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The symphony bracket is here!
This is how voting will proceed:
Beginning on September 1, one poll (2 symphonies) will be posted per day. The poll duration will be 7 days.
The reason for the slow posting will be to give voters time to listen, in case one or both symphonies is new to them!
There are 64 symphonies in the bracket, meaning 32 polls.
Happy voting!
Left Side:
Mahler 2 vs Prokofiev 5
Bruckner 8 vs Mozart 10
Mahler 10 vs Schubert 8
PejaÄeviÄ 1 vs Beethoven 9
Shostakovich 7 vs Glière 3
Beethoven 5 vs Tchaikovsky 6
Mahler 1 vs Sibelius 2
Beethoven 8 vs Vaughan Williams 2
Copland 3 vs Beach Gaelic
Beethoven 6 vs DvoĹĂĄk 7
Borodin 2 vs Saint-SaĂŤns 3
Mendelssohn 4 vs Beethoven 3
Rachmaninoff 2 vs Kalinnikov 2
Prokofiev 1 vs Rachmaninoff 1
Emilie Mayer 2 vs Vaughan Williams 7
Haydn 75 vs DvoĹĂĄk 8
Right Side:
Mahler 5 vs Polymath 1
Corigliano 1 vs Ives Universe
Price 1 vs Shostakovich 5
Mahler 6 vs Sibelius 5
Prokofiev 7 vs Mendelssohn 5
Shostakovich 11 vs Mahler 3
Shostakovich 9 vs Ives 4
Berlioz Symphony Fantastique vs Britten Simple Symphony
Vaughan Williams 1 vs Tchaikovsky 4
Shostakovich 10 vs Hovhaness 4
Beethoven 7 vs Grant Still 2
DvoĹĂĄk 9 vs Brahms 1
Brahms 2 vs Maslanka 4
Brahms 3 vs Tchaikovsky 1
Tchaikovsky 5 vs Mozart 40
#if you notice a symphony is not on here that you expected to be that's bc it was submitted after the 64th one#let me know if you find a mistake :) i checked about three thousand times for spelling errors/doubles etc but i am human#mahler#sibelius#mendelssohn#beethoven#shostakovih#berlioz#florence beatrice price#hovhaness#bruckner#liszt#aaron copland#classical music#corigliano#borodin#tchaikovsky#tumblr bracket#poll bracket#tournament poll#long post
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Rescue Hound Chapter Three
Kione grapples with the consequences of what she's done to Sartha - and faces up to what Sartha needs
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Iâll save you, Sartha. I promise
Those words, drawn out of Kione by a poisoned, unnatural faith, curdle in her heart as she passes the night in Sartha Thraceâs arms. At first, they felt like a blessing. Not for Sartha. For Kione. Thereâs an inimitable sense of power to promising salvation to someoneâto Sartha Thrace, of all peopleâand feeling her trust you. Feeling her melt into your own body, sobs subsiding and fear falling away as she believes. Thatâs intoxicating. Thatâs divine.
But it doesnât last. Once Sartha settles into a heavy, peaceful sleep, Kione is left awake and alone with her thoughts, which increasingly circle around the terrible repercussions of what she has done.
They both wanted it. Didnât they? It was hardly out of character for Sartha. And sheâd certainly seemed passionate enough. Desperate, even. Like she had pent-up urges to vent. It was probably good for her to get it all out of her system. Has Sartha ever once complained about getting a chance to fuck Kione? Is it really such a big deal?
Yes, Kione knows. Of course it is. Because she did it by using the words that imperial handler has put in Sarthaâs head.
Restful sleep isnât coming. And Kione is realizing sheâs the scum of the earth.
Even basking in Sarthaâs body heat strikes her as a sin. Before long, Kione canât take it. She needs to be somewhere else. She needs to be back in her quarters so she can beat herself up in private. As Kione extracts herself from Sarthaâs arms and prepares to leave, she casts a glance at the muzzle she put on Sarthaâs head.
Itâs truly awful. A symbol of every violation that was inflicted on her friend. It would be a mistake to leave it with Sartha. A crime to let her wake with it on. Kione should slip it off, take it with her, and throw it away.
But after the way she just wielded it, she canât even bring herself to touch the cursed thing.
Kione puts on her jumpsuit and slips out of Sarthaâs quarters empty-handed. Maybe sheâll find a bottle to swipe before she retreats into her own. She needs that, right now. Oblivion. But she canât face going to the bar. She canât face being witnessed by another living soul. She just has to hope that at this time of night, the only people awake on the rebel base are the lookouts posted outside.
No such luck. Just as sheâs closing the door to Sarthaâs room, a rebel soldier comes around the corner and catches her. Her eyes go wide, and for a brief instant, Kione feels transparent, like all her sins are visible to the eye. She goes still. She doesnât know what to do.
Itâs even worse than that, it turns out. Kione quickly sees that from the rebel soldierâs perspective, all sheâs done is caught Kione making the walk of shame. Her suspicion is confirmed when, a moment later, the rebel does the worst thing she could possibly do. Calculated, seemingly, to bring Kione the maximum conceivable level of gut-wrenching guilt.
She flashes her a roguish, knowing wink.
***
Itâs an entire day before Kione leaves her quarters. Isolation does nothing to quell the froth of shame writhing in her gut, but thatâs nothing compared to knowing that sheâs out there, somewhere.
Sartha.
How can Kione face her? How can Kione ever face her again? More than once, she makes up her mind to run to the hangar, climb in Theaboros, and fly a thousand miles away just so she doesnât have to. But each time, as soon as her hand touches the door, what freezes her in her tracks is the simple fear that as soon as she opens it, she might find her friend standing right there.
What kind of look will she have on her face, when Kione sees her? Kioneâs dark dreams answer that question a hundred different ways when she finally makes herself settle down to try and sleep.
When sheâs awake, thereâs little for Kione to do but ask herself an endless stream of questions: how could she have done that to Sartha? Why did she get so angry after their sparring session? Why hadnât she been able to stop herself?
And why had it all felt so fucking good?
She thinks about the imperial handler, too. The one she saw on Ancyorâs comms log. Sheâs the one who brainwashed Sartha. Has to be. What kind of person do you have to be to do something like that? To rip open someoneâs mind and brand those three words into their thoughts to serve as a collar they can never slip? Kione already knew it had happened, of course. But until last night, she hadnât even begun to grasp the sick artistry of the brainwasherâs craft. It haunts her, now; the memory of the handlerâs eyes, as sharp as scalpels as they seemed to stare through the screen and through time, into Kioneâs soul.
The handler is a monster. One look at her and Kioneâs certain of that. But after what she did, is she really any different?
All her many questions are nothing more than a spiral. They lead Kione inward and downward, inexorably, through fits of crying, of self-punishment, of vicious ideation. The weight of her actions hangs on her, a heavy, cold sweat, and everything sheâs ever felt about Sartha Thrace tastes like poison.
In the end, hunger is what drives her from her self-imposed, self-pitying isolation. The gnawing in Kioneâs belly overtakes the gnawing in her head and, as despicably unearned as any act of self-preservation feels, she makes up her mind to slip out of her quarters, steal down to the canteen, and swipe something to eat. If nothing else, sheâll need food in her belly if she decides to run.
Head down, long jacket covering her jumpsuit, it all goes just fine until Kione reaches the canteen and finds Sarthaâs already there.
Waiting for her.
Thereâs no use trying to duck beneath her notice. Sheâs keeping an eye out and as soon as Kione enters the room, Sarthaâs on her feet and headed her way. Kione is a deer in headlights. Her blood is ice. This is how itâs gonna be, huh? Sartha wants to expose her. Have it out in front of a crowd. It makes sense. Itâs safer, Kione figures, and guarantees that everyone will know exactly what sheâs done. Kione will be lucky not to get executed on the spot.
She doesnât try to flee. Kione accepts her fate. She deserves it, right?
When Sartha reaches her, the expression on her face is unreadable. But when she speaks, the distinct, earnest adoration in her voice is as stark and shocking as a thunderbolt.
âHey, Kione,â Sartha says, a touch breathily. âYou need to eat, right? I already got us a table.â
After a long moment, Kione replies with an awkward, jerky nod. Her hunger is instantly forgotten, so she simply follows Sartha over to where the hero is sitting. She canât help but notice that Sartha doesnât have a tray of her own. Just waiting then, not eating. For a moment, Kione resists the implications staring her in the face. The stay of execution sheâs received isnât comforting. Itâs horrifying. But as they sit down, Kioneâs forced to acknowledge that the expression on Sarthaâs face isnât unreadable at all. Itâs the expression Kioneâs put on the faces of dozens of girls by rocking their world after feeding them some stupid pickup line about feeling a connection. The blush. The parted lips. The eager, awe-filled hope in their eyes. Sheâd know it anywhere.
But on Sartha? Itâs so wrong.
âYou OK?â Sartha asks. âI got worried. Wasnât sure where youâd gone when I woke up.â
âYou got⌠worried?â Kione repeats dumbly.
Sartha just smiles at her. âOf course.â
Kione canât stop staring at her. She doesnât know what to say, and sheâs too busy grappling with her feelings to try and figure that out. A moment ago, her veins were full of ice. Now theyâre hot, and flooded with something sticky and intoxicating.
Sartha was worried about her.
Itâs not that she didnât care, before. Sartha was never a bad friend. Not exactly. But she was under a thousand pressures and had a million people vying for her attention. She was the hero of rebellion, and her eyes were always set on the far horizon. Not the kind of friend to count on for if youâre a little quiet and sad and need somebody to take notice.
Until now, apparently.
âUmâŚâ Sartha begins, after the awkward silence has dragged on for a little while. Her visible anxiety is a wonder. âAbout last night⌠Iâm sorry.â
Kione thought sheâd already found the limit of her own capacity for surprise. She was wrong.
âYouâre sorry?â she splutters.
Sartha nods. She looks ashamed.
âWhy?â Kione asks in a hushed, incredulous voice.
âWhen we sparred,â Sartha begins. Thatâs what she wants to talk about? âI disappointed you. I completely fucked up. You were right. You were absolutely right. I need to try harder. Gotta get my head back in the game.â She looks across the table at Kione hopefully. Hoping for forgiveness. âIâll do better next time.â
Itâs everything Kione thought she wanted to hearâand it makes her sick to her stomach. Numbly, she shakes her head.
âNo, butâŚâ she stutters. âThatâs not⌠I wasâŚâ
Her clear discomfort only seems to fuel Sarthaâs penitence. She leans in, voice infused with fresh eagerness.
âIâm sorry,â she insists. âYou were right, Kione. I needed to hear it. All of it. I really did.â
âN-no,â Kione groans. âI should beâŚâ
She doesnât want this. She doesnât want how this makes her feel. She doesnât want this Sartha.
âPlease, Ki,â Sartha presses. Why does she look so damn happy? âIâll do better. I can do better. I mean it. Iâm sorry.â
âStop!â Kione snaps. Sartha flinches. The wounded look on her face doesnât make it any easier.
âBut-â
âDonât!â Kione hisses. If she hears one more âsorryâ from Sarthaâs lips, her head is going to split open. âUnderstand? Just⌠donât. Do not apologize, Sartha.â
Appallingly, a strange light appears in Sarthaâs eyes. She sits up very straight and nods.
âYes, Kione,â she pants.
A fresh wave of nausea passes through the mercenary. No. No, no, no. She has to fix whatever she broke.
âLast night,â Kione attempts. âUh⌠after we sparred, I mean.â
âYeah?â Sartha nods. Gods, sheâs hanging on Kioneâs every word.
Kione looks down. Something in Sarthaâs manner makes it damn near impossible to bring it up, but she has to try.
âI came to your quarters,â Kione forces out through gritted teeth. âI said�� some things. No, I mean, I said⌠something in particular. Some words.â
âAh.â Sartha hangs her head. Kione senses that sheâd be apologizing for something right about now, if not for her instruction. âI guess Iâm still a little messed up, from when they⌠took me. Iâm afraid I donât remember that much about what happened.â
Kione blinks. âYou donât?â
Sartha shakes her head. Pink stains her cheeks and she speaks in a very quiet, secretive voice.
âI mean, I remember a little. Memories kind of bleed over, you might say. From the other me.â
After all that heat, Kione goes cold again. She feels feverish. She feels insane.
âSo you do remember?â she presses, even though it pains her.
âWe hooked up, right?â Sartha grins sheepishly.
âNo,â Kione replies. âOr, well, yeah, sure, I guess. But what I mean is-â
âDonât worry about it,â Sartha interrupts. Kione realizes she looks a little pained too.
âI kinda have to, Sartha,â Kione presses on. âEspecially after I used-â
âLook, um,â Sartha interrupts again. âI wanted it. Let me just say that much, Ki. I wanted it. And it was really, really good.â
Now Kioneâs the one blushing like a rookie with a crush. âYou did?â
âOf course,â Sartha tells her. As much of a ghost as sheâs been these past weeks, in moments like this, her smile still has some of its former radiance. âWeâve hooked up plenty of times, right?â
âWell, yeah.â
Itâs so tempting to just agree with her. To simply bask in Sartha Thraceâs favor. To wonder if, perhaps, all the yearning Kione felt the night before wasnât just one-sided.
Kione Monax has never been very good at resisting temptation.
âI guess so,â she concedes.
She wanted it. Sartha wanted it. They both went a little too far, and clearly the details are a little mutually embarrassing. In that sense, is it really that different from some of Kioneâs other misguided conquests?
âSo thereâs no problem?â Sartha asks hopefully.
Kione wouldnât go quite that far. Thereâs one important boundary to set before they can dispense with this.
âLetâs just agree,â she says, blushing. âNot to let that happen again. I mean, maybe sometime, we can⌠yâknow. Again. If we both truly want to. But not like that. With you, Sartha, I donât want it to be-â
Once again, Kione is interrupted. Not by Sartha. By her own growling stomach. Now that her anxiety is settling, the hunger is coming back. Itâs making her just as light-headed.
âGods, Ki,â Sartha says, face a mask of concern. âHavenât you eaten?â
âI guess not,â Kione admits. âBut seriously, letâs-â
âNo, wait,â Sartha stands up out of her chair. âYou need some grub. You stay right here, Ki. Let me get you something.â
She hurries off before Kione can mount a protest. Once again, itâs her concern that proves intoxicating. Nobody else in the canteen is sitting close enough to listen in on their hushed conversation, but a couple of rebels quickly pick up on the fact that Sartha is fetching a meal on Kioneâs behalf. Some of the jealous looks Kione gets are truly filthy. As usual, looks like that scratch her pride and demand in reply a big, smug, shit-eating grin.
Maybe thatâs why she canât quite find it in herself to broach the subject again once Sartha trots back with a laden tray, looking every bit as proud as a dog with a stick.
***
After that, Kione promises herself that sheâll force the issue. That sheâll have a real conversation with Sartha about the way she took advantage of that imperial trigger phrase. She really means it, too. Itâs important. She has too much respect for Sartha to leave her apology unsaid.
But in the end, itâs easy to just⌠not.
Sartha obviously doesnât want to talk about it. She breezes past all of Kioneâs feeble attempts to touch on the subject. Plus, itâs not like Kione is thrilled at the prospect of explaining to Sartha that she feels like an abusive piece of shit for what she did, and that itâs disturbing how Sartha doesnât seem to view it in the same light.
Why force that talk when, instead, Kione can simply stay quiet and enjoy the new bond she shares with Sartha?
Thatâs exactly what she ends up doing. In the wake of her silence, everything returns to normal. Not normal-normal, of course. Sarthaâs still damaged goods, and most of her rebel comrades are still plainly, hopelessly unable to cope with that. But itâs closer than ever before, weirdly. Contrary to Sarthaâs fears, what Kione did to her doesnât send her back to the infirmary. If her betrayal is a fresh, deep wound in Sarthaâs psyche, a reminder of how her imperial brainwasher opened up her soul and hollowed it out, it doesnât show. Quite the opposite.
Now, Sartha is better.
Not all the way. But thereâs a fresh brightness to her smiles. They seem less forced. Everybody senses it. Her comrades start waving to her again, and she waves back. When they let their hero-worship show, she accepts it with a gracious nod and an easy, modest comment. The rebel doctors closely monitoring her psychological health are all smiles. According to them, she must be healing. Bouncing back. Soon enough, they reckon, sheâll be back to her old self.
And if sheâs always at Kioneâs side, hanging on the mercenaryâs every word? Why, clearly all she needed was a good friend to lean on.
Hearing that puts one hell of a vicious knot in Kioneâs stomach.
But not for long. With Sartha at her side, thereâs only so much time she can spend wringing her hands. It feels like a waste. Sartha is doing well, isnât she? Even the doctors think so, and theyâd know, right? Besides, doesnât Kione deserve this? She's been a good friend to Sartha, despite a couple of lapses. She stuck with her when nobody else did. Sarthaâs affection starts to feel, more than anything else, like simple recognition.
She still has reservations. Kione canât quite shake the worry that all of this points to a nameless sickness within the rescued hero. Perhaps thatâs why she doesnât push Sartha to try piloting Ancyor again, even though it seems like she would if Kione asked. Itâs growing difficult to tell what Sartha genuinely wants, and what she simply thinks Kione wants. But perhaps, after everything sheâs been through, putting her in the cockpit of a peerless, hundred-ton war machine isnât actually the wisest move.
Once or twice, her reservations build to the point sheâs tempted to tell someone. The doctors, maybe. About Sarthaâs trigger phrase, if not the way she used it. That seems like something they should know, doesnât it? It seems like it might be important. Really, extremely important.
But then Kione will mentionâoff-handedly and thoughtlessly, of course���that she needs something and Sartha will bounce up and race off to find her exactly what sheâs looking for. When she gets back, sheâll flash Kione this eager, hopeful look until Kione says âthank you, Sarthaâ, and then Sartha will show her the brightest, most contented smile Kione has ever seen on the heroâs face.
The temptation fades. The gods are in their heaven. All is right with the world.
Until the night thereâs a knock at Kioneâs door.
Kione is just bedding down to sleep when she hears it. She sits up and frowns. Thatâs weird. Nobody ever comes knocking, and the base is all quiet tonight. Everybody else shipped out on some mission. Apparently not one worth paying Kione for. Given everything thatâs been happening, she probably shouldnât be surprised when she opens the door to her quarters and sees Sartha standing there. But she is.
Sartha never comes to knock on her door. Itâs always the other way around.
âHey, Ki,â Sartha says. The look on her face is fathomless. Sad and eager and ashamed and gleeful all at the same time. âCan I, uh, come in?â
âSure.â
Kione steps back and lets her in. Once she gets over her surprise, she canât keep herself from grinning. Itâs perfect. Itâs what she always wanted. Sartha Thrace, here to climb into her bed. Kioneâs turned on already.
âWhatâs up, Sartha?â Kione asks, playing it as casual as she possibly can. A bit of a fool's errand, given that she probably looks like the cat that got the cream. But she really, really wants to get Sartha to say it.
âNot much.â Sartha sounds decidedly flustered as she steps inside and closes the door. Thatâs good. Thatâs great. âYou busy?â
Itâs funny; Kione hasnât seen as much of her today as sheâs become used to. When they had lunch, she seemed a touch listless. But now, Sarthaâs all over the place. Frenetic. Manic. Practically vibrating, and she keeps looking all over everywhere like sheâs afraid to let her gaze settle.
As far as Kioneâs concerned, itâs perfect.
âNot really, I guess.â Kione stretches lazily. âSo, uh, what brings you here?â
Getting to watch Sartha squirm for a moment before she answers is better than Kione could have hoped. âUmâŚâ she replies slowly, voice fraying from the sheer, bubbling tension. âActually, I⌠was hoping we could, maybe, do something together. Like before.â
Itâs a little mean, but Kione canât quite bring herself to not smirk and laugh. Gods, Sartha! She sounds like a schoolgirl with a crush. Itâs flattering, really. Kione knows sheâs a great top. She doesnât get as much feedback about being a bottom. Sarthaâs the only woman in a position to give it. Clearly, Kioneâs ass is quite the prize.
Itâs desperately tempting to throw herself at Sartha already. To savor her warmth once more. As tarnished as she is, Kione knows sheâd still taste like the sun. But Kione reckons she can go for just one more tease. One more bout of squirming.
âOh, like what, exactly?â she asks, feigning confusion as best she can with this dumb, horny grin on her face. âNot sure what kind of stuff you mean.â
Sartha wraps her arms around herself and squeezes tight. She glances away in desperate embarrassment, and itâs everything Kione could have hoped.
âYou know⌠this?â
Every bit of Kioneâs glee turns sour when Sartha sticks a hand into one of the big pockets in her bomber jacket and fishes out the muzzle.
"What theâŚâ The ghost of Kioneâs smile remains etched onto her face, and she lets out an inadvertent, nervous titter as hairs rise on her spine. âY-youâre joking, right?â
âNo.â Sartha shakes her head. Sheâs blushing and embarrassed, but something else is moving through her too, compelling her to hold the muzzle out reverently toward Kione like an offering. âI-I need it.â
âI donât think thatâs a good idea, Sartha.â
Kioneâs stomach is churning. Why did it have to be this? Why couldnât it have just been sex?
âWhy not?â Sartha pleads. Her eyes are wide, and a jagged, needy light shines from within them. Kione has seen this before, or something like it. She knows it for what it is: addiction.
âBecauseâŚ.â Kione canât figure out how to explain it; itâs so blindingly obvious that the fact Sartha canât see it is damning. But itâs so hard to just say ânoâ to her. Thatâs one skill Kione has never got the hang of. Instead, she tries bargaining. âOK, um, you want me to⌠put the muzzle on you? And then we fuck? Shit, if thatâs what does it for you then sure. Seems a little dark, but who am I to blame a girl for developing a few kinks after going through it?â
The forced lightness in her voice is a feeble attempt at manifesting. Kione is hoping Sartha wonât say the thing she was always, inevitably going to say.
âN-no. I mean, yes, um. We can fuck if you want to. Yes. Absolutely. But thatâs notâŚâ For a moment, Sartha squeezes her eyes closed. Shame and need are fighting a battle within her. Need wins. It was always going to win, and it leaves her leaning in ever closer to Kione and visibly salivating when she opens her mouth to speak. âI need you to use the words.â
Kione lets out a whimper.
âNo.â She shakes her head. âNo, no, no. No way, Sartha.â
Sartha takes another step toward her, but the muzzle is between them. Kione steps back. That thing terrifies her.
âWhy not?â Sartha protests.
âHoly shit, Sartha!â Kione splutters. âThatâs so many different kinds of fucked-up I donât even know where to begin.â
âWhy?â Sartha asks again.
Kione is about to deride her for her childishness until she realizes: itâs a real question. On some level, Sartha simply doesnât get it.
âGods,â Kione says quietly. âDonât you see? Those words are what they did to you. A way to control you. Itâs not right. People just⌠they just arenât supposed to have something like that.â
Sartha goes quiet for a long moment. She looks downâthen up again, and Kione sees that her plea for sanity skated off Sartha like a pebble across ice.
âBut,â she says eventually. âI need it.â
Kione is on the verge of tearing up. âNo,â she begs. âYou donât.â
She's still in there somewhere, isnât she? The Sartha Thrace that Kione remembers. The ace that pushed her to her limits. The hero that made her want to be better. The woman who never needed anything. Not even Kione.
âIt makes me feel whole again,â Sartha explains miserably. Itâs like sheâs half-aware of how abjectly awful what sheâs saying isâbut only half. âThatâs all I want. To feel good. To be⌠to be free. Thatâs what I get from my⌠other half. Without that, itâs just me. And I feel everything, all the time, weighing me down. Whenever anybody around here looks at me. I canât do it, Kione.â
The pain in her voice makes it so damn hard. Kione wants so badly to be the one who makes her stop hurting. But itâs too awful. Sheâs forgiven herself once, just about. No more second chances.
âNo, Sartha,â she says, with all the firmness she can find. âYou can do it. You really can. I believe in you. Or, you⌠you can at least try, yeah? If it sucks, if it hurts, Iâm there for you. But anythingâs better than pulling on the levers they stuck in your head. Hells, thereâs so much we donât know about what they did to you, or how. We donât know what they were using you for. We donât know why you were traveling in Ancyor like that, on your own, when we intercepted you. So⌠you need to stay clear of all of it, OK? You need to get those words out of your head and forget about them. Thatâs what you need to heal from. Right?â
Thatâs as heartfelt as Kione gets. She looks long and deep into Sarthaâs eyes. Praying to see clarity. Praying to see hate. Hatred might mean she understands, at least, the extent of the violations committed against her. Mostly, though, Kione hopes that they can embrace and fall into bed together, shed tears together, find comfort together. As friends and equals. As more, perhaps.
Itâs a stupid dream, of course. Kione should know better. Now she gets whatâs coming to all stupid dreamers.
Sartha blinks, and when her eyes open again, sheâs gone. Just as gone as when Kione put her off the leash. This time, though, itâs not Hound. Not Sarthaâs other self. Itâs just the part of Sartha Thrace that is nothing but need.
And need can fight dirty.
âItâs funny,â Sartha says. The way she smiles at Kione, crooked and bleak, is more unnerving than anything. âHow youâre saying all this now. Where were all these reservations the other night, Ki?â
âWha-â Kioneâs guts churn so violently she almost gags. Sheâs never seen this Sartha before, not once.
âYou keep pretending you donât want it.â Sarthaâs eyes are vast and dark. Empty. Thereâs nothing inside them. Kione feels swallowed up by their gaze. âBut you do. Why not just do what you want with me? Thatâs all Iâm offering you.â
âGods!â Kione gasps. âN-no I donât.â
âYou do,â Sartha insists. Sheâs unsteady. Itâs like sheâs drunk. âBe serious, Ki. Youâve been on cloud nine ever since it happened. Just do what you want.â
Another gut punch. The truth itches at Kioneâs skin. She canât deny it, and she canât stop feeling devastated by the sudden realization that if she keeps saying ânoâ, all of Sarthaâs doting adoration will be over.
âYou want me to be all yours, right?â Sartha whispers, and itâs all poison. âAlways have. All you have to do is say the words.â
âS-shut up,â Kione snaps violently. She canât handle this Sartha. Not even for a moment.
Sarthaâs smile widens still further, but there is absolutely no joy in it. âYou know how you could make me shut up?â
âFuck!â Kione flinches away from her, aghast.
She was right the first time. This is addiction. But still, she hadnât been prepared for this: for the withdrawal, for the addict whoâll say anything. Itâs even more pitiable than the forlorn depression, but that doesnât stop it getting under Kioneâs skin.
Gods, Sartha. That handler. What did she do to you? How did she crawl this deep into your heart?
âJust give me what I need,â Sartha wheedles, advancing on her, not giving her an inch of space. âOne more time, at least. Canât you do that for me, Kione? Donât you owe me that? Come on. Make it up to me.â
âNo!â
âWhy not? Why not just do it again?â
âB-because it was rape!â Kioneâs been nursing that bitter truth for days. Saying it out loud is a perverse kind of release.
Until Sartha licks her lips to make them wet, then parts them as she looks up at Kione, eyes shining, breath coming in wet pants of deranged craving.
âDonât you wanna rape me again?â
Kione lets out a wet grunt of pain. It sounds a little too much like a moan for her liking. Sheâs dizzy. She needs to get out of here. All the ultra-honed merc alarm bells in her head are ringing. This is dangerous. This is her own personal hell.
âYou could.â Sartha seizes her advantage. âAny way you want. I made you feel good, right? You want me to fuck you again, Ki?â
Kioneâs back is against the wall, and thereâs nowhere else to go. Sartha is pressed all the way up against her. The broken heroâs body heat is another vector of attack. This close, Kione can see the burning fever in Sarthaâs face. She looks crazed. Like she barely knows what sheâs saying.
Only that itâs working.
âOr,â Sartha whispers. âYou could fuck me instead. How about that, huh? You could finally have my body. All of it.â
Her voice is so breathy. Feminine, melodic, seductive. Itâs so wrong for Sartha Thrace. But who could ever resist it? Not Kione, thatâs for sure. Itâs more than just dizziness thatâs making her light-headed. Sheâs sick to her stomach, but thereâs more to her appetite than just her stomach. To her utter horror, Kione realizes that sheâs hard.
A moment later, Sartha notices too. That���s even more horrifying.
âItâs n-n-notâŚâ Kione stammers pathetically. âIâm n-n-notâŚâ
Itâs not that she wants to fuck Sartha. Thatâs what Kioneâs trying to say. Itâs not about sex. Itâs about attention. Itâs the way that, right now, she is the focal point of Sartha Thraceâs existence. She has eyes for nobody else. Itâs not Kioneâs fault sheâs completely, hopelessly intoxicated by the experience. How long has she admired Sartha? How often has she wished she could be that good? That strong? That principled and hopeful? All those good, earnest, honest yearnings are crucifying her now. Thatâs what Kione wants to say.
Itâs kind of a lie, unfortunately. Cause she also really does want to fuck Sartha.
âJust say those three words for me,â Sartha promises, âand Iâll be all yours. You can make me anything you want. Anything you need.â
âN-n-nooo,â Kione whines.
âCâmon.â Sartha wheedles. She nestles her leg between Kioneâs thighs and raises it so that it presses against her cock. That has Kione seeing stars. âDonât you want me?â
âYyyyes!â Kione cries. âOr⌠I m-m-meanâŚâ
Now sheâs admitted it, is there really any point pretending?
Yes. She wants it. Kione wants it so bad. Of course she does. She wants the dependence. She wants that moment when she felt herself reaching into Sarthaâs broken head and playing with the pieces. She wants to be Sarthaâs everything. She wants to be her god.
And Sartha wants it too. So whatâs the problem?
All of a sudden, itâs on the tip of her tongue. Kione wants to say it. It would be so easy to say it. Everything after that would be so easy too. Maybe she could order Sartha to back off. Maybe she could use the words just to get some space to clear her head. Or maybe she and her hound would be swept up in each other until the morning, and morning is so far away. Not having to think and be strong until morning would feel amazing.
âO-Off⌠TheâŚâ
âYes,â Sartha pants. âGods, yes, Kione.â
She can sense Kioneâs will breaking. In the face of her impending victory, her seductiveness evaporates. Once again, thereâs nothing in her eyes but gnawing, bitter need. It makes Sartha look like a black hole into which you could pour everything, forever, without filling it. She starts tearing up, and they are the tears of someone finally approaching the end of their pain.
They reveal that, in the end, Sartha never actually wanted Kione. She just wanted to be nothing at all.
Kione brings both her hands to Sarthaâs chestâand shoves her off. Sartha doesnât resist. She seems stunned that Kione found the strength. In that instant sheâs like a lost child, as she looks at the merc.
âNot like this,â Kione says. Her voice is ragged, but it's firm. Itâs not that she doesnât want Sartha. Itâs just that if she says âyesâ to her now, sheâll never get from her what she truly wants. âNot like this.â
Then, all over the rebel base, alarms start blaring. And everything goes to shit.
***
It feels like itâs been an eternity, even though itâs just twenty minutes later that Kione is standing in the hangar bay on the boarding pier next to Theaboros, making the last few essential pre-launch checksâand watching, from a short distance away, as Sartha does the same with Ancyor.
To most peopleâto all the mechanics watching from the sidelines and saluting with stars in their eyesâit probably looks like sheâs her old self again. Sartha Thrace, getting back in the saddle. Just where she always belonged. Kione can see different. She can see how Sarthaâs hands are shaking. She can see the fearâthe abject terrorâin the heroâs eyes. After their sorry spectacle of a duel a few days before, she can see the painful truth.
Sartha canât do this.
But sheâs going to try, because they asked her to. Her comrades. The people sheâs been fighting for all these years. Damn her, she always lets them ask too much of her.
Admittedly, it would have been hard to say ânoâ to this one. As soon as the alarms started sounding, Kione went for her radio and found they were already calling for herâher and Sartha both. She was preposterously grateful for the interruption until she heard the sitrep:
An imperial recon force is sweeping the sector, and heading straight for the rebel base.
Itâs far from unprecedented. Rebels and imperials play a constant cat-and-mouse game with one another, as the empire tries to ferret out rebel positions while the rebels try to keep them hidden. Itâs the only way to wage an asymmetric war. Battles and fronts have to be chosen with care; the rest of the time, strength must be conserved and secret.
To that end, rebel fighters are skilled in the art of misdirection. They know just how to put together an ambush in a way that throws imperial hunters off the scent and leads them somewhere else entirely. This time, thereâs just one problem.
Everybody is already sortied and out of range, lending assistance to a fight in a neighboring sector.
Plus, the imperial patrol is a lot beefier than usual. The scant few rebel pilots that remain to be deployed arenât enough to head them off. Not without Sartha.
âIâll do it,â Kione offered, when they asked. âSend me out. You know my fees. You know Iâll get it done.â
Put the money front and center. Canât let them know how off-kilter she is. Canât let them know how much she cares about keeping Sartha Thrace out of combat.
Unfortunately, they already had their wallets out. They want Kione out there. But they want Sartha too. Even then, they said, theyâll be outnumbered. Without Sartha to even the odds, thereâs no way.
Kione grimaced when she heard that, and again when she checked the reports for herself and saw that it was probably true. All the same, when they turned to Sartha and told her that they were sorry it was so soon, but that they had no choice, Kione was shaking her head and mouthing âpleaseâ behind their backs.
Sartha locked eyes with her, then turned to the base commander, saluted, and said: âYou can count on me.â
So here they are, mounting up. Everyone in the hangar has eyes for Sartha Thrace. All the rebels are betting their hopes and dreams on her glorious return to the battlefield. Meanwhile, Kione is looking past the heroism, past even the shaking, fearful hands, and searching for a sign of the broken, needy, hollowed thing she encountered in her quarters just minutes before.
Fuck. This is going to be a disaster.
But since she canât just say that out loud and expect anybody to listen, Kione remains miserably silent as Theaboros, Ancyor, and just two ramshackle rebel mechs shudder to life and file out of the hangar to march across the blasted landscape to war.
Single file, they follow the bed of a long-dried river that crests several nearby hills as it leads away from the rebel position. Itâs the kind of thing few imperial map-makers take notice of; with luck, the scouts will be in the valley below and easy to take by surprise. Kione would love to take the skies and find them herself; Theaborosâs wings are back online, although sheâs been warned to be careful with them. Smarter to simply follow the rebels, though. This is their terrain. They know it, and it knows them. Unlike Theaboros, all of their mechs are painted the exact color of the dust their feet are kicking up. They might look like heaps of junk, but theyâre built smart.
All machines, someone familiar. says over the radio, headâs up. Weâre closing on their last known position. Iâm running command and comms, so keep it clean and listen to me.
It shouldnât make much difference given all the different kinds of hell Kioneâs wading through, but for some reason, the little light-bulb moment of recognition she gets at the voice is enough to pierce through it all and, just for a moment, bring her actual, heartfelt joy.
âRadio girl!â she calls out, delighted.
Thereâs a derisive snort. Radio girl is trying to sound scornful but even over the crackling comm link, Kione can tell sheâs smiling.
I have a name, you know, she retorts.
âYeah?â Kione is smiling too. âGet us back to base in one piece, maybe Iâll think about learning it.â
That gets a laugh out of the rebel. Thatâs a win, in Kioneâs book.
Is this where I tell you to buy me a drink instead? radio girl says. I guess at that point we could just call it even.
âNo, no, no,â Kione tuts. âNo drinks? Whereâs the fun in that? Letâs get twice as drunk instead.â
She hears more laughter over the radioâthen another voice. One Kioneâs not familiar with. Another rebel pilot.
Merc, stop flirting! the other pilot snaps. Focus.
Not one whoâs been introduced to Kioneâs unique charms, then.
Itâs one hell of a request. Whereâs the fun in a scrap if youâre not flirting? Might as well join the empire, and have nothing to say besides âyes, sirâ and âno, sirâ. But Kioneâs willing to play nice and keep her mouth shut, given the circumstances. Maybe she can have her pleasure later, instead, if she wows miss wet blanket in combat and then tracks her down once theyâre back at base.
Kione blinks. Itâs been weeks since sheâs had a thought like that. Piloting Theaboros against the imperials is starting to make her feel like her usual self again. She canât believe how good the idea of spending a night all wrapped up in someone who isnât Sartha sounds.
I see them!
Radio girlâs not flirting now. Sheâs all business, and so is Kione. A few more steps and Kione sees them too. Almost two dozen black shapes passing in several columns, no more than two hundred feet down the hillside. The rebels are in perfect ambush position, but even soâfour perfect shots and four perfect kills would still leave them outnumbered more than two to one.
And thatâs assuming Sartha does her part. Kione casts a glance back at Ancyor. During their march, she hasnât said a single word.
Everybody get in cover and pick your targets. Before they leave our kill zone. Get ready. On my mark.
Kione obeys silently. This is no time for her smart mouth. She unholsters Theaborosâs rifle and levels it carefully at her chosen target. A short distance away, Sartha does the same. Thatâs good. At least sheâs present enough for that. Maybe theyâre not totally doomed.
They wait, and the wait is murder. The imperials inch closer and closer at a lazy pace until theyâre passing the closest point their path will take them to the rebel ambush. Their reactor signatures should be well-shielded by the terrain, but at this distance all it would take is for one of those idiots to look up. It occurs to Kione to quickly pray that each member of their impromptu squad is aiming at a different hostile. Itâs always truly, comically grim when that part of an ambush goes wrong.
Now! Fire!
At radio girlâs word, the rebel squad opens up. The ripping roar of two large autocannons tears open the air and fills the valley beneath with smoke and, a moment later, the crack of Ancyorâs jezzail is punctuated by the crash of its victim collapsing to the ground, disabled. That gun might be Sarthaâs sole concession to long-range combat, but it would be a mistake to assume she doesnât know how to use it. Even now, it seems.
Kione is the only one who isnât shooting yet. Oh, sheâs pulled the trigger. Her weapon just takes a moment to actuate. In the cockpit, Kione feels her entire mech thrum as Theaborosâs reactor spins up, juicing the long, unwieldy rifle in its hands with antimatter. Turns out, that stuff is good for more than just floating. Turns out, controlled micro-annihilations play ungodly havoc with magnetic fields, and with enough charge and the right designâconcentric rings firing in sequence around the barrelâyou can accelerate a heavy, solid, ferrous slug to sanity-defying speeds until it pierces straight through the core of the first target it hits, comes out the other side, and lodges in the cockpit of the second.
A railgun.
While Theaboros opens all its external vents and literally lets off steam, Kione smirks. Two-in-one. Now thatâs a shot. Maybe she should raise her fees again.
Her smirk fades when even as five of them fall, the rest of the imperial patrol pulls together and begins to return fire with alarming alacrity.
Imperial pilots are invariably unimaginative, but they sometimes prove annoyingly professional. These ones have been drilled well. They shift rapidly into a defensive formation and take what cover they can, and soon enough the sounds of their guns utterly drowns out all of the rebel weaponry combined. Most of them are Dorus, and Kioneâs never had trouble putting those down, but thereâs a newer model with them too. A Xiphos, according to Theaborosâs targeting data. It opens up with more than just gunfire; a large, shoulder-mounted mortar fills the air with deadly hail that threatens to blast the rebel cover apart, leaving them all exposed.
Uh-oh.
Itâs not the lethality of their firepower that keeps Kione and the others hopelessly pinned down. Itâs certainly not the accuracy either. Itâs the sheer volume. Kione is forced to huddle against the bank of the dried river, and the constant whipping and screaming of shells above her head leave her no opportunities to line up a shot. Trying to withstand it for even a moment would be a death sentence.
When you boil it right down, a mech is a giant tin can with a little squishy grape inside. Kione knows you donât need to punch holes in the can to pop the grape. Rattle it around enough, and youâll be left with nothing but pulp. Keep whaling on it, and little shards will shear off and start flying around the inside like bullets. Spalling. Bad way to go. Whale on it with something that goes bang, and you can propagate an internal pressure wave that makes the grape implode. Worse way to go.
Kione doesnât fuck with small arms fire. Armor is a last resort.
Thatâs whyâas usual, when things get roughâKione is thinking about bolting. It would be so easy this time. All she has to do is turn around and fly away. Theyâd never catch her.
Giving radio girl mixed signals really would suck, though. And Kione canât leave Sartha behind, of course. Especially not now.
While sheâs fighting to formulate some kind of plan, the rebel who snapped at Kione for flirting gets impatient. Bad move, but easy to do when youâre sitting in a ditch getting shot at. She stands up, ready to shoot, ready to lead the charge, roaring defiance over the radio. Moments later, her mechâs torso is simply gone. The legs are left to topple over like dominoes.
Well, shit.
Kione grits her teeth. The odds are awful and getting worse. Sitting tight isnât going to help. But the thing is, Kione knows she and Sartha have been through worse. As bad as it is, they can do this.
All they need is a hero.
Kione looks over at Ancyor. Oh no. Sartha isnât even trying to shoot back.
But she wouldnât leave Kione out to dry. Would she? When Kione truly needs her, sheâll rise to the occasion. The mercenary is sure of it. Which means all she has to do is force the issue.
âSartha!â Kione yells down the radio. âRemember Pathyris? Letâs go!â
Before Sartha can tell her not to, Kione guns Theaborosâs flight system and rockets up into the sky.
Itâs one of those dumb moves that anybody would tell any rookie pilot to never ever do, no matter how much of a hot-shot they think they are. Never. Be. The. Distraction. The thing is, though, Kioneâs beloved Theaboros makes for a truly excellent distraction. The sight of it floating into the sky, all six wings extended and shimmering with anti-matter, will catch anybodyâs attention. It makes her target number one, but it always takes Kioneâs enemies a moment to adjust their aim. Even once they start shooting in the right direction, Theaboros is maneuverable enough that, if she really needs to, Kione can spend a little time dancing with bullets.
All in all, you couldnât ask for a better ploy to let Ancyor break cover, charge straight at the imperial lines, and get stuck in right where it belongs.
It worksâbut only because theyâre both really that good, and only because they both really, truly trust each other. Kione trusts Sartha not to keep her waiting, and to put the bad guys down before they can land a solid hit. Sartha trusts Kione to take the flak and be her eyes in the sky, and to use her railgun to blow apart anyone who threatens to put holes in Ancyor.
Itâs the kind of tactic nobody would ever teach. Kione and Sartha have honed it over and over, fighting back-to-back against long odds. Itâs something only they can do. It is their bond made manifest.
And Sartha isnât moving.
Kione spares a precious millisecond to switch over to a private comms line. âThrace!â she cries. âIâve got you covered. Get in there. We need you.â
All she hears coming over the radio is sobbing.
I canât do it, Kione.
Sarthaâs letting her down. Again. And now theyâre all gonna die.
âSartha!â Kione screams. The shots are getting real close now. She doesnât have much longer. âYes, you can! You can do this! Please!â
Even now, even after everything, Kione canât shake the deep-seated conviction that, at any moment, her hero is going to spring into life and save her. But itâs beginning to dawn on her that she wonât. She really wonât. Sartha isnât a hero. Not anymore. Sheâs just scared and helpless, and nothing Kione sobs or begs or yells will change that.
Except one thing.
Kione doesnât want to say it. She really doesnât, even now. But sheâs realizing that all her guilt and reservations, all that effort spent saying ânoâ to Sartha, in her quartersâit was all for nothing. All her pleas were wasted breath. Itâs a little embarrassing it took her this long to figure it out. Sartha would never come begging to Kioneâs quarters and Sartha would never let Kione die like this, and so Sartha is gone. Dead. All Kione rescued on that bridge was a husk. A shell. Nothing more.
But Kione still cares about the husk. And more to the point, a husk has its uses. That imperial handler clearly knew as much. Now Kioneâs learning the same lesson. And she will make use of the husk of Sartha Thrace, oh yes. With the right leverage, sheâll be everybodyâs hero once more. Sheâll be the shining star all those rebel mechanics need to see. And sheâll get Kione and radio girl out of this mess in one piece. Kione will make sure that happens.
Whatever it takes.
âSartha,â she says into the radio, and the certain knowledge that this will work makes her voice calm and firm. âOff The Leash.â
The sound of growling and slavering is what lets her know that sheâs going to be OK. Isnât that funny? Itâs not the dashing, cool, brave Sartha Thrace that saves her.
Itâs the faithful, brainwashed, obedient Hound.
She doesnât need to be told what to do. Sheâs a good dog. Already, sheâs breaking cover and sprinting at the enemy. All Sarthaâs hesitation is gone, replaced by a fathomless rage that these prey-things dare to try and hurt Kione. Kione can sense the current of her thoughts. Theyâre seductive. Kione feels herself pulled into that same feral, violent mindset.
And why fight it? Now that they have Ancyor barreling toward them, the imperial mechs are starting to step back and split their fire. The pressure is receding. In its wake, in the sky, Kione is supreme. Beneath her, the imperials look like ants. Ancyor takes enough pressure off that Kione can take aim with her railgun and turn another one of them into a cored, melting heap.
Itâs that Xiphos. Kione starts laughing. New model? Itâs nothing. Nothing at all. Donât they know? Kione has Sartha Thrace in the palm of her hand. She can do anything. Sheâs a goddess.
All it took was using those three little words.
Why did she waste so much time fighting it?
It feels amazing. The ego trip is unbelievable. Wielding Sartha like the greatest weapon ever forged feels so good. Even the dependency feels good. Kione loves that Sartha needed her to do this. Thatâs real power. Itâs more power than all her merc money ever earned her. Now all she wants to do is ride it out. She wants more.
Is this how the imperial handler who brainwashed Sartha gets to feel all the time? Sheâs been in Kioneâs dreams ever since she saw the recording, in her black leathers and with her sharp, icy gaze. She seemed, even in that brief glimpse, more than human. Perhaps Kione is starting to understand why.
And she yearns to revel in this moment of apotheosis.
âSartha,â Kione laughs into her radio. âKill for me.â
Hound whooping with glee and snapping her jaws is all the answer Kione needs.
Split, disorganized fire isnât even close to enough to put a beast like Ancyor down. Once Hound makes it into melee combat, the fight doesnât last long. She has all of Sarthaâs skill, and Sartha is a legend for a reason. Dorus have basic CQC capabilities, but those do nothing at all to keep them from being ripped apart by Ancyorâs hulking limbs as the hellhound of a mech ducks, weaves and leaps through their fields of fire without taking a scratch. A predatory spider amongst the ants. Itâs only moments before their squad cohesion collapses, and after that, itâs just a matter of picking off stragglers. Hound gets most of them. Kione takes out a few, as the mood takes her. Even radio girl manages a couple. Sheâs still alive, and a better pilot than Kione has been giving her credit for.
And then the imperials are all dead. Itâs over.
All it took was letting Sartha off the leash.
The elation of turning defeat into victory washes away the regrets Kione might have had. This is good, she sees. This feels too good to be wrong. Itâs saved them, and isnât that a message? Now Kione is sure. The Sartha Thrace that was cowering uselessly in that ditch doesnât deserve Kioneâs anguished scruples. The Sartha Thrace that was begging for oblivion back in her quarters doesnât want them, and will never appreciate them. It was all pointless.
Kione gets it now. Sartha Thrace needs a handler.
Itâs time for her to step up. Duh.
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Not Just a Dream
Prompt: sex toys
Pairing: bodyguard!eddie munson x f!reader
Notes: wc 9.5k // kinktober story two of five // hope everyone enjoys this one, the love for the first story was so crazy omgggg and itâs so heartwarming to see all the support. so thank you for everything // this is my first au sorta thing so i hope everything makes sense // eddie is a perv as always lol
Warnings: MINORS DNI, 18+ ONLY, NSFW // peeping, pillow humping, sex toys, vibrator, masturbation, mutual masturbation // smut // readerâs first time is mentioned, not the most mind blowing experience, but not gone into heavy detail // please let me know if there are any more that need to be added!
ao3 // kinktober masterlist // full masterlist // lazy ghoulâs kinktober prompts
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To say that this was probably the easiest job in the world would be an understatement. For years, of doing newspaper routes in the rain, having near-misses with the Hawkinsâ police department due to being Reefer Rickâs little dealer â being a bodyguard was pretty sweet. Especially since he is always standing next to an angelic beauty as the person he needs to protect on a daily basis. It was truly a miracle that this job fell into Eddieâs lap, literally.Â
As he was rummaging through shelves to look for something to do whilst hiding away from the hypothetical pitchforks of the townspeople several days ago, there was one item in Rickâs home that stood out from the rest. It was a copy of The Silmarillion, which could be deemed as relatively normal in homes with a bookworm or two. However, it being the only novel in the entirety of the building, was strange. Within the pages, there was a piece of paper with a note that contained a phone number and address. Truthfully, Eddie felt like this was all meant for him, so he decided to follow it. When he did, he found himself at a large apartment complex in Chicago with a huge penthouse at the very top.
This didnât feel right, everyone walking in and out of the lobby was dressed in the finest clothes. Even if they were going out on an afternoon jog, Eddie noted how they were still wearing a gold watch so casually. As he stood there, with the same outfit he had washed and re-wore a thousand times, the former Dealerâs heart dropped.Â
This was a mistake.Â
All he was able to do was walk backwards, almost as if he wanted to see if the beautiful architecture was bound to get smaller if he kept his gaze on it. Eddie wanted to go home â well, he wanted to find a new home. At the very least, it probably wasnât here; the little note gave him too much hope in a time of despair. Maybe he should just âÂ
âAre you lost?â a sweet voice nearly whispered from behind him. As Eddie was walking without looking, he had accidentally bumped into a young woman with a few books in hand.Â
âNo, just passing through. Maybe I would have better luck if I wasn't walking backwards,â the man chuckled as he looked at you fully now, noting that you were about the same age as him; only you were definitely in a different tax bracket than him.Â
âWell, hopefully you can walk in the right direction to wherever you need to go.â The sound of your voice was so soft in comparison to the sounds of the city. Eddie couldnât help that he was hypnotized the instant he took you all in.Â
âY-yeah, have a good day,â although he wished to bask in your beauty for a moment longer, this city was not for him.Â
And so, like strangers on the street on a regular day, the two of you nodded politely before walking in opposite directions. Only Eddie stopped himself after taking three steps, just to see where you were â something in him told him to check if you were safe, like his conscience thinking straight for the first time in his life. However, he noticed how you walked into the building he was just admiring, confirming that you two really were from different worlds. Well, at least he got to see some beautiful things before leaving the city.Â
Or so he thought. Just as he was about to look away, he noticed two tall men dressed in long black coats following her; and then one walking his way. The man had a chiseled jaw, as if it were cut by the gods themselves. The dark sunglasses made him so much more ominous and scary to Eddie who was shorter than the man in black by at least half a foot. In a flash, Eddie was looking up at the man with the building towering above both of them.Â
âCome with me.â The command fell from the manâs lips in a deep tone, Eddie could nearly hear the bass in it.Â
âNope,â Eddie looked around awkwardly before spinning around, only to be stopped by a firm grip on his shoulder that pulled him backwards.Â
If one thing was for certain, the young Munson truly knew how to get away from situations he didnât want to be in. There were countless moments like this one where he was stopped by a manager at a store, or maybe even Chief Hopper. Sometimes they would grasp him by the shoulder, but he was always able to find a way out of the hold. This time, however, Eddie found himself surrounded by other men wearing similar-looking black suits, who all looked at him in a slightly threatening manner. It was more than enough to halt him in his tracks and take on whatever was going to happen next.Â
âYouâll want to come with me,â the scary man whispered in the younger manâs ear before dragging him to the alleyway and into an entrance on the side of the beautiful building that just turned into a sinister figure in his life as he was being pulled further and further into it.Â
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Over the course of two weeks, way too much has happened to Eddieâs heart. He swears that it has felt like it has beaten out of his chest at least once a day due to all of the series of unfortunate events that started at home and ended up here: in a dark room with one lamp lighting it and large men dressed in suits surrounding him. Eddie knew that his life decisions would probably end up costing him a lot. But, he never knew that he would probably be paying the price now. He really should have ran when he had the chance. He has always been good at anyways. But, if he did, then he wouldnât be able to have really seen you. Again, heâs happy he was able to see one beautiful thing in this week full of terror.Â
The fear within him only multiplied a thousand times as he heard footsteps walking towards the room. No one could hear a thing except for the slow patter of expensive shoes hitting the wooden floors. The noise was nearly a countdown for Eddie, each step bringing in a new question into his mind. Is someone going to kill him? What did he even do? Was the news from Hawkins spreading this fast and someone wanted the bounty? Is Rick the one walking behind him?Â
It wasnât.Â
Instead, it was a handsome older man, probably a bit younger than his Uncle Wayne â only dressed in clothes that probably were worth more than anything everyone in this room was wearing, combined. Plus, the smell of the manâs cologne was nicer than all of the ones Eddie stole from Starcourt last year. As Eddie looked around him whilst sitting in the chair in the middle of the room, he prayed that whatever these people wanted from him, it would at least be something he had.Â
âAre you Rickâs kid?â the expensive-looking manâs voice echoed as he stood above Eddie.Â
âRick?â He tried to sound a little dumb to make sure that they werenât people who hated his acquaintance.Â
âYeah, from Indiana. The little shit is in jail but he called us the other day. You his kid?â The man said, who Eddie figures is most likely the boss of this entire scene. âYou look exactly like he said you would.âÂ
âLooks like he set your expectations really low then,â He genuinely hasn't showered properly in days â so goodness knows how his appearance looks to people who are meeting him for the first time. Eddie chuckled as he thought about the possibility of his crazy hair being crazier right now, trying to liven up his own spirits.Â
Luckily, the boss did smile with him. He did seem like a nice man surrounded by scary men. Maybe it just helped whatever image he was trying to portray. Eddie remembers the times Rick would drunkenly tell stories about his boss in Chicago who was the real supplier of everything, and how he was actually a very nice and forgiving man in comparison to the other leaders in the game.Â
He was so nice in fact, that he snapped his fingers and someone was able to bring a chair over, so that he and Eddie were able to look at one another eye-to-eye.Â
âYou look like shit, Rick said youâre running from something in your town,â he said in a concerned voice.Â
âY-yeah, a few things,â Eddie paused. âI went over to Rickâs place and found a bookââ
âTolkien?âÂ
âYes, sir. There was an address in it and something in me told me to follow it.â Eddie could feel his breaths getting heavier as he knew that everyone was listening to every small detail.Â
The boss leaned in closer and placed a soft and comforting grasp to Eddieâs shoulder, making the younger man look at him with slightly nervous eyes. Yet, he felt like he didnât need to feel that way anymore.Â
âWell, you listened to your gut, son. You listened well, I promise youâre safe now.â The boss coughed a bit in his pause. âRick knew youâd probably head to his place and snoop around while you were hiding. Thank god he picked such an obvious book, huh?âÂ
âI swear Iâve never seen that man read in my life,â Eddie chuckled as he saw the smile lines on the bossâ face become more prominent.Â
âExactly, heâs had that in there since he got his ass in the slammer. After hearing about your little wanted poster, he called us right away.âÂ
âYou donât need to help me, really. I can get on my way somewhere elseââÂ
Eddie was rambling. His guilt was taking over now. There were so many people here who wanted to help him; whilst he only thought the worst when the men in black suits dragged him in here. They were probably keeping an eye out to see if he would show up. Eddie genuinely believed that he was about to die again, but he was strangely welcomed to a boss who was a lot nicer than the ones portrayed in The Godfather movies.Â
âWeâll help you, son,â Eddieâs heart felt warm at the nickname. âEveryone in here is wanted in a state or two, maybe even a country,â the boss laughed which made everyone else in the room follow suit.Â
âHelp me?âÂ
âListen, I trust Rick. If he says youâre a good kid, then youâre a good kid. Anyways, we need another hand on deck and youâll be the perfect person for it. You help me, and we keep you safe from the feds. Sound good?â The boss sat back in his chair with a smile waiting for a response from the younger man in front of him.Â
âYes,â Eddie exclaimed rather louder than intended. âSorry, uhm, that would be great, sir.âÂ
âLook at you, already getting the hang of things,â the boss chuckled at the usage of the formal name. âIsnât that right, boys?âÂ
Echoes of agreement bounced off the walls before another snap was heard and the lights went on and blinds opened up to reveal that about two dozen people were in a grand ballroom of sorts. There were beautiful paintings and crown moulding surrounding the walls. Eddie truly wasnât sure where he was now. However, when he looked out a window, he saw that no other building was in its way. Meaning only one thing: this was the top floor â this was the penthouse he admired from sixty stories down.Â
Oh God, what did he get himself into now?Â
-:-:-:-:-
The main job description was just to watch the security cameras, scope the halls every hour, and follow his bossâ daughter around whenever she was going to university classes or going out into the city. It sounded easy enough. The head security guard explained it all to Eddie as they were walking towards the workersâ quarters which held everyoneâs uniform. Every person had a different style of black and gray clothing. Although the boss really wanted everyone to coordinate, he still wanted his people to look good â and most importantly, normal as they walked around in the city. So quickly, they gave the newest employee a dark gray suit and a black button-down shirt to wear, as well as a spacious room he could clean himself up in. It was the most dapper Eddie has looked in his entire life. He truly couldnât comprehend the way his heart was so conflicted with how amazing and weird everything is.Â
After an hour, he got a knock on the door. It was the man who grabbed him by the shoulder earlier today. âSo the Princessâ bodyguard, huh? Alotta pressure for the new kid,â the bleach blond man teased as he nodded his head to urge Eddie to follow him.Â
âI thought I would be doing all the shitty jobs or something,â Eddie laughed. âAnd to think I thought I was gonna need bodyguards with my dream job.âÂ
âDid you wanna be a rockstar, Munson?â the man nudged his shoulder as he walked down the hall towards the stairs with Eddie. âYour hair sure gives it away.âÂ
âCome on, man. I can tell you listen to freak rock music too. You have more piercings than me,â the younger man noted as he looked up to see nearly four piercings on the taller manâs ear.Â
It amazed Eddie how laid back everyone seemed to be when it was the house of such a powerful man. He has relationships with people all over the world: suppliers, other dealers, bankers, politicians. The Boss probably had enough connections to rival the President â maybe even the President was on his contact list too. Regardless, everything seemed to be so easy. Even talking to his peers was so much easier than talking to people at school.Â
âThe boss gets tickets all the time to concerts all over the world. If you mention your birthday to him, heâll probably fly you out to whoever is playing that night.âÂ
âYouâre shitting me,â Eddie gasped in disbelief as he walked down a large grand staircase.Â
âNot at all, he does it like every other year for people, helps the morale.â The man stopped in the middle of the foyer where the front door was. âThe nameâs Garcia, by the way. I used to be the Princessâ bodyguard when she was a kid. But, now we all just take on different shifts.âÂ
âOh, so itâll just be now?â Eddie wondered.Â
Garcia began to fix the folds of Eddieâs jacket, and ensured that no lint could be seen. For some reason, the former Hawkins resident felt like he gained two father figures today. âYes, the boss wants one person to be head of her security detail. He was looking for someone her age too to make things less awkward if she had a man trailing next to her, or behind her in public.âÂ
âCool, cool. Do I get a weapon or something? Like a stick or taser?â Eddie asked with focus and concern in his eyes.Â
âYouâll get a taser, and weâll teach you how to fight. But, honestly, you probably wonât need it,â Garcia smiled as he began to walk towards the library.Â
âWhy not? I feel like the Boss is Batman or something and has cool weapons,â Eddie followed behind with quick steps. âOhââ
For a moment, Garcia stopped in front of the library doors. He looked at Eddieâs appearance one last time before knocking on the wood. Just like the rest of the house, even the mahogany door was grand, with gold decals of a family crest and door handles bigger than a regular personâs thigh.Â
Everything is so beautiful, so nice, so calm. As he heard footsteps from the other side of the door, Eddie genuinely had high hopes that this was going to be one of the most easy-going jobs he has ever had. There would be no more running away from the police or sneaking around to get five dollars. However, he spoke a little too early, because everything was just the calm before the storm that ignited in his heart. As the library doors opened, Eddieâs heart raced at a million miles a minute; something it had not done in about an hour or so.Â
There you were, the girl in front of the building who he bumped into. The girl he thought about as the most beautiful thing he has seen today â and it was only confirmed as he saw your eyes reflect the gold on the door. You are the reason behind his whole job. You are the princess.Â
Youâre his princess.Â
âMr. Garcia, you didnât need to knock,â you quietly chuckled. âWould you like to â itâs you.âÂ
Eddie and you stared at one another for a few moments before Garcia spoke up to break the silent tension. âThis is your new bodyguard, Eddie Munson. Heâll be escorting you to and from your university classes, as well as any time you need to go out of the house.âÂ
âAll of the time?â you asked, inviting the two people into the library.Â
âYes, your father is going to need a larger security personnel for the next little while so we believe that one person to watch over you would be good,â Garcia smiled at you, before elbowing Eddie.Â
âItâs an honour to serve you, m-miss.â The brunette wasnât sure what to call you. Especially as you were surrounded by the beautiful books that he could only dream of reading, he wasnât able to just call you the love of his life so prematurely.Â
You giggled politely as you sat at the large table. Truthfully, you had to regain a bit of balance after having a slight shock of getting such a handsome person to join your fatherâs employees. Not that anyone was ugly; however, most of the people hired were older than you by many years. This was the first person youâve met in any situation in your life who has made your heart feel so warm for so long. Earlier, you came to the library to hide away and try to subside your feelings with some studying. But, it looks like thatâs not going to happen for a while.Â
Maybe after this little meeting, you need to take a shower to scream into the abyss for a bit.Â
For now, you would have to keep up appearances.Â
âMr. Munson, you donât need to call me such a formal name. If you can think of a nickname, then I would prefer that,â you smiled.Â
âThen, how about you call me Eddie?â The man thought for a second before speaking aloud again. âAnd I can call you Princess.âÂ
The lines between your eyebrows became more prominent as you gasped in slight disbelief. âMr. Garcia, have you already called me that in front of him?â you pouted, making Eddie blush at the soft sound of your voice.Â
âIt suits you,â the older man chuckled. âAnyways, I should get going. How about you two mingle and get to know each other?âÂ
And with that, you and Eddie were left alone in the library. Itâll be the first of countless moments alone together; however, this one will be the one of the most memorable. As you didnât realize that your hearts were beating as one in this vast library full of stories of love, friendship, and adventures beyond compare. Just like the one you were about to start with a few words. âWould you like to sit and read with me?â you asked quietly, looking up at him with a small smile.Â
âAs long as you have some good books, then Iâll be quiet for at least an hour,â he said with a slightly teasing tone that resonated through your body.Â
âThe wall closest to the globe contains all the science fiction, fantasy, and adventure book genres,â you replied, as if you already knew him.Â
Eddie was really going to love it here. It was the peace he needed after this Hell adjacent week.Â
-:-:-:-:-
Over the next few weeks, the on-boarding process began for Eddie. In the early morning he would need to wake up before the sun even rose, in order to go through hours of training in case of emergencies. Being one to skip gym class because it felt pointless, Eddie felt like he was about to pass out at the end of each session with the various trainers. However, when it came to the moment you would greet him a good morning during breakfast â he swears that all of the body aches would go away in only a few syllables.Â
A routine was set for the two of you: breakfast, drive to campus for any lectures, run any errands that were necessary, then head home to study some more and relax. If you were cooped up in one area of the house for the night, Eddie would be dismissed to train some more. For some reason, it felt like he was being trained to protect a royal. So he often wondered just how powerful your family is. He notices that everyday, you were always dressed in the finest fabrics, whilst your other classmates would be dressed in regular clothing. Or even the food served in the house to all workers and the family, was nicer than anything he had back home â there was a time you ate an apple and it looked right out of a magazine. But, the craziest thing was that whenever you walked into a store to buy something small for yourself, or a gift for someone else; the entire store would be shut down even if you gave no warning in advance. If this was the influence you had, Eddie could barely imagine what it would be like if you were shopping alongside your father.Â
So maybe the training on how to swim better, fight at least three guys at once, first aid, and tricks to ensure that the car was never followed, was not exactly unnecessary at all. Not like gym class was, at least. Going from Hawkins to here was such a huge hurdle to get past physically.Â
But, every day would end off with you smiling at him before you fell asleep, and the former Dealer swears that itâs all worth it for that sweet moment.Â
âIâm going to head to bed now, Eddie. Hope your training went well,â you said as he was leaving the fitness area your father built.Â
âRight, u-uhm, let me know if you need anything then,â he breathed out.Â
âEverything should be fine. As long as you donât accidentally blast Black Sabbath like you did the other night,â you giggled sweetly.Â
Three nights ago, when he hit the gym and thought everyone was asleep, Eddie started playing music on the stereo; however, the play button is right next to the button that is attached to every speaker in the house. Well, letâs just say that not everyone wants to wake up at two in the morning to Ozzyâs voice like a clock alarm that didnât stop ringing. Luckily, the boss wasnât home to stomp around the house to turn off the music, or else Eddie probably would not have a job at this very moment.
âNo music tonight, I gotta be on high alert with everyone away,â Eddie chuckled as he started to walk you to your bedroom.Â
âOnly in your first month and youâre already head security for the house tonight,â you nudged his shoulder lightly.Â
âThatâs only because theyâre all at that meeting with your fatherâs associates. Iâm kinda freaking out over here, Princess.âÂ
In truth, there were times your father would make you go to another state during these meetings. He always feared that someone would target the house while he was away. But, after years of secretive missions and being on the good side of the majority of the competitors, the fear went away. Regardless, Eddie was still on edge right now. âYouâll be just fine. I promise not to do anything drastic for the next twelve hours,â you offered the man next to you a sweet smile which he treasured.Â
âNo jumping from balcony to balcony, or reaching high shelves, or using scissors that are too sharp.â Eddie sarcastically said as the two of you reached your bedroom door.Â
âIâll try my best not to do that,â you giggled as you opened the door to your room slowly. The handle was held tightly in your hand, almost like you were anxious to do something. Your bodyguard noticed it, but brushed it off as nerves regarding an exam youâve been studying for. âGood night, Mr. MuâEddie.âÂ
âSweet dreams, Princess.âÂ
With that, you closed the door behind you and Eddie was left on his lonesome to walk towards the security footage room to watch over the cameras for the night. Even during regular days, not much would happen in the first place. You were always one to stay in your room to study and spend most of the evening, maybe head to the library to use the new computer and printer down there, or sit in the terrace to paint. In truth, the most dangerous situation you could possibly put yourself in is a really bad paper cut, or whenever you cut up fruit in the kitchen â even then, you would use a regular dinner knife so the chance of injury was minimal. Overall, Eddie thought his job was pretty easy. Although, a part of him misses chasing the rockstar dream; but, this is more than enough thrill whilst he kept a low profile.Â
Tonight, he was even told to just sit in the security room and just make rounds every hour to see if you and the other workers in the house were alright. But, it was when he heard a weird cry echoing from the window, the man looked outside to see what could be happening. It sounded like a pattern of cries and groans coming from above: your room to be exact.Â
Fuck.Â
Of course, the one time heâs left in charge, you got yourself hurt. Eddie was already preparing himself for the berating from the head security guards for letting the precious daughter of the Boss to be wounded in her own room. And so, with a slight panic, he began to run up the stairs and head to your room at the end of the hall. The door was closed and there wasnât any glow of a light being on from behind the door. But, the sounds were getting louder, there was even a repetitive creaking noise. Could you be in so much agony that you were trembling on the bed? The worst thoughts ran through Eddieâs head as he reached for the door handle and twisted it open.Â
It was dark, only the soft glow of a lava lamp barely lighting the room and reflecting on your soft skin. For a moment, Eddie had to squint to see the whole visual. When he did, he swore his heart dropped.Â
There you were, like a glowing goddess, straddling a pillow, naked, and rocking against it harshly. Your hands were on the headboard for more leverage, causing it to hit the wall furthest away from the door. Just seeing your back was already enough for Eddie to feel weak at his knees. If he moved his head slightly, he could see your reflection in the mirror next to your bed, which showed a very focused face. Combine that with the sound of soft moans and whimpers echoing through the air. It was a sight for sore eyes.Â
What made the image a thousand times more pornographic was the slight hum coming from your bed. It was a bit mechanical and had a slight pattern to it too that sounded familiar to Eddie.Â
He really wasnât sure what to do in this situation. There was one side of him that told him to walk away and forget about it. Itâs not like he was an angel every other night before bed too. But, God, he knows that you have never been on a date or had a boyfriend before â you admitted it once when he joked around with you in the car, asking if he needed to third wheel any date that you are asked out on. But, you profusely said no and that he doesnât need to prepare for that since it has never happened yet and may not happen for a while. The dirtiest of thoughts ran through Eddieâs mind as he thought about how sweet you were, and how you were absolutely losing your calm demeanor as you continued to hump and moan atop your bed. He began to wonder what it would be like to help you out with your little workout. You seemed to be a bit frustrated; whispering âitâs not workingâ over and over.Â
Eddie would definitely help you make it work, there was no doubt about that. However, that would cross more lines than an HR department could even think of. So, he moved away slowly; however, the sound of the floorboards creaking echoed so loudly that it made you and him freeze every muscle in your bodies.Â
Something in you said to grab your blanket and put it over your shoulders; whilst Eddieâs body seemed to think for itself. Instead of running away and pretending that nothing happened, he walked into your room, making sure to close the door quietly afterwards.Â
âDoes daddy know about your little toy?â he said, walking towards the bed.Â
âE-Eddieââ you gasped, turning your body around to catch his eye before freezing in place. The pillow between your legs was being squished so much that it caused the little piece of vibrating plastic to press firmly on your clit beautifully.Â
You didnât know whether to cry out of embarrassment or scream from the pure ecstasy of the moment.Â
âAnd here I thought you were hurt. Your cries could be heard all the way downstairs. But they donât seem like bad ones,â the chuckle that escaped his throat was deep and resonated throughout your entire body.Â
âYou heard?â it was barely a whisper that fell from your lips. Your eyes followed his figure as he came to kneel next to your bed. Although you were covering yourself with a blanket; you still felt so exposed, yet excited simultaneously.Â
The man looked up at you as he placed a gentle hand on your exposed left thigh. âNext time, donât open your window when you wanna be a naughty girl.âÂ
It was all Eddie's fault in your opinion. Honestly, ever since he began working for your father, things have been the opposite of normal. The other bodyguards would drive you to college to attend whatever class was on the schedule, then drive you home so that you didnât need to take a taxi. Maybe they would bring you to the store if you needed to buy school supplies or a gift for someoneâs birthday. But, other than that, you were content with the schedule that you had gotten used to. All of them were old, close to your fatherâs age, and boring â to be completely frank. However, when you were eating breakfast one day and your father mentioned the news of wanting a new bodyguard on the roster, there was no inkling in your mind that he was going to be hiring someone who was your age. No need to get started on the way all the heat in your body rushed to your face when you first saw him. Anyways, the way you always choked on your cereal whenever Eddie would walk into the dining room everyday to greet you with a good morning before telling you it was time to leave, was more than enough of a reaction to prove that you had a tiny crush on the man.Â
Eddie just had to call you âPrincessâ jokingly, brush his hand on your waist whenever he needed to guide you around, whisper quietly in your ear when you two were walking to the car â as if he couldnât say it out loud like a normal person. Every single one of those actions were so sweet, something you had never experienced before. He was so different than your sheltered-self, and you easily fell for the care-free man who acted as mature as possible when the other security guards were around.Â
For countless nights you wondered what it would be like if his hands brushed a little lower than your waist, or if he could call you sweet pet names in different scenarios. Mostly, you dreamt about him being your ride home in more ways than one.Â
It was so perverted to even think of someone like that, let alone a man who worked for your father. But, you wanted to feel good, needed it even. So many of your friends talked about hooking up with different guys across campus and how it helped with stress-relief during exams. A part of you wished you had the courage to call Eddie over to help you during your study breaks. Instead, you chose to fill your free time with a romance book and the toy a friend gave you last week.Â
Guilt started to build within you now. Your thoughts were so impure, your actions even more so. But, what made you feel guiltiest of all was that you were caught in the act the very first time you decided to commit the act in the first place.Â
âI-Iâm so sorry,â you whispered, noticing that he moved to sit on the bed facing you.Â
âThereâs nothing to apologize for,â he said sweetly. Eddie put a soft hand on your chin to try and get you to look him in the eye. But, truly, he wanted to see how beautiful they could be with the moonlight in them.Â
Pushing yourself back, you moved from his touch. âThis is so embarrassing.âÂ
It became more embarrassing when the sound of vibrations suddenly became louder and stronger because of the change in angle. You felt the impact right on your sensitive clit. It became a lot more painful to keep down just how good you were starting to truly feel. Eddieâs touch only helped you reach your end goal faster.Â
The man in front of you had the same thought, but decided to tease you sweetly. âWhy so? Is it because I caught you? No, I think you like that, sweet girl,â he said whilst inching his face closer to yours, a calloused hand massaging your left thigh simultaneously. âOr is it because youâve been trying to make yourself cum all night with no avail?âÂ
âHow did youââÂ
âOh, I would know. There was no scream, no muffled noises of you moaning into your pillow, no heavy breaths that went silent for a moment. Look at you now, you didnât even take your pretty pussy off this toy the second you saw me,â he said. His hand found its way to your inner thigh, barely touching your dripping heat. However, Eddie did feel the cotton of the pillow and how soaked it was from all your actions earlier tonight.Â
In truth, most of it was because of him. Not only the imaginary version in your perverted dreams; but also the continuous touches through the conversation that electrocuted all your senses and went straight to your pussy. Then, there was the fact that Eddie spoke with his lips so close to yours. Every syllable caused the lightest pressure on your glossy lips. Trying not to give in to both of your desires to lean in was the most difficult task of the night.Â
âHelp me,â you whimpered, the vibrations from the toy getting stronger now.Â
âWhat was that?â he teased, a hand massaging further up your left thigh.Â
âHelp me, Eddie. I need you to help me so badly.â The words fell from your lips desperately, sounding as if you were about to cry.Â
However, the man in front of you kissed your cheek sweetly before leaning back against the headboard. He noticed the way you shivered slightly at the cold air â your blanket only covering your chest and stomach mainly, as it fell from your shoulders a bit. Knowing that you were in such a naughty state in comparison to what you normally portrayed yourself as, was absolutely arousing to Eddie. He didnât even hide his growing hardness beneath his black dress pants.Â
You have never thanked the tailor your father hired more in your entire life.Â
âTell me whatâs wrong,â he said in a deep tone.Â
 âWell, I opened this toy today and read all the instructions,â you answered truthfully whilst clutching the blanket closer to your body. âAfter following everything to a tee, I still donât think Iâm doing this right.âÂ
âYou seemed to be having fun along the way,â he teased as he heard you whimper between some of your words.Â
âI suppose so,â you nodded along, moving your hips slightly as he spoke to you. Â
âSo whatâs stopping you?âÂ
In truth, you were on the edge of three things: annoyance, an orgasm, and annoyance due to not having an orgasm. So your body tensed up a bit, causing the toy to be pressed up against your clit even more â it made you whine a bit as you said, âmore like who.âÂ
âWell, if itâs my fault I guess I have to help you now. It would be the gentlemanly thing to do,â Eddie teased, bringing up both hands to cup your face.Â
âPlease,â you whispered.Â
Then, both of you leaned forward at once, capturing each otherâs lips in a beautiful kiss that could hardly be seen as chaste. It was a kiss that had been waiting to happen for weeks. To say that this is what dreams were made of would be an understatement. For countless nights, Eddie has woken up in a sweat as he pictured your soft lips on his own, and other parts of his body too.Â
âYou look like an angel, holy fuck,â Eddie whispered his thoughts aloud as he brought his right hand down to push the blanket away, whilst his right hand involuntarily started to move on its own to grasp your waist and urge it to move atop the vibrator.
âFeels nice when you do that,â you sweetly giggled and moaned.Â
âHow do you like this?â He asked, squeezing your nipple between two fingers. âSuch pretty tits, theyâre begging to be sucked on. Youâd like that, wouldn't you?â
âY-yes, please.â
Theyâve been hard all evening from a mixture of the cold and your intimate thoughts. However, just thinking about Eddie sucking on them was making you clench between your legs. Even these few moments with your bodyguard were much more successful in your pursuit of a climax than what youâve experienced on your own.Â
âAlways so polite,â he teased in a voice that vibrated through your body alongside the piece of plastic on your clit. Your hands were on his neck even as he moved down towards your breasts, noting how Eddie really enjoyed it when you lightly tugged on his hair.Â
âO-off, take this off,â you tugged on the back of his shirt this time.Â
âYou know what you want, huh?âÂ
âY-yeah,â you said shyly as he sweetly teased you.Â
You had always admired Eddieâs tattoos and muscles. But that was something you saw under the flourescent lights of the gym. This time, as he sat in front of you with the glow of your lamp next to him â he was genuinely glowing. Plus, the fact that he was wearing extremely well-fitted pants made him look like he was right out of those fashion magazines where they tried to showcase the pants and abs of the model. Only, Eddie looked so much more god-like than them.Â
âMove your hips, doll. Come on, you can take it, I know you want that too,â the man whispered upon your lips after taking off his shirt and then moved his way down to kiss your hardened nipples.Â
âItâs so strong, youâre so strong,â referring to the toyâs strengthening vibrations and him. But, you let your body move on its own to whatever felt right.Â
The toy was doing a little pattern beneath you, so you moved forwards and backwards in order to see if you could match the intensity of it. Eddie got closer to you, his knee going on top of the pillow and right in between your legs. If he moved it an inch closer to your body, he would be able to move the toy slightly and see your reactions. And so, he did, in between kisses â wanting to drink up your moans of ecstasy, then massaging your tongue with his every time you gasped in pleasure.Â
This was the most intense moment youâve ever experienced with another man. When you lost your virginity a few years ago, it was a one and done type of situation for the guy. While you laid there wanting to crave more, he told you how good you were, then left for the night. So later, even all of the times youâve tried to use a shower head or your fingers, nothing has ever made you feel this way. You could nearly cry as the amount of vibrations going through your body increased.Â
Once Eddie began to kiss down your neck and you tugged the back of his hair without realizing it, he said, âfeisty girl.âÂ
âCan you please touch me thereâah,â you moaned as Eddie bit your neckÂ
âI canât do that, sweetheart. You have to do this for yourself. Give into all your needs and desires, self-pleasure is one of the greatest things in the world,â Eddie continued to tease you as his hands roamed your body.Â
When his hands landed on your hips, he started to help rock them for you. The vibrations felt so good that you started to tremble; however, something within you wanted so badly to see him shiver as well. So, you moved your own hands slowly â from his shoulders to his stomach, then brushed over his obvious hardness, all before landing on his thigh that was between your legs. âB-but, please ââ
âSo needy, huh?â Eddie could see the desperation in your nearly tear-filled eyes. âYouâre soaking the pillow too.âÂ
âToo strong,â you nearly screamed out as the man before you moved the pillow slightly to angle the toy on another part of your clit.Â
âGo on, you can do it, Princess.â Â
âKeep touching me, I need you to, please.â This time, you kissed his neck and began to suck on his pulse point; copying what he was doing to you earlier.Â
Fuck â you were going to kill him tonight. If not you, then the way heâs about to cum in his pants would surely knock him out.Â
âWill do, just keep going,â Eddie grunted before gently pulling you off of his neck in order to look you in the eyes. âDo what feels right. Tell me what you were doing before I came here,â he kissed you gently as you moaned into his mouth again since a wave of pleasure took over.Â
âI-I thought you were busy, then, I started reading this book. It talks about the couple h-having relations.â
âSex?â he chuckled as you got shy now of all times.Â
âYes, uh-uhm, and then I started to feel warm right here,â you grabbed his wrist and dragged it towards your core. Eddie knew exactly what you were doing.Â
âOh, my naughty girl. This spot?âÂ
With his ringed-fingers he brushed them over your clit quickly because you deserved a little treat. But, he went further down to touch the toy and move it close and away from your clit at a massaging pattern. He adored how wet you were, and it took every ounce of strength within the man not to lay you down and have a taste until you could orgasm in his mouth instead. Alas, that was for another time. For now, he would memorize the feeling of your slick pussy for when he took care of his problem later. For now, he would treasure every time you whimpered through swollen lips because it was his mouth that helped ruin your lipstick.Â
âYes,â you whispered as you grasped his arm for balance. âAnd then I just put my toy on top of the pillow because my friends say they love using their pillow to r-ride.âÂ
âLook at you, already a pro,â he teasingly smiled.
âEddie,â you moaned louder as you grounded your hips against the toy and pillow. âI wanna ride you so bad. Iâve always wanted to try this position when I had sex for the first time, but the guy never let me,â you continued your little pillow humping confessional.
âHeâs an asshole, I would let you ride me until your thighs gave in,â Eddie said with a jealous tone. He really shouldnât have been because you werenât his partner. You were also the most beautiful woman he has ever seen, the fact shouldnât have surprised him so much. However, knowing that another man only wanted to focus on his own pleasure, made Eddie want to scoff.Â
Now, you canât say the first guy was bad at all â he was just never able to get you to where you really needed to go. You never arched your back towards the ceiling because you couldnât handle the throbbing between your legs; you never had to bite your lip to suppress a moan that would echo through the halls because he didnât do much to make you be loud; you never scratched his back with your perfectly manicured nails because you needed to let out your waves of pleasure. Not with Eddie though, if anything, he was going to have a scratch or five on different parts of his skin for the next little while. You prayed that no one would notice it if they were training together; however, that was a worry for another time. All you wanted to think about now were the upcoming vibrations and how it would feel when you orgasm for the first time.Â
âWill you cum with me, Eddie? Iâm so lonely,â you pouted, wanting him to feel pleasure just as much as you were. Â
âKeep going, just like that,â Eddie nodded, then leaned back onto the headboard to admire you in the final minutes before your climax.Â
The whine from your throat hurt the man as you didnât feel the warmth of his skin anymore. You leaned your hands on the pillow for leverage, moving your hips harshly to feel an immense level of pleasure in front of him. But, you craved Eddieâs touch so badly that you bit your lip and rested a hand on his knee and squeezed it every time the vibrations became too much.Â
âHelp,â you whispered.Â
âGod, youâre so beautiful like this,â Eddie groaned as he massaged his hand over his clothed-hardness. âIs your pussy throbbing while you ride your pretty little toy?âÂ
âSo much,â the whimper fell from your lips as you continued to slowly thrust against the toy imagining what it would be like if it was Eddie beneath you and not a small piece of plastic.Â
âI can't wait until I stretch you out. Youâd take me like a champ.âÂ
Right then, Eddie unbuckled his pants just enough for you to see that he hadnât been wearing any boxers beneath. The trail of hair leading towards his hardness was tantalizing, nearly a guide along with his muscles to point to the place you were so curious about.Â
Once he noticed that you were hypnotized at the thought of what was going to happen next, the man in front of you stopped his movements to look you in the eyes then roam them down to your core. You got the message and wanted to give your bodyguard a little show. With confidence taking over your body, you sat back up and put both hands on your thighs. Eddie swears that this was a pose right out of his favourite porn magazine â only you looked a thousand times better with swollen lips and sweat glistening your skin in the dimly-lit room. Â
âIâd like that a lot,â you whispered in between bounces.Â
âProve it for me, squeeze your tits for me,â Eddie urged you to do so, moving his hands to push his dress pants further down. Just the short glimpse of his cock was enough motivation for you to touch your hardened nipples in front of him.Â
âOh, oh,â you giggled at how good it felt.Â
âFeels nice, right?â the man in front of you finally put his hands around his cock and you swear your mouth started to water at the sight.Â
Throughout your life, you always giggled alongside any friends at a party who mentioned hookups or flings â all you could ever do was imagine how things looked and felt though, since most of what you did with your previous partner was in the dark and done quickly in the middle of the night. Never once did you think that they were being honest when they talked about the length and girth of the different members theyâve seen.
Oh, how wrong you were.Â
Now, as you stared at Eddie in awe of the size of him, you were so wrong to think that they could be exaggerating. Some guys really did have the cock that dirty dreams were made of. As Eddie massaged himself in front of you, you noticed the small details about him. From the colour, to the vein, to the way his balls looked so squishy and large as they laid on his thighs. Fuck, you really did feel like a pervert staring at it for so long and imagining how it would feel like if he was stretching you out right now. Instead, your pussy throbbed at the thought, making you knead your breasts harder and push yourself further upon the vibrator beneath you.Â
âI think I like your mouth more,â you said in your trance, knowing your fingers werenât as soft as his tongue.Â
âFuck,â Eddie whimpered as he marched his handsâ movements with your bounces on the pillow. âAre you close?âÂ
âYeah, I think soâah,â you reached one hand to lay on his knee for leverage as he moved closer to you so that he could massage your thigh with his free hand.Â
âThatâs it, pretty girl. Come all over your pillow and youâll get a kiss,â Eddieâs breath tingled on your lips as he teased you, his mouth so close to yours whilst his hand got closer to your core.Â
You pouted as he began to kiss your cheek and neck but never your needy lips. But, you didnât have time to be slightly sad, as you felt Eddieâs fingers reach your centre and push the toy onto you. Moans and whines fell from your throat simultaneously as everything began to work in tandem to make you climax â one that youâve been craving for so long.Â
âItâs too much,â you whispered as you felt yourself clench harder and harder, as if your body was getting ready for something. Â
âAlmost there,â Eddie said in a deep voice into your ear. âI got you,â he said as he pushed it again and again, trying to match it with the hand on his cock.Â
The man was so close to orgasming right now, his imagination allowing him to feel your slickness on him. Eddie was chanting a prayer in his head that he could hold on until you came first. In truth, he wanted the image of you finding the climax of your pleasure to be burned into his brain forever. And so, he did everything he could to help you get there â you so desperately needed it. With kisses to your neck, his hand now on your hip to help you ride out your incoming orgasm; you came. Hard.Â
Moans of ecstasy filled the room as you found your bliss next to him. Eddie made the fist around his cock harder to imagine it was you who was clenching around him right now. Then, your voice whispered above him.Â
âKiss me, pleaseââÂ
âSo good, so beautiful,â Eddie obliged happily. âFuck, how are you glowing right now?âÂ
âEddie, more,â you begged into his lips.Â
âI-I, fuck , youâreââ it was Eddieâs turn to become incoherent as he could feel his climax coming.Â
You smiled on his lips, slowing your own movements now to watch him. âAre you gonna cum for me too, Eddie?âÂ
That was it.Â
One look in your eyes and those words falling from your lips was more than enough for him to cum in his hand. You both stayed there, sitting up and kissing each otherâs lips sweetly as you both basked in the post-climax bliss.Â
Eddie thanked God that you had a pretty tissue box on your bedside table, which he was able to use to clean himself up a bit, before holding your face as he kissed you. He noticed that you kept on whimpering and moaning into the kiss still; however, you tried to lift your body up from the pillow. You were so sensitive down there now, that although the vibrations felt so nice, you were getting a bit tired from the previous experience.Â
So, with one hand, Eddie took out the toy from underneath you and turned it off whilst still kissing you.Â
âIâve dreamed about this a million times before and itâs better than I ever could have imagined,â he said into your lips, and then looked down to see the little pink piece of plastic that brought you to orgasm. It was soaked with all your juices, and Eddieâs intrusive thoughts told him to have a taste. But your soft voice brought him out of a haze.Â
âYou dream about me?âÂ
âEvery night,â he smiled before laying the toy on the bedside table and involuntarily licking one of his fingers.Â
âAm I dreaming now?â you lightly gasped at his actions.Â
The man savoured the taste quickly before kissing you again and laying you down on the fluffy pillows. âNot at all.âÂ
As you lay on the bed on top of light grey sheets, Eddie swears that you are officially the closest to an angel he has ever stood near. The soft light reflecting on your sheets and skin made you look like you were glowing, with a halo on your head as you basked in the post-orgasmic bliss. The moment you looked up at him with soft eyes, he promised himself that he would do anything to experience this moment over and over.Â
With a touch to the side of his face, you smiled at the way his eyes focused on everything about you, just as you did the same. âWould what we did tonight happen in a wet dream? Because it sure does feel that way,â you giggled as you got comfortable with him laying slightly on top of you. Â
âWell, then let me help clean you up,â Eddie kissed you deeply again, adoring the way this angle allowed him to hold your body, and feel every time you arched your back up slightly to feel each otherâs skin again. When you moaned into his mouth after he squeezed your ass gently, Eddie smiled against your lips.Â
âI can grab a towel from the washroom,â you whispered as he moved down to kiss your neck, a move he found you loved so much that it made your hips meet up to massage your heat against his thigh for some semblance of extra relief.Â
âNo, no, we donât need that just yet,â he mentioned as his voice vibrated through your entire body. The second the words were said, Eddie began to allow his lips to roam down your body, kissing your stomach before looking up at you. âBecause Iâve dreamed about kissing you in one other place, only if you would want me to, of course.âÂ
It was in that moment that you both realized that dreams had their own way of coming true, and it was all part of fate's plan. If someone were to tell the former Dealer that after years of living in a town he wanted to run away from, he was able to do so and find a high-job, he would never believe you. If the reason he was able to find someone he found peace with, was all because of a slip of paper with an address, he would never believe you. That although, right now, as you lay in bed with him, he thought he was going to wake up from one of the greatest dreams he has ever had. Yet, he wasn't dreaming in the slightest. This was his real life, a life he was able to treasure all thanks to a book he found in a cabin on the lake.Â
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I would like to request something, More like a comedy/fun/silly request :3
So... Have you ever thought about how would Alastor, Husk, Angel Dust and Lucifer would react to their female s/o calling for them in a visibly mad tone for their complete name from the kitchen?? Maybe them knowing that they didn't thawed the chicken they try and run away from her but she teleports in front of them and tuggs them from the ear (motherly behaviors entered the chat) while saying something like
"Oh, honey, you're not gonna escape from me, and NOW you're gonna clean the house for ONE WEEK"
(in headcanon format please đ) (also I rode on one of your posts that you got many HH and HB requests so if you wanna ignore this, go ahead I don't really mind, It's your decision ^^)
notes: OMG ANON THIS IS SO FUNNY! sorry this took so long btw, ive had so many requests to get through lol and this is a pretty difficult idea to actually turn into a writing piece, but that's what makes it more fun lol. and dont worry about the too many requests about HH! I just thought it was interesting that i had a lot of fans of the show lol. thanks for the request anon and I really hope you enjoy!! WARNINGS: I left out Lucifer because I don't know too much about him and kept the reader gn because Angel Dust is gay, so I didn't want to make it a female s/o. thanks for the request <333
ALASTOR
this man isnt easily intimidated by anyone
i mean he is the radio demon frrrr
but you?
oh this man is TERRIFIED OF YOU
not when you're lovey dovey, just when you're mad
which to be fair isnt often
but you went to leave the house and pressed a huge kiss onto Alastor's cheek before leaving. You told him that you wanted him to do the dishes while you were away and he gave you a thumbs up telling you that it would get done
but then you get home
and find out that not a single plate was clean
Alastor was relaxing upstairs and you were on the verge of losing
not helpful that you had an awful day on top of it
you called him by his full and complete name from when he was alive and while he was upstairs, he felt chills down his spine
he quickly ran downstairs and realized the mistake he had made a little too late
"do you expect me to do these, Al? you've been sitting on your ass ALL DAY, I am not doing any of this!" You pointed to the huge pile of dished and Alastor felt defeated
he apologized a thousand times and ended up getting them done both clean and fast in record time
and he bought you flowers to apologize
HUSK
you were at work when you remembered you needed the chicken pulled out of the freezer to thaw
you quickly texted husk and asked him to do it and all he sent was a thumbs up emoji
you prayed that he did what he needed to do
you got home in a very chipper mood from your day at work to find no chicken on the counter
you tilted your head and checked all over the kitchen
in the pantry, on the counter, in the cabinets, in the fridge
and finally
in the freezer
you almost lost your shit right then and there
you called Husk down to the kitchen and he walked in, picking at his fingernail before noticing you there
"hey babe, welcome home."
you crossed your arms and he noticed how pissed you look
shit
the chicken
mans went to run off, but you quickly teleported in front of him and grabbed him by the ear
"oh no you dont, mister. where do you think you're going?"
"to my room?" he tried, shrugging
"not on my watch. it looks like you're not only getting me dinner out tonight, but you'll be doing the dishes for three weeks now."
husk sighed, but agreed to your terms. he hated it when you were upset
ANGEL DUST
omg mans is a brat
let me tell you
you wake up in the morning smiling
like so happy that you had the best sleep cuddled against this softie
and then you remember that you have a super important meeting that day
and then you ask angel in the NICEST voice "do you mind getting the dishes out of the way today, love? I have a meeting today."
he shoots you the DIRTIEST look and has the AUDACITY to say "no. im not up for that. Im tired"
and turns away from you
you poke him so hard in the back
"ANGEL!"
"what?!" but he turns to you and recognizes that expression
mans effed up
he apologizes immediately and then tells you that he'll do them
he doesnt end up doing them btw
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You'll Be the Oxygen I Need - Jay Halstead Imagine [Chicago PD]
Title: You'll Be the Oxygen I Need
Pairing: Jay Halstead X Reader
Based On: Tethered
Word Count: 1,050 words
Warning(s): nightmares, mention of kidnapping
Summary: After a case takes a bad turn, Jay is taken hostage by the very person that the team had been chasing. The peace of getting him back only lasts for a few hours before the aftereffects start to rear their ugly head.
Author's Note: I don't really have anything to say... hi!
Part One of "April" [Release Date: 5/3/2023]
Part Three of "April" [Release Date: 5/7/2023]
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I could remember so much of the case so clearly.
I could remember every choice I made. Every word spoken and path taken and mistake made.
I could remember the fear that consumed my entire body when no one could find Jay. I remember shaking and feeling like my entire body had frozen over.
I couldn't move for a little while. I just went completely numb as my mind raced through a thousand nightmares, all of them ending with me losing Jay forever.
I was snapped out of it in a matter of minutes. My freezing was of no use to anyone.
I didn't rest for a moment. I barely ate and when I did, I was still working. I didn't sit down at all. I didn't sleep at all. My defense was that he didn't get the chance to sleep, so I couldn't either.
Jay spent a few days in the hospital after we found him.
I spent my few hours away from his side cleaning our place and making some food and treats so he had something nice when he got back.
Driving him home was a strange experience. Just a matter of days ago, I was scared that I'd never see him again. Now, I was glancing over at him in my passenger seat. He was sitting there and grinning at me like nothing had ever happened.
"You alright," Jay asked after a few minutes.
I blinked a few times. "Yeah, yeah, I'm fine."
"Really?" he pushed.
"You just got out of the hospital and you're worrying about me?"
He nodded. "Yup."
"Well, stop it."
"Nope," he replied. "Worrying about you is kind of my thing. And you just spent days worrying about me."
I reached over and laid my hand over his. "I am perfectly fine. I understand that you like taking care of me, but it's my turn to take care of you, got it? Let me do the checking in for a while."
"Okay."
I pulled his hand over and pressed a kiss to his knuckles.
We got home a few minutes later. Jay went to change and go to bed, grumbling about how hard it was to sleep in that hospital bed. I grabbed some water and a little bit of food and put them on the bedside table.
Once I knew that he was settled and that his phone was nearby, I was ready to walk away.
He grabbed my hand. "Where are you going?"
"I was gonna call Voight and let him know what's going on," I explained. "Probably go try to finish up some work. I kinda abandoned it for a few days."
"Can that wait," he asked. "Lay down with me."
I grinned. "Let me at least call Voight. Then, I'm all yours."
He nodded, letting my hand go.
When I came back, Jay was half-asleep. He blinked a few extra times, trying to look a little more awake than he was.
"You can go to sleep," I chuckled as I crawled under the covers with him.
"Wanted to wait for you," he pulled me closer to him, resting his head on my chest with his arms tight around my torso. "Goodnight."
"Goodnight," I mumbled, running my finger along the hair on the back of his neck.
I wasn't sure that I would ever be able to doze off. I was still just so worried. Worried that I would open my eyes and he would be missing again. Still gone or taken again or that we found him and he had already been killed. The thought made it hard for me to feel safe enough to close my eyes.
I spent most of that time checking on him. Watching his breathing and waiting for the moment that I needed to jump up and help with something.
I had barely let my mind drift away from me when I was pushed awake. I jumped a bit, not fully comprehending what was happening at first. I shoved myself up.
Jay was pushed against the headboard, breathing frantic and eyes wide.
"Jay..."
He looked over at me. I moved to sit next to him, facing him properly. It took a few seconds for him to react to my presence, but when he did, he dragged himself forward, wrapping his arms tightly around me. He hid his face in my shoulder, trying to hide that he had started crying.
"It's alright," I mumbled. "I've got you. I promise. I'm here."
I didn't stop whispering my quiet, comforting messages until I heard him trying to speak.
"Hey," I leaned back, cupping the sides of his face so he would look at me. "What is it?"
"I'm sorry," he muttered.
"Hey, hey," I ran my thumbs along his cheekbones. "You don't need to apologize. You have no reason to apologize for any of this. I promise. You have nothing to feel sorry about. I am here to help you and take care of you. That's not a one-way thing."
I saw his shoulders fall.
I leaned forward and kissed his forehead. His hands moved up to hold mine in place. I kept my lips pressed to his forehead for a few more seconds before leaning back.
"Do you wanna talk about it," I asked.
Jay shook his head.
"Do you need anything at all?"
"I just... I want to go back to sleep," he mumbled.
I glanced at the window. We had gotten home sometime in the afternoon, but it was completely dark now.
"Okay," I nodded.
I let my hands fall from his face so he could lie down. He laid on his back, eyes trained on bouncing around different spots along the ceiling.
I laid next to him. I grabbed one of his hands and brought it up so I could kiss the back of it. He turned to me. I grinned at him.
"I love you," I said as I moved closer to him.
"I love you too."
My other arm wrapped around his torso. His free hand touched my forearm, gently tracing a line back and forth along my skin.
All I wanted to do was bring him some peace. The same peace that he had offered me so many times.
Maybe one day I would finally feel like I had.
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So, we need to go back and talk to Joyce.
The reason I missed this before is that this topic only opens up after Joyce moves her boat to the village...
But it's *about* something we found out long before that.
đľ Disco Elysium, Pt. 2
JOYCE MESSIER - "You're back. Good." She takes a sip from her silvery thermal cup. "What can I help you with?"
2. "So I've been dealing with Evrart again..."
JOYCE MESSIER - "Oh," she raises her brow as to say -- *and*?
"Ma'am, this whole thing is a takeover."
"That money you gave me -- would that make things... *weird*? If I shared information, I mean?"
"Mr. Evrart helped me find my gun."
"I helped him turn up the heat on the borscht."
"He asked me to open a door."
"He asked me to deliver an envelope."
"I'd rather talk about something else for now, if you don't mind." (Conclude.)
JOYCE MESSIER - "Stupendous!" She nods, more than a bit surprised. "I didn't think he'd pull through."
"Check it out!" (Pull out your gun.)
"No need to flash my gun around. Let's just say I have it now. Thank god." (Pat your gun.)
JOYCE MESSIER - "That's beautiful..." She inspects it.
COMPOSURE [Medium: Success] - Keeping her calm, perfect posture. Her eyes move across the muzzle keenly.
JOYCE MESSIER - "A Villiers 9mm, front loaded? Two or three barrelled..."
"Three. It was not easy to get this gun back, I'll tell you that."
Say nothing.
JOYCE MESSIER - "Mhm," she nods. "Villiers & La Salle was one of the original 14 indotribes of Revachol, did you know? Artillery and ballistics. Before the Revolution of course, they belong to some Gottwalders now."
RHETORIC [Medium: Success] - She phrases it as if it's a pity. She *also* phrases it as a transition out of you waving your gun around.
JOYCE MESSIER - "What else? It helps to sometimes hold inventory of the things you've achieved, you know." A smile. "Clears the soul."
+5 XP
"Ma'am, this whole thing is a takeover."
JOYCE MESSIER - "A takeover?"
"Yes. It's not a strike. You aren't being let in because there's nothing to negotiate. The Union is taking the terminal."
"He has told me so in his own words -- he's taking it. He'll also use the drug trade to finance the harbour."
JOYCE MESSIER - "If they're *taking* it..." She look toward the colourful mountain of crates, like toy blocks rising above Martinaise.
PERCEPTION (SIGHT) [Medium: Success] - Green livery changing into red, blot by blot.
CONCEPTUALIZATION [Medium: Success] - Like a cancer of the blood, metastasising...
Level up!
JOYCE MESSIER - "Then we're talking about a *war*. Evrart needs to let me into the harbour at once. We need to talk about this."
"He's ready for a war. They all are."
"The war *is* their goal. I told you before -- Evrart has always wanted this to escalate."
"I can ask him to let you in."
JOYCE MESSIER - "No," her eyes return to you. "It's naive of me. He sent you -- this *is* the negotiation now."
"And if he does not avert his course it will be a war negotiation, detectives."
2. "The war *is* their goal. I told you before -- Evrart has always wanted this to escalate."
JOYCE MESSIER - "An insane goal." Her eyes return to you. "Krenel has a thousand men on their payroll. The next batch will be a platoon of twenty men and a gunship, the one after that, a hundred."
KIM KITSURAGI - "I've seen the Union's forces. They're better organized than these mercenaries. They also have the support of the people of Revachol West."
"It will take more than Krenel to wipe them out. Wild Pines will need to send more and better-equipped men. Make no mistake, ma'amâŚ"
"I am sure you have the money. The question is how many years and how many lives are you willing to sacrifice?"
JOYCE MESSIER - "What do you suggest I do?"
EMPATHY [Formidable: Success] - Does it matter? Her mind's made up. It has been for some time. The choice was whether to *tell* her this. And you've already made it.
"First, will this affect your decision making process?"
"It's not the RCM's job to make these decisions."
"The workers should have the harbour."
"Cut off the snake's head. Evrart's pushing all this."
"It's a bluff. Call it. Have them open fire and see how long they last."
"Bring in everything you have and wipe them from the face of the earth."
(Look at your wrist.) "It's apocalypse o' clock. Time to commence the Gloaming."
"I wish there was a *disco* option."
"You've already made up your mind, ma'am. What is it?"
JOYCE MESSIER - "Everything affects the decision making process, detective."
KIM KITSURAGI - "Officer..." The look on the lieutenant's face conveys uncertainty. He doesn't even sound angry.
ESPRIT DE CORPS [Easy: Success] - For once, I don't seem to know what the right thing to do is.
8. "I wish there was a *disco* option."
JOYCE MESSIER - "I'm afraid we won't disco our way out of this one..." she says, with considerable regret.
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The Doctorâs Office
Aubrey couldnât believe her eyes as she sat in her uncomfortable, too small chair in the empty waiting room at the OBGYN office in the early hours of the morning.Â
She was sitting alone with her baby boy sitting in his carrier on the floor - it was his nine month checkup and it was taking forever to be seen.
The woman was sitting, scrolling on her phone when out of her peripheral she saw an extremely - like extremely handsome man step into the area with a carrier.
Aubrey was a married woman but holy shit this guy was hot- without even trying is the thing.Â
He had on a New York Yankees Nike hoodie and a pair of Nike athletic shorts with some calf length Blake Nike socks and trainers.
In the carrier was a fresh little baby, couldnât be older than three months who was bundled up with a sunflower headband on.
The man was multitasking with a curly haired toddler on his other hip as he finds a seat a little bit down from Aubrey on the opposite side.
His wife was standing up at the check-in and of course it made sense that she was absolutely beautiful as well even though Aubrey could relate to how tired she looked.
The woman still had a small bit of her pregnancy bump left signifying that the baby was indeed very very new to the world.
She keeps glancing over at the man, he looks so familiar but she would remember if she had even met someone that handsome.
Then the context clues hit her, his hoodie, his toddler son was also in a little Yankees hoodie that matched his fathers and Aubrey googled quickly.
Her eyes flitted throughout the recent articles.
Stylesâ Alleged $65 Million Dollar Bonus
Hot Head Harry Styles - how he managed to start three bench clearing brawls in one game!
Breaking Records and Bats - Styles manages to break his own record in the same season followed by breaking a bat in celebration
Holy shit.
She could help but watch them - this was much more interesting than reading a magazine.
Aubrey didnât follow baseball but Harry had turned celebrity status and was this well known cocky dickhead to the media - women and men loved and drooled over him for his looks and his skills.
Right now, he sat down with his two babies - the boy looked exactly like Harry, it was quite unbelievable from the curly locks to mossy green eyes that was copy and paste.
Harry was currently tucking an applesauce pouch between his lips and guiding the boy's small hands to hold it for himself.
âGood job, ,â He murmurs in the dead quiet waiting room as he tucks him further into the crook of his arm.
Harry looks up to his wife who joins them, she is a bit in awe when Aubrey sees him palm a bit at her bloated belly and whisper, âYâlook gorgeous today, mama.â
Aubrey couldnât help but frown, she wished her husband did that.
YN sits down, leaning her head on his shoulder - Aubrey didnât know her but she seems tired - of course she was a new mother.
The silence is broken when a nurse comes out and with an apologetic face says, âIâm sorry, we are running really behind today. It might be another thirty minutes,â before shutting the door again.
Harry kisses his wifeâs forehead before wrapping his unoccupied arm around her shoulder, a flashing gold band on his ring finger.
Aubrey zones off for a little when her son wakes up, rocking the carrier a few times before he settles again.
Sheâs brought back to the couple when she hears a sniffle comes from Harryâs wife and his face turned towards hers, hand rubbing her shoulder reassuringly.
âMama, sheâs so healthy. Thereâs nothinâ to worry about, did a perfect job growing her in yâbelly. I know these check-ups make you anxious but nothinâ is gonna be wrong,â He soothes, a near whisper because of how quiet the room is and he didnât want to disrupt.
âI just donât know if sheâs been getting enough milk, itâs so hard to tell,â YN replies sadly, like sheâs disappointed in herself.
âYâkidding me? Sheâs our chunkiest baby - look at those little rolls. Sheâs on yâtits more than any of the boys including me,â He jokes softly, obviously trying to make her feel better.
It seems to work a little bit because she lets out a light giggle with a roll of her eyes, âNo one is on them more than you.â
Harry shrugs unashamed before replying seriously, âEverything will be okay. Sheâs perfect and healthy.â
The curly haired little boy gets a bit squirmy with the wait after he finished his pouch, asking to be set down which his father does.
Harry is watching him carefully, his nervous but still adventurous little two and a half year old, as he toddles around the waiting room.
When he spots Aubrey and her carrier, he wanders over looking up her with wide curious eyes, he points at her son and squeaks, âBaby?â
Ever the diligent father, Harry is up and next to his son, Aubrey is a bit starstruck if sheâs honest when he talks to her.
âMâsorry, heâs a curious little one,â Harry smiles at her, going to pick Ezra back up to guide him away from bothering her.
Aubrey waves her hand though, lifting the visor to show the sleeping baby, âYeah, heâs a baby. Thatâs Dominic.â
The boy gazes at the baby before lisping, âBry!â
Aubrey isnât sure what he means but his father clarifies, âYouâre right, Dominic is a baby just like your little sister Briar.â
âOkay,â Ezra shrugs and goes back to his mom to inform him of what he just discovered before crawling up and cuddling into her chest.
Harry nods, âThanks for indulging him.â
âNo pro-problem,â She stutters like an idiot and Harry smiles a bit like he knows but doesnât say anything else before going back to his family.
A few minutes later when a high-pitched cry resounds through the room, Harry is carefully cradling his daughter who Aubrey notes looks nothing like him but like her mother even though her features were still so little.
âShush, darlinâ,â Harry coos with a soft drawl, leaning in to kiss at the newbornâs button nose.
Briar roots at her fatherâs chest, smacking her plump lips, and squeaking in frustration when she doesnât find a nipple. It makes Harry chuckle before he glances at his wife and his smile falters a bit, âSweetheart, did yâbring a bottle?â
Aubrey watches his wife shake her head, she is facing away from her so she canât see her expression but gauging Harryâs it seems that she may be upset, âNo, I completely forgot. I didnât bring my nursing blanket either - Iâm going to have to go the bathroom. Mâbeing such a bad mom.â
The observer feels a pang in her chest, she can definitely relate to not always feeling like she is a good mother because of little mistakes she makes like forgetting diapers, buying the wrong formula, forgetting to bring a pacifier.
âHey,â Harryâs voice is firm, âYânot going to talk like that when sâthe farthest thing from the truth. Sâokay, we have four babies, weâre both goinâ tâforget things sometimes, okay? Here, let me help you.â
Aubrey wishes she had a husband who was as empowering, supportive of his wife.
He hands the whimpering baby over to his wife, heâs then tugging off his hoodie. Aubrey tries but fails to divert her eyes when his shirt rides up revealing a glimpse of his taut abdomen and a light dusting of hair leading into his shorts, obscene tattoos covering his hipbones .
Harry maneuvers the hoodie over his wifeâs shoulder, helping her tug down her loose shirt and nursing bra, and guiding his newborn to his wifeâs breast until she latches and starts suckling hungrily.
âThere yâgo mama,â He whispers encouragingly before tugging Ezra back onto his lap to rock him a bit as heâs getting whiny - ready for a nap soon and not liking being in an unfamiliar place for too long.
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Aubrey is buckling Dominic into his carseat when she spots the other family exiting the office.Â
Harryâs wife looks much more relaxed, a smile on her face, and her arm tucked around her husbandâs narrow hip, theyâre parked close to each other, and Aubrey climbs into her small sedan - blasting the aircon.
She watches the parents strapp their kids into a massive, tinted and brand new cadillac escalade that was no doubt over a hundred thousand dollar car but who could expect them to be driving around a mid-level minivan?
After the kids are secured and they close the doors, Harry presses his wife up against it with his arm resting over her shoulder against the window. He is whispering to her, their mouths close before he ducks down to connect their lips.
His hand comes back to her deflating baby bump like he did in the doctorâs office, hand massaging the skin with adoration that was visible even to Aubrey as she sat in her car watching them.
Later on in the week, as she sits on her couch, a video pops up on her timeline. Itâs a sports report she was about to skip until the name caught her attention.Â
The sports reporter stated, âHarry Styles was fined an alleged sixty thousand dollars at last nightâs game after getting into a verbal altercation when the second base man purposely tripped him.â
It flashes to the man she just saw in the doctorâs office in a form-fitting Yankeeâs blue and white striped uniform with a helmet on as he ran at an impressive speed from first to second, stumbling when the baseman put out his foot.
Harry recovers quickly enough to touch the base to be considered safe.Â
After that though, heâs pushing himself up and brushing off the dirt, then heâs charging towards the man who fucked up the play.Â
He has no fear as he gets in the manâs face, veins on his neck standing out as he shouts. They donât play the audio but you could tell Harry was cussing this man up and down.
It flashed back to the reporter speaking to another, âNearly every team in the league reports that Styles is an absolute nightmare to play against from his skill to his downright arrogant and cocky attitude. Heâs not someone Iâd find myself wanting to hang around.â
âI agree with you there, Tucker. He has a right to be proud with all of his broken records and achievements but being a bit humble would do this man so good. I feel sorry for his wife and kids. He probably just spends all day bragging about himself.â
Aubrey clicks off the video, if only everyone in the world just saw the Harry Styles she saw just a few days ago - well theyâd all change their minds on what kind of person he is. Especially what kind of husband and father.
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The Charity Event
It was a charity event at Madison Square Garden in Time Square.Â
It was for all Major League Baseball teams who had qualified for the playoffs and of course, The New York Yankees were there.
There were tables filling the whole stadium, extravagant in white linen tablecloths, multiple bars, and it was black tie dress code.Â
It was a private event and it was not open to the public but after the dinner there would be awards given out and that would be broadcasted.
Nicole was there with her husband, Trent, the left outfielder with an average batting score. He wasnât the most popular on the team by far - well everyone got outshined by Styles.Â
She couldnât help but be a little bitter that Harry had gotten a $60 million dollar bonus (the biggest bonus ever gifted but also the Yankees were not taking any chances at losing their star and their ultimate money-maker). Trent got a measly bonus of $100,000 which was nothing in baseball terms.Â
The wives and girlfriends of the Yankees players did not like YN one bit. It really wasnât fair because she was always lovely, kind, and friendly. It didnât matter because they were all spurred on by jealousy of what she had.
Nicole couldnât help by gaze at Harry as they sat at the same circle table towards the podium where the awards would be presented after dinner. He was in a sharp all black suit with a small team logo pin of the lapel.
She couldnât deny how stunning YN looked in an absolutely stunning dress. It was a one-shoulder with sparkling black stripes against a tan background, it fit like a glove and accentuated her stunning legs with a high slit. ***
It blew Nicoleâs basic black Gucci dress out of the water which made her even more infuriated at the woman. She knew she was being irrational and if she hated her so much, why couldnât see stop staring at the couple?
Nicole could get away with it by looking past them at other tables but to be quite honest, the two were much too wrapped up in each other to be aware of any of their surroundings or people watching them.
Trent was off bullshitting with all the other players while the Stylesâ sat at the table and Harry waited for people to approach him - like the cocky asshole that he was. He would give them a minute of his time before becoming visibly bored and returning his attention back to his wife.
As the appetizers arrived, Trent finally sat down with a grunt, giving his wife literally no attention as he dug into the salad like a slob.Â
Across the table, Harry looked down at his plate, picked out all the tomatoes and stabbed them with his fork. He then brought his hand over to his wife who giggled and let him feed her the three little tomatoes for his salad.
âDonât like tomatoes, Styles?â Henry, third-baseman, jokes as he watches him feed his wife without any shame.
âI love âem, mâmissus just really like the little grape ones,â Harry shrugs casually - like that didnât just sound like the most whipped thing that he could say.
Trent probably couldnât even guess Nicoleâs favorite color - let alone know something so minuscule like YN like the little tomatoes that come on house salads.Â
Throughout the whole dinner, it was quite disgusting how infatuated these two were with each other - Harry had at least one hand on her body at one time - her thigh, shoulder, even cupping her neck in a way that was almost too intimate for the setting.
At one point, Harry notices that YN is a bit quiet - sipping on her glass of water and he pulls back from the conversation, murmuring, âYâalright, mama?â
Nicole bites her lip hard at the cute pet name, feeling even more dislike towards YN - why couldnât she have had someone like Harry?
âDâyou think the babies are okay? Ezraâs been so anxious lately,â YN replies quietly, there were no phones allowed at the event and had to be left at home or at the door.
Harry kisses her temple, âYâknow Ezzie is good with mâmum, doesnât get as anxious as he used to at sleepovers. Yâknow East and Cash are probably on a sugar high.â
YN nods, agreeing and Harry jumps right back into the conversation but she notices that he keeps looking over at his wife to check on her.
Trent accidentally knocks her elbow hard and just grunts out a bland, âSorry.â
The topic changed to traveling for games. Ellie, another wife of a player who was nice to YN were chatting about how stressful it is.
âI know, loading all three boys up is rough when we do decide to travel to games with H,â YN says to Ellie, a small smile on her face.
âUgh, I know. Lily and Parker are the worst flyers! They usually end up throwing up or not being able to nap at all,â Ellie groans about her two little ones she has back at home.
YN letâs out a laugh that just irked Nicole to not end.
âIt's going to be even harder when we have more kids,â YN laments like sheâs bothered.
âOh? More kids?â Ellie squeaks with excitement, clapping her hands together.
Nicole reaches a breaking point, jumping into the chat,âReally? More kids? Donât you think you should focus on the ones you have? Or do you think because your husband makes an unfair amount of money, you can just have as many as you want? Hire nannies and act like you take care of them?â
Before YN frowns, about to respond when Harry interjects with a booming, displeased voice, âFirst off, why donât yâmind your own fuckinâ business. My wife and I can âave any many kids as we want, last time I checked.â
He continues with tense posture, all of his previous calmness disappears, âSecond off, donât take it out on my wife thaâ your husband got a shit bonus, we all know thaâ why yâpissy. And donât act like yâdont have a nanny for your one kid while we donât nor ever will have one.â
Nicole sneers, âYouâre a cocky bastard.â
Harry smiles in faux charm, âOf course I am, dear. Iâve got a fucking beautiful wife, three healthy babies, the most records broken in history, and the fattest bank account in this room.â
âAlright, alright,â Trent interrupts and it doesnât go unnoticed that he doesnât defend his wife. Instead he shoots Harry an apologetic look for his wifeâs behaviors.
Harry just scoffs at the couple, rudely rolling his eyes, and tugging his wife in for a kiss thatâs a bit too intense but he canât help himself, smiles against her lips when his wife pinches his thigh playfully.
He says (not quietly at all), âAll these women are jealous of you, hm? Sâcause youâre so beautiful and such a fuckinâ catch.â
Nicole feel a sharp pang in her chest at the indirect comment - fucking asshole.
Deep down, Nicole is unfavorably realizing that somehow YN has it all - a loving husband, who is seemingly head over heels four her, three well-behaved children, and everything she could ever want - sitting on Harryâs $600 million dollar net worth, on top of being gorgeous.
She didnât have that. Trent and her were on the rocks constantly, has definitely cheated on her, their kid is a literal nightmare, and theyâre both so reckless with money they have no savings.
It made her jealous to see Harry whispering in YN ear to make her giggle- lips brushing her ear, his hand splayed across her bumcheek while they waited for drinks at the bar, she even hears them murmur âI love yousâ at least twice.
Then the lights dim, spotlight on a podium in the front of the room, an older man in a crisp navy suit taking the stage.
âIt is an honor for me to announce âPlayer of the Year.â The decision by the board of Major League Baseball wasnât a hard one. The statistics and records broke continuously by the man has led us to only one option.â
Everyone watches all the other players in room deflate a bit because they realize the award is going to Harry yet again.
 âHe is again breaking a record tonight, he is the first player to earn this achievement four years in a row. The duality of this man when it comes to pitching a curveball or hitting a homer is truly remarkable.â
It makes all the players even more irritated than they already are when they look over at Harry whoâs sitting back, manspreading, hand on the back of his wifeâs neck gently, and a cocky, unbothered grin.
Like this award wasnât the biggest accomplishment he could earn.
One of the players from an opposing team at a different table mutters to one of his teammates, âFucking arrogant asshole. The only thing this award does is feed his gigantic ego.âÂ
âSuch a douchebag,â The other agrees, jealousy tinges his voice.
âIâve most likely made it obvious who the the recipient is this year. The New York Yankees pitcher with the most strikeouts to date and top-scoring hitter - Mr. Harry Styles!â
The crowd erupts in applause, whistles, and a standing ovation because despite his unsavory demeanor - no one could deny he was a legend.
Before he gets up, Nicole watches as he cups his wifeâs cheek - locking her lips in a kiss before she has to give him a playful shove when he tries to slip some tongue.
When Harry gets up to the stage, he shakes the hand of the announcer and takes the award from him, setting it on the podium.
âFourth year in a row has a nice ring to it,â Harry gives the crowd a dazzling white smile that have his dimples digging into his cheek.
The crowd whistles and coos.
Nicole notices YN getting teary-eyed as she watches her husband accept the award.
âI want tâthank a few people tonight. I want tâthank mâwife and the mama of my babies - YN. Sheâs supported me from when I was in college with no other career path but baseball, unsure of if Iâd fail or not, she stuck through it.â
She can sense everyoneâs eyes dart over to YN who is still staring up at her husband - who is giving her a gleaming smile right back.
âWeâve been through some really hard obstacles in our first years as a couple but sheâs the reason for all this - the fact that she always believed in me when I didnât believe in myself.â
The audience is respectful, quiet as he publicly tells a story of his deep love for his wife.
âI want tâthank mâthree babies. Easton, Cash, and Ezra. They inspire me to be a better better man and a good role model - even though I think yâall agree they wonât be if they watch too much how I play when Iâm out in the field.â
The crowd erupts in laughter at Harry poking fun at his own antics that heâs most famous for. He goes on to thank the team, coaches, Nike, everyone on the professional side of career.
When heâs done, everyone stands back up to congratulate him, patting him on the back as he returns to his seat.
Nicole watches as Harry sits back down, chuckling as he swipes a tear off his wifeâs cheek, âWhy yâcrying, mama?â Â
âIâm just so proud of you. Everything you do for me and our babies. The best husband, best daddy. My heart is just full,â She murmurs, clearly not meant for others to hear but Nicole was eavesdropping.
Harryâs eyes darken with something Nicole canât identify but does notice his hand creeping a bit further up her thigh.
He leans into whisper something into her ear before she sees his lightly nip at her lobe before pulling back to join into the conversation.
-
After the lights come back up, Trent abandons her to go shoot the shit with other guys.
When she trails off to the bathroom, down a long hallway from the main area - she hears a rustling from behind a door labeled with a plaque that says âexecutive meeting roomâ.
Nicole pauses confused, all these offices and other rooms were strictly off limits during events obviously. She was confused to hear someone in a room that was not supposed to be in use.
Then she realizes itâs not just someone - itâs two people.
âSâgood, sweetheart. Give it tâme so good.â
And she knows right then and there all she needs to know about whoâs in that conference room and what they were doing.
âBe quiet, youâre being too loud,â YN scolds back, the walls were clearly thin because she could hear the exchange.
âMake yâcunt not feel like heaven then,â He remarks back, his voice slower and more soft than it would be in front of people.
God, Trent and her havenât slept together in ages - let alone has spontaneous hookups or dirty talk like that ever.
When they all end up back at the table before the closing speech for the night, Nicole spots a nicely sized mark under Harryâs jaw that heâs wearing with pride.
YN had her lipstick wiped off and was much more clingy as the night rolled on which Harry seemed to thrive on.
As she and Trent are on their way home, Nicole speaks into their silence, âI donât think our relationship is working.â
Not after she saw love and happiness at that event table tonight - she wanted that kind of love not settling for some cheating asshole.
-
The Little League Game
It was a cool autumn evening, it was an important game - if you could call it that for the little league team that Kayla had her son on.
The goal was to determine which team would move onto the playoffs, even though most of this was all in good fun because it was for eight-year-olds and it wasnât serious.
Kayla couldnât lie and say that she didnât spend some of the time curiously gazing at the New York Yankees player who would come to watch his son play.
He wasnât at every game due to his schedule but it seemed like he came to whatever ones he could with his wife and other three kids.
They had taken the bench on the bleachers right below her so she had an up close and personal view of the family when theyâve never sat this close before.
As the kids warmed up, Harry had his youngest son who looked to be about four sit next to him, squished between his dad and mom happily.
Their middle son was next to his mom on the other side, looking to be about six, and he was wriggling impatiently in his seat - eager to join the other kids in the jungle gym.
The baby girl who looked about a year and a half old didnât look anything like her brothers - it was obvious that she was a spitting image of her mother (who was stunning).
She was curled up in her momâs lap, asleep with her face squished against her motherâs chest - a pacifier suckling fiercely between her puffy lips.
âMama, please,â The curly haired boy begs with greedy puppy dog eyes as he keeps glancing back to look at the other kids.
âYou stay right where daddy and I can see you, yes?â YN murmurs, brushing back his unruly curls that where getting long, âAnd what are our rules?â
âStay where you can see, donât talk to strangers, and be nice to others,â He recites perfectly, Kayla was a bit blown away by his manners.
She watches baseball. It was hard to believe their children were so mild mannered when their father was the exact opposite - at least on the field.
Harry was rustling in the diaper bag for something as his son looked at him with wide, concerned eyes, âMy baby, daddy.â
âI know, Ezzie. Mâlookinâ fâyour baby,â His father replies softly, the polar extreme of his normal brash, crude language that had a nasty tone like he couldnât bother giving people the time of day.
âDaddy, please,â The youngest whines, his little hand grasping at his fatherâs tattooed wrist as he gets to his knees to help his dad look.
âLeft inner pocket,â YN murmurs offhandedly as she makes sure Cash gets to the playground safely with his friends.
âSay âthanks mamaâ,â Harry coos to his son as he manages to tug out the baby doll and hand it to the awaiting little boy.
âThanks mama,â He replies instantly with a gapped smile as he nuzzles right back into his fatherâs side as if he canât get close enough.
âHow are you feeling, Ezra?â His mother leans over to ask, keeping the baby close to her chest.
âMâhappy, mama,â Ezra replies simply before starting to babble to himself as he plays with the babydoll.
Kayla watches Harry and YN swap a fond look at their son but she couldnât help but wonder why they asked him that? He seemed fine so why did they feel the need to do that?
The game is going okay, Harry stands up to cheer and whistle when Easton hits a two-base hit but YN smacks his thigh and motions to their sleeping baby.
He looks at her sheepishly before sitting back down, kissing her cheek in apology, and peeking down into the fleece blanket to watch his daughter sleep for a moment.
Then it seems like Easton starts to lose momentum after he pitches two home-runs, his face pinched in disappointment as the other team scores but Harry is attempting to keep him motivated with encouraging shouts.
Easton struggles from then on, he strikes out for his final three turns, doesnât catch two pop-ups, and his pitches start to get a little shaky. Itâs obvious in his facial expression heâs getting upset because heâs breathing heavier like heâs trying not to cry.
Kayla feels a sense of dread for the little boy, his father whoâs the best baseball player in modern day history is watching his son not do well during an important game.
 Because of what she knows of him from his temper and attitude on the field - she worries that heâs one of those fatherâs who will hound their kid for doing poorly.
âOh, câmon East,â Harry murmurs softly when his son stumbles over a ground ball before another kid picks it up and throws it in - their son smacking his glove down against the ground in frustration.
âHeâs getting himself worked up,â YN notes as she watches her oldest kick his cleats in the dirt with a quivering bottom lip.
âI know,â Harry replies to his wife, âWish he wouldnât, heâs gettinâ upset out there, I can tell.â
âSad?â Ezra squeaks, clambering onto his fatherâs lap and stating, âHold me, daddy.â
Harry obliges easily, gathering up his small son before his attention is directed back onto the game - it was down to the last few minutes and unfortunately Easton pitched a ball that resulted in a home run for the other team.
âFuck,â Harry mutters, running a hand through his messy locks before heâs setting Ezra back down on the bleachers, âIâm going to go talk to him. Do you want to meet back home?â
YN nods, leaning down to tuck the baby into the double stroller before buckling Ezra in as well, âIâm going to go get Cash and head out. Why donât you take him out for some ice cream? I love you.â
âI love you too, mama,â He replies, kissing her softly before kissing both of his kids foreheads and stepping down the bleachers - ignoring all the adults who are staring at him with a starstruck expression as he heads to the dugout.
It cleared out fast, nobody sticking around after the loss that ended with them not continuing on to the championship, and Easton was sat on the bench - he was stoic and there was a hard, angry expression on his face that reminded Kayla of what she saw Harry look like when he played.
As she gathers up her son and makes sure heâs got all of his equipment, Kayla stands and chats to a few of the moms before sheâs heading to her car - which happened to be parked next to a sleek Masserati crossover, who would let their muddy kid go in there? Rich people, she guesses.***
Kayla pops the trunk to her van with her key as they get closer, she notices that Harry also has his up and Easton is sitting on the tailgate with his eyes looking down at the pavement. She tries not to appear as nosey or eavesdropping as she tucks her items into the back.
âSweetheart, sâokay. Yâdid so so good tonight,â Harry assures his pouty son, he squats down to start to untie his sonâs nike cleats but continues to make eye contact with him.Â
âNo, I didnât, Daddy!â Easton whines, tears finally starting to bubble over the surface as he begins to sob with a shuddering chest, âI gave up home runs and then I missed ground balls!â
âWhoa, bubby,â Harry simpers after he tugs off the shoes and throws them carelessly into the back before standing up, âYâdid amazing, are you kiddinâ? You did three innings of strikeouts, hit two of yâown homeruns. Yâplayed like a professional, way better than daddy.â
Kaylaâs heart aches a bit when she sees Harry sit down next to him before hugging him harshly into his side, thumbing at the tears that are running down his sonâs sweaty cheeks with soft reassurances.
âDaddy, are you mad I didnât win?â Easton asks shakily, keeping his head buried into his fatherâs side and his small hand clutching into the fabric of his hoodie.
Harry chuckles lowly, âDaddy would never be mad at you fâanythinâ, definitely not a baseball game. Remember what mama and I said? If at any point yâwant to stop playinâ, just let us know and we can find something else, yeah? Just like how Ezzie does art classes.â
Easton seems to calm down after a few moments of Harry rocking him and reassuring him of what an amazing son he is.
As Kayla drove away that night, her perspective on the all-star baseball player definitely changed. It was refreshing to see someone to not hold their child to an unreasonable expectation just like she thought Harry would.
--
The Campfire
Austin was the shortstop on the baseball team, heâd brought along his girlfriend, Chelsea, to the frat party to celebrate another win.
Everyone was in whispers that Harry was bringing his new girlfriend but nobody knew who she actually was because it was just a rumor.
It was surprising because Harry wasnât a relationship kind-of man. He wasnât into hookups much - always said he needed to focus on baseball.
Many of his teammates were envious of how many girls were constantly coming up to Harry at parties to flirt and try to get a dance in but he had always rejected them.
Harry had never showed interest in any of these girls at the parties, never seen him disappear upstairs with one or really entertain a conversation over a beer like theyâd expect.
Chelsea pokes his shoulder and nods towards the entrance when Harry walks in with his arm around YNâs shoulder.
Most were in a little shock because they seemed like such an unlikely couple - YN had written some scathing articles about him and it was no secret he hadnât been a fan of her.
âHoly shit, Harryâs dating YN?â Chelsea whispers to Austin as the group of party-goers cheer and whistle at the allstars appearance.
âGuess so,â Austin replies with a shrug, tugging Chelsea into the kitchen for a drink.
Later on that night, thereâs a bonfire on one side of the backyard and a volleyball net on the other where a group was gathering to play.
Austin and Chelsea are on the opposing team of Harry and YN - she canât help but watch them with curiosity because of what a surprise it is that theyâre dating.
Even Austin has been watching because Harryâs acting in a way that heâs never seen throughout his time on the team with him.
Harry is just all over YN which was confusing how he went from not being remotely interested in the college girls to being a lovestruck puppy.
When she throws the ball up to serve, Harry reaches over and pinches her bum which makes her squeak and accidentally drop the ball which has him cackling as she glares at him.
As they change positions, he crowds up behind her, and massages her hips, leaning down to murmuring something in her ear.
She blushes wildly before smacking him off which has him laughing hard and kissing the back of her head before taking his position.
After Harry jumps and spikes the ball hard, earning them the winning point, YN turns around and wraps her arms around him to hug him tightly.
Harry wraps his arms around her shoulders, returning the hug before pulling back to kiss her lips in a soft peck.
Chelsea elbows Austin, âWhoâs that and what did they do with Harry?â
Austin shakes his head, âI really donât fucking know.â
The group migrates over to the fire as they might become cooler and the stars are high up in the sky, the fire flickering orange and yellow crackles of sparks.
Harry plops into a chair, pulling YN right onto his lap, and she wriggles until sheâs comfortable. Chelsea notices him tap her thigh as if telling her to cut it out, too much motion right on his crotch.
Jake, one of his teammates, says in a teasing tone, âYN, Iâm surprised to see you around these parts . I clearly remember a strongly worded article about how stupid frat parties are.â
YN takes it in stride, smiling as she replies, âAnd this party just proves my point.â
The group laughs easily, they enjoy YNâs sharp wit and comebacks as they get to know her. Austin canât help but to notice how quiet Harry is.
Normally, heâs the life of the party, loud and making his presence known to everyone but not tonight. He has his chin propped on her shoulder and sheâs cuddled back into his chest.
Austin canât make out what Harry is saying but heâs constantly whispering in her ear and accentuating each time with a squeeze to her thighs.
âAre you guys official?â One of the teammates asked bluntly, a few beers deep by this point in the night.
Harry replies instantly, a possessive squeeze, âSheâs mine and off the market, sâdonât even think about it.â
âWell I donât think it matters because sheâs turned down the whole baseball team by this point. I think everyone tried to ask her out at least once,â Steve jokes as the others agree.
âThaâs mâgirl,â Harry murmurs to her before teasing his friends,âWhoâd want to go out with any you? Youâre all dickheads.â
Everyone continues to joke around, itâs nearing midnight and thatâs right about when Harry gets in his prime - like the party just started.
But not tonight.
YNâs eyes start to flutter shut as everyone banters and drinks around the fire, obviously not used to these late night parties.
âI better get this one tâbed,â Harry states after a few minutes, thumbing at YNâs cheekbone as she tries to stay awake.
âIâm okay,â She mumbles weakly, head still heavy against his shoulder.
âYouâre coming back though, right?â Kyle asks expectantly, brows furrowed.
Harry shakes his head, âNah, mâin for the night when she is.â
All the players look at him with a bit of a dumbfounded look, Steve shooting out, âWho knew youâd be so pussy whipped, Styles?â
Chelseaâs eyebrows raise at the crude comment, waiting with bated breath as Harryâs jaw clenches as it seems like heâs biting his tongue.
âGoodnight,â Harry says in a tone Austin has never heard before - agitated and almostâŚoffended.
When Austin and Chelsea are sneaking up to his room for a late night hook-up, she overhears Harry and YN in his bedroom.
At first, she thinks theyâre in an actual argument but as she listens to them - itâs not the kind of arguement she thought it was.
âYouâre always the little spoon,â YN groans from behind the closed door.
Harry squawks, affronted before huffing back at her, âSâmy favorite, please spoon me, darling?â
âYouâre so fucking spoiled,â YN giggles as Chelsea assumes they move into a position where Harryâs the little spoon.
âMm, I like feelinâ yâtits against my back, sânice,â Harry hums with a boyish tone.
Chelsea doesnât even realize sheâs smiling until Austin drags her from her stupor.Â
All she knew was that Harry Styles really really fancied that school reporter.
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Solomon and MC can be considered human?
Today I read a fic about MC facing the brothers after their death, and the author mentioned something about MC's "humanity" that gave me thousands of ideas. This is mostly just to get it out of my head and of course it's completely open for debate.
WARNINGS: Overthinking of an otome game lol, spoilers and remember that English is not my mother tongue so sorry for any mistakes. [Grammar and pronouns, I tried to check it well, but if you find an error, let me know]
Basically we will start by describing what a human being is in the most traditional sense of the word.
Whether created by god or through evolution, the human being is characterized by their reasoning and symbolic behavior. In addition to their short life cycle compared to other characters in OM.
Basically the human being is a mortal individual who is not at all related to magical realities but can believe in them.
But we have MC, a human whose life was normal until they stepped on the Devildom. Who finds out that they are a descendant of an angel, that they have pacts with the most powerful demons, is a friend of the prince of hell and of different angels. That, don't forget, died and came back to life in a relatively short time and, ALSO, it is believed that the stability of the human world and the rest of the realms is in the MC. Yes, quite normal for a human, right?
On the other hand we have Solomon who is a literally immortal guy, a very powerful sorcerer who has pacts with 72 demons.
AND THEN, presumably, we have Simeon, a former angel who lost his powers and has therefore become human.
So... we have three VERY different definitions of what a human being is. And let's remember that in fact, we can't rely on a human being an individual who was born in the human realm because there are magical creatures that exist there and they are not considered human.
So could Solomon and especially MC be considered human? I believe that they were human but at this point in the game and in the personal stories they could not be considered as such.
That is to say, the characteristics such as symbolic behavior and reasoning, among other things can be found in the characters, however there is a characteristic that is different. The mortality.
Suppose that for the world of Obey Me the key factor of humanity is mortality but Solomon no longer fulfills this characteristic but MC does. So, Solomon could not be considered a human due to his immortality but he is still presented as such.
So my question is what would be considered a human being in Obey me? Bearing in mind that both Solomon and MC are the only ones who were born in the human realm and that Simeon supposedly becomes human after losing his powers.
Could Solomon and MC really consider themselves human?
Because by having contact with other magical realities they lose the only thing that probably makes them human, the complete ignorance of the existence of these realities.
So, are they really human?
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Chrysalis
Yandere!Albedo x gn!reader
Wordcount:2115
CW:Yandere themes
Working for Albedo isnât that bad - the payment is good, the knowledge he provides is even better - a chance to delve into exclusive alchemical research with a widely acknowledged genius is a far more valuable award than any amount of mora or jewels could ever be. Said prodigy isnât an awful person to work with either - heâs polite and well mannered, careful not to offend anyone even if his words can be cold and cutting sometimes. Most of the time Albedo is a pleasant company to be around, if one would turn a blind eye to his quirks.
For instance, he has a weird and frankly unnerving habit of staring at you - his teal eyes track your littlest movements as you set up an alchemical apparatus and prepare needed solutions. At first you thought he was overseeing you, checking if you had made any mistake as a fledgling alchemist, yet this hypothesis was quickly disproved when you caught him gazing off working hours. You never voiced your complaints - you wanted to keep your job and study, and maybe he is too socially blind to see how his behavior could be received by others.
Today would also be a great example of an alchemist's lack of tact - he requested you accompany him everywhere for the last few weeks, taking you from the cold heights of Dragonspine to sunny and bustling streets of Mondstadt. You two are sitting in the corner of his laboratory designed for rest and food and share a meal: two portions of his favorite fish, despite being nothing more than the employer and employee or teacher and student.
Albedo doesnât seem to get or mind what kind of rumours he causes with this seemingly blatant favouritism before you, no he looks as calm as usual as he plunges into the dish with fork and knife.
â[First]â, he says, after the first bite: âHave the aches stopped bothering you?â, a hint of concern and something else. Two or three weeks ago you developed a strange soreness in the different parts of your body - wrists, neck, heart, legs - it would appear suddenly, burning and throbbing and making you gasp, leaving you tired and nauseous afterwards. No one could find the source of the problem, not even Albedo, yet after some time these far from pleasant sensations got subdued, easier to bear and endure.
His hand reaches for your left wrist, thumb caressing the skin, and he pulls it closer to his face, eyes examining the sore spot. You donât protest, stunned by his sudden action.
âHm, thatâsâ, he mumbles, more to himself than you: âthatâs goodâ, he concludes, letting go of your limb.
âWhatâs good? Did something change?â you inquire, instantly forgetting to take offense at his grabbing.
âYou could say thatâ, Albedo ambiguously says and returns to his fish. You ask the alchemist what he meant, but all you get are even vaguer answers and long silence in the end, as he finishes his meal and nudges you to start your own sunshine sprat.
In the end your questions remain unacknowledged, as Albedo leaves displaying you to accompany him. Surprisingly he heads for the gardens instead of the library, his step light and fast. âMaster Albedoâ you start, seeing that alchemist is in his creative mood again: âshouldnât you bring an easel or sketchbook with you?â
âNo, [First], I donât intend to draw, not now. This walk is for me to get some inspirationâ, Albedo quickly replies, still walking ahead: âIn this time of year the environment changes so rapidly, it provides a mind with a lot of good ideas. You should come with me too, alchemy is a science of change, creation and destruction and nature is better at these three aspects than any of usâ. He adds, seemingly sensing the next question you would ask.
He walks near the bushes, teal eyes focused on the blooming fragrant flowers, before he squats, pushing some of the wigs back.
â[First]â, he turns his head in your direction: âyou should come and seeâ. You comply, curious what has caught Albedoâs attention, squatting near him and looking at one of the inner branches usually hidden by others.
Itâs an ordinary dark cocoon. You almost turn your head again, before the slightest of movements catches your attention - itâs an insect trying to break out. Chrysalis cracks and deforms as a fledgling butterfly makes way past itâs confines. One second and it stretches its wings, revealing a vibrant blue coloration, the next it leaves itâs former cell entirely, elegantly soaring into the air, itâs azure wings lazily flapping, as it makes its way to the other bush.
âFascinatingâ, Albedo breathes out, eyes still on the disappearing figure of the insect: âIt transformed to such a great extentâ.
You hear a hint of excitement in his voice - he wants to share his thoughts or knowledge then - and nod, prompting him to continue.
âDid you know that a larva needs to literally dissolve itself to reach the next stage of its life? After caterpillar finishes its cocoon, it produces enzymes that turn most of its tissue into a liquid matter and only after that does it rebuilds into an entirely new formâ, he turns his gaze back to you, usually cold and thoughtful eyes now warm and dreamy: âSometimes, I think humans are meant to metamorphose tooâ.
âHow so?â you ask, tilting the head.
âHumans, despite all complexity and intelligence, are still fragile creatures. Theyâre prone to sickness and ailments and in the end old age ends those who managed to evade death before. Wouldn't it be better if one could go through metamorphosis, be reborn free from pain and hunger and constant threat of passing away? Those humans could live on forever and dedicate themselves to the higher cause without having to worry about dying and suffering".
You raise eyebrows, surprised by the sudden âoutburstâ - Albedo, despite his partially philosophical nature, has never shared his inner thoughts so freely, not to you at least. He, either out of embarrassment or deep contemplation, shifts his eyes somewhere behind you, and you turn back, following his eyes. He looks at the statue of Barbatos.
Tall and proud, it looks magnificent in the dayâs sunlight, golden rays making it glow and shine with the fairness of the marble. Looking at this epitome of unchanging vision, you suddenly get an answer to Albedoâs thoughts and you voice it out the same second:
âWouldnât it negate the meaning of life then? Nature breeds diversity - the reason why we have so many flowers is because some kinds aren't adapted to particular conditions and so they change, producing entirely new types of plants. Eternal and undying beings, unconcerned with the earthly matters would have no need to reproduce and pass on its features to the next generation, depriving the world of thousand possible combinations. No new life would be created if the old one could be perfectly sustained".
"That's how you see it", Albedo replies, placing a now empty husk of the cocoon inside your palm - the testament of the natureâs miracle, the testament of one's ability to change: âIâve witnessed many wonderful sights for todayâ, he adds, still looking at you, surrounded by flowers and flying butterflies, light breeze playing with your hair and sun illuminating your whole figure with a gentle golden glow.
You part with Albedo shortly after - he closes himself in the lab, before checking up on your sore spots again, quietly mumbling something to himself the whole time. You head for your house and open the alchemical textbook, studying it until late night. That place on the wrist slightly throbs at every movement.
Only when your eyelids fill up with lead and thoughts slow down from the general fatigue you allow yourself to head for the bed, falling asleep the second your head touches the pillow. You see phantasmagorical dreams - of you being a bulging and large larva, spending days simply eating green leaves, until a strange urge overcomes your entire being and you start to build something - a cocoon. Now, surrounded by pitch black darkness you feel a burning sensation - enzymes, enzymes that will dissolve your tissue. Pain quickly escalates and you want to scream and cry, but you canât - youâre an insect you donât have vocal glands or tear ducts to do so. Who could have known that butterflies suffer so much?
You writhe and squirm, caged by your liquifying body and hard chrysalis around you and you are in so much agony you want to die.
And then you wake up. All sweaty and distressed you grab at your wrist - it hurts so much, your entire body is on fire, it seems that you have another episode of that strange soreness. You quickly rise to your feet, snatching the painkillers from the nightstand and downing them with a gulp of water. As medicine begins itâs work you lay in the bed again, ready to fall asleep and forget the midnight pains, as you see something that makes your breath hitch and heartbeat fasten from fear.
A strange greyish white discoloration on your wrist in the same place that used to throb this evening. You touch it and it leaves a dry white imprint on your fingers, it also doesnât have any strange smell.
You rise and quickly dress up, barely suppressed panic and anxiety dispelling the last remains of sleep. The walk towards the Favonius HQâs is short, especially when you break into a sprint on the way. He is here, he is working into the night today. Quickly passing sleepy knights you climb on the second floor and almost run to one particular door, loudly knocking at it.
Just as you expected, thereâs a sound of footsteps and soon a familiar voice asks: âWho is here?â.
âItâs me, master Albedoâ, you say, feeling how the pain returns despite the painkillers taken: âyou said to report if something changes, with my aches. It changedâ.
The words you say and desperation accompanying them prompts alchemist to open the door, as he gestures you to come in, and shut the door as you do so:
âStripâ, he says, mind back to the analytical mode, you comply, feeling ashamed with every second Albedo continues to observe you: âWait, thereâs something on your neckâ.
A cool touch to your skin, a short yelp, another burst of pain. You fall on your knees, blinded and deafened by sheer agony. Alchemist produces a distressed noise, walking up to your collapsed figure and carrying you to the nearby table.
He pushes alchemical apparatus away, turning the table into a makeshift bed, and gently lowers you down. â[First]â, his hand card through your hair, while the other nudges a mug with some brew to your lips: âThereâs nothing to worry about, your metamorphosis progresses as it should beâ.
âMetamorphosis.. What are you talking about?â, you ask, panic creeping into the question. Alchemist looks you straight into the eyes, an eerie smile blooming on his face as he hears it: "Isnât it obvious? You're going to change and I will help you with that".
âChange?! Change into what?â
âInto a better version of human of course. Do you think I would let you get old or sick and die? Youâre too dear to me to do that, you should live and experience a life free from human limitationsâ, for the first time in your life youâre terrified of him. Albedo always seemed so knowledgeable and calm to you, like a wise wizard from the childhood fairytales, yet now he looks mad and devoid of any humanity:âYou shouldnât worry about these stains, they will disappear once your transformation is complete. Those are just chalk you see, a side effect of your tissues changing over the weeksâ.
âWhen did.. When did you start it?â, you croak out, sensing the agony returning and growing again. It hurts so much I can barely think.
âDragonspine. You were eating with meâ.
You want to insult and accuse him, yet another wave of pain renders you speechless, short huffs and whimpers escaping you as tears start to stream down your face.
âI understand it can be very stressful to you, given how change of this scale is always carrying a great riskâ, his voice adopts the same philosophical tone: âThe purpose of cocoon is protection of the soon-to-be butterfly from the external harm and influence that could lead to other complications and we donât want any of thatâ.
He cards his hand through your hair again, a mockery of a concern dyeing his next words: âYou shouldnât worry, I will be a good chrysalis to your metamorphosisâ.
You black out from pain.
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I love all the parental stuff you write, itâs all so amazing!! And I may have been thinkin about it a lot while at work, and I originally wrote this idea/prompt thing down on some receipt paper, but anyway!!
Yâknow how Dream manipulated Tommy during Exile? Well, how would Dream react if a similar thing happened to his own child? If his child had been taken from him somehow, and is made to believe that no one loved or cared about them, that they had to behave a certain way if they wanted any smidge of affection, etc.? Like the kid, when Dreamâs gotten them back that is, is obviously touch starved and sleep deprived and so many other things, but they donât mention any of it because theyâd been explicitly told doing so wasnât allowed?
About how many pieces would Dreamâs heart shatter into? I must know.
-Signed Angsty Anon from a Fast Food Jointđđ
Thatâs a mood, I have an actual notebook I have at work to write work stuff...I write more in it about my prompts than my work stuff. I hope itâs to your satisfaction!
Little Terror
Pairings:Â Parental Dream x F! Reader
Part 2
WARNINGS! : TOXIC RELATIONSHIP, IMPLIED ABUSED, MANIPULATION, BLOOD, IMPLIED VIOLENCE
DO NOT READ IF THESE MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE AND/OR CAUSE A TRIGGER!
    (Y/N) was Dreamâs kid. Dream didnât have to worry, thatâs what he told himself.
    When she wanted to go with thatâŚboyâŚhe knew sheâd beat the shit out of him if he got out of line. He taught her how to do that. She assured him though, there would be no need for that. They were in love and theyâd be ok.
    He should have listened to his fucking instincts. He knew he should have.
    He found out by accident what was going on.
    Dream trusted his little girl, sheâd be ok, she was strongâŚbut she was still his little girl and George and Sapnap were about to break Dreamâs neck if they heard one more time how Dream was worried.
    So.
    The three of them went to where the pair had moved out. Dream remembered letting his little princess move away.
    âIâll be fine daddy.â She gave her sweet laugh as she slung her inventory bag on her shoulder. âTrentâs a good guy.â
    âI just wish youâd let me meet the boy.â Dream huffed, his mask on top of his head.
    âHe lives so far away; I donât want to force him to come all the way here and you need to keep everyone in check.â She grinned, a sparkle in her eye. âIâll write, I promise. I know if I donât Uncle George will cry.â
    Dream laughed quietly as he nodded. âYeah, he would. Just, be careful out there, alright sweetheart?â
    (Y/N) put a hand on her sword. âIâm not the little terror for nothing.â
    It had been so sudden but she wanted to be close to this boy she had started dating. She hadnât written though as of late and he had begun to worry when for a few months, it just didnât come. Thatâs what sent them out with Eret in charge.
    âCome on, sheâll be fine.â Sapnap nudged him, hands in his pockets. âSheâs your little terror.â
    Dream smiled lightly behind his mask. âYeah. Weâll see thereâs nothingâŚI just worry and I have been missing her.â
    Three-day travel on foot, they made it to the village where (Y/N) said this guy lived on the outskirts of. It wasnât hard to find the larger house outside the village and they came up, Dream knocking on the door. It took a moment but the door opened, (Y/N) looking at him, butâŚit didnât look like his little girl. Her eyes were dull, with no spark to them as bags were collected under them. She had no smile on her face either but everything looked perfect and trim about her.
    Her eyes went wide seeing Dreamâs eyes as his mask was on the side of his face, sputtering.
    âYouâŚIâYou donât trust me?â She questioned.
    Thousands of alarm bells were going off in his head and a thousand more went off after her words.
    âWhat? Of course, I do (Y/N).â He gave her a light smile. âI just missed my princess, so did Sapnap and George.â He motioned to the men behind him. âSo, we came to surprise you, surprise.â
    She didnât hold any sort of excitement in her eyes. Trentâs words echoed in her head as she watched the man in front of her.
    If he really loved you, heâd trust you to be ok with me. Right? Because I love you and I trust you.
    âIâŚI think itâs best if you guys leave.â She muttered.
    Dream stood there as Sapnap and George were looking at each other in shock.
    âWhy? We came out here to seeââ As he spoke Dream reach a hand over to put it on her shoulder but she flinched back from him and all movement and thought stopped.
    She flinched from him. Why would she flinch from him?
    Dream had seen men flinch from him before; Tommy, Wilbur, most of the LâManberg people did after the war. But that was because he hurt themâŚ
    âWhat happened?â Dream asked carefully.
    âI-I-I donât-I donât know what youâre talking about.â She sputtered, her mind running rapidly.
    She couldnât tell him, that was the number one rule!
    â(Y/N), itâs me. Dream, dad. Iâm here.â He spoke carefully. âWhat, happened?â
    âWhatâs going on here?â Dream heard from behind him and (Y/N) shrank back behind the door slightly.
    Dream didnât not like the picture he was making and the tall, lanky man appearing did not help matters. The man was slightly taller than Dream but Dream slipped on his mask as he was anything but intimidated.
    âYou Trent?â Dreamed asked, stepping forward.
    Trent looked to (Y/N) and then back to the man coming towards him.
    âYeah, whatâs it to you?â
    âIâm her father and I want to know what the hell youâve been doing with her?â
    Sapnap stood a few steps behind Dream as George stood by the door.
    âI have no idea what youâre talkingââ
    Dream simply shoved the man and he fell over. The masked man stood over him, his hands on his hips.
    âWhat, did you do, to my little girl?â
    Trent tried to kick Dreamâs leg but Dream was quick to react, sidestepping his foot and instead stepping on the other manâs chest and putting his sword point to his throat.
    â(Y/N).â Dream looked over at her, lifting his mask up enough to smile at her. âGo get your stuff, George will help you.â
    She hesitated by the door as George stepped towards her carefully.
    âCome on kid,â George said quietly to her and she nodded slowly.
    She walked inside, Dream sliding his mask on as he grinned sinisterly behind it as he tilted his head as he looked at the man under his foot.
    âNow, why donât we have a little chat?â Dream laughed.
    George was very careful not to make too fast of movements after seeing her flinch at Dream. He helped her pack the few things she had; George was concerned as he felt like she had less than what she actually left with. As he gathered everything up, he also saw how little she had in the way of personal belonging, such as pictures. The most significate thing he didnât see was her old mask and that concerned him greatly. The color-blind man was worried about what Dream would do.
    The pair came out, George carrying her bags to see Dream without his mask on, his hands in his hoodie pockets as Sapnap smirked next to him with no Trent in sight. George could spot the small bit of blood under the cuff of Dreamâs sleeve. There was no blood on his weapons, so it was safe to assume he had used his actual hands and the other man was probably alive but he was never going to be the same.
    âHey sweetheart, letâs go home.â Dream smiled gently as he nodded his head.
    Her hands twitched but she walked beside the three of her family members. Dream was on her right as George was on her left and Sapnap behind the group. The group of them walked in silence towards the Dream SMP land. As night started to drop, Sapnap and George made camp, and Dream and (Y/N) sat by the campfire.
    When the two other men were going for firewood, Dream looked as (Y/N), who was playing with the end of her shirt.
    âI donât know what he did.â Dream said and she jumped slightly, making him frown deeply. âAnd you donât have to tell me right away, but Iâm here sweetheart. Iâm never going to leave you alone again.â
    She hugged herself as she looked around at their surroundings, expecting Trent to come out of anywhere.
    âIâm not supposed to talk about it.â She whispered. âBut did you come because you loved me?â
    âOf course, I did.â He assured her and she hugged herself tighter. âCan I hug you, kiddo?â
    âI-I-I-â She stuttered.
    He carefully scooted over and first put a hand on her shoulder. She stiffened and Dream waited before he pulled her into a hug. With the hug, her entire body relaxed, having missed such a loving feeling. She started to sob and he pulled her into his lap and hugged her as tight as he could.
    His little girl, she was so broken. He didnât know how that lanky, bitch boy managed to break her but he did. Dream ran a hand through her hair as he rocked the both of them as his heart was broken seeing his little girl like this.
    âItâs ok princess, Iâll make all this right.â He muttered. âIâm so sorry this happened, Iâll make it right.â
    He hated himself. He should have gone with her the first day she left. He should have done anything! He had to make this right now and heâd do everything in his power to bring her back. To make everything right.
 ....
    George and Sapnap came back seeing Dream holding a now sleeping (Y/N) as close as he could. Their friend looked so heartbroken as he held her.
    âI should have killed him.â Dream said. âNo one else will ever get away with doing this to her. Are we clear?â
    The two other men shared a look before nodding to Dream.
    âCrystal.â
    Dream wouldnât let this happen again and it was going to be a long time till he managed to fix his mistake.
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FATWS One Shot #6 - No One Said Anything About a Metal Arm
Word Count: 2011
Warnings: Explosions, Gunshots, The Winter Soldier, Implied Death, Stevie Almost Crying
Setting/Characters: Towards the End of Captain America: The Winter Soldier; Reader, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson, Natasha Romanoff, Maria Hill, Nick Fury, Bucky Barnes; Mentions of Alexander Pierce, Arnim Zola
A/N: This one took me a while to write and Iâll tell you why. Rewatching this movie made me want to do a complete rewrite of it. I had so many ideas of where the reader could be and why and what she was doing then and all that. ButâŚI told myself this is a One Shot of her unofficially meeting Bucky for the first time. Which is why it seems incomplete - because it kinda is - itâs just that scene picked from the movie. Am I happy with it? Eh. Am I holding back from writing more parts and just saying âforget this piece, it never happenedâ? Maybe. But, I canât. I wish I could. But if I were to rewrite this movie, Iâd rewrite the next one. And the next one. And it would take me months to finish these. SoâŚthis is what youâre getting.
Also, NO ONE MENTION WHATâS ABOUT TO HAPPEN IN A COUPLE HOURS! IâM THIS CLOSE TO FREAKING OUT!
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Sitting on the edge of the old dam was calming. Peaceful, even. The constant sound of the flowing water, the trees swaying in the slight breeze. It was nice to take a breath after everything that had gone down the past week.
To say you were worried was an understatement. The last time you saw Steve was the evening after you met Sam. He dropped you off at your place, refusing your invitation to stay saying that he should probably check on his apartment since he hadnât been there in a while.
A lot had changed since then.
Steve was wanted by SHIELD, along with Natasha. Fury was considered dead, but was actually still kicking in the structure beneath your feet with the help of you and Hill. You had tried to go after Steve, but it was too risky. Pierce - who you were almost 100% certain was behind this whole thing - had been keeping a close eye on you since Steve ran away, knowing youâd be behind him. You tried to catch the blonde at the hospital, but you were seconds too late, meeting up with Natasha who told you STRIKE already took him away for questioning.
You had been called by Hill and she told you what had happened. Fury had asked for your help specifically, considering the amount of times youâd had to fake your own death while being undercover. And youâd been dealing with that ever since.
You had wanted to go get the three of them - you learned Sam joined Steve and Natasha, which somehow didnât surprise you - but Hill refused, saying you needed to stay there just in case.
But Fury was fine, no one was coming, which is how you found yourself swinging your legs above a hundred feet of rushing water.
It didnât last long. A car pulling up to the side entrance caught your eye and you immediately swung your legs around to rush towards the stairs. Itâs not like you havenât gone longer without seeing Steve before. Youâd gone months without seeing him. It was your job. But this was different. Whether it was because for the first time he was the one who left or because he was on the run from the organization you worked for, you didnât know and didnât care. All you knew was you needed to see him. Make sure he was okay.
It took you a while to get there, all the stairs and corners and twist and turns. You got there just as Fury ended his explanation, hearing him tell the trio, âcanât kill you if youâre already dead. BesidesâŚI wasnât sure who to trust.â
Your footsteps were echoing and you were sure Steve heard you but when you entered the room, his eyebrows shot up, his eyes widening. âHoney?â
âOh thank fucking God.â You breathed out, jogging over to squeeze him tightly.Â
âY/NâŚâ He murmured in your hair, hugging you tightly back. âWhat happened? Why are you here?â
Pulling back, you jerked your thumb over your shoulder to the director. âIâm saving his ass.â Your finger then jabbed into his firm chest, your lips falling into a frown. âAnd worrying about yours. Are you okay?â
âI am. Natasha got shot, but sheâll live.â
You looked over at Natasha, who nodded in confirmation, before looking back into those azure eyes of Steveâs. âWhat happened? Pierce is keeping a tight lid on everything. I was gonna come find you, but I couldnât because he was watching me. Itâs a miracle I got away from them to help Nicky boy. I havenât gone out since. But, honest, I was gonna-â
âHoney, honey. Youâre rambling again.â Steve chuckled, hand resting on the back of your head, fingers tangling in your hair. âItâs okay. Iâm glad youâve been safe here. Pierce is behind this whole thing-â
âYeah, I figured that-â
â-Itâs HYDRA, Y/N.â
You froze. âWhat? HYDRA? Whaddya mean?â
Steve nodded. âHYDRAâs whatâs been infiltrating SHIELD. Itâs a long story, but Zola continued it when he was hired for-â
âOperation Paperclip. Yeah, I remember learning about that.â You ran a hand over your face. âOkayâŚâ You hummed, looking at the three of them. âLetâsâŚtalk about it more in a little bit. I know we gotta act soon, but Natasha and Fury need to heal a little bit longer and you should get some rest. You look tired.â
Everyone seemed to agree with your statement, starting to disperse from the room. You started walking out, too, when Steve grabbed your bicep and pulled you aside, down the hall a ways away. You opened your mouth, only for him to pull you into his chest.
âIâm really glad youâre okay.â
You nodded, lightly scratching his back, your arms around his slim waist. âIâm glad you are too.â You could feel how tense he was, which was understandable considering what heâd gone through the past couple days. But there was something else. Something in the grip he had on your shirt. The way his heart was hammering against your chest. His erratic breathing and his ducked head. You pulled away to catch his jaw between your fingers, eyes scanning the anguish in his own. âBubba? Whatâs wrong?â
It took a moment for him to answer, his eyes growing sadder with every second that passed. âIt was Bucky.â
âWhat?â You felt like the air was knocked out of you. âWhat do you mean?â
âThe Winter Soldier. The assassin who shot Fury. The one who tried killing us on the bridge. It was Bucky. It is Bucky. I saw him, Y/N. I saw his face. Itâs him. He survived. When they experimented on him, it mustâveâŚGod, Iâm soâŚI didnât even noticeâŚI didnât even checkâŚI left himâŚâ he shook his head, which fell to your shoulder. âStupid. Iâm so stupid.â
âNo, no.â You shook your head quickly, fingers playing with the hair at the nape of his neck as you twisted to kiss the hinge of his tense jaw. âIt wasnât your fault, Steve.â You mumbled softly, lips brushing over the shell of his ear. âIt wasnât your fault. You couldnât have known. He fell thousands of feet, Stevie. You wouldnât have found him even if you did.â
HIs grip on your hips tightened. âBut I didnât even try.â His voice broke on that last word. âAnd how could I not notice something going on with him? There were two years between being experimented on and falling. How-?â Voice catching in his throat, he stopped talking to stop himself from crying. You knew he hated crying.
âYou canât do anything about past Bucky.â You reminded him gently. âBut you can help him now.â
âHe didnât even remember me.â
âThen make him.â
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To say you were pissed was an understatement. âIâve been doing undercover stuff for years! This is a piece of cake!â
Steve shook his head. âYouâll be more helpful with Hill. You know more about Project Insight than me, Sam, and Natasha.â
âBullshit, Steven! You just donât want-â
âHoney, please.â
You clenched your jaw, glaring at him as he gave you those fucking puppy eyes, his dumb pink lips stuck in a pout. Letting out a rather aggressive puff of air, you looked away. âFine. But I hate you.â
He beamed and nodded. âI can live with that.â
âOkay.â You glanced at the others. âYou all ready?â
âLetâs get these sons of bitches.â Sam stated, making the final adjustments to the wings.
Natasha gave a smirk. âAs long as you are.â
Turning back to Steve, you raised an eyebrow, waiting for the captainâs orders. He nodded. âLetâs head out.â
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âThereâs a problem on the flight deck.â Hill informed you, looking at the alert.Â
âAlright. Iâll-â
âStay with Hill!â
You rolled your eyes at Steveâs voice through the comms. âSorry, Cap. Youâre breaking up.â
âI know Iâm not, Y/N! Iâm serious! Stay there!â
But you were already moving towards the flight deck. âIâm not gonna sit on my ass here, Rogers! Hillâs got it covered! Iâm just gonna go check it out!â
âHoney-!â
âBubba!â
The line went quiet and for a moment you thought you lost connection. âPlease stay safe.â
You let out a sigh at his quiet pleads, nodding even though he couldnât see you. âThat goes for you, too, Steve.â
By the time you got out there, most of the jets were in flames, pilots and crew members scattered around the deck. You scanned the wreckage, trying to find the source-
A gunshot made your head whip to the side. Found it. Or, more accurately, him.
He was standing on top of one of the jets, gun pointed down at the pilot that was sitting in it. Before he could slip in the cockpit, though, you took out your gun and fired at him. Even though you knew who he was, when he looked at you it made your blood run cold. It was confirmation - not that you didnât trust Steve - but still. Seeing is believing. yet seeing the same eyes youâd seen sparkling up at you from pictures now staring you down, void of any emotion? It was hard to believe it was the same person.
âOh shit. Bubs?â
âWhat?! Whatâs wrong?! Are you okay?!â
You took a couple steps back as the Winter Soldier, no. Bucky - Steveâs Bucky - strode towards you. âUhâŚnothing, nothing. I just I, uh, found your Bucky.â
âY/N, get outta there now! I told you to stay with Hill!â
âFuck!â You dove out of the way as the assassin started shooting at you. âNowâs not the time for reprimanding, Steven!â
You tuned out his cursings so as to not get distracted when you became engaged in a hand-to-hand fight with the fucking Winter Soldier.
âHi.â You grunted, ducking under his arm and throwing a kick at him, faking it at the last second. Except, heâd already grabbed your ankle. But you did kick him with your other foot. ButâŚhe didnât really move and it made you fall back, soâŚfail. You let out a grimace when the wind was knocked out of you, but you couldnât lay there for long as he moved to slam his foot down. You rolled out of the way, swinging your legs up to hit him in the back of the knee. âNice to finally meet you.â
He growled as Sam exclaimed, âare you seriously chatting with him?â
âItâs mostly one sided - dammit!â The both of you had gotten on your feet again, and you tried hooking your left knee around his left shoulder to tug him down, but he had slammed you against a jet, your leg stretched in a very uncomfortable position as your free foot stood on your toes. He had his metal arm - which no one had informed you about and you were kinda salty about it - against your throat, his other hand coming up in a fist.
Bouncing on your toes a bit, you finally lifted your free leg up to knee him in the side of his face, making you wince slightly at the stretch and the burn in your left thigh, which was the only thing besides his metallic limb holding you up against the jet.
He stumbled to the side, throwing you by the leg on his shoulder. You went sprawling against the pavement, a hiss leaving your lips at the serious roadburn you no doubt just got. Sitting up quickly, not wanting him to get the upper hand, you let out a breath seeing him swiftly moving into the cockpit of the jet he just had you pinned against.
âGuysâŚheâsâŚheading your wayâŚjust aâŚheads up. AlsoâŚthank you. It was niceâŚto fucking knowâŚabout the metal armâŚbeforehand. Iâm just gonnaâŚrest here for a minuteâŚâ
âYouâre not hurt too bad, are you?â
âNo, Cap. No, justâŚgonna be aching for a while. UghâŚâ Begrudgingly, you got up to your feet. âI think Iâm gonnaâŚgo back and chill with Maria.â
âTold you so.â
âShut up, finish your job, and donât die, Rogers! And next time, please, for the love of God, mention the metal arm!â
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This is the first album you complete own â just you, with all the rights and the master recordings. So, best believe Tomâs throwing a big fucking celebration for the release night.
Youâre all gathered in the living with glasses of alcohol in your hands and snacks on the coffee table for self-serving. With the album over an hour long, youâve decided to skip around the tracks a little bit, letting everyone pick and choose so they can listen to it fully on their own time.
Tom has claimed which track will be the first to play when the clock strikes midnight: London Boy. When you announced the tracklist on social media, there was quite a lot of hype around track eleven, and god almighty you were certain youâd be outed for your complete infatuation for your boyfriend.
âYour secrecy remains no more in just a few minutes, love,â Tom comes up behind you, hand finding a comfortable place on the small of your back while he whispers into your ear, beer in his left hand. You know what heâs talking about before he even utters the words â he just wants to hear this project. Youâve been talking about it for so long, so much that Tom came to the studio a few times.
âLess than a minute!â Harrison shouts with a toothy grin, readjusting himself on the armchair.
âCâmon,â Tom links your hands and drags you over to the couches. You share a loveseat with him, and just as he places his glass on the coffee table, you check the time.
âOh my god,â you whisper, hand clutching your heart. âItâs out. Oh my-â
âQuick!â Tom interrupts excitedly. âSomebody play London Boy through the speakers!â
âTom-â
âShush, love. Iâm your fan before anything else.â
You chuckle but give in, clicking the track and letting the intro play. Tom furrows his brows and looks at you for confirmation on who he thinks is speaking.
âJames CordenâŚ?â
âYep,â You smile almost shyly, and it makes Tom coo. âRemember when I had that interview and you were waiting for me backstage?â
Tom nods in understanding before his eyes turn soft. âThatâs a cute tribute-y reference.â
âYeah, yeah,â You wave him off in a state of flux and bashfulness.
The track continues to play, and you gauge Tomâs reaction the entire time. When the first verse mentions an accent, Tomâs reverted back into his memories when youâd first obsessed over how hot his voice and accent is. His eyes turn to you, and he blushes when he realizes your face is scrunched up so you can avoid talking about how mushy youâre being in the song.
âThis entire song is just a lyrical Tom Holland obsession,â Harrison pouts. âGross. You two are gross. Give the world a break.â
âShut up, Iâm trying to listen, you div!â Tom flicks Harrisonâs knee and the blonde feigns a dramatic gasp while you chuckle to yourself.
The end of the chorus makes Tomâs eyes widen, realizing how knee deep you are in this song â itâs the entirety of your feelings for Tom summarized in one song. He doesnât know if he should kiss you, scream in excitement, or sing along. He decides that at some point tonight heâll end up doing all three.
At the end of the second verse, when the music is narrowed down to merely your voice, Tom loses his cool. You hide your face in your hands, pushed over the edge in shyness.
âLove,â Tom coos, pulling your hands away from your face and intertwining your fingers. âThat is my favorite song in the entire fucking world. You are literally the cutest person I have ever met- and you wrote a song about me?â His entire expression softens and he looks like a human puppy. Heâs like a teddy bear, and as he pulls you into his embrace, you hum in content and decide that he is a teddy bear.
âOkay, Iâd hate to break up whatever mushy grossness this is,â Harrison pipes up, face in his phone, âBut twitter is freaking out. Like a lot. If I were you Iâd-â âOh shit, I forgot about the babes,â You pull away from Tom, hand reaching for your phone thatâs charging on the small table beside the arm of the couch. Your fingers work faster than your mind, and before you know it, your eyes are flooded with messages from both yours and Tomâs fans.
âanyone peeping london boy??? đâ
âwait but y/n totally wrote this abt tom⌠đŠâ
âNO BUT THE PUB AND RUGBY LINE⌠THIS IS SO TOMâ
Not only was your timeline full of hype about the track, but it was trending number two in the United States alone, with over 30 thousand tweets in less than an hour.
You glance up after a few quiet moments, eyes locking with Tomâs. Your jaw drops in surprise, something that causes Tom to chuckle breathily.
âLove,â He clicks the off button of his cell phone. âYouâre trending on twitter.â
âMe? Youâre the one whoâs trending too!â
âIâm not the one who wrote the song!â
You scrunch your face with a small whine, head falling into Tomâs chest in a huffy hug. He laughs again, and he can tell how flustered youâre getting.
âJust love you a lot, âs all,â You mumble into his shirt, stumbled hands gripping his. Tomâs movements falter as a blush coats his cheeks. He glances down into his lap, where your head lays in embarrassment.
âYeah?â His hand smoothes over your hair sweetly. âI love being your London boy.â
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Hey babe <3 Here's a soulmate concept for you: soulmates share a braincell and all of the same kinks. (It's us. This is a callout post for us)
Soooo this is going undercut from the get go... I wasnât sure how I was going to write this but once I started I kinda fell in love with it. Itâs also late so Iâm not sure how effective proof reading was....
Geraskier modern AU - Soulmates but kinky? 1.4k.
Warning: 18+, no actual sex but this is very horny...., mentions of sex toys, masturbation, handcuffs... and more? Seriously... 18+ Only.
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Geralt was having a shit day, shit week really. Ciri had been sent home from school the day before for fighting with one her classmates, despite the fact that she had been defending herself from a bully. Work at the fire station had been especially draining too, non-stop calls all week. He was irrationally angry at the world, not helped by the burning itch under his skin. Heâd been unbelievably frustrated all week and no matter how much he jerked off in the shower, he just couldnât get rid of that ache at his core. His dreams this week had been pure filth, dreams of bursting through a window into a burning building to rescue the most beautiful man heâd ever seen, gorgeous cornflower blue eyes that haunted him even during his waking hours.
Dandelionâs eyes.
He groaned and pinched the bridge of his nose. His infatuation with the OnlyFans star was getting out of hand. Heâd discovered Dandelion just over a year ago, his dating life was non-existent and he had been getting unbearably horny. Heâd stumbled upon Dandelion on a desperate bid to sate his growing urges. It had worked for a few months, but lately it had only been getting worse again. Every Monday evening heâd spend in frustrated torment, dreaming of Dandelion in lingerie, or watching him as he brought himself to the edge of an orgasm before letting out a pitiful whine as he gripped the base of his cock before he could come. This week heâd been plagued with the thought of Dandelion going about his day with a plug up his arse so that, by the time he was ready to record his video, he could get straight to fucking himself on his favourite bright pink vibrator.
The thought of the lube sliding down Dandelionâs thick thighs as he pulled out the plug had been enough to send Geralt over the edge as he bit down on his hand, come painting the bathroom tiles white before being washed away.
The weirdest part about Geraltâs fantasies was that no matter what he thought, or dreamt during the week, Dandelionâs videos would match when they were released on Wednesday. So Geralt was taking bets on either a role-play where Dandelion needed rescuing or the butt plug, he was secretly hoping butt plug, the fireman rescue scenario would be too close to home. He was already struggling to put distance between his life and Dandelionâs online one. He sighed and pulled out his phone to check the time. The video wouldnât be released for another couple of hours at least, which was fine. He wouldnât be able to watch it until Ciri was safely tucked up in bed, the unenviable life of a single parent. First he needed to finish the grocery shopping, pick up Ciri from school, cook dinner, help Ciri with her homework and then maybe watch some TV with her before he could bundle her upstairs to bed. It felt like an awful lot of work for his day off.
He groaned again, thinking about Dandelion in public had been a mistake, and one heâd made countless times before. If he were the superstitious type, he might have said that Dandelion was his soulmate. There were all sorts of papers and articles that suggested that soulmates existed, that your soulmate was one that understood you on a level that no one else did, that you in some way were telepathically linked. On one hand it would explain how a random OnlyFans porn star knew exactly what Geralt had been dreaming of all week despite the fact he never mentioned it in his comments, on the other hand it was bullshit.
Utter bullshit.
He grumbled under his breath and went in search of the snack aisle. Heâd been craving white chocolate covered pretzels all day and Ciri had finished his supply off without telling him. He was so lost in thought that he didnât notice the other man standing by his favourite snacks until it was too late. He crashed into him, putting his arms around the other man to stop him from falling.
And suddenly bright cornflower blue eyes were staring up at him.
âFuck!â
Geralt stared back into the eyes of Dandelion⌠the man heâd been infatuated with for months.
âUmm⌠hi?â Dandelion gave a little wave, biting his lip and running his hand through his soft brunet hair. Geralt swallowed as Dandelion released his lip, a move heâd done thousands of times in his videos.
âSorry,â Geralt grumbled. âWasnât thinking straight.â
Dandelion laughed, a beautiful musical laugh that was even more captivating in person. âOh darling, I never think straight. Iâm Jaskier, by the way.â
Dandelion, no Jaskier, extended his hand and Geralt took it, surprised by his firm grip.
âGeralt.â
âWhite chocolate covered pretzel?â Jaskier asked, tilting his head and passing Geralt a box.
Geralt blinked and took the box without thinking. âThanks.â
Geraltâs thoughts were going a hundred miles an hour and yet he could only manage single syllable words whilst Jaskier smiled at him, brighter than the fucking sun. Fuck, fuck, fuck. He was so smitten.
Shit.
Jaskier just laughed again, his hand gripping Geraltâs arm. âForgive me for being bold, but you sir, are fucking gorgeous.â
Geralt licked his lips, barely resisting the urge to push the brunet up against the shelves and kiss him senseless, but he knew he needed to tell Jaskier the truth before anything else was said. âYouâre Dandelion.â
Jaskier blushed very prettily and scratched the back of his neck. âAh. Yes. Hello.â
âSorry, I thought you should know,â Geralt frowned, he hadnât meant to make Jaskier uncomfortable. âI umm⌠I like your videos.â
Fuck, why had he said that?
Jaskier laughed, the sounding easing the tension in Geraltâs shoulders, and winked. âOh so do I, theyâre a pleasure to make.â
Geralt smiled at the joke. âWhatâs the video this week?â
âThat would be telling. What would you like it to be, Geralt?â Geralt name fell from his lips like fucking prayer.
Geraltâs mouth went dry as he thought about his fantasies from Monday night, and the dreams of rescuing Dandelion that had he rutting against his bedsheets in his sleep. âHad a couple of ideas.â
Jaskier raised an eyebrow at him. âOh really?â
âYeah.â
âWell how about you give me your number, and we can discuss this somewhere more⌠private?â
Geralt nodded and they exchanged numbers. Geralt felt like heâd stepped into a fever dream, why Jaskier hadnât been put off when heâd admitted he was a fan, he had no idea, but he wasnât complaining. Theyâd only just met but Geralt couldnât shake the feeling that Jaskier was going to change his life. He felt lighter already, the day seemed brighter. He was just saying goodbye to Jaskier when the man shuffled awkwardly, letting out a soft moan, his face flushing deep crimson.
âJaskier?â
âFuck, sorry. I umm, Iâm filming a bonus video later tonight. Once Iâve posted Mondayâs. It needed a little prep work,â Jaskier admitted with a sheepish smile. âIf you catch my drift.â
Geralt blinked at Jaskier. âThe fuck?â He muttered mostly to himself. âYou didnât happen to record a role-play on Monday did you?â
Jaskierâs eyes went wide and his jaw dropped. âHow did you know?â
âItâs gonna sound stupid.â
âTell me.â
Geralt took a deep breath and then closed his eyes, not wanting to see Jaskierâs face when he admitted it. âBeen dreaming about it. Your videos always seem to align with my dreams, or umm⌠thoughts when Iâm alone.â
âLike⌠soulmates?â Jaskierâs hand was on his cheek, the contact burning his skin and he felt a swell of arousal, heat prickling his skin.
âNever believed in that,â Geralt admitted, opening his eyes to find Jaskier gazing back at him with wide hopeful eyes that made Geralt feel strangely warm inside. âStarting to wonder though.â
Jaskier leaned in, brushing his lips against Geraltâs cheek. âCall me, Geralt, who knows maybe Iâll even make a video specially for you? OrâŚâ Jaskier smirked, winking in a way that should have been illegal âyou could always join me. Thereâs some things Iâve been dying to film that simply require a partner.â
âIâll bring the handcuffs,â Geralt murmured so that only Jaskier could hear.
Jaskier laughed. âOh we are going to get along splendidly, Geralt.â
Geralt chuckled as Jaskier sauntered away down the aisle, filling his basket with Geraltâs favourite foods. âSoulmates,â he scoffed.
Maybe it wasnât bullshit after all.
#the witcher#geraskier#modern au#geralt of rivia#jaskier pankratz#nsft#mind the rating#it gets spicy#wolfie's witcher writing#geraltrogerericduhautebellegarde
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âI donât know why Iâm crying I-Iâm sorryâ // angst and fluff âĽď¸
hi... i kind of wrote a small fic with that prompt. you can read it here or on ao3! thanks for this i really needed the motivation. i decided to write something about what happened after 8x06! <3Â
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Amy arrives home a little later than usual that night, overwhelmed with the events of the last few days. There are so many things to process, though the only thing she can focus on at the moment, is her husbandâs suspension. She knows Jake very well, and most likely heâll try to hide his sadness and pretend heâs fine, not because he thinks heâs weak but because he doesnât want Amy to worry about him. Yet, she canât help to wonder how heâs taking it.
Not knowing what to expect as she enters their apartment, Amy tosses her keys onto the couch sadly, too distracted to place them on the key hook. Jake is nowhere to be seen, so she figures he must be putting Mac to sleep, since itâs past ten already, and there are no toys scattered around the floor.
Indeed, she finds Jake whispering to his son, who lies in his crib, babbling and very, very awake, even though the lights are dimmed and it��s quiet in there.
âHey,â Amy says softly.
Despite her tone, Jake startles, turning around, but immediately relaxes when he sees itâs just her. âAmes,â he breathes, looking down at Mac and then back at his wife, guilt taking over his features. âI kind of let him take a nap earlier and now he canât sleepâŚâ
âItâs okay,â Amy says, shrugging. She wants to add something else to reassure him, but her mindâs entirely blank, so she settles for a casual question. âWhat did you two have for dinner?â
Jake smiles. âHe tried scrambled eggs for the first time. I know itâs technically breakfast food, but I read he can eat them now, plus itâs what I cook best.â
âAnd?â
âHe loved them, duh.â
Amy chuckles. âOf course. Did you have some too?â
âI⌠wasnât really hungry.â
âOh. Well, I havenât eaten either. We can heat some leftovers if you want.â
Jake nods with a weak smile, which widens as he turns to check on Mac. âHey, heâs asleep! Maybe he just needed to make sure mama arrived home safe.â
Amy leans over to look at her sleeping son. Mac looks so much like his dad, when he laughs or smilesâwhich heâs been doing recently a lotâbut especially when heâs asleep and completely peaceful.
She turns to see Jake staring at their baby with a proud smile and it warms her heart. Perhaps heâs forgotten about the suspension.
âLeftovers, then?â she whispers after a while, grabbing him by the wrist to pull him a little closer to her.
âSure,â he says, throwing a last glance at Mac before following Amy out of their room and closing the door behind him. Theyâve learned to make as little noise as possible in the last ten months, so their voices are barely above a whisper by default whenever Mac is asleep.
As itâs routine, Jake turns on the TV, not choosing a channel, and mutes it before joining Amy in the kitchen, while she gets the food from the fridge and puts it in the microwave.
From the corner of her eye, she can see Jake leaning against the counter in an awkward pose, staring at her almost anxiously.
Amy has no idea how to ask the question sheâs been wanting to ask him since she got there, so she takes a deep breath and turns to him. âBabe, are you⌠okay with it?â
His expression tells her heâs been dreading her to ask. Yet, he plays dumb. âWith what?â
âWith everything that happened. Your suspensionâŚâ
âOh,â Jake spats after what seems like hours, as if every emotion he was supposed to be feeling before was just settling in. Amyâs stomach drops. These subjects might not be her thing. âItâs fine. I suppose I can talk about it, but is it necessary?â
She shrugs. âJust tell me.â Her voice is as soft as it can be. âHow do you feel about it?â
Jake puts on a poker face now. Sheâs usually good at reading him, but she canât tell what heâs thinking. Amy knows how much he enjoys his job. Everything had happened so fast, though, at some point sheâd lost track of it all. One second he was very excited about his âSpeedâ situation and then, suddenly, he was in too deep.
To sum it up, it hadnât gone well.
âI feel weird,â Jake finally admits, looking down. âIt feels weird to know I wonât be going back tomorrow. But Iâll⌠adapt, I guess.â
âIâm sure you will,â she automatically replies, hesitating a little before placing a hand on his chest.
He seems to attempt a smile, but it vanishes right away. âI feel stupid too. Why canât I listen? Holt told me to stay out of it and I screwed up. I screw up a lot.â
Amy frowns. âOf course you donât. Sometimes you can be silly, yes, but thereâs nothing wrong with it. This time it just⌠it got out of my hands too. I was really drunk.â
Jake chuckles. âYeah,â he says shortly, and then swallows. âSo five months, huh? It isnât that much, is it? There are like thirty days in a month so it would be like a hundred days which have twenty-four hours each, so it would be like twenty-four thousand hours.â
âNo,â she says, shaking her head with a smile. Math is decidedly not Jakeâs strength. âItâs only like⌠three thousand and seven hundred hours.â
âOh. Thatâs⌠still a lot.â
Amy sighs. His eyes are red, probably with exhaustion, and she canât recognize the emotion behind them. It might be just deep, deep sadness.
âAmes,â he says huskily before she can talk. âWhat am I gonna do?â
Her eyebrows shot up, but before she can even think of an answer, Jake cuts her off again. âThings were so well yesterday. It makes me think⌠I can mess everything up so quickly. And itâs always my fault. What am I gonna mess up next?â
âDonât say that,â she says, her throat knotting. âItâs okay to make mistakes, babe. And you are great at dealing with the consequences. You learn from your mistakes, youâve always done.â
âYeah, I keep pushing things until something goes wrong,â he argues in a trembling voice, âand until then I stop, Iââ and suddenly that trembling voice breaks.
Amyâs stomach drops again as his eyes tear up, becoming redder. He immediately looks away when he realizes himself.
âHey,â she says soothingly, cupping his face to make him look at her. âDonât beat yourself up over this.â
âIâm sorry,â he chokes. âI know itâs a dumb thing to cry over, I justââ once more heâs unable to finish his sentence, pinching his lips shut before his voice can get any louder or high-pitched.
A single tear streams down his cheek.
âItâs not dumb,â Amy says. âIf it makes you feel like this, itâs not dumb.â
âWell, I got myself into itââ
âAnd as I said, you will learn from it. Thatâs what matters.â
âIâve been suspended like a thousand times already,â he counters, his tone bitter. "What makes you think it wonât happen again? What makes you think I couldnât get fired?â
She shrugs, trying to stay calm even though she wants to cry as well. âI wouldnât be less proud of you than I am today,â she says. âYouâve grown up so much and whatever you have to deal with, I have to deal with too, because I love you and Iâm willing to. So please, donât beat yourself up over this because itâs going to be fine.â
He sniffs. âHow can you know that?â
âBecause Iâll make sure everythingâs fine. Youâre not alone, babe. You have me.â
Jake stays in silence for a few seconds, and she thinks heâs going to start sobbing, but his lips curl instead. âI love you so much,â is all he says.
âI love you too,â she mouths back, afraid sheâll begin crying if she talks, and then pulls him into a hug.
They stay like that for a while, maybe five seconds or ten minutes, sinking in a silence that they donât really mind. She pulls away from his embrace only to wipe his tears away. Jake looks so tired. Exhausted, even. She feels the same way, when minutes ago they were going to watch some TV and have dinner, though now sheâs not sure sheâs up for it.
Jake must have been thinking the same thing because a small laugh comes from his lips all of a sudden.
âWhat?â Amy asks, amused.
âI just realized we never even heated the food.â
Amy chuckles, and it only causes him to laugh a little harder. She wonders if itâs the exhaustion making such a simple detail seem so funny, and rests her head on his chest, feeling his heartbeat. Itâs calmer now, it could be matching hers.
âBabe,â she says softly.
âYes?â Jake hums.
âItâs going to be fine. I promise.â
He doesnât answer right away, and Amy separates, afraid she said the wrong thing, but Jakeâs only bowing his head like she said the cheesiest thing in the world.
âI know. Thanks, Ames,â he says, and then adds, âI love you.â Even though she hears those words coming from him at least ten times a day, he manages to make them sound like itâs the first every time.
âI love you too,â Amy whispers, leaning in to kiss his cheek.
Jake is about to return a much longer kiss on the lips when Mac interrupts the moment. Amy squeezes her eyes shut with a knowing smileâthis has happened many times before. However, Jake immediately becomes alert and rushes to attend to his son.
Amy chuckles to herself, finally heating the food which is still inside the microwave and turns off the TV, because they are definitely not watching anything before they fall asleep, worn off with the events.
Like Jake would say, theyâre sort of an old couple now, but she couldnât care less. To her, so far, itâs meant that things can be so easy now.
Her husband doesnât join her back in the kitchen so she goes and checks on him and Mac. The room feels so warm and quiet still, as Jake rocks his son softly, lulling him, again not realizing Amyâs watching. It always seems like he drifts away from reality when heâs trying to make Mac stop cryingâand heâs good at it. She doesnât know what it is, but Jake is great at it.
âI have to admit,â Amy says, startling him of course, âIâm a little jealous of you. You get to spend five months with him, all by yourself.â
Jake gives her what looks like an automatic smile, and then realization hits him. âI hadnât thought about that before,â he huffs, stroking Macâs soft curls and looking down at him. âDid you hear that, bud? Five months for only the two of us.â
Mac babbles, and Amy tries to ignore how awake he still sounds. âCareful, Ames,â Jake tells her. âThat sounded a lot like âdadaâ, and with these five months? Itâs definitely going to be his first word.â
Amy rolls her eyes with a playful smile. âNot if I train him every night.â
âChallenge accepted.â
An hour later theyâre both in bed after eating dinner and Amy has already changed into her pajamas. Jake hasnât stopped rocking Mac, who woke up once more, but his father doesnât seem to mind, and Amy has the feeling that his suspension doesnât sound so bad to him anymore.
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#this is the first time i post a fic!!#i let myself go#it's 1.9 k words i think#anyway i'm excited to know what you think!#i enjoyed writing this a lot#it had been ages since i wrote anything like this#so THANK YOU anon#ilysm#jake peralta#amy santiago#mac peralta#b99 fanfic#fluff#angst#comfort
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How To Keep Your Demon Entertained At A Walmart
Congratulations! You've earned yourself a few demon date days up in the human world! But what's this? You have errands to run? Well, we all know these demons can't function without you for more than five minutes....but an entity that's thousands of years old gets a little bored and restless in the hyper-market wasteland of a Walmart...
Nowdateables: coming soon!
Lucifer
if you don't want him getting passive-aggressive about how you should've done this before he got here (yeesh Lucifer some of us have jobs or responsibilities that we can't shove onto our siblings for a day to see our precious mc) then you better be ready to make conversation
definitely not the type to allow you to even think about sending him off so you can get stuff done. he's not even that bothersome, so he'll get offended if you even think about it, but also wouldn't you rather keep him around to reach the top shelves?
basically if you donât want to keep Lucifer entertained, you have to be the one he needs to keep entertained
do that thing where you roll around on the cart like a skateboard and heâll be trying to put a stop to it immediately
put random things in your cart that he knows you donât need and let him take it out and put it back where it belongs
stare him in the eyes as you put that party size brownie mix in your cart then speed walk away. he will come up from an aisle in front of you and silently pluck the box out and take it back. he will come back to see seven boxes of corn dogs and momentarily considers breaking up with you
does not need a treat as a bribe, but will definitely forgive your antics if you bought something from the bakery to snack on as you go home (especially if you did it without him noticing, considering the eagle eye heâs had to have on your cart the whole time)
just donât have the nerve to complain about the crumbs in your car after that
Mammon
I would say to ask him to scan the area looking for dropped coins on the floor but he'd probably knock down shelves trying to look beneath them so....maybe don't?
also please keep an eye on him or he WILL be shoplifting. human jail is (probably?) a step up from demon jail but like. let's aim for no jail, ok mammon?
instead, give him a pre-portioned off list and tell him it's like a scavenger hunt. he'll scamper off to explore the walmart and his duty to keeping you happy has like a 70% chance of preventing him from stealing anything too important
make sure the stuff you put on the list is kind of hard to find but not too hard. you wanna keep him occupied without risking him freaking out because he can't find this super specific spice you want
either that or only make a really vague list like. tell him you need bread and he'll stand in the bread aisle trying to remember if you like white bread or whole wheat bread until you come to retrieve him
bring money for a treat. if it's near st patrick's day go in the seasonal aisle and hope they have chocolate gold coins
he's not too hard to deal with, but figuring out what's sneaky enough to put on the list is a chore of its own so going by yourself is less work anyway
Leviathan
taking him to walmart was your final fatal mistake
seriously? he has to go in? you could have just left him in the car!!
you take him intending to have him pick out some normie snacks (since you don't have any limited edition whatever-the-fucks in your house right now) but he looks so uncomfortable you make a detour towards the games
just leave him to play on the trial device and go pick out a few things for him to choose from when you circle back to him
arguable the least stressful trip for you until you have to wade through the pool of kids surrounding him and watching him play when it's time to pay and leave
you won't have to buy him anything but you will have to wait for him to finish the level he's on before he lets you drag him away. and he'll probably complain a little bit in the car about how terrible it was to go in in the first place, which a treat would help minimize.
so i guess just pick your battles with this one?
Satan
satan is a refined individual with startling amounts of self control. he does not need pointed in the direction of the books. he can entertain himself on a grocery run.
point him in the direction of the books anyway
their selection is always small (because itâs a walmart not a bookstore) and half of it is childrenâs anyway so heâll probably wander off real quick
satan doesnât need to be entertained, no, heâs past that. he needs to be kept on a leash
you have no way of knowing where heâll end up. sometimes heâll be somewhere that makes sense like in the stationary but sometimes youâll find him staring at the paint samples like itâs a masterpiece in a museum or over by the fishing hooks reading up about local fish populations and how to get a fishing license and youâre just like â???? iâve been looking for you for twenty minutes???? donât give me facts about salmon???â
will ask you why you need to buy tires in the same place you get your food. isnât that suspicious? what do they specialize in?
answer him only with the word âbargainsâ and heâll stop asking once he understands or gets annoyed
you donât need to buy him a treat unless he finds a book he wants. then come on mc, you dragged him out here and youâre NOT gonna let him get this one thing??
Asmodeus
he's fine with making an errand run with you actually!
he's up on the human world for you baby, just make sure to hold his hand so he feels appreciated
asmo is far too entertained with the concept of a walmart for his own good. don't go with him if you want it to be a quick trip because he'll want to go around the whole store
thinks at first that it's kind of nifty that humans just dump all the things they need in one store but is quickly turned off from the novelty when he realizes how short the distance is between the clothes and the nearest package of raw chicken
even if the selection is small, he will want to spend time in the makeup department. probably goes on rants about how he canât imagine this quality of product is good for your skin
will still buy nail polish though if you let him
overall? not terrible to have around, but make sure you donât have anywhere to be in the next hour when you take him
Beelzebub
pack a gallon bag of cheerios like he's a toddler and get ready to fucking book it in and out of there
you know how you should never go grocery shopping when youâre hungry? what were you thinking bringing Beel around??
another brother whoâs good for reaching tall shelves if you need it
Beel also has this talent where he can just list off the ingredients you need if you happen to forget your list
if you want, you can distract him momentarily by just throwing out random dishes and heâll get the ingredients right every time (even though theyâre human dishes!!) but youâll end up giving him like five different cravings by the time you leave
only take him if you want to speedrun grocery shopping, because he will start eating food you havenât paid for if you take too long
bring extra money for that too, just in case he gets caught :(
Belphegor
bringing belphie to walmart isn't a matter of keeping him entertained moreso than keeping him awake
which you will inevitably fail to do
so even if you only need like three things, get him a cart and let him fall into the basket
heâll try to stay awake (and heâll give very self-satisfied grins to the people who stare at him ((and especially the ones who say âwow i wanna do thatâ))) but he can only fight off his sin for so long
stop by the blankets so he can stuff a few soft things in (bc heâs gotta be uncomfortable cramped in the little basket) and heâll make himself a tiny nest
the good news is you can put anything on top of him and he wonât complain. just donât drop any gallons of milk on him or anything thatâll wake him up
go to a self check-out so the employees donât yell at you
after you put your groceries in your car, just dump his ass on the pavement. heâll forgive you if you bought him the blankets.
#this came to me in a dream and i thought it was funny#walmart is just such a weird place....#obey me#obey me shall we date#shall we date obey me#obey me swd#lucifer#mammon#leviathan#satan#asmodeus#beelzebub#belphegor#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me leviathan#obey me satan#obey me asmodeus#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphegor#long post#lucifer hcs#mammon hcs#leviathan hcs#satan hcs#asmodeus hcs#beelzebub hcs#belphegor hcs#my fics#lucifer writing
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learn the dead | Arthur/Eames
Read here on ao3 or continue below Tags: Presumed Dead, First Time, Angst with a happy ending, pining Rating: T Wordcount: 5,4kÂ
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Everything checks out.Â
The hospital records, the police report, even the fucking local news because, to quote scruffy looking anchor, with a stutter no less, âThere hasâ snât been an lethal accâsident for over ten years on this sâstreet.âÂ
The information is bare-bones, but that isnât remarkable for an open and shut case like this: drunk driver meets tree trunk. Happens a thousand times a year, and will continue to happen whether you make a fuss out of it or not. Write down the licence plate, try (and fail) to inform relatives, do the paperwork and get home on time for dinner for once. Simple as pie.Â
Except. Except Arthur wouldnât have. He wouldnât have driven drunk. His stick reaches too far up his ass to do something so utterly reckless in reality.Â
That thought is what had spurred Eames to begin his searchâ there had to be something, anything, that could explain the whole bullshit situation. Even if that something is a hit, covered up like an accident. Then at least Eames would have some to blameâ Someone to kill.Â
But everything checks out.Â
Even that initial discrepancy. Arthur couldnât have been drunk, but after many phone calls and bribes, Eames had learned what Arthur could have been.Â
He could have been high.Â
His last job had been an experimental trial. Not with a chemist Eames knew. An academic who had shit his pants when Eames barged in with a smile as sharp as a knifeâ and a knife in his hand, of course. Wouldnât do to be less than intimidating in this case. The chemist had spluttered into a rant Eames had understood half of, so heâd called Yusuf and held the phone up without responding to the cursing at being awoken in the middle of the night. But heâd caught on quickly, started to ask questions Eames wouldnât have thought to ask. Then more, sharper. With a hiss. Â
âWhat is he saying?â Eames had asked, after the chemist had run out of breath.Â
âEamesââÂ
The way Yusuf sounded, a sigh more than an utterance. The tone of his voice as it tried to fold in pityâ badly. Yusuf was never quite made for compassion. Though the attempt had been enough to haunt Eamesâ nightmares since.Â
âEames. Heâs dead.âÂ
The confirmation had come without fanfare in the end. Eames didnât even kill the chemist, after. It hadnât been his fault that the mix Arthur had taken voluntarily turned out to suppress reflexes when tired. Not tired as they would call itâ after a rush job, when exhaustion nipped at your heels. Just tired; about to drink a cup of coffee tired. Arthur probably hadnât even felt any different until it was too late. But it had been raining, and heâd been driving for more than six hours. It was no oneâs fault that Arthur had lost control over the vehicle just in front of the only tree in a three mile radius.There had been a rabbit flattened between the car and the bark. Heâd probably been trying to save it.Â
A fucking rabbit.Â
Eames had hung up on Yusuf without a word. It had been the last time heâd spoken to anyone for a long time.Â
Except that isnât quite true.Â
âWell, darling, youâve gotten me in quite a pickle.âÂ
The grave doesnât respond. It never does.Â
â â â â â
If someone had told him that his reaction to Arthurâs death would be to stand before his grave every day for a month straight, he'd have laughed his lungs out of his chest.Â
It wouldâve been sad, of course, to see such a talented colleague go. He might even have gone on a bender for a weekâ drinking away the sorrows that come with a lost acquaintanceâ maybe a friend. But heâd have better things to do than indulge himself for longer than that. Heâd been indulging himself with Arthur for far too long, and death should have been the end to it.Â
Because he had been thinking about it, sometimes, when he was feeling fanciful. You would have had to be blind not to see the chemistry. The push and pull that led to delicious flirtation â as much as Arthur wanted to deny it â and even more delicious dreamsharing. They made each other better and that was honestly the only thing Eames ever looked for, when, if ever, he thought about that nebulous concept of âsettling downâ.Â
So yes, there would be something more to losing Arthur. Eames had known even then. It was losing that slight hint of potential. Though that is always a treacherous word.Â
Because he never truly believed heâd make it that farâ not just with Arthur, who wouldâve laughed even harder if Eames were ever to confess his vague future plans for them â but with life in general. Why plan for something that would be cut short anyway? Even if Arthur could be persuaded to make something out of the spark between them, it wouldâve been cruel to do so. Eames knew himself well. He wouldnât have stopped taking risks, stop wanting more-- craving freedom like a drug. The idea to set Arthur up for inevitable heartbreak had been enough to avoid thinking about practical steps. A fantasy was fine. Eames got paid to live in them. He didnât get paid for reality.Â
So, Arthurâs death would of course be sad. But it shouldnât have been more than another scar on his backâ the punishment of the trade he chose, along with a whisper of nostalgia at losing a construct of his imagination. Even he wouldnât have had the heart to keep the fantasy of a dead man alive for his own entertainment. A week, a few drinks, and it shouldâve been over.Â
It shouldnât have destroyed him.Â
âI just never thought Iâd be the one left behind, darling,â Eames says to the wet dirt below him. It feels off to tell the headstone itselfâ the name is fake. Aaron Fister. Arthur had thrown a knife past his head when Eames had shown him the forged papers. To say he regrets the joke now is an understatement.Â
âIn all fairness, it shouldâve been you here, it would make more sense for you to fall in love with me, once Iâm not there to bother you anymore. Absentia makes the heart go fonder, hmm?âÂ
The dirt seems to be judging him. Itâs good that some things never change.Â
âI knowâ I know it's hypocritical. I didnât evenâ I didnât even love you. It was just a game. A fun thing to theorise about when the goings got tough. Would you be as snappish if we lived together? Would you forgive me faster if I sucked you off? Would you kiss me goodbye in the airport?â Eames stops himself, and rubs a hand over his face, groaning. âItâs humiliating, darling. I shouldâve just gotten off at the thought of you like half of the dreamshare community was doing. Hand on or in their whatever and imagine you moaning next to them. But I had to be pathetic about it. Though this is reaching new heights, I must say.âÂ
He leaves, abruptly sick of himself. He comes back the next day, as always.Â
Some days, though, Eames doesnât devolve into confessions that make the little old ladies passing by their lost friendâs grave raise their eyebrows and linger by a random grave to listen anyway.Â
Some days, Eames is angry.Â
The first time, he breaks his toe in the process.Â
âYou bloody cunt!â Heâs aware that heâs shouting, but he doesnât stop. âNever experiment alone! Isnât that what you fucking say to the newbies? You need someone to be a baseline. Someone who can bring you home safe. You fuck. Why didnât you call me. Why didnât you fuckingââÂ
Kicking the gravestone had not been his best idea, but the pain of it brings a rush of satisfaction. There isâ so much, inside of him. Eames is drowning in it, and the throb in his feet cuts right through it. Clarity. He kicks again.Â
âYou fucking bastard.âÂ
The old ladies have gone from curious to concerned now. Eames hobbles away, hissing, before he gets a restraining order on a grave.Â
The next day heâs back, a bottle of whiskey in hand, and finds himself apologising.Â
âI knowâ I never made it quite clear that you could call me, for stuff like that. That I would pick up. Maybe I wouldnât have. Or no, I would have, but I might not have bothered for that. The jobsâ I knew how to handle you on the job. But outside of that. I donât think I wouldâve had the courage. I wouldnât think that way then, of course. Convince myself that Iâm above errand runs like that. Throw you a bone recommending some up and coming kid I knew or somethingâ intern type, for all that we have those here. But I donât think I wouldâve come. So it isnât your fault. You made a mistake, not getting back-up, but it isnât your fault. You didnât know you had any. And I didnât dare to believe I could be yours. That you would let me. That it wouldnât end in disaster.âÂ
Eames leans against the cold stone and sighs. ââSuppose it has, already. Wouldâve been too good to have it end any other way.âÂ
â â â â â
When Eames isnât in a graveyard, or in a bar, heâs in the warehouse.Â
It had felt too⌠personal, to get a hotel room for this. To do his research in a living room, as opposed to the dreary, dusty and echoey spaces where most of their professional relationship had flourished. Itâs too big for a one-man job, but Eames had managed to fill it up anyway. Boxes upon boxes of information, any trace of Arthur he could find. Every email, record, police report, college paperâ printed and archived. Eames can find his way through the documents blind and drunk. Arthur has taken over every nook and cranny of the warehouseâ and every nook and cranny of Eamesâ mind. Eames has read everything, twice over.Â
If Arthur had been alive to know, he wouldâve killed him.Â
Because Arthur had always been a private person, for all that he pries in the lives of clients and collaborators both. He was the one who asked the questions and rarely answered them. It had always been a luxuryâ a rare reward, to be thrown a scrap of information. Heâd always said something with that slight subtle smile, like he knew the power his breadcrumbs of personal life held over others. Everyone ravenous for more intel on one of the greatest pointmen of their generation.Â
How horrible is it then to revel in the mountains of information that Eames had been able to gather after his death. Heâd always known heâd had enough pull to find something, and after the inception job heâd had more than enough cash to buy the rest. But heâd never done it; at first because of the wrath that would quickly follow. Then because heâd known it would tarnish Arthurâs trust in himâ something heâd wanted to protect at all costs. And then lastly â but maybe from the start â because it was so much more thrilling to learn bit by bit, piece by piece. To earn his knowledge of Arthur, and to ensure that his curiosity would never run out. Heâd become slightly addicted to the feeling.Â
But now, with no one left to tell, it had only taken the excuse of the suspicious circumstances of his death for Eames to turn into the hoarder heâd always known he could be. It had gotten to a point where new packages arrived every so oftenâ criminals even beyond dreamshare having caught wind of an individual willing to invest heavily on any information. Someone had even hacked the pentagon to get classified documents. From the message on the box, the hacker thought they were helping a spy of some kind. Eames had sent him enough bitcoin to blow wind in the direction of that particular fire hearth of urban legend. Heâd rather have people think there is a whole network of people digging into this, than anyone realising itâs in truth only one pathetic man.Â
So Eames drinks. Eames talks to a grave. And Eames reads. It only takes him two boxes until Arthur makes him laugh for the first time since the car crash. It was due to a spirited essay on the importance of open source information that was clearly written to spite the professor leading the course, whoâd been forced to give it an A+ regardless. Eames had chuckled, imagining the self-righteous satisfaction of this young Arthur as he got his grade back, and then began crying. Not to grieve the loss of a future he hadnât realised how much he wanted, as is his wont, these days. But from the unfairness of it all. That a person like this, who had so much to say in this world, shouldâve been taken so early, and in such a meaningless way.Â
Arthur wouldâve denied it, but Eames knows heâd only be content with a death from sacrifice . Heâd shown that side of him clearly when he jumped into Cobbâs mess headfirst and without hesitation. If Arthur had died from a bullet taken for Cobb, Ariadne, or maybe even Eames, he wouldâve been at peaceâ or as much as you can while bleeding out.Â
Eames had known that, but as he learns more and more of Arthur, he realises how true it is. How, despite everything, Arthur cannot stop himself from being a silent hero. There are so many instances where Arthur, behind the screens, helps someone. Whether it was connecting the right people to each other under the mum of a potential project, or taking jobs way below his pay grade because he sympathised with the client, Arthur did not let their line of work destroy the possibility to be kind, every once in a while.Â
Itâs not like he advertised it. He didnât do it in a way people would recognize his actionsâ which was smart, as it could be seen as a weakness in their circles. But whenever the chance came along, even if it was to his own detriment, Arthur chose the rough road home if it would ease someone elseâs way.Â
And this, Eames realises, is the secret to his competency. All other pointmen are expert researchers through and through, but no one had the reach Arthur had. Arthur knew everything, and if he didnât know, he knew someone who knewâ and most importantly, someone who would tell him. Eames doesnât even know if Arthur ever realised that it was his kindesses, in and out the community, which led him into such a position of power. His actions are too random and inconsistent to be a strategic scheme to build an empire. Some of his biggest successes are results of a nicety five or ten years ago, something that he might have forgotten doing, but the people receiving it definitely havenât.Â
On the surface Arthur had been known as cool and effectiveâ someone with a distance to the rest of the world that resulted in a highly detailed overview of any situation, even if it brought a side of professionalism to even the most informal of interactions. The people who witnessed a more casual side of him were few and far in between, but even those came away with the impression that to Arthur, doing the job in the best way possible was the only drive to his actions.Â
No one had seen every little thing he did that had no other reason at all besides that he could do them for someone.
Eames maps out everything on the walls of the warehouse. And when he stands back to take it all in, he realises that more than anyone, the person Arthur had silently helped was him.Â
Everything heâd done for Cobb had been grand and obvious, but more out of loyalty to Mal and her children than kindness without any other motivation. And Ariadneâs training had been as much for the inception job than for herselfâ maybe introducing her to the life hadnât been a kindness at all. Continuing after could be seen as one, even if you could argue that her honing her raw talent would directly result in better and more stable dreams in later jobs.Â
But Eamesâ what Arthur had done for Eamesâ
Eames canât think of a single reason besides just being plain nice.Â
Because it hadnât been like he needed to. Eames had made him very clear that heâd be down for almost any job Arthur put in front of him. Just him being himself had always been enough, he didnât need to do him any favours to persuade him like everyone else did.
And maybe Arthur had gotten the memo, because heâd done Eames favours without ever telling him, and those you canât pay back. Eames had no idea the reason he got out of that trouble in Chicago was because Arthur bailed him outâ it was presented to him as a procedure mistake. And then there was the Telula job, with an extractor-architect team Eames had wanted to work with for ages, but the chemist theyâd been looking to hire was someone from Eamesâ not so smooth first years of dream-share and heâd almost cut out of the job to not be forced to confront that past. That was until the chemist suddenly dropped out with an offer he couldnât refuseâ an offer Arthur had been behind.Â
There were so many things like that. Little things, small thingsâ warehouses next to Eamesâ favourite restaurants; nuggets of information given anonymously through the channels of dreamshare gossip to hit Eamesâ ears right on time before a betrayal; a job a week delayed because of Eamesâ motherâs funeral.Â
Itâs not like Eames had been the only one, but he was by far the most frequent of all of them. More and more so over the years, like Arthur had been finding more reasons to be nice to him, while Eames had still been stuck in his pathetic imaginations, blind to what was already in front of him.Â
A friendship.Â
Heâd been so preoccupied with his own flights of fancy, that he only realises how close they had been all this time until it was too late to experience it. Too late to thank Arthur for everything heâs done.Â
The agony of itâ the longing. His heart thundering with the sudden need to have Arthur in his arms, alive and real andâ
âOh god. I love him.âÂ
Eames drinks until he canât remember. He manages to avoid the grave for a little while, but he doesnât last long. Inevitably heâs pulled back to the grave yard, whiskey in hand, ready to talk to the love he lost again.Â
â â â â â
His cemetery routineâ because he has one of those now â is usually to be at the grave around noon. Late enough to roll out of bed reasonably comfortably after a long night of drinking and/or reading, but early enough for there to be time left to check the new documents coming along and pay the right people before they send thugs to his hideout.Â
But this time the afternoon light shines golden over the rows and rows of headstones and Eames shivers in the Autumn breeze. The old ladies are all dressed in fur coats. He recognizes some of them, and wonders if they noticed he was gone. None of them greet him as he passes, so he assumes not.Â
Eames takes another sip of his bottle, allowing his feet to lead him over the familiar path up the hill, and then he drops his bottle all together.Â
A man is standing before the grave.Â
Tall, hunched a little in the wind. Long coat and thick black beanie. Nondescript. Anonymous.Â
He does not turn as Eames nears.Â
âYouâre late.âÂ
Eamesâ hand is on his gun at the first syllable, but before he can put it on his temple a leather gloved hand snatches it from his fingers. The clip ejects with a decisive click.Â
Arthur gives him an unimpressed look. âDonât be dramatic. We donât need a scene.âÂ
His faceâ a little gaunt. His eyesâ tense, intent, darker than they should be. Eames doesnât recognize the coat. But heâs there, pressed in close to hide the gun between their bodies. His breathâ warm, hits Eamesâ cheek. It isnâtâ It canât. He canât be breathing because heâsâ
Eames squeezes his eyes shut and thinks of metal against the palm of his hand, the smell of gunpowder.Â
A sigh falls between them. âIt wonât work. This isnât a dream, Eames.âÂ
The hell it isnât. âExperimental somacin, three levels.âÂ
Raised eyebrows shouldnât be audible only through speech. âDo you remember how you got here?âÂ
Eames opens his eyes and says, âDeep immersion dream.âÂ
Arthur huffs at that. âDo you really think theyâve been keeping you under for years? Fine. When have you last lost memories?âÂ
Oh, thatâs easy. âTwo days ago.âÂ
There is a pause, and Eames hates the fact that he can see the exact moment of tension in Arthurâs jaw that signals him suppressing a question. Itâs too detailed, too precise, too reâ
âLater,â Arthur murmurs under his breath, almost to himself. Like later is a given between them. He seems frustrated. His eyes keep flicking to the side and his hand hovers near Eamesâ arm, like heâs trying to keep himself from hurrying Eames along and is annoyed that Eames is stalling them.Â
âIâm sorry darling,ââ Eames drawls, âbut in case it has escaped your notice: we are having this discussion on your fucking grave, so forgive me for being reasonably sceptical about the reality of this situation.âÂ
Arthur breathes out a deep sigh, clenched teeth. âEames, think about it, is there any forger you know capable of forging me in a way you canât see through it? Or for that matter, is there anyone who would dare to try steal from the fucking person who invented the craft?âÂ
No. The answer is no. It hits Eames with a muffled weight. He wonders what his face is doing, but whatever it is, Arthur responds to it with a curt nod. It suddenly strikes Eames as absurdly hilarious, in the way only the most traumatic experiences can.Â
âYou know, complimenting me really doesnât help with the reality argument. Never mind doing it twice. Death changed you, darling.âÂ
Arthur stills in the middle of putting the clip back in Eamesâ gun. There is the slightest flicker of his lips, and he huffs. âMaybe it didâ can I trust you not to shoot yourself the moment I hand this back?âÂ
âCome on now Arthur,â Eames says, âDonât be so dramatic.âÂ
And thereâ there it is. Arthur rolls his eyes as he presses the gun into Eamesâ waiting hands, and a part of Eamesâ breaks with it. Still muffled, still numb, but something is lumbering closer. He can almost hear its laboured breaths.Â
âThere you are,â Eames says, smiling. âYou donât know how much I missed that.âÂ
It is a miracle he doesnât choke on the words.Â
âGlad to be remembered for something,â Arthur is saying, and now heâs pushing Eamesâ gently but with intent, away from the grave. âAnd Iâd like to keep it that way, so we need to talk before your insatiable curiosity ruins everything I worked for.âÂ
Eames doesnât know if it's the words, or the press of Arthurâs hand against his backâ barely sensable beneath all the layers but even the slightest hint of pressure sets him alightâ but all at once everything falls into place.Â
âYou faked your death.âÂ
âHave you always been this slow on the uptake?âÂ
Eames barely hears him. Reality is roaring and there is space for nothing else. Arthur isnât dead. Arthur isnât dead. Theyâre standing on Arthurâs graveâ an empty grave. A lie. A trick. Heâs been fooled because Arthur isnât dead, heâs right here. Heâs touching him because he isnâtâÂ
Arthur isnât. He isnât.Â
Heâs alive.Â
Eames doesnât say anything the rest of the way to wherever. If Arthur speaks, he doesnât strain to listen. Because Arthur isnât dead and if he hears anything at all heâs either going to scream or kick the shit out of him just like he did on that stupid fucking graveâ just to check that this one isnât made of stone but flesh and blood and he is alive.
His fists hurt from clenching by the time they enter a hotel room. Something of the turmoil must have reached Arthur because heâs gone quiet. The roar lets off the very moment the door clicks closed and Arthur stands before it, uncertain, almost as if he regrets closing off his only exit. His expression is one Eames knows very wellâ preparing himself for a fight he saw coming too late. But he isnât reaching for his gun. He just stands there.Â
Heâs just waiting to take it.Â
Eames kisses him.Â
Heâs alive, heâs alive, heâsâ
A heartbeat feels more real when itâs underneath your lips. A pulse against a jawâ up, up to feel breath against breath. To hear the rush of itâ a hitch ofâ of surprise.Â
Strengthâ dead people donât have strength and Arthur is pushing him so he canât be dead.Â
âEamesââÂ
Alive, alive, alive.Â
âEames! Wait!âÂ
Eames pushes closer. He places his forehead against Arthurâs, presses them both against the door. Arthur isnât pushing him away anymore but his hands are still on his chest. Eames wonders if he can feel the beat of his heart. He hopes, quietly insane for a moment, that Arthur will never forget to make his heart beat as long as he is feeling one. As long as heâs given an example on how to live.Â
âEames,â Arthur says. A word, a question, a name. All in one. His eyes are wide. Breathing heavyâ breathing, breathing, breathingâ and heâs flushed. Sharp cheekbones stained red. Lips wet.Â
Eamesâ hands move of their own accord and cradle each side of Arthurâs face.Â
âLet me, darling. Just let me.âÂ
Arthur breathes again.Â
Eames trembles, trying to hold himself back. Trying to breathe. But one more moment and he will collapse and he canâtâ he canât risk it. He canât risk losing another chance. He needs this as much as he needs Arthur to be alive. He needs to stop regretting not having done this when he could and now he can again and how can he let this undeserved second chance slip through his fingers. He has to. Please. He has to.Â
Arthurâs mouth falls open. âEames. Eames, itâs okay. You donât have toâ You donât have to beg. Itâs okay.âÂ
âLet me, Arthur,â Eames repeats, âLet me.âÂ
Arthur lets him.Â
Arthur lets him do everything.Â
â â â â â
Itâs after when Arthur whispers, âI didnât know.âÂ
His head is on Eames chest, moving ever so slightly when he breathes. In and out. Eames has his fingers tangled in his hair. The strands slip away when Arthur turns around to look up at him.Â
âI didnât know,â he says again. There is a rasp in his voice and his eyes are wet. Eames has never been apologised to like this before. Arthur sounds as if he believes sorry would be an insult, the word too small to encompass his regret. There is guilt there, in the flush of his cheeks, and the way he canât seem to hold eye contact. His pupils flickering, microscopic twitches of shame.Â
Sometimes heâd dream of this. Arthurâs return. A fantasy, a different one, yet still addictive like a drug. Heâd expected to be angry, to want to spill his pain onto Arthurâs feet and watch him try and walk through it; burn in it. A stimulation of the magmatic life Eames has been living since his death.Â
But now, face to face with an Arthur who is alive, Eames doesnât want any of it.Â
So he leans down, and kisses Arthur on the forehead, like a benediction, trying to extract the regret from his face. And he tells him, honest in a way heâs learned to be in the last scant weeks, âI didnât either, darling.âÂ
Arthur doesnât relax, but there is something about his misery that is easily pushed to the side for curiosity.Â
Eames smiles at him and continues. âYou wereâ you were a fantasy. A what if. Something amusing to think of when I was bored, or something life saving to dive into when reality drew a knife and stabbed me with itâ literally, sometimes. But it was always a fantasy. An escape. Itâ it couldnât have become real, if youâd given it a chance back then.â Eames takes a breath, shakes his head.Â
Arthur reaches up with a hand, frowning, but he doesnât interrupt.
âBut the trouble is, darling, it is incredibly hard not to fall in love with you the more I learn about you.â Eames smiles under his finger tips. âThat is what changed. You never let me learn you. But who is to stop anyone from learning the dead?âÂ
Something flickers over Arthurâs faceâ guilt, again, but different. âI didnât know you wanted to learn about meâ I thought you only gave a fuck about what I could be for you.âÂ
Eames lays his hand over Arthurâs. âYouâre right. I was blindâ too blinded by the possibilities and too selfish to do anything about it. Maybe I needed to lose you in order to learn how to see .âÂ
âNoâ No I shouldâve,â Arthur shakes his head sharply. âI should have told you. There wouldâve been another way withoutâ How long have you been drinking?â
âDonât ask questions you donât want the answer to darling.â
âEames.âÂ
Arthur takes his hand off and moves off of Eamesâ chest, sitting up straight. Eames follows him, struck by a sudden vision of Arthur slipping out of bedâ out of his life, dogged by misplaced guilt and regret. He curls his hands around Arthurâs wrists, as gently as he can. Donât trap him. Donât chase him away.Â
âNo. Itâs fine. Weâre fine,â Eames hurries to say. âWhy would you tell me? I was a colleague at best, bane of your existence at worst. I hadâ I have no rightââÂ
âI should have told you because I did know you,â Arthur interrupts him. âI was supposed to know. You said possibilities? I am supposed to be the one who sees themâ all of them. Iâm the one who has to prepare for all scenarios, know the players, do the research and put the pieces together. That is what I do, Eames. And I missed something.â Arthur takes a shuddering breath, looking forlorn and tired. âIâm so sorry for missing the most important part.âÂ
âYou canât apologise for missing something that wasnât even really there yet.âÂ
âYes, I can. Iâm sorry for missing our potential. For underestimating us. Underestimating you.â Arthur laughs. âIâm so fucking stupid. I thought you kept searching for me out ofâ curiosity. Or that I fucked up, left a trail somewhere and you wanted to prove to me that you found it, you figured it out. Fuck. I never thought it was because you missed me.âÂ
âI did,â Eames says, and it almost chokes him. âEvery day.âÂ
Arthur looks at him then, eyes flicking to the side, his hair covering half of his face, but his smile is visible. âYou know, I did too. Thatâs why I knew you were looking for me. Kept tabs on you, even though Iâd promised myself I wouldnât.âÂ
Eames swallows at the sightâ at the hope it instills in him. Arthur let him, yes. It could have been a kindness. But this smile, shy and bashful, and the words that follow it. Maybe potential comes in twos. âI didnât keep looking because I missed you,â Eames tells him, because he has no time for secrets anymore, no time for regret, for either of them. âI kept looking because I couldnât accept it. I couldnât bear it. Darling.â Eames slips his hands from Arthurâs wrists and puts them on either side of Arthurâs face instead, bracketing the smile. âYouâre my future. You couldnât be dead.âÂ
âIâm not,â Arthur tells him, like a confession of his own. âIâm not dead, Eames.âÂ
âGood.â Eames pulls him in closer, and Arthur lets him. He lets him trace the smile with his thumbs, lets him breathe close against his mouth and whisper, âNext time darling, when decide to you kill yourself. Kill me too.â Â
The grin that blooms doesnât fit between Eamesâ fingers, so he kisses Arthur instead. Deep, possessive. Loving. Arthur lets him, and he never stops.Â
#arthur/eames#fanfiction#fanfic#inception#inception fic#inception fic rec#arthur/eames fic#dreamhusbands#dreamhusbands fic#im back to writing?#honestly from all the wips and ideas that i have#no clue why this one ended up being the first#but i like how it turned out
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