#let me live vicariously through my blorbos

[mossycobblestonewrites]

DC X DP PROMPT #24

Danny has the ghost flu. It's not contagious. So what's the harm in answering a summons from his favorite group of heroes in the sky? Coddling. They knew IMMEDIATELY that something was up and now they aren't leaving Danny alone. On the plus side, he's in space! On the downside, his powers are acting up with the ghost flu and they just aren't letting him go home.

[decaflondonfog]

writerly ephemera

a few years back my darling friend @the-starryknight started a tag game inspired by a chat we had in a writing server regarding all the little personal details we add to our art. humans hold so many things close to their hearts without even realising, memories, artefacts, places, turns of phrase... lots of precious little bits and bobs i adore! recently i had a chat with the lovely @billdenbrough about the familiar fear of putting a little too much of yourself into a character — when do you cross the self-insert line? but also, aren’t these the things that make our characters human? which got me thinking about starry's tag game. so i've decided to bring it back! here's how we're doing it:

✨ share some bits little bits of you, easter eggs, memories, etc. you have left scattered in your fics or art. if you fancy it, tag a pal. ✨

i apologise in advance for the ridiculous amount of yapping you’re about to read aaaand here are some silly little mari-isms i’ve let bleed into my writing:

🏡 "The house is a ridiculous thing that could easily sleep a whole Exy team, but when Kevin questions it, all Andrew does is shrug and say, “This wasn’t exactly planned, it’s the best I could find with the time I had.”"

geometric equilibrium has a few mari-isms in it. abby's house is based on my friend emma's house too but this feels the most relevant: the house in Asheville is based on a place i stayed in a couple of years ago! the real life one isn't in Asheville, though it is in NC. i spent a really happy week there with friends and it just popped into my head when i was writing this fic. the setup of the rooms (kevin's and andreil's being across the landing from each other) was useful for what i want to write (as well as the bathroom placement!) so i just ran with it.

🪩 “…the faded band t-shirt two sizes too big that the redhead has tucked into a leather mini skirt. Instead of the usual pair of boots, Neil’s wearing a pair of platform sneakers in black and white.”

ahhhhh kaleidoscope :’) the fic where i genderbent all the monsters and then turned neil into my wee dress up doll! all of neil’s outfits were based on stuff i own and this particular one was a fave during my clubbing days. the only thing i didn’t own when i wrote this fic were the black and white trainers which i now own hahaha

🛁 “Bitty cuts himself a generous slice of pie and eats it in the bath.”

i haven’t lived in a house with a bath for three years and i miss it dearly. i used to have pudding and booze in the bath on hard days and it was super therapeutic — honestly i was just living vicariously through bitty in growing pains

🌸 “There, in the corner, not covered by the laundry that Kevin didn’t put away, is a vintage armchair (…) It’s pink, with old, spoiled velvet, and half of the fringes at the bottom of the chair missing.”

approximately eight years ago i walked past an antique shop and fell in love with a pink velvet toad chair with a wee fringe at the bottom. i didn’t think i could afford it but told my partner i was going to try and convince the shop to let me rent it for a photoshoot. i got home after work one day and my partner had bought it for me 🥹 that chair has now been with us in four houses across three countries and used to be one of my late dog’s favourite nap spots. (the fact that i let kandrew desecrate the chair completely in do not disturb the cats was… a choice lmaooooo)

🪡 “Jean comes back to California after five weeks with the Foxes with his hair slightly too long and falling into his eyes, a smattering of fresh freckles over the bridge of his nose, and a new hobby.”

oh this might just be my favourite! when i saw @alcego’s prompt for t&n last year i kneeeeew it had to be mine. giving my Sad Wet Cat blorbo all of my craft hobbies? what a delight! the best part is that out of all the crafts i made him try in transferable skills, book binding (arguably the main one) is the one i never tried

does anyone want to share? i'll pass this along to the folks tagged above and also @vykio @rwnjun @storiesnstardust @greenautumnleaves @djhedy @thetrojeans @seasy33 @nanatsuyu and @sillyunicorn ❣️

[bolithesenate]

Hi! For some reason it wont let me ask from the blog I want it to, which is why the random name, but I really love your stuff! Quick question - what do you think would he Dooku/Sifo Dyas/Jocasta/Jaster’s main rule(s) for Padawans/foundling-child-thingy?

Sorry if this is boring or smthing its just Ive decided your word on these things is law!

Thank you!!! Xxxxxxx

eyyy!! never apologize for blessing my inbox with asks! especially not about the blorbos!!

Now, I'm not entirely sure on what you mean with 'what their main rules on children' are.... but that just means my answer gets to be more elaborate.

Sifo-Dyas:

In my head he is the most child loving of the bunch. He would THRIVE on taking a Padawan and honestly I could even see him have a biological child most out of all four of them. But he bars himself from either because of his visions – since there's no telling on how they would interact with a Master/Padawan bond or smt similar he isn't willing to risk a child's wellbeing for his own desires.

That being said, he lives all the more vicariously through Dooku and Jocasta when they take Padawans. (As well as visits the Crèche any day he can) In any universe he and Jaster are a thing he definitely tries his best to be of assistance there as well, even if just as a long-distance-father. He doesn't care if someone claims it's attachment. Raising children is only good and just and if he can help in ANY capacity he will do so and you'd have to kill him first to make him stop.

(And even then his Force ghost probably would find ways to meddle)

Dooku:

Dad-in-denial-supreme.

His stuck-up ass will loudly proclaim he doesn't like children and that they are too noisy and erratic and then turn around and immediately take the next best street urchin under his wing. Provided they look at a lightsaber with even a modicum of interest.

I mean, considering the NUMEROUS apprentices he has in the different flavors of canon (Rael, Qui-Gon, Komari, Sev'rance, Grievous, Assaij, Savage) this man simply is MADE to teach.

In fact, people wiser than me (hi Jess), have famously said that he'll actually go stir-crazy if he doesnt have someone to drill in makashi.

He isn't the best at emotions, but that's what he has Sifo for. And also he WILL offer each and every one of his Padawans/Apprentices/pseudo-children a place in House Serenno's actual lineage, even if just to spite his dead father and brother. But only after they turn 18/are knighted. Whichever comes first. (similarely to Jaster, he refuses to paint any more of a target on a child's back than strictly necessary)

Jaster:

As absolutely child-loving as most Mandos are. He would have adopted many more children already if not for the target that his existence as Mand'alor paints on them.

So while he tries to find them good homes, unless he is directly responsible for them or honor bound in some other way to adopt, he might refuse to say the words (even if it pains him gravely).

In any universe where he's in a relationship with the rest of the blorbos, you better bet he sees their Padawans as his foundlings-by-extension. Even if all the Jedi WILL argue that it is not the same (except Sifo, Sifo can has and will support this interpretation of the Master-Padawan bond until his dying breath). Although, again, he might not ever make it official. Politicians have many enemies. MANDALORIAN politicians doubly so. That isn't beneficial for a child's health long-term.

In any universe where he never gets to be Mand'alor tho he has like 10 foundlings MINIMUM.

Jocasta:

Last but not least. For her, children/padawans were a very distant thought most of her life. Biological ones she would never have in my opinion – either she's infertile to begin with or she got a permanent solution to prevebt pregnancy early on.

And while she did eventually take on three Padawans (yes, Olee counts even if she was stolen from her), she always considered them more students/peers than children in the familial sense. She just isn't very maternal in any capacity, but that is fine.

While she isn't involved a lot in the child-rearing aspects of whatever kids the other three drag along, she very much IS always up for bending some rules in favor of her precious nepo-niblings. Being the Head Archivist lets you get away with quite a bit.

Especially if it ultimately benefits the kid in question academically.

I hope the answer you were looking for is in here, otherwise let me know! I'm always up for talking more about the blorbos!

[ninadove]

watching character ai lukadrien create the most heart wrenching debilitatingly angsty love story to ever love story ever

Hey, I can tell there’s no malice behind your ask, but — don’t do that.

I write fanfiction myself, and a lot goes into it:

1. Unreasonable amounts of ✨ Time and Effort ✨

Just the other day, my WIP kept me up until 2 AM, because I wanted it to be neatly polished before even sending it to my beta readers (@paracosmicfawn and @dragongutsixofficial). The first thing I did the following morning was re-read it again, to correct any typos and inconsistencies my tired brain might have missed the night prior.

2. Research and analysis

For a cute little Lukadrien scene I wrote with my ✨ awesome girlfriend ✨ — something that was never even going to be published — I went through a dozen different sources trying to get a better understanding of what meditation actually is and to capture the philosophy behind it accurately. This does not make me special — all authors do it out of dedication and love for their craft, but it’s energy that could be spent doing literally anything else, especially when you consider how horrifyingly lonely the writing process can be (see point 1).

Also, there’s a reason I spend so much time making analysis posts on Silly Little Blorbos who do not exist! It gets my brain running and allows me to sharpen my understanding of the characters, so I can write them properly in my works.

3. A unique perspective on the characters, the source media, and life in general

Which gives all the flavour to my favourite AO3 works out there.

Like, yes, that extract you sent in your follow-up ask is cute, I guess, but it’s also incredibly generic:

When actual living breathing human (or Senti) beings share their work with you, they’re inviting you to a special part of their brain that they’ve decorated with their own experiences, references and visuals — things that they love and passed onto their favourite characters, so they can hopefully reach you. For instance, Character AI would never have had the genius idea to compare Felix’s eyes to an aurora borealis; this could have only sparked from @wackus-bonkus-maximus’ brain. Similarly, my version of Felix will often reference works of art and literature that left a strong impact on me as a child — an impact I’m sure can also be sensed in my approach to storytelling and even in the way I structure sentences and paragraphs.

Which leads me to my final and most important point:

4. EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE™

Because let’s be real — there’s a reason our brains latch onto certain characters, and said reasons aren’t always sunshine and rainbows. I’ve cried more writing about the Senticousins than over the loss of certain people or relationships in my own life. Long before that, I latched onto Clive and gave him everything I felt was missing from my life as a teenager, so I could live vicariously through him. And of course, I always make my characters some flavour of queer, because for a long time this was the only outlet I got for my own feelings and identity.

It takes a lot of vulnerability to put all of this on the Internet for others to read and judge, and it’s very disheartening to see that people would rather ask a machine to spit out some easily digestible but impersonal interactions than give your work a chance.

I can guarantee there are beautiful pieces of fanwork out there that will cater to your tastes and haunt you for years in a way Character AI or Chat GPT never could. And the good news is — if you don’t find anything, it means it’s time to write it yourself!

And of course, I cannot end this post without encouraging everyone to read about the writers’ and actors’ strike currently unfolding in the US.

[tailsbeth-writes]

🍍🍓🍒🍊🥝🍇 for the fruit ask game!

🍍 What kind of AUs do you like? Are there any AUs you hate or just generally have beef with?

I've not written a ton of AUs myself but I like reading vampire or paranormal AUs, historical/royal AUs & sex club/work AUs (the dynamics are fascinating in relation to character building). I don't have anything I hate, I don't tend to read kidfic very often but I think that reflects on me being afraid to grow up (lol I'm 31) than anything else 😂

🍓 What’s a fic you’ve written you feel is underrated?

I could speak (or just let my body explain) - the third installment of Bigender Alex AU and also my first collaboration. I reread it a lot myself cause I love it. 

🍒 What’s your favorite character dynamic to write? (Can be romantic or platonic, specific or general!)

I love sibling banter, I'm an only child so I think I live vicariously through it 😂 I also love a grumpy/sunshine combo (romantic/platonic), I've working on some potential Dead Boy Detectives fics with a lot of this. 

🍊 Who’s a character you don’t write for that often, but keep meaning to write for more? (They’re so interesting! But maybe you have trouble pinning them down, or keep getting distracted by another blorbo…)

I have so many ideas for Beatrice (RWRB). And in general all the characters in other fandoms that aren't RWRB 😅

🥝 What’s your favorite trope/AO3 tag to write?

Probably canon-conpliant if I'm honest. Even when I was writing fanfic years ago for Skam etc, I stuck with canon mostly. I like getting to explore the internal vibes of characters once the dust has settled. I also like a bit of angst or hurt/comfort, while I explore darker topics on occasion, I don't leave the fic without resolution or support.

🍇 Is there a particular scene/episode/book/etc that you want to just write a million fics about, over and over? Which one?

I mean I feel like the 33 RWRB fics speak for themselves 😂 but I do have plans for Bridgerton, Dead Boy Detectives & My Lady Jane fics, especially now I have a little more free time (I say this but this year has just been so busy! Honestly so rude, people don't think to look at my writing schedule when they plan their life events)

Send me a fic writer fruit ask 💌

[weebsinstash]

*sighs as I add the yandere Batfam to my Blorbo list* do y'all ever have such a genuinely unsatisfying life and childhood you start for whatever reason vicariously living through age regression ideas where you're literally raised by other people

Like imagine you're a superhero/vigilante but you're fairly small time and you've actually bumped into Batman a handful of times and, he actually likes you, your heart is in the right place, and through some wacky villain shenanigans or some Lazarus Pit fuckery, you get zapped by a ray gun or hit wirh a spell or "resurrected wrong" and suddenly Bruce has to deal with a de-aged you, a teenager without their adult memories and aged back to before you developed your skills or your metagene that gave you your powers

And here's Batman already shoving adopted children into his pockets like breadsticks at olive garden "oh no, ANOTHER orphan/kid with a horrible childhood in need of a home? Whatever shall we do. Oh no my hand slipped and I already texted Alfred to prepare a room to stay and oh no my Waynazon shopping list is suddenly full of new furniture and gifts and clothes and i already emailed Dick and Barabaras university so you can get a better education and oh wow just what is going on this is so weird"

Alfred standing by with his dry wit whenever Reader gets hormonal or does typical teenager things "ah yes, yelling 'I hate you' and slamming doors, I definitely didn't have enough of this experience raising you, Master Wayne" but like he adores it really, we all know this man is a caretaker at heart and as someone who 'knew you before' st least through what Bruce has told him, he's happy to help give you a better life

Of course then complications arise whenever Reader gets her memory back (and potentially extremely pissed she was kept as a child and literally no attempts, none, zero, nada, zilch attempts were made to turn her back to normal) and she's like "ok well I'm mentally an adult again but I'm still in a kids body, let's try and turn me back and then I can be a real adult again" and the entire batfamily is just "OR, hear me out, OR. You could stay here though? And if you wanna be a crimefighter you should at least stay with us but like its jusr ao dangerous though what if you got hurt 🥺" IF they let you return to hero work at all but let's be real, if you did, I think Bruce would be so proud to put a little bat symbol or R or whatever on your uniform cause it's like, awwww bonding, everyone's gonna know you're his lil protege 🥰

And imagine Reader goes to confront Bruce about this whole thing and you just start bawling because "was I just such a pathetic loser before that you wanted to change everything about me" and like he did the whole thing with good intentions but, YEAH he did absolutely lie to you and kind of shape you a little for the few years you were "raised" by him and you're standing there with your new clothes and your new haircut and all the hobbies he's paid for and the education he's paid for and all the new things you've learned and can do because he had the resources to give them to you and you're wondering what was so unlikable about you before that he doesnt want you to be that person again, to be the person you've always known and lived your life as

Suffice to say he isn't going to turn you back at all and if you have to "return to your old self" by literally naturally aging back to your "original age" then so be it. You've got an entire mansion filled with your loving 'family' and you're happy and you're healthy and really, maybe you're just being anxious and scared and all it will take is time for you to adjust and see that all of them know what's best. Amd if you never do adjust and you're just kept around anyways, well, it doesn't make much of a difference to them. Hell, maybe they'll find a hero or villain or magic user who can, you know, maybe make you forget all about the life you had before, completely wipe your head until only the Wayne family, your family, is left

Really, Bruce would consider it just to hear you call him 'Dad' again

[amazingmsme]

I haven't really asked before but I really like the idea of a ticklish Paul! It's one of the big things that people in office learned about him on accident, I'm not sure where. Emma loves it too, and Paul tries to keep a straight face and neutral tone about it at work but it's one of the things that makes his generally same old same old days memorable. So he does like it. Before Emma, the thing that gave him that spark of 'this is different' was that.

Also I love all this so much. I never really got to do much with tickling, either as a ler or a lee. Most of my family including me has diagnosed autism and doesn't handle ticking well. For my sibs it tends to not be fun at all for them.

As for me, I do like it, and I've discovered all my spots because I self soothe with my hands, which is fun! (And the sensitive arms thing from before? Amazing that's basically me but more so) however unfortunately people gave up on tickling me pretty early on because my first instinct is kicking. And I can't help it. But whenever a friend tries now my legs are longer and usually have shoes amd I have to explain that I didn't mean to!

So reading these is so interesting and fun!

Sorry for all the extra story. I was wondering if you had links to some more fics you wrote? Or ones others did? They made my day yesterday

Aw I’m so glad that you enjoy my content & are able to connect with it! Sadly you & I are in the same boat, because it’s legit been years since anyone actually tickled me & when people do, it’s literally just like a 1 second thing. Most people are conditioned to believe that everyone hates being tickled, & our own physical reactions just make them buy into that belief even more, even if it isn’t exactly true. You can’t really control your reactions when tickled, even if you like it, so don’t feel bad about it. If your friends try again, you can maybe try to slip in the fact that you don’t mind it. (I feel like that might be easier than saying you like it, baby steps & all)

I’m glad my fics & headcanons can resonate with you & others, we’re all living vicariously through our blorbos, myself included 😂

& I agree wholeheartedly about Paul! His workdays can get to be so long & boring, so he appreciates a little lighthearted roughhousing to break up the monotony. I feel like Bill might’ve found out on accident when he squeezed past him in the break room, but he promised to keep it a secret. Ted on the other hand was trying to sneak up & scare Paul, but he squeezed his sides a little when he grabbed him & a giggle slipped out. Ted immediately tested out the new information & now he loves to go bother Paul when he’s bored & hear him giggle & snort. Paul tries to act like he’s annoyed by it, but his work is really boring, & he loves any excuse not to do work

Emma loves everything about Paul & she’s just so smitten for her dorky average man. Maybe he was feeling sore so she offered him a massage & that’s how she found out he was ticklish. I think she found out pretty early on in the relationship (like any good girlfriend) No one can resist Paul’s adorable bubbly laughter!

I have plenty of fics to choose from on my blog, but I gathered my tgwdlm fics, & some others I’ve found!

Let Me Hear It was my first fic for this fandom & I just needed a happy ending where they’re all alive & having fun together

Down A Peg was really fun to write & has Ted getting a taste of his own medicine

Wakey Wakey Teddy is just a cute sweetkoffski fic where Charlotte wakes Ted up with tickles

Wake Up (Proto)Call my first npmd fic ft. Ted

@happyandticklish also has some tgwdlm fics!

Lighten Up Ted is the office’s resident tickle monster & he makes it everyone’s problem

You Can’t Make Me Emma forces convinces Paul to go to an office party

I hope these can tide you over! After I finish my commission I’m gonna work on some of the Hatchetfield prompts I’ve got! I’m up to my neck in this fandom & I have so many ideas I wanna write!

[doridoripawaa]

Revue Starlight for the ask game!

THANK YOU FOR THIS!!! Revue is 1 of my 2 biggest comfort series and I don't talk about it enough!!

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most): Nana. Definitely Nana. I already am weak for lonely, big sister-type characters (to nobody's surprise) but after her backstory? WOW. She is so mentally ill (/pos) and I adore her.

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped): Karen immediately comes to mind as so squishable and cuddly and I'm gonna tackle her with affection. She works so hard! She struggles but she overcomes! She probably needs a nap! She's gonna fight a giraffe!

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave): Futaba feels so underrated to me! She is loyal and tough, and her growth into self-confidence is delightful to watch!!

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week): Does Mr. White count? I get so excited every time I see a new piece of merch that Hikari has. I live vicariously through anime girls with a clear special interest.

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave): Nana definitely hits for "problematic" but let's not forget about Hikari being a self-sacrificing disaster who literally flees halfway across the globe to avoid her crush. Peak theater lesbian. Iconic. I love her.

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason): Kaoruko... teasing the bratty ones is always pretty fun 🫣

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell): I want to say I'm sending both Claudine and Maya so they can recreate the revue of souls. but in reality I'm setting the giraffe on fire... again. wakarimasu.

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

The way you write Ingo and Akari's interactions with each other never fails to warm my heart. And after seeing how he is with Rei in oop, I'm so excited to see how Emmet interacts with Akari. And let's not forget how your Cyllene is with Rei, and how she considers him Her Boy. I just love the intergenerational relationships you have going on. Kids deserve to have good adults in their lives, especially ones like Akari and Rei who have had it so rough.

There are... a lot of things I don't like about many interpretations of Emmet in fandom, but one I especially dislike is when he's overly rude or dismissive towards the kids. You avoid that trap neatly, though that's no surprise because the way you write him is one of my all time favorites. That's maybe a bit beside the point though.

In any case, I loved the little prompt snippets you wrote yesterday about Ingo with both Akari and Rei. The one you wrote with Rei was both cool and heartbreaking with how his dedication and care was the only thing keeping him going, all so Rei might have the chance to live. And the one Akari was so sweet and heartwarming, with how gentle his love for her was. She doesn't know it, but Ingo's home isn't a place, like her it's the people he cares about, and she's included in that too now. In this au where he's so close to her, it wouldn't be complete without her there.

WAAAAH THIS IS SUCH A NICE ASK?? THANK YOU?? thank you so much... i'm gonna cry this is so sweet. thank youuuu... i uh rambled a lot about characters and relationships so i'm going to put the rest of that under. a cut i think. contd:

anyway. YEAH re: kids deserving Good Adults. tbh whenever i see a kid on their own in fiction it activates some kind of primal pack bonding instinct in me to protect them, so this is like, vicarious parenting. and i just REALLY like characters who are Good With Kids, it's like one of my fav character traits that makes me instantly love them. and i love all the different ways that can come through, like, like you said, cyllene who isn't so great at saying how she feels but has SO adopted these two. so. yes. this is primarily self indulgent. it all comes back to my love of picking apart character motivations lol

also WHO is making emmet not nice to kids. i'll fight them. i'll duel them in the street right now. why is everyone else so WRONG about my BLORBO. i think- not to Also get sidetracked, lol, but- i think emmet is someone who's extremely straightforward with everything he says, and doesn't back down, but the critical thing is that all that blunt directness and stubbornness is backed by an intense motivation to help and protect others. so that's what i'm trying to channel when he's with rei or anyone else—specifically because he doesn't try to hedge his words or anything, it is so obvious at all times that he Cares and wants to Help. which can be like, intensely validating/reassuring/trust-building. like short and direct and not good at subtlety don't have to be negative asshole-building character traits!! ...but uhh anyway what were we talking about again

ingo ficlets right. YEAHH THANK YOU... i think in comparison to emmet ingo is like. actually good with people, in the sense that he can read peoples' emotions from their words and actions much better, and is very understanding and patient. and obviously he's also driven by that same compassion. trying really hard not to just make this about comparing how i characterize them both ANYWAY. and i am giving him the Parenting Instincts, lol, which, i think he has an immediate reaction of "oh i need to help you" when he sees anyone who's lost/hurt/confused, but it's stronger with kids bc they obviously tend to have less ability to support themselves. so with akari in the adoption fic i keep gesturing towards and Not Finishing, and rei in the ficlet who got separated from his usual crew, he just adopts them very quickly lol. (there's also something to be said there for how i usually write amnesiac-ingo as having a kind of busted self-perception, as we've covered, so he's outsourcing his motivation and desire to continue living to others, which is sort of a Not Great aspect of this, but uhh that's getting sidetracked again)

anyway YEAH!! his home is his loved ones!! yessss exactly!! you have it spot on, i think in that snippet after akari brings it up he does have that thought of, all he has to judge his "home" by is a vague vibe that it was good and he misses it. what if it isn't as perfect as his non-memory thinks it is? what if it can't/won't make space for akari? in which case i think that despite how much he misses it, he would be fully prepared to walk out of it for her. because like you said, his home isn't a place, it's the people!! so if akari can't belong there, then it isn't his home, either. (not that it would ever come to that in reality)

so. yes. as you can probably tell i could go on about this subject forever. just adhd tangent after tangent about kids, and the ways they get treated, and what it says about characters, and character motivations in general, and bitching about how my blorbo gets misinterpreted. but. my point is. this was a very nice ask i am going to print it out and tape it in my diary thank you

[no-psi-nan]

LMFAOOOOOOO GOTTEMMMMMM!!!!!!!

Bestie first you need to evaluate why you're considering these things to be "disgusting" and "poison" and "nonsense". Like. Why are you shaming yourself for having fun blorbo thoughts? In this capitalist hellscape where we are supposed to spend every microsecond hustling in the worship of money, is it not an act of both self care and rebellion to think about fictional people having a nice time and live vicariously through them?

And it's not illegal to have sexual fantasies, it's a natural and normal thing for pretty much everyone! Let the soft animal of your body love what it loves, etc. If you had fun thinking of this weird fucking fetishy shit, then yippee! If you didn't, then it's another good topic for introspection. What about it appealed to you, what didn't appeal to you, what would you change to better suit your tastes? It is always a good time to learn more about yourself imo! Me n my homies are always having fun meta discussions about fetishy shit tbh, it's such a fascinating window into the human psyche.

Honestly I would recommend writing down that dream, as a way of processing it. Not to share with me, but just to have that as a record, and hopefully work through these negative feelings you're having about it.

Second you need to evaluate why you are following an anime brainrot blog if you don't want anime on your brain. XD it's February, you can probably find fanblogs about tax season if you want to be free from sin or whatever lmao. Glad my content is so banger that you're here against your better judgement tho! And I hope you let go of that shame and have a little more fun here in tunglr dot hell 💜

[raintailed]

A few miscellaneous thoughts in my head rn:

Yaay design attack revenge chain :] i love design attacks i love getting more blorbos to add to the mountain of characters i already have

Sometimes i feel like the guy with the corkboard full of stuff pinned to it and "PEPE SILVIA" written on it. That's me whenever i find ways to connect my characters together

I want to work on Skylight again... im not happy with the creatures i made i want to redesign them (again). I want to make them easier to draw. And more shrimpy (the story takes place on a moon so it has weird tidal seasons - the product of being tidally locked - so of course the sophonts are shrimpy). If you have any ideas let me know

I have no cats and i desperately want one. I cope by living vicariously through people on the internet

Ive been playing Half Life :] i'm on the penultimate chapter right now :] then im gonna play opposing force and blue shift and the sequel and the episodes and mods too