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loosesodamarble · 10 months ago

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Tis me again! My thoughts are empty except this one scene.

His baby: staring at Nacht.

Nacht: what?

His baby: I don't know.. you have pretty eyes and..

Nacht: and?

His baby: I like admiring the man I fell in love with. Gives him a kiss.

Nacht: cuteness and emotional overload

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His demon: trying so hard not to move or make themselves known because nacht won't let them out alive if they break the moment.

P.s. - Should I take a symbol for anon so you know it's me?

Nacht's eyes really are suuuuuuupeeeeeerrr pretty!

They're that eerie, icy blue that pierces your soul when he stares at you with an unfriendly look. But the pale blue shade also makes me think of forget-me-not flowers. Now the flower's color can vary depending on soil and other growing factors I hear, but generally they are pretty light in hue.

I like the idea of Nacht thinking his eyes are this cold and lifeless color. And then his lover coming in and showing him blue flowers that match his eyes, reminding him that he's actually very soft and beautiful, like the plants.

Yajndfiuashrhasr! What I would give to be Nacht's lover so I could kiss him and tell him that I admire him! AAAHHHHH!

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P.S.: If you want an emoji/symbol or nickname to indicate yourself, you can always pick one for yourself.

#questions from the ask box #awesome anons #soda asides #nacht faust #i'd also like to point out that nacht lacks a light spot in his eyes #something similar is seen with the dark triad #patry when he goes dark elf mode #and nero when she regains her human form #i think the third eye members also lack eye lights prior to their redemption #either way devil influence or dark intentions are all over the place with characters lacking eye light #again sorry it's taking a while to respond to the asks #last week wasn't good to me

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marigraphia · 1 month ago

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I've had this pose ref saved for a while and the Superman set photos just gave off the same energy 👉🏻👈🏻

The reference is this photo of Katharine Hepburn as Antiope and Colin Keith-Johnston as Theseus in the 1932 play 'The Warrior's Husband' (and I'd love for people to turn into a draw your otp meme pls pls pls this pose is so good)

And also, of course, the Superman (2025) set photos

#superfamilyweek #superman #dcu #clois #lois lane #clark kent #i was actually gonna post this a few days ago but then i found out about the superfamily week #it wasn't made for it but i hope you can accept this humble offering even if it doesn't really fit the prompts #art #digital #fanart #live-action #dc #regular #final #colour #this actually from june when the set photos came out and i just got completely obsessed and went into a clois haze #it all looks so good though!! the whole thing!!!! i'm vibrating with excitement just thinking about it!!!!!!!#if this film isn't good i'm gonna be sooo disappointed you guys have no idea how much i'm looking forward to it #but anyway. ART RAMBLES: as i mentioned on the tags of my last drawing this piece gave me SUCH a headache #i think it's probably cos it was just supposed to be a quick sketch so i used a more stable pencil brush #but then i really liked it so i decided to properly colour it instead of just doing the watercolour thing i usually do for sketches #but with finished pieces i like the lineart to be kinda messy and the sketch to even show through bit #and since i used the more stable brush for the sketch it ended up looking WAY too clean. not like my stuff at all.#so i just started throwing stuff at the wall to see what could make it more interesting. full background! actual lineart! texture layers!#and this here is what i was the happiest with. i don't... love it though. it should be looking way more interesting given the pose #and then i also did the purge girl halfway through this and it looked SO good right out of the bat (pun intended)#so i went a bit into a spiral. did some realistic stuff i'll post soon. and now am trying out a thick black lineart style.#(i'll definitely still use the coloured lines for the sketchy watercolour stuff though. it just looks way too cute)

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myreia · 7 months ago

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— v. raison d'être

It was never going to last. They knew it from the beginning, all of them. Their time in the First was temporary, fleeting. For some, that would have been enough to give pause, to keep distance. For them, it made these moments all the more precious—even when it was difficult, even when it was unfair. Ryne knows they are both proud of her. That will never change, even when they live in separate worlds. It is a bittersweet thing to say goodbye, to close one chapter and begin the next. But change is necessary, a fundamental aspect of life. There is no sense in clinging to the past when the future—with all its countless possibilities—lies ahead. There is no looking back. Only forwards.

#ffxiv #final fantasy 14 #ff14 #gpose #gposers #warrior of light #thancred waters #ryne waters #wolcred #wolcred week #aureia malathar #oc tag #myreia screenshots #aurcred 2024 #not me putting Aur in scouting gear and then giving her a rdm weapon 😔... which you can barely even see LOL #ryne looks like she's almost the same height as aur because of the angle but she's really not 😭#she's! so! tiny!!!!#anyway i don't think this is an actual scene or anything it's just - an impression of how they are at the end of 5.3.#i tried making this dreamlike and hazy but idk if it worked i regret having too much DOF and blurring out the stars #this is more ryne's POV than either of theirs - aureia's the one who can stay he's the one who has to leave #there's grief in that acceptance and it's bittersweet but it's also happy in a way #anyway aur and thancred's individual relationships with ryne is the glue of their relationship in shb #i don't think they would have gotten past their issues if not for her #what they have at the end of 5.0. + start of eden gives them a couple months of feeling like a normal family #joke's on them they're not normal nothing is normal the more they try to make things normal the more it's going to crash #the moment of reprieve was good but it was a bit of a fantasy and it wasn't going to last #urianger is here in spirit I'M SO SORRY HE SHOULD BE HERE HE'S PART OF THIS TOO 😭#i was too sleepy to pose a 4th character rip #urrrgghhh anyway i have so much to say about how lakeland is Aureia's home now and it's Ryne's home too but he can't be there byeeeeee 🙃#shadowbringers spoilers

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azaracyy · 5 months ago

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"true partner" click here for the uquiz created by @/niconicomuda on twitter

#morphomon #digimon #this was trending on twt a good few weeks ago #ofc me being me i wasn't there and only learned abt it bc a friend dm'd me about it lol #anyway i am very happy to get morphomon. though...#advanced apology for personal irl rambling that may be tmi ahead. and cw: death of family member #so like. i feel it turns out to be some life foreshadowing bc around a week later (which is last week btw) my maternal grandma passed #idk about u but if you know the symbolism of butterfly and morpho particularly. it's about change and rebirth and all that stuff #the funeral home we spent a few days in had the morpho butterfly as its logo. i couldn't stop thinking about it #so despite the sadness it's like idk. a tiny bit of hope i guess?#my grandma won't have to be in pain anymore #all the stuff is done by last saturday so everyone's back to their normal lives like it or not #still grieving a bit while at the same time being kinda ok. well it is how it is...#png #gif

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kirby-the-gorb · 1 year ago

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#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #I don't think I mentioned at the time because it was in the middle of kirb2k #but I had an appointment with a hematologist last week #they confirmed the culprit behind my chronic illness is definitely my mast cells #but I need to get a bone marrow biopsy next month to find out #if it's actually not-technically-autoimmune (mcas)#or if it's actually not-technically-cancer (mastocytosis)#which is actually good news cuz 1 someone finally confirmed my nearly 6 year old hypothesis instead of just agreeing (or disagreeing)#and 2 if it *is* mastocytosis they're gonna start medicating me A Lot more aggressively :)#which I need! I've been sick for right about 8 years now but it's gotten rapidly worse in the past 1-1.5 years #so clearly I'm badly under-medicated #(since I've been on all the same meds for 2 years except for my own emergency intervention.)#(I mean technically I've been chronically ill my whole life it just wasn't disabling until early 2016)#anyway I'm so tired I feel like a ragdoll half the time! sure hope I get adequate medication in a couple months!

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pineapplefulfillseveryneed · 7 months ago

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Knowing less about us is probably better for the mythology. You know, like 'What the hell is going on with those guys?' I like that.

- Russell Mael, 2008 (from Talent Is An Asset - The Story of Sparks by Daryl Easlea)

#this quote is making me mortally sorry that I've got a public blog XD #though I think the more people know about them they're either going to say this more - or they're going to be like 'yep. those are my guys.#plus there's the documentary now and we all know that many people thought it wasn't about a real band which proves that point :')#anyway I guess we need to spread a few more lies here and there.#cryptid sparks #russell mael #sparks #quote #(I am enjoying this book quite a bit. If everything in it is true I can't know but I am having a good time)#(had that book for about 11 years now. only just started last week :') I am terrible at reading books.)#talent is an asset - the story of sparks #sparks book #daryl easlea

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fratboykate · 5 months ago

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Papi, are you alive? Thunderbolts trailer leaked and we got Hailee back from the dead (and there's the movie with Andrew and Florence and its KYAU coded as fuck) Kate and Yelena content galor this week. PLEASE COME BACK. We've been deprived for a year. It's been jail for too long. Grace us with Kate x Yelena content again. Pretty please.

*taps mic* Is this thing on?

#i don't even know what compelled me to open this again tonight but this is a funny message to get today #man it really has been two weeks short of a year #hi #life has been.........interesting lol #and yes #I have seen all of the kate x yelena content and if you don't think I have fifteen million new AUs in my head in a year you don't know me #also like 59 new clexa AUs #my brain is my brain #just because I wasn't here doesn't mean writing wasn't gettimg done #man WHAT A YEAR lol #but I'm glad y'all even care what I have to say about anything lol #I got an email a few weeks about that this blog turned 18 #like a 'happy birthday to your blog' or some shit tumbrl email #and nothing has ever made me feel older #this blog is old enough to vote lmao #and I had a tumble before I just deleted and started fresh #I've been on this hellsite too long #anyway...Papi has been through Some Shit #some GOOD some almost legit killed me #the last four months have been...SOMETHING #but I'm here I'm gay and I've never stopped coming up with AUs #for clexa or bishova #I was just...doing life #rants #anonymous #answers

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ihamtmus · 4 months ago

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#there's a flood coming to my city 😬#the wave is supposed to hit tomorrow at night #i'm a bit worried?#they say it's gonna be similae to 1997 #which is. not good.#everyone at work was panicking which did not help #they said the water is almost sold out in shops #and i couldn't go to the shop to buy it because i was. at work.#so i messaged my dad and he bought some for me and he'll drive over to bring it to me #his town doesn't have a big river so you can still buy water there lmao #i asked him to buy me some non perishable food like rice crackers while he was at it too #and now i'm scared that he and my mom will buy out the entire shop and i'll have to eat those things for months 😬#they can be like that sometimes haha #yeah they most definitely will bring over the whole car full of food what do i do 😭#anyway my main concern is the lack of electricity because the stupid stove in this flat doesn't use gas ;_;#gotta charge the powerbanks 💪#people are also worried that we'll go to work tomorrow and then it'll turn out the road is flooded and we'll have to stay at work overnight #lmaoooo why won't the company just give everyone the week off?? (because of capitalism)#my sister has a two months old baby and she is leaving the city tonight to stay with our grandma #they do need clean water for the baby and the government recommended the children and the elderly to evacuate #i'd evacuate myself if it wasn't for my work 😭 (capitalism)#aghhh i'm sure it's not gonna be that bad #it's just my first flood you see #well technically the second one because i was born in 1997 hahaha but yeah. yeah.#i do like my warm meals and hot tea and i do like to shower #i do hope it'll last 2 days max!! but a friend says it can last longer depending on the damage ;_;#i know i can't really complain because i at least live on the 5th floor #my sister lives on the first floor. right by the river. yeah...#not to mention the people in surrounding villages #someone at work said that the water reached the third floor in some places in 1997 wtf 😭

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longagoitwastuesday · 4 months ago

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I have learnt things about Geto that I wish I could unlearn

#I think I'm getting about the same amount of spoilers as a few weeks ago except now I understand them #But like. I expected so much of him #Seeing gifs of that one scene in which Gojo gets distracted because of Geto almost made me watch this a year ago #Geto was actually my favourite character in that one JJK fanfic I read that I mention so often even if he had literally one scene #I know so much of the emotional turmoil and conflict in JJK and Gojo in particular depends on him #And you're telling me he's Thanos?#I learnt a few days ago that everything pretty much happens in one year. That there's one year between Geto's death and Gojo's #I thought it would be like ten years. Ten years of the act haunting him #But no? So it's not a broken teenager who has these ideas and is killed by another teenager to stop him?#It's a what? ~30yo man saying Light levels of stupidity? Even worse perhaps?#Goodness I hope this is not so. I hope this is better written than what I am seeing #Because goddammit I can't do it. It would kinda ruin every emotional scene from then on?#That one scene I was so looking forwards about patting Gojo's back or whatever. The one in which Gojo gets distracted. It just. I don't know #I won't be able to be moved if Geto doesn't work xD #I was fearing I wasn't going to like him a lot because my expectations were big but oh my god please not like this #This is way worse than I expected. Someone tell me he actually makes sense. What's the point of this whole political play #in which no one is fully wrong and no one is totally right otherwise? What is the point of the haunting. This feels just idiotic xD #And I don't care about the traumas and all that. That works for the teen not the ~30yo man #It would have worked if Gojo would have killed him like 1-2 years after everything not like a few months ago. Last winter #After like ten years a 30yo man should have realised this plan sucks.#Even if it's utilitarian. Who is going to make clothes? Buildings? Streets and railways? Bread??? Go have a talk with Nanami please #We have been told there are not a lot of jujutsu sorcerers. How are you going to fulfill all those needs out of nothing?#And even if it were little by little so the needs could be getting fulfilled little by little too #If you decimate humans won't that cause more curses? I guess he's thinking on the long run but still this plan seems like a mess #I hope it makes more sense than it's looking it will make because of my god this would truly be the last nail on the coffin xD #I am being more and more tempted to get to Utahime and then just drop this. This is breaking my heart xD #It could be soooo good and it always almost is #And then. AND THEN. Abfksbfndbfkan #Jen pick me up. Come solve this. I am scared xD #I talk too much

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lesamis · 3 months ago

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is there an opposite of nostalgia where you remember sth as worse than it actually was in order to stop yourself from missing it so much it dissolves you like a wet straw wrapper

#whatever that's called it's me with my MA #like if you offered me a fun and cushy well paid job in london now i'd seriously have to think about it bc like. ugh yknow #but i read my 2018/19 journal yesterday and i mean. what the fuck.#every day's like ''read 2 books and went to 5 museums. met [person i don't know i will come to love till i die yet] they seem nice :)''#i don't know how that period was so charmed but my god #it really WAS beautiful and good and special. it was better than i remembered last time i was in london.#everyone in class had my exact brand of brainworms. every friendship was the most intense thing ever. ppl liked me and i wasn't even trying #every week they'd make me read ten works of world literature and it fucking ruled #like even if goldsmiths hadn't gutted their literature department since then this wouldn't be replicable idk it was a different dimension

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cemeterym · 4 months ago

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i'm begging my uni to stop making every fucking student social activity something where you have to walk around a bunch if you are a slow walker who cannot help it they literally want you dead

#i try to walk as fast as i humanly can. which i shouldn't bc it hurts and makes me dizzy. and i'm still slower than everyone else #last week we divided into groups and had to walk to checkpoints around the city to do tasks #i had a friend in my group who knows abt my issues and they walked slower with me which was nice. everyone else walked like 10 20 meters #ahead and it was fucking embarrassing bc for every checkpoint they had to wait for me #and i felt bad my friend couldn't talk to anyone else in the group bc they were zooming way ahead of us and i'm the one who couldn't keep up #and like. they didn't know my body's fucked. but these are people i do not know well at all and maybe i don't wanna disclose my medical #history to everyone i interact with #and like this event wasn't mandatory. i could've skipped it #but it's every fucking time #most nights we end up going to a bar and to these people “walking distance” is like a half an hour. and they walk fast #i can never keep up #i don't reallu enjoy bars either and i don't drink but you just kinda have to endure to socialize. some days i can't handle it tho #this week there's another checkpoint type activity. i know i shouldn't. i know i'm gonna slow everyone down #but i got specifically asked and invited to be a part of a team. i can't remember the last time that happened #also we're doing a group costume and mine includes platform heels on the streets of a very old city i am so cooked #my friend is nice tho. they know the basic lore and check up on me a bunch which always catches me off guard 😭#i'm used to pushing through and also used to people not really taking my shit into consideration so i don't know how to respond sometimes #2 people in the group know the issues and i just sent the gc a “sorry in advance i can't walk very fast” so like what else is there to do #only accessibility info we're ever given is if it's wheelchair accessible. and that's good. like you should do that. but it kinda ends there #like how much walking is there. where are the stops. are there places to sit.#i love having to either push through or be excluded disabilities are awesome #been in soooo much pain lately and have to take breaks walking uphill. functional body #i live in an area where everything. literally everything. is uphill one way or another. so as you can imagine it's going great #also “you have to endure to socialize” as if i don't end up hovering around my friend like a lost puppy with separation anxiety anyway #the group costume is winx club. btw

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oncominggstorm · 4 days ago

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My aunt decided a good way to wish me a happy birthday would be to text me a picture of me & my dead dad from my 22nd birthday.

Like yay thanks, I totally wanted to be sad and missing my dad on my birthday. I definitely wasn't trying to do the "out of sight out of mind don't think about sad things" thing to get through it without crying or anything 👍 Definitely wasn't already struggling missing not getting a happy birthday text from him 👍👍

#and like I get that her intentions were good but i find it SO rude #why would you bring up something heart wrenchingly sad to someone on their birthday? Unless they've indicated to you that they want that #it wasn't even like it was a new picture/one she could reasonably believe I hadn't seen before #we literally used a cropped version of that exact photo for his obituary #she has done something similar with EVERY SINGLE holiday since he died #fathers day & his birthday & thanksgiving & christmas all of them we got texts like “i know how hard today must be!”#like uh no i was doing fine til I got your text actually cuz I was blocking it all out & now your text has forced me to think about it #we're not even that close? Like she legit had never texted me before my dad died #and the last conversation I had with her was her telling me that me needing help with things was co-dependence #rather than a legit need because I am disabled #and that keeping my curtains closed all the time was unhealthy #and when I tried to explain sensory issues she said that she 'gets headaches from the sun sometimes too but you just have to power through'#as if that's the same thing as sensory issues from autism #(which she is apparently an expert on because she is a nurse and has worked with a few young boys with autism)#like literally she claimed she knew better than my actual doctor who diagnoses autism for a living #or my therapist who sees me twice a week (whereas i speak to my aunt MAYBE once a year)#oh also did you know that I should totally be able to hold down a full time job?#because the 18 year old autistic boy she knows whose parents do literally everything to support him and who has zero other responsibilities #and a huge support network trying to meet his needs #well HE'S able to work part time at the movie theater #so obviously that means that I should be able to work too because we're all the same #yeah anyway sorry rant over #it just really upset me #also because I was so upset I forgot I wanted to go to the park on my way home from the weed store 😔#beth posts

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eschynite · 4 months ago

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Maybe I'm projecting and being hopeful but I mentioned to M that I don't even get to shit by myself in peace lmao and I feel like something clicked for him. Bc I was like hey, at least you get private bathroom breaks at work (noncombative). And since then he's been a lot more acquiescent when I ask if I can nap and stuff

#he's never rly said no he just used to be like 'well whaf if i want to nap' like in the early parenting days #which evolved into 'yeah i guess'-type responses #lately he's more like 'yeah!' like his tone is less. whatever it was before #same with any requests i make in general like if he'll put e down for bed and stuff #idk my weird episode epiphany thing i went through last week has me feeling much less patient and self-questioning #it's just a fact that constantly asking myself if i'm being considerate enough of others has done nothing for me #like it hasn't even improved my relationships.. i don't really have any lol #like i'm done biting my tongue bc idk if i've properly considered their perspective.. i end up blowing up at minor things as a result anyway #like it makes me a worse partner fr #i also really feel like i've been putting daggers thru my own spirit by doing this for so long #like i need to stop troubleshooting my existence like 'what if i conform this way' 'what if i conform that way'#here's what if: you will be profoundly unhappy and no one who you love will truly know you #this is such a tangent off what i started talking about but basically i'm done reflexively wondering #every time i feel wronged disrespected etc. if actually i'm the one in the wrong. it really is reflexive #the way m's mom responded to me setting a boundary was a wake up call like apparently she just read into what i was saying too much #so hypothetically it wasn't the boundary she was angry about but how she thought i set it #but like i don't have any time for you if my extremely sincere and straightforward communication isn't good enough for you #like i'm not going to be understanding of your inability to take me at face value we didn't both fuck up. You did #and that's how i'm going to act. like You fucked up. yk

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healerqueen · 7 days ago

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#our tentative christmas eve dinner never materialized #because my mom needed to focus on making christmas happen tomorrow - she does so much #but instead we ended up having several wonderful times all together in the kitchen laughing today - which is amazing #I am so grateful to be home with my family this year #because I wasn't the last two years #and until this year there was so much stress in our home that it was unbearable - now there's stress outside but peace inside #and I'm home - and home is home again - in some ways more than it's been in a lifetime #I have cried with thankfulness a few times #God is so good and he has brought me back - when i thought i had lost my home forever #I suddenly realized all this last week in the middle of a video with the song “I'll Be Home for Christmas”#and started outright crying right then and there in front of my computer - and later again when praying at bedtime #I had multiple good conversations with my siblings today and yesterday #and did crafts with my sister #and had fun times and talks with another sibling #which was especially meaningful given some things that have happened lately #it was so good to laugh together #christmas #life #my life #thankfulness #grateful #thankful #God is good and he has answered many prayers #together #family

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justalittlebluetiefling · 4 months ago

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I haven't been involved with coaching for almost 3 months now and somehow I am still getting dragged into the drama.

#personal #move back to your small hometown they said #it'll be fun they said #me chanting over and over again:#if you live here you get to see your family all the time #(this is a good thing for me i love my brother and his family)#dude honestly this whole thing is just hilarious at this point #anyway newest drama is that one of the parents thinks it's suspicious that i 'quit' the same time my best friend moved away #the shit that is being said about us right now??? fucking wild #i haven't told any of those kids why i really left because they don't need me to be gossiping about their current coach to them #that would be so unprofessional of me #i say like she wasn't spreading rumors about me to THEM directly last year #we are all in our 30s here why are we acting like fucking teenagers still #i'm about to be real petty when i go visit next week though #'oh my god you won't believe what i heard crystal is telling people at her salon'#to the coach not the kids lol #i have a sneaking suspicion that the she is involved in this gossip in an adjacent way not directly #and i want her to think about the shit she says before she says it #she's mad that i don't want to coach jv when i told her multiple times i don't want to run my own program #and that i'd be happy to help her out as an assistant coach but that having to deal with parents is my worst actual nightmare #see what's happening right now #literally the only reason i applied is because i love those kids and they were all freaking out about my friend leaving #because they thought their current coach was also going to be leaving #and i was like hey i won't leave you guys don't worry #it's her fault that she chose not to include me in any of her brainstorming for next year #if she really wanted me to be involved she would have been talking to me about it back in april #i'm literally barely pulling myself out of my grief hole about losing coaching #and i could have stayed around but i would have been miserable #because it wouldn't have been in the capacity that i really wanted #oof okay i feel a little better after venting a bit

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fuckspn · 8 months ago

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i have nothing funny or clever or insightful to say. cas told dean he loved him and then he died.

#the fuckspn rewatch #i'm so.#listen i am not in spn hyperfixation mode i have been kind of slogging through the last few weeks of this watch #and so i worried the love confession wasn't gonna hit the way i wanted it to #but folks let me tell you. it hit. my god did it hit. quite literally started tearing up towards the end #also fuck OFF that whole speech is so romantic actually?? it's one thing reading the words or hearing fragments in amvs #but actually watching the whole thing in context start to finish is like. oh my god cas is IN LOVE with dean.#people who think it's platonic are quite literally just stupid and not just because of the 'the one thing i want i can't have' thing #it's just start to finish so obviously achingly romantic and misha clearly played it that way #(side note: misha's acting is actually... really good in that scene?? like i'm kind of obsessed with his line deliveries)#(the speech could easily come across incredibly clunky but he made it sound very easy and natural)#'i have nothing to say' she says and then proceeds to write a fucking novel in the tags lmao

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