#like a fever that's going down jfc

[lale-txt]

thinking about middle aged single dad Kiyoomi with fine silver streaks in his black curls and dark circles under his eyes and his shirt crumpled, dirty glasses pushed up into his hair as he rubs the bridge of his nose because his daughter ate glitter glue at 11pm and got a tummy ache now and he's tempted to just eat some glitter glue as well

[sugar-omi]

Best friend vloggers Cove and MC YouTube channel called Our Life, end up start dating, getting married having babies. They are THE family vloggers!! 

bro wait thats such an idea... id watch the shit outta them too that's so fucking cute

of course they wouldn't put every moment of their lives or big events on the internet, most things they keep for themselves. but when they finally release some clips from their wedding? and maybe they record each of their pov's while getting ready, n cove is so nervous that he fucking looks sick n everyone's laughing, patting him on the back n telling him he'll be okay n that once he gets to the ceremony, he'll be fine!!

n everyone watching the video (and in the room) would get such a laugh out of him going "oh shit... I didn't prepare vows, I just thought.. id say what's on my mind" (can't bring myself to type smth cheesy im sorry</3)

honestly, after everyone sees how he almost faints, n cries when you meet at the top of the aisle, n his sweet vows n how he wraps em up, or how he'd get excited and pick you up in his arms.. he's raised everyone's standards.

and then when you have kids. all dads around the world either have to step up, or step down n get out the way because once again, he's raising the standard!!!

cries like a baby every time he remembers you're gonna have a baby. like wow. he's gonna be a dad. like he's scared as fuck but wow, he's gonna be a dad, he's a fucking dad!!!

wears it like a badge of honor, as he should.

totally babies his kid/s, always. cries when he has to hand over the baby because he just loves em too much, wants to look at n hold em forever. buys em every toy and snack, bandages n kisses every wound.

he just knocks parenthood out of the park. even if he makes mistakes, he apologizes for it and/or makes up for it. and the mistakes are never big enough to leave lasting damage. he knows what kind of parent he wants to be, and holds himself to that.

so in the comment of every video, he's either driving people to tears bc they want that, or they miss their dad doing that for them. or he's giving someone baby fever

jfc I'm just thinking abt it n yall would have the internet wrapped around your finger. easy.

[verstappentime]

got tagged to do this fic writer interview thang :-) thank you @wedriftlikelonelyplanets!

How many works do you have on AO3?

eleven!!

What's your total AO3 word count?

62,008

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

catch a fever dream (985)

the pain will remind us of each other (738)

and then there's you (680)

never strangers at all (651)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i do! however the x-men resurgence has led to a TON of comments on my older fics, which is so incredible, but i haven't gotten to many of them. (if you're an x-men fan, hi! i'm sorry!)

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

none of my fics *really* have angsty endings, but at the end of 'put your strength down' max just falls asleep after, like, having a horrible time. so that's not a great ending for him, even though he's eventually fine.

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

i like the ending of 'never strangers at all' best for this question, because the joy they're both feeling is so intense in that moment. <3

Do you write crossovers?

i have an unfinished WIP which is an x-men/f1 crossover, which i do plan on going back and finishing someday. however it's weirdly started before i liked f1 and VERY inaccurate, so it's going to go through some hardy re-editing. (f1 fans beware)

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

yes! i have, lol. people didn't like that max & daniel didn't end up together in one of my fics. that's alright. those who get it get it.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes. the gay kind? i don't know how to answer that.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope!

Have you ever had a fic translated?

some of my x-men fics are out there in chinese.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

@velocitytimes2 and i cowrote fics about ourselves dating snowboarders when we were like, 12 and 14, so there's that.

a lot of my fics have heavy input from @gaylord-fagaton (hi P!!) and i consider him the cowriter on several of them <3

What's your all-time favorite ship?

ALL time!? jfc. ahh, that's a super hard one. i love my f1 ships but i'm sentimental. i mean, it has to be cherik, right? they've been with me a looong time. maybe damen and laurent from captive prince. or scott and emma from x-men, who i've never really written except as minor characters, but would die for. tough question.

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

i mean, i really hope my x-men/f1 wip gets finished. it's been a long journey with that fic and i really love the plot that i know exists in there. but i'm not SURE i'll finish it. there's a cherik a/b/o fic that i know will never see daylight for sure. unless i finish that crossover, i think almost all my cherik stuff is dead on the vine. (for now.)

& a lot of random snippets from f1 race weekends this year.

What are your writing strengths?

dialogue, and that's about all i got. i'd say that includes a good inner monologue too.

What are your writing weaknesses?

everything else? ah, metaphors and similes are probably my downfall. i'm trying.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

not ever gonna happen. i hate looking dumb. writing erik lehnsherr was always fun bc he's jewish, so i do let his mom speak a bit of yiddish, because i speak a bit of yiddish. otherwise, i just denote that a character's not speaking in english and then go on with the dialogue.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

uhhh, i mean, the first fics i EVER wrote were probably about the jonas brothers when i was like, 8. but the first fics i ever POSTED were probably one direction when i was like, 16 or so. could've also been x-men bc i posted my first fic in that fandom around the same time. anyway, all been orphaned now, so good luck charlie if you're tryna find em.

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

oh man, i don't think any? i haven't written any in-depth maxiel and i really want to, but i do have, like, 3 maxiel fics on my ao3. but yeah, i'm excited to like actually really delve into them. i love them.

What's your favorite fic you've written?

i think the *best* fic i've written is probably 'the pain will remind us of each other.' it's just a different kind of writing and i think it's, like, pretty well pulled off, and it's just clean and straightforward and gets the emotions where i wanted them to go. there's some of my favorite lines i've ever written in there. charles in erik's mind, erik saying "where have you been?" was a really cool visual that i was happy i got to put on paper.

i also really love never strangers at all. it's undoubtedly the best f1 fic i've written. but i'm also, like, rapidly improving my writing these past few months and i'm already a bit critical of it. anyway, i still do think charles & max's relationship is lovely, and i'm proud of how i stuck to my guns in terms of what i wanted their dynamic to be, even if it's different from how a lot of people perceive them.

MATE, this was long af! i'll tag @sunsetmog & @lost-in-fandoms. i know this is a long one so no obligation, but ya know, hi! <3

[comebackwhen]

While I don't have a lot of time to enjoy the fandom the way that I used to, I did finally manage to borrow a PS5 and a copy of Rebirth. Almost 94 hours later I have thoughts and no one to share them with because I'm the only idiot I know IRL who is this deeply invested in this franchise. I kept notes while I was playing and have a lot of thoughts.

I don't expect anyone to actually read any of this, but it'll be fun for me to come back to whenever the next part comes out. If you want to read the ramblings of a fan from the earliest days (For context, I borrowed my brother's copy right after he finished playing it when the game first came out in 97) feel free.

Since I managed to stay spoiler free until I played the game over the last two weeks, I'm still going to pop my thoughts under a break in case there are others out there waiting on a PC port. Beyond here nothing is safe, plot and character-wise.

Holy shit.

I feel like the last two weeks have been kind of a fever dream. It was simultaneously everything I wanted out of the game and also weirdly disappointing in a lot of places.

So, to kick it off, I wasn't mad about the way they were playing around with the whispers and the multiverse-esque concepts. A perfect shot for shot remake would be fine, but as someone who wrote a lot of fanfiction about the game, I can hardly fault the game's creators for wanting to get in on it. lol I would imagine that some of the new content falls into the - would have been in the OG if not for the limitations of the day - category anyway.

I also found it supremely funny that they included a vaguely malevolent entity that was obsessed with keeping the story "on track" and forcing the players to disagree with those entitles via the characters when a significant chunk of those players would be making that their chief complaint when they hit the end of the game. Call em on their bullshit FF7 devs!

As someone who has always been fascinated by Zack, even when he was practically nothing more than a few lines of dialogue and a missable cutscene in the Nibelheim basement, I can't tell you the joy I felt when I saw him live through the final fight. I was down for whatever they wanted to change at that point. I was even excited for it, I think. I find the idea of a time loop or multiverses crossing over kind of fascinating, so I was ready for whatever they wanted to do with it.

So now that you have context for where I stand on that particular side of the argument...

There was so much that rebirth did right. On the whole, I'm so, so impressed with what they did. The world feels so much bigger and some of the details are exquisite. Little things, like the way the news reports things in the background while they're happening and seeing the way Shinra would spin it. Hearing people talking about world events while you walk by - not to mention the sheer amount of people in the world. It really gives weight to some of the events in a way I had never been able to picture.

Though, whoever thought it was a good idea to put so much destroyable/movable clutter in the world was an idiot. JFC. I had to kick coral out of the way on the way to the altar in the Forgotten City and it genuinely annoyed the everloving hell out of me to be distracted by something so dumb in that moment.

I was worried about playing through the Nibelheim flashback for the Nth time but there were so many subtle things that made it interesting. Like, I didn't appreciate the way that Cloud's VA would be able to do that subtle impression of Zack in the way he delivered the lines. If you don't know what's happening there, you'd totally miss it but iykyk. I loved that. There were also subtle, heartbreaking things, like the kids playing Sephiroth when you walk through town. And I cackled when Tifa and Aeris outright call you an asshole for going through her drawers.

Honestly, the amount of casual swearing in this game gave me life. Which is hilarious, because I'm pretty sure Cid didn't curse once. I was really looking forward to hearing him tell us to sit down, shut up, and drink our $#%Y^ tea in full VA glory, so I'm a little sad that we didn't get that.

The choices between what was changed/how it was changed and what wasn't changed at all sometimes seemed a little weird to me. Like falling off the bridge into a river that being what swept the other trooper away, makes way more sense than falling into a ravine as far as why someone could survive it with scraped knees and someone else would end up in a coma. Removing the hidden bookshelf entrance into the Nibelheim labs? Lame. Chocobos at the ranch don't dance? Laaaaame.

I am glad that they finally called out how weird it was that Tifa never said anything about Cloud being there. It's like half the reason I always disliked her character so much. I even liked the conflict between them and the way that Sephiroth kind of turned it into an uno reverse situation. Cloud's eventual descent into madness near the end feels more earned because Sephiroth has been putting the pressure on the whole time.

Some thoughts about the world travels:

Fuck the Midgar Zolem. Nopenopenope.

I loved so many things in Junon. People in lower Junon protesting at the idea of the parade, awesome bit of world building. The weird ass bald bar with Rude? Chef's kiss. Cloud becoming the parade captain and having to go gather the squad. Loved it. He got so into it and you could see the hints of trooper Cloud under the fake Soldier persona he built. Lovely. The parade mini game was perfect. Even little things like the 1/35 soldier collectibles being used to plan the parade formations in the building where you usually grabbed them in the OG. It's the little details like that. I was super bummed that we weren't getting Red XIII in the trooper uniform until we did.

The Gold Saucer. THE GOLD SAUCER. I spent actual hours there. The only thing that would have made it better would have been a section in the Wonder Square where you could have played the OG versions of the mini games. Cait Sith's voice was giving Crowley high on laudanum and I wasn't mad about it.

I had a really funny moment when I got to Gongaga where I went, "Huh, she looks an awful lot like Cissnei..." and then she said she was Cissnei and I wasn't sure how to feel about it. Most of the Turks went into hiding, so yeah, okay sure. I just feel like there was a missed opportunity for her to call herself something else and it to be a subtle nod to the fact that Cissnei's probably not her name either. I just can't believe she didn't say anything to Cloud or Aeris (you'll pry that spelling out of my cold dead hands) about Zack.

Cid's early entrance into the game was also a little confusing. Like, he was still working for Shinra at that point in the OG. The only reason I was mad about it was that it meant we probably weren't getting Rocket Town. To be fair, I had to start speed running the plot by that point because I only had the the PS5 for two weeks, so I pretty much skipped exploring the Nibel region entirely. Could Rocket Town be there, sure. I won't know until the PC port comes out. lol I'm intrigued by the idea that Cid knew Ifalna. Was he the one who let them out? Again, not an idea I ever considered, but I wouldn't be mad about it.

Going to Cosmo Canyon was the moment I realized this game was not made for anyone remotely neurospicy. I started calling Rebirth "ooh, a squirrel!" the game at that point. I was so excited to go to Cosmo Canyon. Like it was one of the parts I was most excited to see in modern graphics. I immediately got sidetracked by the chocobos, the reagent collection stuff, the screaming owls, the towers, the Chadley bullshit in general.

That was probably one of my biggest complaints, honestly. Trust me to want to go over every inch of the map on my own. I don't need this weird AI kid to give me quests to make me do that. If anything, I actively started avoiding areas because I could see a cluster of his nonsense which meant traveling through that patch of map would be a pain in my ass. I didn't mind him or the concept as a whole, I just needed like 60% less of it, at least.

That being said, I loved the look of Cosmo Canyon, but I was confused by the vibe there. I feel like if that many people believed in Planetology, Shinra could never have gotten away with the bullshit it did. Even in all the towns, there's a dude in robes preaching Planetology. People are talking about the Lifestream and the Planet as a sentient being CONSTANTLY. There needed to be more, "don't believe that hippie, religious nonsense" people to balance that out. Or people saying, mako's absolutely a renewable resource, even if you believe that Planetology stuff. People on the whole would be destructive for the sake of comfort, but there was this weird disconnect there.

Since they were going with this, Planetology is more popular route, I do appreciate the fact that the people who believe in it at the Canyon are kind of pretentious about it. Tifa literally got eaten by a weapon, the group - including Nanaki who is one of them - have seen a number of wild, inexplicable things in the last couple weeks. Probably mako poisioning and group hallucinations. You should get checked out and how dare you question me! Oh you're a Cetra? Here, light the pretty lights at the festival then.

Since we're talking about Cosmo Canyon, the bit about Red's voice cracked me up. I was not prepared for the tiny babby puppy voice he started using in the back half of the game. I definitely missed his grownup voice the rest of the game though.

The GI cave part was well done. I'm sort of intrigued by the idea of the GI creating the black materia. I just wish they would have explained where the GI came from then, since they weren't born of the Planet. Materia is supposed to be the condensed knowledge of the Planet, so how did they make their own? I love the idea that the black materia was supposed to just be a way for them to take themselves out of the world and it ended up being so powerful it could destroy the entire world instead.

Also, the Cetra were just out there fighting everyone, the GI, the humans, Jenova. I really liked the way that GI Nattak called out that she's only Cetra by bloodline because the actual Cetra were kind of assholes. It's an angle I never considered and I'm kind of here for it.

I don't know how to feel about them turning Nibelheim into a mako poisoning treatment center. I think I preferred the Shinra coverup. It makes them much more sinister. It also made more sense when the replacement townspeople were rude to Cloud and Tifa. They have to stay in character because that's their job. Hell no you two didn't live here. Get lost. Now, everyone's just uncomfortable because two people who used to live there are in their midst. It was weird.

Also Cloud remembered Zack way the fuck early for no good reason. He doesn't talk to Aeris about it. Tifa tries to get him to cover it up. Why though? It makes way more sense for him to get flashes but nothing concrete if you want to foreshadow but you're not going to do anything interesting with it.

I have mixed emotions about what they did to Vincent. It's weird that he stayed at the mansion of his own volition as "security" considering what Hojo and Lucrecia did to him. Why tf was he sleeping in a coffin then? It made way more sense for him to be locked away and willing to join up with the party so he could take a piece out of Hojo. Now, he's claiming to have unfinished business with Sephiroth instead but also refuses to go anywhere near him? Also, I can't not hear Matt Mercer's voice when he talks so that was super distracting. lol Galian Beast was incredible. I'm just pissed I didn't get to use him as a limit break.

This was the point that I realized I had to start skipping exploration/side quests if I wanted to get to the ending before I lost access to the game and system. If I don't mention something and it's not required to beat the game, assume I didn't get to see it and will have to wait until the PC port comes out and I can take the whole game completely apart.

I got the Aeris Gold Saucer date. 10/10. I just wish they had got a vocalist that sounded more like Aeris's regular VA, but the play was a fun little minigame. I was confused by why they were all wearing VR headsets while sitting in a theater and if everyone saw themselves as the hero and people in their party as Rosa, the enemies, etc, but I mostly just turned my brain off and enjoyed the ride. The ferris wheel date was the perfect update to the dialogue while still keeping the vibe. Loved it.

The Temple of the Ancients was both better than I could have hoped for and possibly the worst section to play through at the same time. I was really looking forward to a quirky puzzle solving section with a weird, reality warping backdrop. The temple itself was perfect. The way it built itself up when the keystone got inserted. The look of the labyrinth. All of it. Then, it turned into an action RPG enemy grind. It needed to be half the size it was if they were just going to cut all the cool parts out anyway.

The flashbacks to everyone's sad moments were cool, but I feel like they didn't actually do what they were supposed to for anyone but Aeris. Red ends his tied to the table by Hojo, Barret - Myrna's dead and his arm is gone. (Though it was cool to see what Myrna looks like!) Tifa's dad's dead. Yuffie's confronted by Nero and mocked for leaving Sonon behind. If the Temple was trying to tell them that anger and grief can only take you so far as a warrior, they should probably all ended with some sliver of hope, like Elmyra helping to take care of her. Barret finding Marlene for example, would have been great.

I like the way they handled Cait Sith here much better than the OG. Him physically holding up the temple so it wouldn't collapse was a nice touch. He seemed genuinely remorseful about what he did and the surprise, here's Cait #2 moment seemed far less out of the blue and wrong toned because everyone was still conflicted about how to feel about him.

Cloud creeped me the hell out by the end and that was perfect. The way he chased Aeris for the black materia while saying creepy half-mind controlled stuff. I'm also not mad that they skipped him beating her up and replaced it with them both falling into the pit. It still gives a viable reason for why he's unconscious and gives her the space to run off to the sleeping forest.

I am a little sad that we lost out on his indecision about whether he's safe to go onward. The group dynamic when it comes to Cloud being weird is confusing. It seems like they all understand that degradation is a thing and there's a good chance it's happening to Cloud, but they also let him get away with shit that he really shouldn't be doing/saying if that is the case. He yeeted Tifa into a mako pit and she got eaten by a WEAPON. Did we address that, not really..? He's desperate to get to the black materia in a way that's making Yuffie looked restrained? That's fine. We don't need to tell him to go back and sit with Cid and Vincent. Just let him come along!

The ending leaves me feeling conflicted and brings me to my complaint about the remake itself. I feel like we were speedrunning the plot to ultimately get nowhere fast. Everyone knows the plot, so who cares if we bring Cid in early to cut some of the journey out. We're going to skip over Wutai for now by hinting at the side story we'll get to later. Vincent's backstory, who needs it? Any world exploration in relation to the keystone, nah, Cait just knows that. Let's put Rufus and Hojo at the temple with the Turks and steal some of the northern crater stuff and do that instead of the Temple of the Ancients puzzles. Bone City, Sleeping Forest, Forgotten City? Yeet.

For real though, the Forgotten City feels smaller than the OG version and that's a fucking crime.

I assumed that the climax would explain more about the alternate universes, why Zack survived, how the whispers work, etc. and that was the REAL story here, so sure, let's get to that.

Any time now.

I'll wait.

Wait, not like that! I didn't mean- and the game's over. Well fuck.

Seriously, that's how I felt about the ending. I was kind of holding off on the Zack side story so I could come at it all at once. I loved that Zack got into Midgar just to see that, without Cloud, the Avalanche stuff falls apart. There's a teeny plot hole in how Aeris would have ended up involved without Cloud buuuuut fate's gonna do its thing and I can suspension of disbelief that.

What I can't ignore is that we never find out who the missing Soldier with the Buster Sword was that was involved. The reports talk about a missing Soldier who Shinra's still searching for. Maybe they're just tacking that on because Zack survived his execution and they're trying to kill two birds with one stone, but then why aren't they looking for two Soldiers? Zack still clearly has Cloud. I have questions.

On that note, literally no one bats an eye at Zack and Cloud looking like they could 100% have been running from that fight. Kyrie would have absolutely have handed Cloud over to a Soldier/Trooper the second Zack was gone.

So great. Now we have Zack and Cloud at Elmyra's with Marlene and Aeris in a coma. Her materia's all clear. The world is ending. Spooky af. I'm fascinated. Biggs is the only one who survived the capture of Avalanche. he's super guilty. Love it. Wait, why's he talking about Cloud like he knows him and he was there at the bombings? Marlene too? Of course Aeris has a crush on Cloud, you're dead silly! It's probably best she never wakes up because then Sephiroth murders her.

Elmyra implying that it's okay if no one saves Barret and Tifa because the world is ended and they're all going to end up in the same place soon was fucking DARK. I was not prepared for that.

Then, Zack has a decision. Shinra HQ for a cure to Cloud's coma or rescuing Biggs from his own stupidity. He chooses a friendly chat with Hojo, rocks up to the building on a motorcycle and guns it into the building despite the troopers. Love it. Wait. Why's he talking to Biggs in the reactor? And Biggs is dead and Zack's facing down the army again. Did we just branch into a second alternate timeline where Zack both went to HQ and tried to save Biggs? Awesome. We're really leaning into the weirdness. Let's fucking go.

Aeris and Cloud wake up in their coma bodies. Okay, awesome. We're finally going to get an explanation. Is this some weird sort of afterlife where all the souls from the multiverse end up and drop their knowledge off before rebirth? Is Aeris going to take Rebirth!Cloud and bring him somewhere else because she's a Cetra and can do crazy shit like that?

Nope, we're going on another weird ass date.

This is when I realized that we've definitely got at least two "Zack lives" timelines. The Cloud and Aeris one seems like a spinoff of one of those too, since Cloud woke up in the wheelchair in Aeris's house. Then there's one where Zack is sitting on the church steps right before Sephiroth shows up. I can't tell if the dog Johnny's holding is the same one as the bag from the remake ending or not. You can keep track of which timeline you're in because of the Stamp used in that universe. What the fuck even is my life?

So assuming that "Johnny dog" Zack is the one who fights with Cloud, is he gone when he says goodbye at the end? Is he the one that wakes up in the church? But the flowers in the church are okay when all the other Zack timelines aren't. Is this a fifth timeline?

I don't necessarily mind that they didn't tie it all up in a bow because this isn't the end, but I have so many frustrating questions.

Lastly, let's get to Schrodinger's flower girl. If she's really dead, I feel robbed. If they were actually going to kill her off, I wanted to be fucked up emotionally in 4k. I wanted everyone saying goodbye on the altar. I wanted the water burial. All of it in high def so I could sob my heart out like a teenage girl.

I'm intrigued by the overlay of Aeris bleeding and not. Her holding Cloud's face and it looking like he's holding her hand up because she's already dead. Cloud giving the OG speech with no words and just crying and ignoring Sephiroth entirely. Are we seeing multiple worlds converging and only Cloud can tell because he was dragged into that alternate world with her? Is Cloud's mind cracked beyond all telling and this is just Jenova/Sephiroth coming to him wearing the face of someone he loves and trusts?

I'm still annoyed that they seemed to scoot on by the most pivotal part of the OG, but I will forgive them if it turns out that Cloud's crazy and we get to see it all properly in Part Three. Or if they come up with an equally suitable twist involving multiversal travel where she really is both alive and dead in any given universe.

I'll be excited when the PC port comes out so I can really take the game apart and find out what makes it tick. I'm sure I only barely scratched the surface, considering how much side content I had to skip. I think a lot of this could benefit from a second playthrough, even if I had 100% it.

If you're still here, I'm confused but hope you enjoyed my ramblings. Night all.

[pondscummy]

the "also sick" comment isn't like "btw I'm SICK, how dare you not know" it's me saying I'm sick like how 2/3 of my roommates are

but like I'm so;;;; it feels so rich that L is like wtf do you want from me about me not replying for 45 minutes when I had to beg his gf over hours and hours of texts every so often to not force me to sit in unwiped shit after my surgery bc she had openly told me she just didn't rly feel like setting up the attachable bidet after telling me for weeks she would, and I never ever got a reply from her or L ever acknowledging that they were wide awake hanging out and laughing while I was like stuck in bed barely able to move begging for follow through on a commitment they made in advance and i eventually had to spend over $100 to hire someone to come out the next day and do it for me and I had to hold my shit for hours lmfao

like L is sooooo great at couching things in flawless tumblr wellness speak but only to talk about how valid they are for not showing up for you and how fucked up it is that you MIGHT ever have a moment where you can't be 100% there w them. like idk what to tell you I've been laying in bed with a sore throat and cough and fever passing out and waking up to roll over in buckets of sweat like the rest of the house. I do genuinely get being annoyed by a lack of response but it's also right back to this whole thing about Always assuming I'm mad at them which is legit one of the only things that actually makes me mad fjdkddhk like bro I do not THINK about you when you're not acting like I'm a bomb about to blow (also, as an aside -- we all take turns buying TP and it's usually me who does it like it's not out of pocket for me to say hey you are the One person who is out of the house already rn, can you get this on your way bc None of the bathrooms have back up rolls and one is totally out and I had to text our sickest roommate telling her to use the bidet and drip dry like.... "am I the first person you asked" yes bc you are the person who makes the most sense dumbfuck. I'm not being "overly needy" toward you or whatever jfc)

they literally told me at one point that the reason they're so scared of me is that my face is "triggering" for them when I'm angry or not feeling good and puts them "back in a really bad place" they have seen my face angry literally 3 times and each time it was on my way back to my room to decompress and each time I said nothing to them other than that I was in a bad mood and I was going to go to my room. I didn't yell either I just said it normal. like I genuinely feel gaslit here like I'm this horrifying monster of a man when it's like dude sometimes people are mad I don't know what YOU want from ME!! I do all my venting here where they can't ever see it even tho we've blocked each other, I censor their name like anyone even knows who they are, I isolate to chill out and it's literally been less than a handful of times like should I fling myself from the roof??????? would that fix it???

I literally know it's bc I'm a man too. none of this was like this until my facial hair came in more and it got crazy worse after I got top surgery and they're so so vocal about how much they despise men and think men should all fuck off and die and there's only a handful of acceptable men that they've personally vetted. despite them pretty clearly having a trans woman fetish bc they only date or look at porn of trans women and they do the whole step on me mommy thing about it even tho their gf has complained like. lmfao you're just a baby te//rf even tho you ID as trans masc yourself. like that's all this even is. I'm a big (5'3") scary (spent the whole weekend w my coworkers asking if I was 12) man who's obviously going to snap and kill you all bc sometimes I *checks writing on hand* get frustrated and go lay down about it

[suizokukans]

it was two birds one stone. leaning into him she cups a hand ‘round his ear and whispers something she never thought she’d dare say. she wasn’t even sure who was more surprised, her or him. before long the pair had found themselves a nice little space, hidden away from prying eyes.

loni had already dropped down to a squat, hands palming at his pants as she struggled to get them pulled down. “this- this is a thank youse, but it’s also for me.” normally she never partook in any intimacy during her heat. she opted just to wait it out at home, sleep it away and pretend it was just a bad fever. it never drove her to want to do anything to begin with, but this? this was different. he smelled nice and he didn’t strike her as a bad guy. like this she was in control of everything as well. the pace was up to her… was it so wrong of loni to want to try and get a taste of what so many others could take and give so freely?

“don’t pull my hair and if you try anything funny I’ll bite it off.” cheeks darken as she leans in, pulling him free of his boxers. fuck.. fuck he smelled good? how was that even fair? “nnngh… you can move though when I get used to it. I don’t have a gag reflex-“ / jfc I’m sorry it’s long she just yaps internally

With his inability to not be a people pleaser; when Loni had just moments ago motioned for him to lean a little closer, of course he'd done so - absolutely not expecting what her next string of words were going to be.

But; he wasn't going to turn her down, agreeing to the offer and helping her up before squirrelling off somewhere. For the sake of an inch of a peace of mind, he'd muttered a spell under his breath, clicking his fingers twice which would be enough to make them have no presence to anyone who dared to walk by. Hopefully the clicking could be passed off as eager nerves.

Moving his back against the wall to give her more space, he unbuckles the belt on his pants to help with her visible struggle to get his pants down, chuckling as he hears her words. "It's a bit for the both of us - I got it, I got it-"

It certainly doesn't help the rush of adrenaline this whole situation sent through his body got him already somewhat visibly excited, and her playful? (he's assuming so) threat only adds to it. "Mmm- I'll be careful don't worry, I don't want it bitten off, like ever." The smile plastered on his face only grows, and he raises a hand to cover it in some embarrassment that he came off way too eager over this. "Right, I'll let you get warmed up first before I do anything." There's a teasing glint in his eye, he's curious to see how far she actually goes but then again - do you really turn around at this point?

[percontaion-points]

EatCoD chapter 4

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Chapter 4

“Your dad is Robert, Alpha of the Southeastern White Tooth pack.”

Why did the father only get a name after he was dead?

I scanned the car once more and couldn’t find a single thing that reminded me of home to bring with me.

Wow, it’s almost like she didn’t bring anything with her? And why would Aaron have stuff in HIS car that would remind Liz of HER home?

“That’s because you have a high fever. At least a hundred and seven.”

From google: Numbers that are cause for concern: 105°F – Go to the emergency room.

JFC, get her to a freaking hospital. 

I looked for anything I could use as a weapon.

[...]

Then I noticed a freestanding toilet paper caddy next to the toilet. It had a pointed end, maybe I could use it as a weapon? But what would I do with the toilet paper?

Oh no, think about the poor toilet paper!!

I dressed quickly, silently thanking whoever was in charge of getting me new clothes that they thought to buy a bra and some underwear. Red lace. Hmmm. Kinky. 

Something tells me that the bra isn’t going to be supportive. The kind of bra you wear only to tease your partner in the bedroom.

And honestly, I’d rather go without a bra than have to wear one of those under regular clothes. 

“Elizabeth? Why is the toilet paper caddy in here?”

Just going to leave this right here…

“Did you just call me dude?” Christian put the plate down in front of him and Avery poured the syrup on his pancakes. 

“Dude, nerd, asshole…” 

Avery put the syrup on the other side of his plate, away from Hunter. “Everybody knows that you take all of the syrup. I’d say that would make you the asshole in this room.” He shoved a triangle of pancakes in his mouth.

Oh boy, I can’t wait to read this for the rest of the series. 

SAID NOBODY. EVER. 

“Could I ride on one your backs?” 

Hunter rolled his eyes and a burst of laughter came from Christian. Hunter took the last plate from my hands. “No, you cannot just ride on our backs. We aren’t your pet.” 

Wow. Talk about a reaction. “Sorry, I didn’t realize.” 

“Not yet, anyway.”

Of course somebody makes it weird. 

I’d taken a couple days off at the mortgage company to deal with pack issues but my boss was going to worry if I didn’t come in soon.

I’ve seen enough true crime documentaries to know that somebody at her work is going to call the police. 

In a logical and just world, they’d see the bodies of Liz’s parents (because you KNOW that they wouldn’t have actually done anything with the bodies) and a huge investigation would kick off. 

But this is a shitty reverse harem romance series, so I’m expecting literally none of that.

There was a clawing in my stomach, ripping and shredding my insides, like a wild beast trying to get out.

Chapter 4 summary: Liz is quick to realise that it’s a dragon… and a big one at that. She’s forced to continue on, since the pack is closing in on her, but then the dragon leaves to go fight the wolves. Another car comes from the opposite way, and a man Liz hasn’t seen before is like “You’re Liz right? Your father is Robert, and your mom is Jane, no?” Liz doesn’t want to get into the car with him, but she feels like she has no choice. In there, he introduces himself as Christian, and the driver as Avery; it’s mentioned that the dragon is named Hunter. 

They drive for a really long time, only stopping for gas once. As they drive, Liz starts to feel worse and worse; like her body is on fire. 

When they get to a safe house, Liz tries to bolt. But then Hunter tackles her to the ground, and she passes out. Liz wakes up hours later, and Hunter comes to tell her that she has a fever of 107. He helps her to take an ice bath, but after they’re done, she’s feeling a little better. She finds new clothes in her room. 

Downstairs, the others have made breakfast for her. The boys act like immature toddlers, and end up spraying water everywhere. As they’re cleaning up, and Liz helps with the dishes, she asks them questions about the weredragons. They say that their species is highly endangered, so they keep to themselves. When asked why they can’t come out to the werewolves, they pointedly tell her that the wolves would attack them. 

They also explain to her that the reason why she’s burning up and has a huge appetite is because she’s finally starting to shift. That they’ll remain at this safe house until after her first shift, then they’ll move on to another safe house. Liz obviously wants to train so that she can go back and kick Scarface’s ass. 

They randomly find a stray kitten outside the kitchen door, and Liz wants to keep it. But then she’s overcome with such a huge burst of pain that it’s the only thing she can think about. 

[imsureiforgotsomething]

I can confirm, being a stoic is not helpful. I have a high tolerance for pain. Shit hurts but you couldn't tell by my mannerisms. 8 of 10 pain, but not an outcry or even a whimper.

The first ER got me in quick, but doing the rebound test on me was negative, so no appendicitis, and they stopped there. I had no fever, no nausea, no vomiting. They didn't go to the next most common and deadly condition, perforated bowel. A CT scan had the radiologist confirming no appendicitis, but it appears they did not look on the other side of my abdomen, where unknown to all, including myself, a perforation was leaking poop, starting up peritonitis. They released me with a shrug and a script for a handful of pain killers.

The next day, still suffering, I drove 400 miles back home. When I got home, I went to my Level 1 Trauma Center hospital, certain they would take care of me. It had been 30 hours since I had been to the first ER. My guts were boiling.

That ER triaged me incorrectly, doing the same rebound test, still negative, no fever, no nausea, no vomiting. But my pain was now 9 of 10, I told them. "Go sit down, there are people ahead of you," they said. They made me wait 5 hours until I was finally seen. By the time they got a new CT scan, it was two hours later. A bowel perforation was suspected, and they informed me I was to undergo emergency exploratory surgery to confirm it. That surgery did not happen for another 5 hours. JFC, the pain was 10 of 10, not even a goddammit tear in my eyes.

When they opened me up, the surgeon characterized what he saw as, "Your guts were very, very angry." They removed 27 cm of descending large intestine and power-washed the poop out of my abdomen. I got a stoma.

I have months of recovery ahead, and at the end they will reverse my stoma, reconnecting the remainder of my large intestine to my rectum.

Had I been more demonstrative of my level of pain, screaming, crying, I likely would've received more prompt treatment and been able to keep more of my intestine.

But that isn't me. I should've ACTED in horrible pain, unconsolable. I now likely have PTSD, since I snap whenever any expected action is not performed immediately. No gradient now. Everything is an 11 of urgency. I was nice, compliant, and it nearly killed me. Now, my brain has rejected that personality and turned me into a snarling beast. I'm stuck in survival mode.

This is all still fresh, I'm gonna need some professional help fixing this damage to my psyche.

As OP said, overact your symptoms. Being compliant could kill you. It almost killed me.

Play up your symptoms in the ER and urgent care when you're in need of immediate treatment. No I am not kidding. This goes much extra if you're black, and especially if you think your life is in danger or something could at least cause severe harm if untreated. Doctors and staff have biases, sometimes awful ones. Some even still believe that black people have a better pain tolerance but that was a lie created to justify American slavery.

[flydotnet]

Warm Like Birthday Candles

WHUMPTOBER 2023 DAY 2: “I’ll call out your name, but you won’t call back.” Thermometer | Delirium | “They don't care about you.”

A light piece, both in tone and word count, considering it's Whumptober and all. My original plan was actually a fic codenamed """Ultramarine Blue""" that was going to be an ansgty sickfic and a sort of romantic version of a story I wrote in 2021 for my (current, jfc) BTHB card, "Feverish Reflections". I do somewhat ccry the loss of how I'd have been able to use "They don't care about you"… but also, I knew this story was always going to also serve as my 2023 birthday fic for the original blorbo, Tachimukai. And you know what? This time, the angsty-ass sickfic didn't work for me. I wanted to be gentle, for once.

I kind of skipped over Whumptober 2022 and a 2022 edition of the yearly Tachi fic, so this year, he gets to have a bit of a cold, but also to have a badass GF; and I think it's good enough. I may just write Ultramarine Blue later down the line; but for this October 2nd, it's happy birthday and nothing else.

So, happy birthday, Tachimukai. I may not be waxing the hell out of my author's notes like I did four years ago, but be assured, you're still the one fictional character I'll defend to the very end. (Which not even Matsuyama gets to have, may I add, because I sadly have to acknowledge his canon - and it's clearly not as generous as Inazuma's).

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Warm Like Birthday Candles

Summary: Haruna's boyfriend is a lot of things: he's caring, he's clever, he's the sweetest man you could dream of… and he's also stupidly stubborn, not unlike her. Well, it takes a stubborn idiot to tame another, she supposes.

Fandom: Inazuma Eleven (post-canon)

Word Count: 1K words

AO3 version available here!

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“I’m fine Haruna, I swear!”

“Nu-huh, you’ve been feeling weird for days, it’s time you lie down a little and let yourself rest!”

Yuuki sighs, his lips perked up but his eyebrows creased.

“I still have class to do today,” he replies with a cough barely smothered inside his throat. “I don’t wanna let them down.”

She crosses her arms and puffs up her chest. Man, he can be so infuriating sometimes…

“Your students can wait until you’re not sick anymore. You’ve been dragging this cold on for long enough!”

He looks so conflicted, from up there, even through the red splotches of his cheeks and the slight haze of a low-grade fever.

“But… I mean…”

“If you drag this on for much longer, you’ll just make it worse. Plus, look on the bright side, it means staying home on your special day!”

He looks, as always whenever this is the case, utterly unconvinced. In fact, his expression is closer to that of a betrayed man than of a man to whom she’d have just told “see, it’s your birthday, and you don’t even have to work during it! Isn’t that cool?”. This man is going to be the end of her, someday, she’s sure of it.

(Yet even if he turns out to be so, she’ll still be happy that he is her epilogue. They put up with each other so much, he’s worth the hassle of being an unstoppable force pit against an unmoveable object).

((Well, there’s a very good reason why he used to be a goalkeeper – and why he was the best one ever too)).

“It’s not really an excuse, isn’t it?” He coughs into his fist. “The birthday, I mean.”

“That implies your cold is a good enough excuse, doesn’t it?”

He sighs, congestion stifling the noise.

“You’re never going to let me go to work, will you?” He asks back, suddenly resigned.

“If I can have a word about it, absolutely not! Now, let’s just chill on the couch for a bit and I can order us lunch.”

“I don’t even feel this sick, Haruna, this just sounds like overkill.”

She squints her eyes and clicks her tongue.

“Hmph. Let’s see if that holds true, then!” She points to the nearest armchair. “Take a seat.”

“I’m gonna be late to work, Haruna.”

“And I’ll make it quick, so take a seat and stop resisting your fate!”

In spite of his conflicted expression, he chuckles.

“Fine, fine.”

Once she’s made sure he’s actually going to stay seated, she rushes to their bathroom. One glance at the inside of the cabinet and she finds it: the sole thermometer in the whole apartment, ready to be used. With a swift rinse of its end, it’s ready to use, and just as fast as she left the living room, she comes back to it.

With a confident stride, she walks up to him, proudly displaying her tool. He’s focused on the screen of his phone up until he finally notices she’s back. Took him long enough.

“Open up,” she orders.

Yuuki opens his mouth, but not as instructed. She still uses it as an opportunity.

“Sorry,” she continues, “it’s a bit under-handed, I know.”

They both stare at the thing until it beeps, at which point he can finally talk again.

“Please don’t do that again,” is the first thing that exits his mouth.

“38.3,” she quickly snaps back. “I’m pretty sure that’s more than yesterday, and also, a bad enough temperature to take a day off to rest. Knowing you, you’ve overcompensated the previous days.”

As if on cue, he coughs.

“You really aren’t going to let me go to work,” he sighs again, this time wth a smile.

“Nope! So take it easy and unwind, I’m taking care of everything today.”

He glances left and right, before giving a knowing look.

“Or else?”

“Or else I’m calling Tsunami.”

That’s enough to send a shiver down his spine.

“You’re ready for anything, as always.”

“I just know you!”

She puts the thermometer away on the nearby coffee table, then lowers herself just to face him. He looks utterly dejected, which doesn’t come unexpected to her: you can’t just ask a workaholic to let go of his duty and expect him to take it well. She isn’t too different, in that regard, after all.

Despite his painfully obvious displeasure with the turn of events, he takes back his phone, scrolls a bit and starts a call. A couple minutes later, he’s promised to see a doctor so he has a certificate to give and he’s officially gotten the day off.

“I should actually do that. I mean, see a doctor,” he immediately states right afterwards.

She climbs up on him, cupping his cheeks with her hands.

“That I agree with. It’s time you take care of yourself!”

He smiles at this, eyes squinting just enough to be ridiculously endearing.

“You shouldn’t be so close to my face; you’ll end up catching it too.”

“If I’ve not caught it by now, then I just won’t!” She leans back to let him cough into his elbow. “But that visit to the doctor is a good idea. It’ll make you feel a bit better once you’ve got the right medicine in.” She sighs, this time to herself. “Talk about your special day, huh. Having to go to the doctor and stuff.”

“To be fair, you’re the one who’s always made it special. I didn’t really pay muchc attention to my birthday before we started dating.”

“You can’t say that to me and pretend like Tsunami didn’t do the heavy lifting!”

“Okay, okay, you’re right: Tsunami and you made it special.”

“That’s better. What do you want to do, now?”

“Well, let’s knock the doctor visit down, and then we can… We can just relax, I guess.”

The words may be foreign to his tongue, but they make her happy to hear.

“That’s a good plan, yes! A quick go, a drop by the pharmacy, and we can make this day as good as can be, okay?”

“Okay.”

[baekhvuns]

Omg does NFL really come up when you search football? Must be your location, in Europe I see the right type of football. My friend explained American football to me in return... it's so weird 😭

Lmao Mbappe, he found himself in a bit of a situation, whatever shall he do 🤔 Bellingham might go to Liverpool, but I know Madrid is eyeing him. But I'm sorry Zidane couching Brazil??? Mou too??? Let's relax

Portugal really lost so much this WC, oh well... better luck next time. That team was always very unstable, let's be honest it was on Ronaldo to make them win multiple times, not to belittle players like Pepe or earlier - Figo who saved their asses too, but it is what it is

Did you play cricket yourself? I had to play volleyball in school, almost every single P.E class for years I DETESTED IT and I fractured my wrist permanently because of it... I used to go to hockey games actually! I started playing mini golf in high school, there was a sports centre next to my school and we would go there, found out I was pretty decent at golf. But don't make me watch it

Pique definitely thinks he's THE SHIT, meanwhile he's become a pathetic villain 😬 but not in a cool way. Oh yeah the Mou Madrid, Pep Barca time was something else, toxic and I was definitely TOO invested in the rivalry lollll, but the matches, the spectacle 😭🤚🏻

Maybe the biting stays in the Suarez family 👁👁

This reply sususajshahsha man has the duality. Really?! 2023 will be wild for him then, good luck Salah 👋🏻 and shit, that kid's statistics already look better than some players' with 10 years of careers 😅

In London many people hang out in the same areas so it's really easy to come across someone more or less famous. You need to visit for a Y/N moment. Oooh who do you know 👀

I just realised the title is Hot & Cold, someone at SM said "you two need to end your beef besties, cause I ship you"

"One line" for Hwa 😭 hopefully not autotuned like in Paradigm. STFU ABOUT THE IT BOY BULLSHIT I'M TIRED

Sometimes when we look at attractive and nice people we think "how can they be single" but it's not that easy hahahah. Jackson needs to host more parties I guess

I remember Teezers playing basket on Fever Road and Hwa wasn't the best, got manhandled <3 BUT BAEK WHERE'S THAT SPORTY AU I NEED IT NOOOOOOW . But jfc, this is so vile, I'm not shocked, but poor guy. OLD? He was 16-18... the rest was probably 13 or some shit

Lil Exol Hwa now people have no money to see you sksgakahalsbakakak 😢🥺

And the cry fest continues

Do you randomly hear FIX ON when you're trying to sleep cause your neighbour Mingi down the street is going at it?

HOT AND DELUSIONAL...damn. I got Dino on the SVT one, I lost the description, but it was kinda accurate actually

Why can't we have more of these type of interactions they're so adorable

A vampire or an angel not sure...... - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Omg does NFL really come up when you search football? Must be your location, in Europe I see the right type of football. My friend explained American football to me in return... it's so weird 😭

yes it does! 😭😭😭 i think it is a location thing too dbwmbdsk NO BC IT IS SO WEIRD IT IS AND SO CONFUSING i only watch it for the halftime, and now miss rihanna is doing the halftime 🤲🏻 cannot wait,, i hope she does it for the next wc too

Lmao Mbappe, he found himself in a bit of a situation, whatever shall he do 🤔 Bellingham might go to Liverpool, but I know Madrid is eyeing him. But I'm sorry Zidane couching Brazil??? Mou too??? Let's relax

im afraid he will chose money in the end 🤩🤩 i rly do not wanna see him at rm it’ll tbh ruin it for me fbdbdb i THINK ITS CONFIRMED HES DOING MADRID, if haaland goes there too it’ll be unstoppable! DNJDJD zidane, mourinho, ancelotti AND guardiola too now! r9’s backing zidane up for the role,, but ancelotti would fit right in,,, whatever it’ll be it’s gonna be crazy

Portugal really lost so much this WC, oh well... better luck next time. That team was always very unstable, let's be honest it was on Ronaldo to make them win multiple times, not to belittle players like Pepe or earlier - Figo who saved their asses too, but it is what it is

no yeah! shocking but i guess some what for the good, hopefully next year for sure! if not 1st then top3 at max!! YEAHHH even watching their matches it was really just ronaldo trying to score or the team trying to MAKE ronaldo score instead of creating passes or goals,,, u can tell it annoyed him too bc he works well in a team,,, maybe some new players were intimidated but damn what a way to end it

Did you play cricket yourself? I had to play volleyball in school, almost every single P.E class for years I DETESTED IT and I fractured my wrist permanently because of it... I used to go to hockey games actually! I started playing mini golf in high school, there was a sports centre next to my school and we would go there, found out I was pretty decent at golf. But don't make me watch it

i did sometimes! tho it was only deemed as a sport guys played so id just be the one catching the balls 😭😭,, my sibling who was going to do the cricket as his future and practiced to join the under 19 trainings teams however he quit 🧍🏻‍♀️ also bc he got injured by the insanely heavy hard ball dbdbd,,,, NOOO????? MISS MAAM WHAT TYPE OF VOLLEY U PLAYING???? HITTING IT THAT HARD?? the most one gets is the red arm or a muscle pull BUT A BROKEN WRIST???? MAAM.

Pique definitely thinks he's THE SHIT, meanwhile he's become a pathetic villain 😬 but not in a cool way. Oh yeah the Mou Madrid, Pep Barca time was something else, toxic and I was definitely TOO invested in the rivalry lollll, but the matches, the spectacle 😭🤚🏻 //// Maybe the biting stays in the Suarez family 👁👁

he thinks he’s the shift after be bagged shakira BRO ITS NOT GONNA CHANGE U AS A PERSOND DBDB it just made him worse 😭😭😭😭 absolutely!!!! u could like smell the toxicity in the air, the tension AAAHH THE RIVALRY WHAT TIME IT WAS DJDJDJ no bc i was too, butthurt whenever madrid scored dbdb <33 it better stay in the family 😭😭😭 next thing u know it’s passed out to other players

This reply sususajshahsha man has the duality. Really?! 2023 will be wild for him then, good luck Salah 👋🏻 and shit, that kid's statistics already look better than some players' with 10 years of careers 😅

LMFAOOOO GTFOOO DBDBDBDBDB its so funny every year but also so sad 😭😭😭 memes are the best part,,, good luck to him indeed i wonder if he’ll disable his comment section fbfbfb,,, NO LITERALLY??? how’s that EVEN possible,,,, damnnn bro will play in the generation if cr jr. 🫡

but i wanted to ask how was ur and ur londoner friends reaction to kane’s penalty dhdh

In London many people hang out in the same areas so it's really easy to come across someone more or less famous. You need to visit for a Y/N moment. Oooh who do you know 👀

I AM ON MY WAY RIGHT NOW,,,, there’s a cricketer who was in the prime/peak cricket team era that went rly popular who are family friends! tho his mom’s 🔫🔫🔫 too arrogant about her son being at that level dbdb another is a singer (??) more producer who’s songs are very, very well known in & not a wedding goes by that don’t have his songs playing + was a recent discovery actually, who’s in the family and lives in london! and the other is actually thru my cousins who live in london, they know bellingham tho not personally but thru groups! tho if u come here u will spot ryan reynolds outside universities doing either deadpool filming or god knows what and some netflix or disney show filming! IF U WATCHED RIVERDALE that shitty show was filmed down the street <3 trash <3

I just realised the title is Hot & Cold, someone at SM said "you two need to end your beef besties, cause I ship you"

HFKWHDKWHDKWKCJC NO BC THATS WHAT IT SEEMS LIKE TOO seulkai what a duo,, the song was great too! broke me out of my hibernation and have begun to write yunho’s fic 🔫

"One line" for Hwa 😭 hopefully not autotuned like in Paradigm. STFU ABOUT THE IT BOY BULLSHIT I'M TIRED /// Sometimes when we look at attractive and nice people we think "how can they be single" but it's not that easy hahahah. Jackson needs to host more parties I guess

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭😭 HOPEFULLY NO AUTOTUNE OR MIC DIFFICULTIES I NEED TO HEAR HIM 😭😭😭 juyeon + hwa collab better be seen on that stage !!!! NO SRS atp there is no term it boy, fans have destroyed the meaning behind it,,, he needs to host more parties to finally find his y/n 😭😭

I remember Teezers playing basket on Fever Road and Hwa wasn't the best, got manhandled <3 BUT BAEK WHERE'S THAT SPORTY AU I NEED IT NOOOOOOW . But jfc, this is so vile, I'm not shocked, but poor guy. OLD? He was 16-18... the rest was probably 13 or some shit

do u think he lets them man handle him bc he doesn’t want to unleash his side 🔫 that one show where they all were taught by kids,,, his INTRO WAS CUT I COULDNT EVEN SEE IF HE COULD KICK PROPERLY OR IF HE WAS JOKES,,, BESTIE ITS BEEN ON MY MIND THAT TRACK AU 😭😭😭no bc what a way to pull his spirit down bUT him now must he a kick in the face for those who rejected him

Lil Exol Hwa now people have no money to see you sksgakahalsbakakak 😢🥺 /// And the cry fest continues /// Do you randomly hear FIX ON when you're trying to sleep cause your neighbour Mingi down the street is going at it?

IM, IVE HAD ENOUGH OF HIM I NEED HIM TO INTERACT WITH EXO LIVE 😭😭😭 exo concert coming and u know half of them will be there ✊🏻

yeah! i hear him spit bars too it’s crazy ill record it next time!

HOT AND DELUSIONAL...damn. I got Dino on the SVT one, I lost the description, but it was kinda accurate actually

THE BEST COMBO DBDBDBDB 😭😭😭 i got scoups! here’s another and u better pick god save the queen 🔫

Why can't we have more of these type of interactions they're so adorable /// A vampire or an angel not sure...... - DV 💖

they really are 😭😭 need a chaotic year end stage for 4th gen where they all just go crazy and have interactions to piss off the kr fans,,,, A FALLEN ANGEL 🤚🏻🤚🏻

anon HFKWHDKQHDWK WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE HES ACTUALLY SINGING IT TOO FBFB

down bad. SILVER HAIR BACK !!!!!

😭😭???

😀😀🧍🏻‍♀️ what is going on ??

[ingleaisle]

Me: Hmm, I haven’t really thought about pokemon in depth for a good... year and a half?

My brain, about to re-educate me on what the FUCK it means to have a special interest:

[clatterbane]

Yeah, I think they have changed what they're doing with the anesthesia the past couple of times. (Which, nothing from anesthesiology ever shows up in my records through the portal. They could be doing anything.)

Because, yeah, my blood sugar decided to do the same crazy shit after I got home from another procedure today. Don't even have the hormonal crap to blame this time, with the timing. Looks very specifically like something different anesthesiology started doing to me, or my reactions to it have changed.

Oh yeah, this was also my lifestyle tonight. 😬

I was attributing it to that surprise UTI last month, but yeah I started into violent shivering fits which eventually got me yakking up everything I had drunk over the past few hours. After I had taken to the bed again, under a blanket in a hoodie when it's over 70 in here, to hopefully get that shit stopped. The anesthesia has been good at fucking up my thermoregulation all along, even when they were just doing propofol sedation without the full OR experience. But JFC, this has gone ridiculous.

I was involuntarily groaning as I shook again, and who knows what the neighbors might have thought was going on. But, then the combo of that and me violently barfing all of a sudden did wake Mr. C up. Which made me feel more like crap, but I was glad in another way because I really was too sick to try to get up and try to deal with the situation right then. It took him a while to find what he was looking for, but he did bring in the mop-up towels and other barf bucket containers for me.

Thankfully, I did already have that empty bottle where I could grab it from the bed, but it filled up very quickly and I did end up spewing water and coffee all over the floor. Could have been worse. I didn't have any actual food since like 2 p.m., because my blood sugar was being so crazy and I was also feeling a little sick to my stomach all evening which I put off on the blood sugar chaos. 🤢

Finally flipped over to the gross and sweaty phase, and I am daring to sip on some low sugar electrolyte drink. So far, so good. But yeah, I was also only actively barfing while I was shivering like that last month. I think I will shortly chase it with some of the dissolvable paracetamol/Tylenol, and try to go back to bed and sleep at least some of it off. Hopefully the anti-fever stuff will help this time too. I did not keep down what I took after the shivering started setting in earlier.

(Yes, the fizzy electrolyte tablets are from Nestle. No, I was not the one who bought them, before anybody decides to jump down my revolting throat. Yes, I am drinking it anyway because I was puking all over the place. Anybody who has an issue with that can piss right off.)

Speaking of piss, I do actually still have a much lower level UTI hanging on, because that course of antibiotics was evidently not long enough as I was afraid from experience with the same stuff back in 2020. (At least in the UK, it was easy enough to get a double course through a couple of questionable online consultation sites, when the GP just refused to treat it again.)

Anyway, that's probably not doing me much good either. It was "just" causing some pain and a weird smell peeing before I went to the hospital this morning. But yeah, with the timing on both occasionsand all? I really am strongly suspecting that the anesthesia was what made me so dang sick in the same unusual way last month too. I had better try to get the obvious infection treated again, though, even if it's not causing the fever and all.

[Gonna have to start sending this chart to people when they ask what affects my blood sugars]

[mrskurono]

title: Baby Fever a/n: ok you know what I’ll admit it, all I’ve been thinking about lately is Geto. He’s on my mind constantly. Should I be working on something else, yes. Is Geto the first jjk character I really had a crush on, maybe. I just....fucking Geto ok this has taken me four times to right jfc word count: 1.7k tags: no sub/dom dynamics, romantic sex, established relationship, manga spoilers, fingering, multiple female orgasms (not overstim though) breeding kink, needy Geto, creampie, unprotected sex, pregnancy mention, body worship, really just soft sex ok, unedited character(s): Geto Suguru (jjk)

They had grown. 

Both girls that was. 

Into wonderful adolescences that brought a set of different challenges. Geto was ready for that be it blindly. And he loved every part of it times two. Each time he looked at either of the kids though he could vividly remembered rounder cheeks, rosier faces and goofier smiles. It left him reminiscing over that more and more now.

You noticed it in the most subtle ways. Geto wanting more. More of those days even though he wouldn’t outright ask.

A trace of his fingers along your collar bone drew you away from what was in your lap. For the most part you’d ignored him once he came to bed but it grew almost impossible when the sorcerer had his lips pressed to the conjunction of your head and neck while a light touch traced down your chest. Not irritated in the slightly, you still give a playful sigh as you put your book down.

“Can I help you?” You can’t even turn your head to see him. Geto’s face is pressed to you with a trail of peppered kisses following suit.

With a firm grip he slipped his fingers against your thigh to give it a playful squeeze. Geto pulled out of the crook of your neck enough to finally look at you with that off brand smirk of his, “Mayhaps.”

You grin just to lean down and catch his lips on yours. Instead though you pull away just as he was going to lean into you. Earning your own smirk to play on your lips, “Mayhaps if you ask nicely Mr. Suguru.”

The hand on your thigh tightened. Pulling you towards him in a meager attempt but for the most part you stayed rooted where you were. Only slightly letting your legs fall open as your smirk grew into a full blown smile. He was awfully soft for a man on the run orchestrating a death cult. 

Geto slipped his fingers up along the crotch of your bottoms. Nudging his forehead against yours like he’d done every night this week. An eye roll that held no merit you grab his face and kiss him deeply. There isn’t a second in hesitation as you lean into him. Geto’s fingers moving up to help you wiggle out of your bottoms. A similar scene playing out just like the previous nights but you didn’t mind in the slightest with his attention fully on you.

“You’re so wet.” He commented against your lips the second his index finger dipped between your folds.

“And you’re already hard.” You toss back to him when your palm presses up against the stark hardness hidden under his robes, “Why don’t we help each other out?”

A nod and he didn’t stop to push back into the kiss. Geto hovering above you but it was your teeth nipping playfully at his bottom lip. Leaving the man to groan as his fingertips danced on either side of your clit. Your hips coming up to join in the motion of his fingers rubbing against you. Only for a few moments though because once they were soaked enough Geto couldn’t keep them from slipping inside you.

“Fuck...you’re so needy,” You moan against Geto’s lips as he curls his fingers in on you. He wouldn’t hesitate to make you cum like this before the main event even started.

Lips back to your neck, Geto hummed something but then nodded and mumbled against the softness of your ear, “I need you.”

Reaching down to grip his forearm as Geto’s fingering picked up in it’s urgency. You regretted the moan when his fingertips brushed over your g-spot. Within seconds he was back at it. Not leaving your sensitive spot alone as your cunt twitched and tightened around him with the impending orgasm. He was gonna get one from you with not much more than a snide remark on your part.

“F-Fuck...” Lip taut with tension as you bit down, fighting it wasn’t in your best interest, “S-Suguru- I- I’m gonna-”

“Cum-” His voice almost desperate, hot breath against your neck, fingers not letting up on their assault, “Please cum- Please I need you to cum- Please-”

The want in his voice too much. Just the way he wouldn’t stop after your orgasm tipped itself over. Fingers pulling a toe curling orgasm out of you as you clutched onto his robes and felt every fiber in your body tingle with hopelessness for him.

Fingers slowing, Geto simply wiggling them around in you and feeling the slickness covering his knuckles. It was when you snagged him for a long drawn out lazy kiss. Just to follow it by an order that he get undressed already, meant the man had no choice but to listen.

Rid of his clothes and between your legs before you knew it. You look down to see him swiping his cock up through the drool of your cunt. What wasn’t on his fingers previously now coated his cock with a beautiful glisten. Geto more than enthralled seeing his cock slip between your cunt lips. Each movement of his length grinding into your sensitive nub sent a shiver up your spine. Either he was too into watching or he was teasing you. A few more swipes and you demand he get on with the main course already.

One push and Geto’s cock slipped down to the hilt with ease. Stretched thoroughly from the nightly fucking all week. Today was no different. Juices squelching around his cock Geto pushed himself down to his base. Feeling his cock bottom out in you no problem. Leaving the man to hover over you. Caged in by both his arms on either side of you. And his hair tickling your face when you looked up at him.

“You’re beautiful.”

“You’re handsome.”

Geto stalled a moment. Savoring the way his hips felt snug in yours. The residual feeling of your walls twitching around him. Not a day would go by where he didn’t swear you were made for him. 

“I love you.” His words clear and concise. You looked up at Geto once more.

What smirk you had early softened into a smile. Bringing his face down to yours for a kiss, “I love you t- fuck-” Before he let you finish Geto grinned against your lips and thrusted into you without warning. Just to watch you convulse and loose yourself on his cock. Just as beautiful as ever. He felt himself unable to control himself all over again.

Each snap of his hips into your core left you breathless. He wasn’t rough. Never was he rough. Geto’s cock curved in the right way that left you rolling your hips up to meet his thrusts. Even if it felt like he was going to split you in half, you still wanted more.

Orgasm or not Geto was bringing you right back to the edge. He always did. As you showered his face in breathless kisses. Some of those met with his own lips. Others spared on his neck and collar bone as you watched with a dazed look at where your bodies met. Geto buried inside you with each thrust. His hands hooked into your hips with your legs slightly elevated so he could defile your deepest parts. Every night this week he’d fuck you like this. In the drunken pleasurer of it all you might have thought he was trying to breed you.

“Please-” Geto’s voice peeled you away, “Please cum-”

Thinking he wanted you to cum on him again you half ass nod, “Yes- Fuck yes I’ll-”

“No-” He groaned more of a gasp. Geto putting his forehead against yours even with the dew accumulating on it, “Please- Please can I cum- Cum in you- I just-”

More than surprised. Of course he’d done so more than once before. Now he was asking you? 

“Love why ask just-”

“I want another baby-” Geto broke your question up, his hips still a mind of their own. His breath ragged against your lips and sweat making his hair cling to him, “With you- Another one- Just one- Let me fill you up- Let me fuck a baby in you- Please- I- I love you so much and-”

“Yes.”

Geto’s turn to be surprised.

“Yes please, god fuck yes- Fuck a baby inside me-” You grab Geto’s face. Caring less if you cum at this point and more for the warmth of his release. Lips smashing onto his you don’t hesitate to moan into the fevered kiss.

Geto pulling you down on him with each thrust. Driving his cock in you as deep as he could. Quicker than before like he was desperate for it. Even while your legs twitched and curled, knowing he was breeding in you, something snapped in you.

The way you can on him. Scream only muffled by the fact Geto wouldn’t move his lips from yours. Each rippling twitch of your cunt around him was maddening. Hearing and feeling you craving him sent him into a tizzy until it was simply too late. With the way he snapped his hips into. A rumbling moan emanating up from his chest. It was far too obvious when the first gush of warmth overwhelmed you.

Full well past just what oozed out of you. The mixture of cum and juices soaked the two of you as Geto’s arms waivered a little. A moment of uncertainty if he was going to pull out and waste the gift he just gave you. Instead you yank him down on you. Wrapping your arms around his shoulders and loosely with your legs around his hips. Making it very obvious he was to stay in place on and in you.

Hand drawn down his back you ignore the sweat between his shoulder blades. Instead engrossed in the feeling of Geto’s cock still inside you and the heat of his chest against yours. Sighing softly to lay a kiss against his cheek you hug him a little tighter, “...you could have just said something you know.”

Exhausted and without a real witty reply. Geto had been saving this all week and now he was a little spent. Mumbling something but you didn’t hear.

The idea of being pregnant, with his child, making you smile more and more with each passing second. Even as cum dripped out of you. It was right away that you kissed the side of his head, “Looks like we gotta keep trying until you succeed huh.”

No question to it there was a twitch of excitement in all of his body. You knew neither of you would be happy now until Geto got what he asked for.

[misquigleya]

i really don't have my thoughts collected because it's just constant screaming in my head. but....under the read more....

usually do bullet points but i'm just gonna fucking ramble tonight because so much happened, i feel physically ill and in pain from the thought and speculation of what is going to happen next week with the finale coupled with all the interviews from the older cast, most notably christina saying something is going to happen that changes misty going forward aND ALL I CAN THINK IS HER BFF GF DYING and just...i can't. nat can't die and if she does, i'm....violent. i'll get violent and bitch and moan about it for the next 15 years.

um...wrong blog and all that but whatever, i didn't see jeff knowing about baby boy as i thought that that would have been something shauna kept to herself due to the grief but seeing him tellin callie about it, i could see that he's still affected by it all these years later and i wonder if he and or shauna do something to remember their eldest kid by. and just...callie you're being a trooper and you're not fucked up or evil and neither is your mom (about being evil cause she is fucked up and she knows it) and just fuck pornstash and if the wRITERS REALLY GIVE A DAMN, THEY'LL KILL THAT FUCKER OFF INSTEAD OF ONE OF THE OLDER GALS

it's clear that with the flashbacks / 1996 timeline, the girls have entered the cabin fever stage and them all seeing shit because of starving and delirium setting in....it made me nervous as i figured the queen card would come into play bUT I DID NOT EXPECT NATALIE TO FUCKIN DRAW IT like jfc....i know it "worked out" in the end but jesus...no wonder her and travis were so rocky from the next how many years they kept seeing each other. rip javi also rip nugget the mouse who i thought akilah was going to straight up eat and just...bby no that'll make you sick as shit.

but um...lottie? what the actual fuck with having HEAVENSGATE KOOL-AID (it wasn't koolaid i know but i digress) ON HAND??? like y'all couldn't find anything else via a vet to put the animals down???? but i just...i don't want to lose anyone but i know someone is going to die next week and i'm not fuckin ready and i won't be ready.

also the sharing shack, more like finger pointing shack (shoulda been fingering shack but no, no can't haVE A MILF ORGY) with everyone jumping at each other. but i'm glad that secrets are out in the open and everyone is on the same goddamn page and i'm truly surprised that misty waited that long to bring up jessica roberts and tai's involvement having been the one to hire her and just...it spiraled after that. so fast and all the while lottie and van just sitting there going "jfc wtf guys" was gold and the comedy relief i needed for this episode.

but um yea...that's the screaming in my head and i'm really nervous for nat with this next and finale episode (as i'm not sure if there is going to be a secret 10th episode about the dead cabin guy) and what will happen to cause a change for misty going forward. also nervous as to why jeff is at the compound and seemingly going to help walter move a body and who's fuckin body is it?!!?!?

[frenchfrywrites]

Combining two asks you got!!

Milf mc pegging our resident milf lovers (also thinking lucifer and Beel would like milfs??) while they’re sick. Mc doesn’t have to worry about getting too hot cause it’s a strap so they can lovingly pound into their sick baby as much as they want!

Levi would be a sniffly little mess while getting fucked, all hot and muddy headed from his fever but he’s too tired to degrade himself for how gross he must be (mortified if you help him blow his nose into a tissue while you’re still in him!)

Simeon wants to be hugged through it all, whimpering against your shoulder and cooling his forehead on your shoulder. Would ride you if his head didn’t hurt when he moved :(

Belphie’s playing up his sickness, whining and writhing and reaching for you to make him feel better. Still wants to be fucked quick and hard tho! Some things never change…

But also Lucifer feeling so bad for being sick and worried about getting you sick because his poor brain still doesn’t understand you can’t catch demon illnesses. Wants to warm you while sitting in your lap ♡

Beel just wants to be a good girl for mommy! He wants to make sure you’re pleased but his head hurts and he feels so stuffy and bad that he can’t :( he feels so bad about it but you just rub his head soothingly while you fuck into him and make him feel all better ♡

SCREAM!!!! helping levi blow his nose while fucking him is too cute. And yeah I think half of him would be mortified but honestly I think he'd be infatuated with the care you give him while he's sick. Maybe if he has a sore throat you'd fuck him with a cough drop in his mouth, real slow and hard with your strokes so he doesn't choke. But he's begging you to go faster, voice horse and scratchy.

Simeon, unlike Lucifer, would be hyper-aware of the fact that you wouldn't catch his sickness so he's clinging onto you maybe even more than usual. With some painkillers his headache disappears so he slowly, shakily, fucks himself on your strap. He needs a lot of help though.

Belphie would ABSOLUTELY play up his sickness. He becomes a mega pillow princess during all of it too. I do think he'd fall asleep while you're fucking him, which is kinda infuriating but also kinda cute.

Lmao Lucifer would at first banish you from his room so you don't see him vulnerable, and so you don't get sick as well, but when his fever hits hard he's sending you these barely coherent sexts, begging you to come make him feel better ;)

Aw and poor baby Beel, you might actually need to threaten punishment because he's trying to do too much for you while sick. You have to remind him multiple times to just lay back and let you fuck him like the good girl he is. He'd be whining about wanting to be pretty for you, so you have to dress him up a little, putting on some soft knee highs and a comfy bra so he'll finally relax and let you take care of him.

ngl I also think Dia would like milfs.. but jfc I think it'd be a feat to fuck him while he's sick. He would be completely clear headed one second, then the next he's got a headache and he's puking and sweating like a motherfucker. You have to keep a wet rag next to you while fucking him so you can clean the vomit from his chin or wipe down his brow while you fuck the fever out of him.

[ahsbitch]

Summary: this is legit just porn about riding Xavier’s thigh while he smokes weed, sorry it’s a little bit of a blue ball ending but hey, it happens. Also done in a hc style bc I cannot be bothered to write full sentences

Warnings: literally just porn like I said, thigh riding, like the very beginning of reader getting eaten out but it’s barely anything, Xavier being a bitch, Marijuana Usage, swearing obviously, um idk man that’s all I got rn

A/N: this is totally a one off I’m sorry I’ve been gone forever but knowing me it’s going to happen again immediately after this so sorry in advance. Been wanting to write something like this forever but I just finally got the inspiration. Hope Y’all Enjoy ❤️

okay so maybe you’re wearing a skirt or whatever

y’all are chillin in the back of the vanta-c bc hello where also are you gonna hang out

and xavier’s got you pulled onto his lap and y’all are making out a little and then all of a sudden he juts his thigh up and fuck fuck fuck man you’re outta there

and the fucker laughs at you bc he’s a lil bitch and then he’s got his hands on your hips and he repositions you so you’re pressed against the skin of his thigh (bc he’s wearing those tiny lil shorts like damn) and once you’re there his hands don’t leave, instead they keep guiding your hips so you’re dragging back and forth against him and when he stops and moves his hands you let out an actual whimper

he laughs at you again

“baby, don’t tell me you thought you could get what you want without doing any work?”

and you kinda stare dumbfounded at him for a minute bc Jfc what a bitch

and he bucks his thigh again and you do a little roll of your hips along with it and while you’re letting out a moan totally in spite of yourself he’s leaning over to the drawer next to him and pulls out a blunt that he’d prerolled for the afternoon

“come on sweetheart, I’ve got nowhere to be” and he sparks up and moves his leg at the same time

so he sets a lazy, draggy kinda pace of occasionally bucking his leg against you and other than that you’re left to hump his thigh and it’s make you feel pathetic if it didn’t feel so damn good

and somewhere in there he’s got your shirt and bra off and every once in a while the hand that’s not holding his blunt will reach up to tweak your nipple, and if you’re lucky he’ll lean down to kiss your neck, his lips still warm

”you seem so tense,” he gives you a mocking little pout as you grow more desperate in your movements, “open those pretty little lips for me”

you comply instantly, mouth dripping into an O as he takes a deep hit off the blunt, and then he leans back down, pressing his lips to yours as he exhales into your mouth

he smirks as he pulls back, watching you breathe in deeply, and you suddenly feel like your every nerve ending is on fire and even though you know, you know that you’re not actually high, but dammit it feels like you are and you need more, more, more

it takes you a minute to realize that there are actual tears running down your cheeks as you desperately try to cum, but you can’t do it with something else

with how casual Xavier is, as though he’s totally unaffected by you, and if it weren’t for the jerk of his leg or the occasional caress of your tits you could argue that he didn’t even know you were there at all

you need his attention

it‘s pathetic, you know that, it’s all pathetic, the crying and the fact that you’re doing this at all and that you’re so desperate for Xavier’s undivided attention you know that it will give you the release you’re looking for

”oh baby,“ he coos, swiping his thumb along your tears and placing it against your lips, smiling as you begin frantically sucking it clean

his blunt is about halfway through, and then he takes one more puff before you’re being repositioned so that you’re on your back, legs draped over his shoulders, and although you buck your hips forward to try and find the friction you’ve just lost but he’s not letting you, one arm pinning your hips down as the other reaches up to place the blunt in your mouth, the heat of his breathy chuckle not even an inch away from your skin makes you let out a high pitched whine

”clearly you need to relax more than I thought,” he reaches up to tug at your parties, ripping them off your leg with a kind of fevered intensity that you hadn’t expected

”please,” you hate that you’re begging, too, you hate that, but you’re babbling and you’re too pent up and it didn’t even matter, “xav, please”

and finally, finally he leans forward, licks a wide, sloppy stripe up your pussy, and leans back to take in your reaction with a grin

and before he dives back in,

”don’t worry baby, you can cum when you finish the blunt”