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Give him hugs and tickles he needs it 🥺💖
are you making headcanons?
if yes can you make some tickle hcs for lee!gumball?
Sure can!
~Gumball
• Lot more cuddly than you'd think he'd be. Like, he loves to snuggle up with his family and friends, especially Pennyyyy💛
• Dude is touch starved, that's why he wants cuddles and physical affection half the time. Poor bud just needs some comfort in the form of a hug or something, I mean c'mon he's 12. That's a hard age to get through and it's nice to have some love and support to help get past all those early teen troubles
• One thing he can barely dish out is being tickled though. He loves the affection, but that ain't gonna stop him from accidentally kicking you in the face when tickling him
• He's your typical 12 year old. He tries to act cool and tough and all that mess but if you so much as poke him he will lose the act instantly and start backing up from you. Really shows the real dork side of him lol
• He is ticklish just about everywhere but his worst spots are his sides and ears. Penny thinks it's hilarious that she can just blow in one of his ears and he'll start giggling
• Its seen in the show how smug and insulting he can be half the time. Well, he's still like that even when being tickled. It doesn't matter that he's the one laughing his head off, he'll still throw smart remarks at you through his laughter.
• Darwin and Penny are his main lers. Whenever Darwin tickles him, it's mostly for when he needs cheering up.
Penny on the other hand, she usually gets into tickle fights with him a lot more. Just about every time the two to go on a date, it ends in a tickle fight between them. It was on one of their first dates that Penny found out he was ticklish because he started giggling when she wrapped her arms around his sides.
• Dude dies over teasing. He can barely handle it, and of course Penny's the worst about it. She uses every tease in the book lol
• He has a real harty laugh for a kid. Thoughhh every once in a while, he'll snort, and it is the most embarrassing thing to him. Penny finds it cute though and half the time she makes it her goal to get him laughing hard enough that he snorts.
Welp, there it is! Hope I did ok hcs anon, enjoy!
#gumball being touch starved is so real to me#the amazing world of gumball tickle#the amazing world of gumball tickle hcs#the amazing world of gumball tickle headcanons#gumball#gumball watterson#lee gumball#ticklish gumball#ler gumball#penny#ler penny#Darwin#ler Darwin#cartoon tickle#cartoon tickle hcs#cartoon tickle headcanons
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Sugary Tickles
Baroness Von Bon Bon: Oh, come over here little guys.
Beppi: No No No!
Minions: Yeah! Thank you!
B: Wha-what are you gonna d-
M: PTTTT
B: GAH HAH!!
V: Had Fun?
#RFM Post#RFM Art#Cuphead the Game#Baroness Von Bon Bon#Beppi the Clown#Lord Gob Packer#Sargent Gumbo Gumbull#Sir Waffington III#Just a bunch of Tickling#Lee!Beppi the Clown#Ler!Baroness Von Bon Bon#Ler!Lord Gob Packer#Ler!Sargent Gumbo Gumball#Ler!Sir Waffington III
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Suspense
Tickletober day 3: Suspense
Summary: Marshall thought it be funny to mess with his boyfriend with the thing he loves the most.
A/N: I don’t know what suspense means, and it’s kinda embarrassing, but I hope this is what this means.
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Marshall Lee told his beloved Gary, to watch his back for now on bc there is someone, or something, lurking behind him, and it’ll strike when he leasts expect it. The pink haired teen just recently tickled the shit out of his younger boyfriend, so he really was hoping Marshall tickled the shit out of him too as revenge.
And if he knew anything about his gutarist boyfriend, when he’s in a ler mood he would always wear this all knowing look on his face, the one he’s wearing now.
2 weeks has passed, and Marshall showed no signs of getting Gary back. The pinkette felt saddened by this, and he wanted to tell Marshall to tickle him without telling him because Gumball hadn’t ever mention anything about liking tickling, and he wants to keep it that way too.
The Prince walked past his boyfriend and acted like he was grabbing a cup, having his whole side exposed, but all the guitarist did was grabbed his cup of coffee and went to go sit back down on the couch. Gumball beilieves in second chances.
A couple days passed, and Gumball became more angsty by the second. He wanted, no… needed, his boyfriend to just tickle him back already. Why is Marshall Lee being so stubborn?! Gumball propped his bare feet on his lap, hopping he would just trace a line down his soles, but nothing came. All that happened was Marshall showing his boyfriend a funny meme on tiktok. Gumball just rolled his eyes and walked off. “What? You don’t think these memes are funny? Haha.” The guitarist went back to his previous sitting, laughing like an idiot to his phone. If only the vampire can make his prince laugh like that. Well, third times the charm, right?
Gumball slept in way later than his usual wake up times, so Marshall came in to try to wake him up, all apart of the pink haired’s plan. “Good morning, sunshine, it’s time to wake up~.” The vampire tried nudging him, but he didn’t wake up. “Come on, Gary, it’s 1:13, you usually wake up at 10:00, is something wrong?” Marshall shook him four more times and with every push, he pushed harder. Then he finally gave up. “Well, alright, I’ll let you sleep in, but I don’t want u sleeping in tomorrow, I want to do stuff with you.”
Before he walked out the room, he heard Gumball’s heavy sigh. “Oh my gosh, Marshall… babe…” He flipped over to meet the gaze of his boyfriend.
“What’s wrong, bub? You seemed out of it these past 3 weeks, I’m worried about you.” Marshall came over to kiss his boyfriend.
“Ugh… please… can you just… *sigh* tickle me… please?” Gumball gave the vampire these cute puppy dog eyes, the same eyes that he uses to get his way.
“Hahah, you want me to tickle you? That’s so cute~.” Marshall carressed Gary’s sleepy face with his finger.
The prince pulled a pillow over his beat red face, this is so embarrassing he actually wanted to die right where he’s laying. “Don’t tease me.”
“I’m sorry, you’re just too cute. Hahaha, anyways, you could’ve just asked babe.”
“Well, I didn’t want to ask, that’s the problem. The last time I tickled you you said ‘watch your back’ so I just assumed you would’ve tickled me from the get go. Why did you wait so fucking long~~~” Gumball wanted to shut up, but his mouth just kept talking.
“I was gonna tickle you, but after I saw your face after saying that, I’d thought making you ask me to would suffice just fine for me. Now, lay there like a good boy, and let me do all the work.” Marshall climbed on his boyfriend, straddling his waist, and pinning his arms down. That afternoon was filled with bubbly laughs, and let’s just say, Gumball went to sleep with a huge smile on his face.
#tickle content#tickle fluff#tickle#tickle fic#Adventure time#fionna and cake#Marshall Lee#Ticklish Gumball#prince gumball
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#polls#cosplay#help#wanna be creative but I have opinions and don’t know what to pick ;-;#this’ll be my first cosplay that I’m going to try and make myself so wish me luck :
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Switch!Pennyfitzgerald hcs?
ah-kay! i like this picture. this is a cute picture
ler- Has used her shape-shifting fairy ability to her advantage in muntiple occasions, On one of their dates that went well, turned into a stork, embraced Gumball in one wing and vigorously feathered his tum with the other. His laugh was ADORABLE to her. She started being all sappy and romantic while Darwin was watching- unfortunately, and he ratted out all his worst spots despite his plea. She can only shape-shift when it corresponds to her emotions, so on strong ler/romantic moods only, which is just SO cute to imagine Favorite spots to target are the belly, feet and anywhere that makes a funny noise. Even sometimes, the tail. Very very sassy ler, esp. with her boyfriend. Has visited the Wattersons multiple times so I'd say she likes to tickle Darwin and Anais too :> Also likes to tease a ton, but very casually. She is such a savage when it comes to that. Says stuff like "You're all red!" and verbalizes the action "boop", and snidely plays the role of someone who's kinda evil, likes to do evil laughs and play a part like a tickle monster. sPEAKING of that she can turn into a LITERAL monster imagine her power Has joined others in wrecking people before- taught Tobias a lesson with other Elmore classmates once Doesn't realize when she's making her lee embarrassed a lot. Teases without realizing, but right when she does, she makes this smug-ass grin and starts teasing some MORE. lee- Loses her sass, and in turn her marbles. Incredibly lee for Gumball and sometimes just wants to climb back in that peanut shell when she's teased. Also transforms in lee moods, either into something small like a mouse to run away or puffs up in embarrassment. Gets fidgety and sweaty when asking for tickles, can't ever look at her ler. Once asked for Gumball, who in turn flustered the fuck out of her by doing snide impressions and even doing tickly kisses!! Got ganged up on by her peanut fam a while ago, now not so much. Kinda, sorta tickle starved. Loves being a lee WAY too much, and is obsessed with tickle-kisses. This baby is touch starved. Worst spots are her wings and even her horns, as well as her tummy (death-spot) have you HEARD her canon laugh? It's just so adorable and squealy. switch- Penny would be insanely fun to switch with! She sould definetly transform in a tickle fight and react like she's going to die, even using her dragon-form somehow, almost always wins the fights. Always gets revenge after being tickled, but the times people do get the jump on her, she's on the floor, begging.
#tickling#ticke headcanons#tawog tickling#tickle#t-word#tfb community#tk headcanons#tickle hcs#sfw tickling#sfw tickle community
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INTRO THINGY
Requests: open (but I have a few requests rn so if you request, please please please, don’t expect it to be done the next day or days)
Name (not irl): radation (nickname: rad)
Tickle blog<333
Some things about me:
-I’m 15 years old
-ler/lee switch
-proud Muslim soldier☪️🕋
-straight
-👏I👏.CANT👏.SUPPORT👏.I.👏CAN.👏ONLY.👏RESPECT.👏
- 🇶🇦
BOUNDARIES/DNI IF
-you support incest
-NSFW
-you’re an islamaphobic
-you don’t know the difference between support and respect
-22 years or older
-if you’re 21 or younger…I will only speak with you if you respect my boundries and if you’re nice
-you support isnotrael
When requesting:
NO:
NSFW
lee/ler Camilo and Bruno (I think y’all know why)
Inappropriate questions (I’m a minor)
No y/n or x reader or oc’s
Romantic stuff
YES
Actual characters
SFW
Be nice
Please explain scenario (it helps a lot but ig it’s optional)
FANDOMS:
-encanto💝💞
All characters except Camilo and Bruno (I don’t even have to explain)
-frozen✨
All characters except hans
-little mermaid (2, and Ariel’s beginning)💞✨
All characters Except for lee triton and Sebastian (sorry but triton as a tickle monster to his daughters sound cute but him as a lee makes me uncomfortable and Sebastian…I don’t know how to make a fic of a crab so yeah-)
- The amazing world of Gumball😅
(except principal brown, ms simian (if that’s how u spell it 😭) and other outside characters, if u want to include an outside character, I’ll see your request and let you know if I’ll write for them or not)
-miraculous💞💝
(Except certain side characters like principal,news reporters, that bald man I never know the name of😭 and more, I’ll let you know if I’ll write for them or not)
-trolls 3 💝💞
-I’m down with writing for this, especially velvet and veneer but I’m cool with the others.
Emoji meaning:
-💝: please request this (you don’t have to)
-💞 : enjoy writing for
-✨: cool with writing for
-🤍: I am not writing for this at the moment
-😅: I am into it but I won’t be writing for it
Non-tickle blogs are welcome too <3
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I posted 57 times in 2022
That's 57 more posts than 2021!
54 posts created (95%)
3 posts reblogged (5%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@lathermejosh
@n1ghtw1ng-scp
@kikiomori
I tagged 53 of my posts in 2022
Only 7% of my posts had no tags
#your fave - 49 posts
#super mario movie - 48 posts
#super mario - 47 posts
#asks open - 25 posts
#self insert - 4 posts
#ooc post - 3 posts
#tumblrpost - 3 posts
#portal 2 - 2 posts
#master chief - 1 post
#monster prom - 1 post
Longest Tag: 28 characters
#the amazing world of gumball
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Wheatley from Portal 2
Wheatley from Portal 2 is voicing Mario!
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#4
Godzilla
Godzilla is voicing Mario!
134 notes - Posted December 3, 2022
#3
the onceler 🙏
The Once-ler from The Lorax is voicing Mario!
192 notes - Posted December 4, 2022
#2
Will Wood
Will Wood from Will Wood and the Tapeworms is voicing Mario!
195 notes - Posted October 24, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
I accidentally deleted it but @theclownster requested this!
Benrey from HLVRAI (Half-Life VR but the AI is sentient) is voicing Mario!
210 notes - Posted December 2, 2022
Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →
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1. Definitely lers that are playful but extremely cute, flirty and shy!
Lees: Quiet laughter ehehe, shy lee and cute lee
2. FICS TAKE SO LONG!! I like writing but art is more fun and expressive imo!
3. Pop Harukaze, Nagisa Misumi, Saki Hyuuga, eene Eddy, eene Ed, Gumball, Usagi Tsukino, Mordecai, Rigby, my ocs, (mainly Amira, Jasmine and Oakley), prob a billion more
My most favs tho are Tsubomi Hanasaki, Erika Kurumi and Double D/Edd!
4. Traces DONT EVEN TRY 😭
5. Idk what that means, but according to google its most likely the plot, so I am going to go with that. Possibly some kind of relationship like Double D and Eddy from EENE, if you don’t know, basically Eddy is like really teasy and Double D is like.. well, shy. xD
So by that I mean like.. OKAY IMMA JUST SHOW IT LOL 😭 (ik some are art but it fits the theme)
OKOKOK HIII
I did the thing
ASK GAMEEEAAA
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1🪄-What is your favourite type of lee/ler?
2🎨-Do you prefer tkl art or fics?
3🍬-Who’s your fav character to write tkl fics abt?
4🍭-Are you more sensitive to traces or squishes?
5☂️-What’s your fav multi-character trope?
6🌊-Embarrassed lees or embarrassed lers?
7☕️-Are you more ticklish on the upper or lower part of your body?
8⛅️-Sleepy tickles or hyper?
9🐈⬛-What’s your least & most ticklish place?
Enjoy!!! (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)
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Barry B Benson vs Once-Ler
which is worse
BARRY B FUCKING BENSON
idk why I just now looked it up but I thought Barry was that gumball machine guy n I was literally thinking "ain't no one mentioned the bee??" BUT YOU HAVE. AND IDK WHY IM JUST REALIZING IT VUT JTS THE BEE
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For a request maybe something with Rob and Gumball? Maybe they’re having an enemy fight and Gumball realizes that Rob is ticklish and uses it against him. Hope you’re doing well! 💖
Evil master
A/N: I’m sorry for my disappearance if I think I won’t be active for a little minute I’ll post about it and also if seen “Encanto” it was so good I might make some HC for it.
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Gumball is currently at home by himself because he gotten into trouble. And is grounded mean while, his family is out at the mall. His nemesis rob decided it’s the perfect time, to ambush him.
“Ugh I can’t believe it I’m stuck in this stupid house for something that isn’t even my fault” gumball complained. “I was trying heLAAAH-“ gumball rant before being blindfolded. (Until he fell asleep from yelling which had no effect)
Soon gumball woke up to laughter “AHAHAHAHA- wait no that’s not right maybe muahahahahaha” rob was trying to practice his laugh before gumball woken up.
“Ugh what happe— BOB?!” Gumball woke up surprised. “AWW my little nemesis is growing up” he cooed.
“First off my name is Rob not bob and secondly, don’t called me that it sounds embarrassing and plus I’m not your kid dude I’m like way older than you” rob explained.
“Anyways that’s not the point dude why do you have me tied up” gumball angrily asked. “Ive got you tied to the chair can’t move now and plus you stuck in my lair muahahaha ” rob evilly cackled “nailed it~” he sang.
“Dude you do not know how to tie someone up I mean like c’monnn and dude this is literally my basement I know my own house” gumball outplayed him has he stands up with the rope in his hand looking at it then smiling deviously at rob “I can show you how evil I can be”. “W-wait NOOOOOOO” rob wailed as gumball tied him to the chair and thought about his next move. “Oh he’s just tied me up no bIHIg” rob spoke to himself before letting out a squeak from gumballs tail bushing up again his neck.
“OH M GEE ARE YOU TICKLISH” gumball gasped as he wiggled his fingers at him ” No dont touch mehehe nohohoho” rob burst into giggles as gumball repeatedly pinched his sides.
“MUAHAHAHAHA THIS MY SON IS HOW EVIL I CAN BE AHAHAHAHA” gumball laughed evilly as he squeezed and scratch a rob’s sides and ribs just poking and prodding everywhere on rob’s upper half
“I am the most evil you will never defeat me” gumball teased. “STAHAHAHAHAP IT GYAHAHAHAHA” “stap what” gumball asked “TIHICKLING MEHEHE” rob replied no knowing the consequence for answering him. “What you said keep tickling you” gumball grinned. “NOHOHO YOU KNOHOHOW WHAHAHAT I MEANT GAHAHA” rob threw his head back into fit of laughter.
“OHOHOK OHKAHAHAY YOU WIHIN GAHAHAHAHA” rob pleaded. “Dude seriously need to work on this whole evil nemesis thing. That was way too easy.” Gumball chuckled as he untied rob.
“Shuhut up”. Rob giggles as he covers his face in embarrassment.
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I LOVE PHYSICALLY AFFECTIONATE/ TICKLE LOVING DARWIN SO MUCH OH MY GOSH! 💖💖
hey good hcs for gumball!
got something for darwin?
Sure do! I love Darwin!
(was surprised when I found this gif cause it fits the topic lol)
~Darwin
• The cuddliest fish to ever exist. He loves receiving affection and loves even more being the one giving it!
• He knows how much Gumball needs support and affection half the time and he takes it upon himself to be his number one guy. He's such a good brother! When it comes to himself though, Carrie is the one he likes to cuddle up to
• Tickling is definitely one of his favorite forms of affection! He thinks it's a wonderful way to bond with someone, though it's funny cause he can barely handle being tickled himself
• Unlike Gumball, Darwin is really sweet and honest. He's not gonna put up any tough guy act to try and hide his personality. And if you poke him, he may start getting giggly and panic, but he won't run. If he knows he's going to be tickled then he just kinda accepts fate lol
• Like Gumball, he's pretty much ticklish everywhere but his worst spots are his fins, stomach, and feet. So much as laying a finger on his fins will have him giggling
• He can handle being teased a little better than Gumball can.. But not by much. After a good handful of teases, his laughter will slowly grow higher in pitch due to them as if it took him a while to catch onto them or something lol
• Dude's just a little bubbly mess who can barely get his words out when being tickled. Anything he tries to say usually comes out inaudible, and it's hilarious to hear. He sounds like a high pitched gremlin to put it simply
• His main lers are Gumball and Carrie. Gumball is like him, as in he usually tickles Darwin when ever he needs help cheering up.
Him and Carrie don't get into tickle fights too often but when they do it's usually for fun or when they're bonding with each other. Darwin can barely ever stand being tickled by her though cause he gets so flustered. He's such a sappy cute boyfriend❤
• He has a very squeaky and giggly laugh! Carrie thinks it's adorable and points it out just about every time he laughs, which usually embarrasses him and has him blushing like crazy. But hey, he loves to laugh and make others laugh cause he's a good guy like that
Well there it is, our beloved Darwin! Hope you enjoy these too anon!
#guys I’m dying 😭#the amazing world of gumball tickle#the amazing world of gumball tickle hcs#the amazing world of gumball tickle headcanons#Darwin#darwin watterson#lee Darwin#ticklish Darwin#ler Darwin#gumball#gumball watterson#ler gumball#Carrie#ler Carrie#cartoon tickle#cartoon tickle hcs#cartoon tickle headcanons
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Have you ever read The Borribles? It's about lost/abandoned children in London who become brownie-like beings who live in precarious freedom in the interstices of the city. You THINK the story is about Borribles building their own culture and keeping one another free in spite of everything, but it's REALLY about how one wily old Borrible is manipulating the others, even letting them die, in order to become wealthy. It's been on my mind since I saw the last episodes of Trollhunters...
Never her heard of this before you mentioned it! Might give it a look when I have more free time, but judging be the summary, if sounds like something pretty dark. Taking that one of the books’ release coincided with the British Riots is just... wow.
IDK, “children’s army/child soldiers” is a pretty horrifying trope to me, within any genre, thought I feel it has become a major plot point in the popular works of fiction these days. This is a very interesting topic for discussion, actually, if we consider the message this is sending and the mentality that is created through this collective overuse.
#trollhunters#ler answers#now that I thing about it i'm trying to think about a popular piece of children and YA fiction lately#(with kids under 18 as main characters)#where there ISN'T any kind of major conflict to deal with#World of Gumball maybe?#don't get me wrong I understand why it exists from the narrative tension point of view#and I understand why people would prefer these stories from the point of cause and effect#but it honestly makes me even more worried about the state of the world we are in#Anonymous
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Masterlist
I’M ORIGINALLY TICKLE-PAGE BTW!!! Hey! This is prolly like my fifth tumblr account because I keep forgetting all of my passwords. This is where I’ll do your requests on ang fandoms you’re interested in. I’ll only write for “Lee Male, ler male/female” and you can request NSFW or SFW if you want. NSFW, I’ll just put under a cut and warn you guys before hand. I’ll be adding on to this more. I’ll update this!
Fandom List
Manga:
Raion Gotoki No Kuni Kara (tickle scene)
Daytime Star- Chaper 76 tickle scene
Videos
Spellbound tickle
Number 24 tickle epsiode 9
Tiktok:Harua Tickle
Barbie: Spy Squad tickle
The Camboys silent challenge (Danny gets tickled)
The Real Oneals (Season 1 episode 6 tickle scene)
The Lego Monkie Kid
Tickle Headcanons
Cuddly tickles Lee: MK, brief Redson, Ler: Redson, breif MK
Ben 10
Gwen the tickler
Rottmnt
Younger brothers vs older brothers
My Hero Academia
Chase- Tickletober day2: Lee: Denki, Ler: Bakugo
Tickle Headcanons: Dekusquad
Tickle Headcanons: Bakusquad
Sonic (Live action)
Tickle Headcanons: Sonic & Tails
Tickletober
What a tease (Tease day 1) Lee! Tails Ler: Sonic
Chase (Chase day 2) Lee: Denki Ler: Bakugo
Suspense (Suspense day 3) Lee: Gumball; brief Marshall Ler: Marshall; brief Gumball
Games
Magic
Hiding(Hiding day 6) Lee: Kirishima; Ler: Bakugo
Machine
Trapped
Unusual tool
Interrogation
Endurance
Invisibility
Spider
Ghost
Shadows
Nightmare
Demon
Vampire
Forest/plants
Candy/potions
Reward/punishment
Trick
Treat
Scary movie
Halloween party/costumes
Aftercare
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CARTOON NETWORK We Bare Bears Steven Universe The Powerpuff Girls Gumball Uncle Grandpa Clarence Adventure Time!
"Yassss, I am REALLY drawn in dat modern cartoon art style~!"
Serious note: What if the Once-ler was drawn and coloured in the art style seen mostly in televised western animation on the CN?
date drawn: 2022/04/19replies and reblogs are appreciated
#once-ler#once ler#onceler#the once-ler#lorax#the lorax#procreate#art#colored#pajamas#excited#bean mouth#calarts#cartoon network#transparent#sticker#modern#pastel#mimic
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Request changed, can you do hcs for pancake cookie? lee and ler okay?
Pancake cookie!!! I love him sm! I hope his brother gets added to kingdom at some point tbh
Absolutely adorable as a lee!!
Super ticklish baby
Likes having tickle fights with Rollcake and the other kid cookies
Doesn't mind being tickled, and he likes it depending on who's tickling him.
Most ticklish spots are his neck and tummy, but he's ticklish is all the standard spots.
Teasing Pancake gets him really flustered, but again, he doesn't mind it.
Love tickling others! While his main targets are Cherry, Gumball, and Strawberry, he really goes after whoever's around if he's feeling bold.
One time he tickled Muscle Cookie while he was lifting weights and he got a dumbell to the head
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"I've got a plan, a demand and it just began And if you're right, you'll agree
Here it's coming a better version of me Here it comes a better version of me Here it comes a better version of me"
Eu podia postar qualquer coisa me identificando com as letras da Fiona Apple (porque enfim né, a similaridade de bads e felicidades são projeções mais que palpáveis) mas vamo postar uma otimista porque tô em estado misto, e o pessimismo/depressivo tá aqui mas a hipomania/eufórica tá mais forte.
Que agonia de hoje, que agonia de existir. Tô ansiosa com tudo e não consigo fazer nada muito bem, a minha cabeça tá mais histérica que minhas ações. Eu tô eufórica mas tô sem energia física também. Passei o dia querendo transar com o Igor (sonhei que morava com ele, isso é um adendo aleatório que queria registrar, é um sentimento esquisito e novo cogitar uma coisa dessa, e sonhos falam alto sobre nossas vontades né rs), e me senti mal por me ver objetificando uma pessoa que eu amo tanto. Chorei, foi podre. (tenho medo de criar uma dependência emocional em períodos de euforia, tentei fazer pouco contato pra não criar esse caminho na minha cabeça e tentei ir atrás de outras pessoas e outras coisas mas hoje foi difícil demais de existir, QUE DIA LONGO.) Queria conseguir ler meu livro, mas a coisa mais próxima de uma mínima atenção foi ver Gumball e escrever enquanto ouvia música de uma maneira meio psicopata.
Tô com vontade de fazer merda, de sair, de me drogar, pensei em me cortar, mas não vou. Eu fico pensando que todas essas vontades são reais mas é tudo química fudida do meu cérebro e eu tenho que lembrar disso pra me tranquilizar. É. SÓ. QUÍMICA. FUDIDA. manufaturadaatravésdetraumas. Ao mesmo tempo eu fico pensando o quanto essa química não faz todos esses desejos serem concretos de certo modo, se tá dentro de mim já é meio caminho pra se tornar real, não? Mas o autocontrole tá aí pra isso, uma droguinha legalizada e receitada poderia ajudar mas não vou ter ela porque tô me boicotando bonito nessas férias e atrasei a psiquiatra.
Diabéisso mulher, aprende a ficar bem e feliz. Eu me vejo feliz e começo a querer fazer merda "sem querer". I'm gonna fuck it up again, my ass. Não vou deixar isso não.
#b4b3#hipomania#bipolaridade#muito eufórica mas controlada#fiona apple#better version of me#TAB#bipolar
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