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they should invent a me who is not exhausted by simply being alive

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by tucker

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i am massively overdue for a very very good week where not a single bad thing happens and everything is easy

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just did a really good job of cutting a bagel there's no weird thin or thick parts it's all even all over. this is huge for me

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I just want to hide it. why can't I hide it 😔

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via @swatercolor [insta]

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Say you break your ankle. You could know everything there is to know intellectually about the injury. Even with this vast knowledge, you will still experience physical pain.

Now take this logic and apply it to things like ADHD, autism, clinical depression, and other less visible/divergent disabilities. You cannot think your way out of feeling.

That is to say: you are not a bad, lazy, or selfish person for struggling, even if you know why you are struggling.

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mfs will have a bad experience with one mentally ill person and decide everyone with that illness is the worst person on earth

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it suuuucks that beggars can't be choosers. i really wanted that other one

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I had 2 phone calls today and didn't panic 🎇

now I have an appointment to get set up with case management. I hope it goes ok.

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Schizospec culture is not knowing why you do the things you do. It’s constantly being confused and feeling alone. I don’t even have hallucinations anymore, thanks to medication but why can’t I function? Why can’t I be an adult? It’s so frustrating. I want it to go away but it won’t. It’s also having to avoid media that triggers me and not being able to explain to anyone why.

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borrowing grief from the future is so real

real yearners miss people BEFORE they're gone

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