#late night rambles lol

[rell-the-chaotic]

I love tumblr for this reason. I’ll see people with the same thoughts as me and articulate them and out the words right in my mouth. Or I’ll see people articulate those thoughts and present them for everyone to see and think and I’ll be like “man I didn’t even think of it like that.”

tumblr looks at a silly comedy anime about a fake family on the surface but is able to see underneath it and point out the little things whether the author intended it or not. It’s one of the moments you really enjoy being a part of a fandom.

I love that Spy x Family doesn't try to present a solution to war and international conflicts but solutions for living through times of conflict. It encourages us to hold those we care about close, to cherish the relationships we have with other people. It recognizes that most people aren't going to be the heroes that stop the war--and even those people need people they care about. It's not just about how to stop a war, but why peace is so important.

[flamingtoads]

We shouldn't have watched that movie before bed, was the thought that popped into Karen's mind as she followed closely behind her wife out of their bedroom. The floor boards creak as Hen and Karen stops at the end of the hallway. They pause as a large lumpish shadow cast from the kitchen light rushes out of view, followed with what sounded like a clatter of dishes falling together. Karen leaned closer into Hen, "Did you see that?" Hen's hands gripped tightly around the baseball bat, preparing herself for what might be waiting for her in the kitchen. "Sure did."

[galaxymagitech]

When Jason was Robin, he believed in people’s potential for good. Killing is bad because any death is sad. Maybe he’s less broken up about some, but he tries to care, and he manages it. It isn’t that he wasn’t willing to kill—he’d still trade one life for another, or many more—but he’s averse to it, and hesitant to do the actual killing himself. Following Batman’s code is a lot easier when you value life for the sake of life.

But whatever idealistic child survived Jason’s early childhood is now being exposed to all kinds of horrific stories and cases on the streets of Gotham. Anything Batman investigates, Robin investigates. He learns about how evil people are a lot more viscerally, and slowly, he realizes that he can’t save everyone if he is just a good enough Robin. I think the Garzonas case pushed him over the edge. His willingness to kill becomes a belief that killing is sometimes the only way. A bad result to prevent a worse result. He thinks he doesn’t care about scum like Garzonas, but he still does, just a bit. He’s human.

And after his death and the Pit (which Talia and Ra’s canonically suspected took something from him), he lost the ability to care about life itself. He’s borderline sociopathic, at least at first, run by a code rather than actual empathy. He’s a revenant, driven only by his sense of right and wrong. Talia discovers this, and is grateful that there’s at least something left to give Jason direction.

Over time, that empathy returns, and he does find it in himself to care about those he protects, instead of just protecting them because he feels it’s right. But I don’t think he ever regains the capacity to care about those he seems evil. Their lives don’t have value to him anymore.

I, personally, believe that every life has inherent value. But I think Jason has been through so much that he just…doesn’t, anymore.

[bambiraptorx]

Rise au with the whole 'Draxum kidnaps a turtle for nefarious and evil purposes' trope except the gargoyles are super not into it and actively trying to free said turtle

Like maybe they aren't super obviously going against it or anything (especially given the premise of their boss kidnapping a whole ass child and presumably more or less torturing them, he's probably not a guy you necessarily want to confront directly) but they are distinctly not playing along.

Cause the thing is, they've canonically been lying to him since the day he hired them and he presumably never figured that out (he probably would not have kept them around if he had) and they're kinda known for being 'stupid' and messing stuff up, so it wouldn't be all that hard for them to just. Do that on purpose.

For example: Draxum tells them to stop feeding the whichever turtle it is so that he can starve into compliance. A few days later he's like "damn why isn't starving them working" and the gargoyles are just like "oh we were supposed to be doing that? we forgor oopsie :("

or like

Draxum asks them to watch the turtle overnight, and the next morning they're like "oh did you mean keep them in the cage overnight? Cause we just let them out. Yeah for a stretch, a quick little run. Btw you're paying us overtime for that right?"

Draxum's like "well go find them you buffoons" and they're like "okay fine", and then come back half an hour later and are like "good news we figured out how to find the kid fast! we called yokai CPS :)"

[misc-obeyme]

First of all, I’m pretty sure I’d give both my legs to hear Barbatos call me his sacrificial lamb. Like can you imagine him saying it to you just before he goes down on you?

Second, who is this taste tester?? My top guesses are Diavolo, Little D No 2, and Solomon. I would’ve said Luke but let’s be real, Barb loves him too much to make him a test subject. He’d have Luke be a taste tester for something he knows is delicious.

And lastly… “I jest.” I just know that if I spent any time with this man, I would end up talking exactly like him. I’d be saying that instead of “just kidding” to one of the bros and they’d just be like you’re spending too much time with Barbatos again. And I’d say no you’re wrong I’m never spending enough time with Barbatos 😡

[potatoqueenpal]

No, Okay, but do you like Asher cus you like silly golden retriever boys. Or do you like him because you believe you have no purpose in life other than to be the comedic relief for your friends? Is it because you feel like the side character in your own life? Or maybe it's because no matter what you do, you always feel like you'll mess it up? Or is it because you deflect your pain with jokes to prevent your suffering from being somebody's burden?

[cirusthecitrus]

Thinking about the portal incident again How it was never explained what caused the portal to appear, was Light Hope involved, was it someone else or was it wild magic. Was it planned or was it a pure random and luck How it saved Hordak from certain death. How it saved him from Prime How it appeared at the right place at the very right time. And had this happened a day late or anywhere else on the front lines, he most likely wouldn't have survived

How in that moment on the battlegrounds Hordak probably no longer believed he could be saved and just accepted his fate

How he might've as well been mere weeks/days old and his life could've ended before it even began. And he was ready to accept it

How in his mind he might have thought he was dying. And how confused and defeated he must have felt once he realized that he was still alive. That this portal did not kill him, but rather took away his chance at doing something "right", the last chance at pleasing his god. How he might've saw himself as an even bigger failure, because he couldn't even die right

How this sudden brutal separation from Prime and the Hive Mind was necessary and, in retrospect, was the best thing to ever happen to Hordak. How by physically cutting all the ties he had to the Horde and the known universe, some random portal did more to protect Hordak than most people in his life ever did

How Hordak himself viewed his situation not as a miracle but as fate worse than death. How at first he only felt immense pain, fear and grief, like a very young child whom was forcebly taken away from their abusive family. How he did not understand that it was good for him and only wished to return home and see his brother again. How Hordak wasted years of his life trying to find him. How his indoctrination, loyalty and love were stronger even than such powerful magic/technology

How Hordak had no idea what to do with himself at first, for he never thought he would've lasted this long. For he was not meant to live that long. And yet, he no longer welcomed death and once again found will to live. He did not let himself give up this time

How he's been looking for a portal home, hoping that one day it's going to appear again. How eventually, tired of waiting, he decided to create a portal of his own. How it became his life's work

How it was a portal that sent Adora to Etheria, someone who will one day free Hordak and the entire universe from Prime. How, if he wasn't waiting for another portal this entire time, no one would've come for her and Adora could've died on that field. But Hordak was there, and (as best as he could) he took care of someone who ended up in the same situation he was in

How it was a portal that brought Hordak to Etheria, and into Entrapta's lonely life. How they would've never met each other if it wasnt for that incident

How it was a portal that invited Entrapta into his life and helped him connect with a person who will forever change his life. How it was a portal that became a catalist for their friendship (and love)

How the "natural" portal that sent Hordak to Etheria can represent real connections and the painful process of growth and change (seeing new places, meeting new people, trying new things, distancing from harmful enviroment, learning independence, being responsible for oneself and others)

How the "artificial" portal Hordak created himself can represent desire to return to this false safety of the past, where everything was simple and familiar, as well as his desperate wish to rebuild his connection with Prime. A connection that was never there. How it was falling apart from the start, how at first Entrapta was so eager to help her friend succeed, but eventually realized that the portal was dangerous. How in the end it only hurt Hordak and everyone around him

How the portal that appeared "naturally" gave him not what he wanted, but what he needed. A safe place, people who understand him, a chance at better life, his personhood. How, after the "artificial" portal gave him something he thought he wanted, Hordak went back to square one. How, in reality, it only took everything from him

Portals, man...

[birbleafs]

Was going through my screenshots of the Sabzeruz festival again… and out of context, this line is still so on the nose and intentionally written to be absolutely misleading LOL Reality: Kaveh insisting that his relationship with Mehrak is more than just creator and machine/automaton Everyone and their mothers eavesdropping the dirty deets: You mean the Light of Kshahrewar and the Scribe are not just roommates?????

I do have to point out that while the EN subtitles were translated this way to be ambigious for hilarity/fanservice, Kaveh didn't actually use "we" here in the original CN lines. Instead, he said "我和它 / wǒ hé tā" which, translated literally, is "Me and it (Mehrak)". So, there was little doubt that Kaveh was talking about his relationship with someone/something else (Mehrak), not his relationship with Alhaitham. EDITED (10/11/2024) because I'd misheard, Kaveh didn't use "bokura (僕ら)" at all ^^; Uchida speaks so fast as Kaveh sometimes and my listening JP comprehension is fail loool. My apologies for the mistake! In the JP dub, Kaveh uses "we / bokura (僕ら)", which has the same ambiguity as in the EN subs. But what I personally enjoy about the JP dub is how much more casual Kaveh's tone is whenever he's speaking with Alhaitham privately (hence why he used bokura here instead of the polite/formal boku-tachi (僕たち) that he uses in the presence of other people). I managed to find a video with the JP dialogue text and what Kaveh actually said was "僕とあの子の関係は冷たいものじゃない …"

Which I believe reads similarly to CN and roughly means "My relationship with it/that person (Mehrak) isn't cold...". Please don't quote me on this though and do take with a grain of salt lol, because I'm not a translator and I'm not fluent enough in JP (I just understand very, very basic stuff). That said, my initial point still stands, in that Kaveh's tone when he speaks privately with Alhaitham is still pretty casual, at times a bit rougher (even if the words he use remains polite), compared to how much more formal and "proper" he is with other people. Same goes with Alhaitham's tone too—there's always more of a teasing lilt, a slight smugness to his voice when he speaks to Kaveh, and he doesn't sound as stoic or impassive as he usually does. Which is what I personally enjoy about JP dub. It's a small detail but I find the difference in tone a nice way to show their closeness, and how Kaveh doesn't feel the need to put up any fronts or moderate his tone as much when he's alone with Alhaitham. He can simply be himself and speak his mind freely because they already know each other inside out.

[deeply-unserious-fellow]

Something I don't like about a lot of Vox takes I see is that they tend to portray Vox as someone who's unpleasant to work with and has weird ideas about what partnership means when really... he's not? He's not and he doesn't. It's just that two of the most prominent interactions we've seen him have are with Valentino(who is a fucking NIGHTMARE to work with) and Alastor(a man he has undisclosed, deeply emotional history with). But everyone seems to discount his OTHER important relationship: Velvette. Which by all accounts, is INCREDIBLY normal.

Like, yeah, their first interaction opens with her yelling at him, but that's less about Vox himself and more about Valentino. As they keep talking throughout the first bit of the episode, she starts calming down, and they just seem to genuinely get along? She has every right to look upset during Stayed Gone because Vox is being really weird and she's nOT THE ONE WHO ACTIVELY ENCOURAGED HIM TO DO THIS SHIT(staring directly at Val rn), but even then during the meeting after Stayed Gone she does actually. Participate. Unlike s o m e people. Despite being on her phone the whole time(which is literally her job-), she actually pays attention and contributes real ideas! Which tbh she didn't have to do at ALL like she did not have to put up w/ Vox's bs in RKtVS the way she did. There's also their phone call during the overlord meeting which, while I definitely think Vel was playing it up to annoy Carmilla, still sounded like a conversation between two ppl who genuinely like and respect eachother!

No matter what you think their relationship is(romantic, platonic, etc...), Vox and Velvette seem to get along REALLY well(outside of Alastor-related incidents). Like, better than either of them do with literally anybody else in the show. Vox & Val do LIKE eachother, but I find whatever the fuck is going on beneath the after the battles & masterless cattles to be DEEPLY upsetting to think about for too long(ex; any of my other posts abt their relationship), and the only other interactions we've seen either Vox or Vel have are Stayed Gone & Respectless, which are literally just song battles. Both of their only interactions outside of the Vees have been song battles. Aw fuck I'm getting off topic... BACK TO THEIR RELATIONSHIP AS COLLEAGUES- okay uh basically, I don't think they would get along this well if Vox was a terrible person to work with(note I said WORK WITH. Hate that I need to specify this but I don't think Vox is a good person overall, just a good business partner). I think Velvette is generally a good bench mark for both Vox & Valentino's relationships with other characters because she's their equal, their friend, and isn't in a weird toxic relationship with either of them. Their interactions with her provide a window into how they just generally interact with people. And based off of their interactions, Vox seems to be actually pretty decent to work with when he isn't being Actively Provoked for shits and giggles or trying to sooth the tantrum of a man child. Also when he views you as an equal and doesn't own your soul that helps too.

Edit: Hiiiiiiii just here to say that now, in the light of day, I don't really agree with everything I've said in this post? I wrote it at midnight while like half asleep so my ability to consider the fact that. We barely know anything about either Vox or Velvette at this point in time. Was kind of impaired I think. Cuz we really don't. I do stand by everything I said about their relationship to EACHOTHER, and I stand by the idea that we should take that dynamic into consideration for character analysis more often, but everything else I'm a little iffy on and I just woke up like an hour ago so my brains still a little fuzzy & I can't explain exactly WHY I'm iffy on it, but just know that I think the conclusion I drew is a bit of a leap in logic at the very least and I recognize that now lol

[quirinah]

eclipse

[ink-going-insane]

random mystreet and diaries ramble time! specifically about travis!

travis is a really really important character to me. i probably oc-ified him in my mind on accident but iiit's fine probably. but either way he's really special to me with how his character is.

i'll probably end up rambling more about mystreet than diaries because i have more of a personal attachment to ms since that's what i mainly grew up with, so i'm sorry about that in advance ^^;

i'm also. putting it all under a read more because it's gonna get Long. so yea another warning in advance for that!

both in mystreet and diaries, it feels like travis tries to be a sorta comic-relief character at times to get everyone to smile and ignore their troubles. he does really stupid things to distract others from their issues because he's really big on having his friends feel better and happy. he's not the best at communicating at times, but he tries his best by just being weird and getting people to smile. his not too good communication skills do unfortunately cause him to use some of the...tricks he knows at Bad Times (one example being in diaries s2 when lucinda first sees her mother iirc) but he always means well and genuinely just wants everyone to be happy. even in the end of season 6 of mystreet, after everything that happened, the moment he was free and woke up and saw katelyn, he flirts with her in an effort to cheer her up even though they both just went through Hell.

travis is a really selfless character to me. in diaries, with the added s3 enki island lore, travis was essentially fighting a battle that No One There acknowledged. they all thought Travis was the cursed person causing the imps and all that jazz to show and he just. lived with it. he kept saying it was fine when his friends tried to defend him. and then there was the incident in the phoenix alliance island where people were scared of him and iirc he acted like it was fine but it really isn't but aaaaaa. and i'm so so so so happy with his choice after they got enki's relic. his choice to essentially discover himself and live freely without chaining himself down to another burden is something i will forever adore because he deserves it!! and i was so happy he saw that opportunity of freedom, to maybe feel the joy he's been wanting to feel for a long time. i don't know if any of this makes sense i really hope it does.

in mystreet travis's life is more...calm? i guess? there's the child experimentation that happened and then the whole thing of thinking his dad had two different personalities randomly with one of them being Horrible, which actually on second thought my irene does this poor guy still suffer. though we never actually really see any of it and only hear about his father's (well, michael's) negative actions (not including the child experimentation) Twice. once from lucinda talking to kim in s5 and a second time from travis talking to himself in the last episode of s6. he doesn't really talk about himself and instead opts for just vibing in the moment, and doesn’t mind listening to other's troubles.

it's obvious during pdh that he's pretty socially awkward, especially with having dante for a friend. and i think he was his only friend until starting high school where travis met aphmau and the others. like not to be rude but have you Seen dante. guy is a horrible influence. anyway so yea travis wasn't the best at communication, but this is also when he first manages to make someone Smile. he says some really bad pick-up lines to katelyn in s1 in an attempt to cheer her up after her break-up and it gets her to Smile and it distracted her from her troubles and that's when he realized that he can make others Happy with his shenanigans. and so he kept at it, because he wants people and those he cares about to Smile.

oh and quick (not quick i lied) side tangent about the Not Alone Buddies and also travis's role in the story of pdh. aphmau and travis's friendship is so so so special to me. partly because it reminds me of my own friendships vibe-wise, but also because of their special connection. i'm a bit upset that it wasn't expanded upon more during the main mystreet story but it does make a bit of sense since friendships can occasionally drift apart a little bit as you get older so the two of them aren't as close as they used to be. but i still wish they showed more of the closeness that Should Have Been There!! especially in pdh where he was set up to be sorta important! instead of opting for "here's a bunch of scenes with love interests for aphmau that you know aren't going to end up with her and almost nothing else other than strict plot mostly surrounding aphmau and her love interests" they should've had more scenes of her with her friends!!! and travis!!!! and also vylad!!!!!! because they became a trio after he transferred and that literally Never got expanded upon! i don't even think there's another scene of travis with vylad after their first meeting, i genuinely don't remember there being another one At All. maybe one or two? or just none at all and either way that's Bad. and vylad also barely has any proper scenes with aphmau also it hurts. this is a travis post but by extension it's also a Not Alone Buddies post because i love them forever and vylad should've gotten more screentime >:( along with a lot of the other characters they deserved so much more! and it really bothers me that they set up travis to be sorta important at the start of pdh, only to quickly demote him to side character and comedy duo with dante. it really hurts.

in main story mystreet he gets a bit more attention but it's mostly for a comic relief kinda thing at the start. the fact most of his character in s1 got retconned is really funny to me. anyway he gets character development in season 2!! he stood up for himself because katelyn was being Not Nice and i'm so proud of him for it!!! this is also when him being a creep mostly stops iirc so that's nice, but i tend to pretend the creepy scenes Don't Exist in the first place. anyway after that there isn't really much development for him iirc until season 5, though of course there's that nice fun scene in aphmau's year where michael says hello, but he shows up a lot more in season 5 and of course season 6. in s5 it's like "huh i have a weird voice in my head and i suddenly occasionally can't control my actions but surely it must've been me. oh well as long as it makes katelyn happy :)" and like. it's so precious he just wants her to be happy and it hurts knowing michael's intentions and stuff because in both s5 and the start of s6 he just wanted katelyn to smile and be happy and safe so he was okay with letting the weird voice do its thing as long as it helped. it uh. stopped helping after The Incident. but even when he was trapped in his own mind and forced to watch he wanted so badly for it all to stop because he didn't want his friends to suffer. he didn't care what happened to him as long as his friends would be okay, which is why his monologue in the last episode horrifies me. i read a theory that he's going to sacrifice himself to stop the rumored meteor in s7 and something'll cause everyone to forget him and i really really really hope that doesn't happen i hope s7 gives him an actual calming break in the end please.

i'll be honest i...don't know where i was actually going with this post. it just kinda happened. i was alone with my thoughts (bad) and i saw a post with travis on it and just went "travis :)" in my mind and the next thing i knew this wall of text got vomited onto my phone screen. thinking of travis will now be my comfort i guess?? i just think he's neat <3

[lumiilys]

ofmd cancellation is interesting to me because on one hand it made me love the show so much more than i already did but i also miss how i felt before the cancellation. I miss wondering what s3 would look like, i miss looking forward to renewal, i miss looking forward to seeing stede and ed's relationship develop, i miss the pure excitement and happiness (without the twinge of sadness i always get now). But the cancellation also really cemented my love for the show and i probably wouldnt love it quite as much as i do now if it had never happened. hmmmm its strange!

[justwhumpythings]

Listen I know 'ghhhs' is not a verb and I will describe how my whumpee here is screaming properly when I get to that paragraph but sometimes 'ghhh' really is just the only way to describe the animalistic, uninhibited way a noise that comes so deeply from pain and the throat sounds, y'know?

[books-books-smolderinglooks]

Go back to that first time. ❤️

Go back to seeing that first smile, after that look of - are you seeing this?

Back to that first introduction of, I'm Wilhelm even after, we know who the biggest welfare receivers are..

Back to Wille! after I told you to be quiet..

Go back to boiled or grilled? and teasing BFFs..

Back to that first pinky touch, fingers entwined, hopeful looks, vänta vänta vänta and brave, first kisses.. 💙

To hesitations but taking it back! To plans and making it happen, regardless of new developments..

But also to seeing that devastation from the loss of a loved one, to overwhelming stress and dread of new responsibilities..

Go back to seeing immense heartache and despair, leading to bad choices and to Simon, I really like you.. ..all the people are fake. They're made out of metal. But I like you and that is not fake. ❤️

To Wille it's ok. To first times and feeling safe and full of joy.

To golden mornings and looks of - am I really here and has this really happened. To feeling so in love and so happy. 🧡

Back to silly lake dates! To cozy, forgetting names and jumpscares from video game sounds! To finally spending time together alone and having not a care in the world but just being teenagers in love. 💜

Back to seeing how different two peoples' circumstances are but seeing them trying to figure it out. To other factors getting in the way. Back to overwhelming stress and indecision and betrayal of the worst kind.

To jag älskar dig and I hope you have a nice Christmas. Back to heartache but to creating sparks, flaming new feelings of rebellion and finding your way back.. to the most beautiful boy! ❤️💜🧡💙

[becauseplot]

anyway yeah fr i miss ordo theoritas. i miss the theory crafting i miss the hugeass meetings before/after Big Lore Event to brief/debrief everyone involved i miss the chaos and confusion and laughter and teamwork. i miss the cellbit, bad, and phil (key-keepers my beloveds) being the heads of the ordo working together to untangle the mysteries to the island. they were hardly ever on at the same time bc schedules and time zones (WAILS) but in my head they had so many late nights down in the evidence rooms like this

just. yeah. yeahh.

[misc-obeyme]

Finally started my OG reread & wow I forgot how much Levi rambles about TSL in the first lesson. It’s adorable.

He kept going but I got tired of taking screenshots lol. Look how happy he is. And then he gets all serious.

But I have a question. Actually I have two questions.

Levi says Christopher Peugeot is a human. When does he find out that it’s Simeon? I can’t remember, but I’m sure I’ll find it as I keep going.

Also do you think Simeon chose the name of a car company on purpose? Or was it more like he decided to use a French last name & didn’t know about the cars? And if he was trying to be French why not use Christophe??

Okay that was like four questions. Most likely there is no such deeper meaning but the curiosity is strong in me lol.