#like why can’t I get the respect I was asked for. I’ve been cordial. tryna be respectful to eachother for our kids. but he cant even do tha | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

trust-over-love · 4 months ago

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The conversation sucked but was so what I needed. I was asked to respect his decision to move on. & I asked for the respect to not have sex anymore. Because I love my husband & it makes it harder for me to move on. I was being cordial, not trying to fight. But instead of saying okay & ending the conversation I get shit talked about me. Like what?

I want to move on peacefully as well, just as he requested & not having sex with someone I love who no longer loves me back makes me wrong? So much negative things being said to me. When the convo could’ve been so short. Just crazy. Proves me how toxic he truly is.

But the conversation was needed for me to understand that I am not the only one who messed up. I was lied to & made to believe we’d always work through it & always get stronger through our downfalls. I mean I literally got all the proof of his betrayal, but to him it was nothing & I’m the bad guy. He told me to stay when I should’ve left & now he denies it lmao Okay. We both messed up. Take accountability as I have. I was willing to always try & you lied about never giving up & always trying & that divorce was never an option. Thanks for showing me your true colors. Even showing me how much of a snitch he is by threatening me with law enforcement like really. Thank you for the push. I’m with our kids 85% of the time cause you work a lot & that’s okay I understand that but you threaten to try to get me in trouble with the law. Fake AF. So unbelievable but it’s okay. Thank god I didn’t decide to go back to that place when you asked me to for our kids. I knew it wasn’t gonna be a good idea & I’m so thankful I stuck to my gut feeling.

& he’s mad I use this app to vent instead of talking to people & posting on apps where people know us. Don’t nobody know me here. Don’t nobody even care. You left me, you can’t dictate how I heal myself from being fooled. Crazy how the truth unfolds when things get rough.

#people really switch up on you #never trust a person who speaks poorly about you when man #never trust someone who only blames you #only good thing was the children who taught me to be gentle & loving cause they so stuck up my ass. lol #I let myself trust someone after never trusting a soul due to the bad that was done to me by people who were supposed to protect me #God sees everything & saw me try my best #yes I made mistakes but nothing to be treated so poorly about #both of us fucked up & at least I take accountability for my actions #glad I could now see the toxicity & lies told #never was his love just had been settled for #I couldn’t even get the same respect of what’s best for me to move on but I have to respect his decision #I’m so dumb #I let him in & he failed me & lied to me #trying to make me believe I’m bad when I know I’m not #I tried he gave up. I kept my promise to god in my marriage not him & god sees it all so stop your lies #belittling my feelings & speaking so poorly of me #you reap what you sow. & god has a better plan for. glad he pushed my limits. it so helpful #sucks I love him but reading everything he texts me for over a month helps me. I’ve been cordial & our texts prove it #manipulation at its finest. crazy how one switches up & blames everyone else but themselves #I tried. that’s all that matters. couldn’t reciprocate the respect asked of me. respect was never there #I was never the one. I have so much proof. it helps me move on & be strong for myself #I deserve better & will better myself for myself & my kids that he asked for to do it the right way yet breaks apart another family #make it make sense. but honestly it don’t even matter. things won’t get better. he hates me & I can’t trust him #when someone threatens you with the law & is okay with being snitch you can never trust them. with no trust nothing will get better #he don’t wanna make it work. I’m happy he disrespected me. was needed to let go as asked. I was never the one #just another lesson babygirl #I know I did my best but ain’t gonna keep being stupid for someone who disrespects me & makes everything an argument #like I literally just wanted to not have sex so I can let go. sex makes things confusing. I wasn’t fighting. n got the worst said to me.#like why can’t I get the respect I was asked for. I’ve been cordial. tryna be respectful to eachother for our kids. but he cant even do tha #ashamed in myself for letting someone in. fooled me so bad it’s crazy how someone can be so fake. I’m shocked by the reaction of my request

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