAT AND I'VE SEEN LITERALLY NOBODY SPEAK OF IT EVER.

i'm pretty sure there's an instance of it in season 2 (either that or my brain just made it up) when Tobio is a little worried about his and Hinata's quick attack not really working out but Hinata tells him "nah you'll figure it out eventually" or something along those lines. i'm not going to lose my shit over it because i can't find it but if you know YOU KNOW.

a part that i COULD find from season 2, however, was this:

here we have Tobio explaining how talented of a setter Oikawa is- how he's so much better than him- and it's clear that this is something he's insecure about given his facial expression.

THEN we have Hinata's INSTANT response:

and it blows Tobio away because WHAT

because, to paraphrase a little, Tobio basically just said "yeah oikawa can make any spiker look good no matter what team he's on" to which Hinata replied "yeah but that team wouldn't be Karasuno" which is essentially "Karasuno is strong enough as it is" BUT- if ur crazy- " dw he wouldn't take your spot babe" (<- which probably isn't how it's meant to be interpreted because they just finished talking about The Team That's Stronger As Six thing so like... context clues. it's probably not the insane interpretation).

ANYWAYS boom there it is. Tobio expresses insecurity, Shouyou swoops in and goes "Ermmmm Actuallyyyyy🤓" WHICH IS SO FUCKING ENDEARING ON IT'S OWN BUT THE FACT THAT IT HAPPENS MORE THAN ONCE AND AT SUCH A CRITICAL POINT TOO

the critical point in question being:

(context: Tobio just came back from his training camp in Tokyo and is a little frustrated because he's gotten so used to playing with other prodigies like himself so to go back to talented-but-not-prodigious players is a bit of a switch for him. don't get him wrong tho he loves this team to DEATH it's just a little different that's all. hashtag number one Tobio apologist right here)

SO THERE'S THIS! and it goes without saying that Tobio is DEEPLY insecure about his late middle-school days and being referred to as a king. Tsukishima adds a little salt to the wound and while I didn't take a screenshot of it Tobio makes this look of absolute HORROR after he says what he says

(which, side note, shows a lot of a character development within Tobio. especially since I've been flipping between season 2 and 4 a lot looking for these clips. Tobio didn't even notice when he was acting kingly before but he realizes it INSTANTLY now which is so so so good for him yayyyy character development!)

this also leads fantastically into my next tangent which is

TOBIO FUCKING APOLOGIZES!

now, admittedly this isn't entirely related to my thesis but i absolutely ADORE talking about this scene and i genuinely think it is one of the most prevalent displays of character development within Tobio because i feel like he tends to get overshadowed by all the other characters (especially Hinata, which i'm not upset about in the slightest like it makes perfect sense and if Tobio got all the attention all the time the show would be soooo unbalanced)

but I feel like a lot of people skip over Tobio's overall development over the course of the show. I mean compare s1 Tobio to s4 Tobio THAT IS NOT SAME PERSON ANYMORE. he grows so much over such a short period of time (which is another essay I could write. something along the lines of "Explaining Why Tobio And Shouyou Need To Be On Separate Teams Actually Because Character Development Purposes" because the amount of people i've seen on tiktok complaining about kghn being on separate teams and how they should just be on the same team forever makes my blood boil violently) and it's so refreshing to see Tobio's growth especially as a big Tobio enjoyer.

ANYWAYS back to the main thesis.

So Hinata steps in IMMEDIATELY here. literally cuts Tobio's apology off because HE HAS NOTHING TO APOLOGIZE FOR. he was expressing his thoughts whatever that's fine he could have done it in a nicer way SURE but listen the guy still has a LOOOONNNGGGG way to go but still, nothing to apologize for. it's just growing pains, y'know?

now the quote "What's wrong with him being the King again?" appearing here isn't the first time we're seeing this. Hinata has ALWAYS been confused as to why calling Tobio a "King" is a bad thing. literally from day fucking one Hinata was like "nah dude I think that title is cool" WHICH, AGAIN, TOBIO BEING INSECURE ABOUT SOMETHING AND SHOUYOU REASSURING HIM THAT IT'S TOTALLY CHILL HELLO?????

LITERALLY FROM DAY ONE SHOUYOU HAS BEEN DOING THIS. THAT MAN MAY THINK TOBIO'S AN ASSHOLE SOMETIMES (and he kinda is) BUT NEVER WILL HINATA INHERENTLY HATE A PART OF HIM. and i don't think they realize it here nor do i think the realization comes soon after but at some point there will be the realization that they love each other. every single part. fucking Tobio probably realized it way back in junior high but that's a tangent for another time.

now this line.... this one right here...... oh my god i can be SO NORMAL ABOUT IT.

the main reason why Tobio had this look of HORROR on his face after he yelled at everyone was BECAUSE HE KNEW THE ENDING. he knew that yelling at them would have consequences (if it weren't for Hinata stepping in thank god). HE'S SEEN IT ALL BEFORE. in his final year of junior high he yelled at his teammates to run faster and jump higher and be better AND THEY LEFT HIM!!!

so Tobio yelling like this instantly makes him afraid that he's just ruined the entire balance of the team. he thinks he's going to be left behind again because he yelled and everyone is going to leave him BUT!!!!!

BUT SHOUYOU IMMEDIATELY JUMPS IN AND SAYS "idc what u say honestly if i don't like i'm just not gonna listen" OR, TO TRANSLATE "i'm not going anywhere regardless of what you say"

Tobio's biggest fear is losing this team. I literally do not need to explain why. that man would fucking DIE for this team (if you really need an explanation just to go the end of the Kamomedai match when Tobio admits that he's upset they lost because he wanted to play with that specific team more).

and for Hinata to essentially say "you could literally be as kingly as u want and i simply would not care, pal, i promise you i am NOT going ANYWHERE!!!" which has got to be SO FUCKING RELIEVING FOR TOBIO.

(also something something "nobody was there" / "i'm here" something something "doesn't matter what kind of toss goes up if you send it my way i'm hitting it" something something they're soulmates or whatever they are literally bound together by the universe they were destined to be together and it's a crime that universe kept them apart for so long and now that they're together they will always BE together two peas in a pod literally inseparable they are hot glued and duct taped together.)

and then there's this. i mean at this point you already know what i'm going to say like you get it by now but again IT MUST BE SO RELIEVING TO TOBIO to know that shouyou thinks his biggest insecurity is cool. that shouyou thinks that it's not something to be concerned about. that no matter what, no matter how much a King he is, they're not going anywhere.

SOMETHING SOMETHING "you drew stars around my scars" IF YOU EVEN CARE

and just the fact that it's always ALWAYS shouyou to do this. the fact that there was dead silence before shouyou spoke up. the fact that it's ALWAYS HIM there to understand Tobio (someone who has been misunderstood for as long as he can remember) GOD THEY DRIVE ME INSANE.

anyways thank you for being a witness to this madness👍

[bug-the-chicken-nug]

i recently made a post about the Secret Better Jaune in my head but have realized I never clarified what I mean by that specifically, so here's my latest idea i've been workshopping: Jaune, but he's Like That at first because he actually had a major Grimm-related accident that put him in a prolonged coma and left him with lasting memory issues + periods of brain fog and difficulty organizing his thoughts even after waking up. So there's a way stronger reason behind his parents not wanting him to go to Beacon. Plus he *is* actually still terrified of Grimm, but he's basically forcing himself to do this because he was so sick of the coddling and casual ableism that this is his way of trying to regain control of his life (and the outright meaner ableism, both from people being malicious and people who mean well but lose their tempers with him when his difficulties become inconvenient for them) And now the dumb fight with Pyrrha would come off less like some weird macho thing, and more as his past experiences with people making him more understandably defensive. (along with him just literally being a bit behind in emotional maturity because of losing time and normal social interaction to his accident + the ensuing rehab and recuperation) And he doesn't have Aura right away because, even though it is theoretically useful for therapeutic purposes, everyone worried that he might not be able to handle it until he's had more rehab, and they weren't sure how it'd interact with the neurological damage either. In direct relation to this, Jaune probably at least mostly already knows what it is now, but has such diminished confidence in what he knows for sure that he'd rather have it all explained again than risk being egregiously wrong. I would also have it be more clear that he actually *is* trying his best early on, but because he's constantly masking, keeping his accident a secret, and always trying to pretend he's "normal", he's exhausting himself, and the effort is a lot less obvious to everyone around him. (Pyrrha is probably sort of upset to discover that he didn't tell her anything before she helped him unlock his Aura, because even with his best efforts to prepare for Beacon on his own, like 50% of why unlocking his Aura goes so smoothly still comes down to luck) Of course, I don't really trust CRWBY with this, because this take would require fine-toothed combing to get rid of casual ableism, and for Jaune to not really ever be comic relief anymore. (Or if he is, it would have to be extremely careful to avoid any humor that boils down to "he's being stupid/pathetic/incompetent/immature", which they wouldn't, because this is the company that made Camp Camp ).

[nosomatsu]

(( suddenly thinking about ichimatsu and the riceball's hunt for cats again.. small analysis beneath the cut ))

it's fascinating that while ichi enjoyed it at first, the reason he went so numb to it so fast wasn't because he disliked cats. rather, he realized now that he had no real excuse to even go out of the house for extended periods anymore. ichimatsu doesn't enjoy being a hikikomori, it's pretty painfully clear that it's super fucking isolating for him. finding cats was the sole thing that could even get him out of bed most days.

... but now that he knows where all the cats are , what's even the point? he could go there and go right back home. now he has no reason to even TRY to go out of the house. i mean he still would to feed them and see them, but he would be miserable unless he found kitties in unexpected places. the search is the biggest reason he enjoyed it so much and the riceballs kind of ruined tht for him for a little while, albeit unintentionally.

the only other times he really goes out is if his brothers drag him along or the nightly safe care shit. but the thing about that is, like . . . they don't drag him out often at all. and it's very rare that he can muster up the energy to go on his own. it's not impossible or unheard of, but when he does, he also walks the least busy / lesser known routes, where he runs into as little people as possible. he goes to the park only when it's incredibly isolated. he probably only goes for oden because it's so isolated / out of the way at night that rarely anyone goes there.

we only ever see him out and about in public places if it's with his brothers but even then he keeps his head down and tries to avoid talking to everyone. the cats were the only reason he'd go out of the house when his brothers aren't around or they can't convince him to go anywhere. the idea of not knowing where he could find one is the one thing that kept him going and walking, trying out new places he'd never been to before even if he was ANXIOUS AS HELL ABOUT IT.

in his mind, it was his first step forward to be more independent and breaking the vicious homebody hikikomori cycle, and it was actually one of few things he isn't burningly numb / actually does have strong emotions about whether he realizes it or not ( although i err on, he's the kind of depressed where he worries he's numb entirely and can't feel anymore but then something Happens that proves otherwise and it always makes him [shocked pikachu] when he does still VERY MUCH FEEL EMOTIONS )

so. yeah. his spirit and tendency to go out on his own for a little while was absolutely crushed. I think it was even more noticable how glum he was so his brothers tried to get him out of the house WAY more often -- aaand that's why we see him in so many morie social situations he'd usually be caught DEAD before ever attending. although he's grumpy on the outside, he does seem to appreciate it. he has sincere and extreme trouble expressing his gratitude, but it cannot be understated how much that helped his mental health in the long run.

Evidently, it eventually healed, and he never once blamed the cats -- but there's a speck of bitterness and disappointment at the riceballs which he tries to smother. they could never and would never be able to understand the weird way he approached thinking about the search. they were confused when he got upset with being shown every place cats could possibly be, and even if he DID try to explain it, they still probably wouldn't have gotten it.

after all, it's not very logical, and certainly is a VERY strange line of thinking. but it is who ichimatsu is -- a shut in, who is desperate for any excuse to leave the house on his own and gain the courage to do so on a more regular basis. when the sole thing that kept him exploring and getting out on his own loses all meaning, he falls into a pretty bad headspace about it and becomes more of a shut in than ever.

thank goodness that his brothers didn't let that happen for too long, though. <:)

[velvetkissses]

Random Logan x Kitty Headcanons

Relationship(s); Logan Echolls/Kitty Kane, Logan Echolls/Lilly Kane (not really, just kinda mentioned), Logan Echolls & Duncan Kane (familial), Kitty Kane & Duncan Kane (familial) Summary; a few random headcanons about my lil skrunklies Notes; I will probably make this into a "series", ngl. Also a lot of this is about Logan and Kitty before the show takes place, so i might have to make more parts for like, during the show, the movie, and etc. Warning(s); Spoilers for Veronica Mars, not direct mentions of abuse but ya know, canonically Logan gets abused, so abuse mention, period mention, also underage drinking mention

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This is more like a canon fact in my series, but idc, I'm still mentioning it

Logan fell in love with Kitty at first sight

Like he was obsessed the second he first laid eyes on them

When they were younger, Kitty used to beg Logan to play stuff like family, mermaids, royalty or with Barbies and he'd always reluctantly agree

He would always get super embarrassed if someone walked in on them playing family or with Barbies

Logan is very much like a puppy towards Kitty, in the sense that he will pretend to lose against them in games to make them happy

But he will deny it if they or anyone else tries to claim he pretends to lose against them

Honestly, Logan denies a lot of stuff when it comes to Kitty

Someone thinks he has a crush on Kitty? No, he doesn't (lie)

Someone thinks he lets Kitty win in games, no matter what? Nuh-uh, he would never (lie)

Someone claims he stays up, late at night and thinks about Kitty? Even if someone were to have evidence of this, he would deny this (and his denying would just be a lie, once again)

Logan isn't embarrassed that he has crushes, especially not one on Kitty, he just doesn't want Kitty to know he likes them, and therefore no one else can know that he likes them either

He just doesn't want their friendship to change, and he's not sure if Kitty would even like him back, so he doesn't wanna risk anything

He doesn't have to worry though, Kitty loves him too, but there's unfortunately no way in hell they're telling him either

Now, let's get onto the actual headcanons and not the "facts" of this canon

Logan gave Kitty a stuffed golden retriever plushie when they were 9 for their birthday, that Kitty treasures with their life

And Kitty gave Logan his iconic puka shell necklace that he treasures and wears a lot, he also treasures a bunch of old friendship bracelets he's gotten from Kitty

Both are secret hopeless romantics, so they usually end up watching romcoms together if they're alone and Logan doesn't want to "fight" about what they should watch anymore

When I say "fight", Logan mainly just complains for a little bit, to not seem like he wants to do whatever Kitty wants to do, but he usually will comply and watch literally anything with Kitty, especially if Kitty's upset or tired

He's very compliant when it comes to Kitty, he'd jump off a cliff if they wanted him to and he worships the ground Kitty steps on, and does honestly anything to impress or make them happy

When Logan started dating Lilly, he tried to distance himself from Kitty and spend most of his time with Lilly or his friends, so he'd be able to move on from Kitty

But unfortunately, he never managed to move on, but he also got feelings for Lilly, so instead of moving on from Kitty, he's got feelings for two Kane girls instead of just one

The first time Logan tried drinking alcohol, he did it with Kitty when they were like 14 and when they unfortunately got caught (by Aaron of all people), Kitty lied and said it was their idea to try drinking, so Logan wouldn't get into as much trouble

Kitty got grounded for a month, so Logan offered to take the blame next time they got in trouble for anything like that, and offered to do their homework as well, just to be nice

Whenever Logan gets hurt or is just upset, Kitty's usually who Logan goes to, and they always patch him up, and try to cheer him up, if possible, and if not, lets him cry it out, or let his emotions out whatever method he prefers at the moment

Kitty's not necessarily a very girly person, and Lilly doesn't really like them or like spending time with them, and neither does Celeste (for those unaware, that's the matriarch of the Kane family!), so Kitty has no one in their close circle of relations that's willing to be super feminine with them

So growing up, being closer with Duncan and Logan, they were more used to having to do and like more traditionally masculine stuff, with occasionally being "granted" the occasional time they get to choose the activity, for example, watching a more "girly" movie, like romcoms

Duncan and Logan usually just complain during whatever activity Kitty's decided on, but would stop if Kitty was visibly upset by their complaining

Duncan is less compliant with Kitty, unlike Logan ('cause Duncan is Kitty's older twin brother, by like maybe max an hour), but he's still nice and unlike Lilly, doesn't mind Kitty

On the topic of Lilly, I have a feeling Logan would have called Lilly "Kitty" at least once, leading to Lilly breaking up with him, because why the hell is he calling her the name of her sister??? They definetly get back together within a week though

Logan has definetly also called Kitty "Lilly" once or twice, but usually corrects himself and there isn't too many consequences other than Kitty being slightly upset by being called the wrong name

Logan and Kitty, along with occasionally Duncan, Lilly and maybe Veronica, would make low quality home movies together a lot, before they started high school, and Logan would always want Kitty as the main character, or the one with the most screentime

He'd also always edit the videos, just so he could watch Kitty in the video for as long as he wanted and rewatch parts he really liked

He's so head over heels in love with them, oml

He definetly begged Duncan to dress up as Luke Skywalker for Halloween once, so Kitty and him (Logan) could have matching costumes, by being Leia and Han, which technically would make them love interests

He ended up having to do Duncan's homework for a month, because that's the only bargain Duncan was willing to accept

If it isn't obvious, Duncan is cool with Kitty and Logan both, but the concept of them dating, or even just the thought of one of them crushing on the other isn't his favorite

I feel like he prefers Logan not crushing on or dating Kitty, 'cause that's his twin sister, man!!!

Logan's definetly practiced kissing with a pillow and maybe a mirror, imagining it's Kitty

He's such a dork, i love this man, I wanna put him in the plinko machine

Whenever Kitty sleeps over at Logan's house, and doesn't have other clothes to change into, Logan always gives whatever he thinks or knows they'll look better in

He also knows most of their preferences, for example, they prefer shorts over pants, so he always gives them shorts, because he listens to them when they mention what they like and what they dislike, and he takes extensive notes

He definetly keeps a journal or something where he writes down everything he knows Kitty likes, and doesn't like, just to make sure he never screws up and makes them uncomfortable or upset

Kitty's a bit of a picky eater, so whenever they get something that they don't like eating, Logan will usually offer to eat it for them (except if it's something like pears or shellfish, 'cause he's got trauma surrounding pears and he's allergic to shellfish)

Whenever Kitty stims, whether it be vocally, or by doing happy stims like rocking back and forth or flapping with their hands, if they're alone, Logan sometimes joins in, but usually just watches in awe, because he loves them so much

Both Logan's parents absolutely adores Kitty, especially Lynn, and she tells Logan to put a ring on their finger, so Kitty'll be her daughter-in-law, and she always teases Logan about Kitty, which always makes him embarrassed

On the contrary, Kitty's parents are just about alright with Logan. Jake doesn't mind Logan, he finds him to be a fun kid, but since Logan gets into trouble more than both Kitty and Duncan, he's not his favorite out of all of Duncan's friends, but he's alright

I say Duncan's friends, because Kitty has no one else than Logan for a good while, so it's not saying "Kitty's friends", because Logan is the only one on that list for a good few years

Kitty got their first period ever, while at Logan's house

They started crying, because oh my god, they're bleeding and their stomach hurts and Logan had to comfort them

He was freaking out so much

Kitty knew what periods were, but had never had one before, and didn't know they hurt like hell, so they though they were dying for a good few minutes

Logan begged Trina (for those unaware, his older sister) for help, because he had no clue what to do about the bleeding part and Trina is kinda mean, but she's willing to help a fellow girl, even if it's her annoying little brother's crush

After figuring out the whole bleeding situation, Logan ended up cuddling with Kitty, watching whatever movies Kitty wanted to see, to comfort them

He was also a little sweetheart and kissed them on the forehead a bunch, but he got very embarrassed when Kitty pointed the kisses out, and just pat them instead from then on, until Kitty asked him to continue

Logan also gave them one of his comfiest shirts, because he wanted them to be totally comfortable, feeling bad about them being in so much pain that they started crying

He's such a sweetheart, I wanna pick him up and sling him around

Those are all the headcanons I've got, uh I hoped you enjoyed this list I've made, I will see you the next time I feel brave enough to post some writing onto this blog, bye bye

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

This post was inspired by a post I can't find anymore that just really rubbed me the wrong way. OP was talking about how their mother would be really hostile towards homeless people that were meandering too close to her home. It was very much so painted like the mother was somehow in the wrong even though OP acknowledged that she had very real fear. To me, when I read that post, I couldn't help but feel like neither party are in the wrong. If some random stranger is in your backyard or meandering on your property, I see no reason why it's unjustified to warn them to stay away from you. Especially if you're a woman. It makes perfect sense why a woman with her children wouldn't want strangers feeling too comfortable near her property. With that being said, it's not a crime to be homeless and simply out and about in a neighborhood. It's not a crime to be out and about in a neighborhood, period. I can imagine how awful it would feel to be somewhere with innocent intent and have someone suddenly yelling at you like you're an active threat. Neither of these people are aggressors, in my opinion.

Even outside of that post, I can think of so many situations where neither party are in the wrong. I remember walking my dog and having some kids run up to me to pet him. Their mother was staring at me very intently. She was clearly weary of her children being within snatching distance of a stranger. I wasn't in the wrong for walking my dog. The kids were not wrong for wanting to pet him. The mother was not in the wrong for watching me with distrust.

One time, a strange man helped me adjust the seat of my bike. I knew that if my parents saw me with a random man, I would be in for an intense lecture. Nothing happened. They didn't see and the man was perfectly nice. My parents would not have been in the wrong for not wanting their underage daughter to trust a random grown man. That man was not in the wrong for offering to help me when he saw me struggling.

I also think about a male teacher who was lamenting the fact that he had to double guess physically interacting with his students because someone could take it wrong. He was specifically referring to a scenario where a child was struggling on a playground attraction and how he was worried about reaching out to grab them and help them. Parents are absolutely NOT in the wrong for not wanting someone to grab their child. That teacher is also not in the wrong for being upset that his non-malicious intent would be taken as something perverted.

This is what I mean. Sometimes no party is evil. Sometimes no party is a victim. Sometimes everyone's reactions makes perfect sense for who they are as people.

Y'all do know that there are situations where nobody is a bad person, right? Where both parties are acting in ways that make perfect sense for them and neither are in the wrong? Y'all do know that a situation can involve two people where neither one of them are being malicious, right? You can analyze a situation without the end goal of figuring out which person is irredeemable and which person is an angelic victim.

[laciere]

Bo Ruberg: What about games like Become a Great Artist in Just 10 seconds? It's non-narrative and has no characters, but is there still some element of your trans experience that is reflected in the game? Andi McClure: Generally, no. Part of what I am drawn to abstraction is that it's like an escape from my identity. As a trans person, my identity means, to some extent, that there are things about my physical, external self that i don't like. It's complicated to talk about whether the trans experience has been good or bad for me, but it's definitely been really hard, and a lot of that has to do with struggling with the physical world. My body doesn't necessarily feel like a great place to me. The period when I was most prolific in games was when I was either just pre-transition or during transition and things were especially not working right. In a sense, video games or abstract art are a place where you don't have to have a body. In most of my games, you're not embodied. To me, there's something that feels really good about just floating in those abstractions. it feels natural. To the extent that I identify as something, I identify as an artist. I worry about that, because if you're an artist and that's the whole of your identity, what are you bringing to the work? That's one of the reasons why I'm more inclinded to make things that are about experience rather than things that are about me personally. At the same time, I think of my games as being very personal, because they are personal thoughts and feelings I have had, even though there aren't usually people in my games. Even if I'm not present in my games as a person, my emotions are still there. One thing that makes exploring identity in my games difficult is that i struggle with characters and narrative. There's exactly one game in my history that explicitly portrays a relationship. It's called He never showed up (2013). It simulates a date in which your date literally never shows up. The game was my attempt to process my feelings about this dude I was going out with, but who wasn't sure if he was bisexual or what dating a trans person meant for his sexuality. In the game, he doesn't show up for the date because in real life he never showed up emotionally. Ruberg: On your website, you describe some of your early work as "anti-games." What do you mean by that? Is that still a concept that is important to your art? McClure: A few years ago, when I was making those games, I was spending way too much time on video game message boards, and there were all tehse people complaining about things that weren't "really games." Around this time, the Nintendo Wii was challenging conventional ideas about what gameplay meant. People who were invested in traditional forms of gameplay got upset. For a brief period when the Wii was succeeding, they felt threatened. They thought that video games as they knew them just wouldn't exist anymore, and this new paradigm would supplant them. Someone on NeoGaf used the term "waggle-tastic fagatronics" to describe Wii games. I was like, "Holy shit! That sounds like everything I want to be part of." Personally I'm not interested in games themselves. I'm interested in the space of what is possible whn you have these mechanical systems encoded in software. Along with a bunch of other indie folks, I was making stuff that rejected what a game was supposed to be. Why does it matter if it's a game? I decided to frame the games I was making as a reaction against games themselves--as a way to say, "No, I'm not just failing to meet the rules of video games. I'm rejecting the rules fo video games." Traditional gamers thought indie games would destroy the medium, which didn't happen obviously--but for this brief period, I was like, "I can destroy something? great, I have this awesome destructive power! I'm going to be your supervillain. I'm going to make something so avant garde it will actually destroy the medium and there will be nothing left."

-"Andi McClure: Algorithms, Accidents and the Queerness of Abstraction" from in The Queer Games Avant-Garde: How LGBTQ Game Makers are Reimagining The Medium of Video Games (2020, Duke University Press)

[bigbihatemachine]

TW graphic ED and fatphobia, esp in a medical setting

Siiigh it's like a running joke at this point that I literally can find the worst clinicians in any nhs facility or just have the worst experiences with them but like every now and then I break bc I can't take having a mental breakdown anymore and dip my toe in the MH services and oh boy. Bc I wanted my meds adjusted and psychiatrists LITERALLY DON'T FUCKING DO ANYTHING I ended up talking to a pharmacist and somehow ended up doing a whole ass mental health assessment bc in the three fucking weeks it took them to look at my referral for a specific antidepressants I wanted and call me back, I decided I also wanted therapy and maybe they wouldn't fuck me over this time

Anyways she fights me over the medication I want and asks me about how I'm doing and as always zeroes in on my weight p fucking quickly. She asks about my eating habits rn and no they're p fucking bad rn and I freely admit that. Like it's ED shit 5sure. Also for ED reasons and general sanity, I ask my drs to not fucking read out my weight when they weigh me for my depo appts. I know I'm getting fatter. I'm not blind. Upon hearing me disclose my eating stuff and without thinking, she tells me exactly what weight I am now and exactly how much I've gained over the last few month and stresses how much it is. I tell her I actually ask my drs to not tell me these things bc they set me off really badly.

She asks if I want a referral to the ED dept and I basically get extremely upset and say I don't have faith they're going to be kind about my weight and I've faced a lot of medical mistreatment and abuse and I can't really take it from an ED dept if they're going to be cruel. She asks again if I want a referral bc it's obvious it's a source of a huge amount of issues and distress so might be worth investigating. I reluctantly agree to hear them out, if they're compassionate.

She's also somehow got hold of my MH files from 2016 (so 7 yrs ago) where I was insisting on medication that didn't make me gain weight. It's worth mentioning I got referred bc basically I'm out of medication I can try through normal GPs and I'm antidepressant resistant. Also have disclosed fucking EDs during the phone call and actually talked about that time period during the phone call when I was in a different form of ED so yknow different priorities. She insisted on putting me on meds I tried fucking years ago bc they'd help me lose weight!! Over medication I asked for and actually worked before we start looking at the heavier duty stuff (that a psychiatrist will actually have to get off their ass and see me for). I nearly fucking lost it arguing with her!!

And now it's a week later and I've gotten the letter through.... And it's fucking disgusting. She's absolutely combed through my medical files and just wholescale invented shit?? Saying I have chest pains?? I might have during A&E visits in years past??? Fucking saying I had ptsd??? I mean I almost def do but I've never been dx'ed with it?? And she sure as shit hasn't had the authority to do so?? And it's never been on a single letter before that I have ptsd?? And yeah she fucking won't shut up about how fucking fat I am. Like horrifically fat. Using the clinical name for disgustingly fat. Again, she knows I'll at least hear this and that I have an ED. Like.... What the fuck.

At the end, even my GP who I was speaking to for the first time was like (multiple times).... Are you sure you want this referral to go ahead????

And like....I'm so fucking frustrating bc I got so used to no one taking my EDs seriously bc I'm fat that I'd openly talk about them bc fat ppl can't have EDs then someone called me out on it and it threw me and I appreciated being taken seriously but..... It's in the wrong way and I'm worried the dept will be the same and it'll be trauma on trauma at a time I really need support. It doesn't help she said she'd handle the referral and she fucking hasn't and left it to my GP.

Frustrating!!! Concept: we just offer respectful, non-judgemental, person-centered care

[dumplinshee]

Comfort Person (Javi Gutierrez x Reader)

character: Javi Gutierrez - The Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent

summary: Javi comforts you during your period

word count: 767

warnings: ofc period talk. PURE FLUFF!! might be innacurate to Javi’s real self. a lil messy bc i kinda rushed this but it’s ok.

comments: i need this real bad :,) very much self indulgent. i’ll proofread this one day :)

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Worry seeps through him when he notices you haven't responded to his text message; he's used to you responding quickly when he informs you that he's on his way home. Were you upset with him? But why is that? Previous texts were normal, this morning was a good one, and you two had an amazing date yesterday. So, what exactly is going on? Javi decided to stop overthinking things and just assume you fell asleep, which seemed more likely.

When he arrived at his house, he announced his presence but received no response. He dashed into your shared bedroom, only to be relieved by the sight in front of him.

You managed to set up a tent around the bed. There were some pillows and plushies on the floor, most likely because the inside was overflowing with them. On your bedside table, lit candles with your favorite scent. All of this can only mean one thing: you're on your period. This isn't the first time he's come home to this; it's a cute little thing you do, cover yourself up with warm cushions to hide the cramps a little bit.

"How are you feeling, my love?" His question was met with a low groan, the bed shifted as you fidgeted inside your makeshift cave. He crept inside the tent, looking for you. When he finally sees you, he kisses your forehead in awe. “I’m gonna head out for a bit okay? I’ll be quick.” Giving you another kiss, this time on the lips before he slips away from the tent, now earning a small whine from you.

He put on his shoes again, grabbed his keys, and went straight to the market. On the way, he made a mental note of what to buy, including your favorite snacks, drinks, and sweets, as well as pads in case you run out.

When he arrived at the market, he grabbed all of the items he had planned to get, as well as some other things he hadn't planned to get but that you would definitely enjoy. Warm soup from the meal booth, a large plushie of your favorite animal, and a heating pad, remembering you complaining about your previous one. After paying, he placed the items in the back seat and returned to you.

"I'm back, and I bought you some things." He puts everything on the floor and sat himself down. He noticed you peeking out from the tent and immediately delivered the bag of food and beverages to you. "Here you have it, honey." Before grabbing your empty glass and the heating pad, he gave you a reassuring smile. Heading to the kitchen to refill your water and prepare the heating pad, coming back to you when everything's ready.

"Mind if I slide next to you?" You nod, Javi handing you the heating pad before settling into the pile of cushions. He asks if you want to watch anything and immediately turns on the television. When the two of you found a comfortable position, he initiated a cuddle, enveloping you in his arms and gently caressing you.

You two sat in comfortable silence, watching television. Javi will occasionally give you reassuring pats and kisses to take your mind off the pain. He notices that your figure is more relaxed, and he peeks at you that you've fallen asleep. He carefully and gently repositioned you to your usual sleeping position before cuddling into you.

Javi stretches as he wakes up in the morning. He notices you're not in bed anymore and assumes you're probably in the bathroom until you walk in with two coffees in your hand. "Good morning, honey. I made you some coffee."

You returned to your original position before handing him his coffee and kissing him on the cheek. "I just wanted to say thank you for looking after me. I know I can be a little annoying during these times, so I wouldn't mind if you were away during it, you know?"

"Hey, I enjoy taking care of you, and you're not at all annoying. Also, I would never leave you alone in times like this, unless you want me to?"

“No! No! I enjoy having you here with me, but I don't want to burden you."

"You're never a burden to me, and the thought of being separated from you for a week is unbearable." You put your coffee down, giggling at his response, before snuggling close to him.

"Thank you once more, baby. I love you so much."

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[haitaniapologist]

A RAINY NIGHT !

or when you managed to make akashi takeomi speechless three times.

pairings — akashi takeomi x female!reader.

genre — fluff.

warnings — an unhealthy obsession with using dashes instead of commas, sentences with strange structures and grammatical errors because english isn't my first language, mentions of gang life, overprotective mother, talks of period, mentions of blood, forming a family, death of a character, general akashi and sano family trauma, mentions of cigarrates and smoking.

word counting — 3k.

song — style, taylor swfit.

notes — tagging @softbajis my fellow omi simp <3 i hope i can make your day better with this, hal my dear !! also this is really self-indulgent because i love this man and this family too much. this is supposed to be a modern au but the black dragons and toman still exists and haru (who is probably a toman founder bc i guess i fucked up the ages a bit lol) have his scars, so i don't know anymore. regarding the ages, senju is 12, haru is 13, omi is 23 and you are between 21-23 too. enjoy !! reblogs, likes and comments are very appreacited <3

shinichiro was right for once in his life: takeomi was for sure the rain bringer.

you didn't care, actually. it was better to say to your parents that you were dating the rain bringer than the god of war, but you were sure they knew your boyfriend's past as the vice president of the black dragons. it wasn't easy to deduce that takeomi used to do dangerous things as a teenager — the scar on the right side of his face told everything your overprotective mother needed to know. and, well, shinichiro’s grandfather probably told her all she needed to know about akashi takeomi too.

but he managed to earn the trust of your parents, and you never understood how. maybe it was the fact that, despite being a gang member growing up, he still took care of his younger siblings as if he was their father or that his favourite brand of cigarettes was the same your uncle used to smoke. you never had enough courage to ask your mom if she stopped complaining about everything your boyfriend did because he reminded her of her own brother, who died a few years before you met takeomi through your mutual friend, sano shinichiro. it was still a painful memory for your mother but, if that meant that she wouldn't complain about you going to the akashis's home — even though you were a grown adult and didn’t need to ask permission to go where you wanted — you were okay with letting things as they were.

but dating the rain bringer wasn't easy, and you were sure you had earned a place in heaven by doing so.

you couldn't plan an outside date without checking the weather at least three times, and even if you did it, you would always come back home drenched in water and with your cute outfit and makeup ruined.

takeomi would always apologize with that charming smile of his adorning his face, promising to make up for you somehow. and he always did, in ways that would leave anyone who heard with red cheeks. in the first months of your relationship you would always be upset by the ruined dates — you wanted to experience everything of the romance books you read as a teenager, being it cute picnics in a field of flowers, or a beach day in a private beach — but now, you were used to just stay at his home or going to a restaurant.

and that's how you found yourself, draped in your boyfriend's strong arms, the smell of tobacco still prominent in his clothes from the cigarette he smoked not long ago, trying to concentrate in the movie in front of you.

you actually tried to plan a cute date, after hearing some ideas from emma, shinichiro's younger sister, but takeomi said it was better if you two stayed at home. senju wasn't feeling well, and he couldn't help but worry about his little sister. she wasn't a kid that got sick too often, so when she told him she was feeling something strange in her tummy, he knew he needed to stay at her side. takeomi wasn't an expert when it came to diseases and needed to call shinichiro for help — god needed to have mercy on him if he called his grandmother — because he didn't know what he should give to her to alleviate what she was feeling. he would be of better help if senju was beaten up, but he would die before he allowed that to happen.

but you didn't care to stay with him at their home. you knew he tried to take care of his younger siblings the best he could, and you always tried to help him. you grew too fond of takeomi's siblings, and treated them as your own too. to trying to take haruchiyo off his shell and helping senju with homework, you tried to ease the responsibilities that were entrusted to your boyfriend since his mother died.

you couldn't even imagine what those three went through. you had your own family problems too, but your parents were always at your side, giving you the opportunity to live every phase of your life without the burden of needing to care for other people. takeomi, on the other hand, needed to grow up and mature too fast to take care of haruchiyo and senju, as their father was more worried to make money than giving love and affection to his three kids.

it was a similar situation with the sanos, and you could understand how your boyfriend and shinichiro bonded up.

“what are you thinking about, pretty girl?” your thoughts were interrupted by the hoarse voice of takeomi, who was looking down at you with an amused face.

“how could you tell i was thinking about something?” you inquired curiously, as you thought he was more invested in the film than you were. it had been his choice, after all.

you felt takeomi's chest vibrate as he chuckled, pressing a quick kiss to your hair. “you always bite your lip when you are in deep thought, babe.”

you hummed, nuzzling your face on his chest, your arms around his middle — the film long forgotten.

“so, are you going to share what's on your pretty mind with me?” your boyfriend pressed, leaning into you.

“just thinking about you.” you answered, inhaling his scent. you found it amazing how he managed to smell like home. maybe it was the mixture between tobacco and his cologne, but it always made you feel safe and relaxed, but at the same time, as if you could conquer the world only because you had him at your side. “about how amazing you are, omi, and you don't even realize this.”

with wide eyes and mouth slightly agape, takeomi found himself speechless with your words. he was expecting you to think about anything that could worry you — your finals coming up, the essay you needed to write for your international geopolitics class, if your best friend actually texted her ex like she told you she would — but not about him.

it made him feel a warm and fuzzy feeling he couldn't pinpoint what it was.

“i'm not… amazing. i have a lot of flaws, you know.” he murmured, quite sheepish, thinking about his biggest regret: how he managed to taint his relationship with his younger brother by doing to him what he always criticized his father and grandma did to himself.

“everyone has flaws, omi. but you sacrificed a lot of moments of your youth to take care of your siblings, and i don't think everyone would be willing to do that.” you tried to reason with him, changing your position and straddling his lap, trying to have a better look at his face. "and at sixteen, you were co-ruling the kanto region with your friends! do you know what i was doing at the time you were doing that?" receiving a non-verbal negative answer from him, you continue. “i was worried if i was going to be able to marry squall leonhart from final fantasy eight!”

that earned another chuckle from your boyfriend. “oh, so you’re saying to me that you always had a crush on men with facial scars? does that mean that i’m just your type?” he teased you, his hands squeezing your hips.

“don’t change the subject, omi!” you snapped back, feigning irritation. you couldn’t deny his scar actually reminded you of your fictional teenager crush, but that was something you would take you to the grave. “you are amazing, baby. and i mean it with every fibre of my heart.” you cupped his face, your left thumb caressing the part of his scar near his lips.

takeomi only noticed he was blushing because of the contrast of your hands — which were too cold — and his warm face.

what he would do without you? you were an angel in disguise, and he was sure of it. not because you managed to help him have a better relationship with his younger siblings or coming into terms that he wasn’t responsible for his mom’s death, or his father’s money addiction, or because you made him to think about his health and himself before working himself to death to give his siblings what he didn’t had at their age — but because you made him feel loved and special, and not just someone else inside a train. you made him see the wonders' life had to offer, to see that haruchiyo and senju were happy with what they had, and they weren’t growing up to be as pathetic as he felt himself to be sometimes. you made him realize that it is okay to ask for help, or to cry, or to just scream angrily at all the adults who were supposed to protect and love him, instead of giving two toddlers for a kid to take care of.

you looked curiously at your boyfriend, afraid that you might have something that could have possibly triggered him. but the emotions dancing in his eyes were enough to tell you that he needed to hear the words that left your lips.

“y/n.” takeomi called you with such love and tenderness in his voice that made your insides melt, and your cheeks burn, your heart beating loudly inside your chest. you leaned in before he could tease you, as he always liked before your kisses, pressing a kiss — that you hoped could pour all the feelings you couldn’t describe in words you felt for him — to his lips.

however, before he could deepen the kiss, you two were interrupted by a scream, that scared the both of you.

“senju?” takeomi called his sister desperately while you get out of his lap, helping him to his feet so you two could see what happened to the youngest akashi, who was supposed to be asleep because of the stomach medicine takeomi gave her after dinner.

even haruchiyo poked his head out of his room, the two diamond-shaped scars on his lips down in a frown.

entering the younger girl’s room, and seeing the small blood stain on her sheets, you didn’t need to think twice to know what happened. “take-nii, y/n-nee.” she whimpered, small tears pooling the corner of her green eyes. “i think my butt is hurt!” she admitted embarrassed, throwing a pillow at haruchiyo.

“it isn’t your butt, ‘ju.” you took the lead of the situation, giving your boyfriend — who was almost freaking out by the sight of blood in his sister’s bed — a reassuring smile, opening your arms for senju to nuzzle in them.

“if it isn’t my butt, what is it?” she asked, her voice muffled by your shirt. “my belly is hurting, y/n-nee.” you patted her head affectionately, a few strands of her light hair between your fingers. you never expected to pass through this moment before having kids, but that was one of the perks of dating a guy who is ten years older than his siblings.

takeomi was looking at his two favourite girls with nothing but affection reflecting in his eyes.

“you got your first period, senju.” you explained, putting your hands on her shoulders, so you could look at her face.

“her first what?” before you could explain any further, you were interrupted by haru’s voice, looking confused at the two of you. takeomi chuckled, passing an arm over his brother shoulders and walking away from senju’s room to give you two privacy.

“we should go to the convenience store to buy some things, haru. we’ll stop having peace in our home now.”

you rolled your eyes at takeomi’s words, taking senju with you to the bathroom. you told her to wait for you there, and you went to pick the spare pads you took anywhere with you. even thought you took the pills and tracked your period with an app, you had some embarrassing stories about menstruating in school, and you hoped senju could learn with your mistakes. you found her where you left her, and, taking a deep breath, you tried to mimic what your mother told you when you first got your period.

senju listened to what you had to say as if she was learning a new subject at school as you explained how menstruation worked and how to use pads — as well as some tips and how she would crave chocolate —, and you made sure that she understood that women weren’t weaker than men just because they bled every month — instead, it made them even more powerful. the admiration towards you in her eyes almost made you cry, and you finished your chat with a bear hug and kisses all over her face, and went to prepared a bath for her.

you were in the kitchen when the boys arrived after putting the stained sheets to wash, and you smiled fondly at how they were able to maintain a civil conversation. you were proud of both them — takeomi and sanzu had still a long path to walk, but you knew how the older akashi was proud of the youngest, even if he was worried about haru being in a gang, just like he was when he was about the same age. takeomi greeted you with a kiss, which earned a sneer from haruchiyo, who went to his room after wishing a good night for you. you smiled and melted in your boyfriend’s arms again.

“senju grew up too fast. i wish mom was here to see how big her baby is.” he commented wistfully while you two put the groceries in the shelves. it wasn’t long ago that senju was still a little girl who needed his help to tie her hair in a bun, only for him to notice that she wanted to match his own hairstyle.

you hummed, agreeing with him. “if you’re feeling like that with your sister, i can’t even imagine how emotional you’ll be when we have children.” you teased, elbowing his abdomen playfully. the thought of forming a family with him had crossed your mind more times than you would’ve courage to admit, but you didn’t know what he would think about that. he already needed to take the father role to his siblings, and maybe he wouldn’t want to have children — since he felt like he failed haruchiyo.

you expected him to reply something, but for the second time that night, takeomi was speechless by something you said.

“you wanted to have kids? with—” he asked, pointing at himself. “—me?”

“well, yes?” you answered sheepishly, rubbing the back of your neck and looking at the box of pads in your hands. “i know we never talked about marriage and having children together, but if there is someone that i want to experience these things with, it’s you, takeomi.”

you two never talked about that, but takeomi for sure had thought about it. the thought of not having you in his life scared him a lot — he would be nothing without your presence — and he knew the next steps of your relationship were those two. he embraced you from behind, his hands resting in your belly, rubbing circles on it, while nuzzling his face in the junction between your neck and shoulder, pressing a kiss there. “you are the only one i want to experience such things with too, y/n.”

you let a breath you didn’t know you were holding, smiling. before you could say anything, senju ran down the stairs, looking at you and her brother suspiciously. “i want the cramps medicine you told me about, y/n-nee.”

you nodded, watching takeomi embrace his sister as if she was fine china, while looking for the advil you told your boyfriend to buy.

“you belly is still hurting, senju?”

“yes! but not like when the blood came out of me.” she answered, thanking you for giving her the small pill. “good night, take-nii.” she kissed her brother’s cheek, and then yours. “good night, y/n-nee.”

you and your boyfriend watched as she went to her room, and you yawned.

“is my pretty baby tired?” takeomi asked, smiling at how cutely you nodded. “so let’s go to sleep, doll. tomorrow is a new day and i’m sure these two will have a lot of energy when they wake up.”

you let him guide you, the tiredness of the day finally making itself present in your body. after changing to one of your boyfriend’s old t-shirt and getting comfortable on his bed with his arms around your form, you were ready to welcome sleep before takeomi called your name.

“yes, my love?”

“thank you for today.” he started, giving your forehead a kiss. “you’re the only feminine presence senju have in her life, and i couldn’t be more grateful for being here with us. i don���t know what i would do if i was alone with her today.”

you chuckled, nuzzling your back into his sturdy chest. “you would probably call me.”

“yeah, probably. or shin, but i don’t think he could be of any help.”

takeomi noticed that you didn’t answer, and deeming that you were sleeping, he sighed. he finally realized, watching as how good you took care of senju, what that warm and fuzzy feeling he felt towards you was. he loved you.

it was a scaring feeling.

he never thought he would be able to love someone as he loved you. takeomi had a few girlfriends before you, especially when he was still a member of the black dragons, but what he felt for them couldn’t compare to what he felt for you. if you asked, he would set the world aflame just to see a smile gracing your lips. he could never belong to anyone else now, not after he tasted how it was being loved by you. it was an addicted feeling, and he just hoped that you felt the same. but seeing how you looked at him — as if he was your everything — he knew you loved him as much as he did with you.

“i love you, y/n.” he murmured against the skin of your cheek, pressing a chaste kiss there.

“i love you too, omi.”

for the third time that night, akashi takeomi found himself speechless because of you.

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so recently it's becoming brought to light that it's possible that I may have undiagnosed bipolar which would definitely explain some of my mood swings but, I'm bummed out and I'm coping in my own weird way so

yandere Chobobros x bipolar/mood disorder Reader ideas! because this is my blog and why not

--mixing this whole idea with my previous ideas of Reader being from our world, you're really nervous when the medications you happened to have with you start dwindling down the longer you're stuck in Eos, and you eventually decide that you have to tell your new kindly companions what's heading their way since they're going through so much trouble as to let you travel with them

--Reader just trying to take Ignis or Gladio aside since they're the "older, more mature" ones of the group and just being maximum 🥺🥺🥺 Teary Baby Mode 🥺🥺🥺 as you explain that you're on certain medications that help your mental health and that, once they run out, your behavior might get a little more... unpredictable, and you're so so sorry, you can't help it, but you completely understand if they don't want to travel with you anymore and----

--they assure you that everything is fine, don't worry! They can help look into trying to find you new medicines while you're in Lucis, but in the meantime, you have all their love and support! You're still you!

--they say that, but once they start seeing you effectively go through withdrawal from your medications and become more emotional, they can't lie and say they don't feel a strong urge to constantly check in on you and make sure you're ok (stronger than before, at least). It seems like you get so easily upset sometimes, getting frustrated into a crying rage or the slightest problem sending you into a catastrophic depression. Protective as they are, they're reluctant to leave you fully alone once they see how "volatile" you can be. What if something made you upset and you needed comfort and none of them were there? What if you hurt yourself? They wouldn't be able to forgive themselves

--once you're back on mood stabilizers, they all chip in to help remind you to take them! Being the group mom, Ignis buys you one of those pill dividers that are sorted by day to help keep you reminded of when you've taken your meds or need to, though if you're forgetful and inconsistent taking them, he'll take it upon himself to hang on to your pills and administer them to you personally

--they are not exempt from making passive aggressive comments about if you've taken your medications or not, though. If they find you're being especially temperamental, you'll get something like Prompto hitting you with "geez, cool off! Did you forget your meds this morning or something?". You've blown up at them for the insensitivity more than once and they always seem to act like your outburst just reinforces their point

--you've gotten double or even triple-dosed from someone not believing you and slipping you your meds more than once. Gotta keep you nice and lovely and passive after all~. They'd rather have you doped up and sleepy than so riled up that they can't touch or talk to you without getting snapped at

--it almost seems like they treat you different after you share your condition with them. They treat you more... delicately, like you need to be watched, coddled, kept stress free. Even once you get medicine again, they always seem to have something that keeps them from leaving you alone for any given period of time. Someone always "forgets" their phone or something important back at camp with you and just "winds up" staying behind, or someone coincidentally has a stomach ache when you're feeling particularly distant and don't want to ride into town and want some time by yourself. You really don't get that much personal time anymore

--Gladio is always trying to rope you into fun activities with everyone and make sure you're staying social and active as to not get you more depressed. At the very least, he goads you into doing morning stretches with him. Healthy body, healthy mind!

--Prompto and Noctis know all about depression, although at times neither of them can express how they want to help you very well. They'll play phone games with you or invite you for a day out or just stay by your side so you don't feel lonely. Prom is always trying to make you laugh, while Noctis is a little more quiet but every bit as sincere in trying to make you feel loved and accepted

--You're discouraged from talking with a therapist or anything, though. After all, the gang us travelling kind of incognito given Noctis' status, and hey, don't we need to keep moving to try and find your way back home? Guess you'll have just the guys to form an unhealthy emotional codependency with be there to talk whenever you need it :)

[knockknockchicagopd]

❛ THE GOOD DOCTOR ❜

❚❙ SUMMARY: Ask your father to not worry about you, if you dare.

❚❙ CHRISTOPHER HERRMANN MASTERLIST.

❚❙ WORDS: about 750.

❚❙ A/N: I have strong daddy feels for Chris since ever, and this short idea came to me on one of those kinds of days where I need a hug. I just hope you enjoy this fluffy moment. Daughter!reader. This writing hasn’t been edited, you may find some grammar mistakes, I’m sorry about that. If you find a description about body or a word out of place, or something that makes you feel uncomfortable / unrepresented, let me know by a private message and I will change it delighted.

❚❙ GIF credits: to @chicagofireadventures.

❚❙ General tag list: @melblacc @rebelwrites @skyofficialxx @sesamepancakes @scarletsoldierrr @mondefantastique @that-chick212 @enbyamaro @inlovewith3 @ocetevasgirl @destynelseclipsa @miahelen @jadakiss13 @mcgreads @graniairish @teller258316 @i-love-scott-mccall @tclaerh. If you wanna be added to my tag list, send me a message!

“Watcha' doin', kid?”

You can't help but jump slightly on your seat when your father's high-pitched voice interrupts your concentration, not expecting a visit from him in the Chicago Medical library. With a hand on your chest trying to calm yourself, you turn at him, frowning somewhat upset. He sits on the nearest chair shrugging his shoulders and drawing a guilty grimace because of the scare.

“Something happened? Is everyone okay?” You ask confused, lowering the screen of your laptop, until you notice the plastic bag hanging from his right hand.

“This is what you do now, uh? Lie to me? To your dad?”

“I didn't li—”.

“Not again, kiddo. Maggie called me. She said everything you ate today was two bags of chips and a chocolate bar!” Shaking his head as he snorts and rubs the bridge of his nose, your father places the bag on an empty space over the desk. “I understand you have too much to study, that you're on the final exams period, but… how are you gonna be a good doctor, if you don't know the importance of food?”

“Dad, I really have zero time to lose it in the cafeteria or cooking”.

“Mom can cook for you! I can do it too! I can send the candidate with what we prepare in the firehouse, or anything with Uber eats! You have no excuses”.

As your father points out every option trying to not raise his tone of voice, you can feel the bothering growing inside him. You can't be contrary to what he's saying because he's right; you have been so focused on your exams that you haven't taken care of what you eat. You understand he is worried for you, that's why you don't say a single word when he puts your laptop and notes away to empty the bag on the desk. A tupper with pasta and chicken salad, a banana, an energy bar with chocolate chips, a small bag of almonds, and an orange juice. 

Even if you wouldn't be hungry, you would be seeing this dinner right in front of your eyes. You can't hide the adoring grim that, inevitably, is drawn in your face. Watching him opening the container and spearing some pasta with a fork, you tilt your head with curiosity.

“I'm not leaving till you eat it all. So… do it by yourself or I'll treat you like the kid you are still”.

It doesn't matter how old you are, nor if you don't live in his house anymore, nor if you are an independent woman; you will be his little girl forever. He can't be a day without hearing your voice, without checking if you need something, without seeing you. Parents don't have a favorite child, but you are his. Every time you remember how much he cried when you told him about renting a flat with your best friend, you cry too. 

Without a fuss, you grab the fork to bring it to your mouth and start eating. And as you are finishing the dish he has prepared for you, your father looks more relaxed and less preoccupied. He also looks satisfied because he's aware of the amazing cooker he is and how much you enjoy it. Because, yes, it's a pasta salad; but you need to find the perfect boiling time and obtain the perfect texture. He also knows how you like chicken, roast in its juice, and seasoned with a little rosemary. Then, he mixed both ingredients with tomato diced, corn, and some olive oil.

“Thank you, dad”. You sigh feeling your stomach full to the limits, cleaning your lips with a napkin. “I… really needed it”.

“Bet you study better now”.

“I'm sure”.

“Okay, gotta go back to the firehouse. I'll call you in a few hours to don't fall asleep and be on time for your exam”. Leaning on his chair, your father places a hand on your neck to leave a kiss on your forehead. 

“I love you, dad”.

“And I love you, my little girl. I know sometimes I worry too much, but it's only because I want the best for you”.

“I know… I'd never change that from you”.

You watch him leaving the library, taking a sip from the juice he has prepared for you before continuing studying. Without any doubt, your father is the best in the world.