#like everyone can hmmmm all they want the album will come through and will have the people in a chokehold

[itspileofgoodthings]

I mean, if there’s one thing the album is going to do it’s come through.

[rrxnjun]

if i could i would fight the school system just so u would have the time and mood to write >:T but i'm glad u could write a bit and waiting for ur next fic!!!🥳🥳 (your post about a fic u are writing seems pretty fun :o and love jihoon as a side character!!!) AAA IM HAPPY TO HEAR THAT I WOULD LOVE TO READ TREASURE FICS FROM U ESPECIALLY THE JIHOON ONES HIHI!!! I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR UR FRIEND WHO CONVINCED U!!!!

hmmmm idk if its reveal vibe or not but my fav ep from them is the thrill ride ep (probably has a special place in my heart cuz that was my first cb with them lmao but that era was so well done and i really love the songs!!) i think their new ep is really great my favs are especially awake and savior aaanndd their breaking dawn album slaps as a whole i love it so muchhh and for my last recommendation from them would be survive the night which is a song that was fully written by sunwoo and it's definitely one of my favs (there is also a song from giuk featuring sunwoo that just dropped and u might like it if u are interested) and i really hope u will like some cuz idk if any of these would be the type of songs u would listen to;-; the last longer content i watched from them was come on the boyz but eric isn't in it cuz he was on a hiatus at the time:( but it's really fun! i also started to watch back the boyz timeout (and had to stop cuz school >:T) and that is also really good and everyone is there:D so i would recommend those if u want like a series (?) type of thing with them but for "shorter" contents their mafia games are very fun to watch!!! their idol human theater videos are great as well!!! and the last one i would say is they just made a video with the fo squad and that seemed very funny although i didn't have the time to watch it yet;-; (IM VERY SORRY ABOUT JUST RECOMMENDING SO MANY THINGS AND FOR THIS LONG ASS LIST I WENT A BIT OVERBOARD D: )

KEVIN IS SUCH A LOVELY GUY his bubble messages are usually either very funny or just very meaningful and his posts are always top tier🤌 i think he would just solidify his place in ur heart lmao and eric is just such a bestie material!!! well u know i just came in here in the middle of ur treasure era being like 🧍the boyz🧍and i don't want to interrupt u with just randomly talking about them 🧍(which i deff did so im sorry and sorry again for the long ass list of recs)

ooo god gifted kid burnouts suck so much;-; but tbh yeah the grade doesn't really matter just pass and get the paper in the end cuz that's the most important ig and u would get it with even just passing (although im just🤡 cuz i will never think like this sadly so) i don't think my experience will be different ngl;-; so im trying to get myself ready to just not be sad about it cuz it's bound to happen lmao

AHH UR REPLIES JUST MAKE ME SO HAPPY LIKE U READ MY LONG ASS RAMBLINGS AND U ARE ALWAYS SO LOVELY SO I JUST🥹🥹 I APPRECIATE U VERY MUCH!!!!!! (liebestraum anon💗💕💕 sorry for disappearing again☹️)

SJSJSJ its okay because the motivation is that once its over i have the whole summer to write is making me go through this more easily 😙😌 also im handling things a lot better than last semester LMAO so im good over here 🤞 DJSJ glad u liked the posts abt the fic so far, jihoon is kind of the main character unfortunatelt (he is in the fic more than mark i-) but the brainrot cant be helped. IM GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIEND TOO she's a real one 😙 i'll let u know abt the blog if i manage to set one up after all hihi

first comebacks with a group are always the most special istg i thought about this the other day. like for me rock with you, hot sauce and can't you see me? are really special too😭 i havent had time to listen to these but i promise that by the time we talk again i will and i'll have my reviews ready!! 😌😌 also i love how u can kinda get my music taste w western artists (like when u recommended me hungarian songs and were spot on) but w kpop u rlly cant tell😭😭😭 i love me some kpop group variety shows tbh so i will definitely watch all of these later !! DONT BE SORRY ABT RECOMMENDING SO MUCH I GET U IF I WAS ASKED FOR RECS FOR ANY OF MY FAV GROUPS I WOULDVE DONE THE SAME THING. i saw kevin's weverse (?) replies on tiktok today and i- 😭 my man is a comedian i love him. the same w eric. icons. SJSJS dont worry about interrupting my treasure era i can handle it (im also suddenly into cix as well so i can handle everyone atp)

and u get it u get it !!! like it does feel good to get academic validation from time to time (i got a 45/50 on my essay today❤❤❤) but as long as its not an F i do not feel disappointed. esp when i get reminded of the fact that im studying on one of the best unis in my country and that my major is actually kind of hard 💀💀 get ready for the terrors of university i mean u can expect it but actually experiencing it will be just as shitty so i just pray u dont take it as badly as i did for a lil while🤞 im here for u if that happens tho!!

always appreciating u and smiling at your asks, mwah mwah ‼

[atlasbarnes]

helicopter ; bucky barnes

based on maisie peters’ song, “helicopter.” also inspired by this lovely message i got from a sweet anon, ily! i’m now obsessed with this entire album, ty for the recommendation! tws: strong language, mentions of blood, injury and mortality.

masterlist.

You’re always doing a hundred things a minute, or at least that what it looks like to Bucky. One minute you’re organising a party for Tony’s birthday, the next you’re surprising him with his favourite breakfast for no reason. You always look like you’re in the middle of doing something, but you always have a spare second for Bucky. Sometimes, he feels like a helicopter. He’s always hovering near you, to make sure you’re okay.

It was another day, another mission. Or that’s what you told Bucky, you told him not to worry, it was a simple extraction plan and that you and Nat would be able to handle it. So he tries not to worry, emphasis on the try. The entire time you were gone, he spent it in the gym with Sam, trying to occupy his mind.

When Fridays tells him that your jet just landed, he makes his way upstairs to greet you and ask how it was. He wasn’t expecting to walk into his living nightmare.

Natasha is panicked, speaking a hundred miles a minute to the medical team and doctors who were wheeling someone - not just someone, you - into the medical wing. All Bucky can see is blood, blood where blood shouldn’t be. Bright red, staining your hands and face and skin.

“Bucky.”

He hears his name, but all he can see is you. Barely alive, fading away.

“Bucky!”

Turning, he sees Natasha beckoning to him. When he looks back at you, you’re gone. He can hear the doctors and nurses in their hushed tones down the hall and he has no choice but to follow Natasha.

“What happened?” He asks, collapsing onto the chair across from Nat. She was holding her side, wincing in pain as she grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge.

She sighs. “It was supposed to be a simple extraction. We were meant to go in, get the fugitive and leave. But, there was a hostage. A girl, we don’t know where she came from but the hostage was screaming and Y/N did what she thought was right, she rolled the dice and traded places with the hostage. He shot her but didn’t stop there. I didn’t even know she needed help, her comms went down. I found her, bloody and bruised.”

Natasha stops and takes a breath and Bucky thinks he’s heard the worst of it. But she carries on talking. “When I found them, I heard him break her ribs. She stopped screaming then. I shot him, he was dead before he hit the ground. But I had to drag her out of there.”

Bucky can’t see straight. He’s never been this angry before, his hands are shaking, his breathing is uneven and he can’t think of anything apart from you.

“She told me to tell you that she was sorry,” Nat whispers.

-

The first thing you feel is pain. The pain that erupts across your middle, spreading to your arms, legs, head, every part of you feeling heavy.

“Fuck,” you mumble, slowly opening your eyes.

Bucky was half asleep in the chair next to your bed, snapping into action the second he heard you. “Hey,” he whispers.

“Hey,” you mumble back, unable to speak any louder.

You wince, the pain in your torso increasing each time you took a breath. “Lemme guess, broken ribs?” You ask, having seen so many of your friends go through similar injuries, you knew what the signs were.

“Broken ribs, concussion, sprained ankle, broken wrist and about a hundred bruises and flesh wounds,” he answers, not meeting your eye.

“Yikes, guess I’m not gonna be up for our morning run tomorrow,” you joke, smiling at him. He doesn’t smile back. “What is it, Buck?”

He sighs, his hands in fists in his lap. “Why’d you do that?”

“Do what?”

“Trade places with the hostage.”

Sighing, you ignore the pain in your ribs. “She was so scared, Buck. It was an easy decision.”

He shakes his head, still not looking at you.

“I’d rather it be me every time than an innocent victim.”

“But that doesn’t mean you’re expendable!” He exclaims. “I know you were doing the right thing, and I can’t blame you for that, because I like to think I would do the same thing. But you act like you’re immortal, you throw your mortality around like it’s nothing.”

“Bucky, I-.”

“You don’t see how many people are affected by you. Everyone in this tower, Nat, Sam - me - you’re not expendable. Not at all.”

Bucky hadn’t had an outbreak like this in a while.

“James,” you breathe, voice tired. “I don’t think I’m expendable. Every time I leave this tower, my only thought is coming back to you. How I can come back in one piece and together. But leaving that hostage behind, letting her die, I wouldn’t have come home in one piece. Not mentally at least. I did what I had to do, believe me, getting beaten half to death was not in my plans for today.”

Bucky finally draws his eyes up and looks at you. “You’re just, humans are so fragile. You don’t regenerate cells like I do. You take one bad hit, one bullet, and that’s it. That’s not fair.”

Reaching for his hand, you slowly intertwine your fingers with his metal ones. “I know. I know, my love. It’s not fair, but I promise you that I will always do everything I can to come back home to you. And I am here, aren’t I? I’m back home?”

“I just - I can’t lose you,” he whispers.

“You won’t.”

-

Bucky likes to act careless. Or, at least, to you he does. He doesn’t cross at crosswalks, he doesn’t always wear his seatbelt and he likes to walk around in the middle of the winter with no jacket. Maybe careless is a bit of a strong word, but he does scare you sometimes.

You’re walking with him down the street, hand in hand. He goes to cross the road and for once, you don’t let him cross in the middle of the road. Gently pulling his hand, you shake your head and indicate for him to cross at the crosswalk a little up the road. He doesn’t argue, he follows your lead.

Later that day, you see him flipping a knife in his flesh hand as he waits for the coffee machine to brew. You know that his hand is covered in little scars, ranging from knife wounds to worse. Carefully coming up behind him, you take the knife from his hand and place it on the counter, kissing his cheek and leaving him confused.

By the time you crawl into bed, you’re convinced you’ve spent the entire day hovering over Bucky. You had never noticed before how many times during the day he does little things, small things that scare you.

“You were acting a bit weird today,” Bucky observes, his hand mindlessly tracing circles on your skin.

“Hmmmm, I never realised how nonchalant about things you were,” you reply.

“Nonchalant?” He repeats, confusion apparent in his tone.

“Yeah, you don’t always look before crossing the street. And you play with knives like you don’t know how sharp they are. It’s like your fight or flight, your sense of danger, is rusty.”

“Well, I am over 100 years old,” he laughs. “I never noticed before. No one’s ever noticed before,” he adds, almost as an afterthought.

“I didn’t mean to act weird, I just worry about you,” you shrug.

“No, no, it’s okay. I’ll try and be more careful, I should be more careful.”

“It’s because I love you, that’s why I hover too close sometimes. I want you to be safe,” you whisper.

Bucky, in his 100 years of living, had never had anyone care this much about him. Love him this deeply. Someone to watch his every move, to notice things like this. To pick up on his habit of playing with knives (something he himself had tried to do less of, he was sick of the constant nicks in his skin), or to notice how he often didn’t cross the road in the right place. He had never been this important to someone.

“I love you too. I am safe, I promise. I’m always safe with you,” he replies, his voice heavy with emotion.

“Good. You’re my favourite person,” you mumble, voice thick with sleep. Bucky hears you fall asleep, your breathing even out. The words ‘favourite person’ bury themselves in his heart, threatening to overwhelm him with emotions.

So this is what it felt like to be loved.

[anaisonfire]

2, 3, 7, 8, 11, 12, 13, 14, 19, 24, 31 for the cyberpunk asks

HA u didn’t specify who so i get to answer some of these twice! (thank you bb 💖)

2. 3 facts about your V/OC?

Vegas: his favorite color is yellow (see: vest, car, guitar), he’s a rockerboy turned permanent mercenary (was lead guitarist in City of Death [name pending changes], but there was Drama™ and he skipped town to Atlanta), his hatred for corps comes from the fact his mom died when she was fired from her job (and this is also why he has some sympathy for corpos; not a lot tho)

Vincent: met jackie when he was an older teenager, went to work for arasaka when he was 19 (jackie called him an idiot), slept with jenkins a couple years after that to get high up the ladder faster (he’s 31/32 when the game begins, so he was in counterintel for about ten-ish years)

3. In what ways do you see yourself in your V/OC?

oh this is a hard one haha

...can i say the lowkey narcissism or is that too dramatic 😂😂

tbh i’m not quite sure, but i guess one thing that i super vibe with (and is the reason i’m so into johnny & kerry as opposed to the other LIs/characters) that i keep making all my OCs have (unless i deliberately Don’t) is their drive for acknowledgement? like, it manifests as an I’m Gonna Be The King Of This City Or So Help Me God thing, but it’s ultimately a cry to Be Seen and Recognized for what you are (and what you are is awesome).

7. How many times have you either completed or restarted the game?

i’ve completed it  *drumroll please* ZERO TIMES 😂😂😂 for real, i’m horrible about finishing things

as for restarting... let’s see... currently have 7 Vs, vincent’s on his 3rd version, plus my first ever game that didn’t get farther than dex... add about 5 Vs that i stared but never got anywhere with and deleted for reasons.... makes it about 15 times, so, yeah something around there! :D

8. If you could have anyone as a companion in 2077, who would it be?

Besides Johnny? :D

i think it’d be pretty cool to have either kerry or panam going around town with you

11. Are there any characters you genuinely can’t stand? Why?

Not really. There’s a couple of things I dislike about some character stories (River, my dear... I’m so sorry CDPR are cowards and did you dirty like this) but on the whole I like all characters.

Even with 'villains’, like Smasher or Saburo, they’re there more for plot than as actual characters so I’m indifferent to them.

12. Favourite location in Night City?

There’s this really cool statue in the market in Kabuki (I think? The place with the glass ceiling)

Here’s a pic I took of it a while back.

Also in general any place where you can see the the lights of the city

13. Favourite type of vehicle?

I like both various cars and bikes, hah. Mostly I tend to go with whatever fits the V, but I admit I’m partial to the Yaiba Kusanagi as well as the Herrera Outlaw (handling AND looks) and the Caliburn (cool factor).

14. Favourite weapon?

Archangel! Johnny’s gun! Uhhh what other are there 😂 oh yeah, and Overwatch! Love that gun, it’s so OP 👌😂

19. What’s a mission or side gig you hated?

Oh jeez what do I hate - I think the Welcome to America, Comrade gig is the one I was most frustrated when I did it the first time. I had to reload so. many. times!

From the main story, I caNNOT deal with the braindance tutorial - I love Judy, but we really need a ‘skip tutorial’ option there @ Cdpr

24. Who’s a character you wish you could’ve saved or seen more of?

KERRY, Alt, Thompson, Santiago, I wanted more of Rogue’s story and what she’s been doing these 50 years besides being a badass (there were implications being made on the Ebunike okay, TELL ME)

(I think we’ll get more backstory, from Johnny’s point of view maybe, at some point, so I’m willing to wait. But I want details ok)

Also I am 1000% sure there was supposed to be another quest after I Fought The Law that in any way, shape or form dealt with the fact that River’s partner covered up the mayor’s murder. I choose to believe they ran out of time so that’s why we only had that one line about it when you talk to River after his questline is over. (If I’m wrong: CDPR are cowards. Follow through on the storyline you made dammit)

KERRY AGAIN sorry but you CANNOT introduce a 50-years-and-still-going-strong, God of Rock type of character and NOT give us a concert. An album. MORE MUSIC IS WHAT I’M SAYING let Kerry and V live the bodyguard AU lmao

31. What’s a mod you’d like to see (even to be funny)?

Hmmmm I’m really not sure actually 🤔 There’ve been a lot of really cool mods and most of the time I tend to go ‘ohhhh here’s a thing I didn’t know I needed in my life’ 😂 (case in point: Johnny with earrings, changing the decor of V’s apartment, swapping V with NPCs, etc)

Thank you so much for the ask!! Also I’m always down to ramble about my Vs, either on here or on @the-major-leagues so feel free to send asks @ everyone!! 💖

[blazinbeautywrites]

Band Wars: Rise of the Phoenix

Note: Due to the rampant uprising of plagiarism on this site and others I am stating once and once only that this is my ORIGINAL work. If I find out that you have stolen/taken any part of my work I will handle you and the situation the way I see fit.

None of the pics or gifs I use belong to me so full credit goes to the originators of said gifs and pics.

Length: 2,356 words

A/N: Sorry it took me so long to get this out guys. I was not happy with the final results and when I was I still was unsure so I rewrote it again and decided to just post it. I’ll let yall be the judge lol.

Genre: Honestly idk lmao

Chapter 1

 Universal Music Group (UMG) decides to debut a new girl group, PHOENIX on their first ever reality show “Next Big Thing.” The winners of the show get a 5 year, 5 album recording contract and will tour with CNCO 1 year after they debut. The winner of the show was Zania Reye Bloom, followed by London Monroe Jones, Jolene Maria Sanchez, Siane Rei Choi, and Avery Lynn O'Reilly. The band is composed of 5 talented women with different ethnic backgrounds, ages 24-25. 

Since the show served as the girl’s training they were immediately thrusted into the spotlight after the show ended. They went to work on their debut album and as the release date approached the girls were getting antsy. Now only were they about to release their baby onto the world, but they were finally meeting CNCO today and discussing ideas for their tour.

*UMG headquarters in LA*

“Yoooo I’m fucking excited! Can yall believe our debut album is coming out in a couple days?” London said as she led a couple of her members to the elevators.

“Girl this tour bout to be lit as fuck. Bruuuh we’re going to fucking Sweden. I didn’t even think we had fans out there.” Zania said.

“Yeah you can thank that girl Astrid who made the finals. She was Swedish.” Avery said.

The girls finally heard the elevator ding at their floor and immediately got out. The girls walked into a meeting room where they saw their other 2 members Jolene and Siane bonding with the boys of CNCO.

“Finally you bitches show up. What took yall so long?” Siane asked.

“Avery thinks she’s still in Ireland and almost drove us into a damn ditch.” Zania said.

“You’re alive aren’t you? So quit complaining.” Avery said as she took a seat opposite Erick.

“Anyways if yall are done….THIS is CNCO ladies. This is Zabdiel, Christopher, Erick, Joel, and this is Richard.” Siane said as she pointed to each boy as she introduced them. Richard definitely caught Zania’s eye and she quickly averted her eyes so he wouldn’t catch her ogling him. Little did she know, he was checking her out too.

“And I’m Zania, and of course yall met Jolene and Siane. This is London and Avery.” She said as she gestured to her other bandmates. She was about to say something else when a tall, slender woman walked into the room followed by a man wearing the loudest shade of yellow and another woman dressed in all black.

“Okay let’s make this short and sweet. I’m Veronica Pierce, you can call me Vee or Ms. Pierce, never Veronica. Get it? Got it? Good. I am your tour  creative director. I’ll be working closely with you all to design your tour. And please, let’s all collectively agree on a specific concept. I will not have my people designing 2 separate stages. To my left is Chez Moa, your set designer. And to my right is Mel Carter she and her team will be styling you all so meet with her some time this week so she can get an idea of what you guys want and need. And ladies you have a busy weekend ahead. Friday you have your album release, press runs, then your album release party later that night. Saturday you’ll be on Good Day LA where you’ll be interviewed and then perform your lead single. Sunday you have a mini showcase where yall will perform some fan fave covers from the show and a few songs from the album, including your single with CNCO. You’ll have tomorrow, Wednesday, and Thursday to learn choreo for both performances. You’ll meet your choreographer tomorrow. Any questions?” 

The whole room was silent as both groups stared at Veronica and her associates. Zania raised her hand and the other members of Phoenix sighed. They knew how this shit was about to play out.

“So do we get to breathe? Or do we have to pencil that in too?” Zania asked. She knew she was being an asshole but this shit was ridiculous.

“Hmmmm you must be Zania Bloom. They told me you had a mouth on you. Listen up sweetie this my show. I call the shots and if they bother you, you can leave.” Veronica said. Zania smirked at her and leaned back in her chair.

“Nah I’m good. You may continue, Ms. Pierce.” Zana said. Sarcasm dripping from her words.

“Anyways that’s all for now. And remember this is a once in a lifetime opportunity. It can be taken away in the blink of an eye so watch yourselves.” Veronica spoke. She eyed the room but everyone knew exactly who that was meant for. She, Mel, and Chez exited the room in silence. Once they left, Siane burst out laughing.

“Yo I was clenching my fucking ass cheeks. She’s soo fucking hot.” Siane said.

“Keep it in your pants Siane. And Zania, girl why did you do that? You made that shit more intense than it needed to be.” London asked.

“You know me, I just had to say something. She was a bitch to us when we did the show, now they’re making her the tour director, wtf?” Zania said.

“Am I the only one who noticed that guy had on too much yellow?” Chris said. Everyone turned to him and started laughing.

“Look, I ain’t wanna say anything but he was so wrong for that. And it was a complete contrast to Mel who had on all black.” Jolene said.

“But real shit Vee ain’t no joke, she can make or break you. So just be careful.” Richard said. He made eye contact with Zania and she smiled at him.

“Oh I’m not afraid of her. She’s on a power trip so I’ll entertain her mess for the sake of this tour. You don’t have to worry bout me baby boy.” Zania said. Everyone got up to leave but on her way to the door she was stopped by Richard.

“I don’t know if you realized but I’m a grown ass man so that baby boy shit not gon fly with me.” Richard said. Zania was amused.

“Oh did I bruise your whittle ego babe? Look it’s not that serious-”

“But it is that serious so treat me with respect or keep it moving baby girl.” Richard said as he cut her off. He walked away leaving Zania stunned in silence. She walked back to her group and chuckled.

“Yall…...that guy Richard just lowkey put me in my fucking place. Oh this tour is gonna be so damn fun.” Zania said. She and her bandmates went to find their stylists to get started on designing their perfect tour outfits.

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It had been a full 5 hours and the girls were hard at work on their choreo. They were thankful that most of the songs they performed were their covers from their reality show so the moves were ingrained in their heads. They breezed through their choreo for their own singles and just finished running through them a final time before Laurieann Gibson called for lunch. The girls were beyond starved and as they walked to the cafe area of the upscale dance studio they saw CNCO walk through the door.

“Oop the boys are here.” Jolene said as she fixed her slightly messy hair. She made eye contact with Zabdiel as he and the other boys walked into the dance studio they’s just left.

“Ooooohhh do I sense a little crush? London teased.

“See that tall one, Zabdiel? I promise you, I will climb him like a fucking tree.” Jolene said, much to the amusement of her group. 

“Woah. Down girl, we have a whole ass tour to get through.” Avery said.

“Look if I can’t fuck Vee, you can’t fuck Zabdiel.” Siane argued.

“Girl. Zabdiel is fair game, Vee is our fucking boss. There’s a difference.” Zania said as the girls found a table near the back of the cafe. Avery went to order them some food and soon a waiter came back with a tray of fruit, some finger sandwiches, and a basket of the cafe’s homemade potato chips.

“This looks so good and I’m starving.” London said. As the girls ate they discussed the difficult choreo.

“I really thought Laureiann was gonna throw her shoe or some shit at you cuz you couldn’t get that one move down.” Siane said.

“I wish she would throw some shit at me.” Jolene said while the others laughed at her.

“What kind of shit yall think they’ll have us do with the boys?” London asked.

“Probably something sexy, ya kno to pander to the fans.” Avery answered.

“I heard that they’re partnering us up with them for the collab so whomever we pick is our dance partner for the song.” Siane added.

“Well. this should be fun.” Zania said. The girls chat a little bit longer before cleaning up and heading back into the dance studio. When they arrived they heard their song with CNCO playing. Laurieann was teaching them their choreo and once saw the girls she turned the music off and immediately began assigning pairs.

“Okay London you’re with Joel, Jolene with Eric, Zabdiel and Siane, Avery and Chris are partners and lastly, Zania, you’re with Richard. Everyone please stand with your partner. I’m only gonna do the dance two times and then you’re gonna do it and we’ll fine tune everything afterwards” Lauriann said as she read off her list. Before the girls could even process anything they quickly got into formation to do the choreo.

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A few hours later, both Phoenix and CNCO were spread out on the floor, exasperated. Lauriann told them to rest up and that she’d see them in the morning before she left them all a sweaty mess in the studio.

“I swear there are parts of me that are sweating I ain’t know could sweat.” Siane said as she attempted to lift her head to no avail.

“Girl I feel like my fucking feet are gonna fall off.” Zania said.

“I can’t feel my left asss cheek.” Jolene mumbled.

“Bruh at least yall voices aren’t hoarse as fuck.” Richard said.

“We should probably start heading out because I need an ice bath or some shit.” Avery said as she willed her body to move. Everyone followed suit and struggled getting to their feet. When the girls began packing up to leave, Zabdiel strolled on over to pull Jolene to the side. Zania looked on and smirked to herself. All she hoped was that whatever they had going on didn’t get in the way of her group’s path to success. She snapped out of her little daze just as Jolene made it back.

“Well, what was that about?” Zania asked.

“Girl he asked for my number. I was like no and he said can you really say no to this face. I almost fucking melted so I gave him my number. He’s so fucking cocky. I love it.” Jolene beamed. Zania could tell her friend was happy so she chose to keep her mouth shut. The girls finally made it to the elevator when Zania realized she’d left her phone in the dance studio.

“Shut yall I left my phone. Yall go on I’ll text yall once I get home.” Zania said.

“Girl we’ll wait, just hurry up.” London said. Zania jogged back to the building and ran up the stairs to be quicker. Once she got to the door of the studio she heard the boys talking.

“I really like that girl London. She’s classy, yet has a sexy side. I like that.” Joel said.

“Now see Jolene….them lips. I bet her head game on point.” Zabdiel said.

“Ew bro what the hell!” Eric exclaimed.

“I know you of all people are not talking.” Richard said.

“Even though I think she’s kind of a bitch, Zania fine as fuck too.” Christopher said.

“Yeah she is fine. Yall seen that ass? I’d love to get behind that.” Richard said. Zania had heard enough and walked into the room.

“Yall should really make sure that the door is completely closed before you talk about us. Anyways I left my phone and just came back to get it. Oh and Richard, Zabdiel? I understand that Jolene and I are attractive but please don’t talk about us like we’re pieces of meat mkay?” With that she grabbed her phone and walked out, leaving the boys a little dumbfounded. Once she got back outside she filled her girls on what she heard.

“You know. We should teach them a lesson.” Jolene said.

“Oop I sense an infamous Jolene Sanchez prank.” Siane said.

“Yep. Okay so here’s the plan.” Jolene explains the little prank they’ll play on the boys at the showcase. They’d messed with the wrong girls.

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The rest of the week went by in a blur and before they knew it, their album release day was finally here. It’d only been a few hours and their album was already number 1 on a few of the urban and pop album charts. Siane screenshot the Billboard charts where their album was number 1 and sent it to their group chat. She then called them all on a video chat.

“WAKE UP BITCHES! WE NUMBER 1 BABYYYYYY!!!!1!” She yelled into the phone. The others, as groggy as they were, laughed at how hyped their member was.

“Girl you are so lucky I was up getting ready or I’d curse you the fuck out.” Zania said. 

“Bitch whatever. Anyways I love yall so much! We’ve officially ARRIVED! Like we in the fucking building forreal now. WHEW! Let me start getting my shit together. See yall soon. Love ya! Siane said as she hung up the video call. The girls were buzzing and couldn’t be any happier that after almost 6 months, their hard work has finally paid off and that their fans love their album as much as they do. They couldn’t wait to see what lie ahead for them. They knew whatever it was, it was gonna be big.

[bngtanah]

I’m (not) With The Band. | o6

summary: Adrienne is an indie producer who is hired to help co-produce BTS’ next album alongside their resident producer; Suga. Despite the initial opposition on both ends, the pair spend time together, share a few stories, dreams and aspirations and begin to hit it off really well. Wrapped up in the whirlwind of late nights and heated disagreements and reconciliations, Min Yoongi and Adrienne Rolle find themselves growing closer and closer. One night they decide to cross the barrier between personal and professional and do their best make a relationship work against all odds.

pairing: idol!Yoongi  x OC

word count: 4.8k genre: drama, romance, smut(eventually)

chapters: prologue| o1| o2| o3| o4| o5| o6| o7| o8| o9| 10| 11|

warning: fluff, workplace relationship, slow burn, sexual attraction, ambw, developing relationship, hand holding, mentions of alcohol, karaoke, jealousy.

a/n: so i’m still not sure if anyone’s actually reading these multichapter fics. I may stop uploading them if there’s no interest but I’m not sure at the moment. hmmmm, anyway here’s the latest!

Yoongi never knew what to do with himself on his days off.

Any amount of free time he ever had was always spent in a studio, practice room or curled up in his bed trying to allow his body to catch up on hours of missed sleep. So in a sense his days off were never really 'his', there was always an interview to be given, a meeting to go to or some song or dance move to tweak that required his attention. Today, however, was different. He and the rest of his band members genuinely had the entire day off to do whatever they wanted within reason and Yoongi was drawing a blank on just how he was going to spend the 10 hours he had to indulge himself. Taehyung, Jimin, and Jungkook all suggested the seven of them do something together while the older boys seemed content with doing nothing but lounging around their dorm with the option of having dinner together later that day. Yoongi was unusually on the fence about his decision; had this been any other day he would have jumped at the chance to stay in bed all day but if he made the choice to stay at home he wouldn't get the chance to do the one thing he knew he wanted to do today which was see Andy.

He hadn't seen her in person in almost a week since she accompanied them to the commercial shoot and he almost lost control of his senses. They spoke over the phone or through text messages to exchange ideas and demos of new tracks but Yoongi didn't trust himself to be alone with her in his current state. He could still vividly remember the sensation of her touching him, her soft palms pressing against his biceps and gently moving over his skin. The memory took hold of him at the most inopportune times and made him lose focus on whatever he was doing at that moment. More than once he found himself being stirred awake in the middle of the night, drenched in sweat and a hand he didn't remember moving in his sleep wrapped around his shaft. Needless to say, he had it bad for Adrienne and his desire for her was only getting worse by the day.

"What do you think Yoongi?"

Jin asked and Yoongi's eyes went wide. He hadn't been listening to any of their conversation, even though he was sitting in the circle with everyone else. Once again the thought of Andy had taken over his thinking process. The way everyone was looking at him he assumed that he was meant to be the tie breaker in some sort of resolution that probably decided what they were going to do for the day.

"I really wasn't listening" Yoongi finally answered and scratched the back of his neck, "What's the question?"

"Ah, hyung if you're spacing out already maybe you should just go back to bed," Namjoon said with a small chuckle, although he was probably just trying to garner support for his choice of staying home.

"They want to go to Lotte World, for god knows what reason," Jin started.

"They've added new attractions!" Taehyung and Jimin interjected simultaneously.

"Whatever, the rest of us just want to stay here, what are you going to do?"

Yoongi ran his fingers through his fringe and pretended to be deep in thought, he personally had no desire to be surrounded by a bunch of strangers and children today but going to an amusement park seemed like something Andy would love if he knew her as well as he thought he did. He was certain that she hadn't been any farther than a few blocks away from the BigHit building and her apartment since she moved here and that was almost six months ago.

"If you guys are going to the amusement park, why don't you take Andy along with you? She mentioned something about wanting to explore the other day didn't she?" He replied flippantly, just gauge a reaction without making it obvious that he wanted her to come.

"She did say something like that," Jimin nodded "Would she want to go to an amusement park though? I thought she meant something like exploring the city."

"I think she would like it, she seems like the type to enjoy places like that doesn't she?" Namjoon responded hastily before Yoongi had the chance to answer and everyone else nodded in agreement, "Y'know...if you're going to invite her shouldn't we all go?" Namjoon didn't have a convincing reason for why they all should go just because Andy might be coming along but after his suggestion, Hoseok begrudgingly agreed to tag along and Jin complained about not wanting to be left alone in the dorm to clean.

That left only Yoongi, who shrugged and turned his head away from the group to conceal the small hint of a smile that attempted to fight its way onto his lips. Taehyung and Jimin cheered, loudly, and shared a hi-five once it was decided that everyone would be going just like they originally wanted and Yoongi was already standing to his feet and backing away from the group to call Andy before Namjoon had the chance to steal that opportunity from him as well.

"Yeoboseyo?"

This time, Yoongi allowed himself to smile and duck his head down just slightly at the sound of Adrienne's voice which he always found amusing. Her Korean skills were slowly getting better, and she had a marked improvement compared when he first met her,  but due to her accent, the way she pronounced certain words always sounded like she was singing a song. It was cute.

"Andy? Are you busy today?"

"Hello to you too Yoongi-ssi, I'm doing well thanks for asking," She replied dryly, " Uh, no I don't think so...I'm at the studio right now so that's all I planned on doing today.," Andy paused, "Why?"

"Well the kids want to go an amusement park and I'm being dragged along, so I wondered if you might want to come as well...? It would give us a chance to talk about some of the songs, right?" He quickly tacked on at the end to avoid seeming eager.

"An amusement park? That sounds so fun but someone might have to come get me, I got lost trying to find my apartment last night" Adrienne laughed and Yoongi grinned silently.

"I can do that," He offered while moving from the common room of their dorm into his bedroom to get dressed, "And you should be more careful going home in the night, why didn't you call someone?" He meant to sound concerned but his words only came off as chastising which made Adrienne groan softly.

"I found it eventually, leader-nim" She teased and snickered when Yoongi imitated her groan, "I'm a big girl I can take care of myself."

"Well, you should have no problem finding the amusement park by yourself then? I can leave you to it?"

"Hey...don't joke about that I'm really looking forward to going now."

"Don't start whining, I'm coming for you."

Adrienne squealed and hung up, allowing Yoongi to slip his phone into the pocket of his jacket and step back out into the common room. The boys were currently arguing about whether they should eat at the park before the rides or after instead of making preparations to leave, Yoongi informed them that he was leaving to guide Andy to park and glided out the front door before they had the chance to question him.

It only took him about ten minutes to reach the BigHit building but once he was  a few blocks away he could clearly see Adrienne standing on the sidewalk, impatiently bouncing back and forth on the balls of her feet.

"Andy!" Yoongi called out once he was closer, and then immediately remembered that he was out in public and in front of the office building where he worked and at any moment some crazy fan could descend upon him and ruin his day. He adjusted the snapback on his head and kept his head down until he was standing next to Adrienne.

"Are you alone? I thought everyone was coming?" Andy commented as she peered around Yoongi's shoulder and noted the lack of people behind him.

"They are, but it's easier to travel if we aren't all together" Yoongi reassured, "I told them to meet us at the park."

Adrienne nodded and quietly followed after Yoongi as he lead them away from the BigHit building and towards the nearest subway station. The amusement park was about an hour away from where they were by train so they needed to spend less time they spent loitering around if they wanted to make it to the park before it got too crowded.

"So did you lose a bet and have to come pick me?" Adrienne probed offhandedly as they rounded a corner.

"What? No, I offered to come didn't I?"

"Yeah....I just thought that maybe someone put you up to it."

Yoongi scoffed under his breath and glanced to the side, he assumed that she was joking around like usual but the neutral expression on her face seemed to suggest otherwise.

"Why would you think that?" He finally asked.

"No reason...." She lied, "Okay that's not true I sort of thought that you didn't like me? Like we get along fine as coworkers but I feel so close to the other boys and whenever I try to get closer to you it feels like you pull away from me a little bit? I'm probably just being silly."

Yoongi was flabbergasted but didn't allow the shock to show on his features. Her assumption was so far off from what he actually felt towards her it almost made him laugh.

"You are being silly" He retorted with a huff, "Why wouldn't I like you? Do you want me to start showing you aegyo every five minutes like Jimin?"

Adrienne shrugged, "It wouldn't hurt."

She laughed out loud when Yoongi turned to glare in her direction but stopped abruptly when his hand latched onto hers and he pulled her close to his side.

"Stay close to me" Yoongi instructed while they descended the set of stairs that lead to the subway tracks, "When it's crowded like this it's easy to get lost so try not to trail behind."

Adrienne nodded and reaffirmed that she understood what he said by squeezing his palm between her fingers twice, once again testing Yoongi ability to restrain his base desires. He knew he was playing a dangerous game by grabbing her hand in the first place but he genuinely didn't want her to get separated from him while they waited for their train.

Curious eyes followed the pair as they waded through the crowds to get to their platform. Yoongi's first thought was that someone might have recognised him which made him feel self-conscious, then he remembered that he was holding hands with Adrienne. The self-consciousness he had been feeling suddenly turned into annoyance at the thought of so many people staring at them for no real reason.

"Yoongi?"

"Hm?" He grunted, unaware of the scowl currently forming on his lips

"Are you alright? Because you're kind of squeezing my hand real tight."

"Oh.." Yoongi relaxed his grip on Andy's hand but didn't let it go "Sorry."

When their train finally pulled to a stop in front of them Yoongi lead Adrienne forward and gestured for her to stand in front of him since the car was crowded. When she did he put his hand over hers once she held on to the metal bar to steady herself and caged her in with his body. Doing his best to ignore the crackling of sparks that buzzed throughout him when she leaned back. Yoongi was a protective person by nature, he looked out for the people he cared about in small, simple ways. Yet, with Adrienne everything he did seemed so over the top to him. The fact that she thought he didn't like her still shocked him when he thought he was being so transparent.

The train made quite a few stops before Adrienne and Yoongi reached their own, allowing them to take a seat once the crowd thinned out. They made good use of the hour-long commute by sharing a pair of headphones and critiquing a new song that Yoongi had spent the past few days preparing. There was a rumour spreading that one of the songs they submitted last week had no chance of being approved so their workload didn't seem to be getting lighter any time soon.

Before they realised it, their stop came up and they exited the train car with the earbuds still connecting them. The park was only a short walk from the subway station and after a small altercation about Adrienne wanting to pay for her own ticket, they finally entered the amusement park. It was just as busy and crowded with children and families as Yoongi thought it would be.

Adrienne, on the other hand, seemed immensely amused by everything she set her eyes on. All the bright flashing lights and intoxicating loud music would probably be enticing to see for the first time for someone who enjoyed that kind of thing but Yoongi was already looking forward to leaving. The euphoric look on Adrienne's face was the only thing keeping him from complaining.

"So, everyone else isn't here yet," Yoongi said as they weaved in and out of the groups of people pooled near the popular rides. "What do you want to first?"

"I don't know! I have no idea what's here, you pick something."

Adrienne was practically bouncing with excitement and Yoongi wished he could share her enthusiasm. He had only been here once before so he wasn't familiar with the attractions either but one did catch his eye as he glanced around.

"Let's try this one," He gestured to his left and took Adrienne's hand once again. The crowds weren't nearly as thick in the direction they were heading but, Yoongi still felt it necessary to hold her hand. Adrienne didn't mind the action one bit.

"We can use this to see what's worth riding," Yoongi commented as the came to a stop in front of large balloon shaped ride with a basket attached. If Yoongi had been more perceptive in that moment he might have noticed how unusually silent Adrienne had become. She was almost frozen in place while Yoongi handed over the tickets then pulled her forward without even noticing the resistance. Yoongi assumed she was too excited to speak up.

His assumption changed when the balloon began to rise and he heard an almost silent and shrill scream come from beside him. When he looked over Adrienne's eyes were shut closed so tight there were beads of tears pooling in the corners. Her fingernails nearly pressing deep enough into her thighs to break the skin.

"Andy? Are you okay?" He asked softly but she shook her head vehemently, refusing to open her eyes.

"I should have mentioned this before" Andy stuttered in a hoarse whisper "I am t-terrified of heights."

"Shit," Yoongi sighed and looked around, it was too late for them to get off since they were already connected to the ceiling and he doubted the conductor would hear him over the music playing. When he look down at Adrienne again he could see that she was visibly shaking and Yoongi quickly did the only helpful thing he could think to do which was reach over and pull her against his chest.

"You don't have to-" Adrienne protested initially, "If I stay still it's not so bad, I can deal with it."

Yoongi only shook his head and shushed her as he held her body even tighter to him. "I'm sure you can but I'm here, you don't have to suffer alone." His voice was gentle and took on a tone that he hadn't used with Adrienne before, he was generally kind or unintentionally judgmental when they spoke. But the cadence of his voice at that moment was comforting and soothing. He even took it upon himself to stroke the back of her head a few times, the way she seemed to nuzzle into his touch made him stop before he got carried away.

Adrienne exhaled a shaky breath and relaxed in his embrace after a few minutes, leaning her full weight against him. She was still tense and trembling for the duration of the ride. Yoongi could feel her body jolt with fear whenever track made a turn or started to creak as he rested his chin gingerly on the top of her head. He made sure to talk the entire time; his voice soft and low as he pointed out random and incorrect facts about the park and other tourist attractions, hoping that the sound of his voice would distract her enough to put her mind at ease.

He wasn't sure if it was working but by the time they were nearing the end of the track, Adrienne had stopped trembling and Yoongi swore he heard her giggle at one of his terrible jokes. The machine jerked slightly when they began their descent and this time, Adrienne wrapped her arms around Yoongi's waist. Holding on to him tightly before the basket finally touched the ground and she practically jumped out of the contraption.

Yoongi trailed behind and frowned deeply when he watched her grab a nearby fence with both hands to catch her breath. He hated seeing her like this, especially knowing that he was partly to blame for it.

"Are you alright?" He asked from a few feet behind her, not wanting to crowd her space.

"I'm fine now, nothing to worry about" Adrienne answered, turning to face Yoongi with a brave smile. She definitely seemed to have calmed down but somehow Yoongi could tell that she was still shaken.

"I should have asked you before pulling you on that thing,"  Yoongi apologised and cleared some of the space between them by stepping forward and placing a hand on her shoulder.

Adrienne responded by nodding and staking a step forward. Her hand resting over his, curling her fingers around the back of his palm. "It's alright, really. You didn't know and it wasn't as bad as it normally is, thanks for holding me and sorry about the makeup on your shirt."

"Don't worry about it," Yoongi said, his voice still sweet as honey as he moved his hand up to cup her jaw between his palm. His thumb gingerly grazing over the swell of her cheek with care. "I'm just glad you're okay."

Adrienne nodded again and they shared a moment of tacit silence before the unmistakable sound of Taehyung and Jimin both yelling out 'noona'  made them separate and drop their hands.

"We've been looking for you everywhere!" Taehyung exclaimed once they were closer.

"Don't lie, we just got here," Jimin reminded him.

Adrienne giggled at their small squabble as the rest of the group soon joined them and they began moving forward to find one of the new attractions. Yoongi fell behind the group when Adrienne somehow ended up in the centre and Hoseok ended up walking with him since he wanted to be there even less than Yoongi did.

"Hyung.....is that makeup on your shirt?"

"Yeah," Yoongi replied nonchalantly.

"....What happened before we got here?"

"Not today, Hobi."

"Yah! You're cheating, there's no way you could have scored a perfect score on that song!"

"I'm a professional singer, what did you expect?"

Jungkook's smug expression made Adrienne scowl but she didn't have a good excuse to debunk him or enough evidence to prove that he actually was cheating. So she kept her mouth shut and leaned back into her couch as Jungkook ticked one of his eyebrows upwards and handed the microphone to Jimin.

All seven of them were piled into Adrienne's one bedroom apartment and crowded around her small dining table. Originally this was supposed to be a small gathering for Adrienne to get to know them better musically. If she was going to be writing songs for them to sing she wanted to make sure that they, at least, enjoyed what they would be singing. Somehow that reasonable meeting turned into a potluck dinner when she offered to make them a dish from her home country and Jin offered to make a Korean dish she'd never tried before. One thing lead to another and the karaoke machine Adrienne bought on a whim a few weeks ago was dug out of her storage closet and a competition began between the rappers and singers. With Adrienne joining the rappers to make it even.

The initial goal of the evening was long forgotten after they all shared the first two bottles of soju and once Adrienne whipped up a batch of her specialty cocktail to go along with her dish any hopes of actually making music was thrown out the window. She didn't mind, however, she wanted to learn more about their musical preferences and there was no better way to do that than watching everyone sing karaoke. Despite the fact that they were slightly inebriated and gave up singing seriously a long time ago.

"Ah, oppa, I didn't expect you to like this kind of song" Adrienne chuckled at Jin's next song choice, which was the Korean version of a Spice Girls song.

"Wait, you call him oppa but not me? We're both older than you!" Yoongi berated from beside Adrienne.

The slight slur in his words made Adrienne wonder if he was drunk already but he always sounded like that. His eyes were glossy and the apples of his cheeks were a faint red hue but he was still in control of himself.

"Jin-oppa treats me well, you haven't earned that title yet Yoongi-ssi." Adrienne playful replied, making Yoongi scoff and roll his eyes.

"I'm nice to you," Yoongi gasped and leaned closer "I even made a special Korean food for you to try."

"You don't cook," she teased, watching as Yoongi grabbed one of the unopened containers from the end of the table.

"I can cook! Here try this," Yoongi exclaimed and picked up one of the red-orange oblong shaped foods out of the container and held it towards Adrienne. She attempted to take it from between his chopsticks but Yoongi pulled away and shook his head.

"Not with your hands, your mouth."

"I can feed myself, y'know."

Yoongi exhaled and gave Adrienne a pointed look.

"What did you say you wouldn't do today?"

Adrienne pressed her lips together and glanced towards the floor like a child "....Complain."

"And, what are you doing right now?"

"Complaining....." Adrienne answered with a heavy and dramatic sigh.

Yoongi grinned widely, he was enjoying the fact that he was annoying her, even pulling his hand back a few times when Adrienne leaned forward to take a bite. It wasn't until Andy tapped him on the knee that he stopped playing around and scooted closer to her.

"Okay seriously, this time. I won't pull it back." He said as he brought the chopsticks close to Adrienne's mouth, "Open," Yoongi instructed as he gently held her chin between his thumb and index finger to keep her head in place. Almost as if out of habit Adrienne closed her eyes and opened her mouth, allowing Yoongi to slide the rice cake between her parted lips.

"Good girl," he growled in a deep and almost primal whisper, making Andy's eyes pop open. She'd never heard his voice go that deep and the way he looked at her once she finally looked in his eyes made a jolt of arousal run straight through her body.

"Should we leave you two alone?" Hoseok asked, as quietly as he could over Adrienne's shoulder with an innocent grin.

"Shut up," Andy and Yoongi replied, so in sync that it made them both laugh gently.

Over by the television, however, Namjoon wasn't so amused. He had been watching them for most of the night, flirting and stealing glances at one another when they thought no one was paying attention. The way Yoongi always managed to make sure Adrienne sat next to him and how Adrienne always found some excuse to touch Yoongi while they spoke. Namjoon wondered how he hadn't noticed it before but any doubts he had about whether something was going on between them had been disproved that night. He hated that he couldn't feel anything but jealousy when his friend looked happy. 

They were both his friend but Namjoon still couldn't muster up the effort to pretend like he wasn't hurting inside. To save himself from heartache as Adrienne began cackling at a joke that could not have been that funny, Namjoon got up and silently slipped out the door. He hoped that a walk in the fresh air would clear his melancholy thoughts, he hadn't been drinking as much as everyone else did since he had to be responsible. Like always. Even on their days off his role as leader never left him.

"Hyung! Where are you going?" Jimin, who had followed Namjoon out almost immediately after he left, called from behind him.

"Uh, just for a walk. It's getting a little loud in there."

"Ah I see, do mind if I join you?"

Namjoon did mind but he shook his head anyway and started walking forward with Jimin next to him. They walked in silence for a while, the sounds of the city being their only ambiance until Jimin looked over at Namjoon and sighed.

"You know there's nothing you can do right?"

Namjoon paused and tilted his head to the side "What are you talking about?"

"I'm talking about Andy-noona and Yoongi-hyung," Jimin replied in a matter of fact tone, "That's why you came outside isn't it? You like her."

Namjoon thought about lying but there was no point in lying to Jimin, he was always so good at reading people. "I don't want to feel like this but I just can't stop myself."

"That makes sense" Jimin nodded, "But I don't think they're dating, I could be wrong but we would be able to tell if they were actually dating."

Jimin was hoping to be reassuring but Namjoon didn't reply.

"I can't tell you that what you feel will quickly pass but eventually, it won't hurt anymore. Try channeling all that energy into just being her friend. There isn't anything you can do about what she feels." Jimin capped his words with a gentle hand on Namjoon's shoulders.

"Thank you, Jimin" Namjoon answered, accompanying his gratitude with a playful ruffle of Jimin's orange tresses.

They circled the block one more time before heading back to Adrienne's apartment where everyone save for Hoseok, Yoongi and Adrienne were passed out.

"I think it might be bedtime," Adrienne said to the pair once they were back inside.

It only took a few minutes to wake everyone up and herd them out the front door, even with Jin offering to stay and help clean and Taehyung offering to spend the night so he wouldn't have to get up. Before long they were all walking down the alleyway that lead away from Andy's apartment and headed home, except Yoongi who was still lingering around the front door.

"Did you forget something?" Adrienne asked when she noticed her front door was still open.

"No, I... wanted to ask you something."He looked uncomfortable, like he already regretted what he was bout to say.

"Okay."

"Why won't you call me oppa?"

Adrienne guffawed, thinking he was joking but she stopped once she noticed that he was seriously expecting an answer.

"I....dont know? At first, I didn't because I liked annoying you but now I guess I'm just used to saying Yoongi-ssi," Adrienne explained as she folded her arms and leaned against the door frame, "If it bothers you I'll try being more respectful-"

"It's okay, I just wondered if there was a different reason." Yoongi waved her off.

"Are you sure? I don't want to offend you."

"You're not...I like the way you say my name." Yoongi smiled and patted the top of Adrienne's head before running down the alleyway to catch up with the rest of the group who were not waiting for him.

Adrienne beamed, unsure why having him pet her like a puppy made her heart flutter so much as she closed the door behind her. She assumed she was overflowing with happiness with the thought that he might be feeling the same pull that she was. That contentment filled her with joy until she turned and laid eyes on the platters and plates of leftover food that all required her attention.

"Nope, I'm going bed."

[fullofmemories]

how do they see themselves?

how do they want to be seen by others?

what do they most regret?

do they express themselves through words or deeds?

do they listen to their head or their heart while making a decision?

do they have any routines?

what qualities do they admire in other people?

thoughts on superstitions or the occult? (do they believe, not believe, etc.)

if they had good news, who would hear it first?

when was the last time they laughed?

which memory stands out most clearly?

are they afraid of dying? why or why not?

would they let someone take the blame for something they did?

one thing they would hate anyone to know about them.

describe their aesthetic.

favorite color and the reason for it.

muse things

how do they see themselves? It’s changed a lot over time. She’s had to work hard to be less self-critical, to separate who she is from what she was told she was and taught she should be. Presently, her view is a bit more on the positive side of neutral. She sees herself less as someone broken or imperfect and more as someone who sometimes makes imperfect decisions. The things she’s been through have shaped her, for better or worse, and she’s worked to try and heal and accept what she has become. Of course at times she can still fall back to her more critical ways, but not nearly as often as before. 

how do they want to be seen by others? Well, she’s tried not to care so much anymore about how others see her. After growing up in environments where she was often perceived negatively, she just… stopped really caring, unless it’s someone she cares about. To those she does care about, she’d like for them to see her positively, but she knows she can’t control what others think. The one thing she never wants to be seen as is weak. She never wants to be an easy target - she learned the hard way that people will take the opportunity to hurt you, and it’s a feeling she doesn’t want to go through again. 

what do they most regret? There are multiple things she regrets, but there is one that stands out. While she was in HYDRA, one of the ways they made her use her powers was wiping memories of people for them. She didn’t have the power back then to clear someone’s entire memory, but she could still mess with them and take away certain things. Logically she did it out of self-preservation, it was HYDRA, she had to, but she knows she could have refused and fought back even if it likely would have ended in her death. Sometimes she wonders if it would have been more of a mercy to kill them, rather than mess with their heads and leave them there to be manipulated. 

do they express themselves through words or deeds? A bit of both, depending on what she’s expressing. She tends to talk more, but she’s never been good at verbally expressing strong emotions. If it’s a strong feeling, she’s more likely to express it through actions, body language, etc. 

do they listen to their head or their heart while making a decision? As much as she would love to listen to her head more, she can be a bit impulsive. If it’s a more relaxed decision she’ll take more time to think it out, but if it’s something she has strong feelings about - especially anger - she can oftentimes let her emotions get the best of her. 

do they have any routines? She has a routine she follows before she goes to bed and gets up in the morning, but other than that she isn’t overly organized. She knows how to manage her time, and aside from any planned things like work or getting together with friends she usually just plays it by ear.

what qualities do they admire in other people? Courage, kindness, thoughtfulness, intelligence, skill. And people who are unapologetically themselves. 

thoughts on superstitions or the occult? (do they believe, not believe, etc.) She doesn’t really have any strong opinions. Her experience with systems of belief was… not good, but as for other people she tends to think that as long as they’re not hurting anyone, she doesn’t really care. She doesn’t believe in any of it herself, but she doesn’t hold any judgement towards those who do. Even if it can seem a bit fantastical, she’s seen some pretty fantastical things in real life. 

if they had good news, who would hear it first? Well, if one of her friends was in a close proximity then probably them, but one of the first things she would do if she had the opportunity would be to text her best friend Ariane. They’re practically sisters, Katrina tells her everything. 

when was the last time they laughed? Well, if we’re talking just day-to-day, it was probably pretty recent and about either something she thought of or something a friend said. Laughter isn’t super uncommon with her! 

which memory stands out most clearly? Well… with her powers, a lot of them. But in terms of the ones that stand out more clearly, the ones that are tied to stronger emotions. Especially fear. The best example would probably be watching her friend, Wilhelm, die while they were in HYDRA. That sight would have haunted her even without her powers.

are they afraid of dying? why or why not? Not to a great extent. I mean, she doesn’t want to die, she would much rather not, but it’s not really a source of huge anxiety for her. With all of the times she’s seen death or come close to staring it in the face, it’s not something that really terrifies her anymore. If it happens, it happens. Worrying won’t stop it. 

would they let someone take the blame for something they did? Not if it was anything serious that could end in actual consequences. If it was something like a small harmless prank she might let someone get caught (and probably have a smug smirk while it happens), but if it was a situation where someone could actually get in trouble she would own up to her actions. She doesn’t want anyone to be hurt because of her in any way. (Well, unless she’s fighting of course.)

one thing they would hate anyone to know about them. Hmmmm… well, despite how reserved she is you would be hard-pressed to find something about her that’s still a complete secret from everyone. But I think speaking in terms of people in general, it can come back to the fact that she doesn’t want to be seen as weak. Putting that in terms of things people can know about her, she doesn’t want people to know if she’s afraid. She doesn’t want people to know that she’s not always as strong as she makes herself seem, and that her anger is out of fear. She doesn’t want people to know that they have the power to hurt her because she doesn’t want to give them that power. And if they don’t think they have it, they’re less likely to use it.

describe their aesthetic. A deep forest of trees, an old soccer ball covered in grass stains, bruised knuckles, a bloody nose, the rush of adrenaline that comes with an argument, broken stained glass windows, trembling hands, cleaning a wound and trying to be gentle even though you know it’ll still sting, a teasing smirk, rolling eyes, the sound of combat boots on pavement, stepping outside at night and feeling the cool breeze, dancing along to music while home alone, the little bit of pride that comes with realizing you never thought you would have made it this far (also a few songs bc i can’t resist: Rebel Girl - Bikini Kill, STFU! - Rina Sawayama, Tick Tick Boom - The Hives, Angel of Small Death and the Codeine Scene - Hozier, 50ft Queenie - PJ Harvey, and pretty much the entirety of the Every Where is Some Where album by K. Flay)

favorite color and the reason for it. Green!! When she was a kid, she spent a lot of time in the woods next to her house. It was the place she felt the safest and most herself. Green’s been her favorite color since she was a kid because it was the color of the forest!

[colde0channel]

[ENG] 180530 COLDE - DAZED INTERVIEW

Q. I was hesitant right before I came to see you. I wasn’t sure what questions to ask. I assumed ‘music’ was the only clue that explained your name ‘Colde’. 

Colde: That’s absolutely right. I never had the intention of creating a visual stereotype of the work I’ve been doing so far. I’ve rejected using other elements besides music.  It’s the same reason why I wear a hat/cap when I sing. That’s why I’m reluctant to be exposed in the media and I hardly do interviews very often. I’ve been doing that for the past two years, I’m now working as a solo artist as of this year. I thought this time, I’d have to brand myself differently. This is my first magazine interview with Dazed.  (t/n: He feels more confident performing on stage. He explained in previous interviews that he’s in fact a ‘timid’ person. This interview took place in 2018. Colde officially debuted with 0channel as ‘offonoff’ in 2016.)

Q. That sounds great. So let’s start this with, what’s the meaning behind the name ‘Colde’ ?

Colde: There are certain words that I love, and one of them is ‘Cold’ . When I visualised it as an image, I thought it fit well with my voice and appearance. I’m naturally not a bright person but the name ‘Cold’ goes well with a calm feeling. There are lots of meaningless typography (names) so that’s why I put an ‘e’ at the end of ‘Cold’. (Cold + e= Colde) (t/n: He mentioned on Red & Yella, that he got the name using a word generator. Although his name is Colde and with a voice that sounds ‘cold’ too, he wishes to bring warmth with his music.)

Q. What type of person is ‘Colde’ aka ‘Kim Heesoo’ like in real life? Are you as quiet and calm as when you sing?

Colde: I like to think positively, and I’m usually quiet. However once you get to know me, I like to joke around. I tend to discuss deeply about what I love;  like collecting vintage items, old books and I love taking film photos that I can directly connect to music. Which I then keep in a stack of archives. Also riding an old car. I write songs with that kind of inspiration. I know a lot of people have been curious. (t/n: In fact he has a tattoo of an ‘old car’ on his right arm. Also the film photos he took in Texas (2019) were used for his LOVE PART 01 EP cover)

Q. What other things do you do, when you’re not doing music?

Colde: Talking (to friends)? Or watching a movie. I enjoy drinking tea peacefully while reading books. I like going to clubs but only when it’s for work, like planning a performance or parties. (laughs)

Q. Don’t you sometimes dream of escaping in a fit of anger?

Colde: Hmmmm, well I would take a walk on the Han River Bridge and just sing. Then sing loudly until I can’t hear my voice and the sound of cars.

Q. When you know you have enough control of yourself, it’s not as easy as it looks. So far, do you think you’ve been able to compete only with music rather than revealing yourself (into the public). 

Colde: When me and 0channel moved together as a team, we solely focused on ‘offonoff’ as opposed to individuality. Our concept was not to let anyone know about us, like Margiela (brand). It was difficult to continue with that kind of concept as a crew (team). But with that, it’s constructed well in its own way. I would express it as ‘branding’.

(t/n: It’s almost saying as if ‘offonoff’ is a brand of its own. Martin Margiela who owns the brand, remains to be a private person.  “Constantly challenging people’s expectations, the label persistently presents the idea of anonymity within their collections, and often sends models down the catwalk with their faces concealed so the concentration is on the clothes.” source: vogue  )

Q. I agree. Nowadays, we do the branding ourselves. Offonoff and Colde’s music reminds me of the phrase you either ‘like it’ or you ‘crave for more’ . Without a doubt, both of you have different opinions. When you work on an album, how much do you or both express your own preference(s)?

Colde: For my solo music, they’re all centered around me so everything is decided by my opinion.  Whereas in comparison to teamwork (offonoff), our opinions are half and half. We combine both of our ideas, well enough to make it work. That’s why it takes longer to work on the album. Which is the same for other things besides music. From a month before the album was released, we gathered every week to have visual meetings. Discussing ideas on how we would like the music video(s) to turn out. So I think we have good teamwork and synergy based on that.  

Q. I heard that your first solo single ‘Your Dog Loves You’, from song writing to music video and album promotion was done without any label.

Colde: When we were still promoting as ‘offonoff’, our previous label (HIGHGRND) positively reflected the opinions of artists. So there weren't any conflicting issues. When I wrote this song (YDLY), I told myself “I’ll pursue this, there’s no one stopping me.”  I started working on the album (YDLY) thinking about my dog; Samna. Even though we’ve been apart for a while, I still feel a sense of happiness. I realised that love is truly incredible. I wanted to express the meaning of my love and gratitude (for her), so that’s why I wrote about Samna as my first single. ‘Your Dog Loves You’ is a song that conveys my honest self and emotions with sincerity. Thus recording (the song) is important when doing music.

Q. What type of branding will be added to this song? 

Colde: For this song, I think my real name ‘Kim Heesoo’ best represents me than Colde. To Samna, I live as ‘Kim Heesoo’ (laughs). We will be selling T-shirts with the release of this album. Some of the proceeds (from selling the shirts) will be donated to ‘CARE’, an animal shelter organisation. They also helped with the music video shoot. 

Q. Is Wavy a type of movement?

Colde: That is correct. It's not just a concept or a crew but it's going to turn into a ‘brand’. Essentially it will then form as an ‘official label’. I'm still thinking about how I'm going to make it interesting, once it's unveiled. I can't tell you any more details, please keep an eye out . (laughs)

Q. It seems that promoting the song strategically is as important as good music.

Colde: I guess you could say that. When me and 0channel made our first song (Mood. mixtape [2015]) as ‘offonoff’, we tried to complete it with a high quality visual. With that, we started a website for it. The goal was to make the site accessible for everyone to access, and I paid attention to the small details. (offonoffart.tumblr.com) Which I think played a part of the promotion. It’s the same process for my solo music. I’m not only good at making music, but I should get the most out of using webzine, youtube channel and SNS websites (instagram etc). I also like to observe and explore how people use these websites.

Q. Are there any public figures (eg. actors, writers, artists) or anything that you are interested in nowadays?

Colde: Vintage shopping. In my spare time, I would make a trip looking for only vintage items.

Q. In your opinion, is nostalgia for old (things) any special?

Colde: Without them (old things) what would be left after the person passes away? Money? I don’t think so. If I leave something that is special (to me) I’d regard it as if it’s my child. I believe that whoever is influenced by me, will be greatly inspired. If you have a distinctive preference, the meaning of life will look even more different. Then I’ll be able to explain that clearly to someone, before I die. 

Q. What’s the latest thing you’ve purchased?

Colde: Yesterday I bought a candlestick decorated with crystals on it. There’s a favourite shop that I like, whenever a new item comes in the owner would always contact me first. I also bought postcards and old magazines.

Q. Does that kind of preference also similar with fashion?

Colde: I love anything vintage in Japan and the UK. When I talk to my friends, ‘vintage’ is always the subject of the conversation. (t/n: He visited both countries before.)

Q. It is evident that cool musicians like you dress well. I think that’s why we’re able to film Eli’den Men with you today. 

Colde: I’ve been offered a lot of fashion photoshoots and I’ve disappointed many, even though it’s a great opportunity. I had to decline them. I’d rather make a proposal for myself first, planning to do projects which connect music and fashion. Having the chance to work on Eli’den Men, I was so excited that I knew it would be fun. Even wearing eleven outfits was a challenge for me. 

Q. How do you feel after filming it?

Colde: I feel great because I got to wear many pretty clothes. (laughs)

Q. What is the relationship between fashion and music for you? 

Colde: I think my own criteria of fashion determines whether I'm an artist or not. Anyone can identify if an artist’s identity is connected to fashion. It doesn’t necessarily mean an artist has to dress well. I don’t think I can look my best, without that connection between work and clothing. It’s very important to show your personality through fashion. For example, when performing as offonoff’s Colde, I would wear my cap pretty low. Because that’s the character I set up for myself. I’m the type of person who doesn’t want to make eye contact with people, who’s also timid, passive and a reserved person. But in reality I’m gloomy and an introvert.  After becoming a solo artist it’s getting better, now that I’ve started to open myself up to the world.  Hence why I decided to appear on the show ‘BREAKERS’. The process of opening myself is revealed through fashion.

Q. I can feel the sincerity from your honesty. From now onwards I have high hopes of what’s going to happen next (for his next music release). 

Colde: For my next second single; the keyword is  ‘Fashion’. (Colde - WAVE [EP]) These days, I’ve been so immersed in my work. I’ve been planning this (album) since last year. It’s going to be a lot of fun. I’m planning to get a head start on this around June to July.

Q. So will we meet again next month?

Colde: I’d love that (smiles). I think it’s more meaningful if it’s with DAZED. Please look forward to my new music and upcoming projects.

✧ original source here

Translated by @colde0channel.                                                                          Please credit when reposting. Thank you!

[nyarisu]

‘96 Bizzare Festival liveblogging?

Ok let’s do this (is it even called liveblogging if I just post it all at once I want one single clean post I like writing things in a doc beforehand and preferabbly without too many spelling mistakes my hands stopped cooperating a year or so ago). I tryed liveblogging only once before (Paris) but somewhere in the middle I started paying more attention to the live and less to the writing? XD

Rammstein

Paul with sunglases looks badass

I kind of forgot how cool this song is?

Asdfghjkl Till’s duck face after the first „Rammstein” was like „we’re cool and we know it” (I find myself doing some of his faces while listening to certain songs, this is one of them)

Everyone wears glasses but Schneider, you’re breaking the combo (Flake has glasses cause he blind so it counts)

Still... what is with RZK and that wierd skirt?

Lol Paul trying to be serious

Like really what can be more cool than a man on fire? They really nailed it with that effect (though I preffer the other coat)

Yes, of course, Richard’s leg

Schneider’s pants were Reise Reise inspired. Trully a man ahead of his time

Ugh Schneider’s posture is so bad I don’t even care if that’s correct for drumming or not someone not staying with their back straight is one pet peeve of mine

Der Meister~

„and the crowd goes cRAZY!!”

(do people really want to hear me fangirl over Till now that he’s removed his glasses? ’96 is not ’98 but he’s still damn hot)

Nice gestures tho

Yes this is a really nice and energetic song

And of course Till has to ruin something poor micstand and Paul running out of the way XD

DON’T HIT YOUR HEAD YOU DUMB BABY

Oh~ now I noticed his... tank top? Whatever he’s wearing has the sides held by strings or something hmmmm some scissors could come in handy rn ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Lauft lauft LAUFT  L A U F T

„euch zerbrechen~”

I like when Schneider does this thing when he’s using only his legs but he’s hitting the air with his arms on rhythm

What is under that thing Reesh? XD

He ran away

Weisses Fleish

Everytime I hear the intro I can’t but think of that gif/tags

Really weird angle for Schneider?

Even low res you can see the Kruspe Tiddies XD

THE BOOTS! I love the sparkling boots so much too bad they didn’t film his entry he probably jumped from a speaker or rolled or something

I love how Till’s so expresive with his hands you can see he’s feeling the song

Naww Paul and Reesh going in a circle<3 two circles

And then of course, Flake’s spazzing dance (wierd cyptid vibes)

The till hammer doesn’t have nowdays the same energy it used to have (understandably so)

Oli looks so cool. Also baby

Ache zu Ache

I love the till hammer during „Auf dem Kreuze lieg' ich jetzt” why didn’t the film that (ok but Flake was dramtic enough during that to excuse it XD)

And everyone’s favourite part<3 „Ich komm wieder” and mine especially „In zehn Tagen” which usually has Till counting on his fingers to ten and that’s cute

Where did he disappear? Oh there he is

The whole little play/act before the last chorus was cute

„Ich komm wieeeeedeeeeeer”

Seeman

*doll on stage* that’s Seeman right? („it’s a titties out kind of song” XD)

Oli’s intro is always so nice<3

Poor doll

I’m curious what was the general reaction when they heard Till’s melodic voice on Seeman (tho I guess they’d already knew so the shock wasn’t probably that big)

Yes Till I know you have nice muscles you don’t need to rub that in my face

*tries not to comment on the Kruspe Tiddies again*

Is it just me or Till’s general size is a little smaller that let’s say even LAB?

(god I hate the crotch thing on those pants)

The way he mimics with „kalt” breaks my heart a little bit

DRSG

The intro<3

Flake is spazzing again XD and Paul and Oli cool as always~ The whole live seemed a lot more serious than what we’re used to

This song has such a uinque energy about it

What are Paul and Richard giggling about? Anyway, cute

Flake and Schneider have totall opposite energies

Of course something HAD to blew up

It’s funny when he goes into till hammer only to stop after 2.5 seconds XD

Is so wierd to hear this song live without that pause in the middle I just expect some sort of dramatic break XD

„hinterheeeeeeerrrrrrrRRRR”

Laichzeit

AND NOW MY BABY

The intro! The keyboards! The fucking lyrics!

A real handbanger and one of the few songs that make me stand and actually want to dance

It’s cute how he gestures on „au dem boden” like he’s actually trying to convince you they fell on the ground

Till your slut is showing again XD

„AUGEN”

And that shot of people dancing! I’m not saying that’s one of the reasons this live recording (of the song) is one of my favourites but it probably is (this, and the clearly 90’s... well, everything XD)

DON’T rip your hair out. Bitch.

„laichzeeeeeit. es ist laich.zeit”

Wow Paul and Schneider have such energy you’re filled with it just by watching them but I’m still going to sleep after this

Honestly the best way to listen to this song is either with your eyes closed or dancing like mad (preferably while high? Will have to test that sometime)

Also the lyrics! They are the best thing to exist I want to know exactly what the fuck went through Till’s head when he wrote this (do I really want tho?) and what the general R+ reaction was

I love the keyboards on this song so much

„uberall fischmilch” lol ok :))

Those fire alarms are fantastic because they are so loud here but I think you can barely hear them on the album version?

The last verse sounds so good it’s so melodic compared to the rest of the song and also in general. Till’s voice conveys the sadness so well here

And that little dance<3

I like when someone goes to play their instrument beside the drummer like „I’m here bby you’re not alone”

 I went to watch Laichzeit again because *chef fingers kiss*

(@theelliottsmiths  did I do it right? XD)

[banacafe]

KPOP BLOGGER TAG!

Tagged by my one of my fav and precious BANA @monbebana. Thanks, sweetie. Sorry it took my a million of years to complete it.

1.) 5 favorite groups?

Just B1A4

2.) Top 5 on your bias list?

Only CNU

3.) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

B1A4 because I always feel happy and hopeful whenever I see them and listen to their songs (there’s more, but I am going to keep it short).

4.) Ult Bias and why you love them?

❤ CNU ❤ I am not mother material at all, and I admire men who are. CNU is so caring and motherly. Also, I’ve been through a lot with CNU as my bias in this short span of time, and this makes me love him more because it reminds me that we are fighting through hardships together. (I’ll write more whenever I find better words. I am really bad at expressing, so you’ll be like wtf am I reading right now lololol).

5.) Favorite Kpop Meme

I’m not into meme, so don’t have any.

6.) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

There are tons of photos I love from CNU, and yes I struggled. But when I read the question, this photo came up to me first. This is my favorite because CNU during Who am I and Sweet Girl Era are my fave, and this was one of the first concert I saw. Also, this happened to be when CNU was singing 10년 후 (one of my fav B1A4 song). Lots of memories ©

7.) 5 Favorite Kpop MVs

Still, B.A.P’s Coffee Shop, B1A4 A Lie, and I’m not into MVs, in fact, I never even watch them lol

8.) 10 Favorite Kpop songs? Hmmmm….this is a challenge because most of my favorite songs aren’t “Kpop” (it is Korean music but not sung by idols if that’s what we define “Kpop”).

B1A4 - Only One

B1A4 - Seoul

B1A4 - (If) 너만있으면

B1A4 - 행복하자

B1A4 - 10년 후

B1A4 - Aerumade

B.A.P - Pray

B.A.P - Goodbye

..........eh..........

....struggling....

9.) Favorite Kpop crack video?

No idea what that is

10.) Favorite content creator within the fandom?

@hwengstars / @orange-sandeul / @cybercnu / @shinwhoohoo / @shinwoos (even though she’s inactive but her blog is full of awesome contents) / @koiyomi / and I wish I was here when there were B1A4 content creators. But if you know any who makes B1A4 gifs/contents, please let me know :)

11.) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

Only BANA

12.) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

F*ck: CNU

Marry: B1A4 CNU aka Shin Dongwoo from Cheongju

Kill: CNU’s bad habits (e.g. always coming late and eating loudly)

13.) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

Any B1A4 members except for Baro lololol (Baro and I are so alike, and I’ll be terrified to have a best friend who is almost exactly like me. I can’t even deal with myself ^^;;) and day6 Sungjin

14.) If you could date any idol, who?

I’ll take my chances with CNU.

15.) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

All of B1A4’s discography

Agust D

16.) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

Whenever I try to be a hard stan, I can’t help but see CNU and his squishy face and his cuddly existence, I turn all soft. Truly a failed hard stan lolol I’m a soft stan in disguise.

17.) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

Instead of CNU, it’s my sunshine Sandeul.

18.) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

I’m not understanding this question...

19.) Favorite vocalist?

CNU, Sandeul, B.A.P Youngjae, and Leo

20.) Favorite Rapper?

Bang Yongguk, Baro, Suga, and Chanyeol

21.) Favorite dancer?

Kai and NCT members are pretty sharp

22.) Things you have in common with your ult?

I am so the opposite from CNU, but I’ll say that it’s our slowness, how direct we are, and we are realist thinkers.

23.) The most beautiful trait any idol can have?

Remaining humble

24.) Songs that will always make you jam along?

Any B1A4 songs

25.) Your worst wrecker?

TO THIS VERY DAY: YOO YOUNGJAE

26.) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

B.A.P LOE 2016

B.A.P Party Baby 2017

B1A4 4nightsintheus 2017

day6 live and meet 2018

day6 Youth 2018

BTS Love Yourself Speak Yourself 2019

And if you count future concerts, it’ll be day6 Gravity in SF

.................AND I WISH B1A4 CAN HAVE ANOTHER ONE........*CRIES*

27.) Favorite choreo?

Lonely (B1A4) and A Lie (B1A4)

28.) Favorite live performance?

B1A4 - 10년 후

And there are more but my mind is just blah.

29.) Favorite debut mv?

Not a fan of MVs

30.) Recommend a rookie group!

I don’t listen to any new group.

31.) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

I don’t I can listen to a Kpop song for the rest of my life.

32.) Tag some cute mutuals you’d like to get to know better (and to do this challenge)!

I am tagging ALL MY MUTUALS AND FOLLOWERS. Stay beautiful, everyone!

[theswiftarmy]

#5 - The Call

The phone rang.  Scooter placed the caller on conference call.

“Sara?”

“Hi!”  Her voice cheerful.  “Is now a good time to chat?”

“It’s as good a time as any.”  Scott replied still standing by the window, watching the crowd of Swifties outside the Big Machine offices grow by the second.  The street was filled.  Every single one of them wearing a shirt with the words ‘FREE TAYLOR SWIFT’ plastered over Taylor’s face on the front.  The back read, ‘love her, she’s a lover’.  That’s actually pretty witty, Scott thought, and then he wondered where they ordered so many shirts in such a short period of time. Talk about speedy order fulfillment.

     “Yeah, about that...”  One of Sara’s tactics was to make her opponent question what she said next.  You have to make people second-guess themselves, and then hit them straight up with an honest question.

     “What does that mean?”  Scooter asked.

     “Quick question for you, do you have the masters there in the office with you?”

     Scott turned from the window, he pointed to the phone and made a scissor motion.  Scooter shook his head back, ‘I can handle this!’ he whispered.  “They’re in a… Safe location.” He finally replied.

     Justin nodded, the cat on his lap also nodded.

     “Let me ask you this, would you be willing to bring them with you to the negotiation?”  She inquired. As if he had already missed an appointment that had been previously set.  Another of Sara’s tactics, make them think they had missed something that never existed in the first place.

     “What negotiation?  There was no mention of a negotiation before this moment.  I was told Taylor just wanted to talk over the phone. You want us to go out there?”  Scooter asked.  “With HER army of fans?”

     Taylor suddenly chimed in on the call, “Scared of meeting me face to face, Scooter?”

     Scott rushed across the room, leaving his post at the window, he slammed his finger down on the red END CALL button disconnecting the call.

     “What the?  As I said before, I can handle this!  You don’t own this company anymore, SCOTT.  I do!”

     “I’m feeling too much hostility here… I’m not quite sure I dig this vibe.”  Justin commented.

     Scott brushed off Scooter and walked back to the window.  “Scooter, you’re not going to like this.”

     “What?”  He jumped out of the expensive leather chair and rushed to the window.

     “Okay, What is she doing?”

     “Live streaming.”  Justin clued them in, “Just got a notification from my boy, Ed.”

     “Taylor’s live streaming?”

     “I told you I’d get the inside moves.” Justin made a Billie Eilish ‘DUH’ face.

     “Thanks Justin.”  They both replied in unison, “Real helpful.”

     “I thought you said things were going well between the two of you, as far as talks about her masters?”  Justin asked.

     “Umm, yeah, like, two weeks ago—”  Scooter replied.

     “Oh.  Well, a lot can change in two weeks… Oooo, that’s a good song idea, mmmmm baby… Uh huh… A lot can change in two weeks… Mmm hmmmm… Oooo ooo ooooooo.”  He broke out into song.

“Sounds good.  We’ll get you in the studio as soon as this Taylor thing is over.”  Scooter said in a distracted manner.

“I already just live streamed it to my Beliebers from my second phone that I use for live streaming, they’re working on the beat for me right now.  I watch streams on my first phone, make streams on my second one.”

“How many phones do you have?”  Scooter asked.

“Twelve—One for each day of Christmas.”

“Really?”  Scott asked, genuinely.

“No, of course not, they each do different things.  Come on pops!  Keep up with the times!  Speaking of live streams, this live stream of Taylor is weird, yo.  She’s just singing one of her new songs off the Lover album and everyone is putting a heart emoji on it.  But she has an old song playing in the background, why would you sing a new song over an old song?  I mean I get what Kanye did with rapping over Gold Digger—Ray Charles in the background, that was genius, but your own song?” Justin started to sing along with the old Taylor Swift song in the background of the video but stopped when he noticed everyone looking at him. “Sorry, that was weird, I guess I can’t help myself. It’s just such a good song!  I feel like the old stuff is always classic, for any artist really.”

Scott and Scooter looked over at the other man sitting quietly on the couch beside Bieber then back to Justin.  “Maybe she’s trying to start a new trend… Artists should always be trying to reinvent themselves, keep their fans hooked and coming back for more.” Scooter stated.

“True, true, but this is just weird.  It’s eerie.  Like she’s doing it on purpose, trying to make something happen.”

The expression on Scott Borchetta’s face changed to a much more concerned one.  As though he was picking up what Justin was putting down.  Almost as if he knew exactly what Taylor was doing by singing to her followers placing the new song over the old track.

The phone rang again.

“This time, let ME handle things!”  Scooter yelled at Scott as he pushed the answer call button and placed her on speaker.

“Hi!” It was Sara Swift, again.  Her voice sounded, slightly, different this time.  He could hear Taylor singing in the background of the call, the same feed as the one from the audio of the live stream, he couldn’t tell exactly why but, Sara sounded different.  Then it clicked, Sara’s voice sounded almost Siri-like, Sara “Siri” Swift, Scooter thought. That’s weird.

“Hello Miss Swift.”  Scooter spoke in his usual cordial tone.  No one makes business deals bossing people around.  You’ve got to be friendly to get them on your side.

“Scooter.  I think we got cut off there.  Everything okay at the office?” Sara spoke in her usual cordial tone with the Siri like addition to it.  No one makes business deals bossing people around, you’ve got to be friendly—Get them on your side, she also thought.  Two can play at this game.

“Yes.  We’re fine.” He glanced at Scott, Justin, and a legal representative from the Carlyle group.

“Oh, good.  Just to confirm, where did you say the masters were again?”

Scooter hesitated; he didn’t want any more bad blood on this call after Scott hanging up on her.  “They’re right here with me in the office.”  He lied.  “Safe and sound.  I’m looking at them right now, actually!”

“Good.”  She replied.

Just then, a loud bang could be heard from below them.  It was coming from the ground floor of the Big Machine offices.

“Oh, my, what on earth could that loud sound have possibly been that sounded like someone trying to break down a door—”  Sara asked, innocently, in a tone that indicated she already knew the impending answer.

“Whoa, you guys NEED to see this!”  Bieber lifted his cat off his lap and placed Sushi on the couch beside him, the cat jumped from the couch to an adjacent coffee table and began to pick through some leftover sushi— I mean what did you expect to happen when you leave sushi around with a cat named Sushi around?  Justin raced towards Scooter and Scott, oblivious to his cat beginning to gnaw on the very last Alaska roll in the container.  Boy that’s a tongue twister.  Last-a-las-ka-roll, say that ten times fast!

Scott viewed the phone screen from an angle while Scooter took hold of the phone.  “They’re about to bust through the main front office doors—” Scott commented in a matter of fact voice as Justin doubled back to try and save his sushi from his cat Sushi, it was too late.  The sushi was gone.

“You realize we’re watching our own demise, right?”  Scott continued speaking in a voice reminiscent of Professor Snape from The Harry Potter series.

Scooter tossed the mobile phone across the room back to Bieber and leaned in towards the conference telephone device sitting on the desk, “Sara, tell your client to stop this nonsense.  This is not how you act professionally.  We’re talking!  Taylor said she wanted to talk, SO, let’s TALK!”

“Mmmm… Baby, let’s talk…”  Justin started to sing again.

“Not now Justin.  Not now.” Scooter said, ruffled.  “Tell Taylor to get back on the phone.”

Sara noted Scooter’s agitation and continued in her cordial cheerful Siri-like voice, “I’m sorry, Scooter, I don’t tell Taylor what to do, she outranks me—Taylor outranks us all…”

Another loud bang from downstairs could be felt beneath their feet.

“Sara, what does that mean?  Listen, we’re all adults here.  Just… just, tell Taylor to stand down, tell her to command her Swifities to STAND DOWN—“ The call ended abruptly.  “Hello? Miss Swift?  Sara?  Are you still there?”

Scooter sat for a minute dumbfounded.  What the heck is happening?  This is not real life, right now… This is…  Madness. He thought.

Another loud thunderous thud followed by the sound of broken glass shattering on the floor “They’re through the first floor doors!  They’ve broken through all the windows!”  Justin held up his phone to display the live stream feed.

“Quick everyone, to the helipad on the roof!”  Scott shouted to the group.

“You have a helipad on the roof?  Of Big Machine Records?  That wasn’t on the tour when I bought the place.”  Scooter questioned, perplexed.

“It’s a new addition.”  The Carlyle legal rep explained.

“Well how convenient.”  Scooter replied.

Another loud bang as a second wave of Swifties poured in through the entrance.  They could hear chanting in the distance growing louder, “TAY-LOR! TAY-LOR! TAY-LOR!”

“Uh, guys… Let’s get moving here!”  Scott screamed out, raising his voice.

Justin grabbed Sushi, his cat, not the leftover container of sushi, just in case anyone needed clarification; they rushed to the back stairs and climbed their way up to the helipad on the roof.  The Swift Army continued to swiftly storm the Big Machine offices, a full-scale attack.  

Scott led the pack as they emerged on the roof to a waiting helicopter, blades starting to spin faster and faster.

As the blades whirred, they created a heavy wind, making it hard to walk. Justin’s cat jumped out of his arms as they neared the helicopter on the rooftop helipad, “Oh no!  SUSHI!”  The sound of the helicopter scared the cat back to the edge of the open rooftop access door.

“Justin, we have to go!”  Scott yelled over the sound of the spinning blades.

“No!  Not without my cat!”

“JUSTIN, LEAVE THE CAT!”  Scooter ordered.

“I have to go back!”  Justin pleaded.

Just then the first wave of Swifites arrived at the door, one of them scooping the cat up in her arms.

“GET IN THE HELICOPTER JUSTIN!”  Scott and Scooter yelled to him as he looked longingly back at his cat.  A Swiftie smiled at him as she held the cat in her arms, he recognized her, a once faithful Belieber, but she had been turned… She was now a Swiftie soldier.  

Justin pushed back tears; he ran to the door of the helicopter and was helped inside.  The door slammed shut and the helicopter lifted into the air just as a flood of Swifties poured out onto the helipad.  They formed a semicircle around the doorway, Taylor strode slowly from the entranceway walking with prowess and purpose, walking… with power—with pride. She was handed the cat by the Swifitie soldier who had captured the prisoner of war.  Taylor continued her live stream now with Justin’s feline friend in the frame.  She held Sushi up for the camera to see and walked to the edge of the rooftop and held the cat high in the air, the Swifties in the streets below Big Machine cheered at sight of the cat capture.  The KatyCats and Animals also yelped and howled and yelled out.  The Lion King song played.  No, I’m just kidding, The Lion King song didn’t play, but that would be funny if it did, right?  It’s like when Simba was held up on the rock—Wait, why am I explaining this, you know what reference I’m making here.  Anyway, back to the story—

An officer of The Swift Army emerged from the rooftop doorway slightly out of breath, “The masters aren’t here, Taylor.  We searched the office, we’ve searched all of Big Machine.  They lied.  They must have them!”  She pointed to the helicopter in the sky hovering above them.

Taylor smirked.  “That’s okay, we have something they want, now.  Don’t we, widdle kitty, awww…  You’re a little cutie, aren’t you?  You’re going to stay with us for a while, we’ll make you an honorary Swiftie kitty.” She said with smile.  The Swifties around her smiled back.  Taylor handed the cat to a team of KatyCats working in alliance with the Swifties.  “Keep that cat safe.  NO ONE lets that cat out of their sight.”  Taylor commanded.

The KatyCat kitty cat guards nodded back.

“Also, put it in a really cute cage.  And go get some treats and fancy food and toys for the cage too—My heart melts. Such a cute cat.”

“Yes Taylor.”  They replied before ushering the cat away.

@taylorswift

[the-pen-and-the-stethoscope]

my official, uninterrupted, unapologetic thoughts on the album Lover by Taylor Swift as i listen in its entirety at 6:30 am on Friday morning after working until 10 pm the night before.

Before I start I am already emotional. my hands are sweating. my heart is pounding. are those tears in my eyes or am i exhausted? idk. ok here we go...

1) fuck yes. snaps. love a song with snaps. A BEAUTIFUL BREAKUP SONG ABOUT HOW YOU JUST DONT EFING CARE ANYMORE. ahhh i love how there is like this build up and you think it’s going to be a headbanger of a chorus but then it just stops and it’s like...oh wait actually this is v calm right now i just dont care about you anymore. but also OMG SHE JUST LAUGHED ummm also I love how upbeat this is. i guess what im saying is that WANEGBT walked so I Forgot That You Existed could run. 

2) MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. this song will always bring me back to being on an airplane flying to Peru because it is literally the only song I listened for my entire trip to Peru last spring. but also from the moment it came out I was obsessed with the unapologetic happiness in the song and it’s all about YOURSELF. WAIT WTF WHERE’S THE SPELLING LINE THATS MY FAVORITE TO YELL????? TAYLOR WHERE IS IT??? WHERE IS IT??? i’ll be taking this up with my lawyers. your people will hear from my people. 

3) well i just went back to my spotify and REALIZED THAT IT WAS ON FUCKING SHUFFLE FUCK ME. OK WE ARE STARTING AGAIN. 

1) SECOND LISTEN THOUGHTS ON IFTYE: this song is just the perfect beat. i just realized that she laughs TWICE actually (maybe more??) and this is my official petition that she laughs during all live performances. thanks. 

2) OMG REP VIBES WITH THAT LOW BASE SYNTH. oh wow I love this transition much more than the one to ME! I’m glad that was on shuffle the first time. This literally could be a REP song. GETAWAY CAR THAT’S WHAT IT REMINDS ME OF! OH. MY. GOD. WELL THANKS FOR PUTTING A REP SONG ON LOVER OK IM NOT OK. did she just say “loving you aint the worst thing...you are the worst!”? Idk I will evaluate the lyrics a second (third...fourth...fifth...) time. 

3) AHHHH LOVER OMG OK LET ME JUST STARE AT MY CEILING FOR THIS ONE. “Swear to take this magnetic force of a man” is up there on favorite tswift lines. cant decide if i want this to my first dance song at my wedding OR the song that plays near the end of the reception when everyone is tired and like all the couples come up and dance and so then it’s like you get to see how many people are in love OR the song that i save for afterwards when we are alone in our hotel room. good to know i’ve got options. 

4) god damn HERE WE GO WITH SOME REP VIBES. (to clarify any deep base pulsating beat is rep vibes to me apparently) lyrics: “they’d say I played the field before I found someone to commit to” “every conquest I had made would make me more of a boss to you” “they wouldn’t shake their heads and question how much of this I deserve” “I’D BE JUST LIKE LEO” GOD THIS IS AMAZING I’M OBSESSED. “If I was a man I’d be THE MAN” 

5) OMG THE ARCHER. WAS LISTENING TO THIS LAST NIGHT AND THINKING LIKE....THIS MIGHT BE FAVORITE ONE????? I KNOW SO SO EARLY BUT SO FAR IT HOLDS UP IT’S JUST LIKE....THAT SLOW BUILD I LOVE IT. EVERY TIME I LISTEN THERE IS A DIFFERENT MEANING. AMAZING SONG TO RUN TO LIKE ON REPEAT. WHICH IS HARD TO FIND. PROBABLY HARDER TO MAKE. I STAN. 

6) THERE YA GO MISS SWIFT WITH THE SNAPS AGAIN. ohhh hmmmm someone’s horneyyyyy this song feels like a whisper...like you’re at a bar and you are like pointing out this hot guy you’ve been seeing around and you whisper to your friend ‘that’s the one’. OMG BRIDGE. WAIT WHAT OMG WAIT OMG WHAT BRIDGE BRIDGE BRIDGEEEEEE. well okay I kinda feel like a huge wind just knocked me off my feet. i’m slightly stunned. no time to process before...

7) OMG TALK ABOUT REP VIBES. This could be a beautiful music video. This is like -- i have a lot of feelings none of them have words but this song has a BLACK vibe and a DARK vibe and i’m picturing a high school shrouded in clouds at night. running through the hallways in a ripped dress. Wow wow wow. 

8) oh good some happy songs again. ahhhhhhhhh now THIS I CAN DANCE TO. AHHHHHHHHHHH I’M IN LOOVE. this is so freaking romantic. OH ANOTHER BRIDGE FROM BRIDGE CITY. Taylor like you brought it with these bridges girl. OMG THE SLOW FADE AWAY AT THE END...SOBBING.....

9) THE BEST PART ABOUT THIS IS I’M ONLY HALFWAY DONE. Oh wow is this song going to make me cry? just obsessed with how etherial this is. wow omg this is like the most complex love story ever written in a song ever. so many twists and turns i’m just sitting here asking questions!!! What happened on cornelia street that you dont want it again? why did you pack your bags? OH YAY HE GOT YOU TO COME BACK. OMG DOES EVERYONE HEAR THAT THUNDER EFFECT IN THE BACKGROUND???? omg wait omg that last line!? I will be listening to this A LOT.

10) I feel like taylor’s got a lot of happy sounding songs that are breakup songs and a lot of sad sounding songs that are actually about being in love on this album it’s so interesting!!! like this is a breakup song and wow everything about it is upbeat and pop-y. “trying to find a part of me you didn’t take up” (I FEEL THIS SO HARD WOW). love the boarded up house metaphors and like just everything else i CANT THINK FAST ENOUGH god idk why I committed to writing all my thoughts....

11) OMG SOMEONE WAS TALKING. ahhhhh she loves all these American things but she LOVES A LONDON BOY. “I GUESS ALL THE RUMORS ARE TRUE” power move!!!!! ASLDJALKDFLKJAGL;KADSLASDFLKASDFLKJ AS SOMEONE WHO LIVED IN AND FELL IN LOVE WITH THE CITY OF LONDON I’M JUST LOVING THAT THIS IS BASICALLY A LOVE SONG TO LONDON. FORGET THE BOY. ALL THESE LONDON REFERENCES ARE KILLING ME. (did she just name drop stella mccartney???? I HEARD THAT OKAY!?) 

12) DIXIE CHICKS. IT’S A COUNTRY SONG I CAN ALREADY TELL. THE STRUMMING GUITAR. I’M DYING. wait is this about her mom???? ok well i’m crying.........wow so so so so so beautiful and soft and hopeful. 

13) FIDDLEEEEEEEE oh short lived but omg that was exciting for a moment i thought we were gunna get a crazy country song. This is a good transition....the way this song starts soft and slow and doesn’t come in swinging feels appropriate after Soon You’ll Get Better. WOW. “Religion is your lips....the alter is my hips....” SEX. I’m glad this is not a country song. wow my head was in an odd place that will be weird to come back to after knowing what this song actually is about (it’s about sex)

14) YAS YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN. (it’s 7:40 am but we could have had greatnesssss) THIS SONG SERIOUSLY SLAPS. GOD I LOVE IT SO MUCH. also true story - for like the first week after it came out I SWEAR I thought there was a lyric at some point that said “you’re freaking me out” and like I still think that one of the lyrics SHOULD be that so like I know I’m not a seven time Grammy award winging singer/song writer but like taylor can we change that? can we? MY ONLY COMPLAINT ABOUT THIS SONG IS THAT IT NEEDS TO BE AT LEAST FIVE MINUTES LONGER. 

15) ahhhhhhh omg shes like learning about holding onto love and not picking fights and growing through difficulty and not blowing up. (I’ve run out of ways to say omg this is amazing and i’m obsessed). but this is like a GREAT ballad. 

16) BACK TO MEEEEEEEE I like it a lot better here phew thank god we were on shuffle before. I wanted the DJ to play this song at my friend’s wedding back in May (OMG NO MORE SPELLING LINE AHHHH) and they like wouldn’t??? so weird. I honestly think this is a self love song but also an amazing romantic love song and I think it belongs in a wedding playlist. 

17) omg so cute...little best friend love. also i love how simple this song is. no big production. we are back to basics and child hood. AHH HORNS. I thought this song was going to be like TIWWCHNT but its just purely wholesome!!! She’s serious - it’s nice to have a friend! I agree! 

18) LAST SONG AND ITS ALMOST FIVE MIN LONG MY BODY IS READY. This is just classic classic taylor swift and an amazing way to end the album. it’s like the conclusion paragraph of an essay on how she’s happy and content and in love with not just her lover but herself. the world used to be harsh, but now it’s just daylight. (another bridge city - just fyi - for those listening at home that’s where you are now) SHE IS SO HAPPY. “Step into the daylight and let it go” OMG SHES TALKING!!!!! WHERE IS THIS FROM??? IS THIS AN INTERVIEW OR IS IT NEW OMG WAIT WASN’T EXPECTING THAT ENDING WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW

OKAY FRIENDS THAT WAS IT I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS AND NOW I NEED TO LISTEN AGAIN AND AGAIN FOREVER AND ALWAYS. THANK YOU @taylorswift (@taylornation ) FOR TRUSTING US WITH SUCH A MAGICAL JOURNEY. 

[owowookies]

50 questions tag ✨

I was tagged by @dreams-and-cookies some time last year i think sakjdghl anyWAY

1. what takes up too much of your time? freecell

2. what makes you day better? super junior

3. what’s the best thing that happened to you today? hmmmm nothing happened but the weather was nice? :p

4. what fictional place would you like to go? final fantasy 8

5. are you good at giving advice? it depends sometimes im ok sometimes im horrible

6. do you have any mental illness? no

7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? dont think so

8. what musician inspired you the most? Ryeowook 

9. have you ever fallen in love? yes with ryeowook

10. what’s your dream date? cup noodles at home

11. what do others notice about you? complexion? iguess

12. what is the annoying habit you have? hmm i think interrupting people talking when i get excited ahdgfakjh

13. do you still talk to you first love? if u mean school crush then yes

14. how many ex’s do you have? uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 

15. how many songs are on your playlist? idk my phone randomly deleted almost all my music so now i just stream off youtube

16. what instruments can you play? none ._.

17. who do you have the most pictures of? @seaweedbraens but they don’t count as pictures they’re disgusting just like her <3

18. where would you like to go before you die? Switzerland

19. what is your zodiac? leo

20. do you relate to it? idek anymore tbh all those thingies about sun and moon and.. rising? whats a rising ): i have no idea i don’t look up anything related to it anymore ):

21. what is happiness to you? a productive day filled with suju and sleep!!

22. are you going through anything right now? mild career crisis but that’s a constant

23. what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made? way too many sorry ):

24. what’s your favourite store? daiso in singapore, i wanna go back ):

25. what’s your opinion on abortion? it cool

26. do you keep a bucket list? nope

27. do you have a favourite album at the moment? I wanna say Drunk on Love but.. Onew’s Blue has been on repeat for so long

28. what do you want for your birthday? to go to a suju concert ...

29. what are most peoples first impression of you? i dunno i usually dont stick around to find out B) 

30. what age do you seem according to most people? everyone asks me which school i go to so :v

31. where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? my charger doesnt reach til under the pillow so it just lays somewhere on the bed near my legs

32. what word do you say the most? what

33. what’s the oldest age you would date? a couple years older i guess i dunno

34. what’s the youngest age you would date? a year younger... maybe

35. what job/career do most people say would suit you? i think i surprised everyone a while ago with my career choices so no one says anything anymore? but earlier i think it was something to do w software?

36. what’s your favourite music genre? i love ballads is that a genre

37. if you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? somewhere i can go out in a skirt and not be treated like walking meat

38. what is your current favourite song? Ryeowook’s The 2nd Story

39. how long have you had this blog for? idr i remade a lot :/

40. what are you excited for? rn its bestie coming home!!!

41. are you a better talker or listener? depends

42. what is the last productive thing you did? exercise counts right

43. what do you want for christmas? don’t celebrate it so maybe suju can tour in india? :DDDDDDDDDDDD

44. what class do you get the best grades in? its been so long since i went to class (and paid attention to the grades) i have no clue

45. on a scale from 1-10, how are you feeling right now? 6?

46. what can you see yourself doing in 10 years? i wanna be a singer but im not doing anything to get there akdhgkshk hopefully my brand takes off

47. when did you get your first heartbreak? 171218

48. at what age do you want to get married? i do not

49. what career did you want to have as a child? architect

50. what do you crave right now? its not really a craving but im gonna go drink milk

wow that was huge thanks cookiezzy <3

I shall tag @xiupastry  @scarletsehun @jeonghanurl  @xiuxiuflake  @erufu-elda  if you’d like to do this! you don’t have to so feel free to skip (: i wasn’;t sure who i could tag so if u see this and want to do it please tag me ):

[itakesurveys]

Survey 245

2018 Survey First things first, did you have a good year? this year has not been the best but I don't like to complain because I know there are so many people out there going through way more serious shit than I have this year. I just hope next year is a lot better. 

How old did you turn this year? 28. yuck.

Do you feel your age? starting too because I have had to diet for the first time. my metabolism is defiantly slowing down. lol 

Did your appearance change in anyway? just weight gain. but i’m working on it. I’m down 13lbs. 

Post your favorite selfie. Hmm... I’ll post it after this survey.  If you traveled, where did you go? nope. I don’t go anywhere...  Which fashion trends did you love? idc anymore. I cared more about fashion when I was younger. now, I’m pretty basic. idgaf lol. I actually was telling my sister the other day that I’m thinking of getting rid of all the clothes I own and just buying 10 pairs of plain colored shirts, and 10 pairs of jeans and just rotate them. I’ve been feeling smothered with all the “stuff” I have accumulated so far in my life. I’m ready to purge most of it. I feel less anxious without the clutter. I think my goal in 2019 is to attempt the minimalist lifestyle and focus on my mental health and get my life together. 

Which fashion trends did you hate? -- I don’t care. I think people should dress however they want. express yourself. 

What was your favorite article of clothing this year? Post a pic if possible? this should have been a fashion survey and not a 2018 survey lol. 

What song sums up this year for you? hmmm.. this is a good one. not sure if a job that “sum up this year” but my post played song this year was probably: Everything I Once Had - The Honorary Title. 

What album came out and has been on heavy rotation since then? this album didn't come out in 2018 but it’s defiantly my most rotated in 2018. Mad Love - JoJo. (go listen!)

What was your favorite movie of the year? hmmmm… favorite movie this year. OHHHHHHHHH! Peppermint! Or Jurassic World : Fallen Kingdom.  

Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year? hmmmm… ohhh yess! that girl from that “Cam” movie on Netflix. Movie was a tad confusing but with worth watching. 

Favorite new TV show? same shows. I love Bravo TV. I watch all the housewives. OHHHHHHHHH new show. That Sabrina TV show on Netflix. SOOOO GOOOD. 

Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears? I started to love Charlie XCX. OHH and SLAYYYTER!

What food did you try for the first time? not really food per say but I did try Coquito 

Did you make any big permanent changes this year? nope. 

Did you vote? yes.

Did you move? not yet. 

Did you get a job? been at this job for 4 years. 

Did you get a pet? no, and I don't want one.  Do you regret not doing anything? ehh, not really. there are things I wish I did but not really considered regrets. 

Do you regret doing something? last weekend probably. 

Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days? boyfriend stuff. yes. been a tough year. 

Did you fall in love? -- have been for 9 years.

Did you fall out of love? --

Did you start a new relationship? nope.

Did you go through a break up? nope.

Who was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year? hmmmm.. honestly. I haven’t made a new friends or relationships. My life has been stagnant for a few years. 

What was the best moment of the year for you? hmmm.. yikes. I really have no idea. 2018 felt like groundhog day.

What was the worst? fights with the boy. 

What have you learned about yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior? hmmm.. no idea honestly. i’m kind a pushover I guess. 

What do you wish for others for the coming year? I hope everyone has less bullshit in their lives and to remember that all the “stuff” means nothing. Just live in the moment. Be happy and anyone who dims your light.....can not follow you into 2019. xoxo.

[atc74]

Without Love

Summary: Y/N has been singing with the boys for a while, but is nervous to do it on stage. Rob promises her anything if she’ll sing at SNS with him. Rob better be prepared to pay up. 

Written for: @spnfluffbingo and this request from the beautiful @evansrogerskitten: Rob x Reader request please :) a fluffy first time on stage singing with Rob at SNS. Maybe "Long Train Runnin" which he sings with Jason on his new album? Yay! Thank you :) (Who am I to tell Ash ‘no’?!)

Square Filled: Right in Front of Your Eyes

Word Count: ~1425

Warnings: Slight angst, performance anxiety, FLUFF

A/N: I have used Ruth’s likeness, cause she is just so damn adorable. No disrespect to Rob or his family; this is a work of fiction and should be regarded as such. Your feedback is greatly appreciated!!

Y/N had been a guest on a few episodes of Supernatural and after her first convention, she had been invited back time and time again, quickly becoming a fan favorite. She loved her job and had just received the news that she would be an addition to the cast of Wayward Sisters, starring alongside her friends, Kim Rhodes and Briana Buckmaster.

Not only did the fandom love her, but she was great friends with most of the cast and was frequently a guest singer at the ever popular Saturday Night Special. She performed with ease as part of a group, but had not done anything solo before. 

“Just sing with me once. Whatever song you want, your choice, just...please?” Rob pleaded with her one convention weekend to sing with them on stage. “I hear you sing all the time; you are fantastic. Your voice is strong and solid and I love hearing you sing. Please?”

Y/N had been friends with Rob Benedict for a number of years, since before Supernatural. They had guest starred together on a couple different shows, always stayed in touch, and both were thrilled that they got to spend time together at conventions.

“Rob, I haven’t sung in front of anyone but you guys for years, I don’t think I could do it,” she told him one afternoon in the green room.

“You are an amazing singer and actress. You can totally do this! I will do anything you want,” Rob continued to pester her all day, even go so far as to use the puppy dogs eyes he no doubt learned from one Jared Padalecki.

She was honestly tired of listening to Rob beg that she finally relented. “Fine. One song. I choose and if I am terrible, it is all your fault!”

“You won’t be terrible, Y/N. This is going to be brilliant! Let me know what you want in return,” Rob threw his fist up in victory as he, Rich and the band prepared to go back out stage to announce the next guest.

“Finally wore her down, huh, Robby?” Rich smirked.

“Yep! And it didn’t even take as long as I thought it would,” Rob boasted, feeling pretty proud of himself.

“Ahhhh hmmmm,” Rich just hummed in agreement. Everyone agreed that those two were so clueless. “What song did she pick?”

“Oh shit! I forgot to ask!” Rob ran back into the green room, returning a few minutes later with his answer. “Long Train Running.”

“Good choice. She’ll harmonize great with Jason,” Rich added.

“What? Why would you say that? She agreed to sing with me,” Rob was utterly offended and Rich took great pride in badgering his best friend.

“Ohhh! She said she would sing with you? I didn’t know, Buddy. Sorry about that,” Rich clapped him on the back as they walked through the curtain.

Rob just stared after Rich, his mouth agape. He shook it off and stepped out on stage. They introduced Kim, Briana, Ruth and Gil, then ducked off stage and back to the green room.

Y/N had already done her panel on Friday and was now looking forward to the Saturday Night Special. The hours quickly ticked away and the closer it got, the more nervous she became. She didn’t want to screw this up. She just needed a drink or two to help settle the nerves. The song she had picked would not be a problem; she knew the words backwards and forwards. It was her singing partner she was worried about.

Sure, she and Rob had great chemistry on and off screen, but they would be nothing more than friends. Still, they were close and she did consider him one of her best friends. Rob was the person she confided in about every job, every date, every failed relationship for years. She confided in Rob about everything. Well, except one thing; that she kept to herself.

She should not have been surprised when he kept pestering her to sing and she had been wanting to sing with him for so long. Jason Manns had even asked her sing on this new album, but she had declined; she was not ready for that kind of audience. Much like the SNS she was nervous about, she was afraid that everyone would see right through her.

The lyrics of Long Train Running were so many things, but to her, they spoke volumes about her relationship with Rob, at least from her point of view. It was a song about waiting for something. A melody about love and longing. She thought long and hard about that one line: ‘where would you be without love?’. Maybe tonight was the night she finally spoke up. Maybe tonight was the night when she finally told Rob exactly how she felt about him.

The entire cast had dinner after the convention that night, like they do every Saturday of a con weekend. Y/N enjoyed a couple of beers with dinner, but as the night wore on, she realized she might need something a bit stronger to help her keep her resolve. She sat across the table from him at dinner, admiring him; his strength, his sense of humor and his fierce loyalty. All of those qualities made her realize what she really wanted was right in front of her the entire time.

Back in the green room, she poured herself a glass of bourbon and relished in the slight burn as she swallowed the warm amber liquid. She had at least an hour before she would have to be on stage, so she sipped her drink and engaged the others in conversation, trying to keep her mind off, well, everything.

“I would like to bring someone special on stage with us tonight. She is no stranger to you folks, but this is the first time we have been lucky enough to have her grace us with her presence as a singer. Supernatural Family, please welcome to the stage our newest Wayward Sister, Y/N Y/L/N!!!” Rob announced her debut and she walked out on stage to cheers and applause from the crowd.

“Thank you all so much for that warm welcome. It is great to be here! Rob, what are we singing again?” she turned to look at Rob, who just shook his head and smiled, banging his head on the microphone. She finally knew what she wanted in return to letting Rob talk her into this. “Oh, that’s right! Silly me. You guys might recognize this from Jason’s new album. Hit it Billy!”

The music started and she could feel herself start to relax. Rob stepped up to the mic and started the first lyric, her joining in at the chorus and then the third verse. She was really enjoying herself and kept her eyes on Rob’s the entire song. Her mind was free from all the thoughts that had kept her from doing this for so long. The song ended sooner than she would have liked and the crowd applauded her off the stage.

The concert was going so well and she was the first one back on stage next to Rob for the final song. She held his hand as they exited the stage together. When everyone headed back to the green room, she stopped, Rob running into her and almost knocking the both of them over.

“What the-?” Rob righted himself before he landed on top of her. “Are you okay, Y/N?”

“I’m great. You were totally right, Rob. This is something I should have done a long time ago,” she smiled up at him. “I know what I want in exchange for letting you talk me into singing with you.”

“You were fantastic! I told Rich you would kill it!” Rob exclaimed, throwing his arm around you in a celebratory hug, but when he released her, she didn’t let go. Y/N pulled back slightly, just enough to look into those bright baby blues that she had come to love so much.  “What do you want?”

“You. You have been right in front of me the entire time and I was too stupid to say anything,” she whispered. “I was too scared I was going to lose you. Tell me I am not going to lose you, Rob.”

“You’ll never lose me. I have been waiting years for you to make the first move because I knew I couldn’t. I’m sorry I didn’t, but I am so happy you did,” Rob revealed. “Can I kiss you now?”

“You better.”

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5am thoughts: theory: Story Of Light

is it called the Story of Light because its Shinee telling us and the whole entire world that they will no longer grief in sadness and that they've moved on and accepted what has happened? I'm sure we all know Shinee may still be sad (and maybe more than that) but what if this whole album is telling us that shinee, that all the members, Minho, Onew, Key, and Taemin are ready to have a new beginning? Like, they're ready to let all the sadness go and accept what has happened and that they will continue to work and grow.

What if You&I was about them talking about Jonghyun? Like, what if this song is about them trying to talk to Jonghyun? And theyre all trying to tell him that its hard when he's gone like they dont know what to do. "I’m the only one hurting, I may look fine I’m not easy, my feelings aren’t for decoration" And like they're all reminiscing their memories with him. All those good times that they're not ready to let go of. "A handful of memories, I laugh and remember every day" (okay the lyrics arent in order but JJJJust lemme finish and fyi, its gonna be a lOoong one). "There are countless stars in my heart, there’s one star that shines painfully I don’t want to grab it but I don’t want it to go out" okay in this part i think they maybe talking about Jonghyun. Maybe the stars represent people and "theres one star that shines painfully" might be Jonghyun. A star... someone really special to them... is hurting deep inside. Maybe Shinee is trying to tell us that although a celebrity or ANY person in general who may seem happy in front of the cameras or may seem happy in the outside in general is actually in deep pain inside. Dealing with self doubt, depression and all that and we just dont know :( "The things I can’t throw away make me smile" this is kinda self explanatory. Jonghyun, someone they love, someone they deeply cherish, someone they can't simply just let go of, someone who can always make them smile. You know? "I know that you’re being honest when you wish me well I’ll let you go easy, don’t think that you’re stepping on me" this is kinda hard to explain haha ahm.. maybe as time passes by, Jonghyun's absence is telling them to let go and move on and maybe they're mad with what he did? I DONT KNOW I DONT MEAN IT LIKE THAT! like mad, like?? how do i explain?? like maybe frustrated?? thats the best word i can think of right now riwjkrs they're frustrated but theyre not gonna blame it on him. like the good friends and brothers they are they will let it go easily.. UGH do i make sense? anyway. "I’ve let myself go to the wind and the rain that’s falling cooly But my feelings aren’t for decoration" okay so this is the part theyve told themselves that they really need yo accept what has happened. and maybe "my feelings arent for decoration" means that whatever they are feeling and whatever they are going through shouldnt be joked about in social media since its a serious matter and well ive seen some haters and some "new kpop fans" talk shit about this issue and honestly 😤 it makes me want to slap a bitch

Anyway

next song > UNDERCOVER

so the lyrics:

"I’m paddling my feet as busily underneath the surface with a calm expression on my face, You don’t know"

have u seen swans? how they paddle their legs under the water to move but above the water they seem so calm? like ballerinas, how their arms and body are always so graceful but their legs do all the work and stuff ¿¿?? okay im comparing the lyrics to swans and ballerinas because what if the boys are trying to tell us Jonghyun's situation and maybe also their's and other people who is suffering the same way? We don't always know what happens when we turn around. We don't always know when they're hurting. It's actually pretty easy to lie and fake a smile now a days so we always have to be careful with our loved ones. we dont always know what they're dealing with and one wrong move can cause a bomb to explode.

"Before the curtains rise, I’m always busy but when I’m standing before you I’m Acting cool"

Maybe theyre telling us that behind the scenes, theyre also suffering with personal or family issues. like every other person, celebrities have problems that they deal with too. they also have feelings. maybe on stage theyre smiling and having so much fun but backstage, theyre suffering? they cant breathe, they're overworked, theyre tired. sometimes they're forced to do things. Honestly for me, the kpop industry is so pressuring. you have to be this or that and if you cant you get criticized for it.

"I can’t let you know the things that are secretly happening now, now is not the time. I wait for the right moment, so that when you’ve realized it it’s too late."

Obviously most idols worry about their fans. Theyre worried when theyre fans are worried. its like a family thing we idol and fans have for each other yknow and maybe thats why sometimes they cant always speak up about whats really going on inside their mind. They cant always talk about it to the public bc sometimes people are so rude and so insensitive and leave comments like, "youre not depressed! youre just overthinking" bullshit, barbara. "you just need to hang out more" hMMmM :// ANYWAY thats why they dont really speak up alot. sometimes they cant even go to a psychiatrist privately because the media is always watching and once its on display, BOOm haters here and there talking bs and obviously WE wouldnt realize unless its TOO LATE!

"Like a black shadow is absorbed into the night, the night I dig deep beyond the consciousness, inside of you I’m Undercover"

I dont know how to begin with this.. its like once theyve hit rock bottom and they feel like nothing is gonna get better amd everything is just dark and gloomy. Maybe this is like the moving on part?? like the beginning of moving on. the depressive episode. And at first theyre just trying to hide everything. Just being undercover.

WAIT OMG OKAY SO MAYBE UNDERCOVER BEFORE YOU&I

so they got depressed over what happened and theyre trying to hide from everybody that theyre okay but theyre not and theyre just undercover. in you&i thats when they start reminiscing about jonghyun and talking to him. telling him they miss him and that for him, they're ready to accept and let go.

OKOK SO THE NEXT SONGS ARE WHEN THEY START BEING POSITIVE AGAIN !! YES GO SHINEE !! OUR STRONG KINGS !!!

so i dont really know the sequence i mean its already fucked up in the beginning so lets just go with whatever !!!

So in GOODEVENING!

"The cozy darkness is lingering far away"

so the 'darkness' or those gloomy days and toxic vibes theyve been surrounding themselves has been slwoly disappearing. they're starting to feel a little better again. <3

"At the tip of the sunset that hangs on the buildings I think of you"

i cant explain this one and note: i havent slept and its 6am but im still trying to make this work. but i think fjksjfks ok sunsets means like the day is "ending" and like before the day ends, they remember their sufferings while they were depressed and all those sad times with Jonghyun, like those times of grief.. they remember it all before starting a new day ¿¿ I DONT KNOW im trying my best to explain it. Its like theyre finally accepting what has happened and is ready to start a new happy day

"Spill out the darkness

Open the night

I wanna see you more, right now, oh"

So the sunsets and the night has come and theyve already accepted whats happend but they want to see Jonghyun in a different light. They want to see their bestfriend and brother as someone who was happy and made others happy. They want to remember Jonghyun as someone who made his parents and everyone around him proud.

"The moonlight is rising

I’m going to you before it’s too late

I’m going to get you

Imagining how surprised you’ll be, I’m going to you

Going to you

Going to you

Without a reason, going to you"

okay this part is like giving someone a hug before they leave for their flight. Like even when hes gone hes not alone and shinee is not alone. like theyre always together. theyll always be together. "imagining how surprised you will be" nrkanfks im thinkg on how to write thus part wo sounding sarcastic. knowing what jonghyun has been through, he might have thought that he was and always will be alone... but the members are there to guide him in his travel to heaven with their prayers and theyre all hoping to surprise him ¿¿ AAAA im sorry if this sounds sarcastic or offensive i REALLY didnt mean it to be that way >·<

literally,for me anway, the whole song is about how theyll always be there for each other. even when the other is far away, it will never stop them from what they are doing. and thats why i love Shinee so much💓

In jump im not gonna add a lot of lyrics since im getting lazier. (lmao you can see my effort fading from you&i until here)

in Jump the song is about them trying to put their pieces together again. They've been broken and torn apart but they're ready to pick theirselves up again.

"I shake my head, brush it off and adjust my heart

I solidly protect my space again"

no one can recover quickly so i guess in this part, they're trying to take things slow. not too fast or anything or else they might make a wrong move and fall back to square one.

"Keep on enduring it

Just close my eyes when it feels futile for no reason"

in this part, theyre still not that strong enough so theyre telling themselves that they should just endure the pain or sadness. if it feels impossible, just close your eyes, believe and trust in yourself. theyve made it this far, why should they quit now?

"Higher, rise higher, fly

There’s the ground beneath your feet

When I travel between the two

Oh yes I feel the freedom

I jump on you, jump on you"

when they finally overcome the fear and sadness and EVERYTHING! they feel the weight lift from their shoulders and finally they feel freedom. overjoyed, they celebrate by jumping¿¿ i guess?? lmAO

"I’m not falling

I’m not wilting

It’s just changes

I turn different

And keep going forward"

this is when they realize that: nothing is going bad. everything is going just fine and everything is great. maybe they havent fully recovered yet but all those depression and pain is finally gone and theyre happy. They're different now and they realize they can finally keep moving forward without feeling to fall back down again.

"Why is that hard Why did I hesitate for such a long time Following my heart away From other people’s eyes I free the feet that were bound I let my imagination loose after a long time The wind is blowing Now I open my eyes and breathe in"

the first 2 lines is probably them asking themsleves, why didnt we do this earlier? they finally followed what their heart wanted instead of being trapped in their own mind and they finally can breathe again. they feel free and loose. they dont feel the heavy chains hanging on their shoulder anymore !

Now I can open my eyes and breathe in.

this is honestly a HUGE step for them. and im so proud?? ugh..

last song: All Day All Night

"All the moments I met you were highlight I don’t regret it, it’s just beautiful"

Theyre remembering Jonghyun more with their happy memories. How his existence highlighted mostly everything in their past. Jonghyun was such a big part of their lives and even if he was gone, they were still happy that he was able to be part of their lives and they were thankful to be a part of his.

"I start to see the world differently Yeah it’s all for you Time starts to emit a light Yeah it’s all for you Our very painful tears The joy that fills ourh hearts All for you, all for you, all for you"

Theyre doing all these wonderful things all for Jonghyun and maybe also for us too and for themselves. "Time starts to emit light" its pretty self explanatory. theyre beginning to see things in a positive way again !! So all of this, this is all for Jonghyun.

"Leave it alone, hold me and my painful scars All of it is the control"

theyre telling us to maybe accept it and move on too. To move on with them. We're all in this together and everything is in control.

So YAAS thats my theory or whatever you call it for SHINEEs album. I really do think the message hidden behind this album is deep and amazing and VERY important. I'm glad SHINEE is able to see things in a new light. Let's just keep loving and supporting them, okay??! So that's it.

The Story Of Light.

The End.