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https://archiveofourown.org/works/62834083/chapters/160877197
Title: As The Crow Fly's. Rating: E (Adult) Fandom: Dragon Age: The Veilgaurd Pairing: Lucanis/Rook/Spite Lucanis/Spite Rook/Spite Emmrich/OC Illario/OC Timeline: Sequel to Crimson Feathers Status: On going Summary: Things had settled down, Lucanis has solidified his position as 1st Talon of the Antivan Crows with Spite and Altara as his left and Right hands, now that the crows where accepting more contracts and Spite had become a fully fledged crow Lucanis hires a Healer, feeling an in house physician would be a good idea, he needed someone he could trust, someone discreet who would not treat Spite like an experiment, Dr Frances was just the man for the job, discreet, patient and kind he had an excellent bedside manner and was one of the only Healers Spite would allow anywhere near him. he was a good man and with permission from Spite and the help of Emmrich Volkarin, they learn more about Spite and how he came to possess a Body and perhaps the two mages grow closer in the process.
Amika Cantori is a flirt who isn't afraid to go after what she wants, after her humiliating attempt at flirting with Spite she tries to move on, looking for a distraction and happens to meet Illario Dellamorte, she has heard tales of him mostly cautionary, but she find's him intriguing he is as much of a flirt as she is and there is an instant attraction but is that all there is between them?
#fan fiction#crow politics#family drama#spite dellamorte#spite#lucanis dellamorte#lucanis/spite#rook/spite#lucanis/rook/spite#emmrich volkarin#illario dellamorte#original character#amika cantori#dr frances#emmrich/oc#Illario/oc#romance#antivan crows#writing#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dragon age vielgaurd fanfiction#adult fan fiction#sequel to crimson feathers#spite has a body#learning more about spite#medical trauma#ossuary trauma#ptsd from ossuary#mystery
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Sorry, most likely my memory being poor, but I thought Malleus' mom (don't know how to spell her name and too lazy to check how to spell it) was already an adult when Lilia ""proposed""?? Like I was always under the assumption that it was like a one-sided child crush on somebody completely out of your league you tend to have as a kid 💀
I don't think they say how old she was? although it's entirely possible I just misunderstood; my Japanese is...shaky. :') the actual line is "幼い頃に私に求婚したのは偽りか?", which I read as "isn't it true that you proposed to me as a kid?", and took as her being older than him, but not necessarily an adult (like, I was thinking of Lilia as being not quite a preteen and Mel being preteen/young teen). although I don't know if there's a connotation or something I'm missing that implies a bigger age gap, if that makes sense!
(and of course, I might also just be forgetting some other line -- if someone else knows, then please correct me! I need to know which headcanons need adjusting 👀)
BUT YEAH in a canon-y sense, Malleus is 178 and around the third-years developmentally. which makes me think that even though dragons have a way longer lifespan, they go through childhood at about the same rate as most fae (or at least the kind that Lilia is) and just kinda...slow waaaaay down once they hit adulthood. so it makes sense in my brain that he and Meleanor could've basically grown up together!
...it makes it angstier that way, anyway. :)
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers#this week on ego thinks way too much about diasomnia#(what do you mean you're not supposed to overanalyze the chronology)#but yeah mel was completely out of his league regardless#she was out of literally everyone's league#though seriously i think i just...narratively want them to be more equals?#because a big chunk of lilia's Issues were (and let's be real. are.) based on internalizing that he doesn't deserve love#and that he doesn't deserve to be around the people he loves#while mel is over here going 'you stupid idiot. you absolute fool. i'm going to go die for you out of spite'#(i do think lilia never realized she died to save him too and not just malleus) (but we digress)#i think it's a bit more satisfying if there isn't a big gap between them like that#(same for raverne) (assuming we ever get to learn ANYTHING about him) (please twst just a few more breadcrumbs i'm begging you...)#but ah well. the angst is delicious either way >:)#please definitely let me know if i misunderstood though! i need the character trauma to be Correctly Devastating. >:)
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Pegging Lillian headcanons??
It's a big yes for him! Bend him over, pin him down, make him suck on your strap, what ever position it is, he's doing it. He's very open to whatever kink you have but this is one of his bigger kinks, closely related to his breeding kink —for both sides, though this time it's him getting bred. Plus points if it's one of those straps that can ejaculate fake cum.
After the breeding session, he tends to keep you in place—as well as your strap— to keep your cum deep inside, effectively cockwarming the strap.
#asks#yandere#yandere oc#yandere male#yandere x reader#yandere x you#lilian oc#sorry about the emdashes ive been trying to use them more bc I actually like them more compared to parenthesis LMAO#also all of those things about ppl saying that a writing is ai bc they use emdashes made me want to learn how to use them out of spite
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the way the music died at just the right moment made this so perfect
#HAVE I MENTIONED I LOVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP#holy hell i'm brainstorming there will be an essay in the tags#da4#dragon age veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#taash#i love how that phrase became a joke between them and got this far. and with lucanis being first talon#plus if you have taash assigned with the crows rook and teia comment on making them an honorary crow#i genuinely wonder if taash actually joins them and how it would go down#because on the one hand i imagine lucanis can just immediately let it happen no questions asked#but on the other hand the crows are more than what they appear to taash and it's not like people line up to join the crows#ANYWAY ignoring whether it's a good idea or not-- considering caterina's probably not far from passing#and illario being locked away (in my universe) House Dellamorte is down to one (1) and it's the first talon himself#so what if - dare i say it - lucanis takes taash under his wing and makes them part of house dellamorte#because taash has lost their family. lucanis has lost his. lucanis has since realised a family doesn't have to be by blood#and so lucanis is like 'you could be part of the dellamorte family. if you want. I won't be upset if you don't- i can find another house f-'#and taash is just 'fuck off you're joking of COURSE fuck yeah!'#and i imagine taash would want to be his personal bodyguard and lucanis is like NO that's too much stress and things you'd have to learn#and be aware of. and taash is like 'okay but how many crows do you know of that can breathe fire to threaten people'#and then spite dramatically intervenes with 'YES! FIRE!!!!!' and lucanis is right back in Tired Dad Mode lmao#ANYWAY i have a lot of feelings about their friendship
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incredibly niche post I suspect but please someone you see the vision right?
#its about being raised to fight#about having self destructive tendencies to indulge in when given a goal#and being treated as little more than a weapon or tool#its about being seen as less than human#its about being indistinguishable from a cosmic being in the eyes of outsiders yet still being a distinct entity from it#and having faith in a cosmic power that devestates you in the end#and being hopelessly devoted to your friends and family#and having your views and behaviors changed by that love you feel for them#about learning to live in spite of your past and reputation#about being an “attack dog” archetype to others but having deep unabashed emotion in every action committed#about never quite being understood but finding comfort in people that try to understand#SOMEONE PLEASE I KNOW YOU SEE ME#dsmp#dream smp#c!techno#c!technoblade#technoblade#ctechno#ctechnoblade#supernatural#spn#jimmy novak#castiel#castiel supernatural#dean winchester#dean supernatural#the dsmp fandom activity is not huge and i suspect the crossover with spn is yet smaller on a large scale but also this is the spn website#i know someone knows what im talking about#alt version with techno ranboo and phil on the corners with castiel on the inside#can you tell my favorite characters from each media?
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#is it normal to doubt all the work youve done right before you're about to succeed#i want so badly to believe that my work is worth doing. even if done badly. but im so hard on myself for it#i doubt my abilities as a lecturer because someone else would do a better job#i am paralyzed by my growing pile of late assignments that stuns me the more it grows#and at the end of it all- past the struggle and hardship- im walking away with a piece of paper that denotes me as a sucker#who went to school for a love of learning without an actual plan in mind. im not married to the idea of teaching but#i feel so worn down that i dont have the drive or passion to half ass it like i have been.#but still i rise in spite of it all#anyway whether or not im 1% more employable after graduating. im working now so i can enjoy my birthday without the stress of finals#and so i can try shrooms to celebrate
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one thing I really love about Wilardo's conclusion is how Zizel being the demon associated with him is expanded on. because I think that was always the one people didn't fully understand compared to Charlotte and Ashe or Sirius and Lime
#the noel/rouge is obvious because of noel's whole deal of course#but then charlotte bets on ashe because it's a tactical choice (most likely to win. plus considering her life before becoming a hater...)#(and also something about ashe's family compared to charlotte's)#lime bets on sirius for the opposite reason (he's least likely to kill claire but when pushed far enough... she likes tragedies like that)#(+ something something lime wallows in her misfortune while sirius learns to live in spite of it)#learning more about zizel's thoughts on wilardo (and how purebred demons can't feel emotions the same way people/haters do) was fun#and - again - helps to make her association with his route not just seem like a “well they're the only two left” sort of thing#i love zizel witch's heart...#wh spoilers#bagel's rambles
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"i dont care if people who havent read the books get spoiled for the show" <- words of a person i now want to bite and yell at
#BE FUCKING NICE#A LOT OF THEM ARE CHILDREN??? THEY EITHER HAVENT GOTTEN AROUND TO READING THE BOOKS BECAUSE THEY DIDNT HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO YET#OR#ADDITIONALLY IT IS 2023. THE WORLD IS DIFFERENT AND MEDIA IS BEING ADAPTED FOR NEW GENERATIONS#TRY HOLDING SOME WONDER AND JOY IN YOUR HEART AND THINK ABOUT HOWW FUN IT IS TO EXPERIENCE A STORY FOR THE FIRST TIME#STOP SPOILING SHIT ON PURPOSE IT MAKES ME WANT TO COMMIT CRIMES❤️#literally dont be a spiteful dick and stop ruining things for fun or because you want to gatekeep and have a superiority complex#fuck uou i would personally give ANYTHING to get to experience this story for the first time again#and watching people ruin in in real time for people experiencing it for the firdt time. i hate you#ypure all extremely selfish and shortsighted for doing this whole 'yeah but the books have been out for forever.. :/' bs#absolutely giving yourself away as a fucking clown with no ability to gain anything positive from shared joy. get well soon#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#pjo show#percy jackson show#pjo tv show#eeanpost#ALSO THE FUCKING AUDACITY FOR THE FANBASE OF A BOOK SERIES ABOUT KIDS STRUGGLING WITH LEARNING DISABILITIES TO YELL AT PEOPLE FOR NOTREADING#DO YOU FUCKING HEAR YPURSELVES ???? WHAT THE FUCK??? THE STORY IS MORE ACCESSIBLE NOW. THAT IS A GOOD THING. HTJSJJTJFJG
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Mairon/Sauron (Tolkien) Cosplayer + edits: me Photo credit: stevejensen65 Wig: Arda Wigs (Grace, in “Fire Orange”) Contacts: Uniqso (Sweety Crazy Red Demon Eye) Ears: Aradani Costumes (Sun Elf Ears) Circlet: PernCirclets (on Etsy) Gorget: Crystalsidyll (on Etsy) Leather armor: LederFantasies (on Etsy) Fangs: Scarecrow (Small Deluxe Fangs) Dress base is mass-produced/store-bought; boots are my own. In the brooding silence by the light of the moon Running through yesterdays gone wrong -- Poets of the Fall
#mairon#sauron#silmarillion#tolkien#cosplay#some more end-of-First-Age angst ♡#i really enjoy thinking about the period of time after he rejected eonwe's proposal and before he appeared as annatar in eregion#having to rebuild quietly; somehow find and consolidate all his orcs and other servants that were scattered across the continent#having to learn the layout and lands of a brand new world; keep up with the elven politics and who has established themselves where#working entirely alone; no thuri no gothmog no other high ranking former angband folks he can rely on#and all in secret and with the very recent memory of how melkor and all his works were brought down#rebuilding himself as well in the process#driven by genuine love for middle earth and by anger/spite towards the West and by compulsion/perfectionism; unable to stop#must have been very lonely and bitter work#hits all the best angst spots ^^#hira cosplays mairon
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hi I just discovered this wonderful Crowskull artist & all I’m now thinking about is soft romantic lucanis/emmrich gestures.
#[ 🗡️ ] ── * mun { behind the scenes } .#tbd#// how lucanis started disliking emmrich and distrusting him#// feeling as though he’s merely a case study to the mourn watcher#// & then as time goes on & as rook encouraged everyone to know each other better#// in order to achieve their common goal#// lucanis deciding to converse more with emmrich#// even about spite.#// asking the fade expert questions#// beginning to feel some sort of connection between these short moments of conversation#// & he’s probably learned at book club that Emmrich has had his fair share of intimacy and romance albeit nothing serious#// whilst lucanis himself tried once & it failed. that’s the convo pertaining to viago & the dagger#// both of these men never experiencing true unconditional love#// one with experience bc he has the freedom to & one without bc his occupation didn’t allow time to explore his fantasies#// & sure. lucanis prob had those passing thoughts for lust or intimacy or what have you#// but his main focus is his work#// and the moment lucanis felt something for emmrich after he wasn’t able to land his shot with neve OR rook?#// you know damn well he went for it. he’s not missing an opportunity again#// and once Emmrich reciprocated? he was entirely smitten. those walls lucanis fortified after leaving the ossuary? they’re cracking#// & emmrich is seeing the authentic side of a man bereft of affection he forsook
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nothing annoys me more than commenters asking for a new chapter and when i check their profile they have no published works. let me live my fucking life. thanks.
#i haven't written in months! this isn't going to make me write any faster actually its going to make me not write out of spite!#im having a hard time being a person im barely thinking about being a WRITER right now#jesus christ. when will people learn manners. next person that asks this on my multi is going to be sorry they commented#i got a nice comment today tho :)) i appreciate you more than you'll ever know#thea talks
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I love being inside my safe bubble of fandom friends, but it's always jarring to encounter a fandom person NOT from my corner of the fandom and see their hate-rant about a ship that my fandom pals are cool with (even if some of them don't ship it.) like wow i had no idea anyone could loathe a healthy well-written romance with that amount of uninhibited wrath. who hurt you, i'm just curious
anyway shoutout to my mutuals, you guys are so sweet and supportive, you're the best :)
#me: hmm if i'm going to write JFO characters in my medieval au i should probably browse the tag to learn more about the game!#me: *surprise attack throatpunched by merrical hate posts*#me (confused): people... don't... like this ship? people... HATE... this ship??#me (spiteful): *opening the medieval au wip doc* WELL THE JOKE'S ON YOU CAUSE NOW THEY'RE *DEFINITELY* GONNA GET MARRIED IN THIS FIC#i've moved past NOT shipping things due to fandom hate; to shipping things BECAUSE of fandom hate#it's spite shipping and once you get used to the concept it becomes really fun actually#like congrats haters you hated so hard i decided to start shipping a ship that i was previously apathetic to/wasn't invested in
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Now I will probably buy kotarou maghni when he comes out if not just to encourage the planned other vocals although out of all the virvox characters the teens are the least likely to be used very often by me outside of group songs. Now I do selfishly hope the next one announced is akashi because he's my second favourite and I Want His Voice. the bits I've heard of his vp has a lot of nice depth but also some really charming anime-boy-idol type of solidness which id really like using
#watch it be takuto just to spite me. i like takuto hes silly but again i dunno how often id use him outside of group covers#although i am intrigued because his vp does a lot of singing but usually in a totally different voice than his takuto voice#his vp seems to make a lot of indie bl stuff and voice in it all and his voice acting skills are pretty good so im sure itll be good#but i am intrigued#i would prefer akashi most tho. also sourins more voice acted deep old man voice sounds fun#and of course ryuusei. i would be able to make a lot of emo duets with ryuusei#but the a.i.voice2 bank is just about to come out and iirc the vp always has stricter rules about his voice#i think because of his vtuber agency or something i forgor#benbu .............hes in some manner of Japanese intellectual property rights hell so. well. yknow.#i do want these voices tho. i want them. to make my group covers. i want thrm to to sing my idol tunes#i am very excited for takuto voicevox because that means vv humming so i WILL be able to make#my more character-y very bizarre boyband group covers. i just learned a lot about mixing group vocals#im still bad at it but im getter better.... im gonna boybandify them like theyre my dolls
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i dont wanna hear anyone bitch about the frequency with which i upload my comic for a myriad of reasons but one of which being that I essentially post 2-3 pages at once to begin with- like I do not need to make the strips as long as i do but i do it anyways and you're welcome.
#some other reasons are but not limited to:#me having my own life and learning how to take care of myself and my environment which absorbs a lot of my time#me having to help my gma with shit or go over to my moms house in general which is a problem bc i cant exactly bring my giant ass tablet#and desktop with me to work on the comic while im there#im a gardener and plants require way more attention than you think. oh not only am i a gardener but i also grow things from seed#often. LOTS of things from seed. you should see my set up if i werent worried about doxxing. i have so many shelves with lights lol#and seeds more attention than you'd think.#outside of that i'm disabled and often have to take care of myself in that regard#outside of that- plenty of yall dont even actually fucking care and just want to make fun of my passion project bc you cant handle ppl#being genuine. also plenty of yall want to pretend to have reasons to not like it so you want to read into everything and say im saying#shit im not saying and come to wild ass conclusions about my intentions just to paint me as bigoted and if you cant do that you're#gonna pretend you're suddenly a well respected and intellectual art critic and try to make fun of it in that regard when you'd never#even dream of doing that to my abuser on here who's art I would say is way more kindergarten-level than mine.#like if any of you even try it you have to then do the same to them and be fucking fair but something tells me you wouldn't.#you'd hold me to unreasonable standards and praise them for painting with their shit. just like with everything else.#so because i have all of that ^ and plenty of other bullshit to look forward to when i post my comic it also kinda makes it hard to fucking#want to and ive become a lil bitter and spiteful and have been withholding it intentionally in some ways but mostly im busy trying#to heal myself from everyone sucking so much more than i ever thought they could.
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ive had an. Intersting relationship with my aromanticism honestly.
#like i have KNOWN im asexual ever since 5th grade#literally i learned what the term meant and went Oh yeah thats me#i deadass didnt even know what the word lesbian meant at the time#i just knew that described me#but also. i thought at the time that it meant romantic attraction#i was young and didnt rlly understand what the difference was (and i know its very nuanced and hard to distinguish to begin with)#but ever since then i havent even questioned my asexuality. Im sure about that#but ive been soo back and forth on being aro#even to this day i question if i like people platonically or romantically#i start to doubt myself a lot and feel like im faking it and then i hear an allo person talk about what crushes feel like and i realize im#aro again though LOLL#i dont know. My stepmom doesnt think aroace people are real so i am very proud of myself out of spite#especially not aros#im just yapping here. I love being aro and the older i get the more i love it#i am in a romantic relationship with another aroace person and both of us are so confused and i think thats awesome actually#i dont care that i dont feel what people always described as romantic feelings toward others because i can love people in so many other way#if any other confused aros are reading this i love you. we are so cool :)
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The Wizard Spite
(The Wizard, The Witch, And The Wild One Original Character)
The Wizard Spite, an illusionist of The Citadel. When he chose his name cloak, it was not due to his feelings towards the world around him in the current, but more so to how he wanted to feel eventually. An illusionist of the Citadel has little use outside of psychological warfare. But at the core of an illusion is creativity. If you can't imagine what you want to create, then your illusions have no substance. A Minor Illusion is the most basic of cantrips, and really only used to clean up minor details that you don't need to bother with. But only an illusionists would include shading The Wizard Spite showed immense aptitude for learning and memorization. Being able to look at a page of incantations and see it clearly in his mind caused him to get noticed quickly. Passing the required tests, he began tracks to become a wizard. Though it was often noted that he would take notes on the Faunaloges more than the magic theory. His notebooks contained writings and minor sketches of people and objects. Their movements and idiosyncrasies, the clothes and light. Spite assumed he had to be a wizard. It's something people of Citadel aspired to, and what his parents recommended to him. If he is able to, then he should. He didn't know what else he wanted to be either. So becoming a Wizard felt right. When it came time for him to pick a specialization and track, he tried for Conjuration. He hoped that conjuring things would allow him to gain a better understanding of the mechanics of physiology. Though the magical theory around Conjuration ended up not being for him, and he was transferred over to an Illusionist track, one not sought out by many.
An illusionist has two goals when they are casting their spells. 1) To Deceive, Distract, and/or Entertain their target(s). 2) To Study, Analyze, and Observe their Target(s). An illusion's effectiveness increases with knowledge of the target.
Spite knew how to watch people, when he was with his friends he found his mind wandering to how their mouths moved as they spoke, or how eyes move. Those subtle differences in how people react to things is what Spite was best at. In the year he would get his Name Cloak, he initially was going to become The Wizard Scrutinize. Though he then found out exactly what Illusionist do in and outside the Citadel. Fear is a powerful tool, and is held in the Empire's hand. Not often are they called upon to do so, but sometimes a Wizard that has stepped to far out of line needs to have zipped lips. Enchanters and their abilities to Modify memories can only last so long. But the image of their world burning around them lasts forever. He accidentally found this information out, though he wasn't as shaken as he might've thought he would be. After all, this is what he has been trained to do so far, and more yet to come. He knew this was right, wizards are defined by their secrets. If the Citadel let all Wizards and Soldiers speak so freely, then how quickly might everything crumble? When he stood their and chose Spite as his Name Cloak, the meaning was not directed at the world around him, but at the person he would become. Hatred directed towards his future self for what he will do for his Empire. The Wizard Spite lives alone, a man known for his bitterness more than anything else. Once a great artist and entertainer in his 20's, now a drained and bleak individual in his 50's.
#worlds beyond number#Worlds Beyond Number OC#wbn#worldsbeyondnumber#wbn pod#the wizard the witch and the wild one#Am I making a lot of assumptions and head-cannons about the citadel?#of course i am#It doesn't feel entirely wrong to me either#If we learn more about other schools of magic ill change him a bit#But i guess that's for when we learn more about the world huh#Anyways no art of him because i don't really draw#but he has a yellow robes with red accents in my head#Also based on name cloaks being called shots and what not and what was discussed in the world building fireside chat#Spite is a very large and powerful name to live up to#Which i believe he gained more of a sense of magical presence physically as his own Spite towards himself grew#idk if thats described right or if it even makes sense but its a way i imagine it in my head#Also feel free to ask any question you want about him#im still not entirely sure how tumblr works but I think my asks and Dms are open
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