#letterstomylover

[secretletters-toyou]

When the fog has settled

And the water is calm

The waves touching the shore

Just a little

I’ll meet you there.

A ray of sun

at the break of dawn

Peeking out shyly

Just a little

How are you?

Our shoulders touching

Fingertips reaching out

The urge

To close the distance

Just a little

I’m good. How are you?

The smell of rain

lingering in the air

The steady beat of my heart

Masking the truth

Just a little.

I’m leaving tomorrow.

The weight on my tongue

The ache in my heart

The ghost of words unsaid

Please stay

Just a little.

[warmpeachesoo]

18-08-2021

the first few weeks after i lost you, i would scream at the sun. how could it possibly still rise every morning and set every night without you here? you see, i was perplexed at how the world could keep turning yet i felt like my whole world had ended. my sun had stopped rising. i lived only in a darkness known by the depths of the deep sea and the black holes of our galaxy. but everyday the bright rays would shine through my curtains then paint a golden mural on my walls until the sky finally mimicked what my heart felt. until finally one day i could feel a little ember within it that grew and grew each day. and the less i thought of you, the more it grew. now i still think of you but my world still turns. and when the sun wakes me, i am glad.

[theresnotmuchmorethanthis]

fingertips.

And I hope that you learn to love that body that you so awfully despise,

For while my love for you runs deep beneath

My fingertips may only know your skin.

[jenniferniven]

Dear lovelies: I am so grateful you’re here. You impact my world and the world around you in ways you may not realize. 💫🌏 Thank you for the love you bring to Finch and Violet and Libby and Jack and me, and thank you for the love you show each other. When one of you is hurting, I see others reaching out and it’s amazing. I see you sharing heartfelt stories and feelings and deep, dark fears, and I’m so proud of this little family we’ve created. Thank you for all you are and all you do. Love, me 💙🖤 #youaremybrightplaces #holdinguptheuniverse #fanart #youarewanted #youarenecessary #youareloved #alwayskeepfighting #endthestigma #suicidepreventionmonth #youarenotalone #finchwasreal #youarehere #letterstomylovelies https://www.instagram.com/p/B2NNLSbJ3Rj/?igshid=iyggir89lx9o

[grasslifeyas]

perspective is everything. whenever i feel stuck, i look up to find my love showing off her brilliance. 🌿🌎💌 #2019EarthLove #letterstomylove #earth #googlepixel3 #mindfullness #pleaserecycle (at Honduras) https://www.instagram.com/grasslifeyas/p/Bv78fGlD26s/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=hme6ck0e1r5r

[avant-garde-rev]

You don't have to worry, I'm here and here to stay. I don't want you ever to be like anyone else. I want you to be the unique you that I have come to love, rather quickly I might add. My concerns have been with the pain in your life for the past few days, hoping you will have relief soon. I know rest is very important and I only wish I was next to you to let you know I'm not going anywhere, but to let you rest. I'm going to spend the rest of my life with you. You make me the man I have always wanted to be and more. I love you, more then you'll ever know. I hope these words and any future declarations of my love will never feel empty to you, for you are my only.

[miamilov3-blog1]

“I’ve finally found you. The person who stole my heart when I wasn’t looking. The person who makes me feel whole, like we were both put on earth to be with each other. The person who makes me feel like everything’s going to be okay, even if it seems like it won’t. The person I’ll love longer than forever. My true soulmate.”

-Ella Vasquez

[pomme2107]

The awakening is the hard part. I know now what you meant when you said that to me. When we wake up, open our eyes and realise the truth. It’s when reality hits and we think “oh fuck, it really happened”.

I tried to watch TEOTFW today. I couldn’t. It was making me restless. I tried to speak to C today but she was in her normal mood so she didn’t really respond. She said on Wednesday that sometimes she thinks about being mean to me but then changes her mind. I looked at her and I told her something along the lines of “You can say whatever you want. Nothing can hurt me now”. And I would say the same to her now. Just because my world collapsed doesn’t mean you have to be nice to me. You can be nice to me if you want, not out of pity. If it’s out of pity, it doesn’t really matter does it?

Your sister wrote to me today. I was going to write to her on the weekend but she beat me to it. Her and L have been rocks through the whole thing. She told me that she put my letter in a photo frame in your room. She said that was the most appropriate place to put it and that you tried to email the therapist. I thanked her for her action because it really touched me. I didn’t read her message until I was completely by myself because it would make me cry. I thanked her for her gesture and told her how I saw that she posted something related to Jeux d’enfants and how much that movie meant to me and you. Okay, maybe to you for different reasons but it’s what brought us closer and you know that. She told me that she watched that movie often and it reminded her of the first time that you both watched it together. She mentioned that you didn’t get along at that time but it was probably the age difference. I told her that she was very courageous and brave. She said that if she had courage, she would give it to her parents. She told me that she was glad we met because I was the one keeping you smiling. I’m glad that she thinks so and I hope.. I hope it is true for you to. I remember when you used to say “You help”, to me.

She said you very carefully chose the people around you. And because of that she did think that she was special. It’s true. When you look at L, S, even C..yes..these are all special people. And of course, your sister as well. She also thinks that we are very similar and she didn’t know that people like me existed. It’s nice hearing it from them, you know? It’s like we belonged together. Even when L said it..I really think we could have been something, you know? Fuck me, I should have pushed you a bit more.

And she told me something that I don’t know if I really believe in. But she mentioned that you emailed the therapist. That the day you went to see him, you decided to meet two weeks after that but you emailed him asking if you could go at an early date. Is it true? Tell me it’s true, please. Because if it is..then maybe it was accidental. And maybe, I can start to breathe again.

I was reading our old conversations again. I should have pushed you for therapy. Actually, everyone should have. How can someone go through something similar to what you went through and not have therapy? Everyone should have pushed you. When you told L, he should have. When you told S, he should have. And when you told me? I should have. I should have told you no, you need therapy. I don’t know if it would have still lead to this. But it would have given me more time with you.

I learned a few words in Italian today. When I visit your family, I want to be able to speak a bit in Italian. I will visit them, don’t you worry. I’ll hug them for you. I’ll hug L for you as well. And I’ll meet his gf for you. I’ll go to the Orange Tree Garden. And I’ll go to the tea place. The Trevi Fountain as well.

And then it’s over. And then I come see you.

I saw you in my dreams today. I am waiting for you again.

[mooftang-blog]

Seldom, it doesn't really last too long. Long enough to know you want the feeling to last, yet fade into something tangible, something solid and worthy to inspire more existence. It has many mediums, I feel like it clings to any cell that vibrates. Long enough to know you're alive, do you want to feel it? How do you know where you reside until you visit the edge. I can only attempt to fathom the depth of my unconscious mind and its interconnection to my unseen environment, to the existence of  of an existential spirit, the keeper, or the greater power. I like to believe it resides in all of us, in my undisciplined monkey brain I attempt to recognize a pattern, but it is chaos, controled thought pattern. You claim I do not know, well show me. What I do know is that we were one at one point. Together, I do not want to underestimate the powers of vibration and energy. The unharnessed soul is an amazing thing, unstable and erratic, powerful yet liable for every every emotion and all that entail. So what do you do with this energy.

Unharnessed love, it's my demise as a self proclaimed romantic, obviously i'm throwing myself at you if you would take me from afar, if compassion is all you show me, I would hold onto it, if you ever wanted someone to lean on, live with or create, cry hug or scream, fuck it destroy something together I am down. Words are wind and life happens fast. Even if it was just re affirmation that someone thinks you're the bee's knees you don't owe me anything. How I am, how I grow that what I dream, and trying to hold on to that dream in a selfish nature is not how to go about it. I could not sit where I am clueless to your depth, those voids, those wounds maybe to till the ground in word from afar to plant whatever is beautiful and I have faith it will be but can not emphasize enough no expectations for my own sake cause love can drive me crazy. I have never heard you sing, or really shine on any of your instruments, I wanted to create beautiful music with you, but for now I write with what you have given me so far and I will make something great of it. I want to water those seeds, watch the flowers bloom. I saw that void and stars that fucking shine when we made love, and I hold onto that as seriously significant. The stories i've read of yours and the tales you tell do paint an image, a idea, and I glorify that to the tenth degree and in all honesty I am far from perfect and you are just J@X$ but who is to say what is real and what isn't. I told you once if you fall in love with a writer you will live forever, well it's true and that is my unending gift to you if you would take it as that. My gift from the universe and you is to open my eyes and smell the fucking rose’s, and for that I am ever grateful. It is those kind of memories that make me hold on, so many times I have almost slipped away with no regard for my own life or the life of those who love me, and with exposure to something as powerful as true human connection on a level I didn't know but want to embrace and nurture, for my own self worth I want to deserve your care and affection, is that a standard? No for me it is a goal, to be worth your love, and to do that it is known you must love yourself first. I like to glorify your image, but my self image is dark, I've tried to express my little brothers problems and I can't help but to let it instigate that black hole I fight every day, and fight and fight and try not give up. Lately i've been slipping, i've tried to tell myself I’m making healthy choices, but I am not. Given the pink cloud of our connection reality does have it’s toll. I am in one of the best places in the world and it is where i need to be. The tranquility I find in this landscape is so serene, that to me is what is real and nature will be there when my lover is not, and unlike heroin getting mauled by a mountain lion doesn't sound to bad. I need to ground myself back to nature, when i was younger I spent my summers in Asheville at a hiking camp and found my love of nature when my head was was poisoned with hate. I need to nurture that feeling for beyond you this is the most real thing I have in my life and it makes me feel alive. It fills that void organically where I have tried with sex and drugs.  I have been in and out of the rooms all my life and every time i step back from my drug use i've sensed inevitable death or sobriety if i can not walk the line straight and find a balance. I have prayed and lived off mantras in states of sober ecstasy that I hold on to a clear state of mind,  I have a lot of work to do and self reflection in writing to someone who cares helps me so much I hope you know you don't have to respond to this :) if you reply with a blank I will know you exist.   Ive desensitized sexual and platonic relationships to the level of indulgence in my past and found something that shook my core where i least expected it to.Yes I am currently having a hard time grasping all of it and have lashed out in frustration. You're like a cigarette you make me so mad when you're not around but damn you can take my breath away. If it is meant to be it will happen but for now i need to be patient. I lost XX$&!X to my clingy overbearing emotional need and lack of self respect to my own body given what i was doing with my life. She was polyamorous and i wanted her all to myself, she gave me her love and I wanted more, what more is there other than a vibration that shakes my cells when the thought of your eyes or the touch of your skin grazes mine. It gave me some serious perspective to the nature of relationships and love, given you will be the third person I have let myself be vulnerable to and that is your gift, not your burden do whatever you want to do with it.

[aimzxvxvxv]

i made you my temple, my mural, my sky.

now im begging for footnotes in the story of your life

Taylor Swift: tolerate it

#taylorswift #taylorswiftlyrics #letterstomylove #lover #taylornation

[secretletters-toyou]

Tonight,

As I lie beside my partner,

my thoughts crept to you.

As much as I tried to erase the memories,

The embers of our past continues to smoulder in a room that’s been kept under lock and key.

As I tried to lull myself to sleep,

I thought of you.

Us in the library.

Your face just inches away from me.

Your voice. Deep, yet gentle.

Your palms. Callused, yet tender.

Your gaze. Dark and inquisitive.

I would do anything to relive that moment again.

[grasslifeyas]

quiero quedarme contigo. i want to stay with you because with you i feel safe. i feel like the world is at peace and nothing can chase away the love i feel in my heart. it's endless. it's bliss. as soon as i walk back from our romantic daydream, i see visions of war, death, fires burning down the very place we call home. i feel small and hopeless. if the world is ending, I want to spend my last days with you. i want to stay with you. 🌲💌🌏 #letterstomylove #2020earthheart #liveintentionally #savetheworld #googlepixel3 (at Planet Earth) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7Jf3GVgBKB/?igshid=83qc32ihfsms

[the-m00nchild]

I’ve been lonely for so long, even with you I’m lonely. You don’t tend to my garden, you don’t water it properly. I’ve noticed only I can treat it right. Only I know the tricks behind trimming the foliage, so that it looks crisp and clean. I’ve told my self for two decades that I need someone like you in my life to make things complete. But more than anyone you’ve taught me to never depend on someone. Someone who can forget to water the garden and let it wither. Only I will keep the garden in my heart flowing greenery and content. I need to learn to love alone. I need to learn to be alone. Cause at the end I am alone, I am all that I have. And I will be all that will ever love me.

-D.A

[aimzxvxvxv]

this is falling in love in the cruelest way

this is falling for you when you are worlds away

Taylor Swift: Come back..Be here

#lyrics #taylorswiftlyrics #poetsandwriters #healing #love #thoughts #life #letterstomylove