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continuin the prev post here cuz i feel comfy hidin my talks in tags but i always near the tag limit
#as i was sayin#im really proud of myself 4 progressin in the way i have i think its a part of healin 4 me but also is jus way of expression#i still feel like a freak a lot but.. less than before#especially now dat i been findin more ppl who share my interests n views 🥺🫶🏼#it has genuinely helped so immensely#i love ppl who r jus. normal. n have realisitc views. naw black n white thinkin. naw extremes#n i have 2 say ppl gawta get more comfortable w jus.. sayin they don lik Smth#dat its outta their comfort zone dat it doesn float theit boat#instead of harrassin ppl n assignin morals 2 things dat never involved em. 2 things dat r far removed from reality & don affect it unless ya#let em affect it#like w how anti-prоshiр sum ppl r. ya wudn expect em 2 b so obsessed w clockin others n sendin hate. SAME for the other way round. leave#each other alone? peace n lovr on planet earth?#but yea im happy 2 jus b. b my own thing. n do my own thing#nevertheless i still believe thers a conversation 2b had abt the experiences of those whose trauma Do make em like fucked up related things#n gravitate towards those things n see it in eveyrthin n wanna re enact em in sum way#'healthy' (fiction. roleplay. kink) or 'unhealthy' (seekin out those things irl w real danger of harm)#like which one do ya think is better. hm?#cuz personally id rather let ppl do watever they want in their own time as long as they r unhurt & don hurt anyone else.#the moment ya assign morality 2 things like kink n fiction. ya other ppl who r not like ya & don deal w things like ya & WILL most likely#suffer w consequences (cause i have. self doubt & hate. guilt. alienation)#it can b a healthy outlet as long as ya r mindful. 100%#ill b upfront tho. it does strike me as weird when someone who has naw history of X is straight up obsessed w it in dat sense. but also like#they can do watever they want forever anyway. my personal feelings r irrelevant cuz okay. then their spaces r nawt 4 me!#like sadly im nawt livin the timeline where m unaffected by the trauma we have so i cant understan wat else is in sm1 head dat might make em#drawn 2 those things. but it also none of my business. so!
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Prompt 185
No one could get into contact with Constantine.
Now usually that wasn’t that big of a deal, the man constantly disappeared for a few days at a time doing something or other, but he’d been completely silent and unseen for months. Usually he’ll at least answer a call to tell them to fuck off or something.
And they really need his expertise and are getting incredibly worried for their grumpy team member. Yes he’s an asshole, but he’s their asshole, y’know? And he has a habit of getting into Situations (sure he also usually gets out of them, but what if he didn’t this time?!)
So they’re desperate. Kind of really desperate. Desperate enough to use the summoning sigil they found on his fridge. They’d checked it, multiple times, and it should summon the hellblazer.
“You’re not Constantine.” .
The white-haired teen in the circle yawned, stretching and blinking at them blandly with familiar blue eyes before sighing. “Actually I am,” he stuffed his hands into his hoodie as he looked down at the summoning circle. “Well, technically just one of the many Laughing Magicians currently in the Realms.”
He gave a grin, looking more amused than annoyed. “Pretty much every one of us is in the Realms right now for family reunion lol. (Did he just say lol out loud??) So like, you’re gonna have to specify which of us you’re tryin’ to summon. Honestly perfect timing for me thanks, the fruitloop keeps flirting with John and it’s horrific so.”
… That was probably their John, wasn’t it…
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#The Constantine Family exists for fucking over entities & manipulating luck#They adore this scrappy halfa who is doing the same with twice the feral#Danny: Yeah I’m like the changeling child that ended up in the middle of them and they just kept me for the laughs lol#Danny: I’m not allowed to join in the drinking competitions#Danny: Oh no it’s not a responsibility thing; alcohol doesn’t affect me and they say it’s cheating#Why Yes Vlad IS flirting with their Constantine#He’s started his redemption but let’s be honest he’s also a con-man & John is all for fucking over the rich#Danny is disgusted at how well they’re getting along and wanted to get away from their flirting while everyone else ribbed at em#Hence why when they all felt the summoning he decided to go#Well that and also for the laughs because he’s learning magic Undead Constantine style#”Fuckin 'ell yeah the family 'as a necromancer in 'he line again look a' 'im go!” (Lots of ghost & living people drunken cheering)#Danny only half fucking with people: Yeah I’m like their collective undead fae child lmao#danny fenton#john constantine
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fresh writing will come soon i’ve just been too focused on rp and school. i just need to edit things.
in the mean time enjoy a sketch of vian (guy i have yet to introduce but hate love dearly) that i won’t ever finish
under cut because blood n medical themes. malpractice, woo!
#whump community#my ocs#crep’s ocs#vian oc#vian venstal#don’t let this man have a bonesaw.#don’t let this man have a medical license PERIOD.#his way of showing affection is just malpractice.#best way to keep em coming back is to make em worse! now they need more care! yay!
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TRUTH: What plot or scene are you most proud of in your story?
P.S. My dares are usually fun and mostly cas related :)
ohhhhh my god idk it's so hard to pick just one plot or scene when you've ended up with SO many 😆 ig i'm just gonna cheat a lil n say i'm really having fun with Robin atm.. like i've never really "built" a character from the bottom up before u kno? (not rlly including legacy sims tbh cos i feel like they don't count lol) but i've always made adults or maybe teens/whatever with their backstory in mind? and now i get to create someone from scratch and live through all these things that'll shape him when he's older, it's super interesting (and a lil bit challenging too tbh! but in a fun way)
#ranswers#skdjsk#MY BOY#;-;#tbh this kinda counts for all the kiddos#it's kind of a mix between me saying ok i want em to end up like this so what do i gotta do to get there?#and me just kinda letting things happen and seeing how shit affects them and adding it to the mix#very inchresting way of 'building' a character
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A 🌹 for KDJ.
#dietmimo doodles#omniscient reader#omniscient reader's viewpoint#ORV#orv kdj#orv yjh#KDJ is obviously Jack cuz just like Jack KDJ dies LOL#also yes this is a revamp from the disaster trio sticker sheet#yes I am def revamping it#eehehehhehehe#does this still count as bday art LOL#YJH only lets this happen because it’s KDJ’s bday#that’s a like YJH secretly wants a hug#everyone needs a hug YJH is to tsundere sometimes to admit it#KDJ be like that too aka too awkward to ask for physical affection#both of em are awkward in their own right#these beans I swear
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visual reminder to maybe go over to @sawbones-showdown and cast your vote for the coolest parmesan-carrying, wounded-at-Fontenoy, no-nonsense-taken doctor that robert louis stevenson ever wrote
#em draws stuff#treasure island#doctor livesey#it has only been a few months since I have drawn him but it feels as if hundreds of years have passed#and my art style seems to have been irreversibly affected by a Certain Videojame in that time. which. uh. okay then.#not asking for much. not even uttering the words Livesey Sweep. just let him make it to the next round. Please.
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kitties were ripsnortin all morning, tearing around, jumping on justin when he went in with them, going for his hair, pouncing his calf when he went to leave, noisily running and jumping and wrassling the whole time I was waking up and getting around-- but just as I was finishing my coffee they got quiet in there, and when I went in they only had a little bit of play left in em before falling asleep, one of them in my lap
#SORRY JUSTIN sdkfjhgdjkhf I DID intend to go in while they were going nuts!! that's why I wanted the coffee first lmao#tomorrow bathroom -> kittens -> THEN coffee. tis only fair#letting em check out the living room today! after their nap 😌💕#melli continues to be so funny?? indifferent to affection until HI HELLO IT'S AFFECTION TIME. RIGHT NOW I JUST DECIDED#she was curled up purring in my lap and then suddenly stood up and looked around meowing#response to 'what baby??' was to put her little paws up onto my shoulder so I scooped her butt and held her up there like that#and she was SNIFFIN MY FACE#and then she SETTLED INTO MY ARMS BABYSTYLE. she put herself like that!!#and kept purring away while I squished her beans and gently pet her tummy (my one free hand was pointing away from her face haha)#the way she was situated I couldn't reach my phone to get a pic tho 😭#this has been kitty talk#about me#husband
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damn dream cant even be silly on twitter dot com anymore because of woke
#i mean. i get dttwt having drontoversy ptsd but i wish they wouldnt fear for their lives every time dream so much as breathes there 😭#even if the opps come so what. let em throw a tantrum its FUNNY#theyll have to pretend to disagree with dream saying millions of ppl were affected by the healthcare system which would be funny af 💀
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The arguing with male relatives post is unfortunately Too Real. For the brief period both me and my partner were getting therapy (separately) we did try to get intentional about communicating better with each other but every single time without fail, chat time devolved into an argument. I had to pull the plug on it, it was so stressful and having the opposite effect to what both of us intended. But why can I blame him for the argument, you ask? Because my toxic trait is avoidance. If we are arguing then the fault with me is that I was present to argue with!
As a tactic, instant disagreement is not exclusively used by men, and one of my very good friends defaults to it as well, but it's possibly not a coincidence that she's spent her entire career in male-dominated industries and being subject to that tactic that it's probably just her default conversational style now. But wow does she get judged for it, in a way I rarely see men getting criticised. Also it does not make her the funnest person to have a conversation with at times. However she would not later blame me for not being chill. Argue with a man who treats every conversation as an opportunity to assert their intellectual dominance and suddenly you're no fun and have a bad attitude.
#tmi but I can't recall a single meaningful conversation we've had since you-know-who bought the bird site and i discovered he was a fanboy#we had the radio news on and i commented that it was lucky neither of us used the bird site and thus wouldn't be affected by the sale#only to be told that the bird site sucked and EM was a genius programmer who was going to make it better akshully#anyway much like the tree one hopes not to hit when going around a corner at high speed let's ignore that for now#judge actions not thoughts etc and anyway who can afford not to have a housemate in this economy
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Realizing I'm literally cycling through the 5 stages of grief because of that episode
#I'm upset bc of this anime#like i dont think i have ever been so emotionally affected by a show before#i cry from shows and other media all the time but this GOT to me and i hate how stupid it sounds to be like#but i am legitimately upset 😭#it's got me in a deppressive spiral#like partly bc i have not been in the greatest place emotionally anyway but fr how they gonna do em like that#how am i supposed to work on my Master's capstone project now#i just been switching back and forth from here and twitter to vent about it#5 stages of grief#buddy daddies#buddy daddies spoilers#buddy daddies ep 10#why did this show hit so hard gd#i am a mess now#i am literally crying#plz let ep 11 and the rest of the season be happy#like i cant#and if kazuki and rei lose each other (bc rei's dad is still against Kazuki so i doubt he's just gonna let them chill) i will never recover
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Hiii!! I just wanted to check up on you. How are you feeling? Are you doing ok? I hope you are taking care of yourself and able to enjoy the holiday as much as you can. Thinking of you ❤️
hii lovely
life has kinda quieted down some? which is good and things are going okay when im not frustrated with the rest of my family (feels like im the only one whos rly... being a caretaker at all...) but im just kinda taking it one day at a time rn
ty for checking in <3 i hope u get to spend the holiday happily as well <3
#wooahaes.ask#completely-zoned-out#ive barely been writing lately and i think im more frustrated over That than anything else#just bc its always been my outlet ykno? so not being able to do it is just.... hnnghghgh#i did get the 25 + 31 fics written and ill schedule em#maybe i can get a couple other days done and posted if i feel up to it? idk#i honestly nearly pulled the plug on them entirely like 'i dont think i can do this' but im glad i kinda just let myself have time n space#to work as i please p much since i think that helped a lot more than i thought it would#sorry abt the wonu fic when it gets posted its... definitely affected by my life rn. obvs nothing has happened Yet#but it does like. ykno. pull from it a liiiiil bit
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how i feel after writing a 297 words 1,630 characters comment on a fics chapter that broke me beyond repair
#I LOVE.... writing comments.... im the commenter im the yapper.....#i WILL be letting the writers know how much their stupid little words affected me and how im crying screaming n throwing up from reading em
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Hey! I just wanted to tell you again how absolutely wonderful I found those sketches you did, they really made my day. Soo, to answer your question, yes you making me fall deeper into the dracugoona rabbit hole is a good thing, I love those two with all my heart. I may lament them not being canon sometimes, but just ignore that lol.
Thank ya! I'm real glad ya like my silly sketches (since I haven't been able to draw bigger things, I'm glad the sketches are good too) And you're not alone, even if they're not canon, Witch Hitch did unreparable damage and now I can't NOT ship them
Here! Have another unrelated sketch cause I cannot keep my hands from drawing them once I allow myself to think of how much I love them <3
#for real thank ya for your words...to know you enjoy the sketches as much as I enjoyed drawing 'em really means a lot#I'm used to the ships I like not being canon...so even if they aren't that won't stop me#Are we all victims of Witch Hitch? Like do we need a support group for everyone who was affected by the power of that ep?#I have SO many ideas I wanna draw with them... but gotta take care of my wrists...so sketches it is... for now#Dracugoona#Draculaura x Lagoona#MH G3#Monster High#Gen 3#ask kio#let's draw or die trying
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UPSET THAT I CANNOT REPLY TO A POST WITH AN IMAGE. I AM SITTING HERE LIKE THIS THINKING ABOUT VASH/CPHIL PARALLELS:
IM GONNA REPLY TO THIS WITH MY CPHIL/VASH COMPARISON ANALYSIS. BECAUSE THE BRAINROT HAS SET IN AND IT'S KILLING ME.
OK OK ALRIGHT. OK. so first of all. cphil and vash the stampede. angel imagery. lost their best friend. lost their family. lost their home. extreme family issues. vash has a missing arm and phil has a wrecked wing. vash can't use his powers at the end of trimax and phil can't fly anymore. crying. ok so now we've got these fuckin parallels right. ok i'm gonna get into their classpects because they are so similar but so different. this is gonna b under a cut this got away from me i'm so sorry i could talk classpects for HOURSSSSSS
so cPhil to me is a Seer of Life, right? Seers are supposed to guide their fellow players on the right path. cPhil TRIES to do that. right. like he TRIES. but god he is so bad at it. he's so disconnected from mortals in general that he just doesn't know how they work. he thinks they're all doing things wrong and they just need some guidance to do it right!!! and Vash is a Muse of Life to me. lots of parallels here between him and Calliope (seen in this post where i delve into Vash and Knives' classpects).
They're both Life players with the same goals, but with vastly different ways they go about achieving those goals. they just want peace for everyone else, but god they are both so fucking bad at it. they are at opposite ends of a morality scale here. Vash's main focus is keeping people alive and it doesn't matter what he has to do to keep it that way, no matter what happens to himself or whether keeping one guy alive will indirectly result in the deaths of others. Phil's main focus is establishing peace, and he doesn't care what he has to destroy in the meantime to do that, as long as it doesn't harm himself or the people he's close to. To Vash, the ends justify the means. He can sacrifice his own wellbeing to keep others safe as long as no one else gets hurt while he's there. To Phil, the method of getting to his goal matters just as much, because instead of looking at it as just "the ends justify the means" he sees it as "everything i do pushes myself towards achieving what i want, my goal will never be reached without these actions so i might as well do what i want and maybe the destruction will teach everyone a lesson along the way" LIKE HE'S SO FUCKED UP <3
cPhil is so derse dreamer and Vash is so prospit dreamer. THAT'S the big difference!!! they see their actions very differently and that's partially why they act so differently when they have the same goals. Lunar sways are difficult to analyze because there's so much nuance to them, you could have a lot of Prospit traits but have one extremely different trait that could make you a Derse dreamer instead. like it's so weird??? but I once saw a post that summarized it like this: For Prospit dreamers, the end result is more important than the methods it takes to get there; for Derse dreamers, the journey is just as, if not more important, than the end result. Phil HAS to be a Derse dreamer, bc to him his journey is neverending. He's an immortal who has been alive long enough to know that not everyone will see his logic, and he will spend the rest of his life either convincing them to see his ways or he will get rid of those people entirely. To Vash, if he can just convince enough people, if he can just get to others before the destruction occurs, if he can TALK to enough people, maybe the violence will stop one day. It's an IMPOSSIBLE goal, but he keeps trying to look towards that one day where he'll be able to look out at a paradise without death and violence (much like Callie in a lot of ways BUT I'VE ALREADY GONE OVER THAT!!!).
Phil, as a combination Seer and Derse dreamer, knows that the journey is neverending, and he's either given up on pacifism or never tried it in the first place. He SEES that his ideals are not universal, and that knowledge gives him the ability to be apathetic towards other people and destroy what they love to "teach them a lesson." Vash, as a young spry century-and-a-half years old, and as a Muse and Prospit dreamer, still thinks that he can reach his goal of world peace, even though that hopes fades more and more from day to day, but like. his speech near the end of tristamp ep 12 to Knives?? About how he'll just keep going no matter what??? He's not giving up on his ideology because he doesn't SEE. He doesn't KNOWWW that his ideals cannot be universal. Ofc this changes later on in Trimax and he finally takes direct action by killing Legato and gives up on his staunch pacifism, but like. my guy. it took you a LONG ASS TIME to get to this point. my god.
Life players are described as "concerned with the betterment of themselves and those around them, as well as the onward march of positive progress... They also have the tendency to put other's needs before their own, which never ends well for anyone, because the Life-bound can grow bitter if they feel their own self-care has had to be shunted aside. At their best, they are great listeners, caretakers, and nurturers. At their worst, the Life-bound are passive aggressive, and pushy-they're certain they know best.” Both cPhil and Vash are the best and worst of their aspect. They both grow bitter, Vash in Trimax from having to take the high road all the time, and Phil from thinking that no one can see that he knows best. They do listen, and they do care for and nurture others, and they work towards the betterment of others, but sometimes it's people who don't want to be nurtured or bettered. Vash tries to help people who don't want help, and Phil babies cWilbur when he comes back and his "help" towards cTommy is um. not great!! They can both be passive aggressive, and they're both so incredibly sure that they know best. They're both so incredibly stuck in their ways.
Phil is the most stubborn Seer ever, because he only wants to see what will benefit his own life and ideals, not everyone. And Vash, the Muse, keeps on his one-track thought process and resigns himself to doing what he's always done (much like Callie) instead of taking direct action to TRULY change others' lives for the better. They both do finally change this in the very end of their arcs, with Phil reaching out to Niki and retreating to the End with her, Connor, and Kristin, giving up his old lifestyle to help a couple of people he's only known for a couple years and genuinely cared about for much less, basically a blink in his immortal lifespan, and Vash killing Legato to save Livio and Razlo and confronting Knives head on to save the planet.
but like. FUCK, you guys took so long to get just to this point. you are so stuck in your ways you have PROBLEMS
#trigun#dsmp#whiskeys word soup#mcyt classpects#<<this has 2 go in my classpect tag bc it summarizes my cphil seer of life thoughts completely#ALRIGHT. WELL. THAT GOT AWAY FROM ME. BUT UMMM. YEAH.#anyway im gonna rotate these two around in my brain for a few hours <3#i almost want to write a silly little crossover fic where these two just get to sit down and chat. yk?? like. let em talk#chat about their ideals and their immortal lives and how it's affected both of them yk??? sad immortal guys club#I FUCKING LOVE CPHIL I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE HAS PROBLEMS I WANNA PUT HIM IN A FOOD PROCESSOR <3
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Maybe this makes me a bitch but I literally couldn’t care less abt talking abt fandom stuff or things I like with anyone anymore
#₊˚⊹🏷️ from em#em thinks (too much)#q#my misery doesn’t make me a v nice or kind person unfortunately🗿#am working on that🤓🤓#I don’t see the point in talking abt anything tbh🤣🤣#makes me feel worse every single time🤣🥰#kind of sick of associating things with ppl ik or a fandom and it affecting my enjoyment of said thing#maybe that’s a bit dramatic but anyway i’m clinging to things that I keep to myself or enjoy from afar#I’ll just enjoy whatever by myself#who told me watching smth like nana w someone was going to end up good#not gonna introduce anyone to anything again lmfao#just one example but whejejks#I don’t want to share any thoughts abt anything let alone share thoughts abt things that make me happy#bc those will be taken away too#I promise I haven’t always been this bitter of a person
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Ah yes I love opening tumblr and seeing body weight discourse on a stock photo blog, very nice /s
#fuck me some of these people are something else#i silently agreed w the main post then someone commented w 'manifesting more fatness in people'#or whatever and then said 'people would be better off if they were fat'#'having lil fat deposits is good nobody should be rail thin'#i'm screaming like OFC FAT DEPOSITS ARE GOOD KAREN#BUT THERE IS A HUGE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HAVING HEALTHY DEPOSITS#AND DOZENS IF NOT HUNDREDS OF LBS OF FAT THAT AINT HEALTHY#I HATE HOW PPL CONFLATE THE LATTER WITH THE FORMER#I'M CHUBBY AND ITS TOXIC AND OFFENSIVE AS FUCK TO SAY THAT JUST STOP IT#I LITERALLY HAVE HEART ISSUES. BEING FAT STRESSES IT. YOU DONT 'WANT' TO BE FAT#AND BY FAT I ACTUALLY MEAN THE DEFINITION OF FAT NOT JUST 'LIL DEPOSITS'#big difference between not harassing fat people and going nuclear with the toxic positivity of 'let's make everyone fat bc it's better' bs#it hurts your joints it hurts your heart maybe it doesn't affect your cholesterol or some shit but there's ALWAYS damage#the 'healthy at every size' movement was NEVER supposed to mean 'you're still healthy at 400 lbs'#people are stupid fuck em#body shaming cw#negative cw#rant cw#tbd
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