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[lesbianjesuslovesyou]

Quick & Sexy: 5 LesbianJesusLovesYou Fics to Read Before Bed

Need a little ~flair~ to send you off to dreamland? Here's five explicit smutfics in 5000 words or less:

Between the Lines // 2,782 words, Griddlehark, filthy Harrow POV, M/s, pussy punishment

Squirting Glory // 2,378 words, Griddlehark, fucking machines and banter

Feel the Heat // 4,035 words, Griddlehark, pussy spanking

turn me on and take me out // 2,171 words, Griddlehark, omegaverse (a/b/o), fight-to-fuck

Size Matters // 3,278 words, Griddlehark, Modern AU - Public Setting (Bar), fuckboy Gideon, exhibitionism

Have fun, pals. <3

[theriverbeyond]

believing in everything (and knowing nothing at all) by @lesbianjesuslovesyou

A series of childhood memories from the Ninth.

I love this fic, it makes me ACHE for baby Gideon, and I love its exploration of Gideon's dynamics with the other characters on the Ninth as she was growing up :') this is the second fic I bound for @renegadeguild's Fanfic Writers Appreciation Day event!

Fandom: The Locked Tomb

Pairing: Aiglamene & Gideon, Gideon & Crux, Gideon & Harrow

Title font: Supernova

Body font: Garamond

Pages: 200

Size: Quarto letter

Case: Pleather book cloth (Generic amazon brand) with sword shaped cut out and hand-embossed gold foil

Endpapers: Skull Natural Copper by HimalDesign

progress pics and ramblings below the cut!

I was SO excited to try a cutout cover for this, and think the endpapers I picked were perfect for it. The Pleather "bookcloth" I used was a bit thick, and that in combination with the shape of the cut out made for some very goofy progress pics. I ended up gluing scrap paper to the tiny flaps, because they were SO at parts.

Also, there were definitely several places that were like... exposed chipboard/paper, so I used a marker to color it in to hide those issues and it worked great

I initially formatted the cover incorrectly and my printer was out of commission at the time so I couldn't re-print it, so I just cut it up to frankenstien it into what I needed! I'm REALLY happy with how the sword cutout ended up lining up with the skull -- you can see in the above photos that they aren't identical, and this is because I did not think about this at all when cutting and gluing the endpaper in. OOPS!! anyway HOORAY luck was looking out for me bc it ended up looking great anyway!

The color of the cover was honestly hard to photograph but I love how it turned out and how it looked IRL. YAYY

[dioneyesuus]

Okay I’m not a massive smut consumer but

LesbianJesusLovesYou deserves an award for what they’ve done for the tlt fanfiction community jesus christ

[liesmyth]

Alright, I've got another fic question for you! What are your favorite tlt gen fics?

you say “what ARE” I took this as permission to rec Many

A Mild Sort of Resurrection by sigaloenta [Bari Star AU]

In all the extensive special briefings and all-hands bulletins and strict sets of orders preparatory to the Emperor Divine's inspection tour of the Avernus, no one had considered that God might desire to fetch Himself a coffee.

An Impromptu Christening by orphan_account

The Ninth house finds a body and a baby. Nobody who matters is really thrilled about this turn of events.

believing in everything (and knowing nothing at all) by LesbianJesusLovesYou

A series of childhood memories from the Ninth.

“Fuck it, I'm adopting her," said John Gaius, not knowing the paperwork wasn't necessary by @naamah-beherit

Gideon, a highly distinguished Cohort lieutenant, saves the day—and the girl—and then gets stuck in the lift of The Erebos with a man feeding her peanuts as if they have all the time in the world. They don't, but if he doesn't mind, then why should she?

High But Very Drear by @honorarycassowary. (written pre-NtN)

Aiglamene and Crux receive the five hundred ancient dead gifted by the Emperor for the renewal of the Ninth, and also do something that could be construed as mourning.

John 25:12 by @halfeatenmoon

John and his friends escape the cow fortress to spend Christmas Day at the beach. With beer, salads, pavlova, and the corpses of a million fish killed by nuclear weapons testing.

Mortification of the Flesh by @theriverbeyond

In the myriadic year of our Lord—the ten thousandth year of the King Undying, the Lord of the Sharpest Edge!—Harrow Nova challenged the cavalier of the Ninth for his title.

Purgatory Is Mandatory by @urban-sith (written pre-NtN)

Ianthe figures out the true secrets of Lyctorhood while stuck in a time loop at Canaan House.

recognize them by their fruits by @ceruleanvulpine (written pre-NtN)

John and Ianthe deal with the fact that his only remaining Lyctor is the one he never liked much. Maybe they can bond over the fact that they're both egotistical manipulators who lie like breathing? No?

so I open the window to hear sounds of people by @sunderedstar [but really that whole series!]

John misses the beach. The real beach. The current one is mostly soil with a lacy veneer of nuclear ash, clammy and streaky and hilariously radioactive, which is a real bummer when he thinks about it too hard. But the twenty-five meter sea level rise that came when all the freshwater ice finished melting around the mid-century mark ate away at the shoreline, rolled in between the skyscrapers on a new tide, swallowed up all the people who couldn't afford to move anywhere else. Have you seen the rent rates lately?

some part of me must have died by @theriverbeyond

What if Wake survived long enough to bring her newborn baby to Tomb, and killed her. and then the baby didn't die.

the kingdom of heaven by bittybelle

John puts that first-draft dream of his to bed.

Two Things by Isis

There were two things Jeannemary Chatur wanted: to fight for the Emperor Undying by the side of her necromancer, and for the stupid pimple on her chin to go away already.

when I call, will you come to me? by LesbianJesusLovesYou

“My Lady,” Ortus wheezed, shifting uncomfortably. “I only thought you should know… Gideon Nav was flogged before the congregation.”

[ambiguouswren]

Hey you read any of my TLT fanfics before?

Maybe you've read my estranged Griddlehark Modern AU Feel The Pain, Kill it Twice?

Or maybe, my more recent cake: a fantasy/blacksmith AU written for the TLT Big Resurrection Event called Strike it While its Hot ?

Well, buckle up cuz we got a new one coming. Got super inspired by LesbianJesusLovesYou's Fic Porch Swings & Sweet Dreams in which Gideon and Harrow are kids, something I hadn't super considered. (Seriously it was so good. Esp if you're a kid who grew up in the 90s. Also, it's a heavy fic but the topics are handled so well)

So anyways, got inspired and wanted to try my hand at a kind of coming of age story. I started a Summer Camp AU that will (barring disaster) debut this Thursday.

It's called Paint a Picture of You and Me of the Days When We Were Young

I hope you'll check it out. It'll be posting chapter by chapter hopefully every week on Thursdays (I'm EST for now). I'm very excited to share this story. It's already been a lot of fun and I have SO MANY plans.

Anyways thanks for reading byeeee.

[deus3xmachinablog]

5 songs i’ve been listening to recently

tagged by @dancing-b0nes

tagging @adventuresinjoyland, @daciafu, @oatlybrandoatmilk, @laurenkaloz, and @lesbianjesuslovesyou

[adorationmajestic]

Cypress' TLT Fic Recs (December '24)

Last month's list was entirely put together out of petty spite for people who refuse to read in progress works (heart hands emoji).

I've gotten over it (I haven't, but we can play pretend). You get a list with finished works in it this month! Congrats!

Find the October list here.

Find the November list here.

Visit the Ao3 bookmarker tag for this month's list here.

Your categories this month are Something Like A Dove, Something Like Real Life, and Something Like A Dream.

Something Like A Dove is things that are tagged as Dead Dove (or are otherwise something I would classify as belonging to that vague larger genre of angst/whump/hurt)

Something Like Real Life is Alternate Universes resembling the real world

Something Like A Dream is other AUs

First Category: Something Like A Dove

while we're alone, blue as can be by PineAndPetrichor - KirIanthe

(1 chapter, approx 3k words)

As PineAndPetrichor aptly describe, Kiriona Gaia and Ianthe Naberius are absolute nightmare club patrons. The descriptions across the board in this one are absolutely evocative and will bring you a little bit of disgust and sadness along with the horny (which is exactly how I like it). There's just something *wrong* with them, you know?

eat you alive by LesbianJesusLovesYou - (CythEon?)

(1 chapter, approx. 2k)

This was one of the first fanfics I read for the fandom and I read it immediately after the first book without even touching the second book. I have more appreciation for it now, I think, after reading the whole series.

This is not for the faint of heart, and I don't recommend it lightly. The plot is very much "Cytherea knocks Gideon out, has her way with the unconscious body, and leaves her for dead." But here's where my point of interest becomes clear: I adore unabashedly exploring the dark corners of what could be. Cytherea is a perfect choice for this—she already has that serial killer vibe and it's ripe for the taking.

This one does include a sequel, written in the same style (first person Cyth, second person Gideon) but by an anonymous author. I won't give it its own slot on the rec list, because it's reliant on the first part, but I do recommend hitting it after reading the above.

Second Category: Something Like Real Life

RenFaire AU! Harrow runs the bone witch stall (every ren faire has one or its a bullshit faire and you know it) and Gideon is the most annoying knight in a hundred mile square radius (not really, but Harrow probably thinks so). Packed full of pining and denial that'll have you kicking your feet, sometimes in fluff and sometimes in sheer frustration at these two's inability to communicate.

Not Quite Shining by senseoftheday - GriddleHark

(9 chapters, approx. 67k)

Third Category: Something Like A Dream

A role-swap AU. All the cavaliers and necromancers have switched places. A fun look into characters we've never met or were otherwise killed off before we could really get to know them. For all that they shouldn't be familiar, they are.

switching masks into brave faces by Stacicity - BabsFred

(1 chapter, approx. 4k)

[elym13]

Fanfiction Writer asks

I never did this one, and its OLD, but I am writing, so why not.

How many works have you finished so far? AO3 says 16, FF.net says 9. AO3 includes vids but also Anon work, so 10.

How many WIPs do you currently have? 3 One Frozen that has been in hiatus since 2019. One TLT that is rolling slowly along. One TLT that I just started pondering.

How long is the longest fic you have written so far? Queen's Rook at 75k words.

How long is the shortest fic you have written so far? How I Met Your Sister; or, Snow Good to Meet You

Do you do research for your fics? With an obsession boarding on madness. Ask me how many articles on formal dining I have saved?

Of all the fics you have written so far, which one is your personal favourite? I love all my babies. Right now it's Educating Corona because that's what I'm writing. Of my Frozen Fitzverse romances, I would say Queen's Rook because I had a great beta who made my writing so much better. Of my vids, and no you didn't ask, "Black, Black Heart" a Emma Frost/ Jean Gray epic.

Post a random line from one of your WIPs. How does one pick randomly from one's own work? Here is a not so random selection. "Coronabeth took the proffered tissues and blew her nose, whimpering, “I tried. But I suck at memorizing. All those bones. All those bone words.”

Do you write more oneshots or more multichapter fics? Multichapter, and one series of one shots masquerading as multichapter

What is the most difficult part of writing to you? Getting what I'm thinking about in the shower, or while moving the lawn, onto the screen without completely losing the feel and spontaneity. I think my writing is quite stilted.

Which fanfiction trope have you written the most often? Future Fix It. or just plain Fix It. Emma would NEVER sleep with Scott, that man is so boring.

For which fandom have you written your first fic? XMen

Does your first fic still exist? Somewhere on Live Journal maybe?

Name one of your fics that you are proud of. All of those little motherfuckers.

Share a headcanon about one of your fics (optional: a specific fic). Coronabeth Tridentarius has an endorphin addiction. (that's probably canon actually) Elsa can't ride horses unless she makes them or they are strange elemental horses.

Who is a fic author you like/look up to. Sooo many. LesbianJesusLovesYou, UninspiredPoet, sniperct, Redisaid, justonemoreartist, ultranos (specifically the brilliant Ghost on the Wire), Jessica-X, Sionnain, fembuck, and my actual RL friends Grrlgeek72, Jedijae,

What’s the longest time you ever needed to write a fic? I think I'm going on 6 years for Queen's Gambit.

Share a sfw headcanon about one of your OTPs (optional: a specific pairing). Fitz's ex-lover the Comptesse d'Artrois thinks that Elsa is very good for Fitz.

Share a nsfw headcanon about one of your OTPs (optional: a specific pairing). Everything Ianthe demands of Coronabeth: the submission, the extreme sex, and the conservancy, is for her own good.

What’s a fanfiction trope that you haven’t written yet, but you could imagine/are planning to write? dunno

What’s a fanfiction trope that you couldn’t imagine writing? Anything with the death of someone I like

[idolshineitai]

thank you ao3 user lesbianjesuslovesyou

[lesbianjesuslovesyou]

LesbianJesusLovesYou's Guide to my (Currently Finished) Longfics

Are you bored and want to read something kind of long and already finished? Boy howdy, you're in luck.

If you're in the mood for an angsty modern AU Griddlehark Enemies-to-friends-to-lovers emotional slowburn, check out Like Ghosts in the Rain. (7 chapters/14k words; rated M)

If you're in the mood for a modern AU Griddlehark emotional rollercoaster full of psychological trauma, check out Dark Shadows and Sharp Edges. (7 chapters/14k words; rated E)

If you're in the mood for dark childhood vignettes featuring little Harrow and Gideon getting up to mischief and dealing with the aftermath on the Ninth, check out believing in everything (and knowing nothing at all). (10 chapters/22k words; rated T)

If you're in the mood for 90s nostalgia rural AU Griddlehark found family with a sprinkling of cults and abuse, check out Porch Swings and Sweet Dreams. (25 chapters/54k words; rated E)

If you like your longfics a little darker, you might enjoy this post-Nona Dead Dove smutty Kiriona and Harrow AU bursting with abuse, neglect, secrets, and eldritch horrors: A Dangerous Thing. (13 chapters/24k words; rated E)

And for the non-Griddleharks among us, you might enjoy this Cytheon Dead Dove torture-porn hostage brainwashing post-Canaan House AU: Golden Eyes; Old Lace. (4 chapters/17k words; rated E)

All of these fics are complete and posted; no waiting for updates! No risk of abandonment! Mind the tags, and have fun.

[dmsr-art]

🚨🚨🚨ATTENTION EVERYONE🚨🚨🚨

GO READ THIS BRAT TAMING FIC @lesbianjesuslovesyou WROTE FOR ME RIGHT NOW!!!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/46728112

pyrrha/ianthe brat taming

[lesbianjesuslovesyou]

oh dear god. Dear god. Fuck. Dear lord. Dear lord have mercy.

I have fallen through a fever dream of a rabbit hole and indubitably gotten drunk in your fanfics. Like I don’t say this often. But your fanfics legitimately manage to incorporate ALL of my kinks. And theirs like. So fucking many of them.

Your fics + name swapping sites have been legit the only thing that’s kept me going for like the past week. It’s like a drunk haze except I’m not drunk I’m just insanely horny (I recently started testosterone as I’m transitioning. So yeah. That’s why)

but holy FUCK. You’re like some fucking Angel sent from above. You have spanking overstimulation, degradation AND super dom tops + whiney pathetic bottoms??? It’s just. God. So fucking good. I feel delerious just thinking about it. You’ve made me delirious.

Sorry for that long ass intro. I think I just came here to metaphorically ask/ beg if you take requests or any type of prompts or anything?

Fuck I do love the Cytherea and Gideon fics don’t get me wrong I also love the Harrow and Gideon stuff too. I just like a little non/dub con in my smut fics sometjmes. Brings an extra rough element. And you always have Cytherea give off such perfect ‘Mean Mommy Don’ vibes ifnejdjsjdjd.

something even wacker? I’ve never read a single tomb book. I had no idea what it even was. I still haven’t read it yet. I just know the characters single-handedly from your fics. I typically replace all the names with my current favorite ship which is Toradeen. Aka Toralei x Clawdeen from monster high. With Toralei as the bottom cause girlie ain’t topped a single thing in her life and she not about to start now lol.

but what’s so fun is that you’ve seriously gotten me interested in reading those books. I have a severe backlog of books I need to read. But I’m definitely adding the series to the list just cause of you! So uh? Win for the tomb series?

anyway sorry this was long. I just got excited to see you were on tumblr

sa/lkdsnkkgdjhfallbjsfbdsk vjghfdkbjvnskz Oh my GOSH, you are the sweetest!!! I am SO glad you've enjoyed my fanfiction. Truly, that means the world to me. <3 And you haven't even read the series! It is definitely worth looking into; Gideon the Ninth is legitimately one of the best books I've ever read, and it sparked over 130 fanfictions in less than two years... being able to combine my favorite book series with my favorite BDSM tropes and kinks has genuinely made me so happy. I haven't written this much in my whole life, and it's all thanks to this series with the silly goth nun and butch swordswoman.

I do take requests! Sometimes I post on Twitter (@utilitywhiskers) with a "drop # kinks and we'll see what happens" and try to create a fic with the first ones that pop up in the comments.

I'm not on Tumblr as much as I used to be back in my pre-fandom days (when the interface was still easy! and didn't make my computer lag!), but you're also welcome to shoot me a request in my Askbox here. I tend to only write Locked Tomb fics, but I love exploring new kinks.

And since you made me blush like a schoolgirl with your super sweet message, here's a sneak peek of some future fics that I hope to finish once the fandom-wide Holiday Exchange is over: -Dollification -Human Slave AU -Littlespace/Ageplay -T-Dick Blowjobs -Circus AU -Hypnokink -Freeuse Noncon -Judicial Punishment -Serial Killer AU ...and so, so, so many more <3 Thank you again for the super sweet comment. I am sincerely so happy that my fics have brought you joy (and kept you warm at night!).

[liesmyth]

TLT holiday exchange: it's a wrap!

Authors have been revealed for the @tlt-holiday-exchange. You can find the full collection here; you can find my rec list here.

Thanks to everyone who created, beta-read, left feedback, or otherwise helped this event come together. You rock ❤️💀✨

What I Wrote

slash and burn for the wonderful @/forjodssake. Augustine/John, pre-Resurrection. ft. Augustine's mango vape and John's pathetic swag. Rated M.

“Fuck you,” John says. “I can do rizz.”

Exchange MPVs

Shoutouts to the creators with multiple works in the collection!

PyrrhaDveotee with 13 (!!!!) works. Here they are.

LesbianJesusLovesYou with SIX different works. Here they are.

with FIVE works each: Sluggg (here) and Kat_Hikari (here)

with FOUR works each: @thewinterstale (here) and @celira (here)

with THREE works each: @arithmonym (here) // @friendamedes (here and here) // Raxheim @theriverbeyond (here)

with TWO works each: @aspiranthect (here) // atropinecapra @youweremyridehome (here) // CindFourth @cindthia (here) // Lilac_Jam (here) // @rnanqo (here)

Art!!

Now that creators are public, you can check the art pieces in the collection to see if they are rebloggable on here or twitter.

You can find all the SIXTEEN art pieces in the collection here.

Read on under the cut to find: FIVE (!!!) newer additions to the collection that you might have missed and SEVEN (!!!!) long fics over 15k.

Hot New Entries!!

Some works were posted after the collection revealed, and you might have missed them. Here they are:

Absorbed by grey stone by CookieNS. Rated G.

Aiglamene and Pelleamena share a brief moment after the captain returns from the Cohort.

just like normal by paene. Rated E.

Ianthe gives herself a cock, and Corona is increasingly bewildered that she hasn’t been allowed to sit on it yet.

refreshments provided by Anonymous. Rated E. [ART FILL!]

Abigail Pent getting her tits sucked at a conference by Juno Zeta, as she deserves

Ritual of the Unkissed Skull by Raxheim. Harrow Nova; Rated E.

“There’s a benefit, you know. To not being my real cavalier. It means I can do this,” Gideon says, and kisses Harrow.

the soft animal of your body by pussymedes. Camilla/Nona, Rated E.

Nona goes into heat.

Longfics

We have SEVEN works over 15k words of length. Here they are:

Softly Falling, Tumbling Down by @ambiguouswren. Modern AU. Rated T. 28k.

Harrowhark Nonagesimus lived a perfectly fine life running The Anchorite's Archive, her family's bookshop that she inherited. Then a red haired menace entered her life and turned everything she thought she knew upside down.

come, dearest heart by @patiencespardon. HtN AU, Lyctor Palamedes, Rated E. 20k

In Canaan House, Palamedes Sextus unwillingly ascends to Lyctorhood in order to put an end to Cytherea the First's rampage. He's left heartbroken, grieving, and terribly, terribly lonely.

Reasonable Service by duplicitoussluts. Canaan House Era, Rated E. 19k.

Cristabel and Mercy have a disagreement. Mercy decides to make herself free use about it.

Prey by apredatorywasp. Serial killer AU, Rated E. 18k.

Gideon Nav gets kidnapped by serial killer Cytherea. With the help of her faithful sub Loveday, Cytherea tortures Gideon and tries to break her. Meanwhile, Harrow--joined by Camilla, Palamedes, Corona and Ianthe--searches for Gideon.

here is the church, here is the steeple by thewinterstale. Pre-canon. Rated T, 17k.

Pyrrha Dve once helped with a birth and painted a nursery mint green. Before the paint and before the blood, amidst tragic loss and heart-pounding necromantic discoveries, a quiet, saltwater love story was playing itself out in the shallow depths of the Canaan House swimming pool.

Ain't no sunshine when they're gone by Nightworldlove. Modern AU, Rated E, 16k.

Harrow's been on a business trip and Gideon's missed them terribly, turns out the feeling is very much mutual.

run on (for a long time) by @midnightbaguette. Western AU! Rated T. 16k

It's a wild west out there, full of supernatural forces and dangerous outlaws. Under the direst of circumstances, four of the unlikeliest companions must band together to outrun their pasts, and maybe find something new along the way.

Thank you for reading this far and thanks as always to the mods for another year of holiday deliciousness. If this list helped you find cool stuff in the collection, please let the creators know <3

[liesmyth]

has something from a tlt fic ever become headcanon to you? i ask because i find this happening to me all the damn time with this fandom but not others

OK SO, my tlt headcanons are like schrodinger's cat, they explicitly contradict each other sometimes and all of them exist at the same time in different quantum states of canon. So in that sense I've never read a fic and thought, okay, THIS is my canon from now on.

But I've read so so many fics that burst my third eye wide open and made me consider different perspectives on a character / dynamic, or helped me shape some I already had. A few favourites:

the soul that seeketh him by bittybelle — missing scene pre NtN ft. John and Kiriona. Wherein John Gaius meets his daughter, remembers the women he left behind, and deals poorly with being the male god of a universe in which the divine is essentially feminine.

AO3 user LesbianJesusLovesYou gave me Big Feelings about Gideon's childhood on the Ninth and her relationship with Harrow, Aiglamene, Ortus and Crux

believing in everything (and knowing nothing at all) — A series of childhood memories from the Ninth

when i call, will you come to me? — “My Lady,” Ortus wheezed, shifting uncomfortably. “I only thought you should know… Gideon Nav was flogged before the congregation.”

A few fics set right after NtN that really stayed with me:

never hear the sound of someone calling me home by @corpsesoldier — Kiriona Gaia returns to the House of the Ninth.

One More Son by captainpeggy — After Nona, Pyrrha Dve walks the Ninth.

two old broads split a cigarette by @forjodssake — Aiglamene/Pyrrha. “sometimes the girl you like becomes one person w her soulmate and you have to jack off about it”

Post HtN missing scenes:

Death in its season by @ancientannoyance — John holds Mercymorn's 24 minutes funeral

recognize them by their fruits by @ceruleanvulpine — John and Ianthe emerge out of the River

Other stuff that Stuck With Me

so I open the window to hear sounds of people by @sunderedstar — post NtN flashbacks. John and Alecto are the only two beings on earth, and he starts working on the Resurrection. This is harrowing and I'm absolutely obsessed with the implications in this fic of WHY John removed everyone's memory.

and they were roommates by @herenortherenearnorfar — pre Resurrection Mercy and Cristabel, from their first meeting onwards and it just really burrowed a hole in my brain and grew roots and sprouts and everything. Latin American nun Cristabel it's all I can see now, and YES they met working with climate refugees when M— was a bright eyed idealistic doctor. It also lines up great with the Asian Mercy headcanon that exist in my head (I have a whole elaborate backstory about M— aged 12 proclaiming to her Filipino Catholic family that she's an atheist now). Anyway, it's just a lovely, gorgeous fic. I think about it every day.

John 25:12 by @halfeatenmoon — pre-Resurrection, John and his friends escape the cow fortress to spend Christmas Day at the beach. With beer, salads, pavlova, and the corpses of a million fish killed by nuclear weapons testing. Ft. Southern hemisphere holidays in Mururoa Atol and 100% canon. To me.

Operation: The Most Honorable Man by @cadmean — Augustine has a proposal for the Saint of Duty (Dios Apate. That's the proposal)

lowkey cheating but I can't choose — absolutely anything AO3 user Raxheim has posted has been SOO up my alley. Every time I read one of their fics I feel like I'm enlightened by some never-before-considered detail. And mean ANYTHING, from Harrow Nova to Wake to Cytherea and the Lyctors to the Universe's #1 Sadgirl Gideon

[lesbianjesuslovesyou]

In case you're aching for some Camilla Hect and Harrowhark Nonagesimus domming the fuck out of Gideon Nav, here's my newest fic:

[liesmyth]

I don’t think I’ve seen this discussion, but I noticed a lot of people saying that Harrows beef with Gideon was strictly romantic longing, but. There is definitely a “The Golden child vs the Scapegoat” dynamic between them, which is established basically in the first pages of the book, by showing that they are the only kids on the planet, or at the very least of that age bracket. I don’t believe that this didn’t influence Harrow, when she acts on that influence and enjoys it constantly. “Griddle is stupid, Griddle is weak, Griddle is useless” etc, she definitely enjoys that. And yes, she sure is afraid of Gideon leaving but is it because Harrow recognizes her feelings and emotions towards Gideon as romantic or even love, or because Gideon is literally her property? I know that this is me having the squeaks that are tazmuir’s kinks basically. But I feel like fandom made Harrow into someone she decidedly isn’t. I like Harrow by the way! A lot! I admire her perseverance and the fact that as soon as she is out of the Ninth House influence she rapidly becomes kinder and more compassionate. But uhhhhhh, the most romantic person in the books? Harrow? Towards Gideon? No.

I think any positive emotion or recognition of already existing positive emotions that happened between them happened in Canaan House. Like Ortus and Harrow probably had a more healthy relationship judging by their interactions in HTN.

I am firmly on Both Can Cohexist team! I think Harrow had a massive, heartwrenching, horribly painful crush on Gideon but also didn't miss a chance to treat her like her whipping girl. Because Harrow is Like That, with her parents, the weight of the Ninth, hyperawareness of the 200 dead etc. and the best way to deal with her misery was to make it go around.

I hope actually at some point we get Harrow's real POV of her childhood, because I just get the vibe that she took "pigtail pulling" to the next level. I think Harrow not being able to deal with Gideon's sacrifice to the point where she lobotomised herself IS romantic (in a terrible maladaptive way) but it's also the least she could've done.

Anyway I'm here to rec these fic about Gideon's childhood that I think nail their backstory dynamic: believing in everything (and knowing nothing at all) and when i call, will you come to me? by lesbianjesuslovesyou