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potter-inthe-tardis · 4 months ago
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I can't believe I follow someone who was at dashcon??? This is like following royalty omg
Omg! I love that you think of it like that! Dashcon royalty!
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ratrap · 2 years ago
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I'm so so proud of you dude, telling her in the first place was still a major step towards getting your life back!! (And I think the clothes thing proves pretty well to me and presumably her how fucked up all this has been and how he's been blatantly lying to you about liking you as you were, yikes.) Doesn't have to be all fixed at once but any little bit of progress towards not being completely on your own with this shit is something to feel accomplished for.
thank you youre too nice to me. Sorry i havent replied im just struggling a bit with things. I tried so hard to lose weight way before and not that i really got healthy before my mum passed anyway but now none of it matters anymore. my clothes are so small im getting too embarrassed to put them on. i feel gross and it makes me not want to go out. i say to him i want to get new clothes but he doesnt. listen I cant keep putting up with this im so unhappy. and because i dont even think i had a life before im not even thinking about anything good in the future. ughhh I have been really upset about my weight and life in general it makes me wanna give up so maybe i can see my mum again I am still on my own nobody would even care if i wasnt here except for him, which gives me all the more reason to not want to be here. My cat is the only thing that makes me not want to die lol. My life is pathetic and so am i. Im so sad and stupid that i let this happen to me all over. the only reason i told her at all was because he had done stuff in my sleep again after again I told him im tired of being like this and then took a video of me while im upset, and i was still mad about it the next day when i went. Hes been waking me up to make me drink milkshake or ice cream and he makes me eat this spoonful of oil stuff i dont even know what it is and he recorded me drinking it while embarrassing me so if anyone likes that and you see footage of a fatass idiot crying that is me. I think he thinks because i have mental health problems that i dont understand i dont know. Im so upset every day i dont enjoy anything, i feel like such a disappointment and embarrassment to my mum and i dont even want my aunt to have to look at me she will be grossed out if she had to look at me nevermind let me live with her. thank u for caring and dont feel obliged to message me okay. I appreciate your concern and everything im just lonely rambling at like four in the morning. If whoever sent me the ask about housing or something sees this i would appreciate the link to whatever it was you were going to send me before i think you can send them in asks id like to at least look at it cause I have no idea what im doing 😞
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randomsevans · 4 years ago
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maid to be part 3
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Ransom made his way back to his family with a small smile due to you being on your mind . He slipped into the living room , where his family were waiting for him . The food long forgotten and not eaten  in the room next door .As most of the family were stood up with a glass of what ever drink was going around . 
Ransom didn't want to hear the pathetic whines from his mother nor his uncle . So he made his way over to the corner , where he spotted his younger cousins Jacob and Megan . Yes he hated his family , but his cousins was the most bearable .With Megan hating the family just as much as him , and well Jacob just sits their quietly on his phone ... so Ransom never really fought with him , Apart from this one time when Jacob made his way upstairs and almost caught you and Ransom . But Ransom played it off by shouting at both you and Jacob in his cruel dickhead way .But of course you didn't take it to heart , it wasn't the first nor the last time  he acted that way to you with his family around . 
Ransom sighted , straightening his blue knitted sweater before sitting down on the oversized ,chair , that was so unconformable . He moved around on the seat , eventually getting some what comfortable places his armed on each side , bring one of his fist to lean against 
“is she okay ?” Megan looked up  from her college book for a second to Ransom , only to go back to it 
“huh !” Ransom responded , tired from his family already , he had some much on his mind , and you were at the front of it as always , as well as the pressure he already feels from soon to be a father . 
“Y/N is she okay ?” Megan asked once again closing her book , Megan made it her job to know all the helps names , she didnt like having other on her beck and call , and calling them “the help “ 
Ransom decided to play dumb and show off his arsehole personal “who ? the maid “ 
Megan glared at him in annoyance “you know their have names right Hugh , not just maids or the help “
Ransom just simple shrugged his shoulders “oh well “
“why did you even help her , she only hurt her self a little i dont see you do that with anyone ?” she narrowed her eyes at him , it caught the attention  of Jacob bring his head from his phone looking from one cousin to the other 
“oh well you know me Meg i see something pretty , i wanted it and i take it “ he let out a little  dry chuckle “its amazing how a girl can open up to you if you show them a little bit of kindest “ Ransom smug smile played  happily on his face . 
Megan looked at him in disgust and her face scrunched up , while Jacob snicked at his older cousin “your disgusting Hugh , she would never go any where near you , she actual has self respect you know !”
Ransom chuckled at his self , if only she knew , if only all his family knew , That you were indeed already his , and he is your ever since he wanted you , he couldn't get enough , he never looked at another girl since , and that was well a year ago . But Megan was right you do have self respect which is why you wanted nothing to do with Ransom at first , but after months , And Ransom means MONTHS , 4 long ones , you finally agreed to allow him to take you on a simple date . You didn't wanted anything fancy or expensive . So you and Ransom spent your first of many dates at a park , just simple walking and talking . 
“sure its never stop me before i always break them in the end . And its RANSOM and the help calls me ...
“HUGH ! yeah i know “ Megan said getting up from her seat . “ you really are vile piece of work “ she barked as she walked away exiting the room 
“why thank you very much “ Ransom said amused , watching Megan walk towards the kitchen . His eyebrows shoot up curiosity , as his lips tighten 
“why does she need to go into the kitchen ?“ 
Ransom shot up and made his way back to the kitchen he was in moments ago . 
as he  got closer he heard mumbles of voice , as he hide around the corner 
“ i mean it y/n “  megan’s voice boomed 
ransom sighed shaking his head “what is she still doing down stairs she needs to be up there resting “
Ransom heard you delicate laugh that fluttered his heart  , he took  a quick glance and saw you standing at the sink , with your hands in the water , scrubbing away at a plate  “god she never listen , so stubborn ,she  needs to learn that its not just her she needs to look after now its our baby too “
“dont you think i know that Megan “ you giggled 
“y/n his a fuck boy okay , if you let him near you , he will use you and then leave you and move on to the next chase “
Ransom let out a snicker , but he couldn't blame his cousin he was indeed like that ,   that was before you , and Ransom hoped and prayed you knew he would never leave you especial now you and him were staring a family together 
“ Megan i know okay “ you dawned out “ i promise okay im not foolish enough to follow under the charm of  Hugh Drsysale okay “
 A smug devilish smile came to Ransom lips as he thought “but thats exactly what you did ! look at my girl lying so well , im rubbing of on her , well  she is growing a miniature version of me anyway “
if you had told Ransom a year ago that he would be in love and looking forwards to becoming a father , he would of laughed in your face , And if you said it was to the help well , you would simple end up in ER by the end of it . 
“ but y/n he has he eye on you “ megan stated 
and i was true , and its all Ransom would until his last breath 
“hes not going to st... “ 
“Who has an eye on y/n “ Joni interpreted her daughter as she stumbled in the kitchen from the other entrance 
“who is y/n anyway ?” she asked , megan pointed towards you as she rolled her eyes at her tipsy mom “oh the help ... who would want you “ she snarled . Ransom felt his blood began to boil at the way Joni was speaking to his girl 
“Ransom “ Megan simple answer . You cheeks become blushed with embarrassment , as you turned away from the sink , and began fiddling with the end of your apron and you become nervous . Ransom wanted nothing more then to wrap you in his arms and take you home , To spend the rest if the day sleep on the couch as Ransom babbles on about plans for the baby . As much as he tries to hide it Ransom cant help but be exited over the baby . That why his is so protective because if anything happened to you or the baby Ransom would loss the only happiness he has ever known . 
“pfff Ransom is many thing , a low life is one of them . But at least he has taste he wouldn't dare for for a fat , trampy ...” 
 before Joni could finish Ransom busted into the kitchen 
“say one more thing about me or her , and ill knock the Botox of your  face “ Ransom snarled ,fist  formed on his side . As everyone in the room , you , Megan , Joni and the rest of the help looked at him with wide eyes 
“pfff what ever you'll just get the STDs “ Joni wobbled 
“MOTHER !” megan shouted 
“you should know , how many people you passed it on to “ Ransom rage showing , as he stood right in front of Joni blocking her view of either you or Meg 
“WHY YOU LITTLE .....” Joni began to screech at the top of her lungs 
“What is going on in here !” Richard voice boomed throughout the kitchen , everyone glanced his way , seeing the rest of family moving into the kitchen 
“nothing “ megan answered as she went closer to you 
“pff doesn't sound like nothering “ Linda snirked downing the rest of her drink placeing her glass on the counter . starring at her son , who was clealry anger , as he starred daggeres towrads Joni with his fist still by his side turning white 
“son whats going on ?” Richard asks 
“yes id like to know that to “Walt questioned placing his hands on his hips  
Joni lened away from Ransom as her lip began to tremble “ i ... i dont know .. he just started ... on me “ Joni was trying to act all innocent , but it wasnt working on anyone as there all snirked , giggled with “ oh god “    “ here we go “    “ who is ready for the preference of a life tme “    “ oh mother “ 
But Ransom only lerned down towards his aunts ear , so only she could hear him “ i mean it joni say one more thing and ill tell Harlan were Megans college money realy goes “ he barked . 
Joni slapped Ransom full force around the face . The whole room fell slight , watching Rasom  wipe the little blood , form the small cut on his  bottom lip . Ransom smiple nodded his head and wnet to step forward with his fist ready , he didnt care if you were his family , his aunt , a women , she insuled his girl , called her fat when she is carrying his child . 
But just before Ransom could swing , you stepped inbetween Ransom and Joni , placing a hand on his chest while the other wrapped your hand around his fist and brung it down . While she starred into his blue eyes , that were iceberge forced on Joni , only to glance down at you and soft in to the blue ocean , that flashed with , conserin , guilt and above all love 
As the two of you stood there locked eyes with each other , the family looked at you two of you, squinting there eyes , amazed and confrussed on how you so easily calmed down  the short tempered , play boy . Harlan was rolled into the kitchen by Martha he looked around his family . He heard the screaming of couse , but he was beyonded confused on how silent his family , were as there all looked at Ransom . Harlans once eyebrows shoot up , at the way Ransom was looking at you . He shot at look up to Matha , who shrugged not knowing herself
“ oh great his fuckin the help “ Walt broke the silents lifting his armes in the air , shaking his head 
“fucked a baby into her too “ Ransom snarles , with a lovly smile , as he looked upon your shocked face , eyes wide month wide open . He just told everyone your biggest screate , you didnt know if you was to be anger at him or found it all funny . But how could you be mad at him and he locked eyes wit you stoking your cheek , as one hand went to you small blowed stomach , with love and effection . the room was quickly filled with screams , shouting and gasped 
“what !”
“HUGH RANSOM DRSYALDLE “ 
“hes joking right !” 
“that explain why his being acting weird “ 
“oh just like him to do that i bet she not the only one his knocked up “
“the help , and our family !”
“ you better be fuckin lying “ 
“OH SON !”
“SHE PROBABLY LIED TO HIM FOR THE MONEY !” 
“hes not fit to be  a father “
“there better get ride of it , “
“ Are you fuckin kidding me the help “ 
“so much of not going near him “
“of couse shes up the duff “
“ i never knew his stands where so low 
“really y/n “ 
you and ransoms just starred at each other slowing giggling with each other , that quickly turned into a booming laugh from the pair of you . the family grew slight , snarking at you and Ransom childish behaviour. While Ransom grabbed your hand , interwinding your fingers , as he gave you a knowing look , you simple nodded knowing what he was going to do  Moments later . You and Ransom were ranning through the halls of the manner , as Ransom held tight your hand as he dragged you behind him heading towards the front door , ignoring the shouts of the mad family 
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But may add an odd one shot or two to the story in the future
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oh-for-fic-sake · 5 years ago
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Pastry Negotiations
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Decided to do a few cute funny oneshots for the witcher i wanted to do a modern reader x geralt collection somehow its become geralt x yennefer x modern reader this is just so i can take small a break from Trophy. Next imagine in series is Here
Warnings: maybe implied smut? Swearing
Your and Jaskier’s spat end in a hostage situation
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Pastry Negotiations
'Tho its eased up a bit now' you thought as you rummaged threw the small satchel that yennefer had given you full of a few clothes she had lent you and somewhere in here there should be a small pastry that you had squirreld away ,you growled as it wasnt at the top where you left it ripping the garments out of the bag frustrated. It wasn't there you rolled up the clothes throwing them back in. Geralt noticed your little tantrum 
It was early evening when the five of you settled in camp geralt sat leaning against a large tree a few feet away from the fire, watching over his small 'pack' as you called it. You'd been here just over two weeks now, no closer to finding a way home but you were slowly adapting. You got along with ciri like a house on fire she seemed to enjoy teaching you things and listening to stories of your home land;Even if you did cop out and just recited your favourite films to her.Jaskier had become more of a brother  ,you both loved irritating one another leading to squabbles and name calling which in all honesty put you at ease as he did remind you of your brothers at home.
The love birds? now that was becoming awkward because of your crush on them, you couldnt help it they were both beautiful and dominant. you were still unsure of them tho, yes they have been accommodating but they constantly watched you, always had one or both staring at you especially when you were around ciri but there was also somthing in their eyes as they swept over you that made you want to blush.
They had been keeping their distance only helping you when nesscasary or stepping in putting a stop to your and jaskiers banter that is until three of four days ago they became more attentive striking up small conversations with you asking about the things in the stories you told ciri. Yennefer had insisted that you sleep with her and geralt for your own safety, which you didn't understand as you'd been fine lying along side ciri and jaskier.
Nevertheless once geralt agreed you'd found yourself dragged between them a few nights ago and that was the end of it. It was a bit uncomfortable as during the night they 'accidentally' tangle themelves around you. The past two mornings waking up snuggled between the two.It would have been nice if one it didn't embarrass you and two if geralt could loosen up a bit ,your arms keep going numb.Apart from that new development the one thing you just had enough of was pain you couldn't stand it. your days used to consist of sitting at a desk all day proof reading, now you were expected to walk miles in already worn trainers.
Your feet and legs screamed with every step and you fell behind refusing to ride on roach ,until finally geralt had enough of stopping for you to catch up and sat you on roach, you had been all but hysterical as he had carried you towards her only then did he realise that you'd had avoided the horse at all costs because you were scared of her ,to your five foot fuck all she was huge.Ciri bless her, had climbed up behind you helping you to relax showing you where to hold on as geralt took the reigns and began walking again. Jaskier had poked fun about the ordeal until you'd explained at home you don't use horses to travel people only have them as pets and you'd never actually been this close to one before so didn't know how big theyd be. All four of them were stumped.
It was only a few hours later you realised that a horse was no better as yes it took the pressure off your feet but put it on your ass and thighs.It was painfull as geralt and yennefer comicaly pulled you off that night and you have since walked bow legged. 
"What have you lost Y/N?" You stomped over to the fire sitting down on a small blanket beside ciri capturing the attention of yennefer you huffed crossing your arms hangry.
"The pastry that yenn gave me is gone i put it in my bag so i could have it tonight and its grown legs and walked off apparently." You pouted staring daggers at the flames.
"Are your sure you put it away?" Yennefer answered him befor you
"Yes she did i was the one who told her to" geralt sighed 
"It could have fallen out, you have a habit of not doing up your bag" 
"It cOuLd HaVe FaLlEn OuT"you mocked scowling. you caught jaskiers gaze he freigned ignorance and nervously looked away
"Jaskier?" he breathed out a nervous laugh
"Yes"
"Have you seen it?"
"No of course not"
"Really you look shifty"
"you dont honestly think id take your pastry do you?" He said as you crawled towards his bag he snatched it quickly.
"I wouldnt put it past you show me" you said sitting infront of the now cornered sputtering bard
"Y/N id never even dream of-"
"Cut the crap and open it" you interupted befor he could come up with an excuse you pounced on him wrestling for the bag. Untill 
"AHA! You did pinch it you little sneak theif" you announced as he quickly pulled the snack from his bag holding it out of reach. He shook his head shuffleing back making distance between you.
"no no i found it on the floor earlier so i took it" you squinted at him
"give it back" 
"No finders keepers" 
"But its mine" you whined petulantly
"No" you growled at him turning to the left
"H-HEY put that down no what are you?" You faced him again his precious lute in one hand and a small blade you'd swiped off geralt yesterday ignoring geralts
"Is that my knife when did you get that?"
"Not now geralt , Jaskier Drop the pastry or the lute gets it" you threatend sliding the blade flat under a few strings he jumped forward catching himself as you tilted away twisting the blade untill two strings rested taught on it.
"Ok ok lets not do anything rash how about we split it" he offered.no dice.
"How about i cut these" you countered tilting your head at him watching him squirm
"Ok ok i get it you pass me the lute and ill give this back" he concluded
"How do i know you will give it back when you have your lute?"
"You have my word" 
"Words are cheap"
"I promise"
" you give me the pastry and then ill release the hostage unharmed"
"No i dont trust you to do that"
"Then it appears we are at an impass" you said tilting th knife unbeknownst to you the witcher of the group was already on the move quickly stalking up behind you before things could get ugly with out either of you haveing time to react geralt had snatched the pastry off of jaskier Growling out
"If you cant behave neither of you have it" then he turned you struggled as he took the lute and knife off of you throwing the lute towards the small pile of bags near the tent pointing a threatening finger at jaskier.leave it. Geralt took a few steps around you muttering somthing along the lines of 'couple of fucking children'  causing the girls to giggle he gave ciri the treat who happily began munching it.You pouted at his back when he made his way back to his tree trying to locate where you'd stolen the knife from. 
"Thats not fair he'll get his lute back tomorrow and i cant have my snack" you sulked as jaskier laughed behind you.
"It will act as a reminder to do up your fucking bag im tired of reminding you" was the reply from geralt you heard Yennefer pipe up in agreement your face soured as you crawled back beside ciri who had finished your pastry. Smileing impishly you sighed then looked at the resident smug couple.
"Fuck you both" you muttered with out missing a beat yennefer replied 
"We would but we assumed your still sore after your ride on roach" silence fell over the camp as you stuttered speechless a deep blush crept up your chest and neck jaskier gaped at the three of you geralt smirked as he and yennefer shared a knowing look.Jaskiers hearty laugh echoed in the camp.
Wow i realy enjoyed that watch out for more of these in the next few days see ya soon xx
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fluttersheep · 5 years ago
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@michaalien​ tagged me in this forever ago and im only just now getting to it fjdkjfsd
thank uu
What was the last thing you read? a pharmacy tech study guide ;;
Favorite movie? what we do in the shadows, lego movies, o brother where art thou, hot fuzz is a guilty pleasure
Favorite book? smoke gets in your eyes
Dream Date? visiting an animal sanctuary maybe. or a historical site. hiking somewhere beautiful. idk i have lots but as long as im with someone i love ill have just as much fun sitting on the couch
Do you have a crush? yeah im crushing pretty hard on @skeletonshades​ but dont tell her its a secret <3
What are your hobbies? drawing, going on long walks, crocheting even though its slow going, lying on the floor
What is your favourite time of day? morning time!
If you could look like anything, what would you look like? dont ask me this im dysphoric and have dysmorphia and poor self image dskfjlsdkfj, this is the only body i get im trying to accept it
Are you romantic?  ooooh just a bit :)
What’s your favorite type of weather? brisk and sunny 
What do you like talking about? idk. whatever im interested in at the time if someone is willing to listen
What are your turn ons? positivity, confidence, snappy dressing, willingness to help me break into a factory farm
Turn offs? selfishness, poor listener, giving money to the farm im trying to break into
If you got a tattoo what would it be and where would you get it? as soon as the seasons over and i can stand to spend a bit on it im still going to get that homo fuge tattoo
Do you have any pets? ms puppy daisy, although she lives with my parents
Dream job? my dream job is no job
honestly if i could work on a sanctuary part time and support myself thatd be perfect. helping animals, being just physically demanding enough to be satisfying, working outside.. wouldnt that be nice. stupid capitalism :(
Dream place to live? im always embarrassed to say places like scotland bc its so cliche but a little cottage in the country would be so nice ;; also like. free healthcare????
Dream vacation? germany or the czech republic
Do you have any piercings? just the one on the ears, im thinking of getting more higher up but im more of a tattoo person
If you had kids what would you name them? i dont know i dont plan on ever needing to know lol
What are your best traits? big heart
Worsts traits? big heart
What’s your worst fear? being alone, sudden deadly illnesses
What do you want to eat right now? its literally always sushi
What’s your best vacation you’ve ever been on? it wasnt really a vacation but i really enjoyed my recent trip to washington. the mountains were so beautiful
Favourite City? idk im not a city person. i havent been to many either. savannah maybe? and even then i still have a lot of issues with it haha
Favourite social media platform? i guess tumblr since its the only one i use. but only bc every other one is so much worse
Favourite article of clothing? my big black cardigan
Do you play sports?  id rather die thanks
Favourite meal of the day? i think breakfast? im always most hungry then so its extra satisfying. and its my biggest meal. its literally what gets me out of bed lol
What are you excited for? seeing my gf in january!!! <333
Not excited for? upcoming credit card bill :(
When was the last time you cried? this morning kdjflsdjk im going through a rough bit
Dream house? i answer this all the time! some kind of cute little place in the country
What’s something you hate about the world? theres a lot dont even get me started
ill just say. some peoples inability to respect animals at all
What’s something you love about the world? when humans are extremely compassionate and caring. i really want to think most people are inherently good deep down, we just live in a world thats been. structured poorly ig
What scents do you like? rose and peach and baked bread
What kind of sleeper are you? pretty good i think overall. i have some rough streaks sometimes but usually i get a good 7 hrs. i sleep really well this time of year when its cold and i have a heated blanket so that helps a lot
Are you a cat or dog person? i used to be a dog person until i worked in kennels (i still adore dogs dont get me wrong) and now i think im just a tiny bit more of a cat person. but i love them both so so much
How long would you survive in the zombie apocalypse? ten minutes?
Are you trusting? i try to be. i trust my friends a lot
What fictional character do you identify with? oh you know
What labels do you usually get? quiet and shy 
What song would be your life anthem? honestly nothing comes to mind and im too tired to go looking for a song ;;  ill keep you posted
What issues are you dealing with right now? i have so many and cant afford a therapist and im so mad abt it!!!!
How can someone win you over? forehead kisses wrist kisses cheek kisses nose kisses neck kisses just those small nice kisses always get me <33
also yeah $5000
What’s something about you people don’t know? i think my social security number is the only thing i havent shared here at least once
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crystalninjaphoenix · 6 years ago
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One Short Day
A JSE Fanfic
Yay, I wrote something that isn’t connected to pain for once in my life! Or at least, the most you get are hints and maybe a moment. I was planning on working on something else, but...I don’t know, I just felt like I needed something softer, and I’m sure there are people who need that too. So behold, an attempt at mostly-fluff! I just wanted to write the boys having fun out on the town, simple enough ^-^
It was rare that there was a full day they could all be together. A day where Schneep wasn’t working, Chase wasn’t recording, Marvin didn’t have a show, and Jackie didn’t have to bolt off at the last minute to do heroic vigilantism. A day where they could just do whatever they wanted, all of them, together.
They met up at Jackie’s apartment building. Naturally, JJ arrived first, then Schneep and Chase at about the same time. Just when they were starting to get worried, Marvin showed up, sprinting up to the group and skidding to a halt beside them.
“Late again, I see?” Jackie said when Marvin finally caught his breath. “Maybe we should just tell you we’re meeting thirty minutes earlier than we actually are.”
“Gimme a break.” Marvin rolled his eyes. “My phone was out of battery so I couldn’t check the time, then I got distracted.”
Jackie raised an eyebrow. “With what?”
“Um...” Marvin looked away, embarrassed. “I may have started playing Plague Inc...for an hour...or more.”
“Dude. Set a timer next time or something,” Chase said. “Ask JJ if you can borrow one of his watches if you have to, I dunno, anything.”
“Enough of this, we are wasting minutes,” Schneep said, checking his own watch. “Jackie decided what to do, what is it?”
Jackie immediately brightened. “Okay, so, we all know JJ hasn’t seen much of the town.” Everyone nodded. “So I thought we could give him the grand tour! Get lunch, go to the park, and I think the fair is open tonight so we can finish with that. That good with everyone?”
“So we’re just gonna walk all over town?” Chase asked. “Only two of us can drive, and none of us have a car right now.”
“Toughen up, Chase, walking’s good for you!” Marvin teased. “Right? Schneep, you��re a doctor, tell him I’m right.”
“He’s right,” Schneep said.
“See?!”
JJ snapped his fingers for attention. I thought we were wasting time? I certainly can’t lead the way, so I’ll ask one of you to.
“Right!” Jackie started off. “C’mon guys, lunch is waiting for us!”
They ended up at a local restaurant near the center of town called Kassie’s. It was a quaint little place, and since it was a warm day they decided to sit at a table outside. The chipper waitress gave them a plate of free fries, then took their order, and headed back inside.
“Is it just me, or is it kind of hot today?” Chase asked, fanning himself with some of the napkins.
“No, it’s not just you. God, I’m dying,” Jackie agreed.
“Jackie, you are not only wearing long sleeves, you are wearing two layers of them,” Schneep pointed out with a smile.
“Oh, you’re one to talk, Mr. Sweater-all-the-time!” Jackie rolled his eyes. “What about Jays? He’s got that vest/dress shirt on.”
JJ looked aghast. You four can run around and show your arms all you like, but I’ll have you know it isn’t proper for a gentleman!
“Are you implying we aren’t gentlemen?” Marvin asked, right before tossing a fry into the air and catching it in his mouth.
JJ raised an eyebrow. Indeed.
“I don’t care, it’s hot. I’m taking this off.” With a few flailing arms, Jackie pulled his hoodie over his head and tugged it off, revealing a Marvel-themed T-shirt underneath. “Ah. That’s better.” He looked around to see the others staring at him with wide eyes. “What?”
“Holy shit, Jackie!” Chase yelled. “Your arm!”
“Wh—oh fuck I forgot I was wearing short sleeves today.” Jackie looked down at his left arm. “Yeah, okay, I got scars, you can look all you want.”
“So that’s why I’ve never seen you in T-shirts,” Marvin realized. “Jackie, what the fuck happened?”
Jackie frowned, then coughed awkwardly. “Y’know...I’d rather not talk about it right now. Maybe later. Besides, Schneep already knows the story. ‘S how we met.”
“Honestly, you three are making mountains out of mole hills,” Schneep said. “Is fine now. You should see his torso, now those are scars.”
That only made the other three look more worried. Jackie sighed. “Look, guys, we’re having a fun day. We’re gonna have fun, and not gonna get all concerned, though I do appreciate it. And you—” he glared at Schneep “—need to stop saying that, ‘cause it makes it sound like I lost some epic battle instead of just having top surgery.”
Chase and Marvin relaxed in unison. “I’m still convinced you have, I dunno, fucking bullet scars or something,” Marvin muttered as Chase pulled the remains of the fries towards him.
“Oh yeah, but Schneep’s talking about the surgery. He’s done this before, and it’s no longer funny!” Jackie looked pointedly at Schneep when saying that last part, who just responded with a massive grin.
JJ was the only one who still looked concerned, but now that was paired with confusion. He looked around at the others. What is top surgery?
You could almost hear the hiss as the others all inhaled sharply in unison. They’d all forgotten for a moment that JJ didn’t know. Schneep cleared his throat. “Jackie, would you like to explain?”
“Right yeah. God, where do I start with this?” There was a slight pause in the conversation as the waitress returned with their food. The moment she was out of earshot, Jackie started up again. “Alright, so...” he leaned forward, hands clasped together, eyes wide and nervous. “You know how I call myself Jackieboy Man, right?”
JJ nodded. A moniker I never understood, but yes.
“Well, I didn’t always call myself that. Neither did anyone else. Because, well, they all thought that...I was a, uh, girl. Even I did. For the longest time I just sort of...accepted it. I only started to figure it out in high school. I got my first job, and one of the customers called me ‘that nice lady,’ and hearing it...just sort of surprised me. Like someone gave the wrong answer to a really easy test question. So...I started thinking, and eventually I realized that I wasn’t...actually a girl. That was when I renamed myself.”
JJ didn’t look any less confused. Why would they not understand that? Wouldn’t they be able to...see that you are not?
Jackie winced. “Well, no...you see, I...fuck.” Jackie put his head in his hands, took a deep breath, then looked up again. “I was born...in the wrong body. Top surgery is...it’s to get rid of the parts I didn’t want. Are you...are you getting this now?”
After a moment, JJ’s eyes widened. He nodded hesitantly.
“Okay. Good. Great.” Jackie sighed. “I don’t know if this word existed in the twenties, but nowadays we have ‘transgender’ as...a thing. When someone is something other than what their body is born as. I’m still a he. Or, just, anything but she, really. Literally call me anything but a girl. And please, don’t ask about what my name was before. Or what’s...down there. Those questions make me...really uncomfortable.”
My good man! JJ signed. Why would I do such a rude thing? And to my dear friend, nonetheless. 
Jackie’s shoulders slumped. He leaned back in his chair and exhaled in relief. He’d been dreading this conversation, but better to rip the bandaid off now. “Thanks, man. I...appreciate your understanding.”
JJ smiled. No trouble at all, Jackie! I may not fully grasp the concept, but that’s no reason to disrespect your wishes.
“If you want, I can answer questions. Just...later. And as long as you get I don’t represent everyone who’s trans.”
JJ nodded and gave a thumbs-up. There was silence for a moment, before Chase broke it by saying “Hey, guys, I made a Jenga tower out of fries.”
Schneep rolled his eyes, and immediately knocked over Chase’s tower.
“Aw you bitch!” Chase gasped. “You didn’t even play the game right!”
“Fuck your games. Actually eat the food like it’s supposed to be.”
“You’re just jealous cause you got a salad instead.”
“Maybe I am! Did you think of that?!”
“Dude, I just said I did!”
The rest of lunch was covered in the blanket of familiar banter. Jackie smiled to himself. God, he was so glad nothing changed.
About two hours later, the boys had made their way to the southern part of the city. That was where the park was. It had an official name, but everyone just called it “the park” because there was only one of them and it was shorter. The park itself was pretty big, with trees, paths, flowerbeds, and two playgrounds at either end.
Since it was the middle of the afternoon, there were quite a few families with young children hanging around, parents watching their kids climb all over the jungle gyms and pushing them on the swings. While Marvin and Jackie walked ahead, pulling JJ with them and talking his ears off, Chase and Schneep hung back a bit. Chase was staring at the families on the playground.
“Chase? Are you okay?” Schneep asked gently. 
“Yeah...yeah, I’m fine. It’s not a down day.” Schneep gave him a Look. “No, really! It’s just...y’know, seeing all the kids kinda bums me out. You know?”
“Of course I do, Chase,” Schneep said. He was probably the only one of the boys who did. “If you are feeling upset, you can go home.”
“No! God, no, that’s not what I meant at all. This has been good so far. I don’t want it to end.” Chase frowned. “Now I’m just...man. I’m starting to lose it.”
“Chase.” Schneep grabbed his hand. “If you are not enjoying yourself, we can always go do something more quiet. We would hate to push you to do something you are not up to.”
Chase considered it for a moment, then shook his head. “Nah, it’s not too bad. It helps that you guys are here, I think. But I’ll let you know...if it gets too much.”
Schneep gave him a long look, before finally judging that everything was alright. “Okay. You have to do that, or I am going to break into your home at night and yell at you for lying.”
“Okay, okay, I get the idea,” Chase laughed. He looked down at their clasped hands. “You’re not worried people are gonna think we’re a couple, then?”
“What? Oh. Is there no such thing as regular hand-holding in this country?! Besides, it should not fucking matter. Also you are not my type anyway.”
“Yeah, you’re not mine, either. You’re a guy.” Chase and Schneep both had a good laugh at that.
Marvin looked over his shoulder at the two of them. “Are you two gonna walk fast or what?”
“Or what,” Chase said with a smirk.
“Oh, you’re hilarious. A fucking comedic genius. Hey guys!” he said that last part to Jackie and JJ. “We’re gonna slow down so these two assholes can join us.”
“Marvin, how dare you,” Schneep said, mock-offended. “At least be more creative in your insulting us.”
“No.” The two mini-groups merged together to form the main group once again. “So what’re you two talking about?”
“Chase is worried that hand-holding makes a couple,” Schneep tattled.
“Bullshit,” Marvin stated. Jackie went “yeah!” in the background. JJ frowned at the use of language, but nodded. “What makes a couple is the kissing. And romantic interest in each other, which leads to the former.”
“You say, having not been on a date in at least five months,” Jackie muttered.
“Shut your stupid face, you...lovely person.” Marvin pulled his wand out of his pocket and twirled it, like he did when he was nervous. “We’ve all been kinda busy lately.”
“Yeah...that’s true,” Jackie sighed. “But maybe if you went out more, you could find someone you could go out with. Just once, if a commitment isn’t your thing right now.”
Marvin frowned. “Why in the wide world of wingmen would I go on a date once deliberately?”
“A night of fun?” Schneep suggested.
“With a complete stranger that I have no interest in? No. I need to have some intrigue in whoever they end up being.”
“None of you are gonna get anywhere with him,” Chase said. “He doesn’t get one-night stands.”
“Damn right I don’t! There’s no point!”
And it just seems improper, JJ signed. If you aren’t going to court someone, don’t approach them at all.
“Marvin! You have an ally!” Jackie gasped. 
“Good. Finally, someone who agrees with me.” Marvin held up his hand and, after a moment of figuring out, JJ high-fived it. “Yeah! There we go, you got it!”
Jackie checked the time on his phone. “Alright, it’s starting to get a bit late. If we want to get enough time at the fair, we’re gonna have to book it to the eastern side.”
They didn’t actually run the whole way there, despite Jackie wanting to. By the time they got to the fair the sun was starting to set. They bought tickets and headed inside, where the Ferris wheel and the roller coaster towered over the smaller rides and the carnival games. It was a weekday, but it was one of the first days the fair was open, so the fairgrounds were crowded but not packed.
Chase gasped. “Games. We can do the games first.”
You do realized they’re all rigged, right? JJ asked.
“Who cares? They’re fun! Games now.”
Soon, the others started to suspect that the reason Chase was so eager to play games was because he knew he would win every time. The dude was scarily good. A combination of sheer luck, skill, and fuck-it-let’s-take-a-chance-ness led to many more victories than the others, something Marvin and Schneep immediately called him out for.
“You are cheating, I am sure of it!” Schneep huffed, folding his arms.
“Nah, just have a knack for it. And, in this case, practice.” Chase tossed one of the wooden balls back and forth while he waited for the carnival worker to hand him his prize. “Ya gotta aim for a bit above the spot where the third jug sits on top of the other two, then throw hard. It’s a bit of an arc.”
“No, you’re a cheater,” Marvin asserted, muttering darkly.
“Aw, c’mon! Here, will this make you less salty?” Chase accepted his stuffed prize from the worker, then handed it right over to Marvin. “I got it for you! You like cats.”
Marvin glared down at the plushie. “You’re lucky it has a cute face,” he said.
“See?!” Chase smiled. He was actually having a good time. It was a good change of pace from the park.
Eventually, everyone had a prize except for JJ. They were running out of games to play, but then Jackie spotted one of those ‘find the ball under the shuffling cups.’ “Hey guys, you up for that one?”
JJ brightened. I’m actually quite skilled at those!
“Well, then, let’s go!” Jackie pulled him over, the others in tow.
The carnival worker was calling out the rules of the game. “You get one, you win one of these lovely roses, you get two in a row, you win one of these tiny fellows here, and you get three in a row, you win one of these adorable penguins! Step right up, step right up!”
“Hey!” Jackie waved to get the worker’s attention. “We want to play!”
“Well then, young sirs, the rules are simple. Keep your eye on the ball, see right here, right here, it’s under the middle cup. Now watch as I take the cup this way, then that, then this and oh look at that! It’s goin’ fast, it’s goin’ fast don’t lose it don’t lose it! Now, which one is the ball under?”
Jackie was fairly sure he knew where it was, but he turned to JJ anyway. “So, which one?” he asked.
JJ bit his lip, then reached forward to point at one of the cups...only for the worker to slap his hand away. “I’m sorry sir, please don’t touch the cups. To prevent tamperin’, see? Just tell me.”
JJ looked a bit stunned at the worker’s aggressive tone. But he signed It’s under the left one.
“Excuse me?”
“He says it’s under the left one,” Marvin jumped in.
“...ah, I see.” The worker lifted up the cup to reveal the ball. “Seems you were right. Do you want to try again?”
The boys glanced uneasily between each other. The worker’s tone had dropped from the polite-carnival talk to one that was a bit...short. She was also talking much slower than she was before, drawing out the vowel sounds. “He can hear you perfectly fine,” Chase said. “He just can’t talk.”
“Mmm...I see...” The worker pursed her lips. “Do you want to try again?”
They all nodded. The worker was silent this time as she shuffled the cups, faster than before. When she stopped, she looked at Jackie. “Which one is the ball under?”
Jackie had a vague idea where, but he wasn’t sure. “JJ, do you know?”
The left one again, JJ signed, less enthusiastically.
“The left,” Jackie translated.
The worker frowned as she revealed the ball under the left cup. “You boys aren’t cheating, are you? Those weird gestures seem like symbols.”
Marvin laughed bitterly. “Yeah, they’re symbols alright. They stand for words. Do you not know how sign language fucking works? He’s telling us the answers ‘cause he’s the best one at it. Now let’s do this one more time.”
The worker shuffled the cups impossibly fast. Once more, she asked Jackie where the ball was. This time, he had no idea, and just looked at JJ. JJ, in turn, stiffened a bit, eyes hardening. It’s under the right one, though I wouldn’t put it past her to sneak it up her sleeve.
“Right,” all the boys said in unison.
The worker reluctantly lifted up the rightmost cup to show the ball sitting underneath. “Congratulations,” she said dully. “You win one of the big prizes. What color do you want?”
Turquoise, JJ signed. “Turquoise,” Jackie translated.
They walked away from the booth in silence. After a few moments of walking, Marvin said, “I could totally put a curse on her.”
“No,” Jackie said firmly.
“Just one little spell. She can lose her voice for a week.”
JJ shook his head, then tucked his prize under his arm so he could use his hands to sign. Revenge is never the best answer. 
“It’s what she deserves!” Marvin snarled. “She was making that difficult on purpose. I saw her, she was going much slower with the customers before us. JJ, I’m so absolutely sorry on her behalf, cause god knows she’s not gonna fucking apologize.”
It’s okay, JJ insisted. Believe it or not, I’ve faced worse, especially in my day. They were much less friendly back then.
“I am sure you are not using that word in the correct meaning,” Schneep mumbled.
Marvin shoved his hand into the pocket containing his wand. “One hex. Come on. Just one. I won’t even make her ears fall off or anything.”
Everyone refused to let Marvin curse the carnival worker, and he reluctantly relented. At this point, they’d finished with the games, and all that was left were the rides. They took turns, one or two of them sitting out to watch the accumulated prizes while the others spun and flew and then stumbled off the rides. After trying most of the rides out, they took a snack break for ice cream and cotton candy.
“I think the Ferris wheel is the only one left,” Jackie said. “Unless we want to catch that sideshow thing. There’s supposed to be magicians—”
“Fake,” Marvin interrupted.
“—clowns, animals, and they advertised a knife-thrower—”
Schneep nearly choked on his ice cream. “No.”
“Okay, got it. No show then.” Jackie nodded. “But I’m not too sure about the Ferris wheel. I know at least one of us is afraid of heights.”
“Yeah, uh, me.” Chase bit his lip. “But I think I’ll be fine if I don’t look over the edge. Unless someone else doesn’t want to go on it, then I’ll stay off with them.”
“I’m good,” Jackie said. “Schneep? Marv? Either of you scared of heights?” Both of them shook their heads. “Alright. JJ?”
JJ signed, A bit, but after all these dizzy rides, I’ll take something calm like the Ferris wheel, if you please.
“Alright. Guess we’re going on the wheel, then!”
Night had truly fallen by this point. The Ferris wheel wasn’t exceptionally tall, but it still rose above everything else in the fair, providing a fantastic view of the colored lights below. Instead of having the traditional two-person seats, this wheel had booths that could fit up to eight people, so all the boys fit into one just fine. The wheel turned, and the booth turned with it. Chase squirmed, resolutely not looking over the side. Jackie and Marvin did the exact opposite, practically leaning out of the booth to look down below.
JJ tapped Schneep, signing something real quick. Schneep nodded, then yelled “Can you two stop that?! You are going to fall out of the fucking side, and you are making Jamie nervous.”
“Oh, sorry.” Jackie sat back down.
“Aww,” Marvin groaned, but pulled back into his seat. “I hope you know I do this for you, JJ.”
JJ smiled. Thank you, it’s appreciated. And I’m sure your body feels the same way, having narrowly avoided a fall to great injury.
“Nah, I would’ve been fine.”
The wheel stopped. Their booth was right at the top. “Oh, fuck,” Chase muttered, covering his eyes with his hands.
“You know, you didn’t have to come,” Jackie said quietly. “We would’ve been alright letting you stay down on the ground.”
Chase peeked between his hands. “I know. But...it’s really nice up here. Quiet. And with just you guys. As long as I ignore the distance from the ground, I’m good. You’re my friends, you know, and you make everything better.”
“Oh, Chase,” Marvin gasped. “That’s...really sweet!”
“What? Didn’t think we where friends?”
“It’s...always nice to be reminded.” Marvin smiled softly.
Well then consider this your reminder, Marvin! JJ wiggled his mustache happily. I consider you all my friends, maybe even family. You are all wonderful people and I love having you in my life!
“Nooo, stop.” It was hard to see in the dark, only lit up by the lightbulbs on the Ferris wheel, but it was possible that Marvin was actually blushing.
“You know what? I love you guys.” Jackie grinned. “Not afraid to admit it! Best friends I’ve ever had.”
Schneep cleared his throat. “Yes, I feel the same. You are all great people, and I am fortunate to have met you. I...love you as well.”
“Aaaahck!” Marvin appeared to be trying to fold into himself. “Too much love! Fatality!”
Chase chuckled. “Marvin! Accept our love!”
We love you, Marvin! JJ signed eagerly. Now you have to say it back!
Marvin made a strange sort of groaning exhale before inhaling deeply, calming down. “Yeah...I—I love you guys too. God, I love you guys so much. You should all know that.”
“There we go!” Jackie said, triumphant. “Marvin, you are, truly, the emotionally constipated one. And I thought Schneep was the worst.”
“Excuse me?!” Schneep gasped. “I assure you I am very love-sharing. I just do not use words too much because they are complicated.”
“Understandable,” Chase shrugged. “I can barely speak half the time, and I was born in English.”
I thought you were born in Ireland, JJ signed, amused.
“Oh, you know what I mean!”
The Ferris wheel started lowering, stopping and starting as it let passengers off. The boys stepped out of the booth and onto land once again.
JJ yawned. I must say that I’m rather tired after all this. I think it’s time we go home.
“Yeah, I’m starting to feel it,” Jackie agreed.
“You all are weak!” Marvin countered. “I’m good for another couple hours.”
“Watch you crash immediately upon entering your room,” Chase laughed.
“Oh, shut up.”
“I think JJ is right,” Jackie said. “It’s time to go home.”
Schneep nodded. “Yes, I could stay up longer, but I have morning shift tomorrow so I should not push my luck. I will see you all later?”
“Oh yeah.”
“Course, dude!”
“Definitely.”
Count on it!
With that, they left the fair. Eventually they split up, each heading their own separate ways until they eventually got to wherever they were staying that night. Some went to sleep immediately, some stayed up a bit later, but eventually they all went to bed.
And when they decided to do it, none of them had trouble for once.
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justaramblingromantic · 6 years ago
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fail better
Characters/Pairing: Kobayashi Rindou and Tsukasa Eishi/EiRin
Type: Canon-divergent AU, Post-series, Peerless-verse, Freestyle
Word Count: 2277
A/N #01: Ever read something so stupid that at the end of it all, you can almost literally feel the double negative ‘dislike’ interaction sign from The Sims forming right over your head? That was exactly my feeling after I read the nonsense that was chapter 296. Actually, my feeling was so strong it singlehandedly fueled my motivation to write this piece in one sitting, haha. What the effing heck, Tsukuda. 
A/N #02: Title derived by Samuel Beckett’s quote: “Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.”
xXxXxXxXxX
Hours after the conclusion of his round of the tournament, he was back in the still quiet of his hotel room, staring down at the empty text screen of his phone, wondering what to write to properly convey his conflicted feelings at the moment. He found himself stuck for the longest time, because the other person who had all but wrung a promise out of him for consistent updates of his progress would not appreciate it in the least if he was insincere or dishonest with her and, most importantly, himself.
And she would know intrinsically too, much to his chagrin.
He did not have to struggle futilely for the whole night, because as if aware of his mounting difficulties…or perhaps just plain exasperated with his indecisive dithering, the smart device in his hand vibrated impatiently with an incoming call, and the name that popped up on his Caller ID was both a comforting and sobering sight at the same time.
He picked up, of course. After a brief, hesitating pause. Mentally steeling himself, because it was…difficult not to be swept away by that surge of self-critical disappointment all over again.  
“…Hello.”
“Yo.”
In hindsight, he did not know what he was even feeling so anxious about. Just hearing that one word, just hearing that familiar voice filtered through the speaker from the other end, already possessed the miraculous effect of easing the stiff tension that had grown unbidden between his shoulders, bearing down on him like a heavy weight that entire day. He sighed her name.
“Rindou.”
There was some crinkling to be heard in ambient surroundings, as if she was snacking on something while on the phone with him at the same time. That casual familiarity soothed his nerves, because it was just like her to be so relaxed and comfortable around him. Before the conversation could lull and grow tense and awkward, she nonchalantly continued.
“I heard you got your ass handed to you today, Tsukasa~” his impish best friend all but singsonged.
Instead of feeling sorry and regretful over his loss, the woman actually sounded indecently gleeful instead. Even if he wanted to, it was hard to remain down in the doldrums when she was like this. He grew exasperated, remembering that sometimes she was the kind who liked to poke at people’s bruises, just to hear them yell.
“…You don’t beat around the bush, do you?” he deadpanned.
“Why should I?” she retorted between munches. “D’ya know how many texts I got this afternoon alone reporting your defeat to that Saiha dude? I practically received multiple blow-by-blow accounts, and they sent videos too; at least five different viewing angles of you getting your ass handed to you-”
Now, he was just plain mortified, never mind feeling sorry for himself.  
“What. Who texted you?” he demanded to know, flustered that she had to learn about it from other people instead of straight from him. His cheeks warmed in pique. “Why are people texting you anyway to tell you those things.”
“Yeah, I wonder why,” she replied in a tone that implied she didn’t even have to wonder at all. Their closeness wasn’t exactly a big secret to those who knew them in Tootsuki.
“Where are you now, anyway?” she changed the subject blithely. “Moping about in your room?”
“I’m not moping,” he spluttered in denial. Sure, he was feeling a bit morose and out of sorts, but that was because there was nothing to do since he no longer had to prepare for the next stage of the competition! Furthermore and strangely enough, his defeat today had not felt as crushingly overwhelming as that time in the aftermath of the Regiment Shokugeki. And more importantly- “Next time, wait patiently for my texts instead of listening to the gossips of other people.”
“Then text me quicker next time-”
A knock on the door had him distracted, and he got up to answer it, phone still cradled to his ear.
“-I thought you got so depressed you decided to commit seppuku with that long-assed nail file of yours. Hola~!”
He opened the door…and there she was, standing at the entrance, her digitally modulated reply abruptly becoming clear and distinct in real time. She was bright eyed and smirking at him,  just so irrepressibly buoyant it was as if she was a ray of sunshine herself.
Eishi blinked owlishly in surprise. “You are…here.” He quickly snapped out of his brief stupor. “Wait. What are you doing here?”
She brushed past him to get into his room. “Ta-da~ I came to offer my bosom for you to cry on, of course!”
He shut the door and turned to her, a funny look crossing his face, still half in disbelief…because she was supposed to be in Barcelona right now.
She looked like she had just stepped off a flight, and she had come bearing consolation gifts, too. “Look what I bought on the way here!” She swiveled to him and raised the plastic bags that she was holding. “Fried chicken and cheap beer are the best things to fix a broken heart!”
“My heart is not broken,” he retorted, nonplussed by her shining enthusiasm to bring light to his dark and tortured soul. “And will you put those drinks away; we’re still underaged.”
“Boo; you’re so straitlaced! What’s a bit of underaged drinking gonna do? We’d be twenty in a year or so, anyway! Live a little!”
And then she promptly proceeded to make a mess in his otherwise previously tidy accommodation. Her sneakers were kicked haphazardly aside, she dumped her bag unceremoniously on the floor in the middle of the room, and with whirlwind efficacy, she soon had the food and drinks laid out on the dressing table. Popping a crispy piece of chicken, deep fried to golden brown perfection, into her mouth, she pulled out a chilled can of beer from the six pack, bought right off a nearby conbini, cracked it open, brought it right to her lips and drank deep. She exhaled gustily with happiness, eyes squeezed shut with contentment, a look of comical satisfaction flitting across her rosy face.  
“Hell yeah, this is the best~!”
The redhead popped open another can of beer, and she pushed it to him. “Don’t just stand there! Come join me, dummy.”
Eishi was reluctant at first, but as she handed him the choicest bits of chicken on a paper plate and then started to dig into her own share with zeal, he realized belatedly that he was hungry, too. How she miraculously knew that he hadn’t had dinner yet was a mystery; he had been preoccupied and had somehow forgotten all about eating in the process. He took refreshing sips of ice-cold beer in between succulent bites of crisp, precisely battered chicken; she was right, there was a certain epicurean pleasure to be had from this combination. His mind was already automatically deconstructing the dish, gauging the type of ingredients and their exact quantity, speculating on the various steps of preparation, how hot the temperature of the frying oil had to be-
She snorted at his distracted demeanor as they dawdled over the meal. “You’re such a nerd, I swear.”  
He snapped out of his thoughts to stare at her. She snickered.
“Feel better now?”
He continued to stare.
“Wanna walk me through how your bout went?” Her golden eyes gleamed. “Or maybe I should tell you how I think it went as related to me by my secret sources?”
“No, thank you-”
He obligingly spilled, not wanting to hear of the embarrassing accounts as witnessed by whoever had spied on him for her. Besides, she was someone who actually appreciated the finer nuances of his cooking style and methodology, even when others would have been bored to tears by all that incredibly dry, technical talk. She paid rapt attention, her eyes trained unwaveringly on him as he spoke about the dish he came up with, and objectively as well of the one that had eventually defeated him.
Rindou was intrigued.
“Huh. Sounds like you had quite a bit of fun out there.”
International competitions like The Blue were really on another level altogether. She also wondered how they were able to dredge up so much crazy every year just to stuff into one event.  
“I wouldn’t exactly call it ‘fun,’” Eishi muttered under his breath.
There was an annoying soreness just lying under the skin and muscles of his chest, growing more and more aggravating as time passed after that battle with Saiba Asahi, and downright impossible to ignore however he tried. It was a gripping feeling that he had not experienced in quite a long time. It felt like a muted rage, a festering, humiliating wound in his heart that had been dealt by the hand of his opponent.
“He claimed my knife in light of my loss,” he finally admitted his shame.
It was now or never, and he refused to lie. Not to her. Never, to her.
For one moment, the air around her stilled.
And then her eyes glowed bright with fury.
For all that some people always said of his selfishness and arrogance, even he had never stooped so low as to steal the precious knives of another chef, their livelihood, the very source of their pride. Everything that he had, he had painstakingly squeezed out of his own talents, refusing to rely or even lean on the abilities of others, because there was simply no honor or pride to be had for that kind of tainted victory. But such distasteful practice was not entirely unheard of, nor was it illegal or wrong. Life in the kitchen could be cutthroat and fast paced where all sorts of characters lurked; those who could not take the heat simply had no place there, regardless of how good or skilled they were.
Then again, Tsukasa had never been the kind to break easily.
“What an unpleasant punk,” Rindou uttered flatly, stiffly.
He said nothing to that, but somehow, he felt lighter, because here she was, absolutely furious on his behalf.
“Which blade did he take?”
He knew she was going to laugh. “…The one…you nicknamed ‘the long-assed nail file,’” he responded slowly, after a reluctant pause.
He was absolutely right; she snort-giggled into her beer. That heavy tension in the atmosphere promptly dissolved, and miraculously along with it, his paralyzing sense of disgrace. “Pffft. Of all the- That one?? Eh, I s��pose there’s really no accounting for taste, is there?”
Eishi sent her a disgruntled look, visibly put out by her reaction. “Enough, you. I actually liked that blade.”  
She relaxed at his mild censure. He was calmer now, less tense, less brittle. In turn, that pleased her, too. She took another sip of her beer, already on her second can.
“So make an even better one, then. In the first place, you haven’t even fully developed that technique yet with how recently you came up with it,” she pointed out.
He drank to that, too. “I intend to.” There was a firmness in his quiet reply, an unshakable resolve that hardened his usually distant, lavender gaze, as he retreated to a place within himself that would not allow him to give up until he had achieved what he sought to.
She eyed him silently over the rim of her drink. That look of relentless, dogged determination was something that she hadn’t seen on him for a long time.
“…You really are having fun with this,” she observed once more with insistence, her lips twitching up in a delighted smile.
“It’s not fun,” he promptly corrected her. “It’s…frustrating.”
“But at least it’s not boring anymore, right?” She nudged him knowingly. He sighed and looked down at her plainly amused expression. She wasn’t going to give up until he admitted it, was she? He really did not know how she did it; there was not one word of consolation offered over his defeat, but still she made him feel so much better, all the same.
“…No. It’s not boring anymore,” he acknowledged. He was simmering, seething quietly beneath that deceptively calm, tranquil façade of his. “I actually feel…quite displeased,” he admitted, frowning slightly and looking quite out of sorts with himself.
She snorted, once again, at the understatement. He was really terrible at expressing anger. She reached up and petted his head for trying his best, all the same. “There, there. Let it all out. You want Rindou onee-chan to give you a hug too? Not to blow my own trumpet, but my hugs are seriously the best.”
He stared at her shamelessly bragging. Or maybe not, since he knew from experience that her hugs were seriously the best indeed, as advertised.
“Okay,” he agreed readily to her half joking offer. Perhaps it was the beer that relaxed his inhibitions, for he briefly studied her where she was sitting beside him, and then, without hesitation, he reached out, grabbed her around her middle, and half tugged, half lifted her onto his lap. She paused in surprise at his spontaneity, but before anything else could be said, he folded his arms around her and gently nested her against himself. He pressed his face into crimson fragrance of her hair and inhaled, sighing at her warmth and softness.
“…I’m glad you came,” he told her truthfully. It made him feel sleepy too, tension dissipating, and weariness rushing to the forefront in the face of this simple, reassuring contentment that was Rindou.  
Her gaze softened. Her arms curled lazily around him in return, and she snuggled up to her best friend.
“Mm. You worked hard today, Tsukasa. Well done-”
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cleaduvalls · 5 years ago
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i watched all 20 episodes of "spy kids: mission critical" twice in about a week and here are my thoughts (pt 1/5)
these will be divided into 4 episodes per post so they stay about the same length as one spy kids movie
1.1
no theme song. :/
wow specific location
wow. we love lying to our spouses
greg actually kind of sounds like greg??? like ingrids not right in the slightest but greg sounds like greg
oh yeah i call him greg instead of gregorio bc thats Too Many Syllables
i dunno id rather go on an adventure
oh!!!!! ingrids hair!!!!! cute
they look like friggin iron knuckles from cadence of hyrule
how do you..... classify a move
also why would they teach agents to counter a move that they also taught the agents
dont you mean SWAT
is that tom kenny?????
thats not carmen. i dont care WHAT you say. thats not carmen
shes 14???
since when can he build???
since when do they LIVE at the oss?????
thats a ball. not a blob
oh mood
juni your voice is so squeaky
Every Villain Is Lemons
is this a separate universe????? we already know about the third brain program. and you cant claim that people havent seen the movies cuz theyre ALSO on netflix
the experiment wasnt FUTILE it actually went really well. yall are just cowards
you can destroy gold???? like its not DIAMOND
ew
did golden brain go through childhood??? or did he just.... spawn as an adult????
alliteration
take a wild guess carmen
why are you wearing jeans in the DESERT????
"sis"??? who says that
oh boy fart jokes already
little brothers, cuz youre younger, were related, and youre boys
did you mutate the agents too?????
oh i feel you juni
oh boy butt jokes
carmen youre 14. where im from you COULD have a job at certain places
is he... gonna kill them?????
oh!!!! the mimicking is back!!!
theres no way you had taco butte in the last 5 minutes
teenagers?????? the franchise is spy KIDS get it right
there SHOULD be, yall are licensed spy kids
roll credits
juni stop trying to be a lone wolf it never works youve seen all 4 spy kids
i want to be her
are you.... knighted?????? or are you just british
hes like 11 what do you expect from him
ahavschaj acemate
carmens FACE she looks HIGH
finger guns???? hes bi
THUMB THUMB!!!!!!!
TOM thumb thumb!!!!!!
F L O O P!!!!!!!!!
nvm i want to be HER
im sorry how the H*CK did you just say fegan???????????
piercings!!!!!
and i OOP-
aztec???? bc the aztec death spiral??? nice
maybe im a little biased bc floop but shes my favorite
why are the parents here
who calls it a cuddle bear?????? its a teddy bear what are yall on
oh i love carmens socks
i gotta say im living for goldies aesthetic
haha coward
to be fair hes from the outback, they have friggin emus. those things are creepy
:0 sneaky
nice timing
1.2
wow ig there really is no theme song :(
how can he sleep with a TEACUP
i think at some point youd just... fall asleep????
wow big flex
and i OOP-
scorpions so mean i love her
for like 3 seconds that animation looked like a friggin barbie movie
i thought thumb thumbs couldnt hold things???? like thats their whole point
did she hang up on them?????
when your mom said she wouldnt get mad if you tell the truth so you tell the truth and she still gets mad
K A N Y E?????????
oh no they all have died
drowning a chainsaw????????
PLENTY OF PEOPLE
my parents whenever im tired
did you not hear her name shes clearly immortal
me
stop yelling
at that point he shoudknt have even been able to drink the milk
why are the spotlights on carmen
*2 hours later*
dont put the phone on the desk????? have you not have a teacher give you detention for that????? i have
i think its pretty obvious what he was dreaming about
in the subtitles the u has the dots but hes not pronouncing it right. it should be more "keurp-ka-kay", not just "coop-ka-kay"
everyone has weird dreams????? step off ace
class lasted for 5 minutes wtf
do the three of them share a phone???? thats what it says in her contacts
ok visage thats a little too far
i hate this dude so much
visage shes allowed to be on her phone shes not in class
psi???? like earthbound????
😔
theyre not wrong
STOP YELLING
thats?? not possible?????? youre just weak
why are you saying that out loud
dude stop im dying of second hand embarrassment
wait the sign with the transcribed words doesnt have the ü. so how he pronounced it WAS right they just messed up the subtitles
i thought there was only ONE of its kind why do they EACH have one?????
why did so many people lose????? it seems pretty straightforward
also i love her ringtone
is that tom kenny again??????
thats.... not how it works
he should not have made that
so the big reveal is that it was his mom, but how does he know shes a cortez now?????? she was avellan at that point
take a wild guess
spurious??????? why are you using his first name
i dont???? think you can????????
1.3
the beats pretty good, im tapping my feet
i love his voice
thats not disco thats TECHNO
actually discos probably right. hes german and in germany clubs are called diskos. the music hes playing is pretty clubby, therefore it would be disco
she has spotify premium???? nice
ooooh scorpion has bed curtains!!!!
why do both cortezes have the floor bed???
how can juni hear aces music???? did his headphones get unplugged????? is it just super loud?????
sounds more like kids music than folk music
HOLY CRAP HES LISTENING TO THE WIGGLES (no offense to the wiggles)
yes hes a heavy sleeper we discussed this last time
he has a bazooka you might wanna run
"carmen is not here" me too carmen, me too
glitch chill
oh yay piss jokes
how does so much stuff come out on the floss
she was asleep???????? take it easy glitch
creative name
also the music sounds like it came right out of cadence of hyrule??????? which could be possible bc the girl who voices glitch also voiced link
glitch its clearly a virus
carmen you can go, psi can handle this
hes so protective of his records im dying
BAHAHA she said "worm?" and ofc my dumb ass thought she meant worm as in "oh worm?"
1.4
i had a whole bunch but tumbr decided to delete it and i dont wanna rewrite it so we missed the last 4 minutes of 1.3 and the first 8 of 1.4, sorryyy
it doesnt matter anyway no ones gonna read this
this whole point system was in the fourth movie, get some new plot points
is that really a good idea carmen???
throwback to when i was a kid and wanted to learn australian
oh no they died
JUNI NO YOU SAID IN THE THIRD MOVIE TO N E V E R SPLIT UP
sheilas a great name shut up
listen i see mirages all the time in the summer but how do you see a fake building???? its always a puddle of water
yeah the outback STEAKHOUSE
you sound like youre on crack
oh no he died
one time i ate a bug bc i thought it was some leftover dorito i had stuck in my teeth
hes pretty good at shelters, did you not see the second spy kids???
hey he calles him juni!!!
s n e a k y
what even is heat rash?????
STOP YELLING
nice STEALTH you tell him he has nice STEALTH
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matrixaffiliate · 6 years ago
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Like the Storybooks
Co-written with @hufflepuffmarlenemckinnon​
FFN and AO3
(sorry everyone, my internet died as I was trying to post this)
Chapter 20
Sirius, as matter of habit, rose with the sun. He was already, to some extent, aware that Marlene did not. She would have to be woken by a lady’s maid in order to be on time for breakfast. But on that first day of their secret marriage, Sirius stayed in bed with the sleeping princess and just took in the sight of her. She’d cast off her shift entirely nearly as soon as her inner chamber door was shut behind them and hadn’t found instance in the interim to reclothe herself.
Though he’d certainly seen representation of the nude female form in paintings and sculptures, but this was a new experience. He had not expected that his life would include an extremely undressed heartbreakingly beautiful woman lying sleeping next to him. The the new day’s light peeked through the bed curtain, reflecting off her hair like a halo. He silently thanked the lord that his new wife slept deeply and well into the morning. The look on his face was probably worthy of all the ribbing he would take from the king and then some. But he couldn’t help it. He’d always contended that a princess like this should not, by all logic, have been a real person. He had only become more sure of this as he fell in love with the woman. He pulled her into his arms and kissed the top of her sleeping head.
She stirred. Little sounds escaped from her perfect mouth but none of them came together into anything that Sirius understood as language.
“Good Morrow, My Princess.”
Though he’d intended to remind her that they were meant to tell the king and queen about their marriage and beg their blessings, he forgot all about it as Marlene’s mouth found his.
The couple were not in attendance at breakfast that morning.
After a truly mortifying experience involving the Lady’s maid, Emmeline, Sirius was quite glad to be clothed and above suspicion that afternoon.
Eventually the opportunity presented itself for himself and Marlene to speak privately with the King and Queen.
After they’d made a show of propriety for lookers on, and were well out of earshot, Marlene took no prisoners in the endeavor.
“We’ve entered into a precontracted marriage. I assumed you’d be pleased with the match. It was rather late into the evening when the discussion came to pass, you see. Waiting until morning to beg your permission seemed both unnecessary and vexsom.” She was fearless in such a way that set Sirius’s pulse racing. The walls he’d carefully constructed around parts of his mind had come crashing down all at once and only hours ago. He was still adjusting to the fact he didn’t just love her; he was allowed to desire her. The whole thing was very distracting, to say the least.
James’s face was truly a sight as he took in the statement his cousin had matter of factly dolled out. He cycled through confusion to shock, onto mild disgust and finally to amusement. Sirius could have predicted the exact responses, but they were quite a lot of fun to watch, regardless.
“You broke through my knight’s chastity belt? I thought he had it soldered on.”
“Marriage tends to be the key to such things.” Marlene smirked at the King and then winked at the Queen who chuckled.
Sirius still had not said said anything up to that point. He’d expected that the king would make some sort of crack about the concept of chastity. He’d been a little too loud in his defense of the virtue being ideal in a knight for this to have gone any other way. It did not stop his face from heating up with embarrassment. Why did this have to be discussed? Couldn’t they just… talk of war or something? Surely they had enough battles to plan that this was all very silly?
He chided himself that he’d rather plan the demise of his own family, where good men would surely die, than tolerate a little embarrassment. Marlene, surely did not seem embarrassed in the least. She seemed quite pleased with herself.
Sirius no longer wanted to think about war, all he could think of was how very difficult this secret would be to keep. It was a battle unto itself to refrain from touching her.
“Am I to understand your mild insults as your blessings upon our union?” Sirius smirked, tearing his eyes away from his wife to meet his dearest friend and sovereign eye to eye.
“Yes many blessings and all that. But it’s not going to be popular with… nearly anyone… so I hope you have some sort of plan.” James turned to Marlene with a pained expression.
“I always have a plan, cousin.” Marlene rolled her eyes with a huff and Sirius restrained from kissing her as her eyes flashed dangerously. “You knew my mother. I’m ashamed you had any doubt.”
“I had no plan. Largely, I just do what her Grace tells me.” Sirius admitted, chuckling as Marlene regained her temper.
“Well that sounds like the start of a long and happy marriage to me. What’s the plan, your Grace?” Queen Lily’s warm smile reassured Sirius that he hadn’t stepped on any royal toes in making this rather hasty decision.
“It’s best if we keep our union a secret from the court until my husband returns to me a Duke.” Marlene moved to take Sirius’ arm and smiled at her own jest. She was making it very hard not to kiss her, and by the look on her face she knew it.
“Your instincts are good, cousin. I hope that you’ll advise me someday when the Chief Minister has decided she’s had quite enough. Though I am concerned that there will be rather glaring evidence of your marriage before we are able to take Semprapuria, at least with the current plan in place.” James looked pointedly at Marlene.
Sirius didn’t quite understand. Everyone was already meant to think that they were in love. What evidence could be so glaring that the whole court would become suspicious that the affair was more than courtly in nature? Before he put it together in his head, Marlene's voice chimed in.
“Worry about the fruitfulness of your own marriage cousin. Leave me to mine. I have contingencies worked out, in any case.”
James rolled his eyes, “Of course you do.”
Sirius could have kicked himself. He’d been rather preoccupied and had somehow failed to consider the fact that Marlene could be with child.
“Your Majesties,” Sirius heard the stilted formal tone to his own voice and nearly cringed. “Do we have your leave to go to Father Hagrid? I’d prefer we get this in the church records so there will be no questions as to the honor of the Princess.”
“My husband and I are of one mind. Is Father Hagrid a trustworthy holy man?”
“He’s been my confessor since I was 15. I trust him with my life” James answered without hesitation.
“Very well then. There’s no time like now.” Marlene looked up and nodded.
Sirius was very happy, in this instance, to follow the Princess’s lead.
Sirius pulled his boots off as he sat down on Marlene's - their - bed, and sighed contentedly.
“I’m so glad that everyone protested my idea to marry you off just after you arrived.”
Sometimes words just happened to Sirius. This was clearly one of those times. Though his statement was entirely true the look on Marlene’s beautiful face as she reacted was proof that they’d been completely inadvisable.
“You… what? You wanted to marry me off? This was never brought to my attention! Explain yourself, Sir!” Her attempt to look very angry was admirable. But there was still a hint of laughter in her eyes as she chided him, and standing there in her underskirt completely undermined her faux chagrin.
“Don’t look at me like that!” Sirius smiled and stood to walk up to her. “It wasn’t some wicked plot and it was to my own brother!”
“Well believe it or not that does not make it sound any better from my perspective.” Marlene's face became wide with shock. “In fact it makes it a sight more nauseating.”
“Oh come on, Marly…” He wrapped an arm around her waist and slid the other hand along her cheek. “All I knew about you was that you were the strangest lady I’d ever met and you considered me the most handsome gentleman at court.” He smirked down at her. “It seemed like a kindness to marry you to a man who bares a strong resemblance. I wasn’t aware that you’d only have the genuine article.”
“You are quite lucky Sir,” Marlene snaked her arms around his neck and Sirius knew he was in the clear, “that you are so very handsome. I don’t generally think I’d be over fond of the touch of a man who wanted to have me as his sister in law.” She rolled her vivid blue eyes. Her bitten lips curled themselves just so, into a most captivating smile. Sirius pulled her closer. The look in her eyes was fast becoming addictive. He lifted her shift from the bottom to tease soft caresses up the outside of her thigh.
“Well it does appear that I am lucky then. Because you seem more than a little fond of my touch.”
She only nodded and took in a sharp breath. Her eyes were so full of want as he brought his lips to hers. When she practically melted into his kiss, he knew that he was more than lucky.
They couldn’t have been asleep for long when a messenger burst into the Princess’s chambers. This was highly irregular. Therefore Sirius had to assume someone was there to harm Marlene and prepare to defend her with his own life… while completely naked. He’d always thought he’d die with a sword in his hand, but he’d not pictured it quite like this. Life had taken a turn for the strange when Princess Marlene came to live at court.
“I am not here to do anyone harm! I’m just a messenger!” The man cowered as Sirius pinned him against the wall, sword at his throat. “Lady McGonagall sent me to collect Sir Sirius! She says it’s… about your family? That’s all I know. I promise. Please lower your sword and… put on some clothing?” He said the last of his plea in a hushed voice.
“If you even think about saying anything about this you will regret it for the rest of your life, do you understand?” Marlene interjected in a disconcertingly threatening voice for a woman who had been screaming bloody murder not a moment ago. Though she was still standing naked as the day of her birth, she held herself with such authority that she might have been wearing her cousin's own crown.
There was no time to think. Sirius’s head was spinning as he quickly dressed and, since there was no going back from this in any case kissed his wife goodbye as he followed the messenger. He was sure whatever news awaited him was grim.
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movedtoprsmise · 6 years ago
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180906 LY Tour: D-4
this is gonna be really long, feel free to ignore! it’s mainly for myself!
my friend and i got to la on wednesday (9/5) the day before our concert and lined up at about 7:30 pm to set up camp. we had small folding chairs and 2 blankets, a cooler, our bags of clothes, and a bag of extra snacks. not too long after arriving, 2 girls came down the line to give us our numbers (which they wrote on our hands) and to write our names and numbers in their notebook. i was number 382. the girl behind us in line arrived at the same time and was really cool and experienced with kpop concerts and told us what kind of things to expect and stuff. we were really thankful for her lmao. i still had a cold and i called my parents to bring me some cold medicine as well as some sweaters for me and my friend because it got cold pretty fast and we were not dressed for that weather at all. for a few hours we just sat and talked with the girl and she told us about how she saw SHINee and all these other groups. at 12 am we tried for an hour to sleep but to no avail.
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some more time passed and it continued to get colder and girls continued to pull up in cars to go and line up at the back. our spot in line was a cockroach attraction and idk how many times my friend and i threw our blankets off to stand up because of roaches. the korean lady next to us in line took bug spray out and tried to help us a bunch. she was rly sweet and cute. at 2 am i had to pee so we walked to the bathroom everyone was using which was decently far away and on the way back we saw girls doing choreo out in the blocked off street to pass time. it was really cute and i wanted to join but i was too shy ndkfndnd. it was rly crackhead hours tho. anyone who wasnt asleep was losing their minds bc we hadnt slept and we knew we were gonna be awake for a long long time. couple more hours passed and my friend and i managed to sleep for 10-45 minutes sometime between 4 and 5 am. we forced ourselves to drink some small protein drinks and then when the sun came up at 6 am, some workers showed up in trucks and began building a fence around us campers. we guessed it was to block us off from the streets
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a few more hours passed of trying to squeeze some more sleep in and failing to do so. at 9 am we walked to the bathroom to get dressed because it was getting really close to wristband time and i forgot to take my toothbrush, makeup and deodorant to the bathroom with me and ended up having to do it all in line which was a tad embarrassing but it was fine. then near 10 am the line suddenly began to pack up and move forward and we panicked bc we had too much stuff and the mini-cooler was rather heavy. we made it really far up in line before my parents showed up to pick the stuff up. but it was reallyreally hard to get the stuff to a place where they would be able to pick it up. we had to ask the girl behind us to hold our spot while we carried everything down the line and across the street to where my parents could easily pull over and grab it up. that was extremely hard. then complications happened with the line where people had crowded to the front of the line, making a mess to where the staff couldnt bring us in.
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so, a girl came down the line to tell us all to move back in order to make room at the front of the line, all the while groups of girls were being sent to the back of the line for crowding and the rest of us were able to move into a more orderly line.
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at 10:30 they began pulling us in 10 people at a time to line up for our wristbands! once we got in we were put into this metal fencing where we waited as they handed out our ga wristbands that had our numbers on them.
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because of the crowding that had happened, my number was now 410. after getting our wristbands it was about and we were allowed to leave and told to come back at 4:30 pm to form the official line. so we went to get our merch which had a line that wrapped around the block and we waited in that line for about 3 hours, which sucked. it was hot and the line was ridiculously long and i kept squatting in line to stretch my back out and to give my feet a break. my friend looked like she wanted to die in that line ndjdndn. once we finally got our merch, i gave up on going to the bts studio bc i didnt wanna wait in another line.
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(i bought the jimin premium photo, the jimin picket, and the tour jacket 😣💓)
i called my parents and had them pick us up and take us to our hotel so we could get some sleep in before the concert. we slept until 2:45, woke up, picked up food, and then went back to staples to sit and eat on the ground somewhere before going to the ga line again. at 4:30 they let us all in and called up groups of 100 at a time based on numbers (ex: “numbers 1-100 line up” and got us situated in numerical order.
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everyone 500 and under had to wait for us before they could start lining up. we sat in that line for about 2 hrs while soundcheck went in and came back out. and as 6 pm came closer a security guard kept messing with us by announcing how many minutes were left before we’d be allowed inside and we’d scream every time djkddnjdj. they finally began letting us in and we had to line up at different doors with metal detectors and get our bags checked. the girl in front of me in line was told to put her pride flag in her bag because it was too big to hold up at the show /: then we crossed to a table where we got our entrance wristbands and we flocked into the venue to secure our spots on the GA floor. we had to stand there for 2 hours until showtime and it was so painful bc our feet and backs were killing us after standing for nearly the entire day but the bts mv’s they played made it a little easier as the venue filled up around us
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the people in the higher sections began syncing their army bombs and my friend and i fussed over our own and couldnt figure out why it wasnt working until a girl told us what we werent doing and we fixed it djkddknf then the lights got darker and darker and an intro video began to play on the big screens and everyone lost their fucking minds and then idol began to play and bts was right! there!! on the main stage and it was like i was in a dream. 😞 when they came to the mini stage all breath left my lungs , i
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overall the experience was stressful, painful, exhausting, sweaty, and emotionally draining but it was easily the best night of my life and id do it all again in a heartbeat. they were beyond incredible and im immensely proud to be a fan of bts. 😔💗
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mochabeesnuts · 7 years ago
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For the ting (go skkrrrrrat) thing. All of them
*yells* Da ting go skkkkrrrraaa, papakakaka Skivipipopop and a poopooturrrboom Skrra, tutukukututoom, poompoom
1. selfie
HNNNG OK UH. UGH. HRM. FINE. A;JKFG
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hnnng asdfj;klad aNYWAYS
2. what would you name your future kids?
im not sure honestly, i feel like its one of those things where i have to meet them first. and honestly i dont think about it too much because i plan on adopting so chances are they’ll be old enough to already have a name. idk, im not picky about age. i feel like its going to be one of those things were i’ll just. know which kid needs me and that will be that.
3. do you miss anyone?
mm i miss my dogs at home. but i get to visit soon so!
4. what are you looking forward to?
im looking forward to january and seeing my friend. im also looking forward to next semester and getting a fresh start. also the possibility of getting a cat soon
5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?
heheh yeah there is
6. is it hard for you to get over someone?
y.u.p. jesus fuck
7. what was your life like last year?
um. it was hard. and painful. but it was a learning experience and i think im stronger for it
8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?
yes
9. who did you last see in person?
uhh i saw my roomie like a half hour ago when i was walking home
10. are you good at hiding your feelings?
i used to be a fucking master at it. cant tell if i miss that skill or not
11. are you listening to music right now?
yup! trying to find some new songs to listen to regularly
12. what is something you want right now?
i dont know actually
13. how do you feel right now?
i feel... mm i feel kinda peaceful. i feel like a lot of weight has been taken off of my shoulders but i still have so much on my plate. but i have a clearer mind to work on those things now so it’s a start
14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?
umm i got a hug from my dad on friday. if dad doesnt count then um.. hm... *squints* a long time
15. personality description
passionate. when i feel something i feel it strongly. whether its good or bad its fucking there and i almost always act on it. i dont hesitate but i try to be as considerate as possible. i try to be a people pleaser. and im also very determined. heheh, look at that i managed not to make that negative, kinda happy with that tbh.
16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn't?
yes, just once i think. i told someone it was ok that they were leaving me and that it was ok they were breaking my heart instead of telling them how i actually felt. i wanted to say it, but i knew that making them feel worse for it wouldnt do either of us any good. so i kept my feelings to myself.
17. opinion on insecurities.
we all have them. a lot of them. and they overwhelm even the best of us at times. whether we choose to or not we wear them on our sleeves and theyre one of the hardest things to fight against because our greatest and strongest enemy is ourselves. being your own greatest friend is fucking hard, and insecurities play a large role in that.
18. do you miss how thing were a year ago?
no. i dont. i was sad and lonely. i didnt feel like i belonged anywhere. but thats not true anymore, and id never want to go back to that.
19. have you ever been to New York?
nope!
20. what is your favourite song at the moment?
i have a few songs that i love a lot rn but mmm i can put down the one that i relate to a lot today? Machine by misterwives is a big mood for me rn and its nice the other hella big mood and this one has been putting the biggest smile on my face is salt by bad suns
21. age and birthday?
18 about to turn 19! my bday is november 30th :D
22. description of crush.
theyre human. they work hard and theyre passionate about what they love. a complete and utter dork that gets excited and can go on an on about what they find interesting and i can honestly listen to it all day. theyre sweet and silly and creative and smart as hell. theyve been there for me through so fucking much and we’ve both hit our low points and shown darker sides of ourselves but despite that we’re both still here yknow? and that, idk that means something to me. because anyone can stick around through the bright and beautiful stuff, the easy parts. but it takes someone special to be there and still just, want to be in your life even when shit hits rock bottom.
23. fear(s)
im honestly not sure. i never really have been.. i mean.. hm. idk. spiders maybe. but lately theyve bugged me less. usually instead of freaking out if i see spiders or bugs now i just help them get outside so i dont think that counts anymore.. idk. im sure im afraid of something, everyone is. i just.. dont really know what it is. one of my friends said i may be afraid of the unknown which is possible. *Shrugs*
24. height
5 ft 9 in!
25. role model
dont really have one
26. idol(s)
nani the fuck this is the same question
27. things i hate
i HATE people that treat customer services like shit. i hate lying and i hate high school drama(tm). i also hate eggplants.
28. i'll love you if...
you be yourself
29. favourite film(s)
the chronicles of naria, httyd 1 and 2, little mermaid, anastasia, inkheart
30. favourite tv show(s)
how i met your mother, stranger things, kekkai sensen, your lie in april, brooklyn 99, firefly, voltron
31. 3 random facts
1. ive jumped off a cliff
2. jellyfish can produce asexually as well as sexually. they can clone themselves!
3. mitochondria is still the powerhouse of the cell
32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?
girls
33. something you want to learn
i want to learn more about marine biology, i miss it
34. most embarrassing moment
mm wasnt the most embarrassing and it was actually kinda funny but its recent-ish so.
last year in instrumental rep class we were at the concert hall and this pianist was playing for us on stage, pro and fancy from out of country and everything. and i hadnt been getting much sleep so when she started playing all this slow and pretty music i passed tf out. problem was. i was sitting in front of my entire class/all my friends. and apparently just as she finished a song i started laughing in my sleep just like a mumbly “heheheh” but it was deadass quiet so EVERYONE heard it. and when someone nudged me awake like, everyone was looking at me but i didnt know why. and i went the entire fucking class not knowing it had happened and it wasnt until after the class ended and the performer got off stage that everyone burst out laughing and told me what happened. they fucking called me chuckles for a week lmao
35. favourite subject
music, photography, english, marine biology
36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?
1. i want to be successful enough that i can repay my parents for everything theyve done for me
2. i want to be the composer for a big name film
3. its.. dumb but i just really want to be in a happy relationship. a real one. its probably not the best thing to want as a dream but ill be real, ive been in love with the idea of love ever since i was a kid and that never really went away, just my chances in believing it’s something that will happen in my life.
37. favourite actor/actress
hmm i probably have one but its not coming to mind
38. favourite comedian(s)
kevin hart
39. favourite sport(s)
i love watching ice skating, love participating in swimming. used to do it competitively
40. favourite memory
ahh its hard to pick one plus this feels a bit personal!
41. relationship status
single as a pringle.. which doesnt make sense because pringles come in packs but it rhymes so fight me ok
42. favourite book(s)
inkheart, chronicles of narnia, my sister’s keeper
43. favourite song ever
what’s up by 4 non blondes, also 7 layers by dotan
44. age you get mistaken for
early 20s
45. how you found out about your idol
bruh
46. what my last text message says
hnnng its “Good night, I love you mom!” sdfj;lkgsd
47. turn ons
ive answered this a few times before
48. turn offs
ive answered this a few times before
49. where i want to be right now
mmm, im happy where i am for now i think.
50. favourite picture of your idol
ffs
51. starsign
Sagittarius 
52. something i'm talented at
music, photography
53. 5 things that make me happy
1. my friends
2. my plushie/soft things
3. music
4. rain
5. the fact that each new day is a chance for something new. idk why but that fact has just made me feel better a lot
54. something thats worrying me at the moment
my friends. theyre all going through a lot and i want to help but i can only do so much
55. tumblr friends
you know who you are bbs
56. favourite food(s)
this is always strangely hard for me to answer. theres an udon place back at home though that i can safely say is my fav.
57. favourite animal(s)
jellyfish, dolphins, dogs, cats, sea turtles, jorunna parva (sea bunnies), dragons
58. description of my best friend
i have a couple. both are kind and passionate as fuck. theyve been there for me through thick and thin and i wouldnt trade them for the world. theyre also going through so much fucking shit rn and i want to be there for them as much as i can
59. why i joined tumblr
because all my homestuck trash friends had one and convinced me to make one. i didnt know wtf to do on this hellsite for a solid 4 months
60. ask me anything you want
you gotta ask me anything you want my dude lmao, just pop into my inbox with whatever question you want to ask and i’ll answer it honestly
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Feelings take no prisoners
It happened again. Read my last post for all the details, but I got screwed over by a girl I really liked again.
So just to be clear I didnt want this blog to turn into a place where I complain about girls and relationships and all those feeeeels, but they seem to be the only things I feel like I need to vent about.
This time isnt as bad as the first time though, and I think that whole thing toughened me up for this one. Ill start at the beginning. It started on a normal night out with the work friends, we all got drunk as per and myself and one of the girls ended up kissing. It was all a bit embarrassing the day after and we made jokes and everything, but then we started texting a bit more regularly and realised we had a lot more in common than we thought. Over the night few nights out we didnt need to get drunk to end up kissing, and then the sober flirting started. All good so far. We went out again with work friends and the two of us found a corner away from the other to talk, and we both ended up telling the opposite how much we liked each other. 
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So everything is great, we’re happy, we both like the same things and we’re happy to just let things happen whenever they do, no rushing into anything. We go on a few dates, we’re not official but we’re just about there. And thats when it happens. Another work night, but this time its for one of the guys birthdays. Nothing special there, except for the fact that the guy and my girl had a thing going on before us. I catch the two of them close, and my stomach drops. So I tell one of my friends (who just recently became one of my best friends because of this) and she goes crazy. She pulls my girl aside and tells her shes acting like a complete bitch and that she cant treat me like that. So myself and herself find a quiet corner to talk about what just happened, and she tells me she still has feelings for the guy that she didnt know where still there and that she needs time to figure it out, but she still wants to stay close with me. 
So im gonna keep going, but im sure you can guess what happens next
Over the next few days, I try to talk to her like normal but she’s very off with me- one word answers, no emojis, that kind of thing. Eventually I get tired of it and ask her whats going on and she tells me she cant get over the feelings she has for that guy and she didnt want to hurt me by telling me. She seems genuinley upset about it and says she didnt want to or mean to lead me on and that she still wants to be friends because she “has so much respect and values *me* so much”. Obviously I dont take too kindly to hearing this, and I tell her that I do feel lead on and that im not gonna lie and say im fine with it. I say that I need space to figure out if I still want to be friends with her at all, which she says she understands and lets me. Problem is, we’re both going to the work Christmas party 2 days later.
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So I take a day to really think about it, and I realise that we were really good friends before we started seeing each other, and all the things we have in common arent just gonna go away, so I decide I still want to be friends. I text her to tell her and that although it’ll take time to get back to normal, I still want to be friends. She agrees with me that it will take time, but shes glad I still want her in my life. Cut to the Christmas party, and it’s a little awkward at first but we soon get back to how we used to be (the drinks may have helped a bit) before we were going out. Thing is though, we start getting a bit too close. Like VERY close. Like she tried to kiss me close. I didnt let her, because I was not gonna be fucked around with again. Then later in the night I see her getting close (not as close as we almost were, but still close) with another guy. Luckily he was having none of it, luckily for her I guess. Then to top it all off, she texts me later in the night asking me to come up to her room to cuddle with her. I asked her if she was alone and thank god she wasnt, the girl she was sharing the room with was there too. I decided Id go up to her, purely because the other girl was there too so she couldnt try anything. So we’re just lying there chatting, when she starts texting that guy. Yeah, feelings guy. Of course Im quite confused about the whole situation but I decide its not worth the hassle of bringing it up, and to this day I havent. We’re still friends, and we’re almost back to how we used to be before any of this, but 2 of my best friends who ive told everything to cant stand her now, and I cant really blame them.
Ive moved on, more or less, and im glad we’re still friends because she really did change my life for the better.
But I have to ask, is the relationship that I really want in the end gonna be worth all this shit ive been through? I really hope so.
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Goodbye
This is the last big wall of text i am going to write about you. The past month has been one of the hardest of my life. One of my old friends at college died at the age of 26, a great soul taken too young, my grandad is struggling, which means my mum is struggling, which obviously effects me and my dad, my gran is going crazy being stuck in the house due to this horrible virus. The virus has taken its toll on me as well, I would love to be able to get out of the house and go out with my friends, take my mind off of you, go to the cinema or the gym, literally anything apart from being stuck in the house.
My uni work has suffered as my motivation has been at its lowest and that isn’t right. Nothing gets in the way of my career. This message is mainly going to be two fold, here comes the first part:
The positives:
Falling in love with you
Supporting each other through our final year of university
How much we have in common
All our pint pot and SU trips
Heaton Park
Graduation together
Looking after Teddy
Coming to your dads just to see you for a few hours and getting up ridiculously early in the morning because you were worth it
You were the first girl i took on holiday
Brussels was amazing, i always think about that avocado cafe i took you to, you knew i was taking you there and i was so smug thinking id kept it a surprise, and having the whole zoo pretty much too ourselves to have fun and mess around, and our little day trip to Antwerp, we said wed go back to Belgium one day just to go to Antwerp properly. Our “querky” hotel which we snuggled up in and watched the news in between going out, and falling in between the gap in the bed when we spooned.
Our first Christmas albeit delayed
Valentines Day
The last time i saw you giving you a cuddle and a kiss, probably the last time I’ll see you
The negatives:
Your constant white lies
Your lack of effort to come to my house or spend anytime at mine or with my family, when i was at yours every week whether it was at yours or your dads, you never once offered to get a train to come to mine, only when you came to break up with me lol, it was all you you you
Your toxic behaviour when you were drunk (I was guilty of this too im sorry for that)
And here comes the end of the relationship:
You became distant, different, went from being the one who wanted to spend the rest of her life with me, loved me and never wanted me to leave, to finding excuses to get rid of me and stop me from coming around
The gas lighting, making out like it was my fault and that i was annoying you when all along it was you and your fucking lies which came so easily to you
I asked you if something was going on, if you liked someone at work or if you were speaking to them in that way and you promised me no, you could of fucking told me then
It all makes sense now:
Removing me as your twitter header in case he saw it
Not wanting me to come into your work in case he saw me or i saw him (I didnt even know who he was at this point lmfao)
The look of mortification in your eyes when i turned up with roses, god forbid he saw you with me and those roses
The not wanting to hold my hand in work or outside of it. What must you of been telling him, that me and you were about to break up, that it wasnt that serious, feeding him your shit to make it seem less serious. Our relationship was amazing and nothing was going wrong
YOU LET ME SIT AT YOUR HOUSE, WATCHING YOU GET ALL MADE UP FOR HIM, TIDYING YOUR ROOM COOKING YOU TEA ALL WHILE YOU WERE AT WORK GRAFTING SOME FUCKING MONG
WTF is wrong with you, you fucking sociopath.
And then comes the cheating, the two of you knew what you were doing, he knew you had a boyfriend, regardless of you telling me it was never a date and you just felt sorry for him due to his scan, you’d already told me at this point he liked you and you had feelings for him so yet again you are full of shit. Avoiding social media, while you essentially went on a date with him and left me mentally torturing myself, then as he drops you off at the woods (you know, so your family dont see a random lad dropping you off you shady bitch) you both kiss, no thought of me, just you and your selfishness, you cheated on your ex with me, youve done it to me with him, and youll do it again. Great model feminist you are.
And then you try and play the “I dont want to break up but i dont know how this is going to work” card when you just didnt have the courage or decency to tell me that after lying to me, cheating on me you then wanted to leave me for him after me giving you a second chance. Him, some boring cunt you felt sorry for that you’ve known for a couple of months, hard to believe all the shit about how you felt about me when you are that fickle.
There is definitely some great memories i have forgotten to mention here, and probably some bad ones as well. But the good FAR outweighed the bad, and i genuinely wanted to spend the rest of my life with you, i loved you so much and i still do, and deep down i know you felt the same, you made it clear with how you were with me for the 11 months, in your actions and the things you bought me. I know you still love me now, but you fucking ruined it.
I was going to text you something like this and i am so glad i didn’t and saved myself the embarrassment, its time i get back to being me, the Glen that existed before you, the amazing, smart, kind, funny and loving Glen that i always will be, its time for me to go back to pursuing the career I have dreamt of and deserve and get back to nailing my uni work, you don’t define who i am, and one day ill find someone who loves me the way i deserve. I hope you find this one day. Maybe then you’ll finally realise what you’ve done and what you lost, I would of given you the best life and forgotten about all this shit but you were too weak to put aside some fickle short term impulses. You’ll regret this, I love you Molly, but you’ll never hear from me again. This is the end of Glen and Molly. XO
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In fact, Im usually fairly quiet - not shy, but definitely not a atk natural and hairy flirter or anything like that. I hope this is the right place to post and that you guys enjoy the story haha! First of all let me explain that I am not at all an outgoing ladies man or anything of the sort. One day, a few friends were heading out to a rock club they enjoyed and asked if I wanted to tag along. By the time I got to the club, I was definitely tipsy and in that state of faux-confidence. Im not really into rock or metal, but decided Id go too just because I was still new to clubbing and the novelty had yet to wear off. We had a few drinks at one of their houses and set off for the bar. However, once Ive had one too many drinks I often naked girls hairy pussies seem to think Im a super confident pick up artist (whether I want to or not), which inevitably ends up in me making a fool of myself. Turning around, I noticed a woman standing around waiting to be served too. Apart from the one time it actually worked. The queue was pretty big at this point, and Im not particularly large or aggressive enough to just barge past, so I got stuck at the back. We got our drinks after a while and I drank mine quicker than Ive ever drank anything in my life. She was pretty hot to be honest, not my normal "type" but definitely attractive; perhaps 510, black hair, average built dressed in a leathery sorta goth outfit. At this point Id only ever been sexually active with two girls, both of which were during serious relationships, so I had absolutely no experience picking up girls or anything like that. My memory of this point is slightly hazy, but after a while we were dancing together - my hands around her waist occasionally drifting down onto her ass, her arms around my neck. They were in absolute hysterics (and havent let me forget it since), but ultimately cheered me on. I had recently turned 18 and had just finished a fairly long-term relationship. She must have been a little taken aback, but laughed and agreed. Before I knew what I was doing I headed over to her and asked if I could get her a drink. It was really quite intimidating to be honest, she had skulls and candles and loads of goth stuff decorating her house. To this day I dont quite know if she meant for me to go back with her, but we got in the taxi together regardless. We kissed a little more in the taxi, but at this point I was starting to sober up and my usual self-consciousness and social awkwardness was starting to return. At the time I had been living in a fairly quiet area with my parents where there really wasnt anything (or anyone) like this around, so I was starting to freak out a little, but luckily out of sheer horniness - and probably because I dont think Id dare explaining that I was getting a bit anxious about it - I stuck with it. Slowly, she gravitated down my body until she pulled off my jeans and started sucking my cock. She pulled me into her bedroom and onto her bed where hairy pussy women pictures she climbed on top of me and began to kiss me some more, undoing my jeans in the process. Getting out of the taxi, she laughed and pulled me into her flat. If you liked this article therefore you would like to be given more info about teens hairy pussy video generously visit the web-site. I was totally startled and sort of just laid there and watched awkwardly, trying desperately not to cum as she sucked. After a few minutes she stopped and told me it was her turn, before sitting up and taking off her clothes. Lying down next to me, she spread her legs and gestured for me to get between them. I was already rock hard and still in a state of disbelief, but went with it as much as I could, kissing her back and holding her waist. It was probably definitely not the best licking out shed ever got, but I tried my best and I think she must have taken pity on me, and after maybe 3 minutes or so she giggled and pulled me onto my back before climbing on top of me and sliding my cock inside her. Two of my friends had gone off to find a table whilst the other went to the bathroom, with me going straight to the bar to get another drink. Like I said before, she had a pretty good body, definitely by far the hottest woman Ive ever been with, but I was busy concentrating all my effort into not cumming or offending her. It took all of my strength not to cum, but after a little while she climbed off me and got back on her back with her legs in the air, telling me to give it to her like that. She grabbed my hands and placed them on her ass, telling me lots of sexy things and clawing at my chest as she bounced on me. I managed a few more thrusts before saying something along the lines of "I gotta cum", to which she laughed a bit and said "dont cum inside me, cum on me". She mentioned to me that shed have to head home soon, and me being the drunken horny 18 year old I was decided Id go and tell my friends Id pulled and would see them tomorrow. Using those precious seconds to try and recharge some stamina, I got up and between her legs again, sliding my cock inside her. I really wish I could remember properly, but somehow we began kissing and she gave me a hickey or two. She woke me up the next morning and offered to call me a taxi home. She began rubbing her pussy as I began to thrust, but I knew I was in trouble and about to cum any moment. Well, more accurately, I pulled out, shot one huge load over her head and onto the headboard and pillow behind her, and then the rest ended up on her belly. Id never had sex without a condom before, and had I been totally sober and not ever so slightly terrified I would definitely have gone through the whole "not without protection" speech, but didnt seem to have much choice in the matter. Theyd managed to find this girls facebook and found out she was 34, almost double my age - and to this day they have not let me forget it. After sleeping a little more, I woke up with a lot of messages from my friends. I was extremely embarrassed and awkward, but thanked her for letting me stay and promptly headed off home. So yeah, hope you enjoyed the story! Totally overwhelmed and exhausted, I collapsed onto the bed and passed out. I was unbelievably embarrassed and a little worried for my health (booked an STD test the week later - came back negative thankfully) and stalked her facebook for several weeks to make sure she wasnt pregnant, but in hindsight it was the single hottest moment of my life. Id only ever eaten my ex out and was getting really worried shed get mad at me and beat me up or something, but I sheepishly shuffled down and began licking. Pulling out, I came on her belly. PM me if you want to know more or if you want to hear any other stories, but that was by far the most standout one.
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Answer all!!
here we fuckn goooooooooo
we are bulletproof: if you could be any superhero, who would you be and why?
u kno that 1 girl from sky high whose only power was shapeshifting into a hamster? her. no reason
no more dream: if you woke up tomorrow to be incredibly famous, how would you react?
id go check my mailbox to collect all my free promotional gifts and then prolly fake my own death
i like it: if you could reverse any moment in your life, what would that moment be? 
there’s 1 thing but im not rlly gonna expose myself like tht on here smh
n.o: biggest pet peeve?
loud chewing/loud eating,,,,,,
we on: how do you deal with people who don’t like you?
i dont deal wit it lmfao it’s not my business who likes me n who doesn’t unless someone’s being particularly vocal about it:// in that case i’d prolly jus laugh about it
if i ruled the world: what would you do if you found out that you were an heir to a wealthy kingdom?
lmfao. idk tbh prolly decide which breed of dog i wanted to be known for loving
coffee: what’s your coffee order?
i dont order coffee often buh somethin w a lot of sugar.
cypher pt. 1: if you had to be part of a kpop group, what position would you want to be (i.e. leader, visual, lead vocal, dancer, rapper, maknae, etc.)
maknae i guess? how about staff
rise of bangtan: when and how did you get into the king and legends, also known as bangtan sonyeondan?
i saw a video of yoongi performing intro:nevermind in like 2015 n was :o ! buh never looked into it. in 2016 i saw the fire and bst dance practice vids and was like :0!??? but again, never looked into it. then finally spring day/not today mvs dropped n i FINALLY looked into who these boys were n jus fell down an ever spiraling rabbit hole.. now we here
satoori rap: what does home mean to you?
a feeling. i mean i have a few physical manifestations of the concept of home: my town, my school, my house. things i can return to. but really it’s a feeling isn’t it?? safety, familiarity, comfort, fondness
boy in luv: when you are interested in someone (romantically, sexually, etc.), does your behavior change?
yeah probably altho i dnt have many data points to go over rn
just one day: who would you want to spend the last day of your life with?
yall expectin me 2 say bts buh id want 2 be wit my friends n family . bts can b there 2 if they want
tomorrow: goal that you would like to achieve within the next year?
get into..... college.....
cypher pt. 2: one thing about yourself you wish people would appreciate more?
i never express appreciation n all that verbally thru words or physically thru touch buh i have my own ways of showin tht i care n i guess it dont count if i dont communicate explicitly like: hey ilu ! . what happened to actions speak louder than words smh
spine breaker: what is your weakness when it comes to spending money?
makeup!!!!!!!!!! >
jump: favorite childhood memory?
getting my dog tina!!!!
miss right: what is your ideal ‘type’?
physically i tend 2 like the boyish types likkee think taehyung inu era i guess. boy next door vibes; ive never rlly been into the macho build or the preppy, neat look, or the rough around the edges, angsty shithead badboy exterior model like i like my boys S.O.F.T.! puppy-ish!
personality wise i guess jusssss idk i’m gonna copy n paste a list of qualities i look 4 in a partner that i wrote for a different ask game a while back: Sense of humor, openmindedness, compassion, reliability, ability 2 communicate directly/emotional maturity, ambition/drive/work ethic, etc.
i like it pt. 2: dream date? 
yall prolly expecting me to say smthn like staying in n watching movies n eating junk but i’d prolly wanna go out n do smthn ngl. not a movie where u can hardly even speak or a dinner date where u feel trapped n stiff buh smthn fun n mildly competitive n engaging ??????? although jus chillin dont sound so terrible either
danger: have you ever had a near-death experience?
kinda not really it was on hampton beach n i had an allergic reaction but i wasnt on death’s door or nuthn
war of hormone: most embarrassing moment?
i bled thru my fucking pants in like 7th grade n it got on the chair! it was bad lol i was jus talking about this w my friend n she was like “yeah i remember that haha:)” shut up caitlin
hip hop lover: three songs that are meaningful to you?
moonlight sonata, ballade no. 1 in g minor, bts’ entire discography ties for 3rd
let me know: are you good at keeping secrets?
no lmfao . keeping my own, sure.
rain: most spontaneous thing you’ve ever done?
some words that have never been used to describe me, grace: spontaneous, easy going, flexible. the most impulsive thing i’ve done is prolly take a random sidestreet omw home just for the heck of it lol
cypher pt. 3: favorite outfit to wear?
cute jeans w a belt, a crop top. white adidas. i like dresses too tho!! n i really like layered clothes (a mock turtle neck under a slip dress or like a pinstripe button up under a babydoll fit blouse. i jus think it’s fuckin adorable)
blanket kick: longest time you’ve spent lying in bed (sleeping or not)? 
prolly 2 or 3 days
24/7 = heaven: what are you most looking forward to?
fuck i rlly dk . doesnt that suck??
look here: do you have any hidden talents?
i can burp on command lmfaoofdj
second grade: proudest accomplishment?
dont ask me this if u dnt want to be made uncomfortable by how genuinely unproud of myself i am lol
i need u: are you in love?
wit k*m t*aehy*ng? yeah.
hold me tight: does physical contact comfort you?
no........... maybe i havent found the right person but it’s not my cup of tea generally speaking
love is not over: ever had your heart broken?
no but now i know what i can look forward to haha
dead leaves: how loyal are you?
im rlly loyal if that commitment is mutual. w my family i’m ride or die i’ll fuck anyone up who comes for my asshole brother idc!!!!!!!!!
move: last time you cried?
cant remember,, i dnt cry much. prolly watching reply 1988 when bo ra and her dad were exchanging letters on her wedding day.
butterfly: most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?
his name looks similar to my url thats the only hint im giving
run: do you like traveling? if so, where? what’s your dream vacation?
i dnt really like travelling tbh but i do wanna go back to korea one day. not necessarily as a tourist but as a diasporic korean person myself
ma city: if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
idk. i cant imagine not living in the states tbh but i also cant say i love it here either
baepsae: do you vote and/or keep up with politics?
i can’t vote but i’m in my school’s youth vote committee which runs debates for local elections and registration drives at the end of the year. i kept up with politics a lot more last year but after the election i jus got 2 bitter. i know what’s going on but only sort of surface level smh
dope: what did you want to be when you were younger? how does it compare to what you want to be now?
i wanted to be a teacher lmfao and i wanted to commute to college n save $$ bc i was a practical little fucker even when i was 6. these days i’m not that interested in teaching bc a) i’d be objectively bad at it and b) i was a classroom mentor for elementary schools and... realized i can’t work w kids tht small every damn day i’d rlly snap
fire: are you a spontaneous person?
no~
save me: your favorite place on earth?
rn??? m y bed
young forever: what is one movie from your childhood that you will always treasure?
august rush lol
boys with fun: you’re going on a roadtrip with seven other people– dead, alive, fictional, real, famous, or not. who are they, and why?
really......... seven other people:)? guess.
converse high: how many pairs of shoes do you own?
12??? 3 are the same black heel lmfao n a lot i havent worn in years but i still technically own them. i rlly b wearing the same 4 pairs in a cycle n 1 rotten bleach stained soggy mess for work shoes.
whalien 52: weirdest thing that has ever happened to you? alternatively, weirdest dream you’ve ever had?
weirdest dream i ever had was way too long to type out n had way too many references to people in my personal life to ever be interesting lmao
house of cards: when was the last time you felt sexy?
HAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAAHHAAH?????????????????
boy meets evil: have you ever committed a crime? if so, what was it? alternatively, what is the worst thing you have ever done?
does speeding count smh.
blood, sweat, & tears: kinkiest kink you have?
rolling eyes emoji. pass!
begin: who are you most grateful for in your life?
my parents!
lie: biggest fear?
real talk? failure. abandonment but i’m adopted, how cliche. also bugs
stigma: would you rather know the date of your death or the cause of your death?
date of death bc if i knew the cause but not have any indication of when it’d hit me, i’d be a paranoid agoraphobic wreck for the rest of my life
first love: do you believe in soulmates?
yes but i also believe you can have more than one! and that soulmates aren’t exclusively romantic
reflection: if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?
get ur fucking bangs cut
mama: are you good at giving advice?
yeah i think so
awake: if you had to be a flower, which flower would you be?
lazy daisy
lost: how good are you with directions? do you get lost easily?
horrible horrible horrible. directionally challenged. i can’t even find my way to the fucking grocery store down the road on my own. if i ever missed an exit on the highway you’d never hear from me again, i could never find my way back without a gps. i’m dead serious
cypher pt. 4: what do you do to treat yourself or relax?
take a bath or a long long shower. eat smthn warm, drink tea, do a face mask, change my sheets n snuggle up watchin a drama or movie or playin sims
am i wrong: you wake up one morning in the hospital, knowing only your name and a single memory from your life. what is that memory?
wtf how do i answer this lmfao how wud i know lol
21st century girls: do you prefer texting, calling, or video chatting?
texting! calling if it’s a long story though
2!3!: your favorite thing about bangtan?
their modesty and grace ! they’re a true underdog success story >
spring day: who do you miss right now?
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
not today: what are your procrastinating right now?
math summer work smh
wings: on airplanes, do you prefer the window seat, the middle seat, or the aisle seat?
window seat!
you never walk alone: how many people do you trust with your life?
4?
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