#like you still have to learn how to make art to make art 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️

[curiosity-killed]

The funniest thing about my sister being like “okay digital art is Real Art™️ but it’s the easiest medium” is that I am probably the digital artist she knows best and 99% of my digital art is done using traditional techniques

[violetvelourr]

To continue the subject of being disappointed. Sometimes it doesn’t even have to do with the art…

So there was this other artist I wanted to learn from and they just killed my admiration for good…

They had a “free workshop” on 9 March, which, first of all, instead of sticking with the announced subject, ended up being just the artist telling about their artistic journey, which, to be fair, was actually quite interesting, so even though I was hoping to learn an actual trick or two, but didn’t, I was not too disappointed, it was fun. But also, of course the “workshop” ended up promoting their online art classes and urging people to sign up: although I don’t particularly like that sort of “luring”, it is their right, of course…

But then I received a follow-up email with “Q&A”, and one of them was:

… and I had a good laugh because I’ve seen this before. And I made a bet with myself how “long” this closure will be… my bet was a month.

Well guess what, a new “Workshop” is taking place on 24 March, just 2 weeks after the previous workshop (which I think gave a 2 day period to sign up before “closing for a long time”). And of course they will be opening registrations again… So the “long time” for registrations being closed was just around 13 days 🥲

Honestly I just find it… cringey… like man have some dignity… 🤷🏼‍♀️ it’s okay to promote your services, but using such silly hooks is just unprofessional imo, to me personally it’s an instant turn-off… just shows how desperate you are and nothing more 🤷🏼‍♀️

By the way, in the previous “Workshop” where they actually did show a bit of their workflow, I personally taught this artist that if you want to make a layer with your entire artwork merged, you don’t need to first export it and then import back into Procreate: there is a convenient and pretty obvious “copy canvas” command.

And that is a person who teaches art and working in Procreate in particular…

Also, same person, if they picked the wrong color for an effect layer, instead of adjusting the color using hue/saturation, or maybe even choosing a different blending mode, they erase the damn layer contents, pick the color again and draw over again until they get the result they want 🥲 I was sobbing when I was watching that… so yeah basically at that point I realized the teaching style would not likely meet my needs because sometimes there was just no logic to these actions… I need lifehacks to get faster and not to spend more time than I already am… and I definitely should not be the one to teach that mentor…

But the thing with “closing for a long time” just topped it off for me.

Though I still think they are an awesome artist! But I don’t want to feel like I’m scammed into some cheep crap… 🤦🏼‍♀️

One thing about art (or rather my artistic journey) that both fascinates and upsets me lately is that at some point you actually begin to perceive differently the artists you were looking up to seems like only just yesterday.

I have several examples like this, when I even wanted to ask for mentorship… and a year or so later, gradually, I began to think “why did I think that was good?” And on several occasions it ended even with “no way… I really thought that was genius and the top skill I had to strive for?..”

Like that artist I really wanted to get lessons with, but thanks to sanctions saving my money I couldn’t, and then at some point I realized that their anatomy was just so off and the way they were drawing was basically a hit-or-miss and even more of a “fake it till you make it” principle than I have. Top it off with complete slacking off with rendering and trying to give it off as a finished piece… That was probably my biggest disappointment and I even unfollowed them…

And no, it doesn’t mean that I had gotten just so good myself that I see right through these artists now. I haven’t. I have progressed a little but still very far from where I want to be. But my taste seems to change nonetheless 🤔 and again, I’m definitely not better than those artists I stopped liking, I’m probably even still miles below! But they are just not my role models anymore…

It is interesting and also a bit disappointing tbh… like, as if you gradually stopped enjoying your favorite food… and also like with favorite food, some dishes remain just as delicious (even with flaws, in fact!!)… but some even exquisite dishes suddenly begin to taste “meh”, or even “ewww”.

And I wonder if people think the same way about my art sometimes. Surely they do, I mean, if that happens to me, must happen to others 🤦🏼‍♀️