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windupaidoneus · 4 months ago

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thinking back on when i finished shb & it took me like a whole week to be able to put into words how i felt abt emet & i wasnt able to think about literally anything else in that time. man. this shit is crazy. & then i wrote a long ass fucking essay on hildegarde's feelings throughout the expansion. man. ohhhh man. i need to replay it lest i become ungovernable

#ffposting #nothing ahs ever made me feel this way before. absolutely lifechanging. i belong there. i thistle hildegarderoquefort catboycentral--#the white mage who views himself as a monster when hit expansion shb hits: haha wow. um. lol! the. th #& he doesnt evenhave any lachesis memories until he gets the azem crystal either. genuinely think the lachesis memories help him #like emntally. emotionally. etc.#but it was so. SO! & with hilde still working on the necromancy thing as he enters shb... abandoning it halfway. ugh.#he & emet are so similar on this. desperate to find means to bring back lost loved ones... hilde faced with an extreme version of it...#& its a guy he has feelings he cant quite place about. who makes him feel so much though. so much that it overwhelms him.#& when he dies. hg. i dont know its. so hard to thikn about. hilde did not smile & nod. he fucking did not.#he reached out a trembling half sin eater hand tears in his eyes & watched in horror as emet faded away. Yeah bitch. no smiling #the guilt he felt. the guilt he probably still feels about it. a lot more passive now but its still there. & the grief. fuck me man!

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