#like maybe he'll develop more w the kid & everything

[orngbanana]

Omg heyyy I just found your page and I NEED Dion relationship hcs

i miss my wife op. i miss him a lot. here's hcs for u

Dion Agriche relationship HCS author's note: i thought about poking him with a stick the whole time while making this

• imma be real with you dion's as dense as a rock when it comes to being flirted with, griselda herself said he didn't process shit whenever pandora tried to, she also said someone like him isn't suited to be in a relationship but we’ll ignore that for the bit–

• might go on a rant here but I feel like to be in a relationship w him you either have to be as freaky and damaged as him or just develop to be more dominant cause this man is someone who would rather follow you than lead you if you managed to tame his ass

• he doesn't get bitches. you could think that he's hot as hell but everything else about him cancels it out cause his personality scares nearly everyone who meets him, he's a pathetic little fuck and he’ll need someone as equally pathetic as him for his love life to be even a smidge stable

• PDA is not something he's into, maybe a hand on his or your waist but everything else is a no-no, in private tho he's content with a hand on his cheek or being curled up together in bed

• he doesn’t get enough sleep unless he's unconscious or on horse tranquilizers so instead of that he'll just watch you sleep, it gives him some inner peace and that counts as a kind of rest

• if you go on one of those rare trips of yours it'll be by the sea, you notice the sound of the waves puts him in a trance of some sort so the two of you will simply sit near the shore and quietly enjoy the environment

• you play with his hair sometimes, you'll jokingly tell him to grow it out further so you can braid it, and in response he'll give you the flattest look in existence

• he dissociates often so you make sure to touch him a lot to keep his head out of whatever fog he's experiencing

• when it comes to comforting you he's absolutely ass at it but he will at least make an effort--he won't say anything but he'll sit next to you and stare at you until you tell him what's wrong and that counts for something ig

• you like it when he's naked; NOT in a weird way, you simply like to busy yourself by noting down some small details about his body; moles here, scars there, the paleness of his skin and the veins you can clearly see beneath it, how long his fingers are or how much softer his face is compared to his father’s

• he's surprisingly sensitive to sunlight; comes with having red eyes, after all; you try to hold back your snorts whenever you see him squinting after light hits his face

• apologies after arguments are not his thing, maybe cause he was raised by a self-centered dipshit sociopath with no regard for others’ feelings but you guys can work on that, probably

•he will cling to you like a puppy if he's in one of his more somber moods, doing things like laying his head on your lap and letting you fiddle with his hair until he gets drowsy

• you both like it when you smell of e/o, washing together and using the same products helps with that lots

• the two of you are not guaranteed to have kids; emotional problems y’know?

• does not let you near his mother, maria lets herself near you though, she loves giving you random gifts and complaining about her son if she remembers he exists; whether you tolerate her or not is up to you

• he notes down random things that remind him of you so he can look or think about them to calm down when he’s feeling destructive

• ooc but if it's winter you're throwing his ass into the snow no questions asked, you maybe regret it when he starts to ominously roll a giant snowball while staring at you without blinking

i wanna braid his hair and put him in pretty clothes...

[max-nico]

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Izuku's mind is an enigma, especially to Izuku himself, who is currently, quite literally, sitting in the middle of it. He's unsure of where the vestiges are, they tend to meet him at the metaphorical door, but this time he is completely alone. Not to say that's a bad thing of course, it's nice to have some privacy in his mind, and it's double nice to not have that heavy fog covering his mouth.

Experimentally, Izuku calls out a hello and it comes out much louder than intended. The shout echoes across the entire mind space, the sound seems to travel forever, even when Izuku can't hear it anymore he's almost positive it's still racing down the empty blackness. That should at least get someone's attention if he's lucky, but Izuku is not afraid to admit that is something he's never been.

He starts walking with a heavy sigh, hoping he wakes up soon. He was in the middle of a battle before this, and he clearly wasn't winning if he ended up here. The last thing he really remembers is searing hot pain to his back, or maybe his head, it's still kinda unclear. At least he can't feel the pain here. He'll take what he can get.

It's not long before Izuku is calling out into the dark again, this time with more intent. If being stuck in his mind like this is anything like lucid dreaming then that type of thing matters. His theory seems to have more merit than he was originally gonna give it, because All Might's vestige appears in front of him just a second later.

Izuku is thankful to not be alone anymore, and no offense to All Might, but this is the worst possible vestige that could've came. This one doesn't talk, move, emote, or anything. It just stands, bright and shimmering gold, which is super cool, but also super useless. Izuku can relate.

Izuku gives talking to him a shot anyway, not that he expects much. Or gets much.

"H-Hey All Might. Do you know what's going on?"

No answer, not verbally. The vestige just begins to walk, and Izuku follows, because what else would he do in this situation. He still continues to call out as well, Nana must be somewhere, and she could probably wake him up if nothing else.

As Izuku follows, echoes lessen, but his shouting does not. The space around him slowly goes from inky black to crystal white. There's still no walls or floors, and it somehow gets warmer here. Izuku would almost call it nice if the white wasn't so blindingly bright, he's going to develop bad eyesight at this rate.

All Might's vestige stops suddenly. Once the dark is completely gone from Izuku's vision and he can't tell where he came from anymore. Then the vestige begins to fade, slowly disappearing into thin air. Izuku doesn't even bother to fight it, having been through the vanishing act enough times to know it's a fruitless task.

"W-Was that just All Might?" A voice asks, and Izuku whirls around to find it coming from a little kid. "I didn't know he could disappear, that's so cool! Isn't he so cool, what's your name?"

The kid is small for his age. His hair is wild and undone, because his mother has not yet learned to tame his curls that he inherited from his father. His eyes are wide and such a bright green and so so hopeful it's crushing. Even his voice, high and squeaky, drowns in optimism.

Izuku tucks himself behind a smile. "I'm Izuku, what's your name?"

"I'm Deku, are you a hero?"

"No." Izuku says automatically. "But I would like to be."

"Me too, I-I don't have a quirk though, but I'm gonna be the best hero ever! Well, after Kaachan I mean! Oh, Kaachan is my best friend ever, he's gonna be number one and I'm gonna be number two!! Isn't that so cool?"

Izuku doesn't stop smiling as Deku talks and talks. Rambling about everything and nothing, all with an excitement Izuku doesn't remember possessing. It would be cute, if it weren't himself. Because all he does is make himself sick to his own stomach, so Izuku decides to sit down and listen. Kaachan has always said he needs to get better at that.

"Oh, are you tired?" Deku asks, sitting across from him.

"Just a little."

"That's okay, I get a little tired too sometimes. Momma always says that I should take a nap if I'm tired, but I might miss my favorite show if I take a nap. What's your momma like?"

"Uhm, she's very nice, but she's scared a lot, and makes the best katsudon."

"Ooh, mine too!! Momma's katsudon is really good, and sometimes she's scared of sending me to school, but I'm a big boy, I can handle it no problem!!"

It's easy to let Deku's chatter turn into background noise and just nod at the appropriate time, but it's hard to look at him.

"Do you miss your momma?"

"Yes."

Deku sniffles. "I miss her too. Can we go see her?"

Izuku just shrugs. He doesn't have time. He's not well enough. He hasn't become a hero yet. He hasn't become someone she can be proud of yet. She deserves someone like that to come to her.

"That's okay." Deku warbles. "Do you think she misses us?"

"Yeah, mom has a big heart like that."

There's a silence between them that Deku fills with little sniffles and barely audible sobs, not wanting to disturb his older version. In turn, Izuku just holds him close, and practically dwarfs the little kid because of his sheer muscle mass. He misses when his mom was taller than him.

"Izuku... Izuku I think I'm scared too. Is that okay?"

"Of course. It’s okay to be scared, fear is not the opposite of bravery, you just have to have the courage to soldier through it."

"Oh... But Izu, what if I don't want to? What do I do then?"

"Then I guess it's time to go back home."

"Then can we go see momma?"

Izuku pauses for a moment.

"No."

"Okay."

This is just a vent unfortunately, which means it's not really edited lol (not that anything I post is)

First time writing for MHA in like 3 years 🗣️🗣️ did I do a good job ?? 🗣️🗣️

Anyway, I am a Sonic centric blog, I just had this idea so don't come here expecting a lot of MHA stuff lol

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[not-this-guy]

Give me what is considered a very unpopular opinion that you actually like about bro.

What about popular one that you hate?

Also do you think he would be the type to drink whatever unholy concoction of sugar and alcohol and caffeine you put in front of him without any hesitation?

my ass that hasn't stepped into the fandom since 201X and has no idea what is and isn't popular regarding bro outside of the (bro)ad strokes: uhhh

this is more of a general train a thought thing but like. people are so quick to scrutinise literally everything he does but he's just some dude to me... and really that's what should make his actions sting that much worse. like ok he's insane yeah but he wasn't forcing dave to be a baby DJ or he'd be worthless, he was doing that because he was sharing his interest with the little guy, dredging up the bottom of the barrel of what used to be his genuine self - much like that one really good analysis of rose & mom & roxy mentioned, interests are genuine and shared between beta / alpha selves. like yeah, dave was put into the strider mold to be a Cool Kid, but he was entirely free to develop his own interests once he got old enough - interests that bro entertained if not outright supported. also people making bro keeping track of dave's blogs & comics something controlling and sinister when like. buddy who do you think is paying for those. he is literally just keeping up with dave in the bullshit distanced cool dude who shows no earnest emotions way that he knows - watching from a distance and then bringing it up at a later date to show that he (kinda maybe?) cares... at least to make his horrible life lessons that much more personalized and traumatising.

as for something popular that i hate this is gonna be hard to describe. but people who make him too clean in a way? i spin him around in my head because he's a horrible person but like. he's a person. he's not holding dave in a chokehold 24/7 but he's also not the kinda guy to audibly admit he's proud of him. he's in the muddy grays in-between the two extremes and extremely turbulently going from one to the other because he is aggressively mentally ill and entirely unchecked. he cares for dave, he wishes he was never spawned, he'd do anything for the lil guy, he hates that dave's the player, he'll do anything to see dave succeed, he literally dies for him, he has zero regrets as to how he treated him because he's incapable of genuine introspection when his sense of self has always been paraded in front of him by lil cal. in his mind everything he did, he did for dave, sprinkled in with the bullying and mind games that would only come to the mind of an older brother figure who's completely off his rocker and incapable of being self aware / feeling empathy without literally having it explained to him.

as for drinks; he'd not appreciate drinks that are too sweet or fruity, calling them girly, but he'd still down those mother fuckers in one go as if to prove he's too strong for them - only to get shit faced all the same. roxx loved teasing him about it, but he just in general isn't a fan of sweet things. rots your teeth, yknow. as for alcohol mixed w energy drinks. yeah. been there done that. a couple times too many, maybe, considering he's prone to mania but hey when he finally conkers out he's out cold to the point dave might have gone and checked to see if he was still breathing. you know. because he has such a normal sleep schedule that seeing him still is akin to him being dead.

[blooberry-bagel]

slytherin gang @ mcdonald's

modern au! crack! headcanon for @blondwhxrewrites

includes: mattheo, pansy, theo, enzo, blaise, tom, draco

mattheo: cashier 1

- one of the hottest cashiers u will ever have n regret not asking for his number once u leave

- it's not like he'd give it to u tho...

- he'd definitely flirt w you for fun

- throw a lil smirk in there

- would not give or take any fucks

- oh you're being mean to him? he'd talk right back at you...

- v reciprocal conversationalist (minus small talk)

- he's here to work not socialise

- but the smaller things, yk???

- flirt w him, he flirts back; ur being mean to him? he comes back meaner

- WILL escalate the situation

- spit is flying everywhere, it's an animated argument

- only when it gets really fucking real, then he'd pull out the last resort: manager pansy

pansy: your stereotypical 20yo manager

- also will not give or take any fucks, but on a higher level above mattheo

- 5'2" w attitude

- blue hair + pronouns but it's jet black bob haircut + piercings

- she WILL stick up for her employees bc nobody gets paid enough to work at mcdonalds + face the verbal abuse of customers

- it's a good day when pansy is on shift

- has got your back as long as ur doing your job

theo: noob level for 6mo

- usually it takes 2–3mo for someone to fully learn and grasp everything it takes to run a new job

- not theo

- i can just imagine him being too hot n rich to give a damn about working in a mcdonalds

- but it was forced upon him for the "character development"

- whatever that means when ur as rich as theo

- he'd probably be assembling burgers but getting shit wrong bc he simply does not care

- the riddles on cash will talk back at the customers anyway, it's not theo's problem after the order is completed...

- insert random italian while he works

- maybe some italian curses

- would def flirt w female coworkers and look forward to shifts bc of that (promptly gets a talking to from pansy for slacking off)

lorenzo: constantly being moved around in assembly

- let's be real, he'll probably burn himself at the fryer multiple times before realising the ice cream machine is more his speed

- he'd be all "yay" when finding out he's on ice cream duty, before realising the skill required to get that perfect swirl

- but swirl, he will

- and he'd be unbelievably good at it in the end

- ice cream and sweet treats for enzo

- wont need someone regularly cleaning bc enzo will be cleaning every time he drops something

blaise: burgers + assembly

- burger blaise™ bc i imagine him to be the most efficient worker

- altho he's rich like theo, he actually gets shit done

- not here to fuck around

- finds a sort of peace in the orderly process of assembling burgers

- blaise is an octopus w how fast he can be

- makes up for enzo's scatteredness

tom: cashier 2

- deadly duo w his brother, mattheo, on the other cash register

- also a hot cashier who would not give any fucks

- if shit gets serious, ull probably be better off never returning bc u wont survive tom

- bc tom will be the most silent but deadly person

- spewing absolute insults at u while holding the most stoic face

- the type to look u dead in the eyes for literally anything + make u piss your pants

- taking your order? eye contact

- annoyed at you? eye contact

- thinks ur cute? eye contact

- the eye contact is crazy w this one

- don't try him, bitch

draco: fryer freak

- bc enzo got moved off of fryer, draco has to fill in

- but he's not any better

- another rich kid who does not want to be here

- he'd burn himself and whine to pansy (she doesn't give a shit bc somebody has to work fryer)

- cranky little baby boy who eventually gives in (after being reprimanded and sassed by manager pansy)

- bare minimum worker in the end

a/n: ive never worked at mcdo so idk if the vibes will be remotely accurate 😭 but i hope u enjoyed anyway🤍

[chesters-ocs]

i am realizing i never even like. fleshed out where the FUCK butcher and his family are from. OOPS???

okay strap in because this'll get complicated because im stubborn and dont want to de-canonize the languages he speaks

(also it gets long because i get off topic and just wanna talk about him <3 my babygirl <3)

so as it currently stands, he met sylvester in latvia when they were both in their early 20s, but had been living there since he was a kid, just in a different city. i wanna say that because of his energy, it just HAS to be Rīga. So i can expand on that further and say that him and sylvester (Who's from Ventspils) likely met at some nasty, gross hole-in-the-wall club. likely after Sylvester got lost in Rīga and just went there for directions.

But his parents were both italian, so they got hella lost in the sauce and migrated there, while the country was still a part of the ussr. Which. uh. odd choice, for sure, but take my hand and lets believe in this magical land where its likely. together. <3

As butcher and marcus start school there, dominic is born, and a year later: elizabeth.

Then his dad got drafted. fuck. which eventually leads to butchers intense haterid for anything military due to it getting his father killed.

His mother then drags the four of them to the uk in search of a better life, and they end up landing themselves farmland and livestock and finally, a safe place to live. during this time, is when sylvester and butcher turn into penpals, which later on developed into the coded postcards

elizabeth and dominic are put into school again. this time, they get taught neither latvian nor russian, and its purely english. and the only connection those both had to italian is when speaking to their mother at home, who never picked up any new languages, other than broken phrases

butcher is now 18 (and marcus is 19) and their mother, due to nonstop health scares, leaves the farm into their hands. more like butchers than marcus', but yknow. with an occasional help from their uncle: julius, who kept an eye on them whenever their mother couldnt.

but due to the hospital bills increasing and getting worse, butcher starts to get desperate. its clear marcus will just let everything turn to ruin, and he cant stand for it. and theres only so much julius can do.

so he schemes and returns to sylvester. it was supposed to be temporary. but the more little escapades and dubiously legal jobs they pick up, the more he realizes that. oh. *oh*. maybe this is the answer he was looking for the whole time.

sylvester opts out of it after getting caught and heavily fined, but butcher doesnt. he keeps going, keeps saving up whatever he can get. excusing it all with the fact that it'll be for his mother, that he's doing it so they can get her the treatment she needs.

but he knows its too late when he gets the news from julius in a funeral invite in the mail.

he leaves behind every last cent in julius' possession during the funeral, trusting he'll put it to good use. if not to pay off the burial expenses, then to at least put it towards repairs they need, or to have food on the table

in his absence, marcus also got full control of the farm. its not in ruin per se, but it is certainly not maintained as well as it shouldve been.

however, finally a good thing comes from marcus: his fiance, ivy, who speaks of her other son. in italy. and speaks of who the father is. should it have been classified information? yes. but a few wine bottles in she no longer cared. so butcher now has a starting point for the beginning of the end.

ivy had a lot of insight into vincents work. and what vincent needs right now is someone like butcher. someone who's desperate. so he accepts butcher's pleas.

or at the very least, tells him to wait with the confirmation he will be called in one day. and then he'll be expected to show.

what he doesnt know is that ivy and butcher have befriended each other. butcher speaks of missing the motherland, and she tips him in on whats it like there now. helps him brush up on the language too

during this time is also when sylvester and līva divorced, according to the letters. so having nothing better to do than await his death, he helps him move. helps with the same document hell he himself had to help his mother with when they first arrived.

and he makes the mistake of falling in love. sylvester managed to mellow out a bit, but still found butchers antics tolerable enough to move in.

and then to have a kid of their own.

... and then, on the day he bought a marriage ring, he got that call. the one he had forgotten about until that day.

so he packed his bags, kissed his almost-fiance goodbye, hugged his kids and left trough the front door.

he did not return home in the 10 year time he said he would. at least it was not a promise. or it wouldve hurt way more.

instead, 7 years into the decade, sylvester gets the news broken to him by mail. that the body will be delivered soon, along with his possessions, and instructions on how to plan for a funeral.

[bastard-man]

s13:

hi okay i kept talking in the tags on my last post so here is more about s13 predictions ig

like i said we all know den literally can't function without mac it's been proven several times in the show

CLEARLY in mac & dennis break up

& my thought is how this will affect s13

so like,,,they're lying if they're gonna try & pretend like dennis can actually cope w/o mac if anything i think he needs him more than ever rn. even if dennis miraculously developed quickly & amazingly enough 2 be a dad that doesn't change how much he depends on mac. boy couldn't live without him in s5, and he was still like, okay then? obviously none of these characters r okay but i've seen only a few ppl mention dennis in the latest seasons. consequently mac seems happier this past season especially now that he's out which is great (i mean then u have DDL & then that kinda shattered but let's not mention that rn) but like we know dennis has been like,,,ragin' a lot more & he was diagnosed in s10 & we haven't really seen him happy in awhile like compared 2 earlier seasons when he seemed more calm & happy. what he thinks he needs is to leave his old life behind but what he actually needs, probably, is the gang rn more than ever but ofc he's not gonna admit that! so he run!

there's a number of reasons why i can't see them letting den be gone for any length of time but the main one being that it just doesn't make sense? like frank said u can't just go be a dad & he was right, & even if i think dennis could be capable of that it's obvious he's getting Worse & to be away from his friends, his family rn is not gonna help that, especially when we know he would be miserable in ND which is literally essentially what he says in 10.01 when he gets off the plane. i'm not a dumbass who thinks he's a sociopath & i know he has big feelings but i still don't see this being a situation where a child is magically the thing 2 crack dennis & fix all his problems

so like, there's my argument based on just the POV of the setting. now let's go back 2 den himself. like i said it definitely seems like he's getting worse, & him admitting that he has feelings was a huge, pivotal thing for him especially to admit that to the entire gang. from there they could use that to finally get den's character to open up a lil more & not try to suppress everything which i think is essentially why he seems worse? he wants to be one way & not feel & it's affecting him as it has over the years. we also know from mac, that he's been distant w him. whether u ship them or not they have a connection that's different from all the rest. so mac senses that den is acting different& like pushing him away, & we know it's not bc he's gay cuz den always knew that. this is where theories come into play, cuz it could have to do w den's feelings & trying to push the gang away so that he can pretend everything is okay which i think is a reasonable guess, or if u wanna add another layer to that there's also been the mention of him being uncomfortable with mac being out because now he's scared of mac's feelings & his own feelings.

it could be bc of the thing b/w them, or just the different connection that they have, but mac is the only one who says anything about dennis being distant. so is he only being distant w mac, or do the others just not notice bc they're not mac? either way mac is the one who notices & he's gonna be the first one to notice things going on w dennis. den has been like on a downward spiral almost & i think the RPG & brian jr just brought that to a head, & he runs, supposedly 2 deal w the latter. (i'm sorry i'm referring 2 a fuckin baby like it's a war crime but i don't evenl like them anyway so it's fine)

like depending on how u wanna interpret it, RPG=dennis realizing how he feels about mac, or how mac feels about him, or just the fact that he was all upset about vday only 2 find out mac got him what he wanted more than anythin & it didn't even matter 2 him that there wasn't a rocket bc it was the gesture so i mean interpret that how u will but FEELINGS

& then brian jr=who he apparently knew about but only becomes a problem bc mandy all of a sudden decides 2 show up & also thinks he's someone else so i really still don't understand some of the logic behind this event but anyhow. he's like noticeably v on edge this ep bc he literally had no idea how 2 get out of it & then all of a sudden he's like wait no i don't want to, but that's not the only thing? pretending to be in a relationship w mac & mac telling him he wanted 2 fake it & raise the kid w him was obviously also adding onto that & still his response was "im not gonna PRETEND to be in a relationship w u for the entirety of my child's life" so again interpret that how u will but...obviously we know he decides 2 go raise brian jr

but he's not gonna be able to do that. not bc he's not capable. i'd like 2 point out he left everyone & everything behind including his RPG & his beloved range rover, so i mean he prob left everything at his apartment too. (i have some theories bout this but it is not the time for those) like his car. is still in philly. his decision is made essentially on a whim after a moment w his kid & like an existential crisis while his friends danced around him bc up until that point he just didn't wanna deal w it

so it could've been like a few hours b/w those scenes but it's still a pretty impulsive decision considering it's a child, a new state you don't even like, a lovely woman ur not interested in, and leaving your friends, family, job, and entire life back in philly. maybe he also thinks it'll help him w his feelings. but he's been repressing shit for at least 12 years that we've seen (we know it's been longer like prob his whole life) & noticeably been getting worse, gives a sudden revelation to his friends about his feelings, & then leaves. that's not...okay. like we know they all have trauma & ridiculously unhealthy coping mechanisms but even if u take everything else away he's not gonna be happy having suppressed all his emotions and problems & then leaving having barely dealt with them w the others at all.

especially mac, who's a huge part of this which u can't deny even if u don't ship them. now i do so like my comments are gonna sway a bit more but i think it'll still work even if u don't agree w me on that aspect. personally i think there could be some sort of parallel there about how mac has gotten happier, while dennis has been more unhappy? like mac comes out & u could even argue dennis being jealous & acting that way bc he wants 2 come out & he's been suppressing that for so long but he's still not at a place rn to do it. or even the fact that mac feels more open & free to be himself while dennis feels the complete opposite & if anything has felt like repressing things even more, while mac mentions being sensitive (12.08 hints he feels more free 2 be sensitive now that he's out & doesn't have 2 worry about being so masculine so that he won't be called gay) & dennis mentions his big feelings but he's still not rlly talking about anything bc i mean u don't really just reveal everything suddenly. so especially in that regard he definitely needs mac.

like not only bc of their connection but bc he depends so much on mac & now mac feels more open & honest & i really think den needs to be around him more, not pushing him away (which could also be why) bc he needs to see how much happier mac is & how he's changed & maybe it'll help him open up more, & if anything mac would probably be the best one for him to do that w anyway.

i'm also gonna mention my sort of views on some ways den could come back: now considering his car was still there i think it could even be possible that mac goes home to their apartment to find that dennis is still there, maybe just waiting or maybe packing, who knows. them blowing up the range rover & using the RPG without him only to find that he hadn't left yet, or at all is definitely something i could see happening (& i know this is a more serious post about den but come on i think we'd all laugh @ that) or the thing i definitely see happening is the gang talking in the bar, who knows how long it's been (maybe a day, maybe a few months) & all of a sudden dennis strolls in and says nothing, walks behind the bar & grabs a beer while the others just stop talking and stare. cue title card "dennis is back" (tbh this is one of the most realistic ones i think & i know glenn mentioned it might be funny if he just didn't come back at all but i think this is vastly more funny & in keeping w the show i mean come ON) or there's like the sad part. this again could depend on how u wanna view things. but if u look at it as dennis going on a downward spiral, only for him to kinda hit rock bottom w the RPG & brian jr. (which isn't even a theory that's literally what happened) then we know this isn't good. it's not a typical situation where they leave on good terms, or they leave happy because we know he wasn't happy. we know he initially didn't want this & isn't ready & we know he hates north dakota, & we also know it's not like he's in love w mandy or anything no matter how nice she seemed, as the person he was closest to was: mac. so it's not like he's really leaving for a better lifestyle either necessarily, because he may have mentioned envisioning himself getting married & having a kid but we saw how it went when he married someone he didn't love, and how he again was unable to function without mac, and it's obviously not how anyone plans on those things happening, & if they did have him settle down w mandy which i do not see ever happening we know he'd literally be settling.

so for him to have been going through a rough patch, to hit an extremely low point & then walk away from his friends, is not going to end well. he hit that low point & is now leaving without dealing with any of his problems because his focus is on fixing one of them: the kid, but also how he was affected by frank because he doesn't want the kid to grow up in that same way. so he thinks that's the most important issue, because he also likes to pretend he doesn't have any other ones, & thinks this is the thing he needs to deal with and everything will be fine. but he didn't deal with anything else, he's only bringing those problems with him, to north dakota, to mandy, to the kid, to his "new life." so if anything he's only gonna be more miserable and he won't even have mac there w him, who he literally depends on to function & considering he's only getting worse being w/o mac is the last thing he needs even if he thinks, or wants to believe that that's exactly what will help. idk how they're gonna deal w him being gone, if he's gone for any length of time or anything, but my point is if he's stated to be gone for months or something like that i'm pretty sure he's gonna come back at the worst we've ever seen him because he was only without mac for hours before he realized he had no idea what to do & they were only, what, a few miles away? part of all this is that he's codependent but that is most heavily dealing with mac. s5 dennis was still doing pretty okay, considering. so him not functioning without mac was just pathetic. s12 dennis has been a mess & him being without mac at arguably his lowest point is kind of scary to think about.

[azudarlings]

hi guys have a random rant i went on about jamil's character as the way i see him

I ALWAYS SAW JAMIL AS REDEEMABLE CAUSE I UNDERSTOOD HIS WHOLE STORY IN A WAY WHERE IT WAS LIKE HE'S ALWAYS BEEN TREATED AS LESS THAN KALIM DESPITE BEING LIKE SMARTER THAN HIM MORE ORGANIZED PUT TOGETHER SO IT WAS A SLOWLY BUILDING RESENTMENT--HE COULD NEVER OUTSHINE KALIM, AND IT MADE HIM LIKE BITTER TOWARDS HIM, CAUSE IT WAS ALWAYS JAMIL BEING FORCED TO BE MORE MATURE THAN HE ACTUALLY IS, ALWAYS JAMIL MAKING SACRIFICES, WHILE KALIM WAS ABLE TO DO ANYTHING AND BE LOVED BY HIS FAMILY WHEN JAMIL WAS JUST SOME TOOL TO THEM. THERES A THEORY ABOUT HIS SISTER, WHO IS LIKE 3ISH YEARS YOUNGER THAN HIM, THAT SHES A REPLACEMENT FOR HIM CAUSE KIDS DEVELOP A BEGINNIGN PEROSNALITY AROUND 3 AND IF JAMILS PARENTS DIDNT WANNA RISK IT THEY COULDVE HAD HIS SISTER AROUND THAT TIME IN CASE JAMIL FAILED AT BEING A PROPER BODYGUARD RETAINER WHATEVER HE IS AND ALSO JAMIL WAS LIKE SOMEONE WHO JUST WANTED ONE MOMENMT TO SHINE AND THEN HE'LL BE FINE REPRESSING HIMSELF AND PRETENDING AGAIN BC HE WOULD ALWAYS BE PRETENDING UNLESS HE WAS ALONE, THAT'S WHERE HE COULD FINALLY REST AND LET HIS GUARD DOWN BUT MAYBE NOT EVEN THEN BC HE HAD TO ALWAYS BE ON ALERT AND SINCE THIS STRESS WAS ON HIM SINCE HE WAS A LITTLE KID HE JUST SLOWLY GOT MORE AND MORE NUMB BUT ALSO MORE AND MORE ANGRY AND BITTER BECAUSE IT WAS ALWAYS KALIM THIS KALIM THAT AND HE HAD TO DUMB HIMSELF DOWN TO SOME MEDICORE NOTHING, NEVER GETTING ANY COMPLIMENTS OR PRAISE OR NOTICE, NOTHING JUST CONSTANTLY DROWNING IN KALIM'S SHADOW THAT KALIM WASN'T EVEN AWARE HE CAST. LIKE IDK IF I SAID THIS BEFORE BC I LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT BUT JAMIL SHOVED ALL HIS EMOTIONS BENEATH HIS LITTLE MASK, PROBABLY HAVING TO LOOK/ACT PLEASANT AND MAYBE TO KALIM HE COULD BE A LITTLE BIT MORE LIKE HIMSELF, BUT NEVER COULD REVEAL HIMSELF AND AS A KID ESP SINCE HES DONE THIS SINCE A KID HE DEF MATURED WAY FASTER THAN A KID SHOULDVE AND LIKE HES TO THE POINT WHERE HE CAN JUST SEPERATE HIS EMOTIONS ENTIRELY FROM A SITUATION, E.G. STUDYING, WHICH IM GUESSING IS BECAUSE HES ALWAYS BEEN HAVING TO PUT HIMSELF LIKE ASIDE FOR OTHER PEOPLE SINCE SERVING KALIM WAS HIS JOB AND THOUGH HIS ACTIONS TO KALIM ARE OBVIOUSLY VERY LIKE THERE'S NO EXCUSE BUT IMO THERE'S JUSTIFICATION LIKE THERE'S A REASON WHY HE ACTED THIS WAY, HE WAS SO SO SO SICK OF KALIM GETTING AWAY WITH EVERYTHING FACING NO CONSEQUENCES HAVING EVERYTHING HE WAS LIKE JEALOUS LIKE WHY CANT I HAVE THAT AND HE WAS SICK AND TIRED OF NEVER GETTING ANY PRAISE OR UNDERSTANDING OR EMPATHY BECASUE JAMIL KNOWS HE'S SMART--WAY SMARTER THAN KALIM BECAUSE HE'S CONSTANTLY HAD TO DRILL EVERYHTING HE DID KNOW INTO KALIM'S HEAD AND SINCE HE'S WITH KALIM 24/7 HE NEVER REALLY GETS A BREAK FROM HIM WHICH DEFINITELY JUST MADE HIM MORE ANGRY LIKE HE SAW ALL OF KALIMS FLAWS AND IT PISSED HIM OFF BC KALIM DIDNT EVEN SEE THOSE AND NORMALLY HE WOULDNT CARE OR MIND ASIDE FROM BEING ANNOYED BUT THIS WAS COUPLED WITH THE FACT HES CONSTANTLY STRESSED AND BUSY MOSTLY BC OF KALIM AS WELL AS ALL THE STRESS AND EMOTIONS HE'S BOTTLED UP AND HE JUST LOSES IT DURING THAT WHOLE THING W KALIM CHAPTER 4 CAUSE WASNT HIS PLAN JUST SOME SHIT ABOUT MAKING EVERYONE THINK KALIMS HAD SOME KIND OF BREAKDOWN BUT IF HE DID THEN HED JUST GET REPLACED BY SOMEONE YOUNGER AND JAMIL WOULDNT BE ABLE TO OUTSHINE THAT PERSON YOUNGER THAN HIM CAUSE HES THE SERVANT OR WHATEVER SO THE SITUATION WOULD BE WORSE … SO IM CHALKING IT UP TO JAMILS SNAPPING POINT HE FINALLY HAD ENOUGH (WHICH SINCE THE LETTER HC SOMEONES TELLING HIM NOT TO TAKE SHIT AND JAMILS JUST BEEN WANTING TO FINALLY BE FREE AND SOMEONE ELSE BELIEVES HIM SO THATS THE FINAL PUSH HE NEEDS) AND SINCE JAMIL JUST WANTED LIKE ENOUGH TO BE OPEN ABOUT HIS GRADES AND ACTUALLY TRY IN THINGS HE STICKS W KALIM AFTER THE WHOLE OVERBLOT INCIDENT AND LIKE DOESNT TRY ANY OTHER SHIT I THINK CAUSE THEY GO TO VDC OR WHATEVER TOGETHER IN THE NEXT CHAPTER AND ARE ALL BUDDY-BUDDY SO JAMIL LIKE FINALLY GOT HIS SHIT BACK TOGETHER AFTER THAT WHOLE INCIDENT AND

bro i went over the TEXT LIMIT ill continue this on a reblog

[funtarou]

Wishes || Kuroo x Reader

The Second Part of "Plans" || Kuroo x Reader" fic

Second part is here and I hope it's decent or maybe satisfying enough. Like wise, I'm rusty and still trying to regain my writing zone. Also I haven't throughly slowly proof-read this so-- Also also ya know, like wise, how I depict Kuroo has no guarantee that it's the actual Canon Kuroo, ya know. But I'm tryna get a bit close-

Story Warning: Angst, Comfort/hurt?, Human emotions are weird okay. There's one Sexual action but not described specifically. Still just incase, 13 year old below minors do not interact.

Writing Warning: Bad English grammar and possible spelling mistakes and wrong use of words. English is not my first language and I'm still tryna get back in writing groove.

Read part 1 here

Kuroo Tetsurou never expect such a dirty play from life. He though all of the dark side in life for him has already ran out the moment his mom stormed out of their house when he was a kid. He though it was already enough the moment he heard his own older sister said she doesn't want anything to do with him. He though it was satisfying enough for life to see him bid farewell to his friends back at his old neightbourhood. Maybe he's still naive to think that he won't be affected by any games life would play him after the things he need to went through in his early childhood. Even after it already forced him to think more maturely in a young age, and developed a sort of social anxiety in those younger days, there just seems to be more and more things life had planned for him.

But after witnessing a near-death experience, Your near death experience, he wish life would let him off the Hook. Because it was just too much.

It has been 96 hours since you were hit by the bastard with the car who drives away the next second. And despite already being treated, you still haven't wake up. The doctor said you'll be fine despite the injuries, but might experience headaches when waking up. But on the matter of when, it was still uncertain. For now it's best to let you rest, let your brain process the shock from the hit.

96 hours, and Kuroo still stays by your side. Only leaving on occasion to get some supplies he needs to stay at your hospital room. He hasn't attend his classes for the past four days yet, but has someone he's on good-terms with (and has the same classes as him) to give him notes and stuff that was taught at those classes. Kenma occasionally stopped by to give him food and check up on your condition too. A few of your friends and family also came for the same reason for the past four days.

Even though his heart ache and yearns for you to open your eyes, to know for sure that you'll be okay, he always tries to maintained a cold head. Despite the lingering fear that stays at the back of his head and the image of your frail body being hit and thrown to the side of the road, he put up a strong front. to himself and to the people around him. He has been focusing on his studies despite not present in classes, still maintaining a proper diet and sleep schedule. Acting normal, and trying to think everything is fine now that he knew you're treated and is going to be okay. He cant just go in deep depresso espresso mode now while you're unconcious. Because he knew you'd be upset if you wake up and found out he hasn't been taking care of himself. Another thing he always keep in mind is, that he cant let this bump in life ruined his plans. Not to mention he's nearing graduation if he Ace his essays and IP. He can get a job soon, a well-paid one if he works hard enough. Soon enough he can buy you the things you always dream of getting ever since highschool. He can already imagined the beaming in your eyes when he give it to you, one day.

Yeah. This is just a bump in life. Everyone Will eventually experience it at Times. Nothing is perfect, but that doesn't mean he cant stop trying to reach his future plans with you.

As Kuroo was typing on his laptop, sitting beside your bed with one hand on top of your hand, he sensed a sudden movement. His eyes quickly shot up from the device to your laying figure. He stays quiet for a few seconds, that is before he can feel the sudden broken movements of your fingers in his once again. He stand up, putting the laptop aside before putting another hand on your hand that had moved. Eyes slightly wide in anticipation for your own to open.

"... (Y/n)?"

He whispered, not wanting to startle you. The movement on your hand in his owns slowly became stronger, until it managed to lightly close in to a half fist and open again. Your eyelids trembles lightly, making an effort to open. But when it does, your orbs slowly land on him. He cant help himself, as he feels his vision getting blurry with the unintentional tears gathering up.

"Hey love... How are you feeling...?"

He softly and slowly questions, letting you process your conditions as he notices your eyes roaming around as if trying to understand where you are. And then he sees your eyes roaming at his figure, at your conjoined hands. And for some reason, the way your eyes looked at him, the way it moved as if analyzing him and the way your hand slightly shifted in his soft grip, gave him a bad feeling under the relief.

And it seems like Kuroo's gut feeling has always been spot on. For the words you weakly utter next Made his heart drop.

"... W-Who... Who are you...?"

And he wish you were pranking him at that moment.

2 years since the incident.

The day when you woke up, Kuroo called the doctors to check up on you. After going through some tests, the doctor concluded that the impact and shock from the accident Made you lost a big part of your memories. Your family was called the same day to received the information.

Ever since that day, Kuroo has been trying to rush your memories back. He's taking it slow, not wanting to pressure you and the recovery of your memories. He's been really supportive and optimis on making you remember your family, your friends, your life style, hobbies, and him. Gladly you still remember and can manage most of the things you learned at your major, and you returned back to campus a few days after you woke up. Now you've successfully graduated with an average but good scores. Yet due to not remembering your passion, you're not quiet sure what career you want to take, up until now. You've only been doing part-time jobs and online shops. Everything still feels unfamiliar to your head, yet strangely familiar in your chest.

After getting out of the hospital, You agreed on still staying with Kuroo at your shared apartment. Kuroo also persuaded your family that it might make you remember faster on your latest life style. And in a way, he has a point. Most of the stuffs you supposely enjoy and most of the things you use in your routines is in the apartment. The things back at your family house are the old things you didn't use and left when you moved out for college. In the end you spend those two years living in the same roof with him, someone who people told you is your lover of some years now.

For the past 2 years also, Kuroo tried giving you your space. He restrict himself from kissing you everytime he sees you. He tries to hold back on smushing you againts his chest. He lets you choose where you wanted to sleep, either it be the guest room or your shared bedroom. If you're not comfortable with him hugging you, like how you two used to do everyday, he'll make a distance from your side of the bed or sleep on another place. Through those Times, be tries to done the deeds on his own, not with anyone else, without you knowing too. It's been hard for him to locked up all of his swelling feelings and affections for you, yet he doesn't want to overwhelmed you. Not until you remember him, or maybe, developed the same compassion feelings for him as your new self.

But it seems like you've caughed on his hidden desperation for you. And if there's a side of you that stays, it's your need to return the favor he has been giving you. Afterall, he's the most supportive person you've met ever since you woke up. The one who let you stay at the apartment despite not remembering him, the one that pays for all your need with his new found job, the one that's with you through the twisted road for you to remember the people you love and cherished. And so that night, you confronted him.

"Please let me help, Kuroo."

Despite the sting in his heart when hearing you call him with his last name, he cant hold himself back. Afterall, saying no to you feels so heavy for him to do.

You felt familiar under his touch, under his warmth. And whatever he did to your body, you always response accordingly. He knew every parts of your body, every beauty and insecurities. He knew what to do, because before the incident it's not like you two were playing holy-boy holy-girl in your relationship.

There's this momenterally serotonin he felt when being connected with you once again. Seeing your raw emotions of pleasure and your body doing the talking. It feels like everything was back like how it was. Everything was normal, back when you would know every part of him as much as he does, back when you utter the words of love as much as he does. But, he described the feeling as "momenterally" for a reason.

You two spend the night, cuddled againts each other, or could also be said him pulling you close out of habbit. But after experiencing one of the world's pleasure with you again, he really just need to be slapped with a sour something.

"Kuroo... I don't think I could keep pretending..."

Because deep in your heart, Kuroo Tetsurou is still a stranger in your foggy head. To your old self, your old memories, he would be the man of your dreams, the man you wish would spend forever with you. But now everything is different. You tried to find that passion within you for him, it's not like it's that hard because he was an attractive man. Despite all that, you come to realized it feels wrong. You knew, you've been knowing of how he loves you with all his beings and existence, while you only stays and manifested your love for him through a facade and a form of "Pity" for his desperate heart. It fills your chest with aching guilt, feeling as if you're using him at his more vulnurable mental and emotional state.

One could say you utter your next words on panic and quite irrantional thinking. Yet it felt right at the back of your head, to let him break free from the past. To let yourself break free. Because your little heart cant keep this game much longer.

Yet, He wish you would for a little longer.

4 years passed by.

The whispering noises of the audiences are audible through the whole building. Some excited whispers, some casual talks. They're all waiting for you, not to mention the spiky haired JVA member.

His head hang low, looking down at the ground. Hands remains restless, patting his neat suit here and there and occasionally being put in his pant's socket. Beside him was Kenma, putting a hand behind his back and soothing his best friend.

Minutes passed by, and finally the slow music started playing, silently announcing to the people in the building of your soon arrival. The flower girl appeared from the door first, your nephew dressed In beautiful frilly white dress with flowers decorating. Her Tiny hands throwing the pastel mix colored petals as she skipped her way down the aisle. Some of your relatives coo'ed at her cute attics while throwing the flowers. And then when your form is visible In the room, all eyes are on you. Dolled up beautifully in your long white wedding attire, a thin veil lightly covering your face. You walked down the aisle, a family member holding one of your arm, accompanying you to your soon to be husband.

If someone were to ask what Kuroo Tetsurou though Angels looked like, he would describe this scene in front of him.

The scene was beautiful and breath-taking to Kuroo's eyes. Even Kenma can hear his tall friend's breath hitching for a second when his eyes land on you. Your face moved up, eyes locking at Kuroo's cat like ones as if on instinct. You two starred for a few seconds, before a small smile softly tugged at the edge of your glossed lips. But after that smile, you turned your head and tore your gaze away from his.

A drop of tear unconciously traveled down his face. Followed by another from his other eye, and then followed by a few more soon after. He's silently crying, holding on a sob as his hands formed in a fist shakingly. Kenma of cource notices this, as he glanced to his tall friend beside him. But he was unsure of what to do himself that can comfort his best friend, and so he continued rubbing (hopefully) comforting circles behind the taller male's back.

Afterall, Kenma doesn't think he's in a much better emotional state than Kuroo at this moment either. Where Kuroo cried on his realization of fully loosing you to another, Kenma hold tears of his mix emotions. Kenma's happy for you and your soon to be husband, but he cant help but sympathize with Kuroo. Afterall he's the only guy that has seen and hear you two go through all the hard and happy Times. It's always you three since grade school. Even though you and Kuroo formed a romantic relationship Along the way, you two never left Kenma behind and Kenma never stop supporting you two. And at this moment, Kenma is unsure how to feel with the whole ordeal. He wanted his best friend back together like before, but he doesn't want to force you in to it, not when you forgot all those happy and sad Times you three experienced together.

And as you reached the end of the aisle, a hand awaited to take yours in. A hand that was not Kuroo's, but someone whom he atleast knew at one point in life. Osamu Miya. The man you met and developed deep feelings for, after you left him back in Tokyo.

Kuroo thinks you're being subconciously quiet mercifull for him. If you were to marry someone you and him knew for years, it would be more painful for him to try and mask his sadness with a smiling face in false supportive-ness. And as he sat there in silent tears, he watch and listens to you ex-changing vows with the Kansai man you've chosen to plan your new future with.

He wish it was him again. He wish he has that privilages to be a part of your future again.

Afterall he already planned everything beforehand.

As Osamu slipped the gold ring through your delicate finger, Kuroo's mind went back to a few days a go. Where he had found a neatly wrapped letter in his mailbox. He wished he didn't come when you had sent him a wedding invitation. But years of not seeing you nor ex-changing much conversation through text, could add to the factor on how desperate he is to remain in contact with you. Even after years, He's not used to being so far away like this yet.

His cat like eyes bore on to the piece of decorated paper.

How he wish it was his name written there beside yours.

5 years has passed by since the wedding.

After the ceremony Kuroo only greeted a few familiar faces and then silently leave with Kenma. For some reason Kuroo doesn't have it in him to face you, nor say his congratulations for you. He doesn't feel like tugging a smile for you at all that day. He hoped you didn't dechiper his emotionless face as something bad.

Now he's sitting in quietly, looking at the stars above him. Behind him can be seen a wooden cabin he had rent for a small nature trip, by himself. He thinks maybe he needs it, to atleast distract himself from the though of you. Honestly the first thing that dragged him to nature and disconnect with technology, is when he sees a picture being posted by Osamu Miya and shared by Atsumu on his social account. A picture of you and your 3 year old daughter with Osamu, smiling happily as it seems the three of you are eating at Onigiri Miya.

But for some reason, having his time within the fresh air of the mountains and therapeutic noises of the forest surrounding him, only Made his thoughs Drifts further on you. He though that your love is truly for him. He though that maybe he does deserve "forever". Maybe he shouldn't expect so much back then. There was never been a perfect love story from the beginning and he should've seen it coming. Even if all the odds around him seems to lead him on thinking "yes you two are meant together", maybe it's just another one of life's trial. He kept thinking like that through the 5 years.

Crouching down, Kuroo grabbed a small gasoline can that was placed beside his leg. He walked further to the wild, the backyard of the cabin, nearing a cliff where in the morning the breath-taking view of the waterfall and field can be seen. From his inside jacket pocket, he pulled out a paper file. When opening the file, it can be seen there are several papers within it and one quiet thick handmake-shift book.

He took a seat on the dirt, not minding some dust getting on his already dirty pants from the previous hike he had. One by one, his eyes wander off through the pieces of paper in the file, reading his small writings on it before dropping it to the ground in front of him. Until all the paper has been read lightly and dropped on the ground, he moved to the book. He only ever took the moment to fully and slowly read the words on the first date of the book. The date where he finally mustered the courage to confess his long-time feelings for you, and the date where he found out you also felt the same. Felt.

He schemed through the rest of the page, rather carelessly. Because he knew if he ever took the time to read each and every single plans he had for you and him, he would spend the rest of the night in tears. Heck maybe he couldn't even sleep seeing how many he wrote in the past.

Finally he reached the last page with his writings on it. His saving plans to buy you a ring. His written plan of how he was going to pull one of the best proposal action, only for you. Seems like all of that is for nothing now.

Kuroo closed the book, dropping it down with the other papers on the dirty ground. Standing up, he stretched his limbs lightly before moving to grab and open the gasoline can. Pouring all over the papers and book, not leaving any surfaces untouched, until all the papers are nicely soaked. After he emptied the gasoline can, he pulled a box of matches out from his pant's pocket.

He lights one up and throw it at the pile of papers. It went out before it could touch the wet surface, which Made Kuroo clicked his tongue in annoyence. He lights up another one, but this one went out in his hand when a sudden gush of wind hit his face. He groans in silent frustration.

'Now nature wants to hold me back?'

Was his first though.

He tries one more time. Lighting up a match, but this time dragging it down and guiding it to touch the surface of the papers. This time it finally lights up the flames on the paper. He sight contently, standing back up to see how the fire slowly covered and burns every pieces of papers and the book. Soon enough, the small fire turned in to a camp fire with the amount of fuels given to it.

The mountain around this place is quiet, especially at this time of the night. The only thing prominently audiable to the spiky haired male at the moment are the sound of the fire eating the papers.

And just like that his future plans are all ruined by the flames. The flames in front of him right now, and the flames of lingering love he still has for you. Just this week he figured he should destroy the pieces of papers that still Remind him of the old Times with you, so that he could move forward. He's in his late twenties already, he needs to get over with things and start looking up for his own future. No matter how lonely it seems like without you by his side.

He wish in another life, he could have the privilages to plan a future with you once again.

And maybe if that time does happen, he wish that everything wasn't just mere plans and wishes.

If he were to be given another chance, in another time or another universe,

He'll make sure to make every wish and plans he had in this life, a reality.

A solid reality of you and him.

But for this life, it seems like it was never meant to be.

- End

A/N: I hope I delivered well. Maybe- Actually I wish I could deliver my ideas better

Like wise, cover edit by me but the image belongs to the Haikyuu manga