#like idk what to rlly say anymore and i feel like im fucking tweaking

[hacknineirl]

i went thru op's blog and tried figuring out their point. and..... idk im kind of lost. like apparently op meant shit like "no i dont mean raw dogging it in a crowd, i meant doing it in a secluded area" (i think)? and i said this in the notes, but..... why didnt you specify what you meant? like tell me, why are these two strangers having sex in public? was privacy a choice? are they exhibitionists? are they too far from home? did they think they were secluded enough? however (and this isnt me talking abt the puritanical freaks), i still stand by my point. like everyone is entitled to be a little grossed out by accidentally catching 2 people in a secluded area (or whatever op meant). some people simply dont want to see some random strangers naked or interrupting an intimate act. and its also fucking stupid bc op is like "ermmmm youre weaponizing consent" LIKE....... THINK ABOUT THIS SLOWLY........ if i dont like something..... i wont want to see it it....... therefore, i dont consent to seeing two people having public sex. i really dont think its that deep. i dont mean to repeat myself, but its like the "i dont like coconut" example. i just dont fucking like that sort of thing. and its so AUGH bc i try to be as open minded as i can, because i dont know everything. and i know other people have different experiences and viewpoints than me, so im open to learn from people who know better........... but i really cant tell if op knows better. like at all. and i really dont think we should be making some sort of political think piece about how its the same kind of mentality behind anti gay/trans laws just because people dont want to come across 2 strangers participating in a kink that they dont like.

every time i try to make sense of that discourse so i can feel like "wow! i learned something new and expanded my world view" i just feel like im still in the same spot as i was before i saw that poll

its not fash behavior to not like something and not wanna be involved in it. literally this was the type of mentality i had w that poll "hey hacknineirl, do u want coconut cake?" "no thank you, i dont like that" "hey hacknineirl, do u want to see two people boning?" "no thank you, i dont like that" like, i dont like coconut and i dont want to eat anything with coconut in it. its not bc coconut killed my grandma or whatever. its bc i cant stand the taste and texture of it. other people are allowed to eat it and i wont stop them if they do, but i dont want to eat it. the same goes for public sex. i dont care if other people enjoy it, but i dont want to see it. its a kink im not into. thats it, i promise its not deep at all. i wont deny the existence of puritanical weirdos that limit what other people do w their bodies. but its gross to act like everyone who wouldnt want to see a sex act that theyre not into is a fash. literally go learn what "your kink is not my kink and thats okay" means bc thats the mentality i have. like kink at pride is fine bc like. if im going to pride, id expect there to be people dressed in kink gear. i know what id be getting into, so id be fine with it. but i wouldnt be fine w people fucking in the vegetable section of walmart bc i just want my spinach and carrots. and then the response to the poll was so fucking entitled like. if i dont want to see a sex act, then i shouldnt have to be exposed to it. i dont like shit like inflation, so im not gonna go browse that tag on FA . i dont like genshin impact, so im not gonna go on youtube and watch people play it. same thing w public sex. "hurr not liking public sex means you think sex is a violent traumatic act" i had no idea that asking people to have basic decency regarding boundaries is the same type of mentality behind anti gay/trans laws. had nooooooo idea that simply not wanting to see something that i dont like is fash behavior. yeah my bad, i should be perfectly cheery and happy to see something that i dont like actually! in fact! im not allowed to simply dislike things! quick op, tell me what would you do if your partner didnt want to have public sex. bc if ur so up in arms about someone not wanting to see strangers having sex in public, then what would you do if your partner didnt want to have sex in public?

[areolni]

can't keep this in longer so sonic kinsona blabber under cut (except i can't draw so it's MOSTLY in words but y'all can imagine right)

ive been wanting to make a sonicsona for the LONGEST time but somehow, despite kinning the modern blue blur himself, i can't get the right design for him in my head. like yea ok just add clothes and stuff but it doesn't feel me. THEN. IT CLICKED. (massive word vomit below u've been warned and also satbk mentioned)

Lore

Behold the Fallen King, reduced to a measly Jester. He lost his monarchy, his authority, his dignity, but gained joy and freedom, now running as free as the wind despite the shackles of entertainment. He's seen as nothing but a mere show – a performance – for people to feast their eyes on the magnificent spectacle before them. King Arthur is long gone, only the nameless Jester is known.

tldr Arthur got dethroned and forcefully became a jester instead lol (in this context arthur and sonic are two diff people, js with the same appearance. yk js like how shadow and lance are diff but look the same)

how does this tie to my kinsona? why did i choose this lore? simple rlly: burnt out gifted kid. that's all im gna say. i fell down SO FAR it's not even funny.

i relate to sonic himself in many ways but one thing i struggle to relate to him is our experiences. while king arthur in canon satbk is well 'dead' (or nonexistent per se), what if sonic's alt exists in satbk (like shadow and lance). that's where im coming from. still was king of camelot, js dethroned. someone else took over idk who but that's not impt for now.

lance still stays with him (COUGH self indulgent COUGH) bc he's too loyal to actl leave arthur's side despite him serving the new king. him and the knights of the round table are the only people who know about this new jester's true identity bc arthur didn't want to be known, not out of shame due to his dethronement but he simply wanted a fresh start. he doesn't want to be weighed by his past responsibilities anymore. he doesn't want to be seen as king. while power is great, it isn't for him. that's why he tries to make himself as unrecognizable as possible while keeping some hints of his charm. why? so people see him and go "why does he look so familiar but i can't put my finger on it" (he loves to confuse people)

Extra info (background)

Arthur is, you guessed it, trans 🔥🔥🔥 ftm as most hcs say. how does this work in the medieval realm? born female, forced to become male initially bc he's the only child and his parents desperately needed a heir for the throne. if the kingdom found out their new leader was a fucking girl they'll go on a riot for sure so. in a sense, arthur has been male his whole life. while initially he despised this whole ordeal, he's grown to feel comfortable with himself. he's denied it for so long but eventually embraces it. it's a bit of an identity crisis bc his external persona is male, but when no one is looking his parents treat him like a female. it messes him up a lot and eventually says fuck it "nah ima do my own thing"

^ js a disclaimer this is from my knowledge of society in medieval times. im not very sure how heirs work. ive heard that princesses CAN be queens w/o a suiter but again, im uncertain.

abt the dethronement thing? don't ask me abt that. why was he kept in camelot and turned into a jester? the new king wanted to make a fool out of him so. there ya go. Arthur simply goes by 'Jest' now. (i suck at names, as u can tell)

Design Inspiration

if it isn't obvious enough, my main inspo would be based on Jester Sonic himself. he's my absolute fav design so far it's wonderful. obv i would make some tweaks

oops ari art WOAH *gunshots* additional details would be added from my persona/OC, based on The Fool arcana. his name is Neil :) i love him so much. (me and my friends made our own AU called Masquerade of Rebirth, MOR for short, and it's based on the 21 Arcana. we have lore for that too)

made a doodle of him but again i can't draw nicely so uh. yeah. ill learn how to draw sonic chars soon but i simply don't have time

for differences, he has more puffy sleeves and flowy accessories. he was supposed to wear those. puffy shorts stuff. like in Neil. but i was too tired to care at that time (basically i LOVE puffs and flowy stuff. im gna incorporate it as long as it makes sense) i don't have a colour palette for now unfortunately. again i suck at choosing colours. i also have a design for Arthur during his monarchy but it's js a simple white tunic, brown pants and leather boots. yk like. fucking astarion from bg3 LMAO

ngl this is mostly a ref for me so when i finally get to draw, i have smth to look back to. and also… cough… if there's any potential lancelot kinsonas.. hello.. ive seen so many shadow sonas but never one related to satbk </3

um idk who actl reads till the end but YAYY 💥 ive rlly nvr seen a sonic kinsona based on the storybook games so it'll be cool to see others :)