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Fuckkk im having a genuine emotion about something i had the capacity to change in the past and didn't *runs away forever*
#dib noise#i have been very lonely and isolated from everyone but like.. i dont know i got so scared of everyone that i dont know where to start#no one did anything to me . its just that talking to anyone makes me feel so scared and panicky that I can't stand it#like an instant panic attack#its Not normal#i forgot how to be around anyone. im sad about it#though I don't know if i ever knew. idk i miss my friends#i love you wherever you are okay...
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Derek the Doggo
Now, I've read a few Sterek AU fics where Derek has to pretend he's a dog/wolf and gets adopted by Stiles, who is none the wiser. Stiles usually talks to his "pet" in these as if he were talking to a person.
That's nice and all, but can someone PLEASE give me a Stiles that speaks to fully-shifted wolf Derek like a tumblr millennial raised on the internet? Like the single, poorly socialized, unhinged, expending-waaaay-too-much-energy-into-his-"fur-baby" dog-mom I know he'd be?
Like, Stiles holding up a mirror up to Derek and going "It you!"
Or, when Derek lays belly-up, paws to the ceiling, and stretches his toes wide, Stiles says sagely, "Ah, yes.The beans are coming in nicely this year."
Or Stiles putting Derek in a hotdog costume.
Or decorating his entire place with balloons and streamers and ordering an elaborate, dog-safe cake made of peanut butter and Milkbones to celebrate their one-month-iversary since the adoption.
Stiles hiring a professional baby photographer for a photoshoot.
Stiles setting up a Zoom call for Derek with another friend's dog, in which, Derek just sits there, looking awkwardly between Stiles and the other dog like "What exactly am I supposed to do here?", because he's a full grown man expected to have a "conversation" over videochat with a dog like they're supposed to bark back and forth about the weather or park recommendations or something.
Stiles making Derek a Twitter account and constantly posting as him in doggo speak (which he reads out loud, in a voice he imagines Derek would have, as he types). Like "Henlo! I is heckin good boi derk! Big anger! Much grump!" Or "No bork. Only O\m/O". Or "Mmmm hooman shoes omnomnomnom 😋"
And when Derek tears into things or misbehaves in an attempt to upset Stiles, he's just met with a psuedo-stern "Wuh-oh. Looks like Hurricane Derek strikes again. I hereby sentence you to 3 hours of cruel and unusual punishment!" Before being put in a cone of shame.
Bonus points if, after Derek shifts back, it turns out Stiles already knew he was a werewolf (maybe not the whole time, but definitely early on). He just wanted to see how far he could push things until the mysterious werewolf he had adopted finally showed himself and revealed whatever he was planning.
(If there is, by miracles of miracles, already a fic like this, recs would by greatly appreciated!)
#sterek#teen wolf#derek hale#stiles stilinski#mieczysław stiles stilinski#tyler hoechlin#dylan o'brien#Mini fic#Full-shift Derek#Imagine squishing Derek's massive toe-beans#I just imagine a home-invasion scene where Derek fends off the intruder#But either Stiles gets hurt and Derek has to turn back in order to help him#Or Derek gets hurt and as he's fading in and out he just feels Stiles gently petting him and sees real fear for his safety in Stiles' eyes#I also imagine Stiles having a panic attack and Derek laying his head on Stiles' chest like a therapy dog#Wouldn't it be funny if the final straw for Derek to shift back was Stiles saying he was going to get Derek neutered#Like the instant Stiles says it Derek immediately shifts back with a big ol “Nope! I'm done!”
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#tw abuse/csa mention whatever#otherwise a positive post tbh#but umn!! have now told a Second person ever (excluding our parents) who the person who did that was <3#also at work of all places lmao#ider how the convo- OH no i do. talking abt TV shows -> mentioning one sounded triggering -> talking abt triggering media -> talking abt#our trauma together lmao#anyways were gonna watch a weird show together later <3#also just. fr i havent told anyone who it was since i was. 13? 14? and i was like super drunk#and now here i am! sober at work talking to my friend abt it <3 hehe#hehehe <33#boring penis disorder#also wanna say its insane how i can like. generally think about it now yknow. bcs for so long it was like instant panic attack#segregated to only specific alters. super super stressful. and like its still deeply uncomfortable but... most of us can remember it. and we#can generally think about a decent amount before it starts getting too much. so its way easier to regulate#its just so insane genuinely how far weve come with that
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i hate having religion as a trigger but i especially hate having it in a specific way that i seem fine and normal about it and can consume almost any content featuring religious stuff until its in That Specific Way and my anxiety spikes so bad i want to vomit
#mono’s stuff#to be clear i’m normal about it as in i can handle it and don’t get triggered by it and don’t really need it tagged most of the time#war in my brain bc i want to cry rn and i feel nauseous and bad and shaky but IM FINE i can think and talk like normal#and i feel so stupid like HELLO. THIS IS THE POSSIBLY THE BEST LEAST HARMFUL WAY IT COULD BE PRESENTED#and yet here i am hit with the instant panic attack beam but like physical stuff specifically
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They should invent a job that wants to hire me and pay me a living wage and also won't send me into a violent panic attack because they hired a guy that yells too loud
#Feel like throwing up lol#Love how [man raising voice] is yet another instant panic attack sound. Among the other ones. ✌️
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Opening instagram is like turning on the oven and then just stepping inside
#its usually an accident. or i open it via a post/ad and then try to back out and am instead shown everyone i knew in high school#pregnancies. some guy bragging about losing his gold star (NOT LYING) (WHO EVEN TRACKS GOLD STARS ANYMORE HOW OLD ARE YOU)#(ALSO WHY ARE YOU POSTING ABOUT IT)#faces i never wanted to see again#my old best friend graphically skinny and posing with all her skin and bones out#peoples babies and vacations i could never afford and mansions and and and#instagram i hate you soooooooo bad#its like. instant overload and panic attack#WHO ARE ALL YOU PEOPLE etc except its just people i knew for a decade almost a decade ago. too scary#cam talks
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in my brute forcing my fear of the ocean by playing subnautica and simply telling myself im not scared era
#every time i spawn into a new game my first thought is 'WHOA! HAS THE LIFEPOD ALWAYS BEEN THAT CLOSE TO THE AURORA???'#the answer is yeah#AND i always forget its at the angle its at. towards the back end#the aurora still freaks me out i havent fully decided if im facing THAT fear#that one is more like instant panic attack#for the things that are exclusively in the aurora i might use console commands for#like i dont think theres enough prawn suit fragments outside the aurora to build it so maybe that#pretty sure you can build a cyclops with fragments that arent near the aurora#I DID TAKE SMALL STEPS! i found one of those big wrecks and i was able to go near it and get stuff from it without having a panic attack#which i def was not able to do even with the smaller wrecks before#simon says
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Coming to the realization that I'm never going to be a fun aunt to my friends' babies because I always feel like I'm losing more than I'm gaining
#it hit me hard today#I always pictured myself spoiling kids and babysitting and taking them places and being someone they look up to and rely on#but I think I've been conditioned my entire life to see a new baby as another burden and idk how to undo that#my best friend told me she wants to start trying soon and my throat closed up immediately. I couldnt even pretend I was excited for her#it was instant panic#and it's not like I can talk to anyone about this cuz I don't want to make her big life decisions all about me and my family is the reason#I'm like this and our other friend also has a baby and an inability to keep secrets so she'd tell how I feel and it'd be uselessly messy#but it's hard knowing everyone is moving on to life stages you will (by choice) never reach. like I'm not jealous.#I'm just sad that there will be a disconnect. I can't follow you there and I can't relate to your new priorities and struggles.#you're buying baby clothes and I'm having a panic attack.#eventually I will recognize this for how melodramatic it is and I will feel silly cuz it won't be as bad as I'm expecting#or it will be and my life will be even bleaker 2 years from now. taking bets now#overall. I have got to start journaling again cuz I cannot fucking do this lol. this bitch (my heart) is boiling over#might walk off into the ocean soon idk
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i don’t know whether I feel this way because I’m anxious about quitting my job and finding a new one or because it’s spring and the influx of energy is overwhelming or because four days off work is too much of a disruption of my routine or because i drank too much or because i let a stranger shotgun a joint into my mouth or because some deep seated self denial is starting to crack or because i forgot to brush my teeth last night or because i’m reading too much into the wording of “i really want to see you”
#i have a sore throat and a deep feeling that something is wrong#also I really like that if you look up feeling of impending doom the like first result tells you it can be a heart attack symptom#least helpful thing ever#the symptoms for panic attack and instant death syndrome are the same for some reason
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But yes next time, don't send me some post just tell me your issue, present your case. And I can decide on my own
But kinda scary and stalkerish to know what post to send after seeing me reblog one (1) art from the person in question. Art that one its own was unassuming and wasn't what was being called out
As someone who's dealt with legitimate stalking before, that doesn't sit well with me
#like y'all dont understand how provate i am#i dont follow a lot of people because i dont want to be found#i had a panic attack from liking someone's post instead of instant reblogging#after like 4 years in this fandom what can y'all tell me about me?#bro some of my FRIENDS didn't even learn my irl name until recently!!
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well i made it to the medical appointment, got all the way to the procedure room, had a panic attack and couldnt go thru with it
#i can FEEL needles inside me#instant overstim panic attack overwhelm#and the procedure is 5min of 3 diff needles In My Shoulder#and i just couldnt keep it together#but if i dont do this we dont know if i need surgery#i feel like such a fucking pussy#idk why i feel so bad#i keep fighting hard to get my body taken care of#and this is a Part of That#but i just cant fucking do it#ffs i wanna die (not for serious just)#i have so much run off panic#im going home and eating leftovers and playing sims and going to bed early#and only wesring soft things#i feel like such a fucking child#im 27 and scared of /needles/ ???#i broke my foot and didnt notice but NEEDLES#i hhave chronic pain at a 4-7 daily but NEEDLES#i find cuts and bruises cathartic but NEEDLES#who the fuck am i why am i lile this#life and times#medical t#needles t
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i texted my friend asking if we could skip the concert we are supposed to go to tonight i feel like such an ass
#but my brain is doing REAL BAD#that many people sounds like an instant panic attack#but we will see what happens#if she’s mad i’m gonna throw up HAHAHAHA
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It is pretty spider heavy but me personally I have never let it stop me. I hate autopsies and I went through the autopsy of Jane Doe like a CHAMP so I think you should try it
mmmmmm okay okay -see when i say 'arachnophobic' i mean 'i couldn't even Say 'spider' until i was like 13 bc even the word scared me' level... so i might have to just skip this one... but maybe i will try thank u brave anon 🖤
#major kudos to u for facing that fear!! i do not think im strong enough lol#i think i was killed by a spider in my most recent past life bc the fear is So Bad- its like 'instant panic attack' levels#spider is like... the only tag i have filtered -i Never want to see them#also maybe i should just rewatch jane doe i Love that movie#asks#answered#anons
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#the way i talked myself into a panic attack over something that didn't even happen it's just bc im literally scared of literally everything#that involves me doing the things i want bc im afraid of not being good at things and being judges and just not being good enough#like i am TIRED of my brain i need someone to give me a lobotomy like all i was doing was just looking into something to see if i could do#it bc it's something g i want to learn to do and the instant i clicked a link it's like my brain went into over drive to make me feel bad#about myself i need a new brain ‼️‼️‼️#anyways i can be ignored i literally just am a flop in every sense of the word and have the worlds worst anxiety#i'll throw myself out of my car going home from work maybe that'll help 🫡
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It’s finally here, I know I’ve been teasing with this story for weeks but life has been hectic and I wanted to do some requests, but here it is, the forest entity story. Hope y’all enjoy it!
The tree-hole debacle
Forest entity x fem!human || very light dub-con, tentacles (more like vines), bondage, squirting
Oh no. Oh, no, no, no... You kept chanting in your brain. You were trying to reach the fucking shiny thing you saw in the tree's hole and you got stuck. In the middle of the forest. All your torso inside a tree-hole and your legs kicking the air. You couldn't get out. You were stuck. You felt like you were living your own bad porno. Fuck.
You always knew your eagerness to pick stuff in the woods would bring you problems, but you never thought it would be in the shape of a tree. A fucking tree. You were just walking around the forest trying to find some good pieces to build some more fairy jewelry, who knew you could get stuck in a tree. And now you didn’t know what to do, how to get out. A spark of anxiety was creeping up your back. What if you died there? What if they found you dead in a tree-hole? They would think you are a weirdo. Well, in that they wouldn’t be wrong, but that would be so embarrassing. News would say something along the lines of “young girl found in a tree”, and that would be awful in so many levels. God damn it.
You tried crying for help, but you knew there wasn’t anyone coming, you never followed the path, confident you’d find your way back. And you always did, you have some kind of sixth sense about these woods, they called to you. And well, now you called whoever was listening to get you out of that damn tree-hole.
When you felt something creeping behind you, you started kicking your legs, trying to scare whatever animal was close. You didn’t want to be attacked by a random wolf or something. You didn’t even know what kind of animals could roam the forest, you were so careless in the way you explored the woods without thinking about it. You felt like a dummy now, a completely dumb woman who was now stuck in a fucking tree.
Something behind you let out a growl, you started to panic, moving your legs faster, making sounds to scare it away. A light caress to the back of your leg made you twitch, your whole body reacting with full on panic. But before you could scream, you were hanging out upside down, roots embracing your body. You were suspended in the middle of the woods, a weird creature made of leaves and some kind of mud in front of you. He slowly shook your body up and down, making you bounce in an uncomfortable way.
Your confusion, added to being upside down, made your head feel all kinds of dizzy. The roots around you seemed to come from everywhere, like he could control all the things around you. What was he? He answered you without having to verbalize your question: “I’m the spirit of these woods, and you, human, were asking for help. I came.” His voice sounded deep, like if he was talking from inside a cave, an echo of a real voice. Your body shivered.
“I- You- What?” Your confusion at everything happening was making your head spin. He turned you around, hanging you in an upright position this time, your feet still far away from the ground.
“You were screaming, the little creatures came to find me. And here I am,” he explained. His matter of fact statement made you think he was crazy. Maybe you were crazy. Maybe you did die inside that damn tree-hole and all of this was just an hallucination.
“Thanks?” You didn’t know if that was the correct answer, the vines and roots around your body wouldn’t stop twitching, touching, careful not to touch any of your most vulnerable parts. But hey were exploring everything else, caressing your hair, your cheeks, your legs… “Can you put me down?” You asked.
“No.” That instant denial should have scared you, but weirdly enough, you didn’t feel fear or panic anymore. Your body was calm, your mind completely quiet and relaxed. What kind of weird mojo was he doing to you? “You asked for the help of a forest spirit, you need to repay your debt now.” You looked at him expectantly, trying to convey you needed more explanation. He didn’t say anything.
“What the fuck does that mean?” You finally asked, a spark of anger rising inside your chest.
He nodded as if your question was answered like that and said: “I will take you now.” The vines around you started to pull at your clothes. You struggled against the hold, but they were so strong and tight that you could barely move some millimeters.
You struggled harder, screaming at him: “What? No!” You looked at him with all the fire inside of you. If looks could kill, he’d be killed right there, right now. But it wasn’t the case. He just looked amused at your struggles. But he stopped the vines from moving, some of them hovering over your tits and mouth, so close you could smell the petrichor smell they emanated. It was intoxicating.
“You have to pay, human. The balance must be restored.” That made no sense to you, he talked about restoring balance as if you had a debt with the forest or something. What?
“But I didn’t ask for your help.” He looked back at you skeptical, his dark eyes so expressive even though he didn’t have eyelids or brows. His face was so weird, but enthralling at the same time. “Okay, I did need help, but I don’t- I don’t want to have sex with you,” you lied through your teeth.
The truth was that you were aroused, the vines around your body were making you all kinds of horny. You always dreamed of being tied down, of being at the mercy of your partner as they took their fill off you. And without knowing it, he was restraining you, making all your fantasies come to the surface and making your pussy tingle. But you weren’t going to say that to him.
“What is sex, human?” The question caught you off guard, how could he not know what sex was?
“You… You said you’d take me.”
He was looking at you intently, like the answer to your unasked question was obvious and you were just dumb. Maybe you were. “I’ll give you pleasure so your juices can fertilize my forest,” he explained. You could what?
“You what? Fertilize? What?” And then it clicked. “You want to make me cum?” It seemed so random you couldn’t fully process what that meant.
“I believe that’s how humans call it, yes.”
You argued with the angel in your head, but the demon rapidly won the argument and before you could process it fully you were saying: “I- I- Okay.” Your voice was barely a whisper but he nodded and the vines around you closed more firmly against your body, making you shiver. It was weirdly comforting to be held so tightly.
You clothes were pushed away, thrown carelessly to the ground and you found yourself wrapped in vines and roots, suspended in the air. He opened your legs fully, exposing your holes to his eyes. He approached you then, his weird face close to your pussy, but not touching. The leaves around his head tickled the inside of your legs as he inspected you, his breath cold against your heated skin. You whimpered, being exposed to him so openly was embarrassing beyond belief, but the juices dripping off your cunt were even worse.
He reached around him and took some kind of leave, different to the ones covering his head. He squeezed it until a clear substance formed. He coated one of the vines with, the vine shifted into a wider form, cupping your whole pussy, coating it with the substance. At first, you felt nothing, but suddenly scolding heat ran through your body and you came. Just like that. You came faster than ever, he didn’t do anything, he didn’t touch your clit, your entrance… He just put some magical liquid over your cunt and made you cum. What the fuck?
You didn’t get to catch your breath before another vine was proving your entrance, making you moan loudly as it pushed inside. Two more vines appeared, framing your boobs and squeezing, some leaves playing with your nipples at the same time. The pleasure was maddening. The combined sensation of the vine entering you and the leaves was so overwhelming that you came again. This time your scream was cut short when another vine pushed against your asshole. Surprise and arousal made you arch your back, which was fruitless, the restrains on your body so tight you couldn’t move at all.
He was still close, observing the vines playing with your body, controlling everything but not touching you. You felt dehumanized, you were just a means to an end for him. And that made you hot. You could be anybody, everybody. He didn’t care. He just wanted your juices… And he was milking every drop off you.
The vine on your pussy pressed against your G-spot, the sensation too rough and raw. Some more juices gushed around it as you came again. He hit and probed and pushed and made your mind go blank as he transformed your body into a pleasure machine. You came, and came, and came. You were sure there was a river down your legs at that point. You were crying, tears running down your face as he assaulted all your sensitive areas at once. Your body felt like an exposed nerve.
When you thought you couldn’t take anymore, he pushed a new vine in your already overflowing pussy. You saw stars as the vines inside of you intertwined. You were so full, so sensitive, you couldn’t stop crying in pleasure, your voice long gone.
And then something inside of you broke completely and you were peeing. Peeing? No, squirting. He made you squirt. Your juices flowed over him, showering his leaves like summer rain. You ascended to another plane, the pleasure beyond human realm, the orgasm so good your brain broke a bit.
He stopped abruptly, his leaves shiny and his face contorted in some sort of a grin. “That would be all, human. You paid the debt to the forest.” You blushed deeply as he lowered your naked body to the ground, a bed of moss forming under you. “I’ll see you soon,” he muttered as he disappeared before your eyes. The earth literally swallowed him.
#forest entity#forest spirit#forest entity x human#forest entity x reader#monster#monster fucker#monster imagine#monster x human#teratophillia#monster x reader#terato#original fiction
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#erin rambles#i very rarely feel anxious in my relationship#mostly bc we've fostered good and open communication#and because i'm actively working to remind myself that someone who takes a little while to respond doesn't hate me they are simply busy#but any time i need to bring up a slightly heavy topic or ask an important question#it just feels like an instant panic attack lmao#as if expressing feelings and getting information that'll help us both in the long run makes me a villain#COOL love my brain#it's clearly my friend
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