#like tbh! I do tend to have vivid dreams!

[avalencias]

man the weirdest thing about 2024 so far is my nyquil induced dreams this time meant I dreamt about lexa. in the year of our lord 2024!!!!!!

[domini-porter]

Can we ask pseud questions? I wanna know what you liked best about Good Girl, and what part was hardest to write.

oh you know you can ask whatever you want

(If you, the reader, are unaware, I have an AO3 pseud that I use for my, uh, riskier stories, including Good Girl)(it’s Vendredi Pierce, if you’re curious)

So the part I like best is the damn audacity of it. I figured since I was writing something I considered dead dove I might as well go, uh, whole hog. I’ve noticed from the very earliest days—and you pointed it out, too—that this fandom tends toward euphemism and innuendo a lot, and tbh the most worrying thing wasn’t Jane’s magical mystery dick, it was that readers would be turned off by the word “pussy.” Not that they are! It’s just difficult to break through the heavily romance-coded archetypes for this pair, even in the blistering smut (I see you, PrettyLittlePoutyMouth and coolbyrne and you too, doom—not that these examples are constrained by that politesse, just . . . thinking about 🤌 smut). 

So to just go all in (so to speak) was the best part, for me; both exhilarating and kind of freeing, particularly since for a loooooong time I myself was really hesitant to write really explicit smut, listing more toward the softcore side of things, which is due in part to my own personal stuff, but also to the dominant preference for sensuality in Rizzles fic, either on the part of the authors or because it’s what the fandom gravitates toward, or both. I do see that shifting a little more, which is cool! But I get it, too—their chemistry is so romantically-coded, and the show is pretty squeamish about sex, so it’s easy to see them in that soft-lighting, curtains-blowing kind of way, even when it’s again, super-hot.

Tl;dr: “pussy.” “pussy” is the best part. 

(Also, sincerely, reading responses from people who saw themselves and their dreams in Jane’s oblique transtasia—yes I was relentlessly compelled to write an intensely-explicit story about Jane with a dick, but it’s also meant as a (very horny) fairy tale of gender euphoria, which everybody deserves, so I’m deeply happy and honored I got to add to that canon, at least.)

The hardest thing (heh)? Also “pussy.” It really was the biggest hesitation, like, would it read as too crass? Would it throw people out of the reading experience, even though it’s probably one of the tamer elements of the story? I’ve read a few of the other gp fics in the fandom, and they’re . . . I don’t wanna say “sleazy” because it sounds pejorative when I have a great respect for literary sleaze as a genre; they’re very . . . vivid, but definitely thin on plot and characterization, which I'm constitutionally incapable of. HOWEVER: I wanted GG to still be filthy. Humid. Sticky. Throbbing. But not crass, and “pussy” is one of those words (along with “cum,” which I maintain is a noun, while “come” is a verb) that can shift that perception. Makes the story feel even naughtier, y’know? But also: would people be turned off by it? In a story about a dick that sprouted overnight with zero physiological consequences? 

Fortunately, no, and I’m sure I worked the issue up in my head, but that’s what felt the most transgressive (so to speak). Certainly, at least, I saw using "pussy" as a way to give myself permission to get into some pretty, uh, niche stuff without being particularly worried about how it would go over. Hooray for tiny, gnawing neuroses!!

[trolagygirl2022]

hello, i want to participate in your game! I'm Luna!

here's the exchange: 

your fs would be the leader, a very hard worker person, likes to motivate others, they are very creative, generous, and also very very successful. They know what they are doing and what they want. Although they could be a little selfish when it comes to their need. It's one of their bad trait and they are award of it. But they can't change it no matter what. Heavy Virgo, gemini and leo energy. they don't open up to people easily. It will literally takes 5 year or more to open up for them. They have vivid imagination, clear dreams but they might look confident but they are very insecure inside. They hide it well. they don't like to show their weakness to people since they belive it made them look weak (someone tell them that it's okay to be weak and vulnerable), they probably had a bad parenting in childhood. Their parents might have wanted him to be the perfectionist and that's why they are like this. They don't know what self love is even tho I have written that they are selfish. It just they want to only satisfy their parents only and nobody else since from the begining they grew up hearing you have to do this for us, nobody is dear that parents. They are wealthy, probably born with a gold spoon, they have fake friends. Dated few times only because their friends made fun of it but none lasted more than months. Now coming to their apperance, they have facial hair, intimidating face, curly hair, well built body, thin lips, tan to fair skin, cute eyes and a cute smile (barely smiles tho), tall. They could handle their father's buisness, they love small plants, it's like a pet to them lol. Hope you like it. They are too hard on them for nothing tbh. Also contagious. I got you by bebe rexha was a song i got for you.

Woahh! He's definitely my type!!

Your reading!

Your life: 2 of Wands rev, 8 of Pentacles rev, Queen of Cups, 6 of Cups, The Chariot.

So for your life in the industry, I see you feeling emotionally unstable at times and you feel all over the place. The fast paced industry, the expectations that are required, and the constant eyes on you is going to push you to feeling very anxious. You probably joined it because you thought it was something fun and you didn't really think it through that much. An impulsive decision. You may struggle to leave though, as you have invested a lot of time into training that you would have used for other things, so this will lead you to feeling stuck and unmotivated to being an idol. You'll try to not show how you're really feeling though.

Your reputation: 9 of Wands, 6 of Wands, 6 of Swords rev.

I see people thinking of you as a bit cocky? Pick me? Your public persona has a way of acting that could get on people's nerves. They'll assume that you think you're "better than everyone". Tons of Wonyoung vibes (like what people assume she is, not how she is in general). People will think you're not "relatable" and that you can't connect with others. Others will see that you're not very friendly? Like you know how foreign idols tend to be more "out-going"? Well you'll present yourself in a way that's more reserved and quiet which will lead people to be like "??"

Your scandals: 5 of Wands, 10 of Wands rev, 2 of Wands, 2 of Pentacles.

Ok I see lots of scandals happening throughout your kpop idol career 😭. I see people assuming that you're a tough person behind the scenes and people could even think of you as a bully! It could be you showing a more confident yet competitive side and people will be quick to assume stuff. Also that you're "doing too much" according to people.

Your position: 9 of Wands rev, 3 of Swords, The Sun.

I see you being the maknae of the group. Your fans will market you as an idol that keeps going and pushing, though she gets a lot of hate. People would criticize you alot for stuff. Also that you've endured a lot trying to be an idol, such as being rejected a lot of times, training for a long time, stuff like that. The vibe I'm getting is literally Wonyoung and Jennie 2.0!

Song I got for you!

"Girls like me don't cry" by thuy

Hope you liked it :)

[hopefulsapphic]

miscellaneous tag game

tagged by @searchingfortheuniverse! tysm i love these things <3

A band you don’t like that many others do: uhh i'm really not a hater and i genuinely do not have that strong of opinions about music and bands, so i really can't think of any right now

A childhood memory that you remember vividly: god i have so many vivid childhood memories it's hard to pick just one. my most vivid memories are probably the ones i have of playing with my twin when we were pretty little. they all tend to blend together, but i can still picture so clearly the castles we built out of soft blocks and the little lego people and toy cars we moved around them like dolls and the stories and scenarios we made up and acted out and the dragon costume in his closet he always tried to scare me with

Least favorite animal and why: insects probably, but only the really annoying little flying ones that buzz so relentlessly and never take the hint when you shoo them off. also whatever wretched little bug bit me in my sleep the other night

Hot fandom take: idk if this means like for a specific fandom or just fandom in general, but either way i don't really think i have any? then again i didn't think that that "steve harrington wasn't a bad person/boyfriend he was literally just 17" post i made a little while ago was a hot take either but apparently it was a little more reactive than i expected

Do you wear any jewelry, if so, what’s your favorite piece: i'm literally always wearing jewelry; i've got two hands full of rings that i basically never take off like ever, and it's rare to see me without earrings in and necklaces on. my favorite piece at the moment is probably my little silver bat necklace i got at an antique mall about a year ago

A movie others liked but you didn’t: guys i'm really not a hater. also i tend not to watch movies i just don't have the attention span tbh

Three things you love about yourself: my creativity, my perseverance, my sense of self-expression

A place you hope to visit in the future and why: everywhere, there's so much of the world i haven't seen. more realistically though, i hope to visit my twin in washington sometime this year, probably in the summer

An actor that gets on your nerves and why: again i'm. really not a hater. i tend to be utterly indifferent to like 95% of all celebrities, i just can't care about them enough for them to even be able get on my nerves

Things you’re excited for in the nearby future? there are a few alternative music club nights (emo, goth, metal) coming up over this next month and i'm very excited to dress up and go to those with friends!

Least favorite ship in a fandom you’re in: okay now i'm a hater. it's harringrove 😬

What’s the most toxic fandom you’ve been in? all fandoms are toxic if you venture far enough or have the misfortune of landing in the wrong corners of the internet, but i think my worst experiences have been in areas of the percy jackson fandom (in the mid 2010s especially; ik it's probably kicking up again now with a new wave of toxic fans but i am living in blissful ignorance of that discourse) and, in more recent years, the stranger things fandom (i've had to narrow my involvement down to basically only one specific ship fandom within it and even then only seek it out on tumblr; tiktok is rancid)

List three things you find beautiful about life: human connection, the art of words and stories, the joy of flowers in the spring after a particularly desolate winter

Any dreams for the future? just the typical stuff really: graduate university (i have one semester left that's insane), move out (for realsies, not just for school), and find myself a solid job and make myself a solid home and be able to be self-sufficient and successful and happy in this world. ideally i also dream of actually finishing and publishing a novel one day

How are you really feeling today? i have not had even three consecutive hours of sleep a night for the past week and it's making me feel just a little bit insane, and i'm a bit anxious about school and about meeting up with a newish friend tomorrow, but overall i actually feel pretty good. i finally feel like i've got real proper friends here in this city and i've been seeing them a lot lately, so that's been buoying an overarching sense of positivity despite my sleep deprivation and anxiety

tagging @turquoiseorchid and @rainbowteri if you feel like it! and if anyone else wants to do this too, consider yourselves tagged also; live your dreams, overshare on the internet 🫶🏻

[foxymoxynoona]

i just had a nightmare oh god.

TW: gore, violence

i was staying in this hotel room at this gigantic majestic gilded hotel with hoseok, in separate beds (we were not a couple and ill get to that later). he was like, “hey there’s this friend of mine who’s going to be staying with us for like a couple of days and i have to keep an eye on her if that’s okay? she’s like a little sister to me” and i was like “sure why not” (for some reason. again, this was a dream so idk why the fuck i would do any of the shit i did in this dream).

so she comes in and she’s this white girl with red hair and she’s all demure and quiet and im like okay that’s cool. her name is RACHEL. rachel something, with P. i don’t remember. but she looks our age if not a little younger maybe so i don’t know why hoseok thinks of her as a ‘little’ sister but oh well not my business. so she’s like in the hotel room with us i don’t remember but i do notice that she likes to stay close to hoseok. im like whatever.

the day passes by. i don’t remember what we were doing in this hotel room like the three of us but then i have to go pee so i walk out of the room heading to the COMMUNAL bathroom (again, this was a DREAM. i don’t know why or how 90% of this shit happened) but then once i arrive in this giant hall-like bathroom i see BLOOD. EVERYWHERE. AND GORE. FRESH BLOOD AND GORE. ON THE FLOOR, THE CEILING. THE WALLS. and im like WTF. and then i start spraying everything clean with this huge nozzle. and then rachel walks in. she’s like omg what happened. and im like i don’t fucking know??

and then (for some reason) i look up at the ceiling again and now there’s this… like chalk art on it that wasn’t there before?? of her name and hoseok, like all colorful and swirly and stuff. it’s pretty tbh. it’s all shimmery (for some reason) like it’s almost translucent??? idk. but yeah. and im like. um. what’s happening. and rachel becomes weird and creepy like she just stares at me looking me up and down and she’s like “did you know that hoseok likes you?” and im like uh no i did not actually. and she’s like “he always talks about you and i don’t like that” and im like eurrkayyy… like at this point i know this girl is a fucking psycho and when i start walking backwards she LUNGES AT ME???

and then i don’t fucking remember what happened but now im in her body and she’s in mine??? we’ve swapped bodies??? and im like what the fuck is happening and then we’re back in the hotel room and WHY DO I NOT EVEN TRY TO TELL HOSEOK THAT IM NOT RACHEL???? IDK. MAN IM SO FUCKING DUMB LIKE WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP ACTING LIKE IM RACHEL??? IDK????

idk some time passes and THEN (again, for some reason) i decide that i should look for help getting swapped back to my body outside of these hotel walls so i walk out. once im out of the majestic front lobby there’s this sound of stampede behind me and when i look back DOZENS OF PEOPLE ARE RUNNING TOWARDS ME WITH GIANT STAKES IN THEIR HANDS LIKE IM TALKING THE STAKES YOU USUALLY SEE IN WITCH TRIALS?? and then one of them stabs me in the stomach with it. and i can FEEL the stab in my sleep like i kid you fucking not although it feels more like my stomach is made of rubber so it rears back?? if that makes sense?? like i don’t feel pain, just feel like my stomach goes far back god i don’t know how to explain it im sorry im not a writer

and that’s when i wake up

idek why i had this dream. i wasn’t even consuming anything slasher or horror before i went to nap. it was an HOUR nap.

lord im scared to fall asleep tonight

anyway sorry for unsolicitedly dumping this on you

Eeeeeesh this is wild and it's crazy that you remembered so much of it!! I tend to have really vivid and involved dreams like that and remember them too. I think it's a good idea to write them down, it's like a brain exercise or something! This sounds like a pretty bonkers horror ff you could write without much more effort. I've tried writing horror a couple times but it just gets too into my head, I think it would f me up bad. But I have so many really horrible nightmares like that one you had. Are you really stressed or anything right now? Did you eat something unusual right before?? I sound like a grandma haha

I think someone on here guessed if my name was Rachel or felt like it was? Maybe 🌸anon? It's not haha but that would be EVEN creepier if it was 😈

Anyway I hope you had a MUCH more restful and pleasant dream in at night!

[overdressedcarp]

The fact that there are fully just entire roses in the bath isn't something that properly registered with me before; good catch on that! Him potentially buying fresh bouquets just to increase the aesthetic/sensory experience of bathing is a very silly and very sweet concept imo. (Also gives me the image of Aventurine buying him flowers at some point and Ratio's reaction just being like "ah how lovely; these will be perfect for my bath tonight" and Aventurine is extremely thrown but also kind of into it ngl)

Tbh the canonicity of the social media posts is so hard bc like. the Doylist explanation is almost definitely that the people who put them together are working from limited preexisting assets, hence why one of the comments on Ratio's post has a cat cake pfp, and why the UVP news pfp is a crop of the Pela + Lynx battle pass LC. So clearly there is some degree of non-literalism involved, by sheer virtue of a marketing team making do with what they have. (I say this as someone who used to do similar work myself, albeit in a wildly different context.)

Even so, I like to take those posts as soft canon up to the extent that they don't directly contradict the lore or break logic, so I do like the idea that there is at least a bathtub picture of Ratio floating around on the Ratio's Fan Club (Insane Version) forums, because it's hilarious and I don't want to live in a world where "Be jealous of his duck. Become his duck" isn't canon.

The main reason I'm hesitant to fully equate the photo and the light cone is because of what Black Swan says to us about light cones in 2.2 (emphasis mine):

Light Cones are slices of light used to encapsulate solidified phenomena. This empty Light Cone is the same. It can etch your memories in their most vivid form, and then… allow me to admire and manipulate them, turning them into unique mementos.

The phrasing suggests to me that light cones are (at least on some level) interpretive recreations of memories, drawing not necessarily from the photorealistic state of a single moment, but from the surrounding emotions and broader context of the event itself. This would explain why we tend to see LC memories from the outside looking in, artistically framed as though the Memokeeper carefully chose the best angle from which to showcase the memory.

It would also help explain why Acheron and Black Swan are wearing different outfits in Boundless Choreo (I'm fond of the interpretation that it's a recreation of Acheron's POV of the dance, and specifically how it made her feel to dance with Swan), why The Birth of the Self represents Herta's portraits in a way that feels distinctly more symbolic than literal, and how The Day the Cosmos Fell brings to life the wild imaginings of the cat cakes playing make-believe.

On the other side of things, we do have some precedent for a light cone being inspired by a photograph via Memories of the Past, with the LC being created from either Bronya's or Cocolia's memories of seeing the photograph (the description is kept ambiguous, likely to avoid spoiling the end of the Belobog quest).

An old photo lies on the far end of the table in the guardian's residence. She would always subconsciously move her eyes away whenever she happened to see it. The memories of the past had already become distant, but the dreams of today still linger.

So it's a valid Watsonian reading imo to interpret Ratio's signature LC as being tied to the memory of the photograph from the social media post, even if by Memokeeper logic the two probably wouldn't look exactly alike.

Anyway sorry for rambling on your post dfsdshsdfh, the lore of light cones as something that exist within the world of the game is really fascinating to me despite the mere crumbs of lore we get with respect to how they work.

To return to the original topic: part of me will never quite get over the way Ratio's signature LC shows him holding a book one-handed and literally centimeters above the water. The librarian in me is going into absolute conniptions like sir that is the dictionary definition of hubris. I sincerely hope that detail is a Memokeeper's artistic license (or a photographer meddling with the shot, per the photo angle) because if not then I fear for the state of this man's personal library.

Thinking about Ratio's lightcone (his signature, not Final Victor (I'm sure I'll make a post about Final Victor some day but that day is not today))

Firstly, according to the description his baths do have floral scents. ("The afternoon sunshine is just right, and the floral scents fill the air.")

I do find it cute that he had a laurel bath curtain hook

Not only does he have what look to be rose petals (I don't know my flowers) but also just entire roses

Anyway, moving on from the fact that he could very well be buying entire bouquets for his baths. As Dan Heng said, light cones are crystallized memories in the Herta Station, meaning that it's likely that he remembers this moment particularly.

Why remember one bath? Well I direct you to one post from the Ratio Fan Club (Insane version)

Now, whether or not this can be considered canon I'm not entirely sure, but it does imply that his light cone was a picture that was taken of him. Which could potentially be why it's so 'memorable.'

[clemencetaught]

🍁 + pls share some dream headcanons! has patrick ever had lucid dreams? does he dream in black and white, or in colour? first or third person pov? does he remember them when he wakes up, or are they all an instant blur?

*insert leaf puzzle here* ( leafy meta meme w/ @interxstitial )

send 🍁 + any question you’ve been curious to know about my muse(s)!

Verse One: tbh I don’t think Patrick is actually much of a dreamer…? Like when he was younger, initially when he was adopted, I do think he had a lot of nightmares about being kidnapped…but that’s also the result of actually witnessing his birth parents ( and brother too ) actually being kidnapped. So when he had those nightmares, it was more of the fear of being taken away again from a place he considered safe- his adopted parents stayed up with him for a lot of those nights :’D ( those nightmares also do return briefly post felicity’s second death as when ANACHRON imprisoned him for those few hours as it recreated that fear he felt from childhood )

That being said, as for the dreams themselves, at least from what I have researched, it’s not so much of the actual events being projected so much as it is the fear itself so that being said- Patrick’s dreams tended to be more one the vague side in which is was mostly dark ( just from the fact that when his parents were taken, he had been stuffed into a closet ) with a lot of loud and sudden noises and in first person. Because they were so vague though, he never really remembered  what happened in those nightmares- what remained tho was the fear itself….

As for the kinder dreams though, where he currently is in his timeline, Patrick does on occasion have a dream about just about sitting on the beach between felicity and Hyuk….it’s more like he’s been his life :‘asleep’re burning him alive. His reactions to them can be violent too ( ie. Pull his sword on/punch whoever tries to wake him up ) and he also learned the hard way about being a’D he always wakes up feeling quite nostalgic as that is a scenario that would never actually happen in RL D':

Verse Two: whereas Patrick sleeps okayishly at night ( if anything, his real folly is that he doesn’t get enough hours of sleep due to sheer forgetfulness fjskldfjslkdfj ), myungdae has more likely to avoid sleep if he can. Due to the gap in his memory, he tends to have vivid nightmares about that period of confinement- ie again, sheer darkness with screaming in the background along with the sound of clocks ticking and water droplets. Either that or he also being burned alive. There’s also the dream he has about waking up between felicity and Hyuk on a beach on his good nights…although that dream can also take a turn for the worse in the either he’ll see them being burned alive or they’re burning him alive. His reactions to them can be violent too ( ie. Pull his sword on/punch whoever tries to wake him up ) and he’s learned how to cope with them. If anything, the nightmares are like old rivals….and so he has more or less developed a routine to make himself feel better ( ie. smoking ).

Verse Three: Just like many of the victors presumably, he too has had his fair share of nightmares from his time in the games. For him it tends to manifest as his district partner, tellessa, burning alive in front of him but also all of the other tributes he set on fire to the final battle with the male tribute from district two….however, while those nightmares have never disappeared completely, as he gets older, the reoccurrence of these nightmares has lowered over the years and he’s learned how to cope with them. If anything, the nightmares are like old rivals….and so he has more or less developed a routine to make himself feel better ( ie. smoking ).

[fingertipsmp3]

I’ve finally decided what I want to write but unfortunately I have next to no details

[azucanela]

Can i please have a headcanons for Keigo and Shinsou with a female s/o that really likes manga and anime but keeps it a secret from others because they talk shit and make fun of her? and like one day they accidently find out and she's kinda embarressed about it but they convince her that everything is fine and they think ist cute how happy they are when they talk about something she loves? Uwu :9 (sorry for my bad english)

secret anime and manga fan s/o headcannons  [ft. keigo takami, shinsou hitoshi]

SUMMARY: Y/N has been hiding the fact that she likes anime and manga from her lovely boyfriend for a while now, fearing he’d find it weird. now, she has no choice but to address the fact that he knows. 

WORD COUNT: 1.6k

WARNINGS: threats

A/N: your english is great bb! uwu owo this was relatable askdakjhds if anyone tells you there is something wrong with watching anime or reading manga, let me tell you that they are WRONG. i will fight them for you<3

KEIGO TAKAMI | PRO HERO HAWKS

you used to talk about animes you liked because at the end of the day they are tv shows thats it, same with mangas, they are like books but cooler lol

but people found that “weird” for some reason, because anime is a “cartoon” and thats so gross omg haha these “cartoons” make me sob um watch a silent voice and cry with me kids

anyways

you’re watching anime in the comfort of your home, just vibing. no one is coming over today, you have time to yourself to enjoy your lil show that nobody should be judging you for

well, you thought no one was coming over

keigo has a tendency to just like, show up at your house sometimes when hes bored or in the midst of an uneventful patrol. though he rarely is seen in public, especially on the streets, he does fly-bys constantly

anyways, he was bored, or just relieved of duty for whatever reason, like lunch. he is having chicken nuggets, he is a cannibal, be ashamed H A W K S, smh

anyways, he just shows up at your house, like he lowkey breaks in through the balcony of your apartment, but its fine because you leave it open for him, but normally he texts you to let you know he’s coming but today was the exception because he’s adorable and wanted to surprise!!! you!!! with!!! food!!!

so he comes in, and he sees you are on your couch, just watching your lil anime, and you are SO INTO IT MAN like you are lowkey yelling at the TV whenever a character does something, and when that one character you hate comes on you’re like throwing hands with nothing

keigo is internally screaming because why are you so CUTE

he kinda forgets for a second that you don’t know he’s there, he has no idea what’s going on in this show, and he’s still holding chicken nuggets and fries

this is why he just kinda screams at a character who does something stupid, that totally could’ve been avoided, effectively startling you

now you are both screaming for separate reasons as you turn around to look at him, and now you are panicking because oh no, he KNOWS 

his wings are fluttering and he feels bad for scaring you as he comes up to wrap his arms around your shoulders, “sorry baby! but that guy is so dumb.”

you are MORTIFIED and now you’re like, “oh my god, you must think im so weird-”

keigo is confused, why would he think that? he genuinely doesn’t realize that people make fun of you for watching anime and he’s so confused by it when you inform him that a lot of people tend to find it weird 

“what?”

“people think its weird so i just-” hahahhasdha keigo lowkey wants to take time out of his day in his professional agency to find out who told you it was weird and made you think you had to hide this from him because he wants to know everything about you! you are the love of his life! you shouldn’t feel the need to hide things!

now he feels like maybe he did something to make you think you had to hide your love for anime even though it is literally adorable to watch you

“baby, it’s not weird. i actually think its cute how angry you get at the characters. and i AGREE like how could he just do that-”

“wait you don’t care...?” you are BLUSHING because he thinks you are CUTE not that you didn’t know this already since he was dating you but like

omg

“of course not, also would you mind restarting this anime, im kind of invested- oh and i brought chicken nuggets”

you lowkey wanna cry he’s so cute

he can tell you don’t believe him so he sets the food down on a coffee table and takes your face in his hands and is all like, “baby. i promise you its fine. and adorable. now let’s restart this show so i can watch with you.”

he winks at you and now you’re like, “whatever no i am NOT restarting.”

then he gets all pouty but its fine he doesn’t need to understand the plot to watch with you and enjoy every moment, he also likes when you explain it really excitedly with all these hand movements, and he especially enjoys when you get mad at characters

he finds it hot 

hates when you have a crush on a character he gets so jealous and is not afraid to show it kjahsdahsdsh mans will start hating the character just because you keep talking about how hot they are

“they’re just so BEAUTIFUL.”

keigo, self consciously touching his winds, “im beautiful too...”

he’s so cute

throws popcorn at the screen whenever that character comes on

SHINSOU HITOSHI

hahjsdgjasgdj

THIS BOY is so pretty

anyways you probably fell asleep reading manga, or watching anime or something like that, so it’s like 1AM and you were BINGING because that stuff is great and nobody is there to bother you while you read and watch and stuff its you time

and for some reason people have been opposed to this in the past? so now whenever people come to your room your manga are all like lowkey hidden and you make sure there is no evidence of anima

you did NOT want shinsou finding out and thinking you were weird or anything like that, even though liking anime and manga is NOT weird!!!

if anyone tells you other lmk and i will have strong words with them

so you fell asleep and shinsou comes over because he realizes he forgot something in your room, and like the GENTLEMAN he is, he knocks, but you are asleep and do not hear him!

he’s like eh worst case scenario she’s cheating on me and i end up heartbroken, and this is something he genuinely considers sometimes and he would definitely blame himself if he got cheated on

so he sees you sleeping and you are like a mess because you did not intend to fall asleep, so you’re like in your desk chair, the manga is wide open on your desk or your computer is on and there’s the still going anime aksjdhkjdhas

your neck is in a weird funky way that’ll probably hurt in the morning and shinsou is like oh no i gotta move her i dont want her in pain, he is also wondering why you look so cute because what the hell this is unfair stop it

tbh he probably barely notices the manga, like he’ll just nonchalantly close it and place it on your bedside table because reading manga isn’t weird before coming back to you, in the chair, and like picking you up to put you in bed

now you AWAKEN AND YOU ARE A L E R T because it hits you pretty fast that shinsou is here, this is NOT a dream, he probably saw your manga/anime, and now hates you and is carrying you to your death

this is all false

in the midst of your panic, you knock the both of you down onto the ground, and he’s feels so bad for allowing the two of you to fall nkjasdjakn poor bb

“Y/N im so sorry-”

“hitoshi why are you apologizing?”

he just ignores that and he comes over to you on the floor but your gaze is on the closed computer on your desk or the manga that was placed on your bedside table that you DEFINITELY DID NOT PUT THERE

he saw, he definitely saw, and now you are babbling about how weird he must think you are because of those JERKS who made you think anime and manga are weird

“what are you talking about?”

“well, people always told me how weird it was and sometimes they would... say things”

shinsou quickly realizes you were bullied because you liked manga and anime and stuff like that and now he is contemplating murder <3 what a lovely boyfriend

as someone who has experience with bullying himself, he finds this especially stupid, its literally just a show and book, and kinda wants to ask you the names of the people who told you these things so he can hunt them d o w n

instead shinsou prioritizes you and your insecurities first, “babe... no. its just anime? there’s no problem with watching it. whoever told you that was just a jerk.” jk he uses more colorful vocabulary

shinsou is completely ready to spend the next hour convincing you that there is nothing to worry about because there really isn’t 

“so you don’t think its weird?” his heart almost breaks when he hears your voice and he just nods and gives you a lil smile

“not at all... actually i was wondering what was so interesting that you stayed up until” he’s looking at the time, “2AM.”

now you’re blushing but you still launch into an explanation of the entire anime and honestly anime/manga plots are so extensive and cool and well done and that just makes them so fun and complicated to explain

shinsou is trying his hardest to understand but you are very cute as you explain using lots of vivid hand gestures and adorable faces and wow he’s been distracted

will try his hardest to understand so that you can talk with him about it more often, genuinely finds it great watching you tell him about something you enjoy so much and hates that you felt the need to keep it a secret

he wonders how many times you hid away the manga or anime when he came over and feels like an inconvenience 

anyways he really really really likes you so now he just listens as you rant about how cute certain characters are and lowkey gets jealous

“WHY IS HE SO HOT.”

“he’s not... that hot.” grumbling and stuff as he plays with the edge of his sleeve and borderline glares at the screen.

A/N: i hope this wasn’t bad akshfjakshdkjh 

[hitomania]

any voca songs you rly want in proseka? :]

HELLO. SORRY FOR TAKING A COUPLE DAYS TO ANSWER THIS ONE just got distracted for a while but.....oh boy do i........i think of songs i want in sekai like ALL the time literally every time i find a new song i like one of my first thoughts is trying to assign it to a group/characters GHHGSHGKJHJ

IT TURNED OUT REALLY LONG IM SORRY I HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS ON THIS SO HIDING IT UNDER A READ MORE FOR THE BELOVED FOLLOWERS TO NOT DIE </3

BUT HMM....i have some songs i want in that i think actually do have a chance of getting in and others that are like not popular enough to have a chance and are complete fantasy so i'll just go thru one of each for the main 5 groups?

for leo/need the biggest like Actually Has A Chance song i want from them is headphone actor, literally it would be too perfect for shiho to pass up...lyrically it fits her character well and there's a LOT of prominent bass in it too!! please shiho needs more spotlight songs and this one is just so good for it.......

and for the leo/need cover that is like, COMPLETELY impossible but i still like to think about it, that would be sakura-coloured time capsule! the instrumentals and the themes of nostalgia and a school setting and stuff just line up SO well for them and it's such a pretty song...but unfortunately since suzumu left the vocaloid community in a very. Final way. i REALLY doubt it'd ever get in...alas...

for the more more jump cover i think actually has a chance, i'd say orange genome! IT'S.......a LITTLE on the obscure side but it's hall of legend which to me means it's probably popular enough!! it's just such a catchy and bittersweet song to me, it's like light and bubbly enough to work for the idol group while still having a pretty sad meaning which TENDS to be what i like the most from mmj (i.e. milk crown, patchwork staccato). it also has lots of love-related themes which tends to be what they get so pleas....

as for the less likely more more jump cover, that'd be marshmary! mimi songs are all SO GOOD, and honestly if any of them were to get in it'd probably be this one? so i DO have my fingers crossed a little more than other unlikely songs...but it's just SUCH a catchy song, again see what i said above for like. a very light and bubbly and cute instrumental but with some sadder lyrics which i love love love from them so :pleading_face:

for vivid bad squad, a song i want from them that i feel has a solid chance is delusion tax! we NEEEED more boy/girl duet covers in vbs and i feel like this is the PERFECT song for an akito/an duet, it has a very good balance between like. hard rock and electronic, which fits them well...the lyrics are all about desires and wishing on the future too, which fits their characters since they're the ones with the biggest drives and goals in the group, and i think it would be fun i <3 deco songs

AND HOOOO this is probably one of the songs i want in the game more than ANYTHING because its like one of my favourite songs Ever and i can so perfectly envision a cover of it....but alas i feel like it doesn't have a very good shot due to being a pretty small song :( but that would be urusaaai! i linked the araki cover since i feel like it hits harder and is also why i can envision akito being spotlighted here so well but it's just. SUCH a good song, it's so catchy and intense and GODDD what i wouldn't give for a full group cover of it from them.......

for wonderlands x showtime, a likely song i'd love to see from them is 1,2 fanclub! it's just SUCH a catchy and fun and absurd song which i feel fits them really well. emu and nene covers are always so cute and fun and i feel like they would fit this super well, especially with the like few semi-serious lines in it about wanting your feelings to be understood and to communicate well, i think that's a little theme that can actually fit both of them on top of just being a silly funny nonsense song :3

and for unlikely song..............god i wanna say like almost any niru kajitsu song here BUT i gush about him enough as is so i'll go with netasone people instead! kinda same things as above of just being a very funky and absurd song, though the lyrics are a LITTLE darker which i feel can still fit them too, especially if rui gets involved (i think it fits him very well tbh!). ame no murakomo needs more recognition in general and this is my favourite song from him so dreaming

AS FOR 25ji HOHOHO.....their genre tends to be my favourite so i have the MOST thoughts for them but. im gonna HAVE to say for a likely cover i want from them....mkdr....sorry to have two deco songs on here i wanted to keep it more diverse but alas. ANYWAYS this has always been my favourite deco work its just so beautiful and catchy at once and despite being one of his most popular works it hasnt gotten much recognition from concerts/games so like NOW IS THE TIME...GIVE IT TO THEM IM DEMANDING IT

and for UNLIKELY SONG.......oh BOY is this one unlikely i think it's like the least popular by far of every one on this list but GODDDDD ressentiment club would just be SOOOO perfect for a kanade/ena duet and im so mad it will probably never come to pass. see-kun NEEDS more spotlight and 25ji could really use some more intense songs too, it would be so fun to play in game, and also the lyrics fit them just. SO perfectly. i can literally envision what i would want the line divison to be so well its insane GODDD

SO YEAH ^_^ this is just the tip of the iceberg too i have a LOT of other thoughts in mind if you want to enable even more of this but THANK U FOR THIS ASK daydreaming about sekai covers is like my number one hobby so thank you for the excuse to share some of that with da world >:)

[221bluescarf]

Guess I've been learning more about myself lately...

Every week my therapist ends up asking me where my "negative voice" comes from. Why I'm so hard on myself and why I have so much negative self-talk... why I am always dismissing myself, minimizing my experiences/problems/feelings, telling myself to shut up and to never complain and to just deal with it, being afraid and convinced people will be irritated if I bring up any struggle or concern, and never feeling worthy of sympathy or help...

Maybe something I was told as a kid or while growing up -a parent, a teacher, etc. I always say I don't know -because I have no clue. It just "is". It's the way I am.

But

But

Is it?

Maybe not quite. It didn't occur to me because I tend not to think about it - tbh I kinda block it out (Not exactly fond memories). Every night for nearly my entire childhood, I was positively haunted by terrible nightmares. They would just never stop.

Earlier on, I frequently ran into my parents room for sanctuary (as most kids do). But, when it kept happening, of course it got old and my parents started getting more and more insistent on me staying in my room. I would plead with them but I was told to deal with it -which is probably right. However Now that I'm grown, I can confirm that these vivid dreams and sleep paralysis were bad for an adult, let alone a little kid.

But kids are silly right? Stop bothering your mom and dad because they have things to do. and they (understandably) want to catch some Zs without a 6 year old constantly waking them up because she had a "bad dream" boohoo

Don't get me wrong, I know I'm probably making it sound bad but I'm not blaming them or shaming them. They did try to help I guess with the whole nightlight thing. But when I kept crying about seeing my friend's dead grandfather sitting on the other side of my bed, maybe they just got tired of it... It's your imagination, you'll live. Don't wake me up again.

I still couldn't bare it, so I tried to make up more valid excuses to wake up my parents like being sick but it didn't really work, it just irritated them more.

[nothing was valid enough to get their help, I'm sensing a theme here]

Eventually, I could force myself to stay in bed. Terrified, yes, but I stayed. 8...10...12 years old and it was still happening. I'd lay in bed, stiff as a board, eyes glued to the bedroom door until I would finally fall asleep.

I just never saw the connection before (Or maybe there's no connection and I'm kidding myself...)

Hopefully this doesn't sound dramatic But the things I was told in regards to these nightmares are the exact same words I tell myself now, as an adult. Almost verbatim. Because back then It's just a dream eventually progressed to Just deal with it and You're being ridiculous ... Are you bringing this up again? ... I don't want to hear it ... You're making this too dramatic ... It's not that serious ... You do this too much ... Just stop.

[spacemamaa]

what's your take on twin flames? how do you personally think they differ from a karmic partner? thanks so much if you take the time to answer!!! 🤗 have a great day/night! 💕 c:

Before I answer, I'm going to have to give a disclaimer. lol. I steered away from mainstream ideas, so they might not be like everyone else’s ideas. But I have read some things here and there to broaden my perspective. I have mostly used my own understanding of these topics through meditation, so this is just my own opinion/perspective. 🙂

I'm going to start off with the negativity surrounding the Twin Flame concept. I think people are HEAVILY attached to the idea of it. The term is over used in the community and I don't think that readers understand that saying these things in general readings are super harmful. Like,,, *every* pile is a TF connection when it's supposedly the RAREST connection you can have? lmao. Not everyone has one and I think people need to realize that. It's why you never hear me saying that in my readings unless I really see the symbolism in there, the dynamic of the push, pull, and uniting, or if I'm being called to say those exact words--which is rare. Through my experiences with readings for others, I have observed that it causes people to become stagnant because of a growing codependency on the title/unconditional love/connection. In some cases it can be scary because I have seen people obsess to the point that's all they talk about and it distracts them from themselves/progressing in their lives. It becomes a difficult cycle to break out of and they become stuck because of the codependency. I mean, I get it. Who wouldn't wanna be in the "ultimate" true love connection? But it's unconditional, right? So forcing and obsessing will not get you what you want. Many YT readers play a huge role in making people obsess and more readers need to realize that we have a huge impact on our audience with what message to say and how to say it, so we don't contribute to this and to avoid leading people on when they're not actually in a TF connection. Personally, I think you can find out through personal readings, but not always. Sometimes "they" don't want to tell the person or maybe it simply isn't time to know.

Despite this whole rant, I do believe in TF connections. Haha! I think you can feel that someone is a TF through a subconscious/intuitive thought in the back of your mind. Physical sensations of being on fire or electricity when you touch. TF is in your thoughts, continuous vivid dreams, numerology (i.e. Life path number 3 + 5 are compatible, but also make the number 8/ an infinity sign), rapid signs of angel numbers before your meeting/when your TF journey is about to start. Telepathy between you both, astrology (i.e. the couple are sister signs). Similarities with your core personality, but different in other aspects. It's even better when you doubt and you get a sign to make you reconsider. Basically, if you met someone who you think is a TF and you haven’t refocused your attention on yourself, dropped your mask/became your truest self, faced your “demons”/past traumas or issues all because you met this one person, then chances are, they’re not it, babes. lol That’s what that connection is all about. TF connections are about propelling spiritual growth at rapid rates because you are facing yourself (your mirror) and it’s supposed to bring out your best self. Pay attention to how this person makes you feel (i.e. empowered or drained) If you're not controlling the situation or forcing the connection, the universe gives your clear signs. Pay attention and stay aware. There are always answers around you. Lastly, I don’t think they always end up together in each lifetime they meet; however, I feel like if they do, it’s because they’re going back to where they came from since they’ve fulfilled their mission in the 3D and they can move on. (this is just my own theory, but maybe not though idk hehe)

As for karmic partners--I’m not sure how you would personally define it but I’m going to take the definition of two people who had maybe a toxic relationship or just a relationship that didn’t last (possibly even mistaken as a TF connection). Maybe it can even be similar to TF connections with the push and pull, but it never lasts.

Personally, I just drop the ‘karmic’ part because it makes it sound like a punishment tbh. Lol The word karma means things returning because of the energy you put out, so, for example, if youre saying that a relationship was karmic because it was toxic--there’s an implication of being deserving of it in a sense since you went through that difficult experience and you think it’s karma for the things you’ve done, when in reality, it’s happening because you haven’t learned the lesson that you needed to learn. Doing so will end the cycle/issue. People are not karma, they just gave you an experience because you needed to learn something. I guess, in ways I’m explaining karma but that word has brought a lot of misunderstandings to what this even really is. If any aspect of a “”karmic”” relationship is real, then I presume it’s just about people from past lives or certain cycles returning because there was no closure.

Overall, don’t get caught up in these labels. Lol People tend to get hyper focused on what the connection is rather than just taking it all in and experiencing/learning. Hopefully this was informative! I hope you’re thriving bb. 😚💘

[thong-tom]

This is expressly to make Sanya (@tomarryherewewhoaagain ) happy you rat fucks.

Nicknames: oh fuck I’ve had a lot of these in my life. The MAIN ones are AJ and Moth, but other notables are Ash, Jo, Bitch, Captain Poopypants, Caspar, Cunt, and like...I was called Lucy for awhile when I still attempted to be ✨anonymous✨ online.

Zodiac: Aries. Not to be a 💥stereotypical bitch💥 but I’m pretty sure this surprises absolutely fucking no one when they find out. I literally had someone tell me “I figured that out five seconds after meeting you” and was like “okay you KNOW WHAT? Completely fair, carry on.”

Height: Hovering between 5’4 and 5’5, closer to 5’5. Sometimes I’m almost 5’6. I don’t know. I like to spontaneously shrink and grow And For What,,,

Last Thing I Googled: hm. Well. The last thing I googled was porn because I am, in fact, a degenerate fucking heretic but for propriety’s sake, the last PG thing I googled was Binge Eating Disorder.....bcus I got that disorder LMAO. Tbh I thought the last thing I googled was crafting recipes for the gifts in this obscure story/dress-up game targeted for 12 year olds that I’m now obsessed with but eh. That was the SECOND last thing I googled, and I gotta be honest, right?

Song Stuck In My Head: ,,,,Buddy, that changes with my mood. Which changes every three seconds. I DO hear background music in my brain 24/7, and the deranged jukebox in my head has been wildly ping-ponging between Mother Mother and Daughter’s music. And while those two bands’ titles are both composed of family pronouns, uhhh,,,,,,,the music is WILDLY different LMAOOO. Right now I’ve got “Smother” by Daughter going on, but literally two minutes ago I was thinking about “Verbatim” by Mother Mother. Just listen to the first thirty seconds of both songs and you’ll get a vivid understanding of the fuckery going on up there.

Number of Followers: uh, main blog has just over 800, but between that AND all my side-blogs,,,,,,,total tally says about 3500 lmao. I have some degree of popularity but Not Very Much (and for damn good reason).

Amount of Sleep: Wildly varies from 4 hours to 10 hours, but never more. Right now I’m in a 6 hour long phase.

Lucky Number(s): 3, 4, 17, and 47! Occasionally 18.

Favorite Song: Yeah, uh, that’s an impossible choice. I’m called a Music Guru and often complimented on my taste for a REASON. I have a LOT of favorites, so instead, I’ll pick ones with the most meaning to me on a personal level. So, in no particular order:

1. The Leap Year by The Pauses

2. My Way by Frank Sinatra

3. Be the Song by Foy Vance

4. Class of 2013 (audiotree live version) by Mitski

5. Smother by Daughter

All of those songs have some deeper reason as to why I love them so much, but 4 and 4 are the ones that are the most important to me.

Favorite Instruments: If you asked me this a couple years ago, I might’ve said the standard violin or piano. I still think those sound very pleasing, but in all actuality, I’ve got a big appreciation for bass guitars! I always pick up on its use in songs and if a song lacks a good bass-line, somehow it just never hits for me. It’s a VERY rare song that I enjoy without a strong bass presence, which is sort of ironic given some of the important-to-me songs that I listed up there lol. Some of my FAVORITE songs (not important ones—FAVORITE ones) like Body of Years by Mother Mother, Animal by Neon Trees, Pork Soda by Glass Animals, Shell Suite by Chad Valley, Zen by X-Ambassadors, or even Tomorrow by Daughter have loud and distinguishable bass tones.

Dream Job: That’s a firm toss up between an author, a teacher, and an actress. Teacher is my goal and is attainable, author is attainable but only as a side thing, and actress is completely unattainable lmao. I can act like hell but alas...I lack the on-paper experience AND, more importantly, the face and body JFKDKGKDKGLDLFL.

Aesthetic: ....Don’t have one, actually. I just like what I like. I’m like the human personification of a mixed bag. The mixed bag to end all mixed bags.

Favorite Author: Do poets count? Because if so, it’s an easy win for Maya Angelou. If NOT, though, I might have to give that title to Rick Riordan lmao. That guy has his own mistakes but in general he’s pretty fucking kickass.

Favorite Animal Noise: Weird one, but you know that pleased little trilling sound birds make, or that excited “MEOWmeowMEOW” thing cats do? It’s a toss-up between those two.

Random: I have seven siblings, three of which I’ve never met, two of which are full-blooded, and two of which are named Riley. I have two half siblings from my mother, three half siblings from my father (never met em) and two full siblings. It’s weird. Otherwise. Uh. People tend to me utterly fucking enamored by the way I both talk in-person and the way I write. Apparently, I’ve got a VERY distinct diction and distinguishable tone, which I think is hilarious.

[heatobrienswife]

Sorry I took so long to get to these ;w;

1. Who's usually the first one to fall asleep you or your f/o?

Heat! I actually have a lot of trouble getting to sleep lol

5. Are you and your f/o light sleepers or heavy sleepers?

Heats a pretty heavy sleeper! It takes quite a bit to wake him -w- I'm the complete opposite the smallest noise wakes me up lol

6. what positions do you and your f/o usually go to sleep in? How about your positions you usually wake up in?

Heats usually on his back while I lay on his chest when we fall asleep n we're usually facing each other entangled in each others arms when we wake up

7. Do either of you steal the sheets in your sleep?

Kinda me since I toss n turn a lot -w-

9. How do you and your f/o fit on the bed? Is there a lot of space? Little space? What's the bed size?

Heat takes up most of it tbh they're pretty much just single beds

16. How/ when did you end up sharing a bed with your f/o for the first time? What was it like?

First time we shared a bed was actually before we got together, we we're both just messing about in my room n ended up falling asleep together nothing too interesting tho our leader found us Nuzzled up together n kept giving heat knowing teasing looks for about a week after -w-

18. Do you or your f/o sleep talk? If yes what are some of the memorable things that were said? What about snoring or drooling?

Neither of us really sleep talk I caught heat growling once tho! It must have been a pretty vivid dream it'd set off his atma to the point of him almost transforming, but ye he snores like hell lol

19. How early/ late do you and your f/o head off to bed?

Heats usually ready to go round about 12am but I tend to keep going till like 4am >w>

20. This was the same question as 1 so I'll skip

22. How early/ late do you and your f/o wake up? Who's usually the first to wake up?

Neither of us are early risers -w- but heats usually the first to wake up since he's usually asleep long before I am

Thank you all so much for sending these asks!! ;w; 💖💖💖

[pokemoncoloursplash]

Weird question, what's the weirdest dream you've had?

This is really good timing, because I had a really strange one last night. The Mods and Sprite Squad were on a replica Olympic, and we were playing Go Fish, but with Pokemon Cards. Vice was busy hurling over the side of the boat, Decima was a big 'ole talking snake eating pizza the wrong way, Light was stuck in a chandelier, Paragon was singing Disney songs while petting the ship's cat with Smol, Gale was trying to get Light out of the chandelier, and Shay and I were the only ones actually on topic.

- Dragonis

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That's pretty in character for me. Also, I'm not properly answering this one because I only ever have nightmares, and I don't think anyone wants to hear those bad boys.

- Mod Parasol

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Had a nightmare a while back where I had hair growing out of my mouth. Other than that, I don’t really remember my dreams all that well, other than the fact that they tend to be recursive, with the twist that the POV character tends to remember all events of the last recursion. It’s always interesting to see how drastically different a dream goes when you do something as simple as leave an area.

- Vice

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God I have to PICK? I have a wierd blend and most are anxiety dreams tbh.

Uhh...theres the big digging construction vehicle that was destroying toys in my elementary schools gym, and then it grabbed me. Theres the one dream that was The Thing meets The Mist where no one would help me prep the house to avoid having the things get in. Theres the one where I made "ramen" with macaroni noodles, soy and burnt chicken. Theres the reoccurring dream about these winding cliffs and the run down apartment complex, but those are reserved for nightmares. Theres also the one time I think I lucid dreamt, I had my gecko but there were maybe 4 geckos in her tank and i freaked out cause that's not healthy for that size of tank so i smacked my face hoping it was a dream.

I never used to have vivid dreams, but I read that COVID times have brought out some weirdly vivid dreaming episodes in people across the globe.

- Decima

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I have a few weird dreams but this is the most recent I can remember most of.

My family, for whatever reason, and I were invited to a friend of a friend's engagement party which took place at an esports event in some convention hall, and Fran Drescher was there and no one else seemed to care except me. Im like "that's Fran Drescher", and everyone was like yeah it sure is. The esport ended up being some weird hide and seek-like game and there are four screens à la mario kart. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ -Gale

[alwaysraineh]

❤️💛💝💖

ahaha marie ilysm so thanks in advance for forgiving me on how long this took (i procrastinated bc i was watching some trash reality tv and it was way too entertaining to stop lol)

THAT SAID

I ADORE YOU AND I’M SO HAPPY YOU ASKED ME THESE AND I’M SO EXCITED TO ANSWER THEM (but under the cut bc i’m indecisive and you enabled me so i’m doing two different wips for each question but also ur the best for letting me do this)

❤️: what’s the working title?

okay so the working titles have v different energies to me lol one is Oslasil and the other is Vanilla Pines/Paranormal Kids

💛: what is the title based on?

Oslasil is the name of the empire that the main characters are from in the trilogy!!! and i honestly have absolutely no idea what it’ll develop into bc its sort of about Oslasil but its mostly about Veridis and the royal family and politics and then i GAVE IT A SEQUEL LIKE A MADMAN and the sequel is even more convoluted and DOESNT EVEN TAKE PLACE IN OSLASIL but yeah it’s the empire lol

Vanilla Pines was my original working title bc i was listening to the song Vanilla Pines by Tow’rs while plotting and the aesthetic was just too good to pass up y’know??? bc this whole story is based on an extremely vivid and disturbing dream i once had (literally when i woke up i could feel my teeth and i thought there was blood on my hands and it was TERRIFYING) and the whole dream was like misty and foggy and dark and in all these natural areas and the trees were just so spooky!! and ponderosa pines smell like vanilla and grow in northern california where i’ve set the story so its just real good for the aesthetic!! the alternate title, Paranormal Kids, comes from bouncing ideas off @tennisxiu and her genius brain latching onto the phrase paranormal kids bc the mcs are ~16-18 yrs old and they get mixed up in some ABSOLUTE BULLSHIT that is entirely paranormal. and like. it just fits the plot really well whereas Vanilla Pines fits the aesthetic and i really enjoy hearing them together tbh

💖: are you planning on publishing it? if so, how?

hhhhhhhhh i would die if either of these got published but yes!!! i think both will end up as self-published books bc i have no clue how to work with agencies and i’m also real terrible at writing/editing on deadlines so i’m not sure i could handle the rigidity of set dates??? but i’d be ecstatic if either got picked up by an agency, esp Oslasil bc it’s a trilogy with a sequel series

💝: who has your favorite character arch? give a brief summary

oof okay this one is hard bc i tend to fall in love with my own characters which is BAD bc i play favorites!!!!! that said, i don’t think its even my main boys in Oslasil that have my favorite arcs??? in the og trilogy i honestly think Purtham has my favorite arc. like. he’s got a history and has lived his life already by the time the trilogy takes place, and he’s complex and has a life and a story to tell even after the trilogy is over!! also for the sequel trilogy i should say Eidel bc he’s one of the main two and i adore him but hear me out: Yve. he’s the older in a set of twins that study magic but while his sister Aury develops magical abilities, Yve doesn’t. and its really hard for him bc he thinks its gonna take his sister away from him and he won’t be able to protect her but even as much as he adores Aury he hates himself bc he feels ‘less than’. what he doesn’t know is that the whole twin telepathy thing they have is actually his own magic!! Yve is a Wanderer, a very rare type of magic user that can teleport and telepathy is a sort of astral projection for them. so. Yve. y’know?? he’s got a whole thing going for him that involves self acceptance and complicated feelings and all

NOW FOR VANILLA PINES/PARANORMAL KIDS

right off the bat (holy shit hang on just realized i was supposed to give a brief summary and i don’t think i really actually did that??? whatever its my post i do what i want lol) RIGHT OFF THE BAT i think of Wesley bc he’s my mc and he’s.... oof. i love him so much. Wes was raised fairly isolated- his parents are v rich and snobby- and went to private schools, and after an incident when he and friends are 10ish and one of them DIES (is murdered by a nasty supernatural entity) his parents send him to a boarding school. now, Wes has had ‘imaginary’ friends his entire life and he feels guilty after Milo bc his invisible hands, as he calls them, are the same energy as the thing that kills Milo. but when he’s 16/17ish Wes says FUCK IT and refuses to go back to the boarding school and insists to go to public school where he reunites with Morgan and Dwight and then the three of them get involved with the fucked shit in the woods again and at one point Wes is posessed/in a trance and he paints an entire wall of his bedroom to look like the forest in his dreams without knowing he did it. also this is set in the 90s and Wes isn’t sure he believes the millennium is gonna happen

(i also like the background arc of Olive Stringfield, Milo’s big sister. she’s a v interesting character)