#like sure i don't think it might be his preferred route all the time

[mercymaker]

no, but fr, i'm actually in love with the idea of astarion who feels comfortable enough to let go of control. who trusts his partner enough to give them that sort of power over him.

and how the fear of being powerless is slowly eroded by all the pleasure and the bliss his partner provides him. how freeing it feels to not have to overthink everything, to just let go and let his lover take lead.

it would take him quite a while, a lot of time healing and processing his trauma, but we're talking about a man who decided to mark the place where his 200 year slavery had started by making love to his partner, essentially rewriting the association with the choice he made as a free man.

and even if it might take some trial and error, i feel like submitting to his partner could be a similar experience. not only is it rewriting the associations related to being powerless by connecting them to positive feelings, to the warmth and the trust and the pleasure. but it's also something that allows him to shed layers of that performance that he's been running on essentially auto-pilot. where he doesn't have to be the masterful lover, performing like a fine-tuned instrument focused solely on his lover's pleasure. where it doesn't have to be complicated. where he can close his eyes, let go, and follow his partner's command because he knows they would never harm him. that they are not using him. that it's about his pleasure and safety and love.

Submissive Astarion lives in my head rent free. And I mean like, healthily submissive. Letting his partner take care of his needs, making intimacy about him. Being praised for how well he’s doing, and how proud his partner is that he’s letting himself feel good.

[lavender-at-heart]

do you think you could do like a sfw or nsfw (whatever you’re comfortable with) alphabet for Jasper hale?

Yes tysm for requesting, sorry this took so long! Enjoy!

Jasper Sfw Alphabet

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

-> affection would come very slow if you were a human

-> he'd be so scared to hurt you that if he held you at all it would be like holding fine china

-> and especially around other humans (at school) physical affection would be almost non existent save for perhaps a touch of the hand

-> he would show is affection in other ways, using his power to make you feel loved. Always doing small gestures. And verbally speaking affections towards you

-> however, after becoming more comfortable around you, when it's just you and his family, or if you become a vampire, I feel like he would be soooooo touchy.

-> he'd almost be as bad as Emmet, always holding you, sitting with you, etc. (He was probably so touched starved for most of his life that now he won't do anything but touch you)

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

-> he'd be super awkward at first, unsure of how to approach your relationship together. But you'd quickly realize he was an incredibly interesting person and enjoy being around him

-> it would be hard to control his thirst around you, but he'd invite you to his house to do homework, or go for long walks in the woods.

-> I don't think he'd be content with staying friends for long. He'd soon be asking you on a date to Coras, or the movie theatre, or maybe a picnic in the forest.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

-> I would say that he's not used to it, and when you first initiate it, he goes stiff as a board

-> but he soon falls in love with it. Whenever your relaxing in bed, watching a movie, etc. He'll tuck you into his side and rub circles on your back

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

-> He is quite domestic actually

-> having grown up in a more...domestic era, he really enjoys taking care of you at home

-> obviously he isn't used to cooking but he gets used to that. He much prefers that you eat at home. And he always makes the bed, runs you baths, etc.

-> if you aren't into cooking he will handle it, but if you do have a passion for baking or cooking he will make sure the kitchen is always stocked. He'll buy you pots and pans and all the utensils you might need. He does enjoy cooking with you.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

-> if he had to pull an Edward in New Moon, he'd go a similar route

-> obviously it would kill him to leave you, but he'd justify it, thinking it's too dangerous to be together

-> he'd use his powers to make you dispise him, and not want him anymore. Of course that wears off as soon as he leaves, but he would convince you that you want him to leave.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

-> being old fashioned, and knowing that you are his mate, he would want to get married sooner rather than later. Why wait? He knew that you were made for eachother.

-> but he might also want you to enjoy being human while you can, maybe you'd both go on a big vacation before settling down

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

-> physically, he is very gentle, like I said before, you're like a porcelain doll to him. He is constantly admiring you and being very careful, always making sure you are safe

-> emotionally he is guarded, and it takes time to win his trust but once you do, you are the only one he feels truly comfortable with. He values you more than anything,

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

-> it's very hard to hug you at first, because of his control, he would prefer to hold your hand and gradually move to holding and hugging.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

-> he knows that he loves you almost immediately

-> I'm not quite sure when he'd say it, he'd either say it soon (maybe too soon) or wait awhile, he wouldn't want to scare you off. And he is a reserved man, he'd make it abundantly clear that he loves you more than life, but saying it, well he might save that for a dramatic moment.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

-> I would say it's hard for him to not get jealous becuase he can feel the other person's emotions

-> obviously this might be good becuase if the other person holds no romantic feelings for you, he has nothing to worry about. If they do though, it will be very very difficult for him to forget about it

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

-> he is very romantic and not at all casual with kisses. He puts all of his love and devotion into every kiss.

-> most of the time he'll kiss you on the mouth, but he also enjoys kissing the corners of your mouth, you fingers, your palms, and your forehead

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

-> honestly, he hasn't been around children in so long, and he completely abandoned the idea of having a family

-> he'd be lying if he said being with a human didn't get him a little exited for the possibility of a family, he thought it could never happen. I feel like he is a very family man so he would want kids but he'd be really worry becuase it would put you in harms way.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

-> obviously he doesn't sleep, so he spends his early mornings making you breakfast and tea/coffee, he'll put on an old record to slowly wake you up, and he'll hop back into bed to cuddle and watch you wake up

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

-> Jasper has a routine of reading every night, sometimes you'll read your own book beside him or you'll ask him to read out loud. He's really a great story teller. Some nights you'll ask him to tell you about all the stories and memories he's collected over the years

-> he likes to watch you brush you teeth and get ready for bed, for some reason he finds it so amusing

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

-> I would say that he's not too open, like he's open about his personality and he's confident in himself but when it comes to his past he is very closed off

-> but one day he just decides to bare his heart to you and reveal all of his misfortunes and mistakes. He might be afraid that it's too much backstory and too much messy history for a young human, but you handle it well.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

-> Jasper is soooooo patient like I can't argue this enough. He's so patient that when he really does get angry it's so hard to tell because he still seems calm.

-> over his many years he's slowly gotten past hot-headedness and there's very few things that surprise or agitates him

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

-> I feel like he tries to commit every moment with you, every thing you say, to memory

-> he'll love asking questions about you and tried to remember everything

-> he loves letting you just rant and he could sit there for hours, just listening and nodding along

-> but sometimes, when you're ranting about this or that, he'll zone out. Not on purpose! He just starts thinking about how much he loves it when you rant and how nice you look while you do it, that he just starts gawking. Like you know that one lego batman audio? The blah blah blah one? Yeah that.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

-> honestly I think meeting you for the first time would be an invaluable moment for him. Both of your lives irreversibly changed in that moment.

-> other than that, when he opened up about his past and he realized that he could tell you anything.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

-> he would be super protective becuase your a human

-> after what happened to Bella he would be hyper aware of how dangerous vampires can be, and how delicate humans are

-> but you have so much faith in him, and he is sure in his own ability to keep you safe

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

-> I don't think he'd be worried about trying to hard. He knows you'll get along, he knows you both love eachother

-> but it's not about trying, he just does it. As I've said before he's old fashioned and just simply believes in always holding the door open, always getting you flowers, etc. And obviously bc he's rich asf he gets you nice presents.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

-> definitely being so old, coming from times of different ways of thinking, maybe being stuck in his ways too much

-> sometimes he might manipulate your emotions, whether it's to make you feel good or bad, he does it once in a while.

-> sometimes he let's his inner turmoil effect his outside demenour and relationships, and that can be tricky. You might ask to talk about it but he is not at all used to sharing about his struggles.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

-> he doesn't care much at all about his hair or anything like that especially becuase he's a vampire, he doesn't need to do anything to look perfect

-> but when it comes to how he dresses he is very formal with it. You will never catch this man in sweats and a hoodie😭. And if you go on a date or anything he will be dressing like it's 1949.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

-> absolutely, once he's met you, he can never forget you or be the same.

-> he is used to people he knows dying though, so if you chose to stay human he will be able to pick himself up again, he will just always have you in mind. He'll do everything how you would want him to.

-> but if you become a vampire, you two would basically become one person. Never one without the other, doing everything together.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

-> even though he's so old fashioned, he loves doing silly modern things with you

-> like going to malls and shopping, he loves that you made a build a bear of him, going to arcades, roller coasters, theme parks. It all makes him feel more human, almost normal.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

-> I think if you had any big tattoos or dyed hair or piercings, he'd be...surprised. he wouldn't be disgusted by it, it would just take some getting used to. But he'd grow to love it

-> not talking to him when your upset annoys him a lot, he can feel that your upset but he has no clue why. Or he can feel your sad but you don't want to burden him.

-> also I have a feeling he's not a fan of rap, metal, hyper-pop, etc. So if you like that and listen to it, That could be a small peeve.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

-> well, he doesn't sleep. Normally he'll stay with you in bed, imagining he was asleep, sort of in a meditative trance. He finds it super peaceful

-> otherwise he'll just be hunting or spending time in the forest, he likes to get hunting out of the way when your sleeping so he can spend all your waking moments together.

[n3ptoonz]

OMG OKAY SO I JUST READ YOUR RECENT HEADCANONS WITH EARTHREALM BOYS AND HOW THEY'D REACT TO READER RIDING THEM AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND IT GOT ME THINKING

How would they react to reader pegging them HEHEHE 👁️👁️🙏

mk1 hcs: how the earthrealm guys react to pegging

sorry i took so long to get to this anon! life is on my asssss and kept getting random spurts of writers block but WE HERE

warnings: explicit, smut elements, fluff elements, sub men obviously, sphinx might have favs idk tho😹

Scorpion

When you suggested pegging for the first time, it intrigued him. He'd always been down to try something new, especially if you bring it to him since he does it more

Y'all would be reeallll slow in the beginning. Luckily you knew all about preparation and making sure he was relaxed and okay the whole time. It didn't take long for him to get used to it, and even take a liking

He'd prefer for it to be a regular thing after his looonngggg days after work. There's nothing he needs more than to either be treated with tender, love, and care or just straight filthy coitus with him seeing stars and his hair tangled to all hell

The first few times he was a shy boy, cute lil whimpers here and there. Now? Doesn't give a damn, he will be as vocal as he feels like. You're gonna be the one who wakes up with claw marks and bite marks in the morning

Sub-Zero

Huh? You want to what? Were you inside of his head or something? How'd you know he wanted you to absolutely mix his guts whenever he gives you attitude? Something ain't right

He only acts reluctant because he didn't wanna look eager, but the man was waiting for this moment. The second you suggested it he was like "okay i'll say yes after like the third time i gotta look cool." when whole time he wanted to fall to his knees and hug your thighs in agreement

Don't try to go slow the first few times. His patience is shorter than his temper, this mf is the most power bottom individual in the bedroom. After he's gotten used to it he'll 'allow' you to go the romantic route (he's such a lil bitch for it we love it)

He barks orders at you like you won't grab his face and give him a taste of his own medicine. One good time where you're hovering over him, a thumb on the inside of his cheek while he drools and you fuck him like your life depended on it. Mission success!

Smoke

He's the one who brought it to you. Any objections? I think tf not. He isn't saying it aloud, but his eyes are silently begging you to treat him like the town's whore

He likes both the romance and the pure filth. It's entirely up to you; he will never say no to anything you suggest. Fuck him like you're mad at him or go slow and steady while you kiss his jaw and play with his hair and sing his praises

Any and all positions available. If you can somehow prone this big boy, DO IT. He'd totally ride you too if you really down for the count. We are troopers around this bitch!

Sometimes it would concern you how rarely he tapped out, especially when shit was getting intense and didn't calm down for a while. If you were absolutely demolishing his ass, you'd see a pool of drool escaping his lips, his eyes glossed over, his whines and moans gradually getting louder, and when you asked if he was okay, he would nod and give you a thumbs up like he didn't just bust 3 times in a row

Johnny Cage

Every time I do any sexual hcs of this mf, I will continue to say he's a brat. I do not care. He's a fucking diva and will dare to bark orders at you too like you're not the one who brought it up

Y'all know that Meg the stallion lyric where she's like "no don't fuck me like that fuck me like this"? THATS HIS ASS. He KNOWS it'll piss you off but go one of two ways: you indeed do fuck him like that but added aggression, OR! you stop completely and pretend like you're gonna leave the room. Works every time

He thoroughly enjoys straight up sex over romantic sex, but every once in a while he indulges in popping champagne, throwing down rose petals, and playing sexy music in the back to set the mood. Ol dramatic ass

Remember how I said in my riding hcs that he records everything? Yeah. Even as far as come to you and be like "okay so like what if we sold these? i could cut your face out if you want-" and you're like !1!2? HOWEVER ik some of yall are FREEKIE FUCKS. If you say "fuck that leave my face in it", prepare to never need a job ever again

Kenshi Takahashi

Surprisingly is down with it. That's what #love does to a mf. He's like Kuai, anything you want you shall receive. If you wanna play around in that ass, say no more!

97% of the time wants to go slow and steady. He just loves looking at your face with the power of Sento while making love. Tell him how much you love and appreciate him and how he's doing so good for you and he'll instantly become the butter to your bread (like melting- ok y'all get it cool)

That 3%?? He would be on his knees and begging you to fuck the stress out of him. He's had such a tough week, just shove his head into the pillow and get to work!

If it's missionary just grip his neck, get real close to his face so he can feel your breath, and welcome him to pound town. All aboard the slut-Kenshi-out train

Raiden

Secretly a whore. The first green light into pegging territory, you could see his pearly browns sparkle in excitement and eagerness. He's relatively chill and calm about it at first because he didn't want to scare you away, but that's gone in an instant when you actually do the deed

Walks up to microphone Raiden...enjoys the prepping damn near more than the actual pegging. This pretty boy sure loves to see you break out the lubricant and gloves just so you can get him ready. Bro is on the edge of the bed swinging his feet while you have the most devious look in your eye

He's 50/50 on sensual nights vs getting down and dirty. Literally has zero preference, just spread him!

Back to how I said he's secretly a whore, sometimes he does subtle things that get you riled up throughout the day so you can take it out on him later. It's kinda funny sometimes cause he can be vocal but he's more shy than ever, but he'll break soon, trust

Liu Kang

Out of everyone he'd probably enjoy it the most. Now hear me out, he's not used to something like this, so it may take some convincing, but it's very little. It's good that he was mortal before so this level of intimacy isn't completely out of bounds

Once you get the stamp of approval and you try it for the first time, he's in love. It's like all he wants to do. Like holy fuck, where has this been for all these eons? This is the ultimate relaxation and he gets to forget his worries for a few hours??

He's so fascinated that he'd be the one introducing YOU to different types of straps all the way down to the patterns. "A dragon one... have you heard of this one?" like damn bro we get it you fw dragons (literally 😹)

Given how calm he is he prefers slow and sensual. It's only when he's truly curious that he'd be like hmm...it certainly wouldn't hurt to try (prepare for his godly stamina to have you on the brink of death btw). also, there's no way he wouldn't request for his hair to be pulled 😮‍💨

Kung Lao

Kung Lao my beloved. Morphs into alpha with huge muscles and impeccable imagination. Kung Lao, the egotistical and prideful man he is would think he has the up on you simply because he brought it up before you did. This fine ass man can and will come prepared on his own, case full of toys and all

And if I said he likes to be tooted up with music in the back and you pulling his hair while being used like a barracks bunny, would you arrest me?? For speaking TRUTH? He's a whore your honor

He don't give a damn about slow and steady but he'll do it if you want to. Just know it will never end in slow and steady, the pace always seems to be picked up and all of a sudden he's strap-warming you as a punishment (he literally wanted this to happen)

Idek what more to say Kung Lao is a slut and I need him in a way that's concerning to women's suffrage. I will make that hat chucking dimple having sexy ass man a fucking mother, just you wait. [he is one of the first I will breed]

[wilzy-woo]

Ikemen Vampire Suitors ideal type in my eyes 👀 (also sorry if it seems more aimed at girls I tried to make it GN 😭)

Starting off simple with everyone's favourite (or not) sugar daddy COMTE 😍

• Thinks confidence is really hot and he DEFINITELY likes a little bratty type

• Likes independence but LOVES it when they need help just so he gets to look all snug, he doesn't say anything (he might) but just looks at you with his smexy smirk

• Doesn't care much for looks but loves it when they get dressed up OR LIKE THE KIND OF BEFORE SHOWER MAKEUP

• I think that he NEEDS them to be honest like he would hate the "they told me not tell anyone..." Like he doesn't care he would want ALL OF IT spilt to him whether it's serious or not

Next is the love of my life (he wouldn't like me at all)

• He wants an extrovert. I don't care he NEEDS an extrovert. May think he doesn't but Ugh he just does

• Wants someone to stand up for him, he may be able to stand up for himself but he just really appreciates when someone would do that.

• Someone cleverrr I can't stress this enough he wouldn't be able to stand someone who isn't interested or knows a thing or two about science or anything for that matter. He WANTS the "erm actually" person

• Needs someone who loves snow. It's a weird thing but I can just see him loving a snowy date in his delusions

Pookie bear Vincent (am I the only one who isn't a fan of Vincents route? Like it was painfully slow 😔 I mean don't get me wrong I love him but I didn't feel very attached)

•Loves a sweet girl, needs someone to protect and love omg can you imagine someone timid meeting Vincent UGH IT WOULD BE SO CUTE

• Needs their love language to be physical touch, he just screams it

• Wouldn't mind someone bad at art so he could help them with it if they are interested but would PREFER someone who is good at it so they could do cute little dates together

• Wants a very Smiley person like someone who smiles or laughs at the stupidest thing, broken humour type of person

Now Theodore is different his route WAS SO GOOD I WAS LITERALLY SCREAMING THE WHOLE TIME even if it was a bit weird and k!nky at some points 🤨

(Why does this photo look massive)

• Chill anyways ALSO wants a bratty person, wants pretty much the opposite of Vincent he finds it such a turn on when they give him a dirty look or roll their eyes at him UGH

• I just know he likes a busty person (ass and chest for girlies) 😔 He seems like that type of person to nonchalantly slap their ass (honestly I'm not a huge fan of that but he would probably do it)

• Definitely likes the weird yappers, the ones who get distracted from one subject they were talking about and moved onto a completely different one

• Likes the observers! People who could just analyse someone easily based on the way they are sitting or talking

UGH MY HUSBAND (this might be biased towards me but I'll try 💔)

(this photo makes me do unspeakable things)

• Wants them to be independent but not TOO independent, he wants them to depend on him for things but also have that nice balance of independence

• Also loves yappers, he's the listening type so being able to listen to their voice for hours on end would be so good for him. He doesn't care what it's about just as long as he doesn't have to pitch in much he's fine with it

• LOVES when someone is indecisive and asks for HIS help with choosing something, knowing that you think he has the best decision making compared to the others is such an ego boost

• Loves someone who isn't afraid to share their opinions. Finds it such a turn on when their mouth is faster than their mind and just says stuff that doesn't even make sense

Arthur oh Arthur let down your hair...I'm not even sure if this is accurate I never finished his route I got bored halfway through 💀

•NEEDS someone humorous, CRAVES IT someone who can take a slightly rude joke and give him one back

• Needs someone with 100+ rizz...no seriously he would find it so funny if you went up to him and said some pick up line with that certain face

•Wants someone who would put him in his place when he does something wrong like overworking or doing something risky ass gambling 💀

• LOVES when their love language is acts of service, something simple like bringing him a coffee when he's writing and sitting down with him in silence, every now and then he'd ask you for ideas or something, just being helpful would make him fold.

• (EXTRA) would laugh if you failed your English GCSES

Mozzy Mosquito is that you 🤨 (I've never done his route so I have no bloody idea 💀)

•WOULD FOLD IF THEY COULD SING. Not like one of those strong voices or rapping NONONO he wants a Lana Del Rey, Alex G and the Florence type of singer , someone with a soft sleepy like voice! He would literally be in love

•CRAVES FOR CONFIDENCE he just thinks it's so attractive for someone to be confident. Like for them initiate conversation and WON'T BACK DOWN (even when he's being a bit of arsey introvert)

• Craves praise. Needs it. Needs someone who praises him and supports him all the way, someone who will get him out of music block by just being there to share ideas or sit there with him for hours telling him if it's good or bad

•Would prefer an introverted lover, he needs someone who is calm and collected and loves it if they come home from an outing and go straight to him groaning and ranting about how much they dislike people

I finished the first chapter of Jeans route I'm sorry if this is inaccurate I literally just go from what I saw of him from the other routes I've played (which isn't a lot ,😭)

•Though he's more of a listener he would also want a listener partner, to be able to sit there in comfortable silence in each others arms. However there will obviously be conversation it would be quiet and would last hours, something deep and personal to the both of them

• would love love love someone with soft slim hands. I don't know why he just seems like the type of person to be obsessed with those types of hands

• Needs someone patient and soft spoken, someone to be able to let his tough exterior break but by bit. A soft voice and reassurance looks like it would get him head over heels

I also haven't played Sebs route I'm sorry 😔

•Probably wants someone who is capable of doing what he's capable of, a helping hand and someone he can rely on without messing up

•Someone who wouldn't mind if he was busy a lot doing something for the mansion as he is the 24/7 working butler 😭 someone patient and doesn't mind sitting in silence just holding eachother after a long day

• Prefers an ambivert, definitely wants to be able to have balanced conversations where they can be bothered listener and talker

• that's all I can think of 😭

I'm going to leave it here and do the other six in another part 😭

[queerholmcs]

you’re essentially the mycroft connoisseur of this app, i gotta know some of your headcanons 🤲🏻

mycroft connoisseur... what a title :')

sherlock is bad with money. he's not ridiculously frivolous with it or anything, he just can't be bothered to pay attention to it. but it's fine, because mycroft has been handling all that for him for years. sometimes that means making unsolicited deposits into his accounts and sometimes it just means making sure his bills are in fact being paid because god knows sherlock doesn't deem those important enough to keep track of. (and in the times in sherlock's life when things have been rougher, there's always been a spare room available at mycroft's.)

he does know how to drive, but he rarely has occasion to do it himself, on account of the whole "people who run the government can have cars and drivers ordered whenever they like" thing. and so at this point, he simply prefers not to.

he used to play piano. he doesn't actively play so much in his adult years, but he does own a piano, of course he does, because a house like his sort of has to have one, there's practically a law about it, and maybe there are occasional nights where someone in the vicinity might hear him sit down to demonstrate what he still remembers. (not that there ever is anyone to hear it.)

sometime well-before john and sherlock are actually together, mycroft is at baker street and makes a very casual remark insinuating that they are in fact already together. john about chokes on his tea and sherlock is immensely pleased with being able to tell his brother that he's an idiot and also wrong. (nevermind that such a statement will have to be retracted six months later.)

he has a tendency to just sit of appear places, as if on cue, all the time. he doesn't exactly abide by general guidelines re:knocking and "waiting for an invitation." sort of the opposite of a vampire, there.

john watson is one of the few people for whom mycroft will answer the phone by the third ring, no matter the hour. (sherlock would be included on that list, but he so rarely calls that it hardly matters.) he's also one of the few people in the world capable of intimidating mycroft, a feat that sherlock himself certainly cannot claim.

i don't think that man's ever worn jeans in his life. perhaps an argument could be made for it before the age of twenty. but even if he ever were in a setting calling for something more casual than a 3-piece suit and french cuffs, he would be going more the "this is a victorian-esque hunting outfit, or some other outfit that would be more fittingly called an 'ensemble'" route than the "jeans and a jumper" route.

oh. also the autism thing. as though that needs to be said sjdkdhskdhdkjf.

[firestorm09890]

obligatory disclaimer that I don't think Ansem the Wise is like, embodiment of all evil or whatever I just think Ienzo's relationship with him being really fucked up is fun. talking about characters fucking up supremely does not mean I hate them and honestly I would prefer if any potential discussion in the tags of this post is not solely dunking on the man

anyway personally I think "Ienzo was manipulated into believing Ansem was worse than he was and decided to betray him with his own hands" is a lot more interesting than "they sent Ansem to the Realm of Darkness and Ienzo said 'where's Ansem' and they said 'oh he abandoned us' and Ienzo said 'okay 💖 yay 💖'". I think as nice as Ienzo's memories of him are, Ansem was not a good father. Not through any malicious intent, he just... had too many expectations and then didn't do enough. It's only a few steps from "kind but generally absent father who tells you what is and isn't acceptable" to whatever Xehanort had Ienzo believing

What little we've seen of Ienzo pre-Xehanort paints a picture of a kid who's fine honestly but definitely not "typical"- frequently runs off to explore the gardens (forcing Even to chase him), watches EVERYTHING and understands it all while expressing nothing, has zero fear when being attacked by Unversed??? (that one's the most interesting one. that cutscene is called "Eyes Without Fear" and given how much a calm, watchful gaze is emphasized in BBS Ienzo, I'm sure it's about him and not Ven). and. let's talk about expectations

Ansem's a guy with strong beliefs. this is not necessarily good. remember, he started the experiments- in the cutscene where Xehanort asks about the door, he even still has hearts floating in containers in his study

He believes darkness is evil, which is why he started those experiments in the first place to find out enough about it to prevent it from destroying his paradise, and then later believes all his beliefs about Nobodies that aren't really relevant but serve the point. It is not difficult for him to hate and fear what he doesn't understand. He is not kind with Xehanort- he shouts down the suggestion, not taking time to explain why, just saying the door shouldn't be defiled. And like yeah don't touch the door but he really, truly believes he is right (up until he realizes his apprentices have taken things too far but even then he DOESN'T TELL THEM IT WAS HIS MISTAKE FOR STARTING THEM). he has to be. Radiant Garden is perfect, and he's the ruler.

which means despite his kindness, he likely doesn't tolerate "bad" questions from Ienzo. "if there are plants that can heal then there are also plants that can hurt, right?" "IENZO why would you say something like that we only use the flowers of radiant garden to help people" and then Even goes "oh yeah poison. here's a book of poisonous plants. have fun". Ansem takes the Eraqus route of "if you feel a bad feeling that is the darkness and you can't feel it or it might consume you" which is :) fine :) and not at aaaaall stifling I'm sure. I've sort of said it before but I think Ansem was never a source of safety for Ienzo- he is In Charge, he is the one who determines what's right and wrong, he's the one who passes judgement, and he is always busy. which means Ienzo's having to turn to Even. you can imagine what that's like

I've also talked about this before- Ansem snapping at all the apprentices after finding out about their experiments is a very easy thing to twist into "see? he doesn't care about you. he never has. he was the one who wanted to do these experiments in the first place, and now he wants to shut them down? didn't he always encourage curiosity in you? no, wait, he always suppressed your curiosity. he claimed to want paradise and didn't even notice his people disappearing, one by one. do you think he's really worthy of the title of 'sage'", especially for someone with as shoddy of morals as someone like Ienzo likely had (combine the classic nd trait of "you're telling me this is bad but not why it's bad so I've decided until I understand why it's bad that your rules are stupid" with being raised by Those Fucking Guys to get a boy perfectly concocted to commit atrocities).

Book of Retribution gets it, I don't care that it concluded years before kh3

“You brought [Xehanort] to us. Even after you saw how he was—what he was—you left him to his own devices... You knew what he was doing. You knew he was dangerous. And yet you left him with us. You had already pushed us all to the wayside for him, did you really expect any differently? You forced us into a pit of vipers, and you were surprised when we had the audacity to be bitten.”

anything said by Ienzo in kh3 does not change this. how involved Ienzo was, how much he knew, does not change Ansem's actions and inaction.

I think if Ienzo ever goes evil again (very big "if", I highly doubt it will happen) it won't be because haha! he was secretly still evil all along!! but because being around Ansem for long enough again has shattered the rose-tinted glasses

in summary: I think despite his intentions Ansem was not a good father and I don't think Xehanort had to work very hard to get Ienzo to betray him

[lunatic-pudge]

Yandere P1 Dude With A Male Reader (Requested by Gojifan1962)

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(Writing this with a male reader in mind. I try to make these as gender neutral as I can but I tend to slip into AFAB stuff cause I'm used to it. But this is to be read with a male character cause my homie is a guy and I want them to be included and feel comfortable!)

Warning, mentions of religion, religious psychosis, and violence

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-Now's my chance to talk about yandere Dude! Granted, it will be P1 Dude, but all the Dudes are one entity to me and P1 is very fitting for the yandere trope

-How you and Dude met will forever be a mystery, just know that him becoming obsessed with you was a "slow" progression. It starts off slow cause he's rather terrified of you, thinking you're one of the infected

-Once you have "proven" that you aren't an infected, the obsession will start. Dude is rather startled by his growing obsession of you. Dude's not used to being around people, and definitely not used to having a crush on someone. So the crush goes down a rather toxic route very quick

-It starts off small, when he gets the strength to go out, he'll be stalking your every move. Scouting out the neighborhood you live in to see if there's any threats to watch out for. He prefers to do this at night where he can hide away easily. He'll also take this time to look in through your windows as well, his way of checking in on you without you knowing. When you're out and about, he's lurking behind a few feet away with a Glock in his coat pocket ready to be used if anyone dares to think about hurting you

-Starts writing about you in his journal. It starts off with writing basic info on you, but then starts to devolve into ramblings. He starts to view you as this Holy figure, sent by God to him as a reward for being such a good Christian boy. He might even claim that you're the second coming of Jesus if it gets bad enough. Dude suffers from religious psychosis, so it's expected for his mind to warp you as this angel that was brought down to keep him safe and "sane". And while he's blessed to have this gift, he doesn't wanna lose you and is willing to "cut off your wings" to keep you with him on Earth

-Mr. Home Invader. He will break into your home constantly. Your home is the closest to Heaven he can get while stuck on this planet, so he wants to be there all the time. He's a big fan of stealing your stuff as well, mainly your clothes. He likes taking jackets and hoodies cause he can wear them and feel like you're giving him a hug. Also, the smell of your cologne and natural musk makes him FERAL. It activates his singular neuron

-While he does his stalking, he's making plans on kidnapping you and keeping you in his home. When it's time to enact his plan, it goes just as it should. He wants this to be as painless for you as possible, drugging you so you won't pick a fight. He keeps you locked in his room. He's taught Champ to keep guard and make sure you don't try to leave. And don't even bother trying to fight back, not only will you get mauled by Champ, but Dude's also strong and has weapons. He'll hurt you if he has to (even though he doesn't want to), but you need to learn that you're stuck here. He'll tie you down to the bed if you keep trying to fight

[lizzaneia-elizalde]

Hi, Goodmorning/night! how has your day been? :3 i hope it went well!

If its okay, can I request mermaid reader (preferably fem), dropping some stuff down to Viper? It can be small jewelry she doesn't quite like or anything REALLY shiny — because she thinks sending him stuff would make him less interested in her and more on the stuff she drops. Basically her doing an offering and praying Viper would take the items instead of her

Always rest! And can I be "🦪" Anon? Im mostly a huge fan of Viper and Damon, so i might ask a lot about them! Again always rest and take care of yourself!!

Yandere! Male! Deep sea creature x mermaid! Fem! Reader: Viper route 1

That's so cute! Okay cuz I think Viper has like some similarities to Orion. He's also a collector! So I just let my hands flow and see where it takes me. Also, welcome 🦪anon! It's so nice to have more familiar faces here!

Also a bit sick, so I'll probably slow down a bit till i'm healed. Sore throat plus a runny nose, plus A FEVER WHAT LIKE LET ME BREATH????

Writing puts my mind at rest from being sick anyways...

You pursed your lips and looked down at the void below the trenches.

It's been quite a while since you escaped Viper's grasp, and Viper has continued to try and fail to seduce you back to him with that dang light of his.

You're a curious fish, but not that curious.

You're even deliberating on moving out of the trenches and back to civilization again, but something's telling you to don't do it.

Deciding on taking your mind off of the deep sea merman, you dedicated your time in talking to Orion and knowing more about human technology. He's happy to oblige too, anyways.

But you can't help but glance back at the deep, dark void down below, telling you, whispering that you belong there.

Surely you don't.

You're a creature of light, someone who enjoys the sunrays reflecting on the blue, tranquil sea. Someone who loves looking at the boats passing by, cleaning up trash, finding little treasures that you stock up and design your little pod inside the trenches...

You're satisfied...

Are you?

You can't help but remember how cold yet warm the darkness was. How Viper coiled his long tail around yours, his body heat enveloping yours. You can still feel against your back, your skin, the way his torso pressed against yours flush and fit. Significantly stronger, can kill you with one bite and yet...

You shook your head as you shivered away the daydream. No. No no no!

Slapping your face, you grabbed your bag and zoomed back to the trenches to start your little... Littering.

You've been sprinkling these little gems, trinkets, and jewels down below to him. Sure, you might need them as it's currency, but you're self sufficient enough with a farm and an aquatic ranch. You rarely even go to civilization anymore to really use these.

So, as valuable as these treasures are, and would literally make you rich, you decided to dump them on Viper.

Sweet, little naive you thinks that this counts as littering. You really didn't want to throw down actual trash-- you're environmentally friendly, you don't want to do that. And Viper is still a merfolk despite how um, scary he is. Hope he sees it as a bribe too. Who knows? Maybe he'll leave you alone if you make him rich enough?

But then again, you're sweet, you're little...

And you're naive.

Didn't you really thought that this practice looks like you're giving him gifts?

No, a wedding gift specifically?

He did propose to you to be his mate, his eternal partner.

And you're doing this?

Oh, little one. You're too cute! Acting all shy and bashful-- you're so upfront at wanting to marry him by giving him what's equal to a dowry!

Viper collects them meticulously. Putting them in a giant pit that's slowly but surely making him richer by the second.

Should you and him move out of the trenches and back to civilization with this money? With all of these riches, both of you are basically at the upper crust now.

Then, he'll show to those pesky upperdwellers that one of them is his, and only his.

He'll show them how he owns you, loves you, and will have a family just to piss them off.

Oh, how it makes him shiver just thinking about it.

So yes, continue giving him the dowry, little one.

Sooner or later, he'll snatch you up and drag you back down to the abyss,

and live happily ever after.

That's what you wanted, right?

[death-limes]

Say, which characters in HB and HH do you hate the most character wise and then design wise

OHHH MAN i could write an entire video essay about this topic lmao, let me try to be as brief as possible

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Hazbin - Worst Character: This one's hard, there are a few characters who probably suck but I just don't know that much about them. But based on what I know now, honestly…? Charlie. Coinsidering that… I think Faustisse?… confirmed that she's over 200 years old, the sheer level of naivete on her part is just annoying and unbelievable. She's over twice as old as Alastor, she should not be swayed so easily by him. As far as I'm aware she's not in a Disney Princess situation where she was shut inside the castle walls her entire life (PLEASE correct me if I'm wrong on that though) so there's no reason why she shouldn't be at least a little savvy to the ways of sinner demons. She should also have been able to see the VERY OBVIOUS SIGNS that Vaggie used to be an exorcist. Even Carmilla comments that it's super fuckin obvious; the Princess of Hell herself should be knowledgeable enough to pick up on hints that even the fandom picked up on when it was just the pilot. Overall, Charlie just comes across as kinda stupid imo. I don't find myself rooting for her at all.

Hazbin - Worst Design: Alastor. I know he may not necessarily look the worst, and I do in fact simp for him, but his design does absolutely NOTHING that a character design is supposed to do. Namely, it doesn't tell us anything about him & it doesn't help him stand out from the cast. Nothing about his design is uniquely 1930s (nobody wore their hair like that, pinstripe suits started in the 1800s and continue to be popular today, monocles were more of an 1800s thing and were considered old-fashioned by the 30s) or deer-esque (his ears really do not look like dear ears at all, and his "antlers" are just microscopic salad forks that don't even show up on his silhouette). The whole Voodoo thing, aside from being super disrespectful to a literal religion that is still actively practiced, is also so inconsequential to his character that it can be removed entirely and change NOTHING about him. Any of his traits that are in line with the Voodoo thing can still exist without it -- him being a trickster and a dealmaker, mostly. All the blacklight stuff doesn't match his aesthetic at all: in Princess and the Frog where everything was 1920s it gave a magic effect, but in Hazbin where all different time periods comingle it just gives a raver effect, which doesn't fit his anti-modern preferences at all. Also the living-shadow thing is yet another direct ripoff from Dr. Facilier (that might just be in the pilot though I'm not sure), I think the living microphone is a better route to take if you want him to have a spiritual companion type of thing; it's more relevant to his theming and more original. And of course none of this even touches on the "he's half-black" bullshit excuse that only came after V*v received backlash about the Voodoo thing. And it doesn't even solve the issue anyway. A mixed-race man from the 1930s would make for a very interesting character IF that unique experience/identity was actually integrated into his character in any noticeable way, but it's not. It was just slapped on at the last minute. Ugh. I could write an entire essay about Alastor alone tbh.

Helluva - Worst Character: Fizzarolli, but mostly when he was first introduced. Aesthetically he's the closest thing that I have to a "blorbo" in this show, but in the Ozzie's episode he just gave me the most rancid vibes ever. Definitely a "asexuality doesn't exist, you just haven't been with ME yet~" type of person. Admittedly that's more of a personal preference thing and less of a poor characterization; they're in the Lust ring, that type of attitude is kind of expected. What IS poor characterization, however, is his "development" later on when he and Ozzie basically get their own arc. His entire personality changes to be much softer and like…. idk, very obviously a trauma VICTIM and not so much of a potential trauma CAUSER? His character is not nearly as abrasive, but there's no corresponding event that would cause such a change. It just seems like now that he's supposed to be a sympathetic character, they changed his personality to be more appealing. He's not nearly as mean and rude as he used to be. Ozzie has a similar thing going on but it's not quiiiiite as severe, and he's saved from being the Worst by having a far more interesting and unique design. (If you had asked who I think has the BEST design in Helluva, I'd probably say Ozzie.)

Helluva - Worst Design: Beelzebub, no contest. A lot of people seemed to have a problem with her being bee-themed instead of fly-themed like the real Beelzebub in demonology, but that honestly doesn't bother me; I'm not expecting any Hellaverse stuff to be super accurate to The Real Lore so any tiny reference they can slip in (like with Ozzie's design) is just gravy. To me, bee and fly are close enough, I think it counts as a reference. Plus, the bee theme goes well with Gluttony ("nectar" is a common synonym for delicious food) and calling her Queen Bee is an easy way to make her name more appealing/sexy than, yknow. "Beelzebub." What DOES bother me is her canine aspect. Why is she a sparkledog? What is the logic behind that? Why isn't she huge-by-default like Ozzie and Mammon? (You'd think GLUTTONY of all sins would be a big character!) It really just feels like V*v wanted Ke$ha to have a cameo role as a major character and just arbitrarily picked one of the sins for her to be. So the character design has Ke$ha in mind faaaaar more than it has Beelzebub in mind. ***(Funny thing about Queen Bee: for a solid week after her episode came out, I was actually fooled by this page from an RP wiki: [https://hazbin-hotel-and-helluva-boss-rp.fandom.com/wiki/Beelzebub] The explanation that I'd gleaned for this version of her is that the picture shown is the REAL Beelzebub, and the one we see in the show is her daughter by the lord of Hellhounds, Cerberus, which explains her canine features. Queen Bee Jr. is the heiress to her mom's title in the same way Charlie is the heiress to Lucifer's title. The picture shown on that page is just SUCH a better design, and it looks like the show's style, and she seems to be a giant like Ozzie and Mammon…. can you blame me for being like "OH that makes sense!!" Cut to me a week later finding out this is just a fan RP wiki. Siiiigh.)

[wombywoo]

🤝 1, 10, 18

💓 3, 20

all ears kicking my feet giggling

thank you boo 😘

🤝Community and Relationships

Does your character prefer company or solitude when sick?

I think they both generally prefer to stew in their aliments alone, but now that they have each other, they recognize the benefits of seeking out company for comfort--lots of sympathy and soup and hair petting, etc (I can attest because I'm sick rn 😔)

10. Is there a habit your character has that they learned from someone else?

Vincent tends to emulate those around him, something he does subconsciously to 'fit in', so he often expresses sentiments or behaviors similar to those closest to him (considering his best friend is a 79 year old, this can potentially be a comedy gold mine)

I don't think Quinn has actively learned habits from others, rather he adjusts his own behavior out of spite--if he sees someone he despises behaving a certain way, he'll usually do the exact opposite on principle. He has tried to incorporate stricter and more professional practices from officers he actually respects, but his personal life doesn't really reflect that

18. What is your character's favorite form of affection?

Vincent really enjoys talking--this can be causal banter or long, deep meaningful conversations. He expresses his emotions most effectively when he can vocalize the issues at hand, so having someone sit and listen and engage is something he considers affection in itself. For physical stuff, he just likes being close; holding hands, leaning on each other, sleeping side by side, etc. To show affection, he loves pampering his partner; giving little gifts, one-sided sessions in bed, giving them all the attention~

Quinn's not an outwardly affectionate person and it takes him a really long time to even open up to that sort of thing. But, hypothetically speaking, he loves getting his hair played with. Also cuddles 😤. As an ordinarily 'aggressive' lover, in order to show genuine affection as opposed to lust, he tends to slow things down a bit; long, deep kisses, spending hours just holding each other and letting the passion speak for itself

Hmm. I see I took the horny route instead of saying 'they call each other cute names' or whatever... 🤷‍♀️

💓Mind, Body and Soul

3. Is your character more prone to fight or flight?

Both are more inclined to fight. If threatened, I think both of them would instinctively try to attack and defend rather than retreat. Quinn has some anger issues and would definitely prefer to punch someone out in the heat of the moment than walk it off. Similarly, Vincent also has some uncontrollable bouts of rage, so yeah...he's a fighter 💪

20. Is there a fear your character wants to learn to overcome?

So..Quinn had previously been deadset on being a pilot (something he'd wanted since he was a kid), but at a certain point in his application process, he dropped out and joined the regular army. Turns out he has a real, deep-seated fear of flying (due to trauma, as per usual) Embarrassed and ashamed, he took measures to overcome this throughout his career--sure, he can jump out of a plane, but he still has this weird fear of being the one in control of an aircraft. Maybe one day Vince will teach him how to fly 🥺

Vincent has a rather valid fear of being used as a science experiment and thus stripped of all humanity. He'd been subjected to some gnarly examinations at some point (once vampirism was exposed, he was one of the first to admit himself as an 'example' and yeah--the British govt had no qualms in doing some pretty dubious shit to test his physical and mental capacities) As such, he still has this lingering fear of medical personnel and usually forgoes any kind of treatment unless necessary. He'd prefer to overcome this at some point, but it might take some time...

[bambiiboop]

What about a reader x joel fic where reader is insecure of her body but joel doesn't care what her body looks like cause he loves her, and shows her how much he loves her with loads of fluff and maybe smut?

CWs: body image issues / insecurity / mild hints of internalised fatphobia / fatphobic language & insinuation

Notes: I went down the fluff route for this one, Anon, I hope that's okay.

It's not that you don't like how you look. In fact, you've spent a lot of time over the years actively fighting the impulse not to.

You've always been bigger. Curvy. Hell, as an adult, you have no problem labelling yourself as fat, because it's not a dirty word. Sure, there are people who would use it as a slur, but you've long since come to the conclusion that that's their problem, not yours.

You've fought tooth and nail to be comfortable in your own skin, in a world that valued your complete opposite.

It seems like nowadays, most people are on the slim side. That, or they're walls of solid muscle from hard labour. Being stocky is an asset; it means you can survive.

Unfortunately, the tendency towards bitchiness that runs in some people didn't get the memo that the world ended almost twenty two years ago.

You're not blind to the looks some of the people in town give you. The sly suggestion that putting you on kitchen duty was a terrible idea, surely you must be sneaking extra.

You know it's bullshit, know that the words are just hateful remarks from people who have never once lived in your skin - either through luck of genetics, or simply from being young enough to have been born into a world on the constant precipice of hunger.

Still. Sometimes the words sting. Remind you of middle school. Of self imposed small portions and your mother's worried expression as you refused cakes, refused sweet teas, refused anything bigger than a fist sized helping, until your aunt had pointed out all of the happy, beautiful women with your body type on the internet, on TV, in magazines and on Broadway.

It had been the start of a long journey of self acceptance, of riotous body positivity, of wearing t-shirts with slogans proclaiming fat positivity, of punching a boy who called you a slur in the balls and getting suspended for a week. That same aunt had taken you to see a musical while you were suspended, had bought you a journal to write in.

You like to think you're a strong person. You've lived through that, lived through the literal fucking apocalypse. But you're only human, and sometimes words sting.

Leave you standing in front of the full length mirror in your shared bedroom, poking and jiggling at yourself with a critical eye that you know is distinctly un-feminist, so unlike you.

Your gaze is critical as you inspect stretch marks. On a good day, those are your stripes. You make jokes about being a zebra whenever Joel touches them, never remotely critical himself.

Joel. He was... something else. He'd come into town with his adopted daughter, remained cold and closed off to almost everyone except her and his brother for months, until he'd seen you make Ellie laugh. Until he'd heard her ask you how to make cookies, heard you promise to show her.

Then he'd started, slowly, to come out of his shell. To spend more time with you. Brought you flowers. Now you lived together, with Ellie just down the hallway, because there was no way in hell a sixteen year old was going to live by herself, even in Jackson.

You're confident in yourself enough to know that you're well matched, but when you get like this? Sometimes it's easy to think differently. To worry that maybe he might prefer someone younger, with a more traditionally, socially accepted standard of beauty.

You're just getting lost in that spiral when Joel comes in from the shower, already dressed for the day in jeans, flannel shirt, and jacket over the top.

"What're you doing, darlin'? You'll catch a cold."

He snags a spare shirt from the edge of the bed, comes to wrap it around you. He's broad as hell, so you can wear his shirts without feeling self conscious. Not that you ever would, anyway, stealing his clothes is your favourite pastime.

"Honestly?" You've always prided yourself on being truthful with him. "I'm feeling kind of crappy."

You let him wrap the shirt around you, put your arms into the sleeves and exhale at the scent of him still lingering in the fabric.

"You think you're getting sick?" His hand moves to your forehead, and in spite of yourself, you smile.

"No, it's not that, it's just..." You sigh. "You don't mind how I look, right?"

Joel stares at you as if you've just spoken a foreign language, grown a second head, and told him you're giving up baking, all in one go.

"Of course I don't mind. What's that even s'posed to mean, do I mind?"

"Because I'm fat, Joel. Because there aren't exactly many women who look like me in town, and people talk, and -"

"Don't call yourself fat." Joel means well, and god he loves you, but he's still got that mindset that older people have where fat is a dirty word, even though you've explained the concept of reclaiming a slur to him.

"I mean. You can. But don't... say it to put yourself down."

The fact that he's listened to your rambles about body positivity makes you feel better.

"People still talk..."

"Fuck 'em. Let them talk. See if I give a shit." He says gruffly, wraps his arms around you then squeezes gently. "Don't care that there aren't many girls who look like you. Makes you special."

Another hug, before his hands rub over your stretch marks, over the softness of your tummy, of your thighs.

"You're perfect as you are. Absolutely perfect. I don't want you to change. I love how you're confident in yourself, and I wouldn't change a damn thing. Ellie needs that sort of role model."

You offer him a watery smile. How is it that someone so stoic can be so sweet when he wants to?

"C'mon. Push those bad thoughts away, lets get you dressed before you freeze. Didn't you promise Ellie a baking day?"

You smile again, lean in to kiss him lightly on the cheek before you glance once more at your reflection; the shadow of your earlier mood gone when you look at yourself, wrapped in Joel's arms, safe and loved and perfect, just as you are.

[nekkomaa]

Warnings: Violence, inappropriate language, manipulation, toxic relationships.

Note: Another chapter! Very late actually, I meant to post it much earlier, but well, school didn't give me any time off. And I'm moving this week! So maybe I'll be a bit more inspired.

Excerpts from the story will be coming out earlier and earlier on my Ko-fi, check it out!

Portuguese version published on Wattpad

Word count: 1924

The room has been turned over and all you can do is watch, not that you can do much, knocking out the man in front of you in order to escape was not smart, and you doubt you could hit him with your hands tied. At the sound of the slightest movement you make a change is noticeable in the man, although he doesn't stop searching and collecting whatever he wants around the room, you can see his shoulders tense slightly and then relax when he realizes that you're still planted next to the door in the same place where he left you.

Watching him made you learn something, if you really wanted to escape from him alive, you'd have to be very clever, obviously you couldn't beat him in physical strength, and apparently a vase wouldn't bring him down easily. Men like this aren't easily fooled, offering yourself to him wouldn't do any good either, and you particularly prefer not to take that approach.

He moves towards you, the words he said earlier echoing in your mind, a shiver running through your body as your eyes meet. He leaves no victims, either he will kill me here, or he plans to try and get more information out of me with some kind of torture.

You see the letter in his hand, the one you read, and a few others, the contents of which remain hidden from you.

"How about being a good girl for me now?" He seems to smile under his mask, his eyes narrow, the tone of his voice seems deeper and more muffled. There's no time to think about what he means by that because before you can say anything he's taking a black bandanna out of one of his vest pockets and fastening it around your eyes, he makes sure it's covering your eyes well, and then he sticks a strip of tape over your mouth.

Now you're sure, he's going to take you with him, to kill you, to get information out of you that you've already told him you don't have, or worse, to take you to who knows what kind of organization he's part of, and take advantage of your body.

His hands make contact with your hips and soon you're bent over what you think is his shoulder, a low sigh is all you can give, it's hard to breathe upside down but you can't complain.

He says something as he comes down the stairs, but you don't quite understand, the dizziness of being upside down drowns out what he says, the feeling that there might be someone else with him leaves you with a worse sense of fear than before.

You never considered yourself to be good at masking emotions or even the expression on your face, but after David revealed himself you had to get good at that theater, or else you're sure you'll end up dead and buried in the backyard of that house, and your parents will never know where you are. The thought gets darker and darker, pulling you towards the thought that maybe dying now would be better than whatever awaits you.

Your attention is drawn to the footsteps he takes. The sound of a car door opening sparks an instinct to flee, you're not sure what part of the world you're in now, but you know a bit about the surroundings, and you know that if you get into that car you certainly won't know where you'll end up.

You try to move your legs so that they hit him and maybe he'll let you go, but the movement is useless, the only thing the man does is sigh before throwing you into the car.

"I thought you'd already accepted it. You know you won't be able to escape, trying will only get you into more trouble, little thing." The door is slammed shut and muffled gravel noises are all that can be heard. Still undeterred by his words, you try again to find an escape route. With your hands tied in front of you, it's easy to pull the blindfold down, giving you a bit of a view, although all you can see is the dashboard and the front seats in a very precarious way, since removing the strip completely would attract more attention.

Obviously with your hands tied there's not much you can do, there's no way to open the car doors quickly and shouting for help was never an option, the guards appear to be dead or tied up, and well, the house is miles away from any civilization. If you had the chance to run now it wouldn't solve much either, I mean, look at the size of your legs and look at the size of his legs, before you even reached the edge of the forest he would have already caught you, or maybe lost patience and shot you dead.

The car door opens and all you do is cringe, the car shakes a little and the door closes, a second door opens and the process repeats. You can only see the arm of one of them and a bit of the side of their face, perhaps it's the person your kidnapper was talking to earlier. You feel stupid, if you hadn't been so desperate you would have been able to hear what they were saying, it was just a few words but sometimes it could prove very helpful later.

Hardly a word has been exchanged since they got into the car, just what you think is a conversation through glances, through the windows all you can see is the sky and the treetops passing by in a blur.

The second man has surely noticed that his blindfold is out of place, but he hasn't moved to fix it. Instead, he just busies himself with watching you from time to time, just to make sure you don't change position, or try something silly.

The thought of hanging one of them crossed your mind again and again, they tied your hands in front of you, you fantasized how easy it would be to sit on the bench and slip your arm through the seat back and hang one of them. The thought ended when you assessed the win rates.

You'd probably end up with a bullet between your eyebrows before you even managed to choke either of them.

At some point during the unknown journey you ended up in a soft nap, which was enough for the two men sitting in front of you to start talking.

"Do you think she'll be useful?" The man in the car asked.

"I don't know." He replied, his eyes glued to the road. His reputation for driving vehicles wasn't very good, but this time he was doing a good job.

"Has the customer contacted you?"

"Not yet, you know how it is."

"I thought this one was different, you said earlier about a better opportunity." The car slowed down and turned onto the tarmac. A sigh of relief came from the passenger.

"Who knows, maybe it is."

The car door is opened and a cool wind invades the interior of the car, a chill runs through your body and makes you shiver slightly. The man watches you from the door, you don't see him, but you know he's there, and you know he's already seen the state of the blindfold, the twisted fabric giving you some insight, if he's annoyed or upset by this he doesn't show it.

He grabs your body and pulls you out, again on his shoulders, you don't feel bad this time as you're placed upside down, you keep your eyes open and try to lean over to look around, it's not possible to see much, in fact it's impossible to see anything that might be important, just like your house this place is surrounded by trees, in fact it's even worse, there are bushes everywhere, and before you can judge further you're inside a wooden house.

The floor creaks with the weight, you didn't notice but the second man is already in the house, your kidnapper puts you in a chair and ties you to it, when he walks away you take a moment to look around.

The house was small, with no decoration apart from a vase of wilted flowers on the table. The fireplace had no wood and was full of cobwebs, the floor of the house was also thick with dirt, although the wood made a lot of noise the floor was still intact, with no broken wood or wood that looked rotten.

The man sitting on the shabby dark green sofa in the corner of the room had a freshly cut mohawk, an unshaven beard and a tired expression on his face, his gaze was somewhat emotionless, he assessed you the same way you assessed him, from head to toe.

When your gaze returned to the man with a skull covering his face, you frowned, irritated by the fact that you couldn't say anything, let alone move your aching body; it was late afternoon, judging by the light outside, the orange hue bathing the undergrowth. He didn't seem to mind your grimace though, he just removed the tape from your mouth and stared at you, probably expecting you to shout or say something, when you didn't he just nodded and walked away.

"I thought she'd have some resistance, she knows how to shout and everything." The Mohawk commented, looking more animated now, he didn't look at you instead spoke directly to the other man in the room.

"I think she's understood that no one will come even if she shouts." He commented and disappeared through the door to the left.

"It's just the two of us for a while, miss, how about a chat?" The Mohawk smiles and suddenly turns to you.

"Fuck off." His voice came out hoarse from disuse, his throat slightly scratchy from lack of water. He didn't seem offended, he just laughed.

His smile irritates you, it seems so natural to the whole situation, in fact you shouldn't even be surprised by it. He's probably going to interrogate you, just like the other one did, trying to get information out of you that you don't have, a wave of irritation passes through you, and then that familiar feeling of fear comes over you.

It starts with your stomach, twisting and turning, and then with the shivers that run through your bones, your blood seems to pump faster and everything is suddenly a bit fuzzy, not enough to make you lose consciousness, but enough to bother you and slow down your thinking.

Your fixation seems to drop with every passing second, you had been kidnapped. And you were stuck in this chair, in a little house in the middle of nowhere, with two men, without even knowing where you were. Not that your life with David was wonderful, you didn't like that life, you kept dreaming of going back, opening your own eyes and showing your younger self that that man was a snake, but it was too late and as far as you know they haven't invented a time machine yet, so going back wasn't possible, and moaning about what could have been didn't make sense either.

The mohawk starts talking to you again, but the anxious thoughts talk, and talk, and make you dizzy, until your hands are shaking and your feet are tapping on the wooden floor. And then everything goes dark.

[dr-futbol-blog]

Underground, Pt. 2

Once they return to the Genii homeworld, their poor sense of direction is again highlighted. Sheppard actually says "I prefer a straight line" but what he actually does is the complete opposite of this. And while Rodney teases Sheppard about being lost, he's exactly as lost as he is. They walk unnecessarily close, bumping into each other. They banter. They seem to be real comfortable around each other.

Sheppard, uh. Checks McKay's assets in the barn.

He was actually watching McKay's "six" for real, too. All the team members usually arrange themselves around McKay in some formation likely because he is inexperienced in field work and a valuable asset. Here, Sheppard could have entered the barn in front of Rodney to make sure it's safe, but he opts to trail after the man, guarding him from behind, allowing McKay to lead the way. They are working as a team. Also, Sheppard does go down the hatch first to take the brunt of what ever might be in there. Later on, in the hive, he actually explicitly tells McKay "Okay, I'll cover your six. Go!"

They are having such a good time together that Sheppard actually has to remind McKay that they are there for a reason. He also seems to be continuing to educate McKay on how to act on a mission like he did at the beginning of Childhood's End:

McKay: I'm picking up a strange reading from right over there. Sheppard: Define strange. McKay: You don't know what ‘strange' means? Sheppard: I know what ‘strange' means, Rodney ... McKay: Weird, freakish, odd ... Sheppard: ... I'm just trying to determine whether it's worth getting off the route back to the village.

He calmly explain why he needs to know and needs McKay to be clear about it.

We never see Sheppard teach him about weapons other kind of military training, even though McKay does become somewhat proficient in them over the years. But this we see, Sheppard instructing McKay on what he needs to know when they're on a mission and how communication on the field differs from regular communication.

Then, of course, they get caught. Tell me McKay's first instinct here isn't to grab Sheppard's hand:

In the underground bunker scene, they mirror each other to a ridiculous extent. Once more, a sign of attraction. Even with guns pointed at them, they seems to be in this world of their own having a private conversation. They are also finishing each other's sentences.

Notable is that they're also both trying to keep the other safe, here. Sheppard communicates to McKay through a mere look that he shouldn't reveal all of their cards to the Genii. McKay, on his part, offers up his own know-how in hopes that they will be spared. It's very sweet.

The bit where Sheppard shifts in his seat and licks his lip after McKay tells him that most of his high school chess club could design an A-bomb has been pointed out by many:

Aroused? Maybe. But I've pointed out before that this mouth thing he does when he's feeling some kind of discomfort, it's a nervous tick. While they have been bantering and going back and forth all day, possibly because he's feeling uneasy that McKay has started asserting his intellectual superiority here and while it's mostly directed toward the Genii, Sheppard does receive some of it. He doesn't like it, obviously. It's natural to feel the need to be liked and respected by someone you are attracted to.

We also return to the topic of having children (cf. Childhood's End). Sheppard is worried about the radiation exposure McKay is describing. He tells Sheppard that they're going to be fine, as long as he wasn't planning on having children, clearly jesting. John's reaction is interesting:

His first, purely instinctual response is a nod to Rodney. Subconsciously yes, he does. But then he shakes his head, which is the more measured response. He also seems confused, probably because he can't be 100% sure whether McKay was joking or not. Like he's suddenly thinking at least a dozen things at the same time. Interesting that we keep return to this topic. (Also, there's kind of a ring composition going on between the final season and the first, which is why they return to the topic then).

Related to this, I did wonder about the nature of Cowen and Tyrus' relationship here. Tyrus has a daughter, so the viewer will naturally interpret him as a straight man. However, we never see nor hear any word of Sora's mother. Unlike Tyrus, Cowen has curly hair and Sora's curls are her most notable feature. Cowen very obviously holds her in high regard. But it's the way he sits down, defeated, once they return to the jumper and he finds out that they lost Tyrus, that Tyrus is dead. Like he doesn't think his legs will carry anymore. Clearly Cowen cared very deeply about Tyrus.

And oh, here is the exact moment John Sheppard falls in love (this is during McKay's technobabble about separating different radioactive isotopes which is to say, being completely in his element):

This is when he goes from being interested in and attracted to this strange person that has come into his life to "Oh sh--."

Even when they are in the wraith ship, surrounded by a thousand terrible things and McKay is about to undertake the potentially extremely dangerous task of cutting into its electric wiring, Sheppard can't quite keep his eyes off of him. One would think that cutting into a living ship, something he cannot ever have seen previously, would be pretty interesting and worth looking at. But, uh. Gotta check out the boo first. You have a problem, my friend.

(And let's maybe return to the vagina symbolism of the wraith and the hives at some other time but wow, is it not subtle).

Finally, let me point out a contrast in visual story-telling:

Weir is wearing a skimpy light tank top, Sheppard is wearing a black turtleneck sweater and his hands are folded, a universal sign of a defensive posture. They are alone in a poorly lit balcony outside, so the reason can only be her. They are made to clash, not to complement.

Whereas with McKay and Sheppard, we are not only made to note their similarity here, but also the open body language they have toward one another while having guns pointed at them by bad guys, and while they are inside, underground, in a bunker, the scene is very softly lit.

As already stated, there were so many people involved in making this happen.

[pendwelling]

Who kills the Demon King of Serenity?

Is Yeseo put under the same fate as Dokja? Do one or both of Cedchris have to kill him? Does someone else he’s close to have to?

OH MANNNN

I'm not sure if I responded to something similar before but this can go either of two ways.

In the original, I suspect that og!Jesse (Losna) definitely knew what he was doing all along and would have intentionally made himself the next Demon King as per his own self-sacrificial tendencies and desire to protect Christelle and Cédric. Ultimately, he would be killed by a collaborative effort between everyone in their party, but I believe he probably might have wanted Cédric to land the final blow, since he wouldn't have wanted to place that burden on Christelle. Alternatively, Elise also could have done this, too (if you wanna be a bit more TWSB canon compliant haha, as it was Elise who, ultimately, accidentally killed Losna who was shielding Cédric). I think the sibling angst route is really good, but a part of me does prefer Cédric being the final blow..... It's equally angsty and tragic 🥹😫👍 When Cédric regresses it's probably partly because Christelle is so distraught by her close friend's death and sacrifice, and though they definitely don't let his death in vain, I feel at some point Cédric (who was also, of course, fond of Losna, too, even though they were somewhat rivals—he just wont admit it TSK), would want Jesse Losna to ALSO receive a happy ending. Why should Losna be left behind? When he so easily sacrificed himself for the group's advancement? It is unfair.

As for Yeseo's turn, he would probably clumsily try and follow the plot, emotionally driven by his intense homesickness and desire to return back to his siblings. He's probably have it in his head that, if he completes "Jesse Venetiaan's" role to its fullest, he could reach his "ending" and return back home. Of course, this desire becomes a bit wavered due to gardually forming genuine bonds with ChriCed and co., but at the same time, he'd definitely also wish to protect them, too, even if it means hurting them with his death. He'd probably come to understand Losna's mindset during this battle, knowing that it's a necessary evil. If feel, though, that unlike Losna who would have played a dedicated and peaxefully resigned performance as a Demon King, Yeseo woukd struggle more—unwilling to truly hurt his friends, but if he falters and shows weakness, they would, too, and so the fight would probably be even more miserable on both sides than it had been in original Demon King fight with Losna.

I still think Cédric would be the last one to land the blow, but I think it would equally be interesting if it was CHRISTELLE, as Cédric has an undeniable weakness towards Yeseo, and TWSB!Christelle has always been someone who dies what is necessary and pushes forwards. In the QBP round, Christelle would have also fought to her fullest, but Losna knows that deep down, she is also tender hearted, as such his love for her would not allow him to let her deal the last blow, so he leaves it to Cédric—a trusted friend and companion, even though they never outwardly call each other as such.

In the TWSB round/regression, however, I feel like Yeseo would want to protect Cédric's heart more, too. From what Eunseo has told him, he has always thought of Cédric as a cold and arrogant male lead who would do anything for his lover. But the truth is, after Yeseo becomes "Jesse", he would come to learn the full extent of Cédric's softness and subconsciously want to avoid hurting him. In TWSB canon, Yeseo also does express many times not wanting to hurt Cédric, particularly bc he knows how must lost Cédric has gone through as a child. In this AU, he would probably not want to "hurt Cédric" by letting him deal the final blow like in the original, and realizes that Christelle, too, actually has a stronger mental fortitude than Cédric in this case. It is unfair to all parties involved, but Christelle herself would probably even recognize she's the one who'd have to end things before they all hurt each other any further. Like in TWSB, Cédric probably goes berserk after Yeseo dies, and Christelle would do the same as she did in TWSB in this AU, and be the one who ultimately helps him recover from it.

TLDR!!!!!

In the QPB round, Losna's love for Christelle makes him want to avoid hurting her with the burden of his death. So, he passes this responsibility onto Cédric, who is someone who he can trust to support Christelle and the rest of their group in the aftermath.

On the flipside, in the TWSB round, Yeseo's affection and consideration for Cédric and his own traumas, would wish to not add to his burden. As such, he'd naturally turn to Christelle, who he'd recognize was unexpectedly not a mere "Female Lead" archetype who needed excessive coddling, and would come to mutually understand that she could deal with the burden better than Cédric pretends he could.

QBP goes the typical "2nd ML sacrifices himself for FL out of love yet simultaneously wishes to protect her heart so he turns to the ML for assistance", while TWSB is more of a "actually, these people are more than just their FL/ML archetypes, and both are respectively stronger (Chris), and softer (Cédric) than you'd initially expect".

I hope this makes sense!! I'm basing a lot of the TWSB return on ChriCed's actions, characterizations, and headspaces after Yeseo's canon death in the 300s (as well as earlier in the series, during the Pas-de-Trois theatre/opera Arc, where Cédric notably faltered in subduing the Esprit, only because it took on Jesse's form). Anyhow, it's super interesting, and I also love it when the ML and FL archetypes/tropes are turned on their head hahahaha

[perfectlovevn]

1. Does Milo like sweets? Or does he have any taste preferences?

2. What would be the reaction if the manipulation Milo or the violence Milo knew that Eris had been using him? I know perfect Milo will be painful, but I still want to know his reaction on the other two routes.

3. If Milo is ill, will Eris take care of him or not care about him at all?

4. Although I know that Eris is a pure super villain, I still wonder if their bad experiences in the past led them to pursue perfect love, because it seems more reasonable.

If not, I will think that they don't love Milo at all, and the person they love most is themselves, because wanting a paranoid yander to love themselves desperately is, to some extent, a sign of narcissism. Or is there a sense of inferiority in the narcissism caused by Eris's extreme self-confidence?

If two Eris meet, will they become lovers? How would Milo feel if this happened?

5. When Milo is dating Eris, will he repeatedly ask Eris if he is better than Ryan?

I'm sorry to ask so many questions at once, but I'm really curious. I love this game too much …❤️❤️

-cracks knuckles- Okay, here we go.

PreMilo likes warm, comfy food. The kind that you would eat in a cottage or otherwise something that reminds you of childhood. Porridge, soup, warm bread, maybe pastries, hot chocolate, that kind of thing. Manipulation Milo likes sweets and Violence Milo likes spicy things but they all retain their love for the kind of comfy warm food.

Violence Milo is probably really shocked at this revelation , and kind of angry. Yet at the same time, he knows its already too late for him. The two of you are meant to be together, regardless of Eris wanted to discard him or not. He will likely be even more aggressive than usual and double down on affection more harshly. There is no way out of this. Manipulation Milo will simply delude himself. He's...being used? No, this is Ryan's fault, this is a test, this is his fault, surely! He will cling onto Eris no matter what, even if they try to dispose of him. Begging, crying, whatever it takes. He will never let himself believe that this was all part of a bigger plan to abuse him.

If it is something like a cold or fever, Eris will take care of Milo. After all, they still have so much more planned for him, they can't let their new project go to waste so fast. They might even attempt to smother him with care just so he falls for them more and so that he's more willing to do things for them, or on the contrary, might train Milo to crave more of Eris's affection by withholding it only when he does something right. If it's something that's a far long term illness, then Eris could possibly just ditch Milo, or even find a way to end his suffering faster. It's a waste, but they can't wait around for a possible perfect love when there are more out there.

Eris, while having a strong personality, I purposefully kept a lot of their backstory vague. Other than the people that they dated in the past (namely Ryan), we don't actually know how they came to be, whether it was just how they were born or if it was circumstances that ended up with them like this. Basically the idea is that it's up to you to decide what exactly Eris was like in the past and how it ended up being to this point.

I think two Eris's meeting would end with catastrophe. The two of them might respect each other's drive, but if they ever got in each other's way, they would surely take each other down. It's possible that the two might get together, but it would be a very toxic and dog fight type of scenario where they try to outdo each other and be in control in one form or another.

That sounds like something that he might do. I think Pre Milo, if he knew that Eris and Ryan had dated before would probably ask a lot about if he is better than Ryan, since he doesn't have very high self esteem and is trying to gauge in what way to change himself so that he can be Eris's favorite. At least until Eris tells him to shut up. Violence Milo probably wouldn't even like hearing his name, getting angry or destroying something when he's mentioned. It's not like he would ever let Ryan take Eris away from him again. Manipulation Milo would likely insult Ryan constantly and very snidely. He has no reason to believe he could ever be better, after all, Eris basically dumped Ryan and now they've chosen him, right? He might grow a worried if Eris tries to compare Ryan to him a lot, which would then end with him asking or just downright saying that he's better than Ryan.

No worries, I love getting asks and learning about what people have to say about my game!

[yanderepuck]

Salai-Chapter 17

WELCOME TO SALAI'S ROUTE. This is a FAN MADE route of my oc, Salai. This means this route contains my headcanons for the characters and in no way is suppose to represent the canon story. This is just a fun little time because I know many of you enjoy Salai. Feel free to engage, talk theories, send asks (even to @ask-salai ).

DISCLAIMER: His route his not canon to his character. Also, all of his lore in not in the route for simplicity reasons plus please feel free to ask about him.

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As nice as it was to have the moonlight shining in last night, waking up way too early from the sun is not nice. Your body's a little sore and you are about to blame it on the alcohol until you feel a body next to you. You turn and see Salaì asleep in your bed. His curly hair is a mess from tossing and turning.

You chuckle softly, realizing how cute he is when he sleeps. You reach out, putting a hand on his cheek. He doesn't stir.

Mitsuki: This shouldn't be this complicated.

You keep your voice down even though he seems to be a heavy sleeper. Carefully, you get out of bed and get dressed to go help get breakfast started. Now that you think about it, you aren't sure what Salai prefers to have for breakfast. You'll ask him later, no use in waking him.

You dress, brush your hair, make sure you look presentable then leave the room, closing your door behind you.

Sebastian: You're late

Mitsuki: I know. Sorry.

You immediately start getting to work, well you could if Sebastian didn't step in front of you.

Sebastian: What happened last night? 

Mitsuki: Wha- l-last night?

Sebastian: Don't act like you don't remember. You were yelling at Leonardo 

You forgot about that until now, and it all came back. 

Mitsuki: Oh no… I did do that.

Sebastian: So?

He clearly isn't going to let the day continue until he gets information from you. He might seem quiet but he sure loves to gossip.

Mitsuki: I may have drank a little too much and Leonardo may have walked in with me being close to Salaì.

You sound shy, as if you're going to get in trouble. You might even get a flick to the forehead.

Mitsuki: Did I say anything bad? 

Sebastian: Nothing that we all aren't thinking

He sighs and turns to complete breakfast with you helping. You stay quiet for a few moments before continuing.

Mitsuki: Salaì won't speak against Leonardo, whatever he says he just takes it and blames himself.

Sebastian: I must say, after hearing about all this even I see Leonardo in a different way. I don't see how he still looks up to him.

Mitsuki: He never even went looking for him…

You mutter to yourself while flipping some pancakes. Leonardo is here to stay, you don't want to view him differently but it's already happening. 

Mitsuki: It was so long ago though, maybe Leonardo has changed, we haven't asked him how he's handling this.

Sebastian: Le Comte has been giving him an earful for two days. He's not handling it the way he should be.

You pout and start to mumble again.

Mitsuki: Leonardo clearly doesn’t care. So why is he acting like he does? Salai did all the work looking for him.

Sebastian: That’s between them

~~

Leonardo goes down the hall to the room where Salai is occupying, knocking on the door.

Leonardo: Bambino?

He waits a few moments and knocks again.

Leonardo: Salai?

He opens the door and only sees Batuffola asleep in the bed.  Thinking he may have gotten up to get breakfast, he leaves the room and starts going down the hall.  Nearing the end he hears one of the doors open and glances back.  It’s Salai. Coming out of Mitsuki’s room too.

Leonardo: Salai?

He jumps a little hearing him, not expecting anyone to be in the hall. He turns to him, a smile on his face.

Salai: Morning maestro

Leonardo: Can I talk to you?

Salai: Sure.  Is something wrong?

Leonardo takes him down the hall to his room to talk to him, closing the door behind them.  Salai looks round at all the things in Leonardo’s room.  He has been in there since he got here but there’s still a lot to look at.

Leonardo: What were you doing in Mitsuki’s room?

Salai: I was just looking for her. But I guess she is-

Leonardo: You walked in to look for her and closed the door behind you?  I walked past the door, I know it was shut.

Even the expert liar couldn’t think of something quick enough to throw him off.  Leonardo was already getting annoyed.  He knows what happened but he wants to hear it.

Salai: Yeah, I slept with her last night. So what?  She was drunk and she-

Leonardo: Exactly. She was drunk.  I know you know better than to do something like that.

Salai looks at him for a moment before answering, trying to fully process what he is accusing him of.

Salai: Are you trying to say I took advantage of her?  Is that really how you think of me?

Leonardo: Bambino, that’s not-

Salai: I’ve been looking for you for over a century to be able to make things right. To be able to apologize.  You have no clue what I’ve been through, what I’ve done to be able to find you.

His voice starts to crack.  He has been thinking about that question Mitsuki asked him last night. 

“Why didn’t you give up?” Maybe he should have.  Maybe he should have lived his own life. Maybe he should have lived for himself and not just to get back with Leonardo.

Leonardo: I want to make things better. I shouldn’t have left you. I was meant to take care of you but instead I failed you.

There’s a short pause. Leonardo is looking down while Salai is looking up at him, feeling frustrated, upset, hurt.

Leonardo: I shouldn’t have turned you…

Salai’s eyes go wide.

Salai: Wh-what..

He feels his heart stop for a moment. He forgets to breathe. His chest tightens.

Leonardo: I wasn’t ready to take someone on for that long.  I know to you I seemed much older, but as a pureblood I was still so young.

Salai didn’t know what to say.  He was replaying that sentence in his head wishing he heard it wrong.

Salai: S-so I…I should have died…

He felt a tear go down his cheek, getting Leonardo to panic.  He quickly brings him close, hugging him tightly.

Leonardo: No no. I could have never have let you die so soon. I couldn’t lose you like that.

Salai didn’t know what to do or what to think. Leonardo rubbed his back hoping it would help him start breathing normally.

Salai: I-I spent so long looking for you.  I’ve done things I’m not proud of, things I want to forget. But you kept living your life and it seems like I should have to.

Salai pulls himself from Leonardo’s arms, tears streaming down his face.

Salai: Coming here was a mistake…

Leonardo: Salai-

He pushes past him before he could embrace him again.

Salai: If you wanted me around you would have come looking for me.  I’ll stay out of your way.

He opens the door and walks into the hall.  Leonardo stands there, watching him.  Now that he is back he doesn’t want him gone again. But can things really be the same?

~~~

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